#tbh i should probably watch something less mentally taxing

[classicbarbie]

I need the Mayday channel on youtube to stop reposting the same 6 episodes under different titles and put the entire 24 seasons up instead. pls I'm running out of free episodes I haven't watched

[flimsy-roost]

interesting sort of ableist double-standard thing I've been thinking about for a while:

I have a neighbor who is disabled in some kind of developmental/intellectual/mental way. I don't know his folks well enough to feel comfortable asking, and he either can't or won't acknowledge me when I say hi (tbh nbd, I'm not entitled to communication, I only mean to articulate that I can't ask him about any of this directly).

he wanders around a lot, including across a busy intersection in our neighborhood. I admit I do worry about his physical safety a bit, but I haven't heard of him running into any issues in my several years of living here, so I assume he's found some kind of sustainable system.

some people who've seen him crossing against the light will idly expand on my basic worry, saying that he should probably be under more constant supervision and care.

...but, should he really? in my state (California), jaywalking was recently decriminalized, so you can only be ticketed if in immediate danger of causing a collision (in effect for things like crossing busy highways), so there's no real legal/liability-related reason he needs to be policed in that way. would a neurotypical habitual jaywalker also have to be assigned close supervision?

one could argue that a non-disabled person would at least be able to make better decisions about when and where to jaywalk safely, but the thing is, he's pretty discerning. he doesn't meander in occupied roads or walk into traffic, he always crosses corner-to-corner at an intersection with stoplight. he just seems to be unaware/not care about which lights are on, like he'll often start crossing in front of stopped cars right before their light turns green.

which, agreed, not the safest, but I've watched completely neurotypical people cross roads in much more dangerous ways just because they felt like it. who's to say he doesn't just feel like it? I have no way of knowing, because I can't ask him. in an ideal world sure, someone should check that he understands how to safely cross the road and teach him if he doesn't, but who's to say he doesn't know already and just doesn't really care?

there's an underlying assumption because he's visibly disabled, that when he does something "wrong" or less than safe, that he must be completely incapable of knowing better, and therefore should not be trusted with his own wellbeing. but I compare him to my AuDHD self, who is less noticeably disabled but capable of some severe fuckups and disruptions, and I find myself incapable of agreeing. before autopay was common, I'd gotten each individual utility shut off at least once due to accidental nonpayment, and have paid the ADHD tax many times over on rental late fees. should I not be allowed to live alone? nobody seems to think that. I have meltdowns in class a few times a year, and frequently have to leave early or opt out of activities to prevent them. should I be punted to the limited online-only curriculum, or kicked out of academia entirely? nobody seems to think that.

idk how my neighbor experiences the world, or what his needs are, so I could be totally off base in the literal sense. but it's eye-opening to notice these casually ableist double-standards, and to see the ways in which competency is assumed (and not).

[in-tua-deep]

Are you into my hero academia? What about an AU or crossover with tua?

UHHHH I am technically, like, peripherally? I watched some seasons of the show like two or three years ago and since then have simply absorbed all content through osmosis, reading fanfiction that has canon events, and my sister telling me about the arcs of her fav characters lmao

so a crossover hmmm

First of all you'd have to like, establish whether bnha is an alternate universe or just The Future If No Apocalypse with quirks being traced back to the descendants of the kids born without mothers

So let's say it's that - the glowing baby was the "first quirk" but the truth is people had powers before that. But - well, the Umbrella Academy was obviously a marketing gimmick to those in the future! There were even comics based on them

In the future, you might find some of those comics in museum exhibits dedicated to depictions of powers in the pre-quirk era, but they're just fun depictions and much less popular than, oh, DC or MCU comics which are also in the exhibits!

