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So I played the game
#charley arty#great god grove#great god grove spoilers#ggg spoilers#I loved it If you couldnt tell#inspekta#hector ggg#Expect more drawings of These fucking beasts#i bet you cant guess Who is one of my favorite characters#also the last one is based off of what Inspekta says if you shoot the one dialogue from Lumber Jaqueline about giving pets to him. smiles#also I will give Inspekta a big muppet ass nose I Dont Care!!#miss mitternacht doodle kind of ooc i just thought it was funny
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It's been months since I last posted dragon art. This is all I have to offer as an apology.
#“just got revenge”#bro is LYING#bro will in fact learn FORGIVENESS from the great-great grandson of the person who wronged him 100 years ago#anyway Furious highkey looks dogshit here but this is a 15 minute doodle of a meme so i Do Not Care#also since last post i have in fact changed my designs for all the SGMs#because the old one just felt far too simple and kinda just generic dragon#i havent really got any decent finished ref shots in happy with yet but ill post some eventually#uhh gotta remember how to tag this shit#httyd books#httyd books art#the dragon furious#seadragonus giagantus maximus#how to train your dragon books#httyd books fanart#amity doodles
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lost one of my aunts who I was very close with somewhat abruptly this week & idk if it's sunk in yet like I cried for hrs the day it happened but now it doesn't feel real anymore . I know the wake & funeral are going to be a fucking nightmare though . I don't know how I'm going to do it I'm really bad with death I mean I cried over my bunny every day for a year & still do sometimes 3 yrs later. granted I felt personally responsible for that one but also this isn't a pet this is a person who has been here my entire life & now she just suddenly isn't anymore.
#she wasnt doing great but her care home fucked up & she went downhill FAST like matter of hrs#I last saw her on new years eve & she didnt realize i was her niece (dementia) but she knew my name & that she loved me#this is the first one of my moms sisters who has died. another is in & out of hospital & tbh I expected her to pass first
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To celebrate the end of the Eras (don't look at me) here are some Eras fading into grey on film for the ~vibes~ because they do come back stronger than a 90s trend 📸
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Eras Tour Lyon night 2 - June 3 2024
#lyon n2#eras tour#it was rare I was--#also security almost didn't let me bring in my P&S camera because it 'wasn't allowed' even though it was#and then dozens of people had disposable film cameras inside so whatever lol#I got too scared after my flash went off accidentally once and then put it away but wish I'd taken more even though they're not the greates#but they are vibes#i love the first photo so much even thoguh it's mostly just the backs of people's heads#but it feels very reportage like idk#i fell in love with cinestill btw even though it's a very particular kind of film#for those who care all but the last photo (of the eras tour background) are cinestill 800T#the last one is Fujifilm 400 that was from my previous roll before i switched during the show hence why it leans red#i might post some of my iphone pics later idk
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Fullset
Ashen
Lucas
Egbert (ft. Monologue 😌)
Jamie Oliver (sfth version lol)
I had a refrence for the start of the first one but no others (ref under cut :))
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#shoot from the hip#sfth fanart#emu draws#Fullset O’ Hands#The bitter sweethearts#yes i drew them so that Ashen and Lucas would be facing each other when I posted this#Because I ship them so much#Also just cause that’s the ways that Sam and Luke were facing for the stream#Sfth dnd#The Lefternmost Window#The Dark Moons of Slough#the last ones not great but who cares :))#the ashen and Lucas ones are with graphite and the others are with charcoal :)#And I’m just realising I might have got one of Fullset’s quotes wrong I think 😭#But oh well 🥲#Kinda ran out of time for the Lucas one so I rushed it a little bit at the end#but I still like it :)#Wanna draw Falmouth and Daemys now :3
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so hey guys i finished dungeon meshi yesterday and i'm still thinking about it
