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Kendrick Lamar
4 diss tracks in 5 days. Bruv, you might as well just release a diss album. Well, he did warn Drake. Let's see if Drake turns up to Kendrick's yard like Stormzy did when Chip dissed him. Chip had that grown man acting like a roadman.
Granted, it's almost feeling like this...
Oh well...
#kendrick lamar#Drake#euphoria#6:16 in la#meet the grahams#not like us#these disses got me wondering if Drake is okay#not just Drake#his fans his ghostwriters#his everybody#that dude was already paranoid#this some chess tings#some said KL's in his death note era and i can't unsee that#*someone#adaobi tumblrs#I'm still recovering from meet the grahams
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riz gukgak is SO distressing to have as a favourite character I can never funckign rest out here
#not art#smthing abt his character being motivated so equally by truth and fear#and he keeps looking for an institution that'd both help him seek the truth and assuage his fears#with him first being a PI bc his mom was a cop and then a junior agent with blessings from his dad#and hes like on that precipice of realising that its not just the people in the seats its the concept of it from the ground up thats fucked#so hes inclined towards conspiracy thoughts and an end-justifies-the-means pattern of action#like. man. hes just so fucking filled with anxiety. he guards the things that make him happy with ferocity#and the thing is! the world encourages this! every time hes paranoid he turns out to be right#that paranoia that already came from having very little control over a world thats unkind to you#honestly all the bad kids were prime radicalization/cult materials in freshman year but I feel like riz is even More so#theyre so fucking lucky they ended up together like that. there are so many things you can promise a kid#who already had plenty of things taken from and kept from him. a kid with an overworked mom and a missing babysitter#if riz didnt run into the bad kids it would be childs play to isolate him. gods. head in hands I cannot fuckign be here dude#this is why the ''small'' comic I tried to sketch ballooned up to almost 30 panels lmao needed to stuff someof this somewhere#but also skip is my favourite from ASO so maybe I just like experiencing hardship and challenges in daily mental exercises
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you ever think about post-wano sanji blaming everything on his mutation?
It starts out small, of course. A day when nothing seems to go right and he feels little else other than rage. He considers that the mutation stuck around, that it was amplifying his anger somehow. He considers it, but ultimately let's the thought drift away as nonsense.
Then he considers it again when they have a calm day out at sea. He doesn't feel the need to put on flairs for the girls when he serves their snacks, and he doesn't feel the need to kick the three idiots when they come to the kitchen whining for their own snacks. Sanji serves them with a flourish and not a single complaint.
A third time. He drags his feet the whole day, feeling like a pile of cement bricks. He can't muster any feelings at all, just goes through the motions of the day. He can't even really remember it. This time scares him the most.
And just. On and on like that. And his suspicions grow more every day. He finds an excuse for it in everything.
Banged his finger and only cussed a little? Mutation.
Accidentally kicked Luffy overboard? Mutation.
Can't bring himself to insult Mosshead one day? Absolutely mutation.
It's a never ending spiral of existential fear.
He didn't want to lose his emotions. He didn't want to be like those Germa bastards.
He didn't want to hurt his friends.
(I wonder what lengths he would go to ensure that.)
