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companion write-up to the fic i just posted, 'call me by', which is a lawlight bodyswap fic inspired by your name / kimi no na wa.
don't read this post without reading the fic lol it is not going to make any sense!! im posting this because i think the fic is (well, sort of intentionally) a little vague and it might be fun to provide more context for anyone interested.
you obviously can read the fic without reading this though. this is just a thought dump. :)
this is technically an au, but i wrote it to be theoretically canon compliant if you squeeze things around and close your eyes a bit (as long as you don't think about timeframes lol and how many days are lapsing). i did fudge their ages a bit because otherwise light would be about 15, and i wanted him to be 17-18 because i think that makes more sense for him at this stage in his life lol. otherwise, i think it's actually kind of fun to imagine this happening alongside canon.
light leaves notes in L's home when he's in L's body and vice versa. generally they leave notes at regular intervals. longer paragraph breaks means a longer period between.
the mechanics of the bodyswap for the purposes of this fic:
like in your name, a swap starts when they wake up and finishes when they go to sleep.
once they swap back, they can't remember the names or faces (or any other identifying information, like career titles or voices) of people they personally encountered.
this includes themselves (i.e. if light in L's body encounters himself, he will not recognise it as himself and won't remember himself when he's back in his own body) and other familiar people (i.e. light won't remember that L works with his father, light wouldn't recognise L if he met him in his own time)
but if a person could be identified with public information, then they can retain their memory of that person (i.e. L doesn't struggle to remember ryuga hideki).
light is two years before L. i loosely used the anime timeline, so the kira investigation kicks off in about 2006-7, which is when L is. light is in 2004.
light nicknames himself asahi for no particular reason and nicknames L ryuga hideki after his sister's favourite idol. LABB confirms that L likes to take his pseudonyms from his past, so i thought it would be funny if the reason why L named light&soichiro 'asahi' and himself 'ryuga hideki' in canon is because light-of-the-past came up with those names already. (in canon that means that light would recognise those names immediately of course.)
when light's dresser catches fire as a result of L's meddling, it's not exactly the same trap as the one light sets in canon, but i think it's something similar because that's the way light's brain works. it does minimal damage but he still gets in trouble haha.
L figures out who light is pretty early on, which is why he's so careful and reluctant when light persists in trying to connect with L outside of the swapping. he also (unbeknownst to light) starts concealing information about the investigation from light because he believes light will later become kira and doesn't want to give him an edge.
light knows that L is a famous detective, and might get a vaaague inkling, but i don't think it fully clicks for him.
the body-swapping stops right before the yotsuba sting in the helicopter. after it stops, light doesn't open L's note for a long time because he is hoping they will swap again.
after light opens the note, he realises that L had known perfectly well who he was and struggles to understand why L didn't tell him + why L emphasised so hard not to open that note until after they'd stopped swapping. he figures, or fears, that the reason they stopped swapping is because L died, which is more or less the truth.
the last note takes place in 2006 after light picks up the death note and finally puts the pieces together that he was the kira suspect that L had been investigating. at this point he realises that he has been given the chance he'd been hoping for to save L's life by choosing not to become kira. his choice whether or not to take it, but........
#i could have made the fic more comprehensible as a standalone piece but unfortunately#i decided to write the thing that would be most fun for me#which is of course more confusing. but whatever.#i wrote this for ME#rookfic#dn your name au
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trick or treat!! đ§Ąđ¤
Hi Tauria!! Happy Spookmas UwU
Since you shared some behind the scenes verse details with me, I wanted to share some ideas I have cooking for a verse with you!!
This is for the very silly and self-indulgent Little Red Riding Hood AU I thought of a zillion years ago, and it's very much under construction still haha. I've changed a lot of things about the premise from that original post, so here's a breakdown of the idea (with spoilers!) plus a small scene snippet from the beginning of the fic:
Little Red Riding Hood AU:
Fairy tale setting - so think hand-wavingly feudalist kingdom in fantasy land, very 10th Kingdom in its approach.
(Side tangent: 10th Kingdom is an excellent miniseries that I love dearly from the 90s - it features a character named Wolf who is the love interest. No one who's been following me for any length of time would be surprised to discover that I had a massive childhood crush on this man lmfao definitely formative media for me â¨)
Jason is a knight of the realm (who wears a red riding hood ;) ) and his adoptive father Bruce holds a wooded country estate. Sent to war (and presumed dead (!)), Jason hasn't been home in years. He's coming home now, ahead of official correspondence correcting this misconception.
Along the way to Wayne Manor he stops to hunt, but that movement in the bushes wasn't prey; he accidentally grazes a lone wolf. And the wolf isn't very happy about that.
Reminder that this is fairy tale universe; the wolf's cheeks are ruddy, his thick black hair hangs in his pale blue eyes. He's a beautiful creature - but Jason knows better than to let his guard down. Wolves are clever, and that makes them dangerous. They're untrustworthy, and liable to bite. (Enormous prejudice against wolves in fairy tale land that will be unpacked later ;) )
This is, naturally, one big misunderstanding - the wolf thinks Jason attacked him on purpose and lashes out, and Jason's not about to sit back and let a wolf kill him. They get into a scuffle (riddled with banter and sexual tension of course) that only ends when Jason has him pinned to the forest floor with a blade against his throat-- but he hesitates to kill him.
As they catch their breath, they realize their errors, and Jason gets a name out of him. Delivered with no small amount of sass.
âMy, Tim, what a big mouth you have,â Jason says dryly. âDonât make me say it,â the wolf, whose name is apparently Tim, groans. But his pale eyes flash yellow as they flicker down the length of Jasonâs body to the place their hips have met, his pink tongue swiping out to wet his lip. Jason catches sight of a sharp white fang, and abruptly his breeches feel tighter across the front. âBut itâs right there,â Jason says absently, leaning in closer almost against his will. He doesnât mean for his knife to break skin, but Timâs throat bobs against the edge as he swallows, calling up a thin red line. Jason can feel the rush of his breath, soft across his own chin. He watches, fascinated, as the black swallows the blue of Timâs eyes. âFine, Sir Red-Riding-Hood. The better to taste you with, you brute,â he murmurs, and Jason closes the gap between them.
After, they part ways, both satisfied with the encounter and with the happy memories they'll be keeping for long nights ahead. ;)
Jason advises Tim not to sneak about in these woods if he can help it; he'd hate it if Tim were reduced to nothing more than a pelt adorning some hunter's wall. Tim teases back that Jason himself might prefer that honor, then melts back into the shadowed boughs of the forest. Goddamn.
aw, a happy ending! Right?
When Jason gets home, shocking Bruce and Alfred with his arrival (and the whole 'not dead' thing) (i'm still waffling on whether Jason knew about his presumed death lmao) Jason himself is shocked to discover that the son of their tragically departed neighbors the next county over, who has been staying with Bruce and Alfred for most of the years since Jason's departure, is none other than Tim. The wolf Jason just said his farewells to yesterday in the woods.
Cue the rest of the fic.
A discord message I sent to a friend when I was explaining Jason and Tim's feelings about this mutual revelation of their identities:
Jason, pulling Tim aside and whispering harshly: what do you think you're doing here, do they know you're a wolf, what are your intentions did you think to replace me-- Tim, whispering equally harshly: I swear I had no idea who you were, but youve been gone for years you have NO idea what it's been like while you were away, so don't you DARE-- Jason: I was AT WAR-- Tim: AND I THANK YOU FOR YOUR SERVICE, HOWEVER--
Obviously, they fall in love.
(For the trick or treat ask game! Send me a trick or treat ask and I'll share jaytim WIP snippets, or new 3-sentence -paragraph fics, etc :^) through the 31st!)
#this au is my goofy little fairy tale retell romcom with no stakes other than their dumb romance. i will of course have to workshop that lol#but for now this is the idea uwu#no fucking clue what shenanigans will need to ensue but the first part of the fic could be a standalone fun time chapter on its own#jaytim#asked and answered#my writing#ladytauria#trick or treat ask game#i just love wolves you guys roflmao
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suicide blonde is going back to sleep, literally every time i touch the universe it unravels further and i've lost sense of everything and every character
#it just can't live up to the size and structure of the original so like#idk i need to put lex/val in a universe all their own with dean/inez as strict side characters because it's the only way it'll ever work#and i can't figure out a way to do that because literally every character decision i make - particularly for val - has me primed to fear#people will hate her#which i think is just trauma from dealing with the fic but#idk literally everything i do just falls apart like nothing works#and like val and lex are my true passion to write about so ....idk i just can't figure out what works#but like the priest started as an offshoot and became so original so fast and has such a clear image and purpose#probably because it's a standalone#but this universe does not feel clear to me as it attempts to be so many things at once and none of them are the story i want to tell#i just can't hit the notes i want to hit and i've become so insecure over the characters#which ...is probably my fault at this point but idk#it's just so frustrating <3#and i'm very happily chugging at the priest au but keeping in mind that does not have a happy ending is probably why i'm turning back to sb#but...sb is not working at all#soooo...back to sleep she goes#⯠â diary entries.
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#like the clown i am i spent half the night awake trying to come up with a way to make the olli/allu modern-day royalty AU work out#my first idea was to try and make it similar to my college AU with POV chapters and shit#but i quickly realised it wouldn't work out for the same reason i'm still struggling with the gran hotel AU:#unlike with the college AU i don't have a clear character arch for everyone#e.g. i can't for the life of me think of a way to link the joel/niko side plot to the main plot to make it make sense#and idk what joonas' role would be other than to occasionally hook up with olli and fangirl about aleksi and pine for joel#soooooo it thought i could instead make it a series of shorter stories? if anyone out there is seriosly interested in reading this AU? đđ#like. the first one would obviously have to be a little longer since it's the establishment for the whole AU#so far i have an outline for a 6-chapter story from olli's and allu's povs. basically just them getting together#and the rest of what i have planned for the AU would be standalones or shorter establishments?#because if i were to include EVERYTHING in one fic it would most likely end up being +20 chapters lol#and no way in hell would i have the patience for that ���#that way i could just time-jump to the scenes i want to write the most lol#instead of having to try and weave them together to form a longer coherent plot#i mean i looooooooove slow burn and all that but i don't want to overwhelm myself by starting to write something#only to realise 32k words later that i have no idea where i'm going with it D:#(my ski jumping rpf fic says hi đ)#but by writing individual shorter stories it would be much easier for me to handle the plot while also advancing it#because the storyline in my head is so extensive that i feel like i can't fit it all in just one fic#at least in a way that i would be satisfied with đ#i can make them get together in 6 chapters with no trouble#but for them to actually form a secure relationship and get messed up in all that tabloid drama and face the prejudice of the royal family#until eventually getting their happy ending? yeah nope. gonna need at least 20 chapters for that lmao#and if i wanted to advance all the sideplots on top of all that? yeah nope đľ#with individual stories i could just write all the joonas/tommi and niko/joel (and unrequited j/j) as spin-offs! yay problem solved! đ#pls don't get your hopes up though lol i may love planning fics but writing is another story entirely đ#but yeah. watch this space?#or maybe i'll just continue writing random pointless olli/allu standalones whenever i get a burst of inspiration. we'll see đ
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if yâall ever want background lore on a fic i wrote. even if itâs like forever ago or just a fic fragment. 100% send me an ask bc i almost always have more ideas for the specific universe that just never made it into the fic
#like the fic i wrote for halloween#or basically any au ever#especially that lighthouse au#OH AND THE AU WHERE SHIRO AND ADAM HAD A DAUGHTER#seriously yâall my brain never shuts up#i donât post them bc theyâre not standalones and theyâre not sequels either#but believe me. thereâs more there#i also have songs and mood boards#and posts
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Also btw... my counting sheep before drifting off to sleep wasn't Cain alterego but... It's an isat au... I now have an isat au.
#aria rants#how did this happen? isat x mhyk buuuuut not rlly as well. basically i took one trait from mhyk (turning to stone upon death)#and applied it to isat and well would you look at that! theres a really particularly fitting moment in the game where it DOES apply#and im inflicting this pain upon odile. i love you odile im just Like This (inflicts pain upon my faves)#got a writing idea brewing for the au too and i dont know if ill put it on ao3. depends on how long itd get#and it aint gonna be like-- a longfic yeeeet??? cuz the fic idea i have is just a standalone like a prologue for the au of sorts
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Progress on the before and after sequels! Ch1 of the mental health fic has been done for days, but I wrote parts of a couple more chapters yesterday and today and finished a JayRoy fic that happens way at the end of the timeline (around 2020, which is four years after before and after) (in case ur wondering, the mental health fic takes place around two years after before and after fic, although I haven't set it in a particular month, just sometime in winter of 2017-2018). So so far we have
- a oneshot intrequel (completed)
- a wip proper sequel that's going to be three chapters long (the mental health fic) (wip, outline completed)
- a sequel to it that I'm working on in the same doc I'm calling the therapy fic, yes those are two separate things (wip, outline is a mess)
- a pre-jayroy oneshot (completed)
- JayRoy oneshot (completed)
So, uh, yeah, progress is being made
#before and after fic#the mental health fic#the therapy fic#the oneshots don't get nicknames you'll find out what they're called when I post them#gail speaks#oh and I AM also working on the timkon jealousy au but it's not part of this continuity it's going to be a standalone#that's not outlined either I have a couple of vague ideas and I'm pantsing it
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oh this makes so much sense... also on a related note i just realized this is one of the reasons it bugs me when someone says "why are you writing fanfiction when you could just change the names of the characters and make it an original story" like... fanfic is inherently different from published literature and it's always been hard for me to explain why to someone who doesn't read fanfic. it is actually easier (in some ways) to write fanfiction because you don't really have to do the work of introducing the characters and building their personalities, and oftentimes the setting is built for you as well - the reader already knows all that stuff! that is, in fact, the entire reason they're reading this story in the first place! and if you try to write an original novel the same way you would a fic, you're missing an essential part of the setup and it ends up making the entire thing feel low-quality. now i want to turn that question around and ask these writers "why are you writing an original novel when this would be so much better as a fanfic??"
all this criticism of booktok is valid sure or at least i assume because i am not on there lol but i also think itâs missing the other elephant in the room of an explanation for why all these truly awful nothing-y books are being written in the first place like yes booktok is feeding the demand for digestible quote-heavy novels that prioritise tropes over originality but i really think itâs the fanfic-ification of literature thatâs responsible.. people have said it before iâm not getting into the whole fic vs literature debate but fanfic calls for such a specific style of writing because it (rightly) assumes that the reader is already familiar with the characters involved, so familiar in fact that theyâre willing to read any number of scenarios involving them and overlook cliches because theyre fun when youâre already invested in the people involved. writers have carried this mentality into published original fiction which is just. soo insane to me. like how am i supposed to give a shit about another enemies to lovers fake dating whatever when it concerns two people i have literally never heard of and that youâre going to spend exactly zero time developing as charactersâŚâŚ
#media#literature#i'm not saying that writing fanfic is easy either - there's still a lot of effort that has to go into it! writing is hard!!!#but there is a lot of stuff that you just... don't have to worry about in fic#i write a lot of aus and i try to make my fics readable and interesting even to people who aren't familiar with the characters#showing the characters' personalities clearly early on and thinking about how they would change depending on their backstories etc#but it's still not really as much work as original fiction#and honestly that's one of the reasons i write a lot of fic. it's easier for me to write if i'm already invested in the characters/setting#if i was going to publish one of my fics as a book i would have to do a good bit of editing to make it work as a standalone piece
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every now and then one just gets completely enamoured with karen pov prologue chapter and convinces themselves they can totally post it before the whole fic is done
#like on the one hand. i love it. it could totally work as a standalone about karen trying to connect with her daughter#and figure out wtf is going on with her and new boyfriend she keeps sneaking into her room#but on the other hand thats one chapter sitting in my Steve henderson au series and its not even steve pov#but if its not in the series im afraid itll come off as very steve focued because it kinda is??#its for the steve fic but it also touches on nancys relationship with her mother and theres all these hints as to what karens doing wrong#its in that middle ground where im afraid of making it its own thing because then im just 'making it about some guy'. idk#also itd be really funny cause the only two fics i would have posted would include stancy. i dont ship stancy. djkafhdafjk#idk we'll see#it is amusing that i just get into the zone with this chapter specifically like i wrote this whole thing in only 2 sittings#of just complete writing genius going going going 3.5k in just two sessions#something about post season 1 mini fics gives me 3x speed multiplier or something#devon's steve henderson au#steve henderson au rambles
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â HOW TO SPEND SPRING BREAK PROPERLY? (WITH HIS BESTFRIEND)
ᥴꪍâ summary. spring break's here, for the duration of your time off you visit your father. little did you know youâd also be spending time with his best friend tojiâhe ends up stealing your panties and maybe even your heart also. or does he? youâve always did want a man.
warnings. fem! reader x toji fushiguro, dad's best friend! toji, age gap (reader is over twenty & in uni â toji is in early 30s) incl: shiu kong, mutual pining, tiny slowburn, size difference, semi-public themes, humor, angst, dad is just oblivious.
note. hiii! wasnât planning on continuin' this but this au has me intrigued ÂŻ\_(ă)_/ÂŻ this is just a short four fic series for fun that may & may not be read as standalones. header: lady k & the sick man
⪠ᥴꪍâ âSPRINGBREAK COUNTDOWN ᥴꪍâ â
⣠THINK I NEED SOMEONE OLDER.
university sucks major ass. on the bright side, youâre on breakâyou decide to go pay your father a visit. this 'visit' ends up to you being introduced to his best friend, toji. whoâs he? maybe your panties know the answer.
⣠DARLINâ CAN I BE YOUR FAVORITE?
if you knew youâd be sandwiched between two of your dadâs colleagues, youâdâactually letâs not finish that sentence. turns out you get walked in on by shiu kong, tojiâs best friend whoâs also your ex boyfriend. awkwardâŚ
⣠ONE OF HIS GIRLS.
toji ends up finding out maybe his best friend's daughter isnât so innocent after all once he walks in on you and your precious 12k viewers. he grows amused by your little side hustle as a cam girl. but actually, maybe having him as a special guest wasnât so bad. (girl it was)
⣠THAT [GIRL] IS MINE.
university still majorly sucks, and spring break is practically over. time to say goodbye to your dadâs best friend, but before you doâyou have a jarring confession to make, and itâs definitely not those three words.
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three am | csc, hjs
Pairing: Seungcheol x GNReader (afab) x Joshua
Genre: smut, angst, porn with the barest of plot, non-idol!AU
Rating: M (18+)
Warnings: slight exhibitionism, unexpected voyeurism, threesome, grinding, dirty talk, oral sex (reader receiving), p in v sex (protected), joshua and coups are lowkey sweethearts and highkey horny opportunists, jeonghan is still an asshole
Word Count: 3.5k
Disclaimers: NSFW, obviously I donât own SVT - they just inspire me
Summary: Itâs three am and your ex is nowhere to be found. But his two roommates are there for you.
A/N: Soooo... I wasn't planning on writing a sequel to two am but then someone commented "im begging a pt 2 where she sleeps with cheol or shua or both to fuck with jeonghan" and I blinked and this happened. See how powerful commenting can be??
Although this is technically a sequel, this story can be read as a standalone fic - all you need to know is that Jeonghan is reader's toxic ex, and Joshua and Seungcheol are his roommates.
Unbetaâd as usual. If you like this, please let me know! Iâd love to hear what you think (but please be kind Iâm fragile đĽş) đ
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This is a bad idea.
You knock hard on the door in front of you, as if the motion could knock the words out of your head, too. Theyâve been on repeat since you arrived at the building where your ex lives. Kept you company in the elevator. But despite how loud they are, youâre not listening.Â
Instead, youâre straining your ears for any sign of life inside the apartment. Youâre about to knock again when you hear footsteps.Â
They stop, and you hold your breath, waiting.Â
The door opens.Â
âYN?â Itâs Joshua, peering at you from a crack in the doorway. His soft eyes are full of confusion at the sight of you at his door at midnight. Â
âHey Shua,â you smile, calling him by the nickname you used to use, back when you practically lived here as Jeonghanâs girlfriend. âCan I come in?âÂ
âUh, sure.â The door closes and reopens as Joshua removes the chain. He steps back to allow you to slip past him. âBut, um, âHanâs not here?â
âOh.â You pause, then fish your phone out of your pocket. âBut he told me heâd be home by midnight?â
Joshua shrugs, shuffling away from the door. âI dunno when heâll be back. You can wait here if you want.â He slumps onto the couch, then gestures to the open half. âIâm just watching a movie.âÂ
You feel his eyes on you as you settle into the saggy cushions. If you looked at him right now, you know heâd be gazing at you with open pity. Itâs the same look he gives you whenever he catches you sneaking out of Jeonghanâs bedroom.Â
The movie isnât very interesting, so you scroll through your phone as you wait, trying to be patient. You hate waiting, but this is going to be worth it.Â
About 10 minutes later, though, youâre getting antsy. You clear your throat. âHey, uh, can I get something to drink?â
Joshuaâs latent host instincts stumble clumsily to life. âOh yeah, right, what do you want?â
He shuffles off to the kitchen without waiting for an answer, so you hop up to follow. He pours some Jack Daniels into his glass before adding a little cola, then gestures to a second glass heâs produced from the cupboard. âWhiskey, soda, water, thatâs pretty much all we have right now.âÂ
âUh, Iâll take the same as you.â You tap your fingers on the counter. âSo, uh, howâve you been?âÂ
Joshua shrugs. âSame as always, nothing new. I guess I canât complain but Iâd kinda like to.â He grins and hands you your drink, then taps his against yours. âGeonbae.âÂ
âWhat are we drinking to?â Seungcheolâs voice is deep and grumbly as he enters the kitchen. Jeonghanâs other roommate was obviously sleeping based not only on his timbre but also the physical state of him - shorts and hoodie rumpled, fluffy dark hair flying in different directions, eyes barely open. At least, until he realizes who you are, at which point they widen. âOh, shit, hey, YN. I didnât know⌠who was here.âÂ
âHey Cheollie.â You flash the other man a friendly smile. Youâve always liked Jeonghanâs roommates. They both seem so nice, if a little bro-y. Hard to understand how theyâre friends with Jeonghan sometimes. But then again, you once thought he was the sweetest man on the planet, so maybe your judge of character is a bit shit.
