#the afternoon fog

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

miles kane saying “you cunt”

[bluebelly-sun-serpentine]

August 28th, 2024

[aviationgeek71]

Embracing the cold December landscape in a shroud of fog, Mother Nature recites a tale of change...

Granville, Ohio. December 3, 2023.

By @aviationgeek71

[discoinfernos]

the fact that I ran out of my antidepressants so I’m just rawdoggin it & going through that withdrawal on election day while subbing for elementary schoolers is just deranged sjskfksks

[sailor-cerise]

the difference between doing chores or errands on a good day vs a bad day is stunning.

Sometimes on days that are ok physically but bad mentally, I forgot how starkly different it can be.

I start to believe that I'm lazy or not trying hard enough or that I cut myself too much slack or make too many excuses or feel too sorry for myself and really I just need to do better.

And then I have a rare day like today where I am able to easily start and focus on an important, tedious paperwork-related task for two hours, getting it done, and not feel awful afterwards. The amount of willpower it takes is laughably small in comparison to most days.

No crying or bursts of anger or overwhelming exhaustion or inchoate anxiety.

Instead: a moderate sense of satisfaction, and pleasant relief that I'm done.

I feel like a different person. I know it won't last, but even that realization doesn't feel that bad. Because things are pretty good right now.

And I remember:

It's not supposed to be so hard all the time.

That I'm NOT exaggerating or imagining just how ridiculously fucking hard it is to do every-day things.

This is what it should feel like.

~* It's not supposed to feel like the world is ending because I need to open my mail. *~

What did I do differently to make today happen?

I let myself rest. For as long as I needed. For weeks.

I stopped pushing myself so fucking hard all the time, and protected my body and respected my limits and let things go.

It doesn't always give me a magic day. My exchange rate is like, 2 weeks of aggressively resting and setting boundaries for 1-2 days of doing what I want and need.

But it reminds me that pushing through is not the way to get what I want.

Maybe taking care of myself and being kind to myself will get me that day or afternoon or hour of magic, maybe it won't -- but running myself into the ground never does.

[voidlifer]

[vindemiatrics]

give it a rest, my love

[idolsgf]

absolute dog shit day at work today

[beatriceportinari]

woke up early bc of an nightmare and guess what banbans. FOG IN THE NIGHTMARE TOO

[toopunkrockforshul]

Okay I have gotten my budget balanced, and determined things cost money gansey

but it will be okay. And now I can eat lunch and fold some more laundry and then do some work, maybe

[phagodyke]

day has passed in such a haze.. at least I get to leave work at 4:15 on mondays yippeee

[justwoods]

[le-guin]

heat exhaustion??? or regular exhaustion + it's hot

[jakemyboy]

The California June gloom has lifted and we finally had some morning sun!!!! 🌞

[hatake]

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[ardate]

Party San Open Air 2023