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i wonder - edward cullen x reader

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You were so angry, tears threatened to spill over.

“Do you understand?” your parent says to you.

“Yes.” you forced out, trying to keep your voice steady. You rise from the couch, feeling dead inside.

Slowly, you walked up the stairs.

Laying on your back and staring up at the ceiling, you clutched the teddy bear Edward had given you in your arms. You basically suffocated it.

You heard a tap. You move the curtain, you signal a no. Edward looks baffled. His eyes were gold instead of the darkish color from earlier.

You shake your head.

He mouthed, “Open the window.”

You shook your head. You move the curtain back. It killed you to do so, but you face away and the tears that threatened to spill over, ended up gliding down your cheeks. You looked at the empty spot where you kept your keyboard. It was gone. Taken away. Just like that. You were ordered to do nothing but go to school and come straight home. No rides with the Cullens. Your parent being the only one to drive you to and from school until graduation.

You didn’t speak in the morning. It was deafening as you blocked out your parent’s chatter. It was as if they didn’t strip you from what you liked.

“Have a good day at school.” they say as they look to you, they pull in the parking lot.

You mumble out something incoherent and step out of the car.

You didn’t dare to look over in the parking spot where you knew the Cullens were. A part of you hoped they didn’t show up, but the thought of them not being at school felt like your own personal hell.

“Y/N.”

You slowly close your locker with a soft clink and behind it stood Edward, wearing the same expression that he did when he was outside of your window.

You look down at his shoes. You weren’t strong enough to look him in the eye.

“What’s going on?”

“Nothing.” you say in a fake content tone.

“Y/N, don’t lie to me.”

“It’s nothing. I’ll uh…I’ll see you in the lab, okay?” you say and turn, disappearing in the sea of students.

Your head rested on your hand as you stared at the questions on the test. The classroom was filled with silence as everyone was focusing. The teacher slowly walked along the aisles of desks to check on everyone.

The only thing you had written down, was your name, last name, and the date.

“20 more minutes everyone.” the teacher says in a hushed tone. You bit your lip as you closed your eyes to try to focus.

The bell rings, you were the last one to give the teacher your test. The teacher was a bit shocked to see you be the last one, but you finally completed it. You didn’t double check your answers.

Rosalie had her arms crossed as she almost glared at you.

“Hey.”

“Don’t hey me. What’s going on with you?” she asks as she takes perfect steps next to you to your class.

“Nothing. Why do you or…Edward think something’s wrong?”

She blinks at you with impatient eyes.

“What? I’m focused, okay? I’m this close to the finish line.”

You stop as she stops in front of you, staring hard into your eyes.

“You’re not fooling anyone.” she quietly but firmly says.

“I’m not trying to fool-”

“You are….We’ll talk at lunch.” she says and with that, she’s off to her own class.

You didn’t even see the incoming person as you turn to head to go to your class, you smacked right into them. Papers fly up in the air.

“Sorry! Sorry!”

“No, I’m sorry.” you say with shame and scoop the fallen papers up in your hand, the person you bumped into picks them up as well. You saw the name handwritten on a piece of paper. You slowly lift your eyes and extend your arm towards her.

“Thanks. I should really watch where I’m going. I’m really sorry.” she says nervously.

“You’re fine. That was on me.” you say to no other than Bella Swan. Her face was flushed. You turn your head and continue walking.

When you walked out of your classroom before heading to science, Edward stood waiting for you.

You both walk in silence. You both sit down at the desks in silence. You both watch the teacher explain what the experiment its going to be for the day in silence. You both sit down at the lab table in silence.

Students around you two, were not silent. They laughed talked loud. The teacher already helping a group.

“Was it me?” he asks sadly.

“No.” you whisper as you slowly stir the concoction as Edward pours it in the beaker.

“Then what is it?” he softly asks. You slump your shoulders.

“I’m sorry I didn’t feed that day, but I wanted to spend more time with you until you went home.” he whispered.

You shake your head, flashing him a sad smile, “I can’t believe you’re blaming yourself. It’s not you, Edward.”

“Then tell me….Was it…The shifter? Are you still scared?” he whispered.

“No…I mean it was pretty scary but..I haven’t really thought about that. It’s not that either. I told you it’s nothing. I’m just trying to stay focus, that’s all.” you say in a hushed tone.

He’s not convinced.

The first half of the bell rings. He watches as you leave the classroom with a trickle of other students. The other students mingled with their friends in the hall, others warning their friends who had the teacher next, of what to expect in class.

You went to the bathroom. You stood in the mirror as you examined your face. You wanted to look as convincing as possible. But, it was no use. Your eyes said it all.

“I wonder if that’s why he always wants me to look at him. He can tell by my eyes.” you thought to yourself as you took your time to walk. The start of the other half of lab started as the warning bell rings.

You sit down and touch Edward’s shoulder. He completed the lab. You gave him a look. He only rises up and turns in the both of your worksheets of the lab report.

“That’s not helping me.” you say with a slight grin.

“l want to help you. You won’t tell me. I know something’s wrong. I’ll just wait for you to spit it out.”

You wished you had homework to work on, but everything was already done. You had long minutes to go before your next period. You look around the classroom.

Students are trying their best to complete what they have done so far. Some not even halfway finished. You look to your hands that’s on the lab table.

“Are you coming over today?”

“Can’t.” you softly say with a shake of your head.

“Why?”

“I was told to come straight home today.”

He hummed a response.

“Yeah.” you say.

Time wafted by, the clock was painfully slow. You fought the urge to sigh deeply.

“My keyboard got taken away.”

“….What?”

You shrug.

“Why?”

You shrug again.

“Was it because of me?”

“For christ sake would you stop it?” you say to him, finally looking at him. You didn’t look how close he was until you did look. You immediately became shy. You known him for all of this time and it was like he was your biggest crush of all time.

“I encouraged you to still play. I didn’t want you to get in trouble.”

“It’s fine, really.” you say.

“It’s not.” he says with a knowing look.

“You’re right…It’s not.” you say with pity. You furrowed your eyebrows, “You didn’t have to wait for me to spill it out. Why couldn’t you…?” you gently tap your forehead.

“It’s like a bad radio signal. You know how some parts are loud and then it gets really low or incoherent? It’s like that but it’s just really low whispers in your mind. That night, in your room, I was able to read what chooses to come clear. When you wondered if I had known you were being threatened to go back home from Rosalie, that was the first time I could read what you were thinking. But, I had to really focus because it was still low.” he explained in a hushed tone.

“I wish you could always read my mind…” you mused.

“Why?” he brings on a grin.

“Because I feel left out.” you say with humorous tone.

He chuckled under his breath.

“You don’t have to drill me.” you say to Rosalie as she pulls you down in a seat at lunch.

“I do. You were pretty shady.”

“No, I wasn’t.” you say almost laughing.

“When you come over, I have to show you my collection.” she tells you as Jasper and Emmett make observations of a college sports game that’s coming up this week on television.

“Oh um..I can’t..Come over.”

“And why not?” her smile fades.

“I was told to come straight home…I’m getting picked up so..” you nod as you stare at your half eaten lunch.

“That doesn’t make any sense.” she says. You look up, “I didn’t make the rules…Unfortunately.”

“You’re being punished for your choice…I don’t get it.”

“Yeah, well. Go me.” you say sarcastically.

If you could get down on your knees and kiss your history teacher’s feet, you would’ve. A new project was announced.

“Alright. Choose your partner.”

You and Jasper immediately turned heads towards each other before the both of you started laughing.

An arm draped around your shoulders as you walked to your locker with Edward. He leaned his shoulder against the locker next to yours as you pulled your jacket out.

“It should be nice this weekend.” he comments lowly.

“That’s nice.” you say as you watch him zip your jacket up. When he’s finished, he leans and pressed a sweet kiss on your cheek then gently rubs his lips back and forth on your cheek before taking your hand.

You let your hand go from his grasp as you push the door open. Before you stepped out, he grabs your arm pulling you back in. You both are by the wall near the door, out of the walkway.

“I want to see you tonight.” he says to you in a hushed tone. You look at him for a moment and you then nodded.

You look to see the Edward’s siblings watch you open your parent’s car door.

They drive, chatting about their day at work. You couldn’t care less in that moment. The sound of the car whizzing on the road was more enjoyable to listen to.

You were so bored. You tried reading a book but you couldn’t concentrate. Your brain was filled with ideas and your fingers itched to play something. You angrily stared at the wall with the discarded book at your side.

Dinner was somewhat quiet but your parent broke the silence.

“Have any homework?”

”Nope.” you say and take a bite.

“How come?”

“Had a test today, completed my lab report in class, and was assigned a project that isn’t due for another two weeks.”

“Hm..”

“I’m going to have to start going to the library after school so that me and my partner could work on it.”

They sigh and raise their eyebrows a bit, “Alright.”

You stop chewing as you look at them. You hide your smile.

In your chair, Edward watched as you close your door quietly. You fall gracefully into his lap like a feather.

He held you tight to him as if you were going to run away, you do nothing but lean your body into his hold.

“It’s really gone.” he says.

“Ugh, don’t remind me.” you whisper.

He’s quiet. You watch his face. He flickers his eyes to yours.

“I thought..You wanted to end things.” he speaks after some time.

You were suddenly drowning in the state of incredulity, “What?”

He looks down a bit as a faint smile is on his face.

“I really thought I did something wrong.” he says as his hand rests on your knee before sliding it up some on the side of your thigh.

“If you did something wrong…I will let you know.” you reassure with lips to the corner of his eye.

“Okay.”

Comfortable silence sets in.

Eventually, seeing that it’s getting late, he watched as you then stand. You take his hands in yours with a soft grin and silently invite him to lay with you on your bed.

You woke up slightly startled. It wasn’t Edward who woke you up, but it was your parent.

“Come on, you will be late.”

You quickly turn your head next to you and rose out of bed as your parent shuts your door. Edward comes out of your closet.

“Close one.” he joked silently. You stifle a laugh.

“You can ride to school with me.” he encouraged.

You shake your head. He didn’t want to go right away so he stalled.

“I have to go.” you say softly with a smile.

He gave you a look, a puppy dog eyed look that almost made you fold your decision. You close your eyes and breathe in.

“Edward. That’s not fair.” you whisper.

He stands up after you open your eyes and cups your face in his hands, lips glued to each other as you both didn’t want to step back from it. It ended up being you because you had to breathe.

Your breath is heavy as you look at him. He looks at you back. He takes a step toward you while looking your mouth and you stop him from moving further with a grasp on his arms.

He was already waiting for you at your locker. He looked as if he’d seen you for the first time in years. You chuckle at this and place a sweet kiss on his cheek. You mean to move away but he holds you there. Slowly, your arms wrap around his neck. His face rests in the crook of yours.

You tried your best to not be distracted in class. Your mind kept traveling to how you felt when you got to spend the weekend in his home. You wondered if he was thinking about you like how you were thinking about him.

“Were you thinking of me?” he says. You both were close, face to face as you both sat in the back of the school library. With a shy expression, you nod.

“Were..You thinking about me?” you shyly ask him.

“I always think about you.” he confessed, not daring to break eye contact.

You and Jasper talked about the layout of the project in history class.

“So…Over the weekend, we could go to the library if you want.” you say as it was pretty hands on.

“Or you could..Come over.” he shrugged.

You tell him you don’t think your parent would approve.

“It’s just a project.” he tells you. You told him you would think about it.

Your parent stops at the grocery store. You decide to go in because you didn’t want to stay in the car bored.

“Could you grab some paper towels? We ran out.” they ask you. You nod as you separate from them.

You reach up on your tippy toes to grab them but you see a long arm grab them. You look around and it was as if you had seen a ghost.

The boy from the beach, held out it for you to take. You slowly take it, “Thank you.”

