#thanks again acid!!!!!
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Guess who read The Calling
#AAGHHH#GAAAHHH#psychic damage#it made me emotional as fuck#thank you andrew robinson for once again making me super emotional over lizard aliens#it was a bit of an acid trip to read#but I loved it#adored it#I'll probably read it again in a day or two#elim garak#ds9#star trek#the calling#a stitch in time
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i love trying to ask my mom for help in the form of Literally driving me to the ER and/or picking up some gatorade after throwing up constantly and being in the worst pain of my life and she’s just doing art stuff all day and doesn’t check her phone and then isn’t willing to make the literally 2 min trip to walgreens
#like thanks 👍 i will literally never rely on you again#i am ok now i was just in Excruciating stomach pain all night and then frew up 5 times in the morning#ended up passing out at like 10am and waking up at 7pm#just like. thanks so much for literally nothing girl#she was like I’m so sorry…. u should have taken some gas x and also you have electrolyte things here#like 1. no shit i fucking did and then threw it up and 2. i would love to not drink something super acidic rn#like you’re literally stupid and also obviously don’t actually give a shit#Fuck Off#ventnote#cw vomit#i love having No one in my life who is willing to help me when i need it most 👍👍👍 That’s Awesome
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hey. hi hello. what gave u the right to make the most gut wrenching video ive ever seen in my entire life (star trek is about the sixties). how dare you. you changed my life.
Okay !💖yay
#I love that u love these things that I make cus sometimes I get so embarrassed about them and I#have ocd so being embarrassed about literally anything feels like being on a fbi watchlist and being set on fire#thank u all for leaving nice comments and I'm glad u like my my videos#people in my life keep being like u should make video editing ur career u shoukd get money for this and its like bestie wouldve couldve sh#Its keeping me alive like i don't understand how people can turn their hobbies into jobs and still benefit them i dont get it#also i literally cant do this shit on command i cant make things that people tell me to make unless the spirit so moves me#making these videos literally helps me think straight and gives me energy i wouldntve showed them to anyone if i had the willpower like idk#interests feel limited and precious like even if I was in any way able to turn it into a job it would just#become another thig im doing for other ppl and id forget who i am again. god i need to do some acid or some shit i mask too much#cannot express how insane the revelation that im a real person was. im a real person who is strange and unsettling for real#when i talk to chairs or kiss my phone on the forehead no one is telling me to do that. thats the real me#anyway have a nice day#asks
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starting the week off ✨wrong✨
#guess who started their week off by accidentally spilling acid all over their chest? >this idiot<!!!!!#man. i sure wasn’t expecting that tbh. i was just placing a beaker of that acid into this box for washing.#then that bugger of a beaker slipped out of my hand and bounced back up to spew out its contents over my front#god. thank goodness for ppe and masks else i’d have been a goner for sure#though. i have no idea if i accidentally swallowed some of the acid#it prolly got onto my mask at least bc its ‘aroma’ was really strong. though there was also a sour taste in my mouth too… so. um. yeah#so if this is my final unqueued post on here… you know ✨why✨~~~~~~~#then again. it’s been a few hours since it happened and im somehow still alive. so. hm. well. lol#but damn. why do i keep getting acid splashes on my chest dammit#first it was that small droplet of [other acid] from a couple weeks back. and now…#man. i had a feeling that today would suck when my lunch delivery got delayed earlier. but i didn’t expect it to be like this help
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Incredibly hard to believe I'm fearfully and wonderfully made when my own body repeatably on the regular trys to kill me
