#that mv was an attack on my psyche

[xiubaek-13]

And here comes Baekhyun to inspire me to finish my fics with that damn MV. Vampire Baek? Welcome back to the fold, you are always welcome.

[yogurtbird]

a cannibalistic reading of fool's table (sloppily glued together) because they're sending me to the psych ward soon /ref

[cannibalism, blood, so on and so forth]

original mv thoughts

the original and the drdt mv differ a lot but drdtdev did pick the song -> there are thoughts to be had rattling around my brain

natori notoriously uses the same character for the majority of song mvs, so despite the difference in hairstyles, the two human characters are likely the 'same'

fool's table is (presumably) about natori's bitterness towards shallow and negative sentiment towards his work and how he feels about his success despite them

guy on the table is dressed as seen in overdose (natori's most popular work)

fool's table is, in essence, natori's self-expression of frustration, conflicting forms of creativity, agony of having to serve 'an audience of pigs', and triumph

end of mv ->

pigs are gone! and so is overdose guy.

suspicious glass of wine that (from the rest of the mv) is very likely blood of some form

could be argued that the blood is from the pigs, but given that the pigs seem to be deflated with no blood in sight and with the shot of the wine (alleged) getting onto the tablecloth, i'm choosing to read it as overdose

the pigs also did get their montage shot of being food earlier so for the sake of consumption economy management it's probably overdose /j

hey why'd he eat that guy ->

a lot of artists feel limited by their 'one hit wonder' songs - it brings them fame, as well as more negative opinions and expectations for future songs

overdose is being 'served' to an audience of pigs and despite his distress, he's being eaten <- this is perpetrated by the server, because natori is constantly serving his own music to a hungry audience, even if the original feelings behind it are trampled in the process

server relishing a clean and isolated glass of 'wine' (not really) is representative of natori moving on from the fame that 'defined' him in spite of the audience

so what's with this shot ->

with the prior context in mind, this reads as a mocking invitation to the audience watching the video to participate in the consumption of overdose

the song is about his frustration with the audience; he wants to remind them that they have a part to play in how his music is interacted with

in terms of visual evidence; this shot is always paired with the pigs in position to eat around the table + the cutlery used by the pigs and offered by the server is the same

2. drdt mv

hey man what the hell ->

as one of the only shots that the drdt mv shares with the original, there's a significant possibility that drdtdev just liked the composition and had a different meaning in mind

however, because yogurtbird is crazy,

reading this as a metatextual invitation from mai to 'us' to participate in the consumption of teruko

the audience doesn't have nearly as much of an influence in-universe as it does in the original mv so far, but there are a lot of signs for 'audience' being central to the series (killing game being broadcasted, monoTV, the fact that v3 is one of the medias directly inspiring it)

if it is about the audience (us), this seems like a straightforward metaphor for how the audience is consuming the story through teruko's point of view (maybe on a more meta v3 level, 'perpetuating' teruko's suffering by engaging with the media (BUT THESE ARE JUST MY CRAZY THOUGHTS ...) do not go developing guilt about consuming the media because of tumblr user yogurtbird's crazy one off thought)

the audience might not also be 'us', but rather a different group of people (drdt cast?)

the first stab is a parallel to xander's initial attack on teruko

why would mai do this ->

mai is commonly portrayed as someone nice and kind; it seems contradictory that she's portrayed doing something so cruel

however, considering the fact that mai was involved in an Incident with xander that had catastrophic effects + xander was able to be convinced to stab teruko despite being adamantly against the action + teruko's hypothetical secret, it's in the realm of consideration

this 'mai' might not be mai akasaki as she was alive - there's the xander knife parallel which temporally occurs after her theorized death + this 'mai' might be a haunting of her (dead wife haunting the narrative isms)

why so yurious ->

i'm sorry happy yuri community please fly free from the post now for the sake of your happiness /lhj

they're both happy here, and i am concretely of the opinion that this part of the mv is probably just joyous terumai. but i'm not gonna leave a cannibalistic analysis half-assed

on giving up ->

mai and teruko are posed as direct foils here, and neither seems particularly genuinely friendly about it

staring each other head on, they're both rejecting each other's 'ways of eating' with how messy teruko is and how pristine mai is

i don't think that this means they were never close or that they never connected - i'm pretty sure the drdt mv is supposed to be read as terumai growing closer over time despite this conflict. what i really mean is that conflicting ideals existed

owie ->

teruko's expression in these shots noticeably goes from slight unease to crying while smiling

through this lens, teruko isn't crying out of relief -> it's a bittersweet sense of letting go of something (hyper-independence? isolation? freedom?)

