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um um so dialtown art (i already posted allathis to bluesky but i got literally 0 likes so im crawling back to tumblr. hi.)
please like me again thankls
#art#koi_draws#dialtown#dialtown art#randy jade#randal jade#the fuck is olivers last name#oliveman#IDONTKNO#ah right#oliver swift#also#phonegingi#dialtown gingi#gingi#randys font is called âwash your handsâ i think its funny
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HE'S GONNA STEAL--NOT JUST YOUR HEART--BUT EVERYTHING YOU OWN AS WELL!!!
#chrisrin doodles#grian#mcyt#persona 5#hermitcraft#i should probably come up with a name for this au?#anyways GRIAN!#i didn't have a firm persona in mind for him#but i was thinking about maybe someone like artful dodger?#from oliver twist#ill be frank i know nothing about the novel#i was just looking last night for famous thieves but specifically like#very sterotypical pickpockets/classic thieves#not very gentleman-y at all#he's probably a wind user#super quick on his feet#he does not have a gun he just throws explosives#if youre wondering about his outfit i think it's VERY fitting for grian to have his ideal version of 'rebellion'#be literally like. a petty robber who causes absolute chaos#he still has his shackles on#theyre broken#he just got out of jail#he's going to rob another bank#he's going to be a Fucking Menace#and no one can stop him#his codename i think would change every single time#scar just calls him something new every time they go in#and the rest of the thieves just roll with it
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what if I go insane and
explode
#I HAVE SO MUCH MORE FROM THE LAST MONTH#BUT#I'll post it later#maybe#do not question karen with maud.#dialtown#dialtown fanart#gingi#phonegingi#randy jade#oliver swift#karen dunn#norm allen#mayor mingus#peter kennedy#steven stevenson#rangingi#the fuck is their poly name#olangingi#????#olandy#oligingi#fanart#art#laazytoaster
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THIS IS EPIC: CUT SONG SAGA
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polites' verse drop kicked me in the feels, threw me off the walls of troy, shot me in the heart, pancake'd me, send me to hades and back,
i am never ever recovering from the way polites "what keeps you up so late at night my friend?" is the same as telemachus' "tell me athena why you came to my aid?" :')
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wholesomeness to either heal or do further harm lol. the bromance is bromancing i love them sm polites is the light & love of my life asdfgh
WHY. WHY DID YOU DID THIS? WHYYYYYY
#IM SO SICK#JORGE WHEN I CATCH YOU JORGE#WHY#sobbing my eyes out#polites my beloved#THE FUCKING UNDERWORLD MOTIF NOOOOOOOOOOO#me @ my moots#let me be your light#:3#polites#odysseus#we need a cut song saga an outtake compilation and an official silly saga ft the cast and crew#do yall see my vision#epic the musical#this is epic#i wont be survivng the ithaca saga my heart wont be able to handle the waiting motifs. is the last song still called olive tree?#its such a pretty name#greek mythology
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I am absolutely pulling reaction images from this because fucking hell
I, too, am emotionally dead now
#john oliver#andy zaltzman#the bugle#the bugle podcast#comedy was indeed a mistake#fuck you chris#i really wish i could remember his last name#Youtube
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??????????? wait what the fuck do you mean aiku is his first name
#đđđđđđ#hello .#was looking smth uo for fawn HELLOOOO ???? IS THAT TRUE ?????????#WHAT KIND OF FAMILY NAME IS OLIVER THERES NO FUCKING WAY#im devastated theres no way right ?????? mistranslationâŠ.????????? his LAST name is oliver ???????????????????#đđđđđđđđ no . i reject this piece of information#ur last name is not âoliverâ grow tf up thats too much even for a swedish family#ari noises â©
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Knight-Commander Theodore Marshall
Carrion's former mentor and father figure, and the commander of the Knights of the Silver Order. Just a Dad trying his best. Regrets nothing more than leaving the boy he knew as Reverence for dead. Unfortunately for him, Reverence Carrion is alive, and wants him dead...
[closeup of his face and official art reference under the cut]
#ts4#the sims 4#sims 4 CAS#ts4 CAS#adventures in cas#my sims#cas#dnd sims#dnd extras#oc: Theodore Marshall#(he needs a last name bc I have other Theodores. I didn't choose his name it's part of the Official Lore so...)#ts4 fantasy#sims 4 fantasy#ts4 dnd#sims 4 dnd#I couldn't quite get his skintone right so I might have to go back and try and tweak that later.#in the art it's an interesting mix between olive-y and cool-toned and I wasn't quite able to replicate that in sims yet.#I'm gonna keep working on him though.#but yeah. Theodore and Carrion are my 2nd pair of tragic mentor/mentee figures and I'm obsessed with them.#it's so interesting bc Carrion is kinda the villain in this circumstance. Or at least he has a very strong potential to be.#it'll be interesting to see how this plays out in-campaign.#thank you to Izzy for running Drakkenheim for us. It's gonna be so much fun I can't fucking wait.#he's definitely a DILF even if only via his father-like role with Reverence.#The grizzled/tired dad vibes are strong with him for sure.#funnily enough him and Sigmar (Rook's mentor/father figure/betrayer) use the same hair. Which was NOT intentional on my part.#but is very funny.
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Thanks for your answer about Remus & Tonks!
I read both posts attentively, and yeah, I agree with pretty much everything. That plot point always baffled me, I always wondered why JKR went there. Was it a way to thwart the fandom, which was already start to annoy her at the time? IDK. I'm not judging the relationship (in Canon), I'm neither pro nor con, it's just that it always mystified me. But I like your take about Tonks being a v. realistic 23 y-o, a lot!
Anyway, thanks again for taking the time to answer. Have a lovely day! :3
Of course! You have a lovely one, too.
