#the other person is being abt something at a given moment is possibly an ideal and the most respectable form of tumblr mutualship

[rpfisfine]

i softblocked the wrong person (u) and made u unfollow me forgive me......

ITS OKAY!!!!! i forgive u i dont mind at all ^______^ <3333333

[100percentdirtball]

07 and 18 for ominous?

7. okay i don’t talk about this often bc it’s not possible a) socially b) legally c) practically but honestly? after i die in an ideal world i’m cremated, my bones are ground, and my remnants are used somehow in cooking. i’ve given a lot of thought to how exactly they would be prepared, but ideally they wouldn’t impart a lot of texture//taste, as far removed from cannibalism as possible for both yuck reasons and culinary reasons. 

i find something infinitely appealing abt the idea that my body would be shared among the people that i love, that i would live on in some strange way inside them; the food that you eat becomes a part of you, helping to rebuild tissue and bone and blood. there’s a very strange intimacy there that i’ve never been able to stop thinking about, even tho it’s both impossible and impractical and honestly just a little bit crazy? having my remains shared among the ppl that are most important to me as part of funeral rites, mayb while ppl talk about me some or read some of my writing, would bring me no end of satisfaction

my other notion is also deeply impractical as society is currently structured, but i basically believe that graveyards shouldn’t exist. there’s this whole thing in A Pattern Language–probably my very favorite book to ever exist–about how both birth and death have been utterly sanitized and removed from public life; birth is treated as a sickness, a medical condition that must be treated and managed in which the primary focus is on returning the person who has given birth to a state of productive normalcy. this is starting to change, with the advent and repopularization of birthing centers and doulas, but death is still treated as such. here i’ll just quote from the book:

“No people [ed: “people” here in the sense of “culture” or “society” not “person” ] who turn their backs on death can be alive. The presence of the dead among the living will be a daily fact in any society which encourages its people to live.” 

removing death from the fabric of life, relegating the dead to impersonal cemeteries, and bringing a taboo of death such that we are even afraid to speak of it to children all contribute to a fear of life. death should be seen as a healthy part of living–we should fight death with all the strength we can muster for as long as it’s tenable to do so, but we must also be deeply aware and deeply empathetic of and to the grieving process. for this reason, A Pattern Language recommends that “scattered grave sites” are reintroduced into public life; they recommend that all parks and public spaces, with sections of paths and gardens, be allowed to contain small patches of graves, or even individual graves. people should be interned in places they are meaningful to them, and in easily accessible places that are interwoven with the spaces that people naturally exist in, both strangers and close friends and relatives. 

if i’m to be buried, i’d like to be buried under this one live oak tree in ramsey park; i’ve experienced a lot of really important things there, from my childhood all the way up to the last few years. i always recommend my friends and loved ones go there when they have a spare moment, and after my death i’d like them to have a tangible memory of me when they do.

wow that was more than i was expecting to write.

18. yes, yea. deeply. recently i’ve been dreaming a lot of being a college professor, teaching literary criticism in a small community college. i have dreams about assembling syllabi, introducing myself on the first day of class, and grading papers. sometimes they’re stressful, but not stress dreams, and mostly they just feel comfortable and right.

the nightmares that recur are about different subject matters, but the theme is the same. it’s a little snippet, something relatively mundane. waking up in my bed and looking around my room, going go-karting, eating in a restaurant. something sometimes familiar, or sometimes unfamiliar. the first iteration is normal, just an accurate representation of a normal activity. then the dream repeats, and repeats, and repeats, for ten or twenty or thirty iterations, and every time the fabric of reality degrades slightly. people behave just a little more strangely, or weird visual artifacts are introduced–colors flicker, people and voices appear distorted, time and space stretches and warps, objects clip through each other or detach from euclidean space entirely. by the end it’s just distorted masses of colors and sounds and flesh, my body unrecognizable as myself or even as human, over and over and over. 

it’s not fun.

[frankencomplex]

hc - mbti

          god I already know this is gonna get so fuckign long bc i’m a huge nerd and can never shut up abt personality analyzation. on tht note , if anyone ever wants to talk mbti or just have me overanalyze ur muse’s personality..... hmu bc i physically cannot shut up abt it

charles is an intp ! i’ve probably said this before & it’s like weirdly integral to my portrayal of him ( or at least gives a lot of insight into it ) so for those of you who don’t know what mbti is at All , it’s a personality typology theory that divides human personalities into four categories : introverts / extroverts , intuitives / sensors , thinkers / feelers , and judgers / perceivers. therefore , charles is an introvert intuitive thinker perceiver , or if you want to get real deep & use cognitive function theories , he uses Ti ( introverted thinking ) , Ne ( extroverted intuition ) , Si ( introverted sensing ) , and Fe ( extroverted feeling ) in that order. 

if you read about the basic characteristics of an intp , the personality type ( sometimes nicknamed “ the logician ” ) is known for being “ philosophical innovators, fascinated by logical analysis, systems, and design. They are preoccupied with theory, and search for the universal law behind everything they see. They want to understand the unifying themes of life, in all their complexity. ” source 

the description above is charles to a T , and i’ll explain why ! he’s a huge introvert. by no means does he gain energy from social gatherings , and he’s far more content to explore the contents of his own mind than to explore the minds of others. he’s an intuitive , which means he’s more concerned with abstract , unconventional ideas , and can be quite detached from the world around him , while a sensor would be focused on reality and their concrete senses. he’s metaphorical , dreamy , non - traditional , and unfocused ( though that is not solely an N trait ). he’s a thinker , which means he relies on logic & facts more than his own feelings or the feelings of those around him. lastly , he’s a perceiver , meaning he prefers to work at his own pace without rigid structure , and prefers open endedness over set plans and commitments.

