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WIP Wednesday!
Thank you for the tag @transprincecaspian! I didn't want to overload the original post by @melisusthewee, but you should go check it out to not only see her lovely OC, Quinn, but also to see hopefully see who else is doing creative work in the DA community!
Annnndddd of course I'm working on Tea Leaves and Sweet Dreams ;w; What can I say, I am compelled by two nerds who are terrible at understanding emotions. and by procrastinating writing the second to last chapter of NADAF shhhhhhh
TLSD preview - Chapter 5: Honey Chamomile
Kieran mulled over this new information as they rounded down the last block to his apartment.
“What compelled you to keep applying, if it was so difficult to get in?” He asked.
“I love studying the Fade.”
“It’s as simple as that?”
Solas inclined his head. “It’s as simple as that.”
“Wasn’t it hard to get rejected so often?” During his application process, Kieran had been anxious to the point of nausea at the thought of receiving just one rejection letter.
“I won’t deny that it was, but not being able to pursue what I loved was even harder.�� Solas’ gaze drifted ahead of them as he lost himself in thought. “There’s so much to learn about the Fade, and so few have ever truly done it justice. To play a role in developing that knowledge…I can think of no greater calling.”
From the conviction in his voice, Kieran had no doubt that Solas believed that to be true. Unconsciously, he muttered, “I envy that.”
“I’m sorry?” Solas refocused on him, making him aware that he had spoken out loud. Shit.
“I-I mean, it’s amazing you’ve found something you’re so passionate about,” he stammered. He added honestly, “I can’t say I feel that way about anything myself.”
Several moments passed before Kieran realized that Solas had drawn to a halt. Confused as to what he had paused for, Kieran turned to face him. He regarded Kieran with the same expression as one would a complicated puzzle, his mouth pulled into a frown and his brows knit tightly together. The sun had fully vanished now, leaving the streets dark except the warm glow of street lamps.
He had the distinct impression of being cornered, despite open, empty streets around them. An obscure feeling, small and fearful, tightened in the depths of Kieran’s gut.
“You do have a passion,” Solas said simply, as if declaring the weather.
The feeling snapped, like a bowstring drawn too taunt. Keiran whirled back around and began walking again, this time quicker than before. He could hear Solas hastily following suit.
“Kieran,” he tried again, “you do have a passion. I’ve seen it – when you talk about magic theory.”
He knew his reaction was a bit much, but he didn’t want to stop. He didn’t even know why. Normally, he would just brush off such a statement. But for some reason, it was because of Solas. Kieran couldn’t get home fast enough.
“That’s not a passion.” The word felt foul on his tongue. The ghost of memories flickered in the back of his mind, and he moved faster to banish them. “I have to care about magic theory because it’s part of my degree.”
“That’s not true.” Solas’ breath was coming out short in his efforts to keep up with Kieran. His own breath burned iron in his throat. They must be a sight, he thought, as they both rushed down the stone path.
When Kieran didn’t slow down, Solas made an annoyed sound in the back of his throat. Suddenly, Kieran was being turned around by a hand on his wrist.
His heart leapt into his mouth. At first, all he could see were Solas’ eyes, their amber-gray depths alight with a curiosity that set his every nerve aflame.
“If that were true, then explain to me why you came into the lab today,” Solas demanded. “You’re exhausted. You have midterm exams tomorrow. You could have been resting or studying and you still came to the lab.”
Kieran couldn’t help but flinch, and Solas’ grip on his wrist tightened. It wasn’t a hostile gesture — rather, it was grounding, if insistent. Conflicting emotions, both old and new, warred within the confines of Kieran’s chest.
This is so dumb, he chided himself angrily. You should have just laughed this off like you always do.
So why didn’t you?
“I don't understand why you’re so avoidant about this,” Solas breathed.
Kieran hunched inwards despite himself. The words slipped from the heart that sat heavily on his tongue before he could stop them.
“Why would you? We barely know each other.”
