#thank u for sending this to me it made my day 🩵

[sugarpasteltmnt]

(last seen at the tmnt au comp u _ u)

CRYING I LOVE SWANATELLO AHHHH 💜💕😭💞💖💘😭😭💜💕💗💜💖💘‼️‼️ omg I’m a big fan of your aus ;w; and I love Swanatello holy cow your brain is so beautiful like your art style 😭💘 I hope you find your boi!!! 🥺

But fr if ‘Void’-Leo ran into Leo first, he’d probably point and laugh either because 1) this dude lost his brother lmao or 2) he’s laughing at HIMSELF for hallucinating this scenario rn (because he’s a little coo-coo. A little insane in the membrane)

But if ‘Void’ ran into Swanatello first… i could see one of two things happening—

Leo is so Shook he just has the dial-up sound playing in his head, or through a silly exchange of “Lake?” “Key??” “Lake!” “Key!” the two establish a buddy system to look for their respective Things together

[ktjislove1119]

SUMMER

pairings : jongseob (p1h) x male reader

warnings : none, but like really pathetic pining and oblivious men not knowing how to act around their crushes (shota is sick and tired of yall)

rating : fluff :D

requested? : yesyesyes!!! thank u 🩵 anon, i don't think you were expecting a full fledged fanfic as a response to your request LMAO so do send in another one if you want a more simple headcanon version of this, i just couldnt help but go a lil crazy LMAO

a/n : strangers to friends to lovers, one of my favorite tropes. jongseob is definitely giving loser pining nerd in this one, but its ok bc hes so cute + this wasn't meant to be this long, but i couldnt help but go a little crazy + i highly suggest listening to the song while reading because it really sets the mood imo (summer by brockhampton)+ i had that ^ seob in mind while writing this btw hes just so heart eyes emoji in that video and i think light brown rlly suits him and gives off the strongest boyfriend vibes

wc : 6.5k+

"in the heat of the summer. yeah, yeah, oh, you know that you should be my boy. oh yes, you know. in the heat of the summer, you're so different from the rest."

jongseob didn’t expect himself to be the type to develop a crush on a first meeting, or more like first glance. but here he was: purposely keeping his head down to not draw too much attention to himself as you walked by him. he was looking down at his phone, swiping in random directions, even looking at the weather app and pretending as if that were interesting. it was really pathetic how shy he became whenever you were near, but that’s just you made him react — so it really wasn’t his fault…

“you’re kim jongseob, right?”

he flinched at your voice, not expecting to hear it call his name out of nowhere. locking his phone, and hoping you didn’t see him stare at the weather for the week, he looked up at you and nodded his head. his mouth went dry and he cleared his throat as an effort to make sure his voice didn’t crack when he spoke to you.

“the teacher told me to find you and let you know i’ll be the one tutoring you for math,” you take the empty seat next to him, pulling out your phone and holding it out to him, “we should exchange contact information so we can talk about when to meet up and what works best for our schedules,”

okay, hold on. everything was moving wayyyy too fast and jongseob still hasn’t blinked once since you started talking to him. it was as if his consciousness left his body. he forced himself to blink and then finally opened his mouth to talk. but you had cut him off, by accident.

“sorry, my name is [name], it’s nice to meet you,”

instinctively, he had bowed his head down and you mimicked the action.

“nice to meet you, i’m jongseob,”

”i know,” a kind smile on your lips almost sent him into a hyperventilating state.

your first meeting with each other ended with him saving your contact in his phone and vice versa, then you departing soon after as you had to go to your own class. that day, shota was wondering why jongseob was so latched onto his phone and staring at it with a blank look on his face.

— in the beginning phases of his crush, jongseob acts really, really reserved and shy. it’s almost as if he doesn’t even want to associate with you with how standoffish he is, but it’s just because he’s eternally scared of embarrassing himself in front of you. in the beginning, he tried brushing off how serious his crush was, thinking it was going to be passing. but when he realized that every night before bed he’d think of you, he knew he was in too deep at that point. it makes him so frustrated that he lets his mind be so filled of you and only you, especially because before you were assigned as his tutor, you’d never even properly spoken to one another. but hopefully now that you two will be forced to talk to one another, jongseob’s skittish and introverted behavior could change a little more…hopefully.

the two of you were sitting in the library, snacks and drinks surrounding you as the two of you were staring at the textbook on the table.

“so, what do you think you struggle with the most?” you kindly asked, pulling out your notebook and pencils from your bag and preparing to start. jongseob blinked at the question, feeling himself blush as he thought of how he struggled with practically everything related to math.

“i think…just everything,” he says honestly, a bashful and embarrassed look on his face. you almost cooed at the cute expression, but stopped yourself.

you didn’t expect jongseob to be so cute. when you had seen him in person the first time, you’d be lying if you said you didn’t think he wasn’t at all attractive. he had soft features and a cute smile, which was enough to make you interested in him. but seeing his equally soft personality was enough to solidify that initial interest.

lucky you for having the teacher pair the two of you up.

“well, to be honest, i struggled a lot too when i was taking his class before,” you confessed honestly, hoping your words would comfort him a little, “but, it’s mainly the way he teaches it that makes it so confusing. so, i think, i can try re-explaining everything to you in a more simple way and hopefully it works that way? does that sound good to you?”

jongseob quickly nods, finding the tone and sound of your voice a comfort and especially persuasive. you could tell him to jump up on the table and do something incredibly embarrassing and he’d probably do it.

yeah, he was in too deep.

“then, let’s start! i’ll set an alarm for a break in twenty minutes?” he nods his head in understanding, feeling unreasonably determined to not let you and your efforts in teaching him go to waste. so he leans forward, mechanical pencil ready in hand and his notebook open to the first blank page.

as you’re explaining things to him, jongseob already feels as if he’s learning more from you in the first ten minutes than he did from his teacher the past couple of weeks. also, he feels himself growing more comfortable, which is a relief. because before he felt as if his cheeks were turning bright red anytime you looked at him, now it was just the tips of his ears (he hopes…). he was able to properly speak to you and make eye contact without completely stuttering through his sentences.

after the entire two hour session, you walked together to the bus stop. jongseob was only accompanying you since he could easily walk home, but he wasn’t about to make you wait alone. plus, he finally felt himself growing comfortable enough and he didn’t want to leave so soon (even if you had just spent the past two hours together).

“so, what do you like to do outside of school?” you ask, sipping your favorite boxed juice as you waited together.

“music,” he answers quickly, correcting himself soon after with, “i like listening to and writing music,”

you blinked in surprise, not taking him as the type and an impressed look was on your face, “wow, that’s really cool. i wish i had a talent like that. do you share your music on any platforms?” you pulled out your phone, as if you were ready for him to show you, but he shakes his head.

