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okay thinking about that crack Alfred Pennyworth/Jim Gordan au and i have worked out a timeline based on gordons status at the gcpd. hear me out.
they properly meet after the wayne's death. theyre both young, gordon is only an officer and recently married, alfred is grieving and now raising a child on his own — they just keep running into each other (the investigation, police escorts, check ins etc). they become tentative friends.
now gordon is corporal. it's been about a year since the wayne's died, so they dont see each other as often. maybe alfred is attracted to gordon when they do run into each other, but he's got bruce to worry about first, so who cares. gordon is too busy being a deadbeat husband and trying to get a good grade at not being a corrupted cop to notice.
gordon gets promoted to sergeant. he gets a divorce. they run into each other after a long few months of not seeing one another, and friendship rekindles. at this point, barbara senior is pregnant, but they've already got divorced, so it's a co-parenting thing.
lieutenant gordon. they want each other SO BAD. but gordon is in denial and raising a baby barbara and alfred's main priority is always bruce. bruce is twelve and really, he's too old to have playdates with a two year old, alfred.
a bit before gordon becomes captain, bruce leaves gotham to train around the world. alfred pulls away. gordon stops reaching out after a while. they do not talk to each other.
chief gordon. they haven't spoken to each other in years.
many years later, commissioner gordon is now frequently terrorised by the new gotham vigilante, batman. unrelated, bruce returns to gotham after his time studying abroad, so gordon pays a visit.
from which point OLD MAN YAOI ENSUES. friends to strangers to friends to yearning, pining, not-actually unreciprocated love, bruce and babs being totally embarassed by it all. and the whole lot. okay that's it that's all i got
#the monthly alfred brain worms got me#and brought me back here...#the fics are never being finished sorry#...unless#alfred pennyworth#james gordon
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thinking about how essentially every relationship john locke formed in the early seasons of lost has completely disintegrated by the time of his death.
of course there's his relationship with jack, which starts tense but manageable and culminates in jack pointing a gun at john's head and pulling the trigger. but even his smaller, less narratively prominent relationships either implode or drift apart. he bonds with walt in season one but then walt leaves the island, which is itself a severing of their bond since it was mainly based on being the only two people who wanted to stay. still, he goes and visits walt off the island so this is probably john's most successful relationship. I dont think i need to explain how he fucked up with boone, "the sacrifice that the island demanded." charlie viewed john as a mentor and claimed to trust him more than anyone on the island, but after the events of fire and water, that trust is destroyed and charlie despises him. at the same time we get john bonding with claire and having a pseudo-paternal dynamic with her, but their closeness basically drops off the face of the earth as he gets less and less involved with the other survivors.
his arc in the series is essentially a gradual distancing from everyone around him. it starts when he abandons hunting (providing for the others) in favor of trying to get the hatch open (it's extremely clear his primary motive isn't any survival applications but getting answers to the mystery). when they do open the hatch, he spends more and more time inside, underground, cut off from other people. he spends more and more time interacting with ben, a human mystery box that he's obsessed with cracking even if it gets him killed. he follows the proverbial white rabbit deeper down the hole and leaves his connection to humanity behind. the island and its mysteries become more important to john than anything or anyone else.
then in season three we get him claiming to go undercover with the others only to unceremoniously tell sawyer that he's actually going to join them. and it doesn't feel shocking, it feels inevitable. because john has spent the entire series becoming less and less connected with the people he arrived with. in that sense he actually makes a fascinating foil to juliet, who is introduced as one of the others and yet never really fits, she's increasingly sympathetic and kind in a way the rest of them aren't, her redemption arc feels so natural that she actually starts referring to her old people as "the others" like she's been one of the crash survivors from the beginning. her and john basically have inverse arcs, which is probably accidental but very neat.
