#taylor swift x sjm

[ennawrite]

Castle’s Crumbling by Taylor Swift is so Aelin Galythinius (specifically in Empire of Storms) coded

[rhysiedarling]

BABE WAKE UP, A NEW FEYSAND FAVOURITE FANART JUST DROPPED 📣📣📣💥💥💥💥

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[onewaywardwitch]

who’s afraid of little old me is the nesta archeron anthem

[infiniteetcetera]

ACOTAR COUPLES X TAYLOR SWIFT SONGS

Bc I feel like there is much overlap in these fan bases and bc I can🤧 I tried to include most ships to be inclusive but I fear the ones I don’t like suffered (Nessians beware) ANYWAY:

Feyre X Rhysand

✨High Infidelity

[🎶Do I really have to chart the constellations in his eyes? Do I really have to tell you how he brought me back to life🎶]

✨You Are In Love

[🎶One night he wakes, strange look on his face. Pauses then says, “you’re my best friend,” and you knew what it was, he is in love.”🎶]

✨Invisible String (no one is surprised)

[🎶Time curious time cutting me open then healing me fine. Were there clues I didn’t see? And isn’t it just so pretty to think all along there was some invisible string tying you to me🎶]

✨The Tortured Poets Department (a song about such a pretentious man can’t not be dedicated to Rhys)

[🎶Sometimes I wonder if you’re gonna screw this up with me, but you told Lucy you’d kill yourself if I ever leave, and I had said that to Jack about you so I felt seen. Everyone who knows us knows why it’s meant to be, because we’re crazy🎶]

Feyre X Tamlin

✨Loml (goes both ways tbh)

[🎶Talking rings and talking cradles, I wish I could unrecall how we almost had it all. Dancing phantoms on the terrace are they second hand embarrassed that I can’t get out of bed cause something counterfeits dead🎶]

✨You’re Losing Me

[🎶And I wouldn’t marry me either, a pathological people pleaser who only wanted you to see her, and i’m fading thinking “Do something baby, say something”🎶]

✨Getaway Car

[🎶We were flying but we’d never get far. Don’t pretend it’s such a mystery think about the place where you first met me🎶]

✨Exile

[🎶We always walked a very thin line. You didn’t even hear me out. You never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs)🎶]

Nesta X Cassian

✨So it goes…

[🎶Cut me to pieces, gold cage hostage to my feelings. Back against the wall, tripping when you’re gone. Cause we break down a little but when you get me alone it’s so simple. 🎶]

✨Mr. Perfectly Fine

[🎶Mr. Every single day until the end I will be by your side, but that was when I got to know Mr. change of heart. Mr. leaves me all alone, I fall apart. It takes everything in me just to get up each day but it’s wonderful to see that you’re okay🎶]

✨Say Don’t Go

[🎶Whyd you have to make me want you? Why’d you have to give me nothing back? Why’d you have to make me love you? I said “I love you” you say nothing back 👀👀👀 🎶]

✨So Long, London

[🎶 you say I abandoned the ship, but I was going down with it, my white knuckled dying grip holding tight to your quiet resentment. and my friends said it isn’t right to be scared every day of a love affair. Every breath feels like the rarest air when you’re not sure if he wants to be there🎶]

Elain X Lucien

✨Cowboy Like Me

[🎶Hustling for the good life, never thought I’d meet you here, and it could be love. We could be the way forward and I know I’ll pay for it🎶]

✨The Lakes

[🎶Take me to the lakes where all the poets went to die, I don’t belong and my beloved neither do you. Those Windermere peaks look like the perfect place to cry. I’m setting off but not without my muse, not without you🎶]

✨Afterglow

[🎶I lived like an island, punished you with silence. Went off like sirens just crying. Why’d I have to break what I loved so much? It’s on your face, don’t walk away🎶]

✨ The Very First Night

[🎶I never go alone, and I don’t seem broken hearted, and my friends all say they know everything i’m going through. I drive down different roads, but they all lead back to you🎶]

Elain X Azriel

✨Guilty as Sin? (obviously, you’re not slick Sarah)