If we're talking about Doylist interpretations of the story â i.e. why the Author as a person whose to do something, as opposed to what's going on purely inside the text â I don't have the history to remember if Wolfstar was big enough at the time for JKR to notice or want to respond to it. Sirius dies in Book 5, which seems like enough to sink the ship in any case. My theory is that she decided during the outlining process of Book 5 that she wanted the series to end with Harry being the guardian of a child whose situation paralleled his â a war orphan whose parents were killed fighting Voldemort â to demonstrate that the story had come full-circle.
At that point, I think she looked at the characters she'd sketched out for Book 5 and decided Lupin would be the best candidate, since he would be the only person likely to name a seventeen-year-old Harry as godfather (my read of that scene is Lupin's deep in the textbook Marauder project-my-relationship-with-James-onto-Harry coping mechanism, which is why he's so shocked when the Literal Neglected Child rips him a new one for attempting to neglect his newborn child). At that point, Rowling needs to find Lupin a wife, and Tonks is one of the few female characters who's (a) unattached and (b) potentially of the age to be considering marriage and children. So she spends the next two books setting up the marriage, childbirth, and eventual martyrdom at the Battle of Hogwarts.
Like you, I don't take this as a point in favor or against their relationship; I think that most dynamics can be interesting if done well, and there was a lot to explore in Tonks and Remus. But the later books got really fucking crowded, and you see the toll in plot lines like this, where the scenes they have together just aren't enough to establish two people who are falling in love.
#that last bit I waffle on because I actually do think you can sell a romance in 1 scene if it's good enough#if you know how to write chemistry and tension. it's fucking hard but I've seen authors do it#but yeah anyway I think the ultimate point of Remus and Tonks is Teddy Lupin#in the same way that the ultimate end of Harry's story is Kids#all of whom are named after parents or mentors from the previous generation#don't get me started on *lbus S*everus#it's like sam from LOTR naming his kid with rosie fucking. Gandalf Saruman Gamgee#what was wrong with 'arthur'? i ask you. what was wrong with a 'neville'? or a 'cedric' even?#'oliver wood potter. you were named after the best quidditch player i ever knew'
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Got too much I wanna do to finish these but!! Babies!
#fired on mars#jeff cooper#jaxton oliver#darren young#brandon o'brien#martin#fucking love martin lol#crystal#i cant find some last names#i wish this show was more loved hahaha#fanart#sketch#I fought the urge to put darren in the pod LOL
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Gay dog polycule
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#'but javi! isnt georgette a woman????' only part time#hashtag bigender georgette#oliver and company#georgette#tito#francis#ignacio alonso julio federico de tito#wait if his name is de tito does that mean hes going by his last name#got three whole fucking names and likes NONE of them#apparently#javi rambles
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im too lazy to give them all separate posts. please actually click on them for quality, lol.
#tuna talks#homestuck art#homestuck fankid#homestuck#june lalonde#okay here we go#augi duncan#tawnne aubrak#catt monroe#kallei akkoge#tink murray#ryan ... the fuck ia his last name. Idk#razz leberry#random olive girl i drew for fun#faust meyers#vrykol euthis#antaka mitrai#leon huygens#mars huygens#cleo aarons#random kid w no name#java thobey#rose lalonde#valais arryes#tuna draws (sprites)#tuna draws#tuna draws (misc)#tuna draws (ships)#tunaventures#FUCK I FORGOT
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#long post#sorry lol. i lost enthusiam for this shit. so quickly. which is why the first spread is inks then like fucking just pen#after wards man FUCK THIS#its fine tho its okay it didnt turn out as bad as i thought it was gonna lamo#we made bad to make good âĄ#me op#traditional#comics#vtm#office party#vtm oc#vtm ocs#oc: tucker elson#others oc: noah oliver roman salacia#its salatiano but i havent chnaged the tag yet đ#others oc: jordan bateman#BAITMAN god i cant get thei last names right huh#others oc: takemi#i dont know his last name either.#goes wayyy to fast feels like esp at the end oh well.#set before the pther sewer encounter art. they go back down their lol
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They really just said FUCK character development and letâs go full on hypocrisy on both Eddie w/ âyou should never date someone you met on a callâ just to go on a date with a girl he met during a call in witch he didnât even.. interacted with?? She was the first latina available woman and they rolled with it (so blandly racist btw after Shannon all of his interest has been latino women??) and Buck âi donât want to pick the wrong couch againâ and then picking a couch with a girl that he had 3 dates in total, two ending terribly, sheâs/was obsessed over his death, she got jealous of his past after 1 date, judged him and left saying the seme exact works Taylor said to him when they broke up. And yet sheâs the right one for Gods knows what reason.
This isnât even about Buddie just a bit shh itâs about ruining two characters for the sake of an heteronormative happy ending that makes no sense at all. They really thought that this was going to be the season finale and instead of just leave them single they HAD to pair them with some women as if Eddie wasnât a whole homosexual
#911#and oliver saying that we would be happy with this ending when it was the WORST emdinh they could give us#and him absolutely shitting over the couch theory#i know someone will read this as misogynistic or whatever#but who gives a FUCK about two characters that combined had 10 minutes screentime#and one was terrible for her whole 7 minutes the constant oh So Cool ISTG#and marisol doesnât even have a last name đ#im so mad its 4am and im still sick and YET#i didnt watch pass rhe kiss scene cuz it started lagging and I didnât want to see anymore out of anger#so idk how he actually asked her on a date or how chris was involved and i dont wven want to know.#911 on fox#buddie
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#fuck ted cruz#the only good thing about hearing his name is that these poems go through my head and then I get a little laugh#last week tonight#last week with john oliver#Youtube
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Madam Zenin - T.F.
Synopsis. Thereâs nothing that rouses Toji, the infamous head of the Zenin clan, nothing that will make him lose control - until they take whatâs most important to him. You.
Pairing. Toji Fushiguro x Reader
Content. MDNI, fem! reader, arranged marriage, clan leader! Toji, kĂdnapping, the elders sĂșck, Toji goes INSANE, BRĂEDING, talks of an heir, oraI (fem), fĂngering, Tojiâs powers, FĂRAL Toji, crĂ©ampie, spĂtting, overstĂm, AU if Toji didnât leave the clan, slight misogyny from Naoya, slight bIood, pet names, swearing.
