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definitelynotshouting · 1 year ago

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OMG I TOTALLY FORGOT IT WAS CHRISTMAS I WAS SO TIRED LMAO MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

I actually had the BEST luck on the plane- no babies and NOBODY WAS COUGHING. I still wore a mask but that was the first time I've ever been able to sleep on a plane it was revolutionary. Never had a plane so quiet.

LOL Queen Jellie :3 She's exactly like my cat: spoiled and damn pleased about it. It's okay though because she's cute.

Also the "it's Scar's point, now,". Desert duo try and communicate normally challenge. These two CANNOT hold a conversation without trying to one-up each other or committing to some bit and thats why we love them <3 silly (affectionately)❤️

YOURE A CHEESE PERSON AS WELL?!?? Red dragon is SO good, excellent choice. The espresso one sounds interesting! I've never had coffee flavoured cheese-- im fond of one and not the other-- but if you you recommend it i might have to give it a go :o. My own favourites arent anything exciting; i just like a good gouda or smoked cheddar (i love smoked cheeses)

Anyway, ty for indulging my airport boredom haha :D. Im back home in Malaysia (where i grew up) for a couple of weeks before going back to Australia. Thoroughly ready to gorge myself on malaysian food and fruits AND ENJOY CONSISTENT WEATHER BECAUSE MELBOURNE CAN AND HAS HAILED!! AT 24+ DEGREES CELSIUS (75 F)!!!! NOT OKAY HADKDBSJSJ

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HI SUN ANON I HOPE MALAYSIA IS TREATING U WELL!!!!!! I was gonna respond sooner but holidays went and knocked me on my ass dkdbdjdnf. Also WIN THE TRAVEL BLESSING WORKED /SILLY 😌😌😌😌😌 glad u had a good flight king 🫡🫡🫡

I am indeed a cheese person!!!! Huge cheese fan, also i think you're the first person ive ever spoken to who has any idea what Red Dragon is right off the bat 😂😂😂😂😂 but yeah i love cheese so fucking much-- for xmas we had the aforementioned espresso, as well as several other bellavitano cheeses including a merlot, a bourbon, and garlic and herb. Plus a very nice and very soft, crumbly bleu. It wasnt Stilton, which is my personal fave, but it honestly held up really well when i made my traditional christmas snacks (petite toasts with bleu cheese, blackberry jam, and a walnut on top :] )

And yeah scarian truly cant communicate without making it a competition and its KILLING MEEEEEE DDJEHFKNFDKFNN im so obsessed with them and their dynamic, im glad you liked that moment!!! I was planning to post the fic the day after xmas but alas the holiday stress/burnout got to me before i could 😭😭😭 SOON THO!!!! Mayhaps even for the new year, we shall see!!!!

Hope ur having fun, sun anon!!! :D i'd love to hear more about the food ur having over there (also ur SO valid for the consistent weather comment, i grew up in Texas which can sometimes have crazy weather patterns so o7 about the hail in 75°F weather 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭) thanks for dropping by!!!❤️❤️❤️❤️

#shouting speaks #asks #my cat also had to go to the vet right before xmas 😔😔😔😔😔 so i was really anxious for him #hes alright!!! just had a very mild uti 😭😭😭😭😭 i jyst happen to be the world's most anxious cat mother in existence #so between that and the holidays and then scrambling to finish this secret santa ive been SAUR BUSY.......#schedule isnt clearing up anytime soon either bc of the zine #BUT WE STAY SILLY o7 #txt

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radioiaci · 8 months ago

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@cannibalxroses ⧐ ♢ ♡ 🗡💋🥀 WHAT SAY YOU? (OOC).

MY DEAREST DARLING ROSIE, I could never forget you because you are so SPECIAL TO MEEEEEE. <3 Thank you for indulging my silly little RadioRose appreciation and always being interested in doing fun plots with me, I LOVE THEM SO. ALSO thank you for being a fantastic Lilith as well that helps formulate some of my headcanons for Alastor's deal! It's great to have someone to bounce ideas off of. THANK YOU ILY.

#▶ after hours broadcast ▶#⨻ answers ⨻#cannibalxroses

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flamingblinglove · 1 year ago

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omg wait miss rei this is the perfect time to ask abt how ur life and zoros life intertwine 👀👀 i am very curious to know 👉👈 do u live together in a modern au or are u on the ship w him (<- i have seen 3 eps worth of op LMAO)

BESTIE I'M I'M I'M— I was not expecting this 🥺🥺

Tbh I haven't really thought much about it because I have seasickness and whatever motion sickness there is out there so being a pirate in canon seems impossible HAHAHA but!! I haven't thought of a modern au with Zoro too because in canon timeline he's only 21 now so I feel like I'm lasting over a piece of fresh meat 😂

Then again, I think either canon or modern would work because a) it's easier to come up with something for him in canon hehe, and b) Oda said that if Zoro was in a modern au, he would be a police officer so, imagine all the possibilities 😍

I will get back to you in three working days after I sort my brain out bestie HAHAHAHAHAHAA I LOVE YOU THANK YOU FOR INDULGING MEEEEEE

#namodawrites.asks #flamingblinglove.answers #namoda <3 #omg i actually never though much about it for now #but what i have in my brain is canonverse ._.#maybe the straw hats adopted me somewhere in east blue before entering the grand line HAHAHA #okay now i really have to give this a thought <3 #WE DON'T EVEN HAVE A SHIP NAME YET HAHA