One thing you are empirically certain of, though, is that both of Jeonghanâs roommates are so, so fine. Joshua has a lithe frame thanks to his skateboarding while Seungcheolâs got a boxerâs build due to the many hours he spends in the gym. And they both have face cards that have never once in their lives declined.
âWeâre drinking to the status quo,â Joshua informs his roommate, sliding him the bottle of Jack. Seungcheol hums, already recovering from the surprise of seeing you. He knows youâre still fucking Jeonghan. Itâs just that usually when youâre here, they never actually see you.
Seongcheol lifts his cup. âKeeping it or fucking it up?âÂ
âKeeping.â Joshuaâs eyes flicker to you. Seungcheol nods.Â
You take a sip of your drink. The atmosphere in the kitchen is awkward now, both of the men exchanging glances that clearly telegraph that itâs because of you. Part of you wants to flee - but you need to wait it out, if youâre going to get what you want.Â
And fuck do you want it.Â
Joshua slinks back to the couch. Relieved for a break in the tension, you do the same. Seungcheol drops into the armchair, legs spreading, sculpted thighs catching your eye, before you avert your gaze, reaching for your phone again.
By the time the credits start to roll on the movie youâre thinking itâs time to give up. You finish your drink, setting it on the coffee table before standing. âIâm just gonnaâŚâ With that, you head for the exit. âThanks for the drink.âÂ
âSee ya,â Joshuaâs voice floats past you into the hallway as you close the door. It hangs around just as long as you do before disappearing towards the elevator.Â
Itâs Seungcheol who greets you the next week. He gives you a once-over before letting you in without a word. Vacates the apartment not long after you arrive. Joshua is on the couch again. Remembers to offer you a drink before ignoring you for a solid twenty minutes, after which you leave.Â
The third time you show up, Joshua is back at the door. Tonight the surprise in his gaze has been replaced with a knowing, and familiar, look.Â
âHeâs not here. What did he tell you this time?âÂ
âUhâŚâ Caught off guard, you blink rapidly. âHe said heâd meet me at midnight again.â Youâre a little earlier than you meant to be, too eager to make yourself sit at home much longer. Itâs a sickness, really.Â
âUh-huh. And yet, heâs not here again.â He tilts his head, waiting for you to arrive at whatever unspoken conclusion heâs reached.
âJust let them in, man.â Seungcheol raises his head on the couch, giving you a once-over before lying back down. âDonât get in their business.âÂ
âRelax, I was going to ask them in.â Joshua rolls his eyes at his roommate as you slip past him towards the empty armchair. âYou want a drink?â
He gives you a noticeably stronger pour this week, the alcohol stinging your throat with the first sip. Must be his way of sympathizing. Youâre grateful to Seungcheol for shutting down Joshuaâs burgeoning interrogation earlier. You donât require their judgment. You know exactly what youâre doing.Â
Which is why you nurse slowly at your cocktail. Both men are on their phones while a baseball game plays on the television. Youâre content to scroll on your own phone, listening mindlessly to the sound of the announcing droning in the background.Â
Joshua clears his throat. âYou know youâre wasting your time, right.â
Itâs not a question.Â
âJoshâŚâ Seungcheol intones warningly.
âIâm just saying!â Joshua turns so heâs facing you âThereâs no reason to sit here and pretend weâre not thinking it.âÂ
âIâm not thinking it,â his roommate responds, not bothering to look up from his phone as he talks. âYouâre the one thinking it. Knock it off.âÂ
âHey, if you want to pretend this isnât weird, fine. But Iâm not. Iâm calling what I see, and - â
âDude youâre making it so weird just by pointing it out! If youâd - â
âGuys.âÂ
They stop arguing and look at you. Itâs a little dizzying, honestly, having their combined full attention on you for the first time.Â
âIâm not stupid. I know heâs out with someone else.â You hold out your phone, showing the latest post from Jeonghan. As if they werenât just looking at it on their own screens.Â
âHe ghosted you. Again.âÂ
You sigh at Joshuaâs declaration. He only presses on.Â
âIf you hadnât seen that photo, how long would you have kept waiting? Another fifteen minutes? Half an hour?â
âDamn, what do you want from them?â Seungcheol finally sits up, giving his roommate a look. Heâs imposing without even trying to be, his frame towering over Joshuaâs as he sits on the floor.Â
Joshua doesnât back down, not concerned in the least. âI want to know what they want!â He suddenly gets up, taking a seat on the corner of the couch next to your armchair. You quirk an eyebrow at him when he takes your hand, holding it gently between his. âYN. What is it you really want?âÂ
âWhat is - what are you doing?â You wiggle your hand free from his grip. His concern is somehow touching and condescending at the same time.Â
âIâm asking you an honest question. I donât get it.â Joshua snorts. âThereâs no way Jeonghanâs dick is that amazing. Why do you keep coming back when he treats you like shit?âÂ
You have no answer for that, because you donât understand it yourself. Why canât you stay away?Â
âYN, you donât have to answer that.â Seungcheol scoots down the couch so heâs closer to you, close enough for you to breathe in the spicy warmth of his cologne. âBut look, I agree with Joshua on one thing. Jeonghanâs being a total asshole to you. You donât deserve that.â
âRight,â you laugh, sarcasm slipping into your tone, âI forgot. You think Iâd remember that by now, given how many times I hear it.â Or at least you used to, back before your friends gave up on convincing you of the truth of that statement.Â
Seungcheol examines you with a quiet intensity that makes your heart jump in your chest. âIâm serious,â he finally says. âAlways thought you were too good for him.â
Joshua doesnât give you the time necessary to unpack that weight before heâs adding to it. âMe too.â
âYou both⌠thatâs - thatâs sweet of you to say.â You draw in a deep breath. âBut I donât need your pity. I donât want it.â
Joshua shakes his head. âItâs not pity, itâsâŚâ he trails off, shoulders lifting helplessly. âI donât know. It makes me mad. Why is he out there when heâs got you waiting for him here? Doesnât he know any other guy would kill to have you show up at their door?!â
His eyes are wide and honest as he speaks, but thereâs something else burning there, something that makes your stomach swoop. Itâs in Seungcheolâs gaze too as he nods along in agreement with his friendâs words.
âOkayâŚâ you glance away, giggling nervously.
âNo, donât do that,â Joshua says, straightening up, tone serious. âDonât laugh me off.â
Thereâs a palpable shift in the mood of the room. An air of frustration tinges everything being said. It makes you squirm a little, and you can tell the other two are feeling it too as Joshua continues.
âYou donât need him. You never did, but you especially donât now.â He pauses. âAnd also⌠ah, fuck, nevermind.â
You feel like youâve been hanging on his every word. He canât stop now. âWhat?â
âI was gonna - I was gonna say - â Joshuaâs gaze lingers on his roommate for a moment. âFuck, itâs gonna be more awkward now, but - oh, fuck it.â His eyes meet yours again. âIf youâre here to get fucked, that can still happen.â
You think you hear Seungcheol curse under his breath, but you canât break eye contact with Joshua right now. Thereâs an unusual ferocity in his expression that has your breath hitching in your chest.
After a quiet moment, you speak. âYouâre sayingâŚâ Seungcheol doesnât react as your gaze bounces to him, then back to Joshua. âYou wanna fuck me?â
âYeah.â
Again you can't stop yourself from looking at Seungcheol. Of the two, heâs always been the more difficult one to read. Now is no exception. Youâd love to know whatâs going on behind those dark eyes of his. All youâve got to go on is the slight furrowing of his brow. Does he think Joshuaâs out of line?Â
âI-I donât know what to say.â
Joshua shrugs. âYou donât have to say anything. Iâm just letting you know, Iâm more than happy to give you what you came here for.â
âI never said that was why Iâm here.â
âYN. Come on. We all know.â
âIâm down too.â
Seungcheol chuckles as you and Joshua snap your heads to look at him.
âWhat? Iâm just letting you know, too.â
Joshua mumbles something that ends in âhypocrite,â and gives his roommate a challenging stare. It feels like someone kicked the dial up on the tension in the room. You nibble thoughtfully on your bottom lip, practically tasting it, lit up with a new energy.Â
âSo you⌠both⌠wanna fuck me.â
The longer your sentence lingers out there, the quicker your heart beats. But youâre not about to speak first.
Joshua opens his mouth but Seungcheol cuts him off mid-inhale. âItâll only be weird if you make it weird.â
Itâs not weird. Itâs the most youâve been turned on in ages, sitting with your back to Seungcheolâs chest, both of your legs spread so Joshua can lie between them and eat you out as heâd so kindly offered. That sweet smile of his turns cocky as he easily mouth fucks you into an orgasm, your clit fluttering fast as a hummingbirdâs wings.Â
Thereâs only the briefest of discussions about who you want to fuck you first. Youâre thinking it over - something tells you that Seungcheol is a ride youâll need to work yourself up to - when says he doesnât mind watching if you want Joshua to go first, and you quickly agree. Joshuaâs not about to disagree, so you start to shift, to move away from Seungcheol, but he stops you with a strong arm around your waist.Â
âStay here,â he murmurs, lips pressing against the side of your neck. âWanna feel you fall apart.â
Seungcheolâs other hand has found your clit and is circling lightly. It has you lifting your hips shamelessly, openly seeking more pleasure. You whimper Seungcheolâs name with a shudder, then Joshuaâs with surprise when his hands wrap around your thighs and push them up into your stomach.
âYou donât have to move, youâre perfect just like this,â Joshua informs you, and the hunger in his eyes makes you clench in anticipation. âAbsolutely perfect.âÂ
The head of his cock slides into you, just a little, before Joshua pulls back, then thrusts in again. He does this again, and again, going deeper, until your hips are flush. He moves with such gentleness at first, making sure youâre comfortable, that heâs not hurting you in any way. When he knows youâre ready, his hand cups your face, and he kisses you, tongue gliding into your mouth as he slowly strokes into your tight walls.Â
ââShua!â Somehow his name gets past your tongue and his. You reach for him, fingernails digging into his back, not to hurt, just to hold.
âJust like this,â he groans, the hand on your cheek drifting, pausing at your throat for a moment before brushing over your breast, palm rubbing your nipple roughly enough to elicit a loud whine. âThatâs it. Let us hear you, gorgeous.âÂ
âWe hear you with him ,â Seungcheol says, casually confirming what youâve always known. The rhythmic rolling of your hips into Seungcheolâs groin has your ass rubbing his hard cock. He grips your waist tighter, teeth grazing your earlobe. âI always thought I could make you scream louder.â
âGuess w-weâll find out,â you stammer, words trembling into breathiness, because itâs hard to talk while Joshua has you bouncing on his cock. Seungcheol hums, placing his thumb under your chin, tilting your face to his for a kiss.Â
âGet back here,â Joshua murmurs, raspy voiced and flushed as he nudges his lips into your cheek, knocking Seungcheol away from your mouth. You giggle into Joshua's kiss, while Seungcheol mutters a few low threats against his roommate directly into your ear, all hot breath and low grumbles. A loud creak sounds, and you wonder if Seungcheolâs bed might not be able to handle all this.
Joshua breaks away to glance over your shoulder at Seungcheol. Whatever he sees makes him smirk, and he leans towards you again, lips brushing yours.Â
Seungcheol whispers, âHold on,â and then he slides down the bed until heâs flat on his back. He brings you with him as Joshua straddles his thighs so he can follow, thrusting back into you without a momentâs delay. The swiftness of their movements makes you gasp, has you writhing in desperation against Seungcheol as he spreads your legs, holding them open for Joshua to fuck you harder, faster. You cry with every snap of his hips until itâs practically one long wail.Â
âLet it all out, gorgeous,â Joshua urges as he stares down at you from beneath sweaty bangs. He dips his thumb past your parted lips into your mouth, and you instinctively flick your tongue over it before he drags it down to your clit. âLet us hear that sweet voice.âÂ
âYeah,â Seungcheol huffs, humping wildly against your ass, his hands so hot on your thighs, keeping your knees spread open like butterfly wings. âDonât be shy now.âÂ
Youâre not shy at all, sandwiched tightly between the two men, sobbing both their names as your wave crests. Joshua grunts and then he stills as he fills the condom he wears. Thereâs no sound from Seungcheol, no sudden movements or wetness on your back that lead you to believe heâs also climaxed, and this is confirmed when Joshua finally pulls out and you have the space to move.Â
âI said I didnât mind waiting,â Seungcheol informs you as you eye his big cock again, noting how darkened it is, precum dripping down the shaft. Youâre not quite sure you believe him, but it doesnât matter. Whether or not itâs about to blow, youâre getting on that rocket.Â
But before you attempt that challenge -Â
âI think I need some water.âÂ
Joshua merely hums. Heâs flopped onto his back, and you canât tell from this angle if his eyes are even open.Â
Seungcheol starts to rise. âI can grab you a b-â
âNo, thatâs okay,â you cut him off, placing your hands on his shoulders to pull him back to the bed. âI should, um, pee, too. Before weâŚâÂ
Seungcheol hesitates, glancing at Joshua, and they exchange a mysterious look before he nods, returning to his spot on the bed. Itâs a little chilly, so you grab Joshuaâs hoodie and Seungcheolâs shorts and throw them on before darting out into the hallway and into the bathroom.Â
You down a glass of water at the sink, staring at yourself in the mirror. Your reflection looks proud. It only took three attempts but you did it. In retrospect, it was surprisingly easy to manipulate your exâs roommates into a threesome. You just had to play up your patheticness - maybe you should feel a little insulted that the guys bought it so easily, but who cares, it worked. All you need now is a photo or video, to send to Jeonghan the next time he texts. Then your plan will be complete.
Your hand is on Joshuaâs door knob when you hear a loud creak. Jeonghanâs door opens.
âI thought I heard your voice.âÂ
You jump, glaring at your ex. âFuck, you scared me!âÂ
âHaving fun in there? Sounded like you were.âÂ
Vaguely, you remember the loud noise youâd heard earlier while you were with Joshua and Seungcheol. That mustâve been Jeonghan getting home.Â
Jeonghan leans against his door frame, arms crossing while he takes in your outfit, recognition sweeping over his face. Anger simmers in your gut, stoked by the annoyance you feel at him for scaring you.Â
There goes your plan. Although, maybe this will be more funâŚ.
âYes, I was,â you reply with a grin. Jeonghan scowls, turning away. âNot that itâs any of your fucking business.âÂ
He laughs sourly, pushing himself off the wall to crowd into your space, blocking Joshuaâs door. âYou tell yourself that, baby.â He brushes his finger along your cheek, and you shudder. âBut it is my business. Because youâll always be mine.âÂ
Itâs sick, how you want to agree, his sultry voice hypnotizing you like it always does. He drops his hand to your hip, pulling you to him as he kisses you. His lips demand that you yield to him. But not this time. This time, youâre going to resist.Â
âI havenât been yours for a long time, Jeonghan. I just havenât acted like it.â With two hands on his chest, you push Jeonghan away,Â
âOh, right, but you are now?â He scoffs, rolling his eyes. âFucking my roommates to prove the point?âÂ
You shrug. âDid it work?âÂ
âItâs gonna take more than that to hurt me, baby,â he huffs, but when his eyes meet yours, you catch a brief glimpse of uncertainty beneath the smug expression he wears.Â
Thatâs all you need - that tiny moment of doubt. Youâve got him right where you want him. You step into Jeonghanâs embrace again and kiss him gently. It surprises him, shakes his composure a little, and you slip past him, reaching for Joshuaâs door with a sweet smile.
âIf you insist.âÂ
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Lines Crossed
Pairing: Athlete!Bucky Barnes x Artist!Reader (College AU)
Summary: You and Bucky have danced around the lines you've placed ever since that weekend camping trip. Months later, when Tony Stark hosts an extravagant party, he finally makes a move to cross them.
Word Count: 9.3k
Warning(s): 18+ mdni / drinking / jealousy / forced proximity / smut / female reader / drunk jerk (stranger) / tension / will they won't they oh they will đŤŁâ¤ď¸âđĽ / sex w/protection / pet names / sprinkles of possessive + protective Bucky so be prepared / there's a build-up so enjoy âŁď¸
Prompt: oops, we were just hiding in this closet, but then the close proximity get us too turned on not to fuck
a/n: Please be kind this is my first time writing something like this. đĽşđŠś I decided to challenge myself and join @mercurial-chucklesâ smutty September fest. A tad late on the deadline because Hurricane Helene decided to take the power out. đ This is a standalone fic, but you can most definitely read it (and is intended to be) as a continuation of the events of A Night of Frights & Delights. Likes, comments, and reblogs are greatly appreciated!! â¤ď¸â¤ď¸
part one backstory // divider // ambiance đ¤
You step into the foyer of the Stark Manor, a grand staircase greets you, its golden railing glowing underneath an ornate chandelier. Various guests mingle around the manor, the buzz of conversation accompanying the music that pulses throughout. Everything about the sight in front of you screams old wealth and elegance.Â
Your eyes scan the luxurious home with an expression of awe. Despite being invited before, you had never come to one of Tonyâs parties. Choosing the comfort of your bed and your favorite show instead. However, this time knowing a certain captain of the baseball team would be hereâand your history with himâwell you just had to come.Â
As you take it all in, your gaze locks on a pair of beautiful blues. The very same ones you were thinking of all day. And by the way he was looking at you, you knew he was awaiting your arrival just as much as you had been waiting to see him.Â
There was no denying he most certainly had been.Â
Bucky had arrived about half an hour earlier with some of his teammates. His impatience grew by the second at your absence. He was dying to see what you wore for the party. You denied him any sneak peeks, which only fueled his excitement. He tried distracting himself by greeting anyone he could and making conversation, but he continuously gravitated to the foyer, waiting for the moment you stepped in through those doors.Â
When you finally did, Bucky knew with the utmost certainty that the wait was worth it. When his eyes met yours you knocked the air straight out of his lungs with the black dress you were wearing. The satin dawning your body accentuated your silhouette perfectlyâand the high slit at your right leg showed off the right amount of skin. The way you did your hair and your makeup complimented you perfectly, and Bucky was losing his goddamn mind because of it. Â
Sincerely, he was close to whisking you away and keeping you all to himself.Â
You looked nothing short of beyond stunning. Bucky had been holding back for months, staying within the lines you drew that night in the tent, and honestly, he deserved a medal for that. Itâs the hardest thing he's ever done. What he felt for you couldnât measure up to anything else in his life. Never had he felt so over the moon in his feelings for anyone. Yet, you brought on those sentiments by just being you. He was sure if he wasnât in love with you yet, he was damn near close to it.Â
And right now, seeing you in that dress, his mind is going to places it shouldnât. Places that only belonged to him and his bed on those nights you left him wanting more. Thoughts and scenarios where the night ends with him tearing that dress right off you and showing you just how serious he is about wanting you.Â
Heâs not so sure he can be on his best behavior tonight.Â
Bucky discards the drink he had been holding and saunters over to you. Your heart races in your chest when you see the way his blues darken when he rakes his eyes over your formâshamelessly drinking you up. You take in his figure as well, the all-black suit giving him an aura of class and sophistication that was stirring something dangerous within you.Â
Bucky cleaned up good, real good.
He stops a mere foot away from you, his eyes twinkling with intentions both of you long for. You didnât realize you had been holding your breath until his voice broke you out of your trance.Â
âThereâs no way Iâm letting you leave my side tonight, not in that dress,â Buckyâs voice is deeper than usual, contrasting the charming grin on his face. You roll your eyes playfully, âI donât need a babysitter, Bucky,â you reply amused at the thought. Having Bucky by your side all night would definitely lead to you two enjoying each otherâs company in other ways.Â
Not that you would object if it did.Â
Buckyâs hand reaches out to touch you, your heart skipping a beat as he adjusts the strap of your dress on your shoulder. His touch lingers for a second more as a light chuckle escapes him. âMaybe not you sweetheart, but I might. Someoneâs going to have to keep me in check tonight. I already have a hard enough time keeping my hands off of you and now you walk in looking like a masterpiece and I'm supposed to keep my hands to myself?â He bites his bottom lip for a moment, almost as if to stop himself from saying too much.Â
âSomething tells me youâre going to lay it on thick tonight, aren't you?â You tease him, all the while your body thrums with the way he compliments you. Bucky always knows exactly what to say to make you feel like the only girl in the room. An effortless gift he had only when it came to you.