#ria.txt#i spoiled myself so at first i was like 'this is bonkers wtf are they doing in those last few chapters?????'#but then it was like. yeah. i see#love those ch when it's just clearly putting the squad into Situations#also. izutsumi#what i really liked was how tightly the protagonist and the deuteragonist were wound up in the overall themes#the plot the themes the conflict the characters it was very neatly connected#hence i am also now accidentally invested in whatever going on between laios and marcille#not just platonic not romantic not enemies i just think they work well tgt and deeply care for each other its great watching them develop#it's the leader + most trusted advisor / anxious girlfailure + the annoying freak she's somehow attached to vibes#haha that rabbit chapter with marcille. hahha i was like what the fuck man. it was funny and then boom whump [tears streaming down my face]#those shapeshifter chs were sooo much fun esp seeing other chara's perceptions of each other. stealing that#the changeling ones were great too elf senshi is the fucking funniest he looks sooooooo unserious#marcille's evolving perception with death starting with saving falin and saving the squad and her nightmares of outliving everyone-#-and her dad and her 'temper tantrum' and UGH when at the end she said she was fine with falin not coming back.... WAAA. OUGH.#i think dunmeshi handled the trope of 'prophecy of chosen one becoming king' pretty well and it makes sense why laios is the protag#the worldbuilding is so thoughtful as well i liked seeing different characters with different worldviews interact#very solid and well rounded series wooo#the main 4 has such a fun dynamic together#anyways. dunmeshi au.....#more like borrowing the worldbuilding bc charas are too nuanced for a one to one comparison#ren is like some prince of his own species but he's like 34th in line and no one cares about him so he fucks off to eat monsters#which is why he's both snobbish AND a total freak when it comes to his food taste#false is originally in for the money from ren and plans to scam him but unfortunately the cringefail swag captures her#martyn is Obnoxiously Clueless and thinks he's smart but he's not. he's resourceful but also pathetic and crazy#stress cant cook but she thinks she does so everyone goes (≖_≖ ) when she picks up a pot. they delegate her to killing and chopping duty#the mvp is iskall who keeps on saving everyone's asses and somehow has resources for everyone#i think ren is actually aware false is going to scam him but he has too much money to spend anyway and he thinks shes cool so he lets her??#and somehow she doesnt take the money and run. and goes back to eating monsters w/ the party. everyone is crazy
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Another post just reminded me of an important PSA
Sokka is a better Ron Weasley and Xander Harris than Ron Weasley and Xander Harris ever were
Katara is a better Hermione Granger and Willow Rosenberg than Hermione Granger and Willow Rosenberg ever were
Zuko is a better Draco Malfoy than Draco Malfoy ever was canonically, but Spike is pretty great, even though yes, okay, we know, Zuko's redemption arc will always be superior
fight me
#harry potter#avatar the last airbender#buffy the vampire slayer#sokka is also superior to han solo#but we can't go around saying katara is better than leia even though she is#and it's also hard to say that zuko is better than darth vader even though he is#like luke skywalker is a very special boy; it's not fair to compare completely different canons why would you do that#sokka is not a better samwise gamgee than samwise; on that they're pretty even#is the katara equivalent in lotr legolas hahaha just the best at everything and severely OP I guess it's true#gollum is a pretty good darth vader!!! but still no zuko#gandalf is obviously the superior dumbledore but has sincere rivalry with iroh#who am i kidding no one beats iroh?#but gandalf and obi wan could have some pretty great tea with giles#who am i missing#oh emperor palpatine voldemort firelord ozai sauron who cares about them. The Mayor probably cares about them. That's who#lan wangji is the new legolas katara hermione leia pass it on
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I love that every wiki is like ‘You get to the red line and it’s revealed Pavel is a high ranking officer’ and I’m like I knew that. I mean I didn’t know he was a major specifically, but he definitely told me he was an officer when we were on the surface.
Which begs the question: did he forget he was pretending to be a grunt and let it slip, because he got so comfortable around Artyom.
Or
My personal and much more funny theory. Did he just realize it would mean absolutely like nothing 0% difference in suspicion and perception of him from Artyom if he knew he was an officer.
