#that ff over there that you wrote is finished

[lavi394]

[atskiruma]

his attempts at courting you

expl: he finds himself thinking about you more often, wanting to seek you out consistently, and giving you numerous gifts every day to see you smile

a/n: it has come to my attention that the last ff i wrote, (snow day) was not very well depicted for all readers to enjoy, i want to apologize for that and promise that i will get better at trying to make sure everyone is able to read it and enjoy it, my writings are targeted for all | unfortunately, i can not edit it right now seeing as there's a poll going on, but once that poll is finished i will change my wording in the ff

ask me anything masterlist

second person writing no pronouns used

Zhongli often felt himself thinking about you more often while he was working around the parlor. Even seeking out your name in conversations and listening more attentively when someone was speaking about you. It didn't confuse him though, he was aware of his interest in you.

You opened up the warmth in his heart and welcomed him kindly every time you two saw each other. It made him happy to see you happy, and this was evident when flowers were delivered directly to your door one sunny afternoon.

"These are for you," The mail lady said before turning around and walking away to do more deliveries. You didn't even get to ask who they were from before she was gone. Staring down at the bouquet of tiger lilies in front of you, you could only assume that the bright orange and black colors could depict a certain someone's hair color.

It was a nice piece on your kitchen counter and went well with the other decorations spiraling around your house. That was, until the next morning, you were greeted again with another gift. A bright orange vase to compliment the tiger lilies you received the other day. It was funny, why was he going out of his way to send you such nice gifts?

You finally managed to confront him when you saw Childe and Zhongli sitting together on the seats of an outside cafe. Walking over and waving to the both of them. They greeted you back, and small talk was given for only a couple minutes.

"I actually came over here to thank Zhongli," This caught his attention, and he turned to look up at you, "I really loved the flowers you sent and the vase goes really well with them too!" You said while smiling.

He nodded back at you, seemingly collecting himself extremely quickly at the fact you figured out so quick who it was. "I'm glad you liked them," He said.

"I came to give you this in return," You said," "I know it's probably not as extravagant as the ones you gave me, but I like it." Handing over the small gift box, he opened it and smiled softly at the item. It was a small keychain, nothing special, and it was decorated with a lovely orange seem.

That same keychain would be hung up right next to his bedframe, along with variant letters you sent him on the table accompanying it.

Diluc was someone who took courting another person seriously. He found it tradition since his father had spoken so much of it when Diluc was younger. He always wanted to treat the one he loved with respect and be as much of a gentleman as possible.

This was why you were taking a stroll with him through his grapevines on a sunny afternoon. He offered for you to come down to the Winery a couple days ago and you had just gotten around to accepting his offer. His hand rested on your back as he took you through multiple different paths and explained everything. As you strolled, he talked about things concerning the vine, his profits, the seasons they needed to be planted, etc.

You smiled at him, knowing it was something he took dear to his heart, and listened very attentively to what he was saying. In reality, Diluc was really hoping that all he was talking about didn't bore you in any way.

Then, the next couple of hours were spent sitting in his large dining room, eating food made by the cooks in his home. It was nice, and you were very happy that he wanted to spend this much time with you. Diluc even found himself watching you eat here and there, asking you if the food was good or if you needed anything else in the time being.

After everything was over, and the night sky shined over the two of you as you stood outside his doors, he leaned down and pressed a small kiss to your hand. Telling you how much of a pleasure it was to have you here, and how he wished you could stay longer.

Diluc even offered to walk you home, tediously not taking no for an answer, he reached down to take your hand and hold it the whole walk home.

Alhaitham was very closed off when he first met you, he was closed off with anyone in general. He found it strange that you always seemed to be there when he was thinking about you, and when his eyes would try and search a room in the akademiya for you.

He realized that something had to be done about this, so, he did what any other raging nerd would do, and researched about it.

You also found it odd when you'd see him looking at you from across the library, or holding the door open for you whenever you'd walking behind him. Alhaitham always seemed like the guy who only cared about his own, yet he was so evident in helping you out here and there.

Helping you when you'd be confused about a book, rewording your essays to make them better. Alhaitham seemed to want to assist you with almost everything. This was no different than today.

You found yourself back at the library looking down at a long-written parchment on the forest rangers' activities. Trying to figure out how you could make this work in the essay you were conducting on Sumeru's forest.

This was when you heard the chair scrap right next to you, and looked up from where you had originally been focused. Alhaitham took his seat next to you, slightly taking up more space than necessary with his manspreading.

"Do you need help with that? It looks like a longer report than usual for you."

"Longer than usual?" You shot back, "Are you saying that I'm not capable of reading this?" His eyes widened a bit and he instantly tried to retort his original statement. "No, no, I thought- Well- You know you usually read shorter reports in order to get more details. I didn't think you'd take something this large to account."

His confession made you smile, and you leaned in closer, "How'd you know how I like my reports?" At the response with your cheeky grin, a blush formed on his cheeks before he looked away.

"Scholars are supposed to be attentive, it's natural to know a few things you prefer in order to work best with you."

The response he sent back your way caused you to roll your eyes and turn back to what you were originally doing. "To answer your question, no, I do not need help, but thank you for offering."

That didn't seem to make him budge, because he kept sitting there watching you copy down and write words from the book.

"You misspelled climate."

The sound of a book colliding with his head echoed throughout the library.

Ayato enjoyed your company, a lot, so much that he seeks you out anytime he and his sister go down to festivals or strolls through the city. He always wanted to start up a conversation with you, and if anyone else walked by anytime he'd be down there, Ayato would be right next to you listening with a smile at whatever you said.

Ayaka loved you too and found it amusing that her brother was so interested in you. She often found herself trying to spark up conversations with you, asking if her older brother proposed yet in a joking manner.

You laughed it off, Ayato was nice but you were sure he had other rich and important people to concern his love life with. He was just a very nice man to talk with here and there, and you didn't seem to notice that you were one of the few he'd actually seek out.

That was, until, every time he saw you, he came with some form of jewelry or expensive item to give you. Asking you how your day was, what you were doing, and if you wanted to come to spend some time up at the estate with him.

"What about Ayaka?" You said with a tilt of your head in confusion. He smiled back and said, "I'm sure she'd rather stay down here and explore more of the shops.

Ayaka would have loved to come along, but before she could even turn around, the two of you were already heading back up to the estate.

He catered to you, made sure you were comfortable, and even asked if you'd like anything from his personal chefs. It was a bit much to handle, seeing as you weren't used to living so luxurious, but he was very nice about it all and understood.

The catering didn't stop after that day either, more and more people began to wonder why the Kamisato siblings were spending so much more time outside their palace. Ayaka once mentioned that you loved a certain color, and the next day Ayato was handing you a box with that color, and a necklace with the pearl containing that color too.

He even found himself marching over to you when he saw someone speaking to you in a more flirtatious matter. Moving next to you and asking if everything was alright while his hand wrapped around your own.

[aforestescape]

i woke up with impure thoughts

stalker!ghost/rapist!ghost

but you’re into it. trans male reader (hasn’t physically transitioned), no pronouns, chubby/fat!reader, dubcon/non con, somnophilia, breath play

waking up one morning. mind buzzing and thoughts clouded over by a haze of pleasure. your dreams had been normal at first before distorting into some fucked up coalition of being passed around undescript figures. having them taking turns groping at your breasts. large hands wandering up and down the curves of your body. moving to squeeze the fat of your hips before palming your stomach.

the feeling of being stuffed to fullness and more. the slight pain that comes with having your soaking hole being rearranged by a thick cock.

you moan out in your sleepy haze, not quite sure if you’re still dreaming. bucking your hips in your clouded haze of need and getting a response back in the form of hips smacking into your ass. another moan turned into a whined slur of “ah fuck.”

you can almost feel the tight grip of large, scarred hands squeezing your hips. one of them moving down to your back to shove you back into the bed as you start moving.

