#thats jsut who i am unfortunately

[sommerregenjuniluft]

hmm okay now and how do you feel about teacher reg student james for a change

AHHH hi i totally forgot about getting back to this after seeing it i'm sorry hjskfh

(related to this post)

oooooooh very intruiging. very much so, yes. yes. always gotta love james pushing and challenging the boundaries if he's in a lower position that the half of the dynamic, regulus here. i can totally see reg having slipped into teaching because initially he's like a researcher or something but if he wants to get that dough from the university to help support his projects he gotta teach a few classes in return. like he couldnt give a shit less about his students but then james is just a full on wake up slap in the face. it's impossible to ignore him and he's totally weaseling his way into regulus' daily thoughts. while he's correcting papers and thinking of something james had tried to argue with him about during a lecture. when he's getting groceries, walking by the fruit aisle and thinking of james peeling clementines (regulus always smells it all the way to the front, the distinct scent wafting in his direction without anywhere to flee). when he's fresh out of the shower on a sunday morning, the sun is gentle and he's wrapping a hand around where he's filling out and suddenly he thinks of james' smile and *gunshot*,,,,,, and james is just sooo horny for this mildly suicidal looking, resting bitchface, never happy, meek ghost of a man. his pretentious fucking turtle necks and slacks and dress shoes and his scowly face and his knobby slender fingers that are almost as pale as the chalk he's scribbling with on the blackboard. he wants to get a reaction out of him sooooo bad. james wants to see what he looks like smiling, snorting, grinning, ugly laughing. wants to see him giggle and hold his stomach and also see him lashes fluttering and moaning helplessly, whimpering when james is deep ins-*GUNSHOT*

[ganondoodle]

okay, bc i have seen this argument alot now (and it also seems to be the view point of aonuma himself..) is that "zelda cant do everything link does bc whats the point then"

and i take personal offense on that bc its a stupid argument (in. my. very. personal. opinion.- not judging people for liking it. its a ME thing)

whats the point? its that its her. its still a different character, different in story, background, personality, but i WANT to play zelda and she can do everything link does, why does she have to be so restricted and be bend over backwards to find some new way to make her 'useful' when link gets to do basically everything no questions asked (the only thing thats hers is like .. sealing power and sacrificial maiden, which i find a little underwhelming to say the least), if theres no point to it why are there always modders that model swap link with someone else, and in that case it has even less impact bc its an artificial model swap with no changes to the story (which can and should still be different when its the vanilla game with a different protagonist... its still a different character), clearly theres joy in just the model being a different one- and that isnt even to mention the story possibilities, since, again, its stil a different character

if we ever (never ... i know who we are talking about here) get to play as ganondorf i want to him to be just as versatile and active as link is, if we got a point and click adventure game for him instead bc 'whats the point' id be disappointed too- you can find any sort of excuse/explanation for zelda to be singled out but the fact remains it tracks with how female characters are often treated, and that hits a very sore spot for me

i guess i am unfortunately one of those annoying people that want to see female characters be treated exactly the same as male characters, possibly bc i am myself afab but identify as agender and have a deeply personal dislike for anything 'traditional' feminine bc i cannot and never will be able to truly live as myself in real life, it influences all of my work, my work is as just as much as my opinion on this, very personal

and in line with my point about modding, i see theres joy in just beign able to play as her even if its like this, i get that, i also get it for the creative aspect (though that mechanic worries me even more for the future bc it really seems to be the path now that -freedom = good, linear anything = bad-) it is a different idea and its not like i cant see that value- im not trying be "right" either, just bc i have that opinion doesnt mean i need everyone to agree, its a very personal thing, if you like it good for you! not for me though, and i think both of that is equally valid

i just personally wish she was allowed to be just like link, fight just like him but be different bc its still her and not him in the end- to be physically/playstyle like jsut like him, but you know ... as her, i dont think shed stop being zelda if she could wield a sword just like him

i dont really know how to get my point/feelings across, i dont want to step too much into personal stuff nor spam people with something that ultimately doesnt interest me alot, im just saddened by it really

(EDIT: bc i forgot to add this on here again; this isnt as much of a problem as it might sound like here, just the main topic i wanted to talk about; why im so uninterested in it is MAINLY bc i dont trust them to write anything interesting/care about lore anymore after totk, im always on the more pessimistic side that thinks its most likely worse than id hope and i know even the past games arent perfect or super interestingly written, but now its much more just a general distrust, together with everything like the price ... im just much less hopeful and cant get excited until i see more of it, like im waiting for the game to get out and reveal that its just as much of a mess and money i regret spending- kind of fear)

[sm0kebreaks]

So like. As amazing at the tma has been about fat acceptance and love and has been absolutely vital to a lot of my self acceptance as a fat trans man, because this fandom actually talks about fat people (as opposed to other fandoms where fat characters and hcs are nonexistent), it means it’s also exposed me to the most and worst fatphobia of any fandom. I genuinely don’t even gaf about the actual discourse discussed in this fandom, it’s generally the people who negatively react to discourse of ppl complaining about fatphobia. The initial problems are usually ignorable to me, but it ends up bringing up peoples voices that make it incredibly clear what their true thoughts about fat ppl are. Idrk why I thought I should share this with you, ig just seeing if you have similar experiences.

I struggle here because i don't like to feel like i am attacking other artists. i'm a hater and i love to complain but i know i have my own short comings. but when it comes to the fatphobia in this fandom im always left not knowing how to talk about things because people will come to me and tell me why my complaint about someone thinning out a fat character is wrong or bad.

do keep in mind i dont really engage with the tma fandom as much i feel very much on the outskirts so this is jsut what i feel like i see on my end and i'm sure theres way more going on i simply dont know

in recent months we have had a newer influx of artists in the fandom who have come in with their own interpretations of the characters which is all fine and good. its jarring sometimes when we become so used to these formless characters looking a certain way that when new people enter the fandom with different ideas it feels wrong and like an attack.

the biggest issue has been people drawing a thinner martin. and while of course everyones welcome to their own interpretation and martin expressing that he's not exactly the smallest guy has multiple ways to be interpreted it is extremely frustrating to see people take that as giving him the most bare minimum extra weight. especially when having a fat character as desirable and as a love interest and such a Fun character is so far and few between

i could go on and on about how each time a popular artist posts a thin martin it gives everyone who looks up to them the excuse to do the same and it's why it's become such a prevalent thing lately. i don't think popular artists should have to worry about being good role models or anything in a fandom i think if youre making art you should do it for fun but it sucks to see when someone becomes so influential and are creating a problem. i deleted like three paragraphs on this alone so i'm going to move on.

i think what i see in the fandom most in regards to fatphobia is a skill issue. people don't know how to draw fat characters. but it also feels like people are barely trying. the artist i have in mind who i would consider to draw skinny martins DOES add a bit of roundness to him. i can aknowledge theyre doing SOMETHING. but you can't come to me and tell me that i can't criticize their art because culturally that's fat to them... like sure it could be. but it's also definitely a limitation of their art style and ability and instead of defending them and patting them on the back for doing good enough shouldnt we encourage people to grow and improve? what an amazing asset to be able to draw people of all size and variety. thats an AMAZING abillity to have in youre tool belt. i wish i had more resources for drawing bodyfat but unfortunately i do not. i have learned from looking at people and luckily having a lot of large loved ones in my life i've learned from as well as you know.. my own body to learn from. and learning to draw bodyfat and drawing characters i love with it has done wonders for my body dysmorphia.

i went on a rambling tangent and idk how coherent all of that is but the end point is that fatphobia sucks it has no place in this or any fandom and we need to practice our skills instead of erasing something that has made this fandom so wonderful to me.

here's some resources

[growling]

anyway. bsd wan time

ep1 + ep2: (as grouped by aniwatchtv.to as i see there are actually 3 episodes for each separate. does this make sense)

ep1:

bungou stray dogs real:

holy shshsiiit i can't believe it its th. the stray dog............

its the stray dogs we've been hearing so much about...................

DOG CHUUYA he's so fucking tiny...... stop doing this to him 5'3 is average height he is taller than me 5'3 is average height *keeps repeating myself over and over clutching my knees rocking back and forth*

ruffshoumon........ doppo pawet......

"kunikida's abili- dammit, arfbility- creates whatever he writes in his doppo pawet notebook. alas, dogs cannot write"

beast beneath the hydrant.......

kitty :3

special arfbility no longer hooman

oh it's the human guys again. hello atsushi. kys dazai.

whats inside the locker:

dazai i need you burned alive

though i hate him slightly less in this style <3 makes me forget he's a jackass <3 this is a subject to change depending on whether he interacts with any women in these

"he's gonna banish it to the darkness"

the onii-sama one made my heart stop functioning until i fucking died. i am now speaking to you from the restricted area.

RANPO!!!!

i am having so much fun right now. engaging in whimsy.

an unfruitful exchange:

PORT MAFIA SPOTTED

CHUUYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HE IS NOT SMALL!!!!!! STOP CALLING HIM THESE TERRIBLE THINGS HE IS NOT THAT TINY HE IS AVERAGE HEIGHT CHUUYA IS AVERAGE HEIGHT HE IS TALLER THAN ME HE'S AVERAGE HEIGHT AND TALLER THAN ME I AM ALSO AVERAGE HEIGHT HE IS TALLER THAN ME HE I 5'3 IS NOT SHORT IT IS AV

Tachihara lines this is more screentime than he ever had in every single prior season. who is this mysterious entity anyway

ep2:

let's go flower gazing:

kyouka spotted

CHUUYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

port mafia silly momence. they deserve it sometimes

chuuya lightweight lore

akutagawa is yearning rn

i never said this before but unfortunately (for akutagawa) i ship him with dazai in a toxic fucked up unsafe insane nonconsensual age gap trashfire way. from the literal moment we saw them in the season 2 early episodes flashback. maybe they can feed me today

chuuya passed out..... its so unfortunate i am not present in his vicinity at the very moment and cannot take advantage of his vulnerable state. i mean i mean its very fortunate thats so good for her jsut jokinh haha....

STOP POKING THEM. DAZAI KYS!!!!!!!!!

get the incest siblings out my screen

wan! shorts:

chuuya wild beast instict. lets keep them that way forever

to the baths:

ranpo <3

why are you stopping him huh..... youre just jealous of his infinite joyful whimsy and thats why you actively just hate to see him living his best life..... i hc him to have autism, adhd, AND npd you know......... this is literally so disgustingly ableist and hateful towards him

kunikida you hopeless man.

DAZAI STOP FUCKING HUMPING HIM WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU WHY IS IT ANIMATED SO FLUIDLY

holy ffuck sskk bath when <- no hope left for me anymore

CHUUYA!!!!!!!!!

Chuuya is accurate representation on how its like to be the short guy. im not saying she is, i mean 5'3 is average height, heh, just, you know....

he's minor-coded

jumpscare. atsushi's dreams post-s2

higuchi. stop. stop :|

she has stopped <3

[meganuzlockediary]

Victory Road! Pokemon Platinum

11/11/23

It does not take long at all to head to Sunyshore and face on Volkner. As usual he is absolutely no issue. Gliscor vs Jolteon is a very easy set up allowing me to get 2 swords dances while staying in the green. With that 4 earthquakes later and the final gym badge is mine.

At this point all thats left to do is travel up through victory road and get some training done. Before I face Barry here is the full team!

First up is my starter! Poseidon the Empoleon! A slow start as always but now he is fantastic! A great mixed move set of Surf, Grass Knot, Ice beam and Flash Cannon should serve me very well. He will be fine against Flint but I am a little concerned about Bertha being weak to ground type moves. Empoleon may well be my answer to Garchomp as well... Depending on Earthquake.

Ugh! What an awesome pokemon. Honestly he has been brilliant this game! Soo bulky and powerful very fun to use and with swords dance, Earthquake, Aerial ace and now Icefang/Xscissor I feel very safe. Gliscor will be brilliant for basically all the elite 4 but certainly for Aaron and Flint.

Honestly the MVP of the run. Always a level or two ahead of the others he's been a really solid back up pokemon even basically only knowing thunderbolt for most of it. Now his moves are, Thunder wave, return, thunderbolt and Hidden Power (ghost), unfortunately there are not many other special attacks I can teach him which is a little depressing. But a great back up and should be useful vs Cynthia.

My big ancer to Lucian. Shame he doesnt learn Nasty plot earlier but for now he knows, Thunder fang, Flamethrower, Dark pulse and roar/Will o wisp. Honestly could be stronger but we will see what happens.

Honestly a mixed bag. Very bulky but can't do a lot. He currently has Iron defense/Substitute, Toxic, Protect and Iron head. He is a toxic staller but should do some decent back up damage so long as I avoid, fighting, water and ground types.

Last but not least is a new addition. The choice was between a snorunt and an aipom and honestly Frosslass is probably going to be more useful. An absolute glass cannon but she should be useful against Bertha but also a great response to Garchomp... I hope. She currently knows, Hail, Ice beam, Shadow ball, Blizzard. Here's hoping!

With that I make it to the pokemon league time to challenge my Rival!

