#tbf it did sound too dumb to be real | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

rrxnjun · 1 year

Note

yeahh stress is pretty bad and it got to me so🤕🤕 but doing much better now so that's at least good!! ahhh i hope u don't stress much as well!!!! and sometimes it's good to just take brakes from studying so i think u should count being on tumblr as that🫠

chenle hit hard dude and i'm so happy about it in a way cuz at least i relate to something🥲 but what took me off guard in the middle of wiping my tears is when i saw my birthday as one of the dates so that made me laugh so hard for some reason🫡 well it will be a while till i know the results so we will see but i don't think it will be better🥲 ahhh thank u for saying that i appreciate it i kinda needed to hear that so thanks;-;-;-;💓💖💞u are too lovely;-;💖💞

WELL THAT DOESNT MATTER IM JUST GLAD TO HEAR ABOUT IT🥳 uuuu i'm so excited about it wahhh🥳🥳 WELL I DIDNT MIND THE LAST ONE AS WELL CUZ I LOVED THE TRAILER SO EVEN IF IT WOULD HAPPEN NOW I WOUDLNT MIND I DONT THINK🤣

well i'm very glad that u translated it to me so u are the best slovak person out there imo🫡🫣

oo god🥲 IDK WHY PEOPLE HAVE TO BE SO RUDE ABOUT NOT SPEAKING A LANGUAGE☹️SOME PEOPLE ARE SO DUMB AND RUDE MY LORDDD☹️☹️and german is a hard language anyways🥲 that's probably more than enough german words a person should know🫡 well let's just hope and pray u only run into nice people in hungary!!! I WILL GLADLY HELP WITH ANYTHING NEED IN HUNGARY🥳🥳🥳 (ofc sending it right now as i write/j)

i'm not gonna lie i will call myself a stan of treasure but still have trouble with jeongwoo and jaehyuk for some reason AND I HAVE BEEN FOLLWOING THEM FOR LIKE A YEAR NOW AND ITS NOT LIKE I DIDNT WATCH A CRAP TON OF STUFF WITH THEM so🤕🤕🤕 and i genuinely don't know why i switch them up so often🫤 i'm praying for u hopefully u won't die from laughing too much cuz they are very funny (and i tend to be the same way so i feel u on that one🫣) DUDE I LAUGHED OUT LOUD LMAO u really said the communist bugs bunny meme with that one🤣 i knew it wouldn't be long till i have to share him💔he his just too amazing🤭 YEAH I SHOULD HAVE EXPECTED IT TBH🫠🫠that's what got me as well and his whole style tbh

U NEVER DISAPPOINT!!! AND U JUST NEVER MISS!!! i think my thoughts were kind of a mess cuz of the crying but it was amazing i loved the whole story so much!!! thank u for being an amazing writer!!!

(u are going to get me blushing for real i'm glad to hear that!!! ur replies usually make my day u are just too lovely🥹) (liebestraum anon💕)

awh i hope you relax even more soon, stress is a bitch. me personally i dont feel it but thats just bc i supress it a lot LMAO 😭😭 but thankyou for saying that yes i do consider tumblr as my mental health brake SJSJS

chenle did hit hard poor boy 💔 also omg no way???? which date 🤭 (if u feel comfy sharing ofc)) i originally wanted to add my bday too but it didnt fit with the timeline so i had to change it 🙄🙄 i did write abt marks and renjuns bday altho i did manage to sneak hyuck's in as well🤭

AHAHA no bc i was telling myself when posting it like "this is my promise that im gonna finish the fic" AND THEN I DIDNT DJSJSJ so i dont want that to happen again. i was clearing out my notes ((where i keep all my fic ideas) and found the liebestraum idea dated all the way back to 2021 😶 SJSJ i really do need to finish it soon

it was a middle aged woman tbf i shouldve expected her to act like a karen ☹ german is a hard language and also austrians sound completely different than germans do 😭😭 their dialect is kinda different and they even have different words for some things LMAO but thats not the point. also im arranging the budapest trip as we speak /j

AHAHA i think im a baby teume now dont tell anyone and after binging most of treasure map i can confidentely tell the three i mentioned apart like 70% of the time so 😶 im so sorry everyone. THEY ARE INSANELY FUNNY and also very very genuine i feel 😶 they are just some guys doing things and being real and i respect that AHAHA its like watching friends hang out and feeling like youre a part of their circle. altho every time yedam appears on the screen my heart breaks bc ive had the biggest soft spot for him ever since seeing him on the stray kids survival show 💔 he has a special place in my heart SJSJ when the news came out i was like oh that must be heartbreaking to hear im glad im not a treasure stan and look where we are now 😭👍THE COMMUNIST MEMEMSHSJSK STOP no but im afraid this is the reality i did not steal your boyfriend we are sharing. HIS STYLE!!!! but also his personality he is a menace (affectionate) and for some reason thats my type of men

also it breaks my heart to hear that ppl cry to my fics oh noo😭😭 but at least that means my words can move someone ig??☹ thank you sm for supporting me and for being great i always look forward to interacting with you

#💌ask #liebestraum anon

0 notes

euphoricfilter · 2 years

Note

I'M SO ANNOYED AT THIS ANON. HOW DID THEY MAKE SUCH A TRASH TAKE ON THE BEST FIC EVER WTF??! DID THEY READ PROPERLY WTF?? OR UNDERSTAND HOW LOVE, JEALOUSY, AND OTHER EMOTIONS WORK?? They sound so pathetic omg. Why did they "read" this fic and then say the worst things omg? Hollyhomburg is so much nicer than me for calmly explaining it so well in their reply.

Ooh this ask gets so long. Sorry lol. I love bily so much omg. Tempted to send this or shorter (and prob nicer lol) version of this to hollyhomburg but they haven't replied to my ask on agreeing about the "manipulative" mc thing so idk hm. (They do seem to be answering more asks recently though wow)

Thoughts on this ask and the stuff I say further down?

Tbf I misunderstood Jimin with his last secret. Update: I think I don't dislike him anymore after getting to understand how he handles self-hatred. It's so sad TT I stil think Jimin and mc need to talk about it more for Jimin's sake and have some 1-on-1 bonding to fully resolve this issue for me though. They've felt awkward and distant since Tae's secret came out imo. We get Yoongi and Tae in the next ch though yay!! Sad that not every relationship is happy and romantic rn. But it's realistic that some relationships are slower to develop than others. And hollyhomburg would prob struggle to write a bunch of relationship developments at the same time. People (including me lol) need to be patient. and trust in the love and care the pack has for each other.

And the mc being "manipulative" part is instinctual to her according to hollyhomburg. It's understandable that people feel confused or interpreted it wrongly. But mc is a precious lil baby. I don't think it's bad that she is "manipulative" by acting cute and appealing to the alpha's instincts. Both sides are happy when she's being cute and lovely. (Did I interept this right??) And she doesn't have any ulterior motives at any point of the fic imo. Hollyhomburg also said this and that most of it is just how Jimin sees it. Jimin is just a paranoid boy :/

And Yoongi is a sweet boy. And Yoongi and mc went through some TRAUMA. (the trauma and how it affects them was written so well. how can you not understand and love these 2 omg) YOONGI HAS BEEN WORKING FOR MONTHS (AND STILL IS WORKING) ON MAKING A PERFECT CUSTOM COMFY HOUSE FOR ALL OF THEM! ACTS OF SERVICE KING. And there is so much explained in the fic about these two compared to Jimin and the other boys. I will only agree that Yoongi seems distant to the other boys and it's kinda sad. But I believe that they all love and care for each other. And the relationship between Yoongi and the boys will slowly develop into a happy, loving relationship again.

Was I too harsh on this anon? (I may have gotten too emotional idk. I am very protective over irl and bily Yoongi as well as bily mc so yeah lol. Hollyhomburg wrote all of bily pack to be so precious but I love these two even more) This anon seems so dumb to totally not understand how mc and Yoongi think...Only excuse I'll give is if they don't understand abo, mating mark, polyamory, and love in fics omg... Also please don't tag this under bily and my anon tag. Feels wrong to have negativity under these tags even if this anon is totally wrong omg.