End of s2 doesn't happen I guess in this au?? No sparrow academy at least lmao. So, the Umbrella Academy stop the apocalypse (again) and the Commission threat is? Neutralized? Whatever. They decide to jump back to the future

Five warns them that time travel is a crapshoot, that he has no fucking idea when they'll land beyond some nebulous "future" because Five can at least control the direction if not exactly how long

Also, Five is like. Super tired. Incredibly tired. Homeboy still has a healing gut wound, time traveled twice, has been jumping all over the place, gotten even more injured, experienced paradox psychosis, and managed to undo time all in the space of like, two weeks. There actually more than that but we don't have time to get into how fucking tired Five is from his ~Month of Hell

Like genuinely this is like putting someone almost delirious from lack of sleep in the driver's seat of a car and expecting to get to your destination in one piece

But hey, the siblings are like "do it uwu" and Five has sacrificed everything for them already so why not get behind the wheel again

So Five jumps them, and of course something goes wrong because Five has pushed his powers like a great big rubber band and honestly it was only a matter of time before he lost his grip and it snapped back to hit him

So here be the umbrella academy: spilled out into the future like a cup of bad coffee.

Five probably isn't in too good of shape tbh, like they're hundreds of years in the future (but hey at least confirmation of no apocalypse am I right) in a world full of superpowers and Five is like. bleeding from his ears and nose probably idk

Let's handwave a little bit - Reginald made them all polyglots so the squad all speak varying levels of Japanese. Allison is the best at it, Five is second best but tends to use more archaic words bc he had missions in Japan back when he was with the commission, and Klaus is third best.

(Ben is the worst bc he decided when he was 16-and-dead that he didn't have to do anything regarding lessons and maintenance and hasn't given a shit since - but also he's dead so)

So you have a bunch of weird adults with a bleeding child in like, an alley who have appeared from nowhere

so of course heroes get involved

Anyway, the squad get taken in and Five is conscious but like, barely? And he's not going to let himself get separated from his siblings again fuck-you-officer and there is a lot of confusion

anyway detective tsukauchi ends up getting involved and ends up having to hear this batshit story and be like "...truth." which sends all kinds of people scrambling because fucking time travel? Like yeah, it's been theorized to be a possible quirk but there's no recorded cases of any sort of time travel that is for more than 24 hours let alone hundreds of years

"I'm an adult." Five says sourly, "I just happened to be returned to my 13 year old body when I time traveled one time."

"True." Tsukauchi says, feeling his soul leave his body, but like. absently. the way he does when he's called in at 2am after getting off of work at midnight.

"I'm 58." Five says.

"Lie." Tsukauchi says, because this is a headcanon hill I will die on.

"I'm probably 58, but it was hard to keep track. I'm at least 50." Five corrects.

"True." Tsukauchi sighs like these six (seven? they keep referring to another sibling and Klaus said 'ghost' like that was fine and it registered as true and Tsukauchi is not nearly paid enough for this) are not giving him a migraine by just existing

on the bright side there's like, probably protocols in place for individuals who are Legally Chronologically Adults but thanks to quirks are Not Physically Or Not Mentally Adults with tests to determine if the individual needs a guardian or not

though i'm gonna be honest idk if Five would pass the test bc he literally cannot take care of himself at all, has never paid taxes or understands how to exist legally, and also his emotional maturity is stunted as all hell. also like. we don't actually know how much being in his thirteen-year-old body affects his mental state but yeAH Five is vibing

anyway Tsukauchi probably phones a friend on this bullshit because Time Travel Child alone is probably enough for the Hero Commission to be like "find a way to control and use it or nuke it from orbit" and that's not even touching whatever the fuck Klaus is doing (shit gets real once 'dead men tell no tales' stops being true) let ALONE Allison's whole deal

on the bright side like, at least Vanya isn't getting side-eyed that much bc Big Destructive Quirks aren't exactly unknown? if vanya wanted to i guess quirk suppressors exist for that until extensive training on how to control a super powerful quirk happens

Tsukauchi in the group chat: Aizawa please I am literally begging you to take this bullshit on

Aizawa: in this economy? with my class?