Word count. 6.2k
A/N. Didnât realize how much clan leader!Toji made me quake soâŠHope yâall have a good day <3
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âWho took her?â
âM-master?â
There wasnât a single individual in the Zenin Estate that didnât think Toji Zenin wouldnât kill them in the blink of an eye. Happily, at that.Â
It was rumored he was cursed, ruthless. And out of everyone - elders, servants, children - not one didnât look over their shoulder behind every corner of the sprawling Zenin house, flinching at his mere shadow. Broad, towering, wrenching out nothing but hushed apologies and deep bows - they never dared to look into his devastating eyes.Â
And right now, that pale-faced attendant of yours could only tremble - pray - she wonât be next on Tojiâs long, long list of victims when the looming man himself bends to meet her lowered gaze. And oh-
Fuck.Â
No one ever saw the vicious head of the Zenin clan smile - no one.Â
Except you.
And here he had the most dangerous grin gracing his features, darkened olive eyes wide - crazed, when they halt on that slightest drop of red sinking into the tatami mats.
âMy wife.â The other woman jumps when he loudly kicks your chamber door open. Abruptly barking out a deep, humorless laugh at the disheveled emptiness inside, âWho took my wife?â
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Young master Zenin - Toji Zenin. Your husband.
Itâs only been a few months since your stiff, lavish wedding ceremony to him - part of an arranged deal made between his clan and your own. Your parents practically leapt at the chance to marry into such an esteemed jujutsu name, forgetting all those dark rumors swirling around the young head at the first golden glint of the Zenin familyâs massive treasury. Â
Sure, they promised to treat you well, to prime you into becoming the new madam of their distinguished household. But you knew better - it wasnât your upbringing or your cursed technique that brought you here, they couldnât care less - no, it was because of an heir.Â
The one thing that the Zenin family didnât have.Â
And the one thing Toji Zenin refused to give them.
That much was obvious when just minutes after exchanging vows and the ceremonial sake, a group of todgering elders had thrust a heady antidote for conception into your hands, smiling smugly as if theyâd just given you the wedding gift of the century. Of course, your all-new husband didnât even look at you properly on your wedding night - opting instead for a short, husky goodnight and to sleep in a separate bedroom down the hall from the newly-wedsâ chamber.Â
He wasnât a cruel husband, you think, and he was attractive - painfully so - and felt more like a gruff acquaintance than anything. But the only problem was that he didnât embrace you, not even a fleeting kiss.
Even when you really wanted Toji to.
â-T-Toji?â youâre breathing shallowly, eyes blinking up hazily at the dim lighting. It comes out small, cracking so pathetically at the end.
â---Toji--even----â
âNo use--- had--months---â
â---keep her to myself--â
Instantly, youâre sitting upright in a cold, wooden chair. Heart thumping wildly against the ribs of your body, it bangs at the thickly digging rope wrapping around your body.
Shit shit shit - where were you? The last thing you remembered was chatting with your attendant in your room, and sheâd handed you a brand-new perfume to smell- Fuck. Where was-
âAh, youâre awake.â Thereâs a high, sing-song voice from somewhere on your right, and your blood runs chillingly cold when you recognize that voice. âHonestly, I hoped you wouldnât be around for this part but-â Naoya Zenin claps his hands to get the attention of every other elder hunched around the traditional Japanese room. â-that just makes it all the more fun, right?â
With the one tiny lantern being lit overhead, you could make out those scraggly smiles, the sharp glint of the Zenin Clanâs famed katanas. A tear stumbles down your trembling cheek, tasting salty on your lips.
âAww, not the tears.â Naoya guffaws, âYou know mânot good with the tears.â Those ropes pinning your hands behind your back rub raw with your frantic movement, creaking and unstirring despite your best efforts. âTry and try all you want, sweetcheeks, but a failure of the Zenin clan will only be met with the appropriate consequences.â
A failure.
The words wouldâve cut deep had they not been the very same ones spat at you at every clan meeting - the exact reason you didnât accompany Toji to the one today. Toji, you think. Fuck, how you wished youâd have gone just this one time.Â
Straightening your spine the best you could in this binding chair, you ask - firm, pretending for all the world to be as confident as youâre not. âWhat do you want from me?â
Itâs as if your question is the biggest joke that every scowling man in this room had heard, and they all burst into wheezing, riotous laughter. Some even slapping their knees - even Naoya gives you a cold, leeringly gleeful grin, âJust as mouthy as he is, huh?â He turns back to the elders, âSheâs asking what we want!â
You bristle at another bout of cackles, struggling to hiss out a strangled, âWell- well if you bastards just fucking told me-â
âAn heir.âÂ
Fuck, you had a feeling it was this.
âWhat? You pussies get your rocks off by wondering about mine and Tojiâs sex life?â you let out shrill laughter, mouth moving before your brain because fuck, if it was all going to end now, might as well spew out everything youâve wanted to since you walked in here. You shake your woozy head, âOh fuckinâ grow up, if the man himself wanted an heir then youâd know-â
Eyes enraged, he takes a heated step towards you, âYou little-â
âNaoya.â The strained drawl of an elder youâd seen around the corridors stops him straight in his tracks, and Naoya gives the man a hasty, reluctant bow. âFinish it. Before he gets back.â
Those last few words splatter a few drops of panic into your words, and a few more exhausted tears stream down your face.Â
âHeh, whatever.â heâs taking one last greedy lookover down your rattling figure. âWouldâve taken yâfor myself if I didnât think heâd kill me, sweetcheeks. What a shame.â Trailing off airily, he turns back towards where you spot another spiking glisten in the dark, a metallic twang! rings through the thick, musty atmosphere. âWho knows, maybe his next wife will actually listen to a thing or two.â
Next wife.Â
Youâre not sure why but the thought made your heart clench. And youâre gasping when he turns back around - silver katana in hand - trying to scream, yell, anything for help. But no sound comes out.Â
Instead, all you can do is gape when Naoya crowds in menacingly closer, you can just hear the smile in his voice when he coos mockingly, âYouâre much better when you shut up, doll.â You press your lips tightly together at the same, sullied use of Tojiâs nickname for you - wondering how he would react to all of this. Wincing at the cutting whoosh! of the katana being raised up, up, up- âAny last wo-â
BANG!
