#the devil made me do it but i also kinda wanted to . / delete

[bravest]

every time i think about mono being so afraid of being alone only to end up literally the most alone boy in the world i HAVE to throw up about it a little

[possiblyreallyme]

Oooo headcannon’s…If possible can we get Ace with a reader who’s fire resistant due to a devil fruit?

Hello!!! I love love love receiving your asks! i'm so sorry this took so long, i finished writing it at the start of november but it got deleted when i went to post it😭

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He is a silly goose at heart, and if you're his friend, you'll need to be ready for a few pranks once he finds out about your fire-resistance. For example, setting you ablaze when meeting strangers because their reactions are priceless, or annoying you with little fire-punches that have flames licking at your cheeks when sat next to each other at dinner (his fist never actually came in contact with your skin— he's not that stupid), or anything else he can come up with.

Also, expect a lot of testing. Like, constantly bothering you and begging you to be a guinea pig for the new move he's been wanting to try, or seeing how hot he can make his flames by slowly trying to burn your palm, things like that. Of course he'd be careful if you were unsure of it, but he would trust you enough to be 100% confident that you'd be fine if you told him that there was no way he could burn you.

If he had a crush on you though, he's a little bit more careful. Yes, he knows that you won't get burned no matter what, but with the added complexity of having feelings for you, he doesn't really want to risk anything. That doesn't mean he won't show off though, because trust me, he loves to do that.

He'll create firework shows just for you, or come up with excuses to use his powers whenever he can— including warming you up by making himself a human bonfire.

Now, if you're his lover, the whole game changes.

If you were a badass, cool, tough kinda babe, he has little issue with creating small flames in the palm of his hand and letting you play around with them, but that's about where he draws the line before he gets too worried. If you were the sweet, kind, shy type however, I don't think he'd be able to bring his flames anywhere near your skin.

He'd be WAYYYYY too paranoid to set his sweetheart on fire— what if he burned you?? What if your devil fruit powers worked differently then you thought???? WHAT IF YOU HATED HIM AFTERWARDS????

"Ace, come on, stop being a party pooper!" You whine, wanting to test out your abilities. And what better way to do so then with your fire-fist boyfriend? "Babydoll, I'm not gonna set you on fire..." He murmured uneasily, as if the thought made his skin crawl. "Fun hater😒" "Love you too, angel-face!😚"

For afab readers, he most definitely works as your full-time heating pad when you're on your period.

It wasn't even your idea— he just asked Marco how to ease your cramps (tearfully, might I add, mans was terrified for you), and he just about jumped with joy when he found out that heat makes it better, skipping back to your cabin to fulfill his God-given duty, which was cradling you like a baby to his chest and heating your back and stomach.

NSFW HEADCANONS BELOW! READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!!

While on the topic of periods, hear me out: heated period sex.

My man loves him so good period sex, especially if you let him act as an internal heating pad by warming his cock. He'll keep his large hand on your stomach to feel the bulge of his cock and heat up his palm to ease your cramps, whispering sweet praises into your ears while he keeps himself to the hilt, letting you adjust to his large size while he himself tried not to cry out in bliss.

Mess? What mess? You think the Fire Fist Ace is afraid of some blood? Honey, we have towels for a reason, don't even worry about it.

100% into temperature play, but again, only uses real fire if you're the tougher type or you beg. Though you'll never forget that one time he teased your nipples with a flame on the tip of his tongue...

In summery: Ace is a complicated guy, so your personality and role definitely change his opinions a lot (sorry if the way i'm writing it is annoying tho).

[lemonthepotato]

Tw: weight

I keep getting videos like “ILLYMATION DESTROYED HER CAREER” and “WOKE YOUTUBER TRIED TO CANCEL ME” in my recommended. I finally look into the situation and I’m just… so confused. So I skimmed the guys original video, right? Come to the 10:00 mark, and I stop skipping, and it’s just him insulting her appearance 💀.

So, I look into the situation, and her crime is having a bad opinion and trying to get a video taken down. If having a a bad opinion is a crime, 80% of YouTubers are criminals. As for trying to get the video taken down? Sure, you could call it petty. But cancel-worthy? I just consider it human error.

Apparently doing 1 questionable thing means you deserve to be treated like the devil and treated like a criminal mastermind. It’s the IRL equivalent of kicking Sharon out of book club because she made fun of you.

Also, I was looking at that LBYS guys channel, right? It’s just a bunch of content about “wOoooOOke people.” I uh, yeah. Wow.

I’m not saying she did nothing wrong. Just like… I think it’s being overdramatised.

Full disclosure, I haven’t watched Illymations video in full, or TBYS, but the “there are no bad foods” comment or smth like that is kinda true, just poorly worded. Essentially, it’s about eating in moderation. Nothing wrong with a square of chocolate on a Saturday, but pizza every day is different. Honestly, criticise the video if you want, I haven’t seen it all, so I won’t comment on that. Just. Yeah?

I’m not an illymation stan. I’ve only talked about her once before in relation to a different situation (the reitanna situation and her god awful statement about illymations grooming.) and I don’t watch all her content. I like her music though (Ursa Major), it’s good. I just like. Think the situation is a bit blown out of proportion?

Idk, tell me I’m wrong in my replies or something. I probably won’t respond but I won’t delete your comment unless you’re just being an ass and I’ll hear you out if I’m wrong. I’m just sick of this. Every few weeks I get a video in my recommended like “THIS YOUTUBERS CAREER IS OVER” and it’s always overdramatising the silliest shit.

“She sent 2 million people to harass him.” No? She made a tumblr post telling people to report the video. You know, I can’t even FIND the tumblr post, so that 2 million people claim is a bit over dramatic. She doesn’t even have her tumblr linked to her YouTube. Wait, was it on Twitter? People are claiming it’s on tumblr. I’m so confused.

Also I haven’t watched all of TBYS’s video but people are saying the dress part wasn’t even the worst part of what he said. Idk if that’s true. I condone doing your own research and free thinking so I’d be a hypocrite to say he 100% said anything terrible. It’s weird, cuz Reddit is mostly on Illy’s side, while everywhere else is against her, and that’s really funny to me, because REDDIT of all places?

Idk I’ll probably delete this later. I don’t keep my rants up for long but I’ve been keeping them up a lot recently even tho like, I’m meant to be deleting them? Ugh, I guess I just got lazy. Anyway, bye, love you, or whatever.