#one piece#sanji#nemo the writing ho#nemotime#i like the idea of sanji being paranoid about his mutation but in actuality it hasnt done anything to him (outside of actual canon moments)#so he's just second guessing everything and it becomes this big self-fufilling prophecy thing#and it leads him to drastic measures <3#i like the idea of the crew figuring something's wrong and stopping him from a terrible decision#and someone's like 'dude thats just being human' and sanji cries about it. or smth like that#also the last line of this post is funny bc we already know the lengths he would go to protect them from himself lol#but like. what Else would he do? yknow what i mean#wano#suppose i need to add that tag
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Elijah valleys would lose his mind if he had tumblr I am NOT giving that boy a phone
#he already has a Devicetm#he’s awful enough as it is he’d be so fucking paranoid#‘yeah shutthe fuck up Parker I sent a hate anon to this guy half an hour ago I need to keep refreshing this to see what they say’#‘nah hang on dude I need to boop this guy’ he’d be insufferable#‘what the fucks a deistel why is there a bald option do I count as that? probably not’#‘what the SHIT is a mutual dude’
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argggghhhhhhhuuuhhhhhhhggghhhh
#rant#predicament: if i never became obsessed with nicole rafee i would have never heard her talk about ocd and then i would have never been like#oh shit i might have ocd and let that seep into every crack in my brain and now it controls my every thought#like all my thoughts were going through a perspective warp sieve and everything everyone's ever said to me like i was already over analyzing#everything but now the idea that that's a problem that doesn't have to be a problem has messed me up man like i think i'm having ocd about#ocd and it's not fun man but it's chill ig i hate it here i wish i didn't enjoy her content so much and that i wasn't obsessed with her#godddddd#new year's resolution: i don't have ocd and i am a new person who's carefree and fun loving#daily affirmation: i don't have ocd x10 every morning in the mirror#i will manifest the anxiety away and be a messier person who doesn't even care about authority one bit#like pshhhh idek that i have no control over my roommate situation pshahhhh dude like whateverrr be messy in the kitchen it's not like i#care if we get a roach infestation 🤪 peace and love man#i'm a sane and not paranoid person i am normal about every situation ever and it's awesome#i am not loosing sleep over maybe having a different cancer every night bc that's something a crazy person would do#but also i low key think i had / have covid since like last tuesday but subtly and slightly#i wish i would stop researching things i don't want to research anymore (looking up everything about ocd on ever website created since awol)#it's cool though it's all groove and fine but i would rather invest this time in synthia synthia but it's cool and whatev#this is my secret diary bc journaling has only ever made me feel worse#i can do scary drawings that allude to my mental state but writing about it depresses me to the point of sobs and it's literally not that#deep man like it's just anxiety and people deal with that everyday i just gotta get over it too like them#like normal man jim and his wife betty i gotta through more tupperware parties#merry christmas 🎠
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shoutout to my mamas paranoia i am banned from having headphones on when on my walk
#txt#dude im already paranoid and have it at a low volume and im like insanely aware of my surroundings#i walk the dog by myself all the time#??but my brother can walk by himself with his headphones on if he feels like it
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Hey y'all. Minor update
So I went to my new gi doc and she is really nice and sweet. I told her everything and turns out the gerd pills I have rn are the strongest they have and it's the stuff they give full grown adults with stomach ulcers??? I told her it doesn't work at all anymore (and neither does my nausea pill) and she said that that's pretty concerning. Along with the fact that (she said) gerd is most common in overweight, older adults and i'm an underweight 18 year old girl. so.
But I haven't eaten a proper meal since Thanksgiving and I've been basically surviving on granola bars (and OTC antacids which don't do shit lmao) bc for some reason it's the only thing I can keep down almost entirely. I usually eat about two a day and that's pretty much it bc my stomach doesn't seem to able to take more than that. If I try to eat anything more or anything different I'll get to the brink of vomiting for hours, if not the entire day. Like one bite can trigger it.