-🖤

i think maybe they don’t understand the complexity of emotions?? i really don’t get it 🥲 and to sit there and write an ask about it as well AND sending it in 😭

holly is an angel i would have just laughed

i think that maybe they haven’t grasped the fact that like real people, the characters holly has written are more than just surface level, black and white emotions like a lot of stories show— they’ve taken time to delicately craft each of their characters in BILY

i think that holly has done well with the pacing of all the relationships, and it’s come off very realistic of what a poly relationship would look like from my understanding. not everyone is gonna fall head-first into love, it’s not always going to linear and i think that this series has shown that everyone falls in love in different ways and for different reasons. that emotions are complicated, the selfishness that comes with thinking about people you love while giving so much without maybe their understanding

from what i get, the m/c being manipulative comes from survival instinct, that maybe even she isn’t aware that she’s doing it, it’s something that kind of just happened, a habit that she can’t break. old habits die hard and i don’t think her initial intent is malicious in any way i think she’s honestly just scared and from what’s happened to her in the past i think she’s just trying to protect herself. i think for jimin, he knows where she was before the pack, he knows the people she was associated with and it’s only fair that he’s paranoid when they’re both very very good at masking emotions and turning a blind eye to things that maybe shouldn’t be brushed over. i’d assume that jimin is also aware that if she really did want to harm any of the pack for whatever reason she probably would have done so by now (i think it’s just his love for tae that has his skepticism spiked)

in the reply to that ask holly worded yoongi’s thought process and actions very well. maybe the person that sent in the ask hasn’t experienced any sort of past trauma themselves and therefore glazed over the complexity of emotions after such a traumatic event? idk the original ask came off a little tone death like they hadn’t considered each of the characters and their individual perspectives and past trauma

in yoongi’s defense he lost contact with the rest of the pack to protect them from his family, and i think naturally, even if you love someone a lot, a loss of contact for months is gonna put a standstill in the relationship, like the m/c, yoongi has been through so so much and like holly explains there’s always been slight favoritism, it was always, and will always be tae and jimin, just like jin and namjoon. sure the m/c and yoongi were thrusted into a relationship with doom hanging over them but there was love, and as much as yoongi loved the pack he’d learnt to love another even if their situation hadn’t been the most ideal. and as much as the m/c was reserved at the start, meeting the pack i think yoongi is slowly learning to love all of them again even if he already knows how, i think it’s about him finding comfort in a place where everything could still be somewhat uncertain

i don’t think he’s wrong either for the slight jealousy he feels, he probably felt like a hero, a pretty shitty one but having just the two of them survive for so long as suddenly your soulmate is being bombarded with 6 times the love than he was giving must be hard for him. and as holly explained it’s jealousy in the sense he’s scared he won’t be useful anymore and just :( poor yoongs, i’m glad they’re spending more time together now i love yoongi x m/c content

i think maybe that the anon had only surface level view of the story, maybe hadn’t thought about it from a new perspective, either the author’s, or the characters in the book, or read other people’s thoughts and feelings and similar experiences to those in the story or they themselves haven’t experienced anything that could help them sympathize with these characters, having a very black and white perspective of complex characters and emotions

#ask

1 note · View note

kirisaki-daichi-scenarios · 3 years

Note

Headcanons or a scenario maybe, of the kiridai boys protecting/defending each other? Because people are going to be mean to them and I just want to see them be friends

Right so

actually before i talk about high school, i just wanna say that hara and yamazaki (who in my mind are childhood friends, as you all probably know) have been defending each other for ages

e.g. in middle school, though neither of them were ever bullied, they had a brilliant love/hate relationship, based off the logic that “i can bully you but no one else can”

so imagine that they get in a fight (cause you know hara was always trying to rile zaki up, and middle school zaki had even less self restraint), maybe zaki storms out of the room

some snotty-nosed lil “i wanna be friends with hara” loser dares to mock how ‘badly’ zaki fights, to which hara responds with beating that guy up as well

the two always had each other’s back

tbf that applies to high school kiridai too

in short, the boys just have an instinct to lie for one another - if anyone asks why seto’s missing from a lesson without a reason, etc - but, at the same time, they can never lie to one another, it’s always too obvious

but enough of abstract concepts, the people want real ✨team interactions✨

anyway

realistically, there’s not a lot of situations where they need to protect each other, given that they have a pretty comfortable situation in school

no one has the audacity to try bully them, including the teachers, thanks to Mr Makoto’s lil disciplinary committee making sure that no discipline whatsoever happens

yeah come to think of it, makoto’s the big protector man huh

imagine even daring to bring up that, i dunno, furuhashi threatened to kill a fellow student, at the disciplinary committee meeting

hanamiya sat back on his chair, grinning, like: sorry?

dumb but bold (sticking up for a friend) first year: i have it on very good authority that 2nd year furuhashi kojiro held a knife to my friend’s throat after my friend accidentally bumped into him.

hanamiya: i have it on better authority that that’s bullshit. so, moving on...

first year has no further reply cause one of the older members gives them a very warning look

the best thing about all is this that hanamiya doesn’t even need to threaten people anymore; all the first years get warned by people who’ve previously had associations with hanamiya, and so it goes

let’s summarise a bit:

hanamiya will never defend his buddies to someone else, in the sense that he won’t say anything nice about them (except he probably had to break this rule to explain, to the others, why he was bringing seto onto the team). but he is the constant protector, allowing them to run free as the wind

matsumoto doesn’t tend to say anything positive about his teammates (especially not about hanamiya, which is a bit sneaky - cause he’s also benefiting from the disciplinary committee situation), but, occasionally, if someone in one of his not-basketball circles is criticising them (particularly if they’re criticising zaki), he’ll let out a hmmph or even a “you don’t know what you’re talking about. fuck off”

seto makes everyone sound good in front of their parents. he’s as good as hanamiya when it comes to interacting with people’s parents, except, when hanamiya compliments you to your mother, you know he’s fucking with you. when seto does it, it takes you by surprise. it almost sounds a lil sincere in his gruff way of acknowledging that you don’t suck :’)

zaki is a very intense defender of his teammates, and he can and will get physical. but alas no one really criticises his teammates around him as a result.

the last time it happened, was that a bunch of smart students were walking past him complaining about seto (“i’ve seen him sleeping in lessons so there’s no way he got the top mark for this exam without cheating”) and mr. delinquent zaki, tieless, was already rolling up his sleeves, like “the fuck did you just say?”

then hara’s also a “the fuck did you just say” kinda guy, but in a more sing-songy way, like “hmmm? what was that? maybe i didn’t hear you right but i thought you just said my captain was a talentless fraud.”

this is said whilst approaching two gossiping basketball playing first years (from a different school) from behind, hara popping his head in between theirs, his arms around their shoulders, like

“doesn’t deserve to be a considered an uncrowned king, huh?”

and then, when he walks away, the first year’s probably have bloodied faces

(hara has a heavy dose of imayoshi energy in him - a tentacle nightmare)

furuhashi, finally, is a bit quieter. he’s prefers to walk into people, trip them over, etc, rather than the whole big confrontation

but if he hears someone, perhaps a certain student at the end of the day, walking with his friends, commenting on, for example, how he has ancient literature with hara, and how hara acts so tough but he’s really just a nerd with a shitty dye job

well furu can’t stand for that (:

grabs that guy, shoves him against the wall, pulls his penknife out (yeah furu carries a penknife around with him for pruning and whatnot, the ‘whatnot’ referring to situations like this) and presses it against the guy’s neck

the dude in front of his is shaking, seriously shaking

and furu’s just there with the knife and a completely blank gaze.

when his victim’s eyes go moist, the knife gets pressed a little harder against his neck, and furuhashi says, with absolutely no emotion,

“oh look. you’ve pissed yourself.”

51 notes · View notes

crystxlclear · 3 years

Text

sudden desire

chapter ten: the endless darkness and mystery of the ocean is becoming a bit tempting to dive into right now

part eleven of sudden desire

masterlist

word count: 3.2k

warnings: angst, hospitals, illness? it’s a little but of a sad chapter tbf sorry

author’s note: this is where it gets sad and angsty i hope y’all didn’t think it would all go smoothly from here lmaoooo sorry

but coraline and marcus are soft af so i hope you enjoy them pining for each other ... again

Marcus is sure that he’s only really known love twice in his life.

The first time, it was with his first wife. His college girlfriend. The first girl he’d ever said ‘I love you’ to, and meant it.

They’d married straight out of college; young and, maybe, a little too dumb. Not prepared for the pressures of real life, of the real world. They were still figuring themselves out, who they were meant to be and who they were meant to become. They’d grown apart as they’d grown older. They were no longer who they were. They were different, and not the same people who’d fallen in love those years ago.

The second time, it was with Teresa. At least, he thinks he was in love with her. Hell, he’d even asked her to marry him, to move across the country to start a life with him, after so little time together, after all. They’d moved so fast, tumbled headfirst into things without a second thought. He’s sure that, in that short period of time, he’d fallen in love. The heartbreak that had struck him down when she’d left him was so palpable that, sometimes, when he lies awake at night, he still feels the remnants of it rooted within him.

There had been others, before and since. Those that didn’t work out, those that weren’t and never were meant to be. A handful of awkward dates or a couple of nights at the other’s apartment. Nothing significant like his ex-wife or Teresa.

At least, not until Coraline.