He nods with a slight purse of his lips.

You start to turn but he says, “You didn’t have to block me.”

You look down before turning back around to face him, “I’m sorry…I had to.”

“You had to?” he asks with an eyebrow lifted.

“I have a boyfriend now.” you say.

“Oh..Boyfriend.” he said in thought. You nod.

“You still could’ve came to my party. You said you would.” he said quietly.

“That was before..Me and….That was before my boyfriend and I became official. I didn’t want to give you any mixed ideas.”

“Mixed ideas were already made. I only wanted to know if you were still coming only to find out that you blocked me…A simple text of you weren’t coming or interested would've sufficed.”

“Sorry.”

“Next time, you should stick to your word.”

“Whatever that means.” you chuckle a bit.

“It means…If I did that to you, you definitely wouldn’t like it, I’m sure.”

“It doesn’t matter...” you say with a small shake of your head.

“It’s a small town. You didn’t think I would run into you again? You’re cold.”

“Sorry.”

He doesn’t say anything. You take it to be your sign to go meet your parent in line.

“Who was that?” they ask as you both out items on the conveyer belt.

You shrug, “Nobody.”

Edward lied down with you as your ear was pressed to his chest. His hand rubbed up and down your arm soothingly.

“What are you thinking about?” he whispered.

“Nothing….I might be able to come over this weekend.” you whisper back.

“For the project with Jasper?” he asks.

“Yes.”

You sit up from his chest, his hands are still on your arms. You lay back on your pillows instead.

He shifts on his side to peer down at you. You peak at him.

“Did something happen?”

“You mean like…Today?” you ask.

He nods once. You shake your head. He studied your face. You reach up and grace your hand on his cheek with a compassionate smile, “What’s wrong, Edward?”

“Alice had a vision…You changed your decision….You decided to stay…Here.” he says carefully with his eyes closed.

Your eyebrows knit with confusion as you sit up. He zhts

“Why did I say that?”

“I don’t know. That’s all she saw so far. We were sitting down, holding each other, and you told me you wanted to stay here.”

“Do you know why?” you ask.

“That’s all that I saw before the vision ended.”

You don’t say anything as you sink back in the pillows. You scoot close to him. He looked almost scared. It almost scared you.

“You’re still going to help me? Right?” you ask. He looks to you, “Of course.”

“Do you still want to travel together?” you ask in a whisper. He leans closer to you, “Of course.”

“Then that’s what we’re going to do.” you say.

“Do you promise?”

You nod.

“Yeah.” you whisper as your hand cups his cheek as you look up at him.

“Say it.” he replied as he smothers the hand that’s on his cheek, with his own.

“I promise.”

The next morning, you parent tells you news as they work the steering wheel.

“We’re having dinner over a friend of mine.” they tell you.

“A friend of yours? Isn’t that a distraction.” you say. They roll their eyes a bit and you couldn’t help but huff of a small laugh at their reaction.

“I’m focused on my work…But, he invited me over. He’s a good man. I don’t want you to be rude so I expect you not to be rude.”

“I’m not rude. You didn’t raise me that way.” you mutter.

“He has a daughter about your age. Bella Swan. Do you know her?”

“Yes. She’s a year below me.”

”Are you two friends?”

You shake your head, “Nope.”

“Oh.”

You wave goodbye as you go into the school building. Edward is at your side before you could blink. You lean into his side as you both walk to your locker.

“I really would like to take you out this weekend.” he states as you both sat close in science.

With a grateful smile you tell him, “Okay.”

“Did you ask yet?” Jasper asked as you both wrote down information about your project.

“No.”

“Y/N, just ask.” he says with a smile.

“Yeah, easy for you to say.” you say with a small chuckle.

You didn’t change out of your school clothes. Your parent starts the journey. You were already bored. You were already waiting for it to be over.

Your parent holds an alcoholic bottle as they advised you to knock on the door. A rhythmic rap is made from your knuckles.

The girl, Bella from school, opens the door. After politely smiling at you both, she steps back letting you both in. She turns her head and calls for her dad. He comes and greets you both, he introduced himself as Charlie Swan to you. You shake his hand with a polite smile.

Your parent and Charlie began to talk as your parent shows them the bottle, leaving you and Bella alone.

It was a bit awkward as she tells you that the food is finishing up in the oven. You nod silently.

“Thanks again for the other day.”

You shrug, “It was nothing.”

“I’m super clumsy so, I’m accident prone. I should probably wear a sign.”

With that, a grin cracked on your face at her statement.

“I um…Heard that you had a scary accident.” you say after you follow her in the kitchen. She wanted to keep a eye on the food.

“Yeah. It was…Embarassing.”

“I mean you almost got hurt…By the van..”

“Yeah…When the paramedics came, all eyes were on me.” she says as she cringed.

“It’s not embarrassing. You’re a..Survivor.” you say with reassurance.

“If it wasn’t for…Edward..It would’ve crushed me..”

“Yeah…That’s nice.” you say and look down.

“I remember you from the hospital that day.”

“You do? I mean…I remember you too…”

She nods, “What happened with you?…Only if you mind me asking.”

“Oh.” you chuckle a bit, “I was only getting my cast off.”

“What happened..”

You then tell her the story of how you broke your wrist. You and a friend dared each other to try a backhand spring on their trampoline.

You and Bella were able to laugh about it.

The food was done, leaving you to be seated as Charlie tells the tale of how he met your parent. According to your parent, Charlie left out some details.

You help Bella with cleaning up.

“What do you think about Forks?”

“It’s okay. Its cool. It’s been treating me good so far.”

“That’s good.”

“Have you been to the beach here? I didn’t even know there was a beach when I first came here.”

“Are you talking about the one in La Push?”

You nod.

“Oh, yeah. I love it. I love La Push in general.”

“You spend a lot of time there?”

“Yeah. My best friend lives there so I get to see him too.”

“I went only once.” you say.

“Did you like it?”

“Yeah…I went with some friends from school.”

“The Cullens?” she asks surprised.

“No.” you tell her and you then take a look at her expression. You wondered if she knew that the Cullens couldn’t be there, explaining why the surprised expression. You wondered if she knew about the shapeshifters.

“You seem surprised.” you comment.

“Yeah, I am.” she admits.

“May I ask why?”

“It’s just….I heard someone say…The Cullens aren’t welcomed there. I don’t know what they did but…” she says with a shrug.

“Oh…I didn’t know that.” you lie.

“We could go…Together sometime if you want. Get away from Forks.”

“Sure. Why not?”

“Are you going to the dance?” she then asks.

“Yeah. Are you?”

She shakes her head.

“Why not?” you ask.

“Not my thing really.” she says.

“Just bring your best friend. You both can still have fun.”

“Maybe…”

Your parent was ready to head home.

“I’ll uh..See you at school.” she says to you as you and your parent is walking out of the door.

“Yeah. See you.” you agree with a wave.

Before you knew it, it was a Friday. Rosalie steals you out of Edward’s arms as you barely could keep up.

Walking out of the school doors, she leans down the driver’s side window with a polite smile. Saying hello to your parent in the car. Your parent smiles back and says hello to her.

“Me and Y/N have a history project that we need to work on. My mom and dad says it’s okay if Y/N can come over and spend the night but they said I would have to ask for your permission first.”

“Did they?”

“Yes. I can give you their phone number if you want.”

“Yes. I would need that.” your parent says.

“This means I can go?” you ask from the passenger seat.

“I didn’t say that. I still need to talk to Rosalie’s parents first Y/N.”

You and Rosalie share a discreet look.

“No problem.” Rosalie says cooly and gives Carlisle and Esme’s phone numbers to your parent.

Your parent calls as you sat on the edge of your bed. Edward watched you from your chair.

“Don’t be nervous. They’re going to say yes.”

“How do you know?” you whisper.

A knock was at your door and you look to find Edward gone. You open it.

“I want you back here, Sunday morning. Do you hear me?”

You nod, “Y-yes. Thank you.”

Edward carried your overnight bag inside of his home and up the stairs to his room.

He looked at you with undivided attention as you told him about your day. People in the restaurant surrounded your ears with soft chatter and soft clinks.

“You went to Bella Swan’s house?”

You nod.

He makes a look.

“What?”

“Nothing.” he says with a soft grin.

“It’s…Something.” you say to make him feel comfortable.

“Why..her of all people?” he genuinely asks.

You explain with a shrug that your parent and Charlie became friends, prompting Charlie’s dinner invitation.

“Are you two friends?”

“I don’t know.”

He reached over to adjust the salt and pepper shaker to a neat position with a soft smirk, “What do you mean you don’t know?”

You place two folded arms on the restaurant table.

“Did you two use to date?”

He gives you a look, almost offended, “No.”

“Then what’s it to you?”

He brings out a lax smile to bring peace, “I was only..Asking.”

You lean back in your chair. He takes a look at you. You look at him. Your food finally arrived but you don’t dig in right away.

“You should eat.” he comments.

“When she asked to talk to you at the hospital, what did she want?”

He lets out a small sigh, “If I tell you…Will you eat?”

You scoop your utensil and put food in your mouth, chew and swallow. You set it back down.

“Okay. Spill.”

He found this quite funny as he stifled a laugh.

“When the van almost crushed her…I stopped it.”

“How?”

“With my hand.” he says quietly as he splayed his hand.

“You mean to tell me, you stopped the van with your hand and Bella saw it.” you whisper with wide eyes.

“Unfortunately.” he says without breathing.

“So, she knows?”

“No…But she was suspicious…A lot of gaslighting had to be done…I haven’t talked to her before then or after then.”

You look down at your plate.

“Are you jealous?” he teased.

“Would you..Shut up?” you whisper and he chortled.

“I have to confess something.” you tell him after you swallow some food.

“Good or bad?”

“Mmm..Guess.”

“It’s bad.” he says.

“I’m staying here.”

His face goes straight. Seriousness was written all over his face and body language.

“What do you mean?” he asked.

It was your turn to chortle.

“That’s not funny.” he says.

“Sorry.” you say as you sober up.

“But, she did invite me to La Push.” you then say.

“She did?” he asks and his face didn’t agree with the idea.

“Yeah.”

“That wouldn’t be a good idea, Y/N.” he says with a touch of disapproval.

“Because of the shifters?”

He nods once.

“The one in the woods didn’t attack me.” you say in thought.

“Because Rosalie, Emmett and I came just in time.”

“…Was he scared?”

“Who?”

“The shifter…When you read his mind, was he scared? You said that he was newly transformed and his thoughts were all over the place.”

“Y/N.” he sighed out.

“What? I just wanna know.”

“It’s doesn’t matter if he’s scared or not. His instincts tell him to kill us. You were lucky that day.”

“But, he can’t kill me….Right?”

Edward didn’t like the question as he looked at you. The waiter asks how everything is. Edward wanted the check.

You smother his hand with yours as the waiter walked off, “Please don’t be mad. I was just wondering.”

“I’m not mad.” he says calmly, “I care about you immensely. If one of them were to hurt you, I don’t think I could be sane.”

“It’s not going to happen.” you say quietly as you both look at each other.

Hand in hand, you both walk out of the restaurant. He lets go of your hand as you both walk on the sidewalk, his arm around your waist pulling you close to him.

Rosalie showed you her car collection in the garage. You sat on a stool as you both talked. The others were out hunting. You both talked freely without supernatural ears. Really opening up to each other.

You showed compassion as she opened up about her human life.

Constantly being praised for her vanity, admitting that it made her shallow.

Opening up about her engagement with Royce, the son of the owner of a bank, Royce King ||.

Carlisle found her, deciding to change her, hoping she would be a companion to Edward.

You couldn’t help but smirk at the fact that she was hurt that Edward only loved her as a sister, her not because she liked him back, but she was so use to being showered with compliments that it hurt her feelings. She had never been rejected before.