in season five john tries to convince everyone to go back to the island, and fails spectacularly. and of course he does, because he was so consumed by obsession that he stopped maintaining his relationships, and in many cases actively alienated people (this is also basically what happened with helen) and now he can't wrap his head around why they're all so hostile to him. i am forever obsessed with the scene where he confronts kate and she brutally calls him out for wanting to return to the island because he doesn't love anyone. it actually struck me on rewatch how well the two of them got along in season one, and how badly their relationship has degraded by this point. john repeatedly casts aside interpersonal relationships in favor of his obsession with destiny, so when said destiny actually involves persuading the people he once shunned, he's at a loss. this is because john treats purpose as a supplement for connection, destiny as an alternative to love.
as an aside, this aspect of john's character kinda ties into my opinion that several lost characters can be read as allegorically neurdivergent under a certain lens. i know this was absolutely not intended, but as an adhd former gifted kid who struggles socially, there is something uncomfortably familiar about a character who allows their relationships to burn around them because of a single-minded obsession, especially as a result of being promised the fickle status of "special."
tl/dr: john locke is a doomed idiot and i love him
#i swear i did not intend for this post to get so long#i could've said even more#like how he latches on to the concept of destiny because it both vindicates his own suffering and exempts him from needing love/affection#because he needing those things is what made john keep returning to his father and he never wants to feel vulnerable like that again#if you never get attached to anyone then they can never leave you etc.#unfortunately destiny is also. a fickle bitch#ARGHHHH I NEED TO WRITE AN ESSAY#i have so many thoughts and so little time/motivation to write#i still need to finish my fic it's so close to being done#but productivity abandons me#just like destiny....#sorry#john locke#lost#lost 2004#lost abc#lost tv show#lost tv series#ben linus#jack shephard#charlie pace#boone carlyle#claire littleton#kate austen#juliet burke#character analysis#ig?#mini essay#walt lloyd#my silly rambles
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#this is so incredibly niche omg im sorry#i was feeling nostalgic about my drarry times#i dont think i ever mentioned why i left the drarry fandom#sorry about that#its a boring story#in 2018 i got quite sick and struggled with my health#one side effect was me not being able to concentrate for longer periods of time#making me unable to read and draw drarry for the first time since i joined the fandom in 2005#when i got better i started slow by watching shows#thats how i got into The Untamed and got sucked into it#since i caj only hyperifxate on one thing at a time i just lost interest in drarry sadly#or maybe i subconciously assocciated it with my health struggles?#anyway this year i stumbled upon a drarry fic rec and coincidentally it was the last fic i read before getting sick#away childish things by lettered#btw#and i never got around to finishing it bc of everything#and i wanted closure maybe so i wanted to reread it#but that kinda led me to remembering why i loved drarry so much#and i miss it#i miss old fandom days on livejournal#sending christmas fandom postcards all around the world#so yeah#i wanted to do something to honor the 2 fandoms in my life that are very dear to me#love u all#sorry for the long story#for such a silly picture#wangxian#mdzs#drarry#the untamed
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ch1 of the leaving!bikeriders au done. fuck
#have i chosen a name yet? no! fuck!#i'm torn btwn like 4 titles it's not looking good#also ao3 is down till like noon my time tmrw so i won't post it till later in the day or possibly tuesdayyy i'm so so nervous#i've never written anything au (aside from canon divergence) for mota let alone MODERN au it's so intimidating (but so fun)#also i still need to finish my moodboard for it before i post it uwahhhh doublefuck#it's 5pm but i think i'm gonna go to bed xoxo this is all a problem for tomorrow me!! ^-^#my eyes literally hurt from being locked into google docs for a week lol i'm so sorry for being slow to reply to messages/asks#i'm so srs when i say all i've done basically all month during every minute of free time is write this and dog coded fic whoops
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Thinking about the lyrics that goes along the lines of “I couldn't hear your silence over the sound of our happiness” again and of course Satoru couldn’t hear anything else they were separated for their missions and spent more time alone and had more time to think.
In that time Suguru kept thinking of all the ways the world was wrong and how he couldn’t find it in himself to laugh again, but Satoru was thinking of all the times he made Suguru laugh instead. Because he could already see the world for more than what it seemed. Because even though he could, he narrowed his world to Suguru and Suguru’s little giggles he got out of him only.