“stay still pet.”

a gasp gets caught in your throat as you are suddenly more awake. your soaked cunt squeezing the cock inside of you in surprise at the gruff voice that spoke to you. realizing that you aren’t still sleeping, this isn’t a dream and you’re really being fucked right now.

you try to turn your head only for the hand that was on your lower back to move to your head. shoving your face into your pillows while the snap of the hips behind you forces their cock into you further. you let out a muffled scream into the plush fabric, shifting your hips to try and get away.

the person behind you grunts, keeping their hand on the back of your head. their other scared hand palming the swell of your ass. groping the fat flesh before rearing back to leave a loud, harsh smack.

you cry out into the pillow, tears stinging your eyes with each hit. not being let up for air as each smack leaves a burning sting on the rapidly turning red flesh of your ass.

when the hits stop you’re suddenly brought up for air. the hand moving to your neck to pull your body up and against theirs. they don’t stop fucking you, pounding away into your tight slick cunt as you cry and moan. you can almost see the black gloved hand in your peripheral. choking you, stealing your air as they take what they want from you.

your body trembling as you gasp for air. the other hand moving to your growing cock. holding your smaller length in their hand before tugging at it. it makes your eyes roll back. a loud, pleased whine escaping your throat as they touch you. stroking your cock in tandem with each passing of their own inside of your slick hole. vision turning white as your orgasm quickly approaches.

as your legs start to shake under you, you feel the gloved hand tightening around your neck. squeezing the air from your lungs as you reach your peak. your hands shoot up to wrap around your throat. trying to pry the strong grip off as your eyes blur. the pounding in your cunt getting quicker and quicker until you finally squeeze down tight around them. cuming and blacking out on their cock while they continue to use your body.

only stopping once they’ve filled your limp body full of their creamy cum.

ahhh i’m a clown i forgot i was going to post today. plus i wrote this in may omg😭crown me king of forgetting my finished drafts exist ffs

[cupidkyo]

Star gazing & comforting words- Minho x reader

WARNING: This is the first ever ff i've wrote!! I'm writing this to get feedback and criticism to improve my writing. I will make grammar and spelling mistakes!! but other wise i hope you enjoy:)) (Also read the bottom for more of my thoughts after)

SUMMERY:You and Minho star gaze on the watch tower while you comfort him after a difficult day. (735 words)

It was around 5pm, I was just finishing my job with the medjacks when i saw Minho run out the maze looking upset. my thought were confirmed when he shoved past Newt who was trying to talk with him and ran straight into the map room. 'i wonder whats wrong with him' I thought to myself.

After around half an hour I noticed that Minho still hadn't returned from the map room, so I decided to go check in on him making sure he's okay. I approach the map room and knocked on the door, " What do you want you shank!" Minho shouts out as his footsteps are heard making their way towards the door. He opens it and in seeing who it was relaxes a bit while sitting back down, letting out a sigh while shoving his head in his hands, "Are you alright, whats wrong with you?" I ask him sitting on the chair to his right. "I give up there's no way out, there never has been, never will be!" He mutters into his hands, "I've ran this shuck maze for two years! if there was an exit we would have found it!" I wrap my arm around his shoulder, "Why don't you take a break from the maze tomorrow, and how about right now we go up the watch tower?" He picks his head up looking at me after i spoke, "Sure." He breathes out in reply.

We climb our way up the watch tower, making it to the top both lying down with our feet dangling over the edge."It's a clear sky tonight, look at all the stars!" i say excitedly looking over to the boy next to me. He suddenly lifts his hand pointing to a fairly bright star,"Did you know thats Venus?" He turns his head toward me with a slight smirk. "Yes ofcorse i did! I'm the one who taught you shuckface!" I laugh, as he turns his head back to the sky with a pout. As most of the stars where showing i decided to make a bet, "Who ever can point out the most constellations wins!" Already trying to spot some. "Oh your on!" Minho challenges." I see pisces!" i shout out while Minho spots Aries.

After ten minuets I win the bet by spotting 3 more constellations, while Minho only spotted the one, "That was no fair! you know more about space then me." He sulked. "Don't be such a sore loser!" I say while smirking at him. After he stopped sulking Minho started pointing out stars seeing if i could name them, We spent around an hour just sat there just enjoying each others company, and pointing out stars, when Minho turned to me grabbing me hand "Thank you for comforting me, the maze has just really been stressful recently." i pulled him closer so we were now cuddling as he continues, "I just feel like it's my duty to keep the hope of getting out within everyone, but it's hard when i don't have any hope myself." He sighs as he rests his head in the dip of my neck. "You do keep the hope! And everyone here look up to you not just because they think you can find a way out, but because of who you are as a person!" I consoled him. "Take the day off tomorrow i'll tell Alby in the morning that your not running and then we can spend the whole day together relaxing, how does that sound?", "Shucking amazing." he groaned out as he sat up, "We better head into the homestead now then." He pulled me up as we climbed back down the ladder, walking towards the homestead holding hands.

When we reached the room Minho flopped onto our shared bed while i shut the door. Walking over to him i gave him a quick peck on the lips. "I love you so much and i'm always here for you, i might not know much about the maze, but i know everything about you." I told him while slipping into the covers with him. "I love you too." He muttered out nearly asleep. Wrapping my arms around him and snuggling closer i hear his breathing calm, I give him one last kiss on his forehead before i close my eyes and sleep as well, hoping that Minho will feel better in the morning.

I feel like in some parts i went really off topic then back really randomly and that it doesn't quite make sense, but idk.. i also feel like i was just repeating myself over and over again. Pls remember that this is my FIRST ever time writing anything really nevermind a fanfic. It was also writen between 4-5 am while i'm extremely tired and dizzy😬

But if you made it this far thank you sm for reading!! I would really love some criticism so that i can improve!! so feel free to comment on whatever you want. But again thank you for reading i hope you all have an amazing day/night!!<33

[sunnylighter]

I read your ninjago series x movie fic (GiGAU) and I really love it, just recently got back to ninjago and have been searching through ao3 for good fics. Your fic was really good–no–great! I like how you wrote it.

I'm also here to inform you that you've been in a hiatus for a year.

Anyways, got any good ninjago series x movie fics you can recommend? Or any great fics in particular? (Mostly the series x movie fic) I'm pretty desperate ;u;

Yeah, and it will probably be a while yet before I get back to it. I'm burned out on Ninjago right now, but I'll get back to it eventually. It helps I haven't watched a good few of the more recent seasons, so there will be new stuff for me to sink my teeth into when I get back to it.

As for fic Recommendations:

My Dad is Bad but Still Family, by KayHau. This was written by my beta reader, and was a big chunk of what inspired me to write my fics. It's more of a merging of the movie and series, but it is very good. Kay Hau also wrote a series of gift-fics for the Grass is Greener which are canon to the AU, so check her out. Basically, in a mash-up of movie and show canon, what would happen if Lloyd had been raised by his dad, only to find he had a great destiny to fulfill.

Summoning Gone Wrong, by Doctor_Who_Fan85 is a funny take on what would have happened if in season 8 of the show, Harumi summoned Movie Garmadon instead of the undead one from the show. I beta-read this one, and it was fun to do.

That's Ninja Swag (It's Nothing New) by Fabro-de-omres (Fabro). It's a reincarnation fic. A 'What if the Movie Ninja are the reincarnations of the Show Ninja in the far future and start regaining their past memories' fic. I highly recommend it for the feels.

Of course, no series-movie crossover fic is complete without Same People, But Not Really, by @KittyDemon9000. What if Kai got sent to the Movie-verse, and how long would it take him to adopt all the Movie Ninja? It's a really great one, and I can't recommend it enough.

Enter the Ninjaverse by BionicStars. I didn't finish this one, but it's about the return of the Time Twins and Lloyd chasing them across the multi-verse to stop them.

Switched! also by Doctor_Who_Fan85. Another Show Lloyd and Movie Lloyd switcharoo. Poor boys.

Tantamount by Bamboosauce. Using the Tornado of Creation to stop the Oni sends the Show Ninja rocketing into the Movie-verse. There's not much to it, but I enjoy seeing the Movie Ninja freak out about it.

It's Me (Version 2-point-0) by lloydskywalkers. Okay, all the previous ones are on AO3, but this one is on Fanfiction.Net. It is honestly one of my favorites, and what first got me thinking about crossing over the show and the movie in any meaningful way. It's a oneshot that was written before March of the Oni came out, and has the author's imagining of how the oni could be. When one of the Oni come after Show Lloyd and drag him through the multi-verse, he ends up landing on his movie counterpart, and the two work together to avoid their murderous Oni Aunt.