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that-was-anticlimactic · 2 years ago

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🪄 let’s talk abt musicals!

seen a million movies, all selling true love / fantasies i'm not sure that i'm worthy of

okay wait no there are two moments in this song that absolutely make me feral--

i feel out of control! / i feel safe on the ground / i go building up walls / yet i wish to be found / a true contradiction to which i am bound

- safer, first date

send me a 🪄 to get a song lyric I am not normal about

#new-resident #YES HELLO MUSICALS MY BELOVED OMG #safer by beloved too #i just. i love this song. so much. and krysta rodriguez... ough...#i'm have feelings many of them #it's the 'true contradiction to which i am bound' for me and the way that the first lyric i chose is how i feel about A Lot of stuff #like maybe love at first but not really anymore but also just like. life in general iuygtfcghuiuygfghj ugh such a good musical #thank you for indulging meeeeee <3 #corey rambles:)

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cassyapper · 2 years ago

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13 and 16 for da ask game?

hi tony thank u sm for asking <3

link to ask game: https://cassthecringe.tumblr.com/post/701408099940089856/deep-fic-writer-asks

13. Do you take pride in your writing, or does it embarrass you? Why?

yeah i take pride in it cause it is all for MEEEEEE (self indulgence). also i dont think my like, prose and dialogue is necessarily bad. like it's not perfect, of course not, and idk if . i was about to say idk if it'd be publishable but then i remembered that i Am technically published so i think that might also be an aspect in the pride i feel. but yeah i could never hate smth that i put so much love into

16. Do you re-read old fics? Is there a time in your writing you won’t go back to?

yes i do! i never posted anything before jojo so you guys wont see it but i have like, old warrior cats shit for example, that i still read, particularly when im trying to fall asleep. nothing is off-limits either i can reread most of what I've written, like i can't think of any exceptions. lol

tysm for asking <3

#cass cries

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roachwrites · 5 years ago

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Drunk Y/N x Nemoto

Nemoto needs more love PERIOD. Also I’m sorry if this seems too ooc it’s a self indulgent fic I wrote for myself a while back but with encouragement it’s now gonna be on this platform! I hope you enjoy!!

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A louding ringing awakens Nemoto from a dead sleep. Letting out an annoyed grunt he turns on his side and reaches for his cellphone which laid on his bedside table. Taking a quick look at his alarm clock he sees the time. 2:45 am. He feels his eye twitching in anger as he accepts the call.

“Hello?” He says calmly despite his boiling anger. It certainly didn’t help his anger that the caller wasn’t the young master.

“Oh god, oh fuck, Nemoto is that you?” A slurred voice asks him. Nemoto recognizes the voice from anywhere. It was Y/N, a strange individual who was shamelessly honest and unbelievably kind at times, and by the sound of their voice was incredibly drunk. Nemoto quickly snaps wide awake as he pushes himself up and leans against his headboard.

“Yes, it’s me. Are you okay?” He questions as he grabs his glasses and places them on his face. He hears them take a deep breath.

“I’m fucking turnt. Like I’m fucked up you have no damn idea.” They start to ramble on and on about how ‘turnt’ they are. He takes this time to rub his eyes as he tries his best to not get angry at them. There were two people he could never be angry at. The young master and them. He would never allow himself to be.

“Y/N. Did you need something from me?” He can’t help but feel where this conversation is going. While he didn’t hate the idea he also didn’t like it.

“I-Yea. I like. My friends left while I was in the bathroom fucking ungrateful ass hoesssss.” They draw out the s in hoes for an unimaginable time. Ah, so he was right. By no means can he bring them back to the main base. Someone like them, someone who was unclean in the eyes of the young master, would be dead as soon as they set foot inside the base. He couldn’t trust the other precepts to keep their mouths shut. He has no choice but to bring them to his alternate base. That apartment he brought them to the first time they met.

“Where are you? I’m coming to pick you up.” He gets up from his bed and walks over to his closet. Picking out a fresh pair of pants he places his cellphone between his shoulder and ear so he can change out of his sweatpants while also listening to Y/N.

“Oh fuck really? God you’re the fucking best remind me to suck you off later to say thanks.” Once the second part of their sentence leaves their lips Nemoto nearly dropped his phone as he fell forward while trying to put his right leg through the correct pant side. He catches himself on his desk with one hand as he snatches his phone from the air and brings it back to his ear in a frantic panic.

“What did you just say?!” He chokes out as quietly as he can trying his best not to wake up the whole base. In his franticness his glasses became crooked.

“That you’re the best? Or that I’d suck you off as thanks?” He fixes his glasses as he takes deep calming breaths. They were drunk. They wouldn’t remember any of this tomorrow. He had to remember that.

“Is there anyone around you? Where are you!?” Repeating his process he hurriedly puts on his pants and throws on a coat as he starts heading towards his door.

“No it’s just me! I told you already my hoes left me are you even listening to me! And i’mm, uhhhhhhhhh, in front of this bar called,” He hears them lean away from the phone. He starts tapping his foot in anticipation. “A bar called Foxtrot.”

Pulling up the directions on his phone he sees that it’s only a 10 minute walk but with the amount of urgency this has it’ll only take him 5.

“I’ll be there in 5 minutes, stay where you are, understand?” Y/N lets out a squeal of glee.

