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Hello babe <3 If you don't already know, I am obsessed with your story the Love Shack! Since it has come to a beautiful close I figure it was time to pay my respects and let you know specifically why this story is so fantastic.
First of all let me start by saying, I was so entranced by this story and emotional over it that after reading the last chapter I ended up talking about it with my boyfriend for over an hour! He let me reccount the whole story in full detail while we ate dinner and let me tell you, he got invested!! At first he was just listening to be nice to me but it got to a point where when I would pause to scarf down food for a few minutes he would get so impatient for me to continue. He's just glaring at me like "Bitch, what did Neyomi do? You can't leave me hanging like that!" I thoroughly enjoyed it, so basically he too is a fan now.
Girl, the way I went into this series thinking "ooh this will be a nice steamy threesome" and then somehow ended up balling my eyes out with every chaper, ILLEGAL! You had me crying within the first few paragraphs of the last chapter. Just for some perspective I actually don't remember the last time I legitimately cried full on while reading. I was holding back sobs so my roomate wouldn't come check up on me. Needless to say, you had me in a chokehold, sis. And I'm living for it! This will definitely be one of my favorite stories to reread and I think about it very often.
I could go on and on about the specific reasons I feel that this story enraptured me, but here are just a few.
Your depiction of Neteyam is honest to Eywa one of my all time favorites! Not only do I feel like he is very representative of the canon character but also extremely captivating. One of the reasons I think Neteyam (and truly all Na'vi men) is so hot is becuase of the raw male power tha radiates off of him, and I mean in the best way possible. Like other Na'vi males he shows that he can be a provider and protector (which biologically does something to me so I can not be blamed for finding this appealing haha) while also holding himself with a confidence and sense of responsibility that only a true man can capture. You get so many reminders of this power in your writing, even just in the way you describe his attire. Things like his battle band and sheathed knife or bow all serve as visual reminders that Neteyam is a respectable powerful and influential male that will someday be Olo'eyktan. And then to see him crumble and shake and quiver for Neyomi....that is so hot! I'm not sure if any of that made sense but basically, you nailed Neteyam. (not mad about the double meaning there haha).
Then there's Lo'ak who I have decided is the MVP in this story AND NO ONE CAN CHANGE MY MIND! He shows such a wonderful side of Lo'ak's character that doesn't often get displayed. He is still rebellious and free and a troublemaker, but deep down he loves his brother so much and isn't wiling to let Neteyam get in his own way of his happiness. Not only did the poor man have to witness Neyomi and Neteyam disregard his advice constantly while he suffered to watch but he straight up took a few punches in the face just to get Neteyam to work out his own shit. That is the fire I love about, Lo'ak. Consequences be damned, he will do what needs to be done. He is the ultimate wingman and I truly love him so much in this story. Without him let's face it, those two would have ended up miserable. He is the hero of this story and the main person that made me hold onto hope throughout each chapter.
Neyomi was also such a beautiful character. She is a perfect blend of independant and strong while still embracing her feminine side. I love seeing female characters like this because it shows that this duality exists and it's okay to embrace our own masculine and feminine traits within each of us. Sure she was stubborn as heck (and so was Neteyam of course) but she never completely surrendered herself to grief. She let herself cry and feel her emotions, but still tried to press forward with her life no matter how much her heart ached. I respect that.
What I'm trying to get at babe is that you have TALENT! Your storytelling completely transported me and I wish I could read the whole thing again for the first time. Please write a book or something because I would genuinly read an 800 page book if it meant you were the author. Thank you for all the time and efffort that you have put into your stories and into this community. I know how long projects like these take and I really do appreciate you putting the work in. I hope you have fabulous day! Thanks for reading my very long ramble. Sending you many forehead kisses <3
Oh my goodness, @wheneclipsefalls THANK YOU for your amazing message! I can't believe you got your boyfriend invested in 'The Love Shack'! Your storytelling skills must be A+++ if you recounted it all to him & it kept his interest! đ€Ł My husband sighs every time I start talking about Avatar lol!
GURLLL, we all go crazy for a big, strong man who has a good balance of dominance and tenderness... I'm glad you like my portrayal of an adult Neteyam. đ I try to keep my characters as well-balanced & as true to canon as I feel they should be. As for my OCs, I always create a little mindmap of them and what their personalities/characteristics are before I start writing. It's like I need to bring life to them that way first. I wanted Neyomi to have a good balance of hard and soft, if that makes sense (I feel like I always write my female leads this way, in different ways), so I'm happy if you feel I've nailed this. I seem to have an inability to write quick drabbles (you may have noticed lol), so the result is usually fleshed out characters and fleshed out plots. đ Lo'ak is absolutely MVP #1 in 'The Love Shack'. I often see Neteyam being touted as the 'bestest big bro ever', which I completely agree with. I wanted to portray a more mature Lo'ak who loves & appreciates his big bro, so I thought what better way to do this than to have him repay the favour and look out for Neteyam. đ„°
You want me to write a book?? đ„č I'm so flattered. I kind of did, in a way. My first Neteyam story 'Violet Eyes' is 20 chapters and 150k words. I always promote this work because it's my proudest achievement to date. It's a real unpredictable rollercoaster with a completely original narrative. Give it a try if you haven't & I hope you love it too.
Honestly, thank you for taking the time to leave me your message. This past 10 months has been full of creative fulfilment writing for the ATWOW fandom. All my works are in my masterlist. It is always such a JOY to hear from readers who have been moved by my work. You have absolutely made my day, my lovely. đđđ Thank you, THANK YOU so much for your support. A thousand forehead kisses back at ya. xx
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another pair of cover art + scene illustrations commissions for the wonderful @ser-estinien for their fic "The Stone Heart" (please heed the tags again :9)
#THIS ONE WAS A BLAST#thank you again for my wonderful patron kanna <3#sobs old man shuake....my dearests....#commission#shuake#my art#persona 5#ren amamiya#goro akechi
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HAPPY SONIC FRONTIERS FIRST ANNIVERSARY TO THOSE WHO CELEBRATE (inspired by this)
#sonic the hedgehog#sonic frontiers#sonic#sth#toma draws#happy birthday to the game EVER thank you for the many many hours of fun and joy and pain. i love you sonic frontiers my dearest beloved#rhea island felt so intense the first time.... loved the sense of urgency with sonic having a worse for wear idle pose and everything#i kept feeling like if i stopped moving forward while climbing the towers sonic was simply gonna fall over and collapse on the spot đđ
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hyung line + chokers for @epiphanytear (cr. namuspromised)
#usersky#annietrack#heyryen#usermaggie#userkelli#usersolis#raplineuser#userpat#tuserandi#uservans#useryoonqiful#rjshope#usermizuoka#useremmeline#btsedit#mine!#cyphernet#seokjinedit#namjoonedit#hoseokedit#yoongiedit#now do you understand my warning? <3#happy birthday dearest kayla!!!!#i hope you have a wonderful day! full of love and light and laughter and all the things you love most in life!#i wish you another year of happiness <3 thank you for being such a sweet friend!#midnight posting for you! you better be asleep though đ«¶đ
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*cries* I thought I would be done with Dainsleif after writing Phantom Pain but noâŠâŠ.I still have Dainsleif x Demon! Reader brainrot orz
A YouTube playlist, Dainsleif art in my Twitter likes, an IG folder of fashion inspo for Demon! Reader, a drawing of Demon! Reader, a cameo in another AU, a fcking WIP for Househusband! DainsleifâWHEN WILL IT END ( ÂŽâłïœ)
#the funniest part is that my mutual. in their words. currently feels nothing but intense loathing for dain. good for them xD#at any rate. i had a lot of fun writing about dainsleif even if it backfired on me. so thank you for indirectly inspiring me and#putting up with my incessant brainrot + fic updates. dearest mutual >:'3#dain's dynamic with demon! reader is rlly enjoyable to write and itâs fun to make him suffer teehee#dainsleif#dainsleif x reader#genshin x reader#yandere genshin#tw: yandere#tw: dark
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taking a break with your dearest helpful friend loop
also some doodles
#im so obsessed with this gayass game oh my lord#ignore the background btw. i am Struggling with those#loop my beloved. my dearest. my love. my starlight. my pookie#im so normal about this game <- has read almost every single isat fanfic on ao3 in existence#isat#i dont think this counts as spoilers in any way#in stars and time#isat siffrin#isat loop#isat bonnie#<- cause theyre there. kinda#posts random art. crawls back to my hibernation spot. see you guys in a month#drawinsometimez#dang the quality is wack. thanks tumblr
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Iwyn Lavellan by @sunshinemage
I'm so in love with this rendition of older Iwyn, ready to tackle whatever comes next for the (ex) Inquisitor. This is so beautiful - the colors, the background, the light, her hair, her eyes and face and the hint on lines in it. Thank you SO much Rory for this stunning commission.
#AHHhhh#screaming#It's her#my dearest#she looks SO good#Iwyn Lavellan#art of Iwyn#dragon age#art for viking#Thank you Rory again
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Forgot to post this WIP here cause the first time I tried, Tumblr wouldnât let me(crop a little now Like, WTH?
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#I get to see unwanted p**n on my timeline and you wonât let me post this?#raphael bg3#bg3#raphael the cambion#bg3 raphael#baldur's gate 3#I am repainting the first Raphael Iâve draw#thank you my dearest cambion#my skills ve improved a lot over the past three months because of u#and Astarion ofc
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you don't know how much comfort your dragon king bkg drabble has given me ever since you posted it!! i keep reading it i love it sm đ„č
as it turns out, the man bakugou is â a bit harder to handle.
he sleeps like a heathen; you once thought the dragon bakugou to be a bit lazy, with how often he tended to curl up in the fields of grass, warm under the sun, but now â it would seem his little human form needs significantly less rest.
almost up all hours of the day, and when he does finally lay down, he's everywhere. a mess of limbs: one thrown carelessly out to the side and the other bent at an angle you can't believe doesn't hurt his joints. his head stays tucked into you somehow, either buried in your neck or pressed against your ribs â or you'll wake to find him nose-to-nose with you. he still snores like a dragon, however.
you're also beginning to wonder if there is a bottom to the pit of his stomach. he ate much before, whole fields of things, but you expected that appetite to dwindle, at least a little, now that his stomach has decreased considerably in size. and in number ? you're not even sure how many stomachs a dragon has; that's not something that was mentioned in the fairytales.
it burns through him quickly, gives him more energy than he needs, and it doesn't ever seem to affect his weight much. already, he's huge and thick with muscle and eating as much as he does never dulls the severity of his cut abdomen. not that you're looking all that much.
