#the nationwide anti-SOGI protests were about a year ago too and the sentiment hasnt changed that much

[autumnoakes]

i'm feeling increasingly defeated the more i look around. most days i genuinely wonder how i'm supposed to hold down a job and work for 40 hours a week AND feed myself AND maintain personal hygiene AND keep a clean space AND keep up with bills like... i can only do one, maybe two, of those things at a time. i'd LOVE to live entirely on my own but right now i'm so exhausted that the thought of it makes me want to cry and i still live with family.

almost half of my province voted for a party who has shown time and time again that they don't care for the people or what the people need if it doesn't make them money. there's a federal election next year, and the conservative party leader scares me. we can't let him in, but so many people are sick of trudeau that they'd vote for anyone to get him out.

i don't feel safe living where i live at the moment, but i can't leave. even if i could support myself, i'm too far through my degree and most institutions won't let me finish there (you have to do at least 50% of your degree at one institution in order to graduate, and i'm at about 90 of 132 credits. i can't transfer, and would have to commute since my program is not something you can do via correspondance). i don't know what to do after i graduate. i can't claim disability and iirc my doctor's office wouldn't help me with it anyways. it feels so incredibly hopeless right now and all i can really do is keep my head down and hope it passes.