#that's what i was thinking of when i read this ask lmaoooo💀

[writingstoraes]

out to the world 🌎

pairing: charles leclerc/fem!reader

type: instagram imagine/social media au

notes: not proofread and not revised so please expect errors hehehe please lmk what u think by replying or messaging and if u wanna be part of my taglist! <3

about: fans and people in the paddock have been trying to figure out whether charles is in a relationship or not. amongst the rumors, charles has had enough after seeing a series of mean comments about you.

paddocksays

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paddocksays F1 Ferrari driver Charles Leclerc spotted with a mystery woman having a splendid time on a yacht in Maranello. The same race weekend, Charles was accompanied by the same woman outside of Ferrari's HQ and he was seemingly very protective of her and apparently came out of the doors holding hands.

Is the Monegasquè finally off the market?

leclercs WHAT THE FUCK PIERRE LIKED?????

dr3stappen when will he make a dummy acc so hes not slipping on stuff like this 💀

ferrarifan Ok but Pierre liking doesn't confirm it,,, man probably thought this was pure bs and had a laugh

leclercs they were holding hands...

ferrarifans Dont you hold hands with your friends? Are you friendless?

charleswdc OMG go king so deserved

ferraritifosi Does it matter? She is probably a gold digger anyways.

ferrari1 Yeahhh lol riding off on that ferrari paycheck Charles has

16lecs55 Lol his ex was prettier

paddocksays

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paddocksays Ferrari's very own lover boy? Charles Leclerc spotted out and about today on the streets of Monte Carlo with the same woman he was with in Italy. The "couple" is definitely not trying to be subtle.

Fans suspect that the woman is Y/N Y/L/N, a friend of Alex Albon's girlfriend, Lily.

tifosi1 Not even trying to hide the PDA, she is definitely using him

ferrarilover Clearly she wants some clout and some 💸💸💸

charleswdc they are trying to be subtle yall just dont know how to give them privacy ffs

ferrari1655 Not good enough for him lol he can do a lot better

sainzchamp ohhhh she ugly why is he even w her 💀💀💀

charles_leclerc

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charles_leclerc Up until now I never thought I could meet someone so loving, kind, and mesmerizing in all ways possible. To the only person I want to dance all my dances with, tell my ridiculously unfunny jokes to, and parade the streets with at midnight because we were craving pizza, you have my whole heart.

I am in a very loving relationship and I have never been happier. I ask everyone who's been making awful, unwarranted comments about Y/N to stop. All rumours and hearsays about her that paint her i negative light are not true. She does not deserve any of it and is the best person I know.

carlossainz55 I'm not the best person you know???

pierregasly Hurts, right?

charles_leclerc Please get out of my mentions 🙏

yourusername me? after your money? you havent even paid me when i put gas in all of your cars

charleswdc LMAOOOO SHES SO

charles_leclerc Will wire it to you now, chèrie 😘

yourusername no need, just bought u a new car

lilymhe MY LOVESSS ❤️❤️❤️ where are the mean comments im ready to fight

danielricciardo My man finally hard launched 🎉

yukitsunoda0511 MY PARENTS!!!!

yourusername kidding asside, je taime my love 🤍 my always in all ways!

pierregasly I feel like I had something to do with this

landonorris Please make a dump account dude

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tagging: @slytherheign <333

notes: this took me almost two hours lmaooo lmk what u think!!! ill be making a directory soon with all of my works i just need to figure out how to do masterlists 🥹 tysm for reading 🤍

[sordidmusings]

Just a life update and opening!

Brought up because of an ask wondering if I still do stuff here so I figured I'd put out some of whats goin on if anyone is interested! Also throwing it into the void of the internet feels less guilt inducing than forcing it on specific people especially after how overwhelmed folks tend to be cuz I'm bad at metering it out and not just being like 'light jokes about struggle that don't scratch the surface or say anything meaningful' and 'here is all the dark lore' 💀 It's also been a struggle because there really does sometimes feel like theres a whole ass language barrier within your own language when you're AuDHD.

I do still do headcanons and write and draw and yada yada there’s just been quite a bit happening and I’m doing poorly at keeping up with life maintenance let alone things I enjoy 🥴 with writing especially in my hobbies I find myself discouraged in what feels like poor quality of my writing and seeing that reflected back to me because I am Weak 💀 general overview of some of the bigger problems below the cut if you’re interested but I won’t bother y’all with the whole picture! Will be more a summary/overview/alluding to things over getting into gory details. Basically a lot will be covered but I won’t force anything below the broad strokes on y'all.

The end is an ask for people to please reach out if they are struggling so please take that seriously. I offer a space with me but please find wherever in this world you are at least somewhat comfortable and have someone be there with you while you process 🤍 I will have a header above that little piece just incase you'd like to skip to only reading that which is completely fine!

CW for mental health talks, allusions to family issues, references to rape and abuse, death by suicide, and suicidal ideation.

What's Up, Doc?

Between hospitalizations (old and new issues and unfortunate near misses 🤡), my couple jobs (the days my body ain’t tryin to give up and even some days it still is means back to the grindstone. Thank you capitalistic overlords 💀), money stresses (medical debt plus just like y'all know shit ain’t the best for most everyone rn), the spring struggle (nightmares + flashbacks get worse from seasonal + anniversaries of men not caring for consent amongst other things lmaoooo), the mental health slew (diagnosed with AuDHD and most of the big hitters besides a personality disorder), and a few other life happenings and old traumas I’m doing a terrible job at everything 🤡 most of it ain’t new so I know all the proper things to do to help for everything from years of therapy and managing the symptoms and all that but dotting my i’s and crossing my t’s hasn’t been offering any relief for a long while so I’m floundering and quite exhausted.

The health issues making everything difficult and painful ain’t helping but I’m also not being the best at taking care of some of them because Why Bother 💀 Many are issues I’ve had for years that ebb and flow in severity and I’m just tired of feeling them and having to manage them. I’m sure any of you with chronic issues understand the feeling well. Those with years and years of major depressive disorder probably also understand the frustration and exhaustion and guilt with knowing you should enjoy something, you WANT to enjoy it, but your body just can’t produce the reaction it should.

I tend to isolate because I’m managing it poorly enough that the topic tends to crop up with the closer few if they ask and that goes Badly cuz, even if they think they won’t, people get uncomfy with the topics which just makes me feel Worse from guilt and sometimes frustration from it being passed over for their comfort or lack of understanding. I am lucky enough to have more recently found one person who Gets It and a beloved soul from lovely old Jersey came back into my life so the bigger problem in that situation is me allowing myself to consistently receive support from them 🤡 One’s so sweet always telling me I can call any time and the other is of the same vein and my dumbass brain keeps being like “but that would bother them” or the usual “you deserve to get worse not get help” 🤡🤡🤡. Clown ass behavior.

Also some bad coping mechanisms make my typing and communication sloppy as hell and I’m quite ashamed of that so best hide that away while it’s going on 💀 due to insistence that it’s Fine I have forgone that instinct to what feels like very Poor Result 🥴 ah the eternal struggle between needing to be Seen to fight the sense of isolation and worthlessness but also being petrified of being perceived while imperfect. Not having any of the connections really be in person doesn’t help too much with feelings isolation because I don't really have anyone around me besides parents that have literally said "why are you making us deal with this" about the intentional near death miss 💀💀💀 my immediate world feels very much like it wants me gone in explicit and subtle ways but c'est la vie. Beggars can’t be choosers so at this point I’m likely just being ungrateful 🤡

One thing making it harder to keep trying is my folks’ years of insistence that I don’t understand my own experience and I’m just dramatic and make things up. It’s an echo of many painful experiences including a whole group intentionally playing games with my sense of reality to enable their friend’s abuse (they got unconsensual nudes from him out of it so that’s worth the price of treating someone like that right?). Such is life.

One of the new things I’m uncertain how to approach handling properly is the grief and such shifting back to the forefront from the first anniversary of my childhood brother figure being taken from us by his bipolar depression. I have known people taken by suicide before but not this close to home. My childhood wasn’t the happiest but he and his family were a bright place in it. His little sister was my best friend in the whole world through my childhood and their family treated me more like family than my own. He was the best mix of a good and bad influence in an older brother figure I could’ve wished for. He fought long and hard but exhaustion hits us all, sometimes even with proper help. What eternally pains me is knowing how helpless and scared he must have felt and even worse how absolutely alone he felt. That was his last feeling in this life. I can only hope that more than anything, whatever happens next is giving him relief, peace, and rest.

Talk on reaching out below!

On that note, if any of you experience suicidality too, my messages (or ask if you’re more comfy on anon) are always open. This is an issue that’s been in my life in many forms since I was 12, so I will not shy away from you or your thoughts. Even if shared with something uncomfortable or "ugly", I find the discomfort of sitting with someone’s pain negligible in comparison to being the one in pain so why not prioritize that person in their need? It’s also negligible under the importance of truly holding space to process those hurts and stresses instead of just simple little niceties.

I am not the best at being active but if I see any of these messages especially we will truly talk. I know how insanely isolating and disappointing it can feel when someone offers support to be nice and then shoves to the next topic or barely responds because it makes them uncomfortable. It is a bitter pill we must often swallow to forgive those who think they will help for making things worse because they have bit off more than they can chew. It is also a bitter feeling that that reaffirms to us that by our very nature, we are too much to handle and are too much to deal with for sharing our internal space and circumstance. But at the same time, all of us are simply human so who am I to malign someone for making mistakes or being imperfect? So long as someone truly wants to try, there is all the reason in the world to give them grace.

Qualifications kind of???