“We gonna get turnt together! That’s great! Ugh, you’re the only bitch in this city that can handle me.” Cries start to come out of their mouth and they sniffle. Try as he might Nemoto can’t help but smile. The only one that can handle them? That’s probably true. Their honesty could be and probably was too much for anyone except him. Even in their drunken state their lips spilled truth.

He hangs up the phone as he quietly leaves his room and rushes towards the front doors of the base hoping no one would be up. Luck was not on his side however as Kurono was up and about.

“Where are you off to in such a hurry and at this time of the night?” He questions as he stands there papers in his hand. Nemoto puts his hand on the handle of the door and opens it, before leaving he turns towards Kurono,

“I have urgent personal business to take care of and I won’t be back tonight or tomorrow please tell the young master when you’re able.” With that he walks out closing the door behind him.

Soon enough he makes it to the bar where Y/N is. Taking quick glances around he sees them sitting on the edge of the curb swaying from side to side as they happily hummed a tune unknown to him. Walking up to them he grabs their shoulder. Their head snaps up, looking up at him they beam before jumping up on him. Wrapping their legs around his waist and their arms around his neck they had him trapped with nowhere to go. As they started to slide off of his frame he reached outwards to prevent them from falling the only way he could. He grabs their ass tightly as he brings them towards him. They let out a small cry of pain.

“If you like it rough you should have given me a warning.” They groan in his ear. Nemoto feels heat start to form in his lower region. He shakes any impure thoughts he’s having. All he’s here to do is take them to his place so they can sleep this off. That’s all.

“Y/N, please work with me here. I need to take you someplace where you can sleep this off.” He struggles to keep his voice steady. They’re constantly squirming around their core rubbing up against his perfectly. They let out a ‘tch’ sound as they unwrapped themselves limbs from him. He helps set them down gently.

“Mannnn I don’t wanna sleep. Fuck sleep. Sleep’s a bitch that slapped me in middle school.” Nemoto can’t understand a word they’re saying but he can appreciate the tone of it. He outstretches his hand towards Y/N and looks at them expectantly. He lets out a sigh when they meets his gaze with a look of confusion.

“Take my hand Y/N I’m going to walk you to my place so you can get some sleep.” They don't miss a beat.

“Oh shit we fuckin? Hell yea.” He brings his other hand to his forehead and rubs it trying to get rid of the early onset headache.

“We are not going to have sex Y/N.” Seeing their face go from happy to sad at his words almost instantly makes him regret it. He wants nothing more than to tear away what little clothing they have on.

“You don’t want to have sex with me?” They ask seriously, tears threatening to spill over their eyes. He starts to panic. The last thing he wants to do is make them cry.

“Of course I want to have sex with you. Just... not right now.” Just as quickly as they turn from happy to sad they turn back to happy. They launch forward and latch themselves onto his arm.

“Lead the way sexy!” Their skin is absolutely glowing as joy seeps out of them. He scratches the back of his neck and lets out another sigh. Y/N would be the death of him. Taking them back to his apartment took longer than he would have wanted but there was nothing he could do with them leaning all of their weight on him but at the same time if they didn’t they would no doubt have trouble walking.

Finally they make it back to his apartment. Unlocking the door and entering Y/N stumbled about and looked around. Closing the door behind them Nemoto turned and locked it. Turning back around he found them gone. Confusion quickly sets in as he looks around the small living room and kitchen for them. He makes his way to the bedroom where he finds them laying on their back.

“Y/N, you need to change out of those clothes. They reek of alcohol.” Nemoto makes his way to the closet and grabs a plain black shirt. He debates on giving them sweatpants but decides against it considering they would probably just fall off their hips. Grabbing his own shirt and bringing it up to his nose he takes a sniff. He grabs another shirt and sweatpants for himself since Y/N’s little death grip earlier had rubbed their alcohol scent on him. Walking back towards Y/N he sees them struggling to stay awake. He sits on the bed next to them.

“Y/N, here, you need to change. Trust me you’ll feel better.” He gently shakes their shoulder but he’s only met with in-cohesive gurgles.

“Do it for meeeeee I’m too tired.” They whine looking up at him with half lidded eyes. Looking over at the time he sees it’s 3:23 am. Feeling incredibly tired himself he doesn’t feel the need to argue.

“At least sit up so it’s easier for me.” He waits for them to sit up. Which they do after some gentle nudging. He makes quick work of their top carefully unbuttoning it and pulling it off and past their shoulders. He feels their intense stare as he tries to avoid staring at their chest.

“I thought you looked hot with your hair styled but you’re even hotter now that it’s messed up.”

Their airy breath hits his neck and he shudders. He snatches one of the shirts and slips it over their head. The shirt is far too large for them that much is clear as it hangs loosely on their shoulders, one of their shoulders completely bare. Standing up he grabs what’s left of his clothes and heads towards the bathroom to change.

After doing so he comes out of the bathroom to see Y/N taking off their shorts and throwing them off to the side. His boxers feel tighter as he witnesses this and his heart beats faster as he sees her take his body pillow and snuggles into it bringing their leg up to trap it between their legs. Oh how he wishes he could be that body pillow. He shakes his head and he starts towards the living room.

“Where are you going? Come lay down with mee.” They whine out. Nemoto stops in his tracks and looks back at them. They’re still in the same position as before but now they had their head towards him. He notices the way his shirt now clings to their frame and outlines their curves. How the shirt has ridden up considerably to show pastel green undergarments. He gulps down a thick wad of saliva that had built up in his throat.