I know that’s a lot , but it makes a lot of sense when you read about it. now , to get deeper , mbti is supported by the theory of cognitive functions ( Ti > Ne > Si > Fe for charles as I mentioned earlier ). the whole idea is that every personality type uses a “ function stack ” of different modes of thinking / interacting with / viewing the world , and there are four predominant functions per type that are all accessed at decreasing levels of development. the first function is the most developed , the last is the least. so , without further ado , here’s charles’s personality type explained by his four functions. i’ve taken the most useful parts of the article on the following website. source

INTPs’ Dominant Function: Introverted Thinking (Ti)

Ti involves the application of logic and reason for the sake of understanding a given situation, system, or problem. INTPs use Ti to bring structure and order to their inner world, granting them a strong sense of inner control. Inwardly, INTPs are highly self-disciplined, working to effectively manage their thoughts and their lives. The disciplined nature of their Ti compels INTPs to frame many things as a goal or challenge. These challenges may be physical (e.g., trying to achieve an ideal state of health or fitness), intellectual, practical, psychoemotional (e.g., becoming self-actualized), or later in their development, interpersonal (e.g., “perfecting” a relationship or becoming a skilled lover). In order to succeed in these personal challenges, INTPs are apt to impose rules on themselves. However, because of the wayward influence of their auxiliary Ne, they commonly end up breaking or sabotaging them.

INTPs are also less interested in working with facts than with ideas. Jung writes: “His ideas have their origin not in objective data, but in his subjective foundation.” INTPs are constantly digging into the background of their own thoughts in order to better understand their origins and to ensure their thinking is founded on solid reasoning. They see it pointless to try to build theories on a dubious conceptual platform.

INTPs often find it easier to identify inconsistencies or logical shortcomings—to assert what is not true—than to identify and confidently assert what is true. They can quickly locate inconsistencies or logical shortcomings in a given theory or argument. They excel when it comes to identifying exceptions or imagining scenarios in which the proposed explanation could breakdown. Due to their sensitivity to theoretical exceptions, they can be quick to throw theories and start from scratch. INTJs, by contrast, seem less deterred by ostensible exceptions, perhaps feeling that they will eventually be explained or otherwise rectified.

When functioning constructively, INTPs, like INFPs, often employ a trial-and-error sort of approach to building their theories and ideas. INTPs start with a given (Ti) and then use their auxiliary Ne to explore various connections and possibilities. They also integrate past experiences and acquired knowledge through their tertiary Si. It is usually only after years of toying with ideas that something resembling a systematic and coherent theory may start to emerge.

INTPs’ Auxiliary Function: Extraverted Intuition (Ne)

INTPs use Extraverted Intuition (Ne) as their auxiliary function. Ne can function either perceptively or expressively. The verbal expression of Ne amounts to something like “brainstorming aloud.” When orating, INTPs may not always seem to “have a point” as they haphazardly drift from one idea to the next. Even ideas that seem inwardly logical and sensible INTPs may suddenly sound incoherent when they attempt to convey them through their Ne.

In its receptive role, Ne prompts INTPs to gather information. It goes beyond or looks behind sense data, allowing INTPs to discern otherwise hidden patterns, possibilities, and potentials. Their Ne is constantly scanning for relationships or patterns within a pool of facts, ideas or experiences. INTPs commonly use this receptive side of their Ne in activities such as reading, researching, and conversation. They enjoy asking questions that allow them to gain insight or knowledge from others, making INTPs good facilitators of conversation.

INTPs may also use their Ne to sniff out intriguing possibilities. They commonly enjoy and assume the role of wanderer or seeker, rarely knowing in advance exactly what they are seeking.

Ne also confers an open-mindedness, helping INTPs see truth on both sides of an issue without forming unwarranted judgments or premature conclusions. More specifically, their Ne can be seen as contributing to their openness to alternative or Bohemian lifestyles. INTPs are those most likely to suddenly become vegetarians, join a commune, or decide to live out of the back of a van. They are drawn to the idea and challenges of an unconventional lifestyle.

Like other NPs, INTPs often have a love-hate relationship with their Ne. They love the fact that it helps them remain open-minded and grasp the bigger picture. But living with Ne also has its challenges. For one, it can make it difficult for INTPs to arrive at firm conclusions or make important decisions. It often seems that at the very moment they are feeling good about a given conclusion or decision, their Ne steps in and causes them to start doubting it again. This has obvious implications for INTPs who are trying to find their niche in the world. This can leave them feeling discouraged and restless, worried that they may never find what they are looking for. They may feel frustrated by their seeming lack of progress toward anything substantial. The fact is that INTPs desperately want to produce something of lasting worth or value, but they also want to ensure they get it right. They don’t want to leave any stone unturned before arriving at a conclusion. While INTPs typically enjoy this quest for truth, there comes a point when they begin to feel the pressures of life impinging on them. Questions about careers and relationships loom large as they enter their late twenties and thirties. This can be frustrating to INTPs as they feel like life is requiring them to make decisions long before they are ready. As is true of all IN types, they feel that life would be far better if they weren’t forced to consider practical concerns.

INTPs’ Tertiary Function: Introverted Sensing (Si)

Unlike Ne (or Se), INTPs’ tertiary function, Introverted Sensing (Si), is a conservative function. It involves an attachment to past experiences and past precedent—to the routine, familiar, and predictable. Types with Si in their functional stack, including INTPs, tend to eat a fairly routine or consistent diet, “eating to live” rather than “living to eat.” Si types are not only conservative with regard to their diet, but with respect to the material world in general. They tend to be savers rather than spenders, seeing excessive material consumption as unnecessary, or perhaps even immoral.

Like other Si types, INTPs also have a diminished need for novel physical pleasures, lavish surroundings, or material comforts. They are minimalists to the core, relatively unconcerned with their physical surroundings.

