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shawnxstyles · 3 years ago

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princess’s orders

DATE: JANUARY 23, 2022

summary: tom is a bodyguard who protects the king and his daughter. he is new and young, something that you’ve never seen before. behind the scenes, you two develop a secret friendship that is desperate to be something more. on the night of your birthday, forbidden feelings are admitted and stars are seen. even though you can’t be together for the future, that can’t stop you from living in the present.

song: Enchanted- by miss taylor alison swift :D

warnings: SMUT (f- receiving [fingering], slight nipple play, and protected sex! yay!) and fluff. NOT edited.

words: 3.9k

requested: yes!

note: i literally know nothing about star generals or anything like that, so i changed it up a bit. also, i’m writing for tom!! are y’all proud of me😍 bodyguard!tom x princess!reader

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“Well, you look just lovely, darling,” Some lady of high importance compliments you. You nod and give her a twinkling smile, the one full of kindness and innocence. However, nothing about you was purely kind or innocent.

“You know, your father is quite fine himself,” You nearly rolled your eyes at that. But you know it’s highly disrespectful, so you did it mentally. Every woman has been trying to make themselves your new step-mom since yours has passed. It’s been two years now, but it never gets old. They don’t actually care about you, or your father, only the inheritance that will make them royal. If they did, they would’ve wished you a happy birthday. Everyone is materialistic and it’s maddening how no one’s ever heard of feelings.

Except for one person. One man that seemed to care about you. As if the graces were calling out to you, he approaches you suddenly to save you.

“Miss, I have to steal her for a moment. King’s orders,” He smiles charmingly as he places a hand on your lower back, ushering you through the crowd. You release a breath of relief, thankful for his timing.

FLASHBACK

You weren’t happy that you had to be woken up at six A.M. Your father insisted that you be there when the new guards came. Why? It barely had anything to do with you.

As you trudged down the long stairs in your nightgown, you knew your father would be upset that you didn’t get dressed. You couldn’t care. Obviously, you weren’t a morning person.

“Y/N, great of you to join us,” Your father says with slight bitterness at your tardiness. You mumble something rude that you didn’t want him to hear before standing next to him.

“Now, why aren’t you dressed, young lady? That doesn’t make a good impression,” He whispers through his teeth beside you and you roll your eyes. You, again, didn’t care. Crossing your arms, you let each guard introduce themselves. They had to do this every time there was a new guard, which you found idiotic. But you could also just be grumpy.

“And the newest addition is Tom,” You decided to pay attention to him just because you didn’t know him and you wanted to be a little respectful.

“I’m Tom Holland. I’m twenty years old and I’m from London,” It was simple. He seemed simple. Except for the fact that he was young. Really young. You had just turned seventeen barely a week ago and rarely saw anyone that was even close to your age. You were instantly intrigued.

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You didn’t leave your room often because it was your safe space. The palace was too big and it overwhelmed you. However when you did, you did it with purpose. That purpose being to see Tom.

You had seen him around your house for the past few months and you swear your heart skipped an extra beat each time. Every time you left your room, you made sure you had a stylish outfit on. Totally for yourself, not for him.

When you would go outside of the palace, you needed to bring a guard with you. You’d always pick Tom. Sometimes, you would go outside unnecessarily just so you two could be alone. Well, never fully alone.

You weren’t much of a talker, but when it came to him, you were. You talked a lot more with him because you wanted him to get to know you. He didn’t respond much at first, but when he did it was clear and professional.

After a particularly bad day for you, he knocked on your door. You thought he was your unruly and difficult father, but you were proved wrong when Tom came in hesitantly. He most likely wasn’t supposed to be in your room by his own request, which made your heart race even more than when he entered. You sniffled and hid your face quickly with your hands, afraid of him seeing you cry.

“Are you okay? I couldn’t help but ask,” He asked worryingly, standing almost completely in your room.

“I- uh- yeah. I’m grand,” Your father was an insatiable man, wanting the most out of everyone, especially you. You had to be just perfect for him or he would flip a ship.

