#the back and forth on the black/white morality is sooo annoying

[kumomist]

been in a dcu/white collar kick lately so im rewatching wc and. i remember why i dropped this but also im seeing a lot more of the gay now

[lovemesomesurveys]

is writing something that you enjoy doing? Yes. I haven’t done so in awhile, though.

would you rather read or write? Read. I do that most everyday.

would you rather draw or take photographs? Take photographs. I’m a horrible drawer.

do you prefer black and white or color photographs? why? It just really depends. Both can look really nice.

what was the last thoughtless thing you did? At this point, making coffee in the morning is just second nature. I get up, come out like a zombie, and manage to make a cup of coffee.

what is one movie you’ve seen, but few others have? I don’t know.

how about a movie you haven’t seen, but many others have? The Notebook. Gasp!

what is something you do subconsciously? Hmm.

who was the last person to toy with your emotions? Joseph.

when was the last time you cheated at something? I don’t cheat.

is breakfast an important meal to you? Nope. Coffee with a donut or muffin in the morning is important.

why do you get up in the morning? ^^^

who influenced your current belief / moral system? Well, a lot of things. My upbringing, experiences, educating myself on things... stuff like that.

anything you need with you to fall asleep? A blanket and pillow. It’s not something I need with me, but I need the TV on. I also often fall asleep listening to ASMR videos. During the warmer months I need the fan on.

do you have any nighttime routines that you follow? Well, sometime after dinner I have another cup of coffee and a dessert. Ty got me a book called, Moments of Peace in the Presence of God: Morning and Evening Meditations for Every Day of the Year that I read in the morning and evening like it says, Tumblr some more, do some surveys, and listen to ASMR videos.

when was the last time you had trouble sleeping? I often do.

do you celebrate the 20th of april? Nope.

at what age is one too old to trick or treat? I don’t know. I felt a little silly doing it as a teen. One time my friend and I went like during our first year of college, and someone called us out. He said we looked a little old to be to be trick-or-treating. lmao. Thaaaaanks, dude.

do you still trick or treat, regardless of age? Nah. I was kind of over it at a certain point. I don’t remember when I stopped, apart from the one time I just told you about previously. I still would dress up and stuff, and have done so up until this past year. I just figured I could buy my own candy and gorge at home or go to a friend’s house and eat their sweets. Haha.

what’s the most money you’ve received from the ‘tooth fairy’? I’m not sure what the most was.

have you ever eaten an entire pizza on your own? A personal size, microwave one. Oh, and those oven baked Totino’s ones as well. Those aren’t that big.

what is the most calories you’ve consumed in one day? Oh boy. I’m not sure, but probably a lot. I like my junk food and fried foods. I really don’t eat very healthy. :X

when was the last time you were impatient? Earlier while waiting for my mom’s homemade meatballs to be done. They’re sooo good.

when was the last time you felt used? Hmm. It’s been awhile, thankfully. It’s not a feeling I’m unfamiliar with, though. I’ve felt used a lot.

when was the last time you felt appreciated? I’m not sure.

has anyone ever copied off of your homework assignments? Yeahh. I was always the one my friends would come to in middle school cause I always did my homework. My cousin who went to school with me at that time would do so as well. I didn’t like doing that, and I always worried about getting caught, but I was just too damn nice and they knew it. They would just think they could copy off me and not worry about it.

describe the main problem with your last relationship? Well, it wasn’t really a relationship for one. It was one sided with me having the real, intense feelings and wanting more and putting in the effort, but they didn’t. Our communication sucked because he never wanted to talk about any of that. If it got too real, he’d make a joke or change the subject. Or, we’d find out stuff from our mutual friend who relay messages back and forth, which often led to misunderstandings. He only wanted me around when it was convenient for him, and I let him use me and play me because I didn’t want to face the truth. I wanted to think it was real, and that things would change. Nope.

what was the last thing you clicked on before this survey? A Youtube video.

when was the last time you used duct tape? for what? I have no idea.

do you enjoy writing poems and songs? I used to write poems when I was younger.

are you annoyed by personal questions? Yeah, I clearly hate talking about myself. <<<< Hahaha. It’s funny because I really don’t like talking about myself “in real life.” I’m not this open at all. I know you wouldn’t think so based on how I am with surveys. I blab on and on about personal stuff.