“I think it would be best if I slept on the couch.” Y/N takes a spare pillow and throws it at him. He easily dodges it and even catches it. Their cheeks are puffed out as they pout.

“Stop being weird fucker! People in love sleep in the same bed all of the time, what’s the big deal.” Love? They was in love with him? He knows he shouldn’t do this but he has to know for sure. He activates his quirk.

“How much do you love me?” Like earlier in the night they didn’t miss a single beat.

“I’m hopelessly in love with you. That day I saw you standing there in the rain, I knew I was in love with you. You occupy my thoughts whenever they’re free. I love the way you style your hair, the way you carry yourself, how wary you are of others because I know I can never be like that. You are my opposite and I love you for that because I appreciate how different we are. I love you, all of you.”

He deactivated his quirk as he sauntered over to the other side of the bed. Lifting up the blanket Y/N shifted so he could cover both of them. They move the body pillow out of the way and throw a leg over his waist and bring themselves closer resting their head on his chest.

“One of my fantasies has been you using your quirk on me to make me confess about my secret dirty kinks.”

Just as Nemoto got comfortable his eyes snapped him wide awake again by what Y/N said. How did they know what his quirk was? When did you find out? There were so many questions that came into his mind.

“I found out the first day we met. I don’t blame you for not telling me and don’t worry I still love you.” They mumbled quietly as they snuggled into him more. He wrapped an arm around them and began to rub their lower back. As Nemoto laid there all he could think about were the things that led to this moment and how strange of a person Y/N truly was. He didn’t mind though. He closed his eyes as sleep slowly drifted him away, his last thought? No matter how strange they were, they were his strange partner and he couldn’t imagine it any other way.

#shin nemoto #nemoto shin #nemoto x reader #shin nemoto x reader #nemoto mha #nemoto bnha #mha x reader #bnha #tw: alchohol mention #slight n/sfw #please don't judge me #mha

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torawro · 2 years ago

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MOCHA? you came up w this on the SPOT??? ARE YOU FR???? omg when i tell you my face is like this—

—im so deadass like my eyes are tearing up and getting blurry bc you wrote all this for meeeeee🥺 wit one of my fav boyfies ugh im gonna cry fr bc i can’t fathom being treated so well like. im praying to God that one day this comes true but seeing my fav emo boy goin all out for me made me so giddy . im biting my fist kicking the covers and everything . this was beyond sweet and i thank you so so much for taking the time to indulge me❤️❤️❤️❤️ i say this all the time i love you so much and i love your work and how you write it just makes me feel so happy and so seen and understood and it’s like an escape from reality. ill cherish this forever bc this is my first birthday on tumblr <3 ily sweetheart

mocha 🥺🥺🥺🥺 coming into ur inbox staring at my feet and holding my sleeves bc like….um today is sept 26 & it’s my birthday soooooooooooooo ummmmm (GOD i hate asking for things) but ummmmm how do you think sasuke would treat me on special day 👉🏾👈🏾 feening for him tonight <\3

oh my GOSH HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRETTY GIRL! may you have the happiest day ever!

let’s just say sasuke is gonna start your special day off with some morning head bc why not fr. the man will be slipped under the covers, squeezing your thighs and eating at your shit until you wake up sensitive and scooting on his face until you finish and then he’ll tell you ‘good morning, happy birthday baby’ with a smug ass grin. he’ll carry you to the bathroom for a morning bubble bath and then downstairs on his back to the kitchen where he made you an all you can eat breakfast. literally from pancakes, french toast, eggs, bacon, home fries, cinnamon rolls etc. he’ll have the whole day planned out for you because he wants you to have the best birthday every year. taking you out for a stroll at the park to enjoy the fall weather and scenery. have a picnic with all your favorite sandwiches, fruits, and snacks. has coloring books, crayons, and markers so you guys can draw together. sasuke takes you to your favorite bakery to have a special mini cake you can blow the candles out for later. takes you back home to get ready for the perfect dinner date at an expensive restaurant. tells you to get WHATEVER you want. i’m talking wagyu steak, lobster, buttered shrimp, pasta, a soufflé. the man doesn’t care if you empty his wallet bc it’s all worth it for you. even has a gift for you wrapped in a tiny baby blue tiffany box. a pretty anklet with his initial ‘s’ bc he wants to see it dangle over his shoulder when fucks you good by the end of the night. moaning how much he loves you, kisses all over your face, neck, and chest. and cuddles you after bc you can’t stop crying from how happy he makes you feel. <3

#—sosa’s thoughts💭#🍫—asks!#moots :)#hellavile #oh that DID it for ne #so much #more than you’ll know #sasuke <33 #one of my favorite authors on this app fr

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bigseuegsobtob · 7 years ago

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🤷🏽‍♀️- Super Hero or G.R.8.U? 🤷🏽‍♂️- Girls Why? or Love Equation?  🙋🏽‍♂️- Chained Up or The Closer? 🙋🏽- Error Kpop or Error Jpop?

G.R.8.U ^^

Love Equation 💜

ooooooh this is a tough one >:

ERROR KPOP ^___^

Thank you dear for indulging meeeeee

🌟VIXX ASK GAME🌟

#starlight things!#vixx #asks #please playyyyyyy with meeeeee

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howling--fantods · 8 years ago

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a rogue ask: how would you you rank Graham's albums, and what specifically about each is it that makes you like it to such an extent?