As chaotic the story was, you were a bit entertained by the revenge that she took, saving Royce for last.

“Not one drop of blood?”

“None. I wanted no parts of them inside of me..” she says.

She killed Royce and his friends who had hurt her without draining them. You tell her how impressed you were of her self control.

The story turns to a different light.

“He reminded me so much of Vera’s son, Henry.” she says about Emmett. You see the look on her face. It was nothing but pure love that was plastered over her smile.

“That’s so sweet.” you comment.

“I feel…Ashamed to admit that I would give anything to be human again…I would really love a child.” she quietly confessed.

“Does Emmett know?”

“Of course he does. I love him and..A family… A child is where I would feel complete…I know that you’re with Edward and all but, if you’re thinking about joining this life, I would say think again.” she speaks out.

“Honestly…That’s never crossed my mind.” you say as you look down.

“Really?” she asks after silence. She was shocked and surprised. She thought all of this time you wanted to be like them.

“Really, really.” you say.

“So..Say you were to keep getting older, you don’t mind that Edward is forever 17?”

“It’s not like I control it. To be honest…I was against us dating in the first place.”

“I know…He showed it in his attitude with glum when you wanted to be friends but, he wanted more.”

“Yeah…I did tell him it wouldn’t work but I guess he wants to prove me wrong…Rosalie…My career is what I want more than anything. Edward says he will help me and be by my side and I trust that he will do that. I’m enjoying whatever this is but if things do not work out…I won’t be too upset. I’m prepared for the impact.”

She thinks for a moment as her eyes are actually filled sympathy.

“He told me….A vision that Alice had…That I chose to stay.” you say quietly.

“What are you saying? You don’t want to showcase your talent?”

“I didn’t plan it out right.” you say as you look to the floor, “I really like him a lot. I like the times we have spent together. I really like you and the family…”

Rosalie seems pleased at this compliment but she looked sad at the possibility of what you were thinking.

“But, I didn’t think I would have to change.” you say in realization.

“You don’t have to. It’s just….It’s clear as day my brother has fallen head over heels for you. I like you..Which is why I want to see you value your human life more.”

“Yeah but…Each day, I’m liking him more and more..” you say breathlessly. Your heart skipped a beat. You never thought you would experience it. It almost scared you.

“The scariest thing is that…I can actually feel passion… When you two are around each other.” she mused as you caught her looking at you.

You were silent, deep in thought as Edward held you close in bed. You blinked at the ceiling.

“Tomorrow we can go to our spot. Would you prefer to watch the sunrise or the sunset?” he asks in your ear.

“Surprise me.” you whisper with a soft grin and close your eyes to go to sleep. You felt a kiss on your cheek.

You sat with your forearms propped up on your knees as you and Edward watched the sunrise. An arm was wrapped around you. You were grateful for this moment. You would never forget this moment.

The sunrise from the view was picturesque.

Tears began to form in your eyes. A small shaky breath came out of your mouth without your permission as Edward tightened his grip on you. He looked at you.

He calls your name. You turn your head slowly and blink back the tears that were threatening to spill over the rim of your eyes.

One tear drop falls and Edward caught it with one swipe of his finger. He kisses and lingers his lips on the same spot and you close your eyes. You speak.

“We have to talk.”

If he had a heart, it would drop. He nods sadly as he looks down.

“Edward, what’s the end goal?”

“For us to be happy. For you to be happy. For you to reach success in whatever you want to do. I want us to create memories together.”

“You know…I didn’t think about…Or put into consideration of…Me turning into one of you.”

“One of me?”

“Yes.” you answer shyly.

“You don’t have to. I prefer you not to.” he looks down.

“That’s why it can’t work.”

He looks back up to meet your gaze. He swallows.

“What are you saying?” he whispered.

“Me and you aren’t compatible. I really like you. Like a lot. Each day I feel more and more smitten with you. You take over my mind even. I don’t want it to transform into love before it’s too late.”

“You don’t want to fall in love with me?”

You look down.

“That’s not what I was trying to say. It will be harder for us if we do fall in love.”

“Y/N.” he calls out you.

You look in his direction.

“Look at me….Please?” he whispered.

You look at him. It hurt you to do so, but even if you wanted to, you couldn’t look away.

“I think I’m falling in love with you…I don’t regret what we have. I don’t regret anything that we have done together..”

“I don’t either.” you whisper.

“I mean it.” he says and interlaced your fingers with his. He kissed the back of your palm with his eyes closed.

“I want to stay here. I don’t want things to be complicated for us.” you whisper.

“Don’t do this….Please, don’t do this. We made plans together, remember?” he asks as he guides your fingers to caress his face, some brushing on his lips.

“I’m going to keep getting older. You’re stuck this way. Never changing. I’m not upset or angry with you. You deserve someone that will match your speed.” you say with a small but sad chuckle.

“I don't want just someone else. I want you. We can make this work. Why are you giving up on us?” he’s filed with frustration.

“I’m not.”

“You are!” he says, you felt bad because he was getting emotional. Anguish was written all over his face. It was as if you tore his heart out and squished it with a stomp.

“I’m thinking realistic.”

“Do you want me to change you? Is that what it is?If that’s what-”

“Edward, no.” you say waving the idea off.

“Then what is it? What can I do to change your mind?” he asks slowly in desperation.

“You might have to let me go.” you whisper.

Devastation wasn’t even the word to describe the expression on his face.

“No.” he says with hardness. He was resisting to make this his reality.

“Edward-”

“Y/N, no. Whatever you and Rosalie talked about, made you change your mind.” he states, it was proven in his body language that he knew what you two talked about.

“We only talked about the future. When she talked about wanting a family, I realize that…That’s what I want as well. Vampires cannot conceive children and…”

“We can always make something work. Together.” he says quietly begged. He grabbed both of your hands.

You blinked as you tried to not show your sadness but it was too much work. Vulnerability had left you both completely emotionally naked.

He pulled you close to him.

Two hands cradled your face and you both breathe in the same air, lips centimeters apart, his lips brushed against yours as he whispers out your name like a prayer. You couldn’t help but to wrap your arms around him. You close your eyes as both foreheads touch.

“I still want you in my life. I won’t stay here, okay? I won’t stay.” you whisper softly to him after a very long time of silence. You both are sitting close next to each other, it was intimate as you both smothered each other’s hands on top of your knees that were to your chest.

“I want you in my life. I can’t and don’t ever want to imagine letting you go.” he says back, his face is close to your cheek. You both look at the unity of the hands.

“But after graduation….Can you just be…” you swallow, “Can you just be my mentor? Take a break to just really focus?”

“Your mentor….”

“I still want you in my life. I don’t want to slow you down. I’m just a human and you’re incredibly…You.”

“You’re not slowing me down. What about us? Everything that we had?”

“It still means a lot to me.” you say confidently but in a hushed tone. You both slowly blink at each other. Swimming in the gaze of each other. Time floats past.

“When you change your mind…I want to marry you.”

”Edward.” you whisper as you blink rapidly. You look down. Your heart raced but the ring on your hand made you feel a deep spark. You wondered what a wedding ring would look like, wondering the feeling of calling him, your husband. But, you also wondered if a wedding would even happen.

“I want you to be happy. I will wait for you. You own my soul. I’d rather consume you than life itself.” he says in your ear.

“Married? That’s…A tough commitment.” you say as you remember the arguments between your parents. Gun to your head, you cant recall the last time you seen your parents kissed when they were together.

It was nothing like that with Edward. “I know what I want….I will wait for you to want to change your mind. You don’t have to worry about rushing either. I’m patient. Especially for you.”

You nod slowly as he kissed the side of your mouth. You breathe out a small sigh. You both watch the horizon. Still close to each other, both not wanting to move. Contentment.

You’ve been nothing but happy with him but right now, you felt that this was best. You wondered if he hated you. You wondered if he knew how much he meant to you and your heart. You wondered if you were experiencing what a thing called love was. Something that was so forbidden, a deep feeling that made you crave whatever it was, more. Crave him more. You couldn't kid yourself, he would eventually find his soulmate who would be a vampire.

He kept it to himself, he concentrated hard to read clues to match his own feelings.

“I wonder if there was another way for this to be easier.”

He blinked as he held you tighter.

Little did you know, he was terrified inside. This was the same scenery from Alice’s vision.

#edward cullen #edward cullen x you #edward cullen x reader #twilight #y/n imagines #the cullens #x y/n #twilight x you #x reader #cullen x reader #fanfic #y/n #fanfiction #x you

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devilsanddarlings · 9 months ago

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@wastheheart

If the unfamiliar scents lingering in the house hadn’t been enough to raise his hackles, then finding Esme in such a state certainly did. The change had robbed Emmett of much of his human memories. He couldn’t clearly remember his mother’s face or the sound of her voice, but he remembered other things.

Like the quiet strength and unrelenting grace she had always carried herself with after his father’s passing. The warmth he felt whenever she’d welcome he and his brothers home from hunting or working on the railroad. The scent of her perfume and the taste of her apple pie. And though he was as lost to her now as she was to him, he knew she’d be grateful to Esme for taking him on if she knew he was still alive. Because Esme was good people - the sort of woman his mother would have adored - and seeing her so flustered upset him.

“Ma?” Emmett pressed gently, frowning the tiniest bit as he took a step closer to Esme. “Are you okay with this? Did this broad even ask you or Dad if they could join us? Or did she and her mate just make the decision for all of us and expect us to go along with it just because she claims she’s psychic?”

Talking About What Happened

@devilsanddarlings (emmett) asked: "So... is someone going to fill me in?" (hello & thank you!)

Ah, yes. It had all happened so quickly, Esme had forgotten Emmett wasn't here when the house's newest occupants had turned up. They aren't around now, but their scents lingered. Without context, Esme knows how easily Emmett could potentially misconstrue unknown scents as a threat.

Esme offers a quick smile, words struggling to come as she attempts to wrap her head around it herself.

"Well, I believe we may have acquired two more coven members," Esme begins, the girl she had just met seemingly knowing them all personally already. She can't quite decide if it's comforting or unnerving. "A woman named Alice and her mate, Jasper."

If anything, Esme's simply glad she's remembered their names. Alice was like an unseasonal hurricane and, despite vampiric abilities, Esme found it difficult to keep up. Not that her mate helped matters; he simply stood there looking stoic.

"The woman is a psychic and her mate is an empath... apparently they adopted our diet so to be prepared for when they finally found us." Esme almost wants to laugh. Saying these things out loud sounds dramatic. "... To be honest, I think it'd be easier to just ask them... but the man, Jasper... he is finding this lifestyle particularly challenging."

#wastheheart #Emmett Cullen #Emmett Is A Mama’s Boy #This Giant Teddy Bear Of A Man #Absolutely Adores Esme #Fight Me On This

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bless-my-demons · 2 years ago

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Redamancy: Chapter Two

Jasper Hale x Reader

Series Summary: What happens when your soulmate is a vampire that struggles to maintain a diet of trying not to kill you? Common sense says run for the hills, nothing is worth your life - but my heart is whispering why not, what’s there to lose?

Warnings: None

Notes: So sorry it took me more than a week to post, life kind of imploded and knocked me off the schedule I had planned. This chapter is honestly just filler so it can get to the good stuff… I plan to take this story all the way to Breaking Dawn at the very least. Thank you for all the love on the previous chapter!! Enjoy!

Word Count: 1695

Series Masterlist

• January 24th, 2005 • Forks High School •

Reader

Thankfully the first half of the day went rather uneventful, although I am disappointed I haven’t had a class with the handsome Jasper Hale yet. I did however, make friends with his adopted siblings Alice and Emmett Cullen. Both of which are gorgeous in their own right, but nowhere near as attractive as their blonde brother.