The one good thing that has come from a lot of the experiences that I’ve gone through is that it has forced perspective on me and forced me to learn skills in holding space, validating, and connecting to others in immense pain. No one is perfect in this skill (even therapists struggle - the number who have said they don’t know where to start untangling the traumas or who have cried at it and in turn needed comfort 💀 a strange experience I know my darling at least gets too lol) but I have found in both giving and receiving that honesty and openness is W A Y more important than being perfect.

This is something I’ve watched more people struggle with than not as life circumstances has not made it so that they must learn the skill at the same time that there are resources to learn it, so I may make more posts with advice for it than the bit I go through here. I’m not a licensed therapist so this isn’t going to be a clinical breakdown of how to be someone’s therapist but I would consider my experience as a confidant, consistent reading up on psychological and related sociological research, and experience going through various forms of therapy worthy of giving solid advice. Unfortunately, co-morbidities and resistant brain chemistry really make using the skills on myself Difficult 💀 but as brief examples of experience for validity speaking on this, I’ve been to a lot of group therapy where licensed therapists literally coach you on this, guided a safe space/group for SA survivors in college, coached friends who couldn’t afford therapy through suicidality or abusive situations, and coached survivors through feelings and decisions when deciding whether or not to charge or going through the process of charging their abuser. All of which is much easier to be effective to people you know irl but the support online can be nothing to snub your nose at either. None of this is to say I'm perfect or exceptional - neither is true - just that I’ve had circumstances and experiences that afford me a bit of extra knowledge in this.

In the vast majority of cases, someone who is struggling and coming to you for help wants you to be there - your thoughts, your feelings, your perspective. They don’t want someone sitting uncomfortably and saying the occasional “sorry” they want engagement because more than anything they don’t want to be alone. In a basic example, if you find yourself freezing when someone comes to you with something you don’t know how to handle, instead of saying nothing or only short cliches due to fear of making a mistake, be honest about that. “I’m not sure what to say right now to be honest because that’s so much to deal with. I can’t imagine having to live with that all the time. Is there anything in it frustrating you the most or that you’re having the most difficulty tackling?”. This is active listening and engagement. You are being honest with where you are at so they aren’t guessing what you’re thinking, you are showing that you see how overwhelming the situation is, especially for the person who has to live with it. If you can’t handle a conversation where these issues exist, how do you think it feels to live with them day in and day out, sometimes for years or the majority of a life?

Asking questions is SUPER important too. Trust the other person to only share what they are comfortable with and don’t assume all questions are bad. Asking questions is one of the truest and simplest ways to show you care because why would you want to know more if you don’t give a shit? Asking questions is also very helpful and one of the reasons talking to others about your issues is important - it gives the person struggling something to react to and give perspective. It helps them process the issue in ways they won’t be able to do by themselves. This may make the process sound slightly manufactured but I promise it’s not, especially as it becomes second nature to know what thing to use when. Communication is a skill so advice around it will inherently make it sound more clinical than the actual process is.

People are also not a monolith so while this type of being there works for the vast majority some people may not like it. That is also where communication comes in - check in with the person on if this is helping and what isn't helpful. Make sure to adjust when you make a mistake.

Conclusion

I’m happy to hold space for other issues as well. I’m no replacement for a therapist but I’ve been a helpful supplement to many people I knew struggling throughout the years so I’m at least okay at that! Since I’m doing pretty bad functionally right now the help won’t be as consistent as I wish but I will give whatever is in my power just like these things deserve. I hope to get better soon so that I can properly offer a stronger foundation of support outward again 🤍

[charlottesbookclub]

which plants each of the greens would get from the plant shop where i work 🪴🌱🌿🍃

y'all i am so sorry for my sporadic activity on this blog and also for the chaotic jumble of fandoms i keep posting about with no warning 😭

so i was kinda into hotd last season, and with the new trailers coming out i was thinking about it again and this idea came to me like a revelation from on high so i decided to curse you all with these headcanons as well

for context, i work at a houseplant shop and was watering my own plants today when i was seized by the vision of which plant(s) each of the greens would get from the shop

i guess this is kind of modern au but not really?? like i guess i sort of envisioned it as the characters walking out of the world/canon of the show and into the plant store and so that's the characterization i went with idk

anyway sorry this is so chaotic – here are the headcanons:

alicent – def something pretty basic but classic like a pothos or a philodendron. a marble queen pothos would be especially appropriate, so honestly that's what i would probably recommend if she asked. is able to keep it alive just fine but i'm just not sure i would recommend anything too much more demanding – i just feel like losing a plant would be too demoralizing for her. also i feel like she would be one of those people who would come in and be like "i need a plant that filters air bc i need clean air in my living space" and i'd have to put on my best customer service voice/smile and be like "well actually ma'am that's all of them – that's kind of like one of their main things" lmaoooo

criston – i truly do not believe that this man could keep a plant alive; i'm just not convinced of it. i think he'd get a funky spiky little succulent or cactus and it would be dead within a week and he'd come back in and i'd recommend a snake plant (very hard to kill) and then he'd kill that too 💀 but also i think he'd be sooooooooo in denial about it and always come up with a bunch of other things that must've happened to it

aegon – also cannot keep a plant alive but is painfully self-aware about this fact. would def be one of those people who comes in, walks right up to the counter and instantly says "i need a plant i can't kill." so i'd point him to the snakes and zz's and he'd get either a nice black coral or golden hahnii snake plant. the funniest thing about this is that i'm convinced that aegon's snake plant would actually survive and criston would be sooooo pissed about it. like he wouldn't water it for weeks, and then when he finally remembered to, he accidentally (drunkenly) watered it with wine and it still lived and criston was fucking livid about it

aemond – would for sure have more success keeping plants alive than aegon or criston. i feel like he'd try to start with something cool but tricky, like a complicated carnivorous plant, and after excruciating months of going back and forth with it, it kinda just gives up because he tries to do everything precisely by the book rather than reading the signs of the actual living plant in front of him. he admits defeat only personally – he tells everyone else that he gave to plant to helaena. he comes back for something a little easier and goes for a nice dracaena marginata (yes, he did buy it mostly because the name sounds like "dragon" and also because it was spiky and cool). he's definitely able to keep that one alive and it lives in the corner of his chambers and he's secretly very proud of his success with it. also he does not even let criston or aegon so much as look at it lmao

helaena – my girl could buy anything in the whole store and keep it alive 😌😌 she for sure likes the "weirder" plants and has a whole bog garden situation of carnivorous plants aemond is insanely jealous of this but never admits it out loud. she's very drawn to strange-looking cacti and succulents, and also fun little novelty plants like goldfish plants, string of turtles/bananas/hearts/pearls, starfish snake plants, etc. also, whenever she comes in she always buys all of the scraggly discount plants because she feels bad for them and nurses them all back to health. she has not lost a single plant yet regardless of the state it was in when she got it, and she doesn't intend to start any time soon 😌

[nattinatalia]

Urban Wyatt x Reader Instagram AU

Read this first ❤️

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yourusername Let’s go for a ride❤️ enjoying London. Happy New Year 🎆🎊

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yourbestiename I’ll take you anywhere.

jackharlow What are you doing getting in strangers motorcycles???

yourusername Having fun 🤩

claybornharlow 🏷️ credits to me

jackharlow I’m sorry what?? Why’d you let her do this?

claybornharlow Let her? You know damn well our sister does as she wants.

yourusername See he gets it 🤝🏻

jackharlow Oh I see, the favoritism is showing.

yourusername 😭😭😭 So dramatic for what?

urbanwyatt Omw to buy a motorcycle

yourusername 😩😩😩 lmaoooo

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urbanwyatt NYE type of shit

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user ohh love this pink on you 🤤

user What else is pink?

urbanwyatt Ask my girl 🤪

yourusername That’s for me to know 😜😙 but I’ll give you a hint, it’s big.

jackharlow I hate you right now 🙄 y/n can you stop?

yourusername NO

claybornharlow You’re annoying as it is, I don’t need to be seeing you being nasty with Urb 🤦🏼‍♂️

urbanwyatt 😬

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yourusername No pen or paper, but I still draw attention 🤪😈

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yourbestiename Yes ma’am 🤤

neelamthadhani My girl 🥵🤞🏼

user Idk if I want to squeeze them or motorboat them.

urbanwyatt You ain’t doing shit to them.

user them girls are sitting nicely 🤤

yourusername I’ll send over my doctors info 🤪

princejdc 🥵 🥵 🥵

user why didn’t you or clay attend Jacks NYE party?

yourusername He didn’t invite me…..

jackharlow Not this again…..

claybornharlow 😭😭😭

yourusername But am I lying???

jackharlow It wasn’t even like that and your annoying ass knows this.

yourusername I don’t even care, seems like it was boring anyway 💅🏼

urbanwyatt 💀

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urbanwyatt My muse 🤪

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yourusername 😘

neelamthadhani Baddie 🔥 🔥

mamamaggie Urban, I love these pictures of my baby. She looks so good 🔥 🔥

yourusername Ilyy mama 🫶🏻 always hyping me up.

cozane 🫣 Respectfully

selenosunni 👀

urbanwyatt Can I help you losers????

yourusername Baby, be nice to our friends 🤪

druski2funnny Can she be my muse too?

yourusername 😱

druski2funnny Come on mama

jackharlow YOOO MAN WTF???? CHILL

user LMAO how does Jack and Clay live their lives when Y/N gets hit on left and right

claybornharlow 🙄 It’s annoying because she eggs in on the flirting & she knows we don’t like that.

jackharlow She be playing too much

yourusername I only play with ONE man and that’s MY MAN 🤪🤪🤪

jackharlow Here she goes

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yourusername Appreciation post for these annoying asses, my big brothers. Ily both and thank you for always having my back. Jackman- thanks for always pushing me to be better and follow my dreams, even when you’re being a pain about my dating life. Clayborn- Thank you for always rushing to me whenever I need you, even if it’s at 2am and thank you for being my one call whenever I need bail money.

