#tbh curly was probably just in love with jim

[adripakoffee]

Thinking about Curly too because you mfs give him too much leeway!!! FUCK CURLY MAN!!

So like, obviously, what happened to him was tragic but he could've prevented the events of the game so easily. Firstly, he's the one who got Jimmy on the ship. Jimmy's not supposed to be there, he literally isn't even a freighter pilot. It's heavily implied the reason Jimmy is on the ship is that Curly was helping him run from the law.

This exhibits Curly's biggest problem in the game. He's Jimmy's friend first and his boss second. He puts Jimmy ahead of everything, so despite his past history of what we can presume to be violence, he puts him on a small ship with other people who are now vulnerable to his abuse. And he knows, he's aware that there's a chance these people could be victimized by Jimmy and says and does nothing. This next part is my personal theory, but I think he knew Daisuke was coming with them before he invited Jimmy, he just didn't say anything.

Curly's second big sin is what he does to Anya. He finds out what Jimmy's been doing to her and he says he'll do something, anything. But he doesn't. I said it earlier, but I think Anya thought that Curly would have Jim arrested on landing, but even then, there's some short term things he could've done. Here's a list actually because oh my god, there's so much he could have done.

Set up a bed for Anya in medical. Y'know, a door with an actual lock.

Put Jimmy in a cryopod as a holding cell.

Fire Jimmy, which seemingly wouldn't do much until you remember you need the captain to do half the shit on the ship.

Lockdown Jimmy, essentially lock down anything Jimmy could use as a weapon. The only two weapons on the ship are guarded by codes, but anyone could figure them out in a couple days. this goes hand in hand with the last one.

Literally just fucking kill him.

And before someone says "Oh, if Curly did anything, Jimmy would've acted out, he would've turned violent anyway." There are four other crew members and one Jimmy. If Jimmy had turned violent so early on, I fully believe Daisuke could've just bodied him. It wouldn't be that hard to pacify him if, say, he was ganged up on by three men.

The problem at the end of the day is that Curly is Curly, Jimmy's best friend before he's Captain Curly of the Tulpar. He cares more about Jimmy than the well-being of the people he's supposed to care about. He doesn't take Jimmy seriously when he is outwardly awful and pretty much straight up tells Curly he's gonna crash the ship. Like Curly does nothing because he doesn't think of Jimmy as a bad person. He can't even comprehend it until he's in a position where he's completely at Jimmy's mercy.

Now there's a couple of interpretations on the metaphor of what Curly's disability means and I'm gonna yap about at least 2, idk I'm just ranting.

The first one is that Curly is now Anya, or rather in her position. He's got no agency over his own body, he literally can't move, and he's forced to trust Jimmy with his life. He's in constant pain, he wants to die, and he can't. Anya cannot stand giving Curly his medicine so she lets Jimmy do it. She's putting a vulnerable person at Jimmy's mercy, just like Curly did, except this time he's on the receiving end. And whenever it's just Curly and Jimmy alone in the med bay, Jim is just beating the shit out of this guy for no reason. Like there is no need to be doing all that, but Jimmy is a violent person, and Curly just ignored it for too long.

The second interpretation that I also really like it that Curly is Anya's baby. Jimmy has done something heinous and it's left Anya caring for someone she can't feasibly support. Her ability to keep Curly alive for so long is a testament to how resilient and determined she is, but at the end of the day she can't take it. It's not just the fact that she has to care for Curly that drives her to take her life, it was a lot of things, but the stress of dealing with Curly was definitely part of that.

This next part isn't Curly's fault, it's Pony Express' but if he survives long enough to be found, he no longer has a future. He can't be a pilot anymore, he'll more than likely be forced to take responsibility for the deaths of the crew, the rehab process will take years and probably hundreds of thousands of dollars. He's cooked. This leans into the him becoming Anya thing, he's been put in a position where he can't work but is forced to deal with a heavy financial burden. The difference is, this is his own fault.

He could've prevented all of this if he hadn't ignored all the red flags. In the dead pixel scene he says the one pixel doesn't hinder his enjoyment of the whole image, he can ignore it. That's what he did. When he looks a the bigger picture or the grand scheme of things he can ignore a few dead pixels. The way he sees it, he's given Jimmy a whole year to pull himself out of a "struggle" so when he gets back to Earth things will be okay again. In his eyes, Jimmy's bound to have a few slip-ups and unfortunately, what he did to Anya was one of them. So that's just a pixel he can ignore.

LONG STORY SHORT, CURLY IS AN ENABLER AND LITERALLY THE ONLY WAY HE WAS GONNA LEARN WAS IF HE BECAME A VICTIM TOO!!!!

Apologies if any of this is worded weird, it's just brain vomit.

I also did an Anya rant

[ellouchi]

Jimmy wedding/marriage headcannons (sfw (see disclaimer)/gn)

Disclaimer: abusive and toxic relationship, mentions of physical and sexual assault. Please read this work at your own discretion.

Side notes: OHHH LOOK AT WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO POST YESTERDAY AHAH...hah my bad. So this started out pretty tame, too tame for my liking. I wanted to get more toxic and miserable and finally I managed to write this. I'm very proud of it tbh lol. First part is alright but second part has things mentioned in the disclaimer. As per usual if I made a mistake or forgot to include smth lmk!!

Lighter scenario:

— Jimmy wouldn't bring up marriage, why would he really? Yeah you two may have been a couple for years but this man literally sees no point in marriage. For him, marriage was not about love — it was about benefits. This doesn't mean Jimmy is unable to love, he can, granted in a very convoluted hot and cold way.

— provided your relationship is on the healthier side, if you bring up the topic, initially Jim would genuinely think you were joking. You weren't. You had to repeat yourself for him to finally consider your words, carefully.

— the man was torn: on one hand, of course you would want to marry him, on the other hand, why did you want to marry him? Jimmy will flat out ask a single "why". He expects something pragmatic, realistic but you give him nothing but a look full of love. Because you loved him, wanting to swear to remain by his side for eternity to come. It was corny, Jimmy couldn't understand how you didn't feel an ounce of embarrassment and yet... Jimmy looked away: dammit, how stupid you were. Now his mind was occupied with the thought of you being his spouse. Great....

— Jimmy would settle for a civil marriage, maybe a short trip to a chapel also. You must understand: this man chronically doesn't have money. You will either have a big proper wedding (which is highly unlikely, besides Jimmy doesn't even want it, he just has an idea that that's how it supposed to go), or just your signatures on the marriage contract. If you follow some specific religion pretty serious, he is willing to fulfil all needed procedures, but that's still bare bones.

— the surname thing can go two ways: either Jimmy insists that you take his surname or he takes yours provided he hates his family with burning passion. If your surname carries some status, definitely takes it, like no way he wouldn't. The idea of double surname weirds Jimmy out a bit but he would permit it if you used his surname more often.

— now, the ceremony: Jimmy will rent a rather chic costume. It's probably the first and last time you will see Jim looking so well groomed: his posture upright, hair slicked back and no traces of the stubble you came to adore. He looks like an eye candy, and even though the suit is not to his liking Jimmy felt all smug with the way you fawned.

— the image of you in your attire makes an impression on him too. Jimmy just stares at you shamelessly as always, he's not too generous with praise but his "wow" and a smirk tugging at his lips tells you all you need to know.

— Jimmy would struggle to find a ring for you. He was well aware he had to go to jewelry store, but the mental image of the employees' treatment of him made it excruciatingly hard. After several attempts, he finally found a decent store with an adequate selection of rings. The piece itself didn't have a diamond in it, but Jimmy was very proud of his find.

— no proper wedding didn't mean that there would be no celebrations. Together with none other than Curly you planned a tiny wedding party, Jimmy had already been suspecting that something was in the making. Despite anticipating the surprise, he had to admit he was looking forward to what you two had planned.

— Jimmy doesn't wear his ring, makes excuses like it's too tight or too loose or uncomfortable to wear but in reality he's afraid of losing it one way or another. He has to hide it from himself actually, just in case he was going to do something foolish.

— now that you're officially married, Jimmy will use his newly acquired status to his advantage. Whether it's legal dealings or winning petty confrontations, Jimmy is using you in many ways you aren't even aware of. This man truly felt like a winner after declaring to some jerk that he was your husband, not some random boyfriend.

— Jimmy will keep the little bride and groom statue that has been on the wedding cake, puts it somewhere on the shelf so anyone could see it. "See? That's you and me. Don't forget about it" he would remind you whilst pointing at it like a child.

— this doesn't end here however. Being your husband means having a silver of authority over you, even if you two are on "equal" standing. Gives Jimmy many opportunities to (un)consciously manipulate you or gaslight you into whatever he wants. "Maybe instead of listening to your "friends" you should be listening to your husband", "As your husband, don't I have a say in this situation?" and "Don't forget you choose to marry me, I didn't force you." are the most frequent ones.

— Jimmy still would struggle with the idea that out of all the people, you've chosen to marry him. He didn't have a high standing in society, a respectable job, or best of character he was painfully aware of that, just as you. During those moments of doubts, Jimmy would come over to you and hold you, possessively. You both swore to be with each other forever, there was no going back.

Darker scenario:

— if Jimmy thinks you're better than him, like you being more successful and respectable, he latches onto marriage like a starving wolf. There is no better way of keeping you to himself than marrying you, especially if you show the initiative. This man projects a lot of his insecurities onto you like it's his full time job. This creates constant arguments and fights, threats of divorce and tearful apologies.

— Jimmy wouldn't believe in spousal infidelity (if he does it, naturally). If you remind him he's a married man, who's married to you, Jim will become annoyed, hostile even, and ridicule you for being overly jealous. The whole marriage situation becomes more of ordeal to him than something of use, especially if you put pressure on him "for no reason". Jimmy's attitude will get worse and worse with time, if he previously didn't pull any weights into the your relationship, now he actively sabotages it.

