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nagito-kissmaeda · 3 years ago

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AH shuichi anon here hello.

okay okay. i've had this Concept forever but i always get super embarrassed when i try n write nsfw stuff so uhhh i was planning to request this to someone else. but i am literally Thinking abt despair disease being a motive in the third game and reader getting infected with some kinda lust disease n just... jumping shuichis bones. and he tries to resist at first but theres literally no getting away from it. hes so shy n cute i just wanna ruin him :(

thank u for taking this even tho requests just closed!! ur an angel <3

ミ☆ Here u go! It was my first time writing him, so i hope it's okay! Word Count: 3178

Contains: AFAB reader, Gender Neutral Pronouns, Explicit sexual content, dubcon (cause despair disease)

The school, despite being little more than a horrific prison designed to keep you all trapped inside, always seems to have very good temperature regulation. When classmates died, when motive after horrifying motive was revealed, you never once felt too hot or too cold. You would call it one of the schools only complimentary points, but for some reason, this morning you are sweating bullets.

Your skin feels like it’s itching, your clothes feel like they are suffocating as you fight the urge to tear them from your body. Most days you leave your dorm in a shirt and jeans with a thin sweater over the top, but today it feels like so much. Way too much. The jeans feel like they are cutting off your circulation.

You rip the sweater off and toss it to the floor, managing to relive at least some of the itch from your flesh. At first you didn’t notice it, but now, you realise that your breasts…ache. It feels like your nipples are pressed so hard against the padding of your bra that they hurt. Something is wrong with you, something must be wrong with you.

There is a distinct ache growing between your legs when you open your front door and head down the stairs, all but clawing at the rest of your clothes in an attempt to ease the burn. The feeling itself is indescribable, somehow toeing the line between unfiltered lust and absolute agony, you’ve never felt anything like it in your life. Despite your eagerness to dash out into the open air, hoping for the breeze to do something akin to calming you down, you find that the cool breeze somehow only makes it worse.

Fresh air rushes past your over sensitive skin, leaving goosebumps in its wake. Your hair brushes the back of your neck and you moan aloud before clapping a paniced hand over your mouth. Maybe you should just go back inside and sleep this off, or dash back to your bath and drown yourself in the cold water until everything stops burning.

It’s amazing that you even manage to make it to the cafeteria, your legs feel like they aren't working and every step is near agony. Stepping inside and seeing everyone is the worst surprise of all. Your sex aches, every set of eyes looking at you make the ache even stronger. You tear your eyes from the group, biting down on your lip to stop the moans begging to escape. Luckily, you are interrupted before anything serious can go wrong.

Interrupted by the monokubs, of course.

“Good morning, everyone!” Monophanie starts, smiling warmly at the group, “Are you all excited to hear the new motive?”

There is a rippling of angry comments throughout the group, but you are so lost in your own head that you don't even really pay attention as the argument breaks out. Sweat is dripping down your brow and you just want to rip off your shirt. It’s so hot, why are you so hot?

“So yeah, that’s basically it. A weirdo disease that affects everyone in slightly different ways, looks like that kid there is already experiencing the effects” Monotaro says, pointing a stubby paw in your direction.

“H-Huh?” You say, “Y-You did this to me?”

“We know we’re just rehashing something our dad did in the prequel, but what do you want from us? We don’t have any talent!” Monotaro crosses his little arms, “we got this gig based entirely on nepotism! Daddy just wanted to see his babies do a good job, that’s all!”

“Wait…so the next motive is that you’ve brought some of our class down with unknown illnesses? Is that what you’re saying?” Shuichi asks, brow furrowing taught and left arm swung out to his side. You have to literally hold your breath to stop yourself from grabbing his hand and slipping his fingers into your mouth.

Miu huffs, blowing a strand of hair from her eyes, “like that’s fucking fair, none of us here is a doctor. What if it’s contagious?”

“Aw, we aren’t complete frauds or anything!” Monophanie says defensively, “it’s not contagious this time around and I can guarantee it! We had to make at least some changes or…” she starts tearing up, “who knows! Daddy might sue us for all we’re worth!”

“So wait, what exactly is wrong with them?” Keebo asks, “They look very sick already…”

“Ah, gimme a sec-” Monotaro pulls out a notepad and flips through it for a second before calling out your name, “-Ohohoh. We have you down for a fun one! Lust disease!”

“L-Lust…”

Monotaro goes into a long spiel about all the potential side effects, but all you can think about is how horny you are. It makes sense, this disease has taken away almost all of your inhibitions, you are running on nothing but pure unadulterated lust, and being in a room with all these people...can only be making it worse.

Shuichu turns to ask if you are okay, but all you can see is his lips moving in slow motion. All you can imagine is their taste. How they would feel against yours, against your breasts, on your clit.

Before you can do anything you would regret. You turn and sprint out of the room, down the hall and away. The desire is only growing stronger with every minute, becoming harder and harder to resist the urges.

You dash to the library, far away from everyone else, desperate to grind down hard on the carpet, or just finger yourself until the heat dissipates. Being in the room with all of them was too much, your hands twitched, begging for you to just grab Miu or Tsumugi, Kokichi or Angie...but most of all, you could feel your sex craving Shuichi, your friend. This would ruin your relationship, ruin it. But you want him, want him, want him.

When the door to the library opens, you collapse to the floor inside, panicking as you rip off your jeans and shirt, anything to be free from the painful confines, reaching around to unclasp your bra as well, your hardened nipples aching against the padding. When it falls to the ground, you heave a sigh of relief, the desperate warmth between your thighs remains, but at least you aren't burning up so much anymore. Sweat drips down your spine, down between your bare breasts and you whimper, lost in a fog of nothing buy arousal, whining and moaning on the floor of the library without a single thought in your head but fucking.

“Hey wait are you-” Shuichi bursts in through the door behind you, breath laboured as he had clearly chased you the full distance from the cafeteria. He covers his eyes with a forearm, “-Oh god. I’m so sorry, I didn’t uh-”

You’re lacking sense, tact too. So you ignore his blatant discomfort and reach out a hand, “Shuichi...come closer…”

“Are...are you...sure?” He stammers, slowly lowering his arm, but trying his best not to look at you, “I want to help you, i don’t know how i can but…” he gulps, “I should probably go-”

“No!” you cry, clamoring forward and grabbing his legs, burying your burning face in his thighs, “Don’t go...i need you.” a shaking breath rumbles through you as you nuzzle your face further into his pants, gasping on a moan when your sensitive nipples brush the rough fabric.

Shuichi seems quietly horrified as he looks down at you, hands jittering at his sides before he whispers, “You shouldn’t...not...not like this…”

“Shouldn’t what?” You whimper, steadily rubbing yourself up against his legs, panting and gasping at the feeling of someone else pressing against you. Even if he is just standing there stiff as a board.

“This is serious! We don't know what else this disease will do to you. I can go get the others, figure out a plan-”

He’s cut off when you knock him down to the floor, knocking the wind out of him and straddling one of his legs, “Pretty sure there’s only one way to fix this”

"Shuichi…" You breathe, your hands grip at his upper arms, and you release a shuddering breath as you grind your clothed clit across the firm muscle of his thigh, panties and thighs already soaked with your desire.

He stutters your name in a breathless little whimper and then quickly clamps his hands down on your hips. You feel the tiniest buck of his hips underneath you, followed by a sharp intake of breath through his nose. His brow creases, "Stop."

You feel like you’re about to cry, completely out of your right mind and desperate, desperate for him to touch you. "Shuichi, I-I need you to fuck me. I need it, oh my god, please? Please?" You grip his wrist, and lean in closer, unable to stop the moan that breaks loose from your throat at the feeling of your aching breasts pressing against his chest. Shuichi lets out a whimper, and this time doesn’t try to stop the way his hips grind upwards into yours.

His eyes snap open and his hands jump from your hips and into his hair in a desperate bid to ground himself, his eyes are blown wide when he looks up at you and says "Okay, l-listen. This. This isn't okay, you know that? You're not in your right mind, and I--"

“It feels like I’m burning from the inside out, I need it, I need it so badly.” You’re nearly sobbing now, sweat dripping down your neck and pooling at your collarbones, the wetness between your thighs has seeped the whole way through your panties and you’re close to soaking through Shuichi’s pants as well, “I can't stop, I can't, I--"

Shuichi’s breath hitches and his voice drops to barely a whisper, “You...you need to cum that badly?”

“Yes!” you cry, quivering and grinding on him, “Shuichi, just one, please--"

You hear him suck a breath in through his teeth. “Okay.” You are so weak and wobbly that he is easily able to roll the two of you over. It feels like your muscles have atrophied, you can barely move but for the desperate wriggles and grinding of your hips. Shuichi looms over you, a serious look on his face as one of his hands comes to rest on your stomach, “You won’t regret this later...will you?”

“No no no no! Please, please, I promise! I’ve liked you for a w-while now. Um. Not just because I want you to fuck me! I do! But...you’re smart, and kind. A-And considerate. And I--” Your hips buck upwards and internally you faintly realise what you are confessing to him, but the heady fog of arousal is too strong for you to stop yourself, “I th-think about you like this...a lot and I- hnngg, feels good. You feel good!” you whimper, grinding yourself up against him once again, little more than a puddle of lust on the floor.

“Alright...Okay...I-” His brow furrows, and then he presses a surprisingly tender kiss to your temple, and the hand on your stomach slips down into your panties. “Jesus...you…” he sucks a breath in through his nose and you can hear him swallow, “how are you so wet already?”

“I...I don’t know” You whimper, breaking into a full blown moan when the tip of his finger brushes your already swollen clit. It feels like a bolt of electricity, you shole body bows up towards to ceiling and your legs jitter with desperation, “mmmm-more…more”

“Oh god...okay...more…” Even in your stupor, you notice Shuichi’s inability to avoid staring at the way your breasts bounce with every wriggle and writhe, staring for a moment, but then swallowing and tearing his eyes away. First, he slides your panties down your legs, and then he’s staring down at the floor when his finger gently teases your entrance. Then he slips two fingers straight in, all the way to the third knuckle. He laughs to himself, it’s a surprised little noise, “they went right in...and you’re twitching”

You are. You can feel yourself clenching and unclenching around the intrusion but it still isn't enough, even with two fingers inside of you it still feels empty it feels like you are starving and his fingers are little more than a bite of stale bread. Your hips cant up into his hand, desperate for more, harder and faster, “Shu-Shuichi, holy fuck,” his thumb beings rubbing tentative circles around your clit and you howl. It’s loud as he drags and thrusts his fingers slowly in and out of you. Loud from how wet you are. you keen and cry as fingerfucks he you til you’re making a mess of the floor, gasping on his own little moans at the sight of you grinding and whimpering below him.

“Are...are you close?” He breathes, eyes blown wide while he watches the perfect ruination happening on the floor.

You shake your head, “I can’t! I cant I cant!” you nearly sob, the pleasure builds inside of you but no matter how high you climb you just can't hit the peak. Desperate for relief from the heat, from the coiling in your stomach. The pleasure is so endless that it aches.