Youâre grimacing at the loud crashing of wood and panels, sliding doors ripped to shreds. And in the hazy cloud of dust you could make out the outline of a tall, heaving figure. Big arms swaying with his choppy breaths, heâs standing still - dangerous.
And even in the soft darkness, your unblinking gaze caught on his gleaming, feral smile, sharp canines bared like some beast. Eyes carnivorous, widened as he assesses the room like a predator lurking in on its prey.
The drop of fear hits you before the realization - Toji.
Letting out a strangled yelp, âT-Toj- mmpf!â Before cold, wrinkly fingers come up from behind to cover your mouth. But even the slightest sound of your voice has Tojiâs form jolting - fingers twitching on the handle of his blade, like electricity zapped through his entire body, and you can hear the elder behind you take in an obvious gasp when his eyes lock onto the two of you.Â
Finally.Â
Tojiâs lips part silently, and abruptly, youâre being let go of as if you burned. âYou.âÂ
It happens so fast that youâre not even sure you imagined it, in a split-second, the long, jagged dagger in Tojiâs hand is being flung right at his shivering target. .Â
And you knew he wonât miss - he never will, because youâre not even blinking when a drawn-out groan of pain echoes from behind you. Followed by an echoing thud!
âMy wife.â Tojiâs rasping baritone sends goosebumps racing down your spine, youâre puffing in a quick inhale at just how close he sounds. Sure enough, when you look up, youâre met with softened sage eyes, and crooked beginnings of a smile. âMy wife.â he breathes out, as if he still couldnât really believe it. But any and all tenderness in his body bleeds away when Toji abruptly looks over his shoulder at the men crowding around the entrance with a thunderous glare, âNext.â
Naoya is the first to dare to speak - to even move. Yelling, âY-y- do you even know who that- the crime it is to kill one of the elders-â
Fuck, you swear Toji looked elated at that, that savage grin still plastered on his face, he grits through clenched teeth, âNext.âÂ
Next. Next. Next. Next.Â
Itâs all that kept being laughed - laughed - out when Naoya activated his own cursed technique, absolutely nothing against Tojiâs rampant ravaging. The thrum of jujutsu makes your head throb, and Tojiâs steps sound deafening. Pressurized lunges towards the man himself, and before he can think - before he can even breathe - Naoyaâs being pinned face-down on the tatami floor. Face stinging with the force of the stronger manâs foot on his head, pressing it underneath his wooden sandals. He speaks softly - as if talking down to a child - over the strained pop! pop! pop! of joints. âFor taking my wife, for insulting the very soul of my soul.â
Toji wasnât done, he wasnât even stopping. He was out of control. Ready to kill. To break.Â
And none of the elders could do anything - in fact, they fall fatally still onto their knees at Tojiâs growing smile, the slow turn of his head. All knowing they were on the very brink of death himself. âWhoâs next?â
Fatigue and relief hits you like a semi-truck - five of them, in fact. And you can feel your body drooping lower, vision tinging with black at the corners. Over the grotesque crunching of limbs, you think you could hear a faint, gruff laughter of, âYeah, ya might wanna sleep this one out, doll.â
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Toji never wanted to let you out of his sight. Never.Â
And with you so vulnerable like this - dozing off gently on his silken bedsheets, body curling subconsciously into his benevolent hold - he thinks he never will.
Mellow, rounded tips of his thick fingers glide down your skin, sensitive from the hot water and the way heâd washed away every evidence of the blood and pain from just a few hours before.Â
âIâm sorry.â Toji breathes, hushed, a thumb gliding away a stray droplet of water on the apple of your cheek. âIâm sorry, Iâm sorry, Iâm sorry-â He connects his forehead with your damp one, eyes fluttering shut. âIâm sorry. If I hadnât come to see you early from the meeting- just knew something felt wrong.â
âSorry for what, Toji?â
Your teasing tone of voice shocks him to his very core, and yet he canât find it in himself to pull away - fuck, he canât even dare open his eyes to look. âAll of it.â heâs spitting out, tormentingly.
It takes you a while to find the words, âItâs- itâs not your fault.â you nod, a wet hand coming up to comb through Tojiâs soft black tresses. âItâs neither of ours.â
Thereâs a few seconds of silence, in which heâs scrubbing non-existent beads of water off of you. Long strokes - slow, and purposeful - and you have to hold back your sudden yelp when it hits you that this was the first time that he saw you naked.
âBut-â he falters, shaking his head - before thinking better of it. And you take the moment to appreciate just how gorgeous he is up close, every spike of pink in his worried lips, dark lashes kissing his high cheekbones. âBut itâs over now, you can- you can go back to your clan.â he grimaces, still looking like he wanted to rip something - someone - apart. âThe Zenin family is done.â
Done.Â
âToji.â you exhale, luring in your face so close to your husbandâs. Too close. âCome with me. Fuck this Estate, fuck having an heir- and fuck the elders, if theyâre not dead by now anyway.â They were - every single one - bodies piled high in the same room you were carried tenderly out of, you find out later. You steady onto your elbows on that unfamiliar mattress - Tojiâs, you distinctly realize. And his brows crinkle upwards into an expression youâve never seen on him before.