#i am allergic to EVERYTHING#god wvery summer it's a fuckin hospital visit#over n over n over n over again#I'm COVERED in hives from my feet to my face i didn't eat anything new didn't get stung this ain't fair#that n like ye know the diabetes bit like yeah thanks God for giving me dead organs and acid blood ye prick#fact of the matter is if God's real he's a real dick for making cancer n autoimmune disease#and allergies#hur dur sin did that not God OH SO HE'S NOT ALL POWERFUL THEN LOVE#ugh I'm probably gonna have to watch it and hopefully no er visit for me
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i hate cooking meat so much. what do u MEAN it's underseasoned i've never underseasoned something in my LIFE
#don't look at me#attempted to spatchcock a chicken#accidentally took the breastbone out instead of the spine#doused it in chaat masala and lemon and put it. in a cast iron.#spoiler: ur not supposed to put acidic things like lemon juice in a cast iron#so fucked that up#also the lemon juice and the chicken juices just. idk Did Not Work#and the chat masala ended up staying on the skin instead of penetrating like i wanted it to#ALSO i'm terrified of salmonella so i cooked it too long and it was dry as hell#SO I SOMEHOW SPATCHCOCKED A DRY ASS CHICKEN#anyway. and then i had to deal with the horrors (the bones)#i swear i am usually a good cook meat just. truly takes it out of me#i blame the growing up vegeterian#and then actively choosing to not cook it myself after that lmao#literally the last time i cooked chicken i think may have been undergrad. and i undercooked it and had a tummy ache#currently also have a tummyache actually idk what happened#also pork??? tried that shit ONCE never again#seafood is so easy#u just do a little stirry stir and it's done#ANYWAY. THANK U FOR LISTENING I HATE IT HERE#i think i'm just gonna fry it up tomorrow with more seasoning and put it in a salad or something#or maybe put it in a soup where it won't matter that it's dry as hell and tastes like nothing#why is this so hard#I AM GENUINELY AN OKAY COOK USUALLY
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Rules: List the first line of your last 10 (posted) fics and see if there's a pattern!
Thanks so much for tagging me @entwinedloop! This was fun to do, and it was so fun to read yours! I have an alarming amount of Succession fic in my last ten (truly did not realise I'd written this many, haha). SO:
Our Endless Numbered Days (Beth x Rio, Good Girls)
“You cannot be serious,” Ruby says, exasperated, and it’s enough for Annie to start backpedaling even before she’s finished. “They were together for nine years.”
2. Despicable Animals (Gen fic, Succession)
The night after she slits her brother’s throat, feels her inheritance wrenched from her grip, watches her husband get crowned king through clear, unvarnished glass, Shiv dreams of DC.
3. Unsprouted (Gen fic, Succession)
“Nina, they’re too - -” Kendall blinks rapidly, suddenly tongue tied, his fingers pulling at the rubber strap of his goggles, trying to loosen the suction around his eyes, and he thinks they’ll leave big red circles there again like they did at Marco’s birthday party.
4. Stay Soft, Get Eaten (Gen fic, Succession)
“Can I take your bag, sir?”
5. Whatever Gets You Through the Night (Gen fic, Succession)
“Ow, fuck,” Roman bites, wincing dramatically as Connor rolls his eyes, offers up a half-assed watch it as he presses the balled-up washcloth to his youngest brother’s split lip.
6. Bear the Cost (Gen fic, Succession)
Here’s how it happens:
Your father dies, and everything’s on you.
7. I Might Be Great Tomorrow (but hopeless yesterday) (Chrissy x Eddie, Stranger Things)
Thing is, he wasn’t lying when he said he thought it was pretty cool.
8. Nymphaea (Anthony x Kate, Bridgerton)
It’s strange, she thinks, her breath catching when Anthony’s fingers tentatively brush the scar at the base of her head, the things that simply do not cross a mind until they happen.
9. A Foreign Sound to Your Ear (Gen fic, Succession)
So they go back to Kendall’s villa.
10. Acid Tongued and Serpent Toothed (Naomi x Tabitha, Succession)
After her mom dies, Naomi loses a year.
In terms of patterns, I tend to start with either a bit of dialogue or a bit of action? It's not really a conscious choice, I think I just like dropping people into a moment as that tends to be how stories come to me. There are a few outliers to that though! Both I Might be Great Tomorrow and Acid Tongued start more with a bit of reflection. I do think I tend to do that more with stories that are designed to be longer though, and given those are the only two that aren't one shots on here - - yeah, it checks out, haha.