âCan you blame me, baby? You walk in and suddenly it's like no one else exists,â his tone is softer, yet serious when he says this. Your heart skipped a beat when he called you baby. The weight of his attention felt in every fiber of your being. Bucky only ever called you baby when he wanted to really affect you. Reminding you of the pull he had over you. Â
The spell you two were under was suddenly broken by Darcy, who rushed over to where you were standing and linked your arm with hers. âSorry! Iâm going to steal her away for a bit there Bucky!â She says unapologetically as she tears you away from the man who looks like he could have devoured you if your friend hadn't interrupted. Your protests fall on deaf ears so you're left waving a smallâbut not definiteâfarewell to Bucky.Â
It seemed Buckyâs friends had been waiting for the right moment to steal him away too. As soon as you were in another room Sam and Steve went up to Bucky and dragged him to whatever antics the baseball team was up to. His disappointment matches yours, but if there was one thing he had proven all these months was that he had a lot of patience. He knew you two would end up crossing each otherâs paths more than once tonight. It was only a matter of time.Â
âYou forgot you promised to stick by my side tonight. My ex is here, I need the support,â Darcy reminds you with a slight pout. She looks like a ball of fire with the way she pulls you through the crowd in her crimson dress. Her eyes dart to every guest looking to avoid her ex at all costs.
âI didnât forget. I was just saying hi to a friend,â you explain emitting a snort from Darcy, âA friend? If heâs just a friend than Iâm the Queen of England.â You roll your eyes, a small huff of a laugh leaving your lips. Darcy wasnât wrong. You and Bucky werenât just friends, but you also werenât anything moreâand that was by your account.Â
You and Bucky have fallen into a grey area of what you are to each other. At first, after the camping trip, you tried avoiding him. Not because what happened upset youâbut because you couldnât trust yourself around him after that. Making out with him in that tent made you realize that what you thought had been an annoyance towards Bucky was actually the beginning of a deep-rooted crush. One that bubbled to the surface after that night.Â
Avoiding him altogether was an impossible task when he lived in the other apartment in the duplex you rented. Especially after he insisted on giving you rides back and forth from campus with the excuse that now that you two were friends it's only natural for him to be more friendly. By his definition, it also included things like buying you food on days he knows youâve been too busy to get something for yourself, walking you to your classes whenever he has the chance, and going with you to art exhibitions to dabble in your passion with you.Â
Oh, and it also included kissing you mercilessly during tutoring sessions.Â
Around the time that fall semester began, Bucky asked you if you could tutor him on a few subjects. He hadnât done the greatest academically last semester and he wanted to keep his grades up before baseball season started. You were hesitant at first, but ultimately gave in when you realized how sincere he was about needing the help.Â
Tutoring Bucky meant spending lots of time with him after classes. The sessions were innocent at first, but after the first time kissing on your bed, Bucky made it a tradition to have his lips on yours, and his hands wandering your body at every session. He even stopped hosting parties at his place, preferring being in your room and getting drunk on the taste of you.Â
Bucky was too infatuated by you to ever want to do anything else. Studying was an afterthought whenever you were around, and yet he was doing better than he ever had before in all his classes. Being someone you could be proud of was honestly the best motivation he could ask for.Â
Deep down you knew you were falling for him. There was a bit of apprehension on your part as you hadnât known Bucky to ever have a girlfriend. From what you can remember, ever since youâve known him, he was the kind of guy who preferred flirting and casual encounters. And there was no guarantee you would be the one to break that. So to keep yourself safe you drew those linesâbuilt those walls up high to guard your heart. Bucky respected those lines and never crossed them. No matter how badly he wanted to.Â
Some days, like today, made you want to say screw the lines and just give in to what you desired most. However, when that desire included lowering those walls you put in place, you werenât brave enough to risk itâso you didnât. Instead, you and Bucky danced around those lines until it drove you both mad.Â
Your thoughts follow you for the next hour as you stay by Darcyâs side. Bucky has this natural way of consuming your mind latelyâand your sketchbook. You wish you had it with you right now because when your feelings decide to overflow you channel that intensity onto the paper. For months, every page had been filled with graphite drawings of Bucky. His smile, his eyes, his determined expression when studying, his confident stance during baseball games, and everything else that sparked the creative fire in you. You found a lot of solace in drawing him.Â
Bucky was undoubtedly your favorite muse.Â
You're so lost in your thoughts you donât register youâre in the kitchen of the manor until the guests around you cheer. It seems Darcy and Thor have fallen into a friendly competition of sorts to see who could down more shots than the other in one minute. A group of spectators and friends have gathered in the kitchen to watch the showdown go down. Your eyes dart to Jane who only gives you a half-amused, half-exasperated look. She is not looking forward to having to drive those two home later.
Contrary to your friends, you werenât drinking much tonight. Buckyâs lingering presence at the party was all your senses needed to feel like you were in a daze. For appearances, however, you decide to grab one of the red solo cups to blend in with the rest of those around you.Â
âHey, Y/n! Enjoying the party?â A maleâs voice comes from your right and when you turn to see who it is a friendly smile appears on your face. It was Ian Boothby, a fellow art major at your university. Youâve had him in enough of your classes to consider him a friend.Â
âHey, Ian. Yeah, Iâm having a good time. Are you?â Your question is a catalyst for a much longer chat with Ian. The two of you fall into light conversation about the semester, art, and other relevant topics. It's a nice breath of fresh air compared to the thoughts that had been consuming you tonight. Especially when he tells you the story of one of his painting mishaps causing you to laugh along with him.
Soon after, a hand snakes its way around your waist, and when you smell that familiar woody muskiness you know exactly who it is.Â
âHaving fun without me, sweetheart?â Buckyâs voice has a slight edge to it as he speaks, his lips forming a smirk. You face him and the look in his eyes stills you.Â
Bucky does not look pleased.Â
âBucky, hey man. Howâs baseball prep?â Ian beats you to it by addressing Bucky first. Bucky's eyes flick between you and Ian before he presses you into his side by the hold on your waist. This does not go unnoticed by Ian.
âBoothby, it's going good. Howâs the cross-country season treating you?â Bucky asks, his tone giving away how uninterested he is in continuing this conversation. If Ian picks up on the animosity he doesnât show it as he goes on and on about the sport. Buckyâs impatience grows the more he speaks and his hold on you gets a little more firm. When Buckyâs expression finally gives way to how he genuinely feels Ian finds a way to excuse himself and exit the conversation.
A beat passes before you finally speak, âIanâs my friend. You didnât have to scare him off like that,â you say with slight annoyance. Bucky clicks his tongue as he eyes you closely, âI didnât, but I felt like it,â he shrugs cooly. âDidn't like the way he was looking at you.â He adds, his thumb rubbing small circles on your waist.
âOh? And how was he looking at me?âÂ
âLike in the way only I should be.âÂ
The possessiveness in his voice catches you off guard. The air electrifying around you both at his words. You werenât going to drink, but you suddenly felt the need to. You take a sip of the substance in your cup, the bitter liquid doing little to ground you. Bucky can tell how heâs affecting you and joins you with his drink. His eyes never leave yours as he gulps some of it down.Â
You have to stop yourself from inhaling the entire thing in one go.Â
âIanâs harmless. Heâs just comfortable with me because heâs an art major too. Iâve had a lot of classes with him,â you do your best to continue the conversation and ignore the way your body heats up when Bucky gives your hip a possessive squeeze. Massaging the area afterward in gentle strokes.
âYou do a lot of bonding over paint?â Buckyâs response is slightly mocking, licking his lips to catch a drop of alcohol that wanted to escape. His eyes twinkle with mischief as he relishes the way you're looking at him now. Your gaze trained on his lips. When you realize heâs noticed, the heat from your body goes straight to your face.
You wouldnât let him have the upper hand though. Never.Â
âWell, when you have to sketch someoneâs naked body you obviously become friendly,â your reply causes Bucky to choke on his drink, the hand at your hip falling as he uses it to grab a few napkins from the granite counter behind him to wipe at the mess he made. You hide a wicked grin behind the rim of your cup.Â
He narrows his eyes at you, âExcuse me? What does that mean?â He knows what you mean, but heâs giving you a chance to tell him you're joking. Heâs not hiding the jealousy that crawls up his spine at your revelation.Â
âIt means Ianâs a nude model for some of my classes. He may not look like it but underneath those layers, heâs got the most gorgeousââ Bucky cuts you off with a fierce kiss, his hands gripping your hips and pulling you into him. Thereâs been plenty of times youâve shut him up with your mouth and it was his turn to return the favor. Because hearing you talk about the naked body of another man gets under his skin in ways he wasnât used to. He wasnât going to just stand there and hear another word of it.Â
The kiss catches you by surprise, but soon your drink is discarded in favor of pulling him closer by his blazer. Not caring who sees or what anyone thinks, since itâs the first time youâve ever kissed in front of others. Your craving for him was far too loud to ignore anymore. Your lips stay locked until your lungs burn begging for air.
Bucky pulls away with a smug smile, his voice an octave lower as he moves to whisper in your ear, âYouâre playing with fire, sweetheart. I know you love getting a rise out of me, but just so weâre clearânext time you want to mess with me like thatâIâll make sure you canât even stand after Iâm through with you,â his declaration causes a shiver to make its way up your spine.Â
You swallow hard, your mouth opening to say something, but no sound comes out. Bucky lets out a rough chuckle, ghosting his lips against your cheek before pulling away to stare at how speechless heâs left you. Heâs blatantly savoring every second of it.Â
You want to say somethingâanything. Something witty or playful, but the thought of him making good on his promiseâthe image it conjures in your mindâkeeps you silent.
âBuck! Youâre needed at beer pong! Tonyâs team is winning and the bet is up to five hundred,â Steve rushes into the kitchen, breaking through the bubble you two were in. His eyes dart between you and Bucky with a knowing look. He has to bite the inside of his cheek to stop himself from smiling at the sight of you two.Â
You start to register thereâs still an extravagant party happening around you. Â
Bucky sighs with slight irritation as he once again gets his moment with you interrupted. He reluctantly tears his attention away from you to call back to Steve, âIâll be right there!â Steve nods in approval before going back the way he came.Â
Nowâs your chance to say something, but Bucky pulls away from your body before you can. A coldness replacing where his touch used to be. âHold that thought, baby. Looks like my team needs their star player,â he winks at you before placing a tender kiss on your forehead, âyou keep thinking about what I said while Iâm gone,â he says in a gruff whisper, brushing his thumb across your bottom lip in a barely there touch.Â
He knows he needs to leave before he takes this somewhere you canât go back from.Â
Bucky doesnât give you a chance to say anything as he makes a smooth exit. Heading out of the kitchen in the direction of the beer pong game. Your body prickling with an ever growing sexual frustration. You were embarrassingly close to snatching Bucky away and giving in to all your desires in one of the many rooms of the manor.Â
âYou two need to get a room,â Jane seems to read your mind as she teases you. Appearing from behind you once Bucky was no longer in sight. You canât deny her words, letting out a small huff, âI donât know what good that would do. Iâve been clear about not wanting to take things further.â You explain to her, not sure if you could go back on your words for the sake of giving in to what you want now. Jane has had this conversation with you a few times before, and it appears she's hit her limit today.Â
 âThat man is absolutely head over heels for you. How can you not see that?â Jane shakes her head at you, wondering how she can make you realize what you already know yet deny. There's a vulnerability that overcomes you when you reply, âItâs not that I donât see it. I justâIâve never seen him be serious about anyone. The only thing heâs ever serious about is baseball.â Jane looks like sheâs about to do something drastic at your denial.Â
âY/n, Bucky is serious about you. Heâs literally all about youâheâs chosen you over baseball many times. Iâm not around him like you are and even I can see it clear as day. Do you know Thor and like half of the baseball team thinks you two are secretly dating? Stop denying what you know deep down is true and just give inâbe happy,â Jane tells it like it is, her tone leaving no room for argument or denial.Â
For so long Bucky has shown you another side of himâone not many get to see. Heâs given you priority and importance when he didnât have to. Care and consideration when you needed it most. A shoulder to lean on and a steady support to rely on. Time and time again Bucky has demonstrated how much you mean to him.
Perhaps, you both have been something more to each other for a long time and Buckyâs kept his wishes at bay to make sure things developed at your pace.Â
When it finally hits you, you almost feel exposed by how skillfully Jane can read you. At how easily she can see the situation for what it is and not for what your worries twisted it to be. If Bucky had made it clear to you how he felt, what was stopping you from taking things further than they had been before?
At this point, nothing, nothing was stopping you but yourself.
This realization follows you to the dance floor. A very drunk Darcy had pulled you to it along with Jane, babbling tipsily after losing the drinking competition to Thor. You had never seen a living room with such high ceilings before or enough room to host a makeshift dance floor and a DJ booth. The living space had been stripped of its furniture and supplied with top-notch equipment to make it resemble the inside of a club.Â
At least in the near darkness, it resembled one.
Youâre in a huddle of your closest friends, all of them letting the music guide their movements to their heartâs content. You sway absentmindedly, so you're not merely standing there awkwardly. The kaleidoscope of party lights strobe and kiss your skin with an array of colors as the music thumps around your body.Â
A loud cheer catches your attention, the source of the sound coming from a table on the far left end of the room. Tony and his friends were boisterous as they made a shot against their opponent's team in beer pongâBuckyâs team. You had a clear view of it all from where you stood.Â
Buckyâs team seems to be taking turns on who drinks every time Tonyâs team makes a shot. They look amongst themselves until Bucky steps up and chugs the liquid in the red solo cup. It's like he can feel the shift in the air because as soon as the cup is away from his lips his eyes scan the space and find you, and suddenly it's like you two are the only two people in the room.Â
You want himâall of him. You enjoy the teases, the banter, the back and forth, but you know youâd enjoy calling him yours more.Â
The music picks up in tempo as your boldness grows. Keeping your eyes trained on him, your hips begin to sway provocatively, tempting him to say screw the game and make his way towards you instead. Buckyâs not even paying attention to the game anymore his eyes soaking up your every move as it fans the flames of desire between you. The atmosphere around you buzzes as the ground shakes due to the sea of dancing bodies, and yet nothing thrums within you more than your need for Bucky.Â
The little show youâre putting on for him continues as you roll and wave your body in ways that seduce him. Ghosting your hand along the curves and dips of your figure showing him exactly where youâd like his hands to be. Buckyâs mind is reeling with everything he wants to do to you and none of it involves the dance floor and all of it involves you and him in some private corner of the manor where he can show you exactly what his hands are capable of.Â
You are making it impossibly hard for him to concentrate on anything else.Â
Slowly and with shady intentions a group of drunk guys circle the huddle of you and your friends like vultures. Finding their way to snake themselves into any corner or crevice they can fit into. Their bodies bumping and grazing against yours. Thereâs one guy in particular that has his sights set on you. Getting closer to you on the dancefloor and creeping his hands along your waist. You swat his hands away, but he doesnât disperse immediately. The alcohol on his breath fanning your face causing you to gag. The more you dismiss him the more adamant he was about keeping you close to him.Â
Almost instantly, a protective grip pulls you away from the drunk guy. A familiar warmth encases you as Bucky pulls you into his chest, your back to him. Your hands find their way to hold his arms to ease the displeasure the drunk had caused.
Bucky glares at the drunk guy, his gaze cold and unapologetic, âAlright, that's enough.â The drunk guy sneers, his words slurred, âWhat theâwhatâs your problem bro? Weâre justââ Bucky doesnât let him finish, âShut up. Youâre not doing anything. Youâve got two seconds to back off or weâre going to have a problem,â Buckyâs reply is sharp and menacing. He directs it to all the men that had swarmed you and your friends.Â
Shifting you so you stand at his side, Bucky steps forward to let the guys know heâs not messing around. Your hold goes to his right arm where youâre watching the exchange unfold anxiously. You hope things donât escalate, not wanting Bucky to get into a scuffle. You know he can handle himself, but the idea of him getting hurt in any way caused your heart to ache.Â
The guys size Bucky up and it seems some of them think they can take him on. Until the strobing lights illuminate Buckyâs darkened gaze enough that in their drunk haze, they finally recognize him as captain of the baseball team. That means that fighting Bucky meant taking on the entirety of the team. And with the way Sam and Steve were looking over to see if they needed to step in, and Thor was already storming overâthey knew they didnât stand a chance.
It was comical the way the drunk men scramble to get away as fast as they could. Muttering incoherences and apologies under their breath. They donât get far as Tonyâs hired security for the night promptly kicks them out.Â
Thor comes up to check on everyone, giving special attention to Jane who keeps assuring him sheâs fine. You turn to Bucky, whoâs already inspecting you to make sure you are alright, âBucky Iââ You almost tell him not to worry, that you had things under control, but in reality, youâre glad Bucky stepped in.Â
âThank you,â you say sincerely, Buckyâs tense demeanor softens at your words. He moves to get a better hold on you, his grip at your waist protective teetering on possessive.Â
âYou donât have to thank me for that, sweetheart. I got youâalways,â Buckyâs genuine response makes your heart flutter and your pulse quicken. Your senses are awakened by his proximity, completely enamored with the way he looks at you.Â
âPlus, if Iâm going to fall for the most beautiful girl in the world, I have to know how to fight right?â Bucky says this like it's the most obvious thing, smirking at the way you donât hide the smitten grin he elicits from you. Thereâs a sparkle in your eyes as you stare at him, Buckyâs heart racing at the sight of it.
 âYou and your compliments,â you give a breathless laugh, letting your guard down for once and going with the flow. Bucky can sense it. Sense the way thereâs a shift between you, the blossoming of something bigger being accepted and not pushed away by you anymore.
âOnly for my girl,â he says this like a promise. His right-hand goes up to gently brush against your cheek. You lean into the touch, that same hand cupping your cheek in response. Bucky has never felt more elated knowing that maybe finally you two can go to places heâs only dreamed of.Â
âYours?â You question him playfully, which causes him to chuckle, the sound a low rumble, âYou and I both know you are, sweetheart. I told you I had all the time in the world to make you fall for meâand I meant it,â he smiles, an intense fire in his eyes that only accumulates when you respond, âYou donât have to wait any longer, Bucky.â
He wastes no second to connect your lips, kissing you with a loving purpose. His lips have a slightly bitter taste to them from the beer that still lingered there. And yet, the bitterness disappears when one kiss turns into two and then three. His arms encircling you to pull you into his chest, your hands finding their way to the nape of his neck.
Bucky pulls away to ghost his lips against your jaw until his lips brush against your ear, âThose little moves you were doing for me earlier, do them again,â his husky tone sends a shiver down your spine as he tugs you in to dance with him. Your bodies mold to one another, hips swaying in rhythm with the vigorous music. The beat allows you to gyrate and grind in ways that drive him to the edge of his control.Â
His hand rests on the small of your back, holding you close, fingers splayed out as if making a silent claim. You can feel the way his gaze burns into you, the air getting hotter making it harder to breathe. Your hands trail up and down his arms as need be. The rest of the party fades away leaving you two alone in this space of this charged energy. Every lingering touch and longing glance is layered with unspoken urges that would soon intensify to the brink of madness.Â
âYou have no idea what you do to me do you?âÂ
âI do. Iâm not immune to whatâs going on between us, Bucky.â
Your body, your voice, the way you plead with your eyes for him to take this furtherâit causes a stirring within his pantsâthe fabric getting tighter the longer the dance goes on. He needs to get you away, to get you alone. Bucky needs to satiate this hunger for you that threatens to consume him or he is going to end up doing something Rated R on this dance floor.Â
The throbbing between your legs agrees.Â
An idea pops into Buckyâs mind when he glances at his group of friends. He increases the volume of his voice so you can hear him over the music, âThe baseball team was going to host a game of hide and seek. Should we play?â Playful mischief glimmers in his eyes as he asks you.Â
âHide and seek? Seriously?â You raise a brow, wondering how that was going to work in a mansion full of a million rooms.
âYeah, come on. It'll be fun,â Bucky draws you away from the dance floor and over to where his friends are mingling and taking a few shots. Steve sees Bucky approach and they have a quick whispered exchange. Your eyes dart between them, curious as to what they're discussing.
âSeems like weâre getting a head start,â he comments to you as he leads you away from the main party and down a few intricate hallways. His hold on your hand is firm, yet carefulâalmost as if heâs afraid youâll get lost in one of the many corners of the manor. The thrum of the music fades the further you slip away from the party. Your pulse spikes, both from the adrenaline of the game and the heat that still simmers between you.
Bucky has been to Tonyâs parties plenty of times before, so he knows the layout of the manor pretty well. The clicking of your heels along the marble floors echoes at the pace of the beating of his heart. He tries to focus on the expensive artwork that lines the halls instead of the way your hand perfectly fits in his. The artwork is whatâs guiding his path through the manor and you are the best distraction he could ask for.Â
âWhere are we going?â Your voice echoes down the endless hallway.Â
âSomewhere no one will find us,â he winks at you, your heart skipping a beat at his words, his pace steady and purposeful as he turns one more corner and slips you two inside a room. You're encased in darkness, blindly feeling for a light switch until Bucky uses the flashlight on his phone to illuminate the space. You faintly make out your surroundings. You seem to be in one of the many guest rooms of the manor. The attention to detail in the room was no short of the attention paid to the rest of the place.
You knew Tonyâs family had money, but seeing how they splurged for a mere guest room, meant his family was beyond loaded.Â
Bucky whispered something to you, but you didnât catch it as he took you by the hand and ushered you into the roomâs closet, clicking it shut behind him. He reaches up to turn on the small lightbulb to cascade the enclosed space in a soft glow, turning off the flashlight on his phone and putting it in his pants pocket. The tension is now thicker and more palpable in the small space, causing goosebumps to rise across your skin.
