#the ideas are endless orz

[merakiui]

With the Isekai hentai, I see your vision mera omg your brain is so big. Being isekaied to hentai twst and running through all the house wardens bc they seem the most mc like. When that doesn’t work, trying it with the rest of the named cast. That doesn’t work so maybe the professors? Going through all of night raven and getting ready to go try your luck at royal sword only to find out exactly how crazy nrc is. The possibilities are endless

AAAA YES!!!! Hentai twst, which is essentially just regular twst only here it's completely normal to give your close friends Ace and Deuce handjobs during class. And instead of fighting overblots you're fucking them. Mindless, plotless smut all around. Maybe this version only exists because a certain someone (Idia) is writing a doujin with a very similar concept and by some crazy magic you managed to get sucked into the world (he wrote you in as the main character). orz

And of course in classic hentai logic your uniform just barely fits and is shorter/tighter in places that would never be acceptable in an actual academia setting. In the real world, Riddle scolds you if your skirt doesn't pass the fingertip test or if your fly is unzipped and your appearance unkempt. In this world, you spread your legs and all arguments die on his tongue.

Emotional support hole for all of the overblot cast. <3 the plot of book six is essentially you being Idia's lab rat sex doll in between his overblot. Why run tests on you when he can just fuck you against a metal examination table instead (very viable stress relief)? And of course book seven is the somno route. >:D

The whole school drools over you. It really is just pure horny all around, and the stakes are just a little higher (and far more sexual) than in the original twst world. You do not want to lose in a deal with Azul unless you're okay being at his feet, a contractual servant for sex and love and everything else. Or maybe he decides to make you work in Octavinelle's resident glory hole (because of course they have that) or you become public use...... it's completely illogical, so any and all hentai tropes are found sprinkled throughout every dorm.

Fail exams or assignments a select number of times and you're public use. <3 or you're given to the top student in that class so that he can personally tutor you. And while you're so swept up in NRC's wildness, trying to fuck your way through every guy with main character potential, you've no idea what it's like at other schools. Maybe your ticket out of this world is someone like Rollo or Neige or Che'nya, but do you really think NRC is going to let you leave campus when they're much too attached to you? :)

[woof-squiggles]

whens the next picrew update? im hyped!

my answer is this

okay but genuinely, i have been working on a couple clothing updates i’ve been meaning to finish but unfortunately i need help!

i have a post where you can submit ideas here, which is infinitely helpful, however my main issue is the endless amount of colors orz

i would love to add more hair colors, but that would mean having to recolor another dozen hairs every time i wanted to make a new hair texture. so it’s taking a bit!

any suggestions on how to speed up this process would be helpful, and if you have a suggestion on what to add inspiration/image examples are infinitely helpful!

tl;dr: working on it! struggling with ideas and colors at the moment

[b00m-b0mb]

do u have lore/a storyline in ur head for wandering karate perchance? i love them a lot :')

AHHH... Wandering Karate, my truest beloved!!!! I do!! But I am rewriting my canon :3c so this is kind of messy and due for a little bit of changing maybe?! Orz !!!!!!!!

UH.. WEOW... cringe...

The basis for a lot of this is a really old fic I wrote for myself that doesn't exist anymore waaa qwqq sorry if this doesn't make sense!

• Joe's family lives in one of the villages Ronin (Wandering Samurai) has rescued.

• Specefically I imagine the one in "Super Samurai Slice", since he leaves unnoticed.. However, Joe saw the whole thing! (Imagine this is some like, 3rd incident lol)

• I like to think Joe would attempt to jump into action and help out (foolishly brave!), but due to being a teensy bit of a clutz he ends up being carried most of the way.

• But he still helped out you know, and like, real danger! Ronin is impressed. And gave compliments where it was due

• Samurai is invited for a drink / some steak and rice. They hang out!! They just chat. I think both of them are a little lonely, and it was just easy to talk. And they did, for hours.

• Joe's inspired by Ronin's skill. Ronin thinks Joe is inspiring for jumping into the situation despite his misteps. Like the desire, but weak energy for skill (Joe, who i project chronic fatigue onto lol), in contrast to the unstopping precise performance, that could fear nothing more than a mistep.

• To me, Joe is a guy who's embarrassed a lot, but he keeps trekking! But hes also frozen still into his current situation, unable to free his wings. While Ronin has light feet when it comes to his embarrassments. And, ofc, cannot let himself stay too long, anywhere! I think due to his nature, he's lonesome and is locked into a endless cycle of self reflection/percieved redemption (over critical)

• Anyways the family comes home. And Ronin's like, ah, I shall go. (Not wanting to be a disturbance) and heads out the door.

• BUT Senior is like "Joe, I need you to pick up my epic gi from -inserts convenient far away comical temple post office-" and Joe, somehow not irritated, and now given a journey, is like 💡‼️ and chases after Ronin.

• He really wants to tag along for just a while. He helped after all! Whats some more time together..? Ronin briefly attempts to decline, before deciding the company wouldn't be a bother... letting Joe come along- call this a ROADTRIP!

• Anyway, the idea was they had two nights of travel / chitchat, with a bit of shenanigans to themselves. Learn about one another. Kind of can see a glimpse into the others perception. And like.. yah... Dudes who want to be friends so bad, everytime they talk there's a silent spark inside both of them bc they're so lonely and a!!!!

• My oc, Karate Maccie, played into my fic uhmm,,, she became the unwanted child tagalong. She's the comic relief pretty much lol!!! but she also is like really trying to set them up as friends you know? She sees these two introverts trying to make it happen. She thinks Joe could use the friend :] She's also just nosey. I know what you are (lonely.)

• More shenanigans & silly adventure for Senior's mail... In the end, Joe and Ronin would have to part ways, but, they would keep touch in letters!!!! Joe being given a post office to write to, and Ronin promising to be there in time to recieve it!

Also I think Maccie + Ronin would have a mini rivalry arc, but it's mostly one sided from Maccie's end lol, and by the end it's somewhat resolved, and Ronin actually offers to train with her or something some time! They all had fun okay! Ugh!!!

I think from there their relationship is just you know, they get each other I guess? They share their thoughts in letters, and are honest and discuss anything and yeahaha... Sometimes a letter is just. "I saw a bird :)" -drawing-, and they get it...!!! they repeatedly will express in their letters how much they truly treasure the others company. Idk man!!! Queer platon guys okay!!!!!

Ronin would definitely make time to come around and visit the village, and Joe would up and leave the house w/o anouncing for mini trips to travel and meet the wandering samurai when hes close to the area!! Skipping practice?! For the samurai he holds dear?! It's serious, you know!!!

But I think the tension takes forever to boil over into melting their boundaries with one another. These dudes need to embrace. So bad. I think. But it's so hard, when you know the lack of it can hurt???? But one day.. I will feel confident enough in both of us, to hold you...??? And know that even when we part, ill see, and hold you again? Wails???

Uhgrhrbrbmammamaaammama 👍👍👍 normal about burnt out souls that are maybe a little mentally ill <33333333 I LOVE THEM SO MUCH ugh,h,m,m,,,,,,

Also they both have a somewhat similar family life in my hcs. Dead mothers, somewhat strained relationship with father, tradition, a clash in how they want to live? Something. They can't be together, but they treasure and hold their shared time dearly, and hold their long distance relationship with nurture :) I lovegh. Them.

Also, food for thought- Bon Odori is also in the village Joe lives in. (And I hc the toss boys are kids in this village, so fourth) maybe Samurai Slice Endless (DS) is there too :] I think he'd do that anywhere needed, but I like the idea of him going from not well known anywhere aside from few legends, to becoming apart of this community because of Joe? Or something? Sobs...??? Sorry idk...

Also I imagine a mini plotline of their relationship regarding the fact Ronin doesn't have a true name + Joe's rise to doing things outside the house ??? Things.. !!!

and and UHHHGGGGGGG rhythm heaven head canon world I missed you.....

[skxrbrand]

Yet another “quick doodle” that ended up taking forever orz, but it’s all good!

Anyway, according to WH lore, Bloodletters are fragments of Khorne’s rage. That come from him, being splinters of his being personified. However, other lore says that Bloodletters rise up from the chaos warriors of the mortal world. Instead of calling this conflicting canon, I ran with the idea. Why not both? The differences between the two are largely cosmetic, with Khorne spawned Bloodletters having much more impressive horns and teeth as well as redder bodies and a greater penchant for outright violence. I imagine Mortal spawned Bloodletters retain vestiges of their humanity and these Bloodletters tend to have a cruelty-streak as well as a murderous one. They tend to have pale horns and almost all of them have a mane of fur on the back that reflects the texture of their hair when they were a living mortal, mostly in black or red colors. Blonde bloodletters exist, but they are incredibly rare and viewed with disfavor, as blond hair is a color associated with Slaanesh and his legions. Having a crown of six horns rather than four or eight is considered bad luck as well (and guess which odd-eyed Bloodthirster had six of them before getting yeeted?)

Anyway, we also have Furnace Daemons and Orchard-Daemons, mentioned in The Book of Blood/Warhammer 3 and Tome of Corruption respectively. I’ve touched on Furnace-Daemons a bid: They forge endless blades, shields, and armor to be used by Khorne’s legions. They’re also in charge of overseeing the wizards and sorcerers the Khornate daemons capture for the purpose of enchanting their craft. Along with their cropped horns, they also keep their manes short or completely absent. Orchard-Daemons are the fieldhands of Khorne and one of the rare non-combat roles in the Bloody Legions. They do still fight, as enemy wizards often try to steal their produce; ostensibly this is why they farm at all, to lure magic-users for capture. The fruit itself also induces rage when eaten or used in drinks. Khornate spirits prime one for murder.

Ostensibly, these daemons are Bloodletters, often from those of Mortal Stock. However, they are not truly considered such any longer and their primary horns are shorn down to reflect their new station. Some Bloodletters volunteer for this role out of necessity, others demoted here as punishment for failure. Yet all can rise back into the ranks of proper Bloodletter if they prove or redeem themselves. Alternatively, they can take the path of the exile; many of the Exiles of Khorne were these “failed-daemons” looking for an alternate path to glory.

[digitalgate02]

Okay, but would you say that the normal digimentals are silver or bronze? And why would you categorize them like that?