“I’m serious. Your father isn’t… the easiest to please.”

“That’s true,” You wanted to keep talking to him, but you were embarrassed. You didn’t really have anyone else to talk to and he knew how your dad really acted behind closed doors.

“I don’t know what he wants from me,” You open up, closing your eyes in frustration. To be even more dramatic, you fall flat on the bed. Tom peeks out in the hall before completely coming into your bedroom and shutting the door. He walks toward you and sits on the bench in front of your bed. “He wants me to be… everything.”

“I think,” Tom inserts and you roll over to look at him, “you want to be perfect. For him.”

That makes you ponder for a second. You feel as if you have to be perfect because you’re the princess, the next queen. Maybe you were putting all this pressure on yourself that wasn’t really there. So every time he asked you to do something, it seemed too much.

“I hate when people are right.”

“The truth hurts sometimes, Miss,”

“Ugh, please don’t call me Miss, it makes me sound like I’m forty. I’m seventeen!”

“Sorry, I didn't want to be disrespectful. You could get me fired if you wanted to,” He nodded looking at you with raised eyebrows. You smiled at him, liking his playfulness.

“You know, I don’t have many friends.”

“I figured, you’re cooped up in here all day—”

“Hey! I get out! You out of all people should know. You’re always with me,” You blushed a bit, sitting up on your elbows. All your tears were far behind you now and you were immersed in this conversation with him. It carried on for a while, until he realized he should probably go. You frowned, but wished him a goodnight as he quietly opened and closed the door.

That was the first of many times he had snuck into your room.

END OF FLASHBACK

“Oh my, thank you! I cannot stand these women,” You glance around the large ballroom, few men and many women in fancy outfits. All in hopes of catching your father’s elegant eye “you always know when to save me.”

“That’s my job, isn’t it?” It’s true. It was his job. Tom had sworn to protect the king and his family from any danger. He’d only been here for about a year, but you’ve kindled a secret friendship behind the scenes.

Tom treated you differently than other people did. He was kind and respectful, like everyone appeared to be, but he meant it. You could see it in his heart and eyes that he did. He was also able to humor you without being afraid of punishment. And God, was he good at it. He could make you laugh until you cried and cheeks sore from smiling. He was a delectable man and it was impossible to not like him.

You joked around with him just as much. Calling him silly nicknames and making fun of his height. He always acted so offended, but laughed just as much. Even though your friendship was tight, you couldn’t help but wish that it was more. You want that relationship just like that. And you worry that if he doesn’t feel the same, you’ll never find that with anyone else.

“Let’s go to the garden, please?” You eyed your surroundings, noticing how distant the crowd was from you. You placed a hand on his firm, clothed chest with begging eyes. You wanted so desperately to ditch this scene. He knew he would get in trouble if you weren’t seen in the ballroom, and you’d get in trouble if you weren’t accompanying the guests. However, when he stared into your eyes for that moment when time seemed to stop, he couldn’t reject you.

“You’re lucky I like you. I wouldn’t risk the trouble for anyone else,” Your heart skipped a beat at that. Like meant more than friendship to you, but you knew that’s all it was to Tom. It couldn’t be greater than that even if it did mean more to him. Also, you were the only person he’d get in trouble for? That made you feel beyond special. Your father wasn’t the most accommodating person.

Tom scanned the premise before guiding you outside with a soft hand on your back. After a few minutes, you were refreshed by the chilly, evening air.

“Ah,” You inhaled the peace and exhaled the stress of being the king’s daughter. “it’s nice and quiet out here.”

“That it is,” Tom responded with a small smile on his face. He was about a foot away from you, clearly keeping his distance for some reason. It saddened you that maybe he did want more with you, but knew it wasn’t right. He was beyond loyal and you loved that, but hated it too.

You both waltzed over to a bench seated in the middle of the garden, hidden behind a large bush.

