#thats not to say being sad is ILLEGAL now but

[s3lkie2sato]

i need to quit being so negative because i cannot keep making other people arpund me so sad

[perenlop]

havent read tbc but i think its so funny how shadowsight seems to be popular to the people i follow just because “the narrative treats him like all the female characters do so hes an honorary girlie”

[balkanradfem]

I'm about to write something horrifying (to me) and I don't even know how to preface it. Some extremely cruel intentions, I guess.

So, I'm still searching for a roommate, with my add pleading for only women to respond. Of course, tons of males are responding eagerly, reassuring me they're better than any female roommate, and I say no. In most cases thats that, but I had a few phone calls that have been intense pressure and even difficult to get rid of. About three times now, different males called me with a proposition that they move in with me, and they would pay everything, rent and bills, on their own. This sounded like a nonsense proposition and I would say no and hang up as they're insisting and explaining and promising this would be ideal for me. Baffled by the nonsense, I assumed they wanted to do something illegal in here or wanted to have me kicked out and take over the apartment. But it was weird that it happened three separate times! And always the same proposition. I move in and pay for everything.

I was at the plant lady's house and I started to complain about the nonsense males say to me over the phone, and as I was explaining, her son entered the room and overheard the chat. He looked me in the eye and said 'Oh they want something else from you.'

I froze in embarrassment. Because I hadn't figured it out. And gyns you know me. You know with m*n I always assume the worst possible thing and I hadn't even thought of that. I didn't think, that my add where I'm only asking for a female roommate, would make them go 'Oh I'm going to move in there and make her my live-in prostitute.' 

I stuttered, saying something about how I thought they wanted to do something illegal, and plant lady logically argued it would be easy for them to do that living alone, they want a 'wife'. Disgusted, I protested 'But I didn't put out any info about my appearance, age, they have no idea who I am or what I look like!' 'Oh these people don't care' They both laughed at me. Embarrassed and mortified, I thought more about it at home. 

The only thing they knew about me from the add was that I was a woman, renting a place and looking to half the rent, and that I was unwilling to share my living space with males. And not only one, but multiple males came up with with the same scheme. In this scheme, the woman they're trying to exploit isn't even getting money out of it, only her half of the rent covered. She would have no profit at all, only to keep what she earns otherwise, and to be under the threat of being kicked out of her home if she fights him off.

If I had been someone a bit more naive or desparate, and said yes, can you imagine? Being threatened to be kicked out on the street unless I comply with their rape. They could easily do it if they pay for everything and are stronger than me. I'd become homeless. I did't realize what I was saying no to, because it was such nonsense to me, but a male only heard about it for a second and knew immediately what was up. So this isn't me assuming worst intentions, a male recognized their scheme instinctively. 

I'm sad and upset this keeps happening to me! I can't immediately hang up to any male voice because sometimes they're looking for accommodations for their daughters and I have to be sure. Don't worry though! Someone is coming to look at the apartment tomorrow, and it is a woman.

Stay safe everyone and assume the worst of males.

[uninformedartist]

So the new helluva boss episode 💀

The Millie arc was nice, but felt forced in. After the numerous complaints about her this episode's arc of her felt shoved in like to say "there see we giving you something about Millie now shut up". Idk it was nice but forced at the same time.

Barbie was really bìtchy like all of Viv's female "villian" characters she felt like Versosika 2.0. And I'm sorry and no offense to her VA but Barbie's voice sounds like Nails on a chalkboard, was really annoying to me personally especially since she has the stereotypically bitchy personality too.

Now my main gripe with the episode was how she didn't want to see Blitz again, with good reason he ruined her life in whatever way but ABSOLUTELY HATED how Blitz was painted in relation to this. How *he* now wants to help her, how *he's* remorseful and sorry after what happened between them and it clearly hurt Barbie to the point she resents him so much she doesn't want to see him but the audience must feel sorry for Blitz regardless of the fact that HE hurt her, like fuck off I don't feel sorry for him.

I don't feel sympathy for him. He stalked her at the rehab, came in illegally through the window of the rehab, berated the staff there threatening to kill them, harassed and assaulted other demons to give him info about her/access to earth via asmodean crystals and stalked her online via her socials.

I don't give a rats ass how much he wants to make amends with her, he's a disgusting being thats abusive/destructive, knows no boundaries and invalidates Barbie's feelings and desire to not be associated with him at all. That's not caring about someone so fuck off with this narrative the writers are trying to paint about him being so sad 😔 Barbie is this way to him, he's just trying to help he is a good brother see he's remorseful and tried everything to get through to her even though she doesn't forgive him nor wants him anywhere near his life. I just know the fans are gonna hate on Barbie, doesn't help Viv gave her a bitchy personality and have the VA give her a bitchy voice.

Whoo, anyhow positives. The animation was nice, good backgrounds and such.

Closing negatives. Millie and Moxxie didn't need to dress up as different genders, or have Moxxie in drag/millie in butch clothing. Which lead to 🙂🙂🙂🙂 ANOTHER FUCKING INCEST JOKE, like I'm done I'm tired, wtf is it with the incest jokes, 1st it was weird vines between Stella and her brother and now this. I just know the fetishists in this fandom are going to have a field day with this episode because 😀😀 Viv is handing them this disgusting content on silverware.

Horrible episode in general 3/10

[haewangsong]

If they did. JUST THE minimum of research.

