#thats her act of love too…
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I think what endears me to Menelaus and Helen as a pairing is that in the end, their ending is always the same: Menelaus spares Helen. Whether Helen was forced, whether she was willing, no matter how much or little influence Aphrodite had to her decisions, Menelaus forgives Helen and lays his blade aside. Maybe it was the hardest decision he had to do, or maybe it was the easiest. It’s that simple act of love worthy of the poets.
#helen in the iliad *knows* menelaus will forgive her… and yet she cries to his feet all the same#out of shame. out of guilt. out of love#thats her act of love too…#its like 4am the time im most vulnerable to menelen thoughts#menelaus#helen of sparta#greek mythology#the iliad#epic cycle#homeric cycle
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clora's fav time to tease seb is when they're busy or in public and he has to restrain himself......girly knows what she's doing😇 (from my vellmore oneshot^^)
#he gives as good as he gets....😉(eventually)#i have another super similar scene like this in my current wip oneshot too BAHAHA... i just love teasing seb and riling him up😇#whenever i mention that clora finds seb the most irresistible when HES trying to resist her.... thats just me projecting LMFAO#WEAR HIM DOWN CLORA😈😈😈#i just love stuff like that ILL NEVER GET TIRED OF IT#its even hotter to me bc seb is usually all over clora so when hes TRYING to resist and hold back its like no...U WILL NOT SUCCEED#CLORA WILL MAKE CERTAIN OF IT😇WHILE STILL ACTING LIKE A SWEET LITTLE COY INNOCENT ANGEL😇LMAO#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanfiction#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x mc#sebastian sallow x oc#clora clemons#choccyart#sebastian x mc
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taash said "they were doing it" and people ran with the interpretation of an npc that doesn't know solas or the history of the elvhenan even when bellara interjected and said, no, that's not right. that's not how it was for the elvhenan. they formed bonds before they had physical bodies. and people ran to doompost or create weird anti-solavellan shit even though mythal & solas refer to each other as old friends and when she releases him there is no tenderness or love in it. it is the act of unchaining a dog from his post, the stepping down of a general. but to each their own ig.
#let the record show i think love was there. do I personally perceive it as romantic / sexual? no.#mythal's perception of love & care is warped in and of itself#i think they loved each other. but she loved what she could take from him and what he could give in terms of service#not because she was romantically into him#also i wish we knew more about her & elgar'nan. her regret prison form says she holds no love for him anymore#and it makes me wonder when that love soured. was it when she was blighted? before that? was that love also born of duty and companionship?#this is the last post i'm gonna make ab this i think#bc i believe people are too caught up in the modern western ideas of love as thing we give solely to our romantic partners#and we literally have a character go ”our perception is warped bc of the age we live in” and some of you are still being purposefully obtuse#and i think trick saying it's up to interpretation is basically admitting EA had them dumb down the game anyway#if everything ab the rise and fall of the evanuris in game#was condensed to five 2min cutscenes it says enough that whatever the writers wanted#was swiftly cut down by corporate dept. basically saying it's in the fans' court now#also bc it's an easy cop out around new players & non solasmancers who are indifferent ab him / dislike him#as a way to appeal thru a more sympathetic lense of look!! he loved and was led astray#not to mention the clear justinia / leliana parallels#and leliana gets angry if you imply she was romantically involved / in love w justinia#and the romance descr when you remake your inq saying the dread wolf could not predict what it would mean to fall IN LOVE#implying he had never fallen in love before or at the very least experienced a romantic love#also him saying drinking from the well would make you a slave and he gets really upset#yet ive seen takes of ”hes doing this for her cus he dgaf ab lavellan” ?? he got mythal killed when he told her ab the blight#whatever feelings of admiration he had for her have rotted. he is literally burdened by his mistakes and his choice in joining her#i feel like if i were a spirit bound and twisted into a weapon i would need my creator to tell me i am Free. i would need that closure#like when cole says its not abuse to bind him if he asks and solas said thats not always true???#if you perceive her interaction w him in vg third act as#anything more than the way justinia released leliana in inq then im sorry maybe youre just obtuse#solavellan#mythal#dragon age meta
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small lightbrush dump bc i read the most immaculate fic of them last night and cant find anything else that good i havent read. im so obsessed w this yuri rn
#inanimate insanity#inanimate insanity fanart#ii paintbrush#ii lightbrush#lightbrush#i think .. lb gives words of affirmation rly easily and liberally.. but if u return it 2 her she would cry#she acts so unserious and silly and is always being so nice she doesnt hear it enough.. idk sometimes i read too much fic and not enough#canon content so feel free to curse me out if thats ooc#and i think paintys go to love language would be smth wordless and simple like touch or quality time#ough ..... ough ......... the yuri ..........................#like im gonna be sick theyre so cute
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I feel so vindicated knowing that we all read those many microexpressions correctly. Laura was really playing an anxious queer woman in love with her best friend so accurately that we couldn't help but pick up on all the little nuances.