ALMOST FORGOT THE TAGS! I tag @nightmarist, @tsuraiwrites, and @theleadcinnabon if they'd like to share anything - always no pressure (and if you don't want to be tagged in things, let me know in a DM! :) )
#of course it's always a work in progress but I'm glad I got the chance to edit this section!#thank you again cas <3#Tea Leaves and Sweet Dreams#tlsd fanfic#dragon age fanfiction#solas x m!lavellan#wip wednesday
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Art raffle prize for @milfycas for donating to the fundraiser to demine Ukraine 💙 Thank you so much @sailorsallyart and @lamiasage for organising this raffle 💕
#castiel#supernatural#spn art#u24#had so much fun drawing this :D#and it created like a whole little headcanon#where cas wanders the fields around the bunker when sam and dean go to sleep#and he has this favourite sunflower patch nearby where he likes to watch the sun rise#i hope you enjoy your raffle prize and thank you again for donating <3#sunflowers
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who says adventurers can't dress cute?
aka: "I spent almost three hours giving Zen new outfits and took 140 screenshots of them."
#ts4#the sims 4#sims 4 CAS#ts4 CAS#adventures in cas#my sims#cas#ts4 dnd#dnd sims#sims 4 dnd#oc: Zenara#oc: Zen#ignore that you can't see their tail in ANY of these. I may or may not have forgotten to add it to the new outfits.#anyways. they/them for Zen please!#they're my *original* nonbinary purple tiefling warlock.#they're a pact of the fiend and they were an unintentional but direct result of me binging critical role campaign 2.#they were the first dnd character I ever played. Sadly that campaign only lasted two sessions. :'(#I'd love to play them again for real this time. I just need to find the right campaign for it. And seeing as I'm already in 3...#it's gonna be a while lmao.#if you couldn't tell clumsyalien's cc makes up at least 70% of their wardrobe lmao. It's just so perfect for their vibes!!!#the pendant around their neck is their spellcasting focus btw.#ignore the clipping in the 3rd pic... I love that outfit too much but the clipping is annoying.#the pants in the 5th outfit were the whole reason I did this cas session in the first place. They're just so perfect for Zen.#if you've read all these tags thank you and I love you. <3
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i'm putting the submissions i have in-game and im enchanted by @beebeesiims's dalila 😖
#*fizzyspeaks#HER SMILE....#no bc why is she shining im literally under her spell#im down so horrendously#spun her around in cas and gave her some more outfits <3#THANK YOU AGAIN
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𝒮𝒾𝓂 𝑅𝑒𝓆𝓊𝑒𝓈𝓉 for @invisiblequeen ≽^•⩊•^≼
#THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EVEN ASKING ME TO DO A SIM REQUEST.#tbh even though he's finished#i still feel like he isnt good enough and may not bode with your standards#also plsss let me know how you would like me to send him to you!!#<3 thank you once again#my sims#the sims 4#sims 4#ts4#ts4 cas#create a sim#show us your sims#simblr
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math nerd ft riko again pretty please
WIP Wednesday 8/23/23 (Open) | Math Nerd AU
Riko endures the treatment. His pride stings far more than any injury his uncle had given him. He feels like he's lost. Like Neil Josten has won some unspoken and unknown battle between them. He wants to grab the other Striker by the hair and slam his head into the ground. Wants to wrap his hands around his throat. Wants to take the IcyHot and squeeze it into-
"Did he hit you anywhere else?" Neil asks looking at Riko with blue eyes that are looking straight into his. Eyes that are looking at Riko and not the Captain of the Ravens Riko Moriyama.
He forces his hands to remain at his side.
"No." He answers and it is a lie and Neil nods so Riko lets himself feel like it's at least a certain kind of victory over Neil Josten. He feels the bruises on his ribs ache all the sharper now that his legs are being soothed.
"Ok," Neil puts everything back into the first aid kit he had brought. "I'm going to leave this here." he says and sets the first aid kit down on Kevin's bed.
Riko's temper flares.