âIâŠâ
âAnd-â A hand of yours wraps around his throat, nails digging into the racing pulse of his at the side of his milky neck. â-kiss me.â
Then heâs raising his eyes to look at you and fuck-
You were fucked.Â
You might as well have just signed away your own will because here was the man that was covered in blood not too long ago, here he was with his lids hooded, pupils blown. âMy wife.â he repeats that same mantra from before, lips parting like something so dark, visceral, was poked dangerously awake. Like he couldnât quite believe it. His eyes flicker in a lingering triangle across both of your eyes, your lips. Just a hairâs breadth away. Straining out a raspy, âOh fuck.â
Depraved - Tojiâs lips are so depraved . And heâs drinking you in like all his bloodthirst from before had liquidated into pure need.Â
Youâre mewling when a large palm brushes over to cup your cheek, tilting that pretty head of yours to deepen the kiss. âToji.â
You shouldnât have done that - oh, you shouldnât have done that. Because the sound of his own name in your syrupy sweet tone makes him jolt. Jolt. His entire body rumbles with a deep, wrenched-out growl, followed very closely by a loud slam! of Tojiâs fist banging down on the nearby bedside table. Only later will you find that perfectly indented hole in the shape of his hand, splinters scattered across the floor.Â
Like wanted to keep in control - needed to keep in control. But was failing - miserably.Â
âF-fuuuuck-â he draws out huskily into your mouth, that tiny scar always at the corner of his mouth catching on your lower lip when he takes it between his. Sucking on that slick-glossed seam harshly, it almost hurt - but it hurt so good. âYou have no idea- absolutely no fuckinâ idea how much Iâve wanted to do this.â
And suddenly youâre so painfully aware of the way your robe hadnât been tied up properly, feeling the cinch of your sensitive nipples against his rich yukata, the warmth of all five of his long fingers splaying out just below the curve of your tits.Â
You can feel his needy hips rutting into yours - such raw strength in the way he holds your own still so easily. Pushing right into the bullseye between your legs with the outline of his massive, heated bulge. Languid, delicious drags.
âFuck we shouldnât-â he cries out when youâre reeling him back in with his plump lip tucked beneath your teeth. âYou need to-â Before heâs being tugged back in again. And again. And again and again like one taste of your candied lips and he was addicted. Barely able to choke out a single syllable before mashing them back onto yours. Gruffing out a deep rumble from the depths of his sculpted chest, âShit- yâknow why I didnât do this sooner? Why I didnât just fuck you right then and there in front of hngh- everyone whenever I wanted to? Because I knew-â
He cuts himself off with a convulsing shudder, pulling away just enough that you whine disappointedly. âI was gonna fuckinâ ruin you.â
âCouldnât- hngh-â youâre mewling at the delicate little strings of syrupy spit snapping. Spying down at the way his yukata was disheveled now, displaying such delicious panes of warm skin for you. âCouldnât have guessed.â
Tojiâs brows raise at your slightly bratty tone, lips curling into such a sinful smirk that it makes your cunt throb so hotly, despite the slowly cooling water. His eyes darken - as if something snapped. âOh- youâre gonna fucking regret that, ma.â
And something did - Â maybe his whatever restraint he had left, probably you by the end of this.
In an instant, youâre seeing a flash of that man- that monster from before. Baring you the most vicious grin inhumanly possible, if you didnât know any better youâd have wondered how high the death count would be. The hundreds? The thousands?
Heâs worshiping down your body like an apology for all that transpired before, hot, wet brandings of his mouth across each and every inch of skin he could reach. It made you whimper, it made you feel the powerful hum of his strength at his fingertips, it made you need more more more-
All you can let out is a drawling moan when he unapologetically snaps! the hem of your panties onto your heated skin, âDonât be such a t-tease.â
Oh, you were so weak against the dark head of the Zenin clan, against the way he circles his two hands around your ankles. Easily pulling - hauling you across the plush mattress like some ragdoll.Â
Not even hesitating before ripping your poor yukata off your body, until youâre left spread so shamefully underneath him, Toji knocking down hard onto his knees before you.Â
âWell- whatever my wife wantsâŠâ the same dangerous grin grows along his face, glinting white teeth bared where they held your flimsy excuse of panties between honed canines. He murmurs the final few words hovering over where you needed him the most, â...no elder or god themself could stop me from giving you.âÂ
RIPâ!Â
Itâs the last thing breathed out of his heaving lungs before your poor underwear is being torn off of you by his very mouth, not wasting a moment before spitting them out, and burying his face between your trembly thighs. Not even taking in one last gulp of air, not even thinking because all Toji Zenin knew was that he was going to fucking die if he didnât taste your sweet sweet cunt right now.Â
âOh f-fuck-â heâs musing, sharp tongue stuttering for once in his life. âFuck fuck fuck- fuck-â Youâre yelping when your jelly-like legs are pliantly thrown over Tojiâs broad shoulders, digging into the muscles of his deltoids. âCanât believe youâve been-â He trails off so deliriously, planting a hot, thick glob of spit on your spread pussy lips once. Twice. Smearing that glistening coat along your puffy folds with the fat of his thumb, â-been holdinâ out on me like this.â
âShit- sâtoo much.â youâre whining at the slippery gloss of the mess heâs made down below leaking down your slit. Threading your fingers through his silky locks, âI wasnât holding out on anything, yâknow-â
His wide-eyed gaze was locked on your sloppily winking hole, circling the rim of that needy ring of muscle with his pointed index. âGodâŠâ his hot breath fans your dripping cunt, âYou might just be my god. Didnât wanna bring a kid into this family but youâre so- so sweet mâthinking it might not be too bad.â