So my doc was like "well that's not fuckin good! that's concerning as hell!" so I have a scheduled upper endoscopy on Thursday morning and y'all have absolutely NO clue how fucking ecstatic i am for it. Like it's goddamn christmas day. Istg Thursday is the day that's keeping me going rn
#mine#personal#also my dad is taking it HORRIBLY unfortunately. like so much worse than i am.#like this mf is verbally refusing to accept the fact that ~maybe~ there's smth wrong with me. Perhaps.#he's gone from dehydration to covid to 'smth I'll grow out of' to my diet (i already proved that one wrong many years ago)#he's a massive die-hard conspiracy theorist btw and he distrusts doctors with a passion#the entire times it's felt like I'VE been the one comforting HIM about this whole thing. god.#like i get it's scary but like#life goes on?? we'll figure it out dude!! chill!!!#my mom is my greatest source of comfort and she is really tired of my dad being so goddamn paranoid about everything#she says not to take everything my dad says to heart (he's yelled at both of us about my current situation) bc he's just scared#for me. and i know he is. it's so hard to be angry at him
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every time i say i want my septum pierced someone says id look bad with it so now i’m sitting in my bathtub crying over other things and being upset that i’d look ugly with the piercing i want really bad
#taylor.txt#i brought it up again and the person i said it to was like ‘i don’t think it’d look good on you’#and then said i’d look good with an eyebrow piercing instead#and like. it’s not like i don’t want my eyebrow pierced i think it’d be fun i guess#but i wear wigs and i get my eyebrows waxed and i have two young nieces and i’d be scared of it getting pulled out somehow#like there’s a lot of risks that i’d be paranoid over#i already had to get my helix taken out because of my wigs and i’m still sad about it#i don’t want to do that with something that’s literally on my face#plus (and this is stupid) but three of my brothers have had eyebrow piercings#and i’ve always associated eyebrow piercings with like. dudes#just because my brothers have had them and i know that’s a dumb reason#and given i already feel like im not feminine enough and like everyone thinks i’m a guy no matter what i do to look girly#i just. this is entirely my issue and it’s not like. a valid thing to be upset about#but i just wanted a cute little septum piercing i could put cute jewellery in and feel cute#and i just. i know it’s so dumb but now im just kind of sitting here sobbing
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ohhh my god (uh. trauma talk in tags)
#oh so now ex best friends dad might be on the list??????? REALLY???#ive wondered that for years#imnot. doing good :)#he was already really creepy w me (put his hands on my shoulders and wld like... massage? we were NOT close. it made me uncomfy)#but now i might remember an incident w him too??????#that ex friend doesnt even talk to their dad as hes also incredibly trans/homophobic & theyre nonbinary so. theres that#& after their parents divorced their dad was scarily violent (threw a chair once...) so hes already not a good guy#but as far as we knew he didnt do anything... yk. like that. but i always had a sneaking suspicion#just like how im not sure he had a 'crush' on my mom (he was very persistent w her) anymore. what if it was just to get to me?#i know that sounds so paranoid but its why other men have been able to abuse me. they recognized that i had been thru it b4.#im so so tired#connor.vtxt#<- quick reminder that i may talk more abt my c//sa trauma under that tag so please block it if you would rather not see that (if you can)#implied csa tw#im sooo fuckibg tired dude
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What should my next side fic be?
Each of them are 3 chapters long! I'm mostly wanting to get an idea of what I should start to work on once I feel I need a break from Electric Trains, since I know that Chapter 14 will drain me (not that I've hit it yet but I want to be prepared).
Disappearing Acts is the short preview I posted a few weeks ago (check it here!), where each chapter will focus on someone's disappearance. The chapters will be a collection of scenes, some more connected than others, from various viewpoints of how Ingo, Akari/Hikari, and Elesa all disappeared. It's mostly so I can write some more emotional moments and get myself to write characters I know I wouldn't be able to otherwise.
A New Home is a Galaxy Team-centric fic, where it follows Commander Kamado as he begins to establish Jubilife Village in Hisui, as well as the first contacts with the Diamond and Pearl Clans. Since I came to the main fic through the Submas portion of the fandom, I do want to do some stories that focus on the PLA side of it as well, and figure showing where Kamado is right and wrong would be a fun idea.
Either way, both fics should hopefully be written in the future, this is just to decide which is first.
