#the first ethicist expressed such abject disappointment that i never told him what happened fully. the second ethicist wanted to strangle me | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

faaun · 9 months ago

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my arms keep burning and turning red i keep smiling at polaroid photos of my friends i bought a set of pans so i wouldn't have to steal theirs. when i asked 2 ethicists why the way she treated me was so bad (tell me logically why i should let her go) i really meant tell me why i deserve better. tell me why what she did matters in the context of how you know me. will you tell me why do i deserve better than to suffer for a beautiful person?

#my research partner apologised for how he judged us and i wish he didnt. even the apologies come out twisted. the gesture is sweet.#the first ethicist expressed such abject disappointment that i never told him what happened fully. the second ethicist wanted to strangle me #to death. i told her to take good care of her eyes. today i focused on my friends and i met a girl on not-a-date #she was so perfect that from certain angles you wouldnt think she was real. she had a tattoo of the cello she played #and a duck she made and the compound adrenaline and and the arabic term for you bury me (denoting love) and she told me you cant ever #change another person. they may change but you cant ever enact it. she was sweet and tired and her nails were sharp as claws.#today i cried on the walk home. it smelled like the sea and orange blossom flowers and persimmons and tangerines grown in the backyard.

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