Tagging: @nakedmonkey @carry-the-sky @foxmagpie @bethsuglywigs @mego42, if you fancy.
#so many baby roy fics here#i get too inspired when i'm hanging around my nephews tbh#i'm writing a lot more kid scenes in my new novel than i intended as a result too haha#this is also really really making me want to finish acid tongued again#ugh#it's so close idk why i can't just get that last bit out#imbgt 3 is on track for the weekend though i think :-)#fic asks#thanks again for tagging me!
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Jesus is forcing me to be joyous 😐
#the context is that it felt like my brain was dying and shutting down last night so i said#“if i dont die now and feel better soon i will never think about killing myself again”#and now i dont feel like my brain is dying and ive been doing fine other than some occasional nausea and acid reflux#so now i have to be joyous and i have to make an effort to try to redirect my thoughts#THANKS jesus 😒#jk im glad my brain didnt die#me and jesus are bros now#jesus the antisuicide king#imagine him in a 90s infomercial telling you not to kys
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honestly the only thing that worries me about getting sex reassignment surgeries is the fact that i dont know anyone who could be here to bathe and help me eat and watch over me and take care of the cats, etc while i recover from them
#the only one i could think of is maybe my dad but i dont know how long for#i would have to like do more research about this stuff#but even for just like ... getting my wisdom teeth pulled .. i didnt have anyone who could drive me there and back and it was 2 minutes awa#i couldnt walk home after the surgery because i would have to cross two highways walking. like....#and i sadly like .. BEGGED the office staff like ''can anyone just .. drop me off after the surgery i live a spit away from you''#and they were like ''... you KNOW this is unprecedented right .. you have nobody who can drive you ..? we never had this happen before#and that the point was so that someone could watch over me a little bit while i was recovering and high from the pain medicine#and to help feed me and stuff and get me soft food#i had to beg my roommate who i had an active falling out with to like. help me a little. and they did and drove me. but not really help#i think about moving away from TX because of this but the truth is i dont really have this kind of thing anywhere i would move to#if anything i would have LESS people where ever i moved to. and to get situated again. find another job. find another doctor. another vet.#something i still think about was i ordered groceries while i was recovering from oral surgery because .. i couldnt drive and shop for them#and the person delivering them WAITED for me to open the door to confirm yes im getting them#(i wrote in the note like ''thank you im recovering from oral surgery dont replace items with things with seeds in them#or anything more acidic replacement item. i cant have it'')#and they looked so sad looking at me like my face swollen answering the door ''do you need me to help you carry them up...''#but i did say no and that i could bring them upstairs but thank you. but it was a kind thing i still think about. i somtimes wish i said ye#and they waited for me. they waited for me to come answer the door and verify yes i got them and did i need help with them.#they looked so sad looking at me. i wonder what i looked like
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the thing with autism right. is i know if i was having a full mental health crisis what i would end up doing is going to the emergency room and being like "hello, my name is (x) birthday (y), um i was hoping to talk to you about potential mental health inpatient care? i'm currently having a mental health crisis and don't think i can be trusted on my own" like if there's one thing i can be sure will live on in me no matter how hard the brainworms try. is my fucking customer service voice
#like itll be busted as fuck because ill be freaking out but you bet ill be sobbing my way through verbally drafting an email#ive done it before‚ like im a frustrated crier and once i start crying i cant turn it off so ive had a couple times where i had a breakdown#at work‚ cried about it a lot‚ and my lead pulled me into a meeting room after i calmed down to check in#and as soon as i started talking it just started again so i had to be like 'sorry th-this is just something m-m-my bod-dy does‚ i-i'm calm#m-mentally but i just c-cant turn this-is off‚ just try to i-ignore HIC it and f-f-focus-s on the w-wwwords‚#(tired of crytyping so just mentally fill it in yourself in everything else i say)#n they offered me more time to chill but im like no really