what was the last thing that offended you? I don’t remember.

when was the last time you made a judgment about something? Uhh. When I was deciding what video to watch a bit ago based on the title.

when was the last time you debated with someone? I really try to avoid doing that.

can you smell anything right now? what? Not really.

when was the last time you sang the ABCs? I have no idea.

when was the last time your face was red? My face doesn’t really get red. My cheeks get flushed, but that’s it.

what’s on your shower curtain? I have sliding doors.

what cartoon do you wish was still on tv? I don’t know. I don’t watch cartoons anymore really, except for every now and then when I tune into TeenNick’s The Splat segment with shows like Hey Arnold, Doug, and Rugrats. I haven’t watched that in awhile, though.

what cartoon / anime character can you most relate to? *shrug*

what was the last thing that you put into your mouth? Coffee and those Little Debbie cakes.

what was the last word that came out of it? “I might have to invest in that and try it.” I’m watching a video and she was talking about that CoverGirl BB Cream stuff. I’ve been wanting to try it, but haven’t done so as of yet.

do you have any pictures of celebs saved to your computer? Yep. I have several Alexander Skarsgård pictures.

[anonymous-butnotquite]

autumnal asks

I reblogged this last week and I’m finally in the mood to actually do this.

“This” being purge out all the things I’ve never said out loud, feel like I say too much, and just pretty much in between, while listening to  listen to Ari Lennox , SiR, and Snoh Aalegra.

lantern - how did you meet your best friend? What were your first impressions of each other? - I met my best friend through a mutual friend in the 8th grade or right after it, I’m not sure. My first impression was “Wow, this girl has a personality. Not in the “Oh! She’s so funny.” No i mean, this girl has opinions, and their different than mine. Man, she has these views and she has them so much conviction." She is intimidating and I’m not sure if I’m ready for this >.>

Turns out I did, we would wax and we would wane, and now my faith in our relationship is as strong as my belief in the moon always making her way back to us.

frost - if you could give some advice to your younger self, what would you say? - don’t wait, just do it. be selfish, it’s okay to want what you want. you’ll always find a way so don’t be scared to leave. be diligent in your relationships, be that family or friends. you don’t know when they’ll need you or you’ll need that person. let people know you love them. don’t be scared, don’t worry, be young, want, love, but continue to trust your gut, it’s always (99.99999%) right.

maple - is there a hobby / skill that you’ve always wanted to try but never did? - man, ha. Uhm, I guess archery. I’ve loved it since i was 8 and i watch inuyasha with my cousin for the first time on vacation in Applevalley, CA.

harvest - what fictional character do you most identify with? Why? - Ooh, that’s tough.. I feel like I find myself in all the heroines I read about. If I had to choose though, I’d certainly say at this time, Emi from the Red Winter Trilogy by Annette Marie.

*oh shit, slide away by miley cyrus just came on. it’s lit.

fireside - if you had your dream wardrobe, what would it look like? - ooooooh, {((>,<))} such a colorful variety, but only like 50% the other 50% needs to be my neutrals (black, grey, white, and more black.) So I’d have jackets and hoodies upon themselves, LOTS of denim, a pair of overalls, tees, sweaters, crop tops, high-waisted errthang. off the shoulders shirts, blouses whatever. belts -i never have any of these and i have no idea why,- but yeah it be easier to just look at my pinterest board lol

cider - a food that you disliked as a child but now enjoy? - mmm, honey mustard. that’s a condiment i know. truly though, it was a breakthrough.

amber - share an unpopular opinion that you may have. - yeeeeeeekkkkk, i think gender roles are okay as like an outline, but then once you have your kid and he/she starts having opinions you can swap out things or trash it who cares for what your child feels comfortable, and your family supportive.

fog - how well do you think you’d do in a zombie apocalypse scenario? - dawg. i feel like given the right resources, i’d do okay. def steal a truck/suv, grab my crew, and drive out to the country and stay on a farm or some shit.

jack-o-lantern - if you could look like any celebrity, who would you choose? wellll, zendaya. I’ve heard i favor her and i don’t all the way see it but if i really could have those brows and face structure, yeesh. imma be stuck up.