If you had a dollar for every time you and Bucky ended up in a tight space together, you would have exactly two dollars. While maybe strange, it somehow seemed fitting for you two.Â
Bucky steps closer to you, your bodies inches apart, the dim light doing nothing to dull the intensity in his eyes, âNow that Iâve got you hereâI think I did a good job with the hiding spot, don't you?â His heated whisper brings your breath to a hitch.Â
You have to clear your throat to compose yourself, âI donât knowâŚWe had a whole mansion to hide in, and you chose a closet?â You canât help but tease him, trying to lighten the unbearable tension.Â
âWould you rather go hide in the library? The wine cellar? The arcade?â His voice is dripping with mirth taking another step closer to you. He knows what you're doing, but heâs not going to let the tension die downânot this time. Â
âThe arcade sounds fun,â you quip, leaning back against the wall.Â
âHm, maybe, but I prefer the closet. Itâs a lot more private and it has itsâŚadvantages,â he reaches out to pull your hand up to his lips, planting a soft kiss across your knuckles. You go to use that hand to lightly push at his chest, but he catches it in time and intertwines your fingers instead. Your heart is racing a mile a minute.Â
âMaybe the closet isnât so bad, but these heelsâŚWorst decision I made tonight,â you shift slightly, not meaning to change the subject, but your heels are torturing you. In the quiet of the closet the pain begins to creep up on you, begging to be acknowledged. After hours of walking on them, dancing, and standing overallâyour feet were killing you. You werenât sure how long youâd be able to stand upright while hiding.Â
âAre they hurting you?âÂ
âYeah, a bit.â
âLets get them off then,â Bucky slides his hand underneath your right thigh, eyes locked on yours, as he hikes it up against the outside of his leg. Your hips brush up against his front, your breath catching at the intimacy of the moment. He watches your every reaction as he slides his hand down the underside of your leg until he reaches the strap of your heel. Heâs able to undo it effortlessly, relieving you of the discomfort, his fingers grazing your ankle as he slides your right heel off. His every touch leaves heat in its wake.Â
âBucky you really don't have toââ he cuts you off with a soft smile and half-lidded eyes, switching his hold from your right leg to your left one, âI want to, sweetheart. Just let me help, â he removes the other heel with the same tantalizing tenderness he used for the first one. Putting them to the side where they wonât get in the way.
The relief you feel is immediate.
âBetter?âÂ
âMuch.âÂ
âGood.âÂ
A moment passes before he speaks, his voice quiet with an underlying devotion, âYou donât get the hold you have on me, do you?ââ His right hand dances along the outside of your thigh while his left plays with the strap of your dress, twirling it between his fingers. The hand at your thigh traces patterns onto it. Trailing intricate swirls across the flesh, along your hips, ascending to your waist, and all the way up to the space between your breasts. The touch lingers there when you let out a soft sigh.Â
You honestly forget how to breathe.Â
âSay the word and Iâm all yours, Y/n,â his voice is rough as his lips ghost against yoursâseductively grazing against them. Going so far as licking his lips with an invigorating grin to really drive you crazy.
Bucky is waiting for you to make the deciding move. When you realize this, you throw all caution to the wind, pulling him in for a desperate kiss. You waste no time in granting him access to deepen it. Bucky follows your lead ardently. His hands snake down your body to cup your ass and pull you impossibly close to him.Â
Your hands get lost in his hair, a groan rumbling through him at the way you tug at it. You two arenât sweetly kissing, you're devouring each other. Yearning for the other all night leaves no more room for taking things slow or holding back. Youâre both now giving in to what you want mostâeach other.Â
The heat between you intensifies until it crescendos to a boiling point. The aching between your legs imploring you to do something about it. You reach down to tug at the waistband of his pants, causing Bucky to let out a husky laugh.Â
âIf you want something use your words, sweetheart,â he mutters against your lips, you suppress a groan, âYou know what I want. I don't have to say it,â you retort impatiently. Bucky shakes his head, smiling despite himself, âI want to hear you say it,â he dips his head to the crook of your neck, his teeth nipping at the skin. The hands on your ass give it a light squeeze emitting a small gasp from you. You can feel the shit-eating grin on your neck.Â
âBuckyâŚ.IâŚâ your words are cut off by a soft moan when Buckyâs left hand sneaks its way through the slit of your dress until he reaches the inside of your thighs. He massages the flesh there, his thumb brushing against the hem of your panties.Â
Your arousal pools impossibly more, and the lustful haze only increases at the way you feel his hardened cock straining against his pantsâright against your hip.Â
âMm? What was that, baby? Couldnât hear you over those pretty noises you're making,â his every word drips with cockiness.Â
âYou're insufferable.â
âThatâs my girl.âÂ
Bucky kisses your neck with more fervor. Sucking and nipping at the skin hard enough to leave marks. Your thighs involuntarily close together at the way he calls you his girl. He eases them back apart with his deliberate touches. Kneading the soft flesh in his hands as his breathing goes ragged along your neck, tickling your skin. He was on the brink of losing what little control he had left.Â
You suck in a sharp breath, losing what little semblance of control you had left the higher his touch gets. He only goes so far, barely brushing across your clothed cunt to give you a taste of what he can do if you just let him hear it. You were desperate for more and he knew it.Â
 âFuck me, Bucky,â you manage to whimper out, hooking your fingers into his empty belt loops and yanking him towards you. Bucky lets out a low growl at the brief friction, his eyes darkening to an almost unrecognizable color. For a moment, his brain short circuits at your words, processing that you really said that to him accompanied by that alluring sound. Heâs heard those sinful noises from you before, but never like this. Never with the assurance of more.Â
âSay it again.â
âBucky, please just fuck me already.â
You donât have to tell him another time. Bucky crashes his mouth onto yours with a new intensity, mumbling lustful promises into your mouth. How he wants you, how badly he aches to make you feel good, how he yearns for his pretty girl to lose herself with him, and so many more things that make you dizzy.Â
He moves to bunch up your dress, hiking it up your legs until it's bundled at your waist. His breathing strains at the sightâyour black lacy panties luring him inâhis muscles tensing at the growing need to be inside you. His left arm reaches down to hook his forearm under your knee and bring it up to his hip. You wrap that leg around him, steadying yourself on your other foot as you grind against each other. You can feel the way his cock aches to be freed and it causes you to arch deeper into him. Your moans mingle into one, the slight relief overwhelming you.Â
Bucky takes his free hand and splays it at the small of your back, offering strong support as your bodies continue to grind against one another. A chorus of moans and yearnful whines erupt from you both. All of the pining and hunger for one another amalgamates into one as you continue to rub against each other. You swallow each otherâs sounds, tongues tangling carnally as neither of you leaves any room for air.
âDo you haveâ?â
âBack pocket. Wallet.â
Your lips barely disconnect at the brief exchange. You reach behind him, patting down his backside until you feel the outline of his wallet in his pocket. You take hold of it and bring it forward. Meanwhile, Bucky decides to leave wet kisses along the valley of your breasts. You can barely contain yourself and your soft moans as you pull out the condom. The wallet almost slips from your grasp as the attention to your breasts causes you to tremble.Â
You hold it tighter intending to put it back in his pocket when something catches your eye. In the clear slot where his identification should be is a polaroid picture from the weekend camping trip. Youâre in that picture sitting next to Bucky on a couple of logs surrounded by your friends and peers. Thereâs a bright smile on Buckyâs face, his arm around your shoulder as you make bunny ears behind his head.
You love this picture. You have a copy of it taped to your bedroom mirror back home.
At your stillness, Bucky looks up to see whatâs going on. When he notices you staring at the picture, he smiles fondly. " It's the only picture I had of us,â he utters softly, causing a warmth to spread throughout you. You gaze at him in tender awe, marveling at the fact that Bucky is real.
Why had you ever doubted he was anything but yours?Â
You kiss him this time with all the unspoken feelings youâve bubbled up and kept inside. The wallet falls from your hands, but it's no matter as Bucky kicks it to the side with his foot, and shudders at the way your lips claim his. This goes beyond lust. Your heart beats with reason, and that reason is the man in front of you.Â
âBucky, I want this. I want you. All of you,â you whisper passionately, your hands lowering to help him unbutton and unzip his pants, the foil neatly tucked between your fingers. A guttural moan leaves him when you push the layers of fabric down and free his cock, pumping it a few times to get a feel of it. His head falls to your shoulder, sighing softly in a near whine as you tear the foil open and roll the protection down his length. It twitches in your hands, his hips bucking at the contact.Â
His arms are preoccupied with keeping you close and steady, so you gently guide him to your center. Moving your panties to the side as he tantalizingly slides along your folds before he slowly enters you. Your mouth goes agape at the sensation while Bucky has to do everything to make sure he doesnât cum right then and there.
This was so much better than what he had imagined in his dreams.Â
It's been too long since youâve done this and the burn at the stretch causes you to cry out quietly. Bucky peppers your face with sweet kisses and whispers of devotion. Trying to do his best to comfort you as he lets you adjust inch by inch. The hand at the small of your back rubs circles into it with his thumb, your own hands shooting up to grip his biceps for support.Â
âIâm not gonna last if you tighten up like that sweetheart,â he hisses a groan at how tightly your walls envelop him. Youâre really making it hard for him to not come undone in a short amount of time.Â
âSorry.â
âDonât apologize, baby, just relax for me.â
His gentle words are accompanied by thrusts that are slow with a deliberate purpose. Heâs careful with his pace as he wants this to go at whatever speed you need. It takes a bit, but his soft kisses and comforting touches coax the burn away until you're left with the ardent ache of needing more.Â
âFaster, Bucky,â you plead breathily. He rests his forehead against yours.âCan you handle it, baby?â His question is full of loving concern, prioritizing your pleasure over everything.
âI canâŚfuckâŚplease,â you assure him, your leg pulling him in tighter causing him to bottom out. Bucky curses and moans all in one. At your assurance, he picks up the pace of his hips, rocking them against you with a fiery velocity. The lewd sounds bouncing off the walls of the closet in waves.Â
He gives it to you exactly how you asked him to. That man would do anything for youâjust say the word and its done.Â
Bucky is on cloud nine at the way you take him. The way your bodies mold and arch into one anotherâs like you canât get enough. As if all you ever needed to consume to live was each other. When he goes to kiss you, you can barely kiss back as youâre too lost in the way he slams into you.
âFuck, baby, if only you could see yourself. Youâre so fucking gorgeous making those pretty expressions for me,â Bucky grunts out, drinking up the sight of your face. A string of mewls leaves your lips at the keen attention he keeps on you. Everything about you right now is a work of art in his eyes he wants framed and kept at his bedside. A constant reminder heâs the one who gets to make you look and feel so damn good. Â
âDonât stop, please don't stop.â
âWasnât planning to, sweetheart.âÂ
Your words egg him on to go harder, causing your back to press tightly against the wall. Hiking your leg just a tad bit higher to thrust into you at another angle. This was the best decision he ever made as he hits the perfect spot within you. One that leaves you clinging onto him desperately as your walls tighten on the brink of release.Â
It takes a few more fierce drives into you until your orgasm hits you and you're cumming with a feverish intensity. Moaning Buckyâs name in a euphoric mantra thatâs music to his ears. It's what brings him over the edge and he stills at the force of his orgasm, his head collapsing into the dip of your neck as he releases into the condom.Â
âMy girl. My sweet girl. You feel so good, baby,â Bucky softly whispers against your neck. Planting small kisses as both of you come down from your highs. Your arms wrap behind his neck to embrace him and keep him close to you. Bucky continues to mutter sweet praises along your skin, as your hands thread through his hair tenderly. Both of you steadying your breaths as you come back down to Earth.Â
If it weren't for Bucky holding your right leg up, it would've fallen from its position at his hip long ago. Youâre even more grateful for it now as your body felt completely boneless. And when he pulls out, its the grip he has on your body that keeps your knees from buckling.
Bucky lifts his head so his gaze locks on yours. His blues are swimming with a vehemence that steals your breath and causes your pulse to race. Â
âY/n, IâŚI wanted to give you some time. Time to figure things outâto figure out what you wanted. I tried pretending I was okay with pieces of you, but Iâm not. I want all of you. I want to be yours,â Bucky confesses with sincerity. You reach out to interlock your hands with his, a floodgate of emotions engulfing you.Â
âBuckyââ you start, but heâs not hearing it, afraid youâll want to go back to a place that would devastate him. âWait, just hear me out. Everything I ever did was to get you to notice me. From the moment we met there was just something about you that kept pulling me in. And I knewâI just knew I had to get to know you. And then one thing led to another and I fell for youâhard. Now I canât imagine my life without you. There's only you. Itâs always been you. Give me a chance, let me prove it to you every day, that Iâm yours. That I have been for a long time,â Buckyâs tone borders on pleading, you give his hands a light squeeze to ease the worry in his features.Â
âBucky you have nothing to proveââ
âY/nââÂ
This time you stop him by clamping a hand over his mouth.Â
âBucky, you have nothing to prove because Iâve felt the same way for a long time. I just fought it for so long out of fear that maybe you werenât serious about me. But I can see now I was wrong. Iâve been yours for a long time too, Bucky. I just pretended I wasnâtâand Iâm done fighting it. Iâm done being in denial. I want to have something serious with you. Iâm ready for it,â your heartfelt confession immediately melts away the tension in Buckyâs shoulders.Â
You wanting this as much as he did made him feel like he was on top of the world.
He mumbles something into your hand, the biggest grin on the other side of it. You laugh adoringly at the sight as you remove your hand to replace it with your mouth instead. Both of you sink into the kiss as a deeper devotion is exchanged.Â
âWhoever is seeking is horrible at it,â you remove yourself with a light giggle, taking a jab at whoever the seeker of the hide-and-seek game is. A game that was long forgotten by Bucky until you mentioned it.Â
Bucky smiles sheepishly, âAbout thatâŚthere's not actually a hide-and-seek game. And if there is they don't know weâre playing,â he confesses with a twinkle in his eyes. You shake your head at him, laughing in disbelief, âBucky, then what were you and Steve whispering about?â Your curiosity is met with a boyish grin from Bucky, âI was just letting him know not to come looking for me. I wanted to get some alone time with you,â his hands find your hips again to give them a gentle squeeze.
Bucky is far from done with you yet.Â
You roll your eyes lightheartedly at his revelation. Of course, heâd come up with a way to get you all to himself. Can you blame him?Â
After a few more stolen kisses and lingering touches, you both start to compose yourselves. Adjusting your outfits and collecting your items from the ground. Thankfully, the guest room has its own bathroom where the two of you can clean up much better than in the small closet. Tousled hair, smeared makeup, and sweaty skin required a deeper attentiveness.
You both take your time in freshening up. The bathroom lighting does wonders to reveal every piece of evidence of your sexual encounter. You can now clearly see all the red marks that would eventually turn into hickeys that scattered your neck and chest. Bucky beams pleased at the markings heâs left as you scold him for making them so prominent.Â
Bucky doesnât give a damn. Heâd gladly make more in an instant.Â
By the end, all that's left is to get your heels on, which Bucky insists on helping you with. He offered to carry you for the rest of the party or even giving you his shoes, but you declined both options. You paid good money for these heels so whether you liked it or not, you were forcing yourself to wear them.Â
Bucky helps you up onto the expansive marble counter. Lowering down onto his knees in front of you to slide your heels back onto your feet. Nimble fingers work the straps into place, making sure they're not too tight at the ankles. When he looks up at you, a devilish grin appears on his face. That spark of desire is back in your eyes when you see how good he looks knelt between your legs. Your mind was reeling with ideas as the heat once again pranced across your skin. Buckyâs gaze bore into yours, almost as if he could read your mind. He canât help but get turned on again.Â
You were in the same boat.Â
âYou know, I have a big stats test on Monday. I could use an emergency tutoring session right about now,â his tone is laced with suggestion as his fingers trace along your ankle. You hum, âHm? Do you? I think I could accommodate that.â Your reply gives Bucky the go to start kissing up your legs until he reaches your knees. He never breaks eye contact as he places a tender kiss on each one before standing up and giving that same attention to your mouth.
âPerfect. Letâs get out of here, sweetheart,â Bucky mutters against your lips, the kiss a promise of the fun awaiting you for the rest of the night. Now that the lines were blurred beyond recognition, into something deeper, something real, you were both completely all in.Â
#smutty september fest 2024#indulge with chuckles#18+ â¤ď¸âđĽ#bucky barnes x reader#bucky barnes smut#bucky barnes x female reader#bucky barnes au#bucky barnes fanfiction#bucky barnes fic#bucky barnes x you#bucky barnes x y/n#bucky barnes x female!reader#bucky barnes x f!reader#bucky smut
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carmen 'carmy' berzatto masterlist
Thee Carmy x Reader 'Make My Heart Surrender' Universe (In Chronological Order):
comfort & chaos (prequel to make my heart surrender)
a series of vignettes: the five times carmen berzatto fell in love with you a little and the one time he finally told you. (completed)
october 2019 | covid & carbonara | heat waves | 2/22/22** | called you again | home**
the phone call (blurb - the phone call that gets reader to chicago in the first place)
make my heart surrender
after quitting your job at the restaurant you both used to work at, carmy asks you to come in and work with his pastry chef at his new spot, the bear. only, the longer you stick around, it becomes clear that you have unfinished business. will one week in chicago change your life, and his, forever? (completed)
tuesday | wednesday | thursday | friday (**18+ for smut) | saturday/sunday | monday | tuesday, again | the playlist
home (final chapter from comfort & chaos - **smut)
try a little tenderness (fluff & angst blurb)
cigarettes & coffee (fluffy blurb)
strawberries & cigarettes (fluffy blurb)
j is for james beard... and for jealousy (**smut oneshot | 18+ only)
your past and mine are parallel lines (fluff oneshot)
pov: carmy makes people magazine's sexiest chef alive list (fluff blurb)
bad moon rising (what if/angst-shot -- guest starring mikey berzatto)
sister-in-law (fluff oneshot -- guest starring natalie berzatto)
still into you (sequel to make my heart surrender)
you, syd, marcus, and carmy return to where it all began: new york city, prompting you and carmy to think a lot about your past... and your future together. (completed)
thursday | **bonus smut scene | friday | saturday | sunday | it's perfect, chef (**bonus smut scene)
don't want to walk alone
the long awaited wedding fic for carmy x reader in the make my heart surrender universe. this six part series chronicles the wedding planning, your (not) bachelorette party, the wedding, and the honeymoon as you build a life with your husband-to-be. (completed)
june/july | august | september | the honeymoon pt 1 | the honeymoon pt 2 | epilogue: november
granola blurb
carmy as your baby daddy
a social media au & headcanon series detailing your first pregnancy with carmy. created for the make my heart surrender universe, but can be read as a standalone work. this has been created in collaboration with @carmensberzattos & @allthefandomstogether , the graphic goddess. (completed)
part one | part two | part three | part four | give you my wild, give you a child (**smut-shot) | part five | part six | part seven
the social media au
scenes from the relationship & this story depicted as social media posts. won't always align with my other social media/moodboards.
part one | part two: first year of dating | part three |
extras/moodboards/headcanons/imagines:
your life as a pastry chef in chicago while dating carmy (moodboard & headcanon)
meeting mikey in another lifetime (headcanon)
pov: you're marrying carmen berzatto (moodboard)
honeymoon lingerie moodboard
christmas with carmy moodboard & blurb
The Bear: Unrelated to Make My Heart Surrender:
(nothing here YET but working on it)
so my darling | sydney adamu x male!chef oc
jealous!carmy & jealous!luca headcanon
stargazing with marcus brooks (blurb)
sneaking around with carmy (blurb)
#nolita fairytale's masterlist#carmen berzatto x you#carmy berzatto#carmy x oc#the bear hulu#the bear fx#jeremy allen white#carmen 'carmy' berzatto#carmy berzatto x reader#carmen berzatto x reader#carmen berzatto#carmy berzatto headcanon#the bear headcanon#carmy berzatto imagines#carmy berzatto fluff#comfort and chaos#still into you#make my heart surrender#carmen berzatto smut#carmy smut#carmy berzatto smut
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"actually?" "yeah, actually."
â in which you accidentally bump (fall) into someone you might know in an indoor climbing gym
"his arms look really meaty..."
modern au! kinich x reader abt 2.1k words!
final part of part 1 this can be read as a standalone!
your user is sparkling toots in this fic
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"I'M DODGING I'M DODGING!!" you yell over the call, hastily pressing multiple keys and moving your mouse quickly. it's been a while since you played with your friend, almightydragonlord, yes, cheesy username. but still, you enjoyed playing with him as he makes everything easier, really, EVERYTHING easier. he helped you with your builds the first time you met him, albeit much to your refusal (felt insulted when his so-called lizard, 'ajaw' called your characters trash) (it was actually ajaw but you refuse to believe how a lizard can somehow spell out the words l o s e r).
anyways!
the only response you can hear from the other side of the call is loud typing, followed by a brief. "mhm" from the almightydragonlord. he's quiet, the only time he really speaks to you is when he's giving you constructive criticism or the rare times he chuckles when you die during boss fights. which you respond by angrily yelling at him.
"toots, behind you." snapping out of your thinking, you quickly dodge the incoming attack hurled behind your character by the boss you both were fighting. with one more quick setup from the almightydragonlord it was instantly over, the huge numbers brought by his characters becoming more and more like a regular sight for you. welp! at least your daily boss fighting is done for the day.
"dragonlord I'm gonna go now! i'll see you later?"
"mhm, see you"
"as curt as ever i see! bye!!"
and with that, you ended the call. pulling off your headphones and doing your daily routine to hang out with one of your friends later in the day.
âââ
"hi mualani!" you waved enthusiastically to your friend who was at a distance. she also waved back with the signature smile that she boasts.
as you make your way towards her you feel a sense of suspicion by the seemingly mischievous smile on her face.
"guess what we're doing today!"
"what?"
"rock climbing!" mualani says, clapping her hands together eagerly.