Shuichi’s fingers are still curling inside of you when he whispers, “How can I help?”

Your shaking hand digs into the hair at the nape of his neck and you tug his face down to yours. He makes a shocked sound when his lips collide with yours, gasping into your mouth when you slide your tongues together. “Fuck me,” you whisper against his mouth humping against the gentle touch of his thumb on your clit, you can feel tears prickling in your eyes when you look up at him, unable to stop the ceaseless grind of your hips. “Shuichi please... I can’t wait anymore!” His hips stutter forward, and you feel the press of his erection at your side, but still he denies you, “You don’t really want this...you can't really want this-” You sob, chasing after an orgasm that never gets any closer, “It hurts, Shuichi”

“There- There must be something else we can do! I can’t do that to you...not while you’re like this- ah!”

He cries out when you find yourself blessed with a burst enough of strength to roll the two of you over, straddling his hips and grinding down on his hard cock. You’ve soaked through your panties entirely, that one press down on his pants is enough to soak them too. Shuichi cries out and you suck a bruise on the side of his throat. “Not like this?” You ask, fog of lust clouding your judgement once again, “but some other way, some other time. That would be acceptable?”

“What-What are you asking?” He replies, eyes rolling back in his head when you grind down on him again.

You lean down and undo his pants, not bothering to wait before tugging both them and his underwear down his thighs, salivating at the sight of his erect cock, “You...hnng...you do want to fuck me, don’t you?” Now you grind your sopping wet cunt up his bare flesh, a buzz of raw pleasure running through your veins at the feeling of his hot skin pressed against yours, but it still isn't enough, “more...more…”

“I do…” Shuichi whispers, hips slowly grinding back up into yours. His hands coming to rest on your waist, “I do want to fuck you...but...I-”

“You aren’t taking advantage of me.” You say, sitting up on your knees and finally angling yourself over his erection, “If anything, I’m taking advantage of you, pretty boy.”

He manages to shake his head, “No it's not your fault, the disease, its doing this to you- I- I would have liked to have done this right, with a few dates first, maybe i’d buy you flowers and-”

Shuichi is cut off by the sound of your guttural moan as you sit yourself down on his cock. The noise of it is obscene. You are so wet that the squelch is heard in full glory, and Shuichi’s keening whimper follows quickly after when he bottoms out inside of you.

“Oh fuck, oh fuck!” Your palms are pressed flat to his chest, your whole body quivering and shaking as you start to ride him. The feeling of him so deep inside of you topples you into a whirlpool of pleasure, the room is spinning, all you can do is fuck and fuck and fuck

Shuichi cries out, his hips bucking upward to meet you, “How...how are you so hot? It feels like the inside of you is burning…”

“It is burning! It is!” you fall forwards, burying your face in his shoulder as you keep riding his cock, “You’re going to fix it...you’ll make me cum…”

“Oh…y-yeah, I will!” One of his hands slips down to your already oversensitive clit and it makes a jolt run through you, snapping your spine straight and making your thighs clench hard around his hips, “Is that good?” he asks.

You can’t answer, your mouth is too busy letting out moan after moan as your center starts to boil, your whole body turning to jelly and your head turning to nothing. You can feel everything at once and nothing at all, it feels like it will never end. There’s a moment of panic, that it still isn't enough, that you still won't be able to cum.

“Let me help some more.” Shuichi says, sitting up and taking your left nipple in his mouth. Suckling gently as his fingers work your clit and his cock works your g-spot. The slow burn quickly shifts to a raging inferno, pleasure zipping down between your legs and you feel yourself finally reaching your peak.

“Ohmygodmgonnacum!” you cry, just before your shatter. It feels like an explosion, your leg muscles spasming and your cunt clenching down hard on Shuichi’s cock. He chokes on a moan, hips pumping a little faster as you tighten around him, “Want your cum, want it, want it in me--” Shuichi groans, grinding up as deep as he can get with each thrust and you feel it deep inside of you when he finishes, it’s weird, it feels cold comparatively. The heat of your cunt is cooled by it, like his cum was the cure all along. You gasp and kiss him, and he cradles your face as he lets himself enjoy the high of release with you, forgetting the circumstances of what just occurred, but only for a moment.

“Oh...oh fuck” You say, the sharpness of lucidity suddenly waking you from a stupor, “Oh god I-”

Shuichi buries his hands in the back of your hair and lowers your head to his chest, he laughs, “We’ll worry about it later. Try and get some rest, okay?”

He’s right. You really need some rest.

#shuichi saihara #shuichi x reader #shuichi saihara x reader #saihara x reader #danganronpa x reader #/request

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domjaehyun · 3 years ago

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head empty but full of haechan being a teasing shit, his behavior toward mc was so attractive ? the push and pull situation was so perfect.. I find this trope, if it's one, so.. hot and the scenes you imagined to illustrate this were just so.. u know.. you sucked me in the story right away lmao. the bickering between the 2 of them.. of God.. that was so entertaining and funny, haechan was not having any of yn rejecting him and he keeps trying to do morE AND OH BOÏ HIS CRAZY ASS!! THE MOMENT HE DID GO TO HER ROOM TO STEAL HER SEX TOYS ? BOY YOU'RE SO GONE AND CRAZY ?? for real lmao, I gasped really loud during that revelation like.. I couldn't believe he would do that but I loved that, we as reader, have no choice but to witness this turn of events 🤯 yn playing hard to get was so in phase with how I wished her to act (here a candy for you 🍭). I'm not going to talk about every scenes (bc i dont have a good memory *sigh*) so my comments are going to jump right and left between the two parts I'm sorry !! ♡ but know that I loved every lines you wrote and I just admire the way you processed to write all of it, it must have been difficult for you to think and write sometimes so thank you so much for keeping your efforts and not giving up ♡ anyway, the story was a inhaler of fresh air bc of all the things that happened and all the interaction with the side characters even tho our lovebirds channeled 3/4 of the story, I loved how distinct we could guess the personalities of the side characters (big up to your girl boss yena), speaking of her, we didn't really met her in the 1st part, but the way she played a big role in the 2nd ? specially toward the end when she helped yn realizing her feelings toward haechan and how she managed to confort her when yn was having (ridiculous) theories about him, it made my heart flutter of how a perfect friend she was ♡ speaking of ridiculous, girl you have an humour.. dang, it really played a huge role in this story, specially to soften some scenes and add fire to others 👀👄👀 and I loved it so so much! the duality of haechan fried my ass dude, you don't understand how it destroyed me, one moment he acts so dramatic then right after he's acting all sexy and sensual I can'T!!!!!!!!! when I look back at it, of when we started the story, I'm amazed. you know of what ? OF HOW SMOOTHLY THE RELATIONSHIP DEVELOPMENT BETWEEN HYUCK AND YN WAS?! like..???????? the process you managed to do in just 2 parts was mind-blowing? you tricked us, damn it 🧎🏻‍♀️ the sex scenes.. *sigh* listen jewel, you have ressources I get it, but fck, that was too hot for me to handle lmao, they fucked like rabbit (I mean, that's the purpose of a friend with benefits relationship lmao) but like.. oof, OOF, I'm gonna slide into an eternal sleep after this, I can't get over it. also, we known right at the start that haechan had a crush on our girl, and the way he was kinda (so) obvious and he took advantage of every physical touches and words of affection was.. cute ? he didn't really back off when yn was mean towards him and even when she made him jealous (jaemin, yanyang, jaehyun...), I truly loved this side of him !! also, the slow turning of yn's feelings toward haechan ????? LIKE??? she started hating him to becoming super soft and its so beautiful ?? she was so cute.. THEY were so cute, specially when their relationship turned into casual hangout and the last frat party scene.. when haechan came to kiss her and act as a big boy in front of jaehyun ? BOÏ YOURE SO OBVIOUS, GURL YOU'RE SO OBVIOUS, THEY'RE SUCH IDIOTS 😭 you had me hooked over them, I love them so much. period. nah I'm kidding, I have so much to say lmao, this ask is long im sorry 🤧 I think I will stop there for this ask ! you deserve so much praise and good things happening to you, I donated to your Kofi, even if it's not much but I'm happy to help you given the way you wrote all of this and how you made me feel ♡ stay sexy amd have a good day ♡

OKAY MY REPLIES ARE UNDER THE CUT AND THEYRE INDENTED HERE WE GO :D

i’m OBSESSED W THIS TROPE I REALLY AM SJFJDJDJJDDK i would like to think i’ve started to hone my skills in this trope but either way i LOOOOOVE push and pull and tension and stuff oh my goddddddd

the bickering between the 2 of them.. of God.. that was so entertaining and funny, haechan was not having any of yn rejecting him and he keeps trying to do morE AND OH BOÏ HIS CRAZY ASS!! THE MOMENT HE DID GO TO HER ROOM TO STEAL HER SEX TOYS ? BOY YOU'RE SO GONE AND CRAZY ?? for real lmao, I gasped really loud during that revelation like.. I couldn't believe he would do that but I loved that, we as reader, have no choice but to witness this turn of events 🤯

I LITERALLY WAS SO TENSE ABT THAT SCENE BC . i like my men a little crazy but not everyone does so i worried it’d be too far but ppl thought it was funny so!!!! a win for jewel!!!!!! and this was new to me like experimenting with different POVs so i’m rly glad that worked out :D

yn playing hard to get was so in phase with how I wished her to act (here a candy for you 🍭).

thank u i love candy mwahahaha and I LOVE HARD TO GET MCs y’all should know by now that i just adore build up and tension djfjdjjfjdd

I'm not going to talk about every scenes (bc i dont have a good memory *sigh*) so my comments are going to jump right and left between the two parts I'm sorry !! ♡

don’t apologize it’s totally fine!!!!! it’s 68.9k words i wouldn’t expect you to have an eidetic memory and recall everything :D

but know that I loved every lines you wrote and I just admire the way you processed to write all of it, it must have been difficult for you to think and write sometimes so thank you so much for keeping your efforts and not giving up ♡

oof there WERE some scenes i put off writing til the end but for the most part this fic was SO much fun to write but i’m also like craaaaaazy when it comes to writing and planning and organizing my fics so . there wasn’t much room to get bored djfjdjdjd

anyway, the story was a inhaler of fresh air bc of all the things that happened and all the interaction with the side characters even tho our lovebirds channeled 3/4 of the story, I loved how distinct we could guess the personalities of the side characters (big up to your girl boss yena), speaking of her, we didn't really met her in the 1st part, but the way she played a big role in the 2nd ? specially toward the end when she helped yn realizing her feelings toward haechan and how she managed to confort her when yn was having (ridiculous) theories about him, it made my heart flutter of how a perfect friend she was ♡

YENAAAAAA I LOVE YENA i sometimes worry that i’m like . making my side characters esp the female characters too flat? bc i love them and i want them to shine but they aren’t the Fore Front of the fic yknow? so i’m always panicking like This Doesn’t Pass The Bechdel Test……. but some rules are dumb and sometimes i can do what i want :D but yes i love yena she’s such a good friend i adore her 😭😭😭

speaking of ridiculous, girl you have an humour.. dang, it really played a huge role in this story, specially to soften some scenes and add fire to others 👀👄👀 and I loved it so so much!