AKL:HGSDHGSDHG:DS YES THANK YOU FOR THIS ASK OMG!!!!! :D

THIS IS GONNA BE REALLY HARD CAUSE THE TOP 3 ARE KINDA EQUAL IN MY MIND BUT…

The Spinning Top (2009)I think that the last three albums Graham has made have each shown incredible growth in his songwriting and each master a facet of his style as a musician, so it is hard for me to rank them. But I think The Spinning Top stands alone for how ambitious it was but musically and conceptually. It is a true masterpiece that shows Graham’s incredible technical skills as a guitar player (and his willingness to push himself to master a style of playing that he had always felt intimidated by). The thing I love most about this album is that it shows Graham pushing into unfamiliar territory in every way and yet it feels effortless and entirely him. The acoustic songs are lovely, heartbreaking, and nuanced, they grow more beautiful the more you listen to them. The songs that are electric are examples of Graham’s innovative and unique sound. “Dead Bees”, “If You Want Me”, and “Humble Man” all fit the tone of the albums folk/blues influence, but take it to an abrasive and expressive place. “Tripping Over” is one of the most emotional songs Graham has written, a stunning example of his ability to transform complex feelings into sound. Knowing where Graham was while writing this album, it is evident that it is the sound of him finding the confidence to do something undeniably extraordinary. His songwriting is at its best and the songs reflect his maturity, self-reflection, and vulnerability. The album’s concept is a man’s life from birth to death and the struggle to find your way home, and every song hits the mark emotionally. He shows that he is a man who has lived that struggle and come out the other side, aware of what there is at stake and determined to hold on and find peace. It is a truly special album.

A+E (2012)There could not be a better follow-up to The Spinning Top than A+E, which is the complete opposite in every way. The industrial, krautrock sound is as far away from the delicate songs of the previous album as you can get. But like The Spinning Top, the songs follow a loose narrative that helps the album come together conceptually. An endless night out in an unfamiliar place, violence and perversion lie beneath the surface. Graham’s wit and existential angst give the darker songs a sense of humor and ground the album in his own personal experience. One of the best moments on the album are the final minute or so of “What’ll It Take” where Graham screams repeatedly into the void “WHAT’S WRONG WITH MEEEEEE!??!?!?!?” While he has figured a lot of his shit out, he is still the boy he has always been. “Running For Your Life” recalls the early days of Blur, performing in the north where people would yell “GET THE FUCK BACK DOWN THE M1!″ The lyric “we don’t like your accent or your Northampton shoes/get back down the M1 cause we don’t like you” is one of the most Graham lyrics ever. The album ends in the glaring sunlight with bluesy “Ooh, Yeh Yeh”, inspired by an encounter with a friend one Sunday morning who had been out all night and was really not doing good. It is a perfect ending to the album. The sound of the whole album is sophisticated, layered, grungy, dusty old synths and light reflected in dirty wet asphalt.

Love Travels At Illegal Speeds (2006)LTAIS is Graham’s “sound” in its most refined and mature form. It is the first of his albums that holds a loose concept, exploring the loss of love and the fear of risking that heartache again and again. The songs are lyrically much stronger than his previous albums and really reflect inwardly on his personal struggle to find and change the parts of himself that get in the way of healthy relationships. The songs “Just A State of Mind” and “I Don’t Believe Anything I Say” ask a lot of tough questions about his own hypocrisy and fear in relationships. The line “just be happy, you are strong now, it’s so lonely to love someone” is at the core of most of the songs. The album addresses old wounds and new hopes with great maturity. The thread of sexual frustration that runs through the album is cheeky and playful. “See A Better Day” ends the album in a hopeful place, with a new relationship and the potential to find happiness.

Happiness in Magazines (2004)While I believe LTAIS is a better album, I personally love Happiness in Magazines a bit more. It is charmingly odd, witty, and fresh. The first album Graham made after leaving Blur, it shows a real dedication to showing himself as a confident and professional musician. Produced by Stephen Street, it is the first that Graham didn’t self-produce and it allows the songs to really shine. The album is packed with potential singles that show different facets of Graham’s sound. For me it is the most representative of what I think of when I think of Graham’s solo work and I love that it is a bit unrefined and quirky. It maintains some of the roughness of his early solo work, but it is sophisticated as well.

The Kiss of Morning (2002)The Kiss of Morning and Crow Sit on Blood Tree are the two underrated gems in Graham’s catalog. Most of this album was written when Graham was in rehab and it is full of hurt, guilt, and tremendous vulnerability. “Bitter Tears” opens the album strong, it is one of Graham’s best, and it lays the ground for the rest of the album. I love it because, though it is incredibly honest and vulnerable, it shows a determination to move forward and it is full of pain but also strength. The album pretty much builds off of that foundation, it explores many different avenues of pain and guilt, but never loses that determination. Graham explores more of a blues/country sound that is appropriate given the subject matter. His songwriting shows growth and maturity and the production and musicianship are strong. It is the most finished feeling of his self-produced albums and gives the listener an idea of what is to come.