Those words are barely even registered in your mind before his pretty pink lips wrap themselves around your throbbing clit. Handsome cheekbones hollowing, droopy eyes rolling to the back of his head when Toji sucks. Whirling his tongue erratically around the sensitive nub, such lewd little squelches ring in your ears.Â
âT-Tojiââ your purring moans only make him bury his face even deeper, nose pressing up against the edge of your sopping slit. And each thorough drag of your slobbering cunt down his face makes you knock against the end of his chin, so thirsty with the way he was making out with your cunt. Like he couldnât get enough - never will. âY-you were the one-â the heels of your feet move up higher to loop at his neck. â-holding out.â
And you knew that Toji the strongest of his clan - you knew it took more than a mere, barely-lucid tug to have him clashing even deeper into your pussy.Â
But he does for you anyway.Â
âFuck- fuck you little-â Tojiâs own heavy tongue betrays him with a throaty moan, and he looks so furious. Seething at the way he was pussydrunk already. Greedy gaze so crazed that youâre back to wondering how high the kill count would be- would they all even fit on the Zenin Estate? â-f thaâs what you fuckinâ want.â
âWha- oh!â you yelp at the sheer burning stretch of your legs being pushed up, up, up until your knees were knocking against your tits. And Toji takes the shamefully spread opportunity to bully one rummaging finger past your swollen folds. âOh fuck- youâre reaching so- so-â
âFinish it.â
It takes you a second to realize that Tojiâs addressing you, his tone so jagged. Words muffled when he pants them out into your weeping cunt.Â
Heâs pulling out his finger - intentionally curving exactly against all those sweet spots mushed into your velvety walls - only to brand your poor clit with a sharp smack! âFinish that fucking sentence, ma.â
â-deep!â your hips are bucking up at another hefty intrusion, Tojiâs fingers relentless inside your elastic wall. Molding out your insides to memorize every bump of his knuckles, every neat curve of his short fingernails. âSo so- deep, Toji.â you whine, your shaky hands coming to rest at where you could feel him pumping in and out feverishly into hidden nooks and crannies of your sopping cunt. âC-can feel you right- here!â
This earns you another smack! gifted once again on your awaiting clit, but any and all irritation is swept away when heâs clashing his lips with yours down below in such a messy kiss. Meshing around the bulge of his own large fingers, tongue rolling placatingly over your glisteningly ravaged clit. Flicking, âYeah- definitely my kind of fucking goddess.â His own free hand dances up to rest about midway up your stomach, pressing down. âMâgonna be in even deeper soon, yâknow. Trust me.â
Itâs at this moment that Tojiâs exploratory fingers find their greedy way to your bulbous g-spot, immediately crashing into it - hard.Â
There. There there there, you want to say - but you donât have to, because he could tell. Could feel the vice-like grip of your slicked walls, the way itâs almost difficult to hammer back into your cunt.Â
âYeah yeah I got it-â heâs humming cockily, back to dragging his lips all over your clit senselessly all over. âAll you hafta to do is- hah-â Heâs being cut off by his own ravenous thirst, slurping mouth grinding even faster into your pretty pussy. And all you can hear are those syrupy squelches and the smacking of Tojiâs mouth, your whining ah! ah! ah! following with every push of his fingers forming around your gummy walls. Curling deftly to massage all your sweetest spots heâs already mapped out so scarily well. â-ahh fuck- canât get enough. Would kill them all over again just for a single taste of this. Would kill everyone- burn down this entire fuckinâ city.â
You didnât doubt it, and Toji didnât let you - not for a single second.Â
Because he was almost violent in his approach, bruisingly pushing apart your legs further and further with each sloppy, stumbling second. Looking up at you with his wild gaze, with such a feral grin you could feel along every crevice of your overwhelmed cunt.Â
âCan tell ya liked that-â heâs huffing out a surprised bout of laughter, âOhhh- ya like that very much, huh?â
His tongue was alternating between ravaging your clit and brushing against the teasing edge of your entrance now. Over and over. And youâre gifted with another imprinting smack! onto your quivering cunt - and another and another and another until youâre all but sobbing out such a broken, âToji- mâso close, fuck- mâgonna cum, mâgonna cumââ
âThen cum fâme, my wife.â
It only takes a few more messy rams of Tojiâs fingers knuckle-deep into your eagerly swallowing pussy until youâre crashing so aggressively into your high. Wave after wave of white-hot pleasure running down, down, down your spine and into where he was relentlessly stuffing your convulsing pussy.Â
Fucking you over and over through your orgasm, the pretty sight of you so splayed out and ruined makes Tojiâs mouth water. He feels like a damn dog with the way his tongue lolls out, grin widening, he murmurs absent-mindedly, âYeah- wouldnât be bad at all. Swear youâre gonna be the end of my sanity.â
Fuck, you shamelessly ogle the way his dark robe falls down his broad shoulders, revealing so many dips and curves of muscle after muscle. He was so large - so meticulously sculpted that your restless legs fasten around Tojiâs slenderly toned waist, drawing him close until your bare chests were rubbing up against one another. âHeh- you donât get to hold out on me anymore, doll.â
It sounded almost like a threat - but your bleary, orgasm-drunk mind only has the chance to wonder what exactly he would do if you did. If you didnât give him - the one head of the Zenin clan that didnât get everything he wanted handed to him on a silver platter since birth - the one thing he would kill for. Die for.Â
You.Â
So youâre smiling drunkenly, head tilted to one side, âWhat are you gonna do about it?â
Toji doesnât answer - doesnât even bother to. And the only response youâre getting is a strained laugh - delirious almost, like the mere thought of that was enough to shred away whatever was left of his sanity.