EEEEE THANK YOU i love getting compliments on my sense of humor omg :D a lot of the times i’m writing and like. giggling at the stuff i’m putting in djfjdjjfdj

the duality of haechan fried my ass dude, you don't understand how it destroyed me, one moment he acts so dramatic then right after he's acting all sexy and sensual I can'T!!!!!!!!!

haechan sexy but also haechan sweet 💖 haechan has a lot of different sides and i love when fics get to explore that yknow? he’s not JUST a cocky cool dude and he’s not JUST a whiny cutie and he’s not JUST a serious hard worker and— you get it…… hdhdsjjd

when I look back at it, of when we started the story, I'm amazed. you know of what ? OF HOW SMOOTHLY THE RELATIONSHIP DEVELOPMENT BETWEEN HYUCK AND YN WAS?! like..???????? the process you managed to do in just 2 parts was mind-blowing?

IM RLY HAPPY YOU THINK SO if i’m being real i worried about not making the shift clear enough and i think that i was concerned abt the length which i rly gotta stop doing bc i’d rather have a long fully fledged fic than a slightly shorter not as perfect (to me) fic !! BUT YEAH IM RLY HAPPY YOU THINK SO :’)

you tricked us, damn it 🧎🏻‍♀️ the sex scenes.. *sigh* listen jewel, you have ressources I get it, but fck, that was too hot for me to handle lmao, they fucked like rabbit (I mean, that's the purpose of a friend with benefits relationship lmao) but like.. oof, OOF, I'm gonna slide into an eternal sleep after this, I can't get over it.

SHFJSJJFJDJDJD I DO SO MUCH RESEARCH SOMETIMES I GO CUCKOO but i just unleashed many of my fantasies abt haechan 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 sorry y’all

also, we known right at the start that haechan had a crush on our girl, and the way he was kinda (so) obvious and he took advantage of every physical touches and words of affection was.. cute ? he didn't really back off when yn was mean towards him and even when she made him jealous (jaemin, yanyang, jaehyun...), I truly loved this side of him !!

he’s a PERSISTENT GUY I BELIEVE THIS FIRMLY he’s OBVIOUS (deliberately) AND PERSISTENT !!!!! i’m glad you see the vision hehehe

also, the slow turning of yn's feelings toward haechan ????? LIKE??? she started hating him to becoming super soft and its so beautiful ?? she was so cute.. THEY were so cute, specially when their relationship turned into casual hangout and the last frat party scene.. when haechan came to kiss her and act as a big boy in front of jaehyun ? BOÏ YOURE SO OBVIOUS, GURL YOU'RE SO OBVIOUS, THEY'RE SUCH IDIOTS 😭 you had me hooked over them, I love them so much. period. nah I'm kidding, I have so much to say lmao, this ask is long im sorry 🤧 I think I will stop there for this ask !

you: *sends me one of the best asks i’ve ever received*

also you: this ask is long im sorry

DO NOT APOLOGIZE THIS BRINGS ME SO MUCH JOY I CANT EVEN EXPRESS IT 😭😭😭

you deserve so much praise and good things happening to you, I donated to your Kofi, even if it's not much but I'm happy to help you given the way you wrote all of this and how you made me feel ♡ stay sexy amd have a good day ♡

THANK YOU SO MUCH 😭😭😭 it really does mean a lot to me im so so thankful for the donation and the wonderful messages and the overall support 🥺🥺🥺 I LOVE YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY :D

#answered #byunfirstlady #I DID IT :D

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literaphobe · 4 years ago

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hi hi i want to get into corpse/dream/sykkuno and all those guys bc i think i would enjoy the content based on the snippets ive seen but theres so much content idk where to start!!! do u have a recommendation for where/how to start thank u <3

hi! i’d recommend w starting w their youtube channels :) amigops are famous for among us + prox among us, dream team is famous for manhunt + coded minecraft challenges videos :D i will list some videos i think u should watch according to each of these content creators!!

Sykkuno: (posts almost daily highlights from his streams)

I made Dream and CORPSE simp for me in among us

I protected Corpse as impostor in among us

The haunted storage! My greatest impostor play yet

that awkward moment when...

Valkyrae: (stream highlights too! here’s the prox chat among us era ones, some of these have really cool animations!)

BABUSHKA!

5000 IQ CONFUSING BIG BRAIN PLAYERS ft DREAM AND TOAST

BARK BARK WOOF BARK ARF ARF BARK

Proximity Voice Chat in Among Us is CHAOTIC!

Disguised Toast: (daily uploads, among us stream highlights, he also has dope animations in his videos)

the greatest Among Us IMPOSTOR game ever...

marinating congresswoman AOC in Among Us with 3800 IQ...

Disguised Toast’s 10,000 IQ Among Us special...

my 8200 IQ PROXIMITY CHAT strats cause pure CHAOS...

Corpse Husband: (posts rarely since he’s making music but his videos r p well put together imo)

How I Admitted I Was An Imposter And STILL Won Against The BEST Among Us Players...666 IQ Plays

CORPSE 666 IQ Best Among Us IMPOSTER Plays

Luring My Friends To Their Death in Proximity Chat Among Us | CORPSE 666IQ IMPOSTER PLAYS

Sykkuno And I GASLIGHT The Lobby And Create A GRAVEYARD

Dream: (before u ask. yes he is an IDIOT but also the fact that he chose to name the manhunt videos this way is incredibly funny to me. i distinctively remember clicking on his channel n being like wtf are these videos even about. why do they have SO MANY views. now i know. ok thats it ik im linking like 10 videos but they are mandatory n tbh i would link a few more but i’ll leave u w just the 3 & 4 hunters videos)

Minecraft Speedrunner VS 3 Hunters

Minecraft Speedrunner VS 3 Hunters REMATCH

Minecraft Speedrunner VS 3 Hunters FINALE

Minecraft Speedrunner VS 3 Hunters FINALE REMATCH

Minecraft Speedrunner VS 3 Hunters GRAND FINALE

Minecraft Speedrunner VS 4 Hunters

Minecraft Speedrunner VS 4 Hunters REMATCH

Minecraft Speedrunner VS 4 Hunters FINALE

Minecraft Speedrunner VS 4 Hunters FINALE REMATCH

Minecraft Speedrunner VS 4 Hunters GRAND FINALE

GeorgeNotFound: (the friend mentioned in all these videos r dream btw. dreams in... p much 95% of his videos. same goes for dream except id say george is in like 80% of dreams videos?)

Minecraft, But I’m Not Colorblind Anymore...

Minecraft, But My Friend Is A Dog...

Minecraft, But If You Laugh, You Lose...

Minecraft, But If You Laugh You Lose REMATCH

Minecraft, But I Put A T Shirt On Every Minute...

Minecraft, But My Friend Is A Parrot...

Minecraft, But Item Drops Are Random And Multiplied

Minecraft Death Swap 3... (parts 1 n 2 are on dream’s channel)

Minecraft, But You Can’t Touch The Floor...

Sapnap: (HE HAS LIKE TEN VIDEOS OK I CAN’T REC AS MANY love him tho uwu)

Minecraft, But We Are All Colorblind...

Minecraft, But Every Mob Looks Like A Pig...

Minecraft Achievement Race...

Minecraft, But We Can’t See Our Health...

TommyInnit: (ok he’s not in the dream team but i really wanna shoutout his videos w dream’s sister. they’re really funny also i like how his videos have color coded subtitles for accessibility :) v good for people w audio processing issues!!)

I Spoke To Dream’s Sister

I Spoke To Dream’s Sister AGAIN

I Spoke To Dream’s Sister IN SECRET

I met Wilbur Soot in real life...

and that’s it :) feel free to ask me if u want any explanations on why u should watch a certain video or explanations of whatever or if u liked something u saw or if u wanna talk to me about anything re!! these friend groups!!

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jaehwany · 3 years ago

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gifmaker appreciation tag

rules: answer the first half of the questions with gifsets of your own, then answer the second half by tagging gifmakers you love!

tagged by: @cuddlybitch @baek1nho @belsmultifandommess @gongmyung @koreandragon @surii @thingskateknows @liveasbutterflies @baijingting thank u all so much for tagging me!! always love a chance to celebrate gifmakers on here 💖💖💖

LINK A GIFSET…

Link a gifset you’re really proud of:

blending is something i always try to do and then give up halfway into the first gif so i’m proud of myself for giving it another go for this vincenzo set. helps that it’s a really dark scene so i could hide all the flaws XD baby steps! also i just think the parallel with the hug and bloody hands and the villain quote is genius ok.. my mind 😌

Link a gifset where you tried something new:

i tried to play around with colourful gradients for this vincenzo set and i’m pretty happy with how it turned out

Link a gifset that features your favorite character or celebrity:

he’s just a baby 🥺️

Link a gifset that you want more people to see:

maybe this atots one?

Link a gifset that you had fun making:

i always enjoy making comp sets but then it gets to the part where i have to match the colouring across the gifs and then i start questioning everything.. this move to heaven one was pretty fun tho! their sibling energy <3

Link a gifset that you created as part of a meme, challenge, or series:

i put quite a lot of thought into this one for the ‘characters i see myself in’ challenge

Link a gifset of yours that makes you smile:

too many bc i usually like giffing the cute/comedic moments the most! i’ll pick this atots one!! i mean just look at them 🥺️

Link a gifset that you made for someone else:

i made this into the ring set and this do you like brahms set as part of last year’s kdrama secret santa exchange 🎅💝

TAG SOMEONE WHO…

Tag someone who inspired you to start making gifs:

i’ve been on this hellsite for more than a decade so it’s hard to remember why i started making gifs or who inspired me. i took a break for awhile but it was 2gether and the lovely fandom on here that got me to start giffing again at the beginning of quarantine last year :D

Tag someone who makes great vibrant gifs:

@cuddlybitch @mercurialhigh @metawin @alienwlw do absolute MAGIC with their colours and i’m always in awe!!!! @gimme-a-chocolate also makes such great vibrant gifs 😍

Tag someone who makes great pale/pastel gifs:

i’m not sure if it counts as pale but @ramsking has a very soft distinct colouring that is gorgeous <3

Tag someone who gifs for a fandom you love:

@becomeundone for run on, vincenzo and cherry magic 🥰️🥰️🥰️ not forgetting @yesdramas for general kdrama fandom and @earthmixs for general thai fandom (and now kdramas too hehe)

Tag someone who uses text/typography really well in their gifsets:

definitely @baijingting and her devastating quotesets 💔 and i love how @deokmis is always experimenting with different fonts and styles! also in general the s&b and jatp fandom on here are sooo impressive

Tag someone who motivates you to step up your game:

@mostlyfate and @gominshi for sure!! always incredibly stunning and creative gifs✨

Tag someone who you have taken inspiration from:

i get my inspiration from all the wonderful people i follow so it’s hard to just pick one. but recently i’ve been going into the sabedit and litedit tags to admire everyone’s works and find inspiration to improve my sets

Tag gif makers who you admire and appreciate! (Put as many people here as you want!):

some have already been tagged before but i wanted to show my 💗 anyway! @moonlightsdream @baek1nho @uppoompat @liveasbutterflies @surii @ipytm @florenzim @dramaism @haeyeongs @gangtaes @kojiseok @oh-aew @ficklefackle @winar @thingskateknows @gongmyung @minhyowon + the ones i already mentioned above!