#critical role#critical role spoilers#cr spoilers#cr lb#laudna#imogen temult#imodna#laura bailey#its just nice to know we werent reading into it too much#and that what we all saw was real#maybe some of it wasnt intentional but so much was#laura has been acting her heart out and i love her for it#now i just wanna know when imogen realized she was in love with laudna#personally i think it was when laudna almost went down the first time with fhe shade mother#i think she realized then that laudna could die#she definitely knew by the time they left for the heartmoore bc you cant convince me she wasnt pining when she was holding laudnas hand#she had it inna death grip and wanted laudna to go into her dreams#thats so gay shit right there#anyway
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A lil guy !
#honkai star rail#dan heng#genuinely have a million things i wanna draw and then zero energy#so dan heng in a hoodie#now i gotta go get dinner sooooo maybe that will give energy and then i can draw more of what i actually wanna draw#but i kinda spent like ... hours ? talking to my mom earlier today#since shes been in the hospital for many many days#so i was catching her up on whats been goin on and showed her silly lil videos#and telling her how hyped i was for summer hrid and she (very patient with my fe talk)#was like you always tell me about banners being bad so it must have made you REALLY happy to say the whole banner is good#and im like yeah and i had multiple people on multiple sites like hey salmon/moeblob did ya see the banner#and she was like thats so cool that people acknowledge who you like and im like yeah it is p cool#and then i told her how mad i was at the absolutely criminal act of limiting how you can watch clue (1985 hit movie)#like i told her yeah sure i own it twice on dvd and once on itunes and that the only way to watch those#are either desktop or ps2 and how i dont have access to my itunes email#and i dont have it on my laptop so i sadly would have to rebuy the movie on itunes under a new acct#then i said how i loved that it was free to watch with ads on yt and id watched it twice that way#but then recently wanted to watch it on there but laptop and hoo boy you have to buy or rent it now#so i v angrily was like fine whatever ill do the thing and leave my room and go watch it on my moms tv#while she isnt around and use her amazon prime where it should be included except ! IT WASNT!#YOU HAVE TO HAVE PRIME TO BUY OR RENT IT NOW TOO!#HOW ARE THEY DOING THIS AND WHY ! who in the world is watching this movie so much that isnt me that they have to charge for it now#on all platforms unless you straight up pirate it#and hey why would i of all people be needing to pirate a movie i own physically two times and digitally once#this is literally a personalized attack to me#and my mom was like i understand how you feel cause yeah thats really weird to do to a 1985 movie#and im like yes exactly i have morals and principles that make me opposed to this and its v maddening#and she said she understood and its ok next time we are having power issues and i have to shut down#that if i really wanna watch it i can rent it on her amazon account and i looked at her and shes like oh you feel v strongly about this#and i do! I HAVE HAD IT GIFTED TO ME TWICE ! I BOUGHT IT ONCE! WHY DO I HAVE TO RENT IT FOR MORE MONEY!