And yours - clearly - because in that very moment, Toji lets his throbbing cock finally spring out, smacking against his abs to leave a glisteningly wet smear of precum. So so angry, his fat weeping tip lets out another wave of syrupy precum at the chill of the heady air.Â
Shit - he was big.Â
Long, long shaft blending so prettily from a feverish red at his tip to the tan skin behind those tufts of black at his happy trail. Veins pulsing, girthy enough that youâre wondering back to his kill count, thighs twitching nervously to a close.Â
âNo- no no-â you could tell his tone was trying to veer into scolding, but you caught the way it cracks with so much raw need. âDonât you fuckinâ-â His hands just wrench your knees back open, green eyes just aflame at this point. â-dare.âÂ
His pointed smile was so dripping wet with your sweet sweet juices from before, trickling in a sloppy trail all the way from the glossy corners of his lips, down to his chin. And his eyes follow the splattering, thick puddle on your collarbone.Â
âOh-â Tojiâs mouth falls into a wicked gasp, immediately, heâs surging forward to pool the syrupy mess on his hot tongue. âHeh- guess we really are just now consummating our marriage, huh?â
The movement causes his painfully rock-hard cock to just kiss at your puffy pussy lips, just mashing the fat round tip of his length between your slit. Teasing. So fucking filthy.Â
âToji-â youâre wrenching him by his dark hair to pant into his open mouth, like a mantra. âMore- need more- fuck I need-â
âMore?â His shuddering rap is barely even audible, ringing straight to your very heated core, because he sounded so wrecked. So fucking utterly ruined. Voice a few octaves higher in disbelief, âMy pretty girl wants my cock? Fuckinâ want-â And then itâs like all the air is being knocked out of your lungs - literally. Feeling as if youâre being split apart so sinfully so, âmore?â
You couldnât have answered if youâd wanted to - because Toji Zenin was fucking ruthless. Just as mean as those greedily lingering juts of his hips, pushing and pushing his massively rotund length past your first snug channel of muscle.Â
But that didnât matter, because your slutty cunt was speaking more than enough for the both of you - or at least thatâs what Toji mutters, over and over when he pushes in jutting, unrhythmic jabs to squeeze himself deeper inside you.Â
âOh- oh my godââ youâre batting your heavy eyelids open to take in the way your overstuffed pussy just bulges around him. Lips spread so widely it was like they were conforming to each ridge and vein down Tojiâs fat cock, beading a glossy sheen down every inch by fucking inch you were being fed. âSo much- fuck, donât know if I can take it.â
Toji Zenin would rather die than not have his pretty wife all overfilled with cock if thatâs what it takes him.Â
And by the way your teary eyes grow wider, he suspects his pussydrunk mind mightâve just babbled that out loud. âHehâŠdidnât I tell ya, ma?â His low whisper puffs hotly against your ear, tugging tensely on your earlobe. âMâgonna fucking ruin ya.â
And itâs times like this that itâs so clearly impossible to forget that Toji is inhumanly human - that you are so unfairly nothing in a match up against him.
CRACK!
Because with one, harsh ram of his sharp hip bones smacking against the globes of your ass - every solid inch of his intimidating cock is slammed against your tightly cushioning walls. Itâs such a ravaging intrusion and you swear you could feel him everywhere. Feel him thrumming hotly against sweet spots inside you that you didnât even know existed. Finally, buried all the way to his thick hilt, yet still nuzzling his hips upwards for more-
âSâbroken.â Toji muses, and for a second you didnât know if he was talking about you or the suspiciously sagging bed. âPlan B.âÂ
It takes only two seconds for his beefy arms to pick you up as if you were weightless - god, he was treating you like some object. And the only time heâs not enveloped by your heavenly cunt is when youâre being shoved down like some slut onto the cool mahogany of Tojiâs work desk, his firm front pressing up against your arched back. Â
âPlan C is to just fuck you into the floor until it breaks.â he snorts throatily into your ear.Â
And you wondered whether it was a joke - you hoped it was a joke. You almost half-believed it until he was back to bulldozing his plump tip back into your briefly-neglected cunt. Stretching the clingy rim of muscle to bend to his round length, fully. Oh, heâll never get used to this sight.Â
Yeah, you definitely werenât making it out alive.Â
âF-fuck you really are-â One hand of yours scrambles to blindly white-knuckle the smooth wood beneath you when Tojiâs bludgeoning your pussy with powerful, long thrusts. Feeling every minute flex of his thick thighs behind your own, shuddering with each forceful hammer of his sweeping cock inside you. â-you really are in so deep.â
As if to confirm, the man himself glides down an open palm to your stomach. Pressing down hard with all five splayed-out fingers until Toji could feel the same incessant slam of his thumping cockhead, the cascading ripple of his heavy, cum-filled balls smacking against your ass.Â
âTold ya- hah told ya so.â his cocky groans are whirling all throughout your mind, such a hot, melty mess with the sheer fucking stretch of Tojiâs cock. âYâknowâŠI canât help but imagine just how pretty youâd hngh- look all stretched out nâ swollen as a momma.â
Youâre nodding deliriously, and the way his crashing thrusts were just bruising against your spongy cervix, bouncing off onto every sweetly hidden sensitive spot inside your elastic walls. âShit- ya jusâ got wetter- ya like that? The thought of me fuckin a baby into ya?â he spits, long sloppy tongue coming up to taste the dredges of tears streaming down your face- shit, when did you even start crying?Â
âShh shhh- donât cryââ heâs cooing, rewarding you with another heavy smack! right onto your poor clit. Every steady clash against your over-sensitive g-spot only sends a fresh wave of big fat tears for Toji to kiss at. â-donât cry, donât cry. Never fâme, mânever hah- gonna kill off anything that makes my pretty wife cry-â A soft, salty peck on your lips, â-nâ that includes me. If ya asked me to, ma. Iâll give ya anything you ever want.â
Thereâs a creaking slam! on the wooden surface, and a hasty look over your shoulder shows that Toji has hiked his knee up onto the desk. For a second, you wonder whether it hurt - whether the throbbing shaft of his cock wasnât rubbed raw by now, whether his abs werenât just burning with movement. Fucking you so recklessly into the desk.
But oh, you think Toji Zenin would care?
You think he would give a fuck about anything other than rutting riotously into your gripping cunt? Drilling into you again and again until your tip-toes donât even reach the ground at the force of his pressurized thrusts. The change in angle has his leaky tip glide glossy lines right across the bottom of your dripping pussy and pressing down harshly onto your g-spot. So rough. So mean. Youâre scrambling further and further up the desk and-
âNow now-â Toji hoists your weak hips up ever-so-slightly back to him, before pinning you to the desk with his full, heavy bodyweight. âNo running away. HehâŠhow funny would it be if I actually did jusâ hngh- fuck a baby into ya right now?â His fingers get so sloppy on your clit, âFill ya up- rub an heir right in everyoneâs faces?â
âShit- mâso close- again-â Your ears are popping at the pure saturated stimulation when his hand down below rolls over your clit. Desperate. Depraved. Glossing up the curve of his thick thumb with all the sweet slick beading out with each broken thrust. Itâs like he was out of control - losing his fucking mind. And your delirious mind wondered whether youâd be next, that faint cracking of joints certainly not boding well for either of you. âToji, mâgonna-â
Heâs so erratic - sloppy. And so it only makes sense that your orgasm was the same - fuck, you didnât even realize it at first.