RatGod: lol we'll take them ;3c

Aizawa: no

Anyway they probably end up having to live at UA while Five insists on trying to get them home still and everyone else is like "oh hey we used to be child soldiers as well! (:" and Aizawa is like "i hate everything about this and everything about all of you but also like nedzu is making me interact with you so :/"

nedzu is out here vibing like "lol i just don't want the hero commission to get their little paws on these time traveling fuckers, i think you should make then teaching assistants or something"

honestly the siblings are probably like. figuring out how to function in the bnha universe and getting like, legally registered and stuff while Five ferally refuses bc that's like saying he's giving up on getting them home and he can do this

Recovery girl tries to heal him a little when he arrives and he passes out for two weeks like, immediately bc homeboy is running on fumes and spite at this point

also i think on principle it would be REALLY FUNNY if the squad got to tag along with the class bc like. Five is thirteen and the class are all 15. this does not sound like a large age gap. anyone who has interacted with teenagers know that the class would squint at Five and be like "who is this sassy lost middle schooler."

I feel like when I was a sophomore we were still like "freshman... babie" even though we were literally only one year older.

i think the difference between the umbrella academy and school kids would be pretty funny like. objectively the bnha kids are lowkey child soldiers?? like they're 15 and fighting villains but like, there's all this red tape and laws and stuff but,,, deku still be breaking his limbs in a child fighting ring against equally superpowered children for like. entertainment and sponsorships sooo

but also like Five would be like "oh cool when is the experimentation class"

"the what"

"you know, when your powers are pushed real hard by putting you in different terrible situations while your dad and sibling stand by with clipboards writing down the exact voltage it takes before you can't use your powers anymore when being electrocuted"

"hound dog's office is right there. therapy is available to you at any time. i need you to know this."

all might calls Luther "my boy" like one (1) time and Luther just breaks down crying probably because he is starved for positive attention

klaus and midnight get along like a literal house on fire, aizawa tried his best to keep them apart for as long as possible but god damn

(klaus: your name is shimura nana??

all might: immediately dies choking on blood)

i feel it absolutely necessary to point out that aizawa, present mic, and midnight are all like, 30? and the umbrella academy are all between 29-early 30s? they are PEERS but like. the umbrella academy are more chaotic due to childhood trauma

the umbrella academy probably get offered to like. also train to be heroes. i mean,, there HAS to be some sort of track for people who change careers right?? you don't have to cement your future as a hero when you're 15 i'm sure there must be something and the squad already have experience if they want to go be legal heroes

diego probably does at least?? diego just vibes honestly. diego gets momo to make knives during a team exercise and they just go feral on everyone else and it ends with diego highfiving momo and someone getting way to close to being stabbed for comfort

Five might just be. legally enrolled as an Actual Student? But also i think it's funny to picture the entire squad just. all in the back of the classroom with luther trying to fit into a high school desk as they take notes on the laws of The Future surrounding heroics

every word out of the umbrella academy's mouths just make everyone more concerned on principal but like, five and klaus are probably the worst offenders. Klaus just says whatever comes to mind with no filter and Five doesn't get what people would consider to be abnormal anymore like

Five: yeah our dad bought us when we were babies and experimented on us throughout our childhood in order to make an elite team of child soldiers superheroes, it happens

Todoroki: ...have you heard of quirk marriages?

izuku probably has an aneurism bc he's is the only person who might recognize them from the comics because you know ya boy extensively researched the idea of heroics in pre-quirk eras (batman was an inspiration alright???) and might dredge up a memory of a less popular comic series

Five: I can time travel but it is very hard, which is why we are hundreds of years in the future. And why I look like a child.

Kaminari: so are you a kid or not?

Five, serenely: whatever is most convenient for me at any given moment

Mina: hell yeah game the system

they have a brief lesson on astronomy and Luther raises his hand like "ooh! i was isolated on the moon for four years and did SO MUCH research" and then just gets up and starts infodumping like way too much information on the moon

Izuku sitting there like "damn if quirks hadn't popped up we could have achieved so much in terms of space travel. please tell me more giant man who lived in pre-quirk era."