I would categorize them as bronze except for Light and Hope. Because those concepts seem to be in the middle road for me. Courage, Friendship, Curiosity, Reliability, etc. feel more like characteristics that define you rather than the epitome of virtue they represent virtues.

Hope and Light seem to be a little more than those, and even Love could be in this category (Also, both Light and Love are already silvery, so that's that). Even the one you make about Justice/Fairness seems to fit more into Silver for me. Because everyone can be self-righteous, but that would not be justice nor fairness. I would not put virtues in here, like Tolerance or Temperance, these last two being even capital virtues. But I would put Joy/Happiness here, it seems to me to fit with Light, Hope, Love, and Justice.

Miracles and Fates are like touching boundaries of what's already meant to happen and changing them, so any other gold would be like that as well, changing the odds in one favor. If I may go into another fandom just like you did with Saint Seiya.

In Umineko, and subsequently, Higurashi no naku koro ni series, the most powerful beings are witches but they get titles that define the extension of their powers. Witch of Infinity/Endless, Witch of Resurrection, Witch of Truth, Witch of Certainty, Witch of Drama there's even a Witch of Miracles. So I guess some of these aspects could become golden eggs.

Uh… I didn’t think about it like that, honestly…

My idea when i had that thought was creating more Digimentals with the themes based on the Golden Digimentals Miracles & Destiny*

My idea was tied to these new crests i made recently – In which they could represent a more “mental” or “spiritual” power compared to the golden ones (actually, only Miracles have a full classification – its element is Metal, grants metal-based powers, has the high defensive abilities and can overcome obstacles with a miraculous power. Meanwhile Destiny’s element and its properties are still unknown), at least what i had in mind before that post were “something something Silver Digimentals” 😅 Not sure about the Bronze ones yet…!!

But I like your idea a lot, you didn’t need to put my fanmade ones too, but i appreciate it.

* sorry, Kizuna’s Destiny (unmei) vs Fate (shukumei) is still messing up my brain lol I can't get to translate "Unmei" as "Fate" ever again thanks to Kizuna orz

[aceadmiral]

So, I was going through my Watch Later on YouTube (currently: 640 videos orz) and trying to get through some of the ones I had been putting off, one of which was “Millions of Dead Genders: A MOGAI Retrospective” by Lily Alexandre. There are a couple of reasons I had been putting it off, and some of them were borne out in the actual watch, but is has been on my mind since I saw it (not least that the credits list for “Special Thanks” David Jay?!), so I will bring these musings before you now.

I am wary of engaging with “MOGAI” content because how it was introduced to me vs. how people use it now are so wildly divergent as to have almost no resemblance at all. In fact, the terminology I and the people in my most immediate discourse use to refer to the phenomenon related to “millions of dead genders” is completely different; I would use words like “microlabels” or “flag culture” to get at that sort of thing. To be clear, that’s not motivated by some desire for political correctness; it’s simply how I’ve always talked about it.

By contrast, my context for “MOGAI” is that same thread of “are aces queer?” that we have exhausted ourselves talking about for years. I didn’t reblog the post, and while I remember who told me, I have long since lost track of them, so we’ll have to treat any assertion of the timing of this as unverified. I do clearly remember the circumstances, though.

In the wake of the push to coin a word to replace “sexual” as the out-group to “asexual,” many of us were beginning to develop a suspicion that this wasn’t really a good faith, reasonable criticism of a word that, frankly, all of us already thought was problematic, but rather a way to express their underlying prejudice against and rejection of the concept of asexual identity couched (consciously or otherwise) in the language of a reasoned debate. As such, we made other linguistic shifts to try (fruitlessly) to capitulate to their quibbles over terminology instead of ideas, one of which was to abandon the idea of an ever-expanding acronym and tie into a thread in the larger “queer debates” using, first, “Gender and Sexual Minorities,” or GSM. This was a preexisting term from scientific literature, which was eventually it’s downfall. Apparently (I never actually got to the source of the claim, and by this point I was burning out), the scientist who coined it was Bad, and thus MOGAI was born.

Alexandre’s video talks about all the people involved in “MOGAI” being 14, so maybe we should cut them some slack, and I have no doubt this was true of many of the people engaging in the coining of endless theoretical identity terms a person could conceivably have or drawing yet another set of horizontal lines to symbolize it. But I think that’s a...polite whitewashing of the situation. The majority of the people in my environs were in their early-to-mid 20s, and the people in the larger discussion about abandoning the idea of an all-inclusive acronym skewed not insignificantly older. And even more inconveniently: asexuality was “MOGAI.” I was only a spectator to it, but I don’t think I would be out of line to say that pansexuality and non-binarity were “MOGAI.”

People seem to have thoroughly forgotten this (thanks in no small part to the refusal of people to give up when faced with these apparently brick walls), and to a certain extent it’s possible the people involved let it be forgotten because we were pragmatists looking for actual change and there’s clearly no percentage in being associated with something called “MOGAI hell.” But I wonder if that legacy is why I am so instinctively wary of engaging with content talking about “MOGAI” and if that is, perhaps unconsciously, the reason we have inherited a different, more specific vocabulary for this phenomenon?

[kyuus4ku]

𝗔𝗡𝗚𝗘𝗟

dazai osamu

genre: minific ; hurt/comfort (post-dark era)

warnings: substance abuse

word count: 2.8K

author's note: this is for a request from @pompompurin1028 based on a quote from The Phantom of the Opera, but i lost the request orz but! kat, thank u for being a sweetheart and sending me back my draft, disregarding my blunder altogether :") sorry this took so long, but i really hope you enjoy it ;)

that being said, happy birthday to our fave womaniser <3

The raging thunderstorm drowned out the clack of your footsteps as you ran indoors to escape from the endless, angry tears of the sky. You were soaked to the scalp, and the way your clothes stuck to your skin uncomfortably flamed your urgent need for a shower and a fresh set of clothes.

As a general rule, the minute you stepped into your house, your temporary roommate would be quick to greet you with a joyous salutation. He'd been living with you for about three weeks now, and you didn't really know why he had come back to see you. Either ways, because the two of you had a history of working together in the Port Mafia, it didn't take long for you to get used to each other's company.

He'd left the Mafia months ago, yet that barely tarnished the bond you had with him.

When the two of you had yourselves twisted into the affairs of the underground, he was the one who watched out for you in ways he could, while you were the one who dotted after his wellbeing—tending to all his wounds, self-inflicted or not.

You still remember how Chuuya often made sarcastic remarks about how involved you were with Dazai, to which you'd respond with a bonk on his head.

A close friendship with Dazai Osamu was simply unheard of, being the demonic prodigy of the Mafia and all, but somehow, you weren't afraid of him in the slightest. Your lack of reverence piqued his interest, and as you two aged, his liking for you grew into something he hadn't clarified with you until now.

He had changed a lot ever since he had left his job— he seemed more tranquil and less cynical, but there were times where you saw through the masquerade he habitually pulled off. Dazai was able to deceive anyone, but not you.

You understood his silence better than anyone. You've seen the scars no one dared to ask about, and the parts of his soul no one even had the capacity to comprehend.

You often questioned why he could trust you the way he did, but never really got a clear picture.

That being established, here you were in the present, waiting for him to show up with an ostentatious salutation, but this time, silence was the only wraith awaiting you.

"Dazai?" your voice called out shakily as the cold pierced needles through your skin, "I'm home."

You received no response.

The oppressive absence of his voice implored you to traipse anxiously to the living room. With every grudging step you took, your mind raced through the million possibilities of what had become of him, yet you refused to acknowledge the worst possible outcome. You were certain the days of finding him staring death right in the face was over.

But that wasn't characteristic of the boy who saw the world through colorblind eyes.

The sight before you made the idea of breathing nothing but a strenuous task, as if breathing was the reason you were still alive after all these years, but also the way you were about to die right at this instant. You snapped out of your daze and took his limp body in your arms. You placed your ear on his chest, and to your relief—the relief no words could even begin to make sense out of—he was still breathing.

"Dazai," only now did you realise that your throat had gone painfully dry, making your voice crack in exigency. You looked around in delirious panic and found a few empty bottles strewn over the floor carelessly. Most of them were empty alcohol containers... except for one of which used to house a large dosage of pills.

Without warning, you started sobbing uncontrollably, pulling his head closer to rest your forehead on his. As your tears freckled his cheeks sparingly, you soon realised that crying was perhaps the stupidest thing to resort to at this point— calling an ambulance was a more logical approach.

You supported his upper body by the back of his neck and with your other hand, you picked your phone out from your pocket. Struggling with your blurred vision, you dialed the digits in hesitantly.

What would they do to him?

Would they take him away from you?

If they did, could you trust them to take care of him as well as you always did?

Your sense of protectiveness convinced you that you'd take care of him yourself. You were best at that. He'd be too stubborn to listen to the nurses, and you were sure he wouldn't trust anyone else to see the scars his body carried.

You set the phone aside and with a bitter smile assuming itself on your lips, you muttered out the words, "Dazai, you're an idiot, you know that? How long are you planning to do this to me?" in a whisper so soft, as if you were mortified at saying something so selfish.

You didn't expect a response but once you got it, you gasped out loud— whether in fright, shock, or relief, you didn't know.

"Oh, you're home," you felt the serrated, pained edges of his voice cut through your skin mercilessly as he looked into your swollen eyes with prodigious guilt and remorse. You couldn't bring yourself to say anything before he bent forward violently to grip his abdomen, inhaling sharply in evident pain. In the know, you hastily got up and helped him do the same.

With his hand over your shoulders, you struggled to support the weight of his body as the two of you heaved yourselves to the bathroom, where he immediately dropped himself in front of the toilet bowl to vomit unstintingly.

You knelt down next to him, placing your hand to rub his back tenderly as he ralphed out the poisons that threatened to take his life away just now. Once he was done, he sat down and leaned against the wall next to you, his head tilted upward, lips parted in exhaustion, staring at you with red-tinted eyes.

"Was this your plan all along?" you asked timidly as you wiped his face with a wet towel. He smiled at you guiltily.

"You never retired as my caretaker, huh?" he said before a cough interrupted his nonchalance.

"Don't change the subject," you replied, rubbing his chest to ease his heavy breathing.

"I wish you would care for someone who wouldn't worry you so much."

