#the ad is so good im eating it up

[sanlangkiss]

the first 15 minutes of tgcf ad episode 12 are literally insane.... like.. your highness is so bold to ask for a night with chengzhu if he wins a game..

i havent read the revised version yet but i could only hope hua cheng would never stop talking about this moment. he should never allow xie lian to forget he asked for a night with him for winning their little game..

[inkskinned]

it is all chaos and entropy. the thing is that the chaos and entropy make it beautiful and lovely.

yes, it's true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is terrifying. i have lived through some of the unfairness - i got born like this, with my body caving into itself, with this ironic love of dance when i sometimes can't stand up for longer than 15 minutes. i am a poet with hands that are slowly shutting down - i can't hold a pen some days. recently i found a dead bird on our front porch. she had no visible injuries. she had just died, the way things die sometimes.

it is also true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is wonderful. the sheer happenstance that makes rain turn into a rainbow. the impossible coincidence of finding your best friend. i have made so many mistakes and i have let myself down and i have harmed other people by accident. nature moves anyway. on the worst day of my life she delivers me an orange juice sunset, as if she is saying try again tomorrow.

how vast and unknowing the universe! how small we are! isn't that lovely. the universe has given us flowers and harp strings and the shape of clouds. how massive our lives are in comparison to a grasshopper. the world so bright, still undiscovered. even after 30 years of being on this earth, i learned about a new type of animal today: the dhole.

chance echoing in my life like a harmony between two people talking. do you think you and i, living in different worlds but connected through the internet - do you think we've ever seen the same butterfly? they migrate thousands of miles. it's possible, right?

how beautiful the ways we fill the vastness of space. i love that when large amounts of people are applauding in a room, they all start clapping at the same time. i love that the ocean reminds us of our mother's heartbeat. i love that out of all the colors, chlorophyll chose green. i love the coincidences. i love the places where science says i don't know, but it just happens.

"the universe doesn't care about you!" oh, i know. that's okay. i care about the universe. i will put my big stupid heart out into it and watch the universe feast on it. it is not painful. it is strange - the more love you pour into the unfeeling world, the more it feels the world loves you in return. i know it's confirmation bias. i think i'm okay if my proof of kindness is just my own body and my own spirit.

i buried the bird from our porch deep in the woods. that same day, an old friend reaches out to me and says i miss you. wherever you go, no matter how bad it gets - you try to do good.

[skitskatdacat63]

Hello guys!!!!! Aforementioned project is finally finished 🫠 It was meant to be just a simple weekend project, and ended up being 30+ hours over the period of like four days. I don't think I'm an actual normal human anymore. This is the project that caused everyone in my life to question my mental and physical wellbeing and health. But I'm super excited to share this all of you!!!! Please enjoy!!!! Even if you don't like vettonso, I hope this is still interesting????

If you make any, please reblog this or tag me in it! I'm excited to see what other people, other than just me suffering alone in my bedroom, make out of this!!! <3

[blackhillverse]

it’s the fact i’ve barely seen any echo advertisements in my country for me and i know EXACTLY why.

[fujouppy]

been really into this sandwich/burger lately: bottom bun, thin layer mayonnaise, mushed 1/3rd of a can of green peas, american cheese, 4 pieces of fried bacon, normal cheese, ham, american cheese, another layer of mayonnaise & top bun. i use hamburger buns for it cause i bought some when i made burgers for me & my mum and then didnt use them cause we had buns with cheese on top & they sounded better but im sure any other type of bun or maybe toast (or just regular boring bread if ur weird) would work too. also i put the hamburger buns on the grill pan w the bacon for a minute or two cause that makes them real niceys. i dont think anyone will try making this after reading this post as mushed canned green peas (they have to be canned peas) r a bit too avant garde for sandwichburgerthings but i wanted to share this w the world anyway

[todayisafridaynight]

No because Zhao speculating felt like such a

Looks into the camera

"I bet you're wondering why that happened. ;) heres maybe a reason ebina was deep..."

moment

no literally- like other antags' endgame Deep Moment scenes worked because there was SOME build up throughout the game to key us in on them from a deeper level but it just doesnt work with ebina

[aliengummy]

🥣

[ohemaa-warrior]