— Jimmy normally doesn't have paranoia but he's very susceptible to it. Marrying him in order to ease his worries, like you leaving him, won't work and would make things worse, so much worse. Precisely because you're his spouse, Jim would monitor or outright stalk you. It will start with checking your phone, any written journals, receipts from purchases and will escalate to him wandering nearby your work and following you when you're out with your friends or family. Even at home, where the two of you live, Jimmy won't take his eyes off from you.

— paranoia with turn into controlling your every move. Jimmy would create some absurd narrative, stemming from his own insecurities no less, and would frequently accuse you of being unfaithful. At some point smiling at your phone becomes something you have to look out for unless you're prepared for a round of questioning. Retaliation would be met with even more aggression: do you think he's blind or stupid?

— since Jimmy is your husband, you must listen and obey him. Doesn't matter if you are too, or if you are the breadwinner, he is in charge of the household (like, the man barely contributes and when he does, likes to exaggurate his input). Jim loves feeling like he is in control so it's easy to stroke his ego simply by complying with whatever he says, but this will also inevitably trap you. From now on, Jimmy will tell you what to like and dislike, how to dress, whom to talk to and how to talk. With no retaliation from your side, he wouldn't be above getting physical with you, with time he would dehumanise you more and more. Yanks, pushes, slaps and finally beats you if you disobey or "act up". And worst of all Jimmy doesn't even register what he's doing to you.

— I'm not going to go into details, but I do want to bring up the fact that Jimmy would think it's okay to have sex with you whenever he wants. He believes that there is no such thing as "rape" in marriage, because why would you marry in the first place? Gropes you and uses dirty talk at semi public spaces and at home all the time, no matter the situation you're in. You're his spouse (property) after all.

— trying to plead to Jimmy's human side would be a futile attempt. He would remember all of your "cheating", your outbursts, cries and hurtful words towards him. Jimmy knows what you're plotting, you are making him furious with you to look like a victim when it's he who is suffering. You should be grateful he's not divorcing you, no one would want such an awful spouse like you.

— final point, the song for this relationship would be Mascara by Deftones (yes I'm a basic bitch)

[bearsinpotatosacks]

Star Trek Crew Highschool Stuff

This isn't a highschool au, this is just some headcanons of the characters in highschool

Let's get the sad ones out of the way

Spock and Chekov are really smart but lonely

Spock has no friends because of xenophobic Vulcans, he just studies all the time to get ahead in anything he can because of his imposter syndrome in the back of his mind making him feel like he's not a true Vulcan or human so he's got to make up in other areas

And Chekov is such a whiz kid that he graduates high school in 2252 at the age of 11

This means he has no friends because in 1 academic year he can do like 2 grades, so he's never around anyone long enough to get attached

Now happy stuff

Uhura is in loads of clubs and enjoys them so much

She's in the athletic team, the choir, the dance crew, the foreign languages team and probably the mathletes thing too

But contrary to Spock who does so much to "make up" for stuff, she loves learning and gets so interested that there are so many things to take in in the universe that she can't get enough

Jim does a lot of work in the shop (is that what it's called? I'm not American, the one where people do practical skills like woodwork and mechanics) and is on the racing team as a mechanic

Sulu is also the top racer in his san Francisco racing team

Jim and Sulu have a kind of opposing team rivalry, Sulu is the best racer, Jim is amazing at making adaptations to the hovercar to get them ahead

Bones is a theatre kid, he also does some basketball stuff (apparently he wanted to he a basketball player as a kid) but I love the idea that he loves music and has that voice of like Curly from Oklahoma

(And his love of music is totally not a device I use to show how his life changes and how he gets more sad and disconnected through his journey from loving music and singing to barely addressing how much he loves it when the 5 year mission takes place)

Scotty was barely seen as a teen

His family moved around a lot because of his parents jobs (maintenance or something I'm not sure yet) so he escaped in engineering

At 15 he debunked a theory about Klingon shields and created a different solution called the Aberdeen Solution so yeah, he was pretty smart too

I can imagine he got a job as a mechanic too just to learn because he loves getting stuck in

I hope you enjoyed these, I have the occasional strong vibe to write a fic where the crew see each other's memories and these would be in there, I have a lot of the main, no ships but canon ships timeline sorted and just need to write it tbh

[another-unusual-name]

OKAY 1, 4, 5, 6, EXTRA ASK: 8, 10, EXTRA: 11, 12, 16, EXTRA: 21, 26, EXTRA: 27, 34

LOL LETS TRY AGAIN 

1. From one to five stars, how would you rate your writing? (No downplaying yourself!)

probably a 2.5-3/5. i don't think I'm super outstanding tbh 

4. Are there any writers that inspire you?

definitely!! to tag a few: @staticky @therealsehinton @randlewrld 

5. What’s the fic you’re most proud of?

that's a tough one... lemme look. probably Promise, Back To the Train Tracks or better (which is literally a wip but people seem to like it) because I'm too scared to re-read my older fics 

6. What element of writing do you find comes easily?

definitely romance and getting inside a character’s head. i usually just take my own thoughts and alter them accordingly :P (also I'm not saying I do this well, it’s just easiest for me 😭)

8. Which character(s) do you find easiest to write?

Ponyboy, Curly, Johnny, Steve (?)

10. What’s your favorite genre to write for?

ROMANCE WITH ANGSTINESS FOR FANFICS

11. Who or what do you find yourself writing about most?

the outsiders 😭 mainly purly or whatever my friends want tbh. i love seeing them happy! in regards to stuff outside of fanfic, probably pining and complaining (I'm so interesting I know) 

12. Tell us about a WIP you’re excited about.

OH so I'm working on this multi chapter based on taylor swift’s evermore (album) and I'm pretty excited about that. it’s set to include some steveboy, chylvia, jim possibly with mentions of stevepop and jally but I haven't worked on that in ages. 

I'm also working on a jim multi chapter (better) which I'm really looking forward to developing! 

I'm also thinking of dabbling in some atla fanfic territory, and I have a half baked wip about zuko so we’ll see how that goes!

16. Any guilty pleasure trope(s)?

i don't really have any specific tropes I'm a sucker for writing but I LOVE ENEMIES TO LOVERS! i also just like splurging on the mushy stuff, you probably know cause my fics are all like that. 

21. Favorite pairing to write for? (platonic or romantic!)

PURLY i love them so much (steveboy and jim are close seconds)

26. Is there anything you’ve wanted to write, but you’ve been too scared to try?

hmmmmm I'm not too sure.... i really wish I could execute something really like emotional and heavy but I cant take myself seriously enough to do so. Im sort of scared that my following chapters of my multi chapters wont be as good as the first, but im still going to try and write them >:)

27. What’s the nicest comment you’ve ever received? 

OMG THERE ARE SO MANY ALL THE PEOPLE WHO READ MY FICS ARE SO NICE 😭

“i loved this so much!! <3 they’re my favorites and you write them so well :)“ 

“This is ICONIC. Literally,,, the characterizations? Immaculate. The writing? Amazing! This fic? ABSOLUTE PERFECTION. Only problem I have is that it isn't longer, lol. I love this ship to pieces, which is really unfortunate because it's a rarepair, but then fics like this makes it worth it! Everything about this fic was so great! The dialogue flows so naturally, you write just descriptively enough, and it's just super engaging! And they're just SO CUTE TOGETHER here!!! Haha, anyway, I really loved this! Thank you for writing and sharing! <3 No pressure at all, but it would be so amazing if yoj wrote more of this ship!“

“I always thought Curley was some kind of queer. :p“

“Oh my gosh, please do write more!!“

“uhm WHERE ARE ALL YOUR KUDOS??? SERIOUSLY, I FREAKING ADORED THIS WORK OF ART! god, this fandom may be small but damn it has some talented writers...“

“i never really liked steveboy that much, but i think them finding each other after they've lost the other people they loved is sweet and makes sense... so thanks for making me like this ship, bro, both fics were really good and made me sad“

and of course, yours on back to the train tracks, if you remember it

34. Copy and paste an excerpt you’re particularly fond of.

here I go.... this is out of my stevepop fic Love Hurts Sometimes

“There is nothing worse in the world than seeing the person you love love someone else. There is no feeling quite as gutting, quite as all-consuming as the one you experience when you are aware that you are your first’s second, and you always will be. It makes you think -- what can they give that you can't, what are they that you're not. It makes you hate yourself -- why are you not enough, why are you never enough to be where they are. It made Steve miserable, and he carried that misery around with him wherever he went. Every compliment was a reminder that no matter how hard he tried, he would never be good enough for Soda.”

that's all for now! thank you for asking ily nini <3

[burnedbyshoto]

Ashido Mina

a/n: so, here’s to the start of my event! sfw is above the cut, nsfw is below it! I’m having a lot of fun with these and I hope you all enjoy :D

SFW

A = Affection (How affectionate are they with a s/o?)

Super affectionate with you. You need a hug, a kiss??? Mina will provide everything needed

B = Breath (What could their s/o do to take their breath away?)

Come out of nowhere and hug her from behind, or plan something super romantic and spontaneous, she’s such a romantic that the more cliche the better

C = Cuddling (Do they cuddle? If they do, how and when do they cuddle?)

Mina loves being the big spoon because she loves to bury her nose into your hair. She will cuddle with you whenever you please honesty

D = Dream (What do they dream of doing with their s/o?)

She wants nothing more than to win a dancing competition with you, or at the very least join one with you

E = Effort (How much effort do they put into a relationship?)

A lot of effort, she’s the type to date intending on marrying who she’s marrying so, you better treat her right

F = Fear (What do they do if their s/o is scared? How do they handle it?)

She will get a big blanket and roll you up and just hold you, you’re a burrito baby now

G = Gifts (What type of gifts do they give their s/o? Do they want a gift in return?)

she is the type to give you over the top things. think of jim’s present to pam during christmas before they got together… yeah, pretty intimate and intense but something you’ll love.

mina loves a gift in return and she especially loves gifts where she gets to do thinking’s with you!

H = Hugs (Do they hug their s/o? How often?)

hugging all the time!!! she loves touching you!!!