He often wonders, if things had been different, if they’d met some other time, in some other place - maybe even in some other life - without their heartbreak and their baggage, if things would have been different. Would they be together and happy, living in some picture-perfect suburbia together, in each other’s arms. He guesses that he’ll never know, now. It seems silly to dwell on such an unlikely and unattainable thought.

But he likes this, falling asleep in each other’s arms, even if it’s only as friends on her part and he’s destined to feel the sting of unrequited happiness for the rest of his days.

The next morning seems lighter. It shouldn’t - the weight of the night before, all that had happened, should still linger; and it does, just not in the way he’d expected - but his admission, into the silence and not to her, had lifted this insurmountable weight from his chest. He hadn’t even realised he’d been carrying it. Even whispered into the gauzy blanket of silence after Coraline had fallen asleep, Marcus’ profession of love had slipped out, just the right time to relieve him of his fears and maybe any more heartbreak that might latch onto him.

He wakes with her still in his arms. She’s clutching to his shirt, the dress shirt’s cotton material bunched into her first, twisted around his torso. She looks endlessly peaceful; her breathing is steady, soft and measured and even, and her face is free of the worried lines that had tugged at her eyebrows the night before. Her lips are parted, soft puffs of air brushing past, tickling against the underside of his jaw. She’s swimming in the bliss of sleep. He’s endlessly glad that at least sleep can give her a reprieve from the torment of the night before.

He knows he should leave her bed, like he does every morning. That he should make her coffee and whatever breakfast food he can find. That he should have normality ready for her when she wakes up, so things don’t seem so different when sleep slips away from her. But he just can’t bring himself to let her go.

Marcus watches her gentle expression and the rise and fall of her chest for a moment. The subtle shift of her feet and hips. He knows she’s waking up, her body rousing from her deep sleep. He brushes a hand through her hair; it’s dried as she slept, and her usually delicate waves are even more prominent thanks to the soft cotton of her pillowcase. His thumb brushes across her cheekbone.

Coraline hums and it almost startles him. “Good morning,” she whispers. She leans forward and presses her forehead against his chest. Her hand pulls around his torso and splays her fingers across the expanse of his back, pushing his chest closer into hers. “What time is it?”

Marcus’ hand flexes against Cora’s hips. “9 am.”

“Shit, Marcus, you have work,” she gasps and pulls back, though her movements are sluggish and laboured, tethered with sleep, still.

He smiles and drops a kiss to her forehead. His thumb taps against her hip bone. “I’ll call in sick. They’ll understand.”

He’s sure that she wants to protest, to tell him to leave, but she just doesn’t seem to have the energy. She just drops her forehead back against his sternum and sighs. She nuzzles herself closer into him and pulls at his scent, just as intoxicating as always. It weighs her limbs down. She feels her head swimming with everything - the worry and the pain and the fear - but the familiar scent of his cologne keeps her rooted to reality, and stops her from floating away. She’s glad that he’s here, holding her. She’s not sure she would want to wake up without him there. “I need coffee,” she murmurs, voice muffled by the duvet pulled snug over the pair of them, and Marcus’ shirt. She makes to move his embrace and leave the bed, but her efforts are half-hearted and she keeps herself pressed against Marcus, inside his comforting grip.

Marcus chuckles. “Just a couple more minutes,” he insists.

He can feel her grin through the material of his shirt. “You’re comfortable like this?” She runs her hand up his torso, from his stomach to his chest, and toys with the top button of his shirt, by his neck. Her thumb brushes over his collarbone; he’s pretty sure it’s unintentional, but it almost makes him shudder. He’d be embarrassed if he wasn’t used to the effect that she has on him.

He shouldn’t be. Not in what he’s wearing. But the warmth of her against his chest is too comforting for him to muster the strength to move. “Very comfortable.”

She tilts her head back. Large green eyes peer up at him, sparkling and still laced with sadness. She’s trying her best to hide it, he can tell. “Too bad,” she whispers, “I want coffee.” She still doesn’t move. She stays rooted to his chest.

“And you’re expecting me to make it?” Marcus chuckles.

Cora giggles against him. “No- give me a moment.”

Marcus brushes a hand through Coraline’s hair - and pushes away the curls that have flopped over her face and obscure her sleep-kissed smile against him - as her phone begins to ring on the bedside table behind her. Cora groans and tightens her grip on his shift. “Who is it?”

He peers over her to glance at the display on her phone, which lights up bright with the name ‘Daniel’. He tells her and she groans again, pressing her cheek against his chest. Every time something calls her to leave the bed, she can’t help but burrow deeper into him. “Let it ring. I’ll call him back later,” she insists. The phone falls silent against the wooden table and she relaxes, until the phone starts vibrating again, and her shoulders go rigid.

“You gonna get that one?”

She shakes her head. “He’ll give up after this call.”

But her phone carries on ringing.

After the fifth ring of the third call, Coraline uncurls herself from around Marcus.

“Hello,” she answers, unable to sound very enthusiastic.

“Cora, thank God!” Daniel sounds out of breath on the other end of the phone. “You need to get down to the hospital right away.”

“What?” She shoots upwards in worry. “What’s happened? Is everyone okay-”

“It’s dad. It’s his lungs again.”

Panic strikes in Coraline’s chest. It’s her fault. If she hadn’t told him about her and Marcus and their plans for a baby, he’d be okay.

“I’m-” She desperately tries to catch her breath as she stumbles from the bed. Marcus calls after her but she’s fumbling blindly through the room, grabbing clothes like it’s second nature. “I’m on my way.” She drops her phone rather than hanging up and tugs on a hoodie and joggers over her pyjamas.

“Coraline, what’s wrong?” She questions.

She shakes her head and twirls on her heels. “My dad’s in the hospital.”

...

Marcus hadn’t even bothered to get changed. He looks presentable enough in what he was wearing - despite the wrinkles in his shirt and pants - and it seemed far more important to get Coraline to the hospital than it did to make himself look as if he hadn’t just rolled out of bed.

Which he had.

He hadn’t let her drive. Coraline had been biting back tears; they were burning the back of her eyes, blurring her vision, and she was in no shape to drive. Instead, he’d just taken her keys and driven as fast as he, legally, could towards the hospital on the other side of town. She’d sat in the passenger seat, bouncing her leg, silently praying that her father would be okay.

He’d rushed in behind her, as she raced towards the desk and breathlessly asked for his room number. And, by the time they’d reached him, she’d practically crumbled back into Marcus’ arms at the sight of him. Her father had been laying in the sterile bed, asleep, a breathing tube down his throat to help with the rise and fall of his chest. There were so many machines around him, cutting through the room with a thousand shrill beeps and chimes, she thought that he seemed more like a robot than a human being at all.

Without Marcus holding her up, Coraline was sure that her legs would have given way, and she wouldn’t be able to hold herself up any longer.

Her mother is there, Daniel and Kimmy, too, all gathered around his bed, looking solemn and horribly pale. Celine Meyer rushes towards her daughter as her sobs begin to bubble up ugly inside her chest. “Is he going to be okay? Please tell me he’s going to be okay.” She can’t bring herself to look at him. It only makes her chest hollow to see her father like this. The bright man she adored seemed so far away. “This is my fault,” Coraline insists, “I-” Her face is in her mother’s hands, and she’s shushing her, shaking her head and brushing away her tears as they fall, with the pad of her thumb.

“No, no, no. My darling, Coraline, no. This is not your fault,” she tells her.

“He was upset with me. He-”

Her mother shakes her head again. “No, he is still sick. It was only a matter of time. But he is here now, and they are going to do their best for him, I promise.”

The room is impossibly bright and claustrophobic. She can smell the disinfectant; it seems to drip from every surface, scrubbed clean and sterile, and nauseating as she thinks of her dad having to spend hours in a bed, with his laboured, wheezing breathing and broken, empty gasps. She feels like the walls are about to close in on them all, and stifle the life out of them all.

Coraline’s eyes waver towards her father and Marcus hears a sob rip from her throat. She gasps and rushes towards her father, dropping into an empty chair beside his bed. She takes his hand and presses her forehead to the back of his hand, her shoulders shaking as she cries, muffled by the blankets and the mattress. Marcus wants to make it better - he wants to make it all better - but there’s nothing he can do to quiet her heart wrenching cries and fix the sadness of seeing her father like this.

She doesn’t deserve this. All this pain. She deserves nothing but the entire world and all the stars in the night sky. Hell, he’d give her the moon if he could.

“Thank you for being here, Marcus.” Celine presses a hand against Marcus’ shoulder and smiles through her watery eyes. “You have no idea what this means to her.”

It doesn’t feel right to answer. He just returns her smile. Now isn’t the time to take credit for being here. He’s just doing what he has to do. What’s right. To be here for Coraline, if she needs him.