“Tom?” You turned your head to him after both sitting down. He sat on the edge of the bench on the farthest side. Curiosity filled your head while cravings filled your heart.

“Yes?” He stares straight, but can’t help peeking over at your sparkling eyes in the bright moonlight. He moved his eyes down to his leather shoes in the neatly placed gravel.

“Do you think if we had met in a different way, things would be different?” You questioned, as his head turned completely to stare at you. His upset expression makes you wonder if he’s thought about it before.

“Yes, I think things would,” Tom stops talking, almost forcing himself to. He has more on his mind, but is refusing to say it. Things could mean a lot of things, but clearly you were thinking the same things. Romantic things. Future things. Love things.

“Why can’t things be like that? Why do we have to hide how we feel because of who we are?” You bluntly stated. Your heart was beating a million miles an hour. You couldn’t look at him, your eyes were looking straight down at your icy fingers trembling. Tom gently grabs your hands and rubs them with his warm ones. The action makes you look up at him with hope.

“I don’t want to hide how I feel. I like you, Y/N. So much. But we both know your father wouldn’t approve,” Your father wants you to date a prince, somewhere far away from here. A monotone, stiff man who wouldn’t please you in any way. “we can’t stop the arranged marriage.”

You feared he would say that. However, you realized that Tom liked you. Tom liked you. A lot. It made you smile greatly, even with the knowledge that you can’t be together. You wanted to kiss him hard and tell him that you two can get through anything together. Even if you didn’t know how.

“Maybe just for a while? Can we be together just for a while?” There was pleading in your voice, as you got closer to him. You were eighteen as of tonight, so the announcement for the marriage shouldn’t be too far from now. You would take any time you got to be with Tom.

Your faces got close, really close. Tom’s forehead was now resting upon yours, your nose nearly brushing each other. Every possibility is swirling through his mind, you can see it.

“Okay. Yes. We’re going to have the best secret relationship,” He breathed against your lips, a large smile upon them. He takes your lips in his and your world’s collide. Your mind becomes blurry and your skin rises with goosebumps. Each tingle from his lips on yours feel like tiny fireworks, representing everything you’ve both resisted for so long.

You release from each other to catch a breath. Your hands rest on the warm nape of his neck. Your foreheads were still touching and his red nose was nudging yours now.

“Best present I’ve ever had.”

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“We’re not done, yet, darling,”

Is what he said before dragging you through the hallways, trying to find your bedroom. You were huffing and puffing from not only trying to keep up, but anticipation and excitement. Everything about this was new to you; the running, the heart racing, the fear and not caring, the heat from being with him and the cold from being away from him, and the feelings.

However, keeping secrets wasn’t that new to you. You had lost your virginity over a year ago, and you were able to keep it a secret for many years. You met a boy at a ballroom party and you wanted to ‘get it over with’. It wasn’t the best, but how would you know? It was your first time. And it was clearly his too.

Your hand felt hot tangled between Tom’s. The grip he held on you was insanity in itself. Finally, he found your door and twisted the handle to get it open. He ushered you inside and slowly shut the door. He had to make sure it didn’t make any sound. You walked over to your mattress and sat on the edge of it. He locked the door and followed you.

“I’ve wanted this for so long, Y/N.”

“Well, now you have it,” You pointed up and down at yourself and a smile springs upon his lips. He moves closer to you and encases your lips again. This time, it’s warmer and more passionate. Tom gently pushes you back on the bed, your dress spreading out perfectly.

His lips leave your mouth and you almost whine, but then you feel them going lower. Each kiss he placed on your bare neck was full of thoughtfulness and care. He went right behind your ear, your sweet spot, and sucked just the tiniest bit. It had you going crazy. You moaned out as he whispered in your ear.

“I want to make you feel good. Do you want that?” He whispered so seductively, as you grabbed onto his clothed shoulders tightly.