spice - have you ever encountered a house that you believed to be haunted? - my elementary school had this story about the basement being haunted from a custodian killing her. and i was dared to use the restroom down there. i def got the bottom step and straight hustled out that mufucka.

orchard - share one thing that you’d like to happen this autumn. -i’d like to feel connected. that blissed out feeling of the breeze coming over your body on that cool day, but with a person.

crow - which school subject do you wish you had an aptitude for? - wish? hmm, language. had i felt more comfortable i may have went into college for some writing/ communications major from the start.

bonfire - describe your dream house. - too long. but here’s go killing time. dark green, black accents covering the exterior. a beautiful front porch, yes with the swing. gorgeous deck for entertaining, back yard with fence but 3 good and full trees to provide more privacy from the neighbors, toward the back so that way on the deck i can see the sky and moon at night. inside.. a mud room from the 2 car garage at the end of the mud room to the side the laundry room complete with shelves for the washing/drying items and hangers for the the gentles. in the opposite direction you walk into a spacious kitchen. complete with a double over, sitting on top of each other, large cabinets that at as the pantry, cabinets on cabinets on cabinet space. a fun but elegant back splash. the island/breakfast bar. deep double sinks, stretching into the living room just this is getting way to detailed and i’ll finish the rest. but bottom line. great vanities in my bathrooms, 2 upstairs, a half bath down stairs. (yes 2 stories and finished basement which also has a half.) 4 bedrooms master connected to bathroom with huge claw bath. another for the kids (2-3) if no 3rd kid forth room is an office/ we use for reading, writing all dat. you know what this is my dream so regardless of children i will have this. filled with lots of laughter, love, smiles, talks, discussions, advice, and understanding. 

cinnamon - if you had to live in a time period different than the present, which would you choose and where? - man, i would say something crazy like oh with the samurais and shit and then have to remember women have always had it rough everywhere and we still do! and add that on to the fact that i am color? not really bout it. but it women right’s were the same. i would go back the edo period, or when america bounced back from the depression. oh wait i wanna avoid all the WW’s... yeah every time period had their hangups. 

cobweb - (if you’ve graduated) do you miss high school? - nah, i really just miss the responsibilities. they truly weren’t anything. 

cranberry - what’s one physical feature that you get complimented on? my hair.

maize - share the weirdest encounter you’ve had with a stranger on the street. - i’m not sure about strange, that gives it a negative feel to me. but on my 25th birthday i was drunk downtown with my friends and while walking back to the car i heard this guy (the stranger) talking about sauske (from naruto, clearly) was the greatest character in the series, and i just yell out “sauske’s a bitch.” dude took it in stride and was saying how come? and i proceed to have this existential conversation on the street at like 3 am about naruto. NARUTO. it was like a dream come true. but definitely the most random.  

quilt - how do you take your tea (or coffee)? - coffee, a quarter of it needs to be creamer (flavored preferably) with 2 sugars. tea, i am surprisingly starting to put cream in it, like that only 1-2 sugars. without 2-3 sugars. I like my stuff sweet, sue me? 

pumpkin - do you think that humans are inherently good or bad?  -this is tough. i guess since we are born “in sin” we are inherently bad? we’re taught in life what our morals are and what things we shouldn’t do. 

moonlit - are you a neat or messy person? Is your room / house orderly? - eat, neat, neat. if messy it is a organized chaos. my house is orderly now i just got done cleaning before i took a shower and started this. 

flannel - have you ever gone on a bad date? - yesssssssssssssss. yes. yes. he was sooo fine too. like just great looking. still love looking at him on instagram attractive. but he was just so materialistic and judge mental. he still shoots his shot from time to time and i be like... should i? then i’m like nah, he always annoys you when you do. 

cocoa - if you could have any type of hair, what colour and cut would you have?- and it be natural? i love to be a natural red hed. i think they are just bombshells. i know they get the fire crotch jokes growing up but i’m skipping that phase. and cut? i think i would keep a medium borderline bob hair cut. 

ghost - is there someone that you miss having in your life? - i don’t miss anyone that ... wait i miss my penguin girl. but i was going to say that the person i miss in moments like this is someone i’ve haven’t met yet.