[soundwavefucker69]

a lot of y'all want people to flip left in theory, but not in practice, bc you do not want to put in the work to figure out how someone gets to where they're at and how to figure out how to pull someone back from the edge.

listen. i grew up in an evangelical Pentecostal church denomination that is actually registered on the American cult index. the ONLY reason i wasn't homeschooled was bc children were expected to browbeat all those filthy sinning six year olds on the playground. i don't think y'all realize testimonies and recruitment is an actual tactic to make the world big and mean and scary and make you think from a young age that the whole world hates you for your faith. its primary purpose is NOT to get new people in the church. its primary purpose is to keep people in churches for GENERATIONS. better to just have em breed and keep turning out the output than bring in new people, you know?

and it works. it works.

the thing about deprogramming is you don't suddenly wake up one day and be like "actually everything i was ever taught was wrong and bad and i have hurt so many people and need to go perfectly publicly apologize right now and phrase it in the absolute perfect way that is above reproach." like. it is actually a process. you need to wake up one day and go huh. i don't think i agree with this thing the pastor said. and then that thought kinda bubbles around in your brain a bit and grows and crests and then becomes another thought. huh. my pastor says queer people are of the devil, but my friends on tumblr are all really kind to me, and haven't tried to fuck me.

i don't remember my username from back then, but i am not fucking kidding in saying tumblr jumpstarted my deprogramming around 15/16. and it took years. it took actual fucking years. i eventually deleted that old tumblr bc there was so much shit on it i wasn't proud of and moved on and eventually made my way back.

deprogramming is a fucking process. you start by justifying the people that did this to you. then you get angry. you get mad. you realize you were a victim in every sense of the word. then you settle into a comfortable place where you realize you were a victim, and so were they, and that's just how it goes.

the problem with deprogramming is you have to also recognize abusive people can also be fucking victims. and that kind of destabilizes the generally accepted view of victims.

not everyone can actively handle deprogramming someone. it's fucking hard. a lot of the work has to be done by them, and they have to want to do the work. i cannot handle deprogramming someone. i'm too traumatized and i get too upset. it's not one big realization that changes your entire worldview. it's little realizations, over a long course of time. sometimes you slip up and realize years down the line that you're still thinking that way, just dressed up in respectability politics. it's easy to get caught up.

that's the current problem with the current trend of gen z being like the internet police on a scale we have not seen before. bc everyone assumed their parents did the fucking work, but their parents didn't, not really, and now they're fucking insane. everyone went hands off as everything about the internet pointed to a trend of sanitization for corporate interests, and now it's a huge fucking mess where every space on the internet needs to be "child friendly" and all these kids have grown up with that where they were coddled as the internet was made "safe" for them and their parents' sensibilities. like sure, yeah, twitter is fine for a thirteen year old, there's no porn on it. so when they're confronted with actual adult topics, they freak the fuck out. they're so fucking sex repulsed and critical thought is not encouraged at home. safe internet practices are not encouraged. if something that exists on their morally pure internet that isn't supposed to be there, it's a problem.

like i'm not kidding in the aspect we do actually have to deprogram these kids. they're getting worse and worse and inventing new things to not meet their moral purity laws. like height differences are pedophilia coded nowadays. it's fucking bizarre. conflict in a relationship where one person is in the wrong is abusive. they are entirely unprepared for the real world.

but like. it's not happening. the deprogramming is not happening and they're ascribing to new moral panics that just build and build on top of each other. they're radicalizing each other. but like... to deprogram, you do actually have to have compassion. you do have to look and see where things went wrong, where it started, and you do have to be patient. and part of deprogramming means not making an actively hostile space for people to unlearn this shit. bc people on the outside of their echo chambers being hostile is what reinforces the echo chamber. that's just how it fucking works.

i'm not saying you shouldn't go out of your way to reach out to people. no, you don't have to do that. just... if you see someone else doing the work, don't get in their way. i've seen a lot of YouTubers that dedicate themselves to interrupting the alt right pipeline getting fucking slammed for their work and drowning under mass harassment campaigns, and it's not helpful. like, if they're doing something wrong, you can correct them nicely and move on. not lead a mass harassment campaign, bc the people unlearning from their work look at that and go. ha. yeah. no.

anyways. that's it.

[pacific-octopus]

Mercy x Moira - "Quite desperate...."

A/N: HI i uploaded this to my ao3 a few days ago and forgot to upload it here </3 also i deleted the catalyst x reader bc i thought it kinda sucked so i'm sorry if you liked that one 😭 besides that this was just some fluff that i came up with off the top of my head!

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“well, if it isn’t the angel herself… hard at work after hours i see?” a deep, somewhat flirtatious voice from behind angela calls out. she turns and glances up to see her colleague and partner, moira o’deorain. the taller woman was wearing casual attire, a black t-shirt, quite worn out jeans and some black vans.

angela rolled her eyes at that statement. it didn’t offend her per say, she just found the others teasing tone a bit silly. “if it isn’t the devil in disguise!” she retorts, giving the other a light nudge to the arm. this gets moira a bit amused, causing her to let out a chuckle.

“let me guess…” angela says as she brushes a bit of her platinum blonde hair from her face. “…you want to spend time with me, so i should stop working and give you attention?” she takes her glasses off, hooking them to the collar of her shirt. moira puts her slim, cold hand on the shorter womans arm and caressed it slightly which gave her a clear answer. “fine. one moment.” angela says quietly with a jokingly annoyed tone which gets a victorious hum from her lover.

as angela put some papers back into their designated files she felt arms wrap around her waist, causing her to get a bit flustered. “my dear, what are you doing?” she talks with a bit of shock as moira leans down and kisses her cheek. “am i distracting you, my beautiful angel?” she whispers into the others ear which makes angela roll her eyes yet again.

“you sure are desperate, liebling.” angela teases before standing on her toes to kiss her lovers lips gently. it only took a moment for her to pull away however. “will that hold you or do you want more? you know i’m a neat freak, i need to organize this or it’ll bug me all night.”

moira nodded slowly, resting her head against angelas shoulder. “may i continue holding you at least?” this gets a sigh from her lover, but eventually the other nods. “perfect.”

after angela finished sorting out a few medical documents with her wife clung onto her like a koala, she glanced up to moira. her pastel blue eyes met the multicolored eyes of the figure holding her. after a moment of silence and admiring each others presence, moiras long nails trailed up and down angelas back which got a shiver from her.

“dear…” angela whispers before putting a warm hand on the cheek of her lover, leaning in slowly and kissing her lips. the kiss lingered for quite a bit which allowed some thoughts to run through the head of moira, and they weren’t very positive.

after they pull away, angela looks at the other with a soft and loving glance before she realizes something was bothering her. “liebling… what’s wrong? did i do something?” she asks just above a whisper, pulling her arms away just in case it was her who made her partner feel this way.

after a bit of an uncomfortable pause, moira speaks in the same quiet tone, but with more anxiety. “angela, this is all… genuine, correct?” she says with anxiety laced into her voice. “i’ve never been so intimate before and i wish to know how you see us.”

when those words hit angelas ears, she simply looks at her lover with a caring smile and begins… “moira, my dear, you’re the most important thing in my life right now. it’s not overwatch or my medical work, i care about you.” moira nods slowly, listening to her go on before angelas lips gently pecked her cheek.

moira laughs quietly at angelas reaction, her cheeks a little pink “my angel, you’re quite the poet. but really… thank you… this means the world to me. and all the things you said, i can say about you as well.”

“i love you, okay?” angela cups the face of her partner, leaning in for another quick kiss before her hands went down to hold moiras. “lets go back home, okay? i’m getting quite tired of being in this office.”

[nebularanger-art]

By the way in case you've been following me since my Clone High days and wondering what happened, this is the post.

Why don't I post about Clone High anymore? There's three reasons.

1. Devil May Cry. It's actually funny how you can pinpoint the exact moment I started to switch fandoms, and that was when I decided to make Clone High OCs based on the historical figures Dante and Virgil, but also based on the Devil May Cry characters Dante and Vergil, but specifically based on their reboot versions.

Anyways, yeah, DMC hijacked my mind and it's all I can think about. Same goes for Power Rangers, though to a lesser extent since I have yet to really integrate myself in the fandom itself. And hey, speaking of fandoms,

2. I'm not sugarcoating things: The Clone High fandom is garbage. The sheer amount of pedophile apologists in the community is genuinely concering, especially given how many of the fandom consists of minors. And no, I'm not giving them the luxury of calling them those self-coined terms they use to hide themselves under, I'm saying what they are because that's what they deserve; No amount of "it's just fiction" excuses posting about how "fun" it is to sexualize minors in a fandom FULL OF MINORS, KNOWING MINORS INTERACT WITH YOU.