Vanya finds out about the quirkless and is like "oh mood that genuinely sounds like my childhood, being ordinary in a house full of extraordinary people, and then i found out that i did have powers but only much later in life after i had already been emotionally scarred by the experience"

deku: vanya we have so much in common

iida and uraraka: concerned noises

aizawa: hound dog. therapy with hound dog for all of you.

there's probably some conflict with like, the hero commission wanting to get their hands on the time travelers?? but probably especially five and klaus as a) time travel and b) ghosts (the hc def has bodies they would like to stay buried)

five has a pavlovian reaction to anything with 'commission' in the name and hates them on site, probably plays into his age in order to become a ward of UA or something to protect him from the commission a little bit.

(this makes nedzu Five's legal guardian. aizawa has his resignation papers all prepped in a drawer marked 'in case of emergency' but let's be real, if nedzu wants to take over the world aizawa should probably be on the rat-bear's side of things :/)

five: ah, i do recall the inhumane experimentation that we were subjected to

nedzu, who was experimented on: haha same hat! want me to dig up the location of reginald hargreeves's remains so you can spit on them?

klaus: nah no worries we dumped them out in the courtyard unceremoniously like, a while back. how long ago varies for each of us because of time travel!

luther: you said hound dog's office was down the hall and to the right?

on the bright side, Luther probably feels like. way less self conscious about his body, partially bc of his fighting and all that in the 60s but also bc !! now he genuinely doesn't feel like a freak. no one even gives him a second glance. one of the teachers looks like a slab of cement with a face. gang orca looks Like That. there is literally a student with an entire bird head and goth aesthetic. Luther does not stick out at all

allison and shinso bond over having "villainous" voice-based quirks

allison and shinso having worn muzzles at some point in their youth as punishment 🤝

aizawa probably helps train vanya as well with the whole, being able to erase a world ending quirk safely thing he's got going on which makes for a very nice safety net

i don't think vanya would want to be a hero at the end of things though. maybe the assistant teacher in the music class or something?? all vanya wants is to be able to not end the world

i feel like as time goes by, five brings up trying to get home less and less. part of that is because like,,, genuinely what do they have to go back to?? Allison has Claire, but like. I'm 100% sure the first thing she did in the future was try track down Claire's records and found out Claire was like. fine. became an adult, had a family, probably became the ancestor of the first "quirked" kids who officially popped up after light baby. had a good life, died at an old age etc. etc.

they start settling into the bnha world with like, "we can always hop aboard the five express into where the fuck ever" as a plan Z if things go completely pear shaped (again)

i'mma be real, five himself doesn't give a fuck as long as there is a) no apocalypse and b) his family is alive. Like that's it. His bar is so incredibly low and yet his life keeps fucking trying to limbo under it

i just think it would be funny to have like, Five trying to get along with his "peers" and make friends while the siblings do the same but like, in the staff room

also think it would be funny for five to just walk into the staff room and get coffee occasionally.

a teacher: why is a student in here -

Five, sipping coffee: i'm an adult

nedzu like "what kind of guardian would i be if i didn't teach my new son all the tunnels around ua so he can pop out wherever"

five like "hey new dad can i put stashes of supplies all around ua of weapons, money, food, and other assorted things that might be useful if one needed to fight or make a run for it" and nedzu is like "haha just put your list of what supplies you want in your go bags on my desk and i'll critique it later!"

anyway a bnha/tua crossover would be incredibly chaotic but probably very funny

[thesummerstorms]

In your Etain lives au, how would Kal be smothering/coddling her, like constantly hovering over her as she recovers, kind of babying her in that regard?

Sorry this took a bit- I’ve been kinda out of the RepComm headspace lately (other than crossing Etain into AUs of whatever I was watching/reading/playing which I do reflexively at this point tbh). This is all really rough, tbh, and I apologize in advance for length.