#electric trains fic#submas#submas fic#pokemon legends arceus#pokemon legends arceus fic#pokemon diamond and pearl#pokemon diamond and pearl fic#pokemon black and white#pokemon black and white fic#my writing#fic crafting#poll time#listen kamado isn't the big villain#but that doesn't mean my story will be nice to him#dude is paranoid#seeing him work with new people would be fun#but at the same time I have fun ideas for Disappearing Act#Which you've already seen
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barely woke up and got blasted by my friend begging me to go hang out sending me a shitton of reels and a nude pic out of nowhere(WHYYYYYY) like bitch do you think im watching all that shit. also creepy????¿? even if it was accidental. holy fuck cant i have a break from draining ass weird fucking people im done
#im surrounded by annoying immature ass ppl who cant take a no as an actual response. youre older than me grow up bitch#all it takes is a straight NO and they go bawling im never going out again chaining myself to my bed and rotting away#i say something to make it better and they take it as offensive anyway#dude no we are not the same bc we share some struggles shit the fuck up#i probly just morally expelled myself from like 2 party spots and am going to be paranoid for the next few days bc this person knows my addr#ess#im taking my stance for ONCE bro stop#i already feel bad enough for it dont make me get worse#.dizzy.exe#.intermission: [A]#im gonna dose myself up like always and maybe forget about this see yall tomorrow chat
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I am feeling Weird today, physically. The taxi driver to my appointment yesterday was very much sick and not wearing a mask, and even though I was only in the car with him for like 15 minutes and I was wearing a mask, my brain is Convinced he got me sick and everything is abt to go to shit again
#like. j don't even know if im actually sick at all. its probably just my body being stupid and reacting poorly to doing things back to back#but I don't Know that.#so I can't just say I'm being paranoid bcuz it's a very real possibility. so idfk what to do#idk man I'm just. like I know I'm paranoid abt getting sick anyways but it's so hard to tell when I actually Am that-#-by the time I realize it everything's already gone to shit. and I'm already doing So bad physically I don't know if I can take it again#idfk dude I'm just freakin out and trying very hard not to but it's not working#armchair speaks
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genuinely basil's whole fucking thing with the portrait drives me insane like its actually so. ohmy god. he paints a portrait of the man he's in love with and it's the best thing he's ever done, but he becomes paranoid that people will be able to figure out his secret just from looking at it. so he resolves to never let the world see it. "there was love in every line, and in every touch there was passion" can we all die or something
#hes so fucking tragic dude. like this is already sad enough as it is. this brutal realness of being queer in fucking 1800s england and#being so so paranoid that everyone will be able to tell. but then you add on top of it the actual plot where bro is actively watching his#asshole friend also take a liking to the guy he's in love with and start corrupting him and he keeps getting left behind by them#then dorian's suddenly getting engaged and he's SO upset by it but as soon as dorian's sad over this girl instead of taking the chance to#help destroy it he tries to be supportive and talks all about how marvelous it is that dorian found someone who could produce these#feelings of love in him. and GOD props to basil's actor in this because that scene here my god#like basil's face looks strained. hes smiling trying to cheer dorian up and saying these things that sybil is the perfect girl for him#but GOD you can feel the like unrequited love like radiating off of him its crazy#and then of course he ends up getting killed. all for nothing. THIS POOR GUY IM SO SERIOUS hes everything to me and he did NOT deserve this#serena.txt#the picture of dorian GAY
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Got scared shitless by something moving around my nightlight but it was just a silly little firefly :]
#left my door open for a few minutes to use the bathroom#and when I came back I couldn't find the little dude anywhere so I could catch it and bring it outside :[#guessing it already left#checked everywhere in my room for it with my flashlight#I'll admit I'm still a bit paranoid cuz I am jusy not a big fan of bugs in general#but fireflies are an exception#such cool little fellas :]#pyro's rambles
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Last Line Game
Tagged by @darkwingdukat
Rules: In a new post, show the last line you wrote and tag as many people as there are words.
Cal’s trembling, a bit, and Bode hopes someone had the foresight to teach him how not to broadcast sexual desire across the Force.
uhhh do not have 23 people to tag lol so consider yourself tagged if you’d also like to participate!
#me last night: this sentence is meh but i'm falling asleep and it's not like anyone else is gonna see it#me today: well fuck#context nobody asked for: bode tells cal to go for it with merrin and ten minutes later cal shows up like#'actually can i practice sex with you first? just in case? i know merrin's already good at it#she did it in my bed one time & they left an echo'#bode: what the actual fuck is your life dude. but alright#bode five minutes later understandably paranoid: wait. all of jedha better not know you're here
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my friend keeps saying the actual name for flesh runners and it’s freaking me the fuck out
#the name makes me paranoid (im already a jumpy person in general when it comes to shit like this)#and she keeps saying it#OUT LOUD TOO#like dude…#:///#xilspeaks
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