"I wish you would stop worrying me so much," your simplification of his sentence tugged a light chuckle out of his lips.

After freshening up and calming down a little, you found yourselves in the bedroom. As the two of you sat on the floor with your backs leaned against each other, you struggled with keeping words of anger at the tip of your tongue. You knew saying things you certainly didn't mean would just make him feel guilty, and that was the last thing you wanted to put him through.

He tilted his chin up and rested the back of his head on the back of yours, a nervous grimace flashing across his face as he thought of what to say. His skin had gone numb with consternation and longing. He yearned to be held in your embrace at this instant, but knew that it was too much to ask of you right now.

"It's not a good time to confess my love for you now, right?" he said casually. At this point, he had nothing to lose, and in this moment, he was desperate to hear your voice. You laughed softly, inviting him to get up to come and sit in front of you. He took both your hands in his, and planted a meek kiss on your knuckles.

"Am I that dense to you?" you retorted back, unable to keep yourself from smiling at the way his brown eyes pierced your gaze lovingly. You leaned on the bedside behind you, gesturing for him to come closer.

"You're really bad at keeping secrets," you cooed smoothly.

"Who said it was a secret?" he grinned, "Admit it, you're just really bad at taking a hint."

"Ugh, come here," you demanded. He shifted himself so that you found his head on your lap. He closed his eyes as your fingers ran through his hair gently.

"Do you love me back?" he asked expectantly, not daring to open his eyes to meet your glare.

"If I didn't, I think I would've kicked you out of my house by now," you mumbled grumpily. His smile only grew wider. A simple confession of love for your best friend wasn't scary if all you wanted in this life was to die, right? Again, he had absolutely nothing to lose at this point.

But now that he had finally said it, he realised he just gained something he could lose at any second.

Your fingers continued to tangle and untangle themselves in his brunette, unkempt hair. You had so much you wanted to ask, yet somehow you didn't want to disturb how he was so relaxed in your grasp.

"Aren't you going to say anything?" he opened his eyes to meet yours.

"Hm..." you thought carefully, though you already knew what you wanted to say.

"Why did you try to leave again?" you said those words with ease. Each and every former attempt you came to know about was never questioned by you— you felt like you had no right to ask him anything.

But for so long, you loved this boy more than anything else— of course you had all the right.

"That's a good question," the smile on his lips was branded with guilt from burdening you with soul-crushing worry, yet his eyes pleaded with you to understand he meant no harm to you. It then came to your realisation that the act of committing your heart to a wreckless person like him threatened to draw scars all over your very soul, yet the adoration his sorrow-filled eyes held promised to mend every single wound he had caused afterward.

"How do you live life without being terrorised by the fact that whatever you gain will be lost at some point? How do you go on with knowing you take nothing but yourself to the grave?" he asked, genuinely wanting to know what you had to say.

"Everything means nothing, Dazai," you answered plainly, caressing his cheekbone tenderly.

"Once you realise that, everything becomes a little more... comical. If we lose our expectations for life, we won't be disappointed all the time."

"If that's true, and if life really was that horrible, what would it matter if I died just now?" a wry smile twisted his lips. Now you realised one of the reasons he had asked such a question in the first place— he had wanted you to prove him wrong, and it pained you to see that he had lost so much hope already.

It was strange how the most beautiful souls were tormented with the most excruciatingly painful truths life could offer. Every single individual is tainted with the ghost of their past and the mistakes they've made along the way, but before you, despite how people fear him, and despite how society would look down on such a criminal, this boy was an angel— an angel without a home.

The world robbed angels of their wings and halos so they would look like demons instead.

But Dazai was no demon— not to you. If he was ever a demon, it'd be the times he stole your ice cream from the fridge, or the times he lied to you about going to sleep early.

If you ever accused him of being a demon, it was for stealing your heart and never giving it back.

"Would you like a well-structured, intellectual answer, or an answer from the bottom of my heart?"

"You're an intellect. I'm sure you'd give me the best of both worlds if you'd pick either," he said coquettishly. You rolled your eyes. You gave yourself a moment to think before opening your mouth again.

"I know the weight of the world, or, better yet, the weight of life itself, is the most unbearable thing we've choicelessly become stewards of. But someday, you'd realise the horror of living would make your death... all the more beautiful. We've only got one life to live, and one death to die."

He nodded professionally, but you could tell he wasn't taking you seriously.

"You tricked me. That was your philosophical answer, wasn't it?" he raised his eyebrows, a smirk drawing itself on his lips, "Heard that one before. I know you too well to think that that was from the bottom of your heart, y/n."

"You're right," you chuckled. Already knowing that he wouldn't be satisfied with your abstract answer, you continued on with what you actually wanted to say.

"I'm not asking you to promise me anything, Dazai, but all I ask of you, is that you understand that you don't have be in that bubble of seclusion anymore. You've solved enough mysteries of this world— death, life, and whatever that comes in between; the more meaning you get out of this world, the less meaning you see in living itself, and such knowledge is too heavy for anyone to carry. That's what separates you from the world— you've taken it all upon yourself, but at what cost, my love?"

He made no reply. He couldn't shake off the uneasiness he felt stemming from your answer, which was undoubtedly the most genuine thing he'd heard in his entire life. No, it definitely wasn't uneasiness... it was mere comfort— comfort he was so unfamiliar with. Is this what it felt like to be understood?

He had felt this way before, but at another point of his life with a different person, and in a very different way.

"Do you believe me when I say I care about you?" you asked, your face directly over his. As you waited for his response, you picked out the strands of his hair that curtained his face, his eyes fluttering at your sweet-tempered touch.

"Of course," he smiled serenely. He didn't know what else to say.

"Then you should know that all I want for you is to not feel alone anymore. I may not understand you completely, Dazai, you've hurt in a way that no one will ever know. But hear me out: I don't think there's enough love in the world, unless we have someone to give it to. Would you believe me if I said I'll love you to the best of my heart's ability?"

"I do," surprisingly, he meant that.

He wasn't sure where this certainty came from, but what he saw glowing from your face— compassion, just pure compassion, a flaw no one else in the world was willing to show—made him feel safe. He felt like he had found his home— right here, within your touch.

At this point, if you asked him to unravel every strand of his dolorous soul, he'd do it— even if his actions were fuelled with just a short-lived impulse, he'd do it without thinking twice.

It was just like how you used to uncoil his bandages to replace them when you were just teenagers— the way your eyes glowed with maddening concern while you stayed silent the whole time, not asking where each wound came from. It was just like that.

Though, he couldn't decide if your words would last. Maybe they wouldn't— all good things came to an end. But perhaps focusing on the tiniest details— from the minutes he had his hands around your waist whenever you slow-danced in the kitchen to the hours you'd spend talking and listening to each other— those were the details which made this horrible life a little more prettier. A little more bearable. A little more worthwhile.

"Daaazaaaiii~" he unlatched himself from the depths of his thoughts as you waved your hand in front of him. Your chuckles filled the air as he suddenly grasped the sides of your face to latch his lips on yours, forgetting about all the thoughts which threatened to bother him.

"If you keep charming me like that, I might really want to start living," he said as he sat upright. He leaned forward with the intention to continue kissing you, but you placed your hand on his chest to stop him briefly.

"Is that a challenge?" you asked mischievously, with an effervescent smile on your face which he was, once again, quick to hide as he placed his lips on yours again.

[kirishwima]

Don’t worry about us, please try not to stress out. I am only sending in this request merely due to it not leaving me alone. RFA+V, Unknown (cannot remember how to spell his name) reactions to MC in their wedding dress, what type of wedding will they have? Please do not mind and please study wisely.

ahh this is a cute and light-hearted idea :’) You speak of a wedding dress but refer to MC as they/them, so I’ll be writing for them as non-binary! 

I’ll also add photos of what I think their wedding dress/suit would be bc....I have to, and because I have a whole pinterest board of wedding dresses saved from last summer when I was helping my sister plan her wedding orz :’)

YOOSUNG:

* When speaking of weddings, Yoosung’s always imagined the beautiful classics; standing at the altar, seeing the love of his life walk down the aisle dressed in the most gorgeous gown, his smile broadening at the sight of them.

* He himself wore a humble black suit, but with a baby blue bow-tie; reminiscing of his own innocence.

* He absoloutely had Zen help him pick out his suit; they took Seven along too but he kept insisting Yoosung should just wear a onesie instead lmao

* He did discuss with MC what they’d like to wear; when they said they wanted to wear a dress, he immediatly thought of classic puffy white dresses with lace and toule. 

* Seeing MC walk towards him though, he couldn’t help how his jaw hung open, how his eyes widened. “Lucky you”, he heard Seven whisper, standing besides him as his best man. 

* MC was like a princess, and he, their soon-to be prince. He took their hand as they reached the altar, kissing their knuckles with a wide smile. He’d ditched his glasses for the wedding, finally able to see better with the help of surgery, and he blessed each of his doctors for being able to witness the sight that was MC.

*Overall he’s just a tearful happy nugget, and 10/10 will choke with tears whilst saying his vows

ZEN:

* Despite what you may be thinking, he actually doesn’t dream of big fancy weddings and expensive venues. His ideal wedding would be something simple; a gathering of friends and loved ones, perhaps even by the beach, being able to stand besides the one he loves comfortably and proudly.

* He’s glad that he and MC are on the same page about that; even if he’s a celebrity, his humble approach to life never changed, and he wants their wedding to reflect that. So a wedding by the beach it is!

* It’s Zen we’re talking about, so even a potato sack would look flattering on him, so his choice of suits is endless. He’s classy but doesn’t like the plain old black suit, so instead he goes for something more summery, given their venue. 

* I can really imagine him in a linen suit, ditching the tie for a more laid-back look, his hair tied into an intricate braid, even wearing one or two little white flowers at its end.

* He’d be just as awe-struck with how MC looks no matter what they’d wear, suit or dress, casual or formal. He’ll love them just as much if he sees them every morning in their pyjamas and bed hair, or in a gown and heels. 