INTPs’ Inferior Function: Extraverted Feeling (Fe)

Last but not least, Extraverted Feeling (Fe) serves as INTPs’ inferior function. While having inferior feeling doesn’t make INTPs emotionless robots, their feelings do seem to have a mind of their own, often coming and going as they please. Realizing how hard it can be to voluntarily contact or summon their emotions, INTPs tend to feel awkward and uneasy in emotional situations. Although they may be cognitively aware of the appropriate emotional response, if they’re unable to directly tap into their feelings, INTPs can appear clumsy, mechanical, or disingenuous. This can be unsettling to others who are looking for outward signs of authentic emotion from the INTP.

Fe is also concerned with maintaining social harmony. While Ti and Ne may inspire INTPs to function as provocateurs, their Fe encourages them to operate as peacemakers. Far more often than INTJs, INTPs will “bite their tongue” in order to avoid hurting or offending others. Doing so also minimizes the likelihood of emotionally-volatile situations which can engender anxiety and disquiet in this type.

Another aim of Fe involves establishing emotional rapport and connection with others. But again, while INTPs may do at fair job at reading others’ emotions, they may fail to actually “feel” what the other person is feeling. This is why INTPs are sometimes described as “outwardly warm, but inwardly cold or calculating.” Fe can be a bit of an act in the first place (e.g., political glad-handing), but this seems particularly commonplace among INTPs and ISTPs. Although casual social engagement may help them feel good for a while, perhaps even give them an ego boost, without sufficient Ti stimulation, it won’t be long before they’re scoping out the nearest exit.

Finally, it’s not unusual for INTPs to oscillate through phases in which they feel they don’t need other people at all. Especially when their work life is running on all cylinders, they can feel invigorated and invincible. But the psyche will only permit this sort of Ti lopsidedness for so long. Eventually, INTPs start feeling a bit lonely or empty, sensing that something important is missing from their lives. This prompts them to reinitiate contact with others, at least until they feel compelled to reassert their independence. Striking a balance between their independence (Ti) and relationships (Fe) can thus constitute a lifelong challenge for this personality type.

that’s all , if you read this far I will love you forever. if you ever want to talk personality shit , here I am

[bubmyg]

hii!! i love ur blog sm lmao x could u give us all a lil 💞💝💗💓💕 moment and list reason why u love yoongi cos im ready to 💕💞💗💝💓💖 lmao

:-( okay strap in

his passion :-( not just for music but for uh everything, he works so hard and has worked so hard to get to where he is and i think without the unadulterated passion he has for any and everything he sets his mind to he wouldn’t be the person he is ya know

his strength? i guess is the word?? like i can’t imagine some of the hardships he’s struggled through and may continue to struggle with yet he’s still here doing his best without any sort of like idk resentment he’s just himself without having to put on an act and is unashamed in saying so which you don’t always get from someone in the public eye but yoongi is always so sure to remind everyone it’s okay to not be okay and is adamant in creating an environment where everyone thinks like that :-(((

he’s just like one of the most caring and sweet people ever and not in conventional ways like whether it be for his members or his family or fans or just people in general he’s so genuine in wanting to help and make people feel better with something as simple as making sure everyone has ate or something as complex as his lyrics like the boy uses his birthday to either hand write notes to fans or anonymously donate meat to children’s shelters like :-((((((((((((((((((((

boy also said he probably wouldn’t get tattoos bc it would prevent him from doing charity work in the future and was quick to answer that journalist who was like “you’re very interested in charity work then?” with basically a “of course i am”

he’s also so humble lmao like you look at his lyrics in idk mic drop or agust d or give it to me and yet he can’t look someone in the eye when they compliment him and he’s always so quick to acknowledge that they’ve worked hard or we as fans have worked hard like it would be easy for any of them at their level of success to get cocky and yoongi is just....the farthest thing from it like i know we joke about him predicting their accomplishments but i truly think he says these things like jokingly like “oh, we’re not here for the accomplishments we really are just here to make the best music possible that we enjoy and that fits our sound and that can give comfort to others but if we made it to the grammy’s then...” and those things stiLL HAPPEN even without intent :-(

idk how any of u find him intimidating/cold/emotionless tbh he’s so shy and sweet and soft and has a huge heart like he SCREAMED bc the maknae line said he sent them sentimental texts and he was embarrassed about it like ajfkdsjafld :-(

his big unabashed gummy smile :-(

or in photo shoots when he kinda kinda smiles and it’s all tentative and sweet

when he actually laughs and it’s so loud and cute and boyish :-(

when his big chocolate colored eyes look catlike but even more when they look round and innocent and attentive and s w e e t :-(

squishy cheeks :-(

pouty lips :-(

talking and using those pouty lips :-(

his voice is so soothing and calm and the infliction in his voice like how he draws things out and hums in between words and just carefully considers everything he says like i love listening to him talk bc he’s so intelligent and insightful and thinks about things in such a beautiful way

going off of how he thinks abt things i love how he’s always very critical of those dumb ideal type questions like writing ridiculous numbers for height and weight and circling all the options given to him for certain things or saying that he cares abt personality and who he vibes with and just really cares that they like music like idk it seems like the “ideal type” is such a big thing in kpop and yet he’s very indifferent to it and almost makes it comical (bc it is lmao)

the two freckles u know the ones :-(

he dances w so much passion like yeah he’s not technical like jimin or a literal noodle like hobi but he makes the choreo his own and he just has such a way of moving his body that is just cool as hell 

tummy :-(

those same three dances he does when he gets excited :-(

those loud squeaks he does when he gets excited :-(

nose scrunch :-(

when he touches the back of his neck when he gets shy :-(

STAGE PRESENCE 

going back to earlier a little bit but just how he’s constantly growing like he’s repeatedly talked about his anxiety and fear of crowds yet he’s still here still doing it even as things continually get bigger bc he says he always remembers he’s here for a larger purpose or how he said he’s not a very good singer yet he’s now singing or how he always says he’s a bad dancer but now he has his own choreo or how in burn the stage he said he was really only confident in his rap yet his entire like on stage persona just radiATES!!!!! or how he’s consistently been known as the “savage, cold” one yet he’s embracing being all soft and sensitive lately :-( 

“There’s nothing wrong, everyone is equal.”