On the contrary, or maybe as a result, a lot of fandom members have started witch hunts against others left and right for significantly smaller, bordering on nonexistent, issues. I could bring up how rings4casey is a hypocritical piece of shit who thinks harassment is okay as long as you're on "the good side"... oh wait, I already brought it up. Anyways, it didn't also help that around the same time, yet another Clone High Discord server controversy was happening that dealt with a similar topic; I wasn't in the server for it and I only heard secondhand accounts of it so don't ask me about what happened.

Edit: I'm also not gonna let it slide how racist this fandom can be lol. From redesigns that whitewash characters of color to straight up making nazi OCs, this place sucks for my Mexican/American and Jewish ass

The point is that this fandom was just a hostile environment to be in; You can be the shittiest person in the world and get away with it because everyone is busy punishing someone who went only slightly out of line. But to be honest, I think I dipped at a great time, because...

3. The show's dead. It got cancelled uncerimoniously after season 3 ended on a cliffhanger that'll never be resolved. I already lost hope on the show after season 2, and I didn't even bother to stay for season 3 and was only into the fan content, but now the show is dead and the fandom committed mass suicide.

TL;DR: Why should I churn out content for a series I don't like anymore, for a fandom whose five only remaining members are constantly going at each other's throats, and when I could just focus on the series and fandoms I do like making art for and participating in?

Wait, but what about my Clone High OCs and that rewrite project? I liked posting about that, will they just be abandoned now that I've deleted the sideblog made just for them?

HELL FUCKING NO THEY WON'T. I still love my OCs absolutely dearly, and I definitely have plans to revamp my Clone High "rewrite" into an actual proper series. Just don't expect it to be on tumblr because I kinda hated using tumblr to catalogue my OC stuff lol. Instead, check my dedicated Toyhouse folder for my Clone High OCs, and be on the lookout for an entire page to fill you in on the lore of their universe.

Also, I don't actually know if I still want them to be Clone High OCs. On one hand, I don't like the series anymore, but on the other, these characters being clones of historical figures is literally integral to their stories and the premise is just way too good to throw to the bin.

That's my final statement for the Clone High fandom; I still want Phil Lord dead in minceraft.

[show-us-kaidenshenandoah]

most of the time, when i make tiktok comments (or comments on youtube or insta or, i guess, social media in general) my brain has me just Fucking Forget that im not in a one-on-one conversation with OP and other people can read what i say. thankfully: this comment is now deleted after i foolishly left it up on tiktok for five months

i dont mind leaving i leaving it up here though because this is tumblr. it fits the vibe. i can mute the post if worst comes to worst, whatever. i think its funny that my friends were more worried about Chris than a literal cockroach lol im just glad the og tiktok comment didnt break containment before i deleted it from there lol but here? this whole site is "containment", itll be fiiiiinnne ...probaabblllyyyy

bc, yeah, luckily, this comment got only 2 likes. it was from a tiktok made by @/nerdymixedpan about: monster fuckery "hear me out"s? golden, great choices, will be allowed to speak even if no one agrees, no one is worried about Tat at all for any of their picks. human "hear me out"s? Tat's wife worries "you just like freaky lil white boys" as Tat is fussed over

but yeah!! Tat's sentiment reminded me of "my childhood (with some lifelong, but not all) 'hear me out's, but it gets worse as we go along" powerpoint i made and showed my friends for powerpoint night. and so i made an admittance in the above comment that, AS A KID (NOT NOW), i had crushes on Chris Mclean from "Total Drama Island" and the Headless Roach Man (is apparently his official wiki name) from "Growing Up Creepie"

and i think, for me, part of it is "monster fuckery? Kaiden-Shenandoah, youve been rarely NOT rigidly asexual your whole life. nobody is going to worry about you loving monster-romances and scream at 'but what about their genitalia?! you cannot possibly want to fucking bed that Lovecraftian horror!!' or some shit, bc you dont have any interest in that, so it's kinda like 'eh... our friends have had worse significant others we have had to tolerate'. at least we dont have to picture how the fuck sex would work" (bc apparently allosexuals, i guess, picture how the hell the sex could work when sizing up a loved one's partner? and they have the audacity to call ME their "favorite lil freaky weirdo". im as "freaky" as freshly cleaned Barnes & Noble, fam, idk what the fuck youre on) and all of that somehow nullifies all possible grotesqueness or horror of my monster picks. like "i kicked my feet and giggled as a lil kid over a nonspeaking, headless, giant cockroach", y'know?? nothing. they give me fucking nothing lmao rip

put an irl cockroach, head or no head (nonspeaking regardless) that is normal-cockroach-size, in front of my friends? there'd be so much screaming. but i get it, sure, the cockroach character in the ppt is 2D animated and will never be real. an actual cockroach is, y'know, obviously real. i get the dissonance there. i do. i get it. im befuddled... but i do get it, yes

and yet somehow the same logic does not impact my human "hear me out"s as my friends went "WTF KAIDEN-SHENANDOAH, YOU CANT GET WITH THIS MAN, HE'S THE DEVIL". like?? okay. but the headless extremely tall cockroach with no speaking-lines who lives in a sewer is fine?? both of these guys are 2D animated. neither are real. still. one of these png files got me a "lmao you cannot be serious... i mean, i GUESS, sure? carry on" and the other png file got me a "KAIDEN-SHENANDOAH, ABSOLUTELY NOT, NO, SHUT THE FUCK UP, YOURE DONE, NO, NOBODY'S HEARING YOU OUT, NO, NOPE, NO, SIT THE FUCK DOWN, LIKE HONESTLY, WTF". and, shockingly, it was the human man who got my friends kicking and screaming

granted, Chris absolutely is a stellar example of "if Satan was a mortal man" but also? s1 and s2 Chris was not so bad, he just did his job. he got unhinged as he stayed at that job. and im ngl im intrigued at the idea of how the fuck would this man function with something as benign yet allowing for obsession like a crush or being in love. but also? yeah, no, the straight-jacket and pillow-walled room i got put in for this one was warranted, yep, i get how i got here

[organichotchoco]

I know I sent you the post I made but like I can't not talk more about this because I need to be feral:

I don't have these but the moment you unlock the equipment index thing you can view everything even if you don't have them. descriptions and all. So I started looking at stuff to see if anything like corresponded to specific characters and/or had Lore and like the super epic shxt is like weird in general and I'm not far enough into the game to be able to know if it's like. Got an obvious explanation yet or not.

Whatever's going on here though like. The description is like 100% confirming I think that there are just more "traditional" cookie-vampires.

"a certain count with a penchant for fresh strawberry jam" "lives alone in a secluded castle" "dwelling in the shadows" This is so obviously A VAMPIRE and nothing related to Vampire Cookie. Fudging.. (Thinking back once again to Devil Cookie's "Count Dracula" costume in Ovenbreak which. Now that I think about it didn't that also kinda confirm or at least imply something like this- like obviously that was a silly Halloween costume based on a real-life novel but still-)

Like. Yeah this is 100% A Vampire AND VAMPIRE COOKIE IS RELATED TO THAT SHXT ONE WAY OR ANOTHER it's baked into the design.