So this assumption is precipitated on three things from canon:

Kal likes to withhold information from folks “for their own good”

Kal, in any moments where he has softened into liking Etain, is incapable of recognizing her ability or agency, and repeatedly refers to her as a “kid” /is surprised when someone else reports on her field abilities /routinely leaves her out of her own choices

Kal tends to make other’s people’s suffering all about his own martyrdom/how he feels about the situation, rather than about them

There is definitely a lot of coddling. From the moment Etain wakes up Kal more or less tries to sideline her from anything important going on. To some extent that’s not all that unexpected: I do tend to headcanon Etain’s recovery as a long and awkward one, and she did just freak out the whole family by literally returning from the actual dead. (She talks to the gods ghosts stars dead Mandalores in her visions now and everything.)

Tl;dr of what’s under the cut: Kal’s method of “looking after Etain” is much more centered on his need to feel like he’s taking care of her rather than what’s actually best for her. In the process of “looking after his daughter”, he denies her a lot of her capability and agency at one of the moments when she most needs it, fails to disclose information to her, and fails to recognize her very real emotional/mental wounds, instead hyperfixating on her physical ones.

I imagine that Kal probably initially opted not to tell Etain that Darman was still with the Imperial army when she first woke up from her Force and sedation induced coma. Something that is, again, understandable in the most immediate moment- but something that he tries to carry on for too long in light of her fragility, even though she starts questioning as soon as she’s able, distressed because can’t feel Darman close to her.

Once she starts the transition away from spending most of her day in bed sedated and into a proper recovery, he’s constantly urging her to play it safe, to rest, not to worry. “Mediate, sleep, focus on getting better, don’t think about anything else”. “Leave that problem to me, you just take it easy, I’ll fix it, don’t think about it.”

 Etain is a person who despises sitting on her hands, whose crippling, lifelong fear is that she will be useless and unnecessary, and in the past, her only real way of coping has been to find some way to make herself useful, such as when she’s left on Mandalore to recover from her miscarriage and “take her pregnancy easy”, and instead throws herself into helping Mereel break and manage Ko Sai. 

But all of a sudden she’s confronted by her physical pain and temporarily diminished capabilities, and rather than help confirm her capability, Kal is looking at her with pity in the guise of love and cutting her out of key conversations he feels might be “too taxing”, giving her nothing she can focus on beyond how physically fucked up she currently is. Even when the conversation is all about “we’re going to rescue your husband, Etain”, Kal refuses to actually involve her in the process “in order not to get her hopes up prematurely”. He’s there to fix it and save everyone, so she should just be able to accept it and focus elsewhere, right?

He needs her to let him save her, to salve his own conscious- her recovery is in part about how he feels, consciously or not.

And on the emotional front…. well, Kal’s never been great at acknowledging Etain’s emotions. In the novels, when he’s not writing them off as due to pregnancy hormones or his own perception of Etain as young and child-like, he seems to fail to even consider the fact that they might exist.

Which leads me to believe in this case he’s way too blinded by his own perception of Etain as 1) an invalid 2) Darman’s wife and 3) to acknowledge that she’s really messed up in that moment. 

Kal blames a lot of her sudden change in temperament- her being withdrawn, angry, restless, guilty- purely on her physical pain or exhaustion. Which is not to say how Etain feels is never a result of those things, but often he’s dismissing the real concerns or emotions she’s feeling for a more convenient excuse of “well, of course everything seems wrong right now to you, but don’t worry, I know better and I’ll handle everything.”

He also sees how desperately she misses Darman (and she does) and attributes any grief she feels solely to this- because he sees her first and only as Darman’s wife/the mother of Darman’s child and assumes this is. 

He doesn’t see how deeply she’s troubled by her current lack of function, for lack of a better word, because he never really saw her as especially capable or directly useful to begin with. His understanding of her relationship with her injuries relates purely to the physical, and not how it’s affected her self-conception.

He never sees her as a “real” Jedi, so he can’t imagine, wouldn’t care to imagine, that she is actually grieving the Jedi Order- the people who raised her from birth, who she must once have had friends among, even if it was a long time ago, who she could never fully part ways from. Given that lack of understanding, he can’t begin to imagine how guilty she feels at her own grief, surrounded by people who she loves and who she believes to hate the Jedi. How isolated she feels at having no one who she can safely express that grief to. (And of course Kal is a big part of the reason why she feels unsafe in doing so.)

