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tags: park sunghoon x fem!reader, established relationship, size kink, strength kink, bulge kink, d/s dynamics, dom!sunghoon x sub!reader, unprotected sex (plz donāt), breeding kink, creampie, dirty talk, degradation (slut, whore), praise kink?, nicknames (baby, princess, angel, hoonie, etc), slight fluff, lowkey pwp, reader is described to be shorter than hoon and is easy to pick up/throw around, reader is also very down bad for him (arenāt we all), etc
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add. notes: hoon won the poll i put out so i present to u my first ever enha work :3 thank u very much to everyone who voted n this will def not be the last enha fic i put out so do not worry there is much to come for hyung line!!! also icon creds to @/v4mpjay :3
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sunghoon doesnāt know how much longer he can take this.Ā
it all started when he began going to the gym regularly, slowly bulking his figure up and feeling himself grow out in his clothes. what used to be his lanky frame that greeted him in the mirror gradually turned into a built man with lean muscles and sharper features, adding to what was already there initially. it wasnāt like this wasnāt what he wanted though, albeit the entire reason why he even started working out in the first place being to improve his health and build better habits for himself, but the outcome wasnāt too bad in itself. he got used to feeling stronger, more lighter on his feet or less out of breath when he climbed the stairs, and it was enjoyable to know that he could lift twice his weight and still feel good as new. in some way, things felt like they were going swell.
that is, until you came into the picture.
now, sunghoonās always known that youāre small compared to him. even when standing side by side, his height next to yours is a little laughable, though he supposes youāre used to that considering youāve always been shorter than most of your peers. heās well aware of how you have to go on your tippy-toes when you guys kiss, and the soft feel of your little hands in his is something that spins in his mind constantly when your fingers lace together. it doesnāt help that you always ask him to fetch your favourite mug from the top cabinet too, his larger physique towering over yours each time he leans over from behind you. he likes to tease you about it, revelling in the way you pout cutely back at him whenever he makes fun of you jokingly despite the small smile playing at your lips, but little do you know about the twisted fantasies breaching his thoughts every moment you spend together. he wonders if you would be disgusted? would you dump him and tell all your friends about what a creepy loser he was? sunghoon canāt help but imagine the worst case scenario, and it would be easy to bury these emotions down the hatchet had it not been for the fact that heās started to think he is going mad too.Ā
every time sunghoon comes home from the gym, every time he enters your shared apartment, sweat dripping down his forehead and his water-bottle empty, he swears on his dead grandmother that you start checking him out. it doesnāt help that he's always been attentive either, always needlessly easy at picking up the cues of your discomfort when you're outside in a social space for too long, or being able to tell instantly when you're anything other than the happy go lucky girlfriend he usually sees you as. so, when your lingering gaze begins to trail across his arms a little too long whenever he passes your shared bedroom on his way to the shower, or when your mouth opens and closes to swallow before you're pressing your thighs together subtly each time he moves to wipe himself down each time heās homeā it all sparks something in him. it told him to finally, finally indulge in the nasty thoughts heās kept tucked away to himself once and for all.
except he doesnāt. because at the end of the day, sunghoon is a gentleman. he pulls open the doors for you with nonchalance written all over him despite his burning ears, and he brings you back your memorised coffee order alongside a few sweet treats when he knows youāre on your period. he holds you close when youāre asleep in bed together, rubbing a gentle thumb against the skin of your cheek because heās aware thatās what it takes for you to fall asleep, and makes sure you know heās always going to be there for you in any time of need, even if heās a thousand miles away. heās never once made you doubt him, never once given you any reason to suspect he could be anything beyond the perfect, storybook written boyfriend heās always been.Ā
until today, at least.
it was a day like any other, a day where you wouldnāt have expected things to take the turn they took at all. you and sunghoon were tangled up in your lavender sheets with your leg thrown over his, the morning sun streaming through the beige curtains youād picked out on your ikea date together, and no alarms were intact to disturb you as it was the weekend. thatās probably why you both found yourselves in your current situation, your mouths meeting sloppily for short kisses and your boyfriendās cock buried to the hilt inside you, thrusting ever so gently every other second as he whispered sweet praises to you between the meshing of your lips. the only sounds heard beyond the chirping of the birds outside your window were your soft moans and his low grunts, alongside the quiet noises of your slick dragging against his dick.
āfuck, baby. you feel so good.ā sunghoon mumbles, pressing gentle smooches along the skin of your chin and jaw. you reply back something unintelligible, too lost in the euphoria heās providing you to even form a coherent answer, which only makes him chuckle. he pulls back to admire your figure underneath him, a smile spreading across his lip at the sight of you laid out oh so pretty and pliant just for him. for him. all for his use. his use and his use only. the eventual thought makes his cock twitch inside you, and sunghoon momentarily slows down his movements in fear heāll accidentally lose control of himself and fuck you into the sheets. his loss of momentum causes you to whine out loud though, large doe eyes blinking up at him in wonder, almost as if asking what happened, which does not make your boyfriendās job any easier.
āhoonie, faster.ā you beg softly, one hand coming up to grip his shoulder as the other bundles up the duvet underneath you. āplease, wanā it so bad.ā sunghoon feels like his resolve is on the brink of snapping at your words, and he quickly resumes his previous pace (albeit still slower than what you wanted but better nonetheless) with gritted teeth, trying to think of something, anything that would distract him from the realisation of how fucking small you look under him, or how soft your hand feels resting on his skin. it doesnāt help that the sounds spewing from your lips are so cute, only spurring him on further to do what he longs to.Ā
āyeah, angel? want it faster? want hoonie to fuck you deeper?ā he groans out instead, biting his lip at the sight of you nodding almost instantly to his words. your hole clenches even tighter around him as he speaks to you, and he shudders at the sensation. āshit, donāt do that, princess. might cum too quickly.ā he exhales shakily, confused when you shake your head. ādonāt care. cum fāme. wanna feel it, please.ā you plead almost instantly without thinking, sunghoonās eyes darkening as the request leaves your mouth. his pace comes to an immediate halt after that, and you make a noise of complaint at the loss of pleasure in your lower region, legs kicking up slightly in protest as you eye your boyfriend whoās currently trying to compose himself above you.