In English I sat in the unoccupied seat next to Alice Cullen, gratefully so. She seems like just the kind of friend a new girl needs in order to survive high school. I transferred to this place at such a horrible time in the year - almost at the end of my 11th grade. But after just a few minutes of knowing her, Alice caught me up on everything I missed. Turns out I’ve pretty much read everything they had covered this year and then some, fingers crossed that it continues to be a trend in most of my classes.

I learned that the boy walking with Jasper Hale this morning when I so rudely almost killed him with the door to the front office, is his adopted brother Emmett Cullen. A hulking mass of muscle, but a complete teddy bear, he kept me entertained for most of Trig. I can already tell that sitting in front of him was probably a bad move on my part for my academic career, but the guy is an absolute comedian.

Parting ways with Emmett after Math, I made my way to my locker. Digging the wrinkled combination paper out of my pocket, I was studying the numbers right when I bumped into a thin scrap of a girl with brown hair and an orange backpack. Immediately cursing myself I dropped to the ground to gather her notes before they could be stepped on by the stampede of people rushing to the cafeteria for lunch.

“Oh my god I’m so sorry! I-I just wasn’t paying attention, I was looking at my stupid locker combination and-“ I scrambled for excuses, word vomit spilling from my lips.

“Oh um, it’s okay! I’m not the most graceful person, so no worries.” An awkward pause, “Hey, you’re the new girl right?” She asked.

“Unfortunately.” I replied, looking up with a sad smile. I stuck out my hand to shake, “I’m Y/n Y/l/n, you are?”

“Bella Swan, former new girl I guess.” She responded as she lightly shook my hand. “You can sit with me during lunch if you want, maybe us gracefully-challenged should stick together.”

“Oh absolutely.” I chuckled a little, “I’ll grab my lunch from my locker and find you in there.”

“Cool, see you then.” She replied with a half-wave as she continued down the hallway to the cafeteria.

Jasper

One of the convenient things about being a vampire is that we really don’t necessarily need to breathe. In public places packed with humans, I can just hold my breath, but the challenge comes in making it still seem like I’m breathing.

Lost in my thoughts while Emmett and Rosalie drone on about plans after school, I spot the new girl - Y/n enter the cafeteria. I sit up straighter in my seat and observe her shamelessly as she walks unknowingly in my direction, switching paths as she spots the object of Edward’s latest desire: Isabella Swan. I spare a glance to my stoic adopted brother and see him rising from his seat, probably headed in the same direction as Y/n.

Walking up to the pair, I could tell his eyes were only on Isabella. Both girls stared up at him in awe, their emotions giving away that they were surprised to see him seeking them, or rather a certain one of them, out.

“Isabella-“ Edward started but was interrupted by Y/n.

“I’ll… go find us a seat.” Bella didn’t even spare her a glance as Y/n rushed away.

“Bro, you’re staring a little hard there, something catch your eye?” Emmett said, leaning over Rosalie to nudge my ribs. I turn to him and discreetly flash a crude gesture, causing him to chuckle. I love my brother, he just thrives on getting a rise out of me any chance he gets.

Alice smacks my shoulder, “You two behave, she’s shy and I’ll be upset if your rowdiness scares her off.” My adopted sister huffs in slight frustration at our antics.

“As if we need another human in our business.” Rosalie grumbles from her spot between myself and her mate. Crossing her arms, she stares daggers at the back of Edward’s head from where he’s talking to Bella Swan.

“Oh hush, I want more friends outside of you guys, plus Y/n is relatively safe. Cheer up Rose, I’ve already seen you get along with her rather nicely!” Alice fires back at Rose.

“I haven’t even met her yet-“ Rosalie leans forward to argue.

“But you will and you’ll love her, end of story.” Alice says matter-of-factly.

Rose leans back in her seat, huffing as Emmett pats her thigh. She swipes his hand away, not happy that he finds it amusing that she’ll have to deal with another one of her brother’s fixations on a human girl. It’s always so easy to read Rosalie’s emotions, she wears them so boldly and almost prefers to torture me with their intensity sometimes, as if to get her point across even more than her biting words.

I let out a sigh at their exchange concerning Y/n, she’s been here for half a day and already a hot topic for even us.

I’ve been in a trance pretty much since lunch, the two classes following it were uneventful allowing my thoughts to fill with day-dreams of the new girl.

Her hair, the way her oversized sweater hangs from her shoulders, her intoxicating scent…

The bell ending sixth period startles me from my reverie. This girl almost put a me-sized-dent in the door to the front office this morning and here I am obsessing over minuscule details after only seeing her twice.

I gather my notes and writing utensils before filing out of the door behind my fellow classmates. I slow my walk to the next class in hopes that I might catch a glimpse of her before the end of the day. I don’t even know her emotional signature yet like I do my adopted siblings, a handy ability I’ve managed to teach myself to find them in busy situations.

My search for Y/n comes up short, the hallways are mostly empty by the time the warning bell rings for the final instruction of the day. With a small huff I enter my seventh period class keeping my eyes on the floor as I make my way to my assigned seat.

“Glad you could make it in the nick of time, Mister Hale.” Mr. Ellis states rather loudly in an accusatory tone, raising an eyebrow as I sit and the final tardy bell rings.

An almost imperceptible gasp to my right keeps me from replying, I clamp my mouth shut and force myself not to meet the gaze I could feel boring into my back as flames begin to lick down my throat.

Wonderful, not only was I late enough to garner the attention of everyone in the room, but Y/n Y/l/n is in my history class and I can’t breathe for the next forty-four minutes.

• January 24th, 2005 • Home •

Reader

“How was school sweetheart?” My mother yells from the kitchen as I push open our front door, I swear that woman wastes no time when digging for information.

“Jeez, let me get in the door first!” I yell back with a light-hearted chuckle, setting my backpack on the ground by the couch just inside the living room.

“Sorry, I’m just excited to see how everything went.” Her voice is much closer this time and I turn to see her walking down the connecting hallway wiping her hands on a dish towel.

I flop onto my back on the couch as she leans over the back, folding her arms under her chest with an expectant look on her face ready for my response.

“Well, I don’t think it’ll be hard to catch up in-“ but my mom interrupts me excitedly.

“No, no, no! I need the good stuff! Did you make any friends? See any cute guys?” I could burst out laughing at the look on her face and the fact that she’s more concerned about my social life than my academics on the first day of school in a new town.

“Mom!” I drag the word out in exasperation as I smush a decorative pillow to my face to hide the slight heat in my cheeks.

“There’s a cute boy! I knew it!” She practically yells in victory, “tell me everything, baby girl!”

I pull the pillow down enough to reveal my eyes to her, “I almost killed him with a door.” I mumble in a rather sad tone.

“Oh dear God.” She immediately becomes serious, rounding the couch to push my legs off, forcing me upright so she can sit next to me, “it can’t be that bad!”

“I wasn’t looking while I pushed open the door to the front office and he barely caught it in time before it hit him square in the face!” I blurt out in a rush and drop the pillow to cover my face with my hands. “Definitely not the way to start off on the right foot.”

“Oh honey,” she tries to sooth me, guiding my hands away from my face and into her hold, “look at it this way - you’ve captured his attention in a way that’ll be memorable. Sure it isn’t without embarrassment, but now you’ve made a first impression he’ll never forget!”

“Yeah and I’ll probably never hear the end of it.” I mumble as I bury my face in her shoulder, sighing deeply. I hesitate, “We do have one class together.”

The gasp my mother lets out immediately sends me into a fit of giggles, forgetting all about my early morning embarrassment.

#jasper hale x reader #twilight #jasper hale #jasper whitlock #jasper whitlock hale #twilight fanfiction #redamancy series #bless-my-demons #female reader insert #jasper hale fanfiction

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dwellordream · 1 month ago

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Best Reads of 2024

this year i read 300 books. which i think is impressive but not as impressive as it sounds bc many of these books were very short, easy reads meant to be like, stuff you read at the airport or sitting by the pool on vacation. so it's not like i was tackling the harvard classics. i also read extremely fast; it only takes me about an hour to do 300 pages unless it's a super dense complex text. that said, here is a list of all the books i read this year that i would rate 4 stars or higher, separated by genre: Fantasy/Magical Realism: The Tainted Cup by Robert Jackson Bennett Highfire by Eoin Colfer Tehanu by Ursula K. Le Guin Gifts by Ursula K. Le Guin The Last Tale of the Flower Bride by Roshani Chokshi Chlorine by Jade Song The Passion by Jeanette Winterson The Magic Toyshop by Angela Carter Realistic Fiction: We Are Not Like Them by Christine Pride & Jo Piazza Young Jane Young by Gabrielle Zevin My Absolute Darling by Gabriel Tallent Only Child by Rhiannon Navin Movie Star by Lizzie Pepper Prima Facie by Suzie Miller Acts of Desperation by Megan Nolan Marjorie Morningstar by Herman Wouk The Subtweet by Vivek Shraya All Grown Up by Jami Attenberg Piglet by Lottie Hazell The List by Yomi Adegoke A Winter's Rime by Carol Dunbar The Resurrection of Joan Ashby by Cherise Wolas

Mystery/Thriller: Queenpin by Megan Abbott Bury Me Deep by Megan Abbott Beware the Woman by Megan Abbott Firekeeper's Daughter by Angeline Boulley The Guest by Emma Cline Advika and the Hollywood Wives by Kirthana Ramisetti Kala by Colin Walsh Descent by Tim Johnston Wahala by Nikki May When We Were Bright and Beautiful by Jillian Medoff We Could Be Beautiful by Swan Huntley Bright Young Women by Jessica Knoll Nothing Can Hurt You by Nicola Maye Goldberg Fruit of the Dead by Rachel Lyon The Lagos Wife by Vanessa Walters Grown by Tiffany D. Jackson Yes, Daddy by Jonathan Parks-Ramage Cape Fear by John D. MacDonald Sea Wife by Amity Gaige Last Seen Wearing by Hilary Waugh The Black Cabinet by Patricia Wentworth Historical Fiction: Everyone Knows Your Mother is a Witch by Rivka Galchen Gilded Mountain by Kate Manning All You Have to Do is Call by Kerri Maher Cruel Beautiful World by Caroline Leavitt Payback by Mary Gordon A Dangerous Business by Jane Smiley The Affairs of the Falcons by Melissa Rivero Longbourn by Jo Baker The Hazelbourne Ladies Motorcycle and Flying Club by Helen Simonson Go to Hell Ole Miss by Jeff Barry The Divorcees by Rowan Beaird Consequences by Penelope Lively Iron Curtain: A Love Story by Vesna Goldsworthy Homestead by Melinda Moustakis Not Our Kind by Kitty Zeldis Hamnet by Maggie O’Farrell Teddy by Emily Dunlay Science Fiction: Prophet Song by Paul Lynch Aesthetica by Allie Rowbottom Fever by Deon Meyer The Salt Line by Holly Goddard Jones Land of Milk and Honey by C. Pam Zhang Gold Fame Citrus by Claire Vaye Watkins A Children’s Bible by Lydia Millet Briefly Very Beautiful by Roz Dineen