They would've seen that the tweets were not only deleted and nonexistent, and that some of the things incels claim she did wasn't even things she did, just that she was tagged and incels are so fucking stupid they can't differentiate shit. But no! incels are trustable. incels know so much and incels do not have intent of harm. feminism is actually a societal disease and men should be allowed to murder and commit sex crimes against them on a daily basis but the moment a woman says she's fucking tired of all this she has to loose a career.

if i were them i would also think on how she was 18 at the time the tweets were made. and how women who commited crimes would get prosecuted so much faster and stronger than men who have done so, so much more. in how many of the aggressors of the nth room, that shot pornographic videos abusing literal CHILDREN, didn't get prosecuted or got lessened in their punishment over the last moments. in how this decision by the sk government has created so, so, so much of nthroom copycats.

i would also think on how much illegal spy cams still exist in the present, to the point a male youtuber can just walk around the city and make content of him catching them. in how many of these caught guys are more than 2 time offense criminals, how its basically a sport for men in korea to illegally shoot a woman's underwear in public because punishment for them is still weak.

i would think on how even right now to the present, these same problems still exist and the murder of women happen on a daily basis i open the news and find out a man has murdered a woman for no damn reason but he can receive less punishment because it is not a shocking thing anymore and men and more valuable assets inside korean society- so! she's bad!

i would also think about the fact that women born in the 90s were aborted so much because having a woman child is unlucky for the family- and being born in the year of white horse means that she's going to overrule men, and that isn't right, women should be submissive towards them, only for now in the present they dare tell the same women in the age to not have abortions because abortion is wrong-

a radical feminist because the fact that men want to see women sexualized without an ounce of context to the point it strips away their personality should be accepted without any complaints, but the moment a woman wants to lust after characters thats impossible and its feminism.

imagine being goddamn 18 and protesting because thats the life you fear. and getting fired because of it in the future, proving that you were right in being scared, being angry, being sad.

firing someone is so easy, lying saying that you're protecting the artist is so easy, so much easy than letting women have safe lives.

is the game really worth protecting? does a "small" company that is still stronger than an artist whos 22 really worth? i dont know!

[elftwink]

every few months or so i have to reach out to someone i inexplicably stopped speaking to for literally no reason at all and in my mind this doesn't impact the nature of our relationship in the slightest (i think ive seen a post floating around on here that phrases this like "i don't have a friendship decay mechanic" and thats pretty accurate to me as well) but it is literally so scary because other people definitely can feel negatively about this complete gap in interaction and read into it my intentions (or worse when its due to memory issues do that thing where theyre like "if it was important you would remember ergo i am not important to you") and its like idk how explain that life is just moving to damn fast like to me we may as well have been talking yesterday... makes me very sad because on the one hand people have a right to feel that way and i understand that it can feel like your time is being wasted or that the other person doesn't respect you enough to get back to you (because also. some people do deliberately ignore messages for these reasons unfortunately)

but on the other hand. for me i feel like im always on the back foot because i just dont have the capacity to actually keep up with everyone, and i barely have the capacity to do the apology rounds every few months. also i hate the apology rounds because even if i have every intention of keeping up with people it always slips. i dont think i was meant to live in a world with instant messaging i think we should go back to snail mail. i would also be bad at replying to people with it but at least i would have a better excuse

also sometimes im just like i must be inventing problems when i write replies to people like an email on average takes me 4 hours or so to compose if given my own time. for time sensitive work emails it's still at least half an hour to an hour, which is also about the time it takes me to compose a text message to someone (unless i see it right away and stream of consciousness my answer without thinking then i can do it in 2 minutes but if i dont do this at the exact moment i see the text i cannot do it at a later time). during this process it feels impossible to speed up but its obviously ridiculous for two emails to take the time of an entire work day. also i have to take a break after sending an email or text like it is genuinely really draining and there is just no way it takes this much time or energy for anyone else because if it did we would have made texting illegal by now. but at the same time no single component of writing an email/text is that obviously difficult or energy intensive so im like sweating blood for hours to produce something that looks like it took 3 1/2 minutes maximum like what is wrong with meeeeeee

also no i didnt send my email yet im procrastinating by writing this post. perhaps this is also contributing to my extremely long composition times :/ ok bye everyone if i post again in the next hour and it does say "yay i sent my email" or something of the like please yell at me

[decadentrot]

BNHA Dragon Pageant Au

Just wanted to draw dragons, also im trying to spread the dragons are puppies agenda. Also i imagined this au to be rather fluffy :D

So in this world people and dragons coexsist peacefully. That being said people tend to favor dragons that are more colorful and bright that can fly long distances while more muted/duller color dragons with disabilities are seen as very unattractive. Katsuki being raised by Mitsuki has a good eye for dragons and collects the most colorful beautiful ones and often puts them in dragon beauty pageants lmao Katsuki's childhood friend, izuku, generally just loves dragons and hopes to become a dragon veterinarian! So imagine his surprise one day when his best friend kacchan comes barreling in carrying 4 eggs he found when he fell into the river lmao and says he needs "useless deku to not be useless and help him hatch these dragons" cause he claims they will "be the most beautiful fucking dragons youve ever fucking seen and my old hag will finally start taking me seriously after she sees me win the pageant with these suckers" And so they hatch the dragons together and while Izuku learns more about the pageant scene due to Katsuki, he realizes how sad the dragon bias and discrimination is. So when he finds brown, dull color dragon Uraraka with her cute lil face, Izuku makes it his goal to also win the pageant with his "unattractive" dragons to prove a point. But of course Katsuki thinks Deku's new goal is a direct challenge to him and his precious dragons and that deku looks down on Katsuki's dragons as if he thinks his dull dragon can win which causes a tear in their friendship and their rivalry begins. Throughout the story, Izuku saves Tenya when he is being poached by dragon slayer Stain and also befriends the beautiful, but dangerous Shoto after he finds him running away from his abuser who bred him through illegal breeding markets.