That's all the ones I can find in my Bookmarks list on AO3 and FF. More may have come out since I burned out on Ninjago, so keep your eyes open. I hope you enjoy my recommendations.

[strawberrykisseslia]

ellie williams x singer!fem!reader (part 1?)

cw: fluff, sceneries + headcannos

an: i never wrote this type of ff before but i kinda like it, also srry for being inactive but i didn't rlly have any ideas for writing and any motivation plus im not feeling good mentally

"you're still up?" a voice from behind you could be heard. you turn around to see ellie standing by the door, leaning against the door frame. you're sitting in front of your desk and next to your piano. you smile and nod. "i wanted to finish this before heading to bed."

she walks closer and hugs you from behind, looking over the papers. "new song? or maybe songs?" a small smirk creeps up on her face. you chuckle. "yup. so excited to record them." she sighs and pulls you closer. you lay your head back on her shoulder. "you're so talented, you know that right?" you smile. "thank you baby."

—

"ellie? where are you?" you call her from the kitchen. you're making lunch for the both of you. when no answers come back you decide to search for your girlfriend. "els?" you peek into the living room. she is laying on the couch with her phone in her hands. you cross your arms and walk closer to her. "lunch's almost ready. what are you doing?" she looks up at you from her phone. some songs could be heard from it. she sits up. "nothing much." she smiles. you roll your eyes. "yea, sure." you go behind and see what she is watching.

you chuckle. you should have guessed it. she is watching edits of you that fans made. ellie absolutely adored every one of them. she would always comment on them, making everyone know she is your girlfriend and you are hers, not like everyone already knew. the fans also loved her. you are grateful for their love towards ellie.

"you really like watching them, huh?" she chuckles and puts her phone down. "you look so good in every one of 'em!" she claims. you softly laugh and shake your head. she grabs your hands and pulls you down on her lap. "you're just so gorgeous." you put your hands around her neck and kiss her with all the love you have for her.

—

♡ she is your number one fan on your tours. she screams your songs louder than anyone else. the fans love to make edits of it.

♡ she goes absolutely feral when you're performing a sexy song with your tight dresses/suits. would help you choose outfits even.

♡ she would be really invested in the sets and the type of microphones you have for albums/songs.

♡ she would love to hear you talk about the lore of your albums and songs. why you wrote them and who you wrote them about and she would help you write songs, she would play the guitar for your songs. her favorite part.

♡ in your fan meets she would walk up to you like, "ma'am, i'm your biggest fan, could i please get a photo and autograph?" you'd chuckle but absolutely give her what she wants.

♡ would bring you food and drinks when you're on breaks.

♡ you would often catch her just admiring you while you're on stage. you absolutely just melt in her eyes and smile.

♡ she just absolutely loves how you're your true self while singing to thousands of people and how you enjoy it. you don't even consider it as a job because it's so much more than that. the way you laugh, smile, dance, talk to your fans.

♡ when your vinyl and cds comes out she is the first person to have them and take photos with them and post it on her story just admiring your art.

♡ would have posters of you in her room and art room.

♡ she posts a lot about you on her twitter and insta stories.

♡ she loves drawing you from photos on tours.

♡ the way she is looking at you while you're modeling for a magazine. pure love towards you and only love.

♡ all the emotions you put into your songs are just everything to her.

[pissmaster228]

mhy really did Helia and Coralie DIRTY with that timeskip. They've been sent exploring where no CE human has been before, something that's both difficult and potentially /lethal/ See the IRL space race for a close example, all of them went through gruelling training and were fully prepared to not come back.

(contains events from Oxia's chapter 2 so don't read if you haven't finished that)

Helia's a workaholic who's OBSESSED obsessed with getting stronger and romanticized going out in a blaze of glory since childhood. (dorm and bridge interactions) (Hey doesn't that remind you of anyone) Being an A-rank doesn't help. May I remind you she's been a valkyrie since Otto was in charge? Her A-rank title is her greatest pride. She's been mentored by the Goddess of Earth and yet she's still objectively speaking a nobody.

Coralie, in contrast, is a BIG SHOT. She's got furry mutations, got a PhD at 17, her parents are leaders of a military branch(AE is a branch of the US army right? or am i misremembering?), she inserted the Planck constant into her name ffs. Basically almost all the time she was the most specialest girl in the room.

Then these two spent a year locked together in a rocket(why were they flying by spaceship, again?) and started their most exciting mission of mining rocks with Helia as the muscle and Coralie as the brain.(Coralie insists Helia isn't dumb, just childish) Helia took care of things like maintenance (she wrote the voyage log for example) Then they discover an analogous structure to the Eye of the Deep(lovingly nicknamed the Sandpit) and try to pry it open(Tesla HATED the idea, Nagamitsu was very enthusiastic though)(why is this woman still working for Schicksal again?). Du-dunn, they get inside and now they're stuck in a bubble universe where their earthly titles mean nothing, their roles in an explorer team are already taken by other people (Sena, Entropy) and bitches who seem to know Something keep talking about using them as a blood sacrifice(Perception, Chenxue). Yeah, rub it in that they're disposable.

Coralie is very openly pissed about it. She's stuck far away from her home, surrounded by UwU quirky beings and worst of all, she's there because she didn't listen to her mom. And Helia? That's been her reality forever. She stays silent in discussions because she feels like she has nothing to contribute, she's always guarding the rear when they walk somewhere(visible in group shots, wasn't stated outright) and when Lantern ambushes them she doesn't try to flee like Songque, doesn't take out her weapons in a defensive stance like Coralie(well guns aren't the most defensive weapon but you get what i mean) but steps forward as if attempting to shield Entropy and Senadina with her body. Helia is literally the Valkyrie Ideal. Valuing protecting others over her life, even if they barely know each other. Also abs.

oh my god this got way longer than i thought it would and i didn't even mention the Union episode

[yelenasdiary]

Hello, I saw that you have your requests open (and I love your writings) so...

You can do a ff where reader and Natasha are getting divorced. Reader is starting to date someone else, while Natasha still can't get over her… but of course, with a happy ending. please?

💕

Another Chance

Pairing: Natasha Romanoff x Reader

Summary: When another door closes, another opens, right?  

Angst | Fluff | 2.3K | 

Translation: dorogoy (sweetheart), YA lyublyu vas (I love you)

AC: Wrote this while my friend was passed out asleep snoring so freaking loud! 

"Nat please! it's almost been 12 months! I need you to just sign the damn divorce papers" you spoke sternly with your arms crossed while looking at the red head who stood defeated in front of you. "I've been busy, I'm sorry" she mumbled as she searched the top drawer of her office for a pen. Any excuse to prolong the awaited divorce with a stack of mixed pens sitting in the pen holder in front of her. "You keep saying that Nat" you replied with a roll of your eyes. 

It wasn't easy 11 months ago when you placed the papers on Natasha's side of the bed before you left to stay with your best friend. After countless nights of arguments and drunken words being thrown between the two of you, it was time to admit that your marriage had fallen apart. After every heated fight you would lock yourself away in the bathroom with tears streaming down your face as you wondered how on earth the two of you had gone to this point. Screaming at each other over things that simply didn't matter after 5 minutes. You never asked for Natasha to give up most of her workload, she did it purely because she loved you, but you saw in her eyes how much she missed being on missions with her other family. 

Most nights you'd come home from work to the shared home dark and painfully quiet with the bedroom light on and the door closed. Not even getting a simple hello was even to start an argument between the two of you. As the tension went on, the more Natasha closed herself off and then you found yourself coming home to an empty house, only to be woken up in the early hours of the morning when Natasha would stumble into the bedroom smelling of booze and cigarette.

"Here!" You grabbed a pen from the holder and placed it on top of the white stack of paper with printed words, "just sign them, please".

"Can't we work this out?" Natasha looked up at you with eyes of hurt, "this isn't like us" she added. "Natasha please, I don't want to go through this again…we tried. We did the therapy, and it didn't do anything…I need to move on, I want to move on" you admitted as you took a slight step back away from her desk. Natasha sighed as she threw herself onto the chair as she took another quick look over the agreement, her eyes locked onto the only signature on them. "You'll have to get another one drafted up" she spoke, breaking the silence. You frowned and shook your head, "No more stalling Natasha, please I just need you to sign them so I can finally go on a –"you paused quickly before finishing your sentence. Natasha slowly looked up at you, placing the blue pen gently back on the paper. 