Crow Sit on Blood Tree (2001)This album is particularly impressive considering it was recorded in 5 days. It feels very much like a release of all the pain and frustration and doubt he was feeling in that moment, a bit of a mess, but a compelling mess. This one, more than the two previous, feels like something he needed to make, to get those feelings out. And for as rough as it is, it is shockingly cohesive and there are a lot of really good songs on it. “Empty Word” again, opens the album and sets the emotional tone. It is one to scream along to, but it is lyrically heartbreaking, he is not in a good place. “All Has Gone” is a beautiful and sad little acoustic song that is hugely underrated. But the real gem on the album is “Big Bird” which has circular kind of repetition that is a bit like “Tender”. Other standout songs include bluesy “I’m Going Away” and “Tired”, melancholy “Too Uptight”, and infamous “You Never Will Be.” Overall I think this album deserves more love, it is an emotional look into a turbulent moment in Graham’s life.

The Sky is Too High (1998)

The Golden D (2000)Graham’s first two albums are tough for me, but I think The Sky is Too High has a few stronger songs. “That’s All I Wanna Do”, “R U Lonely”, “I Wish”, and “Hard & Slow” are all really solid songs, especially “I Wish”. The Golden D holds together better as an album but the strongest songs on it are the two Mission of Burma covers, “That’s When I Reach For My Revolver” and “Fame and Fortune”, which are both stellar and true to what Graham was feeling in Blur at that time. As I have said many times, The Golden D is worth listening alone for out of place jazz funk MASTERPIECE “Oochy Woochy”. The appearance of this random jazz funk song on an angry punk/metal album is one of my favorite things Graham has ever done.

THIS WAS SUPER LONG AND SELF-INDULGENT BUT THANK YOU FOR ASKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#me #sorry for the rant #graham rant

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Worth It Chapter 15- Worth It in the End

Summary: Joseph wakes up alone and goes to find Caesar, leading to a much needed exchange of words.

Notes: Whoo! Final official chapter! There’s an edited out sex scene in this chapter, but I’ll link to that once I have it up on AO3. There’ll be an epilogue after this, but that’s just me being self-indulgent.

Edit: Here’s the full finale on AO3, enjoy :)

Joseph yawned and rubbed his eyes as he woke up. “Mornin’, Caesar…” When he didn’t receive a response Joseph sat up in the bed and opened his eyes, suddenly aware of how cold he felt with a distinct lack of body heat anywhere near him. “Caesar?” Seeing the empty bed around him froze Joseph’s blood instantly. Caesar was nowhere to be seen. Joseph quickly got out of bed and looked around for any signs of the blond, but all he saw was the barren chain on the floor. “Shit!” He swore at his own carelessness and rushed out of the bedroom.

His heart raced and he internally berated himself. ‘Damn it! Why didn’t I check the other one?! Why didn’t I chain his leg instead?! Why didn’t I get the lock replaced?! He’s gone now! He’s gone and could be anywhere! Did he take my car keys when he left?! I can track it if I need to, but I have to find-!’ He reached the living room and was about to go out the front door when he realized it was still locked. ‘Wait..why is it..?’

It was then that Joseph noticed a faint humming from somewhere in the house. His body moved on autopilot towards the sound, his brain not yet catching up to the situation. He soon found himself at the doorway to the kitchen. The light was on and the air smelled like hot coffee and fresh baked bread. He stepped through the doorway and there, standing by the oven, humming softly to himself while slicing up an apple was-

“Caesar…?” Joseph questioned aloud, his voice breathy and barely audible. His chest felt tight, he couldn’t believe what he was seeing- was too scared that he was just hallucinating.

“Hm?” His voice seemed to be just loud enough for Caesar to hear him. He looked up from his cutting board and saw Joseph standing by the doorway. Caesar smiled at him, a bright, genuine smile that Joseph had been longing to see for so long now. “Ah, buongiorno, Jojo.” He greeted Joseph easily, looking so natural and at ease as he set the knife down and walked over to him. “You’re up earlier than I thought you’d be. You were so dead to the world, I thought I wouldn’t see you ‘till at least noon!” He chuckled a little. “I hope you’re at least hungry- there’s biscuits in the warming drawer, and I’m working on some fruit sal…” He trailed off when he ended up right in front of Joseph, looking up at him with a confused frown. “Jojo? What’s wrong?” He reached up and touched Joseph’s face, brushing away some water there.

Joseph was crying. He knew he was, even if he couldn’t feel the tears on his own face. Reaching down, Joseph wound his arms around Caesar’s waist and held him close in a tight embrace. He buried his face in Caesar’s shoulder and choked back a sob as he all but clung to the smaller man. “I…I thought…I thought you’d left me…” He whispered, his voice shaking when his breath hitched.

Caesar stroked his back gently with one hand, bringing the other up to run his fingers through Joseph’s hair. He pressed tender, sweet kisses along Joseph’s head as he stated in a firm but caring voice. “Why would I leave? My home is here, with you.”

Joseph turned his head to look at Caesar out of the corner of his eye, sniffling a little. “You-You really mean it, Caesar?” He felt so hopeful at that moment, like he was waiting for the culmination of everything he wanted in life to come true all at once so he could let the emotional dam in him burst and be washed away by the happiness. If Caesar truly felt that way, then maybe he actually felt the way Joseph had hoped for all this time.

Caesar’s reply was a soft smile as he looked down to meet Joseph’s gaze. “Yes, Jojo, I mean it.” He pressed a kiss to Joseph’s cheek. “I’m staying right here with you, caro mio- I’m not going anywhere. Ever.” Joseph saw only pure honesty and joy in Caesar’s beautiful eyes. He had meant every word he just said.