#metro last light#pavel morozov#artyom chyornyj#I feel like it went ‘oh I better pretend to be a grunt so he’s not suspicious.’ -> Day 10 - Artyom in his journal: dear diary Pavel is my#best friend. I didn’t like the red line before but now I’m like oh who cares no big deal. Pavel is so heroic and great I think that’s all#that matters. so so glad we are partners. 💙’ and Pavel just went ‘… yeah it’s not gonna matter’ and dropped the act. 50/50 odds Artyom didnt#even notice. the players writing for IGN didn’t#I am 99% sure he says it when you’re looting corpses? like ‘a good red line officer doesn’t take from the dead but you’re a spartan so go#for it!’ — he might have said major? I think it was officer? but it was 100% for certain one or the other
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stop a/starion has a BRAND NEW SIM AVAILABLE ON MODTHESIMS FOR THE SI/MS 2
#for those unaware E/A decided that we suffered enough and let us buy reformatted editions of og si/ms and si/ms 2#which for bitches like me who STILL prefers ts2's gameplay over t/s3 and 4's gameplay (but likes a lot of the other#parts of those two more like the added diversity and everything which t/s2 does lack bc it was last updated in 2008)#in t/s2 it was still clearly a passion project whereas in t/s3 like halfway through the packs you could tell they stopped caring#t/s3 still had the storyline element tho that t/s4 just doesnt#but t/s2's lore is so!!!#the s/ims r/esource has once again proven itself a disappointment bc ppl last made content in like 2013 which is like still good for a game#again last updated in 2008 but yknow#and then made impossible to play so E/A released the whole collection for free after breaking the original buy and now even that doesnt wor#i had to reprogram the entire game last time i tried playing it which is why the price of the not even really a remaster#all they did was update the gameplay so it works on modern pcs (mostly)#which is worth it to me bc im not a great programmer and do not have the time to reprogram a game for three days to play it#and it was my favorite it honestly still is my favorite thing in the world is#playing v/eronaville and ruining shakespeare by making r/omeo and t/ybalt enemies to l/overs and having j/uliet take revenge w m/ercutio#only to get w p/uck its a whole thing but anyways im im so happy at least the m/od the s/ims community never abandoned me#bc t/sr certainly tf did. tumbs seems to have quite a bit of cc too which is so!!!#when my harddrive w all my old gifs and stuff broke i also lost all the CC i made all my meshes and everything#and unfortunately they did not bring body shop back like i wanted i doubt they will so i do not know how to make meshes without it#making custom sims is gonna be a fucking bitch without it actually bc bodyshop is my favorite thing its way way better than ts4's maker#i ust im so happy. also annoyed by the lack of body shop but so happy. i know a lot of ppl are pissed they're charging for it but its worth#it to me. and people are making si/ms 2 machinima again which is also a favorite thing. most of the old ones do NOT hold up anymore#anyways how do i bully E/A into bringing back b/ody s/hop i'll even pay for it at this point make it work for all four games#or at least 2-4 like#i honestly dont play 3 much im a 2 girlie and have been w 4 off and on bc i love it but the lacking is so clear as#someone whos been there since the start yknow but#asidjiasdifbeiadpisadhasidhasipdaspodhifoeajcapsdjsa#out.
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Sometimes I remember that my whole house was so obsessed with the show Merlin, that we named the first tree we planted in the yard Merlin.