I = Intimacy (How romantic are they? Do they have problems with intimacy?)

a total romantic, everything she does for you is done with hearts in her eyes, and she has no issues with prodcasting such love

J = Jealous (Do they get jealous? How do they act when jealous?)

while not one too typical to get jealous because she trusts in you, when she gets jealous know she gets touchy. like stand behind you with her mouth to your neck touchy.

K = Kiss (Are they a good kisser? Do they like to kiss? How often do they try to kiss you?)

minas kisses are super gentle and sweet, she’s not the best kisser but she’s so passionate about it that you forget. if you go a day without getting at least ten kisses from mina, something’s wrong

L = Love (When do they say they love you? How often do they say it? Do they prefer to say or show it?)

mina doesn’t know what to do when she figures out she loves you. it’s something she’s always imagined feeling but now that it’s real she can only gape like a fish. she’ll accidentally blurt it out before her 10 step plan to confess happens. she prefers to show it then say it.

M = Marriage (Do they want to get married? If so, what kind of ceremony?)

she wants a full out reception party. she wants the biggest dance floor and the two of you to perform 194930 dances together.

N = Night out (What type of dates do they like to go on? How often do they like to go on them?)

mina actually treasures dates where the two of you stay in! the both of you lead busy outside lives that intimate ones indoors resonate deeper within her heart

O = Out of the Ordinary (What’s something they don’t normally do with/for their s/o?)

there’s not much she wouldn’t do for you, but on the rarest of occasions she’ll let you touch her horns.

P =Playful (Are they playful in a relationship? If so, how do they play around/mess with their s/o?)

super playful relationship! playing nerd gun fights in pjs at two in the morning! laughter is always echoing in the hallways with you two

Q = Questions (Do they ask their s/o their opinion on things? Do they share theirs?)

she’ll always ask for opinions on things she’s unsure of and will ALWAYS give her own thoughts about it

R = Random (How spontaneous is their relationship? Do they do things on the spot or plan ahead?)

she is a very big on the spot person! not that she doesn’t plan things out, just successwise she has better on the spot events

S = Sleep (How do they sleep with their s/o?)

the two of you nap together more, especially during high school because you both are too nervous at getting caught in the others room overnight!

T = Trust (How much do they trust their s/o?)

trusts you completely. if she didn’t trust you, she wouldn’t have ever asked you out

U = Unique (What makes them unique as a s/o?)

how deeply she loves. your hobbies will become her hobbies. it doesn’t matter because mina loves dancing and you do it with her, so you best believe she will do whatever hobby you love the most!

V = Vulnerable (How long until they can be vulnerable around their s/o? What are they like in this state?)

being vulnerable with you is super hard for mina because she’s always just so hyper and cheery, that the first time she’s vulnerable it makes you worry because it’s super super scary to see her sad and horns wilting as if in response. it takes about three months for her to show you this side.

W = Wild Card (Get a random domestic headcanon of the character of your choice)

mina loves comparing her hand size with you. whether they’re bigger or smaller than hers, she’s just fascinated by your hands she can’t help but stare and compare.

X = X-Ray (What would they do if their s/o got injured?)

suddenly number 18 in the class is outperforming number 1 in the class. she becomes instant health genius as she does anything to make you feel better

“mina is just a paper cut!”

“if we make it a slightly deeper cut you won’t feel the stinging pain anymore!”

Y = Yuck (Do they have any pet peeves about their s/o? Are there any habits that might bother their s/o?)

constant negativity. like the yucky kind that drains the fun from everything. she hates that in a s/o so much. like there’s a difference between that and being a pessimist and she sees and understands that.

Z = Zeal (Are they passionate as a s/o? Do they want or like passion?)

she wants and LIKES THE PASSION OKAY?! give mina her ideal love 2k19

NSFW:

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

Mina lays there breathing for a full 5 minutes

She is always overwhelmed post sex, just give her a minute

While not the best at cleaning up, she lowkey loves just laying in your guys mess, she will always cuddle and hold you.

Lots of pillow talk

B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

On herself, mina prides herself on her arms and legs, she’s extremely proud of her natural strength

Mina is a useless boobs gal. 

dangle them in her fucking face p U H L E A S E

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically… I’m a disgusting person)

Mina fucking loves it when she can get herself to squirt

Like one you guys figure out how to make her squirt it’s going to happen every time y’all fuck cuz it sorta reminds her of her quirk

D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Has definitely masturbated to an innocuous picture of you when the two of you went months without seeing each other

never masturbated until the two of you got together tbh

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

Is not experienced at all prior to you! Mina is a romantic with a terrible streak prior to you, but she is a fluid person so she nails everything in the bed fast

F = Favorite Position (This goes without saying. Will probably include a visual)

Favorite position is kneeling. She gets to hold you tight and full access to your boobs.

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)

Definitely, the lover who goes from super romantic and intimate sex to can barely take this seriously love making

H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

Always groomed. The second she knew she was gonna fuck you she got that shit waxed. She has a heart strip though, and yes, her pubes are curly and pink

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…) 

Sex with mina is very very intimate, even if its in a joking matter. She truly cherishes everything about you and will always try making your sex life as amazing as possible

J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)

Loves masturbating together. Like loves it so much. She loves watching you please yourself while she… ahem… assists you with some toys

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

Hair-pulling: she loves having her hair pulled and the feeling of fingers knotting into her curls, degradation: she loves calling you impolite names because of the way you react, roleplaying: LOVES DRESSING UP AND CREATING A NEW PERSONALITY OKAY

L = Location (Favourite places to do the do)

By far her most favorite place to have sex is in the backseat of a car. It’s risky and hot. She’s addicted.

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

Physical reactions. Moan for her, move your body and praise what shes doing for you. Also when you wear that one big t-shirt with your hottest lingerie underneath and give her a lap dance

N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

DO NOT TOUCH HER HORNS. THE MOMENT THEY ARE TOUCHED SHE’S DONE

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

Loves giving more. Only on special occasions does she like having the attention on her, but for the most part, she will spoil you

P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)

All depends on her mood! She genuinely loves going fast and rough, but on anniversary nights, she enjoys slow and sensual paces

Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)

Is definitely down to have a quickie, she thinks it’s hot, but only once every 2 years. She just enjoys being able to hear you scream as loudly as she can make you scream.

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)

Very experimental! The two of you have designated days for trying out new things just because you’re never too sure

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)

Mina actually comes really fast, it’s a big reason as to why she prefers focusing on you! But she has good stamina and can last to three full and kinky rounds.

T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

Toys are a must.

Vibrators, dildos, strap on, anal beads.

You think of one, you two own it.

They are very used and will go interchangeably, but are more often used on you

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Not that big of a tease actually. Like she may abuse vibrator rights, but it’s not in a teasing way! More like a “i’m trying to make you squirt” way

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

She’s very loud in bed!

Moaning, whining, mewling, and sometimes even begging

W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice)

The first time the two of you had sex, mina came twice in under two minutes. Once because of how your breasts felt rubbing against hers and when you pressed your soaked cunt against her own

X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those shirts and pants, picture or words)

Mina is a blessed girl with round perky breasts, probably a dd-cup. her right one is actually bigger surprisingly! And she has inverted nipples. She has larger than average labia

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

Went from sorta there to we fuck at minimum five times a week.

Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Takes her forever to fall asleep, will be awake long after you pass out

[thholyghsst]

1. What’s your sexual orientation?

2. What are you obsessed with right now?

3. Ever done any drugs?

4. What piercings do you want?

5. How many people have you kissed?

6. Describe your dream home.

7. Who are you jealous of?

8. What’s your favorite show to binge?

9. Do you watch porn?

10. Do you have a secret sideblog?

11. If you could teleport anywhere in the world right now, where would you go?

12. What’s one of your fantasies?

13. Do you have/would you get your nipples pierced?

14. How would you spend a million dollars?

15. Are you in a relationship?

16. Do you follow porn blogs?

17. Are you angry with anyone right now?

18. What tattoos do you want?

19. If you could change your name, would you? What would you change it to?

20. What is something you’re obsessed with?

21. Describe your best friend.

22. Tag someone you think is hot.

23. Who are five of your favorite bands/musical artists?

24. What are three places you want to travel?

25. Describe your perfect Friday night.

26. What’s your favorite season?

27. What’s your pet peeve?

28. Who is the funniest person you know?

29. What’s the most overrated movie?

30. Tag someone you want to talk to but have been too shy to message.

31. Do you like paper books or ebooks better?

32. If you could live in a fictional world, what world would you pick?

33. If money was no object, what would your wardrobe be like?

34. What’s your coffee order?

35. Do you have a crush on anyone?

36. Do you still have feelings for any of your exes?

37. Have any tattoos?

38. Do you drink?

39. Are you a virgin?

40. Do you have a crush on any of your mutuals?

41. How many followers do you have?

42. Describe the hottest person you know.

43. What’s your guilty pleasure?

44. Do you read erotica?

45. What’s the worst date you’ve ever been on?

46. How many people do you follow?

47. If you could marry any celebrity, who would you pick?

48. Describe your ideal partner.

49. Who do you text the most?

50. What’s your favorite kind of weather?

I hope this counts as some interesting questions! Don’t want to see the titty pics disappear ):

These are beautiful!!!!!! Thank you anon!

1) Bisexual (more specifically pan) but I tend to use bisexual as an umbrella term.

2) Drinking tea and fantasizing about shit I shouldn’t be

3) That I have. I experimented with shit in high school but I don’t do anything now.

4) I have pretty much pierced everything I wanted to pierce tbh

5) Ummmmmm too many people probably.

6) Think of the setting of the Twilight house (Cullens, specially) and put in maybe a little more Victorian old-age type house or leave it as is. I would be happy with either! I just want to live in the woods.

7) People that are happy in the moment. I really struggle with that.

8) None. I hate tv shows hahahaha

9) We all do, Nancy.

10) 2! One is old that I used to write about being terribly heart broken in and then I used it to collect photos that I had taken over the years but I then made a second one and just vent mostly about being heartbroken again

11) I would give anything to be in Portland at my favorite coffee shop tbh

12) Oh boy.

13) Yep!