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claybornharlow You weren’t supposed to put in the last part 😭😭😭😭

yourusername Sorry 🙈

jackharlow Bail money? Excuse me what? I need to put a tracker on your ass, what do you do when I’m not around?

yourusername 🤫 🤫

mamamaggie Child of mine, if you think I don’t know what you get into then I don’t know what to tell you.

yourusername Of course I know, you be knowing everything.

user HOW AM I BARELY FINDING OUT YOU’RE RELATED??????

yourusername 💀💀💀💀

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yourusername Spend the day house hunting, then rode him like a rodeo, and I put his ass to sleep 🤪🤪🤪

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mamamaggie Y/N M/N HARLOW!!!!!!!!!!!!

jackharlow Get her now!!!!!!

claybornharlow 🙄🫣

yourusername Sorry 😬

yourbestiename Bitch lmaooo 😭😭😭😭

cozane Wildin

druski2funnny Ok I see why Jack be texting me saying y’all are annoying. Stop with the nastiness, keep that shit at home.

urbanwyatt Why do you think we’re house hunting? I need that with me day in and out.!

jackharlow I miss when you two used to hate each other

claybornharlow But did they really hate each other or was it all a front??? Because they kept their relationship private for a year and we barely found out too 🤔

jackharlow You make valid points….. interesting.

selenosunni Wait so when Y/N slashed his tires, was it because she hated him or she was jealous ???

urbanwyatt 🤷🏼‍♂️

yourusername We’ll never tell!!!!!

mamamaggie I know 😊 let’s just say, I’m happy that they’re both happy and in love.

jackharlow Mom you can’t say that, he’ll never leave her now.

yourusername 🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻

user Now have babies

yourusername WAIT A DAMN MINUTE!!!!!

urbanwyatt Next in line, after we buy our house.

yourusername You are out of your damn mind babe.

claybornharlow NO

jackharlow TOO SOON 🙄

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[vonlipvig]

Jules i just saw something funny on Suzerain reddit that's it was stupid and yet kinda make sense, okay from what i read the reason why Pet'r is always late is because he can't read analog clock. The supporting evidence is when during the voting of the supreme court on the new constitution. He ask Anton on what time is it. Say jules do you agree with this post or not?

LMAOOOO poor petr, catching strays even from reddit 💀.

ok let's give this some thought. can petr read an analog clock? i actually had to go and google when digital clocks were first created, and apparently the first patent for them was in '56 in USA (so, arcasian technology), but then i remembered flip clocks were a thing before digital displays, and they're much older. all of this to say, would they have been common enough for petr to have relied on them rather than the more ubiquitous analog clock? maybe!

i think regardless of all of this, him not being good at reading an analog clock is just. so funny. like yeah, i'll accept that, he's definitely the type of guy to arrive one hour late because he thought the watch said 3pm, not 4pm.

that said, do i think petr is usually late because he can't read analog clocks well? no, not at all, i think he's a naturally late kind of person. people can definitely read their digital clocks now and they're still egregiously late, so i think that particular problem of his is a lot deeper than his inability to tell time on a clock lmao.

[vampyier]

1. surprise guest

masterlist

“WHAT THE FUCK. BRO HE WAS 7 FUCKING FEET AWAY FROM ME HOW DID HE GET ME?” scaramouche had been stuck at this stage of the story for a long time and it was starting to piss him off.

he kept running away from the monster in the game (and failing) every time, he cursed at it and himself. he raged and yelled at the story and everything.

he threw his hands up the air , “oh my archons i’m going to kill my self what the actual fuck is this game bro, there is no way i did all of that just for this stupid shit brown vermin is stopping me FROM FUCKING ESCAPING.”

the chat laughed at him but some people were giving him tips

kalaniii : “you need to put keys to the red door that the monster is guarding”

xinqfinf : “LMAOOOO scara is so funny when he’s angry ”

scaraswifey : “you got this scara i believe in you!! <333”

ilanabeloved : “THE MONSTER HAS THE DAMN KEY YOU HAVE TO GO CLOSE TO IT DUMBASS”

bountyhunterr: “blud has been stuck on the same thing for 2 hours 💀💀”

suddenly his phone screen lit up showing a notification from mona , he quickly paused the game

“shit wait one second guys.” he said scrambled to unlock his phone as scaramouche quickly typed a reply to her message.

once he turned off his phone again he tried looked at the chat again and began to make a mental note of what he was supposed to actually do in order to escape the facility that the game was set in

while he was focused on gathering the keys to escape he didn’t hear the apartment door being closed and the footsteps that were coming toward his room

he snaps out of focus for a second to hear what was happening outside his game but when he took off his headphones he immediately got killed again

scaramouche grunted and put the headphones back , his eyes glued to the screen as he failed to register the person who had just entered his room.

the chat started getting alarmed the second they saw a strange unfamiliar figure at the back of scaramouche’s dark room

his fans started spamming the chat once they saw the silhouette of a person entering his room and suddenly collapsing on his bed.

he didn’t notice anything thought since he was still laser focused on the game and escaping

after 15 more minutes he finally got the final key and made his way to the exit , he let out a loud sigh and let himself slump into his chair as the cutscene played.

“okay i think i’m going to stop the stream soon guys.” he yawned slightly

leaned towards his computer to analyze the chat and saw the messages coming through

scaramouche mindlessly stared at the screen in silence until someone donated something

wandrift donated 500 bits : “DSCARA THERES A RANDOM PERSON IN YOUR BED RIGHT NOW WTF”

“wait …huh?” scaramouche asked completely clueless to what they were talking about snapped out of his trance and leaned towards his computer to analyze the chat and saw the messages coming through

kyoumari : “HELP WHO ARE THEY”

matsuban : “SCARA ARE THEY UR PARTNER 🤯🤯😨😨”

dendronila : “bro is finally getting bitches 🙌”

farzaze: “what if it’s a ghost 😰👻👻”

numberonerarityfan: “WHO IS THAT”

after he read a couple messages for a second his head snapped towards where his bed was and saw that you were laying on top his bed passed out

he turned to stare at the the camera “oh they’re just my roommate , night guys it’s getting late” and then shut his stream off.

scaramouche sighed and got up from his seat , he walked over to where you were and placed a blanket over you since you were shivering slightly due to the cold weather in the apartment.

after that he turned the leds off and headed to the living room.

note :

- hey fam …

[lordofthenerds97]

I saw your reblog on Roy’s Event Horizon chapter 13, and I must say . . .

Please get on that soap box and speak about Obi-Wan, if you don’t mind ofc! Sorry if I’m being rude. I just have a lot of thoughts on Obi-Wan’s involvement and responsibility for some stuff in the war, TCW, and etc. I haven’t found any one that agreed or had an opinion on that tho! So it’d be interesting to hear your thoughts?

Why helloooooooo anon!

Ok so like straight up I was a lil scared when I saw an anon notification about EH and I was legit preparing to fight someone on Roy’s behalf 🤣💀 Like, all it showed was the first part of your ask in the preview, and I was sweating a bit when I opened it lmaoooo, but OMGGGG

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE you aren’t being rude at all! I’m honestly so surprised tho because I didn’t think anyone besides Roy was reading our brain dumps about EH! That’s so awesome!!

So, I haven’t found a lot of other people that have opinions/thoughts about Obi-Wan carrying responsibility in the war or TCW or certain arcs. You have requested a soap box and I shall happily oblige! But buckle up cause it’s gonna be all over the place and hella long 🤣 we’re also gonna condense because the original version was over 10k long and I still had more to say but I didn’t want to keep you waiting 💀 so will reblog later with additional thoughts

I’m not sure how much you know about his background as a Padawan when he was a kid, all that jazz, so I’ll kinda talk about that for a minute and then explain why that’s important

Roy made reference to him being a troublemaker when he was young. That’s 100% accurate. He has a reputation as a youngling for breaking rules, being rebellious, talking back, questioning things, yada yada yada, basically Anakin. He was passed over by all the Masters several times. Qui Gon didn’t choose Kenobi, Yoda actually assigned the two together hoping they’d be able to work Obi-Wan’s shit out

It worked, happy ending, onto Tatooine they go

So moving on to when they meet Anakin

Throughout the entire Tatooine sequence, you can kinda see this disinterested, questioning, and even slightly disappointed look on Obi-Wan’s face the entire time Qui Gon is with Anakin or talks about him. It’s clear he doesn’t really believe right off the bat what Qui Gon believes about him being the chosen one and all that, and to me it was pretty obvious he didn’t want Anakin tagging along. Anakin’s not dumb, I’m sure he would have picked up on that. Kids are smart, regardless of what we might think. So if Anakin knew that someone he looked up to, a Jedi Knight, didn’t really want him around or think he could live up to his potential, that probably put a damper on things

Obi-Wan took on Anakin because it’s what Qui Gon wanted. I don’t fully believe that he wanted Anakin as a Padawan. I know he agreed with the Council on the fact that Anakin was too old and unstable and emotional, and there was a flicker of something on his face, possibly doubt or fear, when he said he would train him

This next part is completely headcanon and what I believe happened during Anakin’s early days as a Padawan that isn’t talked about in any canon, so bear with me lol

Anakin was SO MUCH like Obi-Wan as a kid. That scared Kenobi. And with Anakin not having spent his entire life in the temple, he hadn’t learned how to control his emotions, reign in his temper, anything like that. Anakin more than likely had temper tantrums like any normal child…but he was Force Sensitive, and that would’ve made all the difference in the world. We know how strong of a connection Anakin has to the Force, how much power he has. He obviously had that connection, albeit uncontrolled, as a child. His tantrums likely threw Obi-Wan into a tailspin, and he probably didn’t handle them the best