“Dad, I’m so sorry,” he hears Coraline whisper, her thumb brushing over his knuckles. She sits up in her seat to look at her father’s sleeping face. “I’m so sorry for everything. Please don’t leave me, I- I need you.”

...

Coraline hadn’t wanted to leave. Marcus doesn’t blame her, especially when she’d spent most of the day blaming herself, and had only really settled her nerves about five minutes before visiting hours were over. She’d been worried they’d force her to leave, and, then, had been even more worried when the nurse had poked her head into their room, smiled and asked them if they wanted anything to drink as they sat by his bedside.

Marcus knew it wasn’t a good sign, that they were letting him stay. The same had happened when his grandfather had died; he’d been so ill that they’d supposed he wouldn’t make it through the night. They’d let his mother and aunt sit by his bedside the entire night, until he passed away, holding their hands, the next morning. He hopes that this won’t be the case, here. For Coraline. For Celine and Daniel, for Kimmy and the kids. He prays.

Daniel and Kimmy had finally left in the late evening; they’d left their kids with the babysitter that morning, and they were both starting to grow tired. Celine stayed beside her husband, falling asleep early in the evening as Coraline and Marcus sat in silence, watching some old sitcom rerun on the tiny hospital TV. At some point, they’d settled into the same chair. He isn’t even sure when, or how, or even why, just that Coraline was understandably exhausted and shuffling awkward and restless in her seat, trying to get comfortable. She’d established that Marcus’ lap and the warmth of his arms around her was the best place to be. Just the way she’d woken up that morning.

She’d fallen asleep a little while later, just as an early episode of Seinfeld began to play on the television.

Marcus had tried, resting his head back against the high back of the seat, but, no matter what he did or how hard he tried, he couldn’t seem to fall asleep. He’s tired - exhausted, even - but something keeps him away, a gentle urge to make sure that everything is okay.

Instead, he focuses his attention on the TV screen, too tired and far too distracted to follow the story.

The silence seems earth-shattering.

“Marcus.” He lifts his head at the call of his name. It’s quiet, even in the silence of the hospital room. The rhythmic beeping of a heart monitor is the only thing that shatters the emptiness of the sterile room. Marcus smiles at the sight of Coraline’s father awake. His breathing is still heavy; he can see the way his chest seems to rattle as he draws in his breath. “Is she good?” He questions, motioning to his daughter, who’s curled up, asleep, in Marcus’ lap, tucked against his chest. She sighs in her sleep.

Marcus lifts his chin from where it’s been resting against the top of her head. “About as good as she can be,” he answers, “She’s a fighter.”

Robert Meyer hums out a laugh of agreement. “That she is,” he agrees. He watches her as she sleeps peacefully. “You’ll take care of her, won’t you?”

The question hangs in the air. He knows what it means, and he recognises the weight of it. Celine had spoken to the doctor earlier - one of those ‘can I talk to you in private?’ moments that she hadn’t found the strength to share with anyone, yet - and wandered back into the room with fresh tear stains on her cheeks. He knows what that means. He’d seen it in his own mother when he was younger.

“I think she can take care of herself,” he insists with a gentle and fond smile down at her. “But I’ll always be there for her if she needs me.”

Silence befalls the room again; monitors beeping, machines whirring, the soft clicking footsteps of people against the linoleum in the hallway, the gentle rustle of hospital-issue sheets. Marcus knows that the silence lingering between them is a result of the night before, and the tension that had stretched, brutal, across the apartment, between them like a taut rubber band.

“Do you love her?”

It’s another question that settles upon the thick air.

He’s not entirely sure how he’s meant to answer. He could admit to Robert that he’s fallen head over heels in love with his daughter, but he’s not sure he can bring himself to say it out loud. At least, not to another person. But Coraline doesn’t know. Coraline will probably never know. And, as far as she’s concerned, the extent of his love is that fondness shared between best friends, who live their lives circling around one another, keeping each other just close enough.

“I think that Coraline is a truly extraordinary woman,” he tells him, instead. He thinks it holds enough weight to answer his question. “I swear to you that I’m in this for the long-haul,” he adds, “I’m the one who suggested the whole baby thing.”

“You suggested this?”

“I did. Please don’t be mad at Cora, she only agreed to the idea.”

There’s another silence. Robert settles back against his pillows. He runs his hand over his jaw. “And this is what she wants?”

“Yes. I think so.” He looks down at her, where she’s settled against his chest. “I can tell that it bothers her, worrying about never being a mom.”

“And you promise you’ll take care of her?” He questions.

“Always, sir. Always.”

“Y’know, she’s still my little girl,.” he insists, “you have to understand that I just want what’s best for her.”

“I know.” Marcus smiles. “I want that, too.”

He sighs and leans back again. He gives his sleeping daughter the same easy smile he’d given her when he walked into the apartment the night before. “Then you have my blessing. I don’t necessarily… agree with this but, if you’re sure, I’m happy for you.”

It’s a brilliant relief to hear him say it. Marcus exhales happily and smiles. “I’m sure she’ll be relieved to hear that. She cares about you more than anyone, you know?”

“Oh no-” Robert watches as Coraline shuffles against Marcus’ chest. Her hand splays across the front of his shirt and she pressed her cheek against him. “-I think I’ve been replaced.”

taglist: @wheresthewater @ah-callie @its--fandom--darling @alberta-sunrise @sara-alonso @madslorian @freeshavocadoooo

#sudden desire #marcus pike x coraline meyer #marcus pike x original character #marcus pike x original female character #marcus pike x oc #marcus pike #marcus pike x reader

23 notes · View notes

goddamnmuses-a · 5 years

Text

Dan Watches: Star Wars: Episode II - Attack Of The Clones

Alright so I did this for Episode I which you can find here. So.. here’s my weird.. live reaction/note taking/whatever this is.. to Episode ll.

Alright so.. Once again the opening crawl is very politicy.

Count Dooku I think is mentioned for the first time in it and Padme becomes a Senator instead of a Queen in it.. which.. is weird.

The Naboo ships im not sure about.. I like the design but they seem too new and clean for being a prequel. That said they are owned by royalty so i can let it slide i guess.

“I guess i was wrong, there was no danger at all” *EXPLOSION* ffs Jeff, you couldn’t keep your mouth shut?

Nooooooo! Not.. Cordey? Omfg that was the worst death i’ve ever seen. Terribly acted.

Ayy it’s the Jedi avengers, no but like why is like i presume the whole or half the jedi council in this meeting? Shouldn’t they have like 1 representative?

Yooo thats live action Barriss Offee in the back... hey girrrll ;)

actually she’s probably supposed to be like 13 or somehting so i take that back.

I love just all the traffic flying by the window

YOOOO it’s my boy Jar Jar aka Darth Plagueis the Wise, don’t @ me.

Spice mines on the moon of Naboo you say? Isn’t Spice a drug but you mine for it.. there are drug miners in Star Wars.. good stuff.

That elevator would be terrifying.

Obiwan just like.. LOL I fell into a nest of Gundarks.. what a character I am. .. Love him.

Anakin like “I haven’t seen her since i was underaged master.. now i can get my fuck on!”

ALSO ITS BEEN 10 YEARS!?

“Ani you’ll always be that little boy” *Police sirens*

Anakins a little bitch

I think Jar Jar’s ears things are much longer.. but might just be me imagining things.

She’s not forgotten you, she said your name.. you creep.

Heeyy look it’s your custom star wars character Zam.

Obiwan is so sassy

Anakin is pretty creepy towards Padme.

Those worm things are naasty

Yo tbf that was some smooth lightsabering, they were like an inch tall and right up on Padme and he didnt even hurt her accidentally. I’d have killed her there.

Obiwan just fucking dives out the window like its nothing. Mad man.

Zam is the worst, instead of shooting Obiwan she shoots her own damn droid.

Damn it Anakin, he’s told you to stay away from power couplings.

Obiwan is just gonna be like “FFS ANAKIN!” this entire movie... well.. Saga.

I wonder how Jedi pick their robes because like some are very similar and then theres like a few that have darker leather stuff, it’s like there’s a jedi stylist or something.. Someone make that OC.

Amazing catch Obi.

So Obiwan is his real name but he goes by Ben later on and then Ben Solo is named after him but shouldn’t it be Obiwan Solo?

A changeling, she really is a custom character.

Yoo that Twilek wasn’t stupidly thin, I’m here for Thicc Twilek.

What species is Death Stick guy! I wanna know what he does with his life after he rethinks it

I hope it backfires and he’s like “Hey.. I could be doing so much more” and he ends up like the head of a crime family.

She didnt even change.. so much for changeling.

....she did when she died i take it back.

Damn the background Jedi are ugly.

I like how this shows that Palpatine has already begun manipulating Anakin.

Still dont understand why Jedi see the balance being a good thing when it’s leaning heavily towards the light side right now.