ādonāt.. donāt say stuff like that.ā sunghoon sighs, eyes closed shut as you cock your head to the side. youāre about to ask him why when he speaks up again. āi wonāt be able to hold myself back if you do.ā he professes darkly, opening his orbs back up to look deep into yours, his smouldering gaze making you shiver. you involuntary tighten around him at his confession, and he hisses at the feeling, head snapping to look down at you and the blush spreading across your cheeks.Ā
āi-i donāt.. donāt want you to hold back.ā you mutter whilst looking away meekly before he can even comment on your actions. you meet his stare again after a beat of silence, but thereās something dark and sinister swimming in it now, and by the time you can even process what it is, heās suddenly sheathing himself back into your warm walls, plowing into you with a heightened pace as if this is the last time heāll ever get to fuck you. your moans tumble out of your mouth before you can even stop them, and you swear you hear sunghoon growl at the way you keen from his movements.Ā
āyeah? donāt want me to hold back? want me to absolutely destroy this wet cunt with my cock? ruin it for everybody else and mould it to the shape of my dick?ā he grunts, a smirk spread across his face as you wildly nod at his words. āwhat, too fucked out to speak now, baby? whereās that confidence from before, hm?ā you whimper at his condescending tone, the noise travelling straight to his core as he curses, continuing to plunge himself deep into you. the tip of his cock brushes against that spongey spot inside you, and you cry out when he angles his thrusts to hit it each time he drives inside your pussy.Ā
āwho knew you were such a slut, huh baby? tell me, how long have you wanted me to spread you open and fuck you like i hated you?ā sunghoon pants, tongue lolling out to lick at the sweat gathering on your neck. ās-so long, hoonie!ā you mewl in response, eyes rolling to the back of your head when he bites down on your skin. āwanted you toā hnng, wanted you to bend me over and throw me around so bad!ā sunghoon laughs breathlessly at your answer.Ā
āyeah, pretty? want me to use my big arms and toss you onto the bed? you shouldāve told me sooner that you were such a whore.ā you clench at the degrading name, and sunghoon almost stumbles into you at the sudden jolt of shock. āwouldāve done everything you wanted me to. wanted it just as bad as you, did ya know that?ā he grits out, pace unrelenting and unforgiving as he proceeds to pound into you. āyouāre so fucking small, baby. makes me so goddamn hard every time i think about it. just want to, oh fuckā want to hold you down and make you take it.āĀ
ādo it! do it, hoonie, please do it! make me take it, i wanā take it for you.ā you sob, and sunghoon physically feels the last of his self restrain break in half. heās far too fucked out now to go back to his old ways, far too gone in the dizziness of making you feel good. his only goal now is to make you cum violently around him, and heāll stop at nothing to achieve that. āgonna do it, baby. just wait, gonna fuck you so dumb, youāll be begging me to stop.ā he pauses momentarily to grab at the plush of your thigh and tosses your leg over his shoulder, resuming his past actions in the blink of an eye as you cry out at the change. he hits deeper, more harsh this way, and you swear you can feel him battering your cervix with each thrust delivered to your abused cunt.
āfuck, look at that.ā sunghoon laughs in disbelief, his eyes fixed on the slightly evident bulge of his cock thrusting in and out of you in your stomach. ātaking my cock so well, princess. you gonna cum for me soon, yeah? gonna cum for hoonie and make a mess of me?ā he coos at the way youāre drooling, swiping a thumb up to wipe at the spit leaking out of your mouth before sucking it off, the visual of it only making you whine even more. by now, the bed is stained with your leaking arousal, but neither of you care, especially not when he involuntarily moves his hand to press down on your stomach. his movements only cause you to double over in pleasure, and before either of you know it, youāre shaking through an orgasm, thrashing and wailing as tears stream down your face.
āshit, shit, shit! thatās so hot, oh fuck.ā sunghoon moans. āyou did so well, angel. did so fucking good for me, you deserve a reward, donāt you? donāt you, my baby?ā he rambles, and you whine in overstimulation as his thrusts grow more frantic and misplaced when he begins chasing his own release. āget ready, princess, ām gonna fill you up. gonna breed you so, so good and make you take it, yeah? youāll take it, wonāt you? take it so good for me like you always do.ā by this point, youāre both trembling and whining out loud, sunghoon pistoning his hips into you as he desperately fixes to cum. he can feel the pressure building up, his balls tightening with each harsh thrust he delivers inside of you, and youāre more than ready to feel him ooze out of you, encouraging words spilling from your lips.
ādo it, hoonie! do it, please! make me full and fuck it back into me. iāll take it so good, so good, please baby, please.ā youāre babbling by now, too fucked out to think let alone speak, but your words seem to send sunghoon over the edge because by the time youāre even halfway through your sentence, heās shooting ropes inside of you, painting your walls white with his seed. thereās so much of it that it almost leaks out despite his cock keeping you plugged up, and you watch his beautiful face contort in pleasure, eyebrows furrowed and eyes clenched shut as he continues filling you up.Ā
āfuck..ā sunghoon sighs out once heās come down from his high, looking down to grip his cock and pull it out slightly only to push it back in when your cunt gushes with his release, causing him to bite his lip at the sinful sight. you whine when he moves back into you, his large arms caging your smaller frame in as he leans down to pepper salty kisses all over your face. āmy good girl.ā he whispers, slightly collapsing on top of you to catch his breath. his weight on you feels comforting, almost natural as you wrap your tired arms around his back tightly, pressing your bodies together even more than they already are to feel closer and connected to him.
āi didnāt know you were into that.ā sunghoon speaks up after a moment of silence, causing you to open your eyes and look at him. he moves so heās laying on his side, cock still keeping you plugged up despite the awkward position. āinto what?ā he deadpans at your reaction, and you giggle. ācāmon, babe. you canāt seriously look like that and expect me to not be feral for you.ā you smile, and sunghoon huffs out a laugh, spooning an arm around you as he pulls your body closer to his warm one. āstill, who knew my girl was so freaky?ā you swat at him, and his chest rumbles with laughter, the sound sending an odd pool of warmth flowing through your chest. you both lay there in silence after that, basking in each otherās presence and enjoying the serenity and afterglow which comes from what was quite literally the best sex of your lives.Ā
āi love you.ā you hear sunghoon mumble suddenly, his voice drowsy as he yawns cutely, a large grin spreading on your face at the simple three words which leave him. you reach out for his hand, lacing your small fingers in it before bringing it up to your mouth and pressing a kiss to the back. ālove you more, hoonie.ā you sigh out in satisfaction, eyes slipping shut slowly as sleep welcomes your tired senses.
you gradually drift off, thoughts filled with sweet dreams of your boyfriend and his precious laughter.Ā
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āø INTERESTS; -jjk! nanami kento x f!reader
āø BACKGROUND; -not any plot truly, just straight smut, making love late at night MY FAV!! (im a whole virgin)
āø WARNINGS; - wc.2.4k, kissing, teasing, riding, fingering, p in v, nipple play, sucking, whining, bla bla bla
āøa.i; - omg new oneshot!! i made a poll asking who i should write abt this morning and 100 votes came in for my sexy baby daddy so im here to feed u guys!! xoxo
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You awoke in the middle of the night to your phone ringing softly, the vibrations from it on your nightstand making you get up. As you turned to grab your phone, the call ended, you only muttered to yourself as you were now sat up in your bed. You held your phone in your hand, realizing the call was from your close friend and checked the time.
1:13am, you read with a squint, still trying to adjust to the dimly lit screen this late at night.
There were only two reasons as to why she could call you this late. She was either having intrusive thoughts about breaking contact with her ex, or she was calling to tell you how drunk she was at her apartment, and she wants you to come and accompany her. You stood up, grabbing your soft silk robe from your closet door and stepped out of the room.
You made your way over to the kitchen, dialing her number back and waiting for her to answer. You grabbed a water bottle and opened it when she soon answered. Rambling on about how drunk she was and how much fun she was having, saying she didn't want you to miss out on it and for you to come over to her place, you only smiled and shook your head.
"It's past 1am, I was asleep when you called, you need to get some sleep too unless if you don't plan on clocking in later." You spoke, drinking from your bottle as you listened to her ramble, sadly it's as if she hadn't heard a single word you said.
She was always like this honestly; you couldn't blame her. Between the two of you someone had to be outgoing and crazy enough to do things like this. You could never be mad at her for it though, it was sweet honestly, even when she was intoxicated, she always had you in mind.
The conversation between the two of you soon wrapped up, as she assured you, she wasn't alone and was with her brother. She even facetimed you as proof and to which you spoke to her brother for a while. Thankfully he was a little more responsible than she was, assuring you that the night had ended, and the drinks were being put away so his sister could rest.