“no, just keep them on my computer…i don’t think i want them out, it’s kind of embarrassing,” he scratches the back of his head, cursing the red blush that was definitely rising up his neck.

”i don’t think it is,” you deny, pouting at his self-deprecation, “confidence is the key, jongseob!” you encourage, hitting his shoulder lightly, “if you ever feel comfortable enough, i’d love to hear it some day,”

he blinks at the offer, wondering how to respond to such an invitation. sharing his music with someone is something he deems really intimate, especially since it’s you — the boy he has a raging crush on. but he doesn’t have to think of his response much longer as your bus pulls up to the stop.

“it was nice getting to know you better, jongseob! i look forward to our next meeting,” you smile, bow your head to him, and then board your bus not looking back at him.

he watches the bus leave, his knees going wobbly as he collapses into a crouching position with his head in his hands.

“i’m screwed,” he mutters to himself, shooting up in a second’s notice and running his hand through his hair, “he’s so annoying, i’m really screwed,” he calls you annoying only because he knows that on his walk home and all the moments he spends without seeing you, he’ll just be thinking about you.

he’s in too deep, there’s no way he’ll ever recover from this crush.

— after the first couple of meetings, you and jongseob become much more acquainted than a simple “tutor” and “tutee.” you became close friends, so close that you met shota and now often sit with them during lunch breaks or in any free time. whenever there was an open period, you’d stop by jongseob’s classroom and take a seat next to him and fill the rest of your time together with little chats. shota teases him endlessly on how lovesick he has gotten over the past couple of weeks, but jongseob lets it slide — as long as you’re nowhere near to hear it. shota has known of jongseob’s crush on you for the longest time and deep down he’s genuinely happy for his friend that he was making some progress. before, he’d have to bear with watching jongseob longingly stare at you from afar, so seeing the state you and jongseob were in was incredibly comforting to know his best friend was making some sort of progress,

“jongseobie!” your excited voice makes him look up from his phone and instantly smile. the nickname you had coined for him after a couple of tutoring session makes his heart race so very fast. he loves how it sounds, how you comfortably call him, especially when it’s in that excited tone you just used a second ago. “guess what i got!”

“what?” he says in an instant, looking at you with curiosity as you come to a halt in front of him.

“you’re supposed to guess,” you tease, rolling your eyes at him. you step closer as you wait for his response, but after he stays silent as he tries thinking of what it could be, you could barely hold it in anymore. “i got us tickets to that show you wanted to see!”

from behind your back, you pull out two stubs of paper and jongseob feels his jaw drop. he had mentioned it to you in passing, when you were talking about the music you each liked, one of his favorite, lesser known, artists was going to be playing somewhat nearby. he planned on buying the tickets, but the fact you had remembered and done it yourself was enough to get blood rushing to his cheeks.

“you- how- are you serious?” he asks, looking at the paper tickets as if they were god send.

you nod with a proud smile, showing them off, “i got them as a gift because you’ve been doing really well lately — your teacher even pulled me aside earlier this week to compliment me for how well the lessons have been doing, but it’s really been all you. you’re really smart, and a quick learner, jongseob. so i wanted to appreciate your hard efforts with these!” he blushes at your compliment, too flustered to notice that you were also blushing at how obviously you were gassing him up.

“you bought two?” he asks, wondering if this was what he thought it was. maybe you took the initiative and…

“oh, if you wanted to bring a friend, maybe shota. i don’t think concerts are that fun to go to alone, so i wanted to make sure you could bring someone,” you explain, handing the tickets to him.

before he even stops to think, he’s pushing one back into your hands and saying, “come with me, i wanna go with you.” it sounds more definitive than inviting, but you don’t seem to mind as a wide grin stretches across your face.

“really? you want me to come?”

“of course, i really want you to come with me,” he says with utmost certainty, “the only reason i’m doing well is because of you, i want us to go together,”

you smile and accept the ticket, stepping forward to loop your arm with his, “what should we wear then? tell me, what’s the artist’s vibe,”

jongseob, trying not to hyperfocus on the close contact, replies with a shaky voice, “i’m sure you’d look cool in anything,” he compliments, “don’t think too much about it!”

“but i wanna fit in with the crowd! hey, recommend me some songs so i can understand them more,” you insist, making jongseob pull out his phone to scroll through his playlist. you watch eager, leaning against his shoulder and at his phone screen as he searches. he tries to ignore how close you are and hopes you don’t see the way his hand shakes from the nerves.

what he doesn’t know is that you’re also sneaking looks at him with a smile on your face, basking in the affection you had managed to steal from him. it was flattering to know that jongseob wanted you to come as his “plus one”, but you tried not thinking too deep into it…trying to stop yourself from thinking it was anything like a date. because it wasn’t.

even if you both wished it was.

“here, i’ll send you my playlist,” he says, showing you his spotify on the screen and waiting for your approval. when you hum in response, he copies the link and goes to your messages.

“wait, what’s my contact name on your phone? have you changed it since i put it in?” you ask curiously, seeing something added to the end of your name, like an emoji, that definitely wasn’t there before.

jongseob blinks in stupor before realizing what you were referring to. he hurriedly locks his phone and turns it face down to hide it from you, laughing to play it off.

“what? why? why? what’s my name on your phone?” you tease, trying to reach for it, despite not knowing if he had a passcode or not.

“it’s nothing, it’s nothing,” he says, trying to distract you from that topic of conversation and goes back to the artist you two were going to see, “just make sure you listen to the playlist-”

“but i want to know what my contact is on your phone!” you cut him, laughing as you begin play fighting for the device.

“well, your bus is here so you won’t get to know, sorry,” he says, unfortunately speaking the truth as the familiar bus pulled up to the curb.

“i won’t forget this, jongseobie,” you say in a mock threatening voice, squinting your eyes at him, “you’re gonna show me it tomorrow!!”

“bye, bye, [name]!” he calls out, happily waving to you as the bus takes off in the opposite direction of the school.

he looks down at his phone and unlocking it to show the link of his spotify playlist that was sitting in the textbox, waiting to be sent. he looks up at the top of his screen, smiling softly at the contact name and photo he had saved for you. it was a selfie you had taken on his phone during one of your recent study sessions, showing an incredibly tired 0.5 angle of you, with his head resting on the table being seen in the background. when he was scrolling through his camera roll, he had seen it and immediately made it your profile picture. it was cute to imagine you sneakily taking his phone while he was dozed off, snapping the picture, then setting it back to its original spot.

the words underneath your photo reading as “handsome tutor 𖹭.”

jongseob would have collapsed in embarrassment if you had seen that. he sighed, hit send on the text, and locked his phone to put away in his pocket. he walked home with a smile on his face, thinking about you and the concert you two were going to together.

