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[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

or uh... No sleep until interview. still screaming though

i have finally landed a job interview and i have Such mixed feelings about it

[whenismuna]

are u like... are you good?

:-) im gonna use this as an excuse to completely overshare and vent even though its all ive been doing to delaney, michelle, emma, and max for the past week (ps i lov yall thank u)

so like this all started last week. so i matched with this girl and we connected immediately and it was really great and we went on a date and i had an amazing time and really thought it was gonna go somewhere, but then the next day she texted me saying she was in an open relationship (cool, whatever not a big deal) and that her boyfriend changed his mind and didnt want her to date other people (which going off of other things she told me, i have opinions on but whatever) so that really sucked and i was bummed for a few days and lowkey pissed but im over it.

so then yesterday (kinda late last night, which is key to the story), i matched with a different girl, and she immediately latched onto me and started saying a was super cute (which lbr i am) and started oversharing (which i get to an extent but the stuff she was telling me you wouldnt normally tell to someone youve only known online-only for literally like an hour. then she just kept saying how bad all of her exes were to her and that shes so glad she found me and that im the first person in a while to make her not feel like a burden, but then if i took longer than like 5 minutes to reply shed be like “sorry for being annoying/being a burden” or like “sorry for double texting” etc. which i did not like how that makes me feel, like when anyone does that i feel like shit tbh. so then i felt like she was lowkey emotionally manipulative and i obviously cant take that mentally so i told her (really calmly) that i wasnt mentally in the right place to give her what she needed and then she went off? like she was like “wow ok well sorry for giving off vibes i didnt know about“ (?????) and i didnt know how to reply because i was talkin to michelle about it and then she replied and was like “dont let that make you leave please stay” or whatever and michelle typed my response calling her out (bless u ily) and being like “tbh thats why. like u do shit like this and i cant take that?” and then she was p much like “wow ok well next time dont blow up on people” and like…????????? i thought it was all pretty calm but that was a serious red flag bc she was all sweet until i didnt wanna talk to her which i do not like so theres that..uh….. yeah

and then i remembered shitty things other people have done to me and just like always being passive aggressive and lowkey talking shit and im just so over it honestly. like i just wanna be able to be happy for once without feeling like someones gonna come around the corner and run me over with the Sadmobile™. like im sick and tired of people being passive aggressive and just like not being upfront about shit. like we get it, youre an Intellectual or whatever the fuck, but no one cares. im too depressed for this shit and i cant even try to go to a doctor for like 3 more weeks to get medicated because our insurance got fucked up!!!!!!!

like i deserve so much better than what i get and whenever god or jesus or whoever the fuck would like to recognize that and give me peace, that would be really nice; soon preferably.

everybody please just leave me the fuck. alone. god damn.