You only thanked him and wished him a goodnight, as he did in return to you and you said goodbye to your friend, waving as you heard the call click. You finished your water bottle and went to place the bottle in the shared recycle can you had in the kitchen before feeling two firm arms snake their way around your waist.
You only smiled, knowing exactly who it was as you were used to this multiple times before. You placed your hands over his arms and squeezed, earning a tired grunt from him as he bent down to kiss the top of your head.
"If you weren't my fiancƩ I would've screamed when you touched me y'know?" You joked, feeling him smile against the top of your head, he let go of your waist as you let go of his arms and he placed his hand in yours. He soon guided you out of the kitchen and back to the shared bedroom you two had, the dim lights from outside helping you to see his figure perfectly.
Your fiancƩ was a well-kept man, perfectly built as if sculpted by the gods. Honestly, even as a woman you were envious of his body, but when compared to others you were considered lucky, very lucky. So, you couldn't push it too much, because they were right, you were lucky.
"Come back to bed" Kento spoke, now entering your bedroom and sitting on your side of the bed where you were previously resting. You only smiled at him as you placed your phone back down on the nightstand, he never let go of your free hand, pulling you near him.
"You're such a flirt" you said to him, watching his every move. He only hummed in response and kissed your palm as you made your way on top of him, straddling him now. His other hand made its way to your lower back, now keeping you in place as his kisses traveled higher, from your palm to your arm and now your shoulder, not removing his eyes from yours.
You looked away nervously, feeling a familiar tingle in your lower belly, you knew exactly what he was doing. He soon placed his hand from your lower back onto the back of your neck, slowly bringing your head down to kiss him passionately. It felt nice, he felt nice, you couldn't complain, nor could you just turn or look away from him, you were captivated by him.
You were the first to pull away, your breathing heavy as you looked at him, he still kept his hand on the back of your head. He only pushed your head back for your lips to connect yet again, but not kissing the same as before. It was wet and sloppy, your tongues practically fighting-
no,
Dancing with one another, and it only made the weak feeling within your lower belly stronger as he moved his hands, now gripping both sides of your hips as he kissed you eagerly. You quickly pulled away, covering your mouth and wiping out of embarrassment as a small line of saliva dripped from it and down to your chin.
He only looked at you with a cheerful smile, loosening his grip on your hips and began to tug on your robe, wanting it to come off. In all seriousness, you weren't even properly dressed, without the robe you only had on a small black tank-top and red panties.
You let go of him for an instant, taking off your robe and tossing it, he smirked in approval. As you straddled him again you could feel him underneath you, the friction becoming unbearable as he continued to rub himself against one of your most vulnerable places. Well not him genuinely speaking, it was his co-
"Can I play with you baby? Just for a little while?" He asked, looking into your eyes and then your lips for an answer. You responded with a 'yes', soon after biting your bottom lip and watching his movements. Now seated in the middle of the bed you two shared he began to kiss your skin above your collarbone while you grinded on him, both of you partially clothed and breathing heavily.
He had gone to bed with nothing but his boxers on, but now he was threatening to take them off in one quick move, unable to bear the teasing anymore. His hands roamed your body, teasing your nipples through your top as you mewled softly, grabbing his wrist softly as you guided his hand lower to your now wet spot on your underwear.
Throughout the time of your twos dirty work not a word was spoken to one another, well, barely. You had known each other's bodies well enough and exactly what you craved, Kento knew this and quickly got to work, unbuttoning the one small button that was practically ready to burst out from his erection, letting it spring out free.
When you moved back a little to look at it, it looked like he was in pain. Like painfully hard, honestly this wasn't the first time, but it was sweet seeing how you had him this intense every time, he never seized to amaze you. He began to tug at your underwear, to which you got off the bed, standing up as he watched your every move.
You bent over, hooking your thumbs into the hems of your underwear where they sat nice and pretty on your hips, shimmying a little as you pulled them all the way down to your ankles and stepped out of them. You slowly made your way back onto the bed and on top of Nanami once again, who only looked at you in awe, and maybe hunger.
You only cupped your hands on both of his cheeks before kissing him again, this time he kept a hand on your hip as another one found its way to your core. He cupped it softly as you jolted slightly, feeling his middle finger brush against your clit. He smiled into the kiss, placing his thumb over your clit and rubbing it gently, feeling the vibrations of you grunting and moaning in his mouth.
You pulled away, keeping a hand over your mouth yet again and his own mouth as you felt him insert a finger inside you. Immediately pushing up into you as far as he could, watching as your shivered slightly, and removed your hand from his mouth, moaning into your hand. He soon removed his hand from your hip and grabbed your wrist, removing your hand from your mouth and kissed your palm yet again.
Within a short period of time, you felt an immense amount of pressure build up inside of you, making you immediately want to shut your legs. (Un)fortunately, your fiancƩ had already caught onto this, quick to hold one of your legs apart as he now quickened his pace, smirking at you.
He soon grabbed a hold on your tank-top after you promised to not close your legs, lifting and revealing your hardened nipples to him and the cold air of the room. He chuckled to himself slightly as he stuck his tongue out, teasing you and watching as your back arched before sucking on them and inserting another finger.
You quickly grabbed onto his shoulders, now riding his fingers as you were trying your best to reach your high and quickly, knowing he wouldn't let you cherish this bliss moment for long. He soon began to lick your upper torso, the sweat beads that rolled off your body were his to consume, as if your entire body was a drug he was high on.
It was as if you had jinxed it because just seconds before you were ready to cum, he quickly removed his fingers from within you, keeping his thumb on your clit and coming to a full stop in movement. Before you were even able to stop your moans and begin your whining and protests, he aligned his cock with your entrance.
Without warning or count he quickly thrusted himself inside, halting and burying himself within your chest as he moaned along with you, your nails now digging deeper into his shoulders. You had completely forgotten how vocal Kento was, damn near as vocal as you, and you loved every moment of it.
"No condom?" You gasped, now playing with his hair as he kept his head between year breasts, slowly moving inside you. He only shook his head slightly, bringing his head back up and looking you in the eyes and kissing you.
"You're to be my wife, no? Whatever my wife wants she gets." He only stated, now thrusting sloppily into you as you moaned. You attempted to bounce back on him while he thrusted into you, just for him to wrap both of his arms tightly around your bottom and thrust into you even harder.
Now repeating his earlier actions and sucking on your nipples, watching as you unraveled within his arms, only getting more turned on by the sight. His mouth now moved to your neck, giving you several hickeys and wet sloppy kisses.
As he quickened his pace you tapped his chest lightly, feeling the same blissful feeling as before coming back, your lower abdomen feeling as if it was floating while the rest of your body was hot and shaking. He only smiled, taking this as the most perfect time to tease you.
"M'gonna get you pregnant. It's what my wife wants, yeah? My baby is gonna grow right here..." He teased, placing his right hand on your belly and rubbing it as you mewled, nodding your head before you bent slightly, placing your head on his shoulder. Your high was approaching with great force and speed, barely able to contain it anymore.
"My beautiful girl is gonna be a mommy, are you excited baby? You excited that I get to fill you up?" He cooed, now rubbing your back with one hand and placing the other over your lower abdomen, pressing down slightly as your moans became louder. You hummed in response, nodding vigorously as your high had approached, exclaiming loudly, biting down on Kento's shoulder to control yourself as your body spasmed.
Your eyes rolled to the back of your head for only a moment, soon after you came down, your breathing ragged. His thrusts had now slowed down, becoming sloppier than before as he began to breath heavier, his orgasm not far behind from yours.
