#the emancipation of dollsonmain

[dollsonmain]

Bleh I hate when a job application is like "Thanks for applying NOW DO A TEST!" like, no, it's bed time. I don't work for you, yet.

[elizabethplaid]

batch listen playlist update - August 2020

60ish songs this time ‘round. You should know the drill by now. Past updates are on the tag.

Found some neat covers and remixes. A couple-few have harpsichord(ish) parts. I want to explore mash-ups of classical music and bass-heavy electronica. Apashe’s “Lord & Master” is a great example, but a lot of his other music features vocals or more of a hip-hop sound. Still great, but not what pulls me in.

I’m still browsing around early-to-mid ‘00s indie rock, still looking for stuff I missed out on in (and just after) high school. Franz Ferdinand and Bloc Party are great examples of that sound. I hadn’t heard of Maximo Park before, but they’re pretty catchy.

Feel free to discuss music with me. I have lots of feelings about music, and it’s existentially fulfilling to discuss them with others.

Edit August 27th, 2020: “Senses” by Lee Harris is based on Roniit’s “Rise”, not by Hitchild. Some of youtube’s attributions is mucked up, so I got confused. She also has a bandcamp page, which helped confirm (to me) that hers was the original.

Silver Mt Zion - "Stumble Then Rise On Some Awkward Morning"

Silver Mt Zion - "Mountains Made of Steam"

Maximo Park - "Apply Some Pressure"

Bloc Party - "Hunting for Witches"

Bloc Party - "Skeleton" - posted previously

Ludovico Einaudi - "I Giorni"

ibi piano - "Sweden" (C418 cover)

Trevor Something - "Enjoy the Silence" (Depeche Mode cover)

Phoebe Bridgers - "Killer" - version with piano

Maximo Park - "Our Velocity"

Franz Ferdinand - "Michael"

Orville Peck - "Summertime" (acoustic)

Flesh - "Black Crown"

Audionautix - "Rubix Cube" - featured in a Technology Connections vid

Daughter - "Youth"

Ursine Vulpine - "Wicked Game" (Chris Isaak cover)

Miike Snow - "Genghis Khan" - love the pigeon sounds part

Together Pangea - "Sick Shit" - posted previously

Billie Eilish - "No Time To Die" - I wanna hear this with an operatic voice

Big Data - "The Glow" ft Kimbra

Lee Harris - "Sense" (remix of Hitchild’s “Rise”)

Hitchild - “Rise” - vocalist isn’t credited, so idk who she is See above!

Godsmack - "Whatever" - thanks, Isabella Sosa

Julien Baker - "Brittle Boned" (live)

Rezz, Grabbitz - "Someone Else"

Psychedelic Porn Crumpets - "Found God in a Tomato"

ΣXIS†EMY - "Inception"

dissøciation - "Ikrennosti" (remix of Bada Boo) - snake as still image

Bada Boo - "Ikrennosti (Of sincerity)"

in3briant - "The Reaper Seeks Her"

Dua Lipa - "Hallucinate"

Iglooghost - "Amu" - cute video, too

Confidence Man - "Boyfriend (Repeat)" - posted previously

Sevdaliza - "Clear Air" - had to revisit this tune <3

Mindless Self Indulgence - "Shut Me Up"

Kent - Då Som Nu För Alltid

Rina Sawayma - "Snakeskin" - major earworm right now

Bea Miller - "That Bitch" - love the harpsichord and choir

Raury - "Devil's Whisper"

Raury - "God's Whisper"  - they go really well together, trust me

Tyler, The Creator - "Earfquake" / "New Magic Wand" (2020 Grammys performance) - I prefer this version, as it’s lower-pitched

Tyler, The Creator - “Earfquake”

Tyler, The Creator - “New Magic Wand”

Lo Moon - "Tried to Make You My Own"

Forest Swords - "Friend, You Will Never Learn"

Kalandra - "Brave New World"

The Decemberists - "The Mariner's Revenge Song"

Cosmo Sheldrake - "The Moss"

In Love With a Ghost - "Flowers" feat. Nori

Abi Ocia - "Running"

Santigold - "Disparate Youth"

Royal Blood - "Out of the Black"

Ghost Data - "Gods of the Artificial"

Himalayas - "Thank God I'm Not You"

Tony Anderson - "Butterflies (piano sontata)"

Emancipator - “Time For Space”

Øfdream - "Ninth Gate" (slowed)

Timecop1983 - "On the Run"

Azaleh & Eikona - "By Your Side"

Peggy Gou - "Starry Night"

Apashe - "Lord & Master"

Conni Elisor - “Blackberry Winter” - queued to @agalmacoppelia​

Bloc Party - “Helicopter” - thanks to @dollsonmain​

[dollsonmain]

Job posting that I haven't applied to because there's lifting involved: One (1) Work/Life Balance day off

....

What do you mean ONE. WHAT DO YOU MEAN. ONE (1) WORK/LIFE BALANCE DAY OFF.

THAT IS NOT BALANCE.