Like. I have so much on my brain rn because of this I don't know how to put it all into words I spent like an hour I think writing this ask I didn't keep track idk I just kept writing deleting rewriting trying to condense my thoughts down-

it boosts dark. Alchemist is dark. To our knowledge she isn't also a vampire but like her literal goddamn brother is one and when the other dark characters are Dark Choco (has an evil cursed sword, is that same element in CRK, generally edgy/brooding) and Werewolf (literal werewolf/supernatural creature, also edgy/brooding), like. Outside of "sometimes unhinged/unethical experiments" and "contrasts Wizard being Light" then I think "her brother is a Vampire" is as good of a reason as any but like- the connection with the element idk I just-

Alchemist comes home one day wearing these djdjdjdkdkdd-

I can't contain all of my brainrot in words can you like. I just. I hope this means Something like the sheer implication that cookie vampires exist more than just Vampire Cookie himself and that they do in fact drink blood/strawberry jam it's like. The fact Vampire isn't in the game at launch when he's always been like a staple character for this series feels kinda ominous like it feels like SOMETHING is just. Idk being planned i guess?- I mean he wasn't in puzzle world but puzzle world is like. People don't rally talk about that game y'know-

You get what I mean right? Is it just me? I haven't exactly been in this fandom as long as some others, just like two or three years now I think, so maybe I'm missing something but. Like. I just have a feeling in my gut that SOMETHING's gonna happen and I don't know exactly WHAT it is but-

OMG HELP I ONLY SAW THIS AS I TAKE MY BREAK GRAHHHHHH

umm i dont want to respond much but lime. SOMETHING better happen omg.

[sl33py-g4m3r]

game collection ramble~~~

wonder which games I'm gonna need to download a rom of and play on the computer... or play on steam assuming i buy the steam versions too...

rpgs in general have some kinda small text~~~ I hope if it does come down to me having to do that to play my games it's not a crime or something; cause as a teen emulation didn't bug me but after I got really worried and scared about torrenting stuff, I've kinda lost it for emulation too...... (I've posted about this before i think)

where do I even start with megaten? I'm not exactly that big on (or good at potentially) juggling my time with social links... but it could be fun~~~

current games I have just bc i like collecting things:

persona 1-4 golden (vita) might have persona 5 but idr i have the artbook somewhere tho~~~

devil surviviors (overclocked and 2 3ds)

strange journey redux (sadly not og cause I heard that one's better (3ds))

Shin Megami Tensei iv and apocalypse (3ds)

nocturne remaster (switch; which is garbage cause minor nit pick i like the text in the older version and the lighting, lol but also raidou in switch version i think)

devil children light book and dark book (gba) how obscure were these ones?

and that's it to my knowledge.... I think I dug through my files of (extra content) on my 3ds after looking through all the games and it says I have Persona Q data there but I don't have the game installed and bought it digitally.... guess I made room for something else and now can't redownload it if I bought it cause the 3ds servers and eshop have been dead for a while....

also had Persona 1 and the earlier games started but for some reason my vita decided to spit up a screen after my battery died for idk how long and deleted everything I had for some reason.... thx vita..... had to reformat and redownload everything ~~~

(collects games... never plays the games...... I'm also the same way with books...)

hate how rpg interfaces are kinda small~~~~ but I'm the blind one so that's a me problem~~~

rip persona q forever lost in the void bc I can't redownload you~~~

I've loved this franchise for a while~~ but haven't played any of the games at all.... Just collected the games and some stuff~~ don't really even remember how I found it tbh~~~

idk if it's a text and sight issue on my part or just anxiety about playing something new~~?? which I've just made a post on actually, lol. could be all of the above~~

might need to emulate cause as I've said on this blog; I'm disabled. Legally blind and the text in RPGs is usually too small for my good eye to read, so I'd need either emulation to read the text or to play older rpgs with bigger more readable text...

the limit of 30 tags on this website is dumb cause now I can't put the (visually impaired) tags there....

tldr; don't know where to start with megami tensei, and just wanted to share my game collection~~ of this franchise specifically, lol

i hope this post isn't near as scattered as I think it is. the bad part is if it is in fact scattered and hard to follow; I'm not even tired yet and completely competent to my knowledge....

just scatterbrained i guess~~~ idk..... and super excited to share my megami tensei game collection~~ however small it may be~~~

[imperatorrrrr]

T's NHL Stanley Cups Playoffs 2024 Round Two Rooting Guide

redux because I accidentally deleted the initial post I made like a moron

New York Rangers v. Carolina Hurricanes - Carolina Hurricanes. This is an anyone but the Rags household, so we're rooting for the Canes. For one series only. Pretty straightforward. No further explanation needed.

Florida Panthers v. Boston Bruins - Florida Panthers. I don't particularly like either of these teams, but there is one team I clearly dislike more and thats Boston. I can finally go back to my roots of being a Boston/Boston Sports Team hater. Plus, the Cats have ERod, who is very special to me. I will say, the Cats were strictly on my do not interact list, but due to the power of friendship, I'm, at a snails pace, maybe, kinda, warming up, a little bit. The ice is thawing. Defrosting, a tad.

Dallas Stars v. Colorado Avalanche - Colorado Avalanche. This is a fun and new one. Why? Because instead of having to choose the lesser of two evils, I would be perfectly fine with either of these teams advancing. With that said, I do have an outright preference and that is the Avs, so they get my vote here.

Vancouver Canucks v. Edmonton Oilers - Vancouver Canucks. As I've said previously, the Nucks are my Devils substitute in the post season. I have decided I love Nikita Zadorov and I will protect Arturs Silovs with my damn life. I think the Nuckies might actually be officially tied with the Pens for my second favorite team. I just love the Desi presence in the fanbase and throughout the way the team engages with its fans. Plus, I am a noted I don't want the Oils to have any nice things human, so this is also actually so easy for me.

let's hope I don't delete this one!

[bravest]

mono : why would somebody want to hurt six ? runaway : ... maybe because they met her ?

[rrxnjun]

i feel like for older fics it makes sense (although i probably wouldn't agree that they are cringe) but i swear every time people just look back on anything old they did they usually cringe at it😭

thank u for the color recommendation🥹💗💞 i already have an idea of how i want to do it so wait for the pic about it in june or july when i'm done with my exams;-; ALSO I WILL WEAR IT LIKE THAT FOR SURE LMAO🥰🫡

DUDE NO WAY WE ARE ACTUALLY STARTING TO BE THE SAME AHDHSJ and i'm so glad that u like him🥳 AND THE PINK HOODIE ON HIM WAS SO🤌🤌🤌 AHH MY GOD I JUST LOVE THE DUDE WAY TOO MICH🫠 AND THANK U FOR SUPPORTING OUR RELATIONSHIP 🥰🥰 HE IS A DEVIL THATS FOR SURE HE JUST KNOW HE IS A TOP TIER GUY IN EVERYTHING POSSIBLE AND USES THAT AS HIS ADVANTAGE TO MAKE PEOPLE SUFFER💔

OMG GOOD JOB!!!!!🥳🥳🥳 IM SURE U WILL ACE THE OTHER ONES AS WELL!!! GOOD LUCK WITH THEM!!!!!💓💕 and i'm patiently waiting for you to get back to writing🥹 exams are sadly more important 💔 (also i hope u are well and taking care of urself cuz learning too much sucks and exams are not worth that much!!! so hope u are well!!!)