"I really want to say that everyone in the world is lonely and everyone is sad, and if we know that everyone is suffering and lonely, I hope we can create an environment where we can ask for help, and say things are hard when they're hard, and say that we miss someone when we miss them." 

[cadaverchoir]

i got enabled and spent two hours on a list of serin/bihyung hcs cause they’re my favorite rarepair in existence. Also Like. i Trust bihyung to treat Serin with the mutual respect and patience she deserves (looking @ u nex Ur On THIN Fucking Ice For Ur Past BS).

inital dating

gonna say it right now it took Forever for Bihyung to let his feelings for Serin be revealed and even when they were it was during a less than ideal argument over her needing to take better care of herself and her not getting why he's so concerned over her. needless to say once he did give the reason they were both so stunned they spent a good five to eight minutes frozen. trying to think of what to say. not coming up with much. really just thankful that no one was in the same room as them when it happened.

perhaps the funniest thing abt them as a couple is that most ppl can't tell they're romantically involved unless they catch them during a private moment or date. they aren't the kind of people to have others rlly know they're together. they're very lowkey. Also Cause Their Respective Clans Are Still Bitter At Each Other.

though they do keep knowledge that they're a thing to a select few it's still hard to Not notice how they light up when seeing the other or even just having their name mentioned when apart. for Serin it's an easy feat to hide any expression change, but her eyes will seem less unreadable and indifferent. Bihyung doesn't have the same skill at hiding expressions like Serin, acting a certain way is more his thing. Specifically acting like he dislikes her. Which is something he got good at during their years spent at the academy and having to force himself to ignore his crush as much as possible when seeing her do something cool. But one day his usual sneer like smile seems less smug and more like a friendly mocking one, he also cuts down on the condescending attitude when talking to her.

They can play the frenemies card well but the second they can be alone the act falls apart. they still keep any extra lovey dovey stuff for dates or when they Know it's just the two of them, but they can make just sitting in silence or casual conversation about their day seem really soft and romantic. Especially if they feel comfortable enough to hold hands or place soft and short kisses on the other's cheek. They're very cavity inducing to watch.

their dates are often spent in the more casual, less nobility filled parts of chaos. simple outings to town markets and restaurants. sometimes whenever there's a meeting or formal engagement being held in their respective houses can also end in them disappearing when they aren't needed to the gardens or any quiet place. at some point Serin's father and Bihyung's sister begin to get suspicions about them, but Rain assures Navarus that they're just friends, he's never convinced though. and the ensuring reveal that his daughter IS involved with one of the Serpent's princes does leave him conflicted. But He'd Still Prefer The Serpent Than The Undead.

as a married couple

when it was announced that they were engaged it received unexpected joy from both clans. it was a very sudden and unseen development, shocking especially the higher members of both societies and even angering some, but more than anyone the people were happy to learn about it.

the marriage ceremony had been a very small and secret event with only family and close friends present. it was a traditional Serpent marriage.

even when they are married and everyone knew it they still kept a very professional relationship when carrying out their duties. with the exception of not being afraid anymore to kiss the other or tease each other in public.

Bihyung is noticeably the more willing to be affectionate when around others. it's usually limited to just hand holding or leaning against her, gently placing his head atop her's. Serin is more likely to tease or otherwise poke fun at him when given the chance. Really goes for the embarrassing stuff. He'll usually get his revenge in some form or another later on.

Did you know Serin is strong enough to carry a full grown man??? if you doubt her and her sheer strength we can't be friends.

In context, Bihyung is actually a surprisingly affectionate person and loves showing as much love and care to Serin as much as possible. even if that means sticking to her hip and wrapping his arms around her like a sloth when they're alone. She'll feign annoyance but finds it very cute. He also enjoys her (fake) irritated noises as she tries to do anything in the house with him glued to her back. occasionally she'll straight up give him a piggy back ride. He's always a mix between being embarrassed or really impressed at her strength.

They're a very soft and good couple that are the epitome of both a power couple AND a super hot one please think abt it for a second.

They both get ungodly long and beautiful hair as they grow older. Bihyung plays it cool any time Serin says he copied her by saying he actually copied his brother. Both are kind of a lie cause the truth is he just liked having Serin brush his hair so he grew it out so she could spend a bit more time brushing it. They both actually help each other with their hair in the morning.

As much as they enjoy being a lovey dovey couple they're still rivals who can be seen practicing every now and then. Not only does it keep them at the top of the game but it also gives them an excuse to stay in bed the next day. They really don't hold it back when it comes to their supposed practice fights. They don't hold back when it comes to A Lot of things actually. interpret that as you will.

bonus What If They Had Kids

i WAS gonna go with Siana and Nin but i already have some hcs abt Bihyung being their adoptive dad in an au where Serin just says Fuck It and seeks asylum in Serpent that i'll talk abt One Day/probably soon.

Serin is all for kids but Bihyung takes a while to warm up to the idea. Not because he doesn't want any but rather cause he's. Unsure he'd be a good parent. Even when it does happen he still remains nervous.