#Math Nerd AU#AFTG#AFTG AU#Andreil#Math Nerd - The Nest - 07#WIP Wednesday Ask Game#8-23-23 WIP Wednesday#05#Ca-van thank you again for helping me with the Riko parts <3#Riko Moriyama
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Hair down Cecio<3
#thebirdarts#gold & silver#cecio#His hair is basically sentient at this point#But he has curly hair#So it's a given#Thank you again Cas for the idea<33#Behold! My awful gay son#Knife smug cat meme! That's what his expression reminded me of!#Piece of shit.#I love him<3
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kitty asmr to help with eeps
THIS IS THE BEST ASMR EVERRR ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING MEE IT'S SO FUCKING CUTEEEEEE:((((((((((((((((((( i will . be using this every night from now on this will do wonders for me i think hell it might even fix me all together this is fucking amazing lmao THANK YOU FOR THISSS ILOVE KITTIES I LOVE PURRING I LOVE ASMR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#AND I LOVE YOUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#wahhh cats purring must be like one of thee best sounds in the world#it feels sooo soo good:((((((((((((((((#so relaxing#wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#thank you again i really do appreciate you sm lovey:((((((#cas <3#friends!!
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hi I love LOVE your art it’s always so pretty and nice and the style is amazing top to bottom.
I was wondering what your art process is like if you don’t mind me asking?
Thank you kindly!! I appreciate you taking the time to leave such a sweet msg, made me smile (*´∀`*) ~☆
As for art process I think I’m a bit disorganised ^^;; usually my pieces focus on some kinda lighting or expression/movement. I’m a fan of symbolism whether overtly or more covert (types of flowers used, placement of piercings, colours, body language etc.) so I like including those when I can
Usually my inspiration will come from what I want the focal point to be first; like an item, an outfit, an emotion etc. From there I mess around w poses w the idea of where the light will be coming from as I like adding glow wherever I can uwu My sketches are extremely messy lol but I find that’s the way for me at least to get the fluidity I’m trying for. If I focus too much on proper posing my art becomes stiff, so I like to be messy and loopy and then pick whatever lines stand out strongest amongst the scribbles to outline lol
Poses and expressions are often the longest part for me, but once I’m satisfied colouring is easy. From the sketch to final, usually the mouth, hands and eyes changed at least six times;;;
For colouring; I’m very much partial to limited colours in pieces. One character usually has a palette of six or less colours that are repeated throughout the piece. The overlay gradient I typically add gives the illusion of different shades, but yet a lot of my pieces are less than ten colours whole. To pick palettes, I rely on [split] complementary and analogous colours.
I hope this makes sense! Sometimes I also just draw dumb doodles that are so hideous I hide them in shame but eventually will attempt a redraw months later. Sometimes that pause/art block/frustration w current skill level is also necessary part of the process (๑¯ω¯๑)
#cas answers#thank you again!#and i hope i made sense ^_^#i have some asks i could link where i used lines of actions or rule of thirds or conflicting angles to push fluidity in my poses :3#i always find those very helpful when developing the sketch in the early stages
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📩 Simblr question of the day: What is the *one* most important feature you believe should be part of the next iteration of the sims at the core (on launch day)? @simblr-question-of-the-day
This is honestly a really difficult question because there are several features that, in my opinion, should be a part of the core game and not behind an expansion or 10-years-in update lol. That being said, I think I'm going to go with a broad demand - fully fledged-out CAS - which would entail things like:
All life stages incorporated from the start (none of that tosh about adding toddlers/infants into the game years after launch.)
A substantial amount of traits to choose from; I also wouldn't be upset if we could give our sim a zodiac sign, like in previous iterations of the game.
Likes/Dislikes and Turn-Ons/Turn-Offs
Pronouns and Sexual Preferences
The ability to set familial and romantic relationships
A wide variety of skintones and hair textures from the jump (frankly skintones should just have some kind of color wheel function in my opinion)
Disability Aids
Features like vitiligo, birthmarks, body hair, etc.