I start Jolteon vs Staraptor! An easy thunderbolt OHKO bringing in torterra. Predicting the Earthquake I switch to Gliscor. Really I should have moved to Froslass here but Crunch is a scary prospect. I use Ice fang and do a lot of damage but dont OHKO and then I take a powerful critical hit Leaf storm putting me down to 40hp. I finish the job with aerial ace as Floatzl brings in. I switch to Poseidon who eats up the ice fang and use grass knot to OHKO. this time bringing in Heracross. Expecting Close combat I switch to Froslass which works but now night slash is a risk so I switch into houndoom who takes a Rock Slide!!!! Fortunately he survives before using flamethrower to OHKO. Next in is the dreaded Snorlax. This is the one I'm scared of as I have no fighting type coverage. Expecting earthquake I switch to Gliscor. I am right but I'm in a pickle here. My only choice is to PP stall. I begin switching between Basil using protect and Gliscor until all 10 earthquake PP points are gone! It works fantastically and snorlax can now only do tiny little chips to Bastiodon after a few Iron defences. I then whittle away with Iron head which takes almost all of my PP due to rest! Shame I couldn't toxic stall due to immunity. Eventually, Snorlax flinches allowing me to finish him off. Last but not least is Rapidash. Empoleon has jsut enough hp for a switch in and a surf to finish the battle. Honestly a tough old job! Without good predictions I would have definitely lost a pokemon.

Badges won: 96

Pokemon used: 106

Pokemon lost: 53

[slink-a-dink]

What's your opinion on some of the more popular ships in the fandom? Yes, this includes rave

Putting under a readmore since I ramble im so sorry

Stickvin: AH A CLASSIC! I think it’s good! They’re just bros and I think they’re a very nice pairing, I’ve started to draw less of it but I think it’s a lovely pairing nonetheless. It’s that ship in the fanbase tho, where it tends to get a lot of young fans who tend to be really insistent on stickvin content or being rlly weird, like fucking. fujos. unfortunately. but i shouldn’t let that taint the ship for me, its very lovely and acted as a comfort ship back when I first joined, its not in my brain as much but. iTS JUST GOOD!!

Rosemin: Does this count? I think so? if not IT SHOULD!!! Rosemin has recently started rotting my brain and I feel like it deserves more recognition. They are a power couple! Toppat King and Right hand lady Ellie?? WTF THEIR POWER!! The inherent romance of being a right-hand!! TT/TR/PP/CG? Absolute power duo!!! And in TCW? I think people should start thinking abt Enemies/Rivals to Lovers TCW Rosemin!! Like think about it!! They never had the chance to talk it out, and maybe they realize their argument is doing more harm then good, they slowly come to realize that theyre not so different after all and grow to forgive, or something I JSUT! I CAMT THINK BUT THESE TWO ARE SO FUCKING BISEXUAL AND I THINK THEY SHOULD KISS AND I WANNA MAKE MORE ROSEMIN CONTENT!!!!!!!

Polythreat: VERY VERY GOOD!! Whether its a perfect triangle (everyone dates eachother) or just henry dating the two or some other combo, I love this ship; its just a really wholesome ot3 and their dynamic in game shows just a lovely ship 💕💕🥺

Copperright: I WISH I HAD BRAINROT FOR THIS SHIP. Like it’s so lovely!!! I want brainrot too!!! The potential, the IN CANON EVERYTHING ITS!! SO GOOD!! THEY ARE SO FUCKING MARRIED THEY ARE MARRIED AND IN LOVE AND WVERYONE MAKES SUCH GREAT CONTENT OF THESE TWO!! I do get a little fickle at times with reg being presented as helpless without rhm, but other than that? great ship I WANT TO DRAW FOR IT BUT HRRGRGRG NO BRAINROT!!!!!

Curtisson: A CUTE PAIRING! They talk once but its okay and thats a lot mmore than pther ships i have. I love the inherent dynamic of Talks in Essays x Tired and doing his job, i just, theyre a funny duo, i dont have much strong feelinsg about the pairing its so fucking wonderful and Like. Its just so good.

Dr. Rose: WAMEN.!!! I THINK THIS COUNTS! I’m unfamiliar with other social media but i think its popular and im so happy about that. people who love women have it sO HARD IN THIS FANDOM!! WHERE ARE THE WOMEN!!! but yeah these two? I adore them so fucking much. They can be such a power duo and I think there is so so so much potential, especially since both ellie and dr v have so much unknown about them, i just. I feel like theyre such an interesting dynamic to explore, especially with the multitude of different dr v variations. ik for my ask blog i wanted to build up this pairing, but idk if ik going to keep my askblog, but i just, i cant express the emotions and thoughts they give, they are kust a loving duo, who are so powerful, the brains and brawn and both r beauty. i just UGH!!! I HAVE THOUGHTS BUT NO WORDS!! so yeah anyways one of the best ships in this fandom I LOVE WOMEN.

Panprice: OH A VERY GOOD DUO. Dave and Rupert is such a good ship and like. I really love their whole dynamic with rupert getting the good card and dave getting the bad card, like any opposite dynamic like that is rlly cool. and i thunkthey should reunite and rupert should be there for dave, bc hes rlly been througj it.. and i just. they are good dynamic!! ex-coworkers to lovers babey!!!

galetrov: I CANT FORM A COHERENT THOUGHT OTHER THAN GO GRANDPAS!! its a VERY GOOD SHIP WITH LOTS OF POTENTIAL AND STORY AND MMMMM GO GRANDPAS

Rave: Oh rave. I have a lotta feelings and emotions on this ship but man I DONT KNOW HOW IFEEL ABT IT NOT BEING A RAREPAIR ANYMORE,,? Like i dont know other social medias so I don’t know how popular it is in its entirety buT I AM GLAD TO BE ONE OF THE PEOPLE TO BE CAPTAIN OF THIS SHIP BC MAN... I think about it so much. Like Rave is a comfort ship of mine unfortunately, I’ve latched onto to Randy and Terrence and I’ve created these two characters from nothing (they’re basically ocs) and then gave them a wholeass story?? man i just. the foundation is these two awful leaders being in love and rainbow x greyscale, which I think is an epic starting dynamic. Like I feel like. I could go for literal hours about things, but the thing with Rave is because Randy and Terrence have so little information, there’s so much that can be done, and in my case, I think these two just tried their best, wasn’t good enough, and eventually settled down, being Henry’s fathers. bc i believe in NICE TERRENCE PROPAGANDA

so yah. im sorry i ramble

[toshkakoshka]

jesse/gustavo: because i swear to god i will riot on the -10 fics available

i swear to god there has only been ONE (1) FIC thats meant way too much to me in this entire tag; op fucking got it from here and they didn’t even have to do any goddamn kissing. 

yes, of course, gustavo is a favorite villain and jesse is just. my sweet baby. so i was like ayo why not and then i started laughing to myself, suddenly the camera zooms to my face and BOOM. 

la idea. 

unfortunately, if anybody knew me well enough, if i get a good idea i fuck around way too hard on it, regret it, and then immediately obsess over it.

so:

why this exactly? i’m a sucker for unexplained concepts. i’m also very bad at picking a common preference, and as much as i don’t like walt/jesse to be romanticized it’s like... hard to push away the fact that their relationship explains the reason why jesse can’t exactly leave.

jesse’s a sweetheart. he’ll take the responsibility to care about anyone and he’s just so malleable and vulnerable, and it’s horrible to witness the fact the show really hammers that shit in. walt is just incredibly unworthy of the concern he actually shows him and we all know it. he doesn’t belong to this world, he deserves to have a good life with people he loves, but these worlds obviously just.... don’t fit. 

at least, if you turn the perspective into something to where this has to be his life now.

i dunno. you wanna pick all the men in jesse’s life? it’s not the... well. it wasn’t the considered option but it’s certainly better than walt; and so we pick: Gustavo Fring. 

first impression? awful. but fortunately for jesse, gustavo’s actually seen the potential in this kid. i mean, you gotta be very special if you’re the junkie who gets picked to do work over someone who actually has knowledge over this shit, right? that’s the fascination. the intrigue. but he thinks, for the fact he’s witnessed how innocent this kid actually is, that it’s easy to manipulate. 

not so fast: jesse knows how to read through situations now. he knows how gustavo’s words and ways are, he knows he’s dangerous, what does this dinner mean? a personal warning. gustavo is not happy, but he’s begrudgingly impressed that jesse knows how to read it the way it is. 

it’s not about the challenge, that gustavo’s intrigued by. it’s the fact that he was right about having to find that there’s more to jesse than just his first impression. 

also, do yall like... notice that gustavo has a very specific way of smiling when he’s being the boss of los pollos hermanos. the smile doesn’t reach his eyes. a real smile always includes your eyes crinkling, but the more you look into this man’s eyes it’s genuinely just. plastic. gustavo has never smiled outside of that incident. gustavo has never expressed any emotion outside of pure rage and terror, meanwhile back in the older days, he actually used to take better action.

guess who actually let him have the smirk of pride?

jesse. 

back in the mexico epsiode, where the kid proved himself to actually be a leader in leading this shithole of a lab? yeah, sure, big dick = being good impression for power, probably also cements the fact that he’s incredibly useful for the future of the empire (lmao what empire am i right haashdahfhdf *sobs*), but my ass has Witnessed both better call saul and breaking bad to fucking confirm that this is probably the only genuine time gustavo has smirked. IT REACHED THIS DUDE’S EYE, LIKE, IDK WITH YOU BUT THAT’S A FEAT IN ITSELF EVEN IF IT’S JSUT A SLIGHT TWITCH. IM PROBABLY GOING INSANE BUT IT LIVES IN MY MIND RENT FREE

you know what makes me salty is that it seems like not a lot of fics invest in this fact, but gus seems to just have the absolute worst time handling emotions. yeah, sure, all of these guys are dudes who repressed their trauma, but we all have FIRST HAND WITNESS as to how that fucking came to be. his emotions disappeared from losing the one person who he’s had such an intimate connection with, it’s probably even the last time he’s cried or screamed considering we see none of that shit. gustavo twitches, shakes, but the rest of his rage comes from killing people and even that it’s just pure silence. he’s so viscerally broken that it’s actually heartbreaking to know how easily he can just shut it out until he’s alone. 

and i bring this up ‘cause this is the factor of potential in the relationship that i’m obsessed with. i’ve been absolutely taken by the headcanon that max used to be like jesse, he had a talent in picking things up but had the unfortunate habit of using in the middle of it all. 

it’s a punch to the gut. seeing someone young, inexperienced but already so exhausted. gus doesn’t know if it’s pleasant or if it’s absolutely splitting, but for every twitch in gus’s expression and the way he’s slowly approaching jesse beckons him into having to forcefully realize that the walls that he’s put up are slowly, ever so slightly, reaching. 

for the first time, gustavo wants to feel it for himself. 

it’s about what could have been, really. he feels affection for him, and he’s... he’s not afraid, or angry about it, it’s more of something confusing and nostalgic and it’s awful, but he wants to hold jesse’s face in his hands and care for him the way he knows how. 

or, if he still ever really remembers to. 

he tries not to let it get to him. 

for jesse, on the other hand, we know what’s going on with him: it’s horrible. it’s unfortunate. someone come give this kid a hug (*AHEM*) 

he’s the before process of everybody involved in this goddamn show. 

what could this guy possibly ever really see in a monster like gus?

well, for one thing, in spite of everything, he could never stomach another death unless it really had to be done. even then, he’s only human. and because he knows that gus has told him that he sees something in him, that’s given him that leverage to know what kind of person gus must be. 

like, he’s curious. but he also wants to hear that he can make somebody proud, and that somebody could adore him for that. (and they do, don’t worry baby)

so what’s jesse’s end on the bargain? 

what he wants in a man is a figure who actually deserves the care he gives. he craves affection and love and is unintentionally working through those barriers, wanting to know things from gus that the guy has never really bothered to specify. 

he... hates to think about it. but theres something that he really, really wants from gus’s positive attention. it’s earned, and deserving, and it’s rare but gus wants to be a person sometimes, too. jesse makes him feel like a person every time he fucking drags him through the dirt, but the fact that he’s never changed the way he’s spoken means that it’s the equal footing they have to be on. 

so sometimes he accidentally catches the looks: the unrestrained relaxed demeanor gus adapts, lingering grasps on his shoulders. to him, gus is a man who’s probably never touched anybody without the intent of strangling to death, but he’s about to be wronged. semi-wronged. gustavo has never given affection in a long time, but now he’s giving this random kid a soft spot because it’s a relationship that he for once has never been yelled at for being all wrong or doing everything badly. 

maybe that’s why jesse wants to know about it. being special will always mean so much to him, because clearly it’s been difficult to get that. intimacy is just a differrent thing when it comes to the both of them. it always starts with attachment. 