As verbal as he was before he wasn't that way now, focused on reaching his orgasm as he screwed his eyes shut, taking deep breaths. As your head rested on his shoulder you too began to moan aloud and grunt softly, his thrusts overstimulating you as you had just come down from your orgasm.
You quickly began to clench around his cock, attempting to make him reach his high sooner, which worked. He buried his face alongside your side as he huffed, muttering a series of words, words of praise if you will, before completely reaching his orgasm. His last thrust sent shivers down your spine as he came inside of you, not leaving a single drop to waste, staying inside of you for a moment before pulling out and kissing your shoulder.
"Are you alright?" He asked, as you pulled away, looking at him and smiling, nodding to him as you brushed his hair away from his face, that had to stuck to his temple from his sweat. He smiled softly at you, seeing your tired expression and actions before fixing your side of the bed to sleep before joining you on his side.
You two exchanged little to barely any conversation between drifting off to sleep, his arms wrapped around you as you rested on his chest. You both had thought of the idea of cleaning up in the shower or changing into new clothes, but you were too exhausted to do so.
The last thing you can vividly remember before drifting off to sleep was how you were going to hide the love bites and hickeys he had given you before work the following morning. Scarves or giant sweaters weren't even in the question as it was the middle of the summer, and you sweat easily.
You'd find out when you got there.
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i see it in your eyes
pairing: park junmin x f!reader šš word count: 1.32k šš content: fluffish, suggestive towards the end, swearing, best friends to more ig, š£ļø DIE FOR YOU JUNMIN MENTIONED!!!!!! u have been warned, that performance changes the trajectory of readers life, hunjae stirring the pot before they even know the pot exists, a very Passionate kiss, not betaād or proofread! u alr know
synopsis: you had never thought of junmin in this light prior to tonight, but you donāt think you could ever see him the same.
ąØą§ watched a fancam that happened to be from one year ago last night and wellā¦ letās just say my fingers had a mind of their own! ur welcome :3
You think youāre going crazy.
Scratch that. Youāre positive that youāre going crazy.
One would think that being best friends with Park Junmin of xikers was probably a dream come true. To an extent, you guess you could agree. Junmin was the attentive type. He always had this sixth sense for whenever you needed something. But that was just who he was a person, an idol or not.
Right now, however, you were wishing that you werenāt best friends with Park Junmin.
He, so kindly, invited you to a show of their first tour and as you watch his unit stage with Hunter, you feel yourself slowly descend into insanity. As long as youāve known him, you have never seen this side of Junmin before. Heās done a pretty good job at separating his idol and personal lives, so even when he was practicing, heād never let you see. Now you know why.
The way he moves to the song, Die For You by The Weeknd, has your heart stuttering in your chest. Youāve known since his trainee days that he was a good dancer, but for him to evoke such strong emotions from youā¦ Yeah, you were screwed. Royally.
And to put icing on top of the cake, he pulls up his shirt to show the audience his fucking abs.Ā
Under the blue lights and the spell that entrances him every time he performs, Junmin looks breathtaking. Anybody with eyes could see visually that he was attractive, yeah, but for the first time in your friendship, youāre finally seeing it for yourself. His skin glistens ethereally and his expressions capture the mood of the moment perfectly. If you didnāt know better, youād think you were drooling with how awestruck you are.
Minjae, who was observing the two from off to the side of the stage with you, canāt stop himself from laughing at your reaction. He pats your back as the song draws to a close. The action is supposed to be comforting, yet itās anything but, considering he was poking fun at you not even two seconds ago. You wish the ground would swallow you whole.
The rest of the concert is kind of a blur, your brain hyper fixating on Junminās Die For You performance. Time has long since passed, and the lot of you have found yourselves all crammed in the dorm with a table full of food. Your appetite is hardly there, nerves eating away at you as you sit beside your best friend, unable to look him in the eye.Ā
The two of you havenāt had the chance to talk about the show yet, and you can tell heās just itching to ask for your opinion. He frowns when he realizes you havenāt touched your plate, something very out of character for you. Youād had an entire discussion about not eating much before the concert so you could enjoy this grand meal with him and his members.
āIs everythingāā
Hunter interrupts him with a clearing of his throat. āSo, Y/N, how did you like Junmin and Iās stage?ā
He wiggles his eyebrows at you and it takes absolutely everything in you not to burst into flames. You dig your nails into your palms before answering. āIf your goal was to seduce the crowd, then you guys did a really good job!ā
The table erupts into laughter and you silently praise whatever higher being exists that you kept your cool. Minjae makes eye contact with you across the table, pretending to zip his lips and throw the key to the other side of the room. You mouth a āthank youā to him, jumping back into the conversation when someone else asks you about the show.Ā
Ultimately, your dinner continues without a hitch. No one finds out how you truly felt in regards to the Die For You performance, and you assume youāve made it out scot-free. You shouldāve known your best friend was too perceptive for his own good. Especially when it comes to you.
One of the groupās drivers brought you back to your apartment and, of course, Junmin tagged along to ensure you got home safely. The entire drive over there is silent save for whatever music was playing lowly on the radio. Thereās a weird tension in the air between you, even as he asks to walk you to your door. As youāre unlocking it, Junmin stops you.Ā
āDid I do something?ā He blurts out, halting you from entering your apartment. His hands shove into the pockets of his sweatpants nervously.
āWhā Huh?ā
āYou havenāt talked to me much since we got back from the concert. I thought it was just in my head at first, but then we were in the car together and you didnāt say a single word to me. Did I do something to upset you? Please, let me know so I can apologize and never do it again.ā He explains.Ā
āNo!ā You shake your head profusely. āYou did nothing wrong, Junminā¦ Iām justā Iām the one being weird.ā
āCan you tell me why at least? Itās gonna bother me all night until you do.ā He fiddles with his fingers, rocking back and forth on the balls of his feet. Part of you is way too embarrassed to admit the true reasoning behind you avoiding him. Though, the bigger part of you is well aware that he would never judge you. And the last thing you need is to keep secrets from your best friend.
āDonāt laugh, okay?ā You raise your pinkie, and when he locks it with his own you let out a heavy sigh. āIā¦ canāt stop thinking about the Die For You performanceā¦ā
His eyebrows furrow together, eyes cast down at the carpeted floor beneath you in deep thought. God, even when heās confused, he looks so cute. You might actually explode right here in the middle of the hallway. You had never thought of Junmin in this light prior to tonight, but you donāt think you could ever see him the same. Because of that, you needed to tell him how you felt.Ā
āI donāt understāā
āI couldnāt stop staring at you, Junmin. Youāve never let me see you that way. Youāre always so modest and so shy and I donāt know Iā seeing you let go of that on stage, seeing how confident you can be made me feelā¦ā You trail off, averting his intense gaze.Ā
He takes a step closer to you, unwavering when his index finger slides under your chin, lifting it so youāre forced to look at him again. āāMade you feelā what exactly?ā
Your lips part in surprise, that same confidence from earlier controlling him. His eyes are darker than usual. You swallow thickly when you say, āLike I could fall in love with you.ā
Junmin wastes no time connecting your lips in a sweet, passionate kiss. Despite never imagining what it would be like to be in this situation, itās somehow simultaneously everything you thought it would be. Sparks ignite from where your mouths meet all the way to the tips of your fingers. One of his hands comes up to cup your jaw and the other rests on your waist. Meanwhile, one of yours tangles in his hair and the other fists at the front of his shirtā fittingly a white tank top.Ā
āYou have no idea how long Iāve wanted to do this,ā he whispers against your lips, eyelashes brushing your cheeks. āHow long Iāve been waiting for you to look at me this way.āĀ
Itās difficult not to gasp into his kiss, a small whine escaping you. Perhaps they werenāt lying when they said boys and girls could never just be friends. You slot your lips with his once more before parting gently, peering up at him with the softest of smiles. āThen show me.ā
He doesnāt think twice about urging you into your apartment.