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Personally, I don't see the appeal of Shoko.
Please convince me why I should. I'm curious.
ANONNNNN YOU’RE MISSING OUTTTT WHAT THE HELL 😔😔😔😔 okay i’ll give you a pass because her character writing is very subtle. but she’s just…… so interesting!!!!!!
honestly i have a Lot of things i like abt shoko…… getting the obvious out of the way; she’s Gorgeous. most beautiful woman in the whole wide world. look at her!!!!!!!!!! :((((((((((
bUT THAT ASIDE . to me, the most interesting thing about shoko is her grief. and her connection to satosugu, obviously, but those go hand in hand!! i’ll die on the hill that she’s extremely similar to the both of them. she was also born with the burden of an ability she didn’t ask for, and she also became a weapon for the jujutsu society to wield. the irony is that she’s a weapon who Heals as opposed to satoru and suguru, but that’s arguably a worse thing to go through. in one of her phanpara voicelines, she mentions that it might be better to be out on the front lines than to stay back not knowing if the others will return in one piece…..
she’s just . stuck in such an awful situation. i think she’s seen far more death and suffering than either satoru or suguru . there’s a good chance she’s had to dissect her dying friends since she was fifteen. no wonder she comes across as so detached!!!!! no wonder she covers everything up with apathy or humour. she’s lost so many friends throughout the years. and she’s had to touch their corpses. i can’t imagine how much that messes you up.
but. yeah . her grief is just so, so silent. it’s almost always either subtextual or shown through visual imagery (usually her cigarettes)… it’s hard to tell what she’s thinking but it’s so obvious she’s suffering when you look at that subtext. her calling suguru childish for thinking nobody would understand him (implying she did), walking out of the room during jjk 0 when yaga declares war on him. picking up smoking again after gojo gets sealed, and she finds out that kenjaku had taken over geto’s body. (which is partially her fault!!! she was supposed to have disposed of it, but gojo tried to show compassion by not forcing her to. and that’s why kenjaku could take over.) the amount of cigarettes she’s smoking when she’s watching gojo fight sukuna….. etc etc . it’s all there. her grief is very silent and compliant and sad. but it’s so obvious that she loved them both.
basically; shoko is flawed, traumatized, desensitized, and kind despite that. just like satoru and suguru. she isn’t able to open her heart to anyone, isn’t able to be honest about how she feels, and she’s resigned herself to her role as a weapon. but she cares. she sticks around and keeps healing and never complains. i think she cares so much that she has to force herself into a state of apathy. she wouldn’t be able to keep going otherwise.
all of this is just my own take on her, but . imo it’s a take that the manga supports!!! we haven’t gotten any glimpses into her headspace aside from chapter 220, but we have more than enough subtext and interactions to analyze her character…. overall, i just think shoko is interesting. and wellwritten, in a subtle way. i hope akutami gives her the spotlight she deserves in future chapters because she has such a silent and unique role in the story…. it’s really hard not to fall in love with her!!!!! :’3 she’s just so cool…
anyway i said i had three reasons for loving shoko and her gorgeous gorgeous face + character writing are two of them . so i’ll end this by mentioning the final thing!!!!!! ….. which is that she’s super funny .