"So, you can what?" She asked, searching your eyes for the answer she could only wish wasn't true. "It doesn't matter" you mumbled with sorry in your tone. "Are you seeing somebody?" Natasha asked with a slight tilt of her head. Your eyes dropped for a moment knowing you couldn't hide the fresh relationship with your new partner any longer. "Yeah" you nodded as your eyes reconnected with Natasha's, only then did you finally see something shift inside her. "Oh" she grabbed the pen, "well, I'm uh, I'm happy for you" she added before placing the bed back into the pen holder. "Thanks" you smiled ever so softly. 

"I can't sign these; I don't agree to them anymore. We need to get them redone" she spoke with a stern voice as she placed the papers back into the yellow envelope. "What are you talking about? We both agreed to split everything 50/50" you frowned. "That was before I decided to go back to work full time – "

"Wait, when did that happen?" You asked, cutting her off. 

"A few weeks ago, I needed it" she replied as she stood from her desk and reached out to hand you the envelope. "I don't need the house, or the joint bank account, I don't want anything. You can have it all" she added. 

"Natasha! That'll take weeks to redo! I don't care what you do with your half, sell the house for all I care but please… just sign the papers" you said, refusing to take the divorce papers from her hand. "I'm sorry, I'll contact my lawyer first thing in the morning and ask them to do it as soon as they can" 

You could see there was no fighting Natasha on this one when her eyes flickered to your feet and her hand still reached out for you. With a sigh you snatched the envelope and shoved it back into your handbag, "I really thought you'd finally see how much this hurts! We're not the same anymore Natasha, we don't love each other. We fought all the time…then you started drinking and let's face it, you avoided me…all I asked was for you to sign them today and you can't even do that!" you said as you looked at the woman you once called your wife. Natasha stood in silence as she watched you leave her office and out the front door of the once shared home. "I do love you, I'm sorry" she spoke to herself as tears filled her eyes. 

The following week, Maria found Natasha avoiding anything on the topic of you. When asked how things went she just smiled softly and said 'fine'. Wanda wanted to invite you to the boy's birthday party as she'd grown close to you since you met Natasha only 6 years ago. You accepted the invitation with excitement as it had been a long time over due since you last saw Wanda and the twins and the rest of the team for that matter but when Natasha found out you'd be bringing your new partner along, she pulled out. It broke her in ways she never thought she could be hurt. The thought of you with somebody else made her heart ache, she still loved you with every inch of herself but now she hated that she allowed herself to let you down the way she did. 

On the twins birthday 2 weeks later, shortly after they blew their candles out, Natasha texted you saying she had the new divorce papers ready for you. Your smile dropped as you read her text, knowing she wasn't here to celebrate the twins birthday because of you brought a different feeling of pain to your heart. "Can you tell Wanda I'll be back shortly?" You turned to your girlfriend with a forced smile. "Of course darling, is everything okay?" She asked, you nodded, "it's fine, I just need to go pick up something" you smiled before placing a soft kiss on her forehead. She knew it had to be about the divorce, she could see in your eyes whenever something had to do with Natasha that they would change slightly in color or you struggled to keep eye contact and became less affectionate but she was patient and understood the divorce was still fresh, even now, 12 months later. 

"They're signed" Natasha's jaw clenched as you picked up the yellow envelope from her desk. "Thank you" you replied softly but Natasha only muttered to herself as she walked towards the front door to hold it open for you. "Y…you should've come today…the twins looked great in their dress up" you smiled softly trying to strike a conversation. "Yeah well, I wasn't exactly wanting to see my wi- to see you with whoever your new partner is. I'm happy for you, I am…but I think it's best we keep our distance" she replied, her eyes staring coldly into yours. 

"Come on, Nat…we're adults…we can be in the same room together without it being awkward…right?" You frowned slightly as you stood in front of her. She shook her head before her eyes dropped to her feet, "No, we cant" she replied quickly, wanting nothing more than to be left alone go cry out her sorrows. "Nat, it's been 12 months – "

"I still love you" she blurted out before you could finish your sentence, "and seeing you with somebody else –" she paused as her eyes flickered to hide her building tears.

 "Natasha" you stepped forward, wanting to hold her once last time even if you knew it would make things worse for the red head, you couldn't deny that you still cared for her. "I will always love you" her glassy wet eyes looked at you, "I hoped that maybe if I didn't sign the papers then we'd have some extra time to work things out and find each other again" 

"Nat, don't do this to yourself…what we had was beautiful and I'll always have a special place in my heart for you but…we just couldn't do it" your heart dropped at your own words, hating the fact that something so beautiful was now turning into something so strange.

"I was stupid, I'll take responsibility for that. I didn't stop to think about your feelings when I should have and now it's cost me –"

"Nat, please" tears filled your eyes. "It cost me the love of my life" she continued, ignoring your plea, "I love you, Y/n" she added while searching your eyes for any sign of hope that you still felt that love for her. "I can't stop, all I think about is you, all I hear is you, I can't bare to be in this house without you…I don't want to find something new and have to settle because all I want, all I ever want is you" tears breaking free from the green eyes you missed so much. Even though you've heard her say similar things before, this time not only could you see the difference in her body language, but you now felt her feelings and it only caused you to break down with her. 

"Don't cry darling" you heard her say softly as she did her best to wipe her flowing tears, "I'm going away for a few months with Yelena, that should give you enough time to sort out what you want to do with the house" 

"W-what? How long?" You asked but she refused to answer. "Nat, how long" you asked once again, Natasha looked at you, "until I get over you" she said almost a little too bluntly. Your eyes dropped at her reply as you took a step back, "I'm sorry, Y/n but I can't be around you and ignore that I love you so much" Natasha added. "Just promise me one thing" you said, your eyes slowly looking back up into hers. 

"Anything, dorogoy"

Your heart skipped a beat at the pet name, something you didn't think you'd hear her call you ever again. "Please…stay safe and stay in contact with Clint" 

"I promise" she smiled ever so softly. 

--7 Months later—

It was Wanda who let it slip that Natasha and Yelena were coming back to town and even though you knew she probably didn't want to see you; you couldn't help yourself but visit the compound and wait for her by her room. 

After she left, your mind wouldn't rest. Always thinking about the words, she spoke that day you picked up the divorce papers, thinking about how she looked and how you felt knowing she was gone without any way for you to make contact. Clint texted you a few times whenever you asked how things were just to make sure she and Yelena were okay, but his replies were dry and blunt and you knew that was Natasha talking, not Clint. 

"Y/n?" You heard Natasha's voice only a few steps from her room, "what are you doing here?" She asked with slight shock. "D-did you mean it?" You asked once she came to a stop before you, "everything you said…did you mean it?" You repeated. A moment of silence between you both started to build, looking both of each other in the eyes, searching for an answer. "Yes" Natasha finally spoke, nodding. A soft, gently smile tugged at your lips as you pulled the yellow envelope from your handbag. 

"What's this?" She asked even though she already knew what you were handing her, "I already signed them…" she added. "Just take a look, please" you replied as she slowly grabbed the envelope. You watched in silence as Natasha pulled the documents out, looking back and forth between you and the papers in front of her. 

"You didn't sign them?" 

"I thought I could….but after what happened when I last saw you, I couldn't stop seeing the pain in your eyes Nat…I'm so sorry I let us fall apart –"

"It wasn't you, it was me" She cut you off. 

"Does it matter who it was in the end? I gave up too easily, I let you slip just as much as you let me slip…Nat, I love you and being with somebody else just isn't the same. It isn't want I want…it's you, you're the one I want…if you'll still have me" tears built in your eyes but even breaking the eye contact you had with her. She smiled softly and dropped her bags before taking the few steps to close the gap between you both, "YA lyublyu vas" she whispered as she gently cupped your face, "will you have me?" She asked. 

Nodding with a tugging smile, "of course" you replied. 

Natasha didn't waste another second before her lips were gently and softly pressed against yours as she pulled you closer into her arms as you wrapped yours around the nape of her neck. "Let's go home" you smiled against her lips. "You didn't sell?" Natasha asked as she pulled away a little, still keeping you in her arms.