Anakin “IM READY FOR THE TRIALS!” .. you aint. You a moody bitch.

I like Padme’s dress.

Anakin just got warned to back down because he’s being a creep.

Omfg whats that rape face.

Dormy or whatever her name is, better actress than Padme.

Poncho! Cal approves.

WOO ITS DEX!

Jawa Juice? Ew.

Wtf is the Rishi maze?

Dex suddenly went sinister at the end, why?

Yess the librarian! She’s the best. I think she has a badass Order 66 story if im remembering correctly.

She’s very sure about her records though.. calm down lady.

“No droids” says the droid to the other droid.

So i presume the head of the Jedi Council is always the one who looks after the younglings.

Awwh the little babies and they’re all gonna get killed by Creep Vader.

Yoda is so soft, good dad figure. Best boy.

They elect queens on Naboo.. thats interesting.

I love the Jedi fighter look.

HOLD THE FUCK UP THEY DIDNT KNOW ABOUT KAMINO

THERE WAS A FUCKING LONG NECKY ALIEN ON THE JEDI COUNCIL IN EP 1..

.... some bullshit.

I should really look into Sifo Dyas

And Why are there not more Clones in Star Wars...

Other than like.. .. spoilers for.. you know what nevermind.

I DONT LIKE SAND! HE SAID THE THING

Anakin you creep

Why the fuck would Padme even lean in at all? He’s been nothing but a creep and she’s shown 0 interest in him at all so far.

The Camino people are pretty chill.

That was the first bit of actual chemistry between Padme and Anakin

Omfg the pear, fuck off.

Also forgot to comment but theres some clear like.. oohhhhhh moments im having with how order 66 got set up.

Has Padme had an outfit change again?

She’s got her sexy outfit on to turn him down.. seems right.

Her make up is a bit.. much

Sooo the force is weaker with the jedi because the light sides had it so good for so long that the force is trying to balance out and bring it back the other way, makes sense.

It’s actually his connection to his mom that brings him towards the darkside to start.. nice.

Padme trying to be inconspicuous is super conspicuous

I like that the droid said okey dokey.

YAAAAAAAAAAAAY WATTO

YAAAAY ANI SPEAKING HUTTESE

I love how Watto is happy to see Ani.

Watto doesn’t deserve the shitty life he ended up with.

Love some New Zealander up in my Star Wars.

Seismic charges have such good sound design.

Thats one hell of a missile.

Eyyyyy it’s c3p0 it’s amazing how much i’d forgot of this.

Tusken Raiders are dicks. They know sign language but they’re dicks.

Even Anakin is like “These are good people”, good. They’ll raise your son.

Is that general grevious’ voice?

What the fuck are these aliens

Awwwh noooo she waited just to die in her sons arms.

Tbf i’d go full darkside if someone tortured my mom.

You know what.. this Ani is nothing like the ones from the cartoon, he seems like less of a whiney bitch in the clone wars but we’ll see..

Cleg Lars’ hover chair is pretty dope.

Anakin got over hating Obi Wan real quick.

Even captured Obiwan is a sassy boy.

Jar Jar as badass as he is.. is basically putting the Sith Lord in charge.

So far if you dont know that palpatine is the Sith there isnt really anything obvious telling you which is pretty interesting.

Padme has had another outfit change, another iconic look.

And so behind the adventures of r2 and c3po

C3PO had a costume change, he’s been watching Padme.

The fake out they have you thinking Padme is covered in magma is pretty good

Okay then suddenly she loves him.

Also bye bye lightsaber

Genosians are pretty gross

In my head they were always the same as Toydarians for some reason

I like that bug monster, i remember killing them in one of the older battlefront games.. as maybe Aayla Sekura but maybe i made that up.

Anakin surely got the best one to fight. He basically tames it.

The fucking peck on the cheek, was that needed?

Droidekas are still cool as fuck.

Suddenly Jedi.

The Jedi that made it up to Dooku is terrible, he cant even reflect a few blaster blasts.

Well.. Jango lost his head.

The smile on that green jedi’s face is beautiful, what a beautiful alien man. Kit Fisto.

Obiwan is an icon.

Dooku is pretty reasonable all things considered.

Woo clones!

“Around the survivors, a perimiter, create.” Yoda.. just speak normally damnit.

Yoo what if Jaro Tapal shows up in the new Clone Wars cartoon season.. i’d lose my shit.

I like Dooku’s bike.

Anakin you dumb fuck.

I always thought Dooku’s curved lightsaber was weird.

Rey should have done this sick ass catching the lightning trick instead of the two lightsabers.

Jedi flips all over the place woop.

As obvious as it is that Palpatine is the hooded Sith, i feel like they dont show his full face because i feel like a little kid might not be able to tell.

I kinda like how it shows a bunch of clones (the basic start of the stormtrooper) and then star destroyers and it’s like.. heres where the empire started.

Aaaaaand they’re married? so yeah.. congrats Ani you creeped your way into being a husband.

#ooc #dan watches #dan reacts

2 notes · View notes

callie-the-snarky-geek-blog · 6 years

Text

RvB16 Episode 13 Review: A Time For Hammers

(Old Blog Repost)

After thirteen episodes, Joe is FINALLY being merciful and giving us some exposition. THANK YOU RT GODS! Okay, so we’re nearing the end here people. What awaits us next? Let us find out!

Overview

Atlus does indeed give us an exposition dump. I know that some hate exposition, but at this point it is SORELY needed. So to put it simply, in the beginning there was nothing until time expanded and then came the father of the Cosmic Powers, Chrovos. Which still relates to Greek Myth as the inspiration, Krovos, was the King of the Titans and father of Zeus, Hera, and several others. Oh, he also would eat his kids… mythology is very messed up. Chrovos, who has power over time, created the Cosmic Powers and had them enslaved to do his bidding. WELL THEN. They claim to not know what the entire plan was however, only their part in it.

The Cosmic Powers however ultimately rebelled against Chrovos and the Titans, the majority killed and the rest imprisoned. The Cosmic Powers created a labyrinth within a black hole and in the center is a treadmill that they tricked him onto. So he is walking in place forever in one spot… Joe you totally stole that from Ten Little Roosters, didn’t you? Before things go any further, Sarge interrupts to ask why Grif of all people has a sword. Because he deserved it Sarge, shut up! But yeah now everyone (except Carolina) wants one so Atlus allows it… except Caboose. He wants Genkins golf club! It is what he deserves. Wash tries to ask the Cosmic Powers if they’ll relieve his headache as well, but Atlus confirms that they can’t alter the mind directly. They exist more to alter the minds of other races. So they can create physical manifestations and external forces, but otherwise they are limited in what they can do.

Before Atlus can get away from that subject, Simmons has an ‘aha’ moment. So there’s been a lot of speculation about what the Cosmic Powers are exact;y. Are they actual Gods? Aliens? AI’s? Well Simmons finally figures it out. My friends, the Cosmic Powers are indeed AI. The Reds and Blues protection? A protective firewall that prevents that Chrovos created to keep them in check’. Their current forms? Hologram projections that Chrovos setup to have them look the part of Gods to manipulate other races. The limitations? It was what Chrovos programmed into them. That’s my boy Simmons! So yea, the COsmic Powers send Huggins and Muggins away and confirm the truth. They are indeed AI, placed into devices that look a LOOT like the one that Epsilon was put into during the Recollection Trilogy.

With that out of the way, back to the exposition. So while he’s weak, Chrovos isn’t powerless. He used his power to cause a human to create a time machine, causing a leak in time. So yeah, the time machine last season? That came to be due to Chrovos. The leak gave Chrovos enough power to zap Donut and pull him into a time where he was much stronger, manipulating him into thinking that he was God before sending him back to the present with the time guns to put his plan into motion. Oh and during this, the guys say some… rather insensitive remarks about Donut. Remember this for the end my friends.

So yeah, the Reds and Blues have damaged the blocks of time and it’s apparently too late to fix it. Chrovos now has the chance to be free and time is going to topple over. There is one hope however, and that is for the Reds and Blues to go to Chrovos directly. To do this, they have to go into the labyrinth and fight through all of the forces guarding him and use a weapon made of the same material that keeps him imprisoned: The Hammer. Huh… simple name. I like it! Anywho, The Hammer will reinforce the bindings keeping Chrovos at bay, he’ll be unable to get out again, and time will be saved! You know, if they just went to them with that in the first place instead of sicing Gus… I mean the cyclops on them, we could have avoided this…

The Cosmic Powers send the Reds and Blues to another part of Starseat to let them make a decision. Oh and he also takes the swords back… except Grif’s! My boy gets to keep it! Hooray!!! Anyways, our heroes talk their options over. Simmons suggest they just go back and stop themselves from time traveling to begin with… but Carolina beings up that doing that will likely cause a paradox like Jax already said. So yeah, that’s out. Wash tries to rally the guys to go for it, pointing out that they did their best but in the end failing is the only way that they can knwo that they sucked and get better. Time traveling is not going to do anything to make it better. All that they’ve been doing is trying to relieve quilt or avoid responsibility, but the past is the past. They have to be better now because that is what matters.