14) I would buy a bunch of TSLA stock first (and a few others) and then I might buy a house and help out family members that need it

15) Yuuuup

16) Hahaha absolutely. It’s like the porn prohibition here now so anything I can find to stick it to the system, I will. Plus I want to see girls butts

17) Yeah, a few people.

18) A lot. I want another Brand New related tattoo because duh and I want a few as an ode to my hometown and botanical themed tattoos

19) Something other than “Ashley”

Everyone has this preconceived notion about Ashley’s and I wanna stop being in that boat

20) My dog and my lemon tree and music lmfao revolutionary stuff here

21) He’s basically me but loves anime

22) No I can’t

23) Brand New, Modest Mouse, Polyphia, Shakey Graves, Deftones

24) I want to see more of the USA given I was born there, and really haven’t seen much of it. I would also love to visit New Zealand and the Whitsundays. Bits of Europe too!

25) Depends. I like going out but I’m a huge sucker for late walks at night

26) Fall!

27) I have a lot of them actually but mainly lack of communication, deception, chewing with your mouth open

28) Jim Jefferies or John Mulaney

29) LoTR / Starwars (do these count idk)

30) AHHHH no

31) Paper books :))

32) Twlight (please leave me alone, do not judge)

33) Way too much YSL, Prada, and Burberry and underground brands tbh

34) Vanilla or Hazelnut latte all day baby

35) I’m literally in love with anyone that’s nice to me

36) hahahhhahahahahahahh ... ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm yeah I think I always will.

37) Yes!

38) I do but not frequently.

39) Yes I am a virgin

40) Umm I don’t think so but I am not familiar with my moots so much anymore

41) 1,000 I think

42) Tall, pretty eyes, curly hair, pretty lips :’)))

43) Fuck idk I listen to Ariana Grande sometimes which is just embarrassing and ruins my brand

44) I did when I was younger.

45) I haven’t been on a ton of dates tbh

46) Maybe 500 something but I would estimate they’re mostly inactive at this point because who still uses tumblr

47) This is cringe but I want David Dobrik to fuck the life out of me and I want his hand in marriage but if not him maybe Dakota Johnson

48) One that values time/affection, we have things in common, is tolerable to be around, helps with things, supportive

49) Ummm probably someone I shouldn’t

50) I fucking love foggy creepy wet weather

ILY ANON THANK YOU

[tenebrius-excellium]

3, 6, 10 and 14 for the fandom ask meme, please? (Sending my best wishes and hugs for whatever you might be going through currently, I wish I could help you in any way... much love 💗💕💗)

Hi!! Augghh yeah it's a bit tough at the moment ngl, thanks so much for the love...!

3. characters you would marry in an instant?

Heh. Aramis from BBC's Musketeers. Douxie if he looked like Hiccup. Possibly Robin Hood. Oof and Prince Proteus from Sinbad. I have an oc called Kelsin, he is my dream guy... very passionate, very emotionally empathetic, a leader nonetheless and has this brown curly hair...ouch. I have a type and I know my type, I'm not going to go into more detail here!!! XDDDD

See, the problem about Hiccup is that while I find him physically attractive, I couldn't marry him because I already personally identify with his soul as if I *were* him. And I can't marry myself now, can I. The person you marry is typically someone who compliments your type - that doesn't work if the character *is* you. Shame lol.

6. Do you read fanfiction? If so, do you have any favorite authors or fics?

I don't read fanfiction, sorry! It's because my head is a mad galaxy that already makes up enough stuff to last me a lifetime about the universes that I like! :) I prefer to daydream my favorite tropes as movies within my mind! Writing prompts are always welcome as food for thought. But reading fanfiction on top has never worked for me tbh. As much as I'm theoretically interested, the experience itself has been sort of overwhelming. I'll sometimes take a peek into a mutual's work because I want to support them, but, alas, I never get far.

Suffering As I Suffer You by @/wilderwestking is an unfinished Hiccstrid fic that has stayed with me forever. It's probably my favorite piece out there.

10. characters that deserved worse? >:]

Kinda every shady side character in ToA...? look, Strickler killed the former principal of Arcadia Oaks High without repercussions and Jim lets him date his mother. Dude. Merlin never got a true redemption arc, we just got more insight into his perspective. His personality stayed pretty much the same. Then there's Nomura... Morgana... STEVE. Bro. Steve. Idk did he ever apologize to anyone??? He just "changed" and everyone welcomed him onto the team. Idk. I guess I would have needed a little more talk than that. ToA was very forgetting of people's actions of the past lol. Nobody ever really needed to own up or even reflect verbally about what they did.

14. Sorry, this ask makes me a little uncomfortable, I'll just skip it.

Thanks for asking!! It cheered me up to answer these. I love being asked for my thoughts <3 You really brightened my day!!!

Reddie

[head-and-heart]

Cry With Me - Part 2

It’s been a century but I’m finally back again with part two of “cry-with-me-about-how-ridiculous-book!bellamy-is-and-THIS-is-why-we-can’t-just-���read-the-books”-and-solve-all-of-our-bellarke-angsty-heart-induced-problems-CAUSE-THEY-AIN’T-THE-FUCKING-SAME-JASON!!!” 

aNYway ...

If you don’t remember what the purpose of this post is: to put it short, I decided to go through all of The 100 books and pick out all of book!Bellamy’s best (worst) lines that truly show just HOW different he really is from show!Bellamy. At the very least, it cracked ME up when I was reading. So hopefully someone else will find it entertaining too.

You can read some gems from the first book here. This part will be about the second book, “Day 21″ (my personal favourite). 

Fair Warning: Potential Book Spoilers Lie Ahead

1. “I think the radiation must’ve finally scrambled your brain.”

2. “You really shouldn’t have done that.” Bellamy’s voice was low and menacing, and for a moment, Clarke thought she might’ve actually upset him. But then he grabbed the hem of his shirt and pulled it over his head in one swift motion. [i can’t believe him look how dramatic he is]

3. The moon was so large and bright that there was no mistaking the grin on Bellamy’s face as he reached down to undo the button is pants, tossing them aside like they weren’t the only pair he had on the planet. [*sings* it’s gettin hot iN hEre - so TaKe oFf aLL yOuR cLoTHeS]

4. 

[Clarke] shivered again, and Bellamy slowly unlocked his lips from hers. “You must be freezing,” he said, rubbing his hands up and down her back. She cocked her head to the side. “You’re wearing even less clothing than I am.” Bellamy ran his finger up her arm, then tugged playfully at her damp bra strap. “We can fix that, if it bothers you.”

5. “You should get some rest. I’ll keep an eye on Sleeping Beauty here, and let you know if there’s any change.” [can you imagine bellamy saying this about clarke in the show lmao]

6. 

Bellamy twisted her arm behind her back, just like he used to do to the boys in the care center he caught teasing Octavia. “You’d better tell me right now [where Octavia is], or you’ll wish you never crawled out of whatever cave you came from!” [...] He reached over and yanked on the girl’s hair, bringing her face up to his. “You tell me right now, or this is going to get really unpleasant, really fast.” [...] Bellamy didn’t care if the girl was radioactive, or if she had goddamn wings. All he cared about was finding out where she and her friends had taken his sister. [...] “We kill her,” Graham stated [...] “Not before she and I have a little conversation,” Bellamy growled. [don’t you just wish you could maintain your composure as well as book!Bellamy?]

7. 

Her friend giggled. “I bet that’s why she smells like the recycling deck.” “And you’re going to smell like a rotting corpse when they finally find  you,” Bellamy interrupted.

8. Did trying to choke that piece of space trash who’d been bullying his sister count as an Infraction? [iconic]

9. “That’s a pretty name.” The words slipped out before he realized how stupid they’d sound.

10. “My reputation precedes me. I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. How could you not talk about someone this good-looking?” [i CAN’T]

11. 

“You only brought two [rabbits]?”, Lila asked, trying to exchange a disdainful look with her friend Tamsin, a reedy blond girl who struck Bellamy as a quieter, and somehow even stupider, version of Lila. [ROOD] [...] “Good counting, Lila,” Bellamy said slowly, as if praising an accomplished toddler. “You’ll make it all the way to ten soon.” [...] “You’re an asshole, Bellamy.” “Ever hear the saying ‘Don’t bite the and that feeds you’?” he shot back with a grin. “Or, why don’t I put it to you this way? There are two rabbits, as you so astutely pointed out, and there are way more than two of us.” [...] “Not everyone is going to get a bite. And you just made that decision a little easier for me. So, thank you.” He extended his hand as if offering it to Lila to shake. “I’m very grateful for your help.”  She smacked his hand away and sun on her heel, tugging on the uneven edges of her shorts as she strode away. Typical Wal-ditz, Bellamy thought, using the term Octavia had coined for the girls on Walden who purposefully acted like airheaded Phoenicians.

[I’M SCREAMING I CAN’T BELIEVE HOW SAVAGE HE IS]

12. 

A curly-haired girl approached him, trailed by two giggling friends. This trio had taken the cutoffs trend to the extreme, and were now tugging at the frayed edges of shorts that barely skimmed the tops of their thighs. “Hey,” the first girl said. “We need a tall person to help us fix the roof on the north cabin. It’s caving in already.” Bellamy barely glanced at her. “Build a ladder.”

13. “There’s the spot where I almost dropped you,” he said, pointing vaguely into the distance. “That’s where I stopped to make sure you weren’t choking on your own vomit. And, oh, look, that’s where you regained consciousness for a few seconds and told me that I had the biggest-” He cut himself off with a yelp as Clarke jabbed him in the stomach with her elbow. 

14. 