Ā© ššššššššššš.
#xikers#xikers x reader#xikers junmin#park junmin#park junmin x reader#junmin x reader#xikers drabbles#junmin drabbles#š tiramisumin
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TRANS HICCUP!!!! Him and Astrid are very t4t
berkās power couple
#mochis mumbles#my art#ask#anonymous#httyd#how to train your dragon#hiccup horrendous haddock iii#hiccup haddock#astrid hofferson#THANK U FOR GETTING MY VISION. THEYRE BOTH TRANS & RULING THE WORLD#Astrid and hiccup r THEEEEE t4t couple of my childhood.#aughhh. i have so many thoughts about both of their gender explorations and coming-tos and what not#TY FOR THE ASK BTW been meaning to draw them explicitly trans.#theyre always trans on my blog#unless i specify#btw Astridās cheek scar is a headcanon of mine and itās from the red death fight!#itās only fun if you get a scar out of it after all#art
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Any songs on the tortured poets department or the anthology that remind you of Emilie agreste or any other ML character? (though I know Emilieās your special interest) I feel like the albatross and I can do it with a broken heart remind me so much of Adrien, and I always love your Taylor swift lyric analysis posts.
EXCELLENT question considering taylor swift just released an emilie agreste album. (and youāre so right about the adrien songs i definitely thought so too.) there were 6 songs that stood out to me as emilie songs, the first being:
I Can Fix Him, No Really I Can
this one is. well. itās obvious that emilie is into toxic men. i love the idea that when she first got entangled with gabe, he was just an absolute broke problematic punk bisexual disaster (we can't ignore the harriel evidence) who her parents hated sooooo bad. and like literally everybody was so right that he was bad news but emilie was so confident that she could fix him until she finally realized that she was fr dying and he was actually going to terrorize the world about it. oops.
I Can Do It With A Broken Heart
already mentioned as an adrien song (which it is) but emilie and adrien are admittedly very similar and this song hits on exactly why. itās about having such a tight control on how youāre perceived by others, putting on a fake persona that can be idolized and adored by everyone no matter how youāre feeling inside. itās about being SO good at your job that you canāt actually get out of it. accidentally mythologizing yourself. losing your grasp of what is performance vs authenticity. you get it
Clara Bow
OKAY THIS ONE MAKES ME CRAAAZY. okay okay okay. so SPEAKING of accidentally mythologizing yourself, the song clara bow hits on a lot of the same themes as icdiwabh but there's this added sense of inevitable circularity to it that just drives me insane. I especially think a lot about adrien almost inheriting his mother's space in the public eye - the way emilie's acting career and universal adoration paved the way for adrien to be famous from birth, the kind of fame that makes his life almost unlivable at times. the whole bridge articulates it beautifully, I think - "beauty is a beast that roars down on all fours/demanding more" and "it's hell on earth to be heavenly." the idea that the world demands beauty from emilie, and she gives and gives until her ambition eventually breaks her, and she passes the performance down to adrien. and he takes up the mantle. the future's bright, dazzling.
Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus
so again, we return to the alleged bisexual punk disaster youth of gabriel agresteš this song is mostly related to my personal way that I imagine gabe and emilie's early years lol. I imagine that one of the things that drew emilie to gabe initially was that he was so opposite of the way her british nobility family was, and she was trying to escape that life. but eventually, once the money and success got to him, he became someone exactly like the family she once ran from. and she became different too, in a way she always regretted. hence the "say that I loved you the way that you were." the part of this song that feels VERY emilie to me is the "I changed into goddesses, villains, and fools/changed plans and lovers and outfits and rules/all to outrun my desertion of you." I think that emilie is very malleable, easily adapting her personality and presentation to fit whoever she's trying to please at the moment. but she never plans to stick around for long.
I Hate It Here
this one makes me laugh bc "I'd say the 1830's but without all the racistsš" ABSOLUTELY feels like something emilie agreste would sayš and feel like she cured racism. but as for the actual song, I see emilie as always tending toward escapism. no matter how content she's trying to be in her situation, she's always stitching together an escape plan in the back of her mind. she doesn't like being tied down. she's such a romantic, and constantly disappointed by reality. always planting secret gardens in her mind
The Bolter
THE BOLTER!!!!! IS THE EMILIE AGRESTE SONG OF ALL TIME. TO ME. okay okay every single line but especially verse 2. "he was a cad, wanted her bad/just like any good trophy hunter/and she liked the way it tastes" just SAY gabriel and emilie. just say it. also the "splendidly selfish, charmingly helpless" SCREAMS emilie to me. one of the first things that ever came to me about emilie was her being flighty and kind of unreliable, as well as deeply attention seeking. I think of her as someone who gets restless if she's in the same place for too long, who has trouble with commitment. it's easy for her to feel trapped, and her impulse is always to break free. thinking about how content she was to leave behind her loved ones, "there's an escape in escaping" really defines her character to me. and of course it bleeds into adrien's struggle with confinement and tendency to run away when he's feeling unwanted etc etc <3
THANKS FOR ASKING A QUESTION SO RELEVANT TO MY CURRENT INTERESTS<3 umm I will throw in a bonus adrien song which is robin. ok goodnight
#anna rambles#asks#ml#ttpd#ts#emilie agreste#thirteen#it's thirteen related. let's be real#im done with finals so I finally had time to finish answering this ask dfsnkjdsk#I get so many lovely asks but I always want to spend like 3 hours answering them but I do not have time#THANK U FOR THE ASK. IT WAS FUN.
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MC Heath's chatter line about being able to move his arms weirdly while he sounds genuinely happy makes me sick he is so dear to me
LET'S ALL APPRECIATE THIS LINE HE IS SO ANNOYING GOD BLESS
there rly is something so bittersweet about this ID... that little self-esteem moment about his career in uptie chatter 2, then this one with that pride he shows at times about his body & strength... and at the same time that feeling that it's all for naught. the second of hesitation when he thinks abt what in his mind could POSSIBLY be worth returning to... you need someone to share it with. even if the person who loves you isn't here you can at least show your manager who has been trying to be your friend... argh!!
#ask the bell#anonymous#limbus company#heathcliff lcb#u guys know why im bringing up the body as the number 1 trans guy heatho truther i always get so emo when he gets little shit like this#hes Seriously not as proud of himself in general as his book self but he does have his moments#yes my arms are making me depressed and reminding me of the utter monotony of life etc YES i do think theyre awesome check this shit out#thank nyall for talking about him with me i was being insane with friends earlier but its always so fun to share#big sigh... HEATHCATHY THE WORLD!#also wow so many people on this post. go on my wiring tag and read my bullshit boy
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bad batch request!! maybe tech and echo vibing or working on something together? i am also being extremely normal about the s3 tralier
my fave tech bros ā¼ļøš«¶ so glad i'm not the only one being Normal abt the s3 trailer. if we don't get more tech and echo interactions in the new season i will be banging on corbett's door TRUST
btw my bad batch drawing requests are still open! :> feel free to send me prompts, altho no promises that i'll get to them all or that i'll draw them in order š«”
#the bad batch#tbb#tbb tech#tbb echo#star wars#sw#art#illustration#cryiling art#first time drawing echo im ngl it was really difficult š#struggling to make the clones recognizable but unwhitewash them šš#like my same face syndrome has always been SO bad but I'm rlly trying to improve š hopefully it looks ok#THANK U FOR THE ASK THIS WAS SO MUCH FUN!!!!
