#tgere were some shittier and sadder things i remembered walking around but they got punted to the back bc today idc

[winterrose42]

Alright so my head was extremely spacey and unconnected today and NostalgiaTM was activated and it just eugh. So i went on an hour long walk blasting music bc it was cold and loud and it helped and i just- I'm so in love with people and places and things.

My neighborhood used to be not great. Kids were assholes and loud and bullies and sometimes drug dealers would move in and there were weird things at the park and one time the house beside us was a halfway house and we weren't told and it just- wasn't great. And I think I've posted about this before but it got better and it's greener and the kids grew up and the kids here now are polite and the parks really nice but now since it's the pandemic it's really quiet and sometimes since my house is really quiet you get really crushingly alone and quiet and you feel like you're the only one around. Whatever anyway not the point but it's nicer than it was is the point.

While I was walking there aren't as many stray cats around which makes me really happy bc people have started taking them to good shelters so i know they're getting in good homes and they'll be warm in the winter and making owners so happy and the cats are so loved. And there's dogs that are so sweet and friendly and their owners will wave at you and smile and you know they're taking care of their pets and that's so nice. There used to be an old man I'd talk to at one house who would sit outside with his cat on a leash and he'd let me pet her and we'd talk about i dont even remember. I dont see him anymore but his chairs still there and kinda dipped and worn from how much he sat out with her.

The roads are good and there arent as many cracks in it anymore and the trees glow red with the late fall sun now and there was flocks of geese flying a lot today and even though all the plants are dead people have their flower beds prepared for winter and christmas lights up and sometimes i find that annoying but today i just thought about how lights are up where kids toys are in the yard and how excited were the kids that christmas decorations were going up and how happy and exasperated the parents probably were. Leaf piles are flat from being jumped in and the ones on the road dont crunch but when they fly ik the wind they're so heckin pretty and the sky was that duller winter blue that's really calming and lovely and you can look at it without blinding yourself. My arms went a little numb bc my sleeves were rolled up but the air felt really nice and there's a really big hill i walked up that was hard on my cranky hip but the view is always so far and gorgeous i love where i live.

People used to give me shit for living in a trailer court. Trailer rat trailer trash I've heard all the stupid shit but the people are so lovely and smile and wave at you and i dont really talk to or know anyone anymore but its still friendly you just gotta know what houses to avoid bc there's hardcore republicans here but even they're pretty quiet. And its surrounded by trees and in a valley so we live in a big comfy bowl which i just realized today and was laughing over. I dont know im rambling but im really glad im still alive bc holy shit there's so much around yo look at and notice.