[🎶Crashing into him tonight, he’s a paradox. I’m seeing visions, am I bad? or mad? or wise? What if he’s written “mine” on my upper thigh only in my mind. One slip and falling back into the hedge maze. Oh what a way to die🎶]

✨Ivy

[🎶My pain fits in the palm of your freezing hand, taking mine but it’s been promised to another. Oh, I can’t stop you putting roots in my dream land. My house of stone, your ivy grows, now i’m covered in you🎶]

✨Cardigan

[🎶You drew stars around my scars but now i’m bleeding. Cause I knew you, stepping on the last train marked me like a bloodstain. I knew you, tried to change the ending Peter losing Wendy🎶]

✨Wildest Dreams

[🎶I said “no one has to know what we do” his hands are in my hair, his clothes are in my room. And his voice is a familiar sound. Nothing lasts forever, but this is getting good now. He’s so tall and handsome as hell. He’s so bad but he does it so well . and when we’ve had our very last kiss, my last request it is…🎶]

Gwyn X Azriel

✨So High School (i FEEL this one)

[🎶 Cheeks pink in the twinkling light, tell me about the first time you saw me. I’ll drink what you think and i’m high from smoking your jokes all damn night. The brink of a wrinkle in time, bittersweet sixteen suddenly🎶]

✨ Delicate

[🎶Sometimes when I look into your eyes, I pretend you’re mine all the damn time. Is it cool that I said all that? Is it chill that you’re in my head? Cause I know that it’s delicate🎶]

✨Sweet Nothing

[🎶They say the end is coming. Everyone is up to something. I found myself running home to your sweet nothing. Outside they’re push and shoving, you’re in the kitchen humming. All that you’ve ever wanted from me was nothing🎶]

✨All of the Girls you’ve Loved Before

[🎶Your mother brought you up loyal and kind. Teenage love taught you there’s good in goodbye. Every woman that you knew brought you here, I want to teach you how forever feels🎶]

Nesta X Eris

✨The 1 (like, please😔)

[🎶If my wishes came true, it would have been you. In my defense I have none for never leaving well enough alone. But it would have been fun if you would have been the one🎶]

✨Peace

[🎶I never had the courage of my convictions as long as danger is near. And it’s just around the corner darling, cause it lives in me. No, I could never give you peace. But i’m a fire, and i’ll keep your brittle heart warm, if your cascade ocean wave blues come🎶]

✨Dancing with Our Hands Tied

[🎶You said there was nothing in the world that could stop us, I had a bad feeling. I knew there was no one in the world who could take it, I had a bad feeling. But we were dancing, dancing with our hands tied. Dancing like it was the first time🎶]

✨Enchanted

[🎶Your eyes whispered have we met. Across the room your silhouette starts to make its way to me. The playful conversation starts, counter all your quick remarks like passing notes in secrecy, and it was enchanting to meet you🎶]

Nesta X Azriel (let me have this🙄)

✨Slut!

[🎶Everyone wants him that was my crime, the wrong place at the right time, and I break down and he’s pulling me in. In a world of boys he’s a gentleman🎶]

✨Gorgeous

[🎶You should think about the consequence of your magnetic field being a little too strong. And I got a boyfriend, he’s older than us. He’s in the club doing I don’t know what. You’re so cool, it makes me hate you so much🎶]

✨Seven

[🎶Ive been meaning to tell you, I think your house is haunted. Your dad is always mad and that must be why. I think you should come live with me and we can be pirates, then you won’t have to cry🎶]

✨Begin Again

[🎶You pull my chair out and help me in. You don’t know how nice that is, but I do. And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid. I think it’s strange you think i’m funny cause he never did🎶]

Kallias and Viviane (i love them🤧)

✨Mary’s Song

[🎶I was seven and you were nine. I looked at you like the stars that shines in the sky, the pretty lights. And our daddies used to joke about the two of us, growing up and falling in love. and our mamas smiled and rolled their eyes🎶]

✨Timeless

[🎶And somehow I know that you and I would have found each other, in another life you still would have turned my head. Even if we’d met on a crowded street in 1944 and you were headed off to fight in the war, you still would have been mine we would have been timeless🎶]

✨The Alchemy

[🎶Cheers chanting cause they said there was no chance trying to be the greatest in the league. where’s the trophy? He just comes running over to me🎶]