Romance: Everything’s Fine by Cecilia Rabess Adelaide by Genevieve Wheeler Meant to Be Mine by Hannah Orenstein When Katie Met Cassidy by Camille Perri Major Pettigrew’s Last Stand by Helen Simonson American Royalty by Tracey Livesay The One by Julie Argy The Mountain Between Us by Charles Martin Queen of Urban Prophecy by Aya de Léon That Dangerous Energy by Aya de Léon The Dove in the Belly by Jim Grimsley Fatima Tate Takes the Cake by Khadija VanBrakle Faro’s Daughter by Georgette Heyer Horror: Red Rabbit by Alex Grecian The Parliament by Aimee Pokwatka Cujo by Stephen King Night Watching by Tracy Sierra The Garden by Clare Beams The House of Ashes by Stuart Neville The Suicide Motor Club by Christopher Buehlman True Crime: In Cold Blood by Truman Capote Columbine by Dave Cullen Kent State: Four Dead in Ohio by Derf Backderf Bad Blood: Secrets and Lies in a Silicon Valley Startup by John Carreyrou While Idaho Slept: The Hunt for Answers in the Murders of Four College Students by J. Reuben Appelman The Bishop and the Butterfly: Murder, Politics, and the End of the Jazz Age by Michael Wolraich Fatal Vision by Joe McGinniss Billion Dollar Whale: The Man Who Fooled Wall Street, Hollywood, and the World by Tom Wright and Bradley Hope

History: Midnight in Chernobyl: The Untold Story of the World’s Greatest Nuclear Disaster by Adam Higginbotham Capote’s Women: A True Story of Love, Betrayal, and a Swan Song for an Era by Laurence Leamer The Astronaut Wives Club by Lily Koppel The Burning Blue: The Untold Story of Christa McAuliffe and Nasa’s Challenger Disaster by Kevin Cook The Splendid and the Vile: A Saga of Churchill, Family, and Defiance During the Blitz by Erik Larson Grace and Power: The Private World of the Kennedy White House by Sally Bedell Smith As Long as We Both Shall Love: The White Wedding in Postwar America by Karen M. Dunak Babysitter: An American History by Miriam Forman-Brunell Game Change: Obama and the Clintons, McCain and Palin, and the Race of a Lifetime by John Heilemann and Mark Halperin All She Lost: The Explosion in Lebanon, the Collapse of a Nation and the Women who Survive by Dalal Mawad Psychology: Hidden Valley Road: Inside the Mind of an American Family by Robert Kolker The Anxious Generation: How The Great Rewiring of Childhood is Causing an Epidemic of Mental Illness by Jonathan Haidt Beautiful Boy: A Father’s Journey Through His Son’s Addiction by David Sheff Misdiagnosed: One Woman’s Tour of -And Escape From- Healthcareland by Jody Berger Stolen Child: A Mother’s Journey to Rescue Her Son from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder by Laurie Gough Zig-Zag Boy: A Memoir of Madness and Motherhood by Tanya Frank I’m Glad My Mom Died by Jennette McCurdy Us, After: A Memoir of Love and Suicide by Rachel Zimmerman Everything Is Fine: A Memoir by Vince Granata Juliet the Maniac by Juliet Escoria

Memoir: Upstairs At The White House by J.B. West A Mother’s Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy by Sue Klebold Goodbye, Sweet Girl: A Story of Domestic Violence and Survival by Kelly Sundberg This Boy We Made: A Memoir of Motherhood, Genetics, and Facing the Unknown by Taylor Harris I Am, I Am, I Am: Seventeen Brushes with Death by Maggie O’Farrell Fragile Beginnings: Discoveries and Triumphs in the Newborn ICU by Adam Wolfberg The Longest Race: Inside the Secret World of Abuse, Doping, and Deception on Nike’s Elite Running Team by Kara Goucher and Mary Pilon Remedies for Sorrow: An Extraordinary Child, a Secret Kept from Pregnant Women, and a Mother’s Pursuit of the Truth by Megan Nix Brazen: My Unorthodox Journey from Long Sleeves to Lingerie by Julia Haart Minding the Manor: The Memoir of a 1930s English Kitchen Maid by Mollie Moran Love in the Blitz: The War Letters of Eileen Alexander to Gershon Ellenbogan by Eileen Alexander Any Given Tuesday: A Political Love Story by Lis Smith The Apology by Eve Ensler Wild Game: My Mother, Her Secret, and Me by Adrienne Brodeur One Way Back: A Memoir by Christine Blasey Ford Biography: The Matriarch: Barbara Bush and the Making of an American Dynasty by Susan Page Untold Power: The Fascinating Rise and Complex Legacy of First Lady Edith Wilson by Rebecca Boggs Roberts King: A Life by Jonathan Eig Louisa: The Extraordinary Life of Mrs. Adams by Louisa Thomas American Girls: One Woman’s Journey into the Islamic State and Her Sister’s Fight to Bring Her Home by Jessica Roy Susan, Linda, Nina, and Cokie: The Extraordinary Story of the Founding Mothers of NPR by Lisa Napoli

Gender: Becoming Nicole: The Transformation of an American Family by Amy Ellis Nutt The Feminine Mystique by Betty Friedan We Were Feminists Once: From Riot Grrrl to CoverGirl®, the Buying and Selling of a Political Movement by Andi Zeisler All the Rage: Mothers, Fathers, and the Myth of Equal Partnership by Darcy Lockman Ain’t I a Woman: Black Women and Feminism by bell hooks Enslaved Women in America: From Colonial Times to Emancipation by Emily West You’ll Do: A History of Marrying for Reasons Other Than Love by Marcia A. Zug The Red Menace: How Lipstick Changed the Face of American History by Ilise S. Carter Odd Girls and Twilight Lovers: A History of Lesbian Life in Twentieth-Century America by Lillian Faderman

#recommendations #literature

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itneverendshere · 5 months ago

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THE OTHER SIDE OF PARADISE - '*•.¸♡ ♡¸.•*' the official playlist '*•.¸♡ ♡¸.•*'

💘for my rafe x maybank!reader lovers💘

there's no right way to listen to these, you can chose however you'd like, these are simply the songs i listened to the most while writing <3

the door - teddy swims

me and my broken heart - rixton

the alchemy - taylor swift

sweat - zayn

tatto - lauren

teeth - 5sos

room - lolo zouai

see you later (ten years) - jena raine

the joke - brandi carlile

high - zella day

it happened quiet - aurora

if the world was ending - jp axe ft julia michaels

golden - riley baron

close to you - gracie abrams

roslyn - cullen

enjoy the ride - riley baron

artificial paradise - vlad holiday

fragile tears - awfultune

i love you - billie eilish

forget me // so we can meet again - kieran mckenzie clark

bitter heart - memi, staffan carlén

persephone - tamino

sweet connection - jessica rica

till forever falls apart - ashe, finneas

treacherous - taylor swift

maps - maroon 5

#rafe cameron #rafe cameron x reader #rafe x maybank!reader #rafe x pogue!reader #rafe cameron x maybank!reader #rafe cameron x pogue!reader #kinda canon #itneverendshere works✨

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darimurtales · 3 months ago

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THE 498th BATTALION

Forward, to the sun. Onward, by the moon!

The 498th Battalion of Ryloth, assistance to the Twi’Lek Resistance and Clan alliances.☀️🌙 Unsurprisingly, this took me literal ages. 🤣 Such a fun little piece to do though, this is after the initial siege of Ryloth, so everyone is not so shiny. I had yet to draw pretty much everyone’s full armor and helmet designs, so this was part of the process as well! I only included a few helmets and weapons— wanting it to seem like everyone had hurried to get into position. Anyways, I hope you guys enjoy this one! I’ve been rewatching The Clone Wars with my friend so this definitely inspired the process. In order by row, top to bottom, left to right.

🌙 Moon Division 🌙 Bylo/CT3196 - Officer Wick/CT9492 - Sniper Heath/CY4333 - Medic Dune/CT1965 - Jet Cullens/CT6116 - Assault Cotton/CT5313 - Commander Ireleth Hunslow - Lieutenant Toad/CT5541 - Assault Lawe/CT6354 - Heavy ☀️ Sun Division ☀️ Cobalt/CT2405 - Medic Aftermath/CT4774 - Sniper Rollout/CT8597 - Officer Beridin Darimur - Jedi General Wiltshire/CT5795 - Captain Watkins/CT2298 - Assault Teddy/CT2150 - Jet Bones/CT7188 - Heavy Holden/CT4752 - Assault

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#star wars #twilek #twilek oc #clone wars #the clone wars #clone oc #star wars oc #star wars fanart #beridin darimur #art #star wars fanon #star wars divergence #pink twilek #character reference #star wars anime

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tepkunset · 10 months ago

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List of Canon Queer Marvel Characters:

(with at least 10 appearances as of current date - no randos included)

Aaron Fischer

Aikku Jokinen

Akihiro

Alani Ryan

Aldrif Odinsdottir

America Chavez

Aneka

Annabelle Riggs

Avril Kincaid

Ayo

Benji Deeds

Betsy Braddock

Billy Kaplan

Bobby Drake

Brandon Sharpe

Brian Falsworth

Brunnhilde

Carl Valentino

Carmen Cruz

Cessily Kincaid

Christian Frost

Cullen Bloodstone

David Alleyne

Elle Diwa

Ellie Phimister

Felicia Hardy

Gwen Poole

Heather Douglas

Heather Tucker

Hercules

Hiroim

Ian Soo

Irene Adler

Jake Oh

Jean-Paul Beaubier

Jean-Paul Duchamp

Jennifer Kale

Jerry Sledge

Johnny Clay

Jonas Greymalkin

Jovana

Julie Power

Julio Richter

Jumbo Carnation

Karolina Dean

Ken Shiga

Korg

Kyle Jinadu

Loki Laufeyson

Martha Johansson

Miguel Santos

Morgan Red

Nadia Van Dyne

Nathaniel Carver

Nico Minnoru

Noh-Varr

Phyla-Vell

Rachel Summers

Raven Darkholme

Roger Aubrey

Roxy Washington

Rūna

Sera

Shatterstar

Shela Sexton

Simon Lasker

Solem

Sybil Dvorak

Teddy Altman

Theresa Burke

Tommy Shepherd

Toni Ho

Val Ventura

Victoria Hand

Viktor Borkowski

Viv Vision

Wade Wilson

Xavin

Xuân Cao Mạnh

Zoe Zimmer

And yet Marvel Voices: Pride only ever features like, five of the same characters every time.

#marvel comics #lgbt #lgbtq

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misswhowrite · 6 months ago

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Young mates

Summary: We see more of the connection between Demetri and Y/N.

(English is not my first language!!)

After the discussion between the two coven, the two mate were living in a house at an equal distance between forks and Volterra. At first, the Cullen brothers weren’t pleased that their little sister was leaving but they couldn’t get in the way of her love life. The travel to their new was two weeks after their first encounter. Y/N was shy but wanted to get to know better Demetri; while he was more than excited to be with her, he literally waited for millenniums to meet her.

“_Well...this it, our new home. Does it please you amor mio?

_Yes of course, Demetri. This is a bit like my home in Forks but smaller also cuter but don’t tell mom that!

_Your secret is safe with me. We could go into the living room and tell ourselves our story?

_Yeah sounds good to me.”

The living room was a perfect mix of cosy and modernity, they sat in the sofa, closer than two new friends but considering their bond they couldn’t help it. Y/N started her story first: she told him shes was twenty, she was dying of a brain cancer: her tumor couldn’t be took off and her body couldn’t handle it anymore. Then she told him how Carlisle found her a week before her death, bringing Esme the next day and the woman fell in love with the girl, with a bit of convincing Carlisle decided to change Y/N and told her everything a day before her death, he still gave her a choice while it’s was terrifying she didn’t wanted t die so she accepted. She told him her struggle with the animal diet because she loved them and adored nature, she skipped her stay with the Denali and finally finish with what she felt on the battleground (there wasn’t a battle but you know where u meant)

“_I felt this pull towards your side of the field, it was like my un-beating heart was beating again, Edward directly snapped his head towards me but I choose to ignore at that moment. Then after the whole thing I met your eyes, it was the best thing that ever happen in my short vampiric life, I felt like I was blushing and had a high school crush again. You’re like my ideal man, you look a bit intimidating but I think your just a teddy bear that I want to cuddle, so yeah that’s my story!”