When it was given to us 11 years ago it was hardly a scraggly stick, and now it looks like a giant bush
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#this is the first year it has like!! actual bark!!!#only the middle/ main trunk#I’m so emotional over this tree you guys don’t even know#he won’t stop growing branches on the bottom#so he just looks like a huge bush when leafed out#then another tree we planted the same year looks like a Maple Tree TM#I love all the trees in my yard#every day when it’s warm enough I tell them all they’re doing a great jobs#and one who burnt during a really hot summer didn’t grow for YEARS#but we didn’t give up on it#no sir#we cut off the burnt limb#we kept telling it that it was doing great#and last year!!! it finally started growing new twigs!!#it grew more than like 5 leaves!!!#and this year so far there’s already a LOT of growth!!!!!!#and one tree I got from a childhood best friend like 5 years ago has absolutely taken off#like holy hell#the tree was a sapling from the tree from her backyard#it was my favourite tree growing up#it’s were we were kids together#guys no you don’t get it#we slowly fell out of friendship and then years later she texted me#‘hey you know that one tree you used to love? do you want a sapling from jt otherwise my mom is throwing it in compost.’#‘she thinks you don’t care about this tree anymore but I know you do’#*sobs*#Spoofy tambles
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the last unicorn post from earlier has me thinking about the master. that yana is still in there, you know? is still someone he was, if even for a brief flash across the life of a time lord. there’s no way to unlive that life. there are ways to twist it later, sure, to make utopia into hell on earth. but the life was lived. in much the same way that the doctor can remember, can feel, the love he held onto as john smith even as that life is ripped out of his hands. the doctor choose denial and then grief and then to shutter it all away. and so john smith died, and so professor yana died, and the doctor and the master live on. the doctor has done this before, and he lives in orbit around humanity, trying to keep the best parts of them and hold them deep enough to take root (which he can pretend he gets to choose, as a time lord. as a human, it all floods in and can’t be dug back out.) but what about the master, right?
to borrow a turn of phrase: i think there are two time lords left in the universe, and they both learned how to regret.
#regret here meaning less feeling the emotion of actual regret obviously because time lords do not actually funxtion on unicorn rules. they#already get sad just fine on their own. no humanity needed for that.#but i dont know. i just dont think he brushed it off so easily. i think he did a hell of a job convincing himself he did.#and what better way then to twist his own great works and destroy the species he was working so hard to save at the end of the universe.#but what about the knowledge that he *could* be that person. that somewhere in him exists a version that wanted to save people.#a version that is painfully too much like the doctor. even. now is that part worse or better than the human part?#but if past regenerations are ghosts i think yana deserves a haunt.#anyway maybe ignore this one im rambling about nothing here#theres just. i dont know. what if you were the last of your kind and in surviving you made yourself Not Like Them in a way you’ll never#escape.#i mean doctor who is just so concerned with all these plots about hybrids and children of the tardis and clones and What Makes A Time Lord.#but they’re so obsessed with it in just. a very Lore way. is what it feels like. we get brushes of more like with jenny and how she’s#physically a time lord and the doctor denies her that inheritance. a shared suffering…#but me myself im just fascinated with the doctor and the master as the time lords who survived. but they survived Wrong#its. its. children of gallifrey that don’t belong to her anymore. you know?#i dont care if river’s got time lord dna!!! or the metacrisis is physically human!!! i dont care!!! talk to me about what it means beyond#their blood and bones!!! what’s it like to have your sense of self stripped from you like that!!!#what’s it like when so much of you is the shed skin of time lords past. but one of you was human. one of you was painfully *humiliatingly*#human!!!#enough about how much dna you need to count as a time lord. i want to know how much they can mutate until they can’t be recognized as one.#does that make sense?
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extremely exhausted. probably coming down with a cold. and unable to fall asleep because I'm thinking about the stray cat I've been taking care of for 5 years who's in the hospital and probably won't make it.
#my mum (who's also been taking care of him) noticed a few days ago he had lost a lot of weight. wasn't eating or grooming himself#and today she managed to get him to the vet with the help of my aunt's partner#and the prognosis... wasn't great. we dont know what's wrong with him yet (will know by monday) but he's in very bad shape#the vet was very worried. put him on iv and is doing bloodwork on him#and i just. i dont wanna have hope that it may be sth fixable. because i know it probably isn't.#and it's better to not have hope. than believe he'll be ok only for him to be gone by Monday#i just wish i was home so i could see him one last time and say goodbye. I'll miss him so much.#he's like my own cats atp he just doesn't live inside our apartment#and he's such a good sweet boy. has the cuttest saddest meow. is a bully to other cats but loves humans. fluffiest man ever.#he deserved so much better. and im glad that if he does go it'll be in a warm safe place#and not in the grass and out in the cold all alone. but i just wish i could have said goodbye.#tw animal death#idk im just. I've been crying on and off all day#but i went out with a friend for 6hrs and it helped. but now im all alone tryig to sleep and i just cant#and my head and eyes and nose also hurt because i probably caught a cold#i hate everything
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mdarc chapter 4 spoilers (tw negative)
i'm a couple of doors into the mystery labyrinth, and it's getting a little annoying having shinigami and yuma go "but how could this have happened? who could have done this?" when i literally knew it was yakou as soon as the game told me that the poison had a delay. this is so silly like "how could anyone have got past this, they would have died in thirty minutes!" ok! narrow your suspect pool to people who die in the next thirty minutes then! damn!!!