[gayspock]

obligatory tng update:

1. unfortunately still going slow. im not sure if its wholly bc of my irl shite getting in the way (very likely) but despite the episodes being GOOD now, like fully good, i still dont feel the same draw as i did with tos which is :(. but the eps ARE getting GOOD!!! like babey thnk u mwah. there’s been some bangers in a row ya kno

2. ok minor minor minor. idk im so... neutral abt troi/riker as an item right now!! i htink i could warm up but its also like. thus far theyve just... like i feel like theyve not given any actual moments between them. do yoou know what i mean, girlie. like i swear i rarely ever see them interact and i genuinely thought it was gonna be, like, a thing they brought up in the pilot then literally just FORGET abt bc like... theyve just literally been all tell and no show. like theyre like “oh they were a thing and theres still sth there” but then havent rlly... like they havent actually done tht much together? do u kno wht it means? like its just like the show has told us they have chemistry without really letting them demonstrate... anyways.  and idk i dont have a PROBLEM with that, actually. like im fine with that, bc its been super unobtrusive ya kno- and what i actually wanted to say is that!!! im rlly GOOD with it in a way.

like im neutral on them as a Couple and whatnot (also in part bc i do LIKE riker&troi, i do, but im not obsessed with them yet)  but omg idk... its like i said its been pretty unobtrusive does tht make sense. usually tht shit is crammed down ur throat in some manner, like- even if its just in terms of jealousy or whatveer but... on MULTIPLE occasions, it feels like, both troi and riker have like shown interest in the New Character of the Week. and i realised it with uhhhh the ep (runs to check) THE VENGEANCE FACTOR. bc its like him and troi were sat there eating together and the girlie of the week came over and she, like, got up and was like :3 i’ll leave you to it- AND I DONT KNOW? I KNOW THIS IS LIKE. BARE MINIMUM BUT ITS JSUT... REALLY NICE TO SEE CHARACTERS WHO ARE, LIKE, OPENLY KINDA INTERESTED IN EACH OTHER BUT ARENT, LIKE, A THING-THING  AND YET THEY WONT BE LIKE. RANCID IF THE OTHER PERSON IS SHOWING INTEREST IN OTHER PPL. DOES THT MAKE SENSE. like theyre chill and calm and like i said. i do think i could warm up to them if i got to see more of them.... I FEEL SO WEIRD im stillnot sure how i feel abt EITHER of them and im unsure why . i really am. like i feel like ah i like you guyss! but thts abt it. i think i still need to see more. anyways

3. also bc it comes up sometimes similar talk i think i wanna talk about Wesley . get him off my chest. i dont hate wesley. im the epitome of neutral on wesley as well. but like if you took s1 wesley and put him into s3 i’d be in a fucking rage. like i think the thing is, s1 wesley fucking sucks but also its like... in general  all the writing in s1 was fuckign bad and frankly he just ended up turning out very annoying becuase of it but ultimately . do u kno wht i mean. like its just s1 antics. wesley, now, in s3 is still not like a big fave but bc the writing is better i’m like okay! youre here! BUT if they wrote an ep with him in the same way they used him in s1 THEN i’d be mad. anyways.

4. I HAD MORE THOUGHTS BUT THIS ISNT EVEN TNG I WENT TO LOOK UP STAR TREK EPISODES AND FOR SOME REASON I WA SLOOKING AT RELEASE DATES AND I WAS LIKE OH OH OH AND THEN I ENDED UP LOOKING AT TOS AND REQUIEUM FO METHUSUSAL I CANT SPELL IM SO SORRY BUT THAT EP WAS RELEASED ON VALENTINES DAY AND IM THINKING ABOUT SPOCK AND THAT MEMORY WIPE HAPPY VALENTINS DAY GIRLS JESUS WHERE WAS I

5. god i love data and geordi so much though i feel bad but i jsut... OKAY MAYBE THATS IT. WITH TROI AND RIKER. I FEEL BAD LIKE I DONT HATE THEM IM JUST MORESO NEUTRAL BC I JSUT... I JUST WANT TO SEE DATA, GEORDI AND WORF SOOOO MUCH AHHHHHHH LIKE GIVE ME YM LEGENDS. NONSTOP.

[mingi-bubu]

Watch “Love O2O” with Me!

Episode 7

i am watching these episodes the way that i eat m&ms

one after the other xp

my phone has cooled off v much but is not yet fully charged so shes still plugged in

i have my water, i have some ramen ^-^, the flix of net is up

as mark lee would say, lezgeddit

so we left off with september and mirror fish duking it out for who should be considered the woman in the faux relationship tht theyre only doing so that xiao nai and wei2 can practice dueling before the big event

and we open with them figting in game

wei2 and nai are just watching them off to the side lmao

THEY JSUT TOOK EACH OTHER OUT ADKJFALKSDJ

wait did nai take them out?

oh damn

they at the hard level couple shit huh

aldkfjalskdjf drag your friends lovingly

maybe not so lovingly

hes too fuking head over heels for her imHAND HOLDING

IN MY GOOD CHRISTIAN SERVER

DISGUSTING

i want it

oooh this npc’s outfit fucking sLAPS

no other in game couple has completed the quest before

damn she just got stuck in a dungeon and the disembodied voice said y’all ain’t got shit but also only have 16 hours to find each other

oh they can still chat

thats nice

why is she acting so dramatic smh

shes so upset she cant do anything

oh no instead shes gonna try to find out information for him

also i LOVE HER SWEATSHIRT

oooh rainbow

he really gonna YEET himself off that cliff aint he

~telepathy~

he’s confident apparently

i

she’s cleaning her keyboard

akdlfjak;ldsj

she said its STUDYING TIME COWARDS

love this man’s headpiece

i cant help but think about the one vine where the guy kept skipping the in game diaogue alkdfaskl

ohhhh

the game is called go

the one that we saw nai playing when we were first introduced to him

oh ok

the game disappeared

yearning formation

me while watching this fuckign show

take the scroll

smh

Y E E T

oh

booooooo

OH I TAKE IT BACK THEYRE STAIRS

THATS PRETTY DOPE

STONE DRAGONS

STONE DRAGONS

HOLY SHIT

well thats unfortunate

shut up i hate this part so muchh

oh he just killed the stone dragons

god this guy is so fucking overdramatic

the naihands again

not at how the fucking music popped off

damn this npc guy is cope

dope

not to be like harry potter but harry potter battle

oh jesus thats wht it takes

really

showing him the pendant

man got his heart broken 1 time by his master and said fuck it i hate everyone

nevermind he texted back

oh wowowowow oHES RIDING THE BIG FUCKING BIRD

Jesus she really said he looks like an angel huh

me too

wowowwowowowwoOWOWOW

ultimate fucking team

they really said we are the best huh

ia;lkdfja;lksdj

it’s not that deep

I LOVE HIM

HE REALLY SAID BITCH I SCREENSHOT THAT SHIT

KING SHIT

oh she left her clan?

damn she is bringing in everything

all the shade

all the tea

this is very awkward

he really backtracked faster than i could blink

oooohhhhhhh

this is tea

DAMN WEIWEI REALLY OUT HERE TO SAY THINGS

these girls again

oh she really do be leaving the clan

oh wowowowow

eww thats so gross and mushy

we were formally married

shut the fuck

marital status is important

SHTU THD UVLK

how long did that quest take them tho

did

did she just do what i think she did

ugh gross theses and exams

not excited to go back to that

xiaoling i want more of her shes so funny

oh so it’s septembers meeting with mr. li

e.e

me and september rolling our eyes internally

hmmmmm

mr li is gonna kill him

wHy DoNt YoU dEvElOp ThE gAmE wItH uS

stop pitting two bad bitches against each other

aaaannnnd now hes being more obviuosly snakey

monthly wage of 120k

god i wish that were me

smart kid tho

said he needs to think about it

raise that by 30%???

156,000

a month

before bonuses

and the game launching

god i need to marry rich

sorry

anyways

yiran uncle is like we need to get him on board bc then everyone else will come

snake man

yiran heard all of that

*eyes emoji*

maybe she do have a heart

she really needs to have better people in her life

her uncle is skeezy

i’d spill hot tea on him

i absolutely don’t believe in nor trust him

go and tell him

be a moral person

her hair style is cute

TELL HIM

ugh

this is why aint nobody know anything

nana that is not how this should work

stop it

stop that nana

THATS NOT HOW THAT WORKS

SOMETIMES PEOPLE HAVE OTHER INTERESTS

i will say tho that her underlying message of taking initiative and doing things to help you is good

also the background is so green screen aldkjfs

september i would marry you in that outfit rigt how

nai’s apartment i want to know more aobutFISHHH

THERE ARE SO MANY FISHHH

why does he have a phonograph im so weak

all of these guys need lkasdjfa;lksdjf;laksjd

nai is the love of my life

but anyways the other 3 guys need to think with their upstairs brain

gynophobic

jjaiskldfjwe just say gay

i know they probably have censorship laws that are different

but still

i desire kodak’s hoodie

theres a lil bear in a cap on it

cute cute cute

oh damn he really do be saying things

oh so they visited SEPTEMBER EREALLY  DID THE FINGER HEARTS IM IN LOVE IWTH HIM

damn HE IS

RIDE

OR

DIE

FOR HIS FRIENDS

alkdsfjalskdjfasl;dk not at how he was really cute looking all dorky when he was being all sweet to them

awww weiwei’s relationship with xiaoyang is adrable

al;kdsjfalsd don’t steal unless youve been falsely accused

oooh it was a bear with wings

xiaoyang is my favorite character every episode he’s in is improved tenfold

i have a similar knife as the one in this show love that for me

wh

what did she put in the bowl and why did the yakult have to go in it too

xiaoyang i would die for you

the #Squad

love them

SPARKLY SHIRT ON HIM

SARPIOEAPOIWEHFIO

ASPAEIHFALKLY SHRIT

IM LLIVOE HIM

D A M N

HE REALLY BE BUYING SHIT FO RHER

PELASE

september in clgaseselkew;jrfawioh

and dark oragne

im falignaeapowifha

i love them

jadlskfjasldkj ha;weijak

I LOVE THAT

she really changed her mf tune as soon as she found out nai put them up to it

ugh

WHEN DO WE GET TO SEE IRL INTERACIONS IM SICK OF THIS SHIT

not really i depely love it obviously

BUT IM SICK OF THIS SHIT

ok that’s the end of episode 7

ugh

truly they are otp

anyways

thank you for readign!!!

stay safe and stay healthy <333

[hazysolstice]

                    HELLOOOOOOOOO ! who else is ready to get this party STARTED BECAUSE IIIIIII AM ! i’m gonna try to make this whole widdol intro post as sweet and short as possible but that won’t happen anyway because a girl likes to ramble. LKMDKFLSF anyway i’m tea :D i live in sunny california so psters make some noise... LSDKFMKSMFMKLMD also i'm really excited to be meeting all of u and getting to be in this group ! so without further ADIEU.... let me introduce u to my Hot Mess of a son nino 8) AND HERE’S JUST A LIGHT TW FOR EMOTIONAL ABUSE !!!!!! but its brief and explained in not very detailed ways in case this made u afraid to read. thank u. i love u. stay safe

♡  ◟ °  ›   kim taehyung, cismale, he/him, twenty-three   ⋯   ❛   thank you for applying to TIDAL WAVE, NINO KANG ! before we start this job interview, i would just like to go over a few questions. you said your best attribute was COMPOSURE, right ? well, word around town is that some people find you to be a bit more DECEPTIVE … but, nevermind that. i’m actually more curious about whether you were actually caught AS THE PERSON WHO LEFT ALL TWENTY-EIGHT THOUSAND REVIEWS COMPLAINING ABOUT FROZEN 2 last year ? oh, you were ? that’s unfortunate. on the bright side, i heard that you excel at PLAYING COMPETITIVE TENNIS …. so that’s cool ! now, one more question … your last manager said that you’re hiding THAT YOU SLEPT WITH YOUR BEST FRIEND'S SIBLING AS REVENGE FOR THEM ALWAYS TAKING THE AUX CORD, is that true ? — haha , just kidding ! they didn’t say that, i just read that about you online . anyway , you got the job ! ❜ 】 tea, pst, she/her.

OKAY SO! WE WILL BEGIN WITH THE #ORIGIN_STORY! nino grew up in a Home. LSMDFKSLMFSLKDFMK his dad never really said anything to him but his MOM....she was what u would call a helicopter parent. she was always overly invested in nino’s academics and what she thought he should be doing with his life. she just completely rejected his own interests in favor of her own so he grew kinda accustomed to that and lying in order to protect himself from being on the receiving end of more disappointment + disapproval 

if he was out with friends on a monday night she would literally blast his phone with calls. u can imagine what growing up in that kind of environment was like.... the only thing that really kept him holding on was TENNIS which he’s been playing ever since he was first able to. even though his mom tried to shut down his tennis groups (she despised him playing sports instead of focusing on his academics and would just complain to administration CONSTANTLY ABOUT THE TENNIS CLUBS HE WAS IN), it was just something he couldn’t give up and that his tennis friends WOULDN’T let him give up. and thank god he didn’t because it’s like the only thing he genuinely enjoys nowadays. LKMSDLFMSFSF

ANYWAY his parents divorced when he was in middle school and he ended up moving to stone harbor with his mother. his dad was forreal like peace out...x goodbye......x good luck...x and that’s how he ended up here. but he still speaks to his dad every once in awhile and he likes visiting him even though his mom berates him for it later. HE BASICALLY JSUT HAS A DECENT RELATIONSHIP WITH HIS DAD THATS IT THATS THE BULLET POINT 

he hates new jersey. he hates the cold. there’s a reason he complained about frozen 2 28 thousand times on yelp. LKSDMFSLMFSDFMKSDFKMSDF and THAT’S also the reason why he despises working at tidal wave this time of the year....he don’t know jack about winter sports x someone gonna come ask him about the best ice skates and he’s just gonna walk away. no words spoken. LSMDFKLSDMFSKDF 

although...to bring in his Childhood Trauma.... because of the environment he grew up in he became a DUN DUN DUN....... pathological liar. SDLKFMDSLKFMDLSF 

essentially for nino this means he lies so in some way there’s benefits or protection offered to him. typically this benefit is people liking him. LSKDMFLSKMDFKS HE’S LITERALLY 20 DIFFERENT PEOPLE AT ONCE BECAUSE HE KEEPS CHANGING HIS PERSONALITY TO FIT WHAT HE THINKS CERTAIN INDIVIDUALS WOULD LIKE. if someone’s like “wow haha i wanna get soooooo high right now” nino would be like wow yeah i love smoking :) when he’s got asthma and it makes him choke. he just does this unconsciously too. AND he makes up a lot of grandiose and detailed stories to support his lies and make them seem more authentic than they actually are and he does this SO well.

he’s surprisingly charming and i think that’s because he’s become a master at being the person people want him to be so he just be Socializing like it’s nobody’s business.

some of his lies become reality to him so half the time he can’t discern between a lie and his own truth. he will seriously tell u that his uncle is steven yeun and then when u accuse him of lying he'll get offended about it. LKSMDFLSDFMKDSMFKMF maybe he won’t get exactly offended with the steven yeun example but say..... for example...... u accuse him of not cleaning the bathroom when he said he did (even though he really Didn’t) he’ll get irritable because he Believes he did. it jsut be like that. 

literally doesn’t feel comfortable with his authentic personality now because its been rejected ever since he was a child :pleading_emoji: i think he’s working on it. i think bits and pieces of his true personality shine thru sometimes... sniffles.... namely his sarcasm and smartassness and pettiness... LSDKFLSMFSF

I THINK I’VE COVERED MOSTLY EVERYTHING SO I’M GONNA END THIS POST HERE !  i have some wanted connections listed here although there aren’t that many plots listed because i know more interesting ones are gonna come up once i get the brainstorming juices going while reading everyone else’s info about their muses. LKSMDLSFMLSDFMSKDFM if u wanna plot u can just like this post and i’ll come to u :3 maybe we can share discords or just plot thru ims WHATEVER WORKS !  anyway thank u for reading this hot mess of an intro i am So Excited to rp with all of u :pleading_emoji: 

[kurainburdened]

RULES: tag ten followers you want to know better! TAGGED BY: @dragonwilled​ TAGGING: @prosequies​ @programbound​

NAME: Diana or Didi! STAR SIGN: Pisces HEIGHT: 5′2″ WHAT’S YOUR MIDDLE NAME? Faith

PUT YOUR MUSIC ON SHUFFLE. WHAT ARE THE FIRST 4 SONGS THAT POPPED UP?