✨Lover

[🎶Theres a dazzling haze a mysterious way about you dear. Have I know you twenty seconds or twenty years? Can I go where you go? Can we always be this close? Forever and ever🎶]

[tato-acm]

domingo - 01. 10. 2023

Lovable mezzo-sopranos 🩵🎵

The fact that SJM has always loved Taylor Swift - and now her son is obsessed with her too (that’s so freaking cute 🤏🥹✨mini swiftie)

"Taran is obsessed with Taylor Swift. Aren't we all?" "I've always loved her. I think she's an incredible creator and like businesswoman and I have so much respect for her." “But now that Taran is obsessed with her- like, we've only listened to her music in the car. That's it, like all summer long."

I also love TS and I LOVE that SJM made Gwyn a mezzo-soprano too so that I can imagine Gwyn singing every time I listen to a Taylor Swift song 🥹🩵

my favorite mezzo-sopranos 🥰🙌

acosf - chapter 52

Gwyn’s playlist (mezzo-soprano artists - mostly TS 😌)

[lainalit]

One phrase from a Taylor Swift song that captures each Acotar couple perfectly for me

Feysand

And you got your share of secrets And I'm tired of being last to know And now you're asking me to listen Cause it's worked each time before

You're not sorry

Nessian

You knew it still hurts underneath my scars From when they pulled me apart But what you did was just as dark

hoax

Elucien

You think I either moved on or hate you 'Cause each time you reach out there's no reply I bet It never ever occurred to you That I can't say "Hello" to you And risk another goodbye

I almost do

Gwynriel

I'm still trying everything to get you laughing [at me] I'm still a believer but I don't know why I've never been a natural All I do is try, try, try

Mirrorball

Feylin

You turned into your worst fears And you're tossing out blame, drunk on this pain Crossing out the good years

My tears riochet

Jassa

And all we are is skin and bone Trained to get along Forever going with the flow But you're friction

Treacherous

[xxvalkyriesxx]

Elucien as Taylor Swift songs:

A Perfectly Good Heart

Mary’s Song

Today was a Fairytale

Don’t You

Mine

Timeless

Stay Stay Stay

Come Back Be Here

How You Get The Girl

I Know Places

End Game

King of my Heart

Lover

Paper Rings

Mirrorball

Hoax

‘Tis the Damn Season

Right Where You Left Me

Sweet Nothing

Paris

The Prophecy

The Bolter

[chelsea-lat3ly]

I just picture Rhys at the beginning of ACOMAF singing this in the townhouse in Velaris while Feyre’s in the Spring Court.

[hope-and-insanity]

Every song from TTPD fits Celestaxia (or Celestina and/or Hypaxia as individuals) SO WELL, like did Taylor read Crescent City??

"The who's who of who's that is poised for the attack"

"The scandal was contained, the bullet had just grazed" "You wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me"

AND THAT'S JUST WHO'S AFRAID OF LITTLE OLD ME??

We have the WHOLE GODDAMN CHORUS OF I CAN DO IT WITH A BROKEN HEART.

THE ENTIRETY OF CASSANDRA (If you read into it a bit).

The chorus of But Daddy I Love Him (*her*) is so fucking Celestina coded. I mean, are you kidding me, "Now I'm running with my dress unbuttoned" um hello PAGE 645 ANYONE. And "I'm having his baby, no I'm not but you should see your faces". LIKE. WHAT THE HEL IS ALL THIS FANFIC INSPO TAYLOR.

Anyways, excuse me while I fanboy, I will be going on more rants in the future on the parallels between Taylor Swift songs and Celestaxia like it or not. But TTPD in particular is so them.

[autumnshighlady]

This Is Me Trying

Cassian x Nesta

summary: It's been a few months since Nesta and Cassian have made things official, but things have only gotten worse for Nesta.

warnings: ANGST! slight inner circle slander, no happy ending, not super pro-Nessian

word count: 2.8k

a/n: this fic is based on 'This Is Me Trying' by Taylor Swift, also spot the Grey's Anatomy quote hehe. This fic is basically me working out my own relationship issues haha, so it was pretty emotional to write because I'm basically Nesta in this situation and it's rough. But I also truly think this is a more realistic version of Nessian than the one sjm tried to shove down out throats in ACOSF.