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Ari :(( thinking about suguru again I fear,, when am I not,, thats not the point,, but thinking about you getting an injury maybe breaking an arm or something and heās so worried. Doesnāt want his baby hurt :(( frets and freaks out like not really freaks out cause I think heād be calm but he cares. Wants to know how it happened and if youāre in pain. If someone else caused it heās out to kill. You ask him to sign your cast and he almost sobs. Doesnāt let you lift a finger. He never lets you lift a finger but even more so now. Helps you shower or take a bath and is just so careful. Loves to wash your hair for you. Puts in effort too to learn how you do your hair. Helps you get dressed even if youāre like I can do that >:(( cause he doesnāt want you to overwork yourself. Helps you carry things. If you came to him crying when it happened his poor heart would shatter. Getting a cast to match his eyes :((. He wouldnāt like that youāre hurt but I think heād like taking care of you more. Like he understands you wanting to do things for yourself and thats why he never pushed before but now he has a reason to push. Complaining about how you look with the cast thinking it makes you look ugly or something and heās instantly like. Take that back. Take it back. Cause youāre cute always donāt you see? He just wants to nurse you back to health. He loves you so much.
:((((((( REMMMMMM R U GENUINELY OUT TO GET ME WTF ā¦ā¦ā¦ this made me so sniffly i love him so bad šš (this got long also oops)ā¦
no bc rem as literally always weāre holding hands and our brains are syncing ā¦. i canāt tell you how many times iāve daydreamed abt this exact scenario LIKE ITāS SOOOO PERFECT FOR HIM and you literally described it so well i wanna cry ā¦. thereās fluff potential and thereās angst potential but more than anything itās just a whole bunch of hurt/comfort and you alr know what that trope does to me šš
but goshā¦.. he would just be. so so worried and doting :(((((( and he would feel so guilty :(((((((( like no matter how you got the injury i feel like he would blame himself for it. for not being there or not watching over you enough. even if you tell him that it wasnāt his faultā¦ā¦ and then he overcompensates by coddling you even more than usualā¦ā¦ TāT ādoesnāt want his baby hurtā hhhhhh sugu viewing his s/o as his baby specifically makes me lose it like heās sooo serious abt being your caretakerā¦.. itās his job to protect you and he failedā¦ā¦. :((( poor baby would beat himself up over it so much šš
frets and freaks out like not really freaks out cause I think heād be calm but he cares. Wants to know how it happened and if youāre in pain. If someone else caused it heās out to kill. You ask him to sign your cast and he almost sobs. (ā¦) If you came to him crying when it happened his poor heart would shatter.
ā¹ļøā¹ļøā¹ļøā¹ļø OUR BABYYYYY no bc i think he would absolutely panic but heād do it silentlyā¦. youāre so right remā¦ā¦ā¦. youāre sniffling and trying to explain what happened and heās trying not to push you but heās just so so worried and he needs to know whatās going on to feel okay again :((( needs to know what happened so he can figure out how to proceed. bc his chest just feels so tight and he knows itās not going away until youāre smiling again.. sob.
AND OH BOYYYY if someone else caused itā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦. yeahhh heās out for Blood i fear. even if it was an accident i think he would hold everyone except for you accountable. your friend convinced you to pull a risky stunt? he subtly tries to steer you away from their company (if you stay friends heās civil but prefers not to interact with them at all/only smiles at them coldly if he has to). you fell while rock climbing bc the safety gear wasnāt tight enough? heās calling everyone involved just to make sure you get compensated. goes full karen mode honestly like he is speaking to the manager today. the ceo. the Man in Charge. and god forbid if someone like.. directly hurt youā¦ā¦ idk if suguru is the type to beat them up for it (heās 100% tempted though) but at the very least heās making sure they never get close to you again. files a restraining order and everything. obviously sues them too. i feel like he would work with law in a no curses au so it just makes sense to me yk??
WAIT ALSO asking him to sign your cast :(((( thatās so CUTE and him almost sobbingā¦.. remā¦ā¦. i love him so much my heart hurts. you ask him to do it all smiley and happy and he gives you a smile in return but itās just a little wobbly. writes his signature while youāre all :33 but then you look up and his eyes are glassyā¦. and if you point it out he just sniffles and apologizesā¦ā¦ š„ŗš„ŗš„ŗ heās a baby. our baby.
Doesnāt let you lift a finger. He never lets you lift a finger but even more so now. Helps you shower or take a bath and is just so careful. Loves to wash your hair for you. Puts in effort too to learn how you do your hair. Helps you get dressed even if youāre like I can do that >:(( cause he doesnāt want you to overwork yourself.
TāT remmmmā¦.. youāre gonna be the death of me i swear like these hcs are all SO cute. heās the only Man ever. ohhh he would be so so gentle like itās actually insane :(((( cradles you in the bathā¦.. smiles when you get all relaxed and sleepy but then he glances down at your arm again and goes all :c bc he just hates this so much. not taking care of you but just. knowing that youāre in painā¦.. i think he feels very intense physical discomfort so he just tries not to think about it and puts his all into tending to you instead. wraps you up in a fluffy towel and dries your hair and clothes you in his big cozy hoodie.
i think it could get a little frustrating bc he really would straight up baby you. which i would eat up personally but itād also be a little overwhelming. he doesnāt give you much of a choice though bc heās so intent on making his baby feel better :((
aaaa now iām just imagining you getting a little hissy at himā¦. bc heās coddling you to the point where maybe you feel a little disrespected? like he just insists on feeding you or whatever and itās cute at first but then itās likeā¦. i have hands. but anyway i think it would break his heart if you got mad at him :((( he doesnāt want to make you feel incompetent but if heās not taking care of you constantly he feels a little like his heart is about to burstā¦.. sigh. i just feel like this would be hurt/comfort from both sides tbh š
He wouldnāt like that youāre hurt but I think heād like taking care of you more. Like he understands you wanting to do things for yourself and thats why he never pushed before but now he has a reason to push.
AAAA AND THIS!!!!!! SOOOO TRUE SO REAL heād definitely feel guilty and heād hate seeing you hurt but i agreeā¦.. he would absolutely love a chance to pamper you. once he gets over the initial shock and panic and discomfort and youāre feeling better i think heās almost kinda smug abt it . bc now he has an excuse to carry you around and help you with putting on your shoes and ā¦ idk i think he would just feel so useful and needed. he feels guilty abt being pleased bc youāre in pain :(( but likeā¦ a part of him is for sure jumping with joy at the chance to spoil you the way he wants to.
Complaining about how you look with the cast thinking it makes you look ugly or something and heās instantly like. Take that back. Take it back. Cause youāre cute always donāt you see? He just wants to nurse you back to health. He loves you so much.