Pokemon Born to be a Winner

I am damaged Heathers

No one Mourths the Wicked- Wicked

Breathe- Bandstand

GRAB THE BOOK NEAREST YOU AND TURN TO PAGE 23. WHAT’S LINE 17?

突っ込もうと思うったけど、遅刻したあたしわるい。ここはグッとこらえて

EVER HAD A POEM OR SONG WRITTEN ABOUT YOU?

lol nah I cant imagine that happening to me

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU PLAYED AIR GUITAR?

JEEEZ. Maybe last year? Lol Im so self conscious that i cant even really let go in the privacy of my own room tbh.

WHO IS YOUR CELEBRITY CRUSH?

oooof I feel weird crushing on like real celebrities. Which sounds weird but i just dont like the idea of liking someone i dont know anything about??? Im in love with like a lot of anime boys though lol. Saeyoung, P.hoenix W.right, R.olo L.amperouge, Hori from gsnk, and Sugane from gatchaman. Snake from kuroshi and Reese from H.ustle Cat

WHAT’S A SOUND YOU HATE + SOUND YOU LOVE?

HATE: HIGH PITCHED BEEPING NOISES MAKE ME WANT TO SCRATCH MY EARS 

LOVE:  My friends voices after I haven’t heard them in awhile. The Violin. Rain against my window, the sound of a crosswalk thing telling you you can walk, The sound of a time when youre baking, the sound of my little brother laughing

DO YOU BELIEVE IN GHOSTS? YEAH. LIKE A LOT. ive seen a ghost before. it was freaky because it was night time with my little brother and he neede dme to go with him to get water and we jsut walked through the living room in the dark and suddenly the ligths turned on and we were like. Oh my parents up. Then I looked over at the light switch and there was this black human shaped mist  by the light switch that slowly dissipated. sooo idk what that was about HOW ABOUT ALIENS? yeah I mean the universe is so big! They have to be out there somewhere. Idk if theyre like ooh ufos and all that but something out there has to be living beside us DO YOU DRIVE? Yeah but it STRESSES ME OUT. Im super adhd so like. OH MAN ONE TIME I WAS DRIVING AT NIGHT ON JULY 4TH AND THE FIREWORKS WERE GOING OFF AND I WAS LIKE. : D im probably going to die IF SO, HAVE YOU EVER CRASHED? ....yeah.... i still have nightmares about ti honestly. It wasn’t like some sort of flashy showy crash I really didnt expect it to affect me this much.  WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ? ALL THE WRONG QUESTIONS AND ITS MY FAVORITE BOOK SERIES OF ALL TIME DO YOU LIKE THE SMELL OF GASOLINE? Ish. yeah WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU SAW? Iol I cant even rememebr wha tI had for breakfast yesterday WHAT’S THE WORST INJURY YOU’VE EVER HAD? I broke my arm which SUCKED cause im A REALLY SPORTY PERSON SO I WORKED OUT WITH MY CAST ON. which was stupid and dangerous because they said if it was just a little worse id need surgery and if i fell on it even with the cause id definitely need it. but it also meant that when i took of my cast it STUNK DO YOU HAVE ANY OBSESSIONS RIGHT NOW? aa games, Maya fey is my current hyper fixation, but the cultural differences in pokemon ranger region to pokemon trainer regions, ummm OH OH MARUMOFUBIYORI DO YOU TEND TO HOLD GRUDGES AGAINST PEOPLE WHO HAVE DONE YOU WRONG? NO. unfortunately. i wish i could. for the life of me i wish i could. I wish i could hate people who hurt me in horrible and messed up ways that can still make me cry when i think about it years later. but i just...cant and it feel so bad cause its like. STOP CARING ABOUT THEM @ ME. you know theyre bad for you but i just cant stop myself ya know??? idk.... IN A RELATIONSHIP? nope! Never have been! But thats fine with me tbh. When I think about it its hard to love someone more than I love all the friends I have n my lfe anyway lol

[thotsandpuppys]

my v first...

So its 3:40am. I’m awake , would prefer to be asleep like a healthy person, but nope. I awake , drinking a semi warm can of coke with one strand of Christmas lights plugged in. Christmas lights are my absolute favorite, just basic ole off white. Perfect mood lighting. Anyways, I am going to start a blog and try to tend to it every night. Right now, ZERO followers. Geez I like my other tumblr better haha SIKE. I kind of hope people who know me never find this blog. I’m going to be transparent as hell. I mean I guess I won’t mention names, however this isn’t like a dirty shit talking gossip one either. ew. But i love me some gossip, who doesn’t !!? This blog is going to be really just me talking about anything and everything hoping its going to be a good way to trreat my newly self diagnosed mental illness. Borderline Personality Disorder. I am only confident its what makes me the intense world is ending everyother day crazy lady that I am. Take it how you want idek what I said. OH yea idek who I am half the time or why I chopped my hair off in 2019... wtf!! But yea, I wish I would of started a blog 10 years ago. Like one where I posted every day or atleast weekly. Its hard to stay focused honestly. I really almost just concluded this but no I need to input a little more about whats happening in my life. I need to in order to get my intense feelings and extreme thoughts out of my head so I ca practice letting things go. I wish Josh were alive to see my new found practices of slef talk therapy. Thats what I’m calling this anyways. He was right about so many things. He knew I was messed up and I never listened. I hate thinking about my behavior when I was his girlfriend. Thats the past though, and wow there I go- about to dwell on 5 years ago when there nothing I can do about it so why would I send myself into that whirlwind of negativie thinking to eventually stashing my phone to avoid it and all the notifications and photo gallery because I can’t handle the self regret that leads to thought of self harm. I’ll admit I have never ever been one to cut myself ot anything like that but I have had thoughts where I jsut don’t give a fuck about anything or anyone and its better off I’m dead. I have even wished to be kidnapped to get out of this “terrible never to be fixed” situation I call life. Luckily, I have been aware of why my brain works this way. Its my messed up genes from Kellie Linihan (mom) !! Thanks for the mental clusterfuck of chemical imbalances and traumatic childhood events. LOL jk but really. Love my mom so much regardless of the gene pool I have acquired.  Dad is so normal is weird hes jsut late to everything and a huge procrastinator. Thats pretty normal though for a lot of humans. 

So let me jump in to the not so great things I don’t really want to talk about but this is what my blog is for. Well I hate my living arrangement right now. I feel like i’m the character in a really intense book about a girl who is trapped and can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I love St. Pete and I loved living at 1511 22nd ave S. But now I’m in the backyard of that location, not literally but I can see my old back yard from the back door at this house. My wonderful humble neighbor let me have a room after unfortunate events resulting in me having to vacate good ole 100 yr old 1511 adobe beauty. It was a great house !! But why do I hate it here?? Sherwood is great , hes super nice and almost to good to be true. Until recently, whenever I had been completely comfortable here and everything was good he had to be the typical guy and get weird. I thought that was impossible so I am left very saddened by it but more uncomfortable than ever. I never leave this tiny room I have. Never. Only to go to the store or work little shifts stocking the circle k cooler (lol). But yea, even going to the bathroom sucks. Staying up late I feel awkward and try to stay quiet because the only thing seperating our bedrooms is a door. That I keep shut to avoid him. I don’t want to make him out to be a creep like that because hes not. And I believe he got hint (even though its been apparent since MAy or since Ive met him !!) since that friday night 3 weeks ago I’ve been pretty isolated maybe having 3 conversations with him lasting 2 mins at most and happened on accident because I needed to pee so badly and had to take a trip across this home to the ONE bathroom. Ive never wanted my own bathroom so badly !! I bet this whole thing wouldn’t be so awkward but of course feeling his hand on my upper thigh that he placed there ever so gently and SOOO casually!! Like wtf !!! Me him and taty are sitting on the couch watching football and homie decides hes going to make the move I guess. He places his big hand on my tiny thigh and not just placed it there and let it sit he did some groping move like I WAS HIS LADY !!! NOOOOO . I am not. I am no ones lady. I am god lady, jk lol it just sounded funny. (lmao). SO he did that. I will mention he has referred to me as his “gf” when hes mentioned conversations he had with friends and if it was about me going to one of his buddies for car repair or whatever so whatever. I don’t even hug him or flirt AND I FLIRT WITH EVERYONE> GEMINIIII** I don’t know why he had to do this and literally make me want to take flight. Which I am. TO Key West. Very soon. I wish I could go stay with Charlie but Iknow hes over it and sick of me. Granted, he is my domestic partner by the state of FL so I think he signed off to kind of have to be invested in my needs lol BUTI would never ruin his life like that. I wish SW would of been clear on his feelings towards me before moving into his house. Like I can’t even say how many times I have emphansized the fact that he was my bff NOT someone I’m trying to get freaky with. I feel so utterly violated. I feel violated knowing when he knocks on my door he usually just knocks then opens. Thats not how you enter someone room not knowing what their status is regarding tops, pants. Let me give you an example... last week its 7am , I just showered and I am getting ready for a 4 hour CK shift. I wasn’t dressed all the way, like I was topless looking for a bra. I let Chase out and SW was letting his pup out at this time and decided to let CHase in. Thats fine, thanks man but that doesnt mean just open my door when my tits are out and about !! If I had not heard the front door knowing he was letting Chase in (thank god my intuition is on point) and then definitely letting Chase in my room I would of not known to move directly behind my door to block myself. If I had been distracted he would of gotten a peep show of my lovely boobies , ew. Like come on !!! Then that night, whats he do ?? Opens my door when I’m taking my pants off. Like dude !!! you can’t do that !! It sucks. BUt wow does it feel good letting this out and just assuming someone will hear me. I can’t just talk about this stuff with my friends. Taty makes it worse. She jokes about this. Its a laughing matter to her. Like wtf its hilarious I feel imprisoned and violated. I don’t think shes ever been violated and Ihope she never is but me I this isn’t the first time. So this is PTSD for me. If I try to go into detail about this to her its just going to be a waste of time because she won’t get it. If she didn’t get it the night SW groped my thigh in her presence meanwhile shes trying to keep composure because like I said its hilarious to her so she wanted ot burst out in laughter. WTF agian. AWKWARD!! uh. I love her but goddamn, selfish much ? Glad you can get a kick out of your friend being mentally tortured and physically violated. Fuck. Okay I think this is enough for now and maybe not I might come back in a few hours. I slept all day , also making this awkward because SW feels the need to let me know Iknow to get out of my room more and blah blah blah. Sorry but no I can’t shake the awkwardness and it sucks. I am trying. I have to build up enough courage to let him know I’m going to ee my Uncle in KW for “a few weeks” psst...no im moving and never coming back..Only to retrieve my belongings. Its shitty. Well goodnight zero followers and goodnight wondering anxious thoughts :) be back soon. In fact I might take an adderall and be one of those 5am club members lmao not tell anyone I have been up all night because I went to bed at 10am the day before. Ooops. Nightowlllll. Idk why I’d take an addi when I’m not having to actually focus on anything serious but hey why not. Maybe I’ll write a book this morning or something. lata

“

[murlinxmaverick]

Dear Erika

No more horsing around. I want you to be my valentine. but not just today, i want you to be my valentaine for the rest of our lives. No more horsing around, its valentinmes day

No more horsing aroud its valentaines day! you gave me this valentines day card 7 years ago today and asked me “ Do you get it?” i replied with yeah bc its a horse.” you said “no do you get it?” and in truth, I did but i was too emotionally imature and lacked the to know how to put it into words what i was feeling; How I felt about you. Ive held on to this card for all this time because dont want to let it go. You demonstrated such courage that day and all i could do in responce was to deflect your question and avoid the answer you wanted to hear. There’s alot that has changed about me but one thing remains the same, im a terrible liar. i didnt want to tell you the answer i thought you wanted to hear bc i didnt want to lie to you. i hate liars and i always have, but i have become a really good one over the years. this card is really important to me and im giving it to you today

theres always a moment when you hear someone talking about a biggest regret or maybe you hear a song about 

Unfortunately 7 years is a long time and we are no longer the same people we were back then. the little things i do remeber have have stayed with me and you pop int . but what i do remember has stuck with me. Every holloween i think of spooky Erika because you onve told me it was your favorite holiday. I remember that you hate cheese and every time i eat cheese i think of you which is very often. every time i look at furniture or pass a interior pass the funiture section at a  store i think of how you wanted to be an interiior designer and do you still hate your floor? and that you would watch anime and watched to be a voice actor, i actually decide I wanted to make a short animated fim and always had planned to ask you to be apart of it and voice act in it. but tthings have probably changed i mean you just got into a masters program and im sure those things arent on your mind anymire by the way congrats on that! ihad decide to writ you this before you posted that on the 11th andf i wanted to reach out so bad but i thought that would be weird and out of the blue. 