Demetri also told her everything: the little he remembered from his past life in Greek, Amun bitting and his life with him, how he discover his tracking gift and was recruited by the Volturi, he didn’t told her every details of his missions because it was a bit gruesome for her innocent mind, he came off clean about his reputation of the Casanova of the Volturi and assured that he’ll only be with her now because she’s his mate. He finished like her with the first time he saw her.

“_At first I thought the pull was my gift telling me something was wrong, because I tried to find my mate before but obviously it isn’t working on you. I didn’t concentrate on it much during the discussion but when Master Aro told that you were my mate I was shocked. After millenniums of waiting and believing I’ll always be alone, I finally found you and oh mio dio I wasn’t disappointed. You looked like a little angel, your eyes are two golden stars and I lost myself in them, your smile is gentle and soft, it make me want to kiss your lips forever, and I might be tall but I like that you’re smaller than me I could put you in my pocket. Your aura is just so warm, soft and gentle that might be my favorite thing about you. Living here with is gonna be the best thing of my long life and I already know it.”

If they could cry, they would because the love they felt at this moment was enormous. They spent the rest of the night cuddling and talking some more, they knew they had eternity to be with each other. Their love will be going for long, with ups and downs but they’ll always be back in each others arms in the end. A pair of mate is something that survive everything as long as they’re together.

#twilight x reader #demetri volturi #demetri x reader #twilight saga #cullen!reader #fanfic #reader insert

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faraquezshipper5794 · 2 years ago

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#the magnificent seven #sam chisolm #joshua faraday #vasquez #goodnight robicheaux #billy rocks #jack horne #red harvest #emma cullen #teddy q

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schwarznummer1 · 6 months ago

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my second da2 playthrough cullen is a teddy bear HJDOAJEGRBNDKSMSKLSKSnhevbskkaka

#da2 #cullen rutherford

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fashionteahouse · 1 month ago

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i wonder - edward cullen x reader

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You barely heard a creak but there he was, standing in your bedroom and the window was already back shut.

You blink. He blinked.

You set the teddy bear that you held onto for dear life, to the side. He kneeled on one knee, bringing you into a hug. You swallow as you hugged him back.

You didn’t expect the hug to last so long. You blinked at the floor and the wall behind him. He felt hard, but in a way was smooth, like a statue. It was as if you were actually figuring him out. You were actually feeling him.

Slowly, he pulls back but he’s still close. You take a real good look at him.

His unique eyes burn into yours as he searched your face.

He sits down next to you on your bed. You stare ahead as you felt him scoop up the hand that rested beside you.

“Why did you tap your foot?”

“To match your heartbeat.” he answered.

You swallow.

“Why?” you ask.

“We couldn’t let it be known to them that you were..A human.”

You let quietness sink in for a moment before you turn to look at him. It almost hurt to look at him.

“Human?”

He looks up from the spot on the floor and nods as he maintains eye contact.

“So…You’re…Not a human?”

He shakes his head and you softly sucked in a breath.

“You’re not?” you ask one more time.

Back and forth, his head slowly shakes.

You looked up and down at him. You wondered how he could look like a human, how he looked so real. Sure, he was graceful and poised but you just thought it came from how he was raised.

“Are…Are you going to hurt me?” you whisper and snatch your hand out of his. He looked as if you had slapped him.

Your heart thudded and he widened his eyes at such thought.

“Never.”

“How can I believe you?”

“Those with the red eyes…They’re the ones who will hurt you.”

You both stare into each other’s eyes.

“What does gold mean?”

“Remember when I told you I was a vegetarian?”

You just nod.

“Well, that’s where the color comes from….From what I eat.”

“What do you eat?” you ask, it came out firmer than you intended.

“Animals.”

“Edward. Don’t lie to me.”

“I’m telling you the truth.” he says as he closed his eyes for a moment.

“That’s not what a vegetarian is.” you say, getting annoyed.

“I have to drink…From animals…Animal’s blood.”

You rise to a stand and he looks up to you.

“Why? Why do you do that?”

“I have to.”

“Why?” you felt frustrated.

“I’m not human…I was on the brink of death..Carlisle..Saved me with one bite…I’ve been the same age since 1918.”

“1918??” you ask with stupor.

“Yes.” he didn’t look away.

Your hands shook with nervousness.

“So…You’re not really 17?”

“I have been…For a very long time.” he admits.

“You drink blood….” you observe and look at him up and down.

“Yes.”

“Your family drinks blood.”

“Yes.”

“Red eyed people drink…Or eat what?”

“Human blood instead of animal blood.”

You gulped.

You understood why his apologies were produced profusely.

“So…They could’ve killed me today?” you ask as you start to softly pace.

“…Yes…”

You bring your hands to your temples before bringing them back down. A worried expression is displayed on your face.

“You don’t have a bed…Why?”

“I don’t sleep.”

You stop pacing as you looked at him. He looked at you. You looked at him with observation. He sat very still. He looked as though he wasn’t breathing. He pulled you in with just his sight. He was intense.

“So…You’re like….A vampire?…What are you?”

He doesn’t say anything.

You shudder.

“That’s why you’re cold…You’re dead.” you whisper sadly. He nods.

You felt your heart break in half.

He rises and you step back. He looked hurt but he pushed it down.

“Y/N. I wouldn’t do anything to hurt you. My family wouldn’t do anything to hurt you.” he reassured.

“Are you going to be in school tomorrow?”

“Yes.”

“I’ll see you at school tomorrow.”

“Y/N-“

“I promise I won’t say anything or bring it back up again. I won’t even tell Alice, Jasper, or anyone that I know.”

He nods.

“Can I hug you?…Please?”

You were hesitant. You nod slowly.

He walks very slowly and you felt your body move forward, your ear was pressed to his chest as he embraced you in a gentle hug. There was no heartbeat. You closed your eyes at this realization.

“I brought you with me today, to show you. I wanted to show you all of me. I was going to tell you. I promise I was going to tell you.”

You don’t say anything. You step back and the look of yearning wasn’t hiding on his face.

“See you tomorrow.” you whisper. He nods with his eyes closed. You blinked and he was gone.

You sat on your bed with defeat, you held the teddy bear up to the light in your room. It strongly smelled like him. It reminded you of when you thought things were normal and he was just a normal boy who gave it to you on a normal holiday. Things weren’t how they seemed. The soft teddy bear in your vision became blurry from the new tears that formed in your eyes.

You only slept for an hour.

Bundled up, you step outside and Edward already had your car door open. You wave goodbye to your parent. You take a look at Edward.

You sat with your seatbelt across your chest, you sit with your arms crossed as you stared out of the window.

You immediately get out once he parks at school. You don’t look back as you walked fast into the building.

After hastily putting your things in your locker, you rush to the bathroom.

People were in there but you silently lock the stall. You couldn’t even be around people at the moment. You let your backpack fall to the ground and you lean your back against the closed and locked stall.

You hear a small knock. You open your eyes and sniff and say, “Just a moment. I’m almost finished.”

“Y/N. It’s me.”

You slowly unlock the stall.

Alice looks back at you with a worried expression.

The bathroom was clear. It was just you two. She took in the sight of you.

“Edward told me…He told you everything…” she says in a low volume voice.

“He did.” you say quietly.

“We were going to tell you, but we didn’t want to lay everything on you all at once. I didn’t see them coming in my vision but they heard our game and it wasn’t as smooth as we would’ve hoped.” she rambled.

You stare at yourself in the mirror.

“Vision….You’re psychic?”

“I see the outcomes of one’s decisions.”

“So…What’s the outcome if we just go on our own paths? I won’t say a word to anyone. I promise. ”

Her eyes were sad.

“You don’t…You don’t want to be friends anymore?” she asked quietly.

“I want to be safe. No accidents.” you say.

“You are safe…We protect you…We protected you from Laurent’s coven.”

You put your fingers close.

“This close, Alice….I’m scared. I don’t know what to expect anymore.”

“Just…Please don’t shut us out.” she slightly begged.

You didn’t look in his direction in class but you felt Edward’s eyes from across the room.

You didn’t eat lunch. You camped in the bathroom again, letting your tears fall silently.

You felt better in history. Jasper still said hello to you as if things weren’t any different. You couldn’t help but greet him back.

You flew out of the school doors when it was time to go home.

“Y/N.”

You turn around.

“Are you okay?” Rosalie asks. You nod. She looks up and down at you, not convinced.

You turn back around and you get in your parent’s car.

The trees fleet past.

“Y/N.”

You snap out of your thoughts and look to see that your parent was calling you.

“What’s going on with you? Did you hear anything I said?”

“I…I’m really tired..”

“I’m sure you are. I know that you’re busy with colleges now so, I would advise you to not be around that Edward boy. He’s distracting you. You’re not all the way there when you’re distracted. Now’s the time to…”

You tune them out. They just think it’s a silly crush.

If only they knew.

Plugging your headphones into your keyboard, you let your fingers touch the keys to play a sad song. That’s how you felt.

Picking up your phone, you speak nervously.

“Hello?”

“Y/N.”

“Hey.”

“I missed you.”

“I seen you today at school.”

“You didn’t talk to me. You avoided me.” Edward says sadly.

You don’t say anything.

“I want to talk in person.” he says.

You take a deep breath, “I think it’s best…If we don’t.”

“I just want to talk.”

You unlock the window. You watched the window from your bed. Your eyes couldn’t even catch the quickness of the speed that he came into your room.

You sat up on your bed with your knees to your chest. He looked straight at you. He then looked to see your stuffed Valentine’s day present wasn’t on your bed with you, it was instead sitting in a chair. He looked as if someone punched him in the gut.

“You wanted to talk.” you say.

“Things don’t have to change just because I’m different. You don’t judge, so please don’t do it now.”

“I’m not judging you.” you say with a shake of your head.

“Then why won’t you talk to me? You’re avoiding me.”

“It’s not easy to just move past something so big…Your family have been good to me. You’ve been good to me.”

He’s very close.

“You’ve been good to me too.” he says. You look away and chuckle a bit, “Edward.”

“It’s true…” he says.

You don’t say anything.

“Can I have a hug?” he asks quietly.

You look at him for a moment. You slowly scoot and you rise up on your knees. You’re in his arms tight. You held back the shudder from the touch of skin that hit his fingertips from the slight rise of your pajama shirt.

“I have to go to college anyway. What’s going to happen when I have to leave?” you speak as you both didn’t let each other go.

“We’ll cross that bridge when we get to it.”

“Alice…Is psychic?”

“Yes..”

“All of you have powers like that?” you ask.

“No. Just me, Alice and Jasper.” he answered.

“What’s yours?”

“I read one’s thoughts.”

Your heart thudded. You pull back, a flash of disappointment is displayed on his face.

“You could read mine all of this time?”

“Yes but yours is like..Quiet whispers.”

You blink. He reached out slowly, he cradled the side of your face. You look up to him.

“Was it me? Did I make you cry?” he whispered.

You look down.

“I made myself cry…Thinking about when things were so different.”

“Things are better now. I don’t have to hide things from you anymore.”

“We’re different Edward. A human and….” you swallow with a shake of your head, “Can’t be together.” you finish. You didn’t want to say the actually word, it seemed too real.

“If you don’t want us together, can we still be friends?”

You think for a moment. Friends. It what you two were anyway. You slowly nod. He seemed relieved.

He stayed the night. Your head rested upon his arm as you lay close to him and you didn’t have nightmares like you thought you would.

You blinked awake, it was time for you to wake up. He held you like the night before, only this time, he was wearing different clothes.

He left through the window to fetch his car after telling you he will be back.

You were fully dressed when a knock came. Opening the door, he was peering down at you, the car was running behind him.

You both rode in silence. It was him who broke it.

“We can still talk.”

“I thought you could…Read one thoughts?”