As corny as it is though the second he holds their child for the first time he can't bring himself to let go of them, all unease or nerves he had moments prior seemingly gone. even when Serin asks to hold them too he says no softly. She can't bring herself to get mad cause between the way he said no and just the sight of him holding their child he’s actually super cute in that moment.

Can you imagine the sort of kid they'd have. Can you imagine just how much potential and power a kid between them would have. Can You.

For such dreary people they sure do light up when they start their own little family. If they seemed content before as just a couple then they're the definition of happiness when seen with their child.

They're both equal parts strict parent and fun parent. Even when they're strict though it comes off very guiding like and very soft. Child neglect and yelling/criticizing a child?? Not in this household.

Within the first year they both commission a plethora of family photos. a photo for each month. It quickly becomes something of a tradition.

One Time when their child was four they Demanded to go help Bihyung with his duties. He spent a good five minutes trying to convince them that being the substitute leader of a clan is boring and that they'd have more fun visting grandpa Navarus with Serin but got done in the second he thought he heard a soft sniffle.

The sight of him walking around the main castle and ordering people around with a four year old held in one arm was quite the sight. especially when he'd go from cutesy dad to stoic hardass.

Serin really wishes she could have been there to see it all. Luckily Rain was there and documented Everything.

It's common knowledge Serin likes dressing up so it's also common knowledge her child is the best dressed baby in both the Demon and Serpent clans. She also greatly enjoys having them all match during family outings. even when he's royalty Bihyung strays from wearing such eye catching clothing and only does it cause Serin's smile is nice, as well as her comments about how handsome he looks, doesn't quite get how a color can bring out his eyes more, but her smile is nice. The only time it wasn't as nice was that time when she made him wear pants with a slit in the sides and the shirt was a bit lower than he was use to. The Demons have an odd taste in clothing.

Serin's that scary looking but actually super soft and loving goth mom i can't get the picture of her kissing her child on the cheek as she says bye cause it's their first day of school but she's wearing dark lipstick so they're just stuck with this kiss imprint on their cheek for the rest of the day cause Serin couldn't wipe it off completely out of my head it’s too cute.

[unproduciblesmackdown]

How do u feel about Eno from MonsterKind?

closes book & spins around in chair—oh! didnt see you there. well i’m glad you asked. sets down cup i was drinking from.

tldr i quietly cherish him. i figure it is not exactly his best look right now but i would be surprised if it was to turn out he is/was secretly evil & trying to work against everybody the whole time lmao…..honestly i figured that things were doomed in this way when kip said he trusts eno the most…….that can’t go unpunished. rip

but it is also an endorsement that he must’ve been top quality all this time if kip trusts him that much. i doubt its as Misguided as just being taken advantage of. no idea what the broader con here needs to further take advantage of re: kip….the fact that ppl listen to him whether he likes it or not? or that he can probably survive mad low temps? if he was assumed to die back in the day then the latter seems somewhat relevant one way or another. but i am too dumbassed to make good guesses w/little info

anyways i’m kind of assuming…that eno does sort of have suspicions or straightforward knowledge abt what happened behind the scenes, & its being confirmed just by kip saying there’s some link b/w wallace & the investigation of yore…like, i know i just said im dumb as hell & my guesses are bad, but i’d guess eno thinks that their inside info getting out elsewhere was via himself, not yumi, despite what he said. or even technically if it couldve been yumi i think he thinks it was his own fault. and its not surprising he wouldnt bring up his own suspicious abt his self involvement because like after everything went to shit & the entire project seemingly destroyed, there’s not much relevance to investigating how it happened if nobody plans to be involved. and it would be a little awkward then & now for him to tell kip he thinks he may have been involved in the downfall, even if inadvertently…hm

like……it would be nice if he had secretly developed some kind of assassin level knife throwing skills in the past years. wouldnt it always be. but honestly kip was fuckt the whole time…….nobody seems to be threatening anyone else with knives but i guess if some shadow organization that murders at whim & unhindered shows up & makes threatening demands, the implication is that anyone could be killed, even if some people get to stay alive for the moment just for the sake of pushing them to do something or other thats convenient for whatever latest death plot is underway

e.g. i’m not sure what the point is of purposefully trying to put kip on alert besides having him fall back on eno even more than he would without bringing up that specific threat

but really besides the “well i’m already resigned to someone stabbing kip in the gut while killing everyone he knows in front of him w/promises to kill everybody else too” factor of it all (im not really but—) another reason i cant be that mad is b/c i am also resigned to the fact that wallace is basically in the same kind of position eno was, of an accidental accessory to secret murder

b/c it would truly be a twist if wallace WAS actually in on it the whole time lol….but i doubt it. but the fact remains that he is definitely unwittingly a pawn of the devil!! this wouldnt be a problem if, marxism. anyways the thing is that i really, really doubt that wallace will smoothly learn of whats actually going on before anyone else knows or anyone gets fucked over and be able to gently reveal this to everyone in ways that nobody feels betrayed or breaks their trust with him. i am not even sure how that would be possible…..it is basically inevitable that wallace will have to be exposed as connected to this whole secret society of nightmares, and nobody really knows wallace well enough to be certain that he actually didnt know. and really, the fact that he Doesn’t know doesnt change the fact that he is in fact a part of it and facilitating it, even tho arguably it isnt quite his fault

tbh im assuming that the reason he’s having to do all of this is that he was willing to be transplanted from a to c, and because of that he is like totally clueless about like….everything. he presumably has no idea the kinda shit everyone around him is worrying about like all the time lol & wouldnt know not to try to push past those boundaries. but he can’t exactly be asked to do anything that much different from what he’s doing now / anything too clearly Heinous…besides maybe getting Extra Info or simply making ppl nervous, like making kip think he’s endangered.