* Simple and elegant, and nicer than the summer breeze blowing through Zen’s hair, he had to bite his lip, blinking back tears threatening to fall at the thought he’s about to spend the rest of his life with his beloved. (Also he has to fight the Beast until later tonight and hoo boy is that a hassle or WHAT)

* All in all-he’s one happy hecking groom, and he can’t wait to tear that dress off of them the moment they’re in their private quarters lol

JAEHEE:

* Honestly...she didn’t see the point of holding a wedding at first. Did she fantasize about it as a little girl? Sure, she did. But as she got older and the thought of dating and family got further and further away from her, that childhood dream was put aside, stored in the repressed part of her brain.

* It’d been MC who proposed, and MC who began the planning for the wedding-they didn’t want Jaehee to feel burdened with organizing, but the more Jaehee worked to plan their wedding, the more she fell in love with the idea of this special day just for the two of them, and the more she fell in love with MC, seeing their hard work and adoration towards her.

* They didn’t want to have an all-out wedding like many couples do; just them, their families and the RFA, a little get together to celebrate a milestep of their life together. 

* They had arrived at the dillema of; will we both wear suits? Dresses? Should one of us wear a suit and the other a dress? In the ned MC suggested they each decide on a look without telling the other, so it’ll be just as much of a surprise for each of them to see the other on their wedding day!

* Jaehee is a practical woman, yes, but we know that she’s not the strict short-haired lady she was whilst working with Jumin-she allows herself to explore femiminity more and more in her route, and I feel that’d be evident in her choice of a wedding gown-simple, yet elegant and chic.

* With her hair in a gorgeous loose bun, flowers adorning her head, her ring-finger soon to be decorated with a delicate ring she and MC chose together-she almost can’t believe the person looking back at her in the mirror is herself.

* Less so can she believe that the person she’s about to marry is soon walking towards her, a smile on their face as if they’re the lucky one to be marrying Jaehee when Jaehee stares wide-eyed at the beautiful person she’s eagerly waiting to spend the rest of her life with;

* Of course they’d choose a dress with pockets, she thinks with a roll of her eyes, if only to tease Jaehee about her own lack of pockets later on. 

* They both can’t help but stare at each other as they meet at the altar, wide eyed with incredulous smiles. The preacher even has to cough politely to get their attention back to well, their wedding lmao

* It’s everything Jaehee could’ve wanted and then some.

JUMIN:

* Yeah yeah, it’s Jumin Han, the handsome man in a suit, and yeah he’s gonna have an all-out wedding alright-but only if that’s what MC wants. 

* He honestly...doesn’t care what the ceremony will be like, who will be there or what they’ll say. He only cares about seeing MC’s ring finger adorned with a rind that has his surname engraved in it, a mark on them that says MC’s his, his and no one elses.

* Even if he wears suits on the daily, his wedding is no exception; he’ll wear a suit tialored to perfection, classic black and sleek, matching his raven-dark hair, slicked back for the occasion-he’d go to the ceremony in his pyjamas if he had to, so long as he’s able to call MC his spouse once the day’s over.

* He had given MC the absoloute liberty of choosing what to wear, with the only condition being they have the best tailors across the world work on their outfit, wanting it to be as unique and wonderful as MC themself. 

* It was jarring at first, to have 5 or 6 professionals tug and probe at MC whilst working on their measurements and meeting up to discuss their style, but they figure that’s just how life with Jumin as their husband will be-extreme, sometimes awkward, but full of love and care; they could see it in his smile when they came home from their fitting, tired but happy as they snuggled up in his arms, him stroking their hair until they fell asleep.

* It’s hard to find a dress picture that I feel captures what MC’s dress would be, but I think the closest to it would be something like this;

* “The most befitting dress for royal beauty such as yours”, Jumin whispers to MC’s ear as they approach him at the altar, his smile small and private, for MC’s eyes only.

* Yet as he leans down to kiss them, completely ignoring the preacher waiting to start the ceremony, he whispers on their lips ‘I love you’, and MC knows from the bottom of their soul, that no matter what they wore, how they looked, Jumin would love them just as much. And they’re forevel grateful for that.

* p.s: Elizabeth the 3d is ABSOLOUTELY going to be the ring bearer, and she’ll have her own little dress appropriate for the occasion, fight me on this.

SEVEN/LUCIEL/SAEYOUNG:

* Y’all....tease him about the ‘let’s get married at the space station’ bit all you want, but this boy DREAMS of a wedding, a family and happy life for so long, you can never convince me he doesn’t go all out for his wedding.

* A beautiful, flower-covered venue? Check. Tailored, custom-made suit? Check. Planning everything to the most minute detail? YES. He’ll run himself dry working on creating the perfect wedding, it’ll take some convincing from MC to tone it down lmao.

* He’ll still insist on inviting absurd guests just like he did with the RFA parties, but in all honesty, he just wants MC besides him, Saeran and Yoosung next to him as hie best men (yes he can have both of them shush), the rest of the RFA there to congratulate him and MC on their special day; the people he loves, to celebrate the day of uniting with his one true love, that’s all Saeyoung wants.

* To be able to say ‘I love you MC’, and to have MC tell him ‘I love you, Saeyoung’-to formally and completely leave the life of 707 behind, to have his brother hug him, congratulate him on his wedding-this is all more than enough to make Saeyoung cry happy tears, pushing his palms on his eyes as he laughs and cries at the same time, letting MC hug him to help him calm down.

* While he does dream of a classic classy wedding, he loves the colour red a little too much, so he’d try and sneak it in there, be it in a vest or bow tie lol (he’d absoloutely wear a bow tie instead of a tie, and he’d be allowed one (1) doctor who joke for the duration of the ceremony lmao)

* ((also....not relevant to the wedding itself, but his marriage proposal would absoloutely be at a planetarium, js))

* As for MC...they’d spent nights on the couch together, eating chips and wondering what they’d each wear on the day of their wedding. They ended up taking Jaehee and some more of their friends with them when looking for a dress, as much as Saeyoung pouted and asked to tag along.

* It was worth it to keep him in the dark though; his big wide eyes as MC walked towards him, how he had to bite his lip to stop giggling like a fool, he was jumping up and down at the altar, giggling behind his hands as he mumbled ‘oh my god oh my god oh my god allah and buddha!’. 

* “Holy shit” he whispered to himself, earning a stern gaze from the preacher, his brother groaning in the background. MC took it as a compliment though, smiling up at him as they stood across him.

* This boy....will cry real ugly snort filled tears at his wedding vows, I guarantee it.

V/JIHYUN:

* BOHO WEDDING BOHO WEDDING BOHO WEDDING

* Like hello??? Have you seen this hippie-ass man at the end of his route?? He’ll be so happy with a marriage ceremony in the forest, in a little church that looks almost abandoned in its little spot at the edge of the woods, in a little city no one knew before V brought it up.

* He’d love to help decorate and renovate the church for their wedding, using funds taken from a painting collection he did featuring the very forest the church sits besides. 

* (I can also totally picture their wedding taking place in a botanical garden/greenhouse, if you’d rather skip the church option! Just surrounded by plants and nature :D)

* Even if it’s not a boho wedding though-just being able to spend the rest of his life besides MC, the person that truly taught him what love is, that’s all handsome mint boy needs.

* Honestly...he’s extra enough to be the kind of guy that ditches the shirt, so I can imagine him wearing something like the following, but in a darker colour; 

* As for MC....yeah I’m gonna add my personal favorite here bc bOHO WEDDING DRESSES ARE GORGEOUS AND MC WOULD LOOK LIKE A FAE APPEARING THROUGH THE WOODS AND JIHYUN WOULD ABSOLOUTELY GASP AT THE SIGHT OF THEM, WIPING AWAY A STRAY TEAR AS HE KISSES THEIR FOREHEAD WHEN THEY REACH HIM AT THE ALTAR, SAYING A QUIET ‘THANK YOU, I LOVE YOU’ ONLY MC CAN HEAR.

((something with a little simpler bust, but the puffy sleeves,,,flowy dress,,,the line cut that’s honestly so charming on any figure,,,fight me this is the cutest kind of dress))

UNKNOWN/SAERAN:

* He’d really want a small, closed wedding just for him, MC, and the RFA sure, why not (he’s kidding, he’s grown really fond of them all but he refuses to openly admit it)

* If MC suggests they hold their ceremony at a greenhouse he’ll be over the moon; he’ll personally visit the greenhouse and make sure all the flowers are in tip top condition for their wedding.

* For his own suit, he’d like to keep things simple, maybe even ditching the whole suit and tie thing; 

* I really imagine him with a suit similar to this, but ditching the vest , with flowers pinned to his blazer that he looks fondly at, knowing MC will be holding a bouquet just like these, ones he himself picked out with all his love and care, removing each thorn to make sure nothing can harm their hands as they hold the bouquet.

* As MC walks towards him through the greenhouse his breath shudders, any words he may have had dying in his throat; MC looks ethereally beautiful and he’s out of words as they come to stand in front of him, his lips trembling.

* Is this person really his? The one he’ll be able to hold, to love for as long as he lives? He shakingly takes MC’s hand in his, giving them a tight squeeze as he smiles.

* “In sickness and in health” he whispers, smiles as MC says it back.

* In sickness and in health.

-Send me mystic messenger headcanons for character reactions-

[citialiin]

THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; Mun & Muse - Meme.

fill out & repost ♥ This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm. tagged by: @forseenclade thank you ! man i am so bad at doing memes.  tagging: @blossomingbeelzebug @zhrets @lupichorous @dansiere yayayayayayayaya

My muse is:   canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless / complicated [ z/iggy stardust is DEFINITELY not my original character, but 683 is, and every single part of how i rp ziggy from his backstory to his personality was made up by me. that being said, ziggy is still a character that exists in media. ]

Is your character popular in the fandom?  YES / NO. [ im pretty sure ziggy is tied with the thin white duke as one of b*wie’s most famous fictional personas? ]

Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom?  YES ? / NO / IDK.

Is your character considered strong in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK.

Are they underrated?  YES / NO / IDK. [ maybe a little overrated ]

Were they relevant for the main story?  YES / NO.

Were they relevant for the main character?  YES / NO / THEY’RE THE PROTAG.

Are they widely known in their world?  YES / NO.