"we're going rock climbing?!" you cried, quickly whipping your head to look over at the outfit you wore today, which was clearly not appropriate for some activity. furthermore, you've never rock-climbed before except for that time in elementary in the local playground.
wait.
you did have some experience in rock climbing. maybe you should just rely on your memories from your elementary school days! but that was years ago.. and your outfit might hinder you from movements that are essential for climbing.
"don't worry. i got some extra clothes in the back of my car." mualani winks upon seeing your worried demeanor "also it's indoors! so we won't be climbing on real rocks! haha!" she pats your back reassuringly.
upon hearing that you breath a sigh of relief. "oh thank goodness" you say dramatically clasping your hands together. you knew you'd actually be fried if it really was real rock climbing. after the brief chat you both share you quickly make your way to her car door, quickly sitting down and buckling up before the car starts.
always. remember. to. buckle. up.
was the mantra you always repeated before getting into a car when you were young. nowadays putting on the seatbelt was just muscle memory for you. whenever you get into a car you put on your seatbelt without thinking. a necessary habit honestly.
the ride was short, it only took a few minutes to arrive at the indoor climbing gym. funny enough you saw a car with the plate "drgnlrd" parked near the gym. who the hell names their license plate like that?! it's also the same name as the username your friend online has.
well, it's probably just a coincidence!
as you both head into the gym with no expectations whatsoever you were instantly baffled by the sheer height of the
fake rock climbing thingy?
you don't know what it's called but you do know you'll be able to conquer it. i mean, you weren't called the ruler of the playground for nothing! you were dubbed "sonic" by your peers back in elementary for climbing super fast on the rock climbing part in the local playground near your house.
it's safe to say you might be the best (worst) one in the room!
as you head your way to the changing rooms in the gym you notice a familiar figure high up on the rock.
"his arms look really meaty..."
"what are you looking at? let's go so we can climb sooner!" a voice from behind you quickly snaps you out of your thoughts.
oh my god. why were you even thinking about how some random dude's muscles look tasty?? get a grip!
as the both of you head inside you remember the time when almightydragonlord sent a video of him skydiving. yes skydiving, falling out of a helicopter type of skydiving. the area he was skydiving at looked really familiar too!
wait.
familiar?
as you retrace back to the video he sent you, the feeling of dread forms in the pit of your stomach.
lush green trees, tall hilltops, and the distinctive sight of saurians.
lush green trees...
tall hilltops.
SAURIANS?!
NATIVE TO NATLAN SAURIANS?!
HE LIVES IN NATLAN?!?
BUT YOU LIVE IN NATLAN TOO??
ugh! you even shouldn't be thinking about him when your supposed to be conquering the climbing wall soon!
"ugh.. let's not think about this today..." you grumble, quickly putting on the clothes mualani handed you earlier. as you make your way outside the room mualani is already there waiting for you,
"hi!! ready partner?" she smirks at you, dragging you to the rock wall (which looks even more intimidating close up) that you have to conquer.
gulp.
NO!! you can do this. you weren't called the ruler of the playground for nothing. you can conquer this. maybe think of it as a necessary level to beat! plus you have a harness attached to you right now! so you won't wall to your death if you fall. and! if the harness fails you know who to sue to get money.
with one more final nervous gulp, you start conquering (climbing) the wall. when you look up you already see mualani way ahead of you. oh dear, looks like you have a time limit to this level.
"wait!!" you cried, starting to climb the wall, with ease actually, this was way easier than you thought!
"heh. I might actually be the ruler of the climbing gym now!" as you smirk to yourself you notice some weird white powder on mualani's hands? "mualani, what's that stuff on your hands?" you yell out above, "oh! this is climbing chalk, it helps strengthen the grip of your hands if they usually sweat." she yells back.
sweat
sweat
sweat
you know that feeling when you're suddenly aware of how your hands produce sweat and it sweats right after? yeah, it's sweating right now when you realize your hands have the function to sweat.
"oh uh! that's fun" you reply nervously, the word 'sweat echoing throughout your head, the feeling of your sudoriferous (sweat) glands activating within your hands right now, it isn't mandatory to lather that white stuff when you're climbing, so it should be fine...
right?
yeah no, it's not fine you can feel your hands sweating right now, loosening your grip, BUT,
it's not mandatory to lather that stuff so...
"hellloooo!! up from above! hurry up!" mualani's voice snaps you out of your thoughts once again as you look up in response, "we're almost to the top y'know!" she yells making you realize that you were really high up.
and that makes you sweat even more.
but you prevail! you grab onto the next wall hold, and the next, but the feeling of your grip getting weaker every second was not concerning at all! (lie) but you were almost there! you're about to beat mualani and claim the title of the ruler of the climbing gym!
"watch i'm going to win," you say confidently, but in that moment your grip was already weak, weak enough to make your hand slip.
the last thing you see is mualani's shocked expression, followed by one of relief and confusion..?
...
..
.
a hand quickly snakes around your waist, making sure you don't fall to your inevitable doom.
"you good?"
a familiar voice brushes against your ear, your stomach dropping. a foreign feeling of heat rushing to your face due to embarrassment.
as you look at the person who saved you, you are instantly dumbified.
a beautiful mixture of green and orange meets your eyes, with long, thick, dark lashes that compliment the brightness of his orbs, creating a stark contrast that makes it difficult to look away.
wait.
beautiful amber green eyes with dark fluffy hair.
no way.
is he..?
"almightydragonlord?" you say breathlessly, staring at his face shamelessly.
"oh?" his arm unconsciously tightens around your waist, a look of surprise painting his face with the utterance of his online username. in a few seconds his face begins light up as he realizes your identity, "sparklingtoots?" a subconscious smile making it's way to his features, which in turn causes you to gawk even more at him.
oh dear. that smile is deadly.
"t-thank you?" you say confused, blinded by his smile. gosh, he was cuter in person, instead of falling to your death maybe you'll die by the brightness of that smile instead.
wait.
shouldn't you be falling right now?
you slowly look down at your waist.
a hand.
his hand.
the hand you complimented earlier without realizing it was him.
snaked around your waist to prevent you from falling, the proximity between you two was worse, your left side touching his right, his fingers gripping your waist tightly to secure you onto him, the feeling of his forearm around your stomach firm.
oh archons, he's built too?
"u-um, aren't you tired?! shouldn't you let go?! uh! I have a harness don't worry! and I must be heavy!" you say nervously, the close proximity between you two was not helping your conversational skills whatsoever!
"oh sorry, it was on instinct, I'll let go if you want to" he slowly releases his hold on you, careful to not make you drop unexpectedly.
wait, wait, wait, wait.
you're still really high up! you might actually faint if you start free-falling!
you instantly grab his hand, positioning it back on your waist again. "wait! actually please keep holding on, i think it'll be terrifying once i start swinging down." you look up at him, eyes that basically read, 'please don't drop me or else I might actually pass out.'
"you think i'd drop you without any warnings?" he looks at you confused, his hand keeping a firm grip on you once again to prevent you from falling. "i mean... you're carrying a full-grown person right now, so you might claim that you won't drop me on purpose but i don't know if your hand is gonna agree!" you say worriedly in response.
"don't worry i'm strong." he replies, trying to reassure your worries "do you see my pocket? there's some climbing chalk in it, use your hand to get some."
"uh, which pocket?! the front or back?"
"any."
you hesitantly reach into the front pocket of his pants, grabbing a handful of chalk which you quickly lather all over your hands. "now use one of your hands to grab onto one of the holds closest to you" he instructs, which you quickly follow. as you grab onto a yellow hold and then grab onto another one until you are free from his hold, you realize just how much your grip has improved, that you should've just slathered on some climbing chalk before you started climbing to prevent this whole fiasco from happening...
"thank you! um, almigh-"
"kinich."
"oh! thank you the almighty dragon lord kinich!" you tease. in response, he lets out a brief chuckle that you've always heard on the calls you had together.
"i didn't know you lived in natlan!" you exclaim, slowly making your way down the wall. "i thought you knew?" he replies confused, keeping watch of you to make sure he'll catch you before you fall again. "shhh.. i know you sent me that skydiving video months ago but i just realized until today! also, do you do that stuff often..? i mean... you had no hesitation jumping off the helicopter!" you ask him in curiosity, it's strange! most people would hesitate for a bit before jumping off! but this dude didn't even look worried at all!
"oh yeah, i do a lot of stuff like that, like bungee jumping, mountain climbing, sky di-"
"HUH?!" you look at him in disbelief. is he one of those adrenaline junkies?!
"i know most people are shocked, but I find extreme sports enjoyable." he says, looking at you with a gentle smile.
oh dear, you don't think you'll get used to that smile anytime soon.
as you both make your way down, you learn more about the almightydra- kinich, how his lizard ajaw was really the one who made the nasty comments about your characters (which you still don't believe), and how many extreme sports he does, which was a lot. and mualani also descended down quickly to make sure you were okay! as you near the start of the climbing wall you swear you're gonna kiss the ground once you make it back down.
"oh my archons." you collapse on the floor, heaving a sigh of relief, at least you know now to make sure you have emergency climbing chalk in your pockets... you really should invest in some if you're planning to climb more in the future...
as you are laying down on the strangely comforting gym floor you feel a cold object against your forehead. "are you free after this?" a voice above you says as you look up to see kinich leaning over you, water bottle in hand, pressing it against you. just as you were about to respond you were quickly cut off by another voice above you. "yeah she's free!" mualani chirps above you, giving a thumbs up to kinich which she then looks down to wink at you. "I'll be going now. make sure to tell me everything after," who then looks down to whisper at you, giving you a mischievous grin before walking away.
kinich then drops down beside you, turning his head to face you.
"lunch with me today?" he asks, which in turn you grin, "are you asking out on a date? the almighty dragon lord kinich! asking me out on a date! can you believe it?!" you tease,
"and what if i was?" he responds, his amber-green eyes meeting with yours.
"h-huh? actually?" you say surprised, taken aback by his forwardness. you knew he was curt but you didn't expect it to translate over to real life! "yeah, actually." he stands up, offering his hand to you. you grab his hand as he helps you stand up before facing him.
"also, don't worry, i don't do extreme sports with my car." he flashes you a grin.
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A/N!! OH MY GOSH HELLO EVERYONE. thank u all for the support from part 1, I hope you guys liked this one as much as the previous one!! I tried really hard to not make kinich ooc... (I hope I didn't..) I looked up his lore and stuff and found out he liked doing extreme sports! and the skydiving from the previous one I wrote was pretty unexpected BUT!! akshually (nerd emoji) "As a core member of the Scions of the Canopy tribe, Kinich is fond of extreme sports, and is said by his companion K'uhul Ajaw to have plunged headfirst off a cliff and lived to see it (LIKE!! THATS BASICALLY SKY DIVING!!)" quote the genshin wiki!! anyways I hope you enjoyed reading this.HAVE A GOOD DAY OR NIGHT!!
#kinich x reader#kinich x you#genshin kinich#genshin kinich x reader#genshin fanfic#genshin impact#genshin imagines#genshin impact kinich x reader#k'uhul ajaw#ajaw
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Drabble masterlist here (fics under 1k words) <3
â Azriel â
â Multi-Part Series/Oneshots
â Of Oblivious Minds (Part I)
You're positive Azriel is in love with Elain. It seems so obvious. But Cassian is laughing at you and suddenly nothing makes quite so much sense anymore.
Part II, Part III, Part IV
â If It All Fell (Series Masterlist)
If it all fell apartâif you forgot who you wereâwould you love him again? Would the bond guide you back? Azriel doesn't know if that uncertainty is one he can bear.
â Compliments to the Line Cook
Azriel never goes for any of the girls on staff. Cassian can't figure out whyâand it's pissing him off. (Modern AU, Line Cook!Azriel)
â Favoritism Azriel always seems to be working. Well, not always. Sometimes he's on the phone outside the restaurant with a massive smile on his face. (Modern AU, Line Cook!Azriel) â Lessons in Care Azriel loves you so much. Even though you can't cook. You're trying though. (Modern AU, Line Cook!Azriel) â Colds and Retold Confessions Azriel would never be one to not take care of his girl when she's sick. That doesn't mean he won't make her blush. (Modern AU, Line Cook!Azriel)
â Trial and Error (Part I)
Based on the request: "Azriel with single mom reader? I feel like being a single mom in ACOTAR would be tricky as hell⌠reader comes from autumn court and flees to night court because she got pregnant out of marriage? đŻ the shame"
Part II, Part III, Part IV, Part V -> Part V Bonus, Part VI
â If You Cared to Ask
Azriel hasn't been listening. You got hurt. Sometimes, an argument can't be boiled down to just one instance.
Part II
âFable (Series Masterlist)
Watching in silence was all you had ever done. And silence was fine, it was safe. But with silence came consequences, and with consequences came hard truths.
â Standalone Oneshots
â Only in Dreams
In his dreams, Azriel recounts how he got to his mate.
â Reversal
When protecting your mate brings out a side you swore to keep hidden, you have to deal with the consequences.
â Set in Stone
The Court of Nightmares is an evil place. Secret agendas, forced marriages, malicious intent; thereâs nothing good or pure. But then Azriel finds you.
âAll Over Again
You're drunk. Your mate is trying to get you home. Only problem isâyou're really, really drunk.
â By the Book
Azriel is struggling to catch the attention of his mate. Cassian offers him some advice, but "putting the moves on you" is harder than it seems, especially since he's not a character in one of Nesta's novels.
â To Feel At Home
Winnowing out from Under the Mountain, you know you need to find himâit doesn't seem real, to feel so at home.
â A Promise
As war inches closer on the horizon, Azriel reminds you of a promise you made to himâone you aren't sure you can keep.
â Cassian â
â R&R
Cassian was tired and you were taking forever to get your ass back home.
â The Construct of Loyalty
After months of "disobedience," your father calls upon Cassian to be your personal guard. That leaves Cassian, a soldier in the Night Court army, your childhood friend, and a man deeply in love with you, to protect you from all frontsâincluding the arranged marriage you were born into.
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â âš . ÝÂ MILLION DOLLAR BABY Â â âš .
(sex worker!suguru geto x rich girl!reader)
âš tags: suguru geto x female reader; nanami kento x satoru; sukuna is reader's ex; character mentions: yuki, mei mei, shoko, toji; alludes to dd/lg relationship (very very mildly) with sukuna; a mix of angst/smut/fluff; domestic; non curse au; reader was in a toxic relationship; reader has daddy issues a bit lol; mentions of troubled past; mentions of death (parental)
:about: you grew up in a supremely wealthy household, but that came with a price. youâve never had control over your own life, and now your father is set to marry you off. luckily, there's someone else who captures your heart. what does it matter that you pay him for his company?
:note: hi, everyone! this story is finally here, and it's one that's taken me forever to work but I actually loved this piece. I haven't been excited about something I've written in a while. I hope it lives up to all your expectations. comments and reblogs are always appreciated <3 - this fic is one shot, and I am willing to explore stories with the side characters. I'll happily answer any lore questions regarding sex worker geto x rich girl reader, but there will not be a part two or more parts of their story. It is a standalone.
wc:Â 14K+
The ceiling is covered with hanging irises, each one carefully handcrafted in paper. Edison bulbs dip down from between in staggering heights, illuminating the bar around you in warm light. Itâs crowded tonight, clinking glasses and roaring laugher bouncing off the walls and clashing against the bass coming through the speakers. You scan the crowd, anticipation making your stomach flutter, but it quickly eases when you spot a head of golden hair among the audience.Â
Nanami is at the bar, looking dapper as usual in a chocolate brown suit offset by a cream colored shirt. Heâs drinking a whiskey when you approach him, the amber liquid mirroring the touch of bronze on his cheekbones. You sling your designer purse off your shoulder (the latest splurge of the week) and slide into the seat right next to him.Â
âAnd how was your vacation?â you ask, greeting him with a question and noticing his mouth draw into a firm line.Â
âLetâs not talk about it,â he insists, his eyes a little sad which only makes your stomach ache at the sight.Â
Heâs your closest friend - the only real friend you have. Kento Nanami doesnât carry two faces. He sticks to the one that he has. As one of the top investors in the country, he made a name by keeping the rich wealthy. He loathes his job and the pressures surrounding it - a walking hypocrite for despising the life that lines his pockets.Â
He canât find an escape no matter how hard he tries.Â
And that's why youâre both two peas in a pod.Â
He does, however, like you - not because of your background, but because you donât try to be something that you are not as well. In a world where you are surrounded by parasites, Kento proved to be a nearly extinct butterfly, quietly fluttering by your side as you both drift across the harsh jungle around you.Â
You concede, knowing better than to push his buttons. âOkay, I guess we arenât talking about itâŚâÂ
âTell me something else. Do you ever know how to walk into the room and not be the center of attention?âÂ
You smirk as he calls the waiter over. Your presence easing the twinge of disdain on his face.
âWhat are you trying to say, hmm?âÂ
âYou look nice tonight. New dress?âÂ
âNew dress, new bag, new nails...â you list off, showing off each expensive purchase as you check them off your list.Â
Nanami shakes his head playfully before ordering your usual once the bartender approaches. He angles his body towards you and breathes out a heavy sigh.Â
âHow are you?â He asks, genuine concern masking his face.Â
Your shoulders drop. âI donât want to talk about itâŚâÂ
His expression softens, one hand moving to touch your thigh exposed by the slit of your dress.Â
âWhen do you meet Naoya?âÂ
Heâs the only other person who knows about the pending engagement. The only person who offered you a way out by proposing instead. Despite his stance within the social community, you know that itâs not an offer that you can easily accept.Â
Kento wasnât bred into this world, and that makes all the difference.Â
Your father would never accept a man from such a humble background. Especially not one whose offer wouldn't benefit him by any means.
âA few weeks from now,â you reply, eyes shifting to the bartender who passes your drink towards you. âHeâs given my father specifications on how I should be presentedâŚâÂ
Your friend scoffs and rolls his eyes. âPardon my vulgarity but he just sounds like the kind of guy who wants to swing his dick around. Iâm surprised he hasnât shown up tonightâŚâÂ
The opening of the Ayame Lounge & Bar was invite only, exclusive to socialites and the elite. You know that Naoya must have received an invitation, everyone from the Zenâin family was here in attendance including the infamous outcast Toji.Â
âHe wouldnât be caught dead here,â you inform, picking up your beverage and taking a small sip. âNaoya likes to uphold âtraditionâ but we all know itâs just a facade.âÂ
Kentoâs thumb strokes your skin tenderly, worry ingrained in his gentle eyes.Â
The two of you spend the night talking, catching up on the little things since his return from a two week vacation in Malaysia. He keeps the conversation light, telling you about his fantastic accommodation and all the food that he ate while he was away. In between you find yourself glancing over his shoulder, your eye on the crowd taking in the people around you.Â
Thatâs when you spot him, standing just a few feet away, looking like a demigod among mere aristocrats. His hair is pulled back into a neat bun, a layer of his bangs kissing his forehead. His face is serious, jaw tight and eyes sharp as he focuses on his white haired counterpart. The black tee hugs his torso, his neat slacks cinched by the waist with a leather belt. You canât help but bite your bottom lip, your mind drifting away from the conversation at hand.Â
Your friend notices, of course. Kento is so tuned in to everything around him that he almost canât help himself. He glances over his shoulder to see what caught your attention, only to instantly turn back around and stare at the whiskey glass on the table.Â
The tips of his ears burn red.Â
You register the response, knowing exactly what struck him to react in that way.Â
Satoru Gojo -Â former porn star, turned model, turned mega influencer. With a follower count in the hundreds of millions, he is the worldâs hottest it boy. Nobody can deny his sheer beauty - whenever he walks into a room, he manages to steal a glance from every single person within his vicinity. Due to a rare genetic condition, his sapphire blue eyes and frosty white hair earned him the title of âThe Princeâ, and the people were desperate to share a place by his side.Â
Suguru and Satoru were also the best of friends, a fact that Suguru revealed to you one night in bed. The two of them met on set, back when Satoru was still doing adult films. At the time, Suguru was just a camera man and it was Satoru who told him he could increase his earnings if he just performed instead.Â
You remember telling Suguru: âitâs crazy how quickly his life changedâ
âSome people are just lucky,â he responded, though you easily picked up the bitterness laced in his words.Â
What most people donât know is that Satoru Gojo is also involved with the man seated right next to you. You stumbled upon Nanamiâs secret affair by accident when the two of you attended a resort opening by hotel heiress, Yuki Tsukumo. Everyone was invited to stay overnight for the weekend, and the morning after your first night there, you walked over towards Nanamiâs room to grab some breakfast. He greeted you in a grey robe with his hair tousled, with hickeys trailing the side of his neck. You quirked a brow in his direction, your mouth forming into a blatant circle when you found Satoru Gojo fast asleep on his bed right behind him.Â
The man in question looks away from Suguru towards you and Kento. His brows lifting in surprise when he spots your golden haired friend, but your eyes rest on Suguru who gestures that he will catch Satoru around.Â
They both walk in opposite directions.Â
You take a sip of your drink, your eyes shifting to Nanami.Â
âYouâve got about five seconds to figure out what you want to say because Satoru is walking over here as we speak,â you inform.Â
He exhales and straightens his back, his guard entirely up.Â
You smile at Satoru when he approaches you, his pearly whites radiant as always.Â
âHi!â He says casually, though you can hear a touch of apprehension in his voice. âMind if I cut in?âÂ
âNot at all!â you respond, âCan I get you a refill?âÂ
His cheeks blush a subtle shade of pink, the tiny gesture making you understand how easily it is to fawn over such a beautiful face. âItâs just soda, but sureâÂ
âNot drinking tonight?â You continue, glancing between him and Nanami as you wait for your friend to interject.Â
âActually, Iâm three years sober,â he explains.Â
âGood for you!â You cheer honestly, before turning to the bartender and ordering him another soda.Â
From your peripheral vision you see him inch closer towards your friend.Â
âI havenât heard from you in a while,â he states, though his voice comes across as a little small.Â
âIâve been busy,â Nanami curtly replies, and your brows furrow at his unusual tone.Â
âToo busy to even say hi?â Satoru continues, his voice low enough that only the three of you can hear each other.Â
âArenât you here with a date?â Nanami chides, glancing up at him with a mocking eye.Â
âUtahime isnât my date, we both got invited together by our agencyâŚâ Satoru answers through gritted teeth. âBesides, I was hoping to spend time with you. I havenât heard from you since KuantanâŚâÂ
Nanamiâs face burns an even brighter shade of crimson, the intimacy of Satoruâs comment flaring his humiliation.Â
âCome on,â the white haired prince teases, attempting to ease the discomfort. âDonât be such a grump. Letâs go outside. Get a little fresh air.âÂ
You can see that people are starting to stare at the three of you.Â
Wherever Satoru goes, eyes follow him.Â
While he may be immune to the attention, you can clearly see that Nanami is not.Â
âNo, thank you.âÂ
âWhat? You going to make me beg?â Satoru presses cheekily, but there is a twinge of desperation in his voice.Â
âBegging is not difficult for somebody like you,â Nanami bites, and you canât help but glare at him in shock.Â
âKento!â you chastise, but the look on his face speaks volumes.Â
Regret.Â
Instantaneous Regret.Â
In front of him is a visible hurt that breaks Satoruâs face, like paint slowly chipping away. His eyes gloss over, and he anxiously rubs his hand over the back of his undercut before excusing himself and turning on his heel.Â
Nanami covers his face with his palm, while you can only stare at him in disbelief.Â
âHow can you say that to him? I thought you liked him!â You whisper.Â
âI-I didnât mean to-âÂ
âYou act like youâre ashamed of him whenever heâs around youâŚâÂ
Nanami avoids your eye, âHow do you think this makes me look? I canât have people seeing us together. I donât want the world to swallow me up just because he prefers being gawked at by everyone around himâÂ
âThatâs his job - itâs how he earns a living. I canât believe you would degrade him over it,â you shake your head, unaware of where your sudden defenses are coming from.
