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ACTUALLY. good question (i think lmao) - since the web novel was never officially published and then subsequently deleted (and seemingly erased from the internet entirely lmfao) is it actually a copyright issue to reshare fan translations of it? not claiming it as your own original work obviously but like. people who know law help me here
#i know some scenes exist translated online but not the whole thing#the good ones have all been deleted#i searched a few days ago and the best i can find is a very very poorly done google translate mess that's completely incomprehensible#don't use google translate btw
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BETTER CALL SAUL!
#this was mostly a test run on procreate dream!#its pretty good but it has a LOT of room for improvement#which i know the developers have been working on since the app is still technically in beta!#but hey i did this in like 3 weeks while working a full time job and also working on other art so#its pretty damn powerful software#good shit if you use procreate already!!#literally the biggest flaws rn are a lack of selection tool an undo/redo button and#and the app itself has a tendency to crash or slow down if theres “too much” going on#like i had to delete all but one of the preloaded animations just so the app would run smoother while i worked#so its still very clearly in its early phase but its good and im excited to see what the developers will do with it#ok review over#better call saul#saul goodman#bcs#jimmy mcgill#breaking bad#animation#brba#video#procreate dreams
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all the news going around with unity's really got me worried for games that are already several years into development like Hollow Knight Silksong and Billie Bust up.
Just rough because I don't suppose a whole lot of games are going to be able to pivot game engines, let alone so late in development. Like it is easier said than done to pivot early in development but i've been following the development of several games that are years in at this point and the fact that they're grandfathering older titles into this is just... it's just bad.
The potential loss of games in terms of archival on such a massive scale....
#Like with the news that Cult of the Lamb's getting full stop deleted due to this is not great news#and I can't imagine they're going to be the only ones who decide to simply delete.#Unity#Unity Engine#Silksong#Hollow Knight#Should also specify that BBU is not a unity game but just a really good example of a game that likely couldn't pivot engines on a dime#knowing what Little I know about BBU's back engine and the work they put in to make all the musical aspects *work*#thank goodness it's on unreal because given the fact that they've got a lot of progress on a working game#i'd legit hate to see them have to redo everything from scratch#same cannot be said for some of the other long term game projects i've been following unfortunately
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day 11
welcome to our first guest on the blog @milkypiggybeans!!
#falsesymmetry#falsesymmetry fanart#hermitcraft#hermitcraft fanart#hermitcraft false#guest art!!!#dailies :]#yes i’ve been a bit busy so i’m using my one guest card i had saved#any other friends or mutuals are welcome to contact me to guest i would be mightily grateful#go give anna all the love they have good good art#i accidentally deleted the original i am so AAAAUGHHHH
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Well, I've experienced some pretty rough weeks of bad news in my life, but this one's certainly up there. (Nothing health or family-related.) If anyone's inclined to say something nice or kind about my existence making the world a tiny bit better, I would be rather grateful.
#not trek#all the stars have been aligning this year toward me getting my dream job#like in the you will never have a better chance at this variety#like in the there are fewer positions in this field than there are fingers on one hand#like I was already filling in doing the job#and I. I did not get it#so that’s just. it#I have a good job don’t get me wrong#but the election and then losing the thing I’ve worked my whole life towards in less than a week#it just. it just kind of gets you down you know#anyway.#might delete later
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aaa my buddy is slowly pulling me back into tales of vesperia OTL
idk if i have time to play it again anytime soon sadly, but i definitely want to redraw/ revamp some of my old art of it and make some new *3*
suddenly all my memories from loving judith and raven are rushing back to me... ughh i forgot how rare they are but i guess i'm not unfamiliar with super rare ships so
i'll become my own provider once more XD
#delete later#tales of vesperia#idk i just feel like they missed a great opportunity between these two T_T#would have love to see raven breakthrough and have judith being his new flame or something... i want more than just the flirting XD#i almsot wanna make a doujin / fan comic for them T0T plus omg they got my favorite color themes#something bettwen like 20-30 pages...#i hope i can make this old dream happen someday#popular or not i really don't care anymore#if it makes ME happy and who knows#maybe liek 1 other person then its all good#aw fuck i almsot forgot i rly gotta finish those meloghia ones theyve been laying around for the past 5 or 6 yers now UGH
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like i said, truly fascinating people on this app!
