#the fuckening

[eowynstwin]

There has been more than enough drama about this whole situation so I will be as direct and concise as I can. This will be my last post about the matter regarding Myka/codslut. This will likely be my last post on this blog period.

This fandom community has crucified me over a story that has fallen apart over what I can only describe as the lightest scrutiny. FOIA requests, when expedited, have a ten day window to be granted, not a twelve hour window, and normally take months to even years to grant. Americans do not call small towns villages. Crisis workers do not have unfettered, immediate access to clients' personal information, let alone that of complete strangers on the internet.

I am not exaggerating when I say I have feared for my safety for the past week. The three people who have lead the charge against me have slandered, harassed, and outright stalked me—keeping track of posts I've made and deleted, changes I've made to my directory, and even the time between posts I have made. I have genuinely feared that the next step these people were going to take would be to search both of my blogs (because I have not, in the past, been very concerned about hiding my main) for my personal information in order to dox me.

I believe this campaign has been racist ("gaz erasure my ass") and ableist in nature. I believe my being autistic—and my trouble communicating in a way that could satisfy the aforementioned people this entire week—has played a part in the way this fandom has victimized me.

I believe in particular that sheheal has a personal vendetta against me, although I do not know why. I believe that their claim that they must leave their blog up as "evidence" is false—I believe they are keeping it active in order that it should always be digitally connected to me, and thus risk my safety and peace in whatever online space I choose to be in next. I am entertaining the belief that she even intends for it to follow me in real life, although that may be more paranoia than possibility.

I am aware of the mistakes I have made. I regret them. I am sorry for them. If what has happened to me is representative of what happened to Myka, I have nothing but empathy for her. Even before this happened, I would not wish this on anyone. I do not believe that dogpiling is justice, and have fought against it when I have seen it happening in this fandom in the past. I did not and do not want this to happen to anyone, ever, no matter their sins.

I want to extend a gratitude I find difficult to express the depth of to everyone who reached out to check on me. I especially want to thank Early for being the first person to stick their neck out for me, and for everything after. I hope to be friends with you all for a long time. You mean more to me than you know. You have made a lonely and difficult week feel less lonely and difficult.

I do not want to be a part of this fandom anymore. I have poured over a year and a half of work and creative energy into this community and it has meant nothing. I have loved this community and it has meant nothing. I have fought for this community and it has meant nothing.

If fandom was ever a safe space, it is not anymore. It is not safe for those affected by racism and it is not safe for those affected by disability. It is not safe for anyone who makes mistakes. It is not safe for me, and reader, it is not safe for you. I did not think this would happen to me. Do not make the mistake of thinking this won't happen to you.

[whereifindsanity]

[justagalwhowrites]

The Fuckening 2k23 pt 2: Electric Boogaloo

AKA Joel and Bambi finally fully fuck!

(Yeah I'm using the Narcos sex scene gif because I love it and IT WORKS OK)

We all know it's coming (heh... coming) but the question is when. I kind of have an answer for you!

YEARLING KINDA SORTA SPOILERS BELOW THE CUT

Hi y'all! I'm assuming if you're reading this it's because you want to have a countdown to when Joel and Bambi finally fuck for the first time. I put up a poll like a month or so ago and it was about 50/50. This is for the folks who want to know when it's coming so they can prepare appropriately for the smut fairy.

HERE WE GO!

We are 4-6 chapters away from The Fuckening 2k23 pt 2. First kiss is going to be in 3 chapters, first fuck probably in 5 but I'm giving myself a chapter of wiggle room on either side.

MEANING first kiss, chapter 14. First fuck, probably chapter 16. Chapter 12 likely this week, 13/14 next week, 15/16 the first week of October.

I'll let y'all know if things change but I don't see it moving from chapter 17 at the absolute latest.

Thank you all for bearing with the slowest slow burn to have ever slow burned. I truly feel that this story and characters are served best this way and these two mean so much to me so I want to make sure it's done right. I really do appreciate all the love and support I've gotten with Yearling and I hope you're enjoying the ride! Love you all so much!

[hyenabeanz]

immediate thoughts on new PWHL MN GM are:

someone has a modicrum of sense and realized they needed to be sure to hire a) a woman and b) someone from Minnesota or there would have been zero chance of acceptance.