“Jazzed? What does that mean? Like you’re so happy, you’d be willing to listen to jazz music.” [Clarke speaking] “Willing to listen to jazz music? You must mean ‘happy because you get to listen to jazz music.’ So happy that your heart starts beating a jazz riff.” [Bellamy speaking] [...] “So what does a jazz riff sound like?” “It’s more about what it feels like,” Bellamy said, reaching for Clarke’s hand. He began tapping a rhythm up and down her arm. She shivered as his fingers danced on the inside of her elbow. “So jazz feels like some weirdo tickling your arm?” “Not your arm. Your whole body. You feel it in her your throat . . .” He brought his fingers to her neck and tapped along her collarbone. “In your feet . . .” He knelt down and tapped along the side of her boot, and Clarke laughed. “In your chest . . .” He stood up, bringing his hand to rest lightly on the top of her heart, and was very still. [show!Bellamy I-can’t-flirt-for-shit Blake is shooketh]

15. He’d kissed girls before, and it had never done anything except scramble their brains, turning them into a walking mass of giggles who always wanted to hold his hand. [BUT BELLAMY YOU LOVE HOLDING HANDS *betrayal*]

16. “Don’t you dare tell me what I understand,” Bellamy cut her off. “I never want to see you again. Maybe you can offer yourself up to the Earthborns. Wouldn’t that be fun? A whole new population of children to experiment on.” He spun around and strode off, leaving Clarke alone and trembling in the woods. [BELLAMY HOW DARE YOU SPEAK TO YOUR WIFE LIKE THAT]

17. Now he was leaving for good. He’d dealt with Wells’s mind games and Clarke’s treachery for the last time. As he stuffed a few protein packets into his pocket, a new wave of anger rose in his chest at the thought of everything he’d given up to bring Clarke safely back to camp. [...] He should’ve left Clarke in the woods, letting her limbs swell and her airway close up so that she’d never be able to utter another lie again. [DAFUQ?? this is like Day Trip except written by Satan]

18. 

Was that Clarke really in there? The Clarke who could look so gravely serious one moment and then burst into laughter the next? The girl who found everything on Earth miraculous, and kissed him as if he were the most incredible find of all? “You look creepy standing there. Either come down or get going,” he said gruffly. [way to woo a girl, Bellamy]

19. “If he knows what’s good for him, he’ll go find a blond. Redheads are nothing bu trouble.” Bellamy grinned and reached for the book. “Give it to me. That thing is half your weight . . .  Carrots.”

20.  “Are you okay?” Clarke asked. “It’s just Jim Dandy.” Clarke reached over and squeezed his hand. “Aren’t you excited? You’re finally going to meet people who understand your weird, old-man Earth slang.” [TBH this isn’t that notable but I just thought it was funny since the fandom always jokes about how Bellamy’s just a soft old-man-teddy-bear]

21.  “Half-brothers,” Clarke said for what was probably the twenty-ninth time that night.. She reached out and ran a finger along Bellamy’s cheek, as if she might find some sign she’d overlooked that he and Wells were related. Bellamy smiled as he gently removed her hand, then brought it to his lips to kiss it “I know it’s hard to believe. I’m just so much better looking.” [listen to this cocky asshole]

22.  “Look at that,” Bellamy whispered in her ear. “What?” He took her hand, gently extending one of her fingers, and pointed it toward a pinpoint of light moving quickly across the sky. “Did you ever make wishes on meteors on Phoenix?” [again, this quote isn’t so much about Bellamy himself as a character in the book but it just struck me because it’s basically the reverse of “can you wish on this kind of shooting star” in 1x05 so I thought it was interesting to point out]

That concludes all of the main Bellamy parts of book two! He still has some pretty ridiculous (and SAVAGE, holy crap) moments but to be honest this is probably my favourite of the four books in the series (just in general). Hopefully you found this post entertaining - stay tuned for book three: “Homecoming”. 

[rapmonphile]

question tag

tagged by @je0n (ty ty ily ann)

how tall are you? 5’8” or like 173 cm

what color and style is your hair? It’s naturally brown and kinda curly but i straighten it a lot and rn it’s a caramel color with coppery highlights

what color are your eyes? hazel

do you wear glasses or contacts? yes, glasses

what’s your fashion style? for school i usually just wear leggings/shorts and t-shirts but i usually like to wear things like sweaters, flannels, ripped jeans, chokers, birkenstocks, converse … stuff like that

when were you born? ‘98 baby !!

how old are you? 19

do you have siblings? i have a younger sister

what school do you go to? I’m in college

what kind of student are you? i’ve always been a rly good student and it honestly stresses me out if i don’t get straight A’s but also i’m tired and can be rly unmotivated so we’ll see how this plays out

what are your favorite subjects? spanish, geology, and geography

what are your favorite shows? the office (i just started watching it for the first time and jim is about to propose to pam and i think i might die), the facts of life (i love the 80s), that 70s show, the goldbergs, american housewife, project runway, gravity falls, steven universe …. I’m sitcom trash and i guess i don’t rly watch that much tv

what are your favorite movies? anything disney/pixar, esp the incredibles, ratatouille, toy story, monsters university, zootopia, mulan, tangled,,,…. (etc etc), the new tmnt movies (don’t fckin judge me i’ve loved them for years ok), the hp movies, jersey boys, dirty dancing, lemonade mouth (don’t judge me pt 2), gbf, ghostbusters (2016), power rangers (2017), ……,,…. yeah! there are way more but that’s what comes to mind rn

what are your favorite books? ok so i haven’t read that many books lately (which makes me sad but don’t worry! I’ve still been reading fanfics so at least that’s something?/ idk) but .. freakonomics, the phantom tollbooth, harry potter, this one book called “new york” but i can’t remember the author, notes from a big country ,,,.

what are your favorite pastimes? i like to read, do yoga, listen to music, go for walks, journal, and drive (is that weird? I just love driving by myself and blasting music, esp at night and esp in the summer)

do you have any regrets? uh yeah,,, but none that really keep me up at night (i believe everything truly happens for a reason and if it didn’t happen then it wasn’t meant to be)

what is your dream job? i would rly like to be a travel blogger/writer, especially for disney world

would you like to get married? idk…..,,, i’m not super keen on romantic relationships at this stage in my life?? but that may be a phase, who knows. also (this is super weird and idk why i feel this way) i kinda feel like once you get married all the excitement and passion is gone from your relationship?? like i know that isn’t true but that’s just how i feel. but ideally, yes, i guess if i rly found the right person i would want to be married

do you want kids? how many? i rly rly RLY love kids!! and i love spending time with them and caring for them.. but idk if i want kids of my own. idk, i’m so young so i obv don’t have to decide now… but if i do have kids i probably would want like 3 or 4 (i’m also rly into the idea of adopting children)

do you like shopping? yes but only if i’m the person who’s getting things and preferably if i’m not the person paying for it ……,,, mom ily

how many countries have you visited? I’ve only been out of the country once and i went to the bahamas. but my biggest wish is to travel the world, probably with my sister

what was your scariest dream? i don’t typically remember my dreams, but the worst ones are the ones where i wake up crying (usually bc something bad happened to a loved one or to my dog)

do you have enemies? i mean i have people i don’t talk to anymore and people who’ve been cut out of my life but it’s not like we’re actively engaging in evil ploys against each other

do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? no and i don’t rly want one rn tbh

put your phone on shuffle. post the first 15 songs:

Lucky One - EXO

Where Does the Good Go - Tegan and Sara

24/7 = heaven - BTS

Trap Queen - Fetty Wap (this is so fckign embarrassing oh my god)

Saint Cecilia - Foo Fighters

Cliff’s Edge - Hayley Kiyoko

Dig a Pony - The Beatles

Rocks Off - The Rolling Stones

I Wanna Be Your Lover - Prince

Gotta Be You - One Direction

MAMA - BTS

Life In A Northern Town - The Dream Academy

Rain - BTS

Fortunate Son - Creedence Clearwater Revival

Settle Down - The 1975

tagging: ok asdfjd i feel like i literally tag the same 5 people in everything so if you don’t want to do this that’s tooootally fine lmao ,, but i tag:

 @quixoticbubble, @thepreciousandwich, @rainjimin, @ashbaobei, @skyyzi, @chim-jiminie-cricket, and literally anyone else who wants to do this (like seriously,, just say i tagged you and tag me in your post,, i love seeing these)

[root--is--alive]

live blog rewatch Relevance

I’m so nervous or excited, Idk?? My hands are trembling, and I only heard Harold say “You are being watched. The government has a secret system. A machine that spies on you-”.

Oh, that’s actually it. I paused at the right moment I guess? A break in the opening to focus on the fact that finally, there is a glimpse at the work for the relevant numbers.

I’ve never noticed before that that flashback is about the mission that made Cole suspicious, and that we actually get to see and hear Dr. Aquino.

Oh my, Berlin. It’s weird to watch this when you’ve already been there and heard the people there speak, and it’s even weirder that agents of the US can simply threaten the police there without any consequences. But I guess the ISA handled everything with the German agencies and Shaw and Cole just had a nice vacation. Sort of.

Shaw, it’s Shaw!!! And her hair is curly. Later on, she only curls her hair for fancy missions, if I remember it right. She’s wearing a leather jacket and gloves. And very casually, she buys a cup of coffee at a booth that’s named “Kaffeeklatsch”, which can roughly be translated as the noun of “chatting and gossiping while drinking coffee and having cake”.

I love her boots. Sadly, she doesn’t wear them anymore later on. I was surprised when she wore boots with heels in s5 after she escaped (I only remember how she kicked the gun to Root in 6,741; tbh). I expected her to wear comfortable and useful shoes, like military boots.

Oh my god, that police officer glancing at her with a smile, though…

I wonder if police officers always go on patrol alone? Probably not anymore. And what language are the two guys speaking? I’m sure Shaw understands them. And her being socially awkward and smiling, she’s got no time for you, police officer, just let her have some fun.

I’m so envious of Shaw, she speaks so many languages, at least 4: English, German, Farsi, Spanish. Anyway, I’m so in awe. And her accent is interesting, I’ve never heard a native English speaker talk in German before.

I guess it’s very Team Machine like to simply knock out the people that are in the way? John would do it, Root as well, Lionel might, Elias Idk? Joss and Harold wouldn’t do it. But Shaw’s like “yeah someone’s probably gonna take care of that police officer I just knocked out”. But I guess Control or someone else from ISA dealt with that.

I never noticed how tall Cole is. I wonder what was going on in the apartment Cole accidentally put the camera in at first. He likes to think out aloud. And he can make Shaw crack a smile - he likes to joke a lot, too.