DO NOT REPOST ANYWHERE

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Nesta sighed as Cassian’s arm squeezed around her shoulders, squishing her farther into him than humanly possible. He belted out a laugh at whatever Mor had said, a deafening noise next to Nesta’s ear. His touch felt like acid on her skin, and all she wanted to do was get away from it.

Nesta had been trying her hardest to communicate her feelings with Cassian, she truly had. But it was hard – everything she said seemed to leave his brain the second he was around the Inner Circle, like they were now. Nesta was at one end of the couch with Cassian to her right, and Elain on Cassian’s left. Feyre was sitting on an armchair across from them with Nyx in her arms, in Rhys’s lap, while Mor and Amren were perched on cushions by the fireplace. Azriel was sitting a bit behind Rhys and Feyre on a stool, quietly observing the scene. A couple hours ago, Nesta had pulled Cassian aside and explained that she was having an overwhelming day, and requested he not touch her for the night. She couldn’t explain why she felt that way – she tried, and nothing came out. All she wanted was some physical space from Cassian’s presence. The male had sworn he understood, and said he would give her space.

That had lasted all of 20 minutes into the evening before he slung his arm over her shoulders and pulled her body into his. He had failed to notice how Nesta froze, rather than relaxing into his touch as usual. She knew it wasn’t malicious, that he wasn’t deliberately ignoring her request. He had just simply… forgot. 

And this wasn’t the first time she felt suffocated and trapped by Cassian. Guilt plagued her, knowing he truly didn’t mean to do it, he was just trying to show his affection. For a while, Nesta thought that the Cauldron had mated them under the premise of opposites attract. Cassian was extroverted and wore his heart on his sleeve, easily making friends and jumping into any conversation or group. Nesta was an introvert, preferring to mask everything she felt, both good and bad. She did not have that confident ease about her, nor did she feel inclined to befriend everyone she met or chat their ear off. She was perfectly content to be more like Azriel, sitting and observing rather than participating. 

But maybe there was such a thing as people being too opposite for it to work out.

Nesta had felt like she was drowning in the Cauldron all over again, slowly being backed into a corner and suffocating under Cassian’s constant presence and need for her attention. Now that they were officially together, he was everywhere. Cassian had lightened his duties in Illyria to spend more time with Nesta, which only made it worse. At first she had found it sweet, but as the weeks passed it became more irritating.

Cassian was supposed to love her. Surely, someone who loved her would be able to understand her enough to know that this wasn’t what she wanted? He was always trying to find different things to do with Nesta, and it was beginning to get overwhelming. It hurt her heart to see how enthusiastic he was, how badly he wanted to make her happy. She was disgusted with herself for not feeling the same, for wanting to fight and pull away.

Her youngest sister’s voice brought her attention back. “Do you have anything to add, Nesta?”

Nesta blinked, not having heard a word of what was said. “To what?”

Feyre sighed. “We were just talking about building another home for me, Rhys, and Nyx in the mountains, since you and Cassian basically live at the House of Wind now. What do you think?”

The room was tense, everyone frozen as they awaited Nesta’s reply. If she was in a better mood, she would have chuckled inwardly. No matter what she did, no matter how many times she proved herself to them, the Inner Circle would always see her as a rabid monster waiting for a chance to lash out. Perhaps if it were another day she’d entertain them, just to show that she hadn’t lost her bite. But she had no energy today. “Sounds like a great idea.” She said simply.

Everyone visibly relaxed, relieved that Nesta hadn’t made a snide comment about how many houses Feyre and Rhys had, even though she wanted to. Cassian patted her arm proudly, as if to say look how much more docile and well-mannered she is now, thanks to me. Realistically, Nesta knew that wasn’t actually what he was thinking, but it sure felt like it. Only Feyre gave her a strange look, as if she could sense something wrong. 

“So, Nesta,” Rhys said smoothly. “Cassian tells me you’ve gotten pretty good in the sparring ring.”