—

“so it’s a date?” shota asks him, chilling in his seat as jongseob explains to him everything that had went down.

“it’s not a date, shh,” jongseob says, putting his finger to his lips and glaring at shota for saying such a thing so loud.

“it sounds like a date, jongseob,” shota deadpans, not looking impressed, “you two need to get it together, the tension between you two is so suffocating,” the man shivers as if to physically show how unbearable the “tension” was, but jongseob doesn’t pay that any mind.

“it’s not a date because if it were, he would’ve said it was, but it’s not because he didn’t say that,” jongseob quickly explains, wanting to put that discussion to rest.

“okay, then it isn’t a date,” shota forfeits, rolling his eyes at his best friend’s antics.

“yeah, it isn’t…” the man confirms once more, “besides, i don’t even know if he even likes men — have we ever thought about that? he probably just thinks we are good friends, which i can settle for and is the most realistic thing, but still i wish i knew for sure! it kind of sucks not knowing if i even had a chance, y’know?”

“had a chance with who?”

jongseob freezes and shota sputters out a suffocated laugh at the timing.

you were standing right behind him and he didn’t know for how long you were, but he does wish that the ground would swallow him up whole right now.

“earth to jongseobie? hello?” you wave your hand in front of his frozen face, laughing slightly at his expression, “what’s up with him, shota?”

“i don’t know, he’s a weird guy,” the man answers with a shrug, making you laugh at the irony before taking a seat next to him.

“well, anyway! i listened to the playlist you sent me, let me show you some outfit ideas i have for us,”

“us?” jongseob echoes, wondering if he heard right.

”yeah, if we’re going together we might as well should match, right?”

shota looks at the two of you, completely worn out from how oblivious jongseob was and how shamelessly forward you were (whether you were aware of it or not was unknown to shota).

“right, right,” jongseob agrees, leaning in towards you and your phone screen.

“i think you have good style to begin with, so i tried finding something that would suit it. you’re handsome anyway, so anything you wear you’ll be able to pull off,” you ruffle his hair as you compliment him, successfully making him go red in the face.

shota once again wishes his best friend would open his eyes and end this tantalizing process already, hoping you two would just date already.

—

it was the night of the show and you and jongseob agreed to meet at a halfway point. the venue was a little far away, but nothing a pair of headphone and the bus couldn’t handle. you were currently binge listening to the playlist jongseob had sent you — you had been since he’s sent it to you — and were happily humming along to the song playing. if it weren’t for jongseob, you probably would’ve never discovered this artist, who actually suited your tastes a lot.

at the designated stop, you kept an eye out for him, grinning immediately when you locked eyes with him. his usually straight hair was done to be slightly wavy and that subtle change made your eyes falter and heart skip a couple beats. he really was so handsome. his eyes were wide, looking for you and when he finally caught sight of you, an excited smile broke out onto his face and it was so wide his eyes turned into crescents.

he walked over to you, taking the seat beside you and tried to control his excitement.

”how are you?” he asked first, trying to not stare too hard at your outfit and how good you looked. he was slightly envious, how you looked so good in everything you wore and how you naturally pulled off everything you wore. he also took note of how you both were wearing the same color-toned clothes, subtly matching. that only made him smile even wider.

“i’m excited, how about you?” you’re quick to throw the question back at him, smiling so wide it’s infectious.

“i’m really excited, i’m really happy we’re going together,” he says, nodding his head several times as he takes in this reality. if anyone had told him a couple months that he was going to one of his favorite artist’s concert with you of all people, he would’ve laughed in their face. this was all almost completely unbelievable.

“you brought your camera?” you said, motioning to the film camera that was strapped around his body.

“oh, yeah,” he takes it up into his hands, bringing the viewfinder up to his eyes and quickly snapping a photo of you. obviously, after the act was already done, you began complaining about how you weren’t ready.

“retake it, retake it,” you egged on, pushing him slightly back so it wasn’t so close to your face. he obeyed, leaning backwards and bringing his camera back up to his eye.

you smiled, holding the ticket up to your face and proudly showing it off. he smiled softly at how genuinely excited you looked, bringing the camera down from his face after he got the shot.

“your turn,” you say, gently taking the camera from his hands and bringing it up to your eye. “wait, how does this work?”

he chuckles at your question, moving close to show you how it works, nimble fingers pointing at the different parts of the camera, “here, scroll it to the right,” he says, watching you carefully, “and then when it stops, you can take the picture. just press this one,”

you get the gist, afterwards, looking up from the components of the camera and locking eyes with jongseob. you both didn’t realize how close he was until you looked up, making time freeze for a moment as you just sat there and stared at each other.

his brown bangs were slightly covering his eyes, but you were still able to see him so clearly. he really was so breathtaking…

“ready?” you asked after a couple seconds of silence, making him clear his throat and nod.

you pressed your back against the window of the bus as he leaned a little into the aisle so that he was properly spaced out in the shot. he held up his own ticket, pursuing his lips as he slightly smiled at the camera. the corners of your lips quirked up at his cute expression, taking the picture swiftly.

“it sucks we don’t see them right away though,” you comment, handing the film camera back to him.

“we can still take pictures on our phones,” he comforts, pulling out his own and immediately holding it up for a selfie. smiling at the opportunity, you lean close to his person, practically cuddled up to his side.

and even after reaching levels of comfortability with you that he thought was impossible, being physically close to you still flustered him. he liked it though, obviously. he liked you, so any affection you showed him was welcome in his eyes. which is exactly why he didn’t push you away or shift his torso from you. instead he leaned into your side as well, positioning the camera at multiple different angles for you two.

then you took out your own phone, taking pictures for your own camera roll. the last one you took was a silly 0.5 one that the both of you laughed at after seeing the finished product.

“these are cute,” you comment, scrolling through your own, “send me the ones on your phone!”

“okay, okay,” he complies, going to share them straight from his camera roll and sending them to you a couple seconds later. he doesn’t realize it, but his screen is clearly visible to you, meaning you were finally able to see what the contact name he had for you was.

you blushed heavily seeing it, forcing your head to look away to not be caught, trying to force the smile on your face down. instead, you took a comfortable resting spot on his shoulder, feeling a surge of confidence in your actions due to the revealed contact name.

jongseob’s shoulder stiffened at the bold action, but he tried to calm himself down to not ruin the moment. he looked anywhere else but you, not wanting to be caught blushing a deep red if you were to look at him. he didn’t realize you snuck one more photo in, smiling like a fool at your camera as your head rested on his shoulder.

after about a thirty minute bus ride, you finally were at the stop closest to the venue. you pulled the wired headphones from your ear, jongseob passing you the other pair, and both of you hopped off of the bus to walk to the venue.

you both weren’t particularly keen on getting there super early to be close, so the line wasn’t as long as you thought it would’ve been.