#mdarc#rain code#little ranty#also i have only just started so if [redacted] isn't the killer then so be it#but i know they are there's no way it's anyone else#vivia having that quiet (more than usual) moment when yuma said the lab is hooked up to a secondary power source that never went down#is so good#i think [redacted] required an accomplice for [last part of their plan] but from that reaction i don't think it's vivia#i think it just got more or less confirmed for him who the killer was#also viv is so interesting to me!!! i was right that he was going to be my favourite#the bold experience machine enjoyer#i find it kind of funny when halara says that he'd be a great detective if he just put in more effort#this isn't some problem of viv not reaching his goals or anything#he is very good at the things he actually likes doing and wants to do#he wants to come up with theories as to how a crime could have been committed#he doesn't particularly care about which one is right#just finding ways around logical constraints#that being said he very much understands that choosing one of those and expressing it will influence the world#which is why he doesn't tend to communicate when he's figured something out#he's more interested in observing what other people do unrestricted by his influence#this is why i think it's really sweet when he threatens to kill yuma (insane sentence)#i have such a soft spot for characters who break their own rules and principle for someone they really care about#and seeing vivia put [redacted] in front of his own happiness and ingrained way of doing things is so humanising#i don't think viv is particularly complex as a character#once you grasp that he genuinely has no regard for what's true and enjoys ambiguity you've can understand him from there#there's this one line where he says 'after all...i'm more interested in the story than the truth...'#but he is my favourite by far#i love how he's straddling the line of philosophical postmodernism and actual psychosis#he's so interesting to me#tw negative
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years ago a cleric said to a tiefling "don't touch me!" And it spawned a long frienemyship. Now years later. The phrase is repeated....but between fwbuddies instead
#Dana#Vrey#Just for clarity on this one bc I'm having fun lol#Vrey (tifeling girl) tried to help Theo (beard boy) but he shook her off and she took GREAT offense and never forgot ever#And they both became gods (maybe). Vrey specifically one that can See things#Dana (dogthing) tried to comfort Tika (Hat Man) last session and he said the same thing. And the Players are the same people#So I thought this was fun bc our group of 7 obviously repeats some patterns between campaigns#What if each campaign was an AU but the players are like the OG forms and understand the continuity#So mine and X's characters are like people who find each other again and again and again ...l different dynamics but at the core they recog#Idk I thought it was cute lol. Our first serious campaign had everyone super bonded so I think it's nice#OH and the link is one of my many animatics. Ok that's my little dump hi friends hi whoever reads this ilu#You probs dont care ITS OKAY I'm glad you're here
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i'm very interested what ppl find to be the harder shakespeare plays and which they found to be easier. bc i was googling out of curiosity and i found a sparknotes article (link if you're curious) that ranked ten of the most commonly-read plays on difficulty and it put king lear kinda down low whereas it put julius caesar pretty high because of the politics/complicated conflicts. that kind of baffled me because julius caesar was the first tragedy i read outside of the classroom and i found it very approachable; it's one i often recommend to people trying to get into shakespeare because the plot is already familiar to most ppl and you can just enjoy the poetry and how shakespeare chooses to characterize these figures. on the other hand i read king lear a few years later in my shakespeare journey, and to be honest i still kind of have a hard time with lear. maybe i just don't connect with it on some level; i'm not sure. it's not a very tightly-organized play where the action is as centered as in the other tragedies like hamlet or macbeth. that's certainly a me thing and maybe that'll change with age. but i'm always a little surprised when i find someone's experience with the plays so much different than mine.