I think that's a reasonable demand as all of these have been base game updates during TS4's run and, if I'm remembering correctly, many of these thing were a part of TS2 and TS3's core when they launched.
In a game that is meant to be a "life-simulation," all kinds of players should be able to effortlessly represent themselves from the moment they purchase the game: their features shouldn't be implemented 5 years down the line, nor should they have to wait for a pack to drop so that they can have the assets to accurately portray themselves.
#I know this is really a list of things but it's under one category so I think it counts!#I remember opening CAS back when TS4 first dropped and I was... horrified lowkey lmao. They cannot get away with that again#Thank you for sending this ask my way <3 <3#atfs ask#charsimsalot#sqotd
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"You're late." "I know." "I missed you." "I know."
losing my mind over vet and carver again because of this absolutely stunning piece by @swampcastle! ngl i've been screaming over this during the whole process... and seeing it finished has sent me over the moon 😭💖💖💖💖 a literal masterpiece, i cannot recommend cas enough. they were a joy to work with and i'm so thrilled to be able to share this!!! the sensuality, the details... i am simply deceased GOODBYE!!!!
#oc: elissavet cousland#x: what did my fingers do before they held him?#im so normal about them!! just the most normal!!!#scene here is around... 9:32 dragon?? ish? so little reunion between queen and lover hehe#dialogue is from a wip :3#anyway thank you again cas!!! gonna treasure this#literally just. losing my mind over here
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Okay so, my tip for ocṭopath is that, if you're able to afford both, get both, if you can only get one of them, and you've got the money for it, get the second one, unless the characters of the first one appeal to you more.
OT1 isn't a bad game, but OT2 is objectively better in every way imo, and you don't really need to know anything about the first one to play it. If you plan on playing both of them either way, maybe start with OT1 bc it'll feel a lot clunkier if you do it the other way around, since OT2 has a lot of QOL improvements that OT1 doesn't have (like the 3x battlespeed, more varied animations and chapters and fully voiced cutscenes, for example). The characters in both are fun though. OT1 follows the archetypes of the main cast more closely, while OT2 usually tries to subvert them a little more, they're all very charming in their own way!
Anyway sorry for the long ask, but yeah I personally like octọpath a lot, and highly recommend checking it out! If you've got any doubts about whether or not you'd like it, both OT1 AND OT2 have demos you can play first! It's pretty neat
ooooo this is useful thank you!! i'll give the demo a go later today i think, steam didnt have it so i didnt know it was a thing at all lmao
#asks#clai speaks#its like. i Could afford both but buying two expensive games when i dont know if i'll like them is a bit silly#also even if it is standalone i do like to play things in order#also also if i bought both at once i wouldnt have any money left over for the rest of the sale#but on the OTHER hand. if i end up loving ot1 (which i probably would it sounds right up my alley being story/character focused and all)#i'd either have to pay full price for ot2 bc theres no way i finish 1 by the end of the sale#or i wait like a year for it to be this cheap again#very difficult decision. i think i should have infinite money to spend on video games#this isnt even taking into account the many other games i bought and havent played yet lmao#i'm trying to finish p/rsona 5 tactica and then move to p/rsona 3 reload#ta/vern talk just released which is smth i've been eyeing for a very long time#ca/ssette beasts is also smth i really wanna have a go at#my friends all linked out steam accounts so we have access to each others libraries so theres even MORE for me to play#need to be employed to afford games. need to be unemployed to play them#this got away from me HBBHDBHF POINT IS. I;M VERY INDECISIVE#I WILL TRY THE OT DEMOS THANK YOU#edit: oh my god alejandro saab is in ot2. god NOOO I DIDNT NEED MORE REASONS TO CONSIDER BUYING BOTH. STOP
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HI I SAW UR TAGS ON MY DRAWING OF UNPOPULAR FAVES AND ID LOVE TO HEAR SOME OF UR SHARK HEADCANONS IF UR WILLING TO SHARE :) I JUST RLLY LIKE HIM TOO!! (-@kinkajouwof)
HELLO!! THANK YOU SM FOR ASKING!! I will happily share some Shark headcanons I have <33 Hopefully they all make sense I always have a hard time trying to formulate thoughts so !!!!!