#oh this takes me back this feels like some good old 2014 tumblr drama#first of all don't be publicly disrespectful if you don't wanna be called out for being publicly disrespectful! crazy concept!#second of all i made a point to mention that no one should look you up and be rude to you. if anyone did i don't agree with their actions-#but i don't control them. once again you shouldn't have been publicly rude if you didn't want people to see you being rude!#third of all......you're pulling the minority card.......buddy you think i'm a cishet white man cause i'm not.....anyway#actually you came onto my (a minority's) blog and was rude to me (a minority) and then sent 30 asks to me (a minority) 🥺🥺🥺 /s#me.txt#delete later
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"ultrus is right, i am weak and pathetic" / "callie believes the way she loves is fundamentally repulsive" / "all i ever cared about was being useful someday" . things i think about a normal amount
#these arent the exact quotes ... sols is a lil longer and i dont remember the Exact SR callies is from#also guess who wrote a mini essay in the tags AND THEN TUMBLR DELETED IT#anyway. ultimately . . tldr#sol is scared of being alone and believes that hes weak but also that if he Just works Hard enough he can be good and helpful and belong#and so is the inverse true. when people leave you its because you didnt work hard enough and its your fault#and callie whos been up against rejection her whole life and cldnt understand why except that she loved too hard and it drove people away#and in her moments of most intense loss going cold. overwhelmed by shame. why wld she think it wld go right this time. shldve known better#and maybe somethin abt callie being a poet. who always thought about what the world Could be. not what it is (cyra) or what it will (oliana#but ultimately with this overwhelming feeling that shes fundamentally unloveable and has to stop herself from daydreaming#then calder who. brothers ranger and mother ranger general. a family who is known aroind the ice knife as their protectors.#and the runt of the pack calder kilde. who was small and looked down on and overprotected and didnt dream of being a leader but a soldier.#dreamt of being a shield not a sword. use; and usefulness; in the sense of belonging. i am used because i am so valued and loved#anyway..... i just think duck team all have their . harrowing and peculiar relationship to like. self worth and loneliness#how the way they see themselves (weak/unloveable/small) intersect with how they feel isolated and abandoned and excluded#and how they react to that feeling in their own unique way....#these r just my silly little thoughts :3#noodles in my brain. ehehehe. im . i think abt it a normal amount#ramble tag#(and hey since were here hardwon who thinks he hurts the people he loves and isolates himself from his loved one because of tha-)#*i am escorted off the tags*#naddpod
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if you have a good vibe/kind thought to spare and could send it my way. i'd really appreciate it.
#saying goodbye to my friend murphy tomorrow#i'll be okay. it's the right decision and i'll get through.#life is just going to be really hard and sad for a while#i don't want to talk about it in any detail but i feel like i have to say it out loud#and i have this paranoid anxiety thought that's like if I don't tell people he's gone they will ask about him#snd I won't be able to handle that for a little while#I don't need acknowledgment or sympathy. I don't need to talk to anyone. I don't need cheer-up fodder#so no need to send me anything or talk to me about it really i promise#just if you can take a second to love and appreciate the animals in your life. that would be really nice.#you don't have to tell me about it it would just be nice to feel there's love out there#writing this all out is making me feel so stupid. i've deleted and rewritten several times#but i gotta because it would be a lot worse if i was worrying about not talking about it#so yeah. no need for likes or comments or dms or asks or anything. just give someone some love for me ok?#murphy is the senior yellow lab you may have seen me post pics of sometimes. he's my parents' dog but he's my buddy.#and he's gotten me through a lot. like a lot a lot#and i'm going to miss the hell out of him#and i'm so worried about my parents. they're going to have a much worse time than me.#and they don't need anything else on their plates right now#it's just everything you know?#and all at the same time too. 2024 has been just one gut punch after the other#so yeah. if you could give your pet a hug or a treat or a scratch or take them on their favorite walk. that would be awesome#this was good actually typing all this nonsense out helped a little. still don't want to talk about it but at least i have ideas for#the 'leave me the fuck alone' email i'm going to send everyone tomorrow at work
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It is not okay to speculate whether or not someone is suicidal. If they claim to be, you should 100% take that shit seriously and give them the benefit of the doubt.