Canon-wise, we know Anakin was terrified of losing his new Master, to the point he sometimes slept on the floor next to Kenobi’s bed. We don’t know if Kenobi discouraged or talked to him about this at all, but we know Anakin didn’t take well to correction from others, sometimes even Obi-Wan, as much as he loved and idolized his Master. Personally, I believe there was a huge trauma bond developed there, both in losing Qui Gon and in leaving his mom and everything he knew behind. Obi-Wan was the last familiar thing Anakin had and so he clung to that. Trauma bonds aren’t always a good thing. And while he did kind of grow out of that as he got older, becoming real friends with Obi-Wan, that, in my opinion, was the entire basis of their relationship and was not a good start to a Master/Padawan connection. They have a Force bond, and with that trauma connecting them, that bond was probably tainted in some way, not allowing it to be as fully developed as it should have been. We know Anakin didn’t want Ahsoka…I personally believe him not feeling wanted by Obi-Wan played a big part in that

Moving on to things happening later in TCW

The entire Satine situation

Let’s unbox THAT for a minute

We know these two idiots were in love. We know this. It irks me to no end that Obi-Wan is constantly on Anakin about emotions and attachments and all this shit when-

Like…c’mon. A bit hypocritical aren’t we, Obi-Wan? Had she given the word he would’ve LEFT THE ORDER??? He defied the Council FOR HER, someone he hadn’t had contact with in years??? But wouldn’t stand up to the Council for AHSOKA, his BEST FRIEND’S PADAWAN??? (Hold on I’ll get there)

That is literally the only time that Obi-Wan directly defies the Council. He might bend the rules a few times, especially when he’s involved with one of Anakin’s schemes or plots, but he never, ever, ever, breaks the rules as a Master

AND LET’S TALK ABOUT KORKIE FOR A MINUTE WHY DON’T WE

YOU CAN’T CONVINCE ME HE ISN’T KENOBI’S SON

When does Korkie ever mention his mother? Why isn’t she in the picture? “Oh, easy, she’s with Death Watch-“ BULLSHIT

If Bo was REALLY Korkie’s mom, knowing what we know about her, do you think she’d leave him on Mandalore with Satine? ABSOLUTELY NOT GODDAMMIT

“Oh but the timeline doesn’t match up, Korkie should be like twenty, he only looks fifteen or so-“ BULLSHIT

THERES A TWENTY SOME ODD YEAR DIFFERENCE BETWEEN WINDU AND KENOBI AND THEY DON’T LOOK THAT MUCH DIFFERENT

“Oh, but Obi-Wan is the perfect Jedi, he wouldn’t ever do something like that-“ BULLSHIT

Obi-Wan was human and therefore subject to human emotions and feelings. The absolute LOVE in that man’s eyes when he said goodbye to Satine will forever break my heart when I see those episodes but we’re not talking about that, we’re talking about his hypocrisy and shit. Anyways.

Also, another point?? HOW THE HELL CAN KORKIE BE BO’S SON WHEN BO IS ONLY IN HER EARLY 20s IN TCW?!?!?!?!?

So yeah, Obi-Wan said a LOT about attachments here…when they mean something to him. Lecturing Anakin when he turns around and does this, where Anakin can very plainly see what Obi-Wan is doing and how he’s directly going against everything he’s ever said or done, seems like a pretty big stab in the back to me

And actually, since we’re on that arc, let’s talk about Maul for a minute

Logic: cut man in half, man dies

Maul: lives out of hatred and spite

(I have a theory the Brother had something to do with that but let’s talk about that another time)

Logically, if you cut your opponent in half, they die. End of story. Right? Wrong. Especially when it comes to the Sith. Now, I might be willing to give him a bit of a pass if he wasn’t as studied on Sith as he should have been, but I doubt that’s the case. Sith Lords and Apprentices have a very very strong connection to the dark side and can access parts of the Force that are unknown to the Jedi and are unnatural. And for Sidious to choose Maul as an Apprentice, he would have had to have been exceptionally strong. Obi-Wan should have known that Sith are unpredictable and unstable. That should’ve been BASIC Holocron knowledge. Sith Alchemy, Dark Side Magick, Sith Sorcery…there’s no way Obi-Wan should’ve reacted like

To the fact he was alive. And out of pure SPITE and HATRED for one person

The absolute havoc that Maul and Savage wrought upon the Galaxy because of Maul’s single minded need for revenge is wild because Obi-Wan totally could’ve dealt with it. In one episode. Or maybe two? But that’s not the point. Maul got Kenobi’s attention by slaughtering people on Cybloc. There were rumors of Maul’s presence spreading around before that, but the Council (an entirely different rant, which I could go on for days about if you want a separate one about them) ignored, as did Kenobi. It wasn’t until Maul killed innocents and sent a holorecording of the act that anyone paid attention. They knew about Savage, who was enough of a threat they sent people to investigate, but when word about his Sith brother began to surface, no one thought that might be important? Least of all the man that supposedly killed him?

*smack* Qui Gon taught you better than that, Kenobi. I’m disappointed.

Let’s talk for a minute about how Obi-Wan let his emotions, something he was supposed to be in control of at all times, rule his decisions on how he handled Maul

First of all, I don’t care how you look at the situation, Obi-Wan was afraid. He thought he’d killed Maul on Naboo all those years ago, and here he was, resurrected and full of hatred. Not to mention strong in the Dark Side of the Force. That's enough to scare anyone. But instead of letting go of that fear and allowing the Force to guide him like his Master taught him, he let the fear consume him. Maul used that fear as a way to control the narrative in sooooooo many ways. When Obi-Wan faced Maul and Savage for the first time, he saw what he failed to do and the monster he created, which (Disclaimer I’m not a psychologist or anything) I’m pretty sure triggered some sort of trauma response. It also would’ve brought up a lot of PTSD (because let’s be honest, Obi-Wan has it, considering everything he saw and did as a Padawan and that was finna be the beginning of the Clone Wars) and guilt and a shit ton of other things, and that kinda took over his mind. He had a fight, flight, or freeze response…he froze. True, he did fight, but he didn’t truly fight to his full potential. We all know how good of a fighter Obi-Wan is, how proficient he is with the Force, all of that. But he just…froze. It would’ve been such an epic fight even if he would’ve just took an episode or so to prepare…but instead, he let Maul fester and create the Shadow Collective, and where did that lead us?

He takes over Mandalore, controls Death Watch by Ritual Combat, kills Satine, ruins Obi-Wan even more, gets back on Palpy’s radar, lost his brother (the only thing he truly cared about), almost got Ahsoka on his side(!!!!!!!!! Another headcanon theory but not rant I love that so much, that team up would have been legendary)

And then, he goes on to wreak havoc in Rebels.

Obi-Wan could have dealt with him very easily and very quickly. But nooooooooooooo

Now imma move on to the whole Ahsoka debacle

There is so much going on here

So much

Like…where do I even start

FIRST OF ALL

He is her Grand Master…he’s known her basically her entire life, he’s been by her side ever since she’s become a Padawan. He might not agree with everything Anakin teaches her, but hey, he taught Anakin so that’s his own damn fault. And he has the AUDACITY to not even QUESTION the Council when her honor is brought to trial???

He doesn’t even BLINK when she’s thrown out of the Order???

He doesn’t take Anakin’s, his supposed brother and best friend, side???

He turns his back on BOTH of them???

He hunts Ahsoka like she’s an animal

He is ready to sentence her to an execution

And let’s not forget

Obi-Wan is on the Council

I’m just absolutely boggled

AND THEN HE TRIES TO WELCOME HER BACK DURING THE SEIGE OF MANDALORE LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED?!?!?!?! I THINK THE HELL NOT

GOD 

And Mustafar

Gods above, Mustafar

After everything that happened, after everything Obi-Wan did, after everything he put Anakin though, after how many times he failed his “brother”, his “best friend” his Padawan, how could Obi-Wan be anything BUT surprised that Anakin would turn to the Dark Side??? Sure, Palps groomed him, obviously, and there’s plenty of blame to go around, but it was Obi-Wan’s responsibility to keep him in the light

LEST WE FORGET WHAT HAPPENED ON MORTIS???

Because the Father had plenty of warnings to give

All anyone had to do

Was listen

I firmly believe that Obi-Wan played a huge role in Anakin’s downfall, if not caused it directly because of all the shit he pulled. People can fight me, people can sue me, people can come for me (please don’t tho I don’t have the energy 💀😭), but that is 100% my belief and I will die on that hill

As much as I love Kenobi, as much as I love his character and backstory, he is responsible for the rise of Vader.

Thank you for coming to my TedTalk

[cxhleel108]

S7 Thots for this week: Why is everyone here actually delusional asf???

(Apologies for posting this late guys I was very tired when I started writing this…I was also high asf so be mindful of that while you read lol.)

• Oh great now #Raphne is going through shit and everyone’s gonna have to dedicate their whole life to fixing it!

• Bryson laying it on THICC this morning I know dats rightttt😛😛😛

• No seriously why ze fook are we helping them with their issues? I need these people to go back to university or wherever and take a communication course cuz y’all are clearly lacking.

• Tanya so messy for asking that. Girl you know exactly who tf it is why you lowkey telling on yourself like that?😭😭😭

• #Raphne is 100% completely done y’all omg! (Bullshit)

• NO YOU WILL NOT!

• Willow is STILL talking as if anybody give af about what she got to say. Someone get this woman a hobby I’m begginggggg.

• I love having bathing suits worth mentioning now😍

• Ain’t no way they tryna force a argument between me and my partner over this Raf and Daphne mess…bitch.

• WE DONT HAVE TO AGREE ON EVERY SINGLE THING TO BE IN SYNC THATS NOT HOW COUPLES OR HUMANS WORK!

• Talk less sir.