like. she’s a healer . but the first time we see her in the morgue she’s cutting curses open with a chainsaw. she’s disappointed when yuji turns out to be alive because she won’t get to dissect him. the students hesitate calling her for help with their injuries at night because they never know if she’s sober or not. in the light novel she takes gojo to a bar and calls him a big kid. in phanpara she complains when you put her on your team because she doesn’t want to do any work. she cheated her way through med school. she wore sunglasses during her best friend’s unsealing party. she made nanami and haibara give her a shoulder massage after they lost against her and gojo at an arcade game. she then forced a very grumpy suguru into taking a selfie with her. she’s so fucking funny and i love her <333333
#i’m extremely late to this ask ignore that pls 🙏#i hope this made you see the light my dearest anon <33#shoko is such an interesting character and i love her on her own + with satosugu so so much :((((((((#they really are so similar… one of my fandom pet peeves is when ppl act like she was the most rational one of the three. she was Not.#they’re ALL losers . actual wrecks. absolute assholes too. they’re the only ones who can stand each other and i think thats beautiful#TYSM FOR THIS ASK ANONNNNN i’ve been wanting to talk abt her for a while!! she means a whole lot to me <333#ask tag ✩
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[ID: A colored digital drawing of Klaasje Amandou from Disco Elysium, done in similar colors and style to her ingame portrait. She is seen from the side and the chest up. She is smoking a cigarette. Her head is tilted slightly upwards and her eyes are obscured in shadow. End ID.]
very quick drawing of miss oranje disco dancer who i have not been able to stop thinking about since i played disco elysium a week ago. not at all my usual style but it was fun!!
#i am obsessed with her. shes such a good character#i love how shes simultaneously an extremely self destructive person who doesn't care what happens to her#and a coward who'd do anything to save her own skin#she's 28 and as far as she's concerned her life is over#if she drinks herself to death or overdoses or gets murdered after messing around with the wrong person in a shithole city its slow its eas#its a fate thats at least her own#but when her back is to the wall when a gun is pointed at her head when her past catches up to her#the reality and finality of it are too much and she's scared and desperate and so so tired more than someone her age should be#and if she has to throw someone under the bus to get out of this than. well. that's what shes gotta do#its not her fault. this had nothing to do with her. shes not going to die because of a random act of violence and bad luck#she'd much rather slowly kill herself because again its her own fate at least.#she's hiding behind at least four fake names. we have no idea who she was before. its gone now.#ANYWAY#women#disco elysium#klaasje amandou#gecko art
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i understand the frustration with “i made this gay pairing cis x trans so they can still have biological babies” with no thought to other methods and how ppl assume thats the case when it comes to mothpool aus where mothwing is also the mother of the three, but also…. idk i kinda dont give a shit if someone wants to do that and i dont really think its inherently transphobic as long as its handled with care and respect.
what really concerns me about this debate is how some people are adamant that you cannot portray trans people having biological children in media or youre being disrespectful. and im gonna say as a nonbinary person who doesnt want children for themself- thats kinda fucking weird? like i understand that for some people, theyre trans themselves and theyre speaking from a place of dysphoria, and i absolutely get that, which is why i think the topic should be handled with nuance and diversity in trans characters, but like…. guys. pregnant trans men exist irl. trans women get people pregnant irl. trans ppl’s ability and right to parent and have biological children are being debated irl. we get denied the opportunity to adopt as well.
in a climate like this, are we SURE we want the stance on rewrites and headcanons in the silly cat books to be “if you portray trans characters having children, especially with a gay couple, youre a transphobic freak no matter what!” does it really matter? especially if its being done by a trans person handling the topic with nuance who has a lot of trans characters with varying perspectives?