That said, if someone is using their own suicidality as a weapon to gain sympathy, emotionally manipulate someone, or to push other people down, GENUINELY fuck that person. While it's not okay for us to doubt that statement just because they're weaponizing it, that also doesn't mean we need to ALLOW that manipulation to convince us of something.
If you feel the need to use your terrible mental health as a step-stool in a conversation to make your side more heard than the other, you need to take a step back and re-evaluate yourself. And I am saying this as someone who ALSO has shit mental health and has been in the trenches with it before. I get it. I understand. But also STOP.
It's tempting to want to save your own ass over recognizing where you've gone wrong, but just a word of advise: recognizing where you've gone wrong WILL save your ass and give you better mental health and wisdom down the line.
However, emotionally manipulating people absolutely will not.
#suicide mention#tw sui ment#tw suicide#suicide tw#tw sui#tw sui talk#james somerton#k with all that out of the way i do wanna say that this is a response to james' apology#im honestly glad he deleted the vid and also that he's going to genuinely get into a better place#that is GOOD#i mean this genuinely i hope he gets better#but also the fact that he opened the video with an emotional guilt-trip is something i have just been wanting to talk about for a long time#it's manipulation 101#if you wanna tell your audience you're struggling with mental health that's one thing but not in a fucking apology video#and if you do need to mention it DONT MAKE IT THE VERY FIRST THING YOU SAY#that's such a shitty thing to do#what you need to do is apologize to everyone FIRST and say everything you need to say#and THEN bring that up#but even then i'd disclaim the shit out of it and make sure everyone knows it's not a guilt trip it's just true#but like. at the end of the day dragging your own mental health into an apology is a double-edged sword#tjhat really just depends on the situation#like i said i genuinely hope he gets better#but it's not just him doing this shit. i've seen like 3 cases of this shit in just the past few months#i guess james is just my excuse to finally say something about it
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I saw the pv for 별빛 세레나데 like three days after it went up, started this immediately, and then suffered for a month before finally finishing it today. better late than never right
#vocaloid#seeu#uni#serenade universe#세레버스#i say like these tags will have very many people looking for them here#serenade universe is huge on twt from what i saw but i havent seen.. i was gonna say much but actually i havent seen anything on tumblr#regardless. i love how this turned out even if it was a nightmare and a half to get here#fun fact it was refusing to save halfway through and thats how i realized id been recording a timelapse the whole time#and it was cranking up the file size so much and id already been low on disk space#that it physically could not save#the pc was even sending like actual system popups to say clear your space now you have no space#and for a bit it broke my desktop wallpapers (i have them running on a slideshow from my files)#but i was able to clear some space to export the timelapse because god id come that far i wasnt gonna delete it#and we are all good now! now im off to never draw for the remainder of the week or something#thats a joke ill probably be back at it tomorrow#everyone should go check out serenade universe even if the concert's over now#listen to starlight serenade. or even carpe diem because that ones cute too#my stuff
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#baby's first webweave#Cole Cash#Image's Grifter#Guy Gardner#Stephanie Brown#John constantine#abusive parents and the legacies they leave behind#characters who are beaten down by the world around them long past their shitty childhoods but they all handle it differently#very different characters across the board but the parallels guys#the parallels#I feel like this is incoherent because I had way too much stuff on hand for this but there's a picture limit#so I kept editing it#and now I don’t want to look at it anymore#there's a version of this with Slade Wilson and his kids in my brain#but that's honestly a whole separate post#its crazy that guy's dad is the only one who sees his kid not being a piece of shit and goes :) good for you#everyone else is like damn I was hoping you'd be worse#I might delete this actually#ahhhh#the guy and Cole stuff has actually been in my brain for years because I read their 90s series' basically back to back#and their family stuff really is interesting to compare#they even have quote unquote perfect brothers#Cass also could have gone here but her dynamic with her parents is a little different
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"To dream the impossible dream, that is my quest." - Prince Fernando of Asturias
+ Seb not getting what he ordered
+ the usual
Hello yes, look! It's baby Renault Fernando, isn't he so cute??? Who wouldn't want to force him into an arranged marriage, like cmon man be real. Here is the progress as usual, as well as his suit without the design, cause I'm pretty proud of it just blank even!
Okay so this is pure Fernando, innocent Fernando, before he had his apirations ripped way from him. Well not fully ripped away tbf, because that's the crux of his character: is it more humiliating to never succeed or to only succeed because someone handed it to you with concessions? I guess that's up for him to decide though ;;;
The thing I love about this drawing and young Fernando in general is how much easier it is to see his and Seb's similarities. Look how similar they look! Seb is just a bit more evil.
