#thanks nethii :)

[dyxnamicart]

uhhh i love you?

uhhh??? I love you nethii?? 

[deathclassic]

Tagged by: @radical-flaar-queen​

Rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people an amount of people

I tag: you

Last

1. drink - water

2. phone call - my grandma

3. text message - sup

4. song you listened - you’ve got it wrong by drowners

5. time you cried - like 10 minutes ago

6. dated someone twice? - lol no

7. kissed someone and regretted it - never kissed anyone

8. been cheated on - lol that would involve TWO people who find me attractive 

9. lost someone special - yeah

10. been depressed - yes

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - nearly

fave colours

12. black

13. purple

14. maybe green?

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends - YAH

16. fallen out of love - no

17. laughed until you cried - yeahhh

18. found out someone was talking about you - yup

19. met someone who changed you - maybe

20. found out who your friends are - yes

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - nahhhh

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl - 95% of them

23. do you have any pets - two doggies and a kitty

24. do you want to change your name - nah

25. what did you do for your last birthday - i made a red velvet cake and ate it by myself bc my friends cancelled on me 

26. what time did you wake up today - 5am

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - reading kinky dnp smut

28. what is something you cant wait for - meeting niall horan and dan and phil

30. what are you listening to right now - the crickets outside my window

31. have you ever talked to a person named  tom - my step grandpa is named tom so yeah

32. something that’s getting on your nerves - my mum calling my panic attacks childish and telling everyone i had a tantrum

33. most visited website - tumblr

34. hair colour - blue

35. long or short hair - short

36. do you have a crush on someone - no

37. what do you like about yourself - my piercings

38. want any piercings? - yeah i want my ears done a few more times

39. blood type - O positive i think

40. nicknames - mollstar, mol, ecstasy 

41. relationship status - death seems cool

42. zodiac - virgo

43. pronouns - she/her

44. fave tv shows - parks and rec, brooklyn nine nine, forensic files

45. tattoos - yeah i have totoro on my left forearm 

46. right or left handed - right

47. ever had surgery - no

48. piercings - both sides of my nose, septum, tragus, 3 lobes on each ear, industrial and forward helix (13 all together)

49. sport - i did karate and netball for many years

50. vacation - tasmania?

51. trainers - lol idk

more general

52. eating - brown rice with broccoli, cashew nuts, fried egg, avocado, corn and peas 

53. drinking - water

54. i’m about to watch - idk forensic files 

55. waiting for - june 

56. want - to die

57. get married - maybe

58. career - graphic designer 

which is better

59. hugs or kisses - the hugs ive had are pretty rad

60. lips or eyes - eyes

61. shorter or taller - i prefer taller but not a big deal

62. older or younger - not a HUGE age gap 

63. nice arms or stomach - doesnt matter

64. hookup or relationship - relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant - hesitant

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger - nope

67. drank hard liquor - yeah

68. lost glasses - lmao yeah

69. turned someone down - no

70. sex on first date - eh if it feels right

71. broken someone’s heart - probs not

72. had your heart broken - no

73. been arrested - no

74. cried when someone died - yeah

75. fallen for a friend - no

do you believe in

76. yourself - not really

77. miracles - i like the idea of them but nah

78. love at first sight - not really

79. santa claus - eh

80. kiss on a first date - if it feels right

81. angels - no but phil is an angel #confirmed

other

82. best friend’s name - dont have one

83. eye colour - blue

84. fave movie - scott pilgrim vs the world, 10 things i hate about you 

85. fave actor - michael cera

[gayaspheck]

No One Better Than Phil

@radical-flaar-queen you wanted me to tag you so here you go :)

Word count: a little over 800

Warnings: angst, crying, teen!phan, nothing else that I can think of but feel free to let me know if there is anything :)

Summary: Dan and Phil have dated before, twice. Both times because of a late night text. Will a third late night message do the same thing? After all, third time’s a charm.

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Dan held his phone in his hands, chewing on his lip as his thumb hovered over ‘send’. He knew that if he sent it there was a chance he would mess up their friendship, but there was also a chance that Phil liked him back. Being 14 was confusing, especially since he’d dated Phil twice before and didn’t know why those feelings were still there.

The first time they’d dated, Dan hadn’t expected it. It was late on an August night when the text had come through and merely two minutes later, his best friend was also his boyfriend. Almost a month after that they broke up, Phil telling Dan that he was confused about his sexuality and needed to sort it out. Dan had held onto his feelings, waiting for Phil to be ready.

The second time they went out was almost a month after they broke up, yet another late night message, this time from Dan. He had almost forgotten how to breathe when Phil had said yes, Dan crossing his fingers and hoping Phil had everything sorted out. Two weeks after that, they were broken up again for the same reason.