âI know thatâŚâÂ
âIs that why you donât want to talk about your trip? Did something happen?âÂ
The man grows quiet, a sigh escaping him.Â
âI broke up with himâÂ
âYou what?â You gasp.Â
âIt'll never work. Our lives are too differentâÂ
âYou didnât even give him a chance, Ken. He likes you. He really, really likes you.âÂ
âWhat chance is there to give? My life would come apart because of him. He would never be truly mine. I would have to share him with the rest of the world day in and day out. And the worst part is thatâŚwhat should be intimate between us will never be ours either. Do you know that heâs still the highest streamed porn star in the world-âÂ
âHeâs just a person. A person like me and you. Neither one of us chose this life. I didnât ask to be born into my family, and you werenât asked to save yours from debt. Yet, here we are. Existing in a world that we had to carve out for ourselves. Donât you think the same applies to him?âÂ
You take another sip of your drink, your cheeks warming with anger at your friendâs condescending tone towards Satoru.Â
Although, you find your reasons for defending him to be far more self serving.Â
âSo what if he sells his body? Thatâs his choice to make. Does it change anything else about him? Does it change his feelings for you?â You lecture, âI canât believe that you be this ungrateful over skewed morals. If you both care about each other, there is no reason why you canât be together. Take it from somebody whoâll probably never get the chance. This isnât something you want to simply let go of, Kento. Youâll regret this decision for the rest of your life.â
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Nanami downs his whiskey and excuses himself then, your words stinging the microscopic cuts on his heart. You find yourself a little flustered after watching him walk away, unsure of where that outburst even came from.Â
The eyes surrounding you look away.Â
You know youâve given everyone within your peripheral area a story to gossip about. One that would be twisted and chewed until there is no morsel of truth left in it.Â
Your drink gives you enough liquid courage to socialize and face the music instead.Â
You steer your way through the crowd hoping to find one person in particular, but instead you are caught among the net of cliques, old faces, and fake friends. You manage to bypass any pointed questions, passing through each conversation with a forced grin and entertaining the discussions at hand with fluffy anecdotes and petty rumours.Â
When you walk away, you know full well that there will be whispers behind your back.
Thatâs the give and take about this world. Everyone is a vulture secretly waiting to witness the rise and fall of those around them. Itâs a vicious circle, which is why nobody ever reveals their true hand in the process. Â
You glance around the room, honing in on the handsome dark haired boy youâve grown entirely too attached too except you spot someone else in between who makes your spine seize.
Your toes curl in your pointed heels.Â
Your heart stutters unsteadily.Â
Blushed strands, a wolfish grin, and a broad build - Sukuna always takes up far more room than he needs.Â
You personally believe itâs because his ego is so massive it requires that extra space.Â
You havenât seen the man in five years, not after the messy relationship that that followed your even messier break up.Â
You should have known better than to get involved with him while still so young.Â
You remember that version of you. When you first met Sukuna, you were a small rabbit who had accidentally hopped its way into a lone wolfâs den. Twenty one and just embracing the glitz and glamor of the world around you. The man was charming, flirtatious and most of all dangerous. You couldnât help but return to his lair, especially when he would take the time and effort to approach you at every function, party and gathering that you attended. When you think about your relationship with Sukuna, it fills you with shame until you can only drown in it. There is a reason why youâve kept it a secret for so long. Even staring at him right now, the dishonor hangs on your shoulder like a weighted sin that youâre burdened to carry for the rest of your life. Every time it hits, the memories play like a movie on hyper speed.Â
How often you allowed him to spill his seed all over your body. How often he brought you to tears with his tongue between your legs. How often you would moan the words âdaddyâ over and over again while riding him. How often you let him manipulate your heart. How often you let him convince you that you were happy. Â
That twisted relationship was testament to how broken you were.Â
You didnât even know about his wife who lived in Kyoto until it was far too late.Â
Your instinct tells you to turn on your heel and walk in the other direction, but you catch Suguru just up ahead in the crowd and your courage outweighs your hesitation.Â
You manage to stride past Sukuna, a darting feline scurrying towards the safety of a shadow. Your hammering heart steadies itself when the trail of his strong cologne is a safe distance behind you. You nervously clutch onto the strap of your purse, exhaling a quick breath before marching up to Suguru.Â
You tap his shoulder twice.Â
He spins around, eyes lifting as a smile spreads across his handsome face.Â
Like a full moon on a clear night sky.Â
âWell, isnât this a lovely surprise.âÂ
âI sure hope so,â you remark, biting your bottom lip playfully as you glance at your own feet.Â
Suguru chuckles, taking a step closer. âIt is.âÂ
You glance up at him from underneath your lashes, your heart vibrating with pure excitement. You think itâs silly to have such a schoolgirl infatuation over him, especially since you understood the terms that surrounding your relationship.Â
You pay him for his company.Â
You arenât supposed to have a crush on man who you employ to have to sex with you.Â
Yet, your gut tells you otherwise. Convinces you that the softness in which he speaks is reserved only for you.Â
âAre you here with anyone?â You ask a little breathlessly, hoping that you werenât interrupting him working.Â
Suguru shakes his head.Â
âSatoru invited me,â he clarifies, and itâs an answer that only makes you giddy.Â
âOh!â You squeak, âwell thatâs nice. Itâs a really exclusive party, make sure you to take it inâŚâÂ
His eyes blatantly fall over you, cascading down your body like ink dripping over a canvas.Â
Your cheeks warm.Â
Heâs not even hiding that heâs checking you out, and it triggers the wild desire within you.Â
âAre you here alone?â He questions.Â
You nod your head, knowing full well that Kento is probably in the midst of a heated conversation with his distraught lover and wonât be returning anytime soon.Â
âWhy donât you join us then?â He adds, cocking his head to point at the table behind him.Â
You glance over his shoulder, barely recognizing the crowd.Â
A fact that seems ideal to you.Â
âIâd love to,â you say with a pretty smile, all the while Suguruâs eyes continue sparkling.Â
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The last time you saw Suguru was a few weeks ago, where your heavy heart spilled the news of your pending engagement.Â
âAn arranged marriage, huh?â he whispered in the dark, his sharp eyes dipping to your naked chest while his delicate fingers carefully pushed the bedsheet further down to your hips.
You inched a little closer into his frame, soaking in the outlines of his chiseled torso and bringing one finger to trace little shapes on his broad shoulder.
Your brows furrowed with annoyance, âyeah, ever heard of the Zenâin family?â
Suguru scoffed, breaking character for only a second but itâs something that youâve caught him doing more recently. He doesnât hold his reactions around you as tightly as he used to. The front of this alter ego that he created faltering, which is probably why you find yourself drawn to the person existing underneath the mask of the seducer.
You sigh before continuing your explanation, âmy father thinks Naoya Zenâin is a perfect match for me.â
An uneasy expression flickered across Suguruâs face, but he suppresses it before allowing it to linger.Â
You lifted yourself up onto your elbow and rest your cheek on your palm. âWhat is it?â
Suguru mirrors your position, his large hand gliding back and forth over the slope of your hips and waistline which sent goosebumps all over your body. âIâve heard that NaoyaâŚâ Suguru stated, pinching the pads of his fingers lightly against your flesh before leaning forward to kiss the crease between your brows, âcan be a handful to deal withâŚâ
You thread your fingers around his neck, your lips finding his jaw where you return a kiss. âAnd who told you that?â you murmured as the weight of Suguruâs body rolls on top of yours.
You were staring at his devastatingly handsome face from below. The longer you spent time with him the more you began to wonder about his circumstances and a reoccurring thought crossed your mind once more.
Suguru could truly be anything he wanted, but instead he was here making a killing off of fucking lonely women and porn videos.
You donât judge his choices, but you couldn't help but feel puzzled by the situation especially when you knew the trajectory of his best friendâs career path.Â
One photo shoot at a mid-level fashion brand skyrocketed Satoru Gojoâs career and made him a household name. Yet, Suguru Geto was a taboo that was whispered behind closed doors.Â
âI have a client who likes to gossip,â he admitted.Â
Thatâs all you got because Suguru kept everything else about his clients confidential. You shivered when his mouth met your neck, his lips sucking along the tender skin that sent goosebumps all over your chest, but thereâs an ache in your heart when you consider that if it wasnât for the signed cheque in your purse, he wouldnât even be here in the first place.
Not a single man youâve met in the world compared to Suguru. Youâve never known how sweet lovemaking can be until he fucked you for the time. Not only was he beautiful beyond comprehension, but he was charming and extremely smart. You found yourself enjoying his company beyond physical purposes, and conversations with him turned out to be one of your favorite ways to pass time.
âThink weâll still get together when youâre a missus?â he teased, his lips trailing lower to your collar bones and hovering just a above your breasts.
The thought of you getting married only made you sick.
âDo you peg me as a terrible wife? a woman who would happily cheat on her husband?â you questioned, your voice trembling when Suguru circled his lips around your hard nipple.
He hummed, drawing out a whimper when he nipped at the bud lightly, his tongue gliding over the hardened nub.Â
âNo,â he answered, his voice dropping an octave and your mind swirled when you contemplate if that strange tone is actually jealousy. He rested his chin on your chest, his inky hair framing his face in a waterfall of obsidian. âI do, however, peg Naoya as a terrible husband.â
You sank your fingers into his locks, âit doesnât matter who my father chooses. All these men are the same. Naoya is no worse than the rest. Iâm trapped regardlessâŚâ
It was the first time you allowed yourself to think about Sukuna when in bed with Suguru. The first time you thought about the last four years and the many men who tried to weasel their way into your heart just for the sake of obtaining status. The discomfort is written plainly on your face. Suguru doesnât know that seeking him out was your way of taking matters into your own hands, even in just the smallest way.Â
âIâm sorry, sweetheart,â he responded sincerely, the kindness in his voice the reason why your eyes prick with tears.
You sniffled, using your free hand to wipe away a rogue droplet that freely falls down your cheek. Suguru adjusted his position so he was lying by your side. He didn't say anything but draws you into his chest for a hug, enveloping you in his warmth. You tried hard not to consider the reality of the situation, and accept the gesture freely as you cuddle him.
But the moment of peace is interrupted by a loud vibration. You and Suguru both perked up to stare at his phone buzzing on the side table.
Your heart sank.
Another client.
Suguru reached his arm around to grab the phone, and you closed your eyes to inhale his natural scent, trying to soak him in for as long as you can before he leaves you like heâs done many times before.
To your surprise he simply switched it off, before proceeding to wrap his arm back around you to return to his position.
âYou sure you donât need to take that?â you mumbled, trying to play off your disappointment as casually as possible.
âIâm booked out for the rest of the evening,â he answered nonchalantly, âthereâs no reason to respond.â
A tickle in your belly sent sparks all over your skin. âbut your cheque only covers the hours we agreed onâŚâ
Two fingers touched the underside of your chin, and Suguru tilted your head up so you were both face to face again. âDonât worry about it,â he consoled, his thumb lightly outlining your bottom lip, âthis is on the house.â
What bliss it was to fall asleep in his arms that night. You recall waking up right before dawn to find him in deep slumber, his strong arm draped protectively across your body with the heat cocooning you from the rest of the world.Â
Disappointment shattered you the next morning, when you were greeted by the sun and an empty bed.
Youâre not sure when Suguru had snuck out, but you were puzzled to find that your cheque was still tucked away safely in your purse.Â
It was the first time he walked away without any payment.Â
You still vividly remember his reaction when he met you just a little over a year ago.Â
âYouâre young,â he blurted, his eyes widening with confusion.Â
âWeâre around the same age,â you replied defensively, already feeling insecure for having hired him after spending weeks watching his videos. You didnât even know about his house calls until you heard it from a source within your social circle. "Is this how you greet all your clients?â
Suguru raised his brow in contemplation, âmy other clients donât look like youâŚâ
Over time you learned that he catered to a specific demographic: older divorcees and cheating housewives.
The person you might turn into years from now if this marriage goes through.
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After that night you told yourself that you would schedule another meeting with Suguru to compensate him for his last session.
Right now, all you can think about is your heart hammering when Suguru subtly interlaces his fingers with your own, and leads you through the crowd until you both find a safe spot on the corner of the lounge chair. His group is far too engrossed in their own conversations to notice you both, drunk on the buzzing night and enjoying the many amenities of this exclusive party.Â
âYou look nice,â you compliment, catching Suguruâs attention while trying to ignoring his knees bumping against yours.
âAs do you,â he replies, his voice smoother than velvet. âBut you donât need me to tell you that youâre gorgeous.âÂ
Oh but I do, you think, masking your excitement with a giggle and casual roll of your eyes. I could hear you tell me that forever.Â
Suguru shyly looks down at his lap, hiding his own smile.Â
Itâs strange, you think, how the two of you are talking. Like this man hasnât been inside you multiple times and made you cum until you canât think straight. Like he doesnât know your body in the most intimate sense.
Like you donât fund a decent chunk of his salary.Â
âAre you enjoying the party?âÂ
Suguru shrugs, âItâs not too bad. Though, Iâm not one for big crowds if I am being completely honest...âÂ
âMakes sense. I donâ get a kick out of it as much as I used to.â
Suguru angles his body to face you, giving you his full attention. âWhyâs that?âÂ
You sigh, your hands suddenly feeling empty without a drink. You sling your purse off your shoulder and place it between you both, before proceeding to fiddle with the fabric of your dress instead.Â
You can lie, but you donât know how.Â
Well, you donât know how to lie with him.Â
Something about starting this contract with Suguru unveiled a level of vulnerability in you that you canât seem to hide. The first night you both spent together you were a nervous wreck, stumbling and bumbling over words trying to find excuse after excuse as to why a woman of your age would even hire him. By your third appointment, you asked if he could be slow and gentle with you, the emotional scars of your previous relationship a stinging wound. You were desperate for tenderness, and Suguru obliged with your request. By the end you found yourself reaching your climax with tears in your eyes.Â
If you were to list out more moments like this, you would simply go on and on.Â
You canât hide your truth with Suguru when it was the first thing youâve ever shown him.Â
âBecause itâs a constant reminder that I can be in a room full of people I know and still feel incredibly aloneâŚâ you mumble, your gaze catching his.Â
His hand finds your thighs, the warmth of his large palm burning through the fabric of your dress.Â
âYouâre not alone tonight, sweetheart,â he reassures.Â
âYou donât have to be so niceâŚâ you insist, suddenly self conscious over his flattery. The same sweetness he bestows upon you when youâre both locked away in a hotel room somewhere, but you didnât sign off on any bonus transactions tonight.Â
He squeezes your thigh and tilts his head. âBut I like being nice to youâÂ
He says it so matter of factly it almost makes you faint.Â
Your brows upturn with confusion. âWhy?âÂ
His touch expands upward, grazing over the curve of your thigh, bunching the material of your dress between his fingers. He leans closer, the scent of bergamot wafting up your nose and kissing your neck.Â
âLook there,â he states, and you follow the line of his gaze.Â
âThat woman has been married for fifteen years and her husband never got her off once. And that womanâŚâ he continues, shifting his eyes from body to body, âhas a birth mark just above her hip bone. And at the table right behind us,âÂ
When you turn your face you accidentally bump into the tip of his nose.Â
â...are two sisters who pretend they get along well but are currently in a massive fight over their inheritanceâÂ
Your stomach coils with jealousy. âAcquaintances of yours?âÂ
 Suguru leans back slightly, giving you both room to breathe.Â
âYes, clientsâŚâ he confirms, âthereâs a few of them here tonight, but youâre the only one who acknowledges me. Iâm just a dirty little secret to the rest.âÂ
Your envy dwindles into sympathy, and you canât help but let the question slip.Â
âHow does that make you feel?âÂ
Thereâs a twitch in Suguruâs jaw, a hint of scarred pride. You know he has plenty of it, he just hides it well.
The man shrugs, averting his sharp gaze as he downs the rest of his drink. âIt is what it isâÂ
Oh, but that response doesnât nothing to help your heart, the muscle practically screaming at your brain to do so something and make him feel better.Â
Mindlessly, you loop both arms around his bicep, casually resting your chin on his shoulder.Â
âIâm sorry if I ever made you feel that way...âÂ
Youâre not sure why youâre apologizing, but youâre hoping itâll mean something to him. He turns to face you, and if he inched a little closer he could probably kiss you.Â
âYou are an enigma to meâÂ
âIn what way?âÂ
He brushes his lips past your own, making you catch your breath for a moment. His mouth trails its way up to your ear, and he whispers a sentence that sends goosebumps running all over your body.Â
âIn the way that how a woman like you can fit in a life like thisâÂ
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The night carries on, the pulse of hedonism sending reverberations across the establishment. The crowd grows larger, the air a potion of liquor, expensive cologne, sweat and pleasure. The lights dim, inducing everyone into the trance of the ambience set around them, allowing them to indulge and consume. Your conversation with Suguru feels like minutes, but two whole hours pass with the both you concealed from the crowd. Youâre almost mesmerized by him when he talks, cast under an entirely different spell that seems to effect nobody else. His touches turn more intimate the longer you speak, with Suguru securing his arm around your waist and leaning back against the chair as he keeps you tucked into his frame.Â
Thatâs another thing you started noticing - how this man likes to hold you.Â
He even did it when you were in bed together last.Â
And the time before that.Â
And the time before that.Â
And the time before that-
If you werenât surrounded by so many eyes you would simply curl into him, but you find yourself restraining while thinking of what excuse might work to get you both out of here because you just want to be alone with him.Â
âCan I get you a drink?â Suguru offers, a wave of disappointment rolling into you as he untangles himself slowly.Â
âJust some water...âÂ
Suguru kisses the inside of your wrist with the reassurance that heâll be right back, but the public display only makes your cheeks bloom with endearment.Â
âGot itâÂ
When he stands up and walks away is when you notice how the crowd around you has dispersed. Most of Suguruâs party were gone - standing either by the bar or caught in the middle of the dance floor. You can see that there were a few shifty eyes staring at you, and a lump forms in your throat when you realize that by allowing yourself to melt into Suguru it meant that you revealed your weakness to the rest of the wild.Â
You take a second to readjust - fixing the hem of your dress before pulling out your pocket mirror and reapplying your lipstick. You fight off any anxious thoughts, sticking a big metaphorical middle finger to whoever was watching you with any hint of judgement.Â
Your care for Suguru outweighed their own by tons.Â
You just didnât know how far you had let your guard down until a strange shadow veils over you.Â
âRed still looks good on you.âÂ
Your heart doesnât sink, it seizes, collapses into itself when you drop the mirror in your hand. His dark chuckle makes your spine tingle with unease. Sukuna kneels to pick up your mirror, his devilish smiling greeting you as you swallow the lump in your throat.Â
âWhat? Cat got your tongue?â He teases, huffing out another laugh when you snatch the pocket mirror from his hand and quickly throw your things back into your purse.Â
âI have to go.âÂ
You bolt onto your feet, only to pause when his contact scorches your forearm.Â
âWhatâs the rush? Iâm just saying hi.âÂ
You shrug him off aggressively, eyes violent and full of fury.Â
âI donât want to say hi to you. As a matter of fact, I hope that we never have to speak again.â Â
âCâmon doll, donât be like that. Itâs water under the bridgeâŚâÂ
His nonchalance enrages in you ways that you canât describe, but rather than make a scene you smoothly shove him aside before uttering âassholeâ and storming off towards the bar.Â
Your frantic eyes search for your solace, of the man who can suture any wound thatâs in desperate need of healing. You spot him from behind, noticing that he is speaking to a friend, his shoulder leaning on the bar as he patiently waits to pick up the drinks like he promised. Refusing to look back because you know Sukuna is probably on your trail, you breathe out your apprehension to compose yourself and keep one hand securely on your purse before steadily making your way towards to Suguru.Â
You hear the two of them as you draw closer, unintentionally eavesdropping on the conversation at hand.Â
âWhoâs the chick?â his friend asks.Â
âA friend.â Suguru replies.Â
âWhich friend?â they press.Â
âNone of your businessâŚâÂ
âAh, one of your desperate clients Iâm guessing?âÂ
You cease before making your presence known.