“Yeah but…Yours is too low. I want to hear your voice.” he says as he looks to be concentrating deeply on something.

“Did the others… The ones at the baseball field find out I’m human?”

“I told you, I keep you safe. I didn’t want the wind to blow for them to smell your scent. James would’ve risked it all to get to you. He’s a tracker. Hunting down his prey excites him. They didn’t even see what you looked like.”

You nod as you look down in your lap. You noticed you both were at school already.

“We’re here?” you ask. He nods. He undoes your seatbelt for you, opening the passenger door before you step out.

“We have a bit of time before your first period.” he says as he kept an arm around you.

The other Cullens pull in the parking lot. They get out and see that you’re with Edward. They wave, you wave a small wave back.

You and Edward stand at your closed locker until the bell.

“I…Couldn’t sleep…The night you told me..I only got an hour of sleep.” you admit quietly.

His look reeked of disapproval.

“But….I didn’t..Have nightmares when…” you say and subtly look around as students passed by, “When you spent the night.”

“I don’t want you to have nightmares.”

“I don’t want them either.”

He touched your arm, you subconsciously step in.

New seating chart.

People pointed with smiles, encouraging their friends to sit together. You stood close to Edward as Edward told the teacher the seats you both were sitting.

You both sat close in the library. He held your hand in his lap.

“When it’s sunny..That’s when you don’t come?”

He nods.

“Your family emergency…”

He nods.

You let your eyes fall.

“So…You can live forever and I can’t.”

He hesitated his nod. You pull your hand away but his hands rest on your knee.

“That shouldn’t get in the way of anything.”

“Well, it will. I’m on limited time and…You have forever…After graduation…We will have to be apart.” you tell him.

“We don’t have to.” he says with his eyes closed.

“We have to.” you say back and watch him open his eyes in solitude.

“I can’t go back to…Before. I was miserable.” he says.

“How? You have everything you could ever possibly want.” you say with a sad smile.

“It doesn’t mean anything if I have no one to share it with.”

You look down.

You sat at the lunch table in a daze. A snap makes you blink and someone from your table laughs a bit, “Earth to Y/N.”

“What’s up?”

“We’re going to First Beach this weekend. Are you coming?”

“..There’s a beach?”

“Yeah. With hot guys.” they say and fan their hand for dramatic effect.

“You’re gonna ask one of them to the dance.” you say with a grin.

It was as if you gave them an idea, “Now that you mentioned it, I just might.” they say with a big grin.

You softly smile at their enthusiasm.

“So, are you in? You could bring Edward if you want.”

“Yeah. I’ll go.” you say and the table is happy as they make plans of what time to meet up.

“I wonder if being around normal people will make me feel better..” you thought in your head.

“First Beach?” Edward asks as you walked to your next class. You asked him to come with you.

“That’s in La Push.” you say.

“I know I…I can’t go.” he says.

“Why not?” you ask.

“Because….I will just tell you when you come back.” he says.

“You told me you would tell me everything.”

“I am but there’s a lot to explain. Just please trust me, okay?” he says and touches your arm. You sigh a bit but you nod.

You raised your eyebrows in surprise when it was time for new seats in history and Jasper chooses to sit next to you.

He leans in, only a little.

“Hopefully you’re not too mad at us.”

You bring out a soft grin.

“I’m not mad. I was just scared.” you whisper. He nods.

The teacher then begins the new lesson.

“Come back with me.”

You look at Edward as he helped you put on your coat at the end of the day.

“I don’t know..I have a lot of homework.” you answer.

“We’ll do it together.” he answered back.

You follow him out of the school and into his car.

As he drove fast on the road, you put a gentle hand on his hand on the steering wheel, “There’s no rush.” you whisper. He grins a bit.

“So…Did your family really go out to visit a family member that one day?”

“No. They went out to hunt.”

“Hunt for…Animal blood?”

He nods.

You nod in understanding.

Carlisle and Esme hug you tighter than ever before.

You join Edward at the bench. You see the grin that formed on his face.

“Do you want me to teach you something else?”

You shrug, “Sure…Why not?”

You watch him play.

“Years and years of practice.”

His quote echoed in your mind as you watch his fast fingers move with such ease. The piece was beautifully done. When he was finished, you reach around him and rub his shoulder.

In his room, he held your hand as he told you all about a treaty made with La Push between his family and the Alpha of the shapeshifters.

“So…They can’t kill you, unless you or your family kill a human?”

He nods.

“Are they…Dangerous?”

“Yes. They’re designed to kill people like us.”

Your heart pounds.

“Are they still…Around?” you whisper.

“The shapeshifters have died off by now…”

You nod.

As he drove you home, you gasp a bit.

“What is it?” he asks.

“We spent all of that time…We didn’t even do our homework.”

“You’re right…Sorry. I’ll just give you the answers.”

“It’s alright..Whatever I can’t finish tonight I’ll try to do the rest in the morning.”

He stops in front of your home, you unbuckle your seatbelt.

“Can I come back tonight?” he asks quietly. You look at him with uncertainty.

“You said…You didn’t have any nightmares…When I stayed.”

You nod slowly.

“If I get in trouble, I’m dragging you down with me.” you whisper. He grins as he walks you to your front door, “Deal.”

You kept the window unlocked as you ended up knocking out all of your homework.

He came just in time for bed.

Holding you tight to him, the covers around you didn’t make you too cold in his embrace.

“If I’m too cold for you, let me know.” he says in your ear.

“It’s okay…” you say.

The weekend came and he gave you a long hug in your room before you went outside to meet the beeping car.

“We shouldn’t be long.” you say to him.

“Take your time. Enjoy yourself.” he says with a soft smile.

You watched your friends flirt with the tan boys. They were good looking. But, your mind was clouded with Edward and the history of his family with the La Push shapeshifters. The shapeshifters that kill what they are.

You sat by yourself on the fallen log, watching the waves crash with each other and you were glad that your friends picked today out of all days, the wind wasn’t blowing hard cold air.

“Why are you sitting by yourself?”

You look up, grinning a bit with a shrug.

The boy peered down at you with his coat on. He walks and sits down next to you.

You both exchange names and he looks about at the beach.

“You play piano?” he asks and you nod.

“Damn. Are you a prodigy or what?”

You giggle a bit, “You’re so silly.”

His smile was handsome.

“What’s your hobby?” you ask.

“My hobby….Hm…” he says and looks about, “Talk to pretty girls like you.”

You playfully roll your eyes, “Come on, did you hear that line on tv?”

You both share a chuckle. You both scoot closer to each other.

You find out he’s in the same grade as you.

“I go to school on the rez.”

“Is it..Okay?”

“Yeah, it’s alright. How’s Forks?”

“It’s alright.” you say.

“So, when are you gonna play for me?” he asks.

You look down with a shy smile, “I don’t know.”

He nudged your shoulder with his with a smirk, “What do you mean you don’t know.”

“Give me one good reason…I might.” you tease.

“My birthday is next weekend. Come to my party.”

“You’re having a party?”

“Yeah.”

“Oh.”

“You know how to play happy birthday?”

“Duh. It’s so easy.” with a roll of your eyes.

“Alright, then….Give me your number so I can remind you.”

You wave goodbye to him once the sky was dark.

Opening your bedroom door, you jumped from surprise when you turned on the light to find that Edward was sitting in your chair. Closing the door, “You scared me.” you whispered.

“Sorry.”

“It’s okay.” you say and shrug your jacket off. You walk to where he was sitting and hug him. He hugs you back and you felt him pull you sideways into his lap. You make breathed out in surprise.

“Is this..Okay?” he asks.

You look at the sight and you nod, leaning more into him. You didn’t feel uncomfortable. He looked up at you.

“Did you have fun?”

“Yes.” you say with a nod.

At lunch, your friend nudged you playfully, “I saw you flirting with that guy at the beach.”

“I wasn’t flirting.” you say and you then remember that Jasper, Emmett and Rosalie was also in the lunchroom. They most likely heard what was said.

In history, you and Jasper tossed quiet jokes back and forth. When you didn’t understand something, he broke it down to the lamest terms so you could get it.

In your last class, the boy from the beach texted you.

He texted you his address. You stare at it.

In Edward’s room, you sit with him on his soft couch with your arms around him. You both had finished homework.

“Next weekend, I want to take you somewhere.”

“Where?” you ask softly.

“It’s a surprise.” he says with a grin. You couldn’t help but match it.

“Everything’s a surprise with you.” you say.

You then take in a breath, “I got invited to a birthday party.”

“Whose?” he asks in genuine curiosity.

“Someone from the beach. They want me to play happy birthday to them on the piano.” you say and chuckle at the memory of the interaction. Edward’s face is straight. It makes you stop and straighten your own face.

“What’s..Whats wrong?”

“Nothing..If you want to go…You can go.” he says and forced a smile.

“Yeah but…” you start and he rises from the couch. You rise with him.

“You wanted to take me somewhere…Right?” you ask and touch his arm.

“You made plans with…Them first. I don’t want to influence your original decision.” he says as he placed two hands on your shoulders.

You place your hands on his arms as he peered down at you.

“Edward…It’s okay.” you say. You didn’t know the boy anyways. You then smother your hands over his.

“Come on. I want to show you something.” you say with a smile. You take his hand and he lets you lead him to his piano.

He has a seat next to you and you play the song that he taught you, in full. You heard the hum of approval when you were finished.

“You’re amazing.” he whispers to you.

Your smile grows bigger and you fling your arms around him.

After you closed your locker, Edward stops you. He interlaced his hand into yours. You look down at it. You look back up at him and you see a small smile on his face.

You both continue to walk. People looked and whispered. Your body moved closer to him as you felt self cautious.

In lab, he tried to do most of the work but you wouldn’t let him. You both were the first ones finished.

Sitting very close to each other on the stools, with knees touching, you both fall into private and quiet conversation.

“You’re really from Chicago?”

“Yeah.”

“Do you miss it?”

“So so.” he shrugged.

Before you could exit the line, Rosalie starts conversation with you, steering you through the lunchroom.

“I need to see what you are wearing to the dance.”

“Oh yeah, I never showed you.” you say and she nods in agreement.

You didn’t realize you were at their table until she started talking to Emmett.

Your food was finished but you turned your head and saw that every single eye that sat at your usual table, was peeking in your direction.

You turn your head back.

“I’m holding you to it.” you tell Jasper. He claimed him and Alice were the best dancers. That’s why he only doesn’t mind going to the school dance. He shrugged in confidence.

“I mean you did have a head start.” you whisper to him as you both had to pull out notebooks for notes. You didn’t miss the quiet chuckle he produced.

You climbed up the stairs as Edward held onto your hand, leading you to his room.

“You have a lot of records. You haven’t played them for me.” you say as you surf through his collection.

Suddenly, you do hear music. You turn and his elegant record player had a delicate and sharp needle laying on top of the spinning record.

You sway a bit to the beat and you both share a smile. He joins in, in no time you both were dancing in sync with each other.

By the time the song ends, you’re slumped against him with your arms high around his neck as he peers down at you, holding you strongly.

“Should we compete with Jasper and Alice?” you ask quietly as your heart was trying to slow down from the activity and the twinkle in his eye shined as he protrudes a laugh from his throat.

He then leans in and you both are now hugging, pressed and glued to each other. You both are still but it felt like hands weren’t as he soon glided his hands from your back, to your shoulders. It felt like the wind was knocked out of you.

You didn’t know what feeling it was, but it was like his touches were making your skin scream in happiness, his hands now cup both side of your neck before ending with your face. You didn’t realize your eyes were closed until you slowly opened them.

You both lean, you rest your forehead against his as you peak up at him.

“Edward?” you ask very small.

“Yes?” he answered back, it was the right tone.

“Are we dating?”

“….Do you want to?”

