#thats been my affirmation for the last few months and it will be for 2025 also because IT ACTUALLY WORKS FOR ME

[heyitslapis]

Oh thank the Divine she doesn't remember

[elytra404]

on monday i finished a session with my therapist. it was my third session with them, and i learnt it was to be my last. thats a good thing. i had been talking to them so they could write a letter confirming that i should infact get hrt, specifically testosterone. this being the last meant i would soon be able to start hrt, likely in the next month.

i was on the waiting list for nearly 2 years to get to this point. i have been socially transitioned for nearly 4 years now. that being said, i don't pass. and i can't really wear a binder without causing chronic pain flares.

T was my chance to pass, and feel comfortable in my own body. it was also potentially my chance to be in less pain, as my type of chronic pain has shown sometimes to get better with T! which, while not my reason for doing it, would be amazing since pain meds don't work on me.

i am 17. legally in my state i am medically independent in most situations. and my worst case scenario was waiting a few more months till i was 18, if trump banned it for minors.

That was on monday. tuesday, i got the news of what trump is doing, and that he is banning gender affirming healthcare for those under 19.

19.

my planning has been taken away. my years of working towards this has been taken away. my chances to pass in my senior year of high school.

if you think this is a good thing, Block Me Right Now. I mean it.

it is 2025, wednesday, 9 days after trump was made president for the second time. it's been nine fucking days, every single one of which has been hell.

this is my story right now as a trans minor. when the suicide rates rise, dont be surprised. when trans people die from turning to unofficial hrt, dont be surprised. and dont come running to us trans people.