“wait, go ahead,” he says, motioning for you to keep walking without him. and you were going to question why, but then saw that he had his camera in his hand and wanted a shot of you walking to the venue, which had the name of the artist plastered in shining lights above the main entrance way.

he joined you in a couple of seconds, jogging up to your side and excitedly walking up to security to be let in.

you and jongseob were near the back of the pit, but since it was a small place, the view you had of the stage wasn’t that bad.

“this is so cool,” you say, stars in your eyes as you take in the environment. jongseob hums beside you, making sure to stick close to you to not lose you in the crowd. his arm hung loosely off of your shoulder, which made you more inclined to slot yourself into his side.

maybe it was the darker atmosphere and the fact you were in a bigger crowd now, where it was easy to hide away, but the both of you had gotten a boost of confidence in lingering touches.

jongseob didn’t think twice in holding you close to him and you weren’t as secretive in stealing glances his way. he didn’t feel as flustered and embarrassed as he usually did, which made him not think twice in committing to being affectionate with you.

he wishes he was like this all the time. capable of holding eye contact with you without looking away after the first five seconds. capable of looking at your eyes then your lips without feeling himself go red in the face immediately. a couple months deep into this crush of his and sometimes he was still acting like he hasn’t been seeing you everyday, as if he was still just admiring you from afar.

meanwhile, you were loving every second of this. seeing jongseob not hesitate in keeping you close and stare at you, it was infectious.

before you knew it, the main act had came onto the stage and now all of your attention was on them. jongseob’s arm left your shoulder to take a couple of pictures with both his phone and film camera, but he still made sure to be close.

the two of you were singing to your hearts’ content, sometimes breaking out into laughter at how horrid your voices sounded. but you were smiling and laughing together and that was all that mattered. the show went on faster than you both had realized and the singer was now announcing that it would be their final song of the night.

when the first chords played throughout the venue, you instinctively held onto jongseob’s hand and squeezed tight because it was the song you were hoping they were going to play. excitedly you looked at him to see his reaction, wondering if he was waiting for this song as well, but when you turned to him, he was already looking at you.

and you were happy you didn’t have the strength to look away because staring into his eyes as the song played in the background felt as if you were in the middle of a romance movie scene. one of those god awful cheesy scenes where the two love interests have the camera spin around them as they slowly lean in to kiss each other, or some other form of major affection. you almost laughed out loud at the idea of that being you and jongseob. not because it was actually humorous, but because it was so outlandish.

there was no way jongseob liked you back like you liked him.

that contact name on his phone was probably just a coincidence…

you swallowed the lump in your throat and forced yourself to look away from his dark eyes, that were pleadingly looking at you, begging for you to do something. the moment your head turned in the other direction, though, jongseob felt a wave of frustration and immense emotion crash down on him.

it wasn’t fair. he wants to kiss you, tell you how badly he’s fallen in love with you. he doesn’t want to keep sneaking glances at you when all he wants to do is stare at you all day long. and with the way the lights are reflecting on you, the fucking song playing in the background, there’s no reasonable way for jongseob to hold himself back.

he’s so frustrated at himself for harboring such strong emotions for you, but he wouldn’t want it any other way.

so he finally grows the courage to reach out and gently cup your face and force you to look back at him. he doesn’t give himself, or you, a second to properly react as he leans forward and smashes his lips against yours. it’s dramatic, desperate, and borderline aggressive, but it’s what he’s feeling — all those times he’s had to hold himself back from making you his. it was all released in this one kiss.

it took a couple of seconds to realize what was happening. and when you did, you could feel him beginning to pull away. squeezing your eyes shut to really bask in the moment, you brought your hand up to the back of his neck and held him in place, finally kissing him back.

the hand that was once resting on your cheek had now fallen to your waist, bringing you in closer to his person. his fingers were squeezing you so tight, as if he were afraid you’d slip away if his grip loosened even the tiniest bit. you were moving in sync with one another, hungry for that affection you were both restraining from each other before. your arms looped around his neck and you could feel him smile into the kiss at the action. it was infectious because now you were two smiling, kissing fools.

after pulling away, the world around you both was so fuzzy, the song playing being the only thing that you could sense as loud and clear. the both of you were panting from such an intense kiss. his arms were wrapped around your lower half while yours lazily hung off of his shoulders.

“[name], i really, really like you,” he says breathless, “even before you spoke to me, i liked you,” it was shocking to learn how long he had been harboring this crush on you, but you didn’t stop him from going on, “i’ve wanted to kiss you like that for so long,”

a weak bout of laughter was shared between you two and jongseob had to force himself to continue on, “please, give me a chance and be my boyfriend, please,”

you played with the hair at the base of his neck, making him shiver at the sensation while you grinned at him.

“you don’t need to beg for it. i’m already yours, jongseob,” you crash into his chest and he breathes a heavy sigh of relief, holding you tight. the two of you stand like that, rocking back and forth and just taking in the final song — that was now apart of one of your fondest memories.

after it was finished, you both pulled away and shared one more long kiss. it wasn’t as desperate as the first, but you could still feel that longing from him as he eagerly deepened it. the only reason why you two had to pull away was because the rest of the crowd was beginning to move and since you were in the back of the pit, you would’ve been in everyone’s way.

jongseob tightly held your hand as he guided you through the crowd, smiling so wide that his cheeks were hurting. the same could be said for you, too, as you followed him wherever he took you. waiting at the same bus stop wasn’t long and the entire time, you were just staring at each other with permanent smiles on each of your faces.

your hands were still intertwined, even as you sat on the bus.

“so wait, you knew who i was already, and liked me, before i even introduced myself to you?” you asked, grinning on his shoulder as you finally had the quiet environment to ask him about all the details. he blushed at the sudden question, using one hand to hide the bottom of his face.

“do we really have to go through this right now?” he asked, feeling incredibly shy at how close your face was to his (as if you weren’t sucking face a couple minutes ago), especially with that mischievous look in your eyes.

“no, we don’t have to, i just want to hear you talk about it.”

“so, you just want to have your ego boosted?” he teased, playing with your fingers as he smiled in amusement. you clasped your hand around his, chuckling and just resting your head on his shoulder. he leaned on the top of your head, wondering how things worked out so well.

it felt like something out of his dreams.

the man of his dreams was nestled into his side after seeing one of his favorite singers. kissing him during one of his favorite songs, finally making him his boyfriend. jongseob couldn’t help but stare out the window with the widest smile on his face.

taking in his surroundings, he cautiously reached for his film camera on his side. he could tell that halfway through your trip back you had fallen asleep so he wanted to be sure not to wake you as he took the photo. it was cheesy, but he wanted to have something to immortalize this night and the memory of it. he’d never forget it, he knew that for sure, but he wanted a physical token of what has happened and the deep meaning of tonight.

after taking pictures to his heart’s content, he simply leaned his head against yours and waited until you both arrived to your bus stop.