 "I couldn't, it's our home"

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[glorianamultistan]

i need a sangyeon male reader ff from u maybe a continuation it keeps me alive!!! ☹️☹️

Hi @innieplanet thank you for requesting and sorry it took so much time to finish it. I wrote something new and not a continuation I hope you like it.

Sangyeon x Male Reader

I do not own the pic.

Slipping down the sofa slowly, there, between the coffee table and the sofa, one could not easily tell by looking whether it was Sangyeon who was trying to hold both of them up or y/n, who in the trance of liquid kisses wasn't even aware of the slippage, trying to pull the older closer.

Both seemed to be following the same route from afar, at least that is what Sunwoo thought when he yelled at them to stop before their managers come.

Y/n was not a celebrity, just a friend; that is how Kevin introduced him to the group, but the body language between them left a lot of room to be discussed by Sangyeon with Kevin before rushing to conclusions.

As it turned out, y/n was really just a friend, with a love for delicate skinship. Kevin did all he could, hugging, kissing on cheeks and forehead and practically sticking y/n on his lap for most of his visits.

There is always an ambiance of cheerful playness when y/n is invited by Kevin to spend time with him. All the other members, especially Juyeon and Eric started liking y/n company too.

Yet, Sangyeon was always too self-aware around y/n, somehow he was always trying to understand the body language of the younger and the broken Korean he spoke.

Soon Sangyeon realised that it was not some misplaced enchantment he had with y/n; he had started liking the younger; his shy and bubbly antics, his clumsiness and all made Sangyeon want to keep the younger close to him, in his arms, and all these thoughts were making him lose his sanity.

This overwhelming feeling that Sangyeon feels every time some member comes a little too close to y/n irks him.

It happened that one day while most of the members were out on schedule, Kevin asked y/n to come to their dorm and did not mention this to Sangyeon who was the only one present in the dorm.

He saw y/n through the door camera and opened the door with a nervous smile 'Kevin is not here yet.' 'I know hyung but he said I can wait for him as he will bring a present for me.'

Both of them sat awkwardly on the sofa and Sangyeon started the conversation to keep the atmosphere bearable for the younger, somehow during the conversation, y/n shifted closer to the older and was being hugged by him.

It was just how y/n's presence worked, skinship was necessary. But then suddenly Sangyeon realised his hand was around the younger's shoulder and he looked down at y/n typing on his phone.

As he looked up, the proximity was too much, too close; the face of the younger was so clear in front of him, mesmerising. Y/n felt like he was watching a book unfold through the older's eyes, the eyelids, the lips, the face, so close.

'Y/n I really need to ask you, are you single? Are you sure none of the other members like you romantically?" Whisper, Sangyeon did nothing but whisper to not let the moment go to waste, 'No, we are friends hyung.' 'Thank god.'

And this is how the kiss was confirmed and how they were in the situation in which Sunwoo found them.

They both stopped kissing but y/n hid his face in the elder's neck as Sangyeon hugged him. 'Hyung, you really need to let him go; we can not let the manager hyung see you like this.' 'Ah! Did Sangyeon hyung finally make a move!?' Kevin entered the dorm with Juyeon and Eric.

'What?' 'Oh hyung, we have been watching you look at y/n in not-so-subtle ways, so I asked him to come over to make it easy for you.' Kevin said while going towards the kitchen.

So, it was all planned, but the other fact was that Sangyeon was just made aware that he was not subtle while looking at y/n. He looked down, y/n sitting in his lap, looking down. 'Did you know too?' 'No, I thought Kevin was joking because you are my bias.'

Let's just say that it was not going to be easy for Sangyeon to control himself anymore.

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[heichou-dancho]

FFVII Rebirth thoughts (Spoilers for everything)

I reemerge having finished Rebirth after four weeks and 92 hours in-game playtime. That’s an incredibly short but also massive amount of playtime for me, Yakuza 0 took me a year with pauses. I’m still reeling after finishing chapter 13, and since all my FF buddies from the old days are long gone, I’ll just vent here. I enjoy reading the reactions and thoughts of other players, so maybe someone else does too?

This post is full of spoilers and Shinra fangirling, but it’s about the whole game:

Shinra:

First, somebody on the team that wrote material for the Turks and Rufus must be some Shinra fandom veteran grown up with 20 years of fanon. Just Elena as a whole, Rude getting her that ice cream, Rufus in the Gold Saucer harassing fighting Cloud for fun, Dark Star not only obeying Rufus but also Tseng. Rufus complaining that Tseng is being overprotective… (faints) So much crack and shippy moments, I was grinning like an idiot.

(Is crack fic even a thing anymore? It feels like they’ve gotten rarer)

I expected maybe three or four scenes with the Turks, maybe less for Rufus. AND THEN SQUARE SHOVED THEM IN WHEREVER THEY COULD WITHOUT DERAILING THE PLOT. Elena was given so much room to breathe. Same for Rufus. Those little moments with Darkstar. I’m over the moon.

Okay, Rufus, so your father got stabbed, and the first thing you did after that was recording some motion-capturing and dialogue for a Turk recruitment hologram-video-thingy in an abandoned facility? It makes zero sense, but it’s my favourite protorelic mission and I’ll happily add it to my headcanon as a sign that Rufus gave Tseng his okay to recruit more Turks.

(The real answer would probably be automatically generated AI shenanigans, but that’s not very exciting.)

Viceroy Saruf. Just … Rufus, you’re such a cheeky idiot and I love you. Is there any faction in this world you’re not manipulating from the background? I can’t shake the feeling that being the man in the shadows suits you more than actually openly running the company.

Tseng and Reeve were great, I would love more little moments like that, where the Shinra folks just interact outside of action scenes and dramatic moments. The talk Tseng had with Reno and Rufus in Remake after the Sector 7 collapse hit the same note for me. I want more Reeve in part 3.

The scene between Tseng and Aerith at the temple made my eyes misty, but I wish it had been longer. Tseng keeping it short and abruptly leaving to "make a report" was perfect, and I know Cloud being so cold and cutting Aerith off fits his behaviour, but something about the timing just felt off.

I was surprised that Heidegger would take a bullet for Rufus. For President Shinra, absolutely, but Rufus? Hmm… This makes great fanfic material. I’ve read a fanfic before that tried to reimagine the Shinra executives (even Palmer) as more realistic people, and I found it to be really interesting, but then I’m a weirdo with plot bunnies in my head that involve a younger President Shinra, his wife, Veld, Vincent and the older Shinra execs.

I’ve never been a fan of Hojo but his R re-imagining is one of the few that doesn’t work at all for me. OG Hojo was far more unsettling. R!Hojo is just your typical mad scientist, I just can’t care about him, which is a shame, because him taunting Aerith in Remake with how he dissected Ifalna hit me hard.

I still haven’t quite grasped why Rufus is so obsessed with the Promised Land. It probably all comes down to wanting to be more successful than his father, right? I’m probably forgetting or mixing up details from Remake, Rebirth or the OG here, but I assumed that Rufus would outright dismiss it as a fairy tale.

Apparently there is a Midgar DLC for Power Wash Simulator. Square Enix, where is Hitman: Tseng and a version of Yakuza where I can play the Turks dealing with dumb crap doing missions in Midgar? Give us Shinra fans something, I'm still waiting for the EC version of Before Crisis. And I don't even like gacha mobile games. >:(

General game thoughts:

The open world is fantastic, I want to live in Gongaga or Kalm. So pretty. People online seem to hate the Gongaga map, but the soundtrack and the jungle theme made it work for me. I found the gliding parts in Cosmo Canyon far harder to navigate.

Shinra Manor is terrible with Vincent being it’s only redeeming part. The actual mansion looked great (the portrait of President Shinra was a nice touch) but the upper levels being inaccessible and turning it into another lab dungeon was boring. Same for the box throwing mini-game.

Dio the archaeologist turned body-builder is great, but Shinra knowing about the keystone and just not bothering to use it when President Shinra was looking for the Promised Land is a weird plot hole. It would have been a lot easier than trying to convince Aerith to come to them. There were some other little details like that, that bothered me but it’s a blur now.