I was on instragream and i saw a tweet that said something like “after relationships boys learn how to treat the next the next girl but the girl is left broke for the next guy” or somthing like that. i thought of you when reading that and thinking that relationship taugh me so much about myself and i feared that the second half of that tweet was true just how the first [part was.  i was angery with myself and hating the fact that i cant go back to change it or the fact that i never appoligized and told you how i felt i kept telling myself shes moved on and woulkd rather not think of the past. ive tried to appologize before but everytime i would type out an apology i kept hinking to myself shes probably doing just fine without it and would rather not hear from me. ive doubted myself alot when it come to you but i want to change that. I dont want to hesitate osting something on social media just to avoid seraching for you name under the likes or views, i want to not care about that because ill have something better then a simple like, ill have y ou.

last year wasnt the best for me, i got in to a new relationship at the beginning of the year and the more i got to know her the more she reminded me of you. i making the comparison and eventually told her about you and what you meant to me and how i can never make it past the threee month mark whenever i am talking to someone new because Thats around the time we broke up and i just want our relationship we had to be the most impoortyant to me. when i broke things off with her and told her my reson she told me “I am erika and youre running away from something you want.” her words got me angery because i felt she had no right comparing herself to you and that she was wrong. months after the relationship ended i was going throw the things she had givven me to toss them out when i found this valentaines day card from you and when it came down to it i could let it go the way i was letting go of the things she had given me. i treated you so poorly and its my biggest regret but i cant change the past. i can only choose my future and i am choosing you! I am so sorry for what i did in the pastand i honestly feel like i dont deserve another chance but if you give me another chance i promise to never make that same mistake again! this card means alot to me, thats why ive held on to it for all this time, and today i want to give it to you.

I dont want to make any promises i cannot keep so i wont promise to never hurt you or to never disappoint you, but what i will promise is to always do everything in my power to make you happy. there are going to be times where you get fustrated with me and want to stranggle me because i am too “boy” to understand something you want from me but i promise to always try to give you the future you deserve. the future that i left in the past 7 years ago. i can only contol my actions and i am choosing to do everything in my power to dserve another chance at making you my valentine. not jsut today but everyday feburary 14 from here on out. I want to be the one who gets to know you entirely inside and out! i want you to always feel safe with me where vulnerability and love is communicated with our words, our gaze, our touch, and our embrace. theres so much i missed out on in the last 7 years and i dont want to miss anything else. Im leaving the card with you but I’d like it back. If you give me this chance, return the card to me and I will keep every promise i have and will make to you.

 Erika, will you be my Valentine?

[chickenfetus]

ALL MY EGG (and for the four names: jae, killer kang, minhyuk (whichever one), and santa

deadass i did the 100 questions ask meme for this ask and almost posted it rip

🐰 what is one secret that you’ve never told anyone?

theres literally nothing i dont even know what to say ???? 

💗 if you could hug anyone, who would it be?

not 2 be delusional but i would give up my world to hug changkyun

🐹 what are some of your favourite Pokémon and why?

glaceon is UP THERE idk why honestly but the sinnoh games were my first and i just??? i was really into ice and snow and shit u know so glaceon... thakn u

another pkmn ill always have is lucario ????? its just so cool?????

🌠 if you were in charge of the world, what would the world look like?

hopefully forgiveness and like???? acknowledging mistakes and learning from those u know jst positive stuff and like?? water. god i love water

👀 what was the most recent vivid dream that you had?

hm okay i think this one was from last night or the night b4??? and like???? idk???? i dont even know how 2 start tbh?

so im like hanging over at this two kid’s im a kid 2 i think place and idk we just talk and shit??? idk whomst the boys were tho

and then we get to a scene where its like??? at a train station???? and i go to the washroom to shit or smth idk thankfully i didnt shit myself irl

then i have to get onto the train which isnt even a train its like a carousel with seats??? and its like on a train track boys this is 2 much and i forgot to get ready my train card thing so the guy (who i was p sure was evil) waited for me to remove it so i got onto the transportation device lmao

and then once im seated i remember i forgot my jacket so i make like hand movements 2 the creep and hes runnig 2 me with my jakcet but the ride’s way too fast so i yell and say ill come back for it even tho im p sure i wasnt going 2

after that i wke up wild

☀️ what do you like the most about your best friend?

i dont have a best friend and all of my friends have their own unique qualities if i went into a rant abt them rn this will b so long

😘 talk about your crush or partner

[minhyuk voice] theres none

💁 if someone was rude to you, would you be rude back?

ya bc im petty but it really depends on the person

🌟 what do you like about yourself? (must choose at least 3 things!)

my personality (the good parts)

my values

my taste in friends (my Big Friends are either geminis or scorpios good)

🐾 what are you scared of most? how will you overcome it?

the dark and bitch isnt gonna turn off her night light any time soon

🎁 what never fails to make you happy?

seeing my favourite happy, listening to the music i like 

💙 what annoys you about some people?

i jjust went into a full out rant abt this on the other reply so ill be quiet now

😤 do you get angry easily?

yeahhhhh 

🐇 what do you always daydream about?

my faves tbh

🌻 if you could change 3 things about the world what would you change?

bad people , gone.

everybody only sends love and happy things on anon

i just want everyone 2 b nice & friendly wars of any sort dont exist and no one wants anybody dead

🍓 send me 4 names: kiss, befriend, kill or marry?

if u sent jae’s name earlier id have trouble so im glad

kiss: tihis is so fucking embarrassing wtf minhyku (mx) but only on the cheek basically everywhere except the lips or anyplace weird

befriend: brian :-0

kill: jae goodbye loser

marry: sanha we can yell every time we gotta turn the lights off

✈️ what is your dream city and why?

tokyo bc its NICE

☕️ talk about your ideal day

cant read

🌸 are you an introvert, ambivert or extrovert?

i suddenly thought of the word ambivore which made me think of the word vore i wanna delete im a both? mayb idk

💧 when was the last time you cried?

nov 3 bc my heart hurts whenever i see ppl being a bad friend

🎵 name 5 songs you love at the moment

oh worm

all alone - day6

with you - astro

dramarama - mx (even though it isnt out yet lmao)

run - bts (the superior bts song)

hellevator - / (i was rly gonna make this mixed languages but rip)

⚡️ if you had any superpower, what would it be and why?

to fly bc im basic

💛 if you could talk to your younger self, what would you say?

dont do that

💚 who are you jealous of and why?

nobody in general????????? 

💎 which one would you rather have more of: intelligence, beauty, kindness, wealth or bravery? why?

intelligence i have 2 live somehow what if my money gets stolen

🙊 what are you ashamed of?

my humor

🌺 which languages do you know? which do you want to learn?

i (barely) know chinese despite having 2 take it all my life legends only

i know english but im bad at that 2 and its my first language once again legends only

i wanna learn japanese and korean 

🍀 if you could be any fictional character’s best friend/lover, which fictional character would you be?

the cow from voltron 

☁️ talk about your dream universe.

weve already discussed this

💜 which acts of kindness are you going to do today?

oh w-0rm ok so im a regular anon on this persons blog and i wanted to send an ask but never got arnd doing it so im gonna send her one. soon/

🐬 if you could transform into any animal/magical creature, what would you be and why?

let me live my life as a furry and cat

🍄 talk about someone/something you really dislike

are u ready 4 me to b the meanest person yet bc i sure am lets fucking go

so theres this girl. and i know her (unfortunately) and ive known her since like 4 years ago and back then she was already pretty shit tbh

she cried bc she had to sit in between the “weird” and “dirty” girls in our class and she headass cried in front of them and everyone just bc she didnt like the arrangement?? shes called the “dirty” girl disgusting before and has made fun of her in front of everybody its just bad :-/

now. fast forward 3 years and in addition to still being disrespectful and rude, she now vocalizes her weird fantasies for her “oppas”??? some examples: 

“when i go watch __ perform im gonna climb onto stage and then my mother and my future husband will fight for me” and she calls those kpop idols weird shit and basically sexualizes them/???? she says the weirdest fucking shit on her ig story and tags them??????? 

another thing. she went to korea nd took a picture of a complete stranger and posted it on her public ig and called him her “oppa” and said that they had a “fun day together” despite the guy not knowing her at all???? she posted the pic of him??? i still dont get it tbh 

she wasnt even being ironic at all??? she calls herself & classmates “autistic” whenever she/others do smth dumb or mess up and its just sososososo fucking wrong

being one of the people to see how shes basically grown from bad to worse is something i dont fucking enjoy and i jsut want to leave my class already lmao 

ok but there are times where i do appreciate her because sometimes the class will be rly quiet and the teacher is basically talking 2 themselves but she’ll always respond w/o fail so thats great but its only bc she talks so damn much 

i just got a flashback to when she “jokingly” said she wanted to be a trainee for the rest of her life how do i just. god

😣 talk about some things that have been making you depressed/angry/anxious lately

we’ve once again already discussed this

🍪 what did you want to be as a kid, and what do you want to be now?

i wanted to be various things honestly?? ranging from an astronaut to a vet to an editor to an animator to other stuff i get influenced pretty easily so if i watch smth and i think its cool ill want 2 be that i guess?? ive been trying 2 get rid of that habit so now i have no clue what i wanna be

🍰 what are some of your favourite sugary foods?

sweets and chocolate cake

🍑 what are you obsessed with?

drinking water and staying hydrated

making my friends laugh is great 2

💘 what happens to you when you’re stressed?

acne LMAO 

😪 what are you sick of?

the usual

🙀 are you an adrenaline seeker?

i love scouting on sif and bandori so yeah 

💥 what are some unpopular opinions that you have?

lets not 

☔️ would you consider yourself a good person?

to a certain extent

😊 what do you like to do as hobbies?

use my phone???? send nice anons and comment on art/fics 

🎤 what’s the last song you hummed or sang by yourself?

none

🐝 what’s your worst trait? how are you planning to improve it?

my tolerance for ppl’s shit is so low

🎨 what do you always doodle when you’re bored?

my ocs

🐻 what’s stopping you from chasing your dreams?

i dont have a dream hence myself

🌷 what’s your mbti personality and why do you think it suits you?

infpt i dont rmb shit but yeah

🐶 send me 3 fictional people and I’ll choose my favourite!

falen i dont rmb what u sent

👑 who are your favourite celebrities and why?

i dont follow any :-o zendaya has had my heart ever since shake it off tho

🐴 opinion on day6?

ur rly gonna do this 2m e?

all alone just started playng this is terrible lets get it

so day6. a band i only found out about in late june (thank u boxy) and before this i only ever listened to bts and mx bc my friends stan them so i thought i was gonna expect boys dancing, the usual. 

i clicked i smile and i lost my fucking shit as soon as i saw the instruments because prior to day6 i was a big 5sos fan so this was rly resonating to me tbh and i was just !!! so fukcng excited??? i never intended to even get into day6 honestly??? but after witnessing how good they are and watching about all of the available mvs at that point i was completely in awe so i caved a created a stan twitter for them.

now, this isnt even the most of it. after becoming a fan i realized how much more these 5 boys are. they compose (if im not wrong) and brian writes lyrics for the songs each month because of their everyday6 project and again, im wow-ed because??? the amount of dedication???? they went from releasing 2 title tracks in 2 years to releasing 12 title tracks and 12 bside tracks in a single year. they havent released the december song yet but haviing to work on 2 or more songs in 4 weeks is fucking amazing if you ask me. 

theyre really talented and theyre just so versatile (am i using that word correctly) and each month their songs sound different. this project has given them the opportunity to try new things and you can hear the steady improvement in each of their vocals (dowoonie not so much since he barely gets lines, but we all know hes working hard) and if you listen to their debut song - kongchu and compare it to the version they released along with sunrise it just???? the drumming has even changed from the original version nd its so noticeable that whenever i hear kongchu from 2015 i know its the old ver

to add to those, they do vlives every week and although those vlives are always scheduled it still makes my day seeing them and watching them do the usual. 

one thing im upset about is that how they barely promote themselves, they rarely get on variety shows (the most is individual schedules) and we, as mydays never really get to know the boys so its harder to fall for them as a whole. i dont know if its jyp or day6′s decision but if this is how they want to be known for - their music only, then so be it. we still have jae’s presence on youtube, music access and asc. thats the most we can get and it makes it difficult for us to learn about the rest but thats okay.

another thing. their concerts are something i always look forward to (even though my interest has died down a bit;) their concerts are just so fun to listen to?? there’ll always be mydays who stream the concert so everyone else can listen to them play and they sound so good live it drives me crazy. mydays are always so hyped and whenever mydays sing along it just gives me goosebumps??? bc theyre so???? good????? 

tldr; day6 deserve more, following wise and promotions wise because they work so hard and once this project ends i hope they’ll manage to rest but still remain as a presence that will be known instead of returning to jyp’s dungeon.