And because Gojo remembers Geto the way he was whenever he was with him, he remembers him happy.
#in this essay im writing about how the higherups love isolating gojo to the point of his best friend dumping him and yuji dying and-#also. not the exact lyrics but you know what i mean#also. even then gojo asks about it and trusts getos judgement on being fine which i talked about already so i left it out here#they spent enough time separate that they relied on their memories. and satoru who only ever looks at suguru and#satoru who makes suguru laugh. has a lot of those good memories. yknow?#the amount of official art we have on geto looking at him blushy smiley is insane btw#geto suguru#suguru geto#gojo satoru#satoru gojo#satosugu#sugusato#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#jjk anime spoilers#sunposts#this is the hc im basing my fic on that i will never finish at the speed rate im writing it#my tags are an entire another post at this point and im not sorry it will happen again
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chat I'm sorry I love writing hoshina as just a man in love. it will continue unfortunately.
#i will never be free im sorry#i love writing from hoshina pov too like i know its 2nd pov but i love being in his head#on a different note FIC FOR SATURDAY IS NOT COMPLETE#I was going to say i have like a thrid done but it could be almost half depending on the length...... will not know until i finish
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ninjago reincarnation AU where the world ended, and from it´s ashes rose another, similar yet eerly different, growing and changing from being little more than a rock in space, to a modern society much more like our own (show to movie setting :D!). with new old faces, flashes of a world long gone, a simple wish at the end (beggining?) of it all, etc etc...
#having AU thoughts ill never actually write out again U_U#ninjago Again AU#<- fma crack theory refference hehehe#sorry i sound insane i have such a clear picture in my brain and cant write for shit#its giving madoka magica i think?+ show to movie setting+ fullmetal alchemist time loop theory+ reincarnation angst+ ascension to godhood#closest ive ever seen anyone get to what i mean is the fic ´meet again´ <- insane abt it and somehow havent finished it hdfnghsadfg#but im talking more sailor moon esque reincarnations and cosmic beings and highschool shenanigans#set in a shiny new world; representing a 2nd chance to get to the good ending after it all went horribly wrong the first time#a fleeting sense of tranquility and normalcy...#aghhhh#ninjago#shut up sheo#*sigh*#throwing it to the AU pile i guess U_U#edit: i also mean the vibes kinda like amphibia´s finale#v insane concept i knowww#im procastinating homework U_U
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after two harrowing hours in the cc i loaded into minrathous and uhh....*checks notes* went to bed
#datv#ash mercar#kathryn trevelyan#yzstuff#yzda#over an hour on rook then i went to the inky page and felt my brain melting down#i already made ONE what do you MEAN i have to make ANOTHER one that is a faithful interpretation of my previous oc AAAHHHHHHH#anyway really lost steam making inky buuut she still looks ok after i woke up sooo i guess that's a win#aimed for an older and more weathered look with kathryn#btwn her constant traveling to track down the egg + her tendency to always look on the edge of being underfed#stresses cassandra the fuck out#sorry baby i will never finish your fics but i can do word vomits for you on tumblr now lmaooo
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Hey, everyone. I haven't been able to write much lately due to different reasons, so I decided to finish this old smutty drabble so I could at least give you something while you wait. It's kind of a companion drabble to this one. I'll be posting both together in AO3 and Wattpad soon. Hope you like it and please forgive me 🙏🏻
They had to be quiet, and quick.
For starters, they shouldn't have been doing this in the dressing room, not when there were many people on the other side of the door Simón's back was currently against, people who could come in at any minute, but maybe that was part of the charm, even if he would never admit it.
Simón surely protested when Ámbar got on her knees in front of him and started undoing his pants, but he gave in quickly once she started licking his dick. It was a weak attempt at decency anyway and they both knew it. His breathing was already ragged from their kisses and touches, and his hands went immediately to her head when she brought him into her mouth. He wanted this, and Ámbar wanted him to want it even more— she wanted to undo him.