i genuinely am calm‚ i calm down wayyy before my body does its gonna#keep doing this on and off all day‚ it takes hours for it to fully calm down and is on a hair trigger the entire time#so thinking about this will make it kick back up again no matter what unless we talk tomorrow‚ so if youre ok with bearing with me then cool#and theyre like. dang ok and just focused on what i said#or much more recently i was talking to my roommate‚ stopped‚ held up a finger + stood there silently for ten seconds‚#then was like 'sorry about that‚ i think i have to throw up. excuse me for a moment. what was that? oh gotcha yeah i'll message you if i#need anything‚ thank you'#and just typing it out like that it sounds like i was fine and just saw it coming a ways away. however that is not the case#i had had my covid booster and some other vaccine earlier that day‚ lost 5 vials of blood‚ eaten Nothing‚ drank only#acidic-ass apple juice‚ and had just hit my vape too hard#keeping it in once it made its presence known was a feat of will the likes of which have never been seen before#and still my sentences prevail
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I'm only mostly vegan these days bc a man's gotta eat what's available and cheap and canned tuna is cheaper than tofu these days but anyway that's not the point, I don't feel bad about it or defensive, I'm only saying to give context that even with non-vegan options involved, the best thing going more strictly vegan taught me is how to cook vegetables in a way that fucks. Like. When I was a kid, unless they were in a soup or a mixed rice dish, vegetables were mostly something to suffer through before actually enjoying the carb and the meat on my dinner plate or whatever. I was not big into veg. So when I went vegan originally I was like "I have got to learn how to actually cook and enjoy vegetables or I'm gonna die" and now I'm a person who can and does regularly just eat an entire bowl of roasted veg for dinner. Girl Dinner is me throwing about 7 servings of 5 different vegetables in a roasting pan with some spoonfuls of earth balance, salt, and herbs, and an hour later I'm thriving. I just ate four whole cloves of sweet delicious roasted garlic and I am free 😌
#the secret is salt fat acid heat as usual thank you samin nosrat for the simple way to remember the basics 💛#i just realized its been probably about a decade since i first went vegan? about 8 years since i really committed to it? oof#time sure does pass huh#experimenting with animal protein again was a terrible idea btw like my body straight up cannot process it anymore 💀💀💀#terrible idea physically i mean. financially i am unrepentant bc that grocery bill sure is billing#disgruntled octopus
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Rip I didn't realize teeth had to be shaped down so much for dental crowns and I'm now terrified
#like thats...a lot#and theyre not permanent either#maybeeee i can try a filling again and just NOT eat chewy candy#im so anxious rn i didnt really understand what it meant when i said ok sure#i mean i dont really have another choice my fillings keep coming out. thanks acid damage aka bulimia alcoholism and soda addiction#ffffff
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Just had the worst experience of our life (almost throwing up while in recovery for wisdom teeth surgery, forcefully burping up air that stretched our cheeks and forced our jaw to move)
#thank FUCK nothings bleeding#if this has happened a few days ago it probably would have#but it hurts a fair bit so some damage was probably done#how much? we'll have to wait and see#do yall wanna know the culprit? paracetamol.#the capsules are so fucking big a little gagging and pain and acid reflux is expected but this dose went down badly#real badly#never again#we're skipping our morning meds tomorrow and having someone get us some soluble paracetamol#fuck those tablets
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I always look forward to when you write... Well, anything! :) You're always so thoughtful and thorough. I have a lot more to admire about you but very little time to express it, so I'll just say thanks for writing with me and I genuinely enjoy your character. ❤️
Please tell me your favorite things about my portrayal/muse?
Thank you so much, halekulan-i! You might only have had a little time but this meant so much to me, how thoughtful your message was and that you took the time out of your day to send it. Thank you for writing with me and sharing your wonderful Harvey (and Two-Face) with us all; not just that, but also for jumping on the two bagels thing which started off how our two (or three?) started interacting??? I'm so glad you enjoy Khare and I hope she continues to bring you joy!