And because he has pigeon-holed her as a child, dependent on him roughly since he stopped hating her, before that even, he sees himself purely as her protector, and doesn’t realize that some part of her anger is actually towards him and how his decisions lead them to this moment and how he’s treating her now. (Although Etain feels guilty about that, too, and tries to quash it.)

Basically he has Etain pigeonholed into this very one dimensional idea of his injured child who it’s his duty to make sure everyone is Gentle™ to, and even if some part of it is born out of love, his pity and lack of awareness seriously negatively impacts both her own mental health and his ability to actually help her.

It comes to a head in a few distinct moments. He cuts her out of the rescue op for Darman and Niner. He initially tries to keep her separate from Scout.

And the big one is when he tries to keep her from going to the Altisians- because he’s afraid of putting her back in the control of the Jedi, because he’s afraid the Altisians are a tempting Imperial target and won’t stay hidden long, because he doesn’t trust Etain’s judgement and thinks she’s relapsing to what she knows in a moment of pain- despite the fact that Jusik, not being an actually trained healer, has accidentally injured her in the process of keeping her alive. 

He tries to keep her from something she needs both physically and spiritually, because Jedi, because she “needs to be safe”,  because “Mij is perfectly capable”, because he feels like he has to look after her and keep her close to him, and it takes intervention from someone else in the family (I haven’t decided who yet) to make him relent.

When Etain goes to the Altisians to try and recover, Darman realizes that the other Imperial Commandos are tasked with hunting them down, and, still caught up with his own trauma, opts not to be rescued so that he can stay on Coruscant and keep the other teams away from his wife.

Kal isn’t the one who comms to tell her.

[telrtot]