coz t.b.h……………i’m not sure that, between kip seeing wallace as harmless and well-intended vs dangerous & ill-intended, the latter is worse? because he is a mix of the two….he doesnt mean any harm but he IS dangerous, technically. not directly thru his own actions quite as much, but still, obviously……kips first impression was basically correct lol rip. i dont think there WAS a way for kip to ever not suspect wallace as being less than purehearted, and of course i also dont think he won’t have to find out that wallace doesn’t want to hurt everybody, but at least he’s a bit on guard about all this fuckery…..even if putting him more on guard is part of some evil plot, which also means its bad…….obviously ideally everyone gets to only ever be best friends and also all be kip’s boyfriends, but i don’t think i my wishes have a tendency to come true, so maybe wait on anticipating that one. in the meantime maybe the inevitable revelation that wallace may have been a double agent will be lessened if kip was holding out for it all along lol. i guess it depends on how much more inadvertent damages wallace’s role is intended to invoke. weird sentence there but i stand by it

basically like dude!! try Knowing Shit instead of not knowing shit!! he may only be an accidental hand of the devil but that doesnt mean he’s totally not working for satan here, so hopefully when he finally realizes the extent of it, he gets to help to right the situation. presumably. idk. but how would anyone know for sure that he never knew what was going on besides trusting that he is not just an excellent actor? i suppose we are in the same situation with eno, huh. despite being given kip’s endorsement, there is only a limited picture of him & then the knowledge that he probably played a part in all the bs w/all these ppl dying. i suppose you can guess that he knew all of what was going on or he didnt or somewhere in between….

basically w/wallace and eno i am assuming that with both itmd a case of well-meaning humans being taken advantage of and accidentally infiltrating these vulnerable circles and sending back information and oh oops, atrocities, and everyone’s dead. i cant imagine that at least kip is meant to survive, and not sure why eno would feel particularly safe on that front either, and clearly any casualties that seem even vaguely necessary can just be carried out at random so you know. bless wallace’s well meaning heart that doesnt know shit but like still, if ppl get fucked over they still have the right to be mad, and if theyre dead theyre still dead, and etc, and also try to learn shit even if it was just a regular, non Agent Of Evil job.

basically what i am trying to say is that im pulling up on my motorbike and telling people that if they’re going to be mad at eno, they ought to be equally condemning of wallace, or that is just inconsistent. like, feel free to either way surely…….i can’t guess that it’d be smooth sailing for eno either if he has to awkwardly divulge that maybe he knows stuff about the whole assassination backstory.

i do wish he had those knife throwing skills for sure…..wish he wasnt being gunpointed into pressuring kip into something or other that surely will endanger him & surely others….but i get why he doesnt exactly seem to have other options at the moment lol. this guy could have assassins all over the block if whatever godforsaken conspiracy is already underway and waistdeep. smh. as i have to assume that he would only endanger kip if he was basically being given a catch 22 of Endanger Kip or Endanger Kip. i suppose he could be doing it solely so he himself won’t be assassinated, but i am personally piecing together that he and kip Are Really in fact That Close & he hasn’t like, faked caring about him this whole time or something

uhhhh tldr i think of him as basically in the same position as wallace, tho to be fair i dont think of wallace as blameless part for not knowing whats going on (like im guessing eno didnt understand until it was too late) and in part because even without the devil he IS just barging in from a in the middle of c & also pursuing audiences w extra vulnerable ppl w/o knowing fuckall (unlike eno who i am also guessing is not from a…)

and perhaps the sole answer to your question as really i was only inferring the part abt asking if eno is suspicious and dubious or not: I Am Fond Of Him Like I Said

what an essay! as all my asks turn out to be!! but i can’t help but theorize. even though i am a dumbass. this is in part because i watched mh for years, and in part because i never assume i’ll still be alive to see any particular plot point in any ongoing media i consume, so i furiously speculate and create au’s in my head and all. for example if i die before its definitely revealed kip doesnt get twenty husbands—which, good luck proving that to me anyways—can anyone tell me he doesnt? no, because i died. so he definitely does. and thats all i have to say on the matter, thank you for tuning in to Milo’s Hour Of Speculation, And Knowing Everyone Is Kip’s Boyfriend

[lookwhatilost]

i saw this valentines day ask meme earlier and i wanted to reblog it but i also dnt want people prying on gp and i know nobody will send me anything here bc i have like no followers, so im going to answer it under the cut and if you wanna b #nosy, then you’re at your liberty to do so

also im drunk answering these so theres that

1: Do you have a crush at the moment?

lmfao

2: Have you ever been deeply in love?

yes, sadly 😪

3: Longest relationship you've ever been in?

unofficially we were on and off over the course of almost 4 years but officially the longest we were together was only a handful of months... but i generally tell people the unofficial version bc i feel like they’d downplay the significance of it otherwise

4: Have you ever changed for someone?

yeah but in the sense that i let good things inside me wither and die when i shouldnt have

5: How is your relationship with your ex?

he’s living with someone else but makes a point of letting me know that he’s still th*rsting over me... it’s rly embarrassing

6: Have you ever been cheated on?

idk for certain but most likely

7: Have you ever cheated?

no

8: Would you date someone who's well known for cheating?

if i was aware, no, but i feel like i’d be totally possible for me to start going out w someone like that without being aware of that reputation beforehand

9: What's the most important part of a relationship?

your heads need to b in the same place i think... what with priorities, values, etc. i know some people can happily ignore conflicts like that & jst know to never bring them up but i can’t ever picture myself doing that.

10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?

i’ve never had a “fling” in my life and i dnt intend to

11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on "breaks"?

if you need space from someone, then it is what it is, but i dnt think i would ever use the term “break” bc it’s too grey. i’ve seen friends. i know what’s up.