She sucked him hard.
A sonorous, loud gasp escaped his mouth, forcing Ámbar to pause momentarily.
She pulled off and brought a finger in front of her spit-coated lips. Quiet.
Simón nodded energetically and tucked the meat of his hand inside his mouth, biting on it to muffle himself.
Good boy, Ámbar thought, and swallowed down his dick again.
All her moves were deliberate and quick because they didn't have much time. Usually, she liked to drag it out, drive him crazy for it, but there was a certain thrill to this too, to completely lose herself in giving pleasure and getting Simón's smothered sounds and desperate thrusts in return. Her clit throbbed. She didn't know if it was for the arousing weight and heat of his dick on her tongue or because she knew she was making him feel so good he could barely stand it. The more she pleasured him, the more he curled around her.
It wasn't very long before Simón was pulling her hair, which she knew by now was his way of telling her he was about to come. Ámbar hummed in acknowledgment and kept going deeper until his hand went back to needily pushing her down. With a stifled moan and a whole body shudder, Simón released in her mouth.
It was nice of him to let her know, but he should know by now that she was not going to pull away. She wondered what it said about her, that she wanted to swallow his cum. It thrilled her to think how scandalized her godmother would be if she saw her now. It made her suck him dry with more gusto.
Finally, after the pleasure had been thoroughly sucked out of Simón, he leaned back against the door with heavy pants, barely holding himself up with his now surely weak knees. His hand loosened his grip on Ámbar's hair, changing to soft, loving caresses instead, and she returned the gesture with some final kisses on his softening, spent dick.
"Fuck, I love you," Simón let out, still a little breathless, which meant he was still recovering from his high.
Ámbar looked up at him with a wide smile, very proud of herself. She rose, giving her legs a well-deserved rest, and worked on getting him presentable again, pulling up his pants and zipping him up.
"I love you too," she said sweetly, giving him an equally sweet peck on the cheek, all so ridiculously innocent as if she hadn't had his dick in her mouth two minutes ago.
The duality of relationships was very fun, Ámbar found.
#simbar#simbar fic#simbar fanfic#soy luna#23-05-2023#yes that's the date I came up with this and then never finished it- I'm so sorry#My Writing#short writings#I just *know* that Simón likes a little mischief- It turns him on to think he's being 'bad' even tho it's always very mild things 😂#my boy will do the smallest naughty thing and think he's being soooo bad. I love him#this goes to the anons that pointed out that he thought doggy style was UP THERE in kinkyness skfnj We love our innocent boy<3#Ámbar would love to corrupt him and he would love to be a liiiiittle corrupted- I just know it
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catie I NEED more vettonso lore for your au. please. (love u)
Aaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!! C!!! Thank you so much for asking!! This took me a bit cause there’s a lot of stuff I want to cover and I had to figure out how to balance the explanation of the historical context and how I apply it to my AU. But seriously thank you for asking because I did more research to write this post and learned a lot of things that make me feel deranged but I cannot bring any of this up to anyone irl without sounding like a lunatic. I’d apologize for the length but you should expect this from me by now! (I realized this doc for this was 1.5k+ my god)
Basic Info: early 1700s historical AU with arranged marriage plot
Historical Context:
Okay, so this AU is based on a real historical event: The War of The Spanish Succession. Which is when the Spanish Throne was without a clear line of succession because the bloodline(Spanish Habsburgs) died out. So then, even though the previous Spanish King named his successor(Philip V, a Duke related to the French Royal family - representing Fernando in this AU), the Habsburgs still thought they should be allowed to keep the throne within their dynasty, thus offering up the second son(Charles VI - representing Seb in this AU) of the Holy Roman Emperor. So obviously they had to start a war because of it. But then the end result ended up being that because Charles VI’s older brother, the Holy Roman Emperor at the time, died during the war(because of illness though so it would have happened regardless), he became the next Emperor and Philip V ended up becoming the Spanish King after all, rendering it all pointless imo.