🍋 do you consider yourself an emotional person?

there are days where i am more emotional than usual 

📚 share 3 books that you love and your favourite quote from them.

this is tiring

😔 what do you always do when you feel sad? does it help?

i sleep and boy it really helps

😌 what thoughts keep you going when you’re sad?

rest

🌍 which country do you live in?

singapore

🐧 describe yourself in 3 words

lame funny swag

🐵 which quotes changed you?

“rocky swag” - park minhyuk, 2017

💭 do you keep a diary?

nope

💫 who inspires you?

brian kang 

👻 do you believe in ghosts and why?

yes bc i love losing sleep

🎀 what’s your fashion sense like?

terrible

🎬 what are some of your favourite films?

i watched spiderman homecoming and i have no idea why i didnt see the plot twist coming but its GOOD watch it

🍦 what is one treasured childhood memory?

theres none lads

🐼 if you could meet anyone, who would it be and why?

all my internet buddies but sometimes i dont want to bc im kinda....gross

[chikotos]

speaking of That my mom is finally recognizing that when I say “i dont feel good” it doesnt mean i have a cold or sth its that Uh, im probably experiencing suicidal thoughts and cant express it well (or at least smth along those lines) and my house has been dirty cuz i havent cleaned in a while or i cant keep it clean and she n my sister cleaned an area and i repeatedly told her not to bc shes always using my sister to do things im not adequate enough to do on time and its rlly not fair to her even if she doesnt realize it cuz like shes only 12 & we dont ever even talk so she shouldnt have to take care of someone 5 years older than her.. and i was gonna clean but I basically slept all day so i could just clean alone at night when I feel safe to walk around the house . i wasnt even tired idk why i slept but now im eerily awake and maybe will be umless i force myself to sleep

its so lonely here and thats only hit me like this year cuz all the time before I would go through periods of hanging out after school maybe.. twice a year? and only hanging out with one person whod have many friends but theyd b my only friend which is a problem i tend to have. but it jst got to the point where im realizing, i think cuz i was in my schools drama program n exposed to lots of friendships, that im jst like ,really fucking lonely. Which is unfortunate because ive always been such an internal person at home and have been able to work creatively but thats all like leaving me? art doesnt make me happy anymore because i dislike my art so much and havent had a platform to share it in so long and i guess I thrive on other ppls opinions of it? and I definitely cant write anymore. I havent been able to zone in on an interest in MONTHS and thats left me creatively drained, a lot. 

I think im starting to rlly, RLLY redirect my complete attention from interests to ppl (which always ends well am i right lads) and it isnt fair to ppl who like, have others and need space and time etc or Uh, dont even know me. but its like a switch like , I can either be creative or i can feel loved and Boy Howdy, do i need both,

its just weird cuz im the only one in my family thats emoitonal like this and I think thats why i feel so isolated. like im not exxagerating when I say my dad has 0 friends tht arent family. my mom has work friends she will hang out with maybe 4 times a year not for work, but shes always complaining abt social situations which I can understand. maybe my siblings r like that too but my sisters young n focuses on minecraft n stuff n hangs out w friends more than me n we barely know each other so its not like id know, maybe my half brother is but whens the last time hes wanted to talk to me right. like i cry all the time and all it does is make my dad angry at memfor being incompetent and make my mom think its her fault and my sister confused and jst takes up everyones time

and its jst all v strange. like i was kinda raised 2 not have friends, inadvertantly i guess. i can remember my mom trying to make me feel better about something along the lines of u can b okay w/out friends if u have family but she jst told me friends dont matter and im never gonna talk to ppl i meet at my age as an adult, so it stuck w/ me and i started to make moral judgements on ppl on small things we could talk out like say, they use homophobic language sometimes but im sure theyd respect me enough to stop, but id make those judgements before we could befriend each other n take a chance, kinda to protect myself from attachments? but later in life ive found ppl who dont do stuff like that, and thats when i focus in on them im an unfair way to them and they r the only person/group of ppl in my life, etc etc and idk how to stop because im so scared of hanging out w/ most ppl alone i guess? but ill still be here, thinking about like example (namedrop bc he doesnt have me tumblr anyways) my friend jacob tht never hung out w/ me outside of school but i fuccin loved that kid n he just stopped talking to me over the summer n ignored my text i send first day of summer and now we see each other and talk briefly but its like he wont let us be friends anymore and smth like this always happens and its So

and tbh how can i expect it to not happen when i limit myself so much n they will have plenty of other close close friends when i dont? and i think ive gotten better but idk anymore. 

and uh, unrelated. I think my dog ive had for 12 years may have to end up being put down this year. hes got cataracts in both eyes and skin diseases and back problems and teeth problems (hes inbred) and hes losing his hearing too and for the past two weeks hes been peeing everywhere and we can let him out but he cant climb stairs anymore n he has to walk them to get to our yard and im the only one w/ the patience to pick him up (hes only 8 pounds) n put him in the yard bc my parents will jst scream at him n my sister doesnt like dogs and hes got seperation issues w me and whines when he cant be in my room which is the farthest from the door out n stuff. and its like rlly stressful my mom will scream at him in front of my sister n brother n me and the other day she said my dad grabbed him by the neck and threw him out on the concrete cuz he peed inside and hes so tiny that thats just gonna make everyting worse and its notmlike i can stop them bc why would anyone listen to me and hed prob b fine for s few more years if he lived in a patient house with ppl who would take him to the vet but theyre prob gonna put him down early snd its gonna b so weird w/out him

when i showered earlier i took s razor with me w/ the intent to cut my thighs, and i did a little, but i never ever draw blood wnd its strange. why am i given these urges when im so fucking terrified of blood. itll still leave marks n stuff but it makes me feel weak ? n ill bruise myself up instead but its never the same. and im such an advocate for help w self harm but i cant for myself. its like i subconsciously want 2 get caught ? idk. i did throw my razor away though and the others i have r rusty and im not THAT much of a dumbass so i dont have options to self harm anymore unless i get new ones. lifehack

and uh lol, having no schedule n it being summer my eating habits r SHIT. it always hurts to eat p much, its at different times n most of the time i just snck only or i dont eat for hours n see black spots n stuff. and when i dont eat its not a body image thing (im nt rlly happy w my nody but its not sth not eating will help with) its cuz i dknt wanna go upstairs for food where my dad is n the snacks r downstairs so its easier, or cuz i forget or cuz i like, want to punish myself? but im too lazy to self harm. its weird

n since ive stopped id’ing as ace officially my internalized lesbophobia has gotten so much worse . im so repressed and lost ans sad, nothinng rly makes sense? I either fall in love w/ anyone who flirts with me or i focus on someone who ill never fucking talk to or see again and imagine countless scenarios n set myself up to b sad. i seek validation from ppl on it but nothhing comes out right or i just cant say it, because other than when i make myself the butt of gay jokes i just cant sven get the words out of my throat that im gay cuz im jst so ashamed and disgusted with myself. ive been looking at pictures of guys lately cuz ive been trying to force myself to like them. back when i thought i was pan it always felt safer bc i could always just love a cis guy or whatever and everything would b okay for my family ykno. and its such a shameful thing for me bc my irl friends who im out to, most see me as v confident abt it at least a little bc im loud abt it u kno, and make all sorts of jokes, and i jst know so many would b surprised or like sad abt that

i want to stop liking girls so much. like holy shit. i have so many straight girl friends and i hate it when they flirt with me because lik, none r my type so i feel nothing but then i feel like i shiuld then feel like No i shouldnt then feel like i shouldnt even be around them bc im a gross disgusting creepo dyke predator. n they always use the excuse of me having a gf so its fine id never hit on them well like, now im single so i have to be DOUBLE careful not to b affectionate w them as im w all my friends and itsssssssssssssmjshfjhdjfhsjdhjshdjshdjhsjdhsjhdjshdk

and i like, think abt this girl alot n yea its romantic even thomwe never fucking talked n rlly i do that w lots of girls and its making me lose out on friendships bc i wanna b their friends somehow bc i think theyre very cool n stuff but i cant stop hodling on to stupid daydreams n idealizations i get to distract me when im sad n its jst stupid like i know its dumb but guess whos boutta keeeeeeppppp doin it??!!!!! boy!!!

and i try so damn hard to talk feeling out, n talk abt who im attracted to n stuff w ppl, n i try so hard to gush but i cant cuz smth comes outta my mouth and then i cant speak past that and no one ends up rlly knowing how i feel, bc ANY time i talk abt anytingngay related abt me its what happens. and i listen to others talking abt tht stuff and i jsut get so god damn JEALOUS bc idk how to express myself 

all these inadequacies n shit is making it rlly hard to see how,im gonna b on my own n its always been like this. at TWELVE YEARS OLD i came to fhe fucking conclusion that i was just gonna kill myself when i turned 18 so i didnt have to deal with all this and i was OKAY WITH IT and i just went through life knowing that and hiding it and so rarely questioning my inevitable suicide as a childc so instead of dealing with all that n my problems n getting better i let myself get worse cuz uh, fuck it right

idk its all just occured to me how im not a fully functioning human being, in seberal if not all aspects of my life, its weird. now that I actively want to live and realize i uh Kinda have to simce ill b the legal guardian of my brother its all very scary

sorr i was all over the place and all the typos i didnt mean anyof them n im not crytyping like, i cried a bit but i jst hate typing kn thsi shitty tablet keyboard, n dont wanna spellcheck. if u read through comgratulations also please dont message me abt like the self harm junk n my dog n stuff like, whatever ur abt to say. I Know my guy 

time to go uhhhhhhhhhhh daydream about impossible gay shit with guilt in the back of my mind

[deafeningcreationperson-blog]

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Insurance agent won't write the homeowner's coverage she wants?

My fiance owns an old home in northern Ohio and was paying over $1,300 a year for homeowner's insurance until last year. She can't afford over $100 a month in premiums so I looked into trying to get a lower rate. All three agents that I contacted about the matter assumed a replacement cost for her house of around $157,000 which resulted in premiums of exactly what she had last year. The very idea of insuring her house for $157,000 is absurd for two reasons. The first is that I personally built a house in an upscale neighborhood which was almost three times as large and also had an attached garage. I sold that home for around $150,000 and made about $40,000 profit. The second reason that $157,000 is absurd is that any day of the week you can buy a much better house in the neighborhood for less than $60,000. I was able to find a lower rate of around $600 a year through the Ohio Fair Plan website by assuming a realistic replacement cost of $60,000 and not including such things as jewelry coverage (she has no valuable jewelry), and other coverages that don't make sense. Unfortunately, and after contacting several insurance agencies, not a one will write the coverage as specified. The gave me the flimsiest of excuses. It appears to me as if all the insurance companies doing business in our area may have colluded to lock in homeowner insurance rates far higher than is justified. I hope someone out there can tell me if there are laws that require some insurance company to issue a policy as specified by Ohio Fair Plan. Thanks in advance...""

Im looking for car insurance?

coverage for individuals who are less able to afford auto insurance

Can you deny the other parent taking the kids because of no car insurance?

I have a friend who recently found out that his ex-wife doesn't have car insurance. He's telling her that she cannot come pick up the kids because not having insurance is illegal. It's stupid and petty, but would it hold water in court?""

Mexican car insurance?

If I drive into Mexico, do I need to get insurance for my car from a Mexican insurance company or is the American insurance valid there as well?""

Whats a basic cheap Car Insurance for a 18 year old?

Hi I am 18 I live in New York and have had my lisense for about 6 months now and my insurance is pretty expensive like 1200 for HALF A YEAR which is crazy so I was wondering if anyone know of a cheap insurance company for basic insurance thats maybe 1200 for a whole year or cheaper. I also drive a 1994 Saab 900 S Hatchback 2 door

Why should someone who is say 40 get cheaper car insurance than a 17 year old?

If for instance they passed on the same day, why should a 17 year be categorised as less responsible than a 40 year old in terms of driving ability? Particularly when chances are due to the insurance gaps and most probably the earnings of these two hypothetical people the 40 year old would be able to afford a more powerful car...""

How much is car insurance in NY state if your 17?

Ive been looking for how much car insurance is in ny if your 17 but i cant find it. My mom doesnt want to pay for it so i have to pay for it myself. Can someone tell me how much it costs?

What is the medical exam and questions for life insurance like?

We are looking into life insurance. I am wondering what the medical exam and questions are like? How much more typically is it if you have a medical issue (like high blood pressure) compared to if you have good health? We are in our late 20's.

How much money do you typically get back from your insurance company if your car is totaled in an accident?

I was at fault, my car is the only one totaled. No one was injured...""

What would be the cheapest auto insurance for me? i am 19 and drive a 1998 camaro z28?

What would be the cheapest auto insurance for me? i am 19 and drive a 1998 camaro z28?

Cheap car insurance for a teenager .?

I WILL BE GETTING MY LEARNERS PERMIT SOON... GOT DRIVERS ED AND WILL BE GETTING BEHIND THE WHEEL TRAINING.AND LOOKG FORWARD TO DRIVING A 2008 SCION TC ..ABOUT HOW MUCH WILL INSURANCE BE A MONTH... ANY STUDENT DISCOUNTS I CAN GET...?? ..OH YEAH IF IT HELPS ..I LIVE IN CALIFORNIA

Motorcycle Insurance in Ontario help?