“Caesar…” Joseph held Caesar against himself and lifted his head back up to kiss all along his face. “Thank you. You-You have no idea what that means to me. I promise, I’ll work hard to make you happy here the rest of your life!” He pressed his forehead to Caesar’s and closed his eyes as he smiled contently. “I love you, Caesar. I love you so much.”

“I love you too.” The reply was unexpected, to say the least. Joseph’s heart stopped for what felt like a full minute (in reality it was only a second) as his brain tried to absorb those words properly. Had he really heard that, or was it just wishful thinking?

He opened his eyes, looking at Caesar with what must have surely been shock on his face. “What….What did you just say, Caesar….?”

Caesar simply continued to smile up at him with that same look in his eyes as he brought one hand around from the back of Joseph’s head to cup his cheek. “I said I ‘love you too’, Jojo.” He kissed the corner of Joseph’s mouth and Joseph could feel the smile against his skin. Caesar whispered softly against his lips, looking Joseph dead in the eyes as he spoke. “I love you, Joseph. I love you and I want to be with you forever.”

That did it: The dam had officially burst.

“Cae…sar…” Joseph’s voice trembled around Caesar’s name, but it was all he could get out before he was surging forward to claim Caesar’s lips in a hungry, passionate kiss. “Mhh! <3” His tongue breached Caesar’s mouth easily, earning muffled moans from his lover as he eagerly explored and claimed his mouth. He pulled back a little, just far enough to pant against Caesar’s now kiss-swollen lips. “Say it again! Please, Caesar!”

Caesar gazed up at him with a coy smirk, amusement clear in his eyes as he looped his arm around Joseph’s neck. “Well, I suppose I owe you for all the times you’ve already said it..” He leaned close to Joseph’s ear and kissed the shell of it before saying softly. “I love you, Jojo~<3”

Joseph felt heat lighting up every nerve in his body while a shiver simultaneously ran down his spine from Caesar’s words. “O-Oh my god, Caesar..” He moved his hands to Caesar’s lower back and lifted him up, Caesar reflexively wrapping his legs around Joseph’s waist and bringing his other arm up to wrap around Joseph’s neck too. Joseph’s chest rumbled with something akin to a growl as he began biting and kissing at Caesar’s neck, earning plenty of gasps and moans from the blond in his arms. “Mhhh…keep saying it, Caesar- and don’t stop any time soon~<3”

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“Caaeesaaaarrrr~” Joseph said in a sing-song voice as he cuddled closer with one arm around Caesar on the bed, the blond laying on top of him while idly playing with Joseph’s hair as they just basked in the warmth and contentment of the moment. “Say it again~ Pleeeeeaaaseeee? <3” He said in the same tone of voice, leaning into Caesar’s soothing touch on his head.

Caesar sighed in feigned annoyance, but the amused smile and soft look in his eyes gave him away easily. “Fine- I suppose I did say I had some catching up to do.” He kissed Joseph’s forehead before smiling down at him. “Ti amo, Jojo.”

Joseph’s grin was practically ear to ear as he pressed a kiss to Caesar’s cheek in turn. “Again?”

Caesar rolled his eyes, but the smile never faded. “How many times are you going to make me say it, Joseph?”

“As many times as I can get away with!” Joseph proudly declared before holding up his hands to do some quick calculations. “You said you wanted to catch up to me, and I’ve said ‘I love you’ at least three to five times a day MINIMUM every day since we moved in! That means you owe meeeeee…” He did the math in his head before smirking up at Caesar. “At least 1,020 more ‘I love you’s/‘ti amo’s. And that’s me going easy on you!” He winked at the end of his statement, still smirking teasingly up at his lover (he could finally call him that out loud now!).

Caesar chuckled and shook his head. “I do love you, Jojo.” He mussed Joseph’s hair playfully. “But I hope you don’t expect me to meet that quota in one day. I don’t want to lose my voice.”

Joseph let out a long sigh, pouting up at Caesar. “Aw, fine, you don’t have to say ALL of it today…” He wrapped both arms around his blond lover’s waist and smiled brightly up at him. “I’ll be generous and let you spread it out till you’re caught up- sound fair?”

Caesar’s smile matched Joseph’s own as he gave him a peck on the lips. “Hm, I suppose that’s fair…is what I would say if I didn’t know you so well and knew there would be a catch.”

Joseph chuckled and kissed Caesar back briefly. “What? Would I REALLY do that to YOU, Caesarino?” At the deadpan look from Caesar, Joseph just laughed more. “Aw, c’mon!” After his laughter calmed down, Joseph grinned at Caesar. “I’m serious about you paying me back- you can take as long as you want! Of course…” His grin turned into a smirk. “I’m not going to stop saying I love you every day, so that debt will just keep growing. Soooo, I guess you’ll just have to spend the rest of our lives paying me back~<3”

Caesar flicked two fingers against Joseph’s shoulder. “I knew something like that was coming. Also, what kind of half-assed proposal was that?” Though he tried to look annoyed, there was the slightest blush across his cheeks that highlighted his birthmarks adorably.

Joseph couldn’t resist how cute that looked and pressed several kisses to Caesar’s cheeks before pulling back to smile at him again. “It’s not like I haven’t said it before tons of times: I finally have you and I don’t plan on letting you go. Ever.” He brought one of his hands up to cup Caesar’s warm cheek as he gazed into his eyes. “I love you, Caesar. I’m going to spend the rest of my life with you- if you’ll have me, that is. And if you don’t feel like you’re ready yet, then I can wait my entire life till you are. I don’t want anyone else but you, Caesar.”