she's 'conceding' to mai in that she signs up to mai's ideals and they become "fools dancing on the same table"

'nothing will be taken from us' 'our pain and everything is spinning'

things were in fact taken from them

foreboding and ominous nature

more thoughts to be had but i have to do things . uhm. read @/1moreff-creator's post on the mv for a more canon-accurate opinion

guys this is at least $30 in macarons can we at least spare one dish

[doesnot-really-exist]

Roasting the Absolute Perfection (I can't with this title)

Context: Eden is my fav unit

Warning: images

I'm not gonna lie, the song reminds me of Turbulent Storm. From all the techno music to its progression, like it's calm before suddenly– yeah you know

But unlike Turbulent Storm that is catchy and can be sung, this Absolute Perfection doesn't really get stuck in my head.

Seriously, Turbulent Storm is so catchy though, I never read the lyrics but I can like Go ahead! Blablabla uhh Kimi no frontierrrr cross the storm! Koete Ike, koete Ike, yeahhhh

Exceed also lives rent free in my head, or any other enstars songs I've repeated so many times, so maybe? The Absolute Perfection will get stuck in my head too beyond the aaaaaaaa… aaaaaaaa…. Haaaaaaaaa…. Aaaaaaaa x2

(I-it's like a 2000s barbie movies song)

But it's at last, like finally, a Nagisa-center song holy sheet, how many years have it been? Even in Adam, Melting Rouge Soul is Ibara-center. and in shuffle, it's just Sakumas. At least Hiiro got Vermillion and Hysteric Humanoid before the Black out see-saw but Nagisa's are just uh basic songs like Awakening Myth, The genesis etc. Oh there's Deep eklipus. But does it really count.

So anyway his voice would just be overshadowed by others, imho if I hear them sing together all I can hear is Hiyori

And the MV is also kinda lacking at a glance with the only effects being butterflies, light up tower, color-changing sky, lotus on the ground, fire sprinkler, some smoke & lighting (basic) and the random ray of divine light at the beginning. Oh and the giant gate.

But if I imagine that stage irl, it's extremely cool though, with sheer size of everything and the fricking 360° sky changing colors (the heck is this stage, are they in the Las Vegas round building). It's amazing.

And I absolutely love the giant gate, it reminds me of Virgo Shijima's ability.

Pictured: Shijima attacking Suikyo with Four Doors of the Buddha

Wait, I'm here to roast. So I get that their theme in this song is like eastern paradise, but those clothes are inexcusable. It's not that bad, but the white pearl necklace is just… horrible…

The symbolism is there though

And also, a pearl is a gemstone (but not a stone). As a gemstone enjoyer, ofc Nagisa also has it in his feature scout 2 outfit.

His fs 2 is white, complete with absolutely perfect transparent white gloves, the pearls are perfect there.

And in SS, the outfit is also white.

Meanwhile, I dislike the pearl necklace on the MV with passion. It just looks gaudy or like Miss Piggy from the Muppets or Lisa Simpson (sorry not sorry). The illustrated picture doesn't look as bad as in the MV though.

Butterfly symbolism is also kinda overused nowadays, so yeah just check out the TV tropes page.