â not that you have a choice not to, as he seems to have little-to-no understanding of â
the door to the bathhouse kicks open, with enough force that you already know who it is without ever turning to look. you try not to shriek when you see him, because he seems to like that in some evil, impish way.
you've been alone to wash so far, thankfully, as the inn you'd managed to find was small and far enough out from the nearest kingdom that the occupancy was low â enough for you and your little brute.
the man bakugou comes to stand in front of the bath, blinking and huffing against the steam. finding clothes for him was â nearly impossible, and so the trousers you'd found hanging on someone's line outside fit above his ankles, a bit too tight around his waist. instead of a shirt, you've wrapped him in a scratchy linen, swaddled him up like a baby to cover the small smattering of scales that decorate his body, almost like freckles from the sun, though they gleam just as bright and red as they ever have. no matter his form.
a horn has started to sprout, on the right side of his forehead, and you've done your best to cover that, too.
you have no idea how long this man thing will last. if it's permanent or if he even has control over it. the last thing you need is for him to switch back, somehow, while you're in the middle of feeding him, absolutely demolishing whatever tavern you're in and calling all of king todoroki's guards to attention.
bakugou grunts, almost sleepy, and tosses a fat, weighty sack onto the edge of the bath. it jingles a certain jingle that makes your heart stop.
"oh, allfatherâ" you move for the edge, awkwardly keeping one arm against your chest despite the fact that he's seen it all by now. when you peek inside and confirm your fears, you lob it back to him furiously, as if it were a steaming potato. "where do you keep getting this stuff?"
things have started to turn up, miraculously. shiny things â like coins and rings and gems. things he could not have simply found rolling around in the dirt.
"go put it back!" you hiss at him, and the tone of your voice makes his frown deepen. you never realized how pouty he was, when he was still a dragon.
you think he understands you, and you're pretty certain he just chooses not to listen; instead of doing what you've told him in the slightest, he simply dumps the coin-purse to the floor, and then lets his linen and stolen trousers cover it as he unceremoniously undresses.
the biggest issue that you would say the man bakugou poses is â his complete lack of understanding of personal space.
"bakugou!" your voice wavers, shocked again by his nakedness. as if you haven't seen it all by now. "no, you â get out!"
but he does the exact opposite, which is hop into the steaming water, ignoring the arm you hold out to keep him away as he saddles up beside you. skin against scales, pressing a nose into your hair to huff out his annoyance, to make it something you can feel.
if anyone were to walk in right now, they would â probably think the lie you'd told the innkeeper was true. that you are a simple traveler and this is your mute, over-sized husband.
regardless, you think this behavior isn't polite. especially in a public bathhouse.
"bakugou," you try again, turning your face away as you speak to the wood-paneled wall. "i'm taking a bath, you have to wait your turn."
all you receive in response is another huff against your ear and a low rumble of disagreement from his chest.
he has yet to speak back, and has only used inhuman sounds as his points of conversation. the only word you've ever heard him utter is oi, which he does when he really thinks he needs your attention. you're starting to wonder if he's named you that in his head. oi.
curiously, you turn back to him and the movement has him pulling his face from your hair, just enough that he can look down at you, too. watch you, with the red-rippled sea in his eyes.
they're â amazing, you will admit. just as bright and detailed as they always have been. fit for a fairytale told by the fire, veiled by the soft-ash of his lashes. he watches you through them, half-lidded, and you wonder if it's something other than fatigue that has them so heavy.
"do you know what i'm saying?" you ask quietly, voice lacking the firm heat you want it to. instead it's heavy, too, weighted by something soft and unfamiliar and frightening. "can you even understand me?"
bakugou doesn't respond, not with a huff or a rumble or ever a purr, like the one he let out on the night he lay over you by the lake. you've only heard it sparingly since then, oftentimes in his sleep when his face is pressed into you.
you try not to frown at his silence, try not to let it disappoint you because it shouldn't; he's a dragon afterall, and you're not sure what it matters. the little horn protruding from his forehead catches your eye and you reach up to touch it gently, watching him blink away the water that drips from your wrist â and then he's turning into you again, too close.
beneath the water, you feel his hands skate up your bare thighs, wrap around your waist until your chest is pulled flush against his. you feel his huff, again, against the damp skin of your neck but it's slower, lighter. not laced with his frustration. some unknown thing you feel guilty for liking.
you drop your hand to his hair, rushing full force into all the damned things you've thought about doing but have been too afraid to. he's soft between your fingers, and you trace your nails lightly against his scalp until he groans quietly; a new noise, one you don't know how to translate.
your fingers stop when they brush upon little spines that have grown at the base of his skull, that have started to trail down the center of his back.
suddenly, tangled up in the bath with him, you wonder how much time you have left.
bakugou huffs again into your skin, a little fiercer this time, and it's because of his light jostling that you realize how rigid you've gone. you try to relax so that he will, too, though you must not do a convincing job, because a sharp nip comes to your earlobe.
"ow!" you squeal, but he doesn't let you go far, not even as you try to jerk away from him. in fact, the harder you try the more his teeth show: into your cheek and the point of your jaw and then dangerously low on your neck.
it's not until you finally freeze that he stops, huffing again, with a warmth that burns more than the steaming water.
and then, very quietly, he grumbles, "shitty wife," into your collarbone, just before biting you again.
#anon dear friend i am so happy you have enjoyed it !!! and that it has comforted you in some way !!#i am wrapping you up in a big hug and so is our bratty lil dragonđ„č#this message was just so cute and i wanted to write more for you !!!#this is all for you my peach my plum đ thank you for being here and reading my silly things !! giving me a reason to share them !!!#how fuuuuunnnn i am enjoying him way too much LOL#he's a brat !! a biter !!! he does what he wants !!!#god this is going to become a thing on here isn't it LOL might as well start a tag because i have much more to say !!#the lil world-building i have done for this in my mind...you have no i dea LOL#thank you again dearest !!#he he he he said THIS IS MINE đ#and by this he means YOU đ#àč remember me love: bakugou àč#âż willow writes#âż ask willow#âż thoughts: bakugou
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lipton is just so. consistently the best guy around. yeah boy, remember to get your life insurance... first to sign his resignation as an nco because he's loyal to his men not to rank... gets hit trying to get the men to leave a zeroed area. dragging luz into the foxhole, always being the first one out of his. yelling to stay down and take cover. don't trash-talk our incompetent c.o. who runs when the fight breaks it's bad for morale. it's hard being a replacement officer with the toughest most professional and dedicated sons of bitches. oh hey malarkey, didn't i hear you say you wanted to bring a luger home to your kid brother? compton how are you holding up? doc heads up we're gonna need you soon. i'll draw the sniper's fire for you shifty. always right where he's needed. oh, you mean it's me who's been holding easy company together? i'm just trying to make myself useful despite having pneumonia sir
#my dearest boy. the sun itself#got carried away i just love him#carwood lipton#rewatch shenanigans#band of brothers#everyone say thank you 1st sergeant lipton
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Tara, my darling!! Your reblog notes made me laugh & tear up. đ„Č Thank you so much for your support! LOL so many people have asked about Silwey's reaction that I'm contemplating doing a light-hearted follow-up drabble with it! đ I'll tag everyone again if I do follow through on this.
And OMG 'Violet Eyes' feels like a lifetime away. I can't believe it's been almost a year since then! We're almost at Christmas again! đČ Your comments and notes have been such an injection of happiness for me as an author. You are so appreciated. đ„°đđ
'The Love Shack' Part V - The Fault Is Ours
Relationship: Neteyam(23) x fem!Omatikaya reader(21) x Lo'ak(22) Warnings: Adult content 18+ MDNI
Part V Summary: You'd prepared for Neteyam's upset, prepared for his anger, but what you hadn't prepared for or even anticipated was his complete and total disregard for you... Word count: 13.7k
Series content: Mentions of group sex, MMF threesome, smut, sex toy play, squirting, anal sex, kuru play
Read Part I, II, III and IV in my Masterlist HERE
Author's Note: My darling lovelies, I present to you the finale Chapter 5 of this series. đ„° I never thought I'd write anything else after 'Violet Eyes', but lo and behold, here I am at the end of my fifth series. And it's honestly all thanks to you wonderful folk in this community who have supported me & brought me so much enjoyment. Without further do, enjoy this finale!
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 âI could ask you the same thing! What the fuck are you playing at?â
Loâakâs words rang in your ears and looped over and over in your stunned mind. Shaken and upset by Neteyamâs abrupt exit, your words had forsaken you and youâd been unable to offer immediate any answer to Loâakâs question apart from meekly muttered apologies.
It had very quickly dawned on you that whilst Loâak appeared as confused as you were, he and you were not at all confused about the same thing. You were reeling at his brotherâs upset, whereas he appeared to be upset with you and confused by your actions.
You were alone in the play area currently. Loâak had gone into the shackâs main area to find some space and presumably warm some water for clean-up. Youâd always had one of the brothers, usually Neteyam, to burrow against and snuggle up to while the other prepped the necessary things for clean-up and aftercare. The solitude tonight was new and it was unpleasant.
With Neteyamâs heated departure and Loâakâs apparent irritation, you felt cold, confused and abandoned.
Fat teardrops squeezed from between your lashes where you sat on folded legs on the bed, hunched over and hugging yourself. Your kept your snuffles as quiet as possible. You always felt vulnerable and frazzled after a session with the brothers. Once the extreme highs of sex and pleasure play had diminished, you were often thrown into a hormonal slump that left you feeling exposed and in need of comfort. There was no comfort today.
Neteyam had stormed off and now Loâak was angry with you too⊠Youâd just wanted a parting kiss from each of themâŠ
Your arms were crossed over your front and your fingernails dug into the flesh of your upper arms as you cried. The entire space still smelled of the activities you had engaged in with the brothers, and the scent was suddenly suffocating.
Eywa, tonightâs session had ended in disorientation and disaster⊠You shouldâve listened to your mindâs cautioning earlier⊠You shouldâve just said your piece and leftâŠ
Deciding it was probably best for you to leave, you crawled to the edge of the bed and stood on wobbly legs. Finding your chest covering on the floor, you secured it again over your breasts, fingers fumbling clumsily with the ties. Eyes still blurry from your tears, you swiped a hand over your face and continued to look for your loincloth.
Loâak re-entered the space with some cloths and a bowl of warm water. He took in your trembling and tearful state as you attempted to dress yourself again, and he sighed, âHey, where are you going? Stop.â
âI think I should go. âYou mumbled. You refused to meet his eyes, keeping your head downturned with your chin tucked against your chest, âI didnât mean to upset you both.â
Setting down the things he was carrying, Loâak stopped you trying to pull your loincloth up your legs, âNo, lie back down. We still need to get you cleaned up. Iâm not letting you leave like this. Eywa, look at you.â
The sticky mess between your legs was trickling down your thighs. Your skin was damp with sweat and your nose was running from your tears. When you ignored his words and twisted out of his gentle hold, the remainder of Loâakâs patience snapped. With a growl, he took hold of you by your waist and hauled you back onto the soft bedding despite your rueful cries to leave you be.