• Why is there always some of the girls trading jealous looks when it comes to this challenge. The point is to literally kiss everyone and y’all still be getting salty, get over it??? Maybe I’m just crazy but I would literally not care.

• Once again Willow is putting on a show for her imaginary friends and nobody in the real world is gagging.

• Wow, now all of a sudden we don’t know how to kiss each other properly because we couldn’t help another couple stop arguing over fucking sheets😕

• How am I having more chemistry with Raf than my own man? God help us.

• Omg Evan came back for me y'all😍😍😍😍😍

• Paying gems magically brings back chemistry to our couple I guess.

• Girl you deserve a 10 backwards.

• That joke bullshit…BOO! CORNY! LAME! 🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅

• Bryson real lucky he’s cute or I wouldn’t allow him to be acting like a 12 year old about his feelings.

• #Raphne is back together woohoo! (They’re literally gonna break it off again as soon as Daphne founds out bout Raf’s crush)

• Don't force me to have a moment with her ew! That ho is NOT my friend.

• There’s quite literally no reason to speak to everyone about the recoupling. NO REASON!

• Outfit time!🤩

• Eat! Eat! Eat!

• Thought Bryson was finna ask us to be his girlfriend right then and there ugh I need him to hurry up.

• CAN YOU ALL LEAVE US THE ABSOLUTE FUCK ALONE LIKE GODDAMN????

• Vicky if you can see how close me and Bryson are then why would you…never mind why even ask at this point.

• Bonnie has been trying to get with Tanya since the beginning of time. Girl just give up PLEASE.

• Girl who tf is you-

• Why did we get dressed up just to go speak to 3 people???????????? Chile anyways it’s outfit time AGAIN✨

• EAT! EAT! EAT!

• LMAOOOO she's such a loser I almost feel bad...almost.

• Uma you know good and well you meant to record them boys fighting. Fuck outta here with that excuse💀

• Y'all will not let Jake REST oh my goodness.

• Oooo y’all the way Bryson is fighting for us…kinda feeling butterflies in my stomach and elsewhere🤭🤭🤭

• Everyone here is so delusional when it comes to Tanya holy fuck. Actually no, this happens every season. Why do some of these people think that just because THEY feel a good connection with MC that automatically means she wants them? Like baby that’s not how this works…

• Oh Bryson don't end half of the villa like that-

• Daphne don’t ask me if I think you and yo man gon make it niece you don’t want my answer to that lmao.

• 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥂🥂🥂🥂🥂

• Why y’all ain’t make us do a surprise dumping so we could get Willow out? WHY IS SHE STILL HERE SHE LITERALLY HAS NOTHING TO CONTRIBUTE NOW????

• Oh I can tell you how! First, we're gonna walk in there and start marveling at every single thing in the room, specifically the bed, even though we've already been in there. Then, bet y'all won't see this coming, we're gonna find a box filled with naughty things😱😱😱 After that, we get to work and all that can be registered is the feeling of our partner's soft lips and how their hands caress our body in every place possible and then after a while we both reach our climax at the same time. Then our partner says they love us blah blah blah, we get some text about what's happening tomorrow and it's prolly the baby challenge or something equally stupid and ridiculous, and then we cuddle up and go to bed.

• If everything I just said is in next week's hideaway scene, everyone who likes this post owes me $10. I'm just playing, we all know everything I said is definitely happening. Keep your money💖

[bondagebimbo]

“inaccurate hate” girl ur such a narcissist it’s SADDD

I never said we dmed either so calm ur tits

obviously i’m gonna be curious what overly angry crazy bitch shit ur saying to my asks. and telling u that ur lashing out at people (which i don’t need receipts for since ur blog quite literally is the receipts in and of itself) isn’t hate.

girl, you’re a certified fucking idiot. here’s your certification, in fact, I stamped it already so you can go hang it on your wall. 🔖

like. fucking Christ. y’all toss around the word ‘narcissist’ the way people used to throw around ‘being BPD’ without an official fucking diagnosis. if you knew anything about narcissism, you should be looking in the mirror.

and my tits are perfectly calm, you think I’m worked up over you ??? LMAOOOO honey, you’re the one who doesn’t follow me, but is sending me annoying ass hate asks, and then coming back to check my blog for my answers to your asks when you still don’t follow me 💀💀💀

like ….. how is that not an unhealthy behavioral pattern …. seriously …. because whether you admit it or not, seems you’re DEEP deep in denial right now obviously, you actually are obsessed and fucking weird by doing this shit

keeping tags on a bitch you don’t like instead of just blocking and moving on is literally textbook obsessive and delusional behavior and not in the ‘haha I’m unhinged and fucking around to have fun haha’ way but in the ‘go seek psychiatric fucking help for your unhealthy obsession with a bitch that doesn’t give a fuck and check yourself into a ward for a few weeks’ way because that just … you need help, for real 💀

y’all think I ‘lash out at everyone’ when I only ‘lash out’ at people that send me hate first lmfao. and the annoying ass hate messages drown out the nice messages that I am perfectly fine and pleasant/kind/civil towards.

but you dumbass motherfuckers deserve to have your asses handed to you for being so beyond fucking far gone to feel like you need to do shit like this, honestly.

if I don’t like someone, I don’t send them anon hate. I just fucking block them and move on LIKE A NORMAL HUMAN BEING WOULD but no, you’re here sending me stupid asks and sitting here refreshing my blog waiting for my responses. could never be me, lmfao. even I’m not that mentally fucked.

go be jealous, insecure, obsessive, and annoying elsewhere. I’m so bored of you not knowing me at all but pretending you do 🥱

I’ll block whatever dumbass shit you send next so I can have a peaceful inbox again, you’re too mentally deficient to even converse with this way and I’m tired of you.

feel free to send something else so I can not read it and just block you so you feel like the rest of your asks are going through when they’re not because the lovely thing is, even when you block anons, it still says your nasty message was sent to me. but! it never gets delivered to my inbox! isn’t that fun! so you can think you’re still sending me hate and I won’t be receiving any of it!! LOVE that feature tbh because y’all think you’re just getting ignored but really you’re just being thrown into the void and lost forever 😌

see ya !!!! 🥰

[youremyheaven]

Hello, I hope your day has been well! This is lowkey my first ask and I wanted to talk about my different experiences with Ashelsha placements (as someone with a ashlesha moon) and kinda want to rant about it a little hehe if that’s okay!

I have read a lot of your posts about ashleshas and for one that sucks that you have had a lot of shitty experiences with them because GIRL I UNDERSTANDDDDD when ashleshas are at there lowest BABES they drag everyone down with them bad. I wanted to talk about my experience with my brother who is a Ashlesha sun Mrigasira moon and Anuradha rising with an 8th house stellium and baby AT HIS YOUNG AGE he definitely provokes me, my mom and my siblings a lotttt and IM AN ASHLESHA MOON like how does that work (im also lunar dominant and i have jupiter and ketu in the 1st). i also know that 8th house placements can be very provoking in the sense of their energy as i’ve read and tbh i would think i could handle it having an 8th house placement but NO 😩. like he starts irritating my mom and baby I RUN to my room because I start having bad anxiety (although my mom has healed her anger issues LMAO but still comes out from time to time and she’s a magha rising, uttarashada sun and uttaraphalguni moon (she has a lot of moon nakashtras in her chart but also has sun conjuncting her venus and mercury in cap but there in sharvana so idk what that does and she has 3th house and 6th house prominence and how my brother acts now is how my mom has acted her whole life💀my sisters dad described my mom as always poking a balloon and when it pops she’s suddenly surprised for no reason and that was honestly a READ LMAO) and although imma be honest i can def be mean towards my brother because even tho he is how he is he doesn’t always deserve to be treated in the way i treat him by pushing him away but i just never know with him ONE DAY HES on his best behavior and the next i’m hiding in my room because he’s provoking EVERYONE. i gotta do better tho. all my other siblings had ashlesha placements (my young sis her mars and my older sis her jupiter also being her AK which i hear is a good placement for ashlesha). they can handle him better than i can tho, but they also spend more time with him than i do so maybe if i just spent more time with him i wouldn’t always think he will do something that will make my anxiety high but he’s a sassy little boy i’ll give him that LMAOOOO.

anyways sorry for the long paragraph but i just wanted to highlight my experiences with my brothers ashlesha sun really.

Lol my 11yr old Ashlesha moon cousin is the same. She's so mean and bitchy. Openly provoking everyone for no reason and starting fights at home and when we ask her why she says "just for fun" 😭💀💀 she's just a child but good lord she's growing up to be soooo hard to be around 💀💀💀 idk why they do it and I hate that they enjoy being "sassy" and making mean spirited jokes. Like fuck off. I hate that bully in disguise energy.