I notice they picked someone with what looks like no coaching or playing experience. Spit balling here, but that reads to me as someone who will defer to coaching staff for things like draft picks and actual hockey vs. administrative stuff. I imagine that was on purpose and am annoyed, because Ken Klee (and kcs of the reporting was accurate but who knows) getting their way on that is kind of icky. On the other hand, I do wonder if we had the opposite with Darwitz where she did all the hockey stuff and the admin lagged (Darwitz clearly did an amazing job leveraging her connections to get Tria Rink and the Xcel and things like good medical staff, but I feel marketing things like MN's social media has lagged hard compared to other teams. I guess it's possible our team just has zero personality to draw from, but the existence of Maggie Flaherty, Amanda Leveille, and Taylor Heise says otherwise. And that stuff is important too for success.)

I do notice though she's from St. Paul, her actual Minnesota hockey connections seem light (Minnesota doesn't have an AHL team; the Wild's AHL affiliate is in Iowa.) I would bet this is also on purpose/they couldn't get anyone, and may hamstring the team a bit. If Sydney Brodt isn't re-signed (which I think is certainly fair and possible; I don't think she's *that* good; not bad but this league is so cutthroat,) their connections to longstanding Minnesota hockey royalty will be largely gone. Stecklein and Pannek are still there, but those names don't have the weight/legacy/history of Darwitz and Brodt.

A lot of this is idle speculation based on what I know of my state culturally and contextually. It's not fact. Is also possible there's other things about Caruso that make this analysis off.

Either way, I truly wish her luck cuz I like when hockey is fun and not filled with shitty drama. I just wanna watch hot awesome women chase a stupid rubber thing on ice while shoving each other brutally onto boards. 😤

[beans-in-your-socks]

whats the single most perfect word to describe good omens s2 ep6?

tell me im wrong.

[autistic-lesbianism]

is this anything

(idk who made this, i stole it from Pinterest)

[avaetin]

Me: /gets notif about a "Comment on The Fuckening"/

Me: /suspicious but opens the comment/

Me: /sees @namiisei/ I KNEW IT!

[thusatlas]

Fuckening News

After a lot of careful thought and consideration, I am sorry to say that I have pulled Helstrom and the Fuckening from Ao3 and Wattpad. It was always my intention to turn the Fuckening into an original once completed. As time has gone on, the fact of publishing something on the internet removes the right to ownership in the space has become increasingly more pressing, particularly as any argument is always based on the fact that it is all transformative work. And so I was only remaining out of a sense of obligation to the readers to finish. However, recent events in my own life have shown me that waiting to start the transition to original is not an option.

So, I sincerely apologise to anyone let down by this news.

I will still be around on the internet, procrastinating and avoiding responsibility and occasionally dropping an ill-planned drabble if the fancy takes, but for now, my focus will not be on fic writing.

Thank you for all of your support and patience, and again, I'm sorry. I'm excited to now begin working on transforming these pieces, and I hope you'll enjoy them too.

[not-poignant]

WAHEYY ITS HERE

WE MADE IT dsklfjsad

[snarkythewoecrow]

another snippet from my pregnant!Buck, buddie getting together, misunderstandings, and one-night-stand to enemies to reluctant roommates then finally lovers wip

The fic has reached 5k, so excellent progress, though we have a long ways to go, I think. But I promise to keep hammering the keys.

I honestly don't know where this will land on word count, but it'll be about 8k probably before Eddie arrives at Buck's apartment (that snippet that showed you guys the other day--yes, I write out of order)

Anyway, here is a little snippet--the angst!

The door to the backroom clicked closed, leaving Buck alone with a deep emptiness and feeling of wrong, not what he’d been after when he’d come out to the bar.

Tears were absolutely pricking at his eyes, and he hated that he was letting himself get emotional about some stupid asshole alpha—because fuck him!

The welling tears broke over his lash line, spilling hot down his cheeks, and he pressed the heels of his hands to his eyes for a second, growling and chastising himself for caring what the alpha thought of him—which clearly wasn’t much.

As the alpha had yanked himself free from their tie—granted, he’d been as gentle as one could be doing that—but it had still hurt, leaving him aching and empty, physically and otherwise.

And Buck knew what that meant. He’d been with plenty of people over the years but had never been a bad enough lay that someone would yank free to escape spending ten minutes with him.

He hadn’t been the alpha Abby wanted, and now he’d failed at being an omega, too.

Exhaling loudly, he wiped his eyes again, then looked around for something to clean up the slick all over his ass, not wanting to deal with his asscheeks gluing themselves together if he let it dry.