How does this relate to Vettonso?:
I'm not overly interested in either Charles VI and Philip V as people, but rather the roles they fulfill in this conflict, but obv I can’t help but draw on details from their lives. As I mentioned, Fernando is now Fernando I of Renault/France Spain and Seb is Sebastian I of Red Bull Austria. This is supposed to be like 2010-2012!Vettonso with Ferrari!Fernando and RBR!Seb(but like Fernando's title of Duke coming from France, because of his championships with Renault.) This AU is kinda just me looking at this historical event and thinking: wouldn’t a gay arranged marriage solve this succession quandary? But also just that it reminds me of Fernando and Seb’s rivalry, and the nationalities/kingdoms fit pretty well!!
Think about the throne of Spain as akin to winning a race, but becoming Holy Roman Emperor as winning the whole entire competition.(Also side note: real life Charles VI didn’t become a king until he became Emperor and adopted all of his brother’s titles, but I want Seb to be a boy king in this AU, so he can have a title as a treat.) Imagine you’re competing for something and you win it, but the only reason you win is because the other competitor won an even bigger prize!!!! Yay you got what you wanted but the boy king is now the emperor of most of Europe. And now you are stuck with him through lawfully wedded arranged marriage because they let you have what you wanted but only under the condition that the two kingdoms are still united. Yeah Fernando got the title, but Seb gained even more titles(get it???)
They probably have a lot of animosity coming into the marriage, like “how could I ever build a relationship with the man who tried to steal my birthright?” but then realize they’re pretty similar after all. Though obviously Fernando has a lot more resentment than Seb because Seb won the whole damn thing! He would have control over Spain as he’s the king but since it's still within the domain of the empire, Seb would always have the final say. And Seb tries to be magnanimous like “Don’t worry, I won’t interfere”, and Fernando is all snide with comments like “Oh thank you great imperial majesty, can I really? Would you really allow me to do so?” But eventually become loving co-rulers that still constantly snipe at each other over different decisions the other makes.
Some headcanons(I guess you’d still call it headcanons even if it's your own AU bcs it still comes from your head) + some fun facts from real life that have brainrotted me so I’m putting them in:
Their dynamic is just Seb being a very righteous, bratty boy king emperor who is unabashed about being that way, because he feels that it is his right, but still has a heart of gold and wants to treat his husband well no matter the circumstances leading to their marriage. And then Fernando is like a stray cat that keeps hissing and scratching because it’s really hard for him to accept the circumstances because he still feels humiliated, even though he got everything he wanted, but he still can’t help but be charmed by this baby emperor because he sees attributes of himself in Seb, and can’t really fault him because he would be the exact same, flaunting his power, if he were in Seb’s shoes.
They would have to speak in French to each other because that’s their shared language but eventually attempt to learn each other’s native languages! Imagine Seb has to travel to Spain to give some Emperor speech and Fernando then bullies him for his bad Spanish.
They would probably split where they live based on a schedule or by need. Yes, Fernando is the King of Spain but he is also the Emperor’s husband so he does have to spend time in the capital, Vienna. And then since Spain is a part of the empire, Seb has to go routinely, but y’know also to spend time with his husband. They find that their marriage as well as their politics is full of having to make concessions and compromises in order to make it work.
Something I find funny is that as compensation for not getting the Spanish throne back, Spain had to cede some Italian territories to the Empire. That is literally the Ferrari plot with the transfer from Fernando to Seb!!
I’m not sure how the titles would work in this AU because obviously a m/m political marriage has not ever happened(as far as I know.) But I guess Fernando would just be King Fernando I of Spain and then Seb would be Holy Roman Emperor Sebastian I with the million titles that come with being in that role(though like most importantly Archduke of Austria and King of Bohemia and Hungary, etc.) I like the idea that Seb tries to share some titles with Fernando as a show of good will but Fernando is so affronted, mostly just from embarrassment, like “oh you think I need your good will?? I can’t be happy with what I earned in my own right??” But their kids would receive both titles and would be split in the traditional way, like first kid getting it all mostly, but the others still being nobility obv(yes.. there would be mpreg because of the plot need for succession….don’t ask who…)
They bond through their love of horses, particularly fast horses. The first time they go riding together, they’re both like awkwardly trying to act very proper as a sense of showmanship to the other like “I’m more mature than you”, but then can’t stop trying to get ahead of the other person and eventually break into a full-on race. Their aids are mutually like “oh god, they’re both the same type of insane.”