— a couple weeks later

“what do you have there?” you ask, rolling over in bed to look over jongseob’s shoulder.

there was no one home at the moment, so you were being as freely affectionate as you wanted. it had been a couple of weeks since the night of the concert and it has been nothing but perfect since. not only were the two of you finally out of school, making it officially summer (jongseob had passed his math final with flying colors, not to your surprise since he really was so smart).

the window was open, letting in the occasional breeze to cool you two off. but the both of you were laying in your bed, shirtless as you tried basking in as much cold air as possible. jongseob had told you he had something to surprise you with, digging through his bag with his back turned to you.

“i made sure to ask for two copies of each one,” he said, pulling out a thick envelope. your arms were wrapped around his waist, resting flat on his bare stomach and softly stroking up and down. he looked at you with a smile, presenting what was inside with an expectant look on his face.

when you finally realized what it was, you detached yourself from his back in a moment’s notice and took the papers into your hands.

“oh my god, jongseobie,” you gasped, taking in all of the photos your boyfriend had captured on his film camera and looking through them in pure excitement, “wait, i didn’t know you took a picture then,” it was the one of when you were sleeping on his shoulder. you smiled at the memory, fondly looking at your boyfriend and leaning in for a quick peck.

“you’re too handsome i had to,” he compliments, knocking his forehead against yours before pulling away.

“thank you, baby, but so are you — i mean, c’mon, look at you,” you squeeze his cheeks quickly while looking through the rest of the photos of the night. the memories were still vivid in your mind, “i like this one a lot,”

it was before you arrived at the venue, when you were riding the bus there. looking at it on a physical copy now, it was so obvious how deep your affections for each other were. jongseob leaning into your body that was unexplainably close to his, a blush on both of your cheeks, as well as wide grins.

“i love you,” he says quietly, kissing the bare skin of your shoulder several times over before resting his cheek against your warm flesh. you smile at the affection, turning back to face him properly.

it slips off of your tongue so fluently at this point, an easy, “i love you too,” directed to him and only him. and now you’re both smiling at each other like idiots.

— jongseob, who has a crush on you for the longest time and doesn’t know how to act on it. the type to ignore it at first, in hopes of it just dying down so he doesn’t have to worry about it since he already has so much on his plate. but once he realizes he’s in too deep, thinking about you in every passing second, he doesn’t fight against his feelings any longer. he’s content just being aware of them, not seeking for more in fear of rejection or ridicule. but once he knows it’s safe for him to show just how deep his adoration and love for you is, he’ll be as unrestricted as possible in showcasing it to you — eager to show you what he had been withholding.

"in the heat of the summer, you're so different from the rest. you know, you know, you know, oh oh. you know that you should be my boy, oh, yes, you know, oh yes, you know"

[woozinhos]

congratulations on ur blog achievement my love, u deserve it the mostest n I’m so proud of u✨

can I request dk n prompt 18 from ur list!! (it’s so cute seeing how excited u get to write about dk, I totally understand bc he’s my bias too😭) thank u love 🩵

stop honestly hes my ult bias ive nearly completed his album pcs I hope you enjoy this!!

Dokyeom gazed at you with a mixture of desire and adoration as he trailed his fingers along your skin, his touch feather-light.

"I want to worship every inch of you," he murmured, his eyes never leaving yours. "I want to show you just how much I appreciate every part of you."

He leaned in, his lips brushing against your collarbone before trailing down to your chest.

"You're so beautiful," he whispered, his breath warm against your skin. "Every part of you is perfect."

Dokyeom took his time, exploring every inch of your body with his lips and tongue.

He kissed his way down your stomach, his hands following in his wake as he mapped out every curve and dip. He stopped to pay special attention to your hips and thighs, leaving behind a trail of bite marks and hickeys that would be sure to last for days. Dokyeom settled between your legs, his eyes filled with a hunger that sent shivers down your spine.

He leaned in, his breath hot against your core as he whispered, "I want to taste you."

Before you could respond, his mouth was on you, his tongue lapping at your folds with an eagerness that made your toes curl.

Dokyeom ate you out like a man starved, his tongue moving with skill and precision. He knew exactly what to do to drive you wild, teasing your clit with his tongue before dipping lower to taste you more fully. He groaned against you, the vibrations sending shivers of pleasure through your body as he devoured you.

Dokyeom continued to work his magic, his hands gripping your thighs and holding you in place as he brought you closer and closer to the edge. He could feel you getting close, your body trembling beneath him as you neared your peak. He doubled his efforts, his tongue moving faster and harder against you, determined to push you over the edge.

As Dokyeom continued to pleasure you, he couldn't help but grind his own hips into the bed, seeking some kind of relief for the aching need building inside him. He was completely lost in the moment, his focus solely on bringing you pleasure. Dokyeom lifted his head, his lips glistening with your juices as he looked up at you with a hungry gaze.

"I can't wait anymore," he growled, his voice low and rough with need. "I need to be inside you. Now."

Without waiting for a response, Dokyeom moved up your body, capturing your lips in a searing kiss as he positioned himself between your legs.

He was hard and throbbing, his body practically vibrating with pent-up desire as he pressed the tip of his cock against your entrance. Dokyeom slowly pushed inside you, his eyes locked on yours as he filled you up inch by inch. He groaned at the feeling of you surrounding him, his fingers digging into your hips as he tried to maintain control.

"You feel so good," he panted, his voice strained. "So tight and perfect around me."

Dokyeom set a slow, deliberate pace, his hips moving in a steady rhythm as he worshiped your body with his hands and mouth. He trailed kisses along your neck and collarbone, nipping and sucking at the sensitive skin there as he continued to move inside you.

His hands roamed over your body, tracing the curves and dips of your skin as he explored every inch of you. Dokyeom's thrusts grew more urgent, his control slipping as he lost himself in the pleasure of being inside you. He gripped your hips tightly, pulling you against him with each thrust as he sought to bury himself deeper and deeper.

"I can't get enough of you," he groaned, his breath hot against your skin. "You're mine, and I'll worship every inch of you for as long as you'll let me."

You managed to gasp out a few words between moans, your voice trembling with pleasure.

"Dokyeom... oh god... don't stop... please don't stop..."

Dokyeom chuckled low in his throat, his lips curving into a smirk as he heard your pleas.

"I have no intention of stopping," he growled, his hips snapping against yours with a newfound intensity. "Not until I've made you come undone around me."