[dollsonmain]

Job posting: Full time, bennies, customer service leader. Me: But what's the pay? Job Posting: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Me: .... Me: *looks it up elsewhere* Elsewhere: Employees report that this position pays $15/hr. Me: Oh FUCK YOU then.

It should be illegal for a business to pay less than enough to live on independently, especially a huge-ass corporation.

This is before taxes have been deducted.

Rent is $1500/mo. JUST. RENT.

[dollsonmain]

Legit if I were an artist I'd do furry porn just for the money.

[dollsonmain]

Ok, no experience customer service job came up for a company that's supposedly in town but...... They aren't? There's no website for them, no address, I can't find them on the map to know where they are because if they're too far north I can't work there.

Where the fuck is this place??

[dollsonmain]

Is job advertisements for fake companies a common issue?

Very much so. It's another way scammers phish for personal info.

[dollsonmain]

Ok job applied to, guest room sheets in the wash, upstairs vacuumed.

[dollsonmain]

You know what.

I'm going to go ahead and apply for the housekeeping job tomorrow even though I'm missing some qualifications because it's entirely possible no one MORE qualified will apply.

I'd do it now but I'm struggling to stay awake and should do something like that when I'm alert.

[dollsonmain]

I really need the federal minimum wage to catch up to cost of living.

[dollsonmain]

After me saying "Been crunching numbers, looking at rent, looking at mortgages, looking at our current monthly expenses and I'd need to earn about $24/hr full time just to be able to afford to pay rent/mortgage, bills, owning a car, and food with nothing left. NO BODY'S PAYING THAT MUCH." on facebook, one of my old high school friends tried to encourage me by saying that I'd qualify for programs like SNAP and might qualify for Section8 housing and if I'm earning $15/hr and work 40 hrs a week no, I wouldn't.

In my state:

LIHTC cutoff is $14k/year

SNAP is $19,578

Section 8 housing cutoff is $29,150 for one person and $33,300 for two, and we'd have 2 adults being myself and my son. I don't know if Son will be able to work since he does have some trouble with being interrupted or being told to do something he doesn't want to do, but a the same time I don't know if he'll qualify for disability due to autism because he's low support needs. The single apartment complex that accepts Section 8 is for elders and full, anyway.

Despite being too much to qualify for assistance, it's still not enough to survive on because our current expenses wouldn't change much considering That Guy doesn't eat at home mostly (he barely eats at all, really) so the grocery bill is mostly Son and me, and has no creative hobbies that cost money outside of the occasional pricey LEGO set and a $60 video game lasts him a few months so I picked an average for the credit card bill:

Mortgage: $2000/mo (1 bedroom apartment rent averages $1500/mo while the least expensive house on the market right now says to expect to pay $2k)

Water: $60

Power: $130

Internet: $90

Phone: $170

Propane: $280

He pays for everything like car-gas, groceries, toiletries, all my pony salon supplies, etc. on his credit card and that averages $1700/mo.

Our car is paid off so we don't have car payments but I would have car payments. No idea how much that would be.

That doesn't include the auto insurance because he pays that direct-pay with the bank, which is $78/mo for 3 drivers on a single sedan.

$54,096/year. He does NOT pay for my dolls other than the occasional cheap playline doll.

What of that could we do without?

We don't go on day trips, go on vacation, buy new clothes when our clothes wear out and if we do it's thrifted or from the discount store (like Goodwill, TJMaxx, Marshall's, or Gabe's), don't go to the salon or barber, eat Taco Bell once a week for $25 and rarely go anywhere else, I don't get my nails done, do them myself, or wear makeup which is a huge expense, don't buy expensive electronics or home theater equipment, don't buy home decor, don't pay for repairs, have low-end cheap computers, wait for our phones to no longer be supported before upgrading, wait for ANYTHING to break before replacing it...

[dollsonmain]

ALSO it scares the shit out of me seeing layoffs everywhere.

Imagine finding a job, getting a vehicle (I'm hoping to get a very small pickup truck so I can haul things), getting a home, finally being free

and then being fired/laid off for some reason.

[dollsonmain]

Ok application for hinky printing company is in, and also another customer-facing position (call center representative) at the waste disposal company was posted so I applied to that, too. They ignored me last time, I figure they will this time, too.

[dollsonmain]

[dollsonmain]

There's a full time with bennies kennel attendant position that's been open a while and I haven't applied because it says I'd need to be able to lift 40 lbs.

I could do that maybe once a week. My back is garbage.

I also haven't applied because my son is VERY allergic to cats.

Oh right, that's the same job as the one day off listing...

[dollsonmain]

So in this post:

I deliberately didn't add in That Guy's CC bill when I was talking about our current monthly expenses, even though he uses the credit card to pay for car-gas, auto repairs, groceries, etc. because he spends about $50/day in gas to get to and from work (he says it's 1hr15min one way but the map says it's 45min...) and also goes out to eat with his friends at work pretty often. They go to The Cheesecake Factory a lot.

I've never been, but I know it's not super cheap.

His CC bill averages around $1700/mo.

So the too-low pay rate is a lot more dire than I made it out to be, I was just already really upset and had already exceeded my projected monthly earnings so...