Irl Charles VI was so salty about losing the throne that he wouldn’t stop dressing like a traditional Spanish monarch. I can totally see Seb doing that and Fernando getting so pissed with him like “you became emperor!! What more could you possibly want???’ and Seb then fixing him with his biggest pout and saying “your throne!” But also Fernando being weirdly into it because it’s basically Seb presenting himself blatantly as Fernando’s spouse.
In that same vein, I’m going crazy over how there’s a painting from before the war, of Philip V wearing vestments from both the French order of chivalry and the Habsburg order of chivalry. Like basically stating the desire to see those two lines combined into one kingdom, which fits so well into this AU. Just Seb going crazy over how Fernando is willingly branding himself as belonging to Seb’s house.
A testimony of Philip V’s personality is that he was a “neurotic, vacillating ruler, concerned with outward decorum and brave only in battle,” god can you not sense the energy of Fernando in that statement???
Very important to me that Charles VI reportedly had many male lovers, and that his soulmate was one of his courtiers. Maybe there can be a bit of Martian or Sebson cheating plot with them being his courtiers hahaha
Not very relevant in this AU but there’s something about how Philip V had the longest ever reign of a Spanish monarch. Is that not Fernando??? Old man who will rule on forever, or should I say, forever keep his seat
I already obv posted the wip for this but I'll include it here again as visual rep hehehe:
I've spent way too much time lately trying to research the fashion of the time ugh. But this, as I said, is like first joint portrait session into the marriage. And I guess I kind of want them to be wearing their corronation clothing, which I'm pretty solid on for Seb but still need to research more for Fernando. I think I'll maybe try and just put him in the afformentioned traditional Spanish monarch clothing, but the fact that it's all black kinda bores me, I'd rather he wear red!! This is like a typical royal couple type pose, except they're being more tactile. Also there's something to be said about the symbolism of Fernando being the one standing and Seb being the one sitting hehehe....
#*oh also posting this in my typical habit of scheduling posts for when i sleep so sry if i dont respond bcs i am in fact asleep#*sorry for making you wait for this C! I said in a bit but then i didnt...i like waking up to notes okay ...BUT AGAIN TYSM FOR ASKING#alternate title for this post: what being in Austria does to a man#I mentioned to my friend from the trip abt how having been there has affected me and has made me think way too much about the history#and shes like 'oh yeah ive not really thought about austria too much since coming back'#me just sitting there with my phone gallery full of historical paintings for reference and my head full of research like: 'haha oh okay...'#often my thoughts about AUs is just a bunch of rambling thoughts in my head#so its very nice and helpful to have to write it out like this and turn it into something more than absent thought#most of the headcanons spontaneneously popped into my head while I was writing out the main section hahah#hope you enjoy!!!! hopefully I'll be able to finish my drawing of them !!#especially since I'll prob never end up writing a fic bcs i like writing rambling but anything more formalized is soooo difficult for me#vettonso#catie.rambling.txt#catie.asks.#formula 1#boy king au
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an um. snippet. from me. for the first time since. july :-)
#from a fic you likely will not see for at least. two months. but still <3#reallt brave of me to snippet considering ive still got no plan from one scene to the next and have only written um. four scenes but. well#if you all bear witness to evidence of the wips existence then maybe it will help me commit to finishing it. :-)#this is also. this snippet is from the very first scene and it is not my favourite but the snippet i WANTED to share is simply too long so.