I love Shaw with a backpack. Later, she’s never got any bag. It just looks professional, and she’s cute and petite in that big coat and with those boots.

She’s so comfortable around Cole, it’s so nice to watch. She roles her eyes and shakes her head at him, like she does with Root. Only that Cole doesn’t bother her like Root does.

Alright, she definitely speaks their language. Nice blending in the role of the innocent tourist back then, Shaw. Because if she wants, Shaw can play pretend or socialize quite well.

I love this scene. And there’s so much focus on the drinks in this apartment - orange juice, banana juice. And the noise of the football game on TV vs. Shaw’s completely focused action. Her calm breath, amplified through the gas mask. And she stays totally calm in the threatening situation when she discoveres the open window, and she doesn’t need to tell Cole because he knows her well enough to notice. And when he starts to panic, she calms him down. They are such a good team, damn it. And Shaw completely trusts him. .

Oh, Cole calls her Sam. Root does it only once. But if I remember it right, Shaw’s first name wasn’t really clear at first? Like, on my BluRays she’s called Sam (or Samantha?) Shaw in the credits at first.

It’s so sweet how he asks her if she’s alright when Shaw probably didn’t feel any emotion, maybe some adrenaline and excitement from the dangerous situation. Cole, however, was very moved by what happened. But he knows how to handle Shaw’s response, I love how they get along so well.

I wonder if Shaw always carries that knife around with her. Could’ve been useful in later episodes.

“I’ll see you when I see you.” And Shaw seems to enjoy playing with bombs, though?

Shaw is quite suspicious when it comes to Wilson. And she's just like "yeah the best option was to blow that place up". I wonder, did she make sure there were no civilians in the building or close to it?

She seems to enjoy coffee while observing their numbers. And she's getting bored already. 

Hi there John, Shaw has already spotted you. 

"Forgot your gas mask, Shaw". Can I just say that I really like Cole? He'd probably laugh over Shaw's "Only the sink didn't fit in" she said to Joss and support her crush on Joss. 

Oh but John realized Shaw noticed him. Just like the siblings they are.

Shaw is wearing all three of her piercing. Nice. She doesn't wear them often later on, does she?

So Cole actually is the nerd who stays inside all the time. Shaw smiles, oh my. Btw I like her fuzzy hood?

Oh The Machine is... (I don't remember the word. It's the word Root and Harold use in s5 ep2 where Root says "Don't you think it's you that's...?")

Holy shit, I think it’s “glitch”? Is this the right word?

Oh Shaw, you've got so much compassion for Cole. Or maybe she asks if anything is wrong because an issue that keeps Cole's mind distracted can be dangerous for the mission. I think it's both?

Their noses are red, it must be cold. Cole’s face displays all his emotion, it’s an open book - unlike John’s face which doesn’t provide much insight on his state of mind, only John’s eyes do, and I’m very impressed by Jim’s acting, tbh.

So Shaw thinks a few seconds about Cole's question. I think she probably has wondered where Research gets the numbers but doesn't question it.

Now she makes Cole feel guilty? Or am I misinterpreting the tone of her voice? And then she praises him. So I think she tries to express that she trusts him but disagrees with his question, with the thought he had, even. Shaw wouldn't question her work because there's no proof anything went wrong, and she probably didn't care (and couldn't have cared any less) about that guy Aquino acting confused.

Ok so Wilson doesn’t seem to be a nice guy, considering how Shaw refers to him. And Cole looks so guilty, so guilty of having done something that could put Shaw’s career at risk. He has got a big heart, I think.

“We still have a job to do, remember” - it says so much about Shaw, how she’s a person that expresses herself through actions, how she’s in for it because she can do the job, only the job, not the paperwork or socializing or whatever comes with being an agent of the ISA. And the job is more important than Cole possibly having brought up a shit storm. She only focuses on the job first, everything else can wait.

I like Cole’s clothing style.

Oh god, Harold trying to warn them but it’s too late, too late.

Cole’s first instinct was to protect Shaw, not to protect himself, and he didn’t even know what the threat would be, whether they’d get shot at or a team of agents would charge the room or the place would get blown up, like, he didn’t know what to expect, meanwhile Shaw went to the window to figure it out, to maybe see a clue outside because she didn’t read the message Harold sent, but Cole did, and he just decided to throw himself in front of Shaw to protect her, no matter what might hit them.

It’s impressive how completely calm Shaw stays while they’re under attack, firing right back while lying on the floor, covering her face from the flash grenade, firing right back again.

While watching for the first time, I thought Shaw’s “uh” while saying “We’re gonna call Control and uh, we’re gonna get you some help” was because she was panicking. But now I don’t think so anymore. I think she just doesn’t know what to say because she’s probably already realized that Cole won’t make it and that there is no help for him anymore, so she pauses before saying it.

My god, her “Always trying to be the hero, huh” sounds so distracted, like, she’s probably trying to figure a way out of this situation in her mind, checks out the room, listens for warning signs of more approaching assets. But when Cole says “Just yours”, it actually gets to her. She stops what she’s doing, startled. Shaw reacts like she reacts to some things Root says (or does), and Cole found the right words, words Shaw can understand and process, to tell her she means a lot to him, and Shaw gets his message. Like, usually she’d be annoyed or confused by someone telling they like her because Shaw just can’t relate; and she doesn’t like Cole the way he likes her and she can’t emphasize/relate to his feelings for her, but he expresses them in a way Shaw can comprehend. I wish we had seen more about Cole’s and Shaw’s dynamic.

But as soon as Cole has lost consciousness, Shaw concentrates on the threat again, completely calm and focused.

Hey John. Your vest is gonna get shot.

Ok so Shaw actually listens to John. She hears everything he says, including that he wants to help her. She might even recognize him from the street, maybe senses that he’s different from the ones trying to kill her. But she fires at him, anyway, after hearing him out, because she finds that she can’t trust anyone right now and is better off by herself.

This jump out of the window impresses me so much. Like, did Shaw and Cole observe the place before heading in or did Shaw spot the dumpster while standing at the window in those brief moments before they were under attack?

Holy shit the soundtrack of the shooting between Shaw and Wilson is awesome.

I love that it’s cold and that their breaths are visible as clouds, not only as heaving of the chests and sounds of panting, it makes everything better, Idk? And the street lights add to this, too.

I screamed because omg Root!!!! I totally forgot while freaking out about Shaw omg!!

So if Root has worked there for 2 weeks or months (I don’t remember) she must have had access to the files of all ISA agents. And from all of them, she was impressed by Shaw. And Root is usually not impressed by humans, only laughs at them or makes fun about them. And if she’s researched about Shaw for sometime, she must’ve known Shaw was going to be put down, if she had bugged the office for quite a while. Did she believe Shaw might make it out alive (she probably was like “So, will this interesting human make it out alive or not in this game?), did Root expect The Machine to step in? She must’ve been quite pleases to hear that Shaw is still alive and might have valuable information.

Let’s acknowledge that Shaw abducted someone while she only moved a few inches and was suffering from blood loss and a bullet in her abdomen. I wonder if she knew Louis? How else would she have gotten in contact with him that night? She probably knows a few people who can provide drugs, considering that substance abuse can be comorbid with ASPD, and Shaw also enjoys to drink, so she might have some experience with drugs.

Shaw can easily talk to Louis and pretend, unlike her awkward behavior towards the German policeman. So Shaw only makes an effort to socialize if she actually wants to gain something. The police officer was only in the way but Louis is valuable. Or she only pretended to be the unsure tourist in Berlin, I’m not really sure.

I wonder if Louis just agreed to do what Shaw wants because he was so impressed by her. Like, having his legs dangled out of the car window for the whole time, his face pressed into the seat while Shaw was driving? But he must have told her where to drive, so they probably had a chat. Maybe she stopped in between to teach him the rules.

Shaw is such a natural leader. If she wasn’t annoyed and bored by people she’d probably be an instructor of some sorts. I bet she teaches Joey, Logan and Harper some things. And she might have taught Root hand to and combat and how to properly use a gun.

I love how Shaw bursts in and is like “Ever had a staring contest with a fish?”, and after Louis friend’s like “Your gut shot, you dead”, she’s like “You better hope not, ‘cause if I’m starting to lose consciousness, I’m shooting you first”, while staring him dead into the eyes. Shaw, the little fish.

I bow down before Shaw, pulling a hollow point out of her gut using a mirror to see, which means she has to operate back-to-front, after having lost a lot of blood while not having taken any painkillers, just letting out two groans. No tears, no sobbing. 

“Figured I was better at killing people than fixing them”. Alright, Shaw was a very good doctor, considering her medical skills, only her social skills lacked - which are, apparently, demanded by a vast majority of society. So Shaw turned away from what was denied to her and focused on the opposite because she wasn’t wanted, even though she enjoyed medical practice and saving people. Then she went to the marines, found she was good at killing people, and enjoyed that job, as well. And then she became an asset of the ISA, which combines saving and killing people.

It surprises me that her head didn’t sink onto the table while she was unconscious.

The way Shaw stares at Louis’s... boss, Idk? She looks so tired because she just woke up, at the same time there is written BORED across her face, and she’s probably just tired of all of this (her employers trying to kill her and having killed the one person she cared about, having a bullet hole in her abdomen and having to put up with some wannabe badasses), looking at Louis’s boss like “you are the least thing I need right now, fuck off, I’m busy”.

I’m just glad they don’t sexually objectify Shaw, sitting there in her tanktop and messy hair, all sweaty. She simply gives off the bamf vibe and no one actually wants to fuck with her.

That twitch of her lip when she says “Not really”, after being asked if she’s some kind of badass. I wonder how many people Shaw has told that she’s got a personality disorder. Her chief of medicine didn’t know at first and I don’t know if you have to state your mental condition when applying as a soldier? Her PD had been in the way to save people as a doctor but it is beneficial when it comes to torturing and killing. And here, Shaw uses it as a weapon to distract her opponents long enough to get her second gun.

They don’t take her seriously, can’t relate to her, and Shaw doesn’t give a single fuck about them, she can’t relate to them, too, but she knows how people have approached her in the past, considering her PD; and it might even excite her, to play with them, Idk, but I guess she’s just bothered by them because they waste her time.