obviously yes, remember that thats not the only way certain gay couples can have kids, remember that not every trans person is fully comfortable with it and keep that in mind, remember that surrogacy and adoption are also perfectly valid ways to give fan babies- but remember that there are OPTIONS. not that you need to condemn the idea of transgender parents in the first place unless they fit the very specific criteria of “proper transgender representation” and anything that dares deviate from that is proof the op is a transphobic monster (bonus points if theyre a trans creator bc i mostly see trans people getting shit for this and it kinda pisses me off. although idm if cis people do it either as long as theyre handling it with respect)
#and this isnt getting into how trans mothwing outside of mothpool is a really good way to read her character#sorry. remembered the shit bonefall got despite being trans as well and got annoyed#that especially annoys me bc hes got plenty of surrogacies but the second hed touch a trans pregnancy#‘’no you cant do that!!! you freak!!! obviously you only see trans people as a loophole for gays to have babies!!!’’#also my gf and i were talking and obviously take this with a grain of salt bc this is our experience#but…. i think a lot of the ppl saying this……. havent really talked to trans women?#dude some of the ones i know LOVE the idea of getting people pregnant#did you know trans women have sex? did you know trans people in general have sex?? did you know trans people irl wanna start families?#did you know that? did you? or do you black out at the idea of a trans woman being anything but strictly pure and nonsexual#and OBVIOUSLY this is not every trans woman. some do have dysphoria around the idea#but im genuinely starting to wonder how these people act around irl transgender parents#whether they had kids before or after coming out#bc ngl. the attitude that thinking about this makes you a transphobic pervert?#directed at trans people making content for themselves?#im starting to think you all just dont want us to reproduce. if we reproduce we arent ‘’good’’ trans people#because a ‘’real’’ man wouldnt carry a child. a ‘’real’’ woman would carry the child. and god forbid the gays even THINK about reproducing#and being around children!#if we have children then we’re doing things that might make cishets look at us and declare we’re not perfect#we’ve proved we’re not just identical to cis ppl!! (and therefore deserving of respect!)#idk. i think this was mostly a case of tumblr going ‘’oh someone said no to this so lets push this to an unhealthy extreme!!’’#and i cant help but notice nobody really brings up nonbinary parents at all in this discussion#not that we have it ‘’better’’ or anything for that but yknow. are we supposed to swear it off?#is the idea of us having kids inconcievable? or worse…. does it mean we ‘’picked a side?’’#so its not even worth getting mad at a pregnant nb person bc ‘’well thats a woman so who cares’’b#HMMMMM.#ohhhh i bet they also get mad if you make transfem pregnancy possible too. no winning#idk really think about it when you go ‘’you can NEVER EVER portray a trans person starting a family. bc REAL trans people would never.’’#ohhh you probably get mad when trans ppl dont get surgery for one reason or another dontcha#whether we want to or its not in the cards for us for whatever reason like cost and such#(while also getting mad if we do bc we cannot win in this no matter what)
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Hot Take:
If you decided to look below the cut, have these!! Some aimless doodles!!
They're just the foretellers from KH as their respective animals in Mobian form. I enjoyed drawing them and I don't plan on officially posting them on the blog cuz they were merely a concept exercise.
#phantoms#sth idw#sonic fandom#honestly listen#you don't GOTTA love IDW#but maybe all the constant hate is just??? not the look???#also Ian Flynn might not be perfect. but he's head archivest for a fucking reason#if Sega thought he was doing a shit job then Frontiers wouldn't have even existed and he wouldn't be their speical guy#All you guys out here acting like he's fucking Ken Penders and not basically the Sonic Equivalent of Tetsuya Nomura#and for fucks sake Evan Stanley is a FANTASTIC artist who doesn't deserve the shit he gets#''Oh ghosts of the future'' Suck a fucking dick thats a fan project and IS NOT in any way related to her professional work#She writes perfectly fine. You guys just hate her because she doesn't spoon feed you shit. And no im not taking that back#they aren't perfect lets be real#i have my gripes too#but y'all#the blind hate is just NOT it
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"Beating so fast, seems like it'll burst..."