Remake Barett made me into a Barret fan, Rebirth Nanaki into a Nanaki fan. The writers are genius when it comes to rewriting these characters from the OG. I’m not really bothered by Cid not being grumpy and swearing all the time. Him reminiscing about Ifalna was cute. Vincent using his old Turk skills (and having some lingering loyalty to the job?) was cool. Really looking forward to seeing how they’ll handle Lucrecia, the one character in FFVII I'm so conflicted about.

I’m still confused about Aerith’s death scene, especially the cuts where she’s lying in her own blood and then isn’t. I understand that she’s dead in her current reality, but is the scene without blood (and Aerith "waking up" in Cloud’s arms) Cloud’s hallucination or just a different reality? I’m also utterly confused by how many Aeriths we’re dealing with. The Aerith and Cloud we’re playing with and the sleeping Aerith (and Cloud) from the dimension where Zack lives are one and the same? It’s tying my brain into knots, and not in a good way. That’s why I usually can’t stand stories involving elaborate time travel loops or parallel universes.

(Man, why doesn't Tumblr allow spaces between paragraphs? I hope your eyes aren't bleeding)

I first played the OG as a young teen. Cloud’s mind being fractured and hallucinating was a neat bit of storytelling back then that I hadn’t encountered in video games before. Twenty years later, I’ve dealt with loved ones who are ill but refuse help, and known plenty of people who have some form of psychosis or schizophrenia. Whilst I would never seriously compare Cloud’s problems with rl mental illnesses, I found the scenes where he sees Sephiroth and no one else, or is completely out of it hard to stomach. Interacting with somebody who has hallucinations (even "harmless" ones) or paranoid thoughts is unsettling at best, nightmarish at worst. The group trying to passively bear it and keep things together rings very true (especially Tifa) but I’m surprised that even Barett or Yuffie aren’t trying to confront Cloud about his behaviour at least once.

(I tried to format in html, but it somehow looked worse. I'm old. This is how Vincent must feel like every day.)

Dyne, Myrna and Tseng talking to Aerith at the temple had me tearing up, and I lost it at Aerith’s "date" with Cloud in Ch. 14. Hoo boy, I know Aerith stalling off the inevitable just for a little time, was the game having a very direct conversation with the player about what’s going to come, death and how we deal with it. But to me personally, it was more about how one gets caught up in trauma and repeat it over and over in your head, mulling about the point of where things went wrong and what you could have done to prevent it. I know it doesn’t fit, but that’s what my weird brain made out of it. Also Dyne’s and Aerith’s (at the temple) speeches about how they deal (or didn’t) with grief and trauma hit me hard.

Damn you, silly anime action game, you really shouldn’t affect me this deeply, but then a lot of fiction hits me harder than it used to.

[solarmorrigan]

Hello! I was tagged for this by the marvelous @paperbackribs about... *checks watch* four months ago! I'm so late, I'm sorry, time is meaningless and slippery!

How many works do you have on AO3? 300 (!)

What’s your total AO3 word count? 976,101

What fandoms do you write for?

At the moment, I'm only writing for Stranger Things, but I've written things for about 40ish fandoms over the years.

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

In Phony Matrimony [Fantastic Beasts]

Shared Space [Homestuck]

Simple Association [James Bond - Craig movies]

Made with Love (and Yarn) [Stranger Things]

These Days I'm Fine (These Days I Tend to Lie) [Stranger Things]

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I try to! I used to get fewer comments, and it was easier to respond to each of them. Having recently been in some much larger fandoms, though, I've kind of been getting overwhelmed and have fallen behind. I'm so grateful that people take the time to even just send a little heart--to tell me that they read this thing and enjoyed it--and I'd love to respond to everyone, but at this rate I'm not quite sure I'll manage to catch up D:

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably either For the Love of You (James Bond, established 00Q, in which Bond is forced to go after Q when he turns out to be a traitor) or either of the fics in the Forever and Ever, Amen series (also James Bond, 00Q, in which Q is a necromancer and won't let Bond die). I've written other dark things, but I tend towards hopeful endings even with those

What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Most things I've written! I'm a big fan of happily ever after and I write a lot of short fluff pieces. But as far as fics where the happy ending is sort of earned, I'd say maybe He Dreams, Until Such Time (Hades game, gen, in which Hypnos is the Elysium boss fight after having been banished from the House, and Zagreus finds a way to get him back in) or We Have Surplus If We Need It (Pacific Rim, established Newmann, in which Newt tries to figure out who he is in a post-kaiju world and cooks a lot about it)

Do you get hate on fics?

Not particularly. I've gotten a few randos trying to tell me off for writing slash, and one or two people who were clearly just mad at a specific trope and happened to land on my fic, but I've been very fortunate to get largely positive feedback

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I do! I'm not sure it's exactly my strongest suit (and, in fact, often worry that it's not very good at all), but I guess I keep at it?? I've written PWP and plotularly significant smut before; whatever serves my purposes at the time

Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

Not often, but I have! The first fic I ever tried writing on my own was a Buffy/Scooby-Doo crossover, and I've written a fair bit for Gravity Falls/Over the Garden Wall. Not sure how wild either of those are, though?

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I've been alerted to, but I've been posting fic for something like 20 years now, so it wouldn't surprise me if at least one of them has cropped up elsewhere under someone else's name

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yyyyyes...? Pretty sure I remember that happening! I think it was over on ff dot net, so I don't remember which one it was. Good odds it was one of my Criminal Minds fics, though

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

A few times! I've done RP-style co-writing, round robins, half-and-half, and just plain collaborating. Most of them never reached the point of being able to publish, but they were still fun

What’s your all time favorite ship?

Gotta confess: I don't think I have one. My favorite is usually whatever I'm focusing on at the time; I don't dislike ones I've shipped previously, but they tend to settle fondly into the background once I've left a fandom

What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I had a whole Stranger Things fic planned out exploring the potential relationship between Steve and his mom, and I'd love to get at least the bare bones of that done, but there's something about it that just kind of refuses to come

What are your writing strengths?

Characterization and emotion. Emotion is something I feel like I don't identify particularly well in real life, but I think I'm pretty good at getting the intended response from people in my writing. (Also maybe dialogue, but that's just so fun to write)

What are your writing weaknesses?

I! Am! Impatient! I tend to rush through things sometimes and screw the pacing up or skip over important details because I worry writing it out in full will take too long and I'll lose interest. I can also get a little too rigid in trying to achieve a particular outcome, instead of letting the story flow

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I don't tend to do it, but that's because I'm only fluent in English and don't want to jar anyone with a bad auto-translate job. If someone is speaking another language, I usually try to find a way to signify that based on whether or not the POV character also knows that language

First fandom you wrote for?

It was either HP (forgive me, this was over 20 years ago) or Buffy the Vampire Slayer/Scooby-Doo (crossover fic I wrote when I was, like, nine?)

Favorite fic you’ve written?

Ever?? In my life?? My dude, I could pick a favorite per fandom maybe, but just straight up favorite?? I cannot. Of things written more recently, I'm very fond of Under My Skin (Steddie, exploring the possibility of Steve with physical scars). Of things written slightly less recently, I still have a complicated soft spot for We Have Surplus If We Need It

Gently tagging (if you've already done this, I'm sorry, just ignore me): @spiritofcamelot @ato-the-bean @puppy-steve @emchant3d @lexirosewrites

[mrssimply]

HIIII 3 and 14 for the fic writer ask pretty pls :]

3. how you feel about your current WIP?

OMG, Blue, you couldn't have chosen a worst question from this list ahaha. I feel awful, I hate it, I'm fighting it every step of the way, I wanna lay down and cry about it. I hate it so much, so, so much. I'm talking about The Burning of Rome, of course, not the answer to your prompt (yep, it's still in progress) though I'm also blocked on that one, unfortunately T-T.

Now, I'm just not gonna whine about my WIP, but maybe explain a little bit more. Even though it's... not fun, I know it's part of the process. First of all, I generally hate my WIPs at some point, most often I hate what I just finished writing. I think it's because, as I come down from the high of writing, I realise words and english failed me yet again and it's not as I imagined. It's never exactly as I imagined, but sometimes, this conclusion angers me. I often react with anger when my ego takes a hit, then I sulk, then I accept it and generally, by this point I read over the part I wrote and I rediscover it and hey, it's actually not that bad. So I know it's part of the process.