Tldr; they thought they could get away with the outfits, stage, and song… they did. (Help). But definitely Psyche's Butterfly >>>>>>>>> Absolute Perfection

[mikazukikannagisjourney]

Spiritual Log May 20, 2019

I was gonna write stuff yesterday but due to the full moon energies I dozed off. It was supposed to be about the strong energies of the Blue Flower Full Moon in Scorpio being the factor in increasing the agitation and jittery feels for the collective. But now I just needed to put this out because I am just very concerned about several things:

1. Just when I thought I was feeling less and less connected with my DM, strong waves of emotions keep flooding in. I know for a fact that I have been cord-cutting him off despite being unsuccesful and being advised not to, and yet I still do so, but now it's mostly just the lower vibrational cords. Not sure if due to the moon causing emotional instabilities or due to hormonal imbalances (just kidding, I know it's not hormonal, I've been like this since day 10 of my cycle. It doesn't make any sense lol).

2. Not sure if this is part of the ascension process but lately I easily go under a lot faster, and at times unknowingly so. Like, suddenly entering a deep meditation state when my mind goes blank for a moment (fun fact, a moment is actually a fraction of time, just forgot how many seconds there are in a moment. Will edit as needed lol). For instance I'd just be eating and randomly flashes of images, smells, tastes, feels, sounds would appear out of nowhere, and I'd woke up with a start. For 3 mins my brain would be elsewhere, then I'd get startled because I had visions or something. There was even a time that I got startled seeing Sepiroth's wings (The one-winged angel from FFVII 😆) and I jerked my leg and woke up. I was just sitting down and zoned out after watching MV's. This experience so far is both fun and weird as well as scary. No way I can reintegrate into the matrix workforce ever again with such occurences in my life.

3. After staying away from my crystals a lot for a while and just keeping them under my pillow, I decided to hold each of them after getting cleansed by the full moon. A whole bunch of them were still adorable and clingy and I just held those ones a lot longer than usual, the others were just chill and had no pressure if I wanna hold them for a bit longer. Even weirder is that I suddenly had the childish urge to place the smooth, tumbled stones in my mouth, like putting marbles in your mouth. Sure, it's funny, lol, childish, but admit it, at least one of you lot did that once, and it was pretty awesome. Of course now I have no plans to put any of them in my mouth, maybe except the quartz family bunch because they're pretty inert. The others might release toxic stuff so.. NOPE. For now.

4. Have been getting telepathic messages a lot from people, and what causes me distress are those from DM and the karmic. Not even sure if those were from either both of them or just one, I might need to ask the Divine for clarity. Just a moment ago, again, I zoned out and saw DM, but then the karmic pushed him away and went up straight to my face and told me to stay away. I stood my ground and told my truth, and that unlike some other people who won't stay away and just stick around like gum despite the fact that their object of their affections were already involved with someone else clearly, I know that staying away from what could be a 3rd party situation would be the best thing for my soul. It sure is hard, painful, and depressing, but I'd rather be with someone who treats me like a priority and with love and respect and with faithfulness, than staying because of a lack mentality in nearly everything, including getting a partner. I am hoping that this truth will protect me from any more psychic attacks (you'll know it is one when you're happily zoned out and then images and feelings of pain, fear, anger, all that negative and low-vibe stuff rakes away a lot your happy).

5. I hope that whatever path this is, everything will be worth it. I am tired of questioning everything my intuition tells me, I just want to trust and believe. I may need strength from the Divine Realm, now more than ever.

I hope this post gave you some insight on the everyday happenings during the process of a spiritual awakening/ascension/dark night of the soul. Each day is lived on at a time, and daily struggles are a bit of a challenge without your soul family in 3D. Just trust and believe, and most importantly, never give up on the healing process, it's a pretty long road to go. I pray that you find what you seek, and that it gives you your happiness of the highest order and good. Any questions about the process are most welcome.

Love and hugs from Source above

三日月 🌙

Mikazuki

PS. I have been doing way too much Hiddle-ing (read: suffering from Hiddle thirst lol OMG I am still human guys, jeez) these days and I honestly haven't felt this happy in a long while. Either that or I have an undiagnosed mental disorder other than anxiety (that was diagnosed but weirdly the shrink who signed my psyche paperwork said I was fit to work lol). I hope that made you laugh, I meant to. 😆