U SUMMONED ME WITH THE 03 LINER ISTG JUST AS I GOT ON TUMBLR THAT WAS THE FIRST OR THE SECOND PONT I SAW AND I WAS LIKE NO WAY:o AND ALSO U MENTIONING ME IN THE TAGS JUST MADE ME VERY HAPPY 🥹🥹🥹

I HOPE U ARE DOING WELL AS WELL AND IM CHEERING U FOR U TOO🥳🥳🥳🥳💖💘💗(liebestraum anon💕💞💘)

oh no trust me my old fics were literal hell i had to DELETE them bc i was so embarrassed like no i dont want ppl to associate those with me 😭

AYYYY im excited also i love how both of us are like "in june!!!" to everything bc school sucks ass 😭😭😭 my brother asked me to sleep over and i legit told him after exams bc i am too stressed to even have fun atp

send tbz recs bc i love that man also idk if i told u but i have the biggest soft spot for kevin. im currently watching hwaiting and eric is a whole ass comedian too😭 i keep saying i wanna stan them but i never actually get to it (i said the same about treasure a few months back and look where we are now LMAO) BUT YES THAT PINK HOODIE I LEGIT HAD THAT TIKTOK ON LOOP I WAS SO MASMERIZED he has so much power over me its impossible

thank you!!! im hoping to pass at least like atp im not aiming for good grades i just cant fail❤ the transition from yearning academic validation to this state was very painful but im starting to be at peace with it. (I also wrote a little today and i kinda hate my writing rn so i think im in a bit of a writing slump anyway and need a break😶) hope you are taking care of yourself too!!!

AHAHAHA I DIDNT REALLY EXPECT U TO SEE THE POST BUT WHEN I SAW YOUR ASK I LEGIT GRINNED SO HARD SJSKSK

[delicrieux]

—MAKE YOU SAY “OH” EXTRAS: TINDER

extra meaning non-canonical occurrence; can be placed anywhere in the “make you say oh” timeline after couple (cha. 14) and before the final “oh”. 

pairing—corpse husband x f!reader warnings—tinder profiles, tw: men, swearing.  word count—2.6k. format— written. ─── ❥ req by nonnie​:  y/n makes a youtube vid/live stream where she's just swiping through her tinder acc and corpse literally blocks her lmao

author’s note—akldsljfs this was such a funny idea i could not not write it lmao

ultimate masterlist.��myso masterlist

You have pulled the biggest brain move by setting up both a facecam and a screen recorder on your phone. All is beautifully displayed and visible during the stream. Your fanbase is particularly intrigued on what exactly are you planning on doing today, seeing as your tweet of “strea” had been a bit vague, if not downright ominous. No emojis. No elaboration. You couldn’t even be bothered to finish the word. Truly, a mystery. Everyone tuned in and are currently waiting with bated breath.

A few of your fans must sense upcoming doom because the overall mood in the chat turns from optimistically intrigued to...evil. It’s an entity all on it’s own now, clawing at you through the screen with various renditions of laughter and devil emojis. A few eggplants thrown in there for good measure, accompanied, naturally, by the scandalous water drops. At first the common consensus is that you’re biting the bullet and going through your camera roll on stream. Definitely an idea worth considering, though you frankly don’t know what lies at the start of the 11k photograph journey, and you are afraid to check in public. Could be a harmless meme, could be a salacious pic you had saved of an OF star. It’s really a gamble. Either way, you would definitely get banned. You might still get banned. Why do you insist on doing shit like this?

Because it’s funny. Because you’re kinda stupid. Because it’s just so absolutely laughably easy to do.

A smile quirks your lips, and while it is not explicitly smug, the look in your eyes sure is, “Greetings,” You utter lowly, dimming the lights--the budget for this stream! Ugh, you went all out, “my children.”

mother i crave violence

sensing evil energy rn!!

i do not claim the energy in this video for myself or anyone else watching this 💖💖

^with peace and love shut the fuck up

“I know y’all lowkey hoes-” Upon your words the chat splits into two: one side eagerly agrees (even shares a few OF accounts! How helpful, supporting small businesses!), whilst the other feverishly insists on innocence. You make a face stuck somewhere between offended and bewildered, “Now c'mon now-I know you. I know you all. We’re the same, don’t-what was that?”

You try to scroll back to the comment but it’s loss in the sea of incoming messages, “I swear to God I just saw-”

Corpse_Husband: i love late night streams it’s not like i have anything better to do.

“COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORPSE!!!!” 

rip headphone users

i cant feel my face when im with you by the weeknd but instead of face its my fucking ears

yall think full vol on pc is better?my parents woke up 😭😭😭😭

To think he’s spending his last waking moments for today with watching you (he probably still would have anyway, because you do not posses an ounce of shame or self-control and pester him relentlessly)! It makes your heart sing, and suddenly, a traitorous, fun hating idea barges it’s way through the crowd of incoherent buzzing and states: don’t do this. For some reason it also has the voice of Rae. As if that would work in guilt-tripping you- Rae never succeed, and her fictitious rendition in mind won’t fare much better either.

Still, you thought about it. That must count for something. Corpse will understand, won’t he? Why don’t you want to upset it in the first place? Men look so funny when they lose their shit, like hello, don’t you have anything better to do? But the image of Corpse just sitting there, hurt, distraught, leaving you on seen because he’s in his sad boy hours leaves a sour taste in your mouth. 

queen rly went from  🥺😊 to 😕 u ok bbgirl?

Corpse_Husband: no pouts cutie

akjdjoeijdfse cUTIE??? deadass boutta r.i.p.

Well that succeeded in eliminating everything from mind, doubts included. If this was an anime, the scenery would shift into something roseate, with flowers and bubbles and sparkles all around you along with a halo or two. Alas, not an anime, rather reality. The led-lights, however, seemingly possessing a will of their own, slowly turn from deep violet to pink. You smile brightly, like the absolute dumbass you are, and you are met with a ray of heart and blushing emojis. You are just so cute, a real cutie! Still in your disguise adorable state, you swipe your finger on your phone screen, the grin never leaving your lips.

There, among the plethora of apps, nestled sits a red square with a white fire plastered on it. The delicate calligraphy on the bottom reads: TINDER.

The mood changes once again- you’re giving the roaches emotional instability by how quickly everything flips over- and the chat spams eggplants vigorously; some, of course, bravely fight against the thirst.

nooooooo i thought y/n is gonna stream in a god honoring way!!!

^pack it up girl defined

“So, Charlie and I-” You note a few awfully curious comments and squint, “-yes, we talk a lot. Charlie is a really good friend of mine. We’re best friends. Brothers. Sisters. Cousins. The whole fucking family tree-no, that sounds weird. Delete. Anyway, Charlie, being the absolute fucker he is, said, hey, you know what would be funny? And I was like, nooo, what would be funny, Charlie? And he says to me, he says, says, making fun of men on Tinder. And if y’all need any more proof that Charlie and I are platonic soulmates, then dunno, my children, my roaches, I dunno-I dunno what more to give you.”

You can’t be bothered reading the comments, there’s too damn many. You also need to save your reading comprehension for the actual bios. It has a time limit, that darn thing. 