But... I'll admit it's the first time I struggled this hard with a fic. It never happened before. So, like a disgruntled old cat, I was reflecting on why is that, and here are my modest conclusions:

it's the... biggest work so far. Not in word count (though, if you add up the first two parts of the series, it is one of the biggest), but in ambition. I basically had to come up with so much for that series, and that last part in particular. I researched the mafias of the world, studied the Philipines geography and geopolitics, I went back to some history lesson to better integrate some part of lore into past events, and then there was the usual research about John Wick in genral, firearms, battle strategy, and of course, writing fighting scenes which is just exhausting.

The freaking cast... Like. Most of my works have around three main characters, and a few regular side characters, but most of the action happens in the intimacy of a couple, or a trouple. TBoR's middle part, which I finished with my blood and tears, only thanks to Koda infaillible support, has so many characters. There is only one main character (John) for most of that part, but he has significant interactions with like ten others characters. Thre of them are OC, and I try not to give too much screentime to OCs since, understandably, they don't interest the audience but Leonora for exemple, has been in this story for so long sometimes I forget she ain't actually in the movies xD. So yeah, a big cast to balance, to give screentime to, and to move around coherently, give each of them a role and a purpose. Exhausting.

Character developpement: I can only blame myself for that one. I mean, I can only blame myself for the previous points, too, but this one... Let me rewind a little bit: I know a lot of people in the fandom envision John as caring, understanding, patient. And he is. Our favorite Loving Husband. But he also is pretty aggressive, stubborn, and ffs he doesn't know how to grieve. At all. This "indomitable will" Viggo speaks about in the first movie, that thing that makes him get up after falling from the roof garden of the Continental... Well, when you put that into caring for his partner, it makes him a great husband. But when you put that into conflict with said partner, he's just unsufferable. And I wanted to explore that. And now, he kinda did something unforgivable, so how is he gonna get over it, I ask the audience? And the audience turns toward me: "but you're the author!" and yep. I am [nervous laughter]. So... Now I have the path, after... months of struggling to find a way out of the mess I put him and Santino into. But I have to write it, and it's hard, because I'm shit at emotional conflict, and how do you deal with emotional conflict when one character doesn't know how to express his feelings outside of violent outburst (killing seventy people because he couldn't deal with his grief~~~) and the other one is just as stubborn, and won't talk about his feelings anymore because when he tried, he got shut down. That's where I am people, and I. hate. it.

Now, I know that when I publish the final part, I'll be happy. Not just happy to be done, I'll be proud of myself because, this was huge. I knew it would be when I started, and I told myself several times that I wouldn't do it because it was too big and I wasn't sure I could pull it off, or even wanted to... I mean, I don't wanna sound like I'm whining but I know the energy this will require out of readers, it's not a fanfiction anymore, it's a book, and people have shown to have more difficulties engaging with that kind of works than with oneshots, or short fiction. Won't get into why, that's another subject entierly, but I just know this work, which is my soul and guts, will get less reactions that the one I wrote in a frenzy for a prompt. It's always been like that, I've... accepted it, I'm not complaining about it I'm just saying sometimes it's hard to swallow.

Moving on.

I've been thinking a lot about another fic of mine (from Cyberpunk) lately in relation to The Burning of Rome. The fic is called To the day I die and it was, is, my personal masterpiece when it comes to Silverdyne (Johnny x Kerry). It's also the final part of a series that started innocently as a prompt (W.A.R, the series TBoR is part of, started as a character study), and it embarked me into this huge odyssey about love, growing up, getting better, relapse and what it means to be wise. Also, some of the themes are the same : both characters hurting each other with the best intentions, one of them being a self-sacrifycing fool, and the other being stubborn because he was once hurt by his partner. They also end up kinda nearly killing each other lol I need to stop doing this (it's a lie, I'll do it again, it's my favorite trope, don't send help). I think I unconsciously used some of the same sentences, or at least the same situation. I I foolishly always thought I had no "themes" in my work but that was obviously my ego speaking! Incredible, what we learn about ourselves while writing.

So yeah.

I hate it.

But when it's done, I'll be proud, I know.

I might even print it, for posterity.

It's my best work so far, so why not?

(Fun fact, I wrote that yesterday and I think venting helped me because I kinda made a huge leap in the fic!!! Kudos to me and thank you for the ask!!!)

14. where do you get your inspiration?

Ah, that's a good question. I don't know, and it's bugging me a little ahah. I was talking to my sister about what I consider a "good movies" lately and my conclusion was "I need to develop an obsession, however brief, about it". That's what I'm seeking when I watch a movie, when I start a series or a game: I want to get that obsessive reaction, because it fuels my creativity like mad. Now, what will make me obsess about a content? No idea lol. Example of materials that should've inspired me but didn't: Mass Effect, Red Dead Redemption, the Sandman, Our Flag Means Death, Interview with the Vampire... they had ALL the ingredients that should've made me fall into a new obsession, and well, nothing happened.

On the contrary, examples of material that made me go into a frenzy: X-men:first class, Startrek, Stargate (SG1 and Atlantis), Cyberpunk, Matrix, John Wick, Naruto and lately, KinnxPorsche (thawainese drama, yeah, I was NOT expecting that one). I've tried to come up with the fomula but I've not yet found out what makes any of the above kickstart an obsession, and with it, inspiration to write or draw.

One thing maybe is the epicness: I need to feel the story is vast and world threatening. I also love element of fantasy, or science fiction. I need the story to get me out of our daily world (but then again, Mass effect checks all the boxes, and yet...).

Music can also inspire me but I'm very fickle about it. I did write with music but I stopped that a while ago because it made me too dependent on the music's mood to write the right scene. Now I write without, and it's actually easier to focus, I think I also got more control over my writing in general, meaning I can write the scene I want, when I want, not when the mood strikes.

Last but not least: other fanfictions. This is always, a huge reservoir of inspiration. Headcanons, fanons, and all the content of a fandom is generally a bottomless well of ideas, feeling and themes to explore. As such, it can be hard to be in a small fandom, with a ship with few supporters because I "lack" this source of inspiration, but that also mean I'll produce more for it, like I'm trying to fill the void xD. For example, I never wrote anything for any big fandom because I spent too much time reading fanfiction, and feeling like everything was already written and I just needed to find it to get my high. In a smaller fandom, I need to participate more, and it's really stimulating! So overall, it works out either way!

And of course, one thing that stays true no matter what: I'm an overwriter, look at that long post!!!

Thank you for the ask (and for listening to my lecture!) <3

[queerdiazs]

20 questions for fic writers

i was tagged by @callmenewbie, @hippolotamus, @watchyourbuck, @thewolvesof1998, @jesuisici33, @wikiangela, and @exhuastedpigeon 🫶🏼

i'm gonna put it under a cut because phew it got kinda long

how many works do you have on ao3?

31

what's your total ao3 word count?

uh, 301,903 which... goddamn look at me go

what fandoms do you write for?

i've written for stucky, geraskier, yenskier, steddie, and buddie, but it's only buddie right now. those 2 losers are really rotting in my whole brain and i'm loving every second of it 🤭

what are your top 5 fics by kudos?