Nesta’s mouth was dry, the hot air from the room closing in on her. “I’ve improved, yes.” She managed a reply, earning another squeeze from Cassian that tightened her throat even more.

She hadn’t wanted to be touched at all tonight, yet he was doing it anyway without even thinking.

“It’s been a while since I’ve practiced, you could probably give me a run for my money.” The High Lord chuckled, taking a sip of wine.

Again, everyone anxiously waited for Nesta to challenge him, to cause a scene and ruin the evening for the group. It made her feel physically sick, how she felt like she was drowning all over again and not only had Cassian not noticed, but the Inner Circle seemed to like her better this way – a shell of the female she was before, a quieter version.

“I think Rhys is challenging you, sweetheart.” Cassian chuckled. “Go on, go kick his sorry ass.”

“I’ll pass, thanks.” Nesta said quietly, but it was too late. Mor and Amren had stood up, moving over to where Azriel sat in the back to clear the space on the large rug by the fireplace. Feyre had climbed off Rhys’s lap, too, taking Nyx with her and handing her to Elain as she joined everyone over by Azriel. 

Rhys down the rest of his wine and stood up, pushing his chair back and wiping invisible dust off his sleeves. “Come on, Nesta. Show me what you got.”

The room began to close in on Nesta even more, the air stifling and catching in her throat like sandpaper.

“It’s fine, really.” Nesta insisted, but was interrupted by Cassian gently shoving her to her feet.

“My girl is gonna make you eat dirt, brother.” Cassian said as he pushed Nesta up onto her unsteady feet.

More cheers from the females by Azriel began to sound up, all urging Nesta to show off her skills. It should have felt endearing, and she should have felt more excited at the opportunity to punch her annoying brother-in-law in his face. But all she could feel was suffocation, like she was back in front of her mother’s cruel gaze being forced to perform for people that did not care for her. An object, a plaything to be used to entertain others then put back in its box when they were done with her.

“No.” Nesta’s voice was barely above a whisper, unheard amongst the loud cheers.

“Nesta, Nesta, Nesta!” Feyre and Elain chanted from the background, egging her on. But she was frozen, arms slack at her sides.

“Come on, Nes!” Cassian barked playfully. “You’re acting like I haven’t taught you anything. Come on, do it for me–”

“I said NO.” Nesta snapped, her sharp voice silencing the room as she whirled around to face Cassian. He stared at her, eyes wide with shock.

“It’s all in good fun,” He said, brows furrowed in confusion. “He won’t actually hurt you. Besides, when else are you going to get the chance to–”

Nesta cut him off, her anger bubbling over the surface like a volcano that had waited centuries to finally erupt. “What part of the word ‘no’ suddenly means ‘convince me’?” She demanded.

Nobody said a word. Disappointment was written all over Cassian’s face. Amren snorted in the background, her whisper pointedly loud as she said, “I guess some people will never change, even after being spat out by the Cauldron.”

Tears burned in Nesta’s eyes, but she refused to let them see. Wordlessly, she stormed past everyone, making her way to the door of the river house. She hadn’t even made three steps out into the street before it opened up again behind her, heavy footsteps crunching in the snow.

“What the fuck, Nesta?” Cassian demanded, grabbing her arm and pulling her back. 

“Let go of me.” She spat, trying to rip her arm from his grip. But he only held on tighter.

“We were having fun, what’s wrong with you?”

“Cassian, let go of my arm right fucking NOW.”

The male glared at her, but obliged. Nesta yanked her arm back to her side, rubbing the now sore area. Annoyance seeped from the male as he ran a hand through his hair. “The night was going well,” He grumbled. “It was all going well until you made a scene. For once in your life, Nesta, can’t you just try?”

“This IS me trying!” Nesta shouted, his words stabbing her harder than any knife could. After everything she had opened up to Cassian about, how could he not see that she was trying her best? That she was trying to make him happy by going along with his obscure date ideas, putting on a happy face being dragged to dinner with the Inner Circle even though they basically locked her up after the war? 

“Well you’re not trying hard enough!” Cassian’s words hit her like a truck. The tears she had been fighting to keep back began to stream down her cheeks like icicles in the frozen wind. “Fuck, I’ve tried to hard to convince my family to give you a chance after how you treated them. I’ve gone out out of my way to make you happy, and this is what you fucking do? We all try so hard for you, and you won’t try at all.”