I like to think the AU ends with Katsuki and Izuku showing off thier dragons at the pageant but then Izuku realizes that pageants are dumb and he doesnt want anyone to judge his poor dragons for things they cant control, not to mention he hates that his friendship with Kacchan was ruined over something so stupid, and so he forfeits the pageant. Izuku honestly just really wants his best friend back. Which means Katsuki ends up winning.... but of course KACCHAN IS STILL UNHAPPY with his victory. Much like in the beginning, Katsuki barrels into izuku's room, this time the eggs are now lil adorable dragons, and he yells at Deku for "giving him that pity victory and not giving the middle finger to all of those discriminatory dragon assholes" Izuku explains everything and they talk it out before eventually becoming friends again (in the bg their dragons are shaking their heads at how stupid their owners are and how they had to sit front seats to the shitshow that is their friendship lmao)

In the end, they say fuck the pageant and izuku runs his vet dragon clinic and katsuki runs an dragon adoption center/dragon egg daycare. He makes sure to beat up anyone who doesnt meet his standards for adoption and gives any injured abused dragon he finds to izuku to take care of. The End (*^▽^*)

SIDE STORY (why izuku is shoto's favorite):

Endeavor: OI OI OI IS THAT MY RUNAWAY!! SHOOOTO!!!!

Izuku: ...no? (literally has Shoto sitting on his hair hissing at Endeavor)

Endeavor: You've stolen my DRAGON??!

Izuku: Dragon? :)

Endeavor: YES! THATS MY DRAGON!!?! >:0

Izuku: DRAGON DEEZ NUTS ACROSS YOUR FACE >:D

Endeavor is so utterly humiliated and in order to save himself from this migraine inducing boy, he simply lets him go. Shoto is pleased by this victory.

[soundtechrapture]

Aaaaeeeeee sorry if this is coming out of no where.

But I saw your vent posts and just wanted to say that your not alone!

I’ve had plenty of moments where I felt self conscious, bad, and anxious about my feti//sh. And idk if it brings any help or comfort to say this, but that feeling starts to fade overtime. Once the years the pass, you grow older and meet people like you. Then you start to realize that this k//ink is just a part of who you are, and to just embrace being “weird” and have fun!! Especially since this is such a harmless fe//tish in the grand scheme of things. Because y’know what? There are people put there that are into much worst, and by that I mean illegal, shit. And if someone else is still so appalled/angry about others being into eproctophilia then they are simply a sad prude who hasn’t grown past their 2016 edgelord era. That is their problem, not yours to bear.

But uhhhh yea thats all I have left to say

Tale care 💜🦎

I've been trying to embrace it for a while now. It almost feels impossible sometimes. I'm not sure if it ever will get easier. My ex really fucked things up for me in that regard. But it does bring me a bit of comfort to know that I'm not completely alone, though. To know that there's people out there for me. Thank you for reaching out.

[autobots-in-training]

Hey Springer! I got a couple questions for ya!

1: What's your favourite colour?

2:Any favourite flavoured engeron goddies?

3: And if you could go anywhere in the galaxy where would you go?

4:Lastly If you were leader of anything who would you pick as your right hand mech/femme?

Springer- What's a femme?

Miko- A feminine lesbian.

Springer- Why are they asking if id make a lesbian my right hand mech?

Miko- Do you even know what a lesbian is?

Springer- Human women that likes other human women?

Miko- In the simplest terms, that is correct.

Springer- Why femmes though?

Miko- Aren't there more questions?

Springer- Oh right! My favourite color is purple, my other carrier was that color!

Miko- That's really cute! And green goes great with purple too!

Springer- My other carrier was great! And the next question... I don't really have a favourite flavor, Arcee and Aid do though, so i just let them choose.

Miko- Thats even cuter!! Springer, you are waaay too considerate of others.

Springer- I just care about my friends!

Miko- Am I youre friend?

Springer- Of course!

Miko- Fuck yeah. What's the next question?

Springer- If i could go anywhere in the galaxy... if i said "wherever my other carrier is" would i be teleported to him? We have no idea where he is now. I haven't seen him since before we left Cybertron.

Miko- What was he like? Well, first, what was or is his name? I know Prowl and everyone else's parents names, but not his.

Springer- Mesothulas. He was weird, but a good weird. I know I mentioned before that both my carriers were geneticists before the war, which was... kinda illegal. Even if they hadn't been, both of them were ostracized for being different. I never met anyone outside our little family until after the war, when my carrier brought me to the Autobots.

Miko- Oh. Thats really sad! I'm really sorry, Springer. I'm sure you'll be reunited some day.

Springer- I know we will! Arcee, First Aid and I are planning to look for Arcee and I's carrier when we're older! We'll find them some day!

Miko- Hell yeah! You should take me! I wanna go to space!

Springer- Hm... we'll have to ask your creators though. if they say yes, you can come!

Miko- Yes!

Springer- Even though the last question was kinda weird, if i had my own team, I'm have Arcee and First Aid as my seconds!

Miko- Isn't there usually just one second in command?

Springer- Second means 2 right? So Arcee and First Aid make two.

Miko- Press x to doubt.

Springer- Don't be mean!

*end transmission*

[bitchybylershipper]

grief is quite strange in my opinion. it never looks the same for every person. there are many things grief can look like. some people have outbursts. some people get physically sick. some people have shutdowns. it all depends on the person.

there are many ways that people grieve. i grieve by remembering. sometimes i grieve by regretting, but that is usually a gateway from remembering. sometimes the memories make me really sad. sometimes the memories make me happy. it all depends on context.

id like to tell a few stories about the particular person im remembering right now.

id like to start off with the fact that before he died he said he wanted us to put his ashes in a folgers coffee can. i feel like thats all you need to know about him already lmao. my aunt vetoed that one real quick. his urn ended up being a slender porcelain white vase-looking container. it is quite pretty. this is not a memory i get to share very often but it is one of my favorites.

he love, love, loveddd anything and everything spicy. like i am being so fr this guy carried a bottle of hot sauce in his pocket everyday. i am not kidding. i remember the birthday party we threw for him when he was undergoing treatment. i remember that we made him a gift basket with the spiciest shit we could find since it was pretty much the only thing he could still taste.

