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#tbd im so very tired and achy and weepy today dont mind me
lupismaris
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#nothing makes me truly reaffirm my commitment to being poly like the day after a rugby match
#i love my bf. i love them wholly and truly for who they are. i dont want them to change outside of healing. y'know that being the best you.
#but i dont want them to be someone else. so the fact theyre not a coddling caregiver isnt something I'm ever going to change in them.
#they bring me coffee and check in on me and set reminders for my meds and tell me when they have to leave for errands with mum
#but they always have to see to other responsibilities because they are that person.
#and I love them for that. i love them for being a dutiful son and a pragmatic foreman who prepares for the week.
#what does this have to do with polyam james you may ask? well ill tell you-
#im learning as i have been for a while now
#that as i am a chief caregiver for many ppl in my life including bf and now the ruggers (im a board member)
#i deeply deeply DEEPLY want/need care when im in crisis or at a low point and theres no low point quite like post match
#when your systems are coming down from adrenaline and everything fuckin hurts like hell and whats worse you're injured
#im not good at being taken care of i acknowledge that. but to be coddled and handled with care rn?
#have someone to sit with me and make me food and eat with me and help me stay tethered and hold me a bit and smoke with me
#idk not even in a sex sense just to be held and cared for
#thats why poly am is a thing for me. i love my partners and I dont want to change them i dont want to force all this on them
#certain needs can be met by certain ppl in certain ways etc but love is love it is always love its just shown differently
#as i was writing this bf called to say he was bringing home nonalc beer for me. i know he loves me. i know he cares. it's just different.
#tbd im so very tired and achy and weepy today dont mind me
#the match was great for the squad but im not thrilled with myself
#hence wanting to curl up in a hole and not come out
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