The question caught you off guard. You didn’t know what to say. You couldn’t look him in the eye.

“Um…” you stop and blink once, “It would be a bad idea.” you whisper.

He then used his hands to have your head gently stare up at him. Your statement didn’t agree with him.

“It wouldn’t.”

You turn your cheek, your lips are to the palm of his hand as you hold his arm.

“What’s so bad about it?….” he asks in a melancholic tone.

You close your eyes.

“Whatever school you choose, I don’t have to stay here if that’s what you’re worried about.”

“You have one year left.” you say sadly. His quiet laugh makes you look at him before you remember the different school he had to go to. You still held back a laugh but he tilts his head a bit to get a better look at you.

“Do you like me?”

You look at him. He looks at you. You shyly look down with a soft smile and nod only a little.

His fingers graced your jaw, “I like you too.”

Your smile doesn’t fade when you ask, “What do you like about me?”

“You’re nice to be around. A breath of fresh air…Just not being around you makes me feel like something is missing.”

“Aw..” you say and look down from his gaze.

“What’s wrong?”

“Nothing…Nothing’s wrong….You’re sweet.” you say.

His fingers caressed your cheek and you bring on a soft smile. “I like your gorgeous eyes. I like it when you look at me.”

Your stomach fluttered with butterflies as his fingers lifted your chin.

Over dinner, your parent talks to you.

“Fill out for more colleges?”

You shake your head.

“Why not?”

“I’ve been making sure my homework isn’t piling up too much. I’m going to try to research more this weekend.”

“You would have more time if you came straight home after school instead of the Cullen’s.”

“I study at the Cullen’s.” you say as you poked at your food.

“You study with Edward, you mean. I get you want to hang out and all but your mind isn’t in one place. There’s time for all of that..Like in the summer. Don’t let yourself be your own downfall.”

You chew slowly as you stared at your plate.

Your arms were around him as you cozily sat next to him on your bed. His fingers tinkered around with your keyboard.

You sigh softly and he asks what’s wrong.

“I don’t know what to do.” you whisper.

“Major what you want. Apply to the school that you want.”

Your heart thudded.

“Cute. How do I tell them that I really don’t want college. I want to do something with an intensive.” you say with a sad look.

He stops the tinkering and looks at you seriously, “When you graduate, you have the freedom to do as you please.”

His velvet whisper for you to wake up the next morning let you know it was time for school.

“Just five more minutes. I swear I will get up.” you whispered and turned, pressed into his chest.

His hands were still wrapped around you.

“It already passed.”

You sit up groggily with a hand covered yawn. You then lean against Edward with your eyes closed.

“Come on, sleeping beauty.”

You felt his thumb brush across your bottom lip and you flutter your eyes open.

It felt like you were walking on a cloud when you graced the halls with him. Your hand was tight in his hand.

You haven’t experienced daydreaming before, but that’s what you were doing in the classes without him.

As you walked to the cafeteria with Edward’s hand was wrapped around your shoulders, Rosalie appears with Emmett, walking right next to you two.

“Hey.” you greet.

“Hey, you’re sitting with us again today?” Emmett asks in glee. You watch as both Rosalie and Emmett waits for your answer.

“S-sure.” you say.

Your friends watched you in line as you walk along side Rosalie. You watch as they talked amongst each other while looking at you, some shrugged their shoulders as they watch you walk away.

“So, Edward told me his power and Alice told me hers. What’s yours.” you ask Jasper during lunch.

“Controlling one’s emotions. Feeling anxious? I can make you calm.”

“Hey, I’ve got a power too.” Emmett says feeling left out and Rosalie rolls her eyes.

“You do?” you ask and Rosalie says no while Emmett says yes.

“Babe, my strength is out of this world.” he says to her with his hands slightly up.

“It doesn’t make it your power.” she says with narrowed eyes. They banter back and forth while you and Jasper glanced at each other with an amused look.

Rosalie waved politely to your parent as you closed the front door.

“We’ll be in my room.” you say.

Your parent nods.

You pulled out what you were wearing for the dance out of your closet and Rosalie immediately makes a disapproving sound.

“What?” you ask.

“Not to a dance. I don’t like it.” she says as she wrinkled her nose.

“I’m the one who’s wearing this.”

She placed her hands on her hips, “That’s the sad part.”

You roll your eyes a bit.

“You had me and Alice that you could’ve came to. Why didn’t you just take us shopping with you?” she asks.

“Because…My friends asked and I went.”

“You should’ve waited for us. But, whatever you do…You’re not wearing this.”

Edward held you close in the night as you tell him all about Rosalie’s disapproval.

“That’s her.” he comments.

Your phone buzzed. You don’t move, not really caring who it is.

“You can get it.”

“It’s probably nobody.” you nonchalantly say and you didn’t notice him reach over to still get your phone until he slowly hands it to you.

His expression changed. It was bland. He sits up. You then sit up.

“What’s wrong?” you ask in confusion.

He said the name of the boy, the boy you met at the beach, he asked who it was.

You look down to your phone. A text.

“tried calling but i was just thinking about you so i just wanted to hear your cute voice. still waiting for you to play for me this weekend. i’ll hit you later”

“Did you two used to date?”

You shake your head no in silence.

“Are…Are you cheating on me?” he asks in a quiet whisper. The tone was dripping in sadness. You squeezed your eyes shut and whispered out a hard no.

“He’s human…”

“You’re you.” you grab his hand but he slides it out of your grasp. Your heart felt like it was punched in.

“Was he there…At the beach?”

“That’s…That’s where I met him. But, I don’t want to be with him.” you tell him.

He searched your face for the truth.

“Why did you give him your number?”

You look down with shame, “I’m sorry. It was in the spur of the moment…This was before me and you made things official…He invited me to his birthday party.”

“You should go.”

You look up at him. He was holding back anger but he was deeply hurt.

“I’m not going.” you say.

“I’ll see you tomorrow.”

“Edward, it was nothing.”

“I trust your word….I’ll see you at school tomorrow.” he says as his hand slides your window up.

In the morning, you sat on the edge of your bed, staring at the clock. You had finished erasing the number out of your phone. Even going as far as blocking the contact.

You waited for a knock on your door from your parent to ask you if you were ready. You felt deeply sure that Edward wasn’t going to take you to school.

A knock came at your front door instead.

You open it and Edward stood there.

“We’re going to be late.” he says and takes your hand.

On the ride there, you quietly speak out, “I’m sorry. I don’t want you to think I’m cheating or that I don’t want you.”

“Don’t worry about it…I shouldn’t have left…I let my emotions get the best of me.”

“You had every right to feel what you felt….I made you feel that way and I’m sorry.”

A hand rests on your knee as he continued to drive.

In the library, you both huddled in as you scrolled on the computer.

“Are you sure?” he asks quietly.

“I’m sure.” you say with shaky hands.

“It gets cold there….I will be able to go with you.”

You look to his hopeful expression and you nod slowly as you look at the screen.

You click submit just as the bell rings.

You’re pulled away by Rosalie once the lunchroom was in view. You playfully poke your lip out to Edward as he grins in amusement.

“You never showed me what you were wearing.” you say with a smile as she leans back in her chair at the lunch table.

“Oh, don’t worry. You’ll see it.” she says with a flick of her hair.

“Try again.” Edward whispered. You softly huff a bit after scratching your eyebrow before you tried the combination again. It was one part that you kept messing up.

He flipped the music sheets back to the beginning.

“Try with the notes.” he encouraged.

“I do better by ear.” you quietly say as you peered at them.

“Yeah but, you need to work on being as good with music notes. Let’s start from the beginning.”

You prep your hands as you slowly nod as you concentrated on the notes in front of you.

The notes were wonky on certain parts but you played it through.

The weekend rolled by and Edward took your hand in his and suddenly you were on his back. You clutched him tight as he fleeted through nature. It didn’t feel like he was running, it felt like he was indeed floating.

It felt like you both were genuinely standing on top of the world as you both overlooked everything.

“Will I ever get to see you hunt?”

He takes his eyes away from the view and looked to you.

“Too dangerous.”

You nod in silence as you continued to look about. His hand moved away from being around you, to shift through his pocket. He pulls something out and pops it’s open. Your eyes widened.

“Edward! We can’t!” you say in panic as he slides a ring on your finger.

He laughs at your reaction as he looked at the hand he was holding.

“I’m not asking for your hand in marriage Y/N, calm down.”

“Then….What is this?” you ask as it almost sparkled as bright as Edward’s skin.

“It’s a promise. A promise that I would always protect you and never hurt you. A promise to do everything in my power to make you happy.” he says as he takes his time, he never let your hand go.

“You always…Make me happy.” you say quietly as you thought that you were dreaming in this moment. Looking at the promise ring, it seemed to be made exclusively for you.

“Do you accept my promise?” he asks.

“Yes.” you say with a nod. You pull him into a hug, smiling into his shoulder as he held you back, your feet barely touched the ground.

The wind blew like kisses on both of your skin. The back of your head was pressed against the thick tree trunk. You both stood on the thick branch. The height was very high but he was in front of you, never letting you go.

You both blinked at each other silently. Faces were centimeters apart. You were hesitant, all you had to do was lean just a pinch forward, but you didn’t know if it was okay.

His cool fingers caressed your cheek as he cupped the other side of your face in his hand.

Slowly, he leaned in, you were anticipating the feeling. A soft press of his lips were placed on yours as you fluttered your eyes closed. You stood very still, savoring the lingering feeling.

He takes a look at you and you shyly look down. Your heart was racing so fast you thought it would come out of your chest.

Dropping you off in your room, he held you tight, “I will be quick.”

Your head rested against his chest as you hold onto him back.

“You don’t have to rush.” you say, not wanting him to cut his feeding short for the sake of coming back to you. Both of his hands cup your face before he leaned down to slowly kiss your cheek, your eyes immediately close. He pulls back from your lips and takes one last look at you. You blinked and he was gone. You slid the window down shut.

Alice stood next to you in the Cullen household with a grin as she showed off her rough draft of a sketch, she had plans on making it.

“This?” you point at it. She nods.

“It fits you way better than what you originally picked out.” Rosalie comments with her arms crossed.

“Alice, I refuse to let you make me an outfit.” you say.

“I want to and I will.”

“How could I repay you?”

“By wearing it.” she says excitedly. She looked at it before speaking again, “I already have the fabric ready.”

“Of course you do.” you tease.

You played the song you and Edward were working on, in full. No mistakes. Your reward was praises and kiss. The song was over, you started laughing.

“What is it?” Edward asks with his own smile.

“What did Emmett mean that day about the new rank?” you wondered.

“Oh..” he says as he chuckled a bit, “A rank of who’s musically inclined. It was me at number one, then Rosalie.”

“Oh.” you chuckled.

Weeks went by, the invitation letter came in the mail.

You would be in their intensive program for the summer. It lasted a couple of weeks but you would be practicing. A lot. You smiled as you showed Edward that night.

It was sunny the next day, Edward promising you to see you after school. You didn’t expect the other’s attendance.

You worked in science by yourself. It felt empty even though one person was missing.

“Nice to see you again. It took for the Cullens to not be at school for you to remember us.”

“Hello to you too.” you say as you sit down at your usual lunch table.

“Is that a ring?”

Eyes stare at it. You hide your hand in your lap.

“Yes.” you say.

“Jesus…Moving fast are we?”

“It’s just a promise ring.” you wave off.

You didn’t know how to explain it. Something felt missing as you tried to focus in class.

Your eyes were glued to the clock as you count down the seconds and minutes for the bell to ring. Time went painfully slow. The day went painfully slow. It then dawned on you.

You missed Edward.

You missed Edward to a great degree. You wondered if he missed you too. You wondered if he was counting down the same seconds and minutes that you were counting, to see each other again.

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