The only thing he could find was a tipped-over stack of those shitty brown tri-fold paper towels for bathroom dispensers, sitting on the small desk. Rough, but they’d work.

So pants still around his knees, he bent against the desk and wiped between his cheeks, getting the drying slick off the best he could, but then something made him pause.

Something that didn’t make sense.

A warm trickle of something dribbled from his hole toward his balls, but there shouldn’t be anything inside him—the guy was supposed to use a condom.

Buck had told him to wear one… but what if he didn’t put it on?

He wiped up the fluid dripping out of him, then straightened to inspect it.

And fuck—it looked like come, and not just that—it smelled like that alpha he’d just fucked.

[duskdragon39]

Title: the shells of my hollowed-out dreams Fandom: Animorphs Characters: Original Chee and Yeerk Characters, Original Characters Warnings: Memory Loss Summary: They get there too late, in the end.

Hello I am inflicting our OCs on the world, now. By which I mean that this is entirely out-of-context OC nonsense set in a spin-off of the Animorphs universe. By sheer technicality this is canon compliant.

(Universe co-written by @serethespider and @laurenbrightwing)

[eowynstwin]

I've gotten like twenty-three messages, most of which I think I'll be answering privately, but a couple things I'll address here publicly:

A few people have offered to send me money. Thank you. I know I joked yesterday about regretting deleting my ko-fi, but really I don't want it.

There have been one or two questions about whether or not I'm still leaving the fandom after yesterday's revelation. Yes and maybe also no. I'd like to finish my writing projects and now I feel a bit safer doing so. If I decide to, they'll be on my ao3, which I will not be giving out. If you have it, fine, if you go hunting for it, fine, I can't stop you from finding it or saving it.

Aside from that I will be abandoning soapskneebrace and returning to my main. If you have my main, fine. Please keep it to yourself. I will be leaving this blog up until sheheal is deleted.

I am okay. Thank you everyone for your concern. I'm pretty angry about everything. But really I'm just glad no one is dead.

[joemamasstuff]

When the stars die so will I

[justagalwhowrites]

The Fuckening 2k23 2: Electric Boogaloo UPDATE :D

Hiiiiiiii Besties!

Not really spoilers for Yearling below the cut

In case you couldn't tell from the end of Chapter 15 THE TIME HAS COME (lol... come.) I'm planning to put this up Wednesday but know that IT WILL PROBABLY BE VERY LATE LIKE LATE LATE. I'm going to see just how much I can write tomorrow but I don't want to rush it too much, I want to make sure it all feels right.

But... IT'S ALMOST HERE! Everyone get their lube and vibrators ready for the smut fairy!

[samandmaxfanatic]

another smut fic is coming up

Guys, guess what. I'm writing another smut fic on ao3. But it might be about a certain egg instead. Because one, I'm horny and also because I'm genuinely curious over how the fuck I'm supposed to write a smut fic for a character that literally doesn't have any genitals.

Now, two is a bit funny. You see, I GOT COCKBLOCKED TWO FUCKING TIMES BY ZMOON @zmoonerites. Well, the second fic was kind of obvious BUT THE FIRST?! HOOH BOY THE FIRST!

Because of the lack of alien sex at all in the fanfic industry (also why are they always gijinkas like- come on dude, I wanna fuck aliens) and also the lack of gender-neutral shit is kind of sad. So guess what suckers?!

I'VE DECIDED TO PROVIDE! YOU CAN BE DISGUSTED AND WHATEVER OTHER EMOTION YOU FEEL RIGHT NOW! FUCK, EVEN BLOCK ME FOR FUCKS SAKE, BUT I AM GOING TO FUCKING WRITE THAT ALIEN SEX AND IT IS GOING TO BE BAD!

Also, this is why I'm being so slow with sam and max content lmao. Also the fic is probably going to take a few days so you weird alien sex freaks are gonna have to wait

PS, fuck you zmoon (not really, I love your writing but still.)

(Also sorry for tagging you, BUT I THINK YOU SHOULD SEE THIS BECAUSE I AM NOT GONNA GET COCKBLOCKED AGAIN IN YOUR FICS.)

[themummersfolly]

Worked 18 hrs and then got stuck waiting in the ambulance bay on this last call. Not to mention over the past 36 hrs the owners of the company made a bunch of sweeping decisions that basically have the whole thing circling the drain, and I'm not sticking around to watch it burn.

Today really has been the fucking Worst™️.