12: How many people have you ever hooked up with?

harry’s the only person ive been with in any capacity

13: What's one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?

a lot but i think i would say, like, letting it go on for as long as it did bc i thought i didn’t have anything else going for me. granted, i didn’t, but sometimes it’s better to be invested in an ex that you aren’t speaking to, than be invested in a relationship that’s dragging you down

14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?

never tbh sex is dumb as shit

15: Do you believe in the phrase "age is just a number"?

fuck no

16: Do you believe in "love at first sight"?

i believe you can instantly recognize that you connect to another person but that’s not, like, love lmfao

17: Do you believe it's possible to fall in love on the internet?

yeah but i’ve no interest in that

18: What do you consider a deal breaker?

in a relationship i dnt think i would interpret anything as an objective deal breaker aside from the Big Shit like cheating etc. but if i was considering dating someone i think the biggest deal breaker would be political differences.

19: How do you know it's time to end a relationship?

i’ll let you know when i figure it out

20: Are you currently in a relationship?

no

21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?

under the right circumstances, sure

22: Do you think people should date their friends?

i would encourage them to. i personally wouldn’t want to get into a romantic relationship that didn’t already have the foundation of a strong platonic one

23: How many relationships have you had?

one

24: Do you think love can last forever?

no but i dnt think there’s anything wrong with that either

25: Do you believe love can conquer all things?

absolutely not

26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn't approve of?

my parents are so out of touch w who i am that their approval or objection carries no weight beyond that so... no

27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?

all advice is useless. conclusions have no meaning unless you draw them yourself. if i could go back in time, i would kill hitler.

28: Do you think long distance relationships can work?

yes but personally ive no interest in one

29: What do you notice first about another person?

this is gnna sound dumb but whether they have a threatening vibe to them or not. for context: i work in service

30: Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual?

i’m bisexual but i dnt see my attraction to men as anything more than begrudging & a nuisance

31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness?

not in principle, but i have a lot of mental illnesses myself, and if i was in a position where my mental disorders and my partner’s were jst endlessly feeding off of one another... yeah that would definitely upset me

32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?

harry was definitely emotionally abusive to me at times but he was jst stupid tbh and retrospectively i dnt consider it to be abusive. jst, like, it was a very bad dynamic and it coaxed shitty things out of both of us

33: Do you want to get married one day?

not rly

34: What do you think about getting your partner's name tattooed?

i wouldnt

35: Could you be in a relationship without sex?

easily

36: Are you still a virgin?

i wish

37: What's more important: Looks or personality?

personality obvi but physical attraction still needs to be there lmfao

38: Do you enjoy love films?

no they’re bad

39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses?

ive gotten roses twice

40: Have you ever had a valentine?

what even is that

41: What's your imagination of a "perfect date"?

i dnt have a specific vision but it would involve day drinking lmfao

42: Have you ever read "Romeo & Juliet"?

yeah. 3/10 tbh.

43: What's more important: Your partner or your friends?

it’s a balancing act! ive been guilty of putting my friendships on the back burner in favor of romantic relationships and i dnt want to do that again!

44: Would you consider yourself "romantic"?

not anymore

45: Could you imagine to date one of your current friends?

this is a loaded question bc all my friends follow this... if i say yes, it’s awkward. if i say no they’ll be like “well why the fuck not?”

46: Have you ever been "friendzoned"?

have people i liked romantically not returned my feelings? yes. have i gotten all indignant and entitled abt it? i’d like to think not.

47: Which "famous couple" is your favorite?

literally i can’t even think of any

48: What's your favorite love song?

momentarily? knock you down by keri hilson. it’s cute & a throwback

49: Have you ever broken someone's heart?

doubt it

50: If you're single, why do you think you are?

lack of proximity to available people that i’m compatible with, the fact that i have standards

51: Would you rather date someone who's rich but a douchebag or someone who's poor but a nice guy?

poor & nice... no shit sherlock

52: Are you good at giving other people advices regarding dating/ relationships?

all dating advice is a shout into the void. i dnt bother

53: Are you jealous of couples when you're single?

i think exposure to that kind of stuff hits on a very real insecurity that stems from a rly long pattern of being mistreated in my romantic endeavors, but it’s not jealousy lmfao it’s something much more insidious than that... like i feel like im being taunted for having extremely severe emotional trauma related to that and it’s rly not a can of worms i want to open

54: How important is it to make a relationship official (p.e. on Facebook)?

it’s not like important-important, but suffice to say, i would be suspicious of someone who was vehemently against it

55: Would you consider yourself "clingy", "overly attached" or "jealous"?

i’m trying to learn there’s nothing shameful abt being attached to the people you care abt, so yes & no

56: Have you ever "destroyed" a relationship?

yeah but i dnt feel particularly bad abt it either

57: Do you think it's silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart?

when you’re suicidal you dnt care much for what is or isnt silly, let’s be real

58: Are you the "dominant" or the "submissive" part in a relationship?

ideally my relationships dnt have a dynamic like that

59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner's birthday or your anniversary?

i have a weird fixation on dates and remember significant ones from, like, 10 years ago. february 9th 2009 was a big one, actually. so no i generally dnt forget dates unless i didnt commit them to memory in the first place

60: What's your opinion on open relationships?

stupid

61: Who's more important: Your partner or your family?

my family isnt important to me

62: How do you define "cheating"?

doing anything #physical with someone other than yr partner, or like, carrying out any sort of emotional relationship w someone you aren’t dating (like you’re telling someone else that you love them & wanna get w them or whatever)... some of it is rly cut n dry but other times its very, well, grey

63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate?

i mean it’s not but like... holy shit dude you’re not 15 anymore.

64: Do you think Valentine's Day is overrated?

who dznt?