Dan didn’t know what he should do. He didn’t know if this was merely a strong attraction or infatuation or if this feeling was actually love. He’d never been in love before, but he’d never felt this strongly towards anyone either. He pressed ‘send’ before he could overthink it too much and chicken out. Once it was sent, there was no way for him to.

As soon as he saw that Phil had seen it he text Chris, needing the moral support. He was terrified of what he’d just done, terrified that Phil would say no or hate him, that Phil would say yes and Dan would mess something up, that Phil would completely ignore his message like he had in the past.

Almost 10 minutes had passed before he got a response from Phil. Reading it with his heart in his mouth, Dan didn’t know what to say or think. Phil liked him, which he was glad about, but didn’t feel like he was ready for a relationship just yet. Dan could feel the tears pricking at his eyes, but he respected Phil. He wouldn’t pressure Phil to do anything. He would wait until Phil was ready for a relationship, and then try again.

After letting Phil know that he understood and could wait, he sent Chris screenshots of what had happened. He felt a tear slip down his cheek and furiously wiped it away. He didn’t need to cry. Phil liked him. Surely that should have made Dan happy. It did make Dan happy. What made Dan upset was the waiting part. He was moving to the other side of the country at the end of the year, and he was certain that Phil wouldn’t want a long distance relationship.

Dan knew this because Phil had a long distance relationship in the past, when he moved from London to Manchester, and he’d been cheated on. He knew that Phil wouldn’t want to risk that again, even if Dan would never cheat. That was what was breaking Dan.

He didn’t know how long he was supposed to wait for Phil, he didn’t know how long he could wait for Phil. He didn’t want to move down to Wokingham with feelings for a boy on the other side of the country, and that was what he was scared of. If they weren’t able to go out before the end of the year, they never would.

Dan heard a text arrive on his phone, looking at who it was from and seeing it was from Phil. He didn’t want to talk to Phil at the moment, not when the boy didn’t know how easily he’d broken Dan. He sobbed into his pillow, not able to hold it back anymore. He was pretty sure he loved Phil, he definitely wanted to be with Phil as more than just friends, but he clearly couldn’t. If Phil wasn’t ready, Dan wouldn’t pressure him to be.

Only three days into the year, and Dan had cried on every single one. Nothing was working for him, it seemed as though he was cursed. His brain apparently enjoyed tormenting him, as he couldn’t get the message out of his mind.

‘At this time I think you deserve better than what I can provide for you’

There is no one better than Phil.

‘I am currently not in the right mindset for a serious relationship’

What if they were just friends that hugged and kissed and said that they loved each other?

‘I would find it difficult to have a serious relationship’

Relationships are difficult, but the problems need to be worked through together.

Dan fell asleep with his face shoved in his pillow and dried tears staining his cheeks.

[ryn-exe]

Surely this can’t be real..

But if it is… maybe a bandanna?

Nothing’s happening yet…

oh mY GOD WHAT WAS THAT

Are fedoras really that bad?

YES YES THEY ARE

[bookingmyselfaonewayflight]

Was tagged by the lovely @radical-flaar-queen :)

I tag: @unshrink @ilikefrenchfriesmorethanguys @aheartfullofrain @mars-mary-bernadette

[wickiria]

Ok so this is kinda sorted based on @radical-flaar-queen ‘s prompt fic thing (link) even tho i kinda just took the idea ran with it for a bit.

Also thank you for art inspo nethii (can I call you nethii?) cause art block’s being annoying

Also also my tablet pen is back and working thank the gods ok bye 

[xmagicxpenguinx]

I’m meant to be on tumblr hiatus but I have to wish my queen, our lord and saviour, @radical-flaar-queen, happy birthday 💕💕

Nethii I don’t know where to start. You are so amazing. You are hilarious, you write amazing fics, you are so gorgeous what the heck?? How??

Thank you so much for being here when I need you, and I hope I can be here for you too. You are honestly such a blessing to this world. I don’t know what we have done to deserve you. Happy birthday!!! Ily and I can’t wait to meet you at II next month 💕💕💕

[phansprings]

why won’t you say anything about the discourse? we know you’re friends with n*thii... not to be rude or anything I’m just curious on your stance.

hmm okay I have gotten so many anons and this is the only one I’m going to answer so listen up.

I don’t participate in any discourse, unless it’s sarcastic/not real. i am an anxious person and shit like this ruins my week, and I like my blog to generally be discourse free.

mind you what nethii and i talk about in private is no one elses business but she did get quite the earful from me, and I gave her the opportunity to justify her actions. we had an adult conversation that I hope she learned from, where we stand and what the conversation was is no ones business. I don’t see the point in publicly bullying her or publicly conversing about the subject when she’s not here to defend herself and in no way will I be defending her. She fucked up and she knows that. It’s not my place and personally I don’t want to defend her.