#tagged #i know this is a gifmaker appreciation #but also wanted to give a shoutout to my other moots #for their memes and text posts and wonderful translations as well #they all keep the fandom going 💞

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icecreamkink · 4 years ago

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watched all of the untamed / cql in two weeks after my friend 1 told me abt mdzs a hundred years ago and my friends 2 and 3 tried to get me into cql for like two whole years and there are.

feelings.

very first scene is a very dramatic death in the middle of nightmare battle on sith planet land . i will forget abt it in the next tenish episodes and then will be very surprised when it becomes Extremely Painful

anyway magic flying gays and possession and human sacrifice! we are off to a great start

in retrospect, chaos goblin wei wuxian must have had a blast pretending to be so cRaZy and be as disruptive as he could as mo xuanyu lbr

listen. why is fire always evil coded. cant a magic clan wear red, black and orange and have flame motif while being wholesome?

For Legal Reasons These Are Not Zombies

i wish the politics of the sect were a bit clearer, especially at the beggining when the wen clan had sm power, was wen ruohan the chief cultivator? is that why they were so slow in responding to the attacks? im v confused by the pre yiling patriarch politics

fighting in the roof by the moonlight as way of flirtiiiiiiing. as i understand this is a wuxia/xianxia trope and honestly...... thank u for ur service

slight bullying and being a nuisance in general, as a way of flirting we love to see it

wwx: if i drink on the rooftop, thats not inside the cloud recesses! hmmm check and mate :D lwj: i will fuck u up so help me god wwx: :0

i lov them

through hell or high water (quite literally) wei wuxian rem ains a trashfire gremlin till the end and i love him with my whole heart

in the pt subs wei wuxian calls jiang cheng a stubborn duck and i dearly wish that had come back

my opinions on almost every character goes from love to hate u - Hmm Me Like U - BABY. ILY. and i am Very Pleased w that. its been a while since i loved such a complete cast so much i think

no really. i WONT go into a detailed rant abt what i love about each of these characters and each of their relationships to each other. but i COULD.

some lan disciples in the loudest whisper ever: YEAH THATS THE JIN BASTARD MENG YAO HEARD THE GOT SUPER HUMILIATED BY HIS DAD LOL SURE HOPE HE DOESNT TAKE SLIGHTS TO HIS CHARACTER TO HEART

lan xichen, immediately: i must Love him

being into problematic ppl is in the Lan genetics, we come to realize

wen qing deserves so many awards for so many things but not snapping and just stabbing wen chao is at the top

that scene at lan qirens class where wwx talks about using resentful energy to fight a violent spirit. exquisite.

It establishes Good Student lan wangji, wei wuxian as curious and questioning and not afraid of taboo, lwj sees that wwx is not, in fact, a dumb ass hes just a Dumbass, shows us the audience (esp. a western audience) how shocking the idea of disrupting the dead/dying and controlling resentful energy actually is, the theoretical foreshadow arguing, everyone else like ‘shUT UP’, “and how could you ensure that the resentful energy would obey you and not hurt other?” “well i havent thought that far” and of course, lan qiren just straight up lobbing a hard object at wwx head,. chefs kiss

fellas is it gay to bother the hot rule obessessed nerd from ur school and make drawings of him with flowers in his hair and then hide gay porn in his book to antagonize him and ask him to hold ur hand and be ur friend and talk to him all the time and get him drunk and give him bunnies bc you know he likes them and give him a lantern and always want his attention and dedicate yourself to getting him to smile-

and after all of that wwx rly said oh i Admire him, aksd like yeah we all were there in high school buddy

i have Learned. caves = gay.

accidental marriage +beint physically tied together with the sacred married ribbon+ gay panic+foreshadowing+bunnies! in the cave (1)

the story abt lan yi and baoshan sanren tho. i would like to see it

early days wen bros pull my heart strings like a guqin

EVERYTHING about the lantern scene; disaster hets jiang yanli and jin zixuan; how wwx made lwj a bunny lantern. how soft and touched lwj was. wwx gleefully pointing out he was smiling and lwj IMMEDIATELY PULLING HIW SWORD ON HIM LMAO. tragically foreshadowy promises to do right by pepople, living without regrets. lwjs 'oh no do i love him??' face. just. all of it.

i have it on good acc that in the novel lwj is explicitly Repressed Gay Panicked Big Horny which is delightful and rly Adds to the performance

baby lwj is really just conceal dont feel dont let them know u have EMOTIONS (derogatory)

jiang cheng rly went "why dont.u go play with HIM if u like him so much"

jc and wwx have big BIG annoying sibling energy dont think too hard abt it or youll cry

lotus pier is soo pretty :((((((((((((((((

up until episode 13 you could think this could be a magical ancient chinese gays pride n prejudice w swords and shenanigans ................youre just not prepared for the game of thrones of it all

seriously ha ha ha i cried so much w this show my eyes genuinely swelled up . like. physically. fun timez fun timez

that being said, its hilarious that wen xu goes to cloud recesses like 'come out or ill kill all these hostages' and then DOESNT WAIT FOR AN ASWER AND KILLS THEM ALL IMMEDIATELY. do u know how blackmail works sir

would like to make it recorded that from day one i was like 'CALL A GODDAMN CULTIVATION G20 THIS ASSHOLE SECT IS LITERALLY MASSACRING YALL!!' and it took them like 3 or 4 massacres to do anything and they STILL sent their heirs into their territory LIKE

when wwx cites the gusu lan rules to wen chao tho. that rebel/attention whore/cutie pie 'look lan zhan i DID memorize the rules after all' ‘also a big fuck you to the wen sect :D :D’ sweet spot that scene achieves . delicious

all the cultivator young masters being petty af even though they are practically prisoners at the cave is hilarious and i love them

hurt and comfort + gay mistunderstandings + watsonian gay declaration music + accidental evil acquisition! at the cave (2)

its like where do i start? the fact theyre both trapped and kind of heavily injured inside an isolated cave with a murder turtle? wwx gay panicking lwj into coughing up bad blood? lwj being jealous as wwx babbles abt mianmian? telling him he shouldnt play with people and wwx saying he never played him? wwx going Oh. I See what is happening. YOU like mianmian, and lwj absolute done face ??? (iconic) wwx touching the sacred married ribbon Again? the telepathic communication? the sword? WEI WUXIAN ASKING LAN WANGJI TO SING TO HIM AS HE IS PASSING OUT AND LWJ SINGING HIM. THE SONG. HE WROTE. FOR WWX. AND THAT HE CALLED. THEIR SHIP NAME????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

they are SO insufferable pleeeeease

in the words of my friend 1 : “CQL is so gay we were all amazed how it got past the censors Ofc unfortunately it can't be novel level gay But they did their best And we love them for it”

in the theme of songs THIS OST. WUJI HAS BEEN LIVING IN MY MIND RENT FREE SINCE I FIRST HEARD IT the whole ost is so so sO beautiful.

the costuming in this is also soooo exquisite. the embroidery? the fabrics? the details? how every sect and clan has a distinct style and architecture? (also ik they based each off of dif periods in chinese history which is REALLY fucking cool) just chefs kiss

the direction too!. i enjoy the unusual camera movements and i think they give it that Vibe, also their composition is PARTICULARLY good when it comes to telling the subtext through position of camera/position of character (like nhs off to the side in scenes he at first glance doesnt need to be/ how lwj is often centered when hes Jealous Yearning at wwx being affectionate w other ppl, wwx return from burial mounds etc)

ik madam yu is like Badass Milf Check and shes not getting any mom of the year awards but im delighted at how messy she is. IMAGINE that woman on tiktok

you better have enjoyed gay cave (2) bc its Just Pain from here on out!

jiang fengmian and madame yu win the Most Dramatic Way to show they do care about each other, actually ..... ever :)

i thought jiang yanli jiang cheng and wei wuxian forcing themselves to escape yunmeng barely holding on after their parents are killed was going to be the height of pain in this show. ha.

the family dynamics in general on this showwwww, both blood/ adopted/ found families, brotherly bonds and lifelong friendships just. rly. truly. fucked me up. theyre all so important and complicated and well rounded and beautiful and tragic

and beyond being a Win For the Gays im so glad the relationships w wwx and jiang yanli/ wen qing were NOT changed from platonic bc they are so much better like that imo. like maybe if we didnt Live In A Society it wouldnt be so, but the fact wwx and others can love and value them so much and theres nothing romantic or sexual abt it is like. so refreshing. especially @ jyl, with the way he and jc are overprotective of her and shes such a nurturing/care taker figure for them, it would just not vibe as well if they made it romantic

i love that this is a story abt Wei Wuxian, the Yiling Patriarch aka Actual Satan/Boogey Man/Village With/Public Enemy Number One , my dude is literally a necromancer who only dresses in black and has evil smokey black tendrils wafting out of him, but the really edgy one is still jiang cheng, pastel purple fashion icon

and speaking of best/worst siblings wei wuxian and jiang cheng *immediately starts crying*

The Golden Core Transfer i just. no thots only tears

wen qing and wen ning putting themselves in so much danger just.... to help them. wn saving jc from wen chao. wq finding a way to get wwx to transfer his core. like thinking about the monumental work these two did to help wwx and jyl and jc... jyl trying so fucking hard to be strong and keep on moving and giver her little brothers comfort after losing everything... jiang cheng. losing his parents and his home and his ability to do anything abt it and his complete desperation and lack of self worth and turning on them with agression when he didnt realize all that they did for him ... hhhhhhhhhhhhh

me, pointing at the whole cast “i just LOVE them mom!!!”