anyway if you're reading this feel free to reblog and tag or comment which shakespeare plays you found yourself falling into most naturally and which worlds you felt like you had to force yourself into. i'm interested in what ppl feel on this subject
#i also had a hard time w love's labor's lost for comedies. idk i just didn't connect w any of the characters tho the premise is interesting#on my inexplicable third hand: once i primed myself w the historical context to get into the wars of the roses plays i found them addictive#which is funny bc before i read them i kinda NEVER thought i'd get around to the histories#bunch of dead kings i had never heard of. i was like what care is that to me?#text post#shakespeare#king lear#julius caesar#sparknotes#that article rated cymbeline as the most difficult if you were wondering. which i think is an interesting choice#bc it's not really one of the top 10 you're most likely to be presented with#i LOVED cymbeline but it was like. the 30th play i had read. something like that lol#so clearly i was quite used to shakespeare by the time i read it. i wasn't someone who needed to psyched up to read him#(although even i can have a hard time w shakespeare still... and i have only 3 plays left once i finish this last scene in m4m)#i can't say it's a good play for a beginner to start with at all. for many reasons. but cymbeline is a great play.#a midsummer night's dream was also very easy to get into and that was the first one i read on my own#isn't it one of everyone's firsts? it's magnificent i mean. it's unmatched#and it's also one of the shortest and easiest to understand with some of the most lovely lyrical poetry#troilus and cressida was hard and i don't particularly like that one... waiting to change my mind#both t&c and love's labor's are ones i only read once and never watched in any form#so maybe i should give them another shot#i HAVE given lear a couple of other shots and i still find it kind of impenetrable to be honest#it's not that i don't understand the surface level. but i can't. idk. i can't feel much about it#by shakespeare standards
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ohhhh my fucking god nobody needs to like know any of this medical tmi but it is literally 11 pm and if im kept up one minute longer when i just laid down trying to go to sleep by my mother YELLING REPEATEDLY that she needs to pee. im going to actually go insane. she got a catheter in. Yesterday. it is working. she won't listen to anyone when they tell her that this is the case. help me jesus. im sure if a nurse comes to check on her tomorrow they'll probably get the same response. my brain will simply explode
#crow.txt#the absolute levels of stress im under could create diamonds out of free floating carbon atoms my fucking god#can i have. Literally just one day of peace. just one!! fuck!!!!#at least now i have SOME validation from everyone else of shit that mom has honestly kinda always done#be absolutely furious and bitchy usually for no good goddamn reason and then immediately turn it off to look good in front of someone else#i had a feeling mom coming home was gonna be utterly miserable sooner rather than later#i literally cannot leave my room without her yelling for dad bc she thinks im him i guess. she has gotten him up like 4 times now#what the fuck do you want any of us to doooooooooooo. according to dad shes also just been really fucking hateful today#including to her SISTER who has been facilitating literally everything medically for her for the last month plus#like on one hand i know its hard and frustrating etc etc absolutely. on the other. what the fuck are you yelling at any of us for!#whatd we do! not a damn thing for the most part! holy shit im exhausted#and then im sure she will have the audacity to wonder why i dont really want to interact with her much rn#its very apparent she doesnt really understand whats going on or how much of anything works at this point including hospice care#but i truly cannot help you when your knee jerk response is to yell and be abusive. like. dads not been great either#bc hes also one to bitch and moan and yell abt shit. but like. so is mom. more than usual#and ill actually be damned if i let her treat me like that honestly ever again. like idk for once i can just#walk away from this behavior with zero consequences. i dont have to take it anymore. im not free but at least im fuckin closer than i was#guess my aunt wasnt kidding when she said her being coherent and rational last week might be the calm before the storm
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