Loâak watched as you curled onto your side, sobbing into your hands. He was still annoyed at what youâd done earlier, but he also recognised the emotional mess you were in after their play session. It was also obvious to him that you didnât understand what had caused Neteyamâs upset. With another bone-weary sigh, he wet several small cloths in the bowl heâd brought in and wrung them dry.
âShh, sweet thing. Come on, let me clean you up.â Loâak coaxed, gentling his voice.
He crawled onto the bedding next to you and tenderly parted your knees to sweep the cloth up your thighs and between them. Taking the other warm cloth, he folded it and placed it over your core, knowing the warmth of it would soothe the temporary swelling from their session. He wiped you down with a third cloth, the moist warmth of it smoothing over your belly, back and upper arms. He gently pried your hands from your face and he cleaned them too before dabbing at your face last.
âIâm sorry.â Your voice was an unhappy squeak.
Putting the cleaning cloths aside, Loâak tucked himself behind your curled form, spooning you. He tucked an arm around your waist and pulled you to him, âDo you even know what youâre apologising for?â
âFor upsetting you both.â
âDo you know why Neteyam took off and why Iâm upset too?â
You considered his question. Great Mother, Neteyam had been furious⊠Things were strained enough already between the two of you and now it felt like things had broken down even further. And youâd simply kissed Loâak⊠You didnât understand his recoil eitherâŠ
You shook your head, fighting back another swelling bout of emotion, âNo.â
Loâak cursed softly. He kept his arm around you though, wanting to soothe you still despite his frustration with you, with his brother, with the whole situation. He began measuredly, âIâm going to say my piece and Iâm only going to say it once, because this whole thing, this we-donât-talk-about-feelings shit, that you and Neteyam have going on is getting ridiculous.â
You sniffed softly, pawing at your eyes again when more unwanted tears poured forth, âFeelings canât come into this. This arrangement was physical only.â
âDoes that change the fact that they exist?â Loâak asked. Knowing you wouldnât see as you were facing away from him, he gave an emphatic roll of his eyes, âLook, I know you have feelings for my brother, and I donât think Iâm speaking out of turn here because I feel like you know this already, but Neteyam returns those feelings.â
You shifted, rolling onto your back so you could scowl at him, âWhere are you going with this? What does it matter?â
Loâak propped his head up on his elbow, responding with a glower of his own, âIt matters because the bond that you share is sincere! Thereâs meaning there. What you and I share? Thatâs purely physical; just sex and body play. If you kiss me itâs because you enjoy the sensation, but thereâs no meaning there.â
âSo thatâs why youâre angry? Because I kissed you and it doesnât mean anything?â
An exasperated hiss left Loâak, his irritation rising again, âNo! Iâm upset because Neteyam is upset! You upset my brother, you upset me. Thatâs how this works.â
You could match his rising temper, however. Sick of the confusion you felt and just wanting Loâak to speak plainly, you spat, âSo why is Neteyam upset? Things were going fine and then he decided to throw a tantrum!â
âBecause you kissed me!â Loâak howled, frustrated by how something so simple in his eyes was so oblivious to you. Fine, heâd spell it out for you, âYou said no kissing. That was the boundary that you set. Youâve denied my brotherâs attempts to cross that line for weeks now. You denied him again tonight even when he asked to kiss you, and then you suddenly decide after it all to kiss me?!â
Realisation flooded you at how your actions had appeared and you were quick to refute the misunderstanding, âNo! Itâs not what it looks like! I wanted to kiss both of you one last time. You just happened to be closest. I was facing you so I kissed you first! But I wouldâve kissed Neteyam next!â
Loâak emitted a miserable groan and flopped onto his back, pressing the fingers of one hand into his eyes, âFuck, you shouldâve kissed my brother first.â
You groaned and your hands flew to your face again in distress, âGreat Mother, what a mess. Tell him for me when you see him? Tell him I wasnât doing it intentionally to spite him?â
Peering through your fingers, you saw Loâak fix you with an incredulous expression, âI wonât be telling him anything. Youâre going to explain yourself to him and the both of you are going to talk. Properly. Honestly.â
âIâll apologise and explain what happened, but thereâs nothing else to talk about.â
With a scathing laugh, Loâak rounded on you again, âYou know thatâs such bullshit, Neyomi. I know youâre in love with him.â
It was the truth. You knew it within yourself, had known it for so long now, but to hear it called out so openly by Loâak was a shock to your psyche. It felt like his utterance of the words had willed it into a truth so solid that no matter how much you wanted to deny it to salvage what was left of your heart, you couldnât.
âHe told me what happened that night at the hot spring, about how you denied his affection and pushed him away after. That really cut him deep.â Loâak added, and his tone was woeful.
Bitterly, you moved to sit upright so you could look at Loâak square in the eyes. You glared at him, cursing the tears that pooled in your eyes and threatened the spill, âSo, what? You want me to tell Neteyam how I feel. Apologise for pushing him away, pour out my soul, and break my heart over a man I can never have?â
Understanding washed over Loâak at your words. There it was. The reason that had prompted your sudden change in behaviour over the last couple of moons. Heâd known it wasnât because youâd had a change of heart. You were only trying to protect yourself. Loâak thought of his brotherâs stubbornness then, of Kiri, and their grandmotherâs approval of the proposed arrangement. He chuckled.
You frowned at Loâakâs quiet laughter, feeling indignant and wondering if he really was cruel enough to be laughing at you right now. You hissed harshly, âItâs not funny.â
âNo, no! Iâm not laughing at you. Itâs just this whole situation could be so easily solved if you and Neteyam actually put your egos aside to talk.â Loâak quickly reassured and he shook his head at you mildly with a final huff of laughter, âIf there was a chance you could be with my brother, would you take it?â
Your face was still pulled deep in a frown, but the points of your ears twitched in sceptical interest, âIâm not sure what youâre getting at.â
Loâak licked his lips and ground his teeth together. It wasnât his place to say. The arrangement was a formal one and until it was officially announced by the tsahĂŹk, it was not to be spoken of. Clan formalities had to be observed by all and Neteyam had technically broken the rules by telling him about it.
âMy grandmother is going to make a formal announcement to the clan tomorrow night at communal last meal.â Loâak said, and there was a particular note in his inflection that urged you to listen, that told you what he was telling you was significant, âIf you truly care for my brother, youâll speak to him afterward and youâll tell him the truth of how you feel. Because heâs a stubborn skxawng whoâs been stung one too many times now and the he wonât be honest with you unless you make the first move.â
***~~~***
You sat with Tula and some of the other female warriors, all gathered for last meal in the central gathering space of the village. Youâd barely eaten anything all day and yet, as you stared at the assortment of stewed, roasted and fresh foods on your food mat, you didnât feel even an ounce of hunger. Your anxiety had made sure of that.
Itâd been a typical day of rest for the clan; families enjoyed each otherâs company; friends spent time catching up over fun hobbies; children squealed and ran amok the village grounds, glad for a day off from lessons and chores. However, youâd been a tense knot of nerves all day awaiting the tsahĂŹkâs impending proclamation.Ordinarily, you wouldnât have been bothered. The tsahĂŹk made all sorts of announcements all the time, but tonightâs announcement would supposedly be bringing you an opportunity, or so Loâak had assured.
Youâd sought Tula out first thing in the morning, brimming with emotion and nerves after the mishap at the shack last night. The oloâeyktanâs family had passed you at communal breakfast and while Loâak had graced you with a genial grin, Neteyam had avoided acknowledging you entirely. Everything came to a head at that point.
Youâd told Tula everything then about how Kai had ended things, how youâd confronted Neteyam at the shack and what came after. Youâd cried in her arms over how youâd inadvertently slighted Neteyam and told her of what Loâak was urging you to do. To your surprise, Tula had sided with Loâakâs view on things.
What followed was a day of forced, but blessed pampering from your best friend. Tula had taken you down to the bathing springs, where sheâd treated you to one of her wonderful back rubs with sweet oils, before she helped you to undo your tightly braided hair for washing. She had cooed and clucked over you, slathering you in all sorts of balms and creams that would help reduce the puffiness of your eyes, relax you and smoothen your skin.
Your hair fell loosely around your ears and shoulders now, luscious and silky from Tulaâs various herbal conditioning treatments. Your skin felt smooth like babyâs bottom and sheâd dowsed you in a scented oil to help promote calmness. Sheâd plucked several sun lily blooms from their stems on the walk back to the village and threaded them through your locks, remarking with a flourish that the vivid indigo hue of the flowers set off the rest of your more casual look perfectly.
âYouâre quiet this evening, Neyomi. You look beautiful by the way.â Silwey observed, smiling at you from across the gathered circle of women.
The other female warriorâs smile was polite and you forced as genuine a smile back at her in return. Silwey was beautiful too, very beautiful. She had the kind of classic beauty that all the old women harped on about. The kind of loveliness that would make most men drool and gawk.
âThanks, Tula did a fantastic job on me, as always.â You replied, picking at a small morsel of meat and popping it into your mouth.
âNot that you donât always look beautiful though, but thereâs just something about todayâs look that really flatters.â Another female, Kanoa, added brightly.
âKai is a lucky man.â Silwey chortled. You nearly choked on your food.
Clearing your throat gently, you shrugged self-consciously at Silwey, âAh, Kai and I arenât seeing each other anymore.â
âOh, sorry. I didnât realise.â
âItâs alright. The split is fairly fresh, but it was mutual.â
Clearly feeling bad for catching you out on an awkward subject, Silwey attempted to cheer you up, âWell, whoever catches your eye next will be a very lucky man.â
The women all murmured in cheerful agreement. Even Tula, who was doing a great job of pretending that she was unaware of the real reason for your disquiet. You mustered up a kind smile at Silwey to reassure her youâd taken no offense. You wondered if she wouldâve been as kind if she knew that the man whoâd caught your eye was NeteyamâŠ
Absently, you wondered if Neteyam had sought Silwey out on her own again in the weeks youâd stopped going to the shack. You were well aware of Silweyâs romantic interest in Neteyam, especially after her last bold proposition to him all those weeks ago on the very day that had led to your evening spent with Neteyam at the hot spring. The thought of him with Silwey pained you, and you forced the thought from your mind.
A chorus of soft hushing and murmurs rippled through the gathered Omatikaya then and you saw the tsahĂŹk step up onto the raised platform by the bonfire. She raised her arms and the clan fell obediently into silence.