its sad tho, that BARELY ANY of the women have like.... actual important conversations let alone relationships with each other at all in the story. and like wq and jyl have stayed at the same place for extended periods of time, where wq actively took care of her TWICE, and still! not one measly convo, nothing! ................ .𝓌ₕᵧ

everyone in this show need a good sip of Self Worth and Stop Sacrificing Yourself juice

ngl the sword flying looks very dumb

“a-cheng, please bring a-xian back.” “i will, i promise.” ;-;

the whole calling each other by the More Intimate Version of the name, first as teasing and later as true intimacy. mmmhmmm yes

untamed where everythings the same but wwx evil flute song is eoeo

related that scene when wwx comes back from the burial mounds for the first time w demonic cultivation and he acts all formal and calls lwj hanguang-jun and keeps being evasive and distant and mean and soooooo................. facetious

and how hes kind of desperately trying to keep intense lwj at bay (A FIRST) and avoiding actually talking to either of them and its all tension ughhh and then he MOCKS his and lwjs relationship, he jokes w him in this like... mean echo of their usual ~banter~ oof

and like!!! uncertain but so relieved jc who just HUGS him w no reservations for once and its not like he isnt just as worried as lwj abt wwx and what hes doing, but he chooses in that moment to enjoy getting him back first and mmhmMMMmMm yes (maybe my favorite scene in the whole show? MAYBE SO. )

highkey hurt me but also. i might be into mean wwx. i will take no criticism.

lan zhans sad eyes tho :(((((((((

on one hand i wish we could have seen what happened at the burial mounds but on the other the timeskip adds so much flair to his return so im hnnn

also i love that hes been missing for 3 months reappears kinda melancholic and bloodthirsty and knowing malign tricks and jc is like 'so. are u sad bc of lan wangji'

when ur bae survived the war but he thinks ur evil/ might be evil so you cant kiss :///

hmmm talking at the rooftop under the moonlight not mentioning everything that stands between usssss

they are the two jades of lan and we’ll be the two heroes of yunmeng is the type of line u dont even need to know whats gonna happen to know thats gonna be sad

when they fight wen ruoshan at the nightless city i thought that was the battle we see at the first ep and its not and its so easy and theyre all like ‘yayy we won go wwx!’ i was just. SCREAMS WHAT is gonna HAPPEN

so like. post burial mounds/sunshot campaign pre yiling patriarch wwx is like. ultra arrogant, ultra mocking, peak lil shit and it gave me e v e r y t h i n g i wanted

even tho having the wen prisoners at the targets at phoenix mountain and still having wwx and jzx shooting the arrows was???? so.... tone deaf

wwx: fucking w demonic energy jyl: he has never done anything wrong in his life, ever <3 <3 (mood)

the parallels between meng yao/wei wuxian (and even xue yang a bit?) are Seen and they are Valid

wwx post burial mounds: can yall SHUT UP abt the goddamn sword (suibian left the chat)

LIKE truly, we talk abt the angst and yearning with wangxian. but what abt wwx and suibian. xianbian / xianqing angst and comfort 100k

take a shot everytime someone coughs up blood

zidian is simply the coolest spiritual weapon rip to suibian and chenqing and bichen and sendou and baixa........ but tis the truth

cons: everyones families died in a nightmare war! everyones homes burned to the ground! everyone is traumatized! pros: everyone gets cooler clothes and weapons!!

wen ning and a-yuan and yanli bestest babes squad dont touch me rn

everyone: brooding and fighting wq and jyl: why dont you try some acupunture/drinking some soup and calm down huh? how abt that bitch??

showing the battle/massacre at the nightless city first was genius actually bc then everytime we have a cute scene w yunmeng bros and theyre like 'we'll be together forever! uwu' youre like oh. oh no. oh no no no.

justice vs lawfulness vs means and ends 👁

jc: stay in the right path and practice the art of the sword wx: yeah thats not gonna happen chief

my reaction to wwx renouncing to the sect politics to help the wens was just that elmo burning gif in succession

the dramatic rain. wen qing desperately calling out to wen ning. the ghosts/puppets killing the guards. how terrifying wn actually was while wwx was controlling him :( lwj goeing after him to try and stop him and then he just; he Sees him and understands him even if he cant actually do anything about it other than let them go.

“there must be somewhere in this earth we can go to :(((((((((”

"IF I HAVE TO FIGHT THEM, I'D RATHER IT BE YOU. DYING BY YOUR HANDS WOULD AT LEAST BE WORTH IT." oh my god oh my god oh my goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooddddddd

also lwjs umbrella is white w black smoke.. . . nice

yiling patriarch / demonic farming burial mounds settlement is like one of my favorite concepts. they an "EVIL" FARMING COMMUNITY LED BY THE VILLAGE WITCH COME ON

they planted TURNIPS and LOTUS FLOWERS and ONE (1) baby and made lanterns and a common hall :(((((((

wen qing and wei wuxian, baddest bitches and genius science best friends i absolutely LOVED to see it. they rly went ‘is anyone gonna sibling/project partner that’ and didnt wait for an answer

both wwx and jyl getting lotus ponds at the burial mounds and in lanling bc they miss lotus pier ;;;;;;;w

;;;;; wish jyl had actually gone into the burial mounds. we were robbed of jyl and wq meeting again and jyl meeting a-yuan and seeing the settlement and the homes and all ;w; at least jc did go, stab wounds and broken arms and all

wwx like... having thrown his whole life away to help the wens (yeah the sect leaders and jin guangshan in particular wanting his stygian tiger amulet was an Element but still) and not.... necessarily regretting it, but grappling with all of the consequences of it... becoming moody and drepressed at times, missing his family and lotus pier and his friends and probably simply missing being around people and causing trouble, extrovert that he is, lashing out at the wens and at a-yuan, just in general the whole messiness of that experience

the way the resentful energy does affect his temperament is rly nice bc its not too in your face,(i mean outside of the Shaky Hands of Rage) but like he clearly has a much lesser control on his anger and impulsivity (tall order) than both before bm and after hes ressurected

on that note A-YUAN BABIEST BABY BOY BEST BOY

lan zhan being like oh hey there wei ying fancy meeting u and our son here. just passing by u know how it is hmmmmMm and then PLOT TWIST having defied orders to go see him and being punished for it. oof;;

they habent seen each other in like? a year? and now theyre tgt 10 seconds and are already parenting a child together

also lwj rly kneels down in the snow way too much to be healthy

wwx: calm down guyssss i wont lose control of demonic cultivation omgggg . spoiler alert: he loses control of demonic cultivation

did u enjoy cute children? good bc now the Real Pain Begins

jiang yanli and jin zixuan rly out there APROPRIATING both disaster gays AND bury ur gays huh ;w;

i KNEW jin lings birthday was gonna fuck something up but the GASP that left my body when wwx lost control of wn and killed jin zixuan .. . .

im sorry and thank you aaaaAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaAAAAaAAAAA

when wen ning and wen qing were telling wwx their plan i was saying NO NO NO NO NO NO out loud in despair

also can we talk abt how wq is definetely talking about only the both of them surrending themselves but then? everyone else just surrenders w them? IT MAKES NO SENSE LIKE WHY WOULD THEY what would be the Point

sometimes there are some pretty gaping jumps in logic and continuity that are just like ? ?

wwx: oh so when you try to murder me its justified but when i survive through dark magic and murder all of you its a "war crime"

unsurprisingly, his most feral, most spiraling moment talking to the sect leaders on the roof and attacking them and even fighting lan zhan is among my favorite scenes... its like, so painful to watch but also so thrilling�� (and maybe my wen bbs dying arose some resentful energy in me what can i say)

and its JUST, all they ever wanted was to do good but then... war. and trauma. and hubris.

jiang cheng on the ground clearly thorn between what to do and feel is a Mood, lets just say

i was already crying when jyl showed up, but if i wasnt-

i suffered SO MUCH through this series trying to figure out WHY jc would kill wwx. and when i understood. its somehow not as bad as i thought and also MUCH MUCH WORSE

a look into my group chat during the last flashback episodes:

SO ANYWAY. after the BLOOD BATH and RIPPING YOUR HEART OUT and FEEDING IT TO YOU the untamed goes ‘ayy back to the present!! tu du dud ud du’

literally it ends a quarter into an episode and then KEEPS GOING i had to pause and stare blankly at the ceiling for an hour

babie cultivators and detective soulmates . i do need some cute after All of That

(not that the pain is over LOL)

lwj is significantly less emotionally repressed in the present and its delightful. hes just ALL IN with wwx. and not just in the ‘i would and have killed various men and risked my reputation for you’ but also ‘ur tired here have a drink i brought it up cause i know u like it and it want you to be happy, always’

“when everyone praised me and wanted my power, you were the only one that challenged me. now that everyone hates me and wants me dead, youre the only one that stands by my side.” hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

and just filling in the blanks how lan zhan searched for him. for all of those 16 years he searched for him and was punished for it and raised a-yuan, the only survivor of the burial mounds settlement, as his own in gusu......

and jiang cheng. being the tough love uncle . having raised the yunmeng jiang clan from the rubble all alone, his whole family dead, some of it on the blame of his own brother, his siblings, his closest friends gone.......and only jin ling there needing his guidance.

THE PARALLEL BETWEEN JIN LING BEING A LIFELINE FOR JIANG CHENG AND A-YUAN FOR LAN WANGJI AFTER THE BATTLE AT THE NIGHTLESS CITY

great now i made myself sad

and like . the fact! that lwj and jc dislike each other!!. jc projects blame onto him for wwx both “leaving” him and indirectly causing their families deaths and when hes so consumed by it he makes wwx an enemy, lwj is there now? trying to protect him?? and lwj, who can never understand the pain that wwx , indirectly or not put jc through, but who was right there when jc tried to kill him and will never allow him to hurt wwx again. and how they like. in a way project blame of their tragedies onto each other while dealing with some type of survivor guilt and in their own way still loving wwx through it all??? amd in way its kind of fundamentally selfish but also tragically understandable? and like when u put it against the fact that after he disappears during the sunshot campaign they were looking for him together and fought together??

JUST. THE CHARACTERS. AND THE RELATIONSHIPS IN THIS. MAN. UGH. GOD.

and like i think thats what makes it so good? its such a sad and painful and violent story, edgy even, but its compelling bc at the center of it there are all of these relationships and different types of love and hope and. :( i love it

enough crying lets talk abt wwx sleeping at the jingshi with lwj and wearing his under garment for a minute 🙏

jin ling just has that Was Raised by JC energy tho lmao i love him

babie cultivator squad is the perfect ammount of cute and comedic relief while still bearing the weight? of the narrative in a way, both from sizhui and jin lings existences, and also. like. how do i put this. they feel hopeful? they were born after a war, they came of age at a time of relative peace, they dont hold on so closely to the resentments of their parents/father figures, they are specifically shown as more accepting and open minded. and its like.... Hope for the future

one of the ?? things i love the most is the fact that the main cast are often in situations where theyre hunted/running but they like. never wear disguises... just going around in their gorgeous expensive clan clothes and hair ornaments and distinctive spiritual weapons.... maybe w a straw hat on, just for kicks

wwx teacher 🥺🥺🥺

so this is why its called Yi City Misery huh

a-qing is such. an icon. im so sad. my girl even knew to leave xys dumb self rotting by the road but no one listens to her thats why theyre all dead or sad

her and xue yang measuring each other up was so entertaining lmao

its the funniest thing when hes like. HERES MY SAD STORY. FOR WHY IM A SADISTIC MURDERER. I BROKE MY HAND ONCE.

like ok someone broke his hand in a horrible way, and like Poverty, i get it but also like.......... that lost the brunt of a proper sob story like, 50 sadistic murders ago bby

and i love that xingchen does not entertain that for a second hes like ‘not ?????? good enough???’ and the best thing is he wasnt even like 'u hadto be the bigger person' or sth but ' well then break that dudes hand back, rip his arm off for i care, what do the rest of us have to do w anything???”

anjo sensato :(

xue yang is like..... the sexy sadistic evil version of a himbo..... a meanbo...

the fucked upness of xy’s feelings for xxc/ xxc and sl feelings for each other... like my dude literally gave his bf HIS EYES. and xy getting so attached to xxc .... the fucked up fake domesticity.... having him hurt sl..... then desperately trying to bring him back ...................... oof

song lan........... literally had his eyes AND tongue removed, his bfs eyes put in place, was almost killed, turned into a puppet by his bf unknowingly, manipulated by xy, sees his bf killing himself in despair.... and STILL finds the strenght to get up from there, and keep on traveling and helping people and attempting to fix xxcs soul.......... like, my man. damn.

wangxian looking at songxiao and seeing an Actually more painful parallel for themselves. ft. that Color Coding.