- Shark was born a bastard child from the king! he was a year younger then Coral and something the Queen held distain for. She “graciously” (wanted to keep her public appearance) allowed him to stay in the castle but never officiated his title of Prince
- Him & Coral grew up really close! The Queen was often to overlook and mistreat Shark and Coral was quick to his defense. The two remained close throughout childhood and into early adulthood
- When Coral became queen she held a ceremony to officiate his status as Prince and a royal guardsman <3
- Fallowing in his fathers footsteps, Shark held a fascination with weaponry! He wasn’t the most keen on actually using said weapons, instead their construction, history, ex. When the war started he decided to put that knowledge to a higher use, raising the ranks along his good friend Commander Tempest, being her second-in-command due to skill, he became a council member of Defence due to nepotism though, much to his distain
- Despite his focus in the more tedious aspects of weaponry he did go to a training course for soldiers during his youth, there he met Tempest and the two became friends. He was a regular guardsman under Queen-Mother’s rule. The position of Guardsman is how he met Abalone and lived briefly as a semi-normal citizen & struck up romance with Abalone. They are gay married because I say so!!!!
- Due to his training & friendship with Tempest and her brother Gill, Shark is quite the Pacifist! Despite this he starkly believes that pacifism in war achieves nothing while warhawks hold power, resulting in his focus on primarily defense and ties in diplomatic measures. Hes a bit of a hypocrite though as he upholds his sisters rule
- He is deeply and incredibly concerned for his sister lmao. The two grew up very close and he feels he owes her a lot for protecting him during their youth & mentoring his daughter when he was unable to, but since becoming Queen and loosing Orca she’s definitely changed. Shark wants to support his sister but finds it hard as she becomes more like her mother..
- Shark questions Blister’s motives and worries on her influence to Coral. This is paired with the Dragonets of Destiny, fearing they will choose Blister as queen, he holds great distain for them and the power they wield.
- Whenever Blister comes to visit Shark used to try and sit-in on meetings and was known to casually disagree with the princess, he has since been banned from meetings despite being a councilmember due to his outbursts at the Sandwing </3
Hopefully that all!!! Flows!!! Thank you sm for asking about Shark I think he is so cool and I have like a whole backstory for him pfbhj him, abalone, coral, gill, and tempest are in a friend group !!!!! Anyway heres a compilation of my favorite Shark images
#obsessed with your main url by the way like. yeah :)!!!#GUHA!! SORRY IF THE FORMATTING IS WEIRD!! I like to format posts in a google doc with like . indent Bullet points & Horisonal Line but I ca#cant do that in Tumblr so it makes posts like these a lil sillay to look at </3#EITHERWAY!! shark posting time lets go im sorry for Shark x Abalone its infected my brain (they have never even spoken once)#Ablaone dying is what caused Shark to try and grant Tortise relief with a lunch break :( and the events that fallowed solidified Shark#loosing faith in Coral being the same dragon he grew up with :(( Shark is my favorite sad middle aged guy character but a dragon#Commander Shark#<- theres some more Shark THoughts in this tag as well I think fhbjf#Rambling#Queen Coral#AGAIN THANK YOU SM FOR ASKING!!! i lobe talking about this sillay guy even if it takes a whole day of planning to post my thoughts hphjb
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Support the Jad Al Haq family
I've been asked by the family to make this post to help clear up the rumors of fraud surrounding them. All of these campaigns have been vetted by trustworthy sources and I have linked proof of verification for each of them. You may see similar photos and wording in their campaigns, but that is because they are all sisters.
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This fundraiser is for 3 of Doaa's sisters: Tahreer, Fidaa, and Aseel. All of them were recently forced to evacuate where they were sheltering and find themselves displaced again. The funds will be used to help them afford necessities and evacuation so they can join Doaa in Egypt.