š„š„š„š„š„š„ i cried real tears. i know iām just picking out literally every single part of your ask atp but it rlly did make me insane ok ā¦ā¦. ātake that back. take it back.ā I SCREAMEDDD YOU GET HIM LIKE NO ONE ELSE DID YOU KNOW THATā¦ā¦ heās SO genuinely offended on your behalf heās like how DARE you say that about my baby >:(( and itās like. suguru i AM your baby. but he doesnāt care at all he refuses to hear you out. just reassuring all around!!! ācause youāre cute always donāt you see?ā TāT he loves you so ferventlyā¦ youāre the cutest person in the world to himā¦.. heās so Good. sigh.
so anyways this did something to me tysm for the food rem my dearest <333 gonna daydream abt this forever and ever youāre so sweet for sharing this with me itās like weāre having a sugu meal together :33 i love hurt/comfort w him more than anything else on the planet hhhhhā¦.
#THANK U FOR STOPPING BY i always jump w joy when i see u in my inbox bc i knowwww u always have the tastiest thoughts ā¦#AND SO REAL BTW iām also thinking abt him constantly <33 i donāt think weāll ever be free of him tbhā¦.#aaaa itād be so fun to write a drabble abt this at some point :((( i need more sugu hurt/comfort in my life#hehe ilysm rem!!! ur sugu thoughts will always be my favorite :33#i hope youāre having a super duper lovely day/night btw !! and that spring is treating u kindly!!!! š·āļø#ask tag ā©#rem !! ā©
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HELP mona am i dumb i thought ur pfp was you ??? who is in ur pfp ?????
dodie!!! a very lovely indie musician / ex youtuber that ive loved very dearly for about 7 years now. if u were on brittube from 2014-2018 im sure this is at least a familiar looking face
og of my pfp
other desired vs og imges
(these were a pain in the ass to find, my dodie pinterest board is huge)
i actually kinda vaguely stole the faceless distortion version of someone i like as my pfp thing from a rly good editor on tiktok, they did it with lana del rey and ill put the photo cuz its rly good looking
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ok mayhaps i misremembered this is heavy blurring as opposed to straight face removal but still. same sentiment. iirc i tried straight blurring when making my pfp but i didnt like how it got all dark at the edges, but i cant be sure that was months ago and i was just kinda doing whatever until it turned into something i like.
if ur wondering where i got my banner i cant answer that question because I Stole The Image
#desire mona#media#pfp lore!!#i drop the og photo every couple months atp just cuz i think its fun to point it out#some dodie photos just look so naked without distortions and with face#thank u for asking!! its always fun when ppl ask so i can make ppl look at dodie#ask#daisy bell
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I've been thinking about how you've made Talas' physique even MORE powerful lately. And now I'm just imagining him, one-armed, chucking Graves like the world's angriest javelin at their common enemies.
That's genuinely so in character that I had to draw it. Average hunting tactic... and Graves would be all too excited for it, honestly
#in all seriousness honestly im really glad !! This is kind of what i always imagined talas would actually look like :]#i just wasnt confident enough to draw him like that initially but little by little ive gotten better at conveying his body type properly#and i genuinely want him to come across as strong as hell even besides the fact that hes big. like i wanna convey it in shape too#he literally kills huge sea monsters for a living as a day job and then kills the other people who hunt those monsters for fun#and hes banned from walking into any tavern unless he drops his whole paycheck at the counter as soon as he enters#he should simply look the part so im trying my best for that. i have to do him justice#anyway thank u i hope u enjoy this too. i was gonna draw graves just being chucked on their own but then i drew the harpoon#and i thought it was so hilarious to have them on that instead than chucked like a football (which would also happen)#but in said case they'd be less excited about it#if u read all of this also props to you heres a present. its fish (slaps you in the face with it)#windyart#ask#anon#scribble comic#talas#graves#challenger deep
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can i ask about the captain america bachelor's thesis and the score you got for it
hi lorelei!! you absolutely may ask me!!
it was called "Steve Rogers and Captain America aren't always the same guy": Captain America Fanfiction as a Locus of Transformation, Identity Exploration, and Reclamation (a bit wordy, i know) and it basically outlined fanfiction conceptually and went into the history of cap as a character and political symbol to then analyze trends in cap fanfiction as forum for identity politics and fan reclamation. i think we stress so many of his identity markers in fandom that are played down or straight up erased in source material (esp the mcu) and i wanted to elaborate on the possible reasons for and effects of that. it was a lot of fun.
and i got a dutch 9/10!! which translated to an american A+ on my transcript, which is a bit crazy. i was lucky to have a super lovely and supportive thesis advisor :)
i can send it to you if you're interested!
#its like 12k words of dense academic text but it is quite interesting if i do say so myself#and the one academic thing i could always do confidently was write :P#but yeah i had so much fun with it!!#im so lucky to have been in a program and found an advisor where writing about cap fanfiction for my thesis was totally viable#and i even did well??#i fear i may have peaked#anyway#i will shut up now#thank u for asking!!#it always makes me really happy when people are interested because clearly i'm a nerd about it#tortle answers#captain america
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how do garak and bashir feel about being grandparents?, also since theres a third elim (3lim) ((if i read tht right,,,,)
garak and bashirs parenting styles are reversed for grandparenting. julian's a total sap for his grandkids, taking them on trips and buying them elaborate educational toys. garak is the reserved victorian grandfather smoking a pipe in the study talking about The Old Days and ordering them around (especially in the garden, his knees aren't what they used to be.)
Bashir is still annoyed at the passage of time seeing fit to give his children (who, in his mind, are still kids) children of their own. Rude!
#dee s 9#garashir adoption au#julian w baby one like Oh what a dear! 1 yr later with baby 2 We call these Irish Twins on Earth!#a year after that with baby 3 like Lim don't you think this is getting a little excessive. You havent got any record to beat#a year after THAT with baby 4 like WAS MY EDUCATION ON CONTRACEPTION DEFICIENT? I THOUGHT I EXPLAINED EVERYTHING QUITE CLEARLY.#lim and his wife live just a mile or so away.. they can hang out with their grandparents in the countryside around lakat#julian is the Strict Dad and the fun grandparent. garak is the 'mischief if you can get away with it' dad and the stern old grandfather#HOOGH.. thinkin bout julian and miles bonding over their kids having kids... going on grandpa adventures#lim and molly swapping parenting tips..#molly drops her own kids off on prime when she's doing research in the quadrant n they rough it with their lizard cousins for a few weeks#3LIM!!!#u know garak uglycried in private when lim named his baby elim (III). he didnt specify which elim garak hes named after. dealers choice#thank YOUUUUU for always asking fun QUESTIONSSSSSSS!!! LOVA YOUUUU
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I get the sense that Phil just likes to make āāweirdāā stuff and has somewhat dialed back his weirdness due to his popularity and age. But I would love to see what an unfiltered 30 year old phil Lester video would look like. What stories does he want to tell? How does he want to tell those stories?
honestly i think phil is really good at playing out whatever his brain is thinking at the time. i think a lot of people struggle with ideas because they'll be seen as too 'weird' or 'strange' or even 'impossible', and what's neat about phil is he either doesn't have those boxes, or he's able to push through them in pursuit of creating the thing to its full potential. people describe him as creative, which he is, but i think it leaves out some of his best attributes as a creator. he's inventive--remember the countless trends and challenges that came from him that have swept the internet? he's fearless--and this doesnt mean that he's not afraid of anything (for phil its probably the opposite actually) but he does things despite the fear, regardless of the unknown. he's a relentless and passionate creator who likes to make things and values seeing them through to the end. but he's not naive either--he and dan have talked about each other being their harshest critics. it's not just that he's an ideas guy, he's a good ideas guy who knows how to make something flourish.