Nesta couldn’t stop herself from flinching at his words. Her brain screamed at her to yell back at Cassian, to bring out those claws she spent the last few months trying to rid herself of. But she couldn’t. She was exhausted, tired of pretending to be as happy as Cassian was. It sucked the life out of her, chipping at her away piece by piece until she felt empty inside. Her old self would be ashamed of how submissive she had become.

Cassian sighed, rubbing his face, and taking a step towards Nesta. He held his hands out to hold her. “Nesta, I’m so sorry–”

He stopped speaking when Nesta took a step back, shying from his touch. His hazel eyes were filled with hurt and confusion, and she sighed. “Cassian,” She said slowly. “Did you not remember how I asked you not to touch me tonight?” 

The Illyrian’s brow furrowed in confusion, then softened as the realization dawned on him. “Is that what this is about?”

Nesta sighed, another tear rolling down her cheek. “Not just that–”

He interrupted her. “I completely forgot, Nes I’m so sorry. Why didn’t you just tell me to fuck off?”

“Because I shouldn’t have to. You should have remembered to respect my basic wishes. You don’t listen to me, Cassian. You hear me, but you don’t listen.”

Cassian sat down on the steps by the door, wings drooping in sadness. But she felt no pity for him, only anger. He was the one who didn’t listen to her when she asked not to be touched, who ignored her when she protested sparring with Rhys, but he was somehow the victim too? It made her blood sing with anger. “I tell you not to touch me because I’m having a bad day, and you pull me into your lap like a dog,” She continued icily. “I tell you I don’t want to do something, and instead of respecting that, you try to force me to do it for everyone’s entertainment. You know damn well that Rhys has never liked me, and how he meant it when he threatened to kill me a few months ago. And yet you pushed me to try and fight him anyways.”

Cassian stared at the frozen ground. Nesta could practically feel his confusion, a raging sea of emotions written all over his face. The wind blew his hair into his face, a sight that Nesta would have found beautiful once. But now it only filled her with sadness. She had bent herself backwards trying to become ‘worthy’ of Cassian in his and his family’s eyes, cursing herself alone at night and thinking she was the problem. Cassian was an objectively good male – loving, affectionate, good in the bedroom. Any female would be lucky to have him, so why wasn’t Nesta happy?

The answer had been deep down inside her, trying to claw its way to the surface, begging for Nesta to acknowledge it. And then it washed over her one day – everyone was quick to assume that she was the one at fault in the relationship, not Cassian. And somewhere along the way, she had convinced herself of that too, pushing down her gut feelings for the sake of trying to make it work with the general. She knew that her words shot to kill when she was mad, and she often couldn’t stop them no matter how much regret they filled her with. But when Cassian had come along, she learned to hold her tongue, to push back those claws inside her. The issue was that in the process of doing so, Nesta had begun holding her tongue more often than needed, bearing the facade of a female submitting to her mate just like everyone wanted. 

Nesta had finally been de-clawed, Cassian wearing her talons around his neck like a trophy. She felt like an open wound at every party, her former self slowly oozing out of the gaps in flesh Cassian had clawed from her. And the worst part was, everyone liked her better this way. But she felt the opposite of better, she felt suffocated and empty.

“I understand you are trying to push me out of my comfort zone,” Nesta continued through tears, swallowing the thick lump in her throat. “And I appreciate it because sometimes that is needed. But you’ve pushed too hard, Cassian.”

“I only wanted what was best for you.” Cassian said dully.

She scoffed. “And how would you know what’s best for me when you never asked me? What, you just assume because we’re together you have some sort of decision-making capacity over me? That you have any idea what’s going through my head, what I’m feeling, or even what I want?”

Cassian stood up, taking a step towards Nesta. She stepped back again, wanting to keep the space between them and not caring about the hurt that flashed across Cassian’s face. “I know you, Nes.” He said softly. “And I love you.”

“No, you don’t.” The wet spots on her cheeks began to freeze over in the cold wind. “You love the idea of me. You love being with me, having me by your side. But you don’t truly know me, Cassian. And you don’t truly love me. You just think you do.”