Tucker argues this a little but, saying that it’s selfish to not time travel and fix their mistakes, like say… when Wash hurt people back int he day. But Wash counters that mistakes make you who you are and when you make one, you need to fix it and grow from it. This gets at least the Reds and Caboose to agree that giving up the guns is the right thing to do and Wahs even says that he’ll be with the Rdds and Blues to fight alongside them. Aww, what a nice moment! It is so swe… something’s going to fuck it up, isn’t it?

Yep. The speech causes Carolina to feel guilty about her recent decisions and she tells Wash that no, he won’t be fighting with them. The two Freelancers argue, Carolina telling Wash that he’s disableled with him arguing against it. But Carolina finally breaks the news to him. When Wash got shot in the neck back in S15 EP17, it cut off oxygen to the brain. It was only for a few minutes, but that was enough to inflict brain damage. It is why Wash is having his memory lapses, he has a condition known as Cerebal Hypoxia, a brain injury. While the significance of the damage is still undetermined, the memory lapses alone are enough to make Carolina unwilling to let Wash fight ever again.

Wash… doesn’t take it well. He snaps. Like IDT he’s ever been this angry. He snaps at the Reds and Blues, asking if they knew. They say that thy didn’t with Carolina confirming that she kept it from everyone, so they’re just as shocked as Wash is about this. Wash calms down, but is clearly hurt that Carolina would keep something that massive a secret from him. Carolina tries to explain how she didn’t want to upset him, but Wash just walks away as she struggles to find the words. Everyone is left in shock. Even Caboose wounded more well… normal sounding than usual. Damn man, just… damn.

So how can things get worst after that? Well… remember when I mentioned the guys making those insensitive comment about Donut? Well that was ultimately the last straw for him. He takes the hammer, opening up a portal and telling the others that all that they said made his choice all the easier to make. He enters the portal, heading back to Chrovos. Well… Genkins warned us that the pink one would steal the hammer. He was not kidding…

Review

Well… we were all waiting for the plot bomb to hit… and here it is… and it has left only devastation in it’s wake.

Alright, before we dive into the last few minutes, lets talk Cosmic Gods and Chrovos. So first, THEY’RE NOT REAL GODS GUYS! THEY WERE DESIGNED THAT WAY TO MANIPULATE OTHER RACES! NO REAL MAGIC OR GOD-LIKE THINGS! THEY’RE AI. WE CAN FINAlLY PUT THAT TO REST!

Okay, got that out of my system! But yeah, the Cosmic Powers are indeed highly advanced and powerful AI, kept in a device similar to the one Church was in during Recollection. Which kudos to Joe for bringing that back in! It’s something I love about this series, it always finds ways to bring back minor or even just dumb things and make them significant. But yeah, while it does beg the question on what Chrovos is (an alien? Another AI? Something else?), it is VERY relieving to have this revelation especially since there’s been quite a few people… mixed about them being Gods to put it light;y. It’s also good that there ARE some limitations, like they can’t brainwash anyone or directly affect the brain for example. They can only manipulate things externally.

This helps make sense of a lot of things. The God theme is to cause others to worship them and obey their will. Chances are Huggins and Muggins’ species were one of those races… so it’s hard to say how well they’ll take it when/if this comes out. It makes sense they they just role with it and live up to it, it’s in their programming. Like this explains a LOOOT of things… aside form the cyclops unless there’s just an alien species that look like cyclops that exist. Which I’m not going to call impossible. Hell, that would be awesome! But yeah, this episode answered a lot but kept plenty of things open, like what Chrovos’ true reasons for making the AI were and keeps the Cosmic Powers in a… morally grey area. Like they seemed like they turned on him because he limited their power and whether they’re being honest about not knowing their creator’s true intentions is very debatable. So they’re not 100% good or trustworthy, but currently the Lesser Evil. So that’s good!

Alright, so… lets get to… Donut! Yes, I’m stalling, but it’s still important. Because this episode, as well as the past two with him in it, have done an excellent job setting up his current state. During the past 16 seasons, Donut has always been kin of the butt of the joke. Gullible. Naive. A joke with a good throwing arm who is mostly forgotten. Now tbf part of this is due to Dan Godwin not always being available so RT had to limit him, but in-canon it doesn’t help. Which kudos to Dan Godwin BTW. He nailed the hurt in Donut’s tone as he repeated the insults really well. He hasn’t really gotten to emote much as Donut outside being happy, so it is SO GOOD to hear him get to use a broader range. But yeah, while Donut is absolutely making the wrong choice here, you feel nothing but sympathy for him. Because we have seen how he’s belittled by the others, some of us for years. I’d say it’s a better version of what we got with Doc last year since this time we got to see Donut express how frustrated he was and Chrovos manipulate him into his current emotional state. Very well done.

And I can’t avoid it anymore. Lets talk about Wash. First, the good to hold it off just a tad bit longer. I really loved his speech. It speaks a lot about the theme of this season to me. The theme seems to be that no matter what you do or how you try, you can’t fix the past and you shouldn’t fix the past. The past is what shapes you into the person that you are meant to be. Instead of focusing on what you could have done or what you would do, you should focus on what you can do now. In the present. That is the time that matters. Coming from Wash after everything before, ti was so good to hear. And it’s true at least to me. Something I live by is something that Monty Oum coined before, “keep moving forward”. You can’t focus on the past, you just have to continue on. So hearing this… it really resonated with me.

But of course that all gets fucked up with Carolina choosing the WORST moment to feel bad and tell the truth. Look Carolina, I’m glad they you decided to finally tell Wash the truth, but this was the WORST possible time woman! Still yeah… Wash’s reaction was completely justified. Snapping at the others was harsh, but him being that angry? That hurt that Carolina would hide that he was brain damaged? That… that is a big deal. After everything, all the trust that they had built, Carolina both hid things from him and lied to him. Yes, it is understandable why Carolina was afraid to tell him. I feel a LOT of sympathy for her because I’ve dealt with a relative having a bad memory, and it is a terrible experience. She clearly regretted it and she sounded like she was outright trying to not cry. Jen Brown did such a fantastic job, as did Shannon McCormick with the raw emotion he had to use for Wash.

But as bad as I feel for Carolina, she made a huge mistake. She hid a serious condition away from her friend. She lied to him about the state of his condition. And then she chose to tell him during a serious situation that could decide the fate of time itself. Wash had been really happy and even fooling around before this, which makes seeing him so hurt all the more painful. Things can never be like they were before and now he’s likely going to have trust issues with Carolina. What’s going to happen now? I honestly have no idea. IDT it’s going to be resolved this season, that much I know. but yeah, it’s… it’s hard. I was about ready to cry when Carolina struggled to explain everything, especially as Wash just… walked away. It hurt.

Final Thoughts

This was an absolutely fantastic episode. The exposition was good and made sense, the humor was on point, and the emotional scenes were just… man I don’t think I have words. Joe did an excellent job writing them. Well guys, two episodes left to go. I am more uncertain of what’s going to happen than I have been all season. But I can safely say that whatever Joe is going to throw at us, I’ll be here for it.

#rvb #rvb16 #rvb reviews #old blog repost

2 notes · View notes

calliecat93 · 6 years

Text

RvB16 Episode 13 Review: A Time for Hammers

After thirteen episodes, Joe is FINALLY being merciful and giving us some exposition. THANK YOU RT GODS! Okay, so we’re nearing the end here people. What awaits us next? Let us find out!

Overview

Atlus does indeed give us an exposition dump. I know that some hate exposition, but at this point it is SORELY needed. So to put it simply, in the beginning there was nothing until time expanded and then came the father of the Cosmic Powers, Chrovos. Which still relates to Greek Myth as the inspiration, Krovos, was the King of the Titans and father of Zeus, Hera, and several others. Oh, he also would eat his kids... mythology is very messed up. Chrovos, who has power over time, created the Cosmic Powers and had them enslaved to do his bidding. WELL THEN. They claim to not know what the entire plan was however, only their part in it.

The Cosmic Powers however ultimately rebelled against Chrovos and the Titans, the majority killed and the rest imprisoned. The Cosmic Powers created a labyrinth within a black hole and in the center is a treadmill that they tricked him onto. So he is walking in place forever in one spot... Joe you totally stole that from Ten Little Roosters, didn’t you? Before things go any further, Sarge interrupts to ask why Grif of all people has a sword. Because he deserved it Sarge, shut up! But yeah now everyone (except Carolina) wants one so Atlus allows it... except Caboose. He wants Genkins golf club! It is what he deserves. Wash tries to ask the Cosmic Powers if they’ll relieve his headache as well, but Atlus confirms that they can’t alter the mind directly. They exist more to alter the minds of other races. So they can create physical manifestations and external forces, but otherwise they are limited in what they can do.