And Shaw simply states that she’s got an “Axis II Personality Disorder” (meaning on the Axis II she hasn’t got an intellectual disability but a PD (x)). She doesn’t state the PD she’s got. Later, she refers to herself and is referred to by others a a sociopath, which is included in Antisocial Personality Disorder (x, x). But only in season 4 episode 21, Samaritan lists Shaw’s PD as ASPD. So in Relevance, it’s not clear what PD Shaw has, and only after rewatching the episode multiple times, I’ve noticed Shaw’s personality traits and understood them properly and realized that Shaw was already written and played so well (bless Sarah Shahi, I always get sad when Amy Acker is praised for her performance as Root, but Sarah did such an amazing job, too). Or maybe now that I know Shaw’s personality well, I begin to analyze her more and interpret some things as traits of her PD, Idk.  

Shaw just sprawling on the couch next to the dude she just shot, enjoying a bottle of beer (which she opens with her bare hand???). I love it. Tbh, she probably had more than one beer.

Hersh, I really like him. And he knows Shaw so well, knows she wants revenge and information about the Aquino case. And his explanation: “She’s multitasking”, it’s not some sexist “women are multitasking, so they should be able to do x and y”, it’s a metaphor for Shaw’s many talents, and Shaw “doing both” is so fundamental for her character. She does the thing she thinks is right but also does the thing that feels right, and she can do both at the same time, while many people struggle with “am I going to do what’s right or what feels good?”.

Both, Hersh and Shaw, say that Shaw was hired because of her PD, because of her limited range of emotions, because she is the perfect killer. She was refused as a doctor for being who she is, but the ISA hired her. Of course, she wasn’t only hired for her PD, Hersh talks about her being hired for being able to multitask (to get information about the Aquino case and get revenge). Shaw was hired because of her skills, because of who she is, because of how she operates.

Uh, Root leaving to slip into the role of Veronica. I wonder what she would’ve done, if she had to stay in the office for that time. She would’ve found an excuse to get out to squeeze some information out of Veronica and Shaw, I’m sure.

Oh! Two beer bottles on the drawer. So Shaw had a couple of beers.

Is she using Cole’s phone or her own to call Veronica? It might be safer to use the landline of the apartment, I think? And is it Veronica who’s answering or is it already Root? I’m not sure.

Ok, it probably was her own phone, since she’s calling Wilson now.

Om my, I had forgotten that Shaw and Root meet for the first time in Relevance. This is where everything started.

Ok, I think it was Root on the phone when Shaw called Veronica. The voice fits.

Or maybe it wasn’t Root because Veronica is in the bathtub, and she had to get to the place where she meets Shaw. That means Root tapped Veronica’s phone when Shaw called and overheard the conversation, and Root has already adjusted her own voice to sound like Veronica’s. Did Root even get some sleep that night???

And that meeting place, Shaw came up with it, so does the apartment belong to her or is it a usual meeting place because Veronica had access?

Root didn’t even have to play Veronica so well because Shaw doesn’t know Veronica, it would’ve been enough to have all the information, but Root probably saw through Veronica easily and plays her easily. And she contains her excitement about meeting Shaw so very well.

Root calls her Sam, so I guess Shaw’s first name hadn’t really been agreed on? Cole also called her Sam, so would he have called her Sam towards Veronica?

Bless Amy and her chemistry with Sarah, and how she took a deep breath and her eyes widened while Shaw took off her jacket. Like, this was the beginning of the relationship between Root and Shaw.

Alright, Veronica calls Cole “Mike”, so she might like to use abbreviation of names.

Btw, Cole and Veronica probably were friends, and Shaw’s just like “he was killed” in her low empathy way. And it’s not that Cole’s death didn’t touch Shaw, it just affected her differently than it would affect Veronica. And Root just plays a touched Veronica, even though she doesn’t care about him at all, and it’s so interesting to see this display of emotions, like: Root (not affected by Cole’s death) playing Veronica (probably very affected by Cole’s death) and Shaw (affected by Cole’s death but not in the way the average person would be affected).

I wonder if Shaw associates Root with Cole because she has laid eyes on Root for the first time while Root pretended to be Veronica.

Nice how Root offers information to Shaw while posing her questions at the same time.

Shaw is still wearing the clothes she wore when she got shot. Did she shower at the place of Louis’s friend, maybe even washed her clothes?

Ok, recently, I’ve found out that what Root is using here (and on Denton Weeks) is not a taser but a stun gun.

So, did Root leave Veronica in a way that allows her to make noises on purpose or did Veronica just wake up earlier from unconsciousness? Actually, it’d be so like Root to make Shaw turn her back to her to stun her, so Root might have done it on purpose. She obviously must have been aware that she only can stun Shaw when she is distracted, and that Root can’t compete with Shaw’s physical skills.

Root keeps pretending she doesn’t hear the noises in the bathroom but still looks into that direction when Shaw gets up. Very risky, Root.

Btw, nor a taser nor a stun gun can make someone lose consciousness, they mainly cause pain. 

Root dragged Shaw across the floor and probably heaved her onto that chair. This must have taken quite some time, considering that Root is not very physically strong and that Shaw might weigh much, even though she is not very tall, because of her muscles mass. The disorientating effects of a stun gun don’t last too long, so Root probably had to stun Shaw more than once to make sure Shaw wasn’t able to turn on her.

God, how Root’s mask just drops as soon as she’s stunned Shaw, tbh. Bam, there’s Root. No Veronica anymore, and Root had completely hidden, maybe even suppressed herself, while pretending to be Veronica. And I think Root just actually turns into those characters, she can see so well through people, can empathize with them so well, that she can turn into them.

And Root smiles all the time. Her voice is so full of emotion (like when she talks about Veronica and says “but she didn’t know anything”, she sounds slightly disappointed and sad but says it in a sort of sarcastic way, Idk, and she’s a bit like an excited child). It’s amazing. (Actually, on an emotional level, Cole and Root might be really similar, even though Root’s emotions are probably more of a mess and like a rollercoaster). 

Btw, Shaw being stunned, probably multiple times, sure wasn’t fun, considering she had a fresh shot wound, as well.

So, Root must have zip tied Shaw pretty tight to that chair since it’s... Idk how to express it. Like, if Shaw just moved and wiggled her arms, the zip tie would just slip off the armrest and free Shaw’s arms from being tied to the chair. And the effects of the stun gun don’t last anymore. But Shaw stays still. Maybe she wants to know what Root has to say, or she’s impressed because Root managed to get close to her and stun her. Or her shot wound is not doing well so Shaw decided to stay in a sitting position. 

And Root is so disappointed in Shaw, who thought Research’s information come from torture. I think Shaw is impressed by Root and really pissed, Idk? And then Root is like I’m gonna torture you, and Shaw is like awesome at first she tricks me, then stuns me, now tortures me, nice. (Maybe, Idk?)

And then Root kneels down in front of her to unzip her jacket. Like, most people would bend down to the person they are going to torture to assure dominance and cause fear by standing tall over them. But Root kneels down, is on eye level with Shaw, leans close, props her arms on Shaw’s knees, and has fun while doing all of this. Shaw easily could have freed her hands and hurt Root’s abdomen or neck, since they are close to Shaw because Root is not standing. And Root kneeling also makes her more vulnerable because she can’t quickly escape, she would have to stand up first. But I think she was interested in Root and chose to wait a bit longer.

So, Root apparently is a person who likes touching and being close to people (especially when it comes to Shaw). But I think Root might not like to be touched by others? Only when she closes the distance herself and can give off dominance, or when she feels comfortable around the person doing it.

Root is so eager to see how Shaw reacts to her torturing her, and then Shaw is like just do it, I love it; and this is when Root realizes that she actually likes a personality trait of Shaw, not just her skills. She even says “just when we started to connect”.

And then she just leaves Shaw. Root obviously knows that Shaw can handle herself.

I think when Shaw notices that the agents don’t see her as an immediate threat, she also realizes that they haven’t noticed that she can easily free her hands because of how the armrests are built. And she lets them get close to get a weapon.

Hi John.

Ok, there’s blood on Shaw’s wrist and hand, so Root must have zip tied her very very tight.

John’s “I’m a really nice person” comes across in a sarcastic way, because his face and voice are always calm. But he probably didn’t know what else to say, like, there is no reason for Shaw to not kill him if she wanted to. So he just says the truth - that he is a nice person. And this might be the only time that John actually admits that is very kind and caring. He can be very rude to people to avoid emotional attachment or empathy, but he can also be so very kind, but never comes across like it at first.

But Shaw trusts him.

Funny how aconitine was used two times on Shaw, and both times, John basically saved her. I wonder if Shaw’s number came up multiple times? Together with Cole’s number, before meeting Root, before meeting the Special Counsel?

Can I just note that Shaw is such a good listener? Like, her PD gives her a hard time connecting to people, they might bore or bother her, but Shaw always listens to what people have to say. She listened to John before shooting at him, she listened to Root before freeing herself, she listened to Harold explaining, she listens to Root in later episodes. And I think it’s a skill Shaw had to learn at first, because she might be impulsive, careless, easily bored or annoyed because of her PD, so it probably took a lot of work to train herself to listen to people until they’re done talking even though it’s not obvious at first that she might gain any benefit from the person talking.

And now Shaw is socially awkward again, “thanks but no thanks”, and I think it’s because Harold arose her interest and now she tries to “fit in” towards him, Idk.

But when meeting with the Special Counsel, Shaw’s social skills are in point. She looks so good, so strong, so determined. And the Special Counsel seems to be someone who smiles a lot? He smiled at Root, now at Shaw. He can probably talk very good and in a quite convincing way? He’s so surprised by Shaw’s “I do (understand)”, even though Hersh told him Shaw would do this.

I wonder if Harold’s conversation with Shaw had any impact on Shaw still wanting to protect the program? It might have reinforced her, since Harold said they work for the same entity.