Stunned; your face boiling with embarrassment.Â
âShut up.âÂ
âItâs so obvious, Suguru-â his friend scoffs, âsheâs practically crawling on your lap. Itâs fucking pathetic, donât you think?âÂ
Pathetic?
The word splits you into half.
Is that how Suguru sees you?Â
Is that how everyone else does to?Â
Something clicks then, every memory and act of kindness tainted with the thought the man was simply pitying you. That the root of his good-hearted nature was merely sympathy towards a sad, broken little rich girl.Â
Suguru picks up the drink, mumbling a âfuck offâ before turning on his heel only to find you standing there stupefied by his friendâs demeaning commentary. Only an idiot would assume that you probably didnât hear a thing, but Suguru is far smarter than that. Whatever trace of the mask heâs been wearing dissipates then, and you see the genuine concern on his face. He parts his lips but youâre too wounded for an explanation, and you instantly dash past both of them, excusing yourself politely before speed walking your way towards the exit.Â
You can hear him call out your name, but there is no way you would let that man see you crying after what was just said.Â
Of course he doesnât like me, you self-consciously deliberate, I pay him to fuck me.Â
I pay him to fucking like me.Â
A sob leaves you, and you cover your mouth with the back of your hand as you rush past the bouncer and dart out the front door, leaving a crowd of people staring at you with confusion. All of them hoping to make their way inside.
âMust be drunk,â one person says, while another screams at the bouncer âhey, can you let us in?! Someone just left!âÂ
You strut down the street, desperately trying to maintain your balance as you dab your eyes lest your tears ruin your make up. You hear someone call out your name, half hopeful that it might Suguru but when you glance over your shoulder all you see is the dreadful sight of your ex-boyfriend.Â
You keep walking. âDonât follow me.âÂ
Sukuna is quick to catch up, practically jogging down the street and you curse your choice in footwear for slowing you down.Â
âThen donât keep running away.âÂ
You halt, the man nearly colliding into you from behind.Â
âWhat?!â you spit out as you glare up at him. âWhat do you want from me?âÂ
Sukuna arches his brow, the smell of whiskey sticking to him. âThe fuck got you so worked up?âÂ
You wipe away any leftover tears, your indignation towards this man overriding all other emotions.Â
âNone of your fucking businessâŚâÂ
Sukuna reaches for your elbow, âLetâs not be testy. My car is in front of the bar. Let me take you home.âÂ
You already caught that eye sore of a ridiculously expensive sports car when you stepped out of club. âIâd rather walk home barefoot on a bed of hot coals then go anywhere with you.âÂ
âDonât be like that, kittenâŚâ
âDonât,â you snapped, âcall me that.âÂ
âYou know I still nothing but love for you, right?â He slurs mildly, âLet me take you back to my place and we can talk-â Â
His thumb grazes your elbow gently. Once upon a time you actually believed that his affection was real, but youâre older and wiser to know the truth now. âYou miss my pussy,â you crudely admonish, âyou donât give a fuck about me.âÂ
He pinches your elbow with mild irritation. âWhy donât you tuck those claws back. Iâm trying to have a fucking conversation.âÂ
âIf a conversation is what you want, then speak to your fucking wife-â you hiss, striking a cord that makes Sukuna furrow his brows which brings you an odd sense of satisfaction.Â
His face falls.Â
You huff with approval.Â
âWhat?â your mock, âcat got your tongue?âÂ
âIs everything alright?âÂ
You and Sukuna both halt, your heads twisting to face whoever spoke with Sukuna letting go of you faster than you can even blink. You only catch a tiny glimpse of his fear, the terror that somebody caught him in the act.Â
Thankfully, it was only Suguru.Â
Your body hums with relief.Â
One hand is in his pocket, the other keeping a helmet tucked under his wing. His stance is relaxed but his irises are piercing daggers sinking into Sukunaâs skull.
âEverythingâs fine-â Sukuna insists.Â
âSuguru,â you call out at the same time, instantly going to him and finding your place by his side.
The word pathetic hammers in the back of your mind but you need deal with one problem at a time, and right now you donât care about looking desperate if it means escaping the shackles of Ryomen Sukuna.Â
Suguruâs eyes donât leave your ex-lover, but he inches closer towards you to assert his ground.Â
Sukuna frowns, the expression on his face all too familiar.Â
You clutch Suguruâs sleeve, âNothing to fret over. Do you mind taking me home?âÂ
He turns to face you, a mixture of worry with a flare of anger on that handsome face. Â
âYeah, Iâll take you home.âÂ
âTsk,â Sukuna grumbles with frustration, âDonât cheapen yourself by fucking off with some whoreâŚâÂ
A static shock trickles each point of the triangle where you all stand. The hair on the back of your neck stands upright, your attention moving to Suguru whose entire face darkens with a fury that youâve never seen before. He steps forward, his helmet dropping to his hand like heâs ready to wield it as a weapon, and the target is the spot on Sukunaâs skull that heâs been carefully observing. Your vision goes white imagining the outcome of this blow out, and you can practically hear the crack of the impact if Suguru follows through.Â
Despite how much he deserved it, you know just how powerful Sukuna is.Â
He would ruin Suguru without any remorse.Â
âSuguru,â you beg, stepping forward and clutching onto his shirt as you reel him away from the man before you.Â
His nostrils flare, the intoxicating poison of wrath swirling in his irises which quickly diffuses upon finding you.Â
âTake me home?â You softly repeat, earnest and sincere, all the while erasing Sukuna from your presence entirely.Â
It only takes a few seconds for Suguru to register your request, but he complies by reaching for your hand and knotting his fingers between your own. He grips it protectively, eyes looking straight ahead as he leads you down the street and far away from the chaos behind you.Â
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The patter of your feet colliding onto the concrete surface echoes around you. A part of you is embarrassed, the other ashamed, a third grateful while a fourth shivers anxiously. Youâre thankful that Suguru is at least allowing the silence to linger because itâs giving you a chance to settle from the roller coaster of emotions you just experienced. You try not to think about the pressure of his grip, or how the length of his fingers are wrapped securely around yours and instead piece together some semblance of an explanation worthy for him to listen to.Â
You eventually decide that youâll just grab a cab back to your place. That youâll thank Suguru for playing the role of rescuer, and hand off the cheque that youâve been holding onto. You wonât be a burden, bother him any longer or a do anything else to force his empathy.Â
Suguru pauses in front of a jet black motorbike. The color itself blending into the darkness around you. You clear your throat ready to make your declaration, but youâre silenced when you feel the weight of his helmet press against your palms.Â
âWear this,â he commands. âIâll take you to my place.âÂ
Your mouth goes slack, your practiced words shrinking to the back of your throat.Â
His place.Â
âYour place?â You find yourself whispering your thoughts out loud.Â
Suguru reaches for the handle of his bike, tapping his index finger against it, his back facing you. âIf you want.âÂ
He hops on before searching you for an answer. The look animates you back to reality and you nod your head before swiftly putting on the helmet. You find your place behind him, taking a second longer to adjust in your dress. You knot your arms around his waist, your eyes noting his exposed head.Â
âYou donât have a helmet.â You point out.Â
âI donât live that far,â he answers back, âbesides, I didnât think Iâd be traveling with precious cargo.âÂ
He taps his palm over your clasped hands. âHold tight for me, alright?âÂ
You nod your head, covering your face with the shield visor before resting your cheek against his back.Â
Suguru takes off.Â
The wind whips against your bare arms, the pressure sweeping between your legs as Suguru swerves between each lane. The city blurs into vivid colors, only resurfacing when you come to an immediate halt at the traffic light. The adrenaline courses through your veins, the exhilarating sensation a thrill that youâve never experienced before. Unfortunately, the journey was short lived and within twenty minutes you find yourself coming to a halt in an underground parking lot.Â
Suguru parks the bike, hopping off before reaching his hand out to assist you.Â
Your legs felt like jelly when it hits the surface, and you tumble on your own footing as Suguru reaches his other hand out to steady you by holding your waist.Â
âYou okay? Was I going to fast?âÂ
You take off the helmet, attempting to make yourself look somewhat presentable.Â
âNo, noâ you answer a little breathless, âthatâŚthat was actually kind of funâŚâÂ
âFirst time?â
You nod your head.Â
Suguru hums.Â
He takes the helmet away from you and directs you straight to the entrance of his apartment building. He pulls out an electronic key, and presses it against the elevator door. The elevator pings, the panels sliding open as you both step inside. Suguru clicks the button to his floor and you both stand on opposite sides watching the numbers go up.
Suguru lived in a newer development, you could tell when you walked through the hallway as he stands in front of his apartment door, and uses the same key to grant you both entrance.Â
As you enter the hallway, youâre greeted by a wall with mounted iron hooks. Thereâs five to be exact, each one holding a different helmet with one space empty. Suguru fits the helmet back onto the vacant spot, before glancing over his shoulder and finding you still by the door struggling to take off your heels.Â
He returns and kneels before you. His hands carefully moving your fingers away.Â
âLet me help with thatâÂ
âYou donât have to-â but youâre interrupted with him patting his thigh in gesture.Â
You bite your bottom lip and place one foot against him, careful not to dig your heel into him.Â
He delicately unravels the straps around your ankle and slips of the heel with a brush to the back of your calf, making the muscle twitch.Â
âOther foot,â he instructs, then repeats.Â
After placing your shoes neatly by the door, he stands up and reaches for your hand once more. âThis wayâÂ
You take it warmly, and follow him while trying your best not to acknowledge the noticeable height difference with you two standing side by side.
You never paid much attention to it before, you didn't have too really considering you both spent most of your time together in parallel positions.Â
Suguru leads you into the living room, and a small gasp escapes you when you are met with floor to ceiling windows. The horizon is of the city skyline, but itâs half blocked by a decent size balcony which is covered in greenery. The scene contrasts the inside of Suguruâs apartment, which is more minimal. To your right is a small dining nook, the light above an accent piece that added some detail to the decor. To your left is a small furniture set, the sage green fabric making you avert your gaze with shame because your recognized that very same couch in most of Suguruâs videos.Â
You find yourself quickly staring at your feet.Â
âCan I get you anything to drink? Water? Tea?âÂ
âTea would be great,â you answer back, returning to look directly at him from underneath your lashes. âDo you have anything herbal?âÂ
âMhmm.âÂ
You follow him into the kitchen and realize that the man keeps his place meticulously clean. The back counter is what catches your attention the most. Suguru has a full serviced at home barista station set up for his own convenience. You pick out the coffee grinder, espresso machine, assortment of tea pots, jars of fresh leaves and coffee bags all neatly organized.Â
Suguru pulls out one jar with a hand written label that reads "lemon balm and chamomile".Â
You slip off your purse and place it on the counter behind him. âDid you make all these yourself?âÂ
âMy parents used to run a tea shop in Hokkaido,â he answers back.Â
âA tea shop?â You squeak, a little too excited from the morsel of information about his personal life that he just bestowed. âThat must have been lovelyâŚâÂ
âIt was,â he answers, his voice growing small.Â
You watch him fill the kettle with water, before placing it on the electric stove to warm up. He opens the jar, closing the gap of space between you both and lifts it to your nose.Â
âTake a deep breath in,â
You oblige, and inhale.Â
âOh my,â you sigh out loud, your fingers subconsciously clasping over his own as your eyes flutter from the aroma of citrus, ginger, flora and subtle spice. It calms every firing nerve in your body. âThat smells wonderfulâÂ
When you open them again, you see that Suguru is looking at you thoughtfully.Â
âIt tastes good too,â he says proudly, and your heart glows at the reaction. âI was a terrible night owl as a kid. Still am, I guess. My mom used to make this to help me go to sleepâŚâÂ
âThatâs really sweet,â you admit, wondering how lovely it must be to be looked after with such care.Â
He slips away again, taking a spoon and putting a generous amount of the blend into a ceramic tea pot. You hear the tea bubble lightly, but your head spins as Suguru cages you in place while you both wait for it to reach the right temperature. Your back is against the counter, his arms by your side.Â
âThat guy you were talking to. Who was that?â He questions, cutting right to the chase.Â
âNobody important,â you confess, âheâs an asshole.â
âTell me about it.âÂ
âIâm sorry about what he said to you. What he called youâŚâ Â
Suguruâs fingers dig into the counter, making the muscles in his arms flex with irritation.Â
âDonât apologize for him. Donât apologize for any of them.â He firmly maintains. âTheir words are empty to me...âÂ
âYou almost bashed his head in,â you point out, a tiny smile easing the tension binding around the man before you.Â
âI almost bashed his head because of the way he spoke to you-âÂ
Your eyes widen.Â
Was he being protective? You think, but shake your head when you think of what kind of pitiful state you must have been that would cause Suguru to react in such a way.Â
Pathetic.Â
Your shoulders dwindle slightly and you shake it off to gather yourself once more.Â
âHe was a terrible mistake. I was young, and stupid. I thought I knew better when I really had no fucking clueâŚâÂ
You didnât realize how bitter you sounded until two fingers press underneath your jaw.
His thumb taps your chin in a featherlight touch. âIs it over? Whatever it was?âÂ
âOf course,â you answer, the truth acrid on your tongue. âIâm to marry Naoya Zenâin, remember?â
Suguru frowns. âHeâs no better. I told you that myself.âÂ
You circle your hand around his wrist. âIâll take anyone over Sukuna. Even if that person is NaoyaâŚâÂ
âWhy canât you just choose?âÂ
You press your lips together and sigh. âBecause itâs a transaction. Iâm a token in my fatherâs universe. If he weds me off to the Zenâinâs then itâs profitable. Good for businessâŚâÂ
âIâm sure if you speak with him, heâll understand-âÂ
âDonât be so naive,â you answer as you return to meet his gaze. âMy father doesnât love me. He just owns me. I spent most of my adolescence alone while he was busy working or galavanting off with his mistress. I think he assumed that if he kept shoving money my way, I wouldnât notice his absenceâŚâÂ
The kettle sings, making you both jump in place as the water bubbles aggressively and a small spiral of steam releases from the lip. Suguru returns to making your beverage. Picking up the kettle and pouring the hot water into the pot. He places it on a tray, along with a beautiful cup.Â
âThe tea needs a couple of minutes to steep. In the meanwhile, Iâm going to change into something more comfortable.â He announces, âYou want some spare clothes?âÂ
You look down at your designer frock, the material snug on your body.Â
âYeah, Iâd like thatâÂ
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You stare at yourself in the bathroom mirror. Suguruâs white shirt falls to your mid thigh, the material a little see through and revealing the bra you had on underneath. You eye the pair of worn boxers he handed to you to wear as shorts, but slyly tuck your bottom lip between your teeth before leaving it behind and walking out with your bare legs on display.Â
Youâre not quite sure what the plan is here, but you don't see yourself leaving anytime soon.
You head back towards the kitchen where you pick up your purse, your dress folded between your hands carefully. Suguru is opening the door to the balcony, having changed into a cut sleeve shirt that exposes his arms and a hint of his ribs, as well as a pair of loose shorts. When he hears you enter, his attention instantly falls to your plush thighs, a hint of crimson blushing his cheek.Â
âWhere can I keep my stuff?â You ask innocently, pretending to ignore his reaction.Â
âAnywhere is fine,â he answers back, his voice thick.Â
He tells you that heâll wait for you outside, and in the meantime you put down your stuff onto the coffee table in front of his sofa.
You unzip your purse, Suguruâs cheque staring you at you with wide, scolding eyes.Â
Pathetic.Â
You furrow your brows at the voice inside your head, and swipe the payment before folding it and tucking it securely against your hip underneath the waistband of your underwear.Â
You head outside, sliding the window close behind you.Â
Suguru is sitting on a deck chair, the two of you camouflaged by the array of his overgrown plants. He pours your cup of tea, the aroma twirling between the current of the wind as he offers it your way. You pick it up, bringing it to your lips and taking a sip. A heavy sigh escapes you, and you remain standing leaning back against the cool glass surface as you stare out into the distance.Â
âLike it?â Suguru asks, and you only notice then that he has also brought out a second cup for himself and is pouring his own drink.Â
âItâs divine,â you respond.Â
âIâm gladâÂ
The two of you sit in silence once more, mindlessly sipping your tea while contemplating the other person. Youâre both at a clear standstill, carefully tiptoeing over the boundary that has so been strictly set in place.Â
A reminder of that is the folded cheque digging into your skin.Â
âHow did you find out about contacting me?â Suguru randomly wonders.Â
You look towards him and he shrugs before adding on, âI never asked. I find myself curious.âÂ
You thrum your nails against the glass cup, taking another sip of your tea before replying, âI saw you at a party with Satoru. I was with a group of friends, and one of them noticed me recognizing you. She asked if I wasâŚfamiliar with your work. And when I told her I was she informed me that you both wereâŚintimate.âÂ
âWas it Mei?âÂ
Your face falls at the blatant disregard of confidentiality.Â
âHow-How did you know?âÂ
Suguru huffs, and sips his tea.Â
âSheâs the only other client I had close to our age. Wasnât hard to make the connectionâŚâÂ
âCan I ask you a question?âÂ
âGo for it,â he replies.Â
âIâve always been curious as to how you wound up doing what you do,â you bite your bottom lip nervously, your hands trembling slightly holding your glass and you hope that Suguru wouldnât notice your sudden unease.Â
âAh,â he acknowledges, his free hand moving to rub the back of his neck and you canât help but sneak a peak at his abdomen from the side. âWell, I told you how I wound up making the videos. For a long time I just did solo work, but I knew I could make more money if I had on-screen partners to film with. I had a few good connections with some actresses and hired a friend to make a video with meâŚâÂ
You knew exactly which one he was talking about.Â
The actress in question was well known, and the video was an amateur clip that was filmed on the very same couch that you walked passed earlier.Â
You clench your thighs together.Â
You donât even want to admit how many times you came to that particular video.Â
âI didnât know it would blow up in the way that it did. Shoko and I made a killing off it. We both saw the potential and we wound up doing six full episodes - trying out different techniques, roleplaying in a fewâŚâÂ
âBut you stopped posting after thatâŚâÂ
Suguru pauses. âHow would you know that?âÂ
You swallow a big gulp of tea.Â
âI might have been a big fan of your work before we met.âÂ
âReally?â He answers with a slight tilt of his head, clearly very amused.Â
âI wouldnât have reached out to just anyone, you know. But I was really interested in...your work, and when I learned about your little side gig. I couldnât resistâŚâÂ
âWell, color me flattered, sweetheart.âÂ
You swirl the last bits of tea in your cup.Â
âSo, why did you stop posting?âÂ
âI kept the videos up. Theyâre good and I still make revenue with every ad or view. Satoruâs career was picking up around that time, and he had just gotten clean. He needed somebody to hold him accountable so I started tagging along at his events. I didnât realize how many people would recognizeme. My first client wasnât even "a client", he gestures with air quotes, "she was just some woman I met and slept with. I woke up the next morning to an empty hotel room. All that she left behind was an envelope of cashâŚâÂ
He pauses.Â
âI didnât know what to feel. A part of me was insulted but another part had never seen that much money handed over so easily. The videos were great but what I earned in a day, is what I got in just a few hours. I was in my mid-twenties, just left the brink of making ends meet and desperate for security. I deposited the cash and kept going. Somehow it snowballed intoâŚâ he gestures his arms out, âthis.âÂ
He pours himself another cup of tea. âAt first I was a little reckless. Took on too many clients it damn near gave me a health scare. So, I started spacing them out. Keeping to a set number a month and maintaining a high price. I didnât think that so many people would actually pay for my services, but they do...and I'm comfortable.âÂ
âDoes it ever overwhelm you?âÂ
âNot anymore. Keeping my partners to a minimum helps. Iâm safe and get tested regularly, as I mentioned when we first met,â He lifts the teapot your direction to offer you a second cup, and you accept it by approaching him and allowing him to fill your glass.Â
âThe thing is I went from never knowing when I was going to eat to having three meals a day. I donât think Iâd change that for the worldâŚâÂ
âWhat about your family? Your friends?â You find yourself mindlessly asking. "How do they feel about this?"