#halekulan-i#memes ;; what's your favourite thing about my muse?#Thank you again for sending this!#Your interactions with Khare have brought me so much happiness and Harvey gosh#He is wonderful like yes he's done terrible things but he's done some incredible things too and the whole two bagels thing was so funny#I'm glad you enjoyed it too#Harvey though he is a GEM#He brought to Khare's attention just how fucked up her housing situation was#She was in a very bad place like she didn't even know it was so bad she was just glad to have a roof over her head#And Harvey was just one of a few guys who actually have a damn and looked into doing something about it#Something which not many people would have done because why worry about a sketchy landlord when there's killer clowns on the loose?#Harvey cared and Khare was fucking devastated when she learned about the acid attack#Sending him those cheapass flowers bc it was all she could afford#ANYWAYS UM#Really appreciate you sending this and for being so very thoughtful thank you#I hope you continue enjoying this girl because I am sure as hell am enjoying your Harvey + Two-Face!#My heart for this tragically broken man#And his wife aka ex-wife Gilda she is a queen#We can't forget her
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i am simply going to kill myself because my brother listened to my snapchat out loud in front out our mother and aunt and now both those bitches are fucking babying me
#yes! i had a fucking breakdown earlier bc i spilled food and ketchup all over my comforter and i was upset about everything#but don’t fucking look at me like a dying fucking kitten and go ‘are u doing better🥺🥺’ like i was but now i want to die bc ur looking and r#and speaking to me like that i am not a fucking baby and i’m not going to fucking explode at you either like that. isn’t how i act or react#so fuciing. just shut the fuck up dude idc if ur trying to be caring or whatever the fuck i’m not a BABY#I woke up from my nap and went to pee and my aunt and mom are like omg r u ok are u better than earlier did u have a good nap#like CAN OTU SHUT UP PLEASE I JUST FUCKING WOKE UP I DONT WANT TO S P E S K SND I DONT WANT TO BE SPOKEN TO BUT EXPECIALLY NOT IN THE SAME#TONE THAT YOU TALK TO BABIES AND CHILDREN IN LIKE WHAT THE FUCK I AM AN ADULT#LITERALLY. 25 YEARS OLD I WANT TO HIT YOU BOTH FOR NEVER LEARNING TO SPEAK TO ME PROPERLY EVER!!!!!!!!#and i’m fucking annoyed with my brother i fucking hate that he just listens to and replies to videos on snapchat out fucjing loud in front#of literally everyone and anyone he simply doesn’t give a fuck as if i don’t say some fuck shit or whatever the fuck to him what is WRONG#WITHYOU FUCK#like what if i was shit talking our mom or something ??????? fucking christ i’m so annoyed what the fuck i hate this shit i’m so :|#i woke up wanting to be in a good mood and vibe until i have to go to actual sleep but instead i’m in a bad fucking mood again. thanks guys!#fucking looooove it so much i love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i need to find something to actively stop making me angry bc i’m like. going to ruin my own night if i don’t#also i FUCKING woke up with FUCKING acid reflux i want to scream from the rooftops so fucking bad#anyways i guess i’ll go look at abby or something idfk
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but I don't want to develop an immunity to the painkillers!!!
#That's why I take meds like 1 out of 10 times. But there is also another reason#And it is that I can't be bothered to go to the kitchen and open the (what I don't know the word for it) and take out the medicine also wha#What if the water in the kettle is hot and I'll have to wait for half an hour for it to cool down in the cup & by then again won't be able#To take the meds. Also what if I'm hungry? It's harmful to take painkillers on a hungry stomach especially when I already have hightened#Acid levels or even acid reflux no thanks. I also just honestly forget to take medication even for very apparently present things. Like#I have a sore throat but won't take any meds bc I can't concentrate on that. And etc. Executive dysfunction amirite
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