I think that's a big part as to why his feelings about Seb are so complicated. He both loves and hates how similar they are. From an egotistical point, he can appreciate and respect the familiar traits in Seb, the hunger, the exuberance, the pride, the ego. But also we hate seeing our own traits in other people, it's almost like turning a mirror on your worst traits and suddenly being able to see yourself from a new perspective. The biggest point here though is that Fernando turns that resentment onto Seb, as a way to clamp down on self hatred.
He becomes more bitter and resentful as he grows older, and loses a lot of his whimsy and joy. So it hurts him to see Seb, who in addition to getting everything he's ever wanted, also retain his whimsy. He, wrongly, just sees it as something that had to happen in order for him to grow up fully. It's more of a survival tactic, it started becoming unbefitting for him to have that level of unfounded confidence. That's the main reason he sees Seb as childish, immature and undeserving. He hasn't fully grown out of his capacity for whimsy and joy, and thus is below Fernando.
Well that was depressing oops! As the chibi art represents, this is probably a painting Seb got sent in the early days of planning their marriage. This is the Fernando who is still prideful, the Fernando who is still confident, the Fernando Seb vaguely remembers meeting his youth. Seeing this definitely pushes him even further towards the marriage(though tbf it's not like he even has a choice either.) Though when the time to actually start courting comes around, Fernando looks very uh different. This is both a joke about how different Fernando was in his first renault stint vs his second. But also I think he does show up very moody and disheveled, as a sort of last chance way to try and turn everyone on Seb's side, including Seb, off from the marriage. However, it's pretty much a done deal by that point.
Seb is uh, definitely confused, but I think he would be drawn to Fernando regardless. Actually, this might make Fernando even more appealing. Seb gets to push him all the time, try to break down his walls and get a glimpse at the real Fernando, if even just for a moment. Seb wishes he had more that just a blurry, vague recollection of Fernando at his peak confidence. Fernando definitely grows into something resembling his past self, after recovering from all the hurt, but there's just something about youthful exuberance that can't really be fully replicated.
Okay so about the quote. I went with Don Quixote this time instead of the typical Napoleon, because I thought it'd be funny. Fernando picks up the book at some point during his youth, and it inspires him a lot. He doesn't really see the satire in it, and comes to really admire Don Quixote's mentality, he's like "wow he never gives up! That's so admirable!" It definitely helps him through dark times to aspire to never give up no matter what. Though later Seb definitely rags on him for not knowing it was satire, and Fernando is like "wh-what do you mean satire?" But he's mentally strong enough atp for it to not cause his whole worldview collapse. About the quote specifically, there's definitely some part of him, even when young, that knows his aspirations are borderline impossible. I wonder if that part of him feels weirdly safe and comforted about the marriage. Yes, it's not ideal, but it's safe and secure. He gets what he wants, and there's no chance of anyone taking it away from him, no matter what.
I think his title would be Prince of Asturias? It was either that or duke, and I think prince fits him bettee(Machiavelli reference?) That title is currently the title for the heir to the Spanish throne. In this time period, it's also commonly used for the heir, but for Fernando it's a bit unsure. Like in real life, he's not directly the offspring, but he's still the most obvious choice for heir. But there's still enough room for Seb and his house to try to vie for the throne themselves, so it makes it all complicated.
#*btw that quote is from don quixote just so thats clear. creds to Cervantes lmfao. i explained in the read more why !#hahahaha all my lore and tags and everything got deleted so i had to rewrite this all. original post you will live on fondly in my memories#^ i was half asleep writing it the 2nd time so i hope its still good?#its always going to be inferior to me but ig it doesnt rly matter bcs im the only one who actually got to read it ha#anyways super happy with this ahhhh!!!#it was so much fun to draw. i got to focus more on the fashion and its great as well bcs renault's colors are fire#im also glad to draw him bcs i feel like ive neglected hima bit compared to the others! its been a fair bit since ive drawn him#i cant remember what else i said here haha so ill just say hope ya like!#im still happy with the characterization notes and lore in the read more so def read it still!!#and as always please inquire if you have any thoughts or question abt the au#fernando alonso#f1#formula 1#<- it gets more and more absurd every drawing to tag this but ah tradition ig#catie.art#boy king au#vettonso
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There's definitely something about the how the colonialism vibes of both Naboo and Tatooine, and Padme and Anakin when they discuss The Massacre, do all sort of fit together to paint a picture of some sort. (I mean Naboo was quite extraordinary really, they weren't even in contact with the indigenous people.)