#sorry about that. :-/ also im just talking now you don’t need to read these tags but it is so lovely being in remus’ head now im so used to#it it used to be so unnerving…but i live here now i love it…im also in a bit of a#loving sirius era atm so actually im enjoying writing about how pretty he is. (<- me after being visisted by three spirits on Christmas Eve)#special shout-out to hope lupin. kicking things off immediately with her funeral she is so killable and i really appreciate it.#tsahonip feels like a silly acronym so i think we’re sticking to shortening it to.#tsah#snippet#my fic#r/s#anyway. if it goes the way i want it to the whole fic is very. london and dreary flats and bars and mugs of tea and resentment + melancholy#you know. because ive never done that before have i. also the discography of the smiths so prepare for that on the playlist soz :-(
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knock knock let me in let me be your secret sin ; left right straight ahead theres no way out youre dead
#neros art tag#kny sabito#sabito#fratboy sabito posting#halloween au#labyrinth(oomph!)#sorry giyuu... muse replaced lmao#i love this song sm#anyways im adding this to the halloween au#another fic i started and never finished. concept is fun tho#the hashira work for an organization that rescues & protects magical creatures and helps whoever they find in unethical experiments#the fic starts with giyuu and kyojuro being a team in a raid on some place that got their hands on an ookami- they find sanemi & genya#whove been medically altered with its body parts in an attempt to make. something. they didnt get info on that before the raid#sanemi got its limbs and genya got some of its organs & they like literally just finished the surgery when the raid started so they were#real fucked up. sanemi's limbs were in a fucking box in the corner. anyways i ditched it at the point when shinobu came to see if they#were okay for transportation#i was just drawing to the song bc i like it sm but now im thinking they find some place that made a monster labyrinth to gamble off of#they trick poor people into trying to survive for prize money and they have other ppl bet on who'll win. winner's prize money goes to the#people who bet on them & they get to be the next test subject for monsterfication and subsequently tossed in the labyrinth#no one wins here. its all life or death and theres a lot of death.#giyuu thought sabito died long ago but he was actually taken and attempted to be mashed-up with a kitsune- it didnt work- he got tossed in#the labyrinth. corrupted memories and temperment due to the kitsune's powers- hes learned to survive against the other monsters#giyuu infiltrates as a contestant while some other hashira do so as workers/gamblers and giyuu has a run in with sabito & freaks th fuck out#especially since sabito's trying to Kill Him#i should add more body horror to this au. sanemis not enough for me
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The next time I post a multichapter, odds are I won't have the penultimate draft of the entire thing on the ready. We'll be way closer to working chapter by chapter*, baby!
(*I won't start posting before I have a FUNCTIONAL draft of the entire thing because omg)
#teruyo talk#sorry in advance to everyone who prefers fast-paced updates#but i actually quite like slower update schedules as a reader#and crucially i feel like i've driven myself into a corner by obsessing over being able to rush through posting if necessary#i had a way better time editing white lotus and the immortals for a reason#and i assume why it took me FOREVER to finish tenshi disappears which is really a simple fic#is that i felt i HAD to have it all done even though in retrospect the rough draft would've been sufficient as a starting point#i mean it's also pretty short so this approach was still fine but going forward i need to change things around#SO a relaxed schedule for the next multichapter(s) it is#this isn't even relevant right now since i have a couple of things to wrap up before i get to those broken multichapters#and you'll never believe this#I'M ILL AGAIN#my fever's gone now so maybe i can edit today but my throat is so goddamn congested ARGH#literally began the day after i wrapped up posting LMAO and out of nowhere too#BUT LET'S KEEP FIGHTING#all of us. hang in there
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SORRY. JUST REALIZED I ORIGINALLY SKETCHED THE STUFF FROM THAT LAST WIP POST IN. MARCH.
GODDDD...