âBrothers and sisters! I thank you all for gathering this night, may Eywa bless us in our communion.â Moâat called out, her voice carrying strongly over the crowd, âA proposal was brought to me for consideration not long ago, by our oloâeyktan, regarding the traditions our people have long held about how our clans are led. Tradition has always decreed that our peoples be led by a mated pair, oloâeyktan and tsahĂŹk, unified and blessed in the eye of Eywa.â
Your heart was beginning to pound in your chest, impatient for the tsahĂŹk to get to the crux of her proclamation.
Moâat continued, âBut in recent generations, this has not always been so. Indeed there are other clans where the leading pair are not mated to each other, instead leading their people through an agreed partnership. Even for us Omatikaya, things have changed with the coming and subsequent defeat of the Sky People.â She turned astute eyes at her family, at Jake and Neytiri in particular, âI have retained my position as tsahĂŹk because my daughter chose a warriorâs path, while my son-in-law Jake leads us as chief. But I am getting old now.â
Muted murmurs of curiosity were rising within the crowd, all keen to hear what their tsahĂŹk was about to say.
Moâat raised her arms again and she gestured this time for two others to join her on the platform. Neteyam ascended at her beckoning closely followed by his sister, Kiri.
Moâat smiled warmly at her two grandchildren, placing a hand on each of their heads in blessing before addressing the crowd again, âOur line of succession has not changed. Neteyam will still succeed his father as oloâeyktan in time to come. However, I have prayed to our Great Mother recently and she has shown me who is to walk the path of tsahĂŹk after me. As many of you have experienced for yourselves, our Kiri is gifted and Eywaâs voice has whispered to her since she was barely more than a babe. Our Great Mother has chosen and Kiri will fulfil the role of tsahĂŹk when my time comes to pass!â
A current of emotion washed through the clan, all susurrating and murmuring, some excitedly and others confusedly.
âWait, what?â Kanoa breathed, âKiri will lead with Neteyam?â
âYes.â Silwey affirmed, âShe will be tsahĂŹk and Neteyam will be oloâeyktan alongside her.â
Moâatâs voice rang out again and she continued, âI hereby declare Neteyam te Suli Tsyeykâitan and Kiri te Suli Kireysiâite our Omatikaya successors! They will choose their own respective mates, but they will lead this clan in time, brother and sister in partnership!â
Neteyam and Kiri clasped hold of each other hands then and they raised their arms in affirmation of their partnership before the people. The Omatikaya roared their approval, clapping, howling and ululating their joy.
They will choose their own respective mates⊠Moâatâs words rang in your ears amidst the din the clan was making around you. Tula clutched at one of your knees, beaming at you happily at what the proclamation meant for you: A chance to love, truly and freely.
Your gaze drifted to the rest of the Sully family standing by the foot of the platform. You caught Loâakâs eye and he smirked at you, his eyes twinkling with meaning. This was what heâd meant last night. You recalled his question to you: If there was a chance you could be with my brother, would you take it?
You knew your answer: Absolutely.
The thrilled yammering of the warrior women around you brought you back to the present.
âSo he can choose any woman he wants now. Not necessarily one of the healer women.â Kanoaâs voice was an energised whisper and she giggled girlishly at her words.
âYup, sounds like it.â Another warrior, Neneka said, âGreat Mother, have mercy on my soul for saying this, but Iâd love to get under Neteyam, you know what I mean? He watches and plays around a bit at the old outpost, but heâs not as unreserved as Loâak is.â
You froze when you realised what the topic of the conversation had turned to among the women. Eywa, you didnât want to hear about other womenâs experiences with himâŠ
âYeah, heâs picky.â Kanoa sighed dreamily, âI bet heâs a generous lover though. Someone here is lucky enough to know.â She elbowed Silwey and burst into another fit of kittenish giggles.
âHey, stop it. Iâm not going to kiss and tell.â Silwey replied, laughing and swatting lightly at Kanoa. She pursed her lips sassily then and she gave a sly narrowing of her eyes, âBut heâs an incredible time. Thatâs all Iâll say.â
The warrior women crowed with laughter at their gossipmongering and your food looked very interesting all of a sudden. You picked at the offerings on your food mat, eating a few mouthfuls and concentrating hard on the burst of savoury flavours on your tongue in a bid to drown out the awful conversation around you. You could feel Tulaâs concerned eyes peering at you, but you kept to yourself.
âWell, Iâm going to go and congratulate Kiri.â Tula pronounced, trying to change the subject. She pushed off her heels to stand, âKiri is the one whoâs been formally confirmed into her role tonight. Itâs not all about Neteyam.â
âThatâs true. Good idea.â Silwey agreed, rising to her feet along with the other women. She tittered boldly and then added, her tone brazen, âIâll congratulate Kiri and then perhaps see if Neteyam would like some private company tonight too.â
The women snickered and began making their way towards the platform to offer Kiri their felicitations. You shook your head at the mob of them as they left. Eywa, the women were as bad as the men were with their egging and bragging of sexual conquestsâŠ
Tula lingered behind, staying with you. She crouched down next to you and reached out to squeeze your shoulder, âDonât pay any attention to them. Eyes on the prize. You have a meaningful conversation that you need to have with Neteyam tonight. And it could change everything.â
âI know.â You sighed, looking over your shoulder where Kiri and Neteyam stood by the front of the platform, surrounded by a throng of well-wishers, âItâs just- I think I really hurt him last night.â
âThere are two sides to every story. Heâs not exactly been forthcoming with you either. You both need to just clear the air and get everything out in the open.â
âThanks for everything today. Thanks for listening.â You shot Tula an appreciative smile, âI donât know what Iâd do without you.â
Tulaâs answer was a smile and a wink, but her face twisted into an unimpressed grimace when she looked to the front of the platform again, âBetter work fast, babe. Silweyâs got dessert on her mind tonight.â
Sure enough, you saw Silwey whispering into Neteyamâs ear when you cast another glance over your shoulder. It was now or never. You needed to get Neteyam alone and you were going to swallow your pride and tell him everything. Dusting your hands off, you rose to your feet, intent for the throng of people gathered at the front.
Politely excusing yourself as you stepped past families and groups of friends, you weaved through the crowd and passed the crackling bonfire on your way. You made for Kiri first, wanting to congratulate the other woman. You had never spoken much to Kiri, but you were acquaintances through her brothers. Being a warrior by profession meant that you had more to do work-wise with Neteyam and Loâak than with Kiri, who was of course a healer and spiritual leader by trade.
Finally making it to the newly appointed tsakarem (tsahĂŹk in waiting), you greeted Kiri politely, making the appropriate gesture with your fingers splaying out from your forehead, âOel ngati kameie, Kiri. Congratulations on your appointment. The clan rejoices and thanks you for your service.â
Kiriâs answering smile at your greeting was enigmatic, her large golden eyes bright and perceptive, âNgati kameie nĂŹteng (I see you also), Neyomi. Thank you for your kind words.â
You mused quietly to yourself that Kiri already seemed to have the piercing look of a tsahĂŹk down perfectly. The other woman was unfazed as she openly eyed you from your face, down your torso and legs, and then back up to your face again. She cocked her head at you then, eyes in a slight squint, âThe tsawksyul blooms are a nice touch in your hair. Beautiful.â
âIrayo (thank you).â You thanked her, realising awkwardly that you really didnât know what else to say to Kiri. You were also wilting a little under her penetrating gaze, so you spluttered a parting blessing, âMay Eywa bless you and keep you always.â
Kiri nodded, the short and wispy ends of her short hair swaying where they framed her lovely face. Her eyes flitted to Neteyam who stood several paces to her right, surrounded by what could only be described as a gaggle of fawning women. Your own eyes followed Kiriâs, taking immediate note of the fact that Silwey was closest to him and that sheâd curled a covetous hand around one of his biceps, her side pressed against his.
âI expect youâll want to get my brotherâs attention now that his pool of choice has widened.â Kiri began, moving closer to you so she could speak into your ear, âLike the rest of these eager vultures.â
Her disdain was clear in her tone and you shifted uneasily on your feet. You shook your head to refute her statement, not wanting to be reduced or likened in any way to the notion of a shallow, insipid woman, lusting after a man of high standing.
âI do need to speak to Neteyam, but itâs important. An apology actually.â You replied, hoping your candour would prove your sincerity to his intimidating sister.
With one last cock of her head and a piercing stare that made you feel like she could see you inside and out, the warm smile that Kiri graced you with next was unexpected, âMy brothers speak highly of you, as do the warriors in your platoon. Eywa ngahu (May Eywa be with you), Neyomi.â
You dipped your head in acknowledgement and Kiriâs attention was quickly pulled away by another clan member wishing to congratulate her. With a deep breath, you refocused on your objective.
Neteyam was speaking to four women, all smiles and laughter as they conversed. You managed to place yourself in a gap between two of them, just big enough for you to slip into without needing to push anyone. It placed you directly in his line of sight, but if you thought he was going to acknowledge you, even out of courtesy given there were others surrounding him, watching him, you were wrong.
Mild irritation flared in your gut and you continued to look at him, trying to catch his eye. However, Neteyamâs gaze studiously avoided yours while he spoke in turn to the others, even quirking a small smile at Silwey when she leant her cheek against his shoulder. Your distress was sharp behind your sternum at the sight, but you were determined.
You cleared your throat audibly, causing a lull in the conversation as the women turned to look at you. You seized the opportunity, âExcuse me. Neteyam, can I have a moment? I need to speak to you.â
Finally, for the first time that day, his amber orbs clashed with your own. There was no warmth in them though, no emotion. Just pure impassiveness that sent a dreadful shudder through you.
âIf itâs about work, it can wait until tomorrow morning.â Neteyamâs response was clipped.
His icy demeanour was cutting. Youâd expected him to be upset, but not like this, not cold and unfeeling. âItâs not work-related, but itâs important.â
âSorry. Iâve got plans tonight.â More callous brusqueness.
This was an unexpected hurdle. You hadnât anticipated his refusal to speak to you. Youâd prepared for his upset and for his anger, but not for his complete and utter disregard. A painful lump was forming in your throat and you swallowed it down tightly.
Keeping a tight rein on the brewing storm of your emotions beneath the surface, you maintained your careful mask of composure and tried again, âNeteyam, please. I only need a few moments.â
âNo, Iâll catch you another time.â It was a clear dismissal.
You werenât going to beg, not in front of everyone. You would swallow your pride, but not to the extent of abandoning all of your dignity.
Silwey was frowning at you, puzzled displeasure colouring her features, and the other women appeared equally uncomfortable at the awkward exchange. The telltale hot flush of humiliation was beginning to tingle and burn on the skin of your face. You regarded Neteyamâs hard gaze one final time before you turned and excused yourself from the group.