“Okay, so I made a profile earlier, but I hadn’t swiped on anyone yet-” Despite the fact, Tinder helpfully informs you that already 99+ people have swiped right on you, “So, this is me,” You show the pictures you have of yourself, and damn, not to be a conceited narcissist, but you look really good. Like if you saw yourself on Tinder, you’d super like instantly. “Uhm, so, my bio-my bio says: let’s sauce in the tub together, ya dig? splishy splashy, giggle giggle.” 

i cant believe we are witnessing y/n trying to form a coherent sentence live 

shes trying give her time

ya dig??? y not capeesh

what scene from the godfather is this lol?

“My anthem, is,” You laugh, covering your lips with your hand, “Corpsie, this is form you-” Proudly, you show that indeed, Corpse’s E-GIRLS ARE RUINING MY FUCKING LIFE is listed as your anthem on Spotify, “Hehe.” Yes, you say that aloud.

Corpse_Husband: you’re killing me Corpse_Husband: thanks baby Corpse_Husband: now delete tinder ❤︎

You ignore his last quip, deciding it’s finally time to get this show on the road, “Right, let’s do this shit. I’m not actually going to swipe on any guys that look, uh, decent? Yuck, can’t believe I just said that, uhm, because I-because I feel like some actually deserve a chance with someone? I don’t wanna get anyone’s hopes up, as I am currently in a long distance relationship with Chrollo. So I’m just gonna swipe on, like, frat boy assholes. Because I don’t care if I hurt their feelings. Quite frankly I don’t think they possess them in the first place.”

The chat voices their agreements. With the ground rules set, you, giddy, click on the first profile.

Does Tinder know what you’re doing, your plan? The FBI agent watching you through your phone must be working overtime, bless his heart. They must, because the the first guy to meet you is named Jason, and there he is, blond hair and blue eyes, holding up a fish the size of his torso. Marginally adequate in looks, pretty good muscles. A solid 7 bordering on 8. He’s the same age as you, 15 miles away, and he studies at some college you don’t care enough to look up. Bio reads:

I like to drive fast. Fishing is my passion, but if you can’t catch me by the ocean, you’ll catch me catching waves, bro! Love a good gym date. You do squats, and I’ll keep a close eye to make sure you’re doing it correctly ;) You probably saw me at a party. Leader of the The Phi Kappa Psi. I’m a Gemini, if that matters lol.

You, of course, read it aloud, dramatically; provide some constructive criticism-he seems nice, but he’s a Gemini, so naturally, you can’t trust him at all! Also, that gym date session leaves little to be desired. With your rant done, you swipe right, and shocker! (not), it’s an instant match.

“Okie, I still wanna swipe of some profiles, so I’ll see what he’ll text later-” For a second you wonder the legalities of this stream, but you’re having too much fun to think of it further, “guys, I won't get sued, right?”

NOW she considers it

well....

if you do, we’ll kickstart your lawyer dw <3

Onto the next profile. Kevin, 25, is seen fixing his car- or, you assume he’s mid-fixing it, you don’t really know why else he’d hold a wrench and be covered in oil. He’s shirtless, and the caveman part of your brain echoes something closely resembling AWOOOGA!, but...but!...blonde hair, blue eyes. You pout again, “I don’t...I don’t really like blond boys, ya know? With the blue eyes and all, it’s just not my thing, uhm, unless it’s like-like...Armin from Attack on Titan. Else I don’t care.”

Onto the bio:

You have to treat a car like you treat a woman: go on long rides, take the lead, but most importantly, keep her oiled up 😜 

“What the fuck did I just read?”

The chat is equally confused. You swipe right anyway- another match. Too easy.

The stream continues without incident for a solid thirty minutes- all of your matches, expect a few that genuinely looked like normal dudes that really couldn’t write a decent bio to save their lives, had been blond hair blue eyed gym rats with ranging forms of misogyny. Some opened with asking for nudes out right, some asked about your day first before asking for nudes. You prefer the former. Straight to the point! You admire the gall. 

But then, down the forty-five minute mark a profile popped up that made you still by your phone, your smile dying as your eyes bulged. Dear God. Lord in heaven. Who is this demonspiit lookalike and why is he so fucking hot? The neck tats, the skateboard, the clothes- holy shit, you gotta close your mouth before some drool dribbles out.

No bio, just his name, Tyler, and that he’s 23.

“He boutta be 23 in me.” You mutter, swiping right with lightning speed.

WHAT DID SHE SAYYYYY?????????

tyler is y/ns karma for relentlessly mocking that one guy that had a whole ass list on what his “female” partner should be

^he deserved it and also tyler seems like a typical fuckboi y/n grow a braincell

look at mom 🥺 her eyes are sparkling

It wasn’t a match right away. You somehow expected as much, but it still upset you. Simp behavior, pathetic. The stream continued bravely, and when Tyler messaged you a simple “yo” you totally didn’t sequel. You didn’t manage to text him back on stream: texting all those guys that you didn’t really find all that attractive was easy, but this...You’re a sucker for a man who radiates red flag energy. His whole profile is a red flag. He might just be a red flag himself.

What can you do? Suddenly becoming color blind is not easy. Once the stream ends, you unmatch with everyone expect Tyler. He you chat with for a bit, but a sudden craving for different company makes you abandon him, too. You don’t feel too heartbroken for him- you’re certain there’s already too many girls in his dms. You wish them luck.

Happily, you delete Tinder. You go to Twitter, notice you’re trending again- look at you go! Queen shit- and as you compose a thank you tweet, something strange happens. You go to text Corpse, but when you click on his profile you grow cold.

YOU’RE BLOCKED. You can’t follow or see @/Corpse_Husband ‘s Tweets. 

...Pardon? You hop onto Instragram and-also blocked. Seriously? And you thought you’re one petty bitch. Corpse is seriously prissy about everything. Damn, if he didn’t like your stream, he could’ve just said so. Didn’t need to, like, block you from his internet existence. So not cool.

You try texting him but no text go through. Well how will you let him know you deleted Tinder just like he asked? You relieve your frustrations by punching your pillow a few times. Later, you apologize to her, you didn’t mean to hurt her, it’s not her, it’s you. Fuck, 5 minutes of exile and you’re already loosing your mind.

“Raeeeeeeeeeeee!” You whine loudly. It’s roughly 2am now, but you don’t care. You’re too heartbroken to care. There’s a thump from her room, but nothing else, “Raeeeeeeeee!!!” You wail, wallowing in self-pity on your bed. You hear a very loud, very annoyed sigh from her room, followed by angry marching. Your door is abruptly thrown open, and in the dim, colorful light you see her scowl.

“What?” She grits.

“Can you please tell Corpse to unblock me from everything?”

“What did you do now?”

“I made fun of men on Tinder.”

She pauses, “...That doesn’t sound so bad.” She surmises, voice laced with suspicion, “What else?”

“...There was one really hot guy that I kinda sorta talked to after--”

“Y/n.”

“-But I totally deleted Tinder and honestly he was pretty boring, so, like, uhm, please?”

She sighs, the servery of which implies she is holding the weight of the world on her shoulders, and instantly you know that you won. She taps away at her phone, “You owe me one.” She states, and before you can reply, she exits your room and slams the door behind her.

Grinning, you text his phone again. The message goes through, oh gosh, you’re so relieved you feel like crying. This has been, officially, the worst five minutes of your life.

You Y DID U BLOCK ME LOSER!!! MAJOR LOSER ALERT!! I DELETED EVERYTHING IT WAS A JOKE r u still mad at me? y u always mad at me i never do anything:(

my husband You’re my baby, how do you think I’ll react when I see you publicly simping for some asshole on Tinder?