THE A-YUAN/SIZHUI REVEAL PUNCHED ME IN THE HEART but in a good way for a change

should have know that he would be the Best Boy the cute one w all the braincells

the butterfly AND the bunny lantern. i see how it is

u know is very convenient that no one can see the stark black veins on wen nings neck, ever

BAT WEN NING

wns face when lwj comes into wwx room like ‘:0 omg did u two finally get your shit together? good for you master wei good for u’

(they didnt) (yet)

DISASTER DRUNK LWJ. JUST. THRUST SOME CHICKENS TO SHOW UR RESSURECTED BAE THAT U LOVE THEM.

i have absolutely no idea WHY they gave lwj the same punishment for fighting his own sect/allies to protect the burial mounds as when they got drunk on cloud recess class days.... like? its such a ... emotional continuity error again

also is lwj gonna get an actual friend besides wwx , ever

mianmian marrying and having a family and a cute life after saying FUCK U AND UR SYSTEM TOO in a much less unhinged and dramatic way than wwx......... fills me w joy

also lol the idea that like. her husband not knowing that shes friends w satan/the boogey man/the village witch is hilarious

i love nie mingjue bc hes the resident Though Guy but also the most dramatic bitch in this show and thats Saying Something

jin ling cant have one uneventful relative can he

the fact that everyone present already knew “mo xuanyu” was wwx at the stairs is so funny, their faces are like ‘oh............ wow. that. sure is a development. shock”

in the tradition of extremely loud whispers wwx tells lwj with twelve guards standing like one meter away from them: HEY PSH LAN ZHAN PRETEND IM FORCING YOU TO STAY W ME DO IT

oh my god oh my god

the absolute Yearning on his face when he leaves wwx and a-yuan at the burial mounds and refuses to stay for dinner was already Enough but the fact?? they brought it back?? to this declaration of love?? their expressions??????? strike me dead right now just go ahead

lFor Legal Reasons We Cant Kiss but we will have a very sappy declaration of love and trust and look at each other in way that is the actualization of 💞💘💗💖💓💘💞💗💖💘💗💖💕💞

also icb all the sect leaders and guards are standing there watching them say they like like each other with a dozen swords pointing at their neck

i enjoyed the depiction of the fickle public perception and how easily it can be used to scapegoat people. when the sect leaders turn on jgy and wwx knows thats its more for convenience than anything else...

poor lxc is literally like 'oh so when YOUR problematic boyfriend gets called evil its a misunderstanding but when its MY problematic bf-'

ok like i cant get over nmj let jgy play a song that messed with his temperament at all, like maN u KNEW he might be shady wth

wwx: “hey dont say anything bad abt lan zhan hes not an arrogant dick, thats just his face.

ME ON THE OTHER HAND"

the cultivators as wwx is poking holes in their narrative is literally *nazaré meme*

"wei wuxian-!" "what did i break your leg, too?" not to be problematic but i laughed so hard

not as hard as "you dont have the rank to talk to me " tho

i Enjoy that, over the course of story, wwx sees that... theres nothing truly to Do, but move on. he saw how his arrogance and his mistakes hurt others, and hes trying to fix what he can, but he already did die for his mistakes and there are things he cant fix and that's. just how it is. even towards jgy, the narrative doesn't go gleefully and completely with "lets make THEM pay bc theyre the big bad" bc its not that simple, and it wouldn't lead anywhere but more pain...

re him and jiang cheng and the wens and kinda. isnt that what nhs did? scheming to displace jgy out of revenge more than any justice and doing so in the most painful way?

idk if that actually makes sense im truly just babbling

i thought the scene at the lotus pond would be CUTE but the context was PAIN again

jiang cheng finding out about his golden core and his conflict with wwx at the guanyin temple .... destroyed me but in a nice way kinda.... same way it destroys him look at his face oh god

and. the fact??? he sacrificed himself for wwx?? first?? and he'll probably never tell anyone much less wwx???? keeps me up at night

i havent decided if the neckbreak transition between jgy does sth super Evil or does he he does OR Does He yes he does O R does heeeee is sth i dislike or not

jin guangyao and wei wuxians most interesting parallel is that... theyve both seen 'hmm hey this system is fucked up' and wwx went 'so fuck it all i will renounce it and challenge it' and jgy went 'so fuck it i will use all of it to my advantage and manipulate it to my goals and whims'

the fact jgys mom was actually great and he loved her and his whole issue w it was more than simply being ashamed of being a bastard kinda got me ngl

never trust a dude with a fan.

nhs and jgy: the first rule to a convoluted and decades spanning violent revenge plot is to have fun and be yourself!

when a-yuan finally FINALLY remembers ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;-;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; wen ning has someone in his family back and a-yuan has someone to talk abt his wen family and wwx has him back bc he survived and lwj raised him anD HES THEIR SON. THEYRE MARRIED AND HAVE A SON. UGH.

and theyre allowed to heal. everyone is allowed to try and recover and be happy

netflix put all of the 3 endings on top of each other and it looks kinda weird actually BUT I DONT EVEN MIND :’’’’’’’’’)

the gasp that left me when lwj says ‘wei ying’ and wwx turns.........

there was also a screen with ‘thank you mxtx for creating these characters, we hope their wishes come true’ and i might. have cried then too. maybe.

that was . a ride. as is proven by this behemot of a ramble clearly i just really needed and Outlet. i am currently trying to convince dumb monkey brain to not consume the other medias of mdzs immediately bc i REALLY need to like. live. a life. and take care of real responsibilities. *longest oh boi ever*

#m.#ANYWAY #ENOUGH TALKING #THIS IS SO LONG #LOL #but whatever this is MY performative journaling i do what i want #rambling impressions abt what i watch is a thing i do now? apparently??#cql #untamed #the untamed #fun fact that chat is named 'k keeps on babbling abt the untamed' and it STILL wasnt enough #also it took me 15 episodes to realize lwj was yibo #IT WAS V SHOCKING #i did not recognize him at a l l #but in retrospect he WAS the perfect choice

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dracoladon · 4 years ago

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Top 5 of 2020

Rules: It’s time to love yourselves! Choose your 5 (ish) favourite works you created in the past year (fics, art, edits, etc.) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you brought into the world in 2020. Tag as many writers/artists/etc. as you want (fan or original) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome works!

thank u to my lovely @tackytigerfic, @sitp-recs, @bonesliketambourines and @lazywonderlvnd for the tags. i’ve only written three fics this year, so even though this list is abt self love, i’m gna dedicate the last two spots to my two favourite fics i’ve read this year (that were published this year as well😔) cause i love myself for having such talented mutuals :/

1. Born Slippy: God I fucking loved writing Born Slippy. I’m a hoe for a good club fic. The aesthetics of crowded dance floor, loud music, body glitter etc are exquisite and I think (hope) I managed to capture even a little of that in this fic. It’s probably my favourite out of the very few I’ve written, cause I think it’s the one that best encapsulates my writing style and everything I love about Darry and fanfic. There were some banter moments I was really proud of, and the smut was like the embodiment of wanting to read smth with your all your favourite kinks so literally just writing it yourself. I said self indulgence!

2. Lucid: This was the first fic I wrote for Drarry, and for that reason it’s a bit special to me. It was a lot of fun to write and it really helped me figure out what I love writing (dialogue) and what I don’t (the prose in between). I think it had the kind of slice of life feel I was going for. a look in on a relationship that’s already been put through it’s paces and is now purely abt being together. I had an absolute blast with sex dumb Draco and finding a bunch of constellation bullshit for him to spin. I wasn’t expecting the response I got to this fic, either, so overall it just has very warm, lovely memories for me.

oh god and this was also the first fic of mine to get a rec from the absolute goddess that is @sitp-recs. good times indeed 😔

3. Little Spaces: !!! This fic has just been like ridiculously enjoyable to write. Hitting walls is kind of inevitable and doing this w anna was such an amazing way to work through the writer’s block I was having with my other stuff. I’d never written Draco before this, so it’s been super fun further exploring his voice, and I’m very very proud of what we’ve been able to produce together.

4. Inside Your Mind by @lazywonderlvnd

I think I’ve raved about this fic more than once on here before, as well as extensively in the comments on ao3, but seriously. It is.... 🤔 a masterclass in melancholic softness and drarry d/s dynamics. I saw a post not too long ago (which I already sent to anna but she can just deal w it 😡) that said all this stuff abt book harry. how he was passionate and sarcastic and witty and charismatic, and he could be intimidating when he was angry and had this wild intensity. he could be arrogant and humble and kind of an ass but he’s still our precious harry and he’ll be chill and laugh around w u and probably save ur life. i thought it perfectly encapsulated harry as he’s written in the books, and also harry in this fic. anna has an insane ability to write characters just as they are in canon, but also w her own distinct style. it kind of makes me want to cry. IYM’s Harry was charming and gorgeous and imperfect and an idiot, and I loved him. Not to mention Draco 😔. Every scene between the two of them felt so delicate and intricately woven, the smut was beautiful and raw, and the love confession was perhaps my favourite ever. I will forever be in awe of this genius’ talent (there were so many brilliant lines in this fic that I refuse to go hunting for them lest I be tempting into spending the whole day rereading it) and IYM is the absolute pinnacle of that. PLUS goyle, who is tragically underrepresented in fic, soft kissing, sitting by the lake, a stunningly written friendship between the golden trio, and an entire world in thirty thousand words :/ read it and weep :/

5. Modern Love by @tackytigerfic

There are much more eloquent reviews that do this stunning fic the justice it deserves (cough cough sitp) so i shan’t try and compete. I will however say that Modern Love is a magnum opus (tho knowing tacky, and their ever increasing brilliance, that may change) and I absolutely loved it. I haven’t even commented yet, cause though I finished it a few days ago I’m literally still recovering. It’s sad, holy fuck, it is emotional and deep and thoughtful, and it’s Draco in the Muggle world with these original character friends who are so tangible and developed that I feel like i’ve met them in real life. There is a plot that doesn’t distract from the love story, and a love story that doesn’t distract from the achingly slow build of a soft, pining friendship, and a soft, pining friendship that doesn’t distract from Harry and Draco’s own personal character arcs. The ease with which tacky writes our two boys (and writes period) has always amazed me. The talent is in every fucking line, the humour is brilliant and subtle, and the smut is !!! absolutely worth the wait. An aesthetically pleasing masterpiece that I shall always treasure.