to add to that last part, he also really liked just eating straight up salt. my grandpa did too actually. (ah, you say. so thats where you get it from) i witnessed him eat a helluva lot of salt before he died. BUT. the funny thing is: when he died, his sodium levels were low. which always kinda makes me laugh when i think about it even thought its really not very funny. i think i just like the irony.

he loved fireworks. when i still believed in god and blamed myself for his death because i didnt pray enough, i told myself that everytime it rained and thundered, each lightning strike was him finding some fireworks and getting into trouble in heaven with my grandpa. each lightning strike was him telling us, its okay up here. youll be okay down there too. im still looking out for you.

to add to his love for fireworks: when i say that, i mean he loved fireworks. like the illegal shit that is banned in some states (including my own; he used to drive out of state to get fireworks for a good fucking show) one year, he lit one and it fell over before it went off. when it went off, it went straight into the neighbors house. (not like inside but like it hit their house) fortunately, it didnt escalate past that. to this day its me and my cousins favorite story to tell.

when they had to take him in for check ups and stuff, he always asked us to bring him original-flavor hubba bubba gum.

one of my most prominent memories of him is the time he drove me and my cousin home from basketball practice and sang alone at the top of his lungs to meet in the middle by diamond rio. he was so much fun to be around.

tonight im remembering by chewing grossly over sweetened bubblegum and listening to a specific playlist of country music that i made myself with songs that i associate with him. i miss him like hell. i really really miss him like hell.

[reveuni]

The Flower & the weed: chapter eighteen

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*ੈ✩‧₊˚ Synopsis: Yerim a girl used as a drug mule by her own mom. After a drug delivery goes wrong she flees the city and heads to the countryside where she meets a boy. He’s taking care of a garden behind school where he unbeknownst take care of a illegal plant

ੈ✩‧₊˚ Pairing:Jungwon x fem! drug mule! reader

Jungwon still managed to get home after some time of wandering around the small town drunk. He also got a good night's sleep in his bed with his dirty outdoor shoes on and still dressed in his usual clothes. He was still in deep slumber but the vibrating from his phone startled him awake, it took him a few moments to realize that the phone was buzzing because of text messages.

Jungwon rushed out of bed as fast as possible and ran out and almost fell when he kicked up the kickstand on his bike. The early morning was still pitch black and chilly the only thing that shined in the dark was the stars that the two had stargazed earlier. Jungwon started riding his bike as fast he could towards the neighborhood that Sunoo’s house was located.

He wasn’t even halfway there when he saw a girl run up the hill towards him wich made him stop in his track. He slowly started walking towards her to see if it really was Yerim.

"Jungwon" yerim said with a weak voice.

When he got the clearance that it was her, he smiled at the frightened girl and ran up to her and hugged her "You don't have to be afraid” he said as he patted her head. She started sobbing into his shoulder and he wrapped his arms around her tighter.

"Did you see your mom are you running away from her?” he asked still trying to comfort her as much as possible. He looked over at his bike which was now laying down on the ground next to them.

“She is here, why?” She said completely broken and sad. The quiet morning got interrupted by a distinct rumbling car sound that revved more as it approached the two. The car got louder and louder as it sped closer until they could hear its awful roar. “let's get out of here.” Jungwon grabbed Yerims hand and started pulling her back up the hill as she sobbed. She couldn’t keep up with him her mind swarmed with so many questions of how did she find her? Is this the end of her new life? Jungwon had taken her to a big tomato field, they ran under each plant to get further away from the mothers car they jetted to the ground next to the big plants who hid them well. Their breath was short, their legs was tired.

”Are you ok?” Jungwon asked short-winded. ”Is she really your mom?”

Further away you could hear a car door slam

”Ugh! This bitch!” Her mother was furious she went to the side of the road and stooped to see if her child was hiding in the plantation.

”This fucking bitch I can’t wait to catch her!”

After a while the mother had had enough of looking and drove off at full speed.

”Yerim I think she drove away” She leaned back against the tomato plant as she looked at the starry sky once again. His hand had snaked it way up to Yerims where it rested softly.

”What are u doing?”

”Holding your hand” By the gesture and his confidence in saying that, Yerim could feel her face getting warm.

“Anyways it’s a relief that it summer, so it’s not cold even tho it’s late. We wouldn’t be able to stay here if it was cold” She glanced at him before quietly nodding.

“Jungwon the truth is” The girl slowly started “That woman is my mother i guess you are curious since you asked” She hugged her legs closer to her body and hides her face not ready for what he will say.

”I’m not curious because of her being your mother I’m more curious because I’m worried about you”

”Worried?”

”I’m just worried about you. Why are that woman your mother of all people. Now I understand why you run away from home and I feel really sorry for your past even tho I don’t know about it. Ever since I met you, you seem strong but today and some other days you look pitiable so I get worried, thats how it is” He rubbed her hand with his finger which made her look up again.

“Thank you for saying that but I would like you to not worry about me, I’m okay” She assured him.

”Sorry I've just become so attached to you by the time we have spent”

”You don’t have to say sorry I’m thankful it’s just that I’m embarrassed running all the way here asking for money, growing weed and then leave this country, all that is because of my mother. But the most embarrassing thing right now is that you sympathize when you grew up normally “. The girl muttered to him.

“But what if my childhood was not normal? Could I worry about you then? I’ve been like you before I…..was the reason my mom died”.

5 years ago

“Mom where are u going all dressed up?”

“You know I’m going to a wedding I need to catch the bus soon and dad are going to the police station could you take care of your sibling?” His mom said after applying her lipstick.

“No I won’t”

“Jungwon why it’s a tiny favor anyways I’m going now could I get a goodbye hug?”

“Hurry and go the first bus is leaving soon instead of Jungwon taking care for Niki I could take him to the station ” dad said tired of Jungwons bad behavior.

“No! Jungwon it’s only for a few hours just check so niki doesn’t do anything he shouldn’t”

“No I don’t have time I’m going to meet some of my friends” He said already putting on his shoes.