[jihyoruri]

guys I would like to clarify that ask was mostly a joke…. I didn’t scroll super far down into the wowyn asks because I was just going off of the works themselves (that don’t mention her bg) I did nawt know 😀☝️ i am also very aware that if I was to actually fight wowyn I would not last a second💀that was also a joke lmfao

i don’t hate wowyn. I’m aware she has issues but I sent the “analysis” at like 12 am my time… I didn’t scroll down a lot

i know she’s complex (it’s been stated several times) and I’m aware she’s not one dimensional..

reading her bg clears some things up and I am not rocking w how similar the situation w her dad is w mine…. maybe if I read through all the asks about her I can do a real “analysis” but I don’t think I understand her enough to do one atp.. I know like four things about her and there’s clearly more to her than that.

sorry wowyn fans im not built for her 🙏 maybe I’ll understand her the more the story progresses…… did not mean to offend ur fav.. will never speak on her again😞

-🎏

LOL I KNEW MOST OF IT WAS JOKE BUT THERES SOME PRETTY PASSIONATE PEOPLE ON HERE LMAOOOO

honestly I’m happy you don’t understand her enough to do an analysis cause that means I did what I wanted to do is done LOL I was acc like um whoa when that one anon asked for you do an analysis on her, cause it’s hard to do one on her cause she’s hard to understand 😭

it’s just like how any takumi from nana analysis is never totally right because they of how hard he is to understand (he’s also a demon in human form so…)

anyways the way wow!yn stans are exactly like the ones in the story is so trippy like I can't believe I created a fandom for a yn I feel like an evil scientist

[seiwas]

THE SHADOWBAN IS GONE MY QUEEN IS FREE!!!!!! Anyways I forgor this happened but reading all the sleepover asks made this memory resurface again (also iris wtf was ur story that was so cute y'all were crushing hard 😭 and niku oh my god your story *head in hands* )

Ok so in short: my previous childhood friend turned relationship turned ex cheated on me 1 month after he went abroad (damn what a headline)

So here's the tea, we've known eachother since we were preeschoolers, he's a year older than me, we became friends soon after that and he is the textbook definition of a gentleman. Like literally the grenenst green flag out there. Neon green. Fast forward to 7th grade, he confessed during a christmas party at his place. He took me out to his little garden and sat on one of the benches and yeah. Now lil old me was also crushing hard but was too pussy to fess up so when this happened ofc I said yes. A small voice in my mind I thought he was joking cause let's face it 7th grade me wasn't exactly the prettiest rose in the bush ok It's kinda lopsided and a bit uneven but at least I was funny. I was fully expecting it to last like 2 weeks. A month at most. But I said yes anyways cause I wanted to give it a chance. It lasted almost 5 years.

He was my first everything, and overtime we grew closer and if we weren't joined at the hip before we sure are now. Fast forward to highschool, he's in his last year and will be graduating soon. He decides to go abroad and ofc I support him. We'll make this whole ldr work. No it didn't work LMAOOOO after he went abroad we started texting and vidcallibg but that lasted 2 weeks. I kept trying to get trough to him but he didn't answer, not even a read.

Now one day I decide to call him cause it's been 2 weeks since I heard anything from him. And to my surprised he picked up, but it wasn't him that spoke. It was another girl. I told her that I'm his girlfriend and asked her if he was there and she just hung up. My heart dropped. And that's how I found out he was cheating 😃👍 and to make it worse he cheated on me 3 months before our 5th aniv <3 3 months before CHRISTMAS <33333333

Not long after that happened the girl found me on instagram (I think via my ex) and dmed me telling me the whole story. About how they met at a house party, got shit faced, made out, and hooked up. When she asked if he was single he said yes so she was basically lied to. She left him after our convo so good for her I hope she finds someone better.

Cue a montage of desperate texts and many phonecalls I declined from my ex who tried to make excuses on how he was drunk and it was an accident. I ignored all of em and blocked him when he didn't stop. I went by to his parents place to drop off his things and his parents didn't know yet so I told them, legit broke down in front of his mom and she called him and yelled at him on the phone shdjhffh 💀 I'm still close with his family (esp his sisters) cause well we've known eachother since we were kids, I'm basically their daughter at this point. And thankfully they're also mad at him and idk what happened after that but one of his sisters told me he's "all on his own now" so I guess they cut all contact from him? Or cut his funds? I'm not sure.

But yeah end of story, I think this is my juciest life story yet. And what's the moral of the story? No matter how neon the green flag it only takes one switch to make it blood red *eats snacks* anyways how are you sel :D

midi!! hello again!! 🥹 & yes omg i’m so happy the shadowban is gone pls 😭

oh my god midi you sent such a long story and i feel bad for not responding in equal length but i’m literally just 😦 at everything 😭😭 idk what to say oh my god??? i can’t believe he did that… literally what the fuck. and i’m so so so so sorry that you had to go through that, that young also 😭 what he did to you is so shitty i hope he got what he deserved for it 😭 i’m also glad that the girl reached out to you to talk about it.

i can’t even imagine how hard it must have been, especially since you’ve known his family since forever too 😭 it’s good that you were able to confide in them about it 😭 i feel like that type of relationship is so rare despite everything that’s happened, and it’s so refreshing to see that you’re still close to them.

& that’s so true!! i think there are certain lines that shouldn’t be crossed and are completely unsalvageable once they are.

thank you for sharing this midi omg i feel like it’s super personal, i’m touched that you’re trusting this with all of us here 😭 i hope YOU’RE doing better now 🥺 esp with your current partner!! i can see that u’re very much in love & am so happy that they’re treating you the way you deserve to be treated 🥺

i’m doing great 🥺 so thoughtful of you to ask!! i was kinda hesitant to go out today bc my bf wanted me to join him and his friends (but i kinda felt bad bc i wanted him to have his own time w them 😭 idr the last time they were all together without me for their boy time yk? they definitely don’t mind having me around but i kinda wanted to give them that space)

but!!! i’m really glad i went still 🥹 lots of laughs and talks and eats for the entire night!! one of the newer gf’s was there too, and bc she isn’t really as close as the rest of us (context: i’m one of the older gf’s ahsbhaah i’ve been w my bf for like 5+yr and have known these boys since hs too haha) i guess she still felt kinda nervous!! but she was really making an effort to get close to me (asking abt makeup!! and she even asked if she could braid my hair 🥺 most of my friends are guys so talks like this r pretty rare for me lmao) it was so sweet 🥺

my heart is very full rn!! i love friendships 🥺 i think it’s especially sentimental rn bc we’re growing w each other as life goes on!! how our conversations have shifted along with where we are in life 🥺

[gimyung]

Hi Jann!! I’d like to say, that I really like reading your thoughts on certain chapters of Lookism, and I ugly cackle every time because you’re so funny!!! 💀💞

Also, here are my questions for you:

How did Big Deal become your favorite crew?

Among the members of Big Deal, who do you think would tap out first if they were to all have a drinking competition? 🍺

Adding onto the drunk Big Deal members, what type of “drunk persona” do you think each member would have? 💀

Which Big Deal member do you think would have the best voice, if all of them were to go to karaoke together? 🎤

Do you think Samuel Seo would come back to be a part of Big Deal in the future? 😭

I’m sorry, that there’s a lot of questions! These are the thoughts I currently have at the moment about Big Deal, and I wanna know what are your thoughts on them. Been curious about this for a while now. 😅 In advance, thank you for taking the time to answer these questions and I hope you have a wonderful morning/afternoon/evening/night!! 😌🖤

thank you cat for reading my ramblings in here 😭

big deal got that shōnen anime vibes to them.

strong yet respectable boys who worked towards a humble goal — protect its members & the residents of the street they're in

ideology things whatever that is /j

loyal, disciplined, united (plz they even got a uniform)

they trust each other

every member matters (lineman used to give me the ick i'm sorry but he's an important member too! 🫶)

they got lua lmaoooo (besides being their intelligence agent, she helped evacuate the girls to a safer place 💖)

2. for a drinking competition (ik they're minors but), lua and lineman shall be the strongest. jerry tho, we gotta nerf him so it's gonna be him tapping out first. :p jake taking care of drunk jerry wld be fun to watch.

more blocks of text ahead, will put a cut here!

3. drunk personas:

lua - talkative drunk. accidentally spills information she recently gathered 💀

lineman - he doesn't get drunk, but takes care of everyone instead

brad - "what did you say to me?!", gets heated outta nowhere, starts petty fights which nobody pays attention to

jason - emotional!, talks to random big deal members about big deal's history

jerry - blacks out, it takes 5+ members to carry him to bed or any comfy surface, although the first thing he does when he wakes up is look for jake

jake - he tries to keep it in but gets up when an upbeat song comes on, he's a dancing drunk

sinu - dancing drunk, talkative drunk, emotional drunk. he goes thru all phases of drunkenness 😭

yeonhui - doesn't drink, TAKES PICS AND VIDS OF EVERYONE

sammy - doesn't drink w them but lurks wherever they are & stays, just to make sure jake and the big deal babygirls get home safe and don't start shit/cause trouble while drunk (had to include him 🫶 he used to be their strict no.3) (he drinks alone by that gangseo lighthouse tho)

4. big deal best voice goes to jake!

the members pour out drinks for him bc they're trying to get him drunk first 🤪 it's what everyone looks forward to!

5. yes yes yes. one day he'll get over his inferiority complex and look back at the ones who actually has his back. gonna throw away all that pride, and actually help big deal thrive more despite its humble beginnings 🫶 i'm all for sammy character development.

thank you for this ask! and if you made it here, thank you for enabling me talk. i love you ˘͈ᵕ˘͈ it's 1am in rn as i type 🥲

[pianostarinwonderland]

Girl say it louder FOR THE ONES AT THE BACK!! Azul is not a crybaby and his confidence is NOT faked C'MON!!!

Funny thing, someone told me they'd never seen an azul stan such as me who adored him sm, BUT I'M SORRY YOU NEED TO BE GETTING A CROWN FOR THIS, I am literally an amateur in front of you.

Also, I read that anon ask of yours where you both admitted to almost crying with azul, and now I feel kinda pathetic to say it hyped me up and I was disappointed it ended so quickly 💀 (also I didn't even realize he was crying until I logged onto tumblr wtf) it was more like "he's crying? is he? OMG AZUL IS CRYING?!?! LESSGO LMAO THIS IS INTERESTING" mind you I ADORE azul and I did even before book 1, but I just have this tendency to insult my favourite characters 💀 love-hate relationships <3

SPEAKING OF AZUL, I USED THAT BITCH IN MY ENGLISH DESCRIPTIVE WRITING IN MY EXAM. Yeah I used his personality, and mostro lounge's interior, and an angry client and some contracts bs💀 except I switched the tweels for a blue eyed woman u h. I ALSO NAMED THE AZUL CHARACTER JONES TF 😭 and he also had azuls glasses AND I WANTED TO ADD MORE BUT my English teacher isn't a boomer and there is a HIGH chance she'd played or HEARD of twst, so I didn't wanna embarrass myself. Now I hope azul charms my paper and I get a good grade sksjsjsj

[Reply to this reblog!]