#I GUESS MY WRIST FUCKING UP PUT ME FURTHER BACK THAN I THOUGHT#but also like. i was JUST talking about it in chat. i have a comic about the Three Of Them that i wrote in a frenzy in FEBUARY.#by the time i rewrote the dialogue and figured out the ending it was SEVEN FUCKING PAGES. SOLID.#OF JUST SCRIPT.#I STILL HAVENT EVEN FINISHED SKETCHING IT. YOU GUYS ARE NOT SEEING THAT SHIT UNTIL 2024#sometimes an idea of them will grasp me and i will just write the script out in the middle of the night#I realistically. dont even know if you guys are gonna like my scripted stuff.#the first scripted thing i wrote was a yellow&duck comic that im STILL SKETCHING BACKGROUNDS ON#i could be really bad at writing for them. i could totally not get them at all.#but hey!#we'll see when we see I guess#BUT YEAH UH. SORRY FOR LITERALLY ALL I POST BEING WIPS NOWADAYS I AM JUST WORKING ON LIKE 5 DIFFERENT DRAWINGS AT ONCE#STILL TRYING TO GET MY SPRING STUFF DONE. AND ITS ALMOST FALL. SO :]#I JUST CARE SO MUCH ABT THOSE PUPPETS DAWG I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS FOR THEM#I HAVE!!! EVEN MORE DRAWINGS THAT I JUST HAVENT SHARED!!! bc i either made them for something real specific in the discord#or bc theyre phone doodles and i dont think theyre that great. or bc i made them just for a friend and thats like. theirs now kjdhkjdfhs#a lotta times once i finish drawing smth for a friend ill just never post it bft. so its just like. for that one thing and nothing else#ANYWAYS HAPPY 3 AM IM FORCING MYSELF TO GO TO BED#AND I STILL HAVE THE ANIMATIONS#AND THE FANART FOR LIKE 5 FICS I WANNA DO#OHHH GOD CMONNN BRO IM NEVER FINISHING ANYTHING#my postings
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#*wails* fiddauthor#hands off the wheel i’m gonna be honest#i really like it#i love doomed yaoi#but you know what i love more? the doomed yaoi to redeemed yaoi pipeline#cherik fans can i get a hell fucking YEAH#i know they never really redeemed but they did in all the fics I read at 16 so it counts#anyway *more wailing* fiddleford mcgucket!#I need to shut the fuck up and answer asks/finish this fic tbh sorry everyone for being annoying!! it WILL happen again!!
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Writing over 30,000 words worth of content for a fic only to realize it’s all pointless because you have no interest in it anymore and you were never gonna finish it anyway….
What even is The Point anymore
#current mood#it’s so joever#this isn’t even the worst part honestly#what really sucks is that this project was the last thing in my life I had any sustainable interest in and now that’s gone too.#now I have nothing. like#the fuck am I supposed to do??? get a new interest??? that’s fucking impossible#nothing hits like it used to and everything is just….bland….and SO MUCH EFFORT to get into#like hobbies are so difficult? and my old hobbies (ex writing) are becoming more and more toxic and like a chore rather than something fun#like writing at this point has become a battle of perfectionism and I’m fucking losing#what am I supposed to do. nothing inspires me. I have no interests. no hobbies. not many friends irl#and it’s not like we ever hang out because people are a fucking piece of work#either they cling to you like dog shit or they never respond to your texts no in between#im just so tired of existing??? and also college??? is fine but like#what the fuck am I DOING here like#why am I getting an art degree??? is this really how I should be spending my time and my parents money?#what the fuck am I gonna do for a job??? what do I WANT from a job???? I don’t even fucking know#i can’t see myself being happy in life doing anything and that’s such a nonstarter#it makes it impossible to start planning anything because I feel paralyzed with fear#and like I said….i don’t have any interests. I don’t LIKE anything. I am the antithesis of curiosity and interest like. there’s just nothing#i can’t do this anymore#im so done#idk why I made this so long but#I guess I have a lot on my mind I wanted to share#sorry for cringe posting on main it will happen again#im sorry in general actually for everything im sorry for being needy and attention seeking and annoying and flaky and never finishing any of#my fics because I lose interest and for not responding to anyone in my inbox I’m sorry#personal#cringe#cringetober#long tags
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