Dokyeom's thrusts grew harder and faster, each one driving you closer and closer to the edge. He could feel you tightening around him, your body responding to his every move.

"Come for me, baby," he urged, his voice low and commanding. "I want to feel you come apart around my cock."

With a cry, you came undone, your body trembling as waves of pleasure crashed over you. Dokyeom continued to thrust into you, prolonging your orgasm as he chased his own release. He buried his face in the crook of your neck, his breath coming in ragged gasps as he neared his peak.

Dokyeom's body tensed, his muscles tightening as he neared his own climax.

"I'm gonna cum," he gritted out, his voice strained. "I'm gonna fill you up, baby. Are you ready for me?"

You nodded weakly, still trembling from the aftershocks of your own orgasm. Dokyeom's thrusts became erratic, his hips stuttering as he fought to hold on just a little longer.

With a final, guttural moan, he came inside you, his body shuddering as he spilled himself deep within you. Dokyeom collapsed on top of you, his body heavy and sated as he tried to catch his breath. He buried his face in your neck, his chest heaving as he pressed lazy kisses against your skin.

"That was... incredible," he panted, his voice hoarse.

[joshhutchersonseggsalad]

yooo. in honor of my one year josh fanniversary coming up next week (time flies holy fuck) I wanted to do a very special shoutout to @claptondavis 🥳 clearly I didn't have tumblr the whole time but joining tumblr while being in this fandom has definitely changed my life sm(I'm grateful for both the good and the bad for teaching me lessons i wouldnt have even thought about). A fellow fan I met on Instagram (shoutout 2 them too even tho we aren't as close anymore<3) convinced me to join tumblr and I was hesitant but I'm glad I did it. Sm of u have meant so much to me..but I wanted to thank the first person that followed me and the first person I messaged on here🩵🩷

Its kinda funny how things wrap around. When I first joined the fandom, funny enough the first character (besides Mike in fnaf) that I decided to enjoy first was clapton and he was my first jhutch lockscreen :3 also fun fact I used to be so scared to interact with clap on here due to me thinking he was one of the coolest accounts (shoutout all the jhutch rp accounts too..from the beginning and to now..I adore a lot of the friends I made thru those pages<3) Despite the many drama filled days, im now gladly close buds with clap (I'd say both in rp andd oc..love u so much pal) thank u sm for all the memories and the smiles youve put on my face man. I appreciate u more than u know💜 if anyone messes with u lmk..I can't stand a lot of the unnecessary hate and immaturity on this app which u nor nobody deserves.

Unfortunately these days I've been feeling like my love for jhutch is lessening but I'm trying REALLYY hard to hold on tight as much as I could. Regardless of if I continue to love josh as much n shit, I will still continue to be friends with my people (u know who u r..unless you've done me wrong.)

but yea sorry for the long ass post..I genuinely love clapton davis as a character, as well as his account here (and am mucho grateful for my friend who runs it) sending love to my other pals as well that I have made here the past 6 months. I'm excited to see what's in store and if I can make more pals too (dms r always open ofcourse..just pls pls know ur limits and respect boundaries. I've dealt with a lot of ppl who disrespected my boundaries, or 14 year olds who tried to talk nasty with me lol..but if ur a good person and think wed click then feel free 2 hmu🐦‍⬛⚘️)

[chuluoyi]

I just want you to knwo that i think ur love entries is such a beautiful and wonderful series, thank you so much for all your work and efforts. Apologies for the shaky writing im on a bus rn goodness,

But what I love about the earlier parts about love entries ( I think 2006-2009?) is how I can kinda compare them to your name? Zen zen zense feels fitting just because of how upbeat and exhilarating for Gojo and readers dynamic. They remind me lots of mitsuha and taki. And i wouldnt doubt gojo would go across time and space to save reader really ( And grope readers boobs too if they did switch bodies on the daily )

Anyhow I love how you portray them so much, theyre so silly and goofy to me. You’re such a wonderful person, I hope you know that ^^ Your writing is as beautiful as your name. Yes id even compare it to an awesome movie like that because it deserves it imo

Thank you again wonderful stranger. If I could support you and send u money I would, maybe someday and I promise u deserve it 💕

oh wow… :’) nonnie, this message has single-handedly made my day bc it means a lot to me that you adore love entries enough that you’d compare it to “your name”🤧 tbh i have to admit i don’t have much inspo for love entries lately due to many drama in jjk fandom and me getting distracted with l&ds, but knowing that you think of it and even dropped by with this sweet message makes me so happy 🥺

and nonnie, you’re a wonderful person to spread kindness like this 🩵 please know that even little kindness like this can make one’s day to be much better! 🥹 sending you much love and i hope you’ll have a good day!✨

[artinvain]

Like Angel said babe always put yourself first. Everyone sending ask and request can wait. You deserve to rest and to be in a good place both mentally and physically, when you're creating the art that you're creating. Anyone who doesn't want to be patient can fuck off. But those of us who understand how busy you are, can and will wait. So please don't feel pressured to get anything out and if anyone's trying to pressure you I will kick their ass. I'm a new follower of yours and I've loved everything so far that I've read and I can't wait for more but always always always put yourself first. You deserve rest just as much as everyone else, if not more, and you don't owe anyone on here anything at all. So take all the time you need. Rest as much as you can. Make sure to stay hydrated and eat regularly and just overall take care of yourself first always. Sending you all my love forever and always. Mwahhhhh. (to anyone pressuring them I swear to God I will come though the fucking phone and kick your ass, fuck off please and thank you, they are fucking human and deserve a fucking break, don't make me break your fucking hands mwahhhh) Hope you're having a lovely day darlin mwahhhhhh. 🩵

dawg this is so fucking sweet 😭 thank you! I love writing and I feel so guilty not putting it out, I just don’t have the time or capacity and I want to continue so badly with all the fics in progress but you’re right. I’ve had like a really traumatic work experience with a man recently and it’s just thrown me off and made me unsafe, thank you a for caring about me even though we don’t really know each other. this is healing my experience with other tumblr users 😵‍💫😵‍💫! and these 12-14 hour work days are NOT a joke lmfao like I’m tired!

Also! No one at work respects my pronouns so just being referred to with my pronouns even online is just so!!!!! 💖💖☄️✨🌟🌟

and thank u again for your kind words! I appreciate you enjoying my writing heheheh!!

[daeyumi]

okay i know this response is like. super, SUPER late but thank u so much for sending this. tumblr refused to show me the images for months and i couldn’t figure out how to see them until just recently but i want u to know that this is super sweet and genuinely made my day

thank you 🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵

[gunsluut]

It's insane how u say ur mutuals hate u. Anytime you say something hurtful to yourself or someone sends hate, It blows my mind. I truly believe you deserve the absolute world.