Shaw walking out there while Future Starts Slow plays - I’ve got no words for how awesome this is. Only that they censor the ���fuck” in “you can holler, you can wail, you can swing, you can flail, you can fuck like a broken sail” takes some awesomeness away. Shaw probably uses fuck a lot, tbh.

And she let her hair down. Her hair is down in Berlin while observing the number, afterwards it’s always tied up. Maybe it’s down when she feels relaxed?

“If I ever give you up my heart will surely fail”. It fits perfectly for Cole protecting Shaw, Shaw revenging Cole, John and Harold helping the numbers, The Machine giving out the numbers. Like, if The Machine wouldn’t provide numbers anymore her purpose of living wouldn’t exist anymore, her metaphoric heart would fail, Idk?

Oh my god, Hersh tells Shaw that she is good, that she’s a good operator, he reassures her that she is good the way she is, while her chief of medicine turned on her and her career because of exactly this, because of Shaw being herself, she was denied doing what she enjoyed and was good at because she wasn’t “good enough”, because her social skills weren’t good enough, and Hersh reassures her that she is, right before killing her.

Did Shaw expect it? She might have, she knew she was gonna be put down. But she had protected the program and revenged Cole, she was satisfied right now, so she didn’t prepare to escape. Or she knew they’d sent Hersh after her, and that she had not much of a chance to get away from him. Or she was curious if John and Harold would save her again?

I just love how we get to see Joss, Lionel, Leon and Bear in this episode, even though it is mainly about Shaw. It’s such a good episode.

Alright, I just looked aconitin up. It’s already toxic when just touching the plant. At first, it has an exciting effect, then it paralyzes the nerve endings. Death occurs because of respiratory paralysis. The lethal dose for humans is 1-10 mg/kg. The symptoms occur after just a few minutes: paresthesia, sweating, dropping of the body's temperature, nausea, vomiting, cramps, diarrhea, until respiratory paralysis. If a dose is given that is way higher than a lethal dose, one dies of a heart attack. Counter measures for cardiac arrest or shock might be necessary, including CPR, ventilation, injection of atropine. If the poison was taken in orally, vomiting can be provoked or a gastrolavage can be done. (x)

Ok, so it’s obvious that an ambulance must have been there right away, and someone with medical skills must have done CPR and the likes mentioned above and injected atropin immediately to save Shaw. It’s not shown in the episode, and it takes too much time until Shaw receives the atropine in the episode, I think?.

My headcanon is that John and Harold asked for the aid of more former numbers than just Joss and Leon, like Dr. Megan Tilman or Dr. Madeleine Enright, who might also have instructed Leon on how to use the atropine.

John’s smile, he really likes Shaw and is so impressed.

Shaw probably didn’t call them a taxi.

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1. Who was the last person you held hands with?I hold a lot of hands in passing, hard to say

2. Are you outgoing or shy?I’m outgoing when I need to be, but on the inside, I’m really shy

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?My puppy, Lexi!

4. Are you easy to get along with?Yeah I’m very agreeable and understanding with people

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?They would probably be drunker, but if I were in a crunch, I like to think he or she would

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?Positive people with imaginations, a sense of humor, and who radiate positive vibes

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?I hope not

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?A person I just consider a friend right now, but I am concerned for

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?In general, no, but when people ask me specifically what I’m into I tend to clam up just because I don’t talk about it a lot so it feels unrehearsed

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?My therapist

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?”Thank you thank you thank youuuuuu”

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?1) When I Was (AVPSY)2) ART IS DEAD (Bo Burnham)3) Dust and Ashes (Great Comet of 1812)4) Hallelujah (Rufus Wainwright)5) Home (Phillip Phillips) 

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?I’m a fan!14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?In a way15. What good thing happened this summer?I was in a movie!16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?Nope17. Do you think there is life on other planets?Far far away from here and probably not the kind of life we expect18. Do you still talk to your first crush?No19. Do you like bubble baths?Love them20. Do you like your neighbors?I have not issue with them21. What are you bad habits?NAIL BITING22. Where would you like to travel?Everywhere23. Do you have trust issues?Ohhhhhh brother yes24. Favorite part of your daily routine?Shower in the AM25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?Most of it26. What do you do when you wake up?shower27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?A bit tanner would be nice28. Who are you most comfortable around?Anyone who I vibe with29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?Yes, but I’m not sure if they meant it30. Do you ever want to get married?Maybe? A long time from now31. If your hair long enough for a ponytail?No32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?Any of the Chris’s tbh33. Spell your name with your chin.dsaBV34. Do you play sports? What sports?No nope not even a bit35. Would you rather live without TV or music?TV36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?All the time37. What do you say during awkward silences?Idk I don’t find silence awkward, but if it is awkward I guess I’ll ask them a question38. Describe your dream girl/guy?Caring, attentive, passionate, deep, spiritual, free, empathetic39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?Amazon40. What do you want to do after high school?I’m not in High school anymore, but after college, I want to be a clinical therapist41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?Depends on what the original offense was42. If you're being extremely quiet what does it mean?I’m depressed, tired, or offended43. Do you smile at strangers?Sometimes44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?OUTERSPACE45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?The fear of falling behind46. What are you paranoid about?Being annoying47. Have you ever been high?Yeah48. Have you ever been drunk?Yup49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?Sort of50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?Red51. Ever wished you were someone else?All the time52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?My need to be liked53. Favourite makeup brand?I don’t wear makeup anymore, but I used to love Sephora’s brand54. Favourite store?Amazon55. Favourite blog?@nitrogen 56. Favourite colour?pastel blue/pink57. Favourite food?Honey Butter Chicken Biscuit58. Last thing you ate?Chocolate59. First thing you ate this morning?I didn’t eat anything until I had some green beans, spinich, rice, and chicken for lunch60. Ever won a competition? For what?Not unless getting into college counts as a competition61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?Never62. Been arrested? For what?Nope63. Ever been in love? Once64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?So he asked me if he could kiss me and I said okay thinking it would be a peck like first kisses are in the movies I had seen but he slid is tongue in my mouth and I almost threw up65. Are you hungry right now?Not even a little66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?No I like my real friends a lot67. Facebook or Twitter?Twitter68. Twitter or Tumblr?Tumblr69. Are you watching tv right now?Not right now70. Names of your bestfriends? Nick, Lizzy, Liam, Ally, Ella, Lilla, Megan, Julia, Gina, Kay, and Alex71. Craving something? What?Attention, probably72. What colour are your towels?Blue72. How many pillows do you sleep with?Three73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?No74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?I used to have over 300 but now I only have 3 back home75. Favourite animal?Dogs76. What colour is your underwear?Grey77. Chocolate or Vanilla?Vanilla78. Favourite ice cream flavour?Cookie Dough79. What colour shirt are you wearing?Grey/blue80. What colour pants?Dark Blue81. Favourite tv show?Hannibal82. Favourite movie?Frank83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?Mean Girls (Who the fuck would say MG2???)84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?Mean Girls85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?Regina George86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?Dory :)87. First person you talked to today?Liam?88. Last person you talked to today?Liam!89. Name a person you hate?I try not to emit hate; but I do have this one professor....90. Name a person you love?All my friends91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?Republicans92. In a fight with someone?I don’t think so?93. How many sweatpants do you have?3 (2 of them are joggers if that counts)94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?395. Last movie you watched?Rushmore96. Favourite actress?Lauren Lopez/Gillian Anderson97. Favourite actor?Darren Criss/Mads Mikkelson/Hugh Dancey/Heath Ledger/JGL98. Do you tan a lot?hardly99. Have any pets?MY PUPPPPPY LEXIIIII

100. How are you feeling?Depressed, but what’s new!101. Do you type fast?yes102. Do you regret anything from your past?I try not to dwell103. Can you spell well?Nope104. Do you miss anyone from your past?A coupe people105. Ever been to a bonfire party?NO but I WANT to106. Ever broken someone’s heart?I think so107. Have you ever been on a horse?Many times108. What should you be doing?Homework109. Is something irritating you right now?Yeah110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?A lot111. Do you have trust issues?Yep112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?Myself113. What was your childhood nickname?Candy114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?Yes115. Do you play the Wii?Sometimes, I like the mario games116. Are you listening to music right now?Nope117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?I hate soup118. Do you like Chinese food?Love it!119. Favourite book?The Pendragon Series120. Are you afraid of the dark?Sometimes121. Are you mean?I try not to be, but I recognize that I can be unintentionally mean122. Is cheating ever okay?No123. Can you keep white shoes clean?Hardly124. Do you believe in love at first sight?No125. Do you believe in true love?Maybe126. Are you currently bored?Yes127. What makes you happy?Knowing everything is temporary128. Would you change your name?I WISH I could129. What your zodiac sign?Aries130. Do you like subway?Yeah, they’ve never done me wrong131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?Depends on which one it is132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?My therapist133. Favourite lyrics right now?”I wish it was just like it was before””You can’t hold on to what’s past; nothing is made to last””I am an artist, please, God, forgive me””If I die here tonight, I die in my sleep””She tied you to a kitchen chair, she broke your throne, she cut your hair, and from your lips, she drew the hallelujah””Settle down, it'll all be clear, Don't pay no mind to the demons, They fill you with fear”134. Can you count to one million?CAN I? probably... Will I? No!135. Dumbest lie you ever told?That every year at midnight everyone’s tastebuds fly out of their mouth and switch with other people’s so that you like new foods.136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?CLOSED137. How tall are you?5′10″138. Curly or Straight hair?I have straight hair but I want curly139. Brunette or Blonde?My hair is somewhere in between but I have no preference140. Summer or Winter?Summer plz141. Night or Day?Night

142. Favourite month?April143. Are you a vegetarian?No144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?Milk145. Tea or Coffee?Coffee (but I love some sweet tea!!)146. Was today a good day?It was good then it got really bad and then it got better147. Mars or Snickers?Snickers148. What’s your favourite quote?”To live would be an awfully big adventure.” —Peter Pan: Hook149. Do you believe in ghosts?No150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?“Cities like Philidelphia and Rochester were described as being victims of their own generosity” --The New Jim Crow by Michelle Alexander