Oh no, he used the words, he delivered the killing blow. You’re finished. Your heart can’t take such a workout. 

Not that you would ever admit it to him, though!

You hehe ur jellyyyy u always dis jealous hehe?

my husband Not jealous.

Yeah, you might not be the brightest tool in the shed, but even you know that’s a lie. You send him an array of kissy emojis that he doesn’t have the decency to reply to. Then, completely unprompted and dead serious, you send him a simple voice memo, saying: “You really have nothing to worry about, you know? You’re my favorite, Corpsie.”

He responds via text, reiterating that he’s not fucking jealous and that he just doesn’t like when you show such outward interest in anyone but it’s not like he cares or anything. It’s just really, like, weeeeird to see his baby simping for another man like that totally ruins the whole dynamic!!! It was only natural that he should block you on every social media platform, including his personal number (which, like, was completely necessary! Doesn’t matter that his viewers can’t see it, it’s gotta be super believable!), and inform his followers of that, because it’s all a joke, like, for the dynamic, that Youtube grind, you know? Ya dig? No personal feelings were involved at all. He totally wasn’t upset that you found someone else cute, no way!

my husband I’m not jealous. Lol.

You ik u repeated tht like 50 times  u trynna convince me or??? lmao

my husband No comment. ...You don’t actually talk to anyone else like we’re talking, right?

You no one else calls me their baby if thts wat ur wondering at least not to my knowledge lol im all urs

my husband That makes me very happy to hear:)

Yeah, it makes you very happy, too.

hope you liked it!! xx

[autisticcassandracain]

I also finished Black Manta #6! I’m tired and also I’d like to re-read the whole series before making a final judgement (esp. since I made some very very embarrassing mistakes re: reading comprehension on my first read) so disclaimer this not Serious Analysis this is me thinking out loud.

I think it had similar issues to Aquaman: The Becoming’s final issue with regards to its pacing. That’s to say, I felt the pacing was too quickly and therefore I had trouble getting invested in the emotional moments. That said, I think Black Manta still managed to pull off some emotionally impactful moments.

The biggest issue I had was with the first half of the issue. That ghost guy with the top hat coming back was completely and utterly unnecessary, and the sequence of saving Gallous’ life in general was unimpactful due to how fast the pacing was. I never felt nervous about whether she was going to die and everyone’s concern didn’t touch me. The threat to her life was introduced and gone too quickly for it to have an impact on me.

Same goes for the revelation of the white haired girl’s (forgot her name, rip me) true identity, subsequent mindless anger, and then getting her shit together again. I do like the revelation that she’s Charybdis, if only because I’m happy to see some ancient Greek monsters other than Medusa get the sympathy treatment, but the revelation could’ve definitely been handled better. Especially her quick stint with mindcontrol (?) that was gone as fast as it appeared. It was just unnecessary.

That said, I did like many other things. I really appreciated where they took Devil Ray’s character; they could’ve easily just made him die at the end, so giving him the ‘implied redemption’ treatment was very nice. It was interesting to see him and Manta interact, and Manta telling him not to become like him was actually very impactful. I really liked that we saw a quick moment of Ray hesitating and not actually destroying Atlantis even before Manta & Co interfered; it really helped to sell his change of heart and makes it feel like Manta’s decision to let him go was well-founded instead of an unnecessary risk.

I like the ending for Charybdis and Gallous as well. Gallous was always fundamentally more heroic than Manta, and her and him going separate ways felt like a very natural end as a result of that. Charybdis getting some company in her search also felt like a good resolution for her. I know it won’t happen, but I’d be very interested in a solo/miniseries about Charybdis’ and Gallous’ search. I think they’re both very interesting and compelling characters who stand on their own quite well.

I enjoyed what this issue did with Manta as well. I feel like this series ended the melancholy/sad ending for its protagonist much better than Aquaman: The Becoming did (sorry for comparing the two series, I read them back to back so I can’t help it). Manta ending up alone felt like a very natural conclusion for this series, considering who he is as a character. Gallous, his closest friend, was far more heroic than him, and her going off on a heroic quest with Charybdis, leaving Manta behind, feels natural. Devil Ray moving on from his quest while Manta stays at the shore feels equally natural. In the end, Manta ends up alone because he’s unable to move on from the past and move away from his selfish greed and need for vengeance to a more heroic (or at least non-evil) future, as emphasized by him deleting his letter to Jackson.

I do think that, with how Manta’s future is being teased both in this series (warning Atlantis about the bombs) and Aquaman: The Becoming (meeting up with Arthur, presumably about Jackson), there’s a chance he might end up in a more anti-hero role at some point, but if that’s where DC wants to take the character, he’s not there yet at the end of this series, so at the end of it all, he’s alone. It works well for his character, imo.

Overall, I think the fast pacing kinda shot the last issue in the foot, but I still enjoyed more things about it than I didn’t.

[just-fucking-peachy]

Devil judge ep 15 spoilers:

1. Honestly, don't disagree with the choice Gaon made in stopping the live trial of Jukchang. Yohan was very much going to kill him. Those words that Gaon said resonated: We hesitate, because we're human. We're human because we hesitate.

2. God look at their faces as Yohan is choking Gaon. They're HURTING each other. This is the worst.

3. GAON'S BOW TO YOHAN'S BACK AS HE LEAVES THE ROOM, JUST KILL ME ALREADY.

4. Oh no it's just the two of them in the house now.

5. At least Yohan has Elijah. Gaon has literally no one.

6. The professor's smart. He knows that blind loyalty is not Gaon's forte and he just need to plant the one seed of doubt. Gaon will do the rest.

7. SMACK HIM SUNAH

8. Omg loving the two corpo guys and their chemistry

9. This president is 100% based on Trump. 100%.

10. YES SMACK EM SUNAH (X2)

11. Wow Sunah literally examining Yohan like he's a shiny object she wants to carry

12. Sunah should know that Yohan wouldn't be anywhere near as easy to bully as someone like Heo Jeong Se. She really must like him.

13. Bad move Yohan. She'll crush you.

14. Lol the symbolism of the light falling on the floor and going out. (paired with how Gaon literally shuts the door on the light as he leaves earlier in the episode) I usually don't like heavy handed symbolism but weirdly, I kinda like it in this show.

15. Oh god watching Gain retrace Soohyun's footsteps is actually painful. I just wish she had been more impactful of a character.

16. Yohan has his hair up at home, I think soft Yohan is gone.

17. Oh god, that's actually a clever set up. I can understand why Gaon thought he had killed her. Hell, Yohan did half the set up himself by simply being a) very violently anti Soohyun and b) Very Bad with Emotions. Also if Gaon just knew that K was dead, that might have literally helped with the issue because I think he thought that person he spotted was K.

18. Ah yes, the symbolism of Yohan grabbing the knife almost directly to his heart?! NO I'M NOT OKAY WHY DO YOU ASK.

19. WHY ARE THE TWO OF YOU STANDING SO CLOSE TO EACH OTHER, IS MURDER JUST YOUR KINK OR???

20. wow that parallel to the conversation from the beginning of the episode ("you can kill me if you want", "I'll let you kill me if you want") LOOK THEY LOVE EACH OTHER AND THE TRAUMA IS KILLING THEM

21. OK THE SHOW MADE THE SOOHYUN PARALLEL NOT ME. THEY LITERALLY PARALLELED YOHAN WITH HIS IN SHOW HETERO LOVE INTEREST. THE SHOW DID THAT. AND WE'RE SUPPOSED TO NOT FIND THAT GAY?!