1. You have the most relatable and best viewpoints/opinions ever & incredible taste in everything.

2. I have never seen such a gorgeous woman until I've seen you like um???? that's another spectrum of beauty, seriously.

3. Seems like the sweetest human ever, your aura is divine, it just speaks levels.

You don't even understand, I just admire your entire existence honestly, every atom bro

this made my whole day pls feel free to dm me whenever you want if we’re mutuals (and a girl)!!💕🩵 seriously love you sm & thank you for being so kind i hope you have a wonderful day

[stayxlix]

hihi it's been a while! i've been looking through my old playlists on spotify and found the one i made for otde. i've been listening to it for the past few days and its made me really miss the series, its still one of my favorites that i think i've ever read 🥹🥹. it's so special to me, i've been keeping up with it since july and i always look forward to your updates. i hope you get the time and motivation to continue writing it soon because i miss felix and mc and all their friends and i love the series sm <3

heres the playlist if youre curious! : https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3aWtxH61xkeM8zOB4ldrdQ?si=BGu3hcWHTtGi7G6rQEK4cg&pi=u-Kz5ARHqCR4-L

sending you all the love, i hope you have a fantastic day!

-🩵🪽

hi hiiiii sweet anon, thank you so much for reaching out.💕it means the world to me to know that you’re still enjoying otde after all these months.<3 knowing that you've been revisiting the series through your old playlist and missing it really warms my heart, not to mention that it ranks among your favorites that you've ever read??? thats incredible.🥹your kindness and encouragement couldn't have come at a better time because it fills me with motivation to know that you're excited to hear more of the story. rest assured, lix, mc, and all their friends are always on my mind and I'm determined to continue their journey (with new updates hopefully sometime soon).

and omg thank you SO MUCH for sharing the link to your playlist!!!💕😭 this just brightened my whole week, music is probably my biggest source of inspiration when i write (i love to turn it up loud and let it guide my imagination lol). i've been listening to your playlist and its absolutely fantastic, each song captures the essence of the story so beautifully and i can tell how much time and thought you put into it.🥹 im already thinking of which songs i want to add from yours to my own playlist i have for otde (i'll include the link below just in case you're interested). im so honored that you took the time to create something so special, your playlist has already been helping me immerse myself even further into lix/mc's world and i cannot thank you enough.🤭

once again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for your support, for believing in this little story, and for sharing your love for it.<3 much love anon, i hope you're having a wonderful week.🤗💕

(here’s my own little otde playlist that i listen to when i write: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4l4culwFVKIdDR7Hbw3GBa?si=9INKvvcNR8KLpHh4YiSMXA)

[hannieween]

I’ve been such a big fan of yours since last year with city lights and I loved every story you ever published here. I rarely ever write anonymous asks about fanfics because i’m too shy to send one to authors but a date with the devil is truly an exception! the fic is just beautiful so HOW COULD I NOT tell u my thoughts, you and the story deserve every bit of love! I adore the story so so much. I reread it again a while a go and I couldn’t resist just telling you how much I loved ittt.

The characterization of both the oc and jeonghan was masterfully written. The dynamics and the chemistry of their relationship, in its entirety, is so well executed (you can see how meticulously it was planned out). The kitchen scene is perhaps my favorite. I was at the edge of my seat when jh and oc was nearing their breaking point, the tension was so palpable, and I love how they initially tried resisting their feelings.

Beyond that, I just love how you’ve written the entire story and weaved the plotline seamlessly. The world-building and exposition from which the story flows was sublime and captivating, it hooks you upon reading the first line. Everything just clicks into place; the characters, the dynamics of said characters, the conflict, and THE RESOLUTION🥹. if it weren’t for the heinous tumblr word limit, I wish we could have gotten a glimpse of what happened when jeonghan and oc were apart. THE PEOPLE WANT TO SEE THE PINING AND THE LONGING AND THE RELENTLESS SEARCH FOR EACH OTHER DESPITE THE CIRCUMSTANCES i wonder what their reunion looked like and how they were able to manage and settle again and again and again after finding each other.

Im sorry for the word vomit, I adore u as a writer and you are so sweet to your readers🥹. This is all for now! 💋

words cannot express how happy this makes me. you have filled my heart with so much joy that it has fueled me to write gangster hannie pt 2 🥹

the kitchen scene is also my favorite haha. i had so much fun writing it! so seeing that it's your favorite too makes me so giddy! haha

you have nothing to worry about, nonnie. i get that you're shy, i am too! so thank you so much for approaching my askbox and thank you so much for leaving this wonderful ask, it has warmed my heart, made my day, my week, the rest of my year

thank you so much for this, baby. thank you for reading and for liking it so much that you came to my askbox. you seriously have no idea how happy you have made me 🥹🩵

hey, don't call this a word vomit. i love this ask with my whole heart. i love you. thank you 🩵😭

[gravehags]

HI ITS THE ANON THAT MADE U CRY which im SORRY FOR EVEN THOUGH THEYRE HAPPY TEARS !! have more kind words to say . im rrly glad i made ur day !!!! u deserve it rrly :3 i just needed to gush bc i rrly appreciate everything u've done for me even if u don't mean to

like before i found ur blog i used to be SO SO SO insecure of my stretch marks . im not even that chubby yet i still had them and i HAAATED it until i found ur blog . and reading some of the things u write and some of the things u say just made me feel better abt myself!!! so again . i appreciate u a lot . drink water !! ily /p :3

anon!! i am so glad to have made you feel more comfortable in your body after all my own self doubt 😭 and we love stretch marks in this household god dammit!! thank you for sending yet another kind message to me, you’re so lovely 🩵🩵🩵

[ogize]

Hi,

Just wanted to let you know that I love reading your blogs and it makes me smile that you are living your best life with Ogata.

I actually kinda envious that you got to see the museum and have some goodies ! Your uniform looks so cool too 😊

Best wishes to u 🩵

Thank you so much for your kind words! I had quite a difficult and unstable patient today so your message made my day so much better. It really means a lot and I appreciate you for going out of your way to send one.

( ˃̣̣̥᷄.⌓˂̣̣̥᷅ ) 💙

If you ever have a chance, I’m sure there will be many more events to go to once the last season comes out.

( ˶ˆᗜˆ˵ )

[hypnotisedfireflies]

ive been following u since you started posting dawn, and ive read every story of yours at least twice at this point. so far you written about 785 453 words, which is about 44.5 hours if i read every story once. but if we multiplyyyy, ive calculated thats ive spent atleast full 7 days reading your stories. youre literally my god. im in love with u btw

^ Me, before starting Dawn.

My goodness.