#top five #fic recs #my stuff #lazywOnderland #😡#tackytigerfic

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for-ests · 5 years ago

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Hey, not sure if you do smut but I think this request can work without a lot if you’d prefer😁 reader’s an art student and needs to sculpt a full body nude sculpture and Tom offers but gets a bit cheeky

thanks for the request dear! this was fun to write :-) i literally know nothing about art so if I get something wrong just ignore! i hope you enjoy!! i went a diff +route but I still think it fits! [ mlist ]

Word count: 3, 273

Warnings: slight nsfw,, nudity

Pairing: Tom Holland x art student reader!

“The issue is… I have no idea who to ask.” You sighed deeply, embarrassment washing over you as you talked to your best friends about your upcoming project.

Everyone knew you were a talented sculptor. That wasn’t the issue. The issue was that your professional sculpting internship at (your school) was currently learning about Ancient Greece. One of the requirements to pass the semester was to recreate a modern sculpture of someone you knew, and to make it as realistic as possible. Nakedness and all, which was a huge distinction of Greek statues.

There was a big problem though. You were incredibly shy, and you didn’t know who to ask to model for you.

Nudging you with a laugh, your friend flashed you a mischievous smile. “You know a lot of cute guys, why don’t you ask one of them?”

“Cute guys?” You scrunched your nose. “I know like three guys and I would cry if I had to see them naked.”

She sighed. “Fair. Does it have to be a guy?”

*-You nodded regretfully. “It has to be the opposite sex. It’s annoying but I u

erstand why. It’s important to be familiar with both sexes.”

Your best friend air quoted ‘familiar’ with a ridiculous smirk.

“Shut up.” You huffed, trying not to laugh at how dramatic she had become.

“I think I know a guy, he’s an aspiring actor and model.” Your best friend added casually.

Groaning, you shot her a glare. “Why didn’t you say that right away?”

She shrugged. “I like listening to you talk about your art.”

Her compliment almost worked, but you already knew that was partly the reason she was teasing you so hard. The other reason was because she had been trying to set you up with multiple friends for months. According to her, you had been single for far too long.

Her offer made you ponder deeper about your situation. You were slightly awkward when it came to getting to know someone, but you couldn’t imagine asking someone to strip right away so you could sculpt every curve your eyes grazed over. Whoever it ended up being had to be incredibly confident. Shallow yes, but that’s why you were hoping to find someone insanely attractive. Attractive people were usually confident, and responsibly so. “Maybe a stranger would be worse than someone I know.”

Snorting through her nose, your best friend stared at you like you were crazy. “Definitely not. If it’s awkward you never have to see him again. And if it’s not, well you can get cozy with a cutie.”

Taking a deep breath, you rolled your eyes. “I hate you sometimes.” You mumbled under your breath. You knew she was right, but you would never inflate her already enormous ego like that.

“You love me.” She sang sweetly.

“I do, now give him my number and tell him it’s of the utmost importance.”

❀∙∘✿∘∙❀

Days later, that conversation was on your mind as you nervously organized your sculpting tools. Trying to relieve some tension, you slapped a pound of clay against the table, and it echoed throughout the workshop.

Reality was the fact that this so called model boy was on his way to your studio. His name was Tom, and from the pictures you saw–he was incredibly handsome.

You couldn’t believe you had agreed to this, but alas, you needed this experience to pass your class. You just hoped and prayed that Tom was a lot more outgoing than you, and could keep the conversation flowing as you stared intently as his erect… penis.

Your cheeks flared up at the thought. How the hell were you going to do this?

Y/N: help (Y/B/F/N) I cant do this!!! im freaking out

Y/B/F: is he even there yet? lmfao

Y/N: noooooo :((

Y/B/F: if it makes you feel any better, he’s excited and thinks ur pretty

Y/N: why didn’t you tell me that before??!

Y/B/F: do u feel better now tho?

Y/N: no

Y/B/F: ik ur smiling ;) u aint slick

Giggling like a schoolgirl to relieve some of your anxiety, you set your cell phone on the table. Truthfully, your best friend had made you feel better. If anything bad happened, it would surely be a wonderful story to tell everyone in the future.

Your eyes naturally glanced across the room to the clock on the wall. 7:00pm. Tom would be here any minute as scheduled.

You took a deep breath and studied your surroundings. All your tools were in place, and the entire studio was tidied up as if you hadn’t worked the space in weeks. Next, you walked to the wall and glanced at your reflection in the mirror.

With your hair in a bun and your shabby working clothes, you looked suitable at best. You did have a little bit of makeup on to help yourself feel more confident. If you felt good, you could make your client feel good in return.

At least it looked like you didn’t try too hard. You didn’t want this man to get the wrong idea.

Then, snapping you out of your trance, there was a knock on the door.

You straightened out your shirt one last time, and tucked your baby hairs back behind your ears. Scoffing immediately after, you shook your head. Why were you trying to look cute? Who cares!

You rushed to grab the front door, afraid that you were making him wait too long. You flung it open, eyes locking with his right away.

You froze.

He was even more dashing in person.

“Judging by your cute outfit, I think I’m at the right place. Y/N right?”

And a British accent?

“Y-yes!” You flashed a smile to mask your obvious hesitation. You could easily play it off by opening the door and keeping your gaze averted. You were the master of smoothness.

“Thank you for coming, it’s about time I got this project done…” You tittered, locking the door behind him for privacy purposes. “You can set your things on the couch over there.” You pointed, eyes meeting his again when he glanced to the couch and then back to you.

“Awesome.” He nodded, holding your gaze for a moment longer than necessary.

“Do you want anything to eat or drink?” You offered, nodding your head back to the small kitchen in the back of the studio. You wished the studio apartment was yours alone, but you shared it with multiple other college students in your program.

“Water… or beer if you have any?”

You threw your head back in laughter, causing Tom to smile at your genuine reaction.

“Yeah, I can get you one.”

“In the meantime, should I just strip?” He smirked, not trying to be sly with his flirtations. Though your cheeks were dusting with pink, you were able to match his energy. Your best friend definitely set you up with someone she knew you’d like.

“Do whatever you want, love.” You mimicked his British accent. “You’re the guest after all.”

Walking past him, you gave him one last look when he was fully-clothed. Tom was certainly the player type, practically the perfect embodiment of the muse you had in mind. This wouldn’t be awkward for you, and it would be even better for him. Men like him thrived off of cheeky discomfort in their female counterparts.

Yet, truthfully, you were enjoying it as well. It felt nice to be complimented so soon into an introduction.

As you cracked open a can of beer for Tom and yourself, you could hear him shuffling around with his items. The sound of his buckle falling against the floor made you suddenly nervous to turn around.

Inhaling sharply, and gulping down a few more sips of beer, you finally gained the courage to walk back to the studio setup, where Tom had already wandered over to, completely naked.

“You seem to be in your element.” You noted, trying to keep your eyes leveled with his. Now that you were thinking about it, remaining calm and professional was excruciating in front of such an attractive man. And it certainly wasn’t helping that he was enjoying your embarrassment.

And least this was exciting.

Thanking you, Tom took the beer and pressed his lips against the cold aluminum. “I would definitely feel a lot more comfortable if you were naked too, darling.”

“Hey now,” You nose scrunched in a form of mock distaste. The man caught on immediately, holding your gaze with a sort of amusement that was masking desire. “I might think about it if you sit nice and pretty for me for more than five minutes so I can sketch you.”

“Your wish is my command.”

Shaking your head in disbelief, you walked over to your crafting desk. You decided you were going to start with the hardest part, the part which your grade depended heavily on- from the waist down.

But first, you quickly sketched Tom posing in multiple poses until you were satisfied with one. You had him mimic a sculpture you couldn’t recall, where one hand was pointed forward and the other was rested casually on his hip.

“Can I see what one you want to do?” He asked curiously from the stand you had him propped up on for a better view.

“Sure.” You flashed him your finished sketch. The lines darted all over the page, making it hard for him to picture what was going on in your head. The picture you had drawn would not make sense to anyone else but the artist. But apparently you were talented, so he would trust the process.

You were also trusting the process. The situation you were in could only be awkward if you allowed it to be. And so far it was moving along smoothly. You had your favorite music playing softly in the background to fill the silence, and Tom seemed to be relaxed and unbothered by how quietly you worked.

“That’s cool.” Tom whispered, his eyes narrowing in confusion.

Giggling from his sudden proximity, you tried to tease him. “It’s fine to not understand it.”

“I definitely don’t know what’s going on but it’s still interesting.” He admitted.

You set the paper back down on the table, and decided to attempt and sculpt the base. Moving past a still naked Tom, you tried to immerse yourself in your work, or at least make it seem like you were focused. “This takes hours you know, weeks and months- it won’t make sense for a long time.”

“Perfect.” He grinned. “I’ll get plenty of time to know you better.”

Laughing through your nose, you kept your attention on the clay you had dropped on the floor. “You can put your clothes back on.”

“Oh!” He chuckled. “Yeah.”

As you carefully trimmed the base clay with a heavy frame, you lifted your head to find Tom slipping a robe back on. He definitely came prepared. Had he done this before?

“Come here.” You gestured. “I need you to set your feet down on the clay.”

“I didn’t think this would get dirty so fast.”

“Shut up.” You huffed, grabbing his foot and pressing it down hard until the clay took shape to the size.

“Cold.” Tom commented in discomfort.

“I know.” You released your grip on his calf, looking up at him with a sheepish smile. “All part of the process, but good news for you- you’re done for the night.”

“Really?” Tom raised his eyebrows. “That’s it?”

You nodded, standing back up to normal height. “I’m experienced enough to sculpt the feet and legs tonight.”

“When should I come back?” He sounded a tad too eager, but it caused your smile to reappear.

“Tomorrow night if you’re available.”

“And maybe next time you can bring your own alcohol?” You gestured to the multiple beer cans poking out of the recycling bin.

The man flashed you a smile. “Sounds like a date.”

“It’s definitely not.”

Despite your rejection to his amusing advances, Tom’s expressions and mannerisms remained hopeful. Was it possible he was truly enjoying himself?

“I’ll leave my robe here. I’ll see you tomorrow at the same time?”

“Same time.” You confirmed, nodding him off. It was about time you started to really focus. Attractive man or not, you always got the most and best work done alone.