How’s their reputation?  GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL. [ celebrity rock god of limitless talent vs inevitable overrated washup. most celebrities are polarizing anyways ]

How strictly do you follow canon?  — there isnt much canon to go off of i think? the album barely even states if ziggy is an alien and b*wie himself got really wishy washy about it (sometimes saying z is a human who was contacted by aliens, he was an alien himself, etc). i dont think we know anything about him besides what he looks like (red hair / weird eyes / pale / “well hung” lmao) and he has a band called the spiders from mars, he plays the guitar left handed, he’s bisexual + androgynous, and he’s charming and popular with the teens but inevitably is a victim of his own ego. and he dies.  that too.  but that’s literally it! we know Nothing else about him.  so i filled in all the gaps because my brain has worms.  theres a little bit of the story that verges on fantasy (that he’s some sort of messiah messenger for “the infinites,” whatever the fuck THAT means, david) so i nix that because i prefer hard scifi.  and theres one BIG part that i just ... deleted out of his canon, in that the world is ending in 5 years in his timeline, and he’s like ... aware of this ?  but that’s dumb and confusing.  i legit dont care anymore. my OC now.

SELL YOUR MUSE! Aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutuals.  —  im so embarrassed i know i could be genuine and actually try but i have brain blockajjolajlakala33lak33klak333ak3jka3akjj323j3 i guess it’s like ... ziggy is truly the ultimate expression OF humanity because he reveals everything both wrong and right about the human condition, he literally embodies the best of humanity and the worst at the same time, he’s a really interesting critique on the idea of genuineness/earnestness vs commercalism in art, the perils of fame, and also how humans are so inherently corrupting?  a lot of thematic stuff i like exploring is like what is innate to humans vs what is learned behavior, what are things that humans do naturally that ziggy mimics out of his desire to be like us?  i think he has a really good story arc -- he went from being a literal nameless CLONE in a society full of pragmatic forward thinking science-oriented people to a sell out rockstar celebrity in a society of people that value individualism and self expression and art, but in the process completely lost his mind and himself and gave into the worst that humanity has to offer like rampant selfishness, drug abuse, self destructive tendencies, etc. characters changing is always interesting and ziggy truly changes for the worse -- but he is never just black and white, he was never good and then suddenly evil, he just was always the same person putting on different facades and trying to be himself by constructing an identity that maybe was who he wanted to be versus who he actually is.  i dont know what im talking about. hes just an alien trying to be too hard to be human in all the wrong ways.   i just like how “gray” ziggy is. he isnt good or bad, he can be very nice and he can be very mean, he’s overtly showboating confident but at the same time deeply afflicted with self-consciousness (why tf else would anyone be So obsessed with how they present themselves?).  hes an icon of individualism but also commercialism.  he’s freakishly alien but is almost more human than humans themselves.  he struggles as lot in his head -- which makes for interesting writing, i guess !!  Im so emabrrased im not going to go back and read what i wrote so if i typoed dont look at me

Now the OPPOSITE, list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?).  —  i think ziggy comes across as really mean and nothing else.  his horrible bitchy rudeness comes across as hee hee hoo hoo sassy isnt he a rascal when it’s supposed to be more like ... he’s so far gone into the celebrity delusion he’s conflated aggressive rudeness with charmingness because no one told him otherwise and everyone worships him to the point where he’s just given into the delusion that he can do no wrong.  i think theres the general simplification problem that happens with a lot of fictional characters, it’s easy to see him as just a whacky sassy glittery quirky rockstar when i guess it avoids the inherent tragedy of like ... everything else about him. his totally fake and false sense of identity built up from superficial things like fame and labels and stardom.  maybe my version of ziggy is just too weirdly depressing and sad when i know his original iteration wasn’t quite so ... grim.  im not very sure tbh.  

What inspired you to rp your muse?  —  hmmm ... a lot of things! i just really got into b*wie stuff in early 2019, i’ve ALWAYS loved aliens and sci-fi, and i was really shocked that db sets up such great visual storytelling potential but does it through music.  i just really liked ziggys “story” and i like any chance to think about aliens so i just got invested into piecing together a little backstory for him using, like, the cumulative knowledge of literally every other piece of science fiction ive ever consumed in my life.  this was summer 2019 when i was making initial pitches for my thesis film, and so i just randomly decided to pitch “animated version of ziggy stardust” as one of the potential ideas.  shockingly everyone liked it a lot and so did my professor who thought it was really cool, and then i just ended up sticking with the character and working on him for an entire year.  ziggy became my hobby but also my homework.  he was such a fun character because everything about him was interesting to me and i had just enough source material to have a starting point but so much room to take him in any direction i wanted to.

What keeps your inspiration going?  —  honestly, yooooou guyssssss. i have some really amazing fwends that ive met thru here .... and some of our dumb stupid stories have literally become NOVEL length. it just self generates inspiration because you realize the limitless amount of stories you could tell with this one single character when your character enters his story or he enters their story and etc. etc.  ive drawn endless amounts of comics and stuff for him ... ziggy is just so endlessly interesting ...   cringe be cringed bro but recently (i know this sounds dumb bear with me or die.) ive kind of realized a lot of how i rp z comes as some metaphor for the experience of being an asian immigrant/being asian in the US -- his home “culture” is a lot stricter than the rampant selfish individualism of the usa (he only lives in the uk and usa, so he thinks the whole planet is like this), he’s dissuaded from standing out from his community and his selfishness becomes a community burden rather than a personal flaw, and when he does come to earth, he goes through such awful culture shock, literally nothing makes sense to him and everything is Different.  and while some things are different in a Nice way, something things are different in an Awful way, and he’s given the option between losing his true personal identity as an atominan and giving it up to be a human.  the allure of being a human is a little too much but losing yourself like this is traumatic, in a way.  obvs like ... a little silly and definitely not something that i actively intended to put into his story arc, its just something that fell into place cuz i guess i worked so closely with my own personal experiences and feelings of “alienation” (pun intended) to try to understand how he would feel being a literal alien an shid. its cathartic to write about him. but he also has a lot of my own personal interests just thrown in -- 70s fashion, scifi, science, tryhard implications about human nature, art history, whatever dumb nonsense i get into

Some more personal questions for the mun.

Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.

Do you think you give your character justice?  YES / NO / SOMETIMES?

Do you frequently write headcanons?  YES / NO  [ i would prefer information to spring up organically in the story but cuz threads always get dropped i end up just telling people outright. i didnt want anyone to know his home planet/his old name but barely anyone writes enough with ziggy to get to that point to reveal it (i legit managed to do it organically Once) so i just had to write it in a post lmao orz ]

Do you sometimes write drabbles?  YES / NO [ wrote a ton of drabbles ! drew a ton of comics! ]

Do you think a lot about your Muse during the day? YES / NO 

Are you confident in your portrayal?   YES / NO / I DUNNO?

Are you confident in your writing?  YES / HAHA NO.

Are you a sensitive person?  YES  / NO. / IDK ? 

Do you accept criticism well about your portrayal?  —  definitely!  like i said ... my version of ziggy ended up being the protag of my thesis film and for 1 yr straight his characterization, backstory, design, and even how i wanted to animate his fucking movements (ziggy stardust timing charts.) were beaten to death in a classroom environment, torn apart and rebuilt into something better.  had i stayed with what i originally wanted to go with, ziggy would be so different than how i write him 2day. amazingly my pre production professor is a literal two time emmy award winning storyboard artist and animator so he definitely helped me design him (my version of ziggy is meant for ... a cartoon, obviously, not real life) and give him a better backstory?  and my post production professor is a retired disney animator who worked on hercules and a bunch of old disney channel shows?  had i gone wah wah wah i dont want to hear ur critiques i wouldnt have made him better.  if you ever think ziggy seems inconsistent or poorly written ... tell me !! i literally major in ... animation. cartoons. entertainment.  my job is to entertain you. if you are not entertained, there is a problem.  ARE YOU NOT ENTERTAINED ????

Do you like questions, which help you explore your character?  —  I LOVE QUESTIONS? i love ... answering questions ... if you ask me something ill come kiss you.

If someone disagrees to a headcanon of yours, do you want to know why?  —  sure! i dont know why that would happen, though, because i mean ... he’s an OC. but i gues someone could be like “i feel like this is incongruous to things you’ve previously established in his character” or somethin

If someone disagrees with your portrayal, how would you take it?  —  i feel like a lot of b*wie stans would find my version of ziggy weird but i mean thats fine!  i guess my goal is to have a well written character, not necessarily an accurate version of ziggy

If someone really hates your character, how do you take it?  —  if you hate MY version of ziggy thats fine but if u hate ziggy stardust in general (like the bowie concept) then u need some taste what the fuck is cooler than a egomaniac genderless bisexual rockstar alien with red hair? nothing. go back to watching your CW shows you dirty filthy normie

Are you okay with people pointing out your grammatical errors?  —  yes! dm me though. dont clown me on the dash like that.  i usually write your replies 12 AM - 4 AM so it’s expected.

Do you think you are easy going as a mun?   —  hmmm ... maybe! i do like to talk to people and i am VERY nice, trust me, if youre ever sad ill do everything i can to make you feel better. but im quiet! i dont really reach out to people and i tend to just keep to myself.  im not very social or extroverted at all haha i barely can make ooc posts without feeling like god’s coming to beat my head in with a brick. im sitting here at 5:30 AM with this meme feeling like if i post it i will die (BUT I MUST)

[eriisaam]

Ten for Ten for Ten

AFKL:jafklasfjj I have been summoned by @arlithenerd

(Just kidding thank you, now here’s hoping I did this right haha)

My responses will be posted under the cut (cuz I’m a wall of text monster and don’t know how to do read mores mid-post), but in the spirit of the meme, I’ll move my own 10 questions up first, and the tags at the bottom of it.

Now let’s see what to ask, UUUH...

1) Is there a character you really, really like? Could be waifu/husbando, could be just someone you really resonate with.

2) How about OCs? Is there an OC you’re really fond and/or proud of?

3) What’s your most favorite character trope, and what’s your least favorite? (Example tropes: Jerk with a Heart of Gold, Beware the Nice Ones, Amnesiac Hero, etc)

4) Now what’s your most and least favorite plot trope? (Examples: Rags to Riches, Hurt & Comfort, specific AUs, etc)

5) To complete the Trope Trifecta: What tropes do you most or least like in terms of character design (Examples: Capes, futuristic or fantasy style, how practical they are, how complex or simple they are, etc)

6) What are you the most proud of? (Like, something you made or an achievement)

7) Who/What has been your biggest inspiration? (Like an artist or celebrity, a fandom, maybe something you read or watched growing up, etc)

8) When you want to relax, what’s your go-to way to chill? What immediately calms you?