The hurt swimming in Cassian’s eyes churned into anger. “You’re kidding, right? So you mean the past five months we’ve spent together have been nothing? That I truly didn’t get to know you at all in that time?”

“You’re 500 years older than me, Cassian. Five months is a blink of an eye in your lifetime. So no, you didn’t truly get to know me in that time.”

Cassian scoffed bitterly, shaking his head. But Nesta continued. “The only reason you think you got to know me was because others forced us into each other’s proximity. I did not come to spend time with you on my own free will. And I was isolated from everyone and everything, except for you. In that time, Cassian you… you took something from me. You took little pieces of me - little pieces over time, so small I didn't even notice. You wanted me to be something I wasn't, and I made myself into what you wanted. And I let you, because I thought I could make you happy that way. But it will never happen again. I am done changing who I am to make myself ‘worthy’ of you.”

Nesta turned around, not waiting to hear his response as she strode down the snow covered cobblestone. There was no towering presence following after her, much to her relief. She did not go back to the River House, or in the direction of the House of Wind. Truthfully, Nesta had no clue where she was going, only that she was done letting herself fall apart to please people who would never love her for who she truly is.

[certifieddorianandcassiansimp]

SJM ships/relationships x Taylor Swift songs

it’s been a while since I’ve actually posted something and not reblogged it, so I’m using this idea I’ve seen around.

starting with ACOTAR

Feysand: Enchanted from Speak Now. Feylin: I Knew you were Trouble Nessian: You Belong With Me (but Cassian is singing)

Neris: Look What You Made Me Do

Azris: Dancing with our Hands Tied

Elriel: Happiness

Gwynriel: The 1

Ilucien 🤢: Bad Blood

Elucien: Out of the Woods

(I think that’s all of them..)

ToG

Samleana: Last Kiss

Corian: Cowboy Like Me (just with a happy platonic ending)

Chaleana: Picture to Burn

Rowaelin: End Game

Sorcain: Illicit Affairs

Manorian: The Great War

Lysaedion: Call it What You Want

Elorcan: Cardigan

Chaorene: New Year’s Day

Nestaq: Love Story

(my brain is mush at this point)

not going to do Crescent City because I’m a bit salty with that series rn

[somewhere-in-the-rain]

Hi, if you’re seeing this you probably have an unhealthy obsession with fictional characters. Yeah, me too.

My fandoms (and where I stand on discourse)

The Empyrean: I adored Fourth Wing and I enjoyed Iron Flame. I support every decision Violet Sorrengail has ever made. If you did not like this book, then this is not the blog for you.

ACOTAR: I am pro Feysand, Inner Circle and Gwynriel. I’m neutral on Nesta. Fallen out of love with this series recently because of the toxic fandom and my views on SJM.

Crescent City: Bryce is dead to me after HOFAS.

Throne of Glass: SJM’s best series, argue with the wall. Read the Assassin’s Blade third and do not skip Tower of Dawn.

Also: Shatter Me, Red Queen, Caraval/OUABH, Grishaverse, The Bridge Kingdom, The Folk of the Air, The Hunger Games, The Inheritance Games, Ali Hazelwood, A Good Girl’s Guide to Murder, His Dark Materials, Emily Henry, Divergent, Lynn Painter, Truly Devious, Taylor Jenkins Reid

Taylor Swift, Halsey, Olivia Rodrigo, Bastille, Maisie Peters, Gracie Abrams, Sabrina Carpenter, Hamilton

Bridgerton, Downton Abbey, Friends, How I Met Your Mother, Brooklyn 99, New Girl, Maxton Hall, The Witcher, Merlin, The Vampire Diaries

Marvel, Star Wars

About me

I am a lover of toast, Greek tragedies, dogs, and overthinking every situation. I have been reading fantasy longer than I can remember.

I like to write really long posts about tiny details in fantasy books, probably because I took GCSE English Lit too seriously.

I am chronically online and enjoy laughing at the shouty people on Twitter (I have never once called that app X and I am not about to start now).