“Yang Jungwon! Are you really going to do what you want always you have a younger brother why are you so immature?”

“What are you talking about how often have I done what I wanted?” He signed at her.

“All this time like making plans with your friends do you ever think about family? You didn’t. In the end you will only have your family so you should think about them a little” She slowly get teary eyes.

“It’s always family family I’m sick of it Niki is old enough to take care of himself why me. I’m so fucking tired of it”.

“What did you just say? Why are u making me sad” from all the emotions a tear began to fall from her eye.

“Stop with your babbling, I’m going now”

Jungwon slams the door and rides off on his bike to Sunoo’s house. While his mother still has her eyes on the door with her shoulders slumped, she wipes away her tears before making a call.

“Hi, I don’t think I can catch the first bus sorry, I will take the second bus later go ahead and take the first without me, see you later”

“In the end, my mom got on the second bus because of me. That bus got in an accident. If I just had listened to my mother and thought about family first and grown up earlier she wouldn’t have died it’s all my fault” He explained to her.

“How is it your fault? It was an accident” She pointed out with wide eyes.

”Everytime I see dad and Niki I feel sorry…so sorry” He sobbed heartbreakingly making the girl next to him cry again. Their tears that fell left wet tracks on their cheeks as they cried in a tomato field in the middle of the night.

“Are you crying? it must have been hard for you. I think it must have been hard for you as it was for me in some way but when I think about it you must have had it harder. I after all had the same experience as you, thinking I’m the one being responsible for someones else’s death when it was an accident.” She assured him.

“Are you talking about that time you told me you killed someone?” He questioned

“Yes I haven’t told you after all I was a drug mule by my own mom that day when you met me at the bus station, that was the day I sold something that killed my classmate” She waited for his answer but she was surprised when he seemed unconcerned about the whole incident.

”That explains why you said that when we first met”

”What if we both just tried letting all of this go? The world won’t end because we let go of a burden, right?” He calmly spoke and let out a small laugh looking up at her face the only source of light shining on her was the moonlight. Her eyes sparkled so prettily, even though her face was sad, jungwon couldn't lie to himself she was so beautiful. Yerim just hummed at his statement.

“Right by the way the kiss I’m sorry for running away after” he said trying to get eye contact with the girl who refuses to do the same.

“You don’t have to be sorry all the times, you were after all drunk but I was worried you would regret the kiss”.

”No absolutely not I actually like it…wait” he was caught off guard by his own words. He was surprised at what he just confessed to you.

”What?” The girl glances at him surprised.

”Nothing” he said as he looks away.

”Really? Are you still drunk maybe?”

”Nope I’m pretty sober”

”I liked it too” The girl muttered.

”Is that so” He said as he looks back at her with a small smile on his face. It was quiet between the two, eyes locked and hands locked. Jungwon slowly leaned in and placed his lips on hers it was a longer kiss than before, it was soft and his lips were so warm compared to the temperature of the air. It was only for a few seconds yet it felt longer.

“Thank you for everything since I came here” She said with a big smile on her face. Their nice moment was interrupted by the sound of sirens and car tires driving on the dirt road outside the field.

“Do you hear the sirens? Maybe we should run?” By the sound of the car Jungwon had immediately stood up in a flash, ready to take Yerim by her hand.

“Wait should we really run?”

“It’s better to run away now that they could be here at any moment” he assured her and guided her out from the field on to the road so they can run over to the woods next to the field they've been on. But they weren't fast enough two cars came from two different directions and out comes jungwon's father from the police car, out from the sports car comes yerim's mother.

”Jungwon and Yerim there you are!” Jungwon’s dad said.

”My daughter why are you not listening to your mom and running away? Why didn’t you answer my child. You were making me worried.” She held her daughter in her arms and pretended to cry. She wiped away the crocodile tears before speaking to the police man.

“Thank you officer for helping me I’m relived, we have to go home now so we will get going first, sir.” She slowly leads yerim away from Jungwon but they don't make it far before Jungwon grabs Yerim's arm

”Yerim are you just going to go with that woman are you just going to give up like this?!”

”Hey! let go of my daughter” her mother says while trying to separate them from each other.

“Jungwon I’m sorry, I like you too, no I just don’t like you I love you Jungwon I really do!”

”Let’s go! stop with your declaration of love and get inside the car” The mother finally separates them and drags Yerim to the car.

”Yerim I love you too please don’t go!” He calls out to her as his father holds him so he doesn't follow the car who drives away.

“Jungwon let’s go stop with your behaviour and get inside the car”

“Yerim why are you going, why?” Jungwon muttered to himself with teary eyes once again. He stood there watching the red sports car drive away from the place where he last felt her touch.

The red sports car didn't make it far until the headlights went off on the side of the road.

“Fucking bitch you had the nerves to betray me? Is this how you repay me?”

“Stop with the repaying thing. Are raising someone just giving them food. Are you raising someone just by taking them to school?”

“Where did you get this nerve” her mother snorted.

To raise someone you need to love that person. Just don’t try to find me I’m not your daughter you fucking hag. You wanted me dead so pls don’t look for me I’ll live as I was dead I’m begging you!” This was the first time she raised her voice at her mother her body shook so hard that she thought she might fall apart at any moment. She couldn’t take it any longer, Yerim stepped out of the car ready to run off again but her mother was quick, she opened the driver door and walked with determined steps towards the girl. Her hands comes into the encounter of Yerims neck pressing her fingers so the girl can’t properly breath.

”You crazy bitch did you think you could steal from me. You theft I’m always on the look for you to the day you repay me. Where are the stuff?”

”The stuff? Why are you asking me you are the one who forces me to have the stuff, let go off me!”

”You are going to die in my hand tonight! Die, you bitch die!” She begins shaking the poor girl with the same grip as before. Yerim is on the verge of collapsing, but it won't last long until you could hear sirens like before approach the two.