9) Any favorite myths, legends, folklore or themes you really like? Or what kind of theme or element would immediately draw you in to a new series if they have it?

10) How merciful or evil will you be with your 10 questions you’re giving? (Heheheheh)

And now to subject all of you to these questions, but especially you: @mdzs-tgcf-svsss-fanblog @miss-laney @moanderfe @abenignsmile @okamiryuu @flowerytrashpotato​  @milli-and-chika819​ @littlemissdash​ @grimastiddies @avistella (kidding, join in if you want, tag or no. Or don’t, even when tagged. It’s all cool, no pressure~ I have no idea who to tag and/or who is chill about being tagged for something like this, I’m sorry orz)

1) a personality trait that most people wouldn’t know about you (if you feel comfortable with sharing of course!)?

I’m kinda self-defeating. I tend to think of the worst about what I do as default and have to ease eventually to the idea what I did turned out at least ok afterwards. It’s still a mindset I’m learning to work on, though it trickles in from time to time.

2) what are you most passionate about?

Creating.

|’Dc Broad answer, I know, but more specifically, I love a lot of creative hobbies, and it’s hard to narrow it down to any specific one since I love them in different moods and different reasons. Things like writing, drawing(/spriting), textile things like sewing or crocheting or origami... It’s easier to say I like the core theme of knowing you made something, and it exists because of you, and “you did this” kind of feeling.

3) what is your favorite flavor profile? (sweet, spicy, sour, umami, bitter, etc)

Sweet! Depending on the food and my mood, I also like sour and spicy things, but I tend to gravitate more to sweetness with less fussiness of how so.

4) favorite series/franchise (from any medium) and favorite character within that series/franchise?

Oh gerd, there’s a bit, but in a vague attempt to narrow it down that let’s face it, I know I’ll fail, UUUH...

Fire Emblem (particularly Fates and Heroes) - I love both of them for just how easy it is to generate ideas for. It’s funny because I realize it’s admittedly taking a lot of things that frustrate or disappoint or leave me hanging with either games that I end up liking the two most by virtue for how many ideas it paves way for in terms of headcanons or fanworks or the like. I do like things on their own merits as well, but I think the “I wish things could’ve been better/elaborated on, and therefore I will create things based on that!” side to it was what made me appreciate them more (probably not exactly for the best reasons, but! It’s a thing.) In terms of favorite characters, there’s a ton inside and out of just these two games, but I’ll give the honorable mention to Summer Takumi specifically, because the paralogue he (among others) was released in came at a critical point in my personal life that had some effects on me that, tl;dr, led to me commiting to making this blog, and making more art in public, and eventually writing fanfics in public too. 

Pokemon - Was basically my childhood and went a long way into starting the first spark of a lot of the kind of hobbies I end up growing up and obsessing over/enjoying. Things like giving me a massive interest in coding and programming along with glitches and unused beta elements, or how it’s where I got my start in art back when I was little and trying to figure out how to do pokemon fusion sprite edits. I’d probably say my favorite character is a tie between Missingno and Celebi (in case the former doesn’t really count), the former for just how varied it is and being the main part of why I love how game coding works while being a gateway to beta content interests, and the latter for sentimental reasons spanning all throughout the entire time I followed the fandom game-wise.

Animal Crossing - It got me through ups and downs, it made up a chunk of nostalgia since the first game up to New Leaf (no switch, so now New Horizons, oh wellz), and I had a lot of memories both fond and low-key terrifying otherwise all throughout. I got a lot of favorites among villagers and NPCs otherwise, but if I had to narrow it down to one each:

 I love Whitney for being the only snooty-type villager back when I played Wild World who was surprisingly kind to me (and I’m sad I no longer have the original cart and imagine she long since moved out anyways probably), and so she gave me an experience pretty similar to Ai’s own experience with Whitney in the movie.

NPC-wise, I’m going to go with Sable (it was a really tough choice!) for the fact that in every game, she was among the first instances you can get to know a villager so closely that she was willing to explain to you more and more of her character. Usually in many of the games, once her arch is finished, she no longer elaborates on her life and goes right back to talking generally, but if it wasn’t enough that it was among the first times you see how her demeanor changes from ignoring or staying quiet with you, to going out of her way to find things to chat with you, it was also the memories she explained once you start befriending her.

5) how have your closest family members and/or friend(s) impacted your life?

I consider friends more as family than my actual family (to put it vaguely and/or kindly, my actual family did few to no favors for me). My closest friends have picked me up when I fell (multiple, multiple times), and they were much of why I’m still here, doing what I can. I owe the world to them...

6) if you could be anything (any job, other person, type of animal or beast, literally anything aside from what you are now) what would it be?

A multi-billionaire Maybe someone who shapeshifts. The possibilities with that are endless.

7) favorite beverage?

Coffee. There’s quite a lot of drinks I really love, but coffee is the most easily accessible for me.

8) i know this is a generic one but favorite subject/class you’ve taken?

Arts & Crafts and Computers, give or take. Pity they’re usually the least important for grades and also the shortest class semesters of the year. 

9) early bird or night owl?

I’m heavily inclined to be a night owl, which is unfortunate, because I’m in a place constantly forcing me to be an early bird.

10) favorite meme?

I’m completely in love with memes of cat pictures where cats have expressions that are beyond words, yet represents big moods all the same. If I had to narrow it to one specific meme, however...

My heart will always be with Anfisa. Aka Angry Cat No Banana.

[coollyinterferes]

   SPEED: One of the first things you need to know if you’re interacting with me or plan to do so is that I’m slow, and I really mean slow, with any and all of my replies. It can take from minutes/hours to days, weeks, sometimes even a month or so. It always depends on a variety of things, and how real life is going at the moment, as I tend to get busy at times, and also my mental health is not always at it’s best (as you know, I tend to go through episodes of anxiety and/or depression p often, and that usually ends up affecting my activity here) and I also happen to get distracted a lot sometimes. Add the issue I’ve been dealing with this past month with my laptop on top of all that, too orz

   REPLIES: I tend to miss some sometimes when tumblr’s notifs fail and I don’t have them on my tracker yet, or when the tracker is not working properly (like it was some time ago). I try to get to them as soon as I can when I see them. There are times some threads pique my muse’s interest more than others and, as such, he will bug me and make sure we get to those asap. As stated in the rules, it’s nothing personal, just a matter of the muse currently being more invested into those threads/replies. In regards of content: I always try to make sure I’m giving my partners something they can work with for their reply and to keep the ball rolling and the interest on the thread alive. However, I can’t do this alone, and I expect my partners to do their part on this. Being forced to carry all the weight of a thread sucks all the fun out of it, so if you ever feel like I’m failing to do my part on this, please, please! let me know so I can fix that as soon as I can!

   STARTERS: I’m not great at them, which is why I tend to go with small ic posts every now and then that serve as “open starters” of sorts. This does not mean that I won’t write you a starter if you’d like one from me, though! All you need to do is let me know you want one or, alternatively, write me one and tag me in it if that feels best for you. We can always plot something for it. It doesn’t have to be super in-depth. We can just set the outlines and go from there, if that’s best (I’d actually appreciate some input if you happen to have a muse from a different jojo part/fandom, or an OC, this to make something we’re both equally comfortable with).

   INBOX: My ask box is open all the time. Anon is on, too. Anything and everything is welcome, save for anon hate and stuff of the likes of it that no one wants to see (and as long as its within the rules, of course). If you ever want to send your muse over here, you can do it anytime! Same if you ever have any questions, if there's anything you want to know about my muse, anything you'd like to ask him about other muses, about his relationships with them and so on. Crack-ish, serious, angsty, etc. The possibilities are endless. And, as stated before, anon is on, so if that's best for you, you can always go with that! I'm a bit slow replying to asks sometimes, but I try to get to everything as soon as I can. I rarely ever delete asks so, if I haven’t replied to yours one way or another, then it most likely means that either tungle ate it, or it failed to notify me about it orz

   SELECTIVITY: I'm pretty flexible on this and I'm open to interactions with pretty much anyone and everyone regardless of their writing/rp style and so on. I don't always follow everyone back, mainly cause I try to keep a somewhat uncluttered dash. As stated in the rules, I usually don't follow back personal/non-rp accounts or accounts that post a lot of personal/non-rp posts (I sometimes follow some of these personals/non-rp accounts from my personal, though), blogs that don't trim their threads (2 or 3 blockquotes are fine, but more than that not so much) and etc. However, none of this will affect any possible interactions as I'm always open for interactions with mutuals AND non-mutuals.

   WISHLIST: There are a few things I've always wanted to try my hand at rp-wise. I've always wanted to explore more of Robert's past, from his childhood to his days as a gangleader. This can be done in different ways, especially if we happen to go with something more "EoH-like" or set in different verses, or even AUs, or with muses that may have known him around that time and etc. Speaking of AUs, I’d also like to explore some of my AUs (the vampire AU, mainly).    Another thing in my wishlist that probably comes as no surprise at all would be the chance to roleplay some jonawagon and/or some jonaeri+jonawagon. Like, yeah, it's true that Robert truly fell head over heels for that big bara guy the moment he kicked his face, but I'd really like to explore their relationship as a whole, to see some of the development they had in canon through all those months of peace that came after that horrid battle in Windknight’s Lot, to see them captivating each other and realize that "shit, this is not just some childish infatuation like i thought it was", that it's the real deal, something much deeper than anyone would’ve expected, to see them come to terms with this “obscene” relationship, to see them deal with and overcome the obstacles and issues that being gay in Victorian England carried, and see them go from friends to something else. To see them get intimate, but not only in a sexual/sensual way, but also like sharing all sorts of intimate moments together, opening themselves to each other. To explore all the good but also all the not-so-good in their relationship, to explore all those sad and bitter moments they spent together, healing together, trying to overcome their traumas together, from those they acquired together since that day the stone mask changed their lives to all the heavy baggage they have both been dragging along since their childhoods, and so on. All those aspects that aren't always explored or even talked about when it comes to the ship as a whole and see them have the long happy lives and the happy ending they deserved either as a couple or as a polycule (in the case of jonaeri+jonawagon).    In regards of relationships (and this includes romantic relationships with other characters/muses), I'd like to continue seeing Robert develop relationships and forming bonds of all kinds with other muses as well, especially with muses from part 1, since I've rarely ever had the chance to interact with many since I made this blog about 3 years ago. Some romance is always appreciated since Robert is a bit too much of a romantic fool when he's in lerv, but I'm always open to all sorts of bonds and relationships -platonic, romantic, familial, hateships, etc-.