The world around you became surreal, the noise of the gathered clan becoming a dull hum as you ambled on numb feet back the way you came. You could feel your composure beginning to fracture, the turbulent storm within you threatening to spill, and with the first breath that hitched painfully in your chest, you broke into a sprint in the direction of your home shelter.
You needed somewhere safe and away from prying eyes for the dam to burst⊠For the upheaval of your emotions to come pouring outâŠ
Your eyes stung and your vision blurred with the uncontrollable arrival of your tears. An onslaught of sobs besieged you next and you tore the sun lily blooms from your hair as you ran, pawing at the wetness streaming from your eyes. Evidently what had happened last night at the shack had been the last straw for Neteyam. You cried at the unfairness of it all.
You finally had a chance, but now it seemed that Neteyam was unwilling to grant it to youâŠ
Someone was calling your name, the thud of heavy footfalls catching up to you. You ignored their calls, pumping your legs harder to increase your speed.
A strong hand hooked around your elbow, slowing you with a jolt and you attempted to spiral away, âNo! Leave me alone!â
Another hand clasped hold of your other arm and your pursuer spun you in their arms to face them. Your forearms collided with a muscled chest and for a split second your mind tricked you into believing that Neteyam had come after you, but as your blurry gaze lifted to the manâs face you recognised who it really was.
Wrong brother. Loâak.
Loâakâs expression was cross, but you knew his irritation was not directed at you as he shushed you softly, âHey, itâs alright, sweet thing.â He gave you a brief but tight hug before pulling away and fixing you with determined eyes, âListen to me, OK? You have to keep it together. Go to my familyâs shelter and wait there. Let yourself in, no one is home. Theyâre all still eating.â
Only half paying attention, you stammered, âW-What? Why?â
âBecause Iâm sick of this back-and-forth! You and Neteyam are going to talk. Tonight.â Loâak pressed insistently. He squeezed your arms gently in reassurance, âGo wait in my familyâs shelter. Iâll get my brother.â
âHeâs got plans.â You had meant to sound unpleasant, had meant for your voice to be a grating rasp, but what came out was an unsteady warble of words.
A harsh scoff left Loâak and he was already turning to jog back towards the crowded throng, âNope, trust me. He doesnât. Not if I have anything to say about it. Go! And stay there!â
***~~~***
A cacophony of grunts, thuds and slaps filled the woodland air as the brothers brawled off the main village pathway behind some shrubbery.
Neteyam hadnât appreciated Loâakâs brisk interruption just as he and Silwey had been making their way to a quieter spot for the evening. Heâd refused his brotherâs âurgentâ request to return home at first, until Silwey had sensed the quickly rising strain between the pair and had grudgingly excused herself with a plea for him to seek her out later once the âemergencyâ had been resolved. Neteyam had known exactly what his brother was doing, had known that there wasnât a âfamily emergencyâ at all, since their entire family could still be seen enjoying their dessert of fruit by the bonfire.
Spiteful comments were exchanged, hissing taunts were made and in the end, it was Loâak whoâd thrown the first punch out of frustration.
The pair of them tussled, no longer upright on their feet, but wrestling on the moss-covered ground instead. It was a violent tangle of arms and legs. Neteyam had almost succeeded in his attempt to pin Loâak, when his younger brother threw a stinging punch, his fist colliding painfully with his jaw. A wounded groan left him and Loâak seized the opportunity, rolling to flip his brother onto his back in a pin.
Neteyamâs eyes were scrunched closed and his face was contorted into a pained grimace. Their bodies were robust with strong bones and tough skin, but the pain was always sharp and the bruising would show.
âYou done, bro?â Loâak snarled, spitting a build-up of saliva and blood on the ground to his side.
Breathing hard, Neteyam fought a throbbing jaw to crack open his eyelids.
Loâak could see his brother was still angry, but the vehemence of Neteyamâs ire had dissipated after their brawl. He felt his brother pat his thigh in a gesture of submission and he shifted his weight so Neteyam could sit upright. Loâak rose gingerly to his feet, his hip aching a little from a rapid roll that Neteyam had executed earlier. He extended a hand out to his older brother who took it, pulling himself to his feet.
Fisticuffs had never been a regular occurrence between them. Not even when theyâd been young boys. Loâak had always excelled at being the problematic, troublesome younger brother, but Neteyam had kept hold of his maturity and patience most of the time. Theyâd only ever had a handful of fistfights in their lives and theyâd all been over significant issues. And it was fair to say that tonightâs issue was significant.
âI wonât let you run from this.â Loâak declared, wiping the stray dribble of blood from the corner of his mouth with the back of a hand, âIâve always been the stupid, reckless one, and youâve always looked out for me. Well, Iâm returning the favour. Sheâs worth it, bro.â
Reminded of the reason for their brawl in the first place, Neteyam gritted his teeth and closed his eyes with a deep exhale through his nose. He didnât want to talk to you⊠He figured that you felt bad, that you wanted to apologise⊠but he was past simple apologies now⊠He didnât want to face you if you were just going to seek forgiveness and then go back to your life without himâŠ
âThereâs nothing to be said. Sheâs made herself clear that she isnât interested.â Neteyam muttered severely, massaging at his own tender jaw with cautious fingers.
âIâm fucking done hearing that from both of you!â
âAnd Iâm fucking sick of saying it! She wonât kiss me but sheâll happily kiss you! Things are pretty damn clear to me!â
âThat was a misunderstanding, and sheâll explain it herself if you let her! For once in your life, can you just trust me on this?!â Loâak exclaimed, exasperated, âIâm not the one being the skxawng ass right now! You and Neyomi have tiptoed around each other for weeks! So Iâm staging an intervention. Forced discussion!â The blood continued to build-up in his mouth and he cursed again with another spit to his side. Heâd taken an elbow in the teeth from his brother at some point and he was quite sure that one of his teeth had loosened.
âSorry.â Neteyam mumbled somewhat contritely.
âIt was a good move with your elbow, very fast.â Loâak conceded, huffing out a laugh. However, his face returned to its sombre expression then, âMaybe you and Neyomi will both find it in yourselves to apologise to one another tonight too.â
Neteyamâs only response was a bitter snort. He was aware Loâak had spoken to you last night after heâd fled the shack. His brother had been scant on the details this morning, but heâd insisted that what had happened was a misunderstanding and that he needed to speak to you. Still smarting from your denial the previous night, Neteyam had promptly let Loâakâs words in through one of his ears and out the other, not intending at all to follow through.
When Neteyam didnât say anything more, Loâak inveigled him, âLook, she wants to talk and clear the air. You both have some serious shit you need to say to each other and Iâm not going to keep playing messenger between you.â
An image of you from earlier in the evening flitted to the forefront of Neteyamâs mind. He saw you with your hair loose and un-braided, the long strands falling to frame your face and trailing to tickle your shoulders and upper back. You had three tsawksyul blooms threaded into your locks behind your ears. Youâd looked so beautiful... The next image was of the wounded look on your face when heâd denied your request to speak him in a callous dismissal in front of the others. The hurt that flashed in your eyes had been plain to see, and it had felt good to know that heâd hurt you, that heâd given you a taste of your own medicine.
âWhere is she?â Neteyam queried quietly.
âBack at our familyâs shelter. I asked her to wait there.â
Moistening his lips, Neteyam took a deep breath and set off back towards the main village path. He felt rotten now for upsetting you. Yes, youâd hurt him, but it didnât make things any better for him to have hurt you in retaliation.
âBro,â Loâak called out, making Neteyam stop in his tracks, âDonât make things so hard, OK? Be honest. Open up to her. You might be surprised at what you find.â
With a sideways glace at his brother, Neteyam nodded, âYeah.â
***~~~***
You sat on your folded legs on the floor of a smaller alcove in the Sullysâ home, waiting anxiously to see if Loâak would succeed in his endeavour to persuade Neteyam to speak to you. It hadnât been a very long while, but it had certainly been long enough that you were starting to worry that perhaps Neteyam had remained unyielding.
Youâd let yourself into the Sullysâ home shelter like Loâak had instructed and youâd proceeded to drift about awkwardly as you took the space in. Their shelter was much bigger than the standard ones most families lived in. Perks of being the chiefâs family, you supposed. It had a much more spacious living area and the alcoves branching off the main space, that served as each individualâs private area, were also bigger than usual.
Trinkets and decorations both of Naâvi and human origin adorned the shelter, speaking to the mixed heritage of the family. Tinkling wooden chimes hung from the joists that held the shelter up. Homely furniture and utensils were set about the space on thick woven rugs, and little paper images of the family (which youâd come to learn were called photographs) were displayed here and there.
Youâd ambled about, quietly admiring the place but too nervous to touch anything out of respect. Your nose had led you to one of the alcoves in particular, Neteyamâs familiar scent wafting from it like an appealing perfume that called to every nerve and cell in your body. A sense of comfort had washed over you and youâd settled yourself on the floor rug in his alcove to continue your wait.
Everything about the alcove screamed Neteyam, from the neatly made bedding to the well-ordered layout. His elegant bow and weaponry were systematically arranged against one side, long knives, spears and daggers hanging from a sturdy looking frame. Tidy piles of fabric and clothing sat nestled in a wooden chest, and a small but ornate dresser sat on the far side with his personal jewellery and knick-knacks. Your own alcove looked like a haphazard hovel in comparison, but whenever your mother complained of the mess, you always maintained that you found comfort in your chaos.
As another wave of apprehension consumed you, you inhaled deeply through your nose and let your breath whistle out from between your lips. Your gaze fell to your clasped hands in your lap. You knew what you wanted to say. Youâd rehearsed the words over and over in your mind the whole day. You just needed a chance to say them. A pang of hurt lanced through your chest at your recollection of Neteyamâs callous dismissal. You hoped that youâd get that chance tonight.
The draping flaps at the entrance of the shelter swished apart then and your head snapped upright with a gasp to see Neteyam enter the space. Another gasp left you when you took in the few purpling bruises on his ribs and jawline, visible even in the lambent glow of the firelight in the central hearth.
You were on your feet and marching up to him in an instant, concern in your voice, âWhat happened?â You raised a gentle hand to his face, wanting to examine his jaw, but he flinched away from your touch.
âLoâak said you were waiting here to talk. He was very persuasive with his fists.â Neteyam replied and his tone was harsh and tight.
Your lips settled into an unhappy line. Your gaze dropped to Neteyamâs clenched fists by his sides and you spotted the telltale cuts on his knuckles that indicated the fight certainly wasnât one-sided. You felt another sharp pinprick of hurt that the brothers had gotten into a physical disagreement over your request to speak to Neteyam. Did he really loathe you that much now that heâd fought with Loâak over this?...