Hello, I am a 20 year old female looking for motorcycle insurance for a Honda CBR 250r with an M2. I have never owned a bike before and have a clean driving record. Like most people my age it is nearly impossible to get insurance that is affordable if you are under the age of 25. If anyone knows of an insurance company/brokerage that would give a quote below 2.5k a year please give me any way I can contact them. I live in the Ottawa area if that is any help as well.""

Cheap basic health insurance for 21 year old?

I am currently with National Health paying $408 a month for I don't know what. I've been on this insurance by my parents since before I was 18 and I just can't afford it, plus it doesn't cover me for things I need most! I have tried filling out applications but since I was not responsible for my medical records before, I have no access to dates, doctors names prescriptions names, etc. to fill out the forms. I am looking for coverage that would include generic prescriptions & annual exams. Since I don't have access of my previous medical history, I'm looking to see if there is anyone that can help me with insurance WITHOUT that information from me. I'm not sure if this is true but I've heard that some people can just pull your medical records and and see what you qualify for, so if you or anyone knows anything about this I would really appreciate your input.""

Car insurance ? Can my girlfriend be a policy holder on one car and named driver on another?

Can my girlfriend be a policy holder and main driver on her car and a named driver on mine? Will this affect her insurance in anyway?

What v8 is cheap on insurance for an 18 year old?

I'm an 18 year old guy on my parents' insurance and I have a 2003 Mitsubishi lancer that's probably not going to last me that long so I am looking for another car. I would like a v8 because I like the sound and I want descent performance but I don't want it to be too much on insurance. I was thinking about a Lincoln ls v8. Does anyone have any other ideas? Thanks.

Car insurance price ?

- so ill be 18 next sateday; im on my grandmas insurance now. i plan on getting my own car & my own insurance in 2 or 3 months. i have already had two wrecks ; how much will my insurance be ? & yes i'm a female

Do you need insurance for a driver's permit?

I'm hearing different things from all different places and rather than sifting through all of the crap at the dmvedu website I thought I'd ask you guys and get a straight answer. Do I need insurance to get my permit, or just for my liscense? I live in California, by the way, if that makes any difference with the law.""

Car Insurance for teens?

How much would it cost monthly for a teenage girl? You don't have to be exact but make an estimate.

Whats the cheapest way to haul my truck around.?

jsut got a mud truck with no titlte or insurance obviously so i need to tow the truck to the woods. whats gunna be the cheapest way?

Cheap car insurance....?

whats the cheapest car insurance for teens

Who really has the cheapest car insurance?

its gotta be cheap

When will the U.S. government stop the gender discrimination on Car insurance?

http://www.nytimes.com/2011/03/02/business/global/02insure.html The court of justice of the European Union (CJEU) has ruled that from December 2012, insurers will be prevented from charging different premiums on the basis of an insured person's gender. When will america pass a similar law. Not everyone is the same. Girl drivers are the worst, how on earth could their insurance be lower than ours when half the time they are in the car they are laughing so hard into their cellphone that they can't see anything but the roof of their cars. Mix a bunch of girls in one car and it gets even worse. And don't try to say it's because of statistics, obviously since there are more male drivers than female drivers there are going to be more crashes and etc.""

Temporary auto insurance for move?

I'll be moving to Oakland California from Phoenix Arizona and I was wondering if there is such a thing as temporary auto insurance. My vehicle is not currently insured, but I can get a temporary registration from AZ DMV. That would allow me to drive my car for my move. I will be pulling a small utility trailer. I don't want to get a full 6 month insurance policy because as soon as I get to Oakland, I won't be driving the car at all. Are there any insurance companies that offer a really short policy (2 days, or maybe a week) ? I only need insurance for those two days, and so that I can get temporary registration from the DMV. Does anyone know if such a thing exists, and if so what company?""

How much homeowner's insurance do I need?

I am purchasing a peice of property and a modular home that is not new, it is maybe 10 years old. I am doing the whole owner finance/contract for deed deal so I am having to pay 120,000 for the place. I think it is worth less. But hey, that is what bad credit gets you. Anyway he said I would have to buy homeowners insurance and I asked how much and he said 120,000. This home itself without the land especially is not where near worth 120,000!!!! Why would I need that much? And if something happened to home would it be right for insurance company to pay 120,000 for a 10 year old modular home. May be even a little older for all I know but it is not 120,000!!!! What is the minumum that I should get? I don't have much money and never had homeowner's insurance.

Cheap car insurance for 20 year old?

im new to this im 20 getting my license in ont canada and need insurance i am very cheap will be buying a car 500-700$ and want the cheapest insurance possable il fix my own car if its possible i just want to be legal cause insurance is ridiculous ty everyone

Wher should I get my car insurance from?

I have seen a lot of car insurance commercials but none of them have convinced me which one is clearly the best you can tell me one even if there is no commercial for it and also does aaa work

Best car & car insurance for a 20 year old?

I'm 20 years old and just started having driving lessons. I'm thinking of buying a car but have no idea about car insurance. I know it would be higher for 17-19 year olds but do I qualify as a young driver if I'm 20 even though it's a first car and just starting as a driver? I love Volkswagen Beetles but want a car on which the insurance won't be high. Apparently the insurance is cheaper on classic cars...? I'm a girl and live in Greater (West) London. I don't know what it depends on and what car I should go for without having to pay a fortune. If you could help me out that would be great Thanks!!! :)

Pregnant with no insurance?

im only 6 1/2 wks pregnant but im a planner. i have no insurance and do not qualify for any government health so we are paying the hospital $200 a month til my baby comes to cover all the ob bills and hospital bills and my 6 wks check up after the birth. my question is......is there a such thing as infant insurance? ive looked all around online and cannot find insurance that will cover a baby til their first birthday. i know that a baby has to go to the dr alot the first year so i'd love for our child to have insurance. my hubbys work does not offer insurance. thanks for your help

Can i lease a car with my own credit but insure it with my parents insurance?

can i lease a car with my own credit but insure it with my parents insurance? i am under my parents insurance policy.what i would like to do is lease a car with my credit, and insure the car with my parents insurance (which i'm under).is this possible?""

What is the most affordable insurance for an amateur athlete ?

What is the most affordable insurance for an amateur athlete ?

Car Insurance? best option?

I recently have came back from a trip abroad, and well. I'm looking into car insurances and seeing if I can get any better deals and what other way than the internet! So here's a little about my Insurance right now. I'm paying about 761.82 every 6 months for just liability. I recently got into a small accident last year which raised it about 100$.00. Even though all that was repaired was his fender. it' whatever. I'm 19 and I drive an 01 PONTIAC Sunfire SE So you think this is enough or am I paying too much? Oh and I'm with GEICO""

Can someone help me shop for health insurance?

I'm looking for health insurance for myself, husband and our 4 yr old daughter. I am a full time student, so we only have one income coming in and its not great but its not too bad. So we are on a budget but we really need insurance!!! Can someone help me shop for a good insurance company? how much will it be a month and what will it cover?""

My dentist wants me to pay up front and have my insurance company reimburse ME?

I just went to the dentist today and had a filling. I have dental insurance, but the dentist wanted payment up front for the services. The receptionist said they require payment in full for the services on the day of service, and then they will send the insurance claim in to the company and eventually I will receive a reimbursement check. Isn't that what INSURANCE IS FOR??? So you DON'T have to pay????? I don't handle the cash in my family, so after much arguing about requiring payment up front, the receptionist agreed to let me walk out withouth paying, but expects me to have my husband pay by tomorrow. It just doesn't seem right that the dentist gets cash up front for the work, and then makes ME wait to get reimbursed by the insurance company... what the heck?""

What is the cheapest insurance for a teenager?

I'm currently 18 looking for the cheapest possible insurance on my car

How much do you pay for insurance for your car?

How much do you pay for insurance for your car?

Where have you gotten your cheapest car insurance from? Who has the best rates?!?

Where have you gotten your cheapest car insurance from? Who has the best rates?!?

""Under Obama's socialized medicine, what would happen to those that work for health insurance companies?""

What would happen to those who work in medical billing & coding, claims departments for insurance companies, underwriting, etc... Wouldn't this just raise unemployment?""

Is car insurance cheaper if your a dad?

i'm soon to be a father of two and was wondering if it makes insurance any cheaper, does anybody know?""

Do you have to get insurance before you can get a license plate?

I just bought a used car off of someone and drove it home. Luckily it was at night because the car doesnt have a license plate. This is my first car and none of my family seems willing to answer the phone today to help me. What am I supposed to do first? When I looked up the cost of plates, it said that when purchasing the plates insurance must be presented at the time of purchase. So that means I have to get insurance before I can get the license plates right?""

Where can i find insurance for a barber shop?

what are the best insurance companies for barbershop insurance? where should i look?

Car insurance do i have to tell them ??

am trying to fill in a form for a quote, i was involed in a crash which wasnt my fault, the other person admitted responsability, do i have to declare this as a claim ?? or do i not mention this, am trying to get a quote for this years car insurance Thanks""

What insurance do you have ?

we are looking for a good family insurance that could have dental coverage and eye care coverage as well as health any suggestions ? (ps family of four)

Aussie car insurance?

who are the cheapest car insurance company for aussie p platers also.. are there any companies that offer reduced term cover.. id like 6 months insurance so i can take up a years insurance once thats finished to break up insurance and rego

Owner of car but not main driver on insurance ?

Hi I'm 18 in a month, and I'm buying a car on finance and I am paying because it will be my car. My dad will use it the same amount as I will be using it until I have it paid off then it will be completely mine. I was wondering can I be the registered owner of the vehicle but be a named driver on the insurance? I know about fronting but of we drive it equally why wouldn't my dad be the main driver as it is cheaper? But does it mean he has to be the registered owner? Thanks""

How long can i drive without a car insurance ?

lets say i bought a new car, can i for instance drive it for a week without having a car insurance ?""

Abortion insurance?

I'm doing an essay on abortion and had a quick question about insurance. Does Obamacare cover abortion at planned parenthood in Seattle, Wa?""

Is Future Generali(Future group) insurance good?

Hi, I am planning to take a life insurance policy, can I go for Future group's new venture Future Generali or is it safe to go with LIC.Kindly suggest me on the basis of how good they're in Service, and claims. Thanks, Jagadish""

Does U.S. car insurance (Allstate) cover you in Puerto Rico?

I'm going to be renting a vehicle from Thrifty car rental in Puerto Rico next week and I would like to just use my own insurance for the car. Does anyone know if Allstate covers driving in Puerto Rico? Thanks.

I can't find car insurance for under 5000?

I'm 17, and I understand my age is of course affecting the price of my car insurance, but I am getting 5000 quotes for a 1.0L Vauxhall Corsa 1998. I am expecting it to be high, but not that high for a crappy car. So could any one recommend any insurance company who will hopefully cut that down to 2000-3000?""

How much homeowner's insurance do I need?

I am purchasing a peice of property and a modular home that is not new, it is maybe 10 years old. I am doing the whole owner finance/contract for deed deal so I am having to pay 120,000 for the place. I think it is worth less. But hey, that is what bad credit gets you. Anyway he said I would have to buy homeowners insurance and I asked how much and he said 120,000. This home itself without the land especially is not where near worth 120,000!!!! Why would I need that much? And if something happened to home would it be right for insurance company to pay 120,000 for a 10 year old modular home. May be even a little older for all I know but it is not 120,000!!!! What is the minumum that I should get? I don't have much money and never had homeowner's insurance.

Can anyone suggest me a auto insurance company?

i have japan based luxury car. my friend saying pay insurance in a good company. so i am searching company? thank you.

What are insurance points?

I got 2 tickets today in NJ.One was for no seatbelt and one was for speeding.It was for going 5 miles over limit!The speeding is 2 points.But my driver record is perfect,except for this speeding ticket. I know it gets reported to motor vehicles,but what about insurance points?How does that work?Will my insurance go up?""

Insurance company wants to total my car/not insure it.?

So my dad rear ended someone really softly, but it was a truck that he rear ended with a hitch or something that damaged the grill and the bumper. Problem is, I put a total of $2700 to have transmission replaced and the engine repaired after the timing belt broke and caused damage over the last 2-3 months. It is a 2004 dodge neon and the body to these things are flimsy to begin with. I'm taking it in Monday to get it looked at better, but they said from what they could see it might be a total loss. Which means its only gonna be worth $2000. they said they have to replace the hood, the grill, and the bumper and other stuff which is **** because I know people who could fix these problems for less than $500. they aren't even visibly bad, a few dents in the places i mentioned but when i took it in they reacted like i had been in a head on collision going 50 mph. It runs perfectly, we wouldn't have even reported it except we were worried the guy might claim injury after the fact (which he did). What can I do? This is my only car, and I am already in debt from student loans. $2000 isn't gonna buy me a new car. How can I convince them not to total it when I take it in?""

Car insurance?

suppose a 24 yr old is paying $600 a year for liablility car insurance. how much will this person be paying when they reach 25 years old?

""I need some sort of health coverage, help me find an affordable option?""

I work full time for my company, but part-time in one postition and part-time in another still makes me a part-time employee and ineligible for benefits. I make a little too much for medicaid, but not enough to buy a plan that covers me. I lost my last health insurance 2 years ago when I lost my old job while I was having surgeries on my hand to fix a bone defect. My problem is now that I'm having a lot of problems with my hand and will need another surgery to fix the problem. I can't afford to pay 30k for it and no doctor will do it because it's not an emergency eventhough I'm in pain. I know that I'll have to be insured for a year before it will cover a pre exhisting. The hospital turned me down for any type assistance, and even if it did I the doctors are all seperate so I'm still in a lot of debt plus physical therapy is expensive. What can I do?""