“Stand straight your idiot” She let go off her marked neck and without the support of the mother's hands, she collapses on the ground. Squeaky breathing could be heard from the girl,she felt dizzy, shocked and completely drenched in cold sweat.

”So here you are woman we have been searching for you, you are under arrest for violating the narcotics control act”

“Arrest her” He orders to his colleagues.

”Miss you have the right to remain silent”

”I said stand up straight bitch” she whispered to her daughter so the police men could not hear them. The woman grabs her and tries to pull her up from the ground. But the policemen pulled her away and handcuffed her and lead her away to the police car, so that Yerim falls back to the asphalt.

“Arrest are you kidding me! Let go of me dammit! What about Yerim?!!” The mother's voice becomes more vague the further away she is taken until the car door closes in front of the mother's face.

”Yerim right?” One of the head policeman ask her.

“Yes” she said with the inability to talk properly.

“Are you the one who called when Joohyun died?”

“Thats right sir”

“I just wanted to ask you about something”

“I didn’t kill her” She muttered to him.

“Sure, I was not suspecting you I should say it’s thanks to you we can find the culprit. Anyways come with me first”

“Why” she said trying to look up at him but her eyes fluttered too much for her to see him properly.

”It’s only some questions for you all you have to tell me is how you lived and what you did until now and then we can help you further”.

[binalakai-archive]

🍅🧅🍏🥑 wahoo fruit party!!

How misunderstood is your OC? In-universe or IRL. oh god. okay. okay Hue Man on Earth is a story that is. REALLY hard for me to share, despite how much I do try to talk about it publicly (or at least update my toyhouse as much as possible when i feel like doing that), there's always that sense of. people either boiling my characters down to Tropes/who's the Bad one and who's the Good One. whos the character thats meant to be a personal attack on someone (none of them are) n whos the character that is meant to be relatable (none of them are PURPOSELY written to be that way) n it just. really goddamn sucks sometimes. i could talk about specifics with my main trio specifically, over the course of time that i've had Hue, Magni, and Clyde, theyve all been weirdly misunderstood in their own way that i have gotten to the point of having to reevaluate those folks n look inward into seeing if that perception of themselves can be weaved into the plot. but honestly i think ill catch myself in a bad mood atm if i think about it too hard. tldr on that; i try to microdose my story when sharing it to others, n even then i get really nervous about the idea that my story wont be valued/understood as a whole, which is partially of my own doing as well bc i do have a tendency to Put a Lot into characters once i get super attached to them. ..so nowadays im too burned out to do that :"P once i make that pitch bible, it probably still wont fix that, but its still a project im committing to nonetheless! 🧅 [ONION] What is surefire to make your OC cry? Who knows of this information? Hue) hard to answer with a creature like him. objectively, he doesnt cry. its not needed for him to release emotion the same way it does for Earth-things. but he does it anyway, or at least the equivalent (letting go of parts of his body in droplets from his eyes, just for them to crawl back to his body) it's less about "am i sad right now and do i have to cry" and more like "is crying appropriate for this situation.". after his Human arc in arc 5, its something he actually stops doing as a whole because experiencing the feeling of crying in a human body like. Actually Fucks him up REAL bad NJWKEFNAJKWFNAKWEF Magni) the "sillier" or "unrelated to themselves" the issue is, the more theyll have a tendency to genuinely cry over it. they cry when they know no one else is there to mourn over the problem they're crying about, which is why they'll have a very Stone Flat Face when Witnessing the horrors, but will have an absolute meltdown over dropping their favorite cup Clyde) Honestly that motherfucker will cry over. like....anything? Honestly? to the point where it can be unpredictable. Clyde's emotions are based less on the Cause of Crying and more about the intensity of its emotions. any time it gets overwhelmed, it will cry, and its been labeled a crybaby inuniverse because of that 🍏 [GREEN APPLE] How do they differ from the norm and how are they punished for it? answering this all together, and honestly without having to like. explain the whole plot of HMoE in one setting. Hue seen as different from the norm not because he's an alien but because he's technically an illegal immigrant, Magni and Clyde are autistic PoC that also Do Not Fit Well into their hometown whatsoever. may i need to say anything else. 🥑 [AVACADO] What will they never back down about, even if it makes them seem bad?

Hue) trying to be seen as a good person, even if it means doing the most heinous shit possible (as long as he's able to hide it/insist on good intentions) Magni) trying to be seen as the Right Person, even if it means twisting things in their favor SPECIFICALLY to be right (though will admit to it redhanded if theyre caught, more out of being impressed if anything) Clyde) trying to be seen as the Truthful Person, even if it means ruining everyone's day/life about it (it''ll try to seem like it doesnt care about being "bad", but it very much actually eats away at it. every single damn day)

[moodindigov]

hey guys nerd moment about the title of the fic (this is long im sorry)

mood indigo was actually a jazz song released in the 1930’s by duke ellington, barney bigard with lyrics by irving mills, except bigard said that its real credit is derived from his clarinet teacher, Lorenzo Tio’s, melodies. so that clarinet part like biagrd’s solo? yea that was Lorenzo tio’s melodies that weren’t full developed and when bigard did finish them and show them so ellington, he liked it and it was included. and like its almost impossible to tell where ellington’s collaborators part begin bcs apparently he’s js that good at blending that stuff idk (dont take that last part as a fact thats purely from what i remember.) anyways, mood indigo is about a little boy and little girl who are eight. girl loves boy and while they never acknowledge the feelings, the girl waits at her window bcs the boy visits her. and the song basically describes the feeling the girl had when the boy didnt visit her. so you may be asking, duct why would u choose something like that as a title for a book about the slump in london 1930s and about criminal organizations? well, dear anon, here u r:

1. literal (?) meaning; im gonna be so honest with you i purely got this idea from brendan and neksa / jess and morgan. i couldnt stop thinking about that wonderful art i found of brendan and neksa it was of neksa as a raven or crow i dont rmb but point is that its gorgeous and stunning i love it. the idea that brendan denies his feelings of love for her purely because he half doesn’t want to acknowledge that he’s become so attached to a person in such an intimate way and half because he just cant risk his father (or anyone) finding out that he’s gone and practically betrayed his dad’s whole like symbolism in tje trading world (remember they don’t like the library. yk how contradicting it would be to have one of the biggest illegal book trader’s son dating someone from the library, especially someone who works in like the same facility as the archivist? yea its damnable like no ones gonna trust ca. brightwells or his business anymore.) anyways the literal meaning: girl is sad bcs boy didn’t visit/come back to her. brendan literally left neksa (the woman he was oh so deeply in love with) because he didn’t want to hurt her and played it off as the fact that he didn’t love her. and when jess comes back as brendan (lmaoo) i feel like you can imagine the smallest sliver of hope she had that they can be something again but its practically disappeared next to the pure anger and grief in her heart. and when neksa dies, brendan can’t visit her anymore. its literally not possible. (until he died then maybe they could be happy tgt). this is so many words words words guys i promise im not actually this much of a nerd on a daily basis this is just interesting to me. anyways, once again, girl is sad bcs boy didn’t visit her one day. umm we can go back and look into jess’ past: boy is eternally sad bcs his brother died. aka: boy is sad bcs his brother can’t visit him. like ever. sad sad sad moments💔💔

2. this is like an actual stretch but um i consider it okay so basically girl being sad is jess boy who didnt visit (or wont anymore) is a semblance of love or sanctuary. throughout the series its obvious that jess just doesn’t trust his family. im pretty sure he even says it like he does not trust them. but hey, maybe he did once. maybe he did when he was a little boy who had an older brother who he could rely on—one that taught him how to walk and that taught him the basics. someone who he could go to for advice and who could help him keep his head above water. now we don’t have a characterization, but i’m going off of @thegreatlibraryfangirl’s advice and kinda semi-making my own..so um sorry if u dont like that guys..but anyways i feel like the moment jess starts to really rely and trust the other’s is the moment that melancholy feeling, that mood indigo, goes away. it doesnt go away completely, theres always gonna be a solid chunk never satisfied but thats okay because he has people he can trust with his life that will help him get through it. not only this but the bond that jess and dario (will) share in this au represents that. they’re both young—maybe 13 max but they both lack one thing that only they can give esch other; sanctuary.

[hiemalstar]

niragis speech on humanity: opinions?

introduction

hey tumblr, im back again. this time, to talk about a well known scene from season one of alice in borderland. sorry guys, still no manga. anyway, lets jump right into what todays topic is actually going to be; niragis speech on humanity.

this speech is played out before 10 of hearts / witch hunt as usagi is held down onto a bed while niragi proceeds to sexually assault her and attempted rape which is interrupted by the starting of witch hunt. what do i have to say about this speech? lets take a look.

niragis speech 

"predisposition. when left alone, man is a creature that plunders, rapes, kills. so shouldn't we revel in it? what's wrong with living our true selves?" this is exactly what he says (source is aliceinborderland.fandom.com - niragi suguru quotes)- i wont sugarcoat it. obviously, he says some interesting things in this. lets debunk it.

debunking the speech

predisposition. from the cambridge dictionary, predisposition is described as the state of being likely to behave in a particular way or to suffer from a particular disease. this is pretty self explanatory for his statement, but just so it lines up lets talk about the second portion. 

“when left alone, man is a creature that plunders, rapes, kills. so shouldnt we revel in it?”  this is obviously referring to human nature; people act a certain way because its part of human nature. no matter if its right or wrong, it will always be a part of humanity. he is unmistakably right. i can say this from experience; when people are given the opportunity to things like rape, sa, plunder, and kill, they will do it. i was sexually assaulted by two of my exes because in that position/relationship i was vulnerable and they had their opportunity. we see people steal everyday, even post about it online. hundreds to thousands of deaths happen every year by murder. nor right or wrong, what niragi says in that line is true.  to top this section off, he says “so shouldnt we revel in it?” taken the time and opportunity he has, he will obviously revel in it during borderland. i mentioned this in my niragi analyzation post a bit down my page; when people like him and guaranteed many other people are given the opportunity to do illegal things, they will do it. while it isnt RIGHT, its an opportunity and i can confirm that a lot of people will take that chance to do it. 

“whats wrong with living our true selves?” i said this before, and i will say it again. there is a LOT wrong with doing the things he mentions. but as he says, its human nature and there are people who will do bad when given the opportunity with no consequences. imagine how many crimes would be committed if laws were just stripped of humanity; because like niragi says, the sad but real truth, it is human nature. 

final opinions/conclusion

so, now that ive debunked the entire quote, its time for my conclusion. is niragi right? yes and no. he is correct that mankind will do bad when given the opportunity (how many times have i even said this word..). however, he is not right about living with true human nature. there is a reason the things he listed are illegal, and i hope you guys know why i shouldnt have to explain that. to put it short, i think hes partially right. he has the right perspective on society, but not the right mindset. i thoroughly add to this reasoning in my niragi analyzaiton post if youd like more information on his character. 

thats all for today. lmk if you guys have anything you would like me to cover/analyze!! bye <3

[rainbowdanganronpaa]

rainbowdanganronpa is over/inactive; please stop using any of my designs & artwork

to get it out of the way:

STOP ILLEGALLY SELLING MY ARTWORK AND DESIGNS.

STOP STEALING MY DESIGNS, ESPECIALLY FORCING MY AU CHARACTERS WHO ARE CANNONICALLY ASEXUAL INTO SEXUAL MEDIA OR CHANGING THEIR IDENTITIES.

STOP STEALING MY ARTWORK; DO NOT REUPLOAD IT ANYWHERE, ESPECIALLY PINTEREST. i dont care if you do it with credit or not, STOP REUPLOADING MY ARTWORK.