My messy sideblog: @allthewrongshit

Incorrect quotes: @stupidlybookish

Find me on ao3: lostinthehaze

Mildly interesting posts

The Empyrean as shitposts

Gender equality in the Empyrean series

Overprotective Xaden

Xaden’s letters

Please feel free to send me random asks; if you’ve been following my blog for a while you will know I love to give my opinion on things.

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[starryhiraeth]

I’m so excited for your taylor swift x sjm characters 😭😭💞💞💞💞 especially the tog ones!!

Thank you!! 💕💕

Honestly same , there is not enough tog on this app!

I love comments like this, thank you sm!!☺️☺️

[fawnandshadows]

Miss Swift did not write

Sometimes I wonder when you sleep / Are you ever dreaming of me? / Sometimes when I look into your eyes / I pretend you're mine, all the damn time

And

I'm yours to keep / And I'm yours to lose / You know I'm not a bad girl, but I / Do bad things with you

And

You've ruined my life by not being mine

And

And you should think about the consequence / Of you touching my hand in a darkened room

And

And all at once, you are the one I have been waiting for / King of my heart, body and soul / And all at once, you are all I want, I'll never let you go

And

Your love is a secret I'm hoping, dreaming, dying to keep

And

Picture of your face in an invisible locket / You said there was nothing in the world that could stop it / I had a bad feeling / And darling, you had turned my bed into a sacred oasis / People started talking, putting us through our paces / I knew there was no one in the world who could take it

And

I, I loved you in spite of / Deep fears that the world would divide us

And

Our secret moments in a crowded room / They got no idea about me and you / There is an indentation in the shape of you / Made your mark on me, a golden tattoo / All of this silence and patience, pining and anticipation / My hands are shaking from holding back from you

And

Even in my worst times, you could see the best in me / Flashback to my mistakes / My rebounds, my earthquakes / Even in my worst lies, you saw the truth in me

For it to not be about Elriel

[hoodwinkd1]

Afterglow is really Nessian’s song HUH

I blew things out of proportion, now you're blue, put you in jail for something you didn’t do - Nesta hated all things Fae after the Cauldron

I pinned your hands behind your back, oh, thought I had reason to attack, but no - Cassian rly had to come at her every time she BREATHED.

hey, it's all me, in my head, I'm the one who burned us down - silver flames and nightmares say heyyy

just don't go, meet me in the afterglow - something about this line screams “I’ll find you in the next life”

I lived like an island, punished you with silence - literally she punished him with silence. also by fuc— nvm.

tell me that you're still mine, tell me that we'll be just fine - it’s giving mating bond <3

tell me that it's not my fault, tell me that I'm all you want, even when I break your heart - we all know Nesta is shit at hiding how much she wants him EVEN when she’s mad as hell

I need to say, hey, it's all me, just don't go, meet me in the afterglow - one more time for good measure: I WILL FIND YOU IN THE NEXT WORLD, IN THE NEXT LIFE !!!!! AND WE WILL HAVE THAT TIME !!!!!

thanks for listening to my ACOTAR x Taylor rants

[shadowsingwyn]

✨✨ I like the way SJM left the expression “a thing of secret, lovely beauty” floating around — implied — when it comes to Gwynriel. It is like she is saying to us “It is going to be something good, pure, mysterious and sweet at the same time.” There’s something more there. Something that resides inside. Something that shines minimally, but it is still there... buried deep inside them both, just waiting to be dug up.

I feel relief when I think of this. Because Gwyn and Az went through a lot... and to think their relationship is about to be something beautiful indeed... Although they had experienced the ugliest side of life. Wow, I can help it! I’m already smiling! 🙃

They both went through the dark. And I believe they will find the light together. Cause, to me, this is what “a thing of secret and lovely beauty” means! A kind of love which is growing quietly, stepping out of the nighttime, and moving into the daylight.

Something sparkling. Gleaming. Twinkling. As my queen Taylor Swift says in Gold Rush lyrics. I can see Emorie in this song, but honestly... I think it was made to Gwynriel. It reminds a lot of them. Her song Daylight is another one that matches perfectly with all that I’ve said up there. So I’m letting the links here for you all to listen to it and analyze the meaning and how we can see our otp in it. I love these songs and I hope you feel the same way that I do 🥰