With that out of the way, back to the exposition. So while he’s weak, Chrovos isn’t powerless. He used his power to cause a human to create a time machine, causing a leak in time. So yeah, the time machine last season? That came to be due to Chrovos. The leak gave Chrovos enough power to zap Donut and pull him into a time where he was much stronger, manipulating him into thinking that he was God before sending him back to the present with the time guns to put his plan into motion. Oh and during this, the guys say some... rather insensitive remarks about Donut. Remember this for the end my friends.

So yeah, the Reds and Blues have damaged the blocks of time and it’s apparently too late to fix it. Chrovos now has the chance to be free and time is going to topple over. There is one hope however, and that is for the Reds and Blues to go to Chrovos directly. To do this, they have to go into the labyrinth and fight through all of the forces guarding him and use a weapon made of the same material that keeps him imprisoned: The Hammer. Huh... simple name. I like it! Anywho, The Hammer will reinforce the bindings keeping Chrovos at bay, he’ll be unable to get out again, and time will be saved! You know, if they just went to them with that in the first place instead of sicing Gus... I mean the cyclops on them, we could have avoided this...

The Cosmic Powers send the Reds and Blues to another part of Starseat to let them make a decision. Oh and he also takes the swords back... except Grif’s! My boy gets to keep it! Hooray!!! Anyways, our heroes talk their options over. Simmons suggest they just go back and stop themselves from time traveling to begin with... but Carolina beings up that doing that will likely cause a paradox like Jax already said. So yeah, that’s out. Wash tries to rally the guys to go for it, pointing out that they did their best but in the end failing is the only way that they can knwo that they sucked and get better. Time traveling is not going to do anything to make it better. All that they’ve been doing is trying to relieve quilt or avoid responsibility, but the past is the past. They have to be better now because that is what matters.

Tucker argues this a little but, saying that it’s selfish to not time travel and fix their mistakes, like say... when Wash hurt people back int he day. But Wash counters that mistakes make you who you are and when you make one, you need to fix it and grow from it. This gets at least the Reds and Caboose to agree that giving up the guns is the right thing to do and Wahs even says that he’ll be with the Rdds and Blues to fight alongside them. Aww, what a nice moment! It is so swe... something’s going to fuck it up, isn’t it?

Wash... doesn't take it well. He snaps. Like IDT he’s ever been this angry. He snaps at the Reds and Blues, asking if they knew. They say that thy didn’t with Carolina confirming that she kept it from everyone, so they’re just as shocked as Wash is about this. Wash calms down, but is clearly hurt that Carolina would keep something that massive a secret from him. Carolina tries to explain how she didn’t want to upset him, but Wash just walks away as she struggles to find the words. Everyone is left in shock. Even Caboose wounded more well... normal sounding than usual. Damn man, just... damn.

So how can things get worst after that? Well... remember when I mentioned the guys making those insensitive comment about Donut? Well that was ultimately the last straw for him. He takes the hammer, opening up a portal and telling the others that all that they said made his choice all the easier to make. He enters the portal, heading back to Chrovos. Well... Genkins warned us that the pink one would steal the hammer. He was not kidding...

Review

Well... we were all waiting for the plot bomb to hit... and here it is... and it has left only devastation in it’s wake.

Okay, got that out of my system! But yeah, the Cosmic Powers are indeed highly advanced and powerful AI, kept in a device similar to the one Church was in during Recollection. Which kudos to Joe for bringing that back in! It’s something I love about this series, it always finds ways to bring back minor or even just dumb things and make them significant. But yeah, while it does beg the question on what Chrovos is (an alien? Another AI? Something else?), it is VERY relieving to have this revelation especially since there’s been quite a few people... mixed about them being Gods to put it light;y. It’s also good that there ARE some limitations, like they can’t brainwash anyone or directly affect the brain for example. They can only manipulate things externally.

This helps make sense of a lot of things. The God theme is to cause others to worship them and obey their will. Chances are Huggins and Muggins’ species were one of those races... so it’s hard to say how well they’ll take it when/if this comes out. It makes sense they they just role with it and live up to it, it’s in their programming. Like this explains a LOOOT of things... aside form the cyclops unless there’s just an alien species that look like cyclops that exist. Which I’m not going to call impossible. Hell, that would be awesome! But yeah, this episode answered a lot but kept plenty of things open, like what Chrovos’ true reasons for making the AI were and keeps the Cosmic Powers in a... morally grey area. Like they seemed like they turned on him because he limited their power and whether they’re being honest about not knowing their creator’s true intentions is very debatable. So they’re not 100% good or trustworthy, but currently the Lesser Evil. So that’s good!

Alright, so... lets get to... Donut! Yes, I’m stalling, but it’s still important. Because this episode, as well as the past two with him in it, have done an excellent job setting up his current state. During the past 16 seasons, Donut has always been kin of the butt of the joke. Gullible. Naive. A joke with a good throwing arm who is mostly forgotten. Now tbf part of this is due to Dan Godwin not always being available so RT had to limit him, but in-canon it doesn't help. Which kudos to Dan Godwin BTW. He nailed the hurt in Donut’s tone as he repeated the insults really well. He hasn't really gotten to emote much as Donut outside being happy, so it is SO GOOD to hear him get to use a broader range. But yeah, while Donut is absolutely making the wrong choice here, you feel nothing but sympathy for him. Because we have seen how he’s belittled by the others, some of us for years. I’d say it’s a better version of what we got with Doc last year since this time we got to see Donut express how frustrated he was and Chrovos manipulate him into his current emotional state. Very well done.

And I can't avoid it anymore. Lets talk about Wash. First, the good to hodl it off just a tad bit longer. I really loved his speech. It speaks a lot about the theme of this season to me. The theme seems to be that no matter what you do or how you try, you can't fix the past and you shouldn’t fix the past. The past is what shapes you into the person that you are meant to be. Instead of focusing on what you could have done or what you would do, you should focus on what you can do now. In the present. That is the time that matters. Coming from Wash after everything before, ti was so good to hear. And it’s true at least to me. Something I live by is something that Monty Oum coined before, “keep moving forward”. You can’t focus on the past, you just have to continue on. So hearing this... it really resonated with me.

But of course that all gets fucked up with Carolina choosing the WORST moment to feel bad and tell the truth. Look Carolina, I’m glad they you decided to finally tell Wash the truth, but this was the WORST possible time woman! Still yeah... Wash’s reaction was completely justified. Snapping at the others was harsh, but him being that angry? That hurt that Carolina would hide that he was brain damaged? That... that is a big deal. After everything, all the trust that they had built, Carolina both hid things from him and lied to him. Yes, it is understandable why Carolina was afraid to tell him. I feel a LOT of sympathy for her because I’ve dealt with a relative having a bad memory, and it is a terrible experience. She clearly regretted it and she sounded like she was outright trying to not cry. Jen Brown did such a fantastic job, as did Shannon McCormick with the raw emotion he had to use for Wash.

But as bad as I feel for Carolina, she made a huge mistake. She hid a serious condition away from her friend. She lied to him about the state of his condition. And then she chose to tell him during a serious situation that could decide the fate of time itself. Wash had been really happy and even fooling around before this, which makes seeing him so hurt all the more painful. Things can never be like they were before and now he’s likely going to have trust issues with Carolina. What’s going to happen now? I honestly have no idea. IDT it’s going to be resolved this season, that much I know. but yeah, it’s... it’s hard. I was about ready to cry when Carolina struggled to explain everything, especially as Wash just... walked away. It hurt.

Final Thoughts

This was an absolutely fantastic episode. The exposition was good and made sense, the humor was on point, and the emotional scenes were just... man I don’t think I have words. Joe did an excellent job writing them. Well guys, two episodes left to go. I am more uncertain of what’s going to happen than I have been all season. But I can safely say that whatever Joe is going to throw at us, I’ll be here for it.

#rvb #rvb16 #rvb16 spoilers #rvb reviews

20 notes · View notes

stress-bob · 5 years

Text

HERE WE GO

Ok. Worked out, cleaned my room, paid credit card payment, paid rent, posted my probably-wont-make-progress-but-maybe progress picture, and smoked a bowl. My body is ready.

So I was talking about what happened around the time Dea and I broke up recently with a friend, and made me think that it’s been awhile since i’ve sorted through it. Figured why not put as much as I can remember down ~a year and a half later.

Buckle up buttercup,This gonna be looooooooong.

My order of things might be a little muddled, there was a lot going on at the same time.

So let’s back up to before we actually broke up!