âSatoru and Shoko are the only ones who know. Everyone else thinks itâs porn that funds my life. As for my family,â Suguru stops, his voice scratchy as he quickly clears his throat. âWell, they donât have to worry about it. My parents passed away when I was fifteen. It's just been me ever sinceâ Â
The tea burns your lip and your body trembles at the statement.Â
âIâm so sorryâŚâÂ
He shrugs his shoulder nonchalantly.Â
Thereâs a heaviness in the air, and despite how hard heâs trying to hide it you can see how the memory tears him apart.Â
âMy mom passed away giving birth to me,â you find yourself disclosing to even the scale, âI think thatâs probably why my father resents me so much. He never got a son, and lost his wife in the processâÂ
âIâm sorry to hear that tooâŚâÂ
You mirror his shrug. âItâs weird. I find myself curious about her - but thereâs a detachment when I look at her. Sometimes I think about how different my life might be if she was still around. Or, if she was just like my father and everything would still be the sameâŚâÂ
âWell, since we are speaking of hypotheticals,â Suguru moves on, shifting the topic as he angles his body more in your direction. âIf you had the freedom to whatever you wanted, what would you do?âÂ
âMe?â You gasp, shocked by his pointed question.Â
He smiles an easy smile, âI donât see anybody else around.âÂ
You hum thoughtfully. âThis might take a minuteâŚâÂ
He places his cup of tea on the tray by his side and then pats his free hand on his thigh.Â
âCâmere and think.âÂ
Your heart flies up your throat, pulsing just at the base. âYou want me to sit on your lap?âÂ
Suguru nods his head.Â
You gulp down the vessel, returning it back to its place. You glide your way towards him, placing the tea cup just next to his own, before settling down onto his lap.Â
Suguru wraps his arm around your waist, securing you close into his frame.Â
âDo you hold your other clients like this?âÂ
He shakes his head no.Â
âSo, you like holding meâŚâ you bluntly point out, âwhyâs that?âÂ
Suguruâs face is directly in front of yours, so beautiful you can almost faint right here in his arms. He fingers dig into your waist, his other arm curving over your thigh and gently drawing circles on your hip.Â
âBecause you fit nicely against meâÂ
A swarm of butterflies take flight, making you feel lighter than air. You swear he might kiss you then but instead he returns to his question. âSo, tell me what would you do?âÂ
The answer comes to you far easier than you think. From the moment you saw him tonight, you know the truth in the depths of your heart. âIâd like to run away with you,â you confess before stuttering out, âor-or at least somebody like you. Someone who is kind and sweet and thoughtful...â
Suguru leans back against the chair, lifting up one leg and adjusting your positions. Heâs careful not to kick the tray with the tea.Â
âAnd where would we go?âÂ
You sling your arms around his neck, âanywhere - anywhere but here.âÂ
Suguru slides his palm over the slop of your rear, slipping it underneath the fabric of his shirt and tracing a line over the dimples on your lower back.
âWhat would we do?âÂ
âWe could lay outside just like this and watch the stars.âÂ
He hums, âwe donât get any stars out here in the city...â
âNo, we donât.âÂ
âWhat else would we do?âÂ
His other hand starts to unbutton the front of your shirt, revealing the details of the lace underneath. He cups your right breast, his lips shifting to find your neck.Â
âWeâd do this too,â you sing merrily.Â
âLook at stars and fuck our brains out?â He teases, his teeth nipping at your skin. âSounds like a dream to meâŚâ
He gropes the fat of your breast, unknotting every single secret. âwhat else?âÂ
âWeâll sleep all day, and kiss until weâre bored of one anotherâŚâÂ
The hand on your breast moves to circle your neck, Suguruâs thumb massaging the column.Â
âIâd never grow bored kissing you-âÂ
Your body renders against his touch. âSuguru,â you moan, your lips seeking his own.Â
Before you can even meet for the kiss, he mumbles your name and follows up with the claim: âyou should run away with me.âÂ
You giggle, still living in the proposed fantasy. âIâm trying toâŚâÂ
âIâm being seriousâÂ
The tone of his voice is the reason why you stop to kiss him, pulling away to face the man before you.Â
There's no denying the truth on his face - he is actually quite serious about the declaration.Â
You hear the dreaded word once more: pathetic. Pathetic because this man is an expert at fulfilling fantasies, is a professional when it comes to healing the hearts of the lonely.
Pulling yourself out of this delusional imagination, you push off him before standing up straight.Â
âThatâs not funny, SuguruâÂ
âWho says Iâm being funny?â He responds sincerely.Â
âWhat is this? What are we doing? What am I doing? You canât just-â you lament, pressing your forehead to hand in disbelief as you enter the confines of his apartment, taking a second to breathe. âYou canât just say things like that-âÂ
He calls out your name again, but the kraken has already been released.Â
He follows, tracking into his abode right behind you, all the while watching you stand in the middle of his living room with your quivering hands reaching for the waistband of your underwear. Â
âThis was a terrible idea. I shouldnât have-I shouldnât have gone through with all of this,â you yank out the cheque, showing it to him. âYou donât have to take pity on me. I know Iâm just another desperate, pathetic client, alright? I promise you don't have to keep putting up with me and my drama after this. And you sure as hell don't have to keep giving me these mixed messages which only confuse me. I canât have things getting complicated right before this engagement is about to happen. So, here. Take this cheque and letâs just forget everything else about tonight.âÂ
Suguru stands there, pensive. His eyes look to the folded paper in your hand, his chest rising and falling with each heavy breath. Instead of reaching for the paper, he simply walks past you, making you spin on your heel as you follow his movements with sheer bewilderment.Â
He heads towards the shelf behind you and pulls out a tiny box. He removes something from it, before walking back and facing you once more.Â
âShit got complicated about eight cheques ago, sweetheart,â he negates, holding the thin stack papers between his two fingers as he brings it to your face. His eyes fall to to the crumpled one you are currently holding, âWell, counting the one in your hand, Iâd say nine...âÂ
You canât believe it.
You pick up the wad and sift through each paper; each cheque one of yours, the date issued a reflection of your last nine meetings with Suguru.Â
None of them cashed in.Â
âWhy do you still have these?âÂ
Two hands find your waist, your forearms fall into Suguruâs chest as you stare mindlessly at the cheques fanned out between your fingers.Â
âI didnât have it on my conscious to deposit them once I realized my feelings for you. I'm sorry about what you heard earlier, but what Mahito said doesn't apply to you at all,â he responds. âYou stopped being a client to me for quite some time...âÂ
You look up at him.Â
His touch tightens around your waist. âYou canât marry Naoya. Or, you shouldnât. But if you do, I donât want us to stop seeing one another. We can work something outâŚâ
âSuguru,â you pine, dropping the papers in your hand, each one twirling onto the ground, thousands at your feet.Â
His lips catch yours in a subtle peck, all before circling over your bottom lip and sucking on the plush base. He slides his tongue between your lips, feeling yourcrumple into him as the paper crinkles beneath your feet. You moan feeling the sensation of his tongue slide across yours - he tastes like running across a field of chamomile flowers, like youâre holding a basket of fresh, ripe lemons.Â
Like you're savoring the most beautiful sunrise.Â
His hands return to finish unbuttoning your shirt, shrugging the material off your shoulders and exposing your expensive lingerie set. He grips your hips, your ass - his touch hungry before pressing his pelvis closer to your frame so you can feel his aching member beneath his shorts.Â
You squeak into another kiss when he swiftly picks you up from the back of your thighs and carries you across the living room.Â
He places you onto his sofa like youâre made of porcelain, keeping you on the edge as he kneels to the ground, his knees sinking into the rug. Two hands find your inner thighs which he pushes apart to reveal the pretty triangle fabric covering your sweet cunt. He kisses your clit over the material. Once, twice, three timesâŚuntil youâre sighing into the pillow behind you. His tongue drags up, pressing your clothing against your sex, one hand drawing upward to find yours which he holds lovingly. His index and middle finger hook underneath your underwear, and he tugs it aside to reveal your slick coated pussy.Â
He kisses your clit again, leaving a path down your damp lips which only makes you moan angelically.Â
âThis is why Iâd never get bored kissing you,â he coos, âYou sound like heaven whenever I do...â
Your only response is a vowel, your hand holding onto Suguruâs for dear life as he returns to eat out with such devotion it almost brings tears to your eyes. You pant softly, his wet tongue making you weep between your legs and he gathers your essence and swallows it to parch his craving. You whine feeling the snap of your underwear pinch into your skin when Suguru lets go of the material to mold his palm over the slope of your pelvis. His thumb strokes the back of your hand, his tongue sinking between your wet folds, lips suckling on the petals of your cunt.Â
Your hips arch off the sofa, desperate for friction, but Suguru pins you firmly back down.Â
âEasy, easyâŚâ he appeases, âdonât cum just yet. Hold off fâme, just for a little bitâŚâÂ
Heâs never asked because there was never a reason to. For the most part, he was always there to service you. Allowed you to use his body to get you off as many times as you so desired.Â
Your voice breaks, âokay,â you answer, drawing out a long exhale when he dives back in.Â
The hand on your pelvis climbs up the steps of your ribs, reaching for band of your bra right at the middle. He curls his finger over the boning, and tugs the material allowing your breasts to spill free. He finds the bud of your nipple and tweaks it between his finger, pinching and pulling the aching nub until your writhing beneath him.Â
He slurps and sucks, while you moan and whimper, forcing yourself to hold off for as much as your can but you find that itâs far harder to do when your lower belly quakes as it sits on the brink of release.Â
âSuguru, SuguruâŚâ you beg, reaching your free hand to your breast and clenching over his fingers. âSuguru, I canât-mâgonna cum if you donât stopâŚâÂ
He groans against your cunt, pulling away from your pulsing core and letting go of your hand to wipe the dampness off his chin.Â
He licks his lips, drunk off lust and of how you taste.Â
He keeps his body upright, drags your legs to secure them around his waist as he straightens your back. His hands unhook your bra from behind, the scent of you strong on his lips as he leans up for a kiss. Your hands fall to his shoulders, your belly fluttering as your sex begs for more stimulation.Â
Suguru loosens the bra, allowing it to fall to your elbows before kneading your breasts - his thumb swipes back and forth over your nipples. He devours your cry, wolfs down every panting breath as he moans into the kiss. Your hands slip underneath his shirt, taking in the lines of strong abdomen.
âTake if off,â you plead between breaths, âTake it off, pleaseâŚâÂ
Suguru listens, breaking apart from the kiss to toss his shirt to the side while you slip off your bra. Your loverâs hand finds your waist, his fingers pinching into the soft flesh. He leans forward to kiss the side of your neck, making a path down the curve and across the field of your dĂŠcolletage.Â
âYouâre gorgeous,â he murmurs into your breast, his lips snagging your nipple as his tongue rolls over the bud.
Your fingers curl around the back of his head, loosening his bun as you untie the knot. His hair falls like waterfall, the strands tickling your bare skin. Suguruâs hand slips between your legs, his middle and forefinger meeting your clit. You hiss at the contact, sinking your teeth between your bottom lip when Suguru sucks on your breast while simultaneously drawing circles on the bundle of nerves between your legs.Â
Your breath grows heavier, your hips bucking into him from the sensation of his touch.Â
âFeels good,â you mumble, âfeels so good with youâŚâ Â
He shivers, relieving your breast as his lips search for your own.Â
He adds more pressure between your legs, increasing the speed while your tongues dance. When your thighs noticeably quiver he slows down, pinching your clit between his fingers as he softly pecks your cheek.Â
âThe condoms are in my roomâŚâÂ
Your sharp nails scratch the back of his neck lightly, âI have one in my purse.âÂ
Suguru nods feverishly, reaching back to the coffee table and rummaging through your purse. He picks out the shiny wrapper, and stands up to take off his shorts.Â
âWait, can I?â You request, gazing up at him with glittering eyes.Â
Suguru swallows hard, and nods his head.Â
Your eyes dilate rolling his shorts down, focusing on the tent in the fabric and watching his cock spring free and lightly smack his lower belly. Suguru brings the condom to his lips and rips it open with his teeth, but his eyes flutter when your perfectly manicured hands glide up the length of his shaft.Â
You trace the prominent vein, your thumb swiping over the pre-cum beading over the angry tip. You lick your lips, leaning closer to kiss the base and listening to Suguru sigh.Â
Youâve only given him a blow job once before, and that was because you asked if you could. Suguru sets no expectations for himself when it comes to work, but that doesnât mean that you havenât fantasized about giving him head countless times.Â
You wrap your fingers around his length and stroke mildly, your lips fanning over his cock before reaching the tip.Â
âSweetheart, donât-â Suguru murmurs in an attempt to stop you, but youâre already enclosing your lips around the head and pressing your tongue over the slit.Â
His head falls back as you suck, a curse leaving him.Â
You move slowly at first, dragging your tongue back and forth as you stroke the base. Sukuna was far rougher with you when you went down on him, but Suguru is allowing you to take him at your own pace. Inch by inch, until you were bobbing your head back and forth, strings of saliva webbing off his cock and sticking your lips.Â
He thrusts once, not rough enough to hurt but the jerk catches you by surprise.Â
You carefully release him, mindlessly wiping your bottom lip and the sight makes his cock twitch.Â
Suguru pulls the condom out, and rolls it over his shaft.Â
He settles onto the empty seta by your side, and you crawl over the expanse of his gorgeous, chiseled body to kiss him once again.Â
His circles his fingers around his cock, his other hand guiding your hip as he aligns the tip to your entrance. Your nail nicks his pec when he pushes against the hole, your mouth circling over his own as you lower down his shaft.Â
He fills you up so, so good. Makes your body vibrate with unshakeable desire.Â
He groans until he bottoms out , the hand on your hip dipping down from your pubis to your lower belly like heâs trying to outline how deep he actually is before returning it back in place and securing his other hand on the opposite hip.Â
Your breasts flatten against his chest, your hands holding on to his strong shoulders for support as you roll our hips.
Suguru works in tandem with your rhythm to fuck you passionately.Â
His lips find yours once again for a final kiss, before the two of you get caught up in the moment when he swiftly picks up the pace.Â
His hips arch violently, while yours sink - your bodies moving silk.Â
âUnghh, oh god, yes-yes-yes~â you moan.Â
Suguruâs grip almost feels painful, you know for a fact that heâll be marking your hips with a few bruises. âGonna cum-â he rasps, âs-shit, Iâm fucking close-fucking close-âÂ
Your pussy tightens, practically holds his dick in a death grip that makes release a broken moan. His cock contracts upon his release, the sensation bringing you to the edge of yours as the muscles in your lower belly and inner thighs spasm around him. You leave crescents on his skin, your bodies shaking as you both take a second to breathe coming down from your climax.Â
You collapse into him, his arms circling behind you, with his racing heart pulsing into your own. He moves so youâre laying side by side, your body sandwiched between him and the couch since he takes up most of the room. You rest your cheek against his shoulder, feeling him grow soft inside you.
Your stuttering breath finally finds a resting poin when he brings your hand and holds it against his heart.Â
âWhere do we go from here?â You whisper with a kiss to his neck.Â
âWhatever you decide, weâll figure out.â Suguru answers sincerely.Â
âI canât marry Naoya,â you admit out loud, shocked for actually saying it for the very first time. âAnd I can't share you with anyone else - it already kills me having to do so.âÂ
Suguru looks down at you, a reassuring smile resting on his lips. âThere wonât be anyone else.âÂ
âI can't just...leave. I can't just drop everything and walking away. It isnât going to be easy-â you add on, âItâll take me some time.âÂ
âI can waitâÂ
âIt might get messyâŚâÂ
âWhen is it ever not?âÂ
âBut weâve never been in a relationship-â you insist, logic breaking through the barrier of your happiness. âHow do we know if this will even work out properly? What if this thing between us fades?âÂ
âI guess weâre both taking a gamble hereâŚâÂ
You both stare into the otherâs eyes.Â
âDo you think itâs worth the risk?â You ask.Â
Suguruâs face softens but he leans forward to kiss your forehead.Â
âI think itâs worth a try.âÂ
・ďžâ˘âę°á ⥠ŕťęąâ⢠・ďž
TWO YEARS LATER
âYou running out on Naoya on your wedding night is still the hot topic.â Kento explains over the phone, âPeople kept bringing it up, and for whatever reason they just can't seem to get over it.âÂ
The guilt in your stomach twists into a very small knot, over time the size of it has shrunk to a point where you not longer carry any remorse regarding your scheming behavior.Â
You had a plan, and the plan worked.Â
"Let's not forget who was there to help..." you contend, disregarding the negativity surrounding your decision.
After you and Suguru spoke, you decided to carry on the facade, agreeing to the engagement and soon after the wedding with Naoya Zen'in. All the while you and Suguru were busy planning your way to cut and run. He cashed in your unsigned checks, and you pilfered a decent amount of the wedding budget which you kept into a seperate savings account.
You played the role as obedient daughter well, and no one was the wiser.Â
âBesides, I maintain that it's still the best decision I ever made,â you reply, stepping out of your room and into the kitchen where you are greeted by the sound of clinking dishes. Â
Your eyes shift to Suguru - his hair far longer now, flowing beautifully down his back, the front layers tied into a small bun. You smell dinner in the air, and your stomach grumbles with anticipation.Â
Nanami doesn't reply, but you can hear that he's distracted from the television in the background.Â
âWhat are you watching?â you ask your friend.Â
The man simply sighs.Â
âNothing.âÂ
âDoesnât sound like nothing with that reaction. Is it Satoruâs new drama show?âÂ
At the mention of his best friend you notice your lover glance over his shoulder, quietly tilting his head to direct you towards him. You smile his way, your feet pattering against the hardwood floor as you move closer to him. He bundles one arm around your shoulder, keeping you close while continuing to sautĂŠ the vegetables in the pan.Â
He kisses the top of your head.Â
âItâs all the rage,â you add on to your phone call, âSuguru and I plan on watching the next episode tonight.âÂ
Kento remains quiet.Â
You release yourself from Suguruâs grasp, and instead hop onto the kitchen counter right next to him.
He reduces the heat and picks up the lid before covering the pan.Â
âIâm guessing you two havenât-âÂ
âNo,â Kento curtly replies. âNot since that nightâŚâÂ
âIâm sorryâÂ
âDonât be,â he responds with frustration. âI screwed it upâÂ
âYou know I could just ask Sugu too reach out-âÂ
â Donât,â Kento sighs regrettably. âIt doesnât matter. I heard heâs moved onâÂ
You quirk your brow, your eyes shifting to Suguru who was back to chopping some fresh herbs.Â
âOh?âÂ
âItâs for the best I guess,â Kento reassures. âHe should be happy with whoever-the-fuck he chooses.âÂ
âYou deserve happiness too, Kento.âÂ
âYou can be happy for the both of us,â he replies, gulping down a drink. âAnyway, Iâve got to go. Iâm meeting my lawyer for dinner.âÂ
âWhen are you going to visit us next?âÂ
âProbably around November, December. I just need a few things to ease up on my end-âÂ
You bite your bottom lip, âI look forward to it.âÂ
âTake care, loveâÂ
âYou too, Ken.âÂ
You hang up the phone and lean your head against the cupboard as you watch Suguru rinse his hand, a trail of crimson spiraling down the faucet. Â
âI cut my fingerâÂ
You pick up a clean towel by your side, and gesture him towards you.Â
Suguru extends his thumb out, and you curl the fabric over to keep pressure on the small cut.Â
âYou ought to be carefulâÂ
âYour legs are a distraction,âÂ
You stare up at him playfully, and he leans down to kiss the corner of your lips.Â
âHowâs Nanami?âÂ
Your lover is indebted to your friend. If it wasnât for Nanami, the two of you wouldnât have been able to set up this comfortably. Heâs the one who found you the humble two-story abode in Hokkaido, and was also the person who set up your personal bank accounts while ensuring that you would both have a safe and quick getaway on the night of your almost-wedding.Â
âFine, I think-â you reply, before removing the towel to check the damage. Thankfully, it wasn't anything serious. A little deeper than a paper cut.âLicking his wounds over a broken heart, but fine.âÂ
Suguru reaches for the drawer next to you, and pulls out the emergency band aids. You reach for the box in his hand, taking out one and removing the plaster from the back. You secure it around his cut, and Suguru holds your fingers between his.Â
He arches down to kiss your brow. âThank you, sweetheart.âÂ
âYouâre welcome, handsomeâÂ
âDinner will be ready in a few if you want to set the tableâÂ
You nod your head in acknowledgement, and drop down onto the ground before proceeding with your task.
You set the place mats down, a bowl for the soup and another for the rice and cooked vegetables. Your finger traces the rim of the one in front of your seat, a tiny chip from when you accidentally dropped it in the sink while cleaning it a few weeks ago.Â
Fragments of these blemishes are all around you - making you almost forget that you once lived in a perfect, curated bubble. But you would take these flaws over everything else. These markings may be worn, but they are a reminder of the home you've been building.
A home that is entirely yours.Â
âBaby, you want a drink?â Suguru calls from the kitchen.Â
âMelon soda, pleaseâ you reply, placing the bowl down.Â
âWeâre out, Iâve got to pick some up tomorrow.âÂ
âWhat are you having?âÂ
âA beer,â he chuckles, and it sends a tremor of joy between the valves of your heart.Â
âIâll share yoursâÂ
Suguru pulls out the bottle, cracking the cap off as he pops it using the side of the kitchen counter to do so.Â
You two meet each other halfway in the space that you've been nesting in. Suguruâs eyes never leave yours when he takes the first sip, and once done he passes the chilled bottle towards you.
âAm I ever going to have you back in the kitchen helping me with dinner?âÂ
You shake your head no, and bite at the lip of the bottle before taking a sip. âI thought we agreed I was a hazard after the raw chicken fiasco and the almost-fire debacleâŚâÂ
He laughs, âno, you agreed. I said it wasnât a big dealâÂ
âYou just said that because you love me,â you respond, pressing the bottle into his chest as he takes it from your hand.Â
âThat goes without sayingâŚâ he answers, slinging his arm around your waist and pulling you into his frame.Â
You lift yourself up on your toes, and kiss his nose.Â
âDo you think itâs worth the risk of me attempting to cook for you again?â You whisper against his lips.Â
Suguru smiles, a hand cupping your cheek as he leans forward to seal his reply with a kiss.Â
âI think itâs worth the tryâÂ
・ďžâ˘âę°á ⥠ŕťęąâ⢠・ďž
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