65: Would you consider yourself a "cuddler"?

probably. who knows. i cant believe answering this ate up almost a whole hour

[boricuagoblin]

1-65 man u already be knowin

oof hello long time no see :^) 

1: Do you have a crush at the moment?

ya my gf

2: Have you ever been deeply in love?

don’t think any time previously 

3: Longest relationship you've ever been in?

mm i think currently

4: Have you ever changed for someone?

kind of but not really

5: How is your relationship with your ex?

one of them is fine, the other not at all

6: Have you ever been cheated on?

i sure hope not

7: Have you ever cheated?

nope

8: Would you date someone who's well known for cheating?

not at all tbh

9: What's the most important part of a relationship?

smiles, the goofs and gafs , and idk!! just having someone u care about and who cares abt u i suppose

10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?

serious ones

11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on "breaks"?

ehh idk, i mean if it’s absolutely necessary and I think things should be discussed before something like that. like Ross from friends is a big asshole thinking it was ok to be w someone else while on break

12: How many people have you ever hooked up with?

none??

13: What's one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?

saying ily and letting them into my goddamn house oof jeez

14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?

i mean...idk like nothing before 16 i guess?? and w someone yr age,, thats a tricky question idk. In an ideal world i think everyone should wait till of age but as long as their safe and consensual idc

15: Do you believe in the phrase "age is just a number"?

i don’t really go by that saying, but if both people are over 18 whatever ykno 

16: Do you believe in "love at first sight"?

eh no

17: Do you believe it's possible to fall in love on the internet?

sure

18: What do you consider a deal breaker?

uh idk?? i have a lot i guess

19: How do you know it's time to end a relationship?

hell if i fucking know. i guess when someone isn’t happy anymore in the relationship...idk thats a sad question

20: Are you currently in a relationship?

I am!! :)

21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?

yeah

22: Do you think people should date their friends?

i mean...building a friendship before dating is kind of necessary i think? maybe not for some people, but personally

23: How many relationships have you had?

3 including rn!!

24: Do you think love can last forever?

One can only hope

25: Do you believe love can conquer all things?

Again, one can only hope

26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn't approve of?

no/?????

27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?

FREAKING TALK!!!!! COMMUNICATE U BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!NO ONE CAN READ YR MIND!!!!!!! and tbh thats pretty much it...im still bad at it tho

28: Do you think long distance relationships can work?

sure, probably not for me

29: What do you notice first about another person?

weirdly their nose? and eyes? then hair also What they’re wearing 

30: Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual?

MMGAY!!!! 

31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness?

bITCH WE BOTH SUFFERING LMFAO

32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?

no

33: Do you want to get married one day?

idk! I try not to look too far ahead in the future lmfao

34: What do you think about getting your partner's name tattooed?

i mean..you do you boo but I would never do that I dont think

35: Could you be in a relationship without sex?

i mean yeah why not 

36: Are you still a virgin?

oui

37: What's more important: Looks or personality?

personality tf. someone’s personality also effects how i see people, so if u have an ugly attitude, u Ugly

38: Do you enjoy love films?

they’re all usually the same but Yeah they’re nice, especially lgbt ones oof

39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses?

HELL YEAH!!! i need to get flowers for her instead one day

40: Have you ever had a valentine?

ye

41: What's your imagination of a "perfect date"?

idk probably just chilling im so low maintenance ....like maybe going downtown or smth?? to a garden idk!!! but it has to end w just chillin & watching a movie or smth

42: Have you ever read "Romeo & Juliet"?

NOPE

43: What's more important: Your partner or your friends?

that’s a silly question

44: Would you consider yourself "romantic"?

I mean i gues?? idk i love romantic shit

45: Could you imagine to date one of your current friends?

I am tho

46: Have you ever been "friendzoned"?

LOL i think so yeah,,,

47: Which "famous couple" is your favorite?

me and samira wiley

48: What's your favorite love song?

so many shiut up......

49: Have you ever broken someone's heart?

i hope not..

50: If you're single, why do you think you are?

am not BICH

51: Would you rather date someone who's rich but a douchebag or someone who's poor but a nice guy?

rich but a douchebag, and I have my Gay lover on the side and I buy her really expensive shit with my Ugly Stupid rich husband’s money

52: Are you good at giving other people advices regarding dating/ relationships?

ehh yeah? i guess i dont know

53: Are you jealous of couples when you're single?

i remember i was yeah a little bit

54: How important is it to make a relationship official (p.e. on facebook)?

oh my gsdhajdf i never did that tbh?? not with face book but i think making a relationship official, like putting the label on it is important so that yr both on the same page! unless yall dont wanna label shit then do w/e!!

55: Would you consider yourself "clingy", "overly attached" or "jealous"?

I can be, yeah

56: Have you ever "destroyed" a relationship?

yes and no? they destroyed our romantic relationship and then i destroyed our friendship that she was trying so hard to keep YEET

57: Do you think it's silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart?

i don’t think any reason to consider suicide is silly what the fuck. No

58: Are you the "dominant" or the "submissive" part in a relationship?

dominant As fuck B 

59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner's birthday or your anniversary?

NOPE

60: What's your opinion on open relationships?

they’re cool, and I’m happy for people who are able to do smth like that! I personally could never do anything like that im super monogamous 

61: Who's more important: Your partner or your family?

..uyieks

62: How do you define "cheating"?

like...i think seriously flirting w someone or talking to someone else & developing a romantic relationship w them before ending it w the person yr currently w??? and anything more than that i guess ...yikes 

63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate?

i mean idfk?? is it?? i dont think so  ???? idfk

64: Do you think Valentine's Day is overrated?

yeah but its still cute...but fuck capitalism

65: Would you consider yourself a "cuddler"?

FUCK YEAH BOI!!!!!!!!

happy early valentines day :^)