Neteyam stood motionless while he watched your various emotions flit across your face. He noted the absence of the sun lily blooms from your hair, noted the downturn of your ears, the stickiness of your cheeks and the shine around your eyes. Youâd been crying... Guilty regret bloomed in his gut, but his pride was quick to quash it. He was hurt too, hurt by your previous denials. Tears may not have left his eyes but that didnât mitigate the fact that youâd hurt him too with your rejections.
Your heart thumped in your chest, blood pounding in your ears as you watched Neteyam wait for you to say something. His gaze was cold and the impatient swish of his tail was telling.
Now, in the moment, with the chance you wanted presented to you, the words youâd repetitively rehearsed earlier seemed to have abandoned you entirely. Desperately trying to tamp down the panic that was rising, you heartened yourself. Now or never, Neyomi!
âIâm sorry.â The words were a sticky croak in your throat and you cleared it softly before continuing, âI didnât mean for last night to end like it did. The truth is, I wanted to kiss you both one last time. Loâak just happened to be closest to me. I wouldâve turned to you after.â
âUh huh.â Neteyamâs response was sceptical and he felt his irritation beginning to rise. It was certainly a very convenient explanation on your part⊠Youâd wanted to kiss him too? After all your rebuffs and refusals, he found it incredibly hard to believe.
You sensed his disbelief and you pressed your point further, âIâm not just saying that, I mean it. I didnât do it to mock you or hurt you. I was so spaced out and I wasnât really thinking things through. Iâm sorry, really I am.â
âYeah, OK. Youâre forgiven.â Neteyam said with a shrug, feigning insouciance in a bid to disguise his hurt. He didnât really forgive you. He felt far too wounded to excuse your actions so easily, but he was growing more and more uncomfortable in the thick tension that surrounded you both and he wanted out of there. If what you wanted was to apologise and seek his forgiveness then youâd done that. Conversation over. âIf thatâs all you needed to say then youâll need to excuse me. Someoneâs waiting for me.â
The nonchalance Neteyam was displaying made you feel equal parts sad and angry. Here you were being sincere, wanting to start an honest discussion and he wasnât even trying. It felt as if he was here just so he could tell Loâak heâd spoken to you, when nothing about his manner or his words was genuine. Neteyamâs frame was already turned halfway away from you, his intention to leave clear.
Your annoyance spiked, emboldening you and you hissed, âNo, Iâm not done. Donât walk away from me.â Especially not to run back into Silweyâs armsâŠ
Pausing in his steps, Neteyam gritted his teeth and his injured jaw throbbed painfully. He turned to face you again with pinned ears and unimpressed eyes, âWhat else?â
He watched your as your breaths began to deepen and a frown marred your lovely face. You were so impossibly beautiful even when you were angry, and the thought only further infuriated him in that moment. Loâakâs words echoed in the recesses of his mind; be open, be honest. But what did his brother expect him to do? Pour his heart out to you? Heâd done that once before the night of the hot spring, and youâd thrown his affection back in his face.
Your next words were uncanny, as if you had somehow read his thoughts.
âIâm sorry also for how I reacted that night at the hot spring.â You stated, making a conscious attempt to stop your irritation from colouring your expression. You wanted to appear sincere and you didnât think an apology delivered with a scowl would achieve that. âIt wasnât my intention to hurt your feelings then either, and Iâm sorry if I did.â
Neteyam wasnât making the same effort though and his words were muttered through clenched teeth, âAgain, youâre forgiven.â
Your tail hung low between your legs and you frowned at him, upset, âYouâre just saying that. Iâm trying to tell you that Iâm genuinely sorry and youâre just going through the motions!â
The monster of his pain that Neteyam had spent the last couple of moons trying to restrain reared its ugly head in full force. He didnât want your apologies. He wanted you. But just as he couldnât force you to feel for him what he felt for you, your apologies couldnât force his earnest forgiveness from him either.
âWell, a genuine apology doesnât always earn genuine forgiveness, especially when forgiveness isnât ready to be granted on the forgiverâs part!â Neteyam cried in a bitter shout. He saw you gulp and recoil slightly at his raised voice, but heâd uncorked the bottle of his tumultuous emotions now and after being pent up for so long, his words poured from him in an inexorable stream, âDo you know what itâs like to want someone, to be around them every day, to be so close to them and know what their body feels like, tastes like, and yet have to live with the fact that they donât want you the same way?! You know, if all you wanted from me was the pleasure of my body, then so be it! Iâll accept that and Iâll get over my feelings in time. But donât expect me to forgive you now when Iâm not ready to do that!â
His shouting startled you at first, but you were quick to recover. He wasnât the only one who could be loud.
âItâs not just your body I want!â You shrieked in return, and it was Neteyamâs turn to wince. You advanced on him and he took a few steps back as you gained on him until he was backed against one of the shelterâs support beams. âAnd yes, I know exactly what itâs like to want someone and feel like you canât have them because thatâs how Iâve been feeling too, you skxawng!â
You were so close to Neteyam now that your chin was tilted up defiantly while you held his gaze. He was glaring down at you in return, his broad chest heaving with his own resentment. You were both reeling from each otherâs words, both your brains working frantically to process the situation. However, rationality was hard to find when emotions were running high, especially when what felt good in the moment was to spew blame and point fingers.
âWhy didnât you tell me about the tsahĂŹkâs arrangement with Kiri?â You demanded hotly.
âWhat difference would it have made?â Neteyam snarled, âBesides, you avoided me for weeks! You were impossible to get hold of and then you went and started fucking Kai!â
âIt wouldâve made all the difference!â You screeched, âAnd donât bring Kai into this! I never put any restrictions on you or Loâak while our agreement was in place. I never stopped either of you from carrying on with your other play nights with the other women!â
âI havenât been with anyone else since you! Despite everything, all I want is you!â
âMe too!â
Both his words and yours were shouted and the sound reverberated in the hollow confines of the shelter. You sagged as if suddenly tired from the emotional tirade of the last while, and you saw the remnants of Neteyamâs ire gradually seep from his own furious expression. The truth of the situation struck you both with such stark clarity that it stunned you both into deafening silence.
Neteyam was the first to break the silence. He gave a slow shake of his head and he closed his eyes, trying to make sense of it all, âWait, what? So why did you pull away that night at the spring? And then you avoided me and stopped coming to the shack when you start seeing Kai.â
âBecause I was scared.â You murmured, and the memory of your sleepless nights filled with heartsick despair brought unbidden tears to your eyes. You blinked wet eyes up at him and your tears escaped at the action.
Neteyam hated the sight of your tears, especially now that he was the cause of them. He sighed wearily. Tenderness swelled in his chest and he cupped one of your cheeks with a gentle hand, smoothing away the rolling bead of moisture with his thumb. His deep voice was soft and gentle when he spoke, a direct contrast to his harsh bellows from before, âScared of what?â
âOf falling for you.â You gave a wet laugh and continued your explanation, âYou will be oloâeyktan of this clan one day. By tradition your mate must be worthy of being tsahĂŹk. That was never going to be me. I ran because I was in too deep already. I wanted to keep what I had left of my heart, but I realised after that it was too late anyway.â
Neteyam stifled a curse under his breath. The arrangement of Kiri becoming tsakarem hadnât been confirmed yet at the time. His grandmother had still been deliberating and praying about it when the night at the hot spring had occurred, but the decision had been made not long after. Perhaps if he hadnât been so wounded by your actions, if heâd listened to his brother and been more persistent in getting hold of you, this current situation may not have spiralled so out of hand.
âFuck, I shouldâve said something.â Neteyam lamented with a groan, tilting his chin down to rest his forehead against yours, âI was just so convinced that you didnât feel the same way and that telling you would just result in another rebuff. Especially since you still came to the shack to play for but refused to kiss me.â
âI wanted to, so much.â You whispered with a sniffle, your nose brushing his lightly, âI tried with Kai, but there was no spark there. All I could think about was you. How could I not want all of you? Youâre everything I want. I wanted to protect my heart but it broke anyway trying to stay away from you.â
Your words ended in a mewling sob and Neteyam enveloped you in his arms, crushing you to him. You buried your face into the crook of his neck, the comforting warmth of his body only seeming to make you cry harder.
âShhh, Iâm sorry too.â Neteyam soothed, running a large hand up and down your back while the other cupped your head against him, âIâve been a fool and Iâm so sorry.â
Remorse and shame flooded him as he reflected now on the past while. Hindsight was always 20/20. Great Mother, youâd both been so stupid... Youâd both been on the same trajectory all along, except you hadnât seen a conceivable way forward and while he had, knowing of the arrangement with Kiri, your fear and your avoidant behaviour had caused him to misunderstand and unwittingly hide the solution from you.
He pressed a kiss to your temple, loosening his hold when he felt you shift to peer up at him.
Dabbing at your nose and eyes with the back of your hand, you apologised for your appearance, âSorry, I probably look a mess.â
Neteyam emitted a scoff and graced you with a warm smile. His hands framed your face, thumbs caressing your cheeks, âNo, youâre beautiful even when you cry, paskalin. Iâll claim that kiss that you owe me now, if thatâs alright?â
With a giggle, you agreed.
Sliding your palms up his chest to wind your arms around his neck, you pushed up onto the balls of your feet to meet his lips in a smooth and plush meld. It was different to how youâd imagined it would be last night, in your dazed state of overstimulation and arousal. When youâd decided on sharing one last kiss with Neteyam and Loâak, youâd been dejected and youâd expected the kiss to be filled with an air of sad finality. But your kiss with Neteyam now burned bright with hope and promise.
Pulling away gently, Neteyamâs smile was wide and you could see your own happiness mirrored in his golden orbs. He nuzzled your cheek affectionately, rubbing his cheek along yours while you did the same. You felt lighter than you had in a long time, the blooming warmth of your joy radiating from your heart out towards your limbs and extremities. After so many miserable nights and awkward days, the relief and thrill of knowing that feelings were requited on both sides was wonderful.
Neteyam pressed a chaste kiss to your lips and he declared, âI want to court you, openly. I want every man and woman in this clan to know that you and I are seeing each other. No one else, no more shack visits with Loâak.â
You couldnât help the beaming grin that danced across your cheeks, and you chased his lips with your own as you spoke, âYes, I accept, and it wasnât Loâak that I came to the shack for.â
You felt Neteyamâs strong arms embrace you again while his lips and tongue danced passionately with yours. When you felt his large hands move to your upper thighs to hoist you against him, you instinctively twined your legs around his slender waist, locking your ankles behind him. He manoeuvred both of you into his alcove, messily pulling the cloth drapes at its entrance closed to cocoon you both in the privacy of the space.