   HONEST NOTE: I'm shy and a lot of times I find it a bit hard to socialize or i plain out don't know what to say (and language barriers sometimes get in the way, too), but I always try my best to keep a conversation going if I feel the other person is interested in it as well -else I’ll feel like I’m boring them to death and won’t say much more :’D-. It might take me a while to figure out what to say and build up the courage to talk to you first, but please never hesitate to reach out to me if you ever want to talk, even if it's just about our muses or about any plot ideas, headcanons, to share some plot bunnies and so on. Same if you ever want to send your muse our way! It doesn’t matter if we haven’t interacted before. Just like with every other reply from me tho, I tend to be slow (and forgetful, too), but I try to get to everything as soon as I can. That said, please never worry about taking your time to write a reply for me, be it ic or ooc. I understand and would never get mad at you for it.

   tagged by:  speeb sees, speeb steals >:jc ( stolen from @shabcn and @jojoingjoseph )    tagging:  I’ve seen this on the dash a few times today, so idk who’s done it already and who hasn’t so, if you see this and want to give it a shot, consider yourself tagged!

[merakiui]

Oh man the TWST boys as slashers with a final girl reader…the possibilities are endless!

Jade and Floyd as a Ghostface duo who terrorize you and your group of friends, while hiding in plain sight. You think you managed to finally incapacitate the tweels, but out of nowhere another Ghostface shows up and kills your last reminding friend. He unmasks himself and it’s Azul, the student council President

Or Epel…whose farm you and your friends take refuge at after your van runs out of gas. His family takes pride in their prize apple orchard, and they find your friends’ obnoxious and boisterous airs to be annoying. But not you. Epel thinks you’re so sweet and gentle. You don’t make fun of his accent and don’t laugh at his stature like on of your stupid friends did. Epel thinks you’d be a perfect little farm wife, while your friends would serve as the perfect fertilizer for the orchard, a recipe that has been passed down through the family for ages.

Or…that strange horned man that shows up in your dreams. You have no idea who he is, how you were able to conjure him up in your imagination, but it seems he shows up every night to simply relish in your company and dance with you in the foggy dreamscape. Your friends dream of Malleus too…right before the dreams turn into nightmares, and the brutal death they experience in the dream somehow kills them in real life.

GHOSTFACE AZUL.......... AND HE'S THE STUDENT COUNCIL PRESIDENT????????? WAAAAAAAA anon, this thought will be plaguing my mind FOREVER. AAAAAAA and maybe it's a school you go to that is full of the wealthy (so essentially NRC without the magic), so it absolutely rocks the student body when students start going missing and turning up dead in brutally efficient ways. How is it possible??? The affluent neighborhood is known to be safe. No one would ever suspect perfect Student Council President Azul Ashengrotto, who only ever has everyone's best interests in mind. >_< thinking about Zuzu killing out of revenge. He's got a list of all of the people who bullied him and you're on it, but as your friends start to die one by one he sees you soften (mostly out of fear) and suddenly you're not that same bully who tormented him all throughout his childhood. He's starting to get attached. orz

Slasher Epel... uwuuwaaaa it's too perfect. OTL Epel killing all of your friends and forcing you to be his farm wifey!!!!!!! You don't want to end up like your friends, used as fertilizer or chopped up and fed to the pigs. >_< learning to be a good wife for him by starting a family with him and slowly being conditioned into the domestic life. <3

And the Malleus idea!!!! :O *chef's kiss* he is a horror beyond comprehension, but to you he's just the soft, horned sweetheart who visits your dreams to waltz and chat with you. It seems as if anyone who gives you a hard time turns up dead, and your dreams keep getting sweeter and sweeter. You'll stay in the dream and never want to wake up, won't you? After all, isn't a life spent in bliss with your new horned friend far better than the scary reality that awaits you outside of your dreams? :) in choosing Malleus, you never wake up again.

May I offer slasher Cater in return? orz orz orz the duality of bright, bubbly uni student Cater versus the scary, silent slasher who's coming after you and your friends during your spring break trip to a beach house on some desolate strip of shore. >:D

[linchxpin]

GET TO KNOW THE BLOGGER.

Can be used for RP and non-RP blogs to get to know a bit about the person behind the screen!

1. FIRST NAME: i go by masha online :v

2. STRANGE FACT ABOUT YOURSELF: when i was five years old, my family and i lived in a nursing home :oc or a. i guess technically it was more of a. oh. i mean it was a nursing home, but it was one that was specifically Set Up to handle seniors and Others with. erm. psychological issues coughs

i still remember some of the residents, and i also remember occasionally helping out with some of them, too. you know. in Very Small Ways bc i was just barely Not a literal toddler lmao

3. TOP THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU FIND ATTRACTIVE ON A PERSON: uhhhfjfkea;gerrr???? i’m automatically drawn to noses for some reason, particularly if they’re. A Certain Shape. also eyebrows/eyelashes thinking emoji and uhhhhh idk i guess maybe hands/wrists?? idek dude i’m frickn asexual as hell lmao

4. A FOOD YOU COULD EAT FOREVER AND NOT GET BORED OF: so i usually say dumplings of any sort and from any cuisine (potstickers, ravioli, empanadas, pirozhki, steamed buns, u name it), but i was recently reminded that scotch eggs are A Thing and

inhales

5. A FOOD YOU HATE: HOMINY......... CAULIFLOWER............. whispers asparagus hhhhh i also can’t do stewed tomatoes oh g o d

6. GUILTY PLEASURE: right now it’s probably dollmakers and watching hetalia mmd videos on youtube lmao lies down

7. WHAT DO YOU SLEEP IN: whatever clothes i wore the day before finger guns

8. SERIOUS RELATIONSHIPS OR FLINGS: i mean probably neither, but if i had to choose, i’m. a little bit. ??? toward flings 6_6

9. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN THE PAST AND CHANGE ONE THING ABOUT YOUR LIFE, WOULD YOU AND WHAT WOULD IT BE: g o d. the two biggest things i can think of are that i wouldn’t have dropped out of school rip i guess maybe in the long run it wouldn’t have changed much in the way of my schooling, but. idk. maybe i’d still have a friend or two rip

the other is that i wish i’d managed to live alone longer than i had

10. ARE YOU AN AFFECTIONATE PERSON: to those i know well, yes

11. A MOVIE YOU COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN: fjife;a kung fu panda 2 lmao also honestly a lot of the x-men movies fall under this for some reason

12. FAVORITE BOOK: a little princess, house of leaves, on the beach, and almost anything by h.g. wells, but especially war of the worlds. also i can’t not mention the secret garden and little women

13. YOU HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO KEEP ANY ANIMAL AS A PET, WHAT DO YOU CHOOSE: i mean, i admit i am the type of person who is inordinately happy keeping dogs as pets bc they pretty much hit every one of my Needs for a pet, but the idea of owning like. something really really Big and fluffy Sends Me ngl

WAIT LET ME COME IN DAYS LATER AND ADMIT THAT HAVING A PET SEAL WOULD PROBABLY BE MY DOWNFALL

14. TOP FIVE FICTIONAL SHIPS [IF YOU ARE AN RP BLOG, YOU CAN USE YOUR OWN SHIPS AS WELL]: oh lord UHHHH don’t judge me ok but my favorites are probablyyyy 

) beerus/whis (dragon ball) ) euroshipping kaiba/bakura (yugioh) ) sora/kairi/riku (kingdom hearts) ) i think it’s called stormshipping now?? fubuki/manjoume (yugioh gx) ) bad friends trio OT3 (hetalia)

y. yeah. tried to go with a Variety of different fandoms rip

15. PIE OR CAKE: whichever one cheesecake counts as >8| but honestly probably pie, bc i frickn love pumpkin pie, chocolate silk pie, lemon meringue pie, cherry pie, key lime pie, hershey’s cookies & cream pie-- i mean the list is practically endless lmao

16. FAVORITE SCENT: SO MANY. cucumber melon, aloe vera, lysol, rubbing alcohol, BLEACH......... sweet pea, gardenia, actual rose, actual vanilla, ginger, white tea g o d you will find me literally standing in the soap and body wash aisle for a good thirty to forty-five minutes just smelling what they offer there lmao......................