I am so sorry this is so late HAHAHA BUT FKDFKNSDFKLSDF THANK YOU FOR THE SUPPORT and trust me, this may not be the last time I'll talk about this because who knows, something might inspire me to make a third post. But I won't try to bog this blog down either.

Anyway, onto the main anon, kjfsdnfkjdskjnjksdnjkdskf a lot of people have said that to me as well xDD I think I've gotten a couple of anon asks about it. I can't help but be loud about Azul here, he's my joy and light. But hey, loudness doesn't equate to how much one adores someone, I'm sure you adore Azul a lot as well (and please bug me about it so we can scream together, I need more Zuzu stannies)

As for the anon ask, ok I can't find it right now HDFKFJKSFKSD but noo don't worry too much about it. I know some Azul stans who also reacted the same way xD first impressions are first impressions, after all, plus not everyone will react the same way. Like ,, I love Riddle, but I was laughing when he cried the first time because the sounds sounded funny 💀 What matters more is understanding and the willingness to understand what's happening, why a character acted the way they did, and how they are as a person in general.

LMAOOOO good job anon, hope you got the grade you wanted. I've also used Azul in so many of my school outputs 💀💀💀 like, I used him once in a 17k word fic that I submitted in class HAHAHHAHAAHAHAHHAHA I never got my grade for it but hey . it was worth it. I have a novel now that I could potentially publish if I just revise and edit.

[bruce-wayne-simp]

Like Minds

Hey hi hello im about to watch Like Minds (aka Murderous Intent) and apparently the only way i can watch movies now is by liveblogging them so 🤷‍♀️

(Maybe expect the LotR trilogy next idk)

Like with Remainder i have a vague idea what this movie is about. Well, maybe a bit more of an idea what this is about. All i know is there are 2 teenage murderers and a TON of homoeroticism (not canon i think but youre crazy if you dont see it)

Also this liveblog/my watching of Like Minds was heavily sped up by @catlovingwitch who sent me a lovely ask which fuckign FUELED me to do this so thank you v v much ❤️❤️❤️

Once again, i am a T Sturridge stan so this will probably be very heavy on him. Unless over the course of this i become an Eddie Redmayne stan

Spoilers be ahead

Idk why im like. Anxious? Whatever.

Its starting aaaaaa

Eddie R screaming on a train (hes thrilled)

Ooh theyre stealing stuff?? T Sturridge isnt here yet

(The way its set up is Alex (Eddie) is captured by the police and is basically giving them The Backstory™️ which is where Nigel (Tom) comes in)

Oh shit he killed Nigel

Ok so psychiatry lady is here and her name is Sally

God Alex looks so young

Ooh this is interesting and actually really good

Flashback starting

THERES NIGEL god hes pretty

Lmaooo Nigel is the new kid and hes Alex's roommate and Alex is kinda pissed lol

Thats what you get when you snoop. Alex was looking in Nigels trunk and found a taxidermied cat(??)

Lmao Nigels in the doorway like 'Do you mind?'

Oh hes so concerned about his taxidermy

'Hes weird' they say as they explode a cockroach for fun

Lmao Nigel reads books about anatomy/autopsies?? yikes

Oof Alex is pulling the misogyny card. Hes telling the psychiatrist lady shes running out of time to have kids 💀 sir youre not helping your case

"Nigel got what he wanted." "And what was that?" "Eternity."

Sally is Over It. She doesnt think Alex is guilty

Shes listening to the tape she recorded from her talk with Alex and is like 'hmmmm'

Back to flashbackss

Oh god Nigels dissecting a bird IN THE DORM ROOM

Lmaooooo i love Nigel

Alex is PISSED and is like 'the least you can do is show me some common courtesy' and Nigels like '??? K.'

Well that interview just went to shit

So Alex was kinda taunting Sally but mostly the detective dude. So detective guy comes in and is like 'Gunshot residue says you were holding the gun when it went off'

Alex asks to see his father, the detectuve is like 'he cant help you', Alex panics a little, grabs Sallys wrist snd is like 'Nigel was holding the gun when it went off, i didnt do this' and the detective dude loses it and punches him and Alex is dragged off to lockup kicking and screaming

Apparently Nigel ALSO had GSR on his hands so anybody couldve pulled the trigger

Yall need to watch this fucking movie

Ok so basically a guard runs back in and is like 'He wants to talk'. Well actually hes holding 2 guards hostage w a police baton and is pleading to be let out of the cell. He fights the guards, loses and Sally shows up as hes on the ground being cuffed again. They sit him on the bed, Alex insists he didnt kill Nigel and then starts talking about someone being 'here' and 'listening' and Sallys like '???'

Ooh ok so Alex thinks someone is talking to him im his head?? Does he think Nigel is?? We are at a flashback btw

Wait did they already steal stuff off the train??

Alex youre a bit of a brat lmao

Wait was he stealing stuff for his dad????

Ok Alex and his friends are kind of dicks

Ooh Alex is challenging the pastor dude who is teaching religious history i assume

Nigel is looking at him like hes kinda in love

HOOOO CHECK AND MATE. GET REKT PASTOR DUDE

Lmaooo Nigel keeps dead things in jars. He has a big thing of formaldehyde hanging up lmaoooo

You know what i actually kind of agree with Alex. I mean thats p reasonable

(The Headmaster (who seems to be fond of Alex) sees Nigels collection of dead animals and is trying to justify why Nigel is there and allowed to stay. Alex is the first quote)

"He's a part of your club and nobody else wanted him so youre doing the 'brotherly' thing. Yeah well does my future depend on that?"

"Thats enough-"

"No, you dont give a fuck about me or this guy the only thing that you care about-"

"Thats enough!"

"-is the amount of kudos his father's-

"I said enough!"

"No, which is fine, but just dont give me the 'brotherhood' bullshit."

Then the headmaster slaps him and is like 'This boy will be made welcome' and walks out lol

Oooh theres Nigel

Lmao he walks in, slides in behind Alex, grabs his notebook off the desk and walks out, visibly amused.

Jfc Nigel is making psychological notes on Alex and his friends

"This little shit needs to be taught a lesson"

Alex's friend, Josh, is a pos. He just made a literal Nazi joke. To Alex's credit he tells him to knock it off

At least one of his friends has 2 braincells.

Are they straight up chloroforming Nigel??? Wtf

They dragged him onto the train unconscious

Oh shit Alex is like holding him outside of the door while the steel beams to the side are rushing past them. Nigel seems out of it tbh cause hes not freaking out

Josh is lighting firecrackers and tossing them out of the train and he dropped one and freaked so Alex and Nigel got back in. Nigel went to walk away and Alex pushed him up against the wall like 'Where do you think youre going??'. Nigel just spit in Alex's face and Alex punched Nigel

Oooooohhhh shit Alex leaned Nigel out of the door again and Josh started freaking out and told him to let Nigel go and the handle Josh was holding onto the train with BROKE

Oh shit Nigel just let him fall

Like he straight up waved his hand over Josh's hand to taunt him i guess and he got sucked out of the train wtf

I feel like the thing to keep in mind here is all of this is being told by Alex and hes Not a reliable narrator

WAIT THE HEADMASTER IS ALEX'S FATHER???

Oh yeah Alex is an unreliable narrator for SURE. Besides some fondness there was 0 mention of him being Alex's father. Or maybe im just dumb which is entirely possible. Likely, in fact.

Lmao Nigel staring at Alex like a freak at Josh's funeral until his dad nudges him like 'Knock it off'

Alex's dad eyeing Nigel as he walks away

Alex and Nigel arent roommates anymore

Nigel reading basically smut in front of class (in front of Alex 😏😏) classy smut im sure but still

Alex is watching rehearsals of the play and Nigel comes up super close like 'sorry about ur friend' and is kinda. Creepy and morbid about it. Which tracks

I think its interesting that TS's facial expressions and delivery here is SO reminiscent of his role as Dream. Ive seen him make these EXACT expressions in The Sandman while talking. Its odd seeing them on a younger face tho (not in a bad way)

Oh my god Alex just got a human hand in a package. 3 guesses as to who its from? (I assume. I dont actually know. Im not gonna do my boy Nigel dirty like that)

Alex vomited and hes telling Sally that when he got back it was gone

Nigel comes into Alex's room, gives him some papers to help with his essay while Alex is yellimg at him to get out and leaves lmaoooo

My boy Nigel doesnt deserve the slander 😤😤

"How did he know i was struggling with my essay?" Youre a dumbass and hes smart

"How did he know my topic?" Idk maybe if you made an effort to know him youd find out. Im sure Nigel can be charming when he wants to be but hes not gonna be on guard 24/7 so you got to see the spooky shit hes into when you were roommates

"I mean he had answers to questions i hadnt even thought of yet." Omg could Nigel be... Smart?? Impossible. Only idiots study anatomy and dissect things. 🙄 CMON ALEX

Jfc Alex you are dramatic as hell. Hes comparing using Nigels notes to 'selling his soul'. Just get the easy A my guy

Me every time Nigel comes on screen: 🥰🥰🥰

Nigel and the dog im DECEASED

The dog doesn't like ALEX oooooo

Dogs know who you really are 🧐🧐🧐

"I've never brought anybody here before. You're the first. Okay? First."

Nigel just wants to be friends 😭😭 he brought Alex to his hideout and the first thing he asks is 'Do you like it?' 😭😭😭😭😭

Oh jfc Nigel is as crazy as Alex

God that LOOK he gives when Alex is flipping through the book. You cannot convince me Nigel isn't in love with Alex

"An implement for killing. That's what I am." N I G E L

Jesus. Alex thinks Nigel is in his head.