Lowering you gently onto the softness of his bed, you moaned quietly with delight at how everything smelled of him. The heavy weight of him settled beside you and he stretched out alongside the length of your body. You both turned to lie on your sides, facing each other. It was darker in the alcove with no lamps lit in the space, the only source of light being the glow of the main fire behind the draping cloths at the alcove entrance. But Naâvi eyes acclimatised quickly and soon you could clearly make out the contours of Neteyamâs handsome face.
Your eyes trailed his form slowly from head to toe, following the vividly glimmering constellations of his tanhÏ (bioluminescent freckles) on his face, down his chest, abdomen and his legs. You were unhurried as you drunk in the sight of him and he appeared to be doing the same, his eyes performing a similar trek over your own body. Eywa, he was so gorgeous⊠His body was just perfect, every defined muscle encased in warm, smooth skin that smelled of masculine virility.
You reached out to trail your fingers over his ribs and his toned abdominals, relishing the shudder you earned from him as your fingertips traced the sensitive skin of his hip.
One of his hands stroked across your cheek and he leaned in to kiss you gently, whispering a beloved declaration against your lips, âI love you.â
Your lips stretched wide and he felt your smile against him, âI love you too.â
âShall I show you just how much?â Neteyamâs voice was a mischievous rasp.
You tittered and sighed desirously, âYes, make love to me, you stubborn man.â
A dark chuckle from him, âYouâre going to have to be quiet here though. Think you can do that?â
You nodded soundlessly, eagerly reaching to undo the ties of your chest covering and flinging it aside to bare your breasts to him. Neteyamâs groan was almost inaudible, but you felt the rumbling growl of it with how close you were to him. His hands were immediately on your breasts, the heat of his palms searing against your soft mounds. He kneaded your breasts, thumbs stroking sensually over your incredibly sensitive nipples that hardened under his attentions. The sensation made liquid heat pool between your thighs.
Your hands made quick work of your loincloth and the fabric was flung to join your top. You felt one of his hands snake around your hip to pull you closer to him, front to front, and when his legs tangled with yours you noticed he was bare against you too, devoid of his own loincloth. You smoothed a hand over his strapping chest, fingertips testing the hard muscle there before your hand meandered towards his neck and you clutched his head towards yours.
You kissed him languidly, tasting him and smelling him, marvelling that you could love him now, truly. No more pretending. No more holding back. After so long without his lips against yours, you could quite honestly say that if the pair of you did nothing but kiss all night, youâd still wake up satisfied.
Neteyam pulled back from the kiss then and you whimpered in complaint, but he hushed you with a thumb against your lips. He murmured to you, âShh, I love you here,â He pressed a kiss to your forehead, âHere,â A kiss to each of your eyes, âHere,â A kiss on your nose⊠And on he continued downward, your shoulders, a suckling kiss to each nipple, over your heart, your navelâŠ
You lost count after that, just getting lost in the amorous bliss of his lips paying worship to every inch of your bare skin down to your toes. He didnât disappoint though and when he parted your thighs to settle himself between your legs, and licked a full stripe from your pussy up to your clit, you jerked with a stifled cry.
âI love you especially here.â Neteyam growled. His mouth got to work, licking and suckling at your soon throbbing core while you watched him through hooded eyes.
His golden eyes locked with yours and the intensity of his gaze made your pussy clench, pouring with slick. Your fingers played absently with his beaded braids while your hips rocked against the moist paradise of his mouth. Your eyes could barely stay open as you enjoyed the building pleasure.
Something slid down one of your thighs then and you cracked open an eyelid just in time to see Neteyam trail the thick braid of his kuru (neural queue) over your hip towards you. It was a very intimate thing, to touch anotherâs kuru. The intimacy of the action was surpassed only by the making of tsaheylu between two people, but Neteyamâs invitation to you to touch his was clear.
Slowly, you reached for the meticulously braided length with one hand, gently running your fingers over the smooth hair around it. Neteyam let out a small sigh that puffed against your core and he closed his eyes, enjoying your caress. You trailed your hand closer towards the end of his queue where you knew the delicate pink tendrils of it were housed. Tenderly, your fingers delved past the ends of the hair around the sheath and a sharp jolt of pleasure raced through you as the tendrils enveloped your fingers.
Neteyam whimpered, his lips and tongue ceasing their work momentarily as pleasure shot down his queue and straight to his stiff cock which gave an excited spurt of pre-cum. It was new sensation to him and a thoroughly erotic one. He couldnât describe it, but as your fingers played with the tendrils, it was almost as if he could feel your fingers touching him at every single erogenous zone simultaneously. He resumed his feasting of your core, tongue lapping at your slick folds that only seemed to moisten further with each lap of his tongue.
His name was a whispered sigh on your lips as your clit pulsated and your inner walls squeezed. The addition of a couple of his fingers came next and he sealed his lips over your nub to suck intently at it. The tendrils of his kuru fizzled pleasantly in and around your fingers. You didnât know what made you do it, instinct perhaps, but you brought it up towards one of your breasts then, letting the squirming tendrils attach and wrap themselves around your areola and nipple.
The pleasure was instantaneous and Neteyamâs groan against your flesh told you he felt it too. A wave of ecstasy flushed through you from your nipples to your core, throwing you into the inescapable clutches of an orgasm. Mindful of your surroundings, your mouth formed a silent âoâ and your fingers twisted in his hair while you writhed in bliss. Neteyamâs hand gripped onto the flesh of your hips, keeping you still enough so he could continue to drink from your core.
Your desire burned feverishly within you despite the shattering climax youâd just experienced and you were impatient to have more of him against you. Tugging at his braids to get his attention, Neteyam lifted his face, licking his lips while his cheeks glistened with the evidence of your arousal. His expression was almost feral as he crawled up your body on all fours, and you spied his straining erection, watching it bob as he made his way up to you.
You shot him a slow smile as he settled himself alongside you again and the mess on his face didnât deter you from kissing him. You murmured, âThank you.â
âIâm enchanted by you, paskalin. Iâll do anything you ask for as long as I live.â
A hot blush stained your cheeks at his romantic words and you didnât know whether to kiss him again or hide your face. You saw him look at the end of his kuru where it remained attached to your breast and you urged him, âLeave it. This might sound strange, but itâs as though I can feel you better. And it feels good.â
Neteyam smirked at you and nodded in agreement, âWhat would you like now? Iâm impatient to have you though.â
His shifted his hips, his drooling erection slipping against your lower belly. You chortled softly at him and you took pity on his aching flesh, reaching down with a hand to greet his cock with a familiar stroke. A loud grunt left Neteyam and you hushed him, ears twitching and listening to the surroundings of the shelter. No one had returned yet, you were quite sure, the both of you wouldâve heard them. Though it paid to be cautious.
Getting caught in a compromising position with the oloâeyktanâs son in the oloâeyktanâs home was not a misdemeanour you wanted against your record.
You continued your teasing stroke and squeeze of his cock, revelling in the sound of Neteyamâs strained panting by your ear. You paused by the swollen tip, running your thumb back and forth over his frenulum, which drew a very vulgar curse from him. His free hand was stimulating your other nipple while the tendrils of his kuru undulated over your other. The stimulation made your pussy ache and your clit throb longingly and you rubbed your thighs together to try and ease the pressure.
âLet me help you with that. You know I can fill you up so good.â Neteyam purred, thrusting his hips so his cock slipped faster in the grasp of your hand as if to press his point.
You smirked at him and licked sensuously over his parted lips with your tongue, âNo, I think Iâll tease you a bit more for being so mean to me earlier. Besides, I want to try something.â
Your introduction to Neteyamâs neural queue made you eager to return the favour. Reaching behind you with your other hand, you brought your kuru over your shoulder and carefully held its end out between you, the twisting pink tendrils greeting Neteyam with their rippling dance. Already breathing heavily from the pleasure you were giving his cock, he lifted his hand to meet your tendrils, and both of you gasped as they twined around his fingers.
The sensation was unlike anything youâd ever experienced. Heat flushed over your skin and you prickled everywhere that you were sensitive; your nipples hardened and your pussy gushed with more slick. An unbidden erotic image came to you of your kuruâs tendrils wrapped around Neteyamâs cock and you shivered with delight at the thought.
Gently pulling your kuru from Neteyamâs fingers, you gradually inched it down towards his midsection, wanting to make the image your brain had supplied a reality. You watched him for any sign of discomfort or uncertainty, but his pupils were blown so wide with arousal you could hardly see the gold of his irises, and he looked on with as much eager anticipation as you did. Releasing his cock where you held it in your right hand, you brought left hand with your kuru towards it. The tendrils eagerly wrapped around their new target, coiling around the head and upper shaft.
You felt Neteyamâs body lurch at the same time that a wave of immense gratification shot through your neural queue to your own core.
âFuck, Neyomi.â Neteyam keened and you saw his cock pulse, emitting a viscous string of pre-cum. It continued to throb and you swore your clit was throbbing in time with it.
Neteyam groaned aloud again, evidently struggling to keep to his own rule of being quiet. You rolled onto you back, pulling him atop you and silencing him with a deep kiss. You drowned in the moist heat of his mouth, lips and tongues waltzing in-between the twist and turn of your heads. He was rocking his hips against yours, his cock trapped between your bodies while your kuru still remained coiled around his sensitive flesh.
He broke away from the kiss with a sharp hiss of pleasure, âWiya (damn), Iâm going to cum like this if I canât have you soon.â
âYeah? Does that feel good?â
âToo good. Please, I need you.â Neteyam pleaded with a whimper, and he continued to ramble, âI know you must be aching for me. Let me make you squirt on my cock. You must have missed that right? All those weeks you didnât come to the shack.â
You paused. It was true, you had missed him and missed his body, but youâd technically managed to squirt too with the dildo youâd poached from the shackâŠ
When you didnât answer, Neteyam stilled in his movements and he turned questioning eyes at you, âWhat is it?â
You bit your lip sheepishly, wondering if you should fib your way out of the situation or tell him the truth and make him feel a little less special. You didnât want to start your new relationship off with a lie, so you resolved to be truthful, âI did manage to squirt whilst I wasnât with you.â
His eyes widened and he looked rather taken aback.
âN-Not with someone else!â You quickly amended, âI pinched one of the toys from the shack a while ago when you and Loâak werenât looking. It ah- It does the trick.â
Neteyamâs face suddenly morphed into a very smug smile and he leaned down to nibble at the point of your ear while he drawled, âOh the dildo. We wondered where it had gone. Did you enjoy it, you little snitch?â
You shivered against him and rubbed your cheek against his, âYeah, so your cockâs not the only one that can make me squirt. Sorry.â
Neteyamâs answering chuckle was deep and self-assured, âDonât be. Iâm not sorry about that.â
Confusion coloured your face and you pulled your head back to look at him, âYouâre not?â
Neteyamâs expression was still incredibly conceited when he shook his head. He reached down and gently removed your kuru from his cock, keeping hold of it still though and letting its tendrils find purchase amongst his fingers instead. Sliding his knee between your thighs, he urged your to part your legs for him, which you did without hesitation. Balancing over you on his forearms, he settled his hips against yours and began a tantalising rub of his cock against your folds. You moaned with want and hooked your ankles behind his lower back.