@tahreer1990 and her husband Ahmed have 4 children: Fatima, Khamees, Sarah, and Ameer. Ameer is a toddler with a broken pelvis and in desperate need of medical care. Khamees also recently underwent a tonsillectomy without proper conditions/medications due to a severe infection.
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@falestine-yousef and her husband have a 3 month old son named Youssef that Falestine gave birth to during this genocide. She is struggling to provide enough milk, diapers, medicine, and vitamins for her son. She also fears for Youssef's health because of the unsanitary conditions in their camp. The tent they live in is next to a dilapidated public toilet where sewage, dirt and waste is everywhere, putting her family at greater risk of contracting deadly diseases.
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aaaaaaaaaaaa i love this so much!!! look at them, this is literally the cutest thing 😭💛 your edits are amazing!! also cas's pajamas!?? that's canon okay i love it 😭😭
thank you so so much for making this for me!! i will treasure it forever <333
Choices Secret Pal February 2024, edits by me
Here's my creation for the Choices Secret Pal event by @choicesfandomappreciation! This is my second time participating in this sort of event and I seriously love doing it.
For @hydn-jpg, I've made some edits of Cas Harlow and their ID MC Jiwon Kim doing an outfit swap, inspired by this artwork of his!
One morning, after a sleepover...
At school...
Later that day...
Blank versions:
TYSM for giving me the chance to do this, and also once again for this commission of Evie and Aiden! I love how neat and polished and cute your artstyle is, and so I loved seeing my blorbos in that style! <3 <3 <3
#i have to draw this one day!!#thank you again for this wonderful edit!!#printing this and hanging it above my bed#things that make me happy <3#immortal desires#cas harlow#mc: jiwon kim
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HI I LOVE ur lads headcanons ‼️ idk if u do angst but im feeling some angsty/hurt/comfort........... can i pls request the lads men's reaction to the reader rejecting their confession bc we think they deserve better...... someone who doesn't have a heart condition (like the mc) or something........
Oh my gosh, thank you so much!! And oh man, I love angst and hurt/comfort, as long as I get to give it a tiny bit of hope/a happy ending! I felt this one though, I've thought about it before with my own MC…….. a few dozen times- Hope you enjoy, and thank you for the request! <3
Love and Deepspace Li’s reactions to you rejecting their confession due to feelings of inadequacy
Rafayel -
Rafayel is… surprised, to say the least.
Not only do you not have any memory of him or the things you did together- the things you did to him- but you also are straight up turning him down when he finally realized that he needs to confess to you all over again.
He's pretty upset.
It'll definitely turn into an argument, and you know he's hurt. Damn, you're hurt too, just having to turn him down. He makes you feel something, like you're special. Like you're everything to him. Like you're not…
Broken.
And it'll come out eventually. Maybe not blatantly so, but in small ways, your feelings of inadequacy will start to leak through the cracks that are forming in your resolve as you try to refuse a man who has already been refused his love by fate and prophecy for far too long.
And somehow, that makes it so much worse. Because he can fight fate, he can go against the currents of time and the ever evolving cruelty of human nature. But he can't do anything about the feelings raging inside your own head.
He's sure going to try though.
Angrily but calmly, he will start firing off things he has done for you, just because he's loved you so much, throughout all of your time together and even before. He doesn't know if it'll make it worse, make you feel like he already does too much for whatever it is you see yourself as, but he's going to do it anyway. And slowly, it'll start forming into the things you two do together- the things you've done for him when he needs you.
And you're going to be there a while, because until you start to realize, until he starts to chip away at that dark feeling in the deepest reaches of your mind and heart, he's not going to let up.
Not now, not ever.
Sylus -
He's a bit taken aback, but he's not particularly surprised. He had seen this coming, mentally prepared himself for it, even. He knew after his treatment of you when the two of you had just met again for the first time, that any sort of official relationship between you two would be tricky to get to. Especially putting an actual label on it.