Do mopeds in California require insurance?

Do mopeds in California require insurance?

Car insurance am I covered?

My 5yr old son got in driver seat and mashed my gas and held it and it blew up my engine.I have full coverage and wondered would this be covered.I know it sounds dumb but its gonna cost me over 3k to fix.

What does the car insurance go buy for grades?

does the car insurance deducation for grades go by all them added up such as a G.P.A. or all of them individual. also what grade do you need for the deducation i think it's a B but im not sure. fyi im a boy and have an 86 GPA

Does a parking ticket effect my insurance?

I received a ticket today for not cramping my wheels to the curb while parking uphill. Will that effect my insurance? And will my parking violation appear anywhere on my insurance statement or any car paperwork? Thank you :)

Insurance on parents car.....?

If I get my permit next week, how can I drive it if I don't have my name under the insurance for the car?""

What insurance do I need?

I have set up a limited company focusing on training and personal coaching. Do I need public liability insurance? Do I need insurance to cover if I am ill? Is there anything else to consider? Where do I buy these products? Thanks

What am I supposed to do about health insurance?

Originally, my daughter and I had health insurance and everything was fine until more than a few months ago we lost it because there was paperwork I was supposed to send in by a certain date, but I didn't know it, so they cut us off.... well, I applied more than a few months ago for health insurance and I still have yet to hear anything, despite all my efforts to call them and leave numerous messages... I even talked to someone at the front desk and she told me the day I called was the 45th day, which is the last day and then I would hear something from my worker in a week.......well its been 2 months since then and not a word!! I don't know what to do. My daughter is 2 and she needs physical therapy and just really needs to see a doctor.. I started working part time a month ago...my husband is still looking for a job but obviously we cannot afford insurance... this is ridiculous. My daughter should have health insurance by now.. What can I do to get an answer from these people? anything""

Is it possible to get affordable life insurance and dental insurance if i am not employed?

.........and if so, roughly how much money would this cost per month?""

Does filing a claim raise auto insurance rate?

My car was vandalized while I slept. Luckily my car shut itself off when it did not recognize the key. I filed a claim with the insurance. I had comprehensive coverage. When it was time to renew, my rates increased. What is the point of having insurance if you are discouraged from filing a claim? I thought if it was not my fault, my rates do not increase?""

How much workers compensation insurance costs in california?

workers compensation insurance cost

How good is your health care insurance?

Are your premiums are too high, coverage too low, or you simply cannot afford healthcare insurance and have no coverage at all.. Do your elected officials have healthcare insurance? Of course they do. After all you voted for them to not only get more paid vacation days per year, work less days; not have worries about homelessness, hunger, gas prices, food prices, unemployment or unemployment wages, bancruptcy, gas prices, welfare, retirement or health care insurance. In short you have voted in favor of them living better than you. Why should you be left out? Here is a start towards a solutuion. Now you too can be on your way to better healthcare coverage. Let's get America rolling again. - Lee Iacocca After all a goverment can only be as healthy as its citizens. http://www.michaelmoore.com/sicko/what-can-i-do/health-card/ I hope this helps.""

What is the best car insurance around?

I am planning to enroll my new car. I want a complete coverage but at a reasonable cost. I don't wanna be spending too much just for my car insurance. Help please...Thanks a lot.

""Should i get health insurance now, or wait for Obamacare?

Also about how much will insurance cost a healthy 19 year old male who exercises regularly and eats well.

Car Insurance Change?

Hi. I currently own a car insurance with Commerce Insurance Company. It will be expiring this month end. I am thinking to change to Progressive Insurance starting next month. Will this switching of Insurance will be a smooth process? please advice the steps. thanks

What's the best life insurance company? why?

What's the best life insurance company? why?

""I'm 21 with the Gerber Life Insurance policy plan, should I continue?""

I got a mail indicating that I am not the owner of this policy (my parents started this for me when I was young). So I have a few questions, now that I am 21, do I have 10,000$ worth of life insurance for the rest of my life (without having to continue paying?) Why would I want to continue paying if this is just here as insurance in case for my burial costs.. isn't 10k enough for that? If I stop paying will I still have this 10,000 dollars in life insurance, or am I being forced to pay in order to keep it?""

Whats affordable health insurance to get for myself and son?

my job offers health insurance that is way to expensive and i cant afford the 666$ a month they wanna charge how do i go about applying for something that ll cover me and my son and is actually affordable

What is the best insurance company to work for?

I'm 19 and i have also thought getting into sales would be exciting. there is other reason but doesn't really matter. Anyway I'm hoping that there is a good Insurance company that has a good training program and allows entry level people to work hard and succeed. A company that wants people to succeed. So far every agent i have talked to has said their business is the one to be in so i just want some not so bias opinions. seems like all the insurance companies just want to get UN knowing teens ( like myself ) in and work them for 6 months to a year and suck them dry of all the money they have. i understand that you have to work and its not just six figures in the first year.

How much higher would car instance be if I hit a housei?

I lost control of my car as I was pulling into my girl friends house. I want to know if it would be worth it to call the insurance company our just take out a loan for the repairs

How can I get cheaper car insurance as first time driver?

I am 27 years old and have postponed my driving up until now. My driving instructor told me that I am ready to take my test, so I am starting to look at the prospects of a car. I checked online using Go Compare and I can't find anything under 1800 for a Fiesta 1.2 What I was wondering is what will be taken into consideration regarding insurance. Should I perhaps do it by phone? Will my age help... Any advice is more than welcome. I know the first year is hard, but perhaps there is a way to make it a bit easier. I am doing the pass plus and I added to the search to have an excess of 500. Please help out with some advice. Thanks. Vince""

How much homeowner's insurance do I need?

I am purchasing a peice of property and a modular home that is not new, it is maybe 10 years old. I am doing the whole owner finance/contract for deed deal so I am having to pay 120,000 for the place. I think it is worth less. But hey, that is what bad credit gets you. Anyway he said I would have to buy homeowners insurance and I asked how much and he said 120,000. This home itself without the land especially is not where near worth 120,000!!!! Why would I need that much? And if something happened to home would it be right for insurance company to pay 120,000 for a 10 year old modular home. May be even a little older for all I know but it is not 120,000!!!! What is the minumum that I should get? I don't have much money and never had homeowner's insurance.

What should I do if my attorney is not paying me my insurance money(california)?

ok.. I've filed a claim against my home insurance company through a lawyer. It was a house related claim. I was told my claim was settled and signed the settlement paper from attorney's office about 5 months ago and still have not received the money yet. So I called the actual insurance company and found out that the money was paid out 4 months ago. When I called my attorney's office, 4 different agents told me different stories and I noticed they might be trying to keep the money. is there any way to file a claim against lawyers? Please help""

Will my insurance cost more this year?

hello people ... so i was wondering if anyone thinks my insurance will cost more this year. i have a motorbike honda cbr125. last year it cost me 450 to insure. looking at the insurance this year it says around 550-650 will mine be this much?

About how much would the insurance for 16 year old driving a 1997 Chevrolet Camaro?

In Missouri about how much would car insurance be a 16 year old with good grades be for a 1997 chevy camaro, or a 1997 pontiac firebird. And also, what is the cheapest car for a 16 year old to insure? Thanks""

How can I find out the legality of an auto insurance advertised online?

I''m shopping around for my car insurance online and I don't know how to find out which one is good legally. Please help.

Do i need birth certificate to buy car insurance?

Do i need birth certificate to buy car insurance?

Will my insurance go up a lot?

I got into a fender bender in the parking lot at the mall yesterday I reverse parked and i was pulling out and I couldn't really see because a huge hummer was parked next to me I drove up a little bit to see, and a big van that was driving fast just hit me I don't exactly know whose fault it was, but I'm only 16 and I got my license a week ago And I drive a 2012 Honda civic Will my insurance go up a lot? I didn't get a ticket but I have a huge dent that's the size of a basketball on the front corner of my car And my hood is bent a little""

How can I make car insurance lower?

I have 6 points on my license at the moment, which everyone already knows has made my car insurance skyrocket. As points get taken off my license will the car insurance go down? If not does anyone have any advice on any kind of way I can make my insurance cheaper?""

I had medical insurance but did not submit the bills till after the insurance was done new insurance wont cove?

Any help would be appreciated this was actually a few years ago but my dad claimed he was working on it but nothing has been done. Its already gone to an outside collections agency. It was in California

What is a reasonable price for a teen's first car?

I'm hoping to get my license soon, but figure, there isn't a whole lot I can do with it without a car of my own. I'm really not sure how low the prices of cars get without being a piece of junk. Are there decent cars that start in the thousands, or is everything pretty much over ten thousand? What difference does it make if it's used? I'm not looking for a dream vehicle, just something for the next few years to get myself from a to b. The only knowledge I have so far is that my mom's toyota was around $30,000 brand new (and I'm definitely not looking to spend that much), so that's basically what I'm comparing everything else to. Any advice on the basics is greatly appreciated. Thanks!""

Does my son have to be put on my car insurance?

My son is 16 and he is driving my husbands car and my husband tells him that he cant drive the car everyday because he is not on the insurance. Does he have to be on the insurance?

Where can I get affordable insurance for my girlfriend?

There could be a chance she might be pregnant in the future. Where can I get affordable maternity insurance?

How does anyone afford medical and maternity insurance???!!!!!?

i live in nc and need to purchase health insurance could anyone give me any recommendations toward affordable insurance.

Motorbike insurance cost?

hi all i have just passed my bike test and was wondering how much insurance would be for a 125, 250 range engine im 18, 0ncb any suggestions would be good cheers""

What is the best web-site to get insurance leads from?

mostly health leads, but some life leads""

Car Insurance in Kentucky?

i've got a 98 red dodge advenger,, one of the sports one.. i'm 16 and my parents are going to make me pay for my insurance i think, i make good grades, like a,b,c's. but does anyone know how much insurance would be? we have allstate.""

Health Insurance Questions?

Hi, I'm a freshman in college and this was the first time I've had health insurance and I have a couple questions I can't find answers to online. 1) Does health insurance apply to a visit about a week before you got your insurance card (and maybe a week before it was valid, I'm not sure) 2) If you didn't provide an emergency room with your health insurance information and they've sent you the full bill, can you still notify them of the insurance? Thanks!""

Insurance for 2001 celica?

considering everything else equal (age, experience, w/e), how is the price of insurance for a 2001 toyota celica compared to cars of the same price range? eg accord, sports cars, compact cars, midsize""

How to fine best insurance companies ?

How to fine best insurance companies ?

Insurance claim and deductible questions?

I scratched somebody's car while they were parked, so it was my fault. Damages were minor. Since my car is old and I've dropped coverage on my own car (I have coverage for the other car), I have no plan to fix mine. And the other party offered to settle on our own and not go to the insurance company. So, the questions are: 1. If I claim to my insurance company, how much out-of-pocket do I have to pay? His deductible? Or $0 (since I am not fixing mine)? 2. Would my insurance rate will go up even though I have a clean, no at-fault, claim for at least 10 years? 3. Is this settle on our own legal? And anything to watch out for? 4. What would you do if you were me? Thanks much!""

How much does liability insurance pay?

Ok so I got into a car accident the other day and now I got this letter in the mail from her lawyer asking to see my insurance policy and whether or not i have liability insurance. Since I have full coverage on my auto insurance I was wondering how much would it cover?

Yamaha dt 125 insurance?

hi, i have been looking on ebay and i have found that i may want to buy a yamaha dt 125. i have been riding a speedfight 50 for a year and a half however i did buy a ajs 125 which by the way was a terable bike. i was wondering what the insurance usually costs for a dt 125, i have already changed my insurance once in the past 12 months to swap back from the ajs to my scooter (i blew the gear box) so that may effect it. thank you so much for any responce i get (PS sorry about the bad english, it all looks the same to me being dyslexic)""

Why is motorcycle insurance insane for everything but cruiser types?

I called Geico and they quoted me on a bunch of motorcycles. Cruisers were the only reasonable ones, but I thought the other types (sport, standard, touring, offroad) that I got quotes on were riduculously high! I even asked about the ninja 250 and that was 4 times the amount of a 750 shadow. How is that possible?""

Is it possible to apply for Medical Insurance?

Is it possible to apply for Medical Insurance at any time during the year? Company I work for is offering Blue Shielld Blue Cross I think is too expensive, 306 a monthly for Wife and Me. Looking for affordable insurance, I make 27,000 a year, thanks for your help...""

Car Insurance (No car)?

So this might sound a bit dumb, but I was wondering what are the steps to getting car insurance before you own a car. The problem I have is I am afraid of wrecking the car on the drive home from car lot and not having insurance!""

How much would my car insurance payments be?

I'm thinking about getting a 2011/2012 Hyundai Elantra and was wondering how much would my car insurance payments be with Geico, Allstate, or Statefarm? Also what would you recommend?""

How much homeowner's insurance do I need?

I am purchasing a peice of property and a modular home that is not new, it is maybe 10 years old. I am doing the whole owner finance/contract for deed deal so I am having to pay 120,000 for the place. I think it is worth less. But hey, that is what bad credit gets you. Anyway he said I would have to buy homeowners insurance and I asked how much and he said 120,000. This home itself without the land especially is not where near worth 120,000!!!! Why would I need that much? And if something happened to home would it be right for insurance company to pay 120,000 for a 10 year old modular home. May be even a little older for all I know but it is not 120,000!!!! What is the minumum that I should get? I don't have much money and never had homeowner's insurance.

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