âWhy would I be upset about you squirting on that dildo,â He taunted huskily, âWhen that dildo was made from a mould of my cock?â His last words were punctuated with a sharp thrust of his hips, his long length penetrating you suddenly and fully to the hilt.
You threw your head back against the bedding with a guttural cry, uncaring at that moment if anyone heard you. Well that explained a lot about why that dildo had felt so good inside you⊠You didnât have time to ponder on that thought. You clutched at Neteyamâs body, arms wrapped tight around his torso, your legs locked around his hips as he settled into a rhythm of rocking thrusts.
âYouâre mine, paskalin.â Neteyam vowed and his lips found yours again in an all-consuming meld that set your heart and soul alight with elation.
You couldnât get enough of him. He was all around you, over you, in you, and yet you still felt like you needed him to be closer. Your fronts were pressed to each otherâs and your tails were twined; if you died like this you knew you would die the happiest youâd ever been. Your mouths remained fused, pausing only for short intakes of breath before finding each other again.
Neteyamâs thrusts were slow, but they were deep and you could feel every last ridge and outline of his cock inside you. The depth of his movements was delicious and the intense and pulsing throbs of your pelvic muscles signalled an impressive climax on the horizon for you.
Neteyam broke away from your kiss, tucking his face into the side of your neck to stifle his own reflexive moans of enjoyment. You knew he was close too from the shudder of his torso with each of his thrusts, and you could somehow feel his pleasure too, from his kuru at your breast and your kuru within his grasp.
Great Mother, you could only imagine how breathtaking it would feel when two people mated and made tsaheyluâŠ
The winding spiral of pleasure twisted tighter and tighter in your lower belly, and your fingernails scored Neteyamâs back whilst you teetered on the brink of oblivion. You felt suspended in time, the only sounds you could hear were the pounding of your hearts and Neteyamâs harsh groans as he too hovered on the edge. He lifted his head and his gaze locked with your own, each of your pleasure-filled reflections mirrored in the dark pupils of each otherâs eyes.
It was the only reflection you ever wanted to see in his eyes, your own face staring back at you. You never wanted to be without Neteyam again and as your heart shattered with the depth of your love for him, so did your core. Your climax swept through you like a tidal wave, your pussy clenching down and pulsing rhythmically as the wetness of your squirt gushed between your bodies. Your face twisted into what you hoped was a silent scream while the pleasure consumed you.
The squeeze and clench of your walls around his cock, as always, was nirvana for Neteyam. His entire frame tensed and went rigid, and he gritted his teeth hard to keep himself from shouting out his pleasure as he ejaculated. Your body milked him for every drop he had and your pussy continued to flutter around his swollen length pleasurably.
âNeteyam⊠NeteyamâŠâ You whispered his name in a blissful chant and though your arms and legs shook from exertion, you kept them wrapped about him, not wanting to let him go. You mewled in complaint when he tried to roll his weight off you, so he deftly rolled you both so you could lie on top of him, still intimately joined.
Neteyam clasped you to him, on arm draped over your back while his other hand made soothing strokes over your hair. He could feel your breaths puffing gently into the crook of his neck where your cheek rested against his collarbone. His kuru and yourshad detached at some point and they trailed alongside your bodies, but it took nothing away from the intimacy you were both still wrapped up in.
âBy Eywa, youâre it for me, you know that?â Neteyam affirmed with a hoarse chuckle, âWithout a doubt. Iâll never look at another woman again.â
Your heart soared at his words and you knew, if you could see yourself, that your tanhĂŹ would be glowing bright with your immeasurable joy and contentment, âI guess weâre both ruined for each other then.â
âWill you be mine, formally? Will you accept this offer of betrothal?â
You gasped softly at his request. Your heart screamed your answer, affirmative without any hesitation, but the cogs in your mind began to turn. His betrothal request was unexpected. Youâd agreed earlier to be courted openly by him, but a betrothal was serious. It was an engagement to be mated for life and while your heart danced for joy, your conscience questioned, not his fit for you as a mate, but your fit for him as mate to the oloâeyktan.
âNeyomi?â Neteyam queried quietly at your silence. His apprehension was clear in his tone.
You raised your head to regard him, blinking wide eyes at him, âI want to accept, but what if I turn out to be wrong for you? What if Iâm not fit to stand by your side as wife to the oloâeyktan?â
He laughed at you then, relief sweeping over his face when he realised why you were hesitating, âYou stand by my side every day already, paskalin. Youâre my second-in-command and youâve partnered with me, challenged me where I needed to be, and supported me for years. You already hold the position without the formal title.â
Tears sprang to your eyes as your emotions began to gain the upper hand. You murmured wetly, âYou really want me like that? Forever?â
Neteyam craned his head upward to brush his lips against yours, âI want you every way that I can have you. As my second-in-command, my wife, mother of my childrenâŠâ
His words trailed off, interrupted by you as you pulled him against you to claim his lips in another searing kiss, âYes! I accept.â
There was commotion then in the main space of the familyâs shelter. Hushed whispers and soft chatter sounded, indicating the return home of the other Sullys.
A very loud and contrived coughing fit sounded from Loâak, who cleared his throat dramatically several times, apologising repeatedly for his noisy fuss. You and Neteyam grinned at each other in the darkness, chortling to yourselves, knowing full well that Loâak was wanting to ensure the both of you knew that you were no longer alone.
You settled your head against Neteyamâs chest again, closing drowsy eyes and basking in the afterglow.
Neteyam murmured a bedtime prayer and pressed a tender kiss to your forehead, âSleep, my love and Iâll rise to kiss you again in the morning.â
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You were awoken by the sound of soft knocking against wood and a feminine voice calling out gently.
Neteyam stirred beneath you, his shoulder shifting beneath your cheek. Youâd slept pressed against each other the entire night and were it not for the corporeality of the situation currently, you wouldâve sworn it was all just a wonderful dream.
More knocking sounded and you were grateful to see the cloth drapes at the alcove entrance remained shut. Neither of you was decent yet.
The feminine voice called again and you recognised it to be Kiriâs, âGood morning, you two. The day has long begun.â
Part of you sighed in relief. Better Kiri than Neytiri. Great Mother, you didnât want to face Neteyamâs mother right now after a sensual night with him, under their roofâŠ
Neteyamâs smile was debonair and he blinked sleepy eyes at you. You squinted back at him, the harsh daylight outside obvious even in the confines of the shelter. You startled with a gasp. Daylight! By Eywa, what was the time?!
Scrambling for your clothing, you smacked Neteyamâs thigh, âNeteyam! The hunters! Weâve got patrol this morning!â
Kiriâs laughter sounded like a charming peal of shell chimes from behind the drapes, âMm yes, I daresay it caused quite the stir when both the commander of the warriors and his second-in-command didnât turn up for work today.â
A long and grumbled curse hissed out from Neteyam as he pressed the fingers of one hand into his eyes.
Kiri was quick to chastise, clucking her tongue in reprimand, âLanguage, brother. Besides, thereâs no need to fret. Dad and Loâak stepped in to lead todayâs patrol. There isnât any urgency for you.â
Dressing quickly nonetheless, you shared a chaste kiss with Neteyam before he drew back the alcove drapes. Kiri stood with her arms folded, looking mighty amused as her eyes flitted sagaciously between the pair of you.
Kiriâs shrewd eyes took in your form, trailing you from head to toe again, but there was a teasing glint in them when she spoke, âThat was some apology you had for my brother.â
Flushing a deep shade of violet, you greeted the young woman meekly, âGood morning, Kiri.â
âWhereâs Mum?â Neteyam asked, glancing around the empty shelter with nervous eyes. He threaded his fingers through yours to hold your hand. His mother wouldnât have been pleased by what the both of you had done. Yes, you were both grown adults and intimacy was not frowned upon amongst the people, but there was a certain respect that one had to have for their parentsâ home.
Kiri giggled again with a polite hand over her mouth, âSheâs out. She left early this morning to help Grandmother gather some herbs.â She snorted when she saw Neteyam visibly relax, and she couldnât help but take another jab at him, amused by his discomfiture, âOh donât worry, Mum definitely wanted to throw you both out earlier this morning, but I think the Great Mother had something to say about that.â
You frowned, not understanding Kiriâs meaning. Neteyamâs ears too pricked in curious interest and he cocked a questioning head at his sister, âWhat do you mean?â
Kiri padded to the main archway of the family shelter and she pulled one half of the entry cloths aside, motioning with her head for both of you to step outside, âCome see for yourself.â
Following along a little behind Neteyam, the warmth of daylight greeted your skin as you both stepped out into the open. You heard Neteyam suck in a breath and halt in his steps. Blinking against the intense daylight, your eyes took a few moments to acclimatise. However, when they finally did and you took in the spectacle before you, you gave a loud gasp of surprise.
All around the Sullysâ family shelter, littering the ground and hovering about the structure, were dozens of atokirina (seeds of the sacred tree). The feathery seeds undulated about the place, sprinkling the shelter in a dusting of blessed white.
Kiri stepped out after the both of you, grinning, âEvidently Eywa thought all was right with the world.â
You felt Neteyam pull you to his side and he nuzzled your cheek tenderly. Your answering smile was bright and you placed a shy kiss on his shoulder.
âDo I need to tell Grandmother to make another formal announcement?â Kiri asked, smirking at the tender display of affection between you.
Neteyamâs beamed at his sister and his response was full of affectionate confidence, âYes. Neyomi and I are both spoken for. Weâre betrothed.â
And all was right with the world indeedâŠ
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Author's Note: The end! THANK YOU again to all of you wonderful folks for your awesome support. I absolutely love interacting with everyone and it's because of you that this series became a reality. It was only ever meant to be a oneshot! I hope that you've relished Neteyam & Neyomi's (reader) journey to love. Let me know your thoughts, scream to me in the comments! Reblogs, likes & comments are always very appreciated. đ
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I missed you so much. Look, I'm all grown up now. No longer the tearful little fairy. But I still think that's the you I find most adorable.
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"hey man whats going on in this" yeah.
#in stars and time#isat spoilers#isat loop#isat siffrin#laika art#thank you my dearest friend skye for deciding to kill me with this song. consider this payback â„#ytcsa fic#<- (i can imagine anything voice) I Can Put My Human Loop In Anything.
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there is hope in the world
(my favourite author has posted. god is good.)
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