He'll be a lot more surprised when he reads between the lines at your words, and realizes it's not because you're still scared of him, but because you don't think you're good enough for him.
"You can't be serious, sweetie."
He's not going to force you to accept his confession, but regardless of how timid or aggressive you become, whether you escalate it vocally or try to exit the conversation, he's not arguing with you. He pretty much refuses to, as he instead begins to state snarky facts as he crosses his arms, watching your reactions as he does.
"When you patched my wounds a month ago, was I not deserving of your hands caring for me because they were shaky and belonging to you? How about that girl you muttered about that we saw at the café who was mad at her boyfriend to the point of shouting, when he didn't get her the right cake she wanted? Are you saying you're worse than her? Helping me on jobs simply because you want to exist near me is… not good enough for me?"
"Sylus, that's not what I'm saying-"
"Oh don't worry sweetie. I know exactly what it is you're saying. I just know it's a particularly misinformed, self loathing thought for you to be having. Don't you think it's insulting for you to decide who I give my love to? After every calculated decision you have witnessed me make?"
He'll finally soften, reaching out a hand to gently rest on the side of your neck, his thumb brushing against your cheek in a gentle back and forth.
"You don't need to be concerning yourself with what I deserve in a partner. You should have faith in my opinions, if not for yourself, but for your confidence in me, sweetie. After that, the rest is up to what you truly want in your heart."
Zayne -
His reaction is definitely the most reserved initially, especially until he realizes why exactly you're turning him down.
He definitely has the passing thought that maybe you're just misunderstanding him again, just like back with the snow seals when the two of you were still kids.
When he realizes that's not the case, and instead, it's your own internalized feelings, he's first a bit relieved, and secondly- pretty perturbed.
"It's interesting to know that's your perspective, given how much you enjoy those fictional stories with ironic pairings. I would think that it would be the most romantic thing for a heart patient to be in a relationship with a cardiac surgeon.
His biting but well-meaning quips aside, he's not quite sure how to break it to you that he used to be in a similar boat, and still is to some capacity. Which is partly why he's a bit upset to understand your perspective.
He's genuinely surprised you haven't processed the timeline of the two of you and your lives. Your accident that caused the state of your heart, his leaving to study medicine and become a specialist in cardiology and a renowned cardiac surgeon- are you not able to see that it's not an inadequacy for him, but his own lack of knowledge when you first started having issues made himself feel inadequate? Why he left without a word for years in the first place?
And not just that- it also applies to other fields too. He has no issues helping you where you need him, because he knows the extent of your capabilities, much like he knows his own. And he will spend forever if he needs to, to show you that loving is not about who does more. It's about doing what your partner needs, no matter how much or how little that is, and loving each other through every hard moment.
And you're about to hear every ounce of his convincing, opinions, and own feelings, until you start to see. Until you finally see.
Xavier -
Unless you tell it to him straight, he's not going to know why you rejected him. He'll be hurt, but he'll accept your rejection graciously and politely, before trying to figure out just how to get you to accept it.
There's an increase in claw machine dates, movie night invitations, and how much he helps you with missions or even just around your apartment. Eventually, you process the weird behavior and you're all but forced to confront him on really truly why you rejected him.
It's Xavier, so you try to play it off as a lighthearted situation or a joke, but you can see his expression darkening, and you're not sure if it's because of him being upset at your words, or realizing just how much time he has sunk into you with how... broken of a person you are.
Turns out, it's the former!
It's hard to not realize such, as he's pulling you into the tightest hug he's probably ever grabbed you into.
For a while, it's just you and him standing there, with him squeezing you tightly and you not knowing what to do with your hands or the lump rising in the back of your throat. He doesn't really know what to say, but he does know he needs to say something.
"I'll definitely make you see that you're more than enough for me."
"Xavier- that's not how this work-"
"I know, and I don't care. I- I need you to know that you're everything to me. You're not inadequate, or broken, or anything you've been telling yourself. You're more than enough. You're more than everything to me. And I'm not going anywhere until you finally understand that."
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