i don't think current phil is sitting in a box waiting for his chance to break free of his popularity. he could've stopped years ago, similar to dan, if he didn't want this. but he likes doing it. he gets to have his choice on which of his ideas turn into projects, without having the stress of Needing a brilliant idea and execution every week. right now i think a lot of his energy is focused on the gaming channel. as he's expressed to us a few times, it was him who really wanted it back, and he's been ready for a long time. dan's even admitted that he's been enjoying it, and i think a lot of that comes down to phil's creative directing. he loves the gaming channel and is so thrilled it's back--his own content has taken a step back in terms of upload regularity, and i genuinely don't think he could be happier about it.
i would love a big phil project, but i honestly don't see him doing a tour of his own unless he brings dan with him, and then why not have it be something they can do together? does that make sense? that seems to be his thought process about things. it's why i've suggested taskmaster cause it's a local thing that wouldn't keep him from home for a long while, but he does get to flex his creativity, intelligence, and humour.
i'm looking forward to anything phil does. his current project seems to be making dan happy and they're both having a lot of fun doing that
#i dont know if i answered your question anon. i think in some ways people play up the 'weird' side to phil bc he plays into it#as well as his past history of old school videos#firstly let me say i love when he's 'weird'#but i think the way i categorize it is less about a line between weird and not weird. and more of like a spectrum of zany#dnp are not mainstream guys. theyre self proclaimed nerds with pride. anything they make is gonna seem a little off Broadway#but it doesnt always feel that way for us#people inside the community#saying he's lost his weirdness/he's putting on a front is a bit. off. for me. especially considering its been 14 years#for most of his 'experimental' content. he's said it himself he was experimenting. i think he learned a lot and had fun#but i dont think its his personality and hes been trapped into this different persona ever since#anyway. i am yapping just like a dannie would so. thank u for your ask!#dnp#c.text#dan and phil#answered
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Are there any particular songs that remind you of your AU? Do you have a playlist of some kind?
YES THANK U FOR ASKING
I have a snowbaird playlist on spotify. So far this is what I have:
1. Let It Die by Feist
2. Every Breath You Take by The Police
3. For Emma by Bon Iver
4. Love, You Should've Come Over by Jeff Buckley
5. The Hype by Sigrid
6. Breezeblocks by Alt-J
I think The Hype is so LG pov but the first song n prob THE MOST snowbaird of all is Let It Die by Feist I mean just look at the lyrics
#ask#Listening to music is more fun when u imagine it's abt ur otp#thank u for asking fr i always make playlists when i get rly rly into a ship#its so fun#i mostly judge the song based on the lyrics if I'm adding but if i dont care for the artist or dont like how it sounds i dont add lmao#curious to know ppl's snowbaird songs
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not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go
(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)
#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill#well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst#like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc.#so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made#bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you#but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings#and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste#there's no accounting for several things actually. tasteā biasā lore-knowledgeā differing levels of chronic-online-nessā etc#so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously)#but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything#if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is#which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose#anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate.#and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic!#if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it.#like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages#or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing#i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know#it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess#as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence#the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education#i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i saidā being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is-#writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl-#will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneckā¢ stereotype#sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen#there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions#like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of-#'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity#like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem#but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.
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would u tell me a bit about some svsss thoughts, auās ideas or wips of yours?(<- half way through a 9 hour train/bus journey & really bored) please?š„ŗ
i could tell u about my tgirl-sqq/sy au that iām never gonna write, cuz i genuinely donāt enjoy writing? or maybe show u a picture of my sisters newborn (cutest baby u have ever seen)
omg PLEASE tell me ur thoughts on tgirl sqq I love trans sqq (any direction but esp transfem it's so special to me)
let'sss see, I have a lot of wip and au thoughts at the moment as I nervously procrastinate several important projects š
I had a cold earlier this week so I wrote half of a fluffy fic inflicting my cold onto SQQ:
āLiu-shidi is out at the moment,ā Shen Qingqiu said, an awful rasp to his voice that Luo Binghe hated.Ā āSurely Shizun can call him back?ā Luo Binghe pleaded.Ā āFor what?ā Shen Qingqiu asked, waving a sleeve. āA small cold? This master has managed worse. Heāll return when he returns, and until then it's not so bad.āĀ āBut Shizunāā Luo Binghe tried to object, but Shen Qingqiu gave him a stern look that caused Luo Binghe to fold at once. He redoubled his efforts of looking sad and concerned and despondent as a quick countermeasure, and Shen Qingqiu sighed.Ā āItās not so bad,ā he repeated. āThis master can still perform his duties just fine. Most likely it will pass before Liu Qingge even returns.ā
outside of that, i have been on a major qijiu brainrot kick (i have a 8k fic for them i should be posting as soon as i decide if it needs a stronger dose of sqq or not + decide how to end it (sob)), and also reading a ton of disciple days/canon timeline bingqiu and having big feelings about how much i love them. ive also been returning to my unhorny women and gender studies liu qingge omegaverse fic that i am always contemplating but never actually writing, in which liu qingge is a not-like-other-girls omega in PIDW omegaverse and tries to marry shen qingqiu due to fantasy comp het
besides that, here are some concepts ive jotted down in my notes app this week loll:
dragon!YQY hoarding peak lords
this is literally all i have written down for this but i want it to be something SO BAD. save me dragon yqy. dragon yqy save me
Yue Qingyuan is cursed into an endless sleep The other peak lords call on Shen Qingqiu to enter his mind and wake him up as the person closest to him, only... SQQ actually barely knows this guy! He and Binghe take a dream journey through YQY's subconscious and eventually find that SJ is haunting him and eating his power which is keeping him asleep. They must either banish him ORRR.... Sun and Moon Dew mushroom time
i dont think ill write this so if anyone else does....... please take this idea and run w it haha
Sy transmigrated into the little palace Mistress??? Ahhh...
i THINK this came after reading stiltonbasket's SY!QWY fic, because i was thinking about the old palace master being a huge creep and shen yuan dealing with that from inside huan hua palace. i really see shen yuan going on a journey of gender discovery (his own gender AND the perils of misogyny that he never understood as a cis internet man(he thought he was cis at least)) and political intrigue as he tries to get to the heart of whats wrong with huan hua while dodging and or attempting to track down luo binghe. plot??? idk her
Deaf Shang qinghua!! Mbj doesnt notice
someday i must write this bc i love writing my favs as deaf or hoh. id love to explore shang qinghua as being both physically and culturally Deaf and how that plays into his interactions with the world post-transmigration, where there is even less accommodations or access for someone with a disability and he is cut off from his community, especially in terms of his work on an ding and relationship with his martial siblings. mbj not noticing a major facet of his life feels in character and like great drama lol, and i think the conclusion is definitely mbj learning ZGS that teaches him and he ends up liking using it way more than speaking verbally, both for sqh's ease and because he doesnt like to talk lol
i hope this is what u meant hahaha i could talk abt wips and svsss ideas all day. they are living in my head rent free 24/7 ļ½”ļ¾(Tć®T)ļ¾ļ½” i hope your trip goes by smoothly and quickly!!
#writing this blearily at well past my bed time so apologies if it is incoherent hkljhjgkjhkhk#its been a rich week for svsss thoughts#also thank u sm for asking this and coming to chat :))) it really brightens my day and is so fun to get to talk to and get to know (1)#people in the fandom (2)#i definitely want ur svsss thoughts right back *eyes*#askbox#buryspeaks.mp3#joblesssmonday#this isnt relevant but please know i am always reading ur username to the tune of manic monday and singing it in my head#svsss#wips#fic concepts#fic writing#scum villains self saving system#my writing
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