Because after the first night, the dynamics between you and Tom changed. He became incredibly invested in your process, asking you questions left and right, asking if there was any way he could help, and practically just lounging next to you hours after he would have been free to go.

“What do your sculptures usually look like?”

“Since this isn’t my own studio, I don’t have any of my pieces here. But I can show you a picture when I get my hands wiped off.”

“What do you build your sculptures with? It’s hard to imagine that a replica of me can come out of that much clay.”

“My sculptures are built with water-based clay and are fired in a gas kiln to cone 4, about 2150 degrees Fahrenheit… “ You nodded towards the back wall that had an installed kiln for you and everyone to share. “Trust me, there will be a lot more clay. Hundreds of pounds worth.”

“Can I help?”

“No.”

There was no lying that you enjoyed his presence. Whether he was talking your ear off or napping to the peaceful beat of your jazz music, there was never a dull moment when Tom was in your studio.

Weeks passed, and so did the process. Your sculpture of Tom had progressed to week three, and that’s when you started to grow nervous. When you finished, which you were almost done, would you ever see him again?

You had barreled through the awkwardness of replicating his genitals and chiseling his six pack perfectly into the hardening clay- but you still felt like something was missing. You knew even when you finished chiseling away his jaw line and chocolate brown eyes, there would still be something missing. Him. His presence.

Maybe it would have been better if you partnered up with a man that had zero personality.

Since it was just you and Tom for hours on end, your conversations gradually grew deeper, they stretched into new lengths, so much so that you eventually felt like you had known him for years.

When Tom claimed he wasn’t looking for a relationship, you felt your heart fall. That’s when you realized you were developing stronger feelings for your model. You hardly had time to think about trivial things like that, but you couldn’t deny your disappointment.

And you were sure he saw the brief tears glossing over your eyes when you turned away. Yet, he didn’t make light of it.

That’s when you knew it was useless.

It seemed useless until the sixth week, when you finally finished the head. You were too afraid to attach it. Tom had spent the last couple hours with you in the studio. His legs kicked back and occasional whistles streaming from his lips. He had practically memorized your playlist to the extent you had.

“Tom.” You called. “Your face is done.”

He cheered excitedly, pushing himself off the sofa and racing towards you. Tom had learned to give you your space while you worked, but in moments where you summoned him, he barely stood inches from you. The man would constantly touch you in ways you couldn’t deny sent shivers down your spine.

Like he did as he rounded the tabletop, planting himself by your side and placing his hand on the low of your back. As if it was natural.

“Wow,” He breathed. “Y/N,” Your name upon his lips sounded as blissful as the music. “It’s.. it’s wonderful. It looks just like me... wow that’s scary.”

“I’m happy you like it.” You bit your lip, wishing you felt more satisfied with your project. You wanted to impress him, but you didn’t want him to go.

“All I have to do is attach the head, and fire it up in the furnace one more time. Then it should be good to go.”

You moved to do so, wanting to remove yourself from his grip. It hurt your heart to know the bond you had formed with him would come to an end. Why did you even let yourself get to this point? Was it because he was good at flirting?

“Wait-” His sentence faltered when you whipped around to face him- looking somewhat hopeful.

“What?”

Tom paused, his throat tightening with the words he never thought he would admit. But he couldn’t leave tonight with at least trying. He needed to know how you felt. Because he could either leave with you in his arms, or he could leave never having to see you again.

He had been thinking of confessing to you for days now, but now that the time came, his mind was blank. “You really are beautiful, you know that right?”

“Why do you feel the need to flatter me?” You blurted, still unable to decipher the truth behind his words. You didn’t know how to accept such a compliment. Tom had claimed you were beautiful before, but this time it felt different.

His eyes spoke volumes. The beauty his eyes held was something you would never be able to replicate in a statue. It was a sight you found yourself never growing sick of.

Averting your eyes, you tried to move again. Yet this time, Tom gripped onto both of your arms.

“Look at me.”

“I can’t.”

“Why?”

“I won’t let you play me.”

“I was never playing you, darling.” The tenderheartedness intertwined with his words caused you to slowly turn your head back. Your lip quivered, and suddenly you felt like a schoolgirl all over again. You felt childish and unprepared for the intensity of your emotions.

“I don’t want to leave tonight without knowing if you feel the same.”

You blinked, hand reaching out to grip onto his. “And that is?”

“I don’t know if it’s love, but it could be.”

“That’s all I needed to hear.” You said, incredibly softly.

Tom released your arms. And before either of you could process what to do next, your lips interlocked.

You gripped onto him tightly, balling his white t shirt into a fist to keep him from leaving your side again.

“Tom-” You breathed.

The kiss you shared was laced with a fervent need, one that you had never experienced before, and one that you craved again and again.

After the passion you felt, the skin prickling desire, there would be no turning back.

“Fuck, you’re everything”’ He mumbled against your lips.

You pulled back slightly to gaze at his expression. He had looked so afraid before, but now he was smiling from ear to ear. Much like he did the day he arrived with a teasing attitude, ready to get under your skin and provide entertainment.

“How long have you felt like this?”

“Since the first day.” He kissed you again, his hands cupping your cheeks.

You whimpered against his muscular frame, trying to ignore the fluttering in your core, fluttering that begged and craved for more.

“How did you wait so long?”

“I wanted you to finish.”

You chuckled, cheesing at his straightforward, simple reply.

You were positive from that moment moving on, that Tom was not what you had thought at first glance. This entire time he had put you and your project first, letting his own desires sit and warm on the back-burner. That was something you would hold close to your heart, something you would cherish.

He cared for you in the same way you cared for him.

“Stay with me tonight, Tom.”

“I would love nothing more.”

#tom holland #tom holland x reader #tom holland imagine #tom holland fanfiction #peter parker x reader

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Hi hi! I hope you’re taking care of yourself 🥺 have you been up to anything exciting? I have a question for u.. how do u make ur writing so unique? I feel like smut gets so repetitive and a lot of people use the same descriptions and analogies or whatever. Your stuff is always written so differently, do u have any advice? Anyway, have a good day or night sweetness 💕 - 💸

aaaaaah sweet angel dollars hello!!! <3 not particularly, to be honest!! i’ve been planning out the last few months of 2021 in terms of writing tho and that’s getting me super excited!!

ooh, that is a very good question! and i think that it’s quite a difficult question to answer, because style (regardless of the art medium) is such a personal thing, and every single creator has their very own unique style/aura inherently and irrevocably imbued within their work that is comprised of their personal experiences, feelings, opinions, beliefs, influences, art that has had an impact on them in some way, etc etc etc the list goes on forever. sometimes these styles can be more distinct or noticeable than others, but i genuinely believe everyone possesses one, even if it’s less developed than someone else’s. i’m going to get more into this under the cut because i have a feeling this is going to be a LOOONG answer hehe <3

okay FIRST OF ALL i want to say thank you for your compliment on my smut!!! that means so much to me you don’t even know, because i work so dang hard on my smut (it takes me up to a week to write one smut scene, on average!), so thank you!!! <333

secondly, the reason why i mentioned style above is because i want you to know that you DO possess your own style, just like everyone else, and as you continue to create it will show itself more, and more, and more; it will continue to strengthen itself and distinguish itself (but it is already there, it already exists in your work, i promise!). my favourite thing about creating art is that there’s virtually no cap to it; you’re never going to reach the top or the peak of writing because you will continue to improve and get better for as long as you live (or create hehe).

as such, my primary piece of advice to you is to look through your work and begin analyzing it. what elements do you notice cropping up repeatedly? what themes are present? which literary devices do you seem to gravitate towards? what is your favourite thing to write about? do you enjoy writing prose or dialogue more? where are your strengths? are you happy with them, or are there other areas of writing which you’d also like to strengthen? if so, make a plan on how you’d like to focus on those and put it into practice. when you analyze your own work like this, you really begin to notice the pieces of YOU sewn into your art and what distinguishes you and your style from everyone else.

my secondary piece of advice to you is to pay attention to life around you as well as to continue consuming art of all mediums. inspiration is EVERYWHERE, every single day, you just have to look! it’s in your daily life; in the way your family speaks to each other, the way you interact with others, your friends’ mannerisms, people off daydreaming in their own worlds while grocery shopping, in bits and pieces of conversations you hear while walking home or riding the subway, in your memories, in the WAY you remember things, in your own experiences both good and bad, happy and painful. extract that information, use it, morph it, break it, reconstruct it, collage it, crumple it, make it into something new, make it yours.

the point here is that no one, and i mean NO ONE, will experience the world the exactly way you do; there may be others who experience it similarly, but they will never truly be 100% the same, because THEY AREN’T YOU. you’re a one-of-a-kind, unique individual, with your own thoughts and emotions and opinions and experiences etc and all of these things come together to create your very own unique worldview (and art!). i kind of feel like this mr. rogers post explains it quite well, too <3

additionally, watch movies that you love and analyze why you love them; listen to your favourite artists and ask yourself how they make you feel and why; write yourself a small personal essay or a journal entry on what an illustration or painting makes you feel, etc. i think it’s very important here to distinguish between taking inspiration from others’ style vs imitating their style, purely because imitating their style won’t do anything for yours; it isn’t going to evolve or grow your own style because it isn’t your own style, you know? annie (@/rat-zuki) said this a while ago and i loved it so much so i’m going to repeat it here: creativity works on the basis of inspiration to innovation. which is to say, take those elements that inspire you, or that you really love, and make them your own! you already have your own style, something that is YOURS and special to you, so take these elements and fit/fold/mold them in there! make them special to you, too! your art/style/aura is essentially a whole collage of everything i mentioned above the cut; all of your influences and experiences and inspirations and how YOU see them, how you experience them, how you interpret them, how you feel them, etc. *reminder that we are talking about STYLE here, not plot/story; imitating a plot/story would be plagiarism, which you obviously should never do

as for writing smut in particular, this answer is the best advice i have for you. like i said there, the majority of my smut comes from my own experiences, so it’s a lot of me breaking down those experiences and analyzing them in terms of mood + feeling etc. hehehe (i’ve gotten into the habit of writing down how i felt and what happened after i have really good sex LMAO it always makes my boyfriend laugh)

AAAAH i hope this makes sense!!! i know it’s very long, but this is also a very complex question and i wanted to try my best to make sure i was coming across as clearly as possible. but hopefully this helps you sweetpea <3

#WHEW SORRY ITS SO LONG #IF ANYTHING IS CONFUSING PLS LET ME KNOW #all i mean with the imitation bit is: in the long run it won't do anything for you #it'll just be a cheap imitation of someone else #with no substantial benefits on improving or strengthening your own style #BUT YEAH NOT GONNA RAMBLE IN THE TAGS SINCE I WROTE U A LITERAL ESSAY AHAHA #smut is hard sweetpea just keep practicing <3 #i promise consuming other art will improve ur style in every area/aspect including smut #sending u so so so much love n health!!!#have a fantastic night and pls stay safe <333 #💸.anon #clari gets mail

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