PLEASE do not make FANART of my designs, DO NOT WRITE FANFIC, and please DO NOT EVER COSPLAY MY DESIGNS. i dont know why you’d want to cosplay them anyway they look weird as hell.

TL;DR dont use my designs/art for anything and do not reupload it anywhere.

no fanart. no cosplay. no pfps or edits. no fanfic, especially. stop stealing my art work and designs, especially when you sell them on horrible quality merch. NO ONE has the rights to use any of my artwork/edits/designs/etc.

seriously i didnt think people would wanna steal damn scenekids edits so bad.

 this might seem like im overreacting but ive genuinely had this happen dozens of times and almost took legal action several times against people illegally using my artwork and designs.

ALSO ESPECIALLY STOP SEXUALIZING MY KAZUICHI, GOD DAMN. YALL ARE WEIRD. IN MY AU HE IS ASEXUAL AROMANTIC. STOP CALLING HIM HOT AND SAYING YOU’RE GONNA BEAT OFF TO HIM. like seriously why would you post that ANYWHERE on the internet, let alone an scenekid aroace edit of kazuichi souda made by a teenager at the time? thats just weird like get a life dude

i wanted to leave this AU on a positive note but anyone who saw my other update post knows already. this is a very passionate response because i and other scene danganronpa fans have been dealing with this for over 3 years, along with general homophob!c harassment. very ironic considering this is danganronpa we’re talking about. for context, i will not be looking up anything under my au tags or anything relating to scene danganronpa again, so i will not see any of your messages or responses.

i am sick and tired of the continuous disrespect of the scene danganronpa community to my and other artists boundaries. you constantly reupload our artwork without permission, steal our designs, and illegal sell our artwork/designs, then spew some of the most vile insults when we point it out. this is an issue MULTIPLE scene DR fans have dealt with. i have absolutely no motivation or want to return to the community if you all continue to disrespect artists.

 seriously, this is the scenekid danganronpa community, why is it so awful??? i just wanted to make funny scenekid edits for fun, now im sad i ever posted my art online, and have seen other artists wish the same. i also dont even like to consider myself a scenekid anymore considering their history of platforming horrible people and just generally being pretty disgusting, but thats a whole can of worms.

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thank you to all the people who were respectful. when i was still active in our little community + the scenekid DR community as a whole, it was really cool. i was super into scene fashion at the time and it was fun meeting other scenekids who liked danganronpa, and had similar HCs to mine. it was really awesome whenever i posted a new edit and someone said “hey! ive been waiting for you to do this character :)” and actually made me tear up a few times. realistically its not that big of a deal, it was just cool seeing so many people genuinely appreciate my artwork, even if it was just badly done scenekid edits of danganronpa characters. i really loved seeing people make content /inspired/ by my edits and even say they wanted to cosplay them. while i dont have those feelings anymore, it was fun while it lasted. sorry if this seems really sappy and overly serious, im not sure how to write things casually, HaHa.

[scarletanpan]

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I don't have anything else to say but the mindset of so many ppl taking nothing serious and not caring abt cancel culture or accountability or looking at history combined so perfectly with these last 8 yrs of increasingly open and vitriolic bigotry to the point where this shit fucking happened. And I saw it from miles away, I saw it get worse every year and still so many ppl either started to disengage or act like all these ppl are crazy and bad but its not that serious. They dk that the ppl who want to oppress us care a lot more than we dont. Elon musks million dollar giveaway was given the green light two days ago which I'm sure helped. As fucking illegal as that clearly should be this election was bought by rich ppl. Its like everyone forgot so many conservatives are rich ppl who wanna stay rich, and will pay to convince their supporters to do anything for them. I'm just so scared for palestine it's making me sick because that was my biggest fear they're fucking evil. Ill do what i can but how was this not more important to everyone else.. I'm so disturbed seeing my state have less than 30 out of 120+ districts blue... like oh. Wow. Everyone loves this fascist, thats genuinely insane

Do yall realize how hard we rubberbanded back into yt supremacy after obama got in office. So hard that it completely fucked up the political scene irreversibly, removed any type of decorum left and turned it into a cult of personality. Like one of the most important parts of change is handling all the conservative backlash that comes w it. We do not make progress in this country w/o strong opposition from the status quo, but when everyone acts like nothing matters anyway it's impossible. I'm so serious just the reaction to cancel culture by itself basically amplified and was applied to every single aspect of society for most ppl. That is maybe the scariest result bc we just watched them plan and admit to doing some of the most horrific things time and time again with no consequences. Saying how they'll make all marginalized ppls lives miserable and destroy the election process and idk

It's just insane there's too much to how this all played out but the point is im sad and frustrated asf. If Elon musk dropped dead 4 fucking yrs ago there's at least a smaller chance this would've ever occurred. I don't feel safe going anywhere rn bc this whole week there's trump supporters on every block. Seriously.. but the important part is to not make like so many ppl not affected deeply by marginalization and fucking give up. It's just depressing asf feeling like wow yall rlly hate poc. And queer ppl. And disabled ppl. Or thought bigotry was solved bc u see representation a little more and stopped caring abt the deeply systemic issues still affecting us everyday. But whatever, im just prepping myself mentally knowing things will be going downhill for a while.. I doubt it but I hope some ppl have a fucking wake up call and rlly start caring more. Fr like the only way I can cope w this is doing more research so I feel less insane abt all of it, and spreading awareness which I rlly need to I'm j so mentally behind rn

And so frustrating too the way the US is such a corrupt imperialist country that this result affects everybody else. But ppl barely understand the politics in this country much less care abt all the other ppl this parasite of a collection of states ruins. It sucks to live w this but it is a privilege to have the right to vote and change things. Like I get why ppl get so fucking annoyed w Americans bc being this ignorant and complacent in fascism is pathetic. Knowledge and history has never been more imperative than right now