17. CELEBRITY CRUSH: idk uhhhh weird al? lmao

18. IF YOU COULD TRAVEL ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD YOU GO: I WANT TO GO TO RUSSIA SOMEDAY but also i’d love to revisit sorrento and capri and florence and assisi 

19. INTROVERT OR EXTROVERT: in the middle-ish but leaning somewhat heavily toward introvert :v

20. DO YOU SCARE EASILY: i am a very Jumpy person lmao but. other than that, it really depends on what you’re doing to scare me thinking emoji history has shown me i tend to keep a cool head in emergencies

21. IPHONE OR ANDROID: telegram. ya whippersnapper *tapdances out*

22. DO YOU PLAY ANY VIDEO GAMES: at the moment? no orz but i still consider myself fans of games like animal crossing, kingdom hearts, twewy, uhhhhh monster hunter, super smash brothers, MARIO KART.... and also majora’s mask is probably my all-time favorite game thinking emoji

i’m also a big fan of star fox and any number of survival horror games, but they’re generally too Difficult for me to actually play rip

23. DREAM JOB: god for probably like ten years or more i’ve dreamed of being a comic creator lies down i’ve pretty much given up on that one tho. but i’d also just Love being able to do something related to drawing-- especially in animation. i also will always mourn not being able to be a teacher bc i love the act itself of teaching, but. well. mornings and me Do Not Mix. so. when i’m feeling more practical, the truth is i want very much to be a hospice nurse

24. WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH A MILLION DOLLARS: l o r d firST THING-- get my education squared up and out of the way >:u and probably also pay off my student debt i already have. hrmmm. maybe buy a house. definitely move out, that’s for sure. take my mom to italy and/or ireland

25. FICTIONAL CHARACTER YOU HATE: iiiiiii. er. i mean, i can’t think of any off the top of my head?? i don’t tend to hate characters tbh scratches head the most i get is neutral toward them lmao

26. FANDOM THAT YOU WERE ONCE A PART OF BUT AREN’T ANY LONGER: well. i kinda tend to cycle through old fandoms, so i can’t really think of any that i was once part of that i also have no interest whatsoever in going back to

i guess there’s some that i hesitate to get drawn too deeply into, just bc of their reputations or. honestly sometimes just bc i’m Just Not That Into It lmao

i could maaaybe put star wars here? bc it was technically my very first fandom back when i was like ten years old and the phantom menace had just come out fjfie;ahg YES I AM THAT OLD SHHH i was really into it at the time, and i still enjoy the universe itself and all, but. i can’t say i’ve felt compelled to really Join The Fandom

tagged by. whispers stolen from @sakuraari​

[onepiecehcs]

Re: Carinam - lovely pairing! I'm kinda bad at prompts for pairings, but i couldn't help myself imagining things? Sorta? If Carina joins the strawhats (V Good!!) there could be poker games between those who can play poker, and endless flirting between Carina and Nami. Also, what is Carinas Favorite Weather? Any ideas? Because resident weather witch Nami could absolutely make it Carina's favorite weather on her birthday, maybe. (Again, sorry for being bad at prompts orz. But thx for taking them!)

Bdbdjdjdbgb There Has Been A Misunderstanding! Thank you for sending this, but I’m not the one taking prompts, that’s @eastdemons!!

[too-much-tdp]

Could you use Aaravos for Dark Magic?

This is certainly not the reason why he’s sitting in the mirror but I think it’s a fun theory. (In the sense of “interesting to think about”. Not “fun” as in “yay, I wanna go full Bloodborne on Aaravos”).

I will first lay out my basic reasoning on how it might work and then go over his potential goals and his role in such a scenario at the very end.

I’ve thought a lot about what would happen if you actually killed Aaravos and extracted his magic. Considering that he is one, if not the, most powerful magical being in all of Xadia and has connected with all six primal sources, the magical energy that his body has amassed must be enormous, potentially far greater than that of any other being. The show has shown us that dark mages do use intelligent beings for dark magic. Dragons are supposed to be highly intelligent. Now, just think about all the knowledge in Claudia’s book about using any part of a dragon’s body for dark magic. It means that humans have gathered a lot of information on that subject which implies many, many dead dragons and spells cast from their remains. I am pretty positive that in the past elves weren’t spared either. Viren’s spell with the assassins might be an indication, although I’m not sure if he only used their weapons or if the bowls in front of them featured their body’s ashes. But if you can use dragon horn, I’m pretty sure elf horn also has special properties.

If you can already save two kingdoms indefinitely from famine with just one titan’s heart, imagine the spell you could conjure if you used an amount of magic equal to Aaravos’ intrinsic energy. I can imagine it might be so powerful that you could decide the battle between humans and elves for yourself.

So if dark mages tried to take down the magical forces of Xadia (and possibly wanted to colonize it) then I think the idea of just murdering Aaravos and harvesting his energy for a final blow would be quite attractive.

So instead of a prison, maybe he actually fled into the mirror and hoped that a space between the realms would be unreachable for dark mages. I imagine that not even Aaravos could withstand the attack of many powerful darkmages all running on killed dragons or titans and whatnot. (This might explain why his “prison” is in itself such a suspiciously beautiful place and why the mirror apparently runs on star magic - because it’s no prison at all. As I said in another post if you were a nerdy bookworm archmage then his library with an endless supply of books, magical ingredients, intricate furniture and so forth is probably the best place you could imagine if you had to stay there for eternity. Some have argued that it actually is his home transferred to the realm between life and death and in that situation it makes perfect sense in my eyes.)

This possible past could also explain why he (and every other magical being) wants humans to forget about him. He waits a couple of centuries and has his legacy magically erased from books in the hopes that when he returns nobody remembers or finds out who he is and what was attempted to do to him so that nobody would feel inspired to try it again.

Especially Viren. He has already done horrible things to the other elves and (albeit presumably under the guidance of Aaravos) possibly used their ashes for dark magic. I am sure he knows that you can use elves for magic and he is not shying away from doing so. Maybe the dark mage is in fact a big threat to Aaravos and the elf is risking a lot by using him for his plan, whatever that may be. Therefore, whereas he is a necessary piece in Aaravos’ chess game, Viren might also be, at the same time, his biggest opponent. So Aaravos has a big interest in Viren not finding out who he is or what happened to him. (This would make even more sense if the sassy scene with Aaravos holding the book shows him manipulating Viren’s vision right there, as some have speculated. That is, other humans can in fact read about him and he actively cast a spell/used their ritualistic bond to prevent Viren from gathering information about him.)

This could also give Runaan’s “worse than death” phrase a totally new interpretation. In this scenario it would probably not be an expression of hatred towards Aaravos himself (or maybe implicitly it is, because that idiot still taught humans magic). “Worse than death” might refer to the fact that the most powerful ingridient for magical warfare has fallen into the hands of an elf-hating dark mage and Viren getting access to it would cause the death of many magical beings.

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What could be Aaravos’ goal in such a scenario though? It could be revenge against humans (and I wouldn’t even blame him tbh - if someone wanted to turn me into a magical nuclear bomb to annihilate my people I’d also be on kinda bad terms with them).

But I believe that he might think even bigger than that: I’d assume in such a scenario his goal might be to destroy dark magic once and for all so that it can never be used again. Maybe you actually can destroy an arcanum - which might be costly and could endanger the world’s balance. So maybe it’s a reckless and risky but necessary plan. Or maybe you can cut off humans’ connection to it for good. I can imagine that Aaravos, who is directly or indirectly responsible for humans discovering dark magic might want to undo the horror his actions have caused.

I think his relationships with humans would be really interesting. Would he hate them? Would he still feel for them because it was just a minority who abused dark magic but destroying it would be best for all? Maybe it’s a mix of both and whereas he doesn’t seek active revenge he’s still burned and scarred (and scared) by his past and doesn’t want any close relations with humans anymore?

It would be such bitter irony if humans, to whom Aaravos taught magic to help them, turned on him to use the only (major) magical being who saw them as worthy as the ultimate ingredient for their revenge fantasies.

At the same time, I think his relationship with elves may be pretty grimm, too. Maybe they demanded a sacrifice of him or issued him an ultimatum to solve the situation and as a compromise (and/or because of foresight into the far future) he offered to leave the realm of the living. So as a consequence he’d be isolated on all sides and completely without any allies and friends.

It’s a very tragic and sad storyline. I’m not sure how appropriate it is for a kids show. xD;; But it’s  something I’d binge in an instant. orz

Also, it would give the expression “squishy mage” a whole new meaning...

[digitalgate02]

I mean, Ukkomon can melt so I was playing with the idea of him being able to be able to take any shape he wants to (back in February) and it was a thought like "what if he can do that... but it looks more like a Gooigi sort of appearance" (Rui definitely forbid him doing that in public, but he accepts Ukkomon taking any form he wants to at home. Especially cat-shaped Ukkomon because Rui was converted into the cat life by Hikari)

Two Ukkomons would just give Rui a very tiny panic (i mean can he deal with two digimon like Wallace does?) -- but in Wallace's perspective that's not a big deal?

I really feel Rui and Wallace have a lot in common in role perspective, but we don't know much about Wallace's background besides vague ideas of his family (his mom being chubby, and whoever Amy is -- probably Wallace has a sis or it's a cousin, idk) meanwhile we got a good glimpse of Rui's family & life (including... erm, that part of his life too) but they're were also living stuck in denial caused by an unfortunate digi-event in their lives (Wallace briefly meeting Gummy & Choco and then Choco just getting infected by a mysterious virus in 1995; and Rui... well, that horror fuel scene in March 2003 ) and they also overcame said denial because of their short contact with the 02 kids (srsly, Daisuke really has a thing for sad boys who have lots of trauma and coping mechanisms) so they manage to solve their own main issue with their mons and their mons got back into egg state.

The funniest part of this combo is how much deceptive BOTH Wallace and Rui are initially. I love how they try so hard to not keep peeps getting involved in their own businesses, but turns out both cases those people were already involved there so they had to give up and tell them the real story, show their real selves and then get Motomiya Daisuke telling them something insightful and smart to make them open their eyes and solve their own endless dilemma...?

Yet, they do still feel like they... They can be an interesting, intriguing Jogress combo because i see Wallace can help Rui to deal with raising Ukkomon's egg -- I mean, Chocomon is back and fully hatched! He's like, the best figure for that (sorry Dai, I know the blonde boyo gets on your nerves but listen...!!). As for what Rui can help him in return, i guess to have someone who deeply understands the pain of losing a beloved one... And possibly working as Wallace's emotional support maybe?

I like to imagine Gummy-Choco teaching things to Ukko, things they learned through time and help the unhinged clione to behave and don't do anything bad. Wallace and Rui just bonding over their own experiences and perhaps make Daisuke go nuts with the idea of Wallace teaching wrong things to Rui (but HEY. both Wallace and Rui seem to like to tease Daisuke, so...)

Maybe at the first instance Rui and Ukkomon are like "?????????????? what" because Wallace and the twin-mons do not seem like the type of people who would get along with, but give them a few moments alone together and they might figure things out!? Especially if we consider the idea of... uh, Wallace being possibly the second kid in the world who got partnered with a digimon. I suspect Wallace met his mons in 1995 but got no digivice (it wasn't a partnership, just like the Koromon Taichi & Hikari met in the same year), and in the same year, he lost Chocomon -- Wallace does not mention when his mom got the egg, but he mentioned WHEN Chocomon disappeared... -- So in 1996, months after Rui, he might have gotten the second digivice in the world...?

"But the models are different..." Maybe it was the very first unit of the definitive™ version of the digivices...? idk... I'm still working on this 🤔 (also trying to make Maki-Daigo work with this as well...)

(if this got too long i'm sorry orz)

what if Wallace and Rui were… Jogress Partners--