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[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

writing poetry sometimes feels like you gotta cut yourself open to express it idk smear all your organs all over the page and hope somebody else reads something beautiful. is that like divination the way it's expressed in various places and things? I dunno. poetry never slides off your skin like water off a duck's back. it's from within I think. sometimes you have to tear yourself apart to get at the words and sometimes it just wells up from within and gushes out. always from somewhere deep inside. sometimes it's difficult and horrible and painful but the alternative would be worse. sometimes it's from sheer joy that must overflow into words. I think that's beautiful personally. skin splitting from joy. it happens, I think, to us all at some point. or maybe I'm just a creature of extremes. maybe that online test I did because a friend recommended it is true. it said my symptoms were high. I don't know. maybe it is true, maybe it's not. I read a book once where there was a character named Nathan Hill-and-Dale, and while I'm not nearly as extreme as he was portrayed, in my extremes, I know I'm a fairly volatile person. funny, for most people who see me IRL seem to think that I'm fairly calm. nope, I'm a volcano. watch out, even when I'm apparently calm I might blow up one way or the other. one of my residents' family members said today that I was young and bubbly and she was glad to see it because happiness is the prerogative of the young. a part of me wished I told her. I have actively tried to kill myself once; I have come extremely close to the same actions countless times including yesterday; I would sooner hurt myself than others; if I had my own choice I would simply starve. of course I didn't tell her. sometimes I think I'll never get better. at this point I would consider it a very high chance that I will either die by suicide or end up in hospital following an attempt. not now, of course. but despite my fierce love for my course it has stress associated with it and I think that it's very likely that no psych help on earth would fix my mental health enough for that not to be an option mentally in this short time. I think it's possible to recover from all of the things I struggle with. God help me, I hope it is. the real question is whether I will survive long enough to recover from them. and the answer? I know not. I was reminded of a past interaction with the boy today, where he called my name - I turned - his grandfather, a photographer, was waiting to see if he could get a decent photo, for we were at a church conference and he was trying to get photos everywhere. they were laughing. I could not help but laugh. that memory is tainted now, for he would not look at me now, let alone try to pull such a stunt again. I don't blame him. I don't blame anyone for it. I wonder what would happen if I blocked all my friends on discord; who would seek me out? part of me hopes people would, another part hopes they would not. sometimes I just want to be left alone to curl up and die. it would be easier. so much easier than living, and living, and living. I tried writing poetry just now. it felt like trying to cut myself open, I couldn't get the words out. it only made me feel rather wild. I'm desperate for change, for something. something. what is that something? I don't know. did you know I'm a sadist? I would not in a public place express the thoughts that led me to that conclusion. but I am. I wish I wasn't. there's an obvious solution to that. quick, and easy. so easy. too easy. I tried writing poetry, and then instead of writing anything coherent, I wrote this.

[hyah-lian]

Apparently some of my cards were in better condition than I thought. I got my medical supplies covered mostly through them phew.

But I think I might fucked my sleep schedule oooops. So I'll be up late if anyone wants to ramble to send doodle requests again~

[megagrind]

Bitches be like “I’ve spent so long chasing after this person that it’s time I move on and fall in love with someone else” and it’s literally the exact same person

[monsterbisexual]

i hate how i feel doing or not doing certain stuff for/because of the pain + fatigue since im a fat person :///

[nerdie-faerie]

I'm going to throw something. I'm on my third 9 hour shift in a row scheduled with the two most useless coworkers at once who keep disappearing to do fuck all while I'm manning front by myself and packing 5 orders at once

[vegancas]

the thing is i would become a fruitarian if i didn't think it sounded like so much work

[mariemariemaria]

i really need to cut out refined sugar

[imavikingo]

Ok so... I like to buy figurines and plushies. I bought some stuff of Steve and Bucky years ago, but couldnt buy a lot of things of em before, because I relied on other people (local online shops) to get them. And Marvel wasnt that popular with the shops I knew.

The thing is... recently I have been able to buy stuff I like because Ive been buying by myself, secondhand for the most part (amiami sometimes has secondhand products, ebay and buyee are my go to places for this tho) and by chance I found someone that was apparently selling ALL their Hottoys, like a lot of them. And they had some of Steve I really wanted to own (The double Strike/Streets Clothes one in particular) and I bought them!!! I didnt pay for all of it because it was a partial gift (I paid for shipping/customs, but this is irrelevant).

And...

Just recently Hot Toys announced that they made a 2.0 of THAT particular figure (the Strike's outfit) and I was like "WHY THAT ONE? WHY NOT ANOTHER ONE?" "WHY, OH WHY???"

and idk, I think its kinda funny?

Ive been wanting that figure for almost 10 years and in the same year I can have it in my hands, they announce the 2.0 version... I feel like a clown kinda, lmao

They also teased a new 2.0 Winter Soldier figure (I actually want to buy that one :'> I can save for it if it also comes out in 2026)