#crow's scribbles#d4dj#d4dj groovy mix#shinobu inuyose#esora shimizu#yuka jennifer sasago#i finally drew something in ms paint after.... a while.#please dont mind how rusty they look (especially esora's hands)....#this is a follow up to kyoko's one yes this is what the other 3 look like#try to guess which starish members i took inspiration from for each of them hehe#i loooove these designs....#should i post the concept sketches? tell me if you wanna see them lol#each of them are matching w one member in one way but still different i specifically made sure of that#i based them off what i think their 2 charm points are similar to love live kinda#esora is the cute and lovely one of course; shinobu is the quiet and mysterious one; yuka is the strong and beautiful one#and then kyoko is the charismatic and cool one duh.#i dont have a favorite design but the one im proud of the most is esora! i think i managed to get her vibe while also keeping the idol feel#i wanna make these types of outfits for the other units but i think i gotta think of something their unit can be other than DJ unit#this can be an au in it of itself but for now it's gonna be outfits for them so i dont go crazy#like. photon = actresses/or takarazuka revue actresses? towa and saki are musumeyaku while ibuki and noa are otokoyaku... maybe.#hapiara and rondo can be a band bc of rei and nagisa but hapiara is pop while rondo is hard rock/metal bc duhhhh (but idk w hapiara.....)#you cannot separate merm4id from clubbing so they're p much just the same except saori is a regular DJ in rikamarika's club w dalia--#working as a bartender there. yeahhhhh.... lyrilily are p much just choir girls now bc thats all i can think of atm (maybe they act too???)#abyssmare and unichord...... hrmmmm.... idkkkkkkk. v-tubing related for sure w unichord but abyssmare i have nothing#SO. now i'll stop my rambling here byeeeee enjoy my losers (affectionate) and my thoughts on this byeeeee
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BkII:402-437 Cassandra is Taken, Virgil's Aeneid
"Every man in her life failed Cassandra of Troy" Never ever speak ill of Coroebus of Phrygia
#He hurled himself to DEATH trying to save her from Ajax ;;#and its depressing because he could have not done that and plausibly lived to see another day with Aeneas. it was futile#He wasnt even a Trojan and only joined the war as a suitor out of his love for cassandra#i interpret the mad adjective as a form of eagerness. just as he was mad to die for her too#do we know why he loved cassandra? no we don't have details. but to die for her his love must've been great#cassandra was promised to another man (Othryoneus) in the Iliad and Coroebus still chose to stay until the end. THATS commitment#and in a way? this parallels to apollo quoteunquote avenging cassandra by clytemnestra's death except. this is more human and real#he is no god there is no happy ending but his last act on earth was defending the false prophetess#and thats!!! crazy to me!!#the humanity of it all#cassandra of troy#coroebus of phrygia#the aeneid
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Was reading about Renaissance "monstrous" births and how so many of the ones that survived for any amount of time died by purposeful starvation and learned about one born in Bologna named Maria Malatendi and her parents baptized her. They baptized her and named her Maria. She only lived for four days but they made sure she was baptized and kept her alive as long as they could. She was seen as an omen of catastrophe to come and later was spoken of as a symbol of Italy's decline but they still made sure she was given a name. And I'm So emotional right now don't look at me
#sam's thinkin again#renaissance#monsters#the more cynical side of me wonders if theyd wanted to make a sideshow out of her#(thats also something that happened if they werent purposefully killed)#but it doesnt erase the fact that what they did in that moment was an act of love#because in their eyes they probably ensured her safe passage into heaven#sent as an omen and yet they didnt seem to blame her for it#and maybe im just reading too much into it but gkxkfkskkf
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hi guys i finished my suitcase plush :3 shes about 12.5 inches tall and made of fleece with a felt lining. she also has a functional zipper and snaps to hold the ends of the straps down !! shes filled with stuffing rn but she is an actual bag teehee
her and the lb .. so silly.. #teamsuitcase btw shes so peak
#inanimate insanity#ii suitcase#suitcase ii#lightbulb ii#she is here too !#hand sewing#plushies#sewing#zippers r so cool.. wowsers..#the straps took 4EVER!!!! but shes cute its ok#hype asf for act 1 tmrw watching the title be revealed on twt was so fun and silly#the stream today was SO SILLY !!!!!!!!!!! testy is so so so cute.. and i love cheesy now i think. what a goober. also bball ofc#theyre all so funnyyyy#might make suitcase some bracelets or the handle equivelent later idk. but thats her !!!!!