I don’t condone her actions or how she went about what happened. as someone who has faced severe homophobia (we are talking being pulled into bathrooms and being beaten everyday for 2 years for my grandfathers being gay(not even me bc closeted), when I came out to a friend being told I was doing it for attention because I’ve only ever “shown interest” in boys, and my mother fully stating she doesn’t understand bisexuality) (for all of these reasons I don’t celebrate and am not proud of my sexuality I am heavily closeted irl) this wasn’t the end of the world, as I have faced much more than being called entitled. Mind you it made me upset the statement and I have expressed my concerns to nethii personally.

I will no longer entertain the discourse and will not be answering any asks on the matter unless it’s someone looking for clarification. I’m sorry if you don’t like my stance on the matter, but if you know me I have had a very negative life that’s only just started to look positive and participating in drama is not going to help me get any better especially now when I need to be better.

so my stance on the matter? it’s a difficult situation where I do not condone the actions of someone who i consider a friend. that being said, I have chosen to stay out of the matter as much as possible and kindly ask it remains out of my ask box and off my blog. thank you.

(also I would like to PUBLICLY STATE how anxious posting this answer is for me. I don’t want to lose followers over my stance on the matter as I never planned on having one. great I’m gonna delete this later too bc i can feel a panic attack coming on!)

[infinitylester]

interactive introverts was the most fun i’ve ever had! thank you @danielhowell and @amazingphil for such an incredible night!

thank you to the people who made it amazing too! @deathclassic @dyxnamic-art @x-no-room-in-this-hell-x

[dyxnamicart]

you're meeting up with nethii?? can you tell her that we miss her a lot and we hope she's doing well??

She says thank you and she’s doing really well actually!! It’s doing a lot of good her taking a break for herself aha

[zodiachowell]

hello friend listen to pink + white by frank ocean and congratulations!!!

Thank you nethii!!!

Url HOW TF DID U GET THAT// i want it // cool // ok // i don’t get it

Icon brb just stealing it // beautiful // noice // ok // idk who that is

Theme(mobile)  TEACH ME YOUR WAYS // goals // pretty!! // ok

Content I could scroll through your blog all day // pretty snazzy // ok // not really my thing

Following If i ever unfollow Tumblr glitched // yes! // i sure am now // no, sorry

Overall 9.5/10

Comment: Your fics are actual perfection and when you started following me i almost died of happiness

I'm doing blog rates

[bleutectic]

I know I only started following today (I honestly thought id been following for ages!!) but could I get a blograte pls and thank

Url: | not my style | decent | good | great | amazing | perfect!!!

Icon: | not my style | decent | good | great | amazing | perfect!!!

Theme: | not my style | decent | good | great | amazing | perfect!!!

Posts: | not my style | decent | good | great | amazing | perfect!!! (side note i got distracted reading your prompts so ehh yeah great great yes!)

Overall: | not my style | decent | good | great | amazing | perfect!!!

Following?: | no sorry | now following | yes! | FOREVER & ALWAYS

Additional comment: ngl when i saw you followed me i was a combination of ‘AAAA A QUEEN! YES!’ and ‘wait i thought nethii was already following me?’

i’m doing blogrates!

[cleverphil]

✨ congrats~

Thank you nethii💜Url: basic • I like it • ✨ooh snazzy ✨• who’s soul do I have to sell for it?! Icon: who/what is it?! • lovely • ✨aesthetic✨ • what a beaut Theme (mobile): calming • aesthetic as heck • ✨I love it...can I have it✨ • can you help me with mine?! • Content: not my thing • cute! • top quality • ✨I’m just gonna live on your blog forever✨Following: maybe one day • hell ya • ✨if I ever unfollow you should be worried ✨• already am :)Overall: 10/10Additional comments: nethii you’re amazing and great and ily *note: each blog is wonderful in their own way even if they’re not my cup of tea! If you’re happy with your blog that’s all that matters!*

[manchestereyes]

when a fic has “see, (random unnecessary explanation)” i immediately click away. that’s awful writing. you don’t need to explain something obvious to your readers—you SHOW THEM.

(thank you nethii lksldfjlsdkhglj)

[deathclassic]

The new drawing is amazing and you keep getting better at faces , I mean the last one looked realistic and this one even more so I just wanted to say good job and keep up the great work and don't let the hatters get to you they don't know what they're talking about

thank you so much! I’ve been practicing faces without posting them for about 4 months now (different styles and trying to find something i liked) and nethii gave me some good feedback on phils face as well which was awesome of her :D

[softiechris]

congrats chris you sweet bean

thank you nethii !  (frank ocean is my shit)