and the way that fits with the whole picture of the republic and Padme's role
And it does have me sitting there squinting about how much was intentional commentary occasionally
#because of reasons a lot of my notes have been a mix of Padme love and also Padme revulsion and general tusken discourse#i get it#i get all of it#because i can see she was an actual champion of democracy and the mouthpiece of a lot of the politics and almost the hero of the republic#and so on#and then her flaws. frequently they mirror anakin's. but then they are also............. really good examples of some of the pitfalls of#american liberal politics and stuff#anyway i'm just scolling through notes sometimes and noting strong opinions and feeling generally ambivalent.#and i don't have handy author notes to consult on. how much of that was authorial racism and how much wasn't.#remember that one deleted scene where she talked about her time volunteering. god that was cringey.
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I love webcomics as a concept absolutely to pieces but genuinely I'm fascinated by how much this medium seems to be almost corrosive to us working in it. I'm probably just looking at it too close because it's what's in front of me but I wonder if we really do have more weird drama than other indie art scenes just because like, a lot of us are already mentally ill, then comics is such a punishing medium itself that the usual amount of social tension that comes from posting art online is cranked even higher. As someone with one of the Scary Social Disorders, basically everything about the way the social media spheres for webcomics operate is triggering to me and I'm positive the only thing that kept me from becoming an internet star for the day (Bad) at some point was that I chose to quit socializing in dedicated comic spaces and get therapy years ago instead of trying to stay in the thick of it lmao. Not everybody ends up having to make such a black and white decision so most people just keep hanging out in the pot until it boils.
#i will always own up to being a solid fucking pillar of salt#on a GOOD day#and i'm one of the /well adjusted/ ones lmao#every time i watch some turbo drama go down i'm like Ah#that could have been me a few turns back#something about this profession just Does Things to your brain i think#also frankly there's still plenty of time for me to go nuts online give it time i guess lol#i try hard to stay grounded but we're all like three bad days from a really bad day Etc#not to sound self parodying here too but i also strongly feel that various corporations#moving in and turning webcomics into such an Industry while not actually improving working conditions or pay has contributed to this#there are a lot of weird factors coalescing here#anyway there's technically Stuff going on today but i write and delete this post like every two months so#not necessarily about anything current Specifically
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Sorryyyy for dropping off the face of the earth; got kinda shy after that last post but mostly I’ve just been writing though I cannot guarantee that any of that will ever be finished (also I’m very insecure about my writing AAAH). Figure I might as well post the valentines I had done (like two months late lol); interestingly this turned into more of a hand lettering exercise than I was expecting lol
#len’en#yabusame houlen#suzumi kuzu#tsubakura enraku#haiji senri#art#digital#there was one more but I’m not confident it’s like. funny? and I have stuff I’d eant to change abt it#and these four have pretty good comedic timing as a set so I’ll just leave well enough alone#also had plans for a Kuroji and uhhh Xeno a but those haven’t panned out#you’ll have to excuse me I’ve been going off the rails and also have not fixed the meds situation (I’m completely out atm)#started like four fics; yes they are all suzutsuba and there is. so much sex (not described/on screen but STILL)#didn’t manage to stay away from Hamal Cine Bad End either jfhshsjfb#too nervous abt talking yo pol rn to leave comments but zaranthropy if you’re reading this I owe you my life#also I think I said I was inspired on something by dissociation constant and then when chapter 2 came out I relized it was something I had#completely misinterpreted but I’m too embarrassed to actually go and check lol……#*talking to ppl sorry I had to turn off my autocorrect cause it was being compeltely unreasonable#OH YEAH also this Haiji design was a little bit inspired by a redesign of them from uhhhhhhh who was it. idk most of their blog is gone but#I’ll go check my likes#anyway I like how they tuned out also that joke came to me several days after valentine’s and gave me the idea for this whole thing#edit: can’t find the post anymore for some reason but I think yhe name was like chiosu or something?#did somebody go delete their blog while I wasn’t looking
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