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i feel rly sad and conflicted abt one of my best friends on earth but idk who to ask for advice bc i usually would have consulted her in this situation lmao
#shes cool and i dont want to lose her and i know Logically i love her but atm i feel so strange towards her#and idk what to do abt it bc i know in the past ive like...over-communicated a lot and over the last few yrs ive been trying to not do that#bc thats an anxious impulse i think .so like . self control#AND IMPORTANTLY . i may actually be the problem here ?? ok again i love her i dont want to lose her etc but basically ive noticed a pattern#which is that whenever she gets a bf/a man (even fwb) in her life she basically stops talking to me and the limited interactions we do have#become abt him. and while i support her it is acc too much. like we barely talked while she was w her ex bf until he became abusive and#then we talked a lottt like all our convos understandably were abt him . and then when they broke up we kept hanging out so i didnt rly see#the pattern there but still she seemed to centre men a lot in her life like sbe was excited to not date and find herself and then#immediately afterwards started seeing this other guy with whom shes basically in a relationship now#hes nice and all but like . HES ALL SHE TALKS ABT . actually we barely talk atp but when we do its abt him#she sends me reels sometimes but its all abt being jealous abt him etc . and shes bi but she said she doesnt like the idea of dating women#bc theyre scary . and i thought she was kidding in the ohhh women r so beautiful that theyre intimidating way but no she was being entirely#fr . she explained jts bc she was bullied by a girl in the past but like...bro ur ex bf literally abused you like surely you see men are#capable of just as much harm? but obvs who she dates is her own choice . but anyway she has consistently made plans w me then cancelled the#like an hr before . or asked to call me and then proceeded to not do so . when i ask her to meet/call its the same she just doesnt respond#or she cancels ? and while i understand anxiety sucks it feels SO WEIRD STILL . maybe im the problem slightly too bc ik i have no right to#feel this way but it rubs me the wrong way that ik she has so much time to spend w him/calls him all the time despite meeting him just a fe#months ago whereas i just have to like ...be ok w not actually having talked to her for a long time#its gotten to the point where when she says do you wanna meet/call i automatically respond yes and then just assume it doesnt happen . like#there have been several times over the past few months i double booked plans over when we were supposed to call/meet bc i was sure she#wouldnt show up and ive been right each time#like she sends me texts that she misses me or im her best friend etc etc occasionally and then acts rly . contrary to that ?#ive talked to her abt the issue w cancelling on me twice btw. when i was still dating the situationship person she would get sooo mad at#them for not respecting my time and shed tell me i deserve better etc etc and then like . she doesnt seem to respect my time at all#anyway she said she understand and she admits to like...being flaky etc but does nothing abt it#and its not like i can tell her to stop caring so much abt men bc we sorta had convos like that b4 she got This involved w this guy#and apparently it did nothing and the last thing i want is to police her relationships or get in her way#its just AUSHD AUGH#anyway i rly miss her it just doesnt feel the same at all anymore
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I get it now, I get the hype, sassy vampire man beloved andjfkmsm
#just need *somewhere* to talk cause nowhere near finishing the game yet still im act 2 but ajskdk#caved and bought bg3 its looked so cool ajdjf#been wanting to play it for a long time now but dont have the hardware but ajdkffk#just discovered geforce now and gosh what a game changer#streams the game instead and i dont think my laptop has overheated once aksjfk#but like!!#yeeeeee im having sm fun w my wood elf druid love her sm#and all the npcs and astarion beloved#feel like a little school girl w goofy smiles whenever theres a new convo w him ajskfk#and idk just like ajsjdj no one to talk to about it and usually at that point just go on youtube to listen to other people talk#but i dont want to accidentally spoil too much so ajdjfk#just sitting here a hyper giddy little mess over how much fun im having#ye anyways if ive seemed kinda mia the past week or so thats why#new hyperfixation for a while i guess but im not mad about it ajsjfk#lowkey wanna doodle characters but akdkg also wanna see how things play out first and hhhhhhhh
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