22. "GAON-AH"?! please I'm deceased.

23. Oh no cops

24. Yohan's VOICE. His desperation as he looks at Gaon and asks him if Gaon actually believed that Yohan just used him.

25. Gaon looks like he's shattering omg.

26. THAT LITTLE NOD FROM YOHAN TO GAON WHAT DID THAT MEAN

27. ah the snake speaks

28. GAON'S FACE IS RIPPING ME APART. Jin Young for the love of God just do a romcom next.

29. Jin young delivering some STELLAR acting

30. YOHAN'S DESPERATE BROKEN "GAON-AH" GOODBYE SLAYED AGAIN

31. Yohan for the love of God why is that saved on your phone. It should have been deleted off the surface of the earth. SO THAT EVIL CONNIVING VILLAINS DON'T GET IT.

32. Ji Sung delivering some stellar acting

33. Called it.

34. That ending? As Gaon looks at the camera? Fucking hell, now thats art.

[the-blind-geisha]

im sorry you weren't treated well in some fandoms. I hope that the next season of Overlord comes out to refresh you!! 👐

I'm sorry this sat in my inbox for a time, anon. I... really wasn't sure how to answer it, but I dunno. I guess reaching my wit's end here, I'll speak out a bit.

I also kinda hate I've been encouraged (both by myself and others) to be quiet, but no. Drama shouldn't be silenced if you're the one being directly/ indirectly harassed and stalked.

This is... this is intense. I've never known someone to be this insane before and then have people support said person thinking 'she's a good person deep down'. Yeah, manipulative people are like that. They say and do things to make you believe they don't have a gun ready to shoot and kill somebody that isn't flattering them.

Ignore the stuff below if you don't want drama, but I will eventually post screenshots of all the info I have with timestamps and all anybody needs to see my side of the story in a public google docs.

But please, do NOT go out of your way to flame and harass this person. Just leave them alone. Seriously. That's not what I'm trying to get across with this. This person just wants an engorged ego, and it shows. I'm just explaining my side, because--fuck man. It hurts enough. I've done nothing to you, but you still wanna be this creepy...

For those who don't know or weren't made aware: I was (and still am at times) being stalked by someone who got very, very angry that I wrote a story similar in concepts but vastly different in delivery than their fic. They made it a point in their older fic to spit on anybody who dared write characters a certain way (the loving/powerful Supreme Being was oh so cliché and dumb in her eyes), and then when I came along to basically be identical to her in how I enjoyed writing Demiurge with a human character, I was somehow 'stealing' from her.

That person is—well—I cannot say directly, but you can look in Contract's Chapter 4 reviews to see everything you need to. (And I have that all screenshot on my hard drive as well as her 'bad past' she insisted I deleted because of 'anon hate' she got, so yeah.)

Flames erupted and accusations... all while she was pretending to be my friend and on my side on Tumblr.

It was abhorrent. I was new, dipping my toes into the fandom only to have my first Overlord fic be attacked by her and then have my Amnesia fic have her glare at and say it was a 'spite-fic' (because...only her character can have amnesia/memory problems, I guess??) Which... I have screenshots of my Amnesia fic's origins dating years back when I was very into the game Amnesia: A Dark Decent—Lilyodin's name included—to where she didn't even have her fic(s) posted. 2014, if you want to know the exact year. Hell, Contract's earliest conception is marked on Instagram where I began my comic Dancing with the Devil. Her fic came out in early February 2020 if I remember right. She claims to have begun it on another site, but never tells anybody what that site is called, because… lies. And even then, how would I steal from her when I don’t know where the hell that fic is located to begin with?

She can claim it wasn't her, but the irony is she eventually unbookmarked Contract and, shortly after, I got another flame. The moment I made a vague threat towards her on my Tumblr, she blocked me, ran and tried to approach people she thought could protect her from my more outspoken behavior. When she did this, all flames stopped. (Though, glad to know all I have to do is mark flames as spam, and AO3 deals with it).

She rewrote her story into a ‘reader insert’ though, really, it was her OC Lilith, and then made 40 dummies to boost her numbers. Some of them were ironically made with specific likes around times I was reblogging or answering a specific ask about something on my Tumblr to show she was block circumventing and spying on me. The icing on the cake was her taking anons on my fics and using their usernames on her new fic story to boost her comments and pretend she had my anons. Whenever I would update Contract, I was told she was updating on top of me shortly after—always. I was told by friends she seemed to do this late last year (2020), but I chose to ignore it till earlier 2021 where I caught her doing it... twice (and besides, she confessed that’s what she was doing to a person between us so yeah–she cannot lie her way out of that one). Even as we're now in two different fandoms, she still goes out of her way to unironically update about the times I do, because we (of course) share the same tags. The girl is just... something else. She can claim that's me being paranoid, but given how often she goes out of her way to 'magically do (X) thing' like I do, yeah... how can I NOT be and how can I trust her?

What further made me almost hit the 'fuck you, I'm calling you out’ post was when I wrote to my original Naga story where I put Zul'te. She saw some of the tags, saw the insane boost in kudos and bookmarks, how shocked I was people loved it in one chapter, and she took some of the tags to mirror them. Honestly, she was confused and furious I somehow got tag surfers where Contract was concerned. Seriously, I would say 80% of my readers on Contract aren't Overlord fans, so she tried to mimic what I did to gain that attention too.

All she wants is people's love and support. Nothing else. Her actions there show this. It was... gross. Whatever she can do to try and stay near me like a damn shadow and try to boost her numbers and flatter her ego, she'll do it. (Hell, she's still doing it apparently).

She was warned she's not safe from me—that I do literally have a whole folder full of her nonsense to show my side of the story. From the indirect accusation of me 'stealing from her' before I got the anon accusation on my fic, to her updating on top of me, her dummies, her crappy comments before we told her that wasn't cool to say about people (sad we gotta smack her hand and tell her 'no' before she realizes something isn't cool to do...), the aggressive things she said to the prior writers she tried to chase out, to her tags added to reflect mine, the works.

That was the only thing that has kept her at bay...but only for a few months, and then she was back on her shit, apparently. And, sad to say? That folder is never getting destroyed. She can pray my PC has a malfunction but I got a backup hard drive with those screenshots. It's never going away.

With all of this? I hope to the gods she gets better. I don't know what's going on in her life, but a lot of what she says she is about—I found it all to be fake. She made the trails all too easy. She's not as clever as she thinks she is.

But by god... I want her to just move on and away from me already. I know her constantly mimicking the things I say and do are her trying to take back whatever power she thinks I stole from her, but I stole nothing. If I was inspired by someone or something, I sure as hell am going to tell people. I'm not ashamed of that.

Even in the new fandom she's apart of? I was made aware of that she basically copied my other Tumblr name for a fic of hers... only changing one word, and that's... yeah. Creepy as fuck.

But because of all of this, it made writing to Overlord (Contract and Amnesia especially) very hard. I feel like if I deleted them, she'd be happy and fuck off all ready. But no. I'm never going to give her what she wants.

She's psychopathic, and I don't know why people defend her but. Eh. Whatever.

I've been doing my best not to let her chase me out of what I love doing. That's for damn sure.

I will still write and enjoy Overlord. That'll never stop.