First - anon, ❤️. Thank you for sticking with me and reading and rereading. It's really difficult for me to express how much that means to me, so please know this thank you is loaded with sprinkles and appreciation. 😂

Second - the number crunching! Fricken WOW! I don't maths good so that makes my head spin. I am literally giggling with my hand to my head. I cannot account for how any of this happened.

But seriously, thanks for sending me this. I do worry about wearing out my welcome and getting spammy. (See that poll re posting frequency)... I know we all come and go in fandoms, and interest wanes as we get further away from a piece of media (...or ship) so people not reading doesn't bother me so much as alienating folks: "she posted again?!" 🫣🤭

Thank you for spending your time on my stories, anon. 🩵 You made my day!

[wintrwinchestr]

Hello Winter ❄️

I want to spread some love, hugs and forehead kisses to all the writers I adore.🩵 ( of course u are on that list)

I don’t even know how to start….so on a random day I decided to read the parts of “obedience” that are out so far and I’m floored. I don’t think in real life I would ever want to be a puppy but for Joel fucking Miller, I would be any day of the week. What made me giggle was this warning “one face slap but she likes it (and so do i)” because so do I !!!!!!! 😍🥰

Maybe I shouldn’t find it so hot to be slapped in the face but I just do there’s no stopping me. 🫣🤭

But what absolutely crushed me into oblivion was your rockstar!joel….. i’m serious. You must’ve put some kind of drug in your writing because it’s just wow, u turned me into a pathetic little puddle. The smut was so incredible hot and the whole Daddy thing is soooooooooo far up my alley so of course while actively reading I had to take multiple breaks to just calm down to not lose my mind while they were fucking.🥵

I would give my soul away to have that Joel fuck me the way he did reader even if it means unavoidable heartbreak. ❤️‍🩹

I truly hope that Reader chews the fuck out of him and makes him live in hell for treating her like that.

And for some reason, I was kind of thinking of Tommy Lee, which is maybe not that fitting, but that’s the only Rockstar I really know and for some reason he popped into my head 🧐

Lastly, I can only say I’m really excited for what else you got in store with both of these stories but please know that you should never feel pressured or forced to get a chapter or story out as quick as possible. I will wait however much time it takes because in the end, it’s absolutely worth it. 🩵

I hope u have fantastic day and take care of yourself Winter ❄️🫶🏻

mina, this is so incredibly kind and sweet, i saw this first thing this morning and i've been thinking about it all day, waiting until my work day was over so i could properly sit down and respond to you.

i'm happy that random lil tag made you giggle!! i probably giggled when i wrote it. you and me both find it hot to get slapped baby, nothing wrong with being into it 💖 every time i watch joel's lil interrogation scene from the first game and he does that "you focus right here" with the slap i blush and kick my feet like want him to do that to me 😔

i am so glad you love my baby rockstar!! daddy kink is like my #1 favorite thing, it pains me to write something without it like what else am i supposed to call u? i'm a slut for titles, especially that one 🤭

i'm excited to finish the next chapter and give it to you all to read!! i've put a lot of thought and work into what joel and reader are both going through post-morning after and then what happens after her little surprise performance that night, i hope you all enjoy reading it :)

you're so true for tommy lee bc i kind of associate him/motley crue with rockstar as well!! in my mind tommy was definitely like the sex, drugs and rock n roll pretty boy back in the day, that impression is mostly due to watching pam & tommy on hulu lol (highly recommend). you're right like it's not quite the same vibe but he definitely kept coming up in my mind too!!

i appreciate your kind ending words so so much 💖 i write/create in the free time i have from my full time job, my creative energy kind of ebbs and flows, some scenes and stories come easier than others but i am so happy i started writing again and i never would have imagined someone as sweet as you would take the time to say such nice things about my writing.

i did have a pretty good day today and you were definitely a part of that 😁 thank you again so much for sending me this amazing message, and thank you for reading!! 💖

[onlyswan]

hi art! if it's okay I want to ask you something, because this year, I've been meeting friends that are also ending abruptly and not in good terms. I've lost many friendships before (the two are caused by their relationship problems that I just didn't want to support) when I was in senior high, I am in this friend trio where in one of us left and made another friend group while my other friend has her own friend group too and I felt so out of place bc I don't have that, and now another friend of mine at the moment has been ignoring me bc of unknown reasons, it feels like I'm the only one reaching out for her. I'm the kind of person that is friends with everybody, one might say. now it makes me think that maybe there is something with me or how I treat people bc what do u mean I've lost 4 friendships in a span of a year :(((. i mean, i understand that some friendships are just fleeting feelings and it comes and go but why do mine ends abruptly and sometimes it seems like they just changed? I've been mourning for months bc of my childhood friend cutting me off from all of their social media without me knowing what did I do wrong and now someone's doing it to me again and it hurts so much. I just keep being left behind and I wanna be a better person and a better friend so I wouldn't be abandoned anymore. Have you felt like this? If so, how do you handle friendship breakups and the haunting feeling of isolation or being left behind? and I wanna know what do u think makes a good friend?

I'm sorry for putting all of these here. I just really really want to know your opinions on these and maybe share my situation if ever someone have also experienced this. And your blog is a safe space of mine!!!! Thank you, Art!!!!!!!

hi anonie :( i’m sending you an endless supply of warm hugs 🫂🫂🫂

of course i’ve lost some friends myself, mostly because we just naturally fell out of touch or we have changed, and those changes weakened the special connection we had. and that’s okay. i’ve learned to accept that. when you also perceive the changes in yourself throughout the time that’s passed you’ll realize that you actually need to be around different people when you’re in a different place in your life, sometimes that could mean cutting someone off. personally, it’s been painful having experienced both sides of it. but i have two best friends i’ve known for 13 years, and a very dear one for 6. i find consolation in knowing that i will always have them even if i lose a hundred other friends. sometimes i get scared that i’ll lose them too.

and i’ve realized over time that what makes our friendship strong is that we know each other so well. and because of that, we are kind, loving, and compassionate with each other. i think vulnerability isn’t necessarily sharing your whole life story, it’s just being transparent with how you feel <3 don’t be afraid of telling them how much you cherish them (after you have a great day of hanging out say thank you, i love you, let’s do this again, let’s do this other thing again next / reach out to them, say what happened, do you want to talk about it, what can i do to help, i’m sorry, i miss you, how are you, or share a story or a memory). don’t be afraid to tell them when they hurt your feelings too !! and how they can treat you more gently bcs if they care, they will learn. and if you care, you will give them the chance to do so. and vice versa !! that is how you grow together and know each other better 🩵 in friendships, i think that’s where effort really goes in.

heh i don’t know if i was much help 🥺 but the fact that you want to be a better person and a better friend is already a start and a big step!! however i hope you remember to value yourself and your energy too, and that you can always make new friends!! ily 🫂🩵

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