Caesar gazed back into his eyes and placed his hand over Joseph’s on his cheek. “I don’t want anyone else, either, Jojo. No one out there could ever love me anywhere near as much as you do, I know that now.” He closed his eyes and squeezed Joseph’s hand. “I’ll gladly be yours and you can be all mine in return. That’s all I want for the rest of my life.”

Joseph felt his heart swell with emotion at Caesar’s open and honest words. He had just the thing for this moment! He rolled over, keeping one arm wrapped around Caesar’s waist to hold him close, until they were laying on Joseph’s side of the bed. At the confused look Caesar gave him, Joseph just grinned more. “Close your eyes- I have a surprise for you!” Caesar reluctantly did as he was told, apparently curious what Joseph was up to. Joseph placed a kiss just above one of Caesar’s eyes before leaning over to his nightstand and rummaging around in the drawer before finding what he had been looking for. He opened a small box and grabbed Caesar’s left hand, carefully sliding something onto one of his fingers and then his own before sitting up with an excited smile. “Okay, you can look now!”

Caesar opened his eyes and held up his hand to inspect what Joseph had done. He gasped softly, a look of surprise and awe coming over his face at what he saw on his left ring finger: A gorgeous golden men’s wedding band with wide stripes of peridot running vertically down the front. Together, the colors resembled Joseph’s favorite striped scarf that he wore in almost every season possible. Joseph proudly held up his own hand to display the ring on his own finger: A matching band in more of an orange-tinted gold with triangles of purple tanzanite lining the bottom to create a triangle pattern with the metal. The color and pattern strongly resembled Caesar’s headband that he often wore when he went out.

Caesar gazed at the rings before looking back up at Joseph. His cheeks were slightly flushed and he looked awe-struck. “Joseph..you..”

Joseph just smiled, pleased to have left his normally articulate lover speechless for a change. “I had these custom made a while ago. Figured I’d hold onto them and pull ‘em out when you were finally ready.” He gently held Caesar’s left hand with his own and laced their fingers together, the two rings pressing together perfectly. He looked down at them as he spoke. “I came up with the designs and thought ‘hey, this way we can wear each other’s colors and make it obvious to everyone we’re together’. Also, I think it’s kinda nice, y’know? It’s like we’ve each got a piece of the other with us, even if we have to be apart.” He looked back up to meet Caesar’s gaze. “So, what do you think? Do you like it?”

Caesar stared down at their entwined fingers for a while before a soft smile spread across his face. “��..” He surprised Joseph by pulling him down onto the bed next to him by their joined hands. After Joseph adjusted himself to lie on his side and look at Caesar in confusion, Caesar just smiled more and moved closer so he could wrap his arms around Joseph’s neck and kiss him. The kiss was slow but passionate, communicating so many emotions through the careful movements of their lips that Joseph felt a bit breathless by the time it was all over. Caesar was the one to break the kiss just as suddenly as he started it, moving back just enough so Joseph could see his smiling face again. “I love it.” He stated simply, letting his left hand rest over Joseph’s cheek. “I love it and I love you so much, Joseph. Promise you’ll never leave me?”

Joseph smiled back at the love of his life and placed his own hand over Caesar’s to squeeze it gently, never breaking eye contact with him as he spoke. “I’ll never leave you, Caesar. I love you. You’re all I’ve ever wanted and I won’t let anyone ever take you away from me- anyone who tries WILL die.” He felt that possessiveness tugging at his heart, making the last of his words sound almost like a growl from a beast.

Caesar’s smile shifted into a coy smirk. He lightly glided his fingertips from his free hand up along Joseph’s arm to his collar bone and back down as he spoke. The action and Caesar’s seductive tone of voice made goosebumps rise on Joseph’s skin “You know…it’s kind of hot when you talk like that. It makes me want to hear more about what you’d do..maybe even see you do it..perhaps even..participate a bit myself..if you’d be interested?”

Joseph’s own smile turned predatory as he snaked his free arm around Caesar’s waist and held him close. “Oh my GOD, you are PERFECT! How did I get so lucky to have someone like you?~<3”

Caesar chuckled and hooked a leg around Joseph’s hip, clearly ready for yet another round. “You drugged my coffee and chained me to your bed, if I remember correctly.”

Joseph chuckled too, bringing his hand down to squeeze Caesar’s ass teasingly. “Well, I guess you’ll just have to chain me to the bed to make up for it sometime, eh, Caesarino?”

Caesar’s response was a lick of his lips before he captured Joseph’s mouth in a much more fierce and wild kiss than before. Joseph eagerly reciprocated the kiss and silently thanked anything in the universe that was listening for his current happiness. It had been an emotional rollercoaster for both of them to get to this point, but, all of the blood (of others), sweat, and tears had been worth it in the end. His hard work had finally paid off and won him the heart of his beautiful, precious, beloved Caesar.

‘Yes,’ He thought as he embraced and made out with his sweet fiancé. ‘I knew it would all be worth it in the end. After all, it WAS for Caesar- and Caesar will ALWAYS be worth it.’

<-Previous Chapter Epilogue->

-From the Beginning-

#caejose #caesar zeppeli #joseph joestar #yandere!au #serial killer!au #yandere!joseph #serial killer!joseph #worth it #final chapter!#well aside from the epilogue #hope everyone enjoyed the roller coaster XD

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