So hard that your vision flashes red and white, breathing raggedly gasping in lungfuls as you rock your sticky hips back into Tojiâs so greedily. Your voice is shot - because youâre moaning Tojiâs name so loud that it almost felt disrespectful, echoing across the sex-thickened air. âThaâs right- scream as loud as you want, ma. Itâs just us in this house.â
And maybe it was that - maybe it was the feeling of your velvety walls clamping down hard around his achy length - maybe it was just the way youâre whispering out such saccharine sweet, âCum inside.â
Because Tojiâs fractured sanity can only handle a few more unkindly bullying drives into your gushing cunt before heâs cumming and cumming so much he thinks he might die.Â
Doesnât know if he can - if he wants to - stop.
âOh- ohhh fuck- didnât think Iâd actually-â You feel a branding bite inside the crook of your neck as his sloppy white seed splatters at your inner thigh with each rummaging thrust forward. Oozing down in messy, thick dredges. â-hngh- gonna fill you up so good- until you canât take it anymore.â You didnât know if you already could - because you felt so full. Tojiâs syrupy cum sloshing around with each ram of his hips, coating your walls in a creamy, slick-like sheen on the inside.Â
âYesââ you sigh over another splintering crack! from somewhere, âFuck fuck fuck- need you to- hngh, wanna make you a daddy- give you an heir, To-â
Itâs as if he couldnât bear to hear your swollen lips part with his name, because Tojiâs shutting you up with a sweltering kiss. Still mounted and rutting into you so animalistically, âthe best- the best momma, youâre gonna be the best momma-â he hushes into your mouth. Pliantly kneading your body into a sinful arch for him, you barely even register it when heâs carrying you away. Two thick fingers pooling his glistening cum, inching them back into your stretched-out cunt - âDonât waste a single drop now- hngh- fuck, youâll look so pretty all full.â
Before you know it, youâre being sprawled out so easily on the clean tatami mats below, face down, your hips being propped up by one of Tojiâs. And in your bleary peripheral vision, you could just about make out how ruined that desk was - how broken. How the fuck havenât either of you broken any bones, yet?
Or maybe you have - you wouldnât even know at this point, because Toji was still slamming into your poor, overspilling pussy again. His harsh grunt puffs out in a feverish breath against your ear, âTold ya I was gonna ruin you, doll. Better get ready-â Heâs punctuating each word with a sloppy, sold thrust, pace picking up to fuck you so thoroughly into the floor. âBecause I have a Plan D and a Plan E until mâsure youâre givinâ me an heir.â
A/N. Ooo what if I made a clan leader series? Thoughts?
Plagiarism not authorized.
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Whenever I talk about the medical neglect and ableism I've encountered as a victim of the healthcare system, there's always some cockwaffle who feels entitled to come into my inbox and make the argument of "not all doctors" while talking about how "people like them" (because it's always someone in a field of medicine who does this) are doing their best and it's really hard because so many people fake being ill to get on welfare (Yikes), but like, yeah, obviously #not all doctors, because if all doctors were negligent, bullying scum bags, I'd be dead.
But here's the thing: while I truly believe that the majority of doctors are doing their best in a system stacked against them and their patients, their presence does not negate the mass harm caused by the bad ones. And there are far more bad ones than you realize.
Fuck, John Oliver literally did a segment on this last week:
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Yes, the truly bad, malicious doctors are in the minority. Most are just horrifically burned out and fighting a losing battle against a system, killing both them and their patients through a lack of funding and resources and profound overwork.
But the malicious ones do exist, and they will go out of their way to harm patients who don't kowtow to them.
I almost lost my life because when I was in my early twenties, I told a doctor I didn't think she was listening to me, and I disagreed with her assessment of my mental health (she was not a mental health doctor, and I was there for heart palpitations and chronic pain). She retaliated by putting "non-compliant" in my file.
There was also a fun little "doesn't show respect" note too that lives rent-free in my head because I know I wasn't rude. I was polite. I just didn't agree with her, and my refusal to accept her off-handed comment that "you probably have bipolar or BPD" (again, I was there for heart palpitations and chronic pain) meant I was "refusing care."
I wasn't. I just refused to be slapped with a mood/personality disorder when I was there because I kept fucking fainting when I stood up.
(Spoiler alert: it was dysautonomia)
That "non-compliant" marker followed me around for years. It followed me across an ocean and effectively ensured that any doctor I saw was going to treat me like absolute dogshit because no one wants to help Difficult Patients. It wasn't until I was so undeniably ill, literally on the brink of death, that anyone helped me.
I'm alive because of a good doctor. And all the good ones that came after him because of him.
So, I know they exist. You don't have to tell me that.
But I really fucking need you to acknowledge the bad ones and that you're part of a system with a long, long history of abusing minorities and vulnerable people. I need you to acknowledge that because it's the only way we're going to survive this godforsaken nightmare and make things better.
So yeah, #notalldoctors, but if you feel the need to say that because someone talking about being literally left to die by the medical system hurts your feelings, I'm going to have to ask you to take a step back and ask yourself if you're going into medicine for the right reasons.
Namely: do you want to help people, even the "difficult" ones?
Even the ones who might disagree with you?
Even if they're on welfare?
Even if they'll never get "better" in a way that means "cured"?
Just a thought. But hey, what do I know. I'm just someone who experienced hemolytic anemia because doctors kept telling me I was anxious and needed to exercise more đ€·ââïž.
#chronic health tag#medical abuse#medical neglect#medical#ableism#to all the good health care workers who follow me and leave supportive comments: I appreciate you so much#but you need to come get your fellow drs#and idk#give 'em a shake or something#Youtube
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