For about a year prior I was getting real stressed out about my job. I was in a customer service position working for her Dad actually. He owned a Diesel shop, and had a Company owner in Italy who he was buddies with. Marco (italy guy), asked him to set up a place in the US to service his customer base.

I was going to college at the time, and decided I didn’t want to pass up a really interesting opportunity. I’m mostly glad I did. Anyway, I dropped out to work full time here and ended up making some good money. Most of what I did was answer phone calls and help people solve issues (99.9% of the time they caused) . At some point we started going to trade shows, and that was super super fun. I would fly out, set up a pop up tent and the whole shebang.

I was also sent to Mexico two different times for something similar. Except this one, it was with our distributor who was huge. They took their top 100 dealers on a “land cruise” (used to be an actual one, but they do resorts now), and about 25 manufacturers would pay ~20k to fund and attend this. During 3 of the 6 days, the 100 dealers would be set up at tables or 5. Basically think of speed dating. We’d each go around and give a 30 minute pitch about our product to these guys, answer questions, etc. I believe it was 4-5 hours each of the 3 days. You’d think an introvert like me would have a hard time with that, but it was actually a BLAST.

So what was the issue with the job?

Two big things. Dea’s dad (Rip), and a co worker of mine. I worked with a buddy of mine Adam, and he was fantastic. But we had this other co worker who was an old hick from Idaho (buddy of Rip’s) who was to handle our forum and some online stuff. For most of the time I worked with him it was fine. At some point he got really nasty. We had our own forum going on, and a buddy of his helped set it up for us. There were a lot of stupid things that happened surrounding that.

So eventually he’s outright hurling insults at me basically daily on the private side of this form (for a WHILE), and Rip wouldn’t do shit about it. On top of that, Rip had his own shitshow of a shop to run on top of it, and he’s old and tired. But he wouldn’t really give us the autonomy we needed so we could prioritize and get things done with what we had. We can’t be expected to try to learn fucking SEO while answering calls, updating the website, doing sales etc etc infinity fucking etc. Too much do be done with two people, and it was all expected to be done.

Eventually I was donezos, sent him a longwinded 2000 word email about exactly what I had problems with and why i was leaving (prob still have it).

So during the culmination of my work bullshit, that’s when Dea and I’s problems are starting to come to a crossroad. To be completely fair with myself, this was a long time coming. Tbh not sure exactly how long, but it probably should have been over before this went down.

We’ve always had communication problems. I think fundamentally we just don’t understand each-other well. Sure we both could have pointed out a lot of habits and what each would have done in certain situations, things we liked. But that’s not really the type of understanding i’m talking about.

The first time I realized something might happen is when she asked me about how I felt about polyamory. It’s something I had thought about before, because other women are definitely attractive. But with how long we’d been together, I knew it would bring up a lot of really jealous feelings that wouldn’t be pretty. So when she asked, I answered pretty matter-of-factly that it wasn’t going to work for me.

Looking back she was watching a lot of shows about poly life around this time, fun tidbit.

I wouldn’t say this answer upset her necessarily....but she was clearly idk, put off? Maybe disappointed.

IIRC she eventually asked again, and my answer remained the same. I think this was what spurred the discussion of “I don’t know if this what I want”. I did know what I wanted. She didn’t. What else can I do but wait until she does figure it out? I’m not that type of person that’s going to try and influence her. I could have tried to convince her she would be happy if she stayed or some bullshit. I loved her, and if not being with me is the way it needs to be? Them’s the breaks. I was also so SO tired emotionally. I had nothing left to give at that point.

So she breaks up with me. I think I left to walk to 7-11 at this point, because I needed a break. I don’t actually remember that well. I wasn’t around her right then, regardless. Maybe we were in our room when we broke up. Anyway Not that long after she breaks up with me(5 mins, half hour?), she’s crying and didn’t want to break up.

And of course I didn’t either. That lasted about a month, and she does it for real. Now here’s where the fun stuff started!

Sometime before or shortly after this I found out my Mom has an autoimmune disease that will kill her sooner or later. It’s very possible this is what her contributed to her mom dying when I was 8. So scary stuff yeah?

I quit my job, because FUCK that noise. It was too much.

I stayed living in the same house, but different room. Big mistake. I trusted her ability to communicate too much. Not that mine was stellar (we’ll get into this).

My parents divorce. Which hey, go be happy Mom! Again, sorry Dad, them’s the breaks. Happened to me to not even a month prior. But no, they both decided to be giant shitters. I think my Mom definitely did worse things to him, and to the family. He definitely said some nasty shit too though.

My mom decides to encourage my dad to go visit some family in Ohio (maybe he was thinking about it already? he reconnected with them recently at this point). By the time he comes back, she has a “friend” staying in the house. I feel like she said he was just staying for a while. Well my dad aint dumb, and this is the guy that has been in love with my mom forever, apparently.

She lied to the family a bunch, introduced my sisters kid to Frank even though she SPECIFICALLY told her not to. Her fucking kid’s grandparents split up. Shes like 7 for fucks sake. My sister was LIVID. Like didn’t let my mom see her granddaughter for many months livid. It’s hard to get that trust back. On top of lying to my sister plenty etc etc. I don’t even want to get into frank right now.

I also had about 9 grand saved up at this point, and decided to not work for awhile and take care of my mental state. I literally could not work anymore after the breakup, and my parents bullshit. Another side note, but a root canal decided to cost me $1500 out of pocket a few months in. Probably like $2k total with the other stuff. Great timing, life. I think I was doing a “staycation” for like, 8 months? ish?

So here I was, jobless (had $$ tho tbf), freshly broken up with, super fucking depressed, stuck in the middle of my parents bullshit when i don’t even have enough for myself (and i’m a grown ass fucking adult too)[[, and just generally lost. Really really lost.

I just remembered. Something that made me pretty angry at the time (guess what leads to resentment?). Very shortly after we broke up, Jordan (the good friend he is), decides to try and set up a guys night for me at john’s house (jordan lived with karis at this point). Of course the bros say “hell yeah!” as they are wonderful. We invite Dex too, because why not?

The time rolls around, Jordan can’t go. Dex does show up at some point. Here’s what happened: Dea was really hurt because people were all getting together to make me feel better, i guess? I don’t remember the wording but....i think she felt like nobody was being her friend in that moment I guess? It was her home alone. And for context we got together every saturday for years pretty much, so I do kinda get it. She was also actually pretty mad at Dex because he showed up. She didn’t invite ANYBODY to do anything. So Jordan had to stay with Karis to comfort her, basically.

Like dude. YOU broke up with me. I get it was also really hard for you too, but put the shoe on the other foot for a goddamned second and consider how I felt in all this. Also consider I didn’t set any of this up. Also consider that you didn’t tell anybody that you needed a friend. I did. Don’t get mad at us for this, fuck.

Here’s where the “this-is-why-i-shoulda-moved-out” happens.

Let me say this up front. I expected Dea to bring back dates. This was definitely part of the deal of still living there. I get it. And I did figure she will be comfortable finding someone sooner, given the poly thing.

She brought someone over about 2 months after we broke up, and had mentioned nothing about this.

Now how this played out, was the night before she says “Hey i’m gonna have a friend over tomorrow”. I just say ok. Didn’t really matter because I didn’t have anywhere I could just go on moments notice like that. Coupla days to figure it out woulda been nice, thanks.

Turns out, it’s a dude that been over before. He was Taylors husband (they were poly before they split) who was at our holloween party like half a year before. To top it off, I got to hear the wonderful sounds of them having sex down the hall. Fucking thanks for that. Happened twice too.

You just shut down yeah? Or maybe that’s just me. How am I supposed to feel 2 months after breaking up a 9 year, third of my fucking life relationship, and within 2 months you’re banging a dude while i’m like 2 rooms over AND CAN HEAR YOU. And a dude that’s been over before for the cherry. FUCK man. I still get a little animated about that one.

Those were the big things. A great way to wrap up the whole burrito though? Dex and I were both given 1 months notice to leave from Rip. MY understanding of the local law was that 2 months is required if you’ve been month to month for more than 1 year (6 years...). He didn’t care, or knew I wouldn’t lawyer up. Whatever. The last and final fuck you was the day I went to get the rest of my shit. BEFORE the time on the notice, the locks were changed. Here I am, at 8 in the morning with a U haul we rented, and we can’t get in the house to get my stuff. What. The. Flying. Fuck.

I sure as shit wasn’t going to talk to Dea at ALL at this point, so I called him and he came down. And he sat there the entire time waiting for us and doing bills. Jesus fuck dude. Like, you think i’m gonna murder your daughter or something ffs?

I think I got most of it. I’ve got some stuff with my current living situation, but it’s really peanuts compared to everything else. I‘m also like, idk fairly happy right now too in general so. I’ve grown a lot, and that gives me some comfort.

0 notes