All bet

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"as am i"24: last person you told you loved? my mother when she came in to say good night25: last time you felt jealous, and why? probably like an hour ago cause i was looking at selfies of people with nice skin26: are you insecure about anything? my skin, my nose, and my weirdly shapen hips27: where do you want to be right now? 27: where do you want to be right now? playing d&d but alas....28: what are some habits of yours? i bite my nails hardcore, talk really fast when i get excited or nervous, forget to shut cabinets, chew straws, and bite hard candies because i have no self-control29: three turn ons? umm, hm. either sitting in someones lap or having someone sit in mine, nEcK BiTiNG, and when someone wearing plaid or a button up shirt rolls up their sleeves.....30: three turn offs? generally immaturity. if someone - even in a jokin manner - calls me a bitch (especially if its a guy sayin it) not cool not funny please stop talking to me. whEn people can't hold a conversation to save their life (like i might be bad at it but at least i am Tryin, ya feel?)31: do you have kik, skype, or any other social media? i do32: pet peeves? wHen people with a runny nose sniff really loudly and make gross sounds. also when people use their hands or just don't cover their mouths when they sneeze or cough33: what're you wearing? my pjs. why? what r u wearing bbby?34: career goals? medical examiner in the forensic field or someone that travels a lot35: are you a student? yep, in high school36: what country do you live in? america37: do you have any pets? a labradoodle named patrick and a schnauzer named max38: tattoos you have/want? oh boy, that would be its own post. i honestly want quite a few, all in black and white and generally for the Aesthetic39: piercings you have/want? i have regularly lobe piercings and a double helix in my left ear40: morning or night? night41: guilty pleasure band? ninja sex party42: guilty pleasure song? samurai abstinence part by ninja sex party...43: top 5 favorite memes? tag yourself memes ; Gun ; the firefly 'you would not believe you (blank)' one ; maybe the real friends.... ; and those strange animal pictures with Russian captions44: one band you don't get the hype for? i don't know how much hype she has now but i don't really enjoy halsey all that much45: one band you wish more people knew about? rinGLEFINCH46: do you practice any religion? not currently47: do you believe in any form of a God? i believe that there is a God, possibly many, but i cannot say that i believe any doctrine of god is correct48: what do you think happens after we die? i like the idea of reincarnation49: have you ever done alcohol or drugs? i haven't done anything but drugs i have been given by a Doctor and i drank alcohol before....with my parents permission50: what's the worst thing that's ever happened to you? not actually dying when i was born 51: what's the best thing that's ever happened to you? not dying when i was born?52: have you ever had a near death experience? my heart stopped beating when i was a baby, so yeah53: is there someone you can tell anything to? myself....?54: what's the most amount of notes you've ever gotten on a post, and what was the post? it was a fallout meme i made and it got like 200 notes i think (maybe the real shaun was the friends we made along the way)55: are you right or left handed? right handed56: Would you be in a relationship (platonic or otherwise) with the last person you texted? If it's a family member, the last person you aren't related to. we are friends, so yeah57: who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? the gaggle of gurl and ungendered pals of have are p good listeners58: would you want to change anything about yourself? make me less of an asshole and actually use my good brain to do work59: what's the first thing you notice when meeting someone? how they react to different brands of humor60: have you ever been hurt by someone you trusted? Who? ex-best friend of mine, who outted me to my family when i was like 1061: have you ever hurt yourself? yeppers. middle school was a rough time for me62: do you believe in an afterlife? maybe63: do you believe in ghosts? sure do64: what should you be doing right now? finishing my garbage dotters spell list like I said i would65: are you pissed at anyone right now? not really66: do you believe everyone has a soulmate, platonic or otherwise? i do, or i at least think the idea is nice67: when is the last time you were scared to tell the truth? i ate my brothers skittles on accident and oh boy was that rough, also pawned it off on my dad68: when is the last time you screwed up something important? everyday my guy69: is there anyone you were close with and are not anymore? there are two that come to mind. one is the ex friend i mentioned before and the other is my actual ex.70: what's the last promise you made? i think i was not play a suicide game that is popular in texas right now? my mom made me promise not to do it cause she's paranoid and honestly i hadn't even heard about it until she brought it up. 71: what's your outlook on life? we are all on a rock floating through space at thousands of miles per hour72: have you ever loved someone who didn't return your feelings? oh boy howdy yes. 73: if you could change your eye color, what would it be? a shade of hazel-green so i look even more ginger74: Are you dating the last person you talked to? nope, i don't believe me and @neoxnocturne are dating. unless we are and he never sent the email confirmation for it, if that's the case then i need the tax report on my desk by monday (short version: just a pal)75: does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you? yeah, me and my gay squad do it every time we are together tbh76: do you think someone has feelings for you? yep77: has anyone ever told you they never wanted to lose you? a few come to mind78: do you replay things that have happened in your head? all the time79: have you ever felt replaced? every day if i am being honest80: last person you cried in front of? my mother, about my Ex81: if your ex asked to date you again, would you? um. maybe. i honesty don't know. 82: if you died right now, what song would you want to play at your funeral? no mercy by the living tombstoNe83: would you ever be in a long distance relationship? have been in one before, so maybe.84: what can make you upset easily? when people refuse to listen 85: do you have a good relationship with your father? depends on the day86: do you have a good relationship with your mother? i like to think so, she's probably who i am closest to87: do you have a good relationship with your siblings? nope88: have you ever been hurt physically or mentally by a family member? yeah89: are your parents divorced? no, but i think if they had less kids they would be90: what do/did people say about you in school? im the jokester that goes hard in arguments91: what do/did you say about people in school? depends on the person?92: is any mental or physical illness hindering your life? adhd since i was little, general anxiety, depression, and the potential to further develope bipolarism 93: have you ever had to end a friendship or relationship? why? yeah cause shit happened94: are there things you wanted in your childhood but didn't get? a horse and to learn to ride horses95: have you ever kept a journal? i tried when i was little but also bought a new journal and started a new one so they never got far96: do you believe that birthmarks are scars from past lives? sure, i can get behind that97: if so, do you believe there is a story behind your birthmarks? dont have any98: do you look after yourself? not in the slightest99: do you put yourself or others first? i am a selfish kid who happens to care about select people. i tend to put others first more than i think i should, which is already not a lot.100: Ask your own question! 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