Alex just asked a girl (Susan) out on a date and Nigel came up afterward all friendly and tried to give him a book and Alex completely cut him off

Poor Nigel :(

Ok also poor Alex but i don't feel as bad for him cos hes an ass

Holy shit did Nigel kill someone?? Alex woke up and someone threw a knife on his desk stuck to a Jack playing card with blood

Oh my god its Susan (that girl Alex was gonna go on that date with)

Nigel this doesnt look good for you buddy

Nobody's accusing him but she was kinda.... dissected. Its pretty graphic if you watch this movie just be aware

Oh shit she was in the school greenhouse

I think Alex did it. Hear me out. Hes the one telling this story. If he did it, hes gonna tell the story in a way that makes Nigel look bad. Nigel, conveniently enough, cannot say anything otherwise. Cause he's dead. I think at the very least he did kill Nigel but telling the story this way makes him the hero for killing the big bad serial killer.

Ok back to the movie the knife and the card are gone from his desk and Alex is looking for Nigel.

Now the detective is getting statements from all the students who saw Susan before she was killed

Oooooh Alex got caught in a lie

'Ooh I sense some hostility' just kiss him already JESUS

OH SHIT. Nigel is remorseful about what happened and Alex was like 'You did it. Didn't you?' And Nigel says 'No, Jack. You did.'

(Jack is a nickname. It's explained in the movie i just don't feel like rehashing it sorry)

Alex punched him

"Well im sorry Jack but you were the one who got inside my head." OHHHHH FOLIE A DEUX

Nigel: You can fix him? I can make him worse <3

And we love him for it

Something something criticism of upper class structures (see: quote above about 'brotherhood'), parents being not involved in their kids lives and not seeing obvious signs of mental illness due to that (Nigel's... everything and Alex's authority issues, sense of grandeur and family issues)

This scene is where Alex's dad tries to get the detective to drop the charges and tries to use his connections to the detectives father to do so but he refuses to drop it.

Oh shit apparently theres no evidence Nigel did anything to Susan

Also apparently the detectives cant find Nigels parents so 🤨

Hmmm

Sally is gonna look at Nigels hideout

Damn Nigel had a TON of notebooks

Oh SHIT Nigel had photos of a sleeping girl

Nigel its really hard to defend this i hope you know that

Oh fuck theres a dead body under Nigels house

Apparently 2??

ALEX DID IT. FINAL ANSWER.

Nigel showed Alex the hideout!! Alex was the FIRST and ONLY person (besides Nigel) who knew about it!!! The bodies were fresh!!!! Alex did it. Nigel my babe ill defend you to the death Alex is a psycho

Its ride or die for Nigel Colbie in this house

Aww Nigel introduced Alex to his parents

"Helen and John, this is my best friend Alex. Hes working on the play." Oh yah rich ppl are fucked up. Imagine introducing your parents to your friend by their FIRST NAMES 🤮

Ooh he just read Nigels bible

Nigel thinks hes directly descended from the Knights Templar

See, Alex seems to be reading this like it's his first time seeing all of it. But HE BROUGHT IT UP FIRST. In that class with the pastor earlier. Nigel was watching him. This was right before Nigel started pursuing him (and i don't think this was how it happened. Hold on i'll talk about it later. I think Alex went after Nigel. And I've seen other people think this as well)

Alex's mother died while giving birth to him and he told his father that her death was his fault since he got her pregnant 😬

Oh god

Ok so

Sally found a card that said 'My beloved Maraclea' and Alex is telling her who Maraclea is

Maraclea was the lover of a knights templar in the 13th century who died and the knights templar. Uh. Had sex with her dead body. And basically 9 months later he goes back and her skull is moved from her shoulders to on top of her thigh bones which are crossed. He has to protect the skull bcs itll give them grest fortune or whatever

While hes telling her this theres a flashback to Nigel and Alex meeting up at night and uh. Theyre in a morgue.

I dont like where this is going 😣

Oh fuck its Susan

Is. Is Alex gonna necrophile Susans body

Did he do it???

Hes saying Nigel took him there to basically recreate the whole Maraclea thing but its ambiguous as to if he actually did it

Holy shit thats fucked up

So Alex is watching through the window

Nigels father found those photos that Sally found and. Um. I think those are of Nigels mother actually.

Implied incest/CSA warning (im gonna italicize it. Skip the italicized part. Nothing graphic and not even really explicitly abuse but theres an accusation being made basically. CSA bcs Nigel is 17)

Nigel is in his bed and so is his mother. Shes in a slip and hes in pajamas and his father is holding a gun and yelling and basically accusing them of sleeping together (tho Nigel is 17 and also thats his mother so uh. Yeah.)

Tbf it only incidentally looks like that and she claims they were just talking. But also i have no reason to trust her so uh. Yeah.

Oh my god

Nigels father just shot his mother right next to him.

Holy fuck.

Alex came in and grabbed the gun and asked Nigel what hes done and Nigel said she was 'chosen'

Alex points the gun at Nigel and Nigels dad gets in between them and is shot by Alex

Oh my god wtf

'Ill have my Maraclea' What. In the actual. Fuck.

And he just. Casually dumps his fathers organs into the fire.

"Dont you think they're gonna be missed?"

"Well as long as they dont find her nine months it doesnt really matter, does it?"

🤮🤮🤮🤮

Nigel i cant defend this.

Oh god Alex did it too with Susan

Tom Sturridge angry with a shotgun is something i didnt know i needed but im glad i have it

Oh shit they both did it

Nigel used Alex to kill himself

Holy shit

Alex had the shotgun pointed at Nigel and Nigel is very obviously upset and doesnt understand why Alex thinks hes the crazy one.

He told Alex to pray for him, reached up and pulled the trigger while Alex was holding the gun

ALEX WALKED????

HOLY SHIT ALEX IS MAKING HIS OWN BIBLE

HE LEFT AN ENVELOPE ON SALLYS CAR AND IN IT THERES A JACK CARD THAT SAYS 'MY BELOVED SUSAN'

Holy fuck he broke into Susans tomb and took her skull

Holy shit hes doing the same thing Nigel did to him to someone else

Roll credits

Ok ok ok wow so um.

I dont think Nigel did it

Well ok. I think the truth is somwhere in the middle. Alex is putting a lot of blame on Nigel for someone who may or may not have killed 2 people to Nigel's 1

God its so hard to collect my thoughts about this film. Also its like 2 am so uh. That doesnt help.

I think Alex had a more dominant role than he let on. Also considering how quick he was to pick up the mantle, idk. I just know while watching this i was surprised by how much Alex killed even as Nigel called himself an instrument for killing. All Nigel did that we know for certain was let a kid fall out of a train. Alex straight up shot Nigels father.

Nigel is more quiet and reclusive and morbid and Alex is more intelligent and outgoing.

Of course Alex makes a point to emphasize how morbid Nigel is and ive already pointed out how i think Alex is an unreliable narrator. Alex is smart. He knew how he needed to tell the story and he succeeded. He got off scot free.

Unfortunately i dont think Nigel would have been able to do that. Nigel was smart but not as smart as Alex. He would have slipped up

So what happened to Susan? I keep going back and forth on this. I think it could go either way. But i hate to say it. I think Nigel did it. This whole thing kinda goes back to the Maraclea thing and Nigel knew about it already. So he kills Susan and guts her so Alex has his Maraclea and he goads his father into killing his mother so he 🤮 has... his...

Basically i think Nigel is more evil but Alex had a bigger part than he lets on

Its v v complicated. Or its just 2 am idk. (respectfully) Leave your thoughts if you feel so inclined

Oh my god he said Alex killed her because in Nigels mind he chose Susan as his Maraclea oh good lord

(But Nigel is pretty and fictional so we'll give him a pass)

Im definitely rewatching this at some point. Its actually really good

Ok thats all lol bye im gonna go see if theres Like Minds fanfic

[heeliopheelia]

Seeing these asks on my newsfeed about who they forgive and who they'll make sure never breathes in the same direction as them again i agree with all if not most of them! Jungwon is a clear "forgive" for me, a lot may have thought that the last line is a little crossing it and IT IS but honestly it reminded me of a certain situation for me rn and i DEFINITELY needed to hear that rn (from jungwon my bias too even if its ff no less) niki is a close second but I AM PETTY SO GROVEL FOR A BIT MORE HAHA jay can be forgiven since he did seem to regret at the end but its just weird to not remember or have like an alarm/reminder about a loved ones bday YOUR LOVER OF ALL PEOPLE like i get not remembering bdays (i dont really try to remember every person i know's bday but only the special ones) so yeah he can grovel a little longer than niki. Jake he was on the fence but we saw his priorities when it ended while with jay it showed his regret jake seems he showed his regret caught lying straight out of his ass so ur in the break up line!!! Pretty we also came to a general consensus that the rest are irredeemable LMAOOOO but i think i saw u question you expected hoon to be the most hated one and as a hee amd sunoo (this ff) not forgiver for me its the "other woman" kind of deal cause with sunghoon, he's a bitch but atleast no other parties involved while for sunoo and heeseung is like not are they a bitch but its also like another slap on the face cause they dont respect you as a lover by bringing a 3rd party in the argument. Anyways that was long HAHAHA but yeah, those are my thoughts but in the end of the day its your account and work so you have the freedom to do whatever (unless you forgive the bottom 3 ill fight u /j)

No bcs bestie that was so investing like what 😍💞 Thank you so much for such feedback 😭😭 I love reading what you guys think about everyone fr 💖💗 ngl i feel like some of yall will be raging at one particular ending that I wrote 💀