(i cheated and used only buddie okay) the side effects of eating too many clementines at 759 the dinosaurs smelled magnolias at 722 this is why you shouldn't piss in the ocean at 668 you'll feel the rush of it all at 511 all things bright and beautiful at 453

do you respond to comments? why or why not?

i absolutely respond to comments! it might take me a while because i'm not articulate enough to convey how much i adore everybody, but i love talking with people that enjoy the silly goofy stuff i write!

what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

burned on the pyre, a steddie timeloop fic. the ending isn't exactly angsty, but it isn't as joyous as all my others because it was important to me to keep it as realistic as i could + it reflects my mental state so, uh, oops

what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

mm, i think you can argue all my fics have happy endings but if you go down in the woods today has the FUNNIEST ending and that's important

do you get hate on fics?

yeah lmao

do you write smut? if so, what kind?

yes i do! and, um, the explicit kind? i don't know how to answer this because my porn varies for each fic but they fuck nasty regardless!

do you write crossovers? what's the craziest one you've written?

no. that's not for me.

have you ever had a fic stolen?

absolutely i have <3

have you ever had a fic translated?

i have not!

have you ever co-written a fic before?

nope. i tried once when i was younger but it didn't work out because i'm a dickhead and found that i was not only writing my parts but fixing theirs as well.

what's your all time favorite ship?

i've had a lot of ships over the year and i'm never going to forget any of them, ever, but buddie gives me so much joy and good times and i think... yeah they're probably my favorite ship

what's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

none of them honestly? i'm going to finish all of them.

what are your writing strengths?

uh, dialogue. maybe.

what are your writing weaknesses?

angst, emotions, porn, things that make sense, action, romantic relationships, ANGST.

thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

god, so i'm pretentious and while i know some spanish i'm definitely not fluent but i refuse to use google translate so a friend of mine helps me with translating as straight across as we can—so like, long story short, it's a yes from me

first fandom you wrote for?

maximum ride on ff dot net 💀 why was i 12 years old learning how to navigate that fuckin site my god

favorite fic you've written?

but i've got my teeth in you, a bad things happen fic where buck gets a tooth knocked out during the lafd annual baseball game and somehow proposes to eddie, who of course says yes. it's just so FUN?

i'm no pressure tagging @honestlydarkprincess, @shitouttabuck, @giddyupbuck, @callaplums, @daffi-990, @try-set-me-on-fire, @eddiebabygirldiaz, @eddiediaztho, @nmcggg, and honestly anybody else who wants to be a lil chatty mwah

[signaturedish]

Hello, I've read perfectly alien completely over 10 times since 2017 and I don't think I'll ever get sick of it. (I like to listen to it in audio book mode through the FF app) I just want to say that I'm very grateful that you share your stories for free. I honestly am willing to pay for this because the story telling and emotions you convey through words always hit me. Thank you for making and sharing your work. If PA has no fans, then that means I am no longer on earth.

Hello biggerbagofsin!

That is one of the most incredibly kind things anyone has ever said to me and I just wanted to really thank you. I kind of abruptly abandoned this blog for a while and was really nervous about coming back for anything, but you and others in my asks definitely deserve responses. You’ve all been so amazing and I’m so glad I wrote even things I didn’t finish because of the people I got to meet in the process.

I’m going to go through my backlog right now so I just wanted to respond and say that you taking the time to read things I wrote years ago means so much more than money and I really do appreciate you for sticking through all my nonsense!!

I also wanted to officially declare Perfectly Alien abandoned, I won’t delete it and I noticed you left a really good idea for compiling some of the PA adjacent stuff here on ao3 which I’m going to check out- that’s a great idea. But the main story is over- it’s not something I’m excited about anymore, although it’s one of my favorite works and I have really fond memories thanks to all of you, it’s not something I look forward to.

And besides that, on a stickier note. HP used to be my crossover vehicle since the world is simple and the characters are easy to change, I have a ton of fics I adore from the HP fandom and every now and then I read one, but the author has thoroughly trashed my enthusiasm for engaging with that world any further. Death of the author is a messy subject when that author is alive and using their profits to actively harm others, and this discourse has certainly been discussed in better ways than I ever could multiple times over. But for me, I understand reasons people have for engaging anyways, this isn’t a place for judgement- I wrote PA during the Bayverse lmao- but it’s not fun anymore.

Anyway this response has gone on long enough and if anyone has bothered to read all of it, thank you so much. I’m going to go through all my asks, and then do some overhauls for this blog. I’m moving away from TF and HP and I fully understand and encourage jumping ship if that’s what you came here for, I’m going to be moving forward with more current interests now.

[alectoperdita]

how many words do you usually write in a chapter? just asking for advice, writing my own ff but i can never understand where to cut off and start a new chapter

I don't have a hard and fast rule for chapter lengths. Anyone who talks shop with me will know I'm infamously bad at estimating how many words it takes to cover the ground I want to. For example, I originally said I wanted to write Jou's birthday fic in about 5k. Word count on the actual finished draft? Almost 12k.

So I can tell you what I do in this case when my chapters get too long. 😂 Generally, I shy away from posting chapters over 10k. I've read in the past that for a lot of readers, the sweet spot for a chapter ls roughly around the 5k mark. That being said, I personally think it's more important for a chapter to be narratively cohesive and satisfying, regardless of length. So the the Jou fic? I'm cutting it in about half: first chapter is over 5k and second chapter will be about 6k. There's already a scene break between the fluffy non-smut parts of the story and all the smut that I'm using as a chapter break instead now.

Generally, I try not to create new breaks in scenes just in the service of splitting up chapters as it messes with the flow of how I originally wrote it. You might be okay with that though if you care more about balancing your chapter lengths.

That said, there are longer fics where I've tried to self-impose chapter lengths on myself from the start in an attempt to make myself write with those lengths in mind so the breaks feel natural. Those attempts have included Audience participation not required and Uplifting Spirits. Uhhhh I'll let you know later if I managed to stick it out once they're finished. (History has not been on my side though lol).

Given that, I think the more helpful way to think about it is to figure out what you think constitutes as "too long" for a chapter. Where it basically gets too unwieldy if a reader has to take a break in the middle of reading your chapter, for any number of real-life reasons or just their internet goes out, and how hard it is for them to come back and find their place again. Going the other way and limiting how many words you think you can write in a chapter might be less fun and more disruptive to the process.

I'm sorry that most of my advice basically comes down to "vibes." Don't be afraid to experiment. Asking someone to read your draft for you can be a good way to develop your sense of when. They can help point out places that feel like good breaks to them as a reader.

Good luck on your fanfic, anon! And if's kaijou, I look forward to hopefully reading it on AO3. 👀

If any other fic writers have advice they want to share on how they handle chapter lengths, please go ahead. I'll reblog your responses here for the anon. <3

[rileypotter17]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Thank you @4getfulimaginator2022 for tagging me! Hopefully this is interesting to someone!

How many works do you have on AO3? 14. Not a ton. Now, how many ideas I have rolling around in my brain is another story...

What's your total AO3 word count? 425,639

What fandoms do you write for? When I hopped from FF over to A03, my fandoms changed, but far and away for the Jorleesi fandom (Game of Thrones), with HP and Peaky Blinders as one offs

What are your top 5 fics by kudos? Leading by an enormous amount (thank you PB fandom) is 'The Other Shelby Girl', then my Jorleesi royalty AU 'The One Who Loves Her The Most', my Blue Room fever dream 'A Darker shade of Blue', a modern HP love story with an OC 'How To Be A Heartbreaker', and wrapping up with my Jorleesi regency AU 'A Decent Proposal'

Do you respond to comments? Always, to the best of my ability. And I try and leave comments on anything I am reading. I am a firm, staunch believer in that we do fic in community. If we don't know our peers are reading and enjoying, then the community aspect is gone. I try and walk the walk always.

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? I don't really do angsty at the end. These are all happy endings at heart. But I do have one WIP that will have an angsty ending.

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Likely a tie between 'From Egypt, With Love' and 'How To Be A Heartbreaker'

Do you get hate on fics? Not so much on A03 as FF, thank goodness. A03 y'all are nicer!

Do you write smut? I attempt. Jury is out on whether any of it is good :)

Do you write crossovers? Nah...but never say never

Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not yet (fingers crossed)

Have you ever had a fic translated? I have! It was the nicest surprise to see. I've also had people make fan art I had no idea about which was cool to stumble across

Have you ever co-written a fic before? Yes - Will You Be My Valentine with fanoftheknight on A03. They are amazing and my depression kinda caused me to drop the ball on that one -_-. Totally willing to pick it up again or collab with others!

What's your all-time favorite ship? This is a hard one. Han/Leia originally got me into fic, but my biggest body of work and my favorite fandom has to be the Jorleesi ship

What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? I'll finish all of them mark my words! Just will take me some time.

What are your writing strengths? I'm not quite sure! I think I do AU's well, and I bring some witty dialogue into my writing

What are your writing weaknesses? Losing the plot sometimes!

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? I'd be open to it, but there hasn't been a case where it would have served a story well

First fandom you wrote for? Star Wars and Harry Potter around the same time

Favorite fic you've written? It isn't completed yet, but I am most proud of 'A Darker Shade of Blue'.

This was fun! No pressure to do this, though: @ser-jorah-the-andal, @terisrog, @houseofthebear, @clarasimone, @gettingovergreta