“Yes. Yes, just please do something,” You felt a smirk on your skin as he began to go lower again. He hastily removed your corset with skill, throwing it off the bed. His fingertips brushed your dress strap and he looked up at you one more time for approval. You nodded your head rapidly, hoping he would stop being such a tease. He gently removes the straps from your shoulders and discards the dress on the floor neatly.

Even when he was blinded by lust, he was still considerate. That’s the man you want.

He eyed your bare chest with hungry eyes. Tom gave you no time to even think about being insecure before he went to suck on your left nipple. A loud moan emitted from mouth instantly, causing you to squeeze his biceps.

“Tom,” You whined, desperate for more. “I need more.”

He tweaked your opposite nipple a little before going lower and lower again. He peels off your soaked panties slowly but surely. Tom spreads your legs with his rough palms, so he could see all of you. Your pussy gushed with wetness that was all from and for him. You were so precious to Tom; all he wanted to do was protect you. He was made to protect you.

“Needy girl,” He nearly growled looking at you. You looked perfect to him; more than he could’ve imagined you would be. He rubbed the insides of your thighs, teasing you even more. After a string of desperate whines, Tom finally brought his thumb to your clit.

You gasped loudly, your breath getting caught in your throat. He rubbed you faster and faster and then inserted his middle finger in you. He leaned forward to suck on your nipple again and your body was trembling. Your stomach was tight and your toes were curling. He twists his middle finger, itching that spot inside of you that almost makes you cry in bliss.

“Almost there. Please, Tom,” You cried out, fingers clutching on his suit jacket tightly. He rubbed you harshly and pumped another finger in you fiercely as your breathing became more unstable. He unexpectedly removed his mouth from your breast and kissed you incredibly hard. The sweet kiss mixed with the sinful act is what made you come. The coil in your stomach bursts and you clench around his fingers intensely.

Before you even attempt to breathe normally again, you’re reaching for Tom’s jacket, tearing it off of him. He unbuttons his white shirt quickly, not wasting any time. You don’t know when people will notice you're gone, but it shouldn’t be long. You have a limited amount of time to do this right. You didn’t want to rush this, but you don’t want to get caught either.

He yanks off his belt and you unzip his pants for him. You wanted to tease him, like he did you, but he pushed you back onto the bed with your head above your head. His grip was gentle and his demeanor was playful.

“I don’t like being teased, darling.”

“That’s not fair! You teased me the whole time.”

“Yeah, but you liked it, didn’t you, baby?” You felt embarrassment flood through your body as you turned to look away from him. He takes one of his hands and moves your face with your chin.

“Don’t be shy now. I’m not done, yet,” With that, he discards his suit pants and boxers. You peek at him for a second and see how big he is. You always had a feeling he would be big, but God, he was huge. Scarlet tip, slightly veiny around his length, leaking delicious pre-cum. You wanted to take him in your mouth, even if you didn’t have much experience. You whimpered just looking at him— not knowing what to expect.

“I-I don’t have any condoms—” But before he could even get upset, you were crawling away from him to your bedside table— where you hid a box of condoms. You snatch one and tore it open, quickly rolling it on his length.

“Problem solved,” You smiled widely while he chuckled at how adorable you are. He brushes his thumb over your cheek before kissing you, softly, but with eagerness. You were loving this— the tenderness and the gentleman he was being. But you wanted a little more than soft kisses. Yes, you knew you were always a little greedy.

“Please fuck me, Tom,” He moans against your mouth, sending a vibration through you. He brings his hand from your cheek and straight down to your clit again. You gasped, biting your lip to silence yourself.

“Always greedy.”

“Tom, please, I’m begging—” You didn’t get to finish your sentence because he entered you abruptly. He stretched you out so good, your eyes rolled to the back of your head. You wanted to scream so badly and Tom knew this, so he lifted a hand to cover your mouth. You bit your lip as well, nearly drawing your own blood.

As he thrusted slowly inside of you, you couldn’t help but rock your hips against his. You felt him everywhere— his cock was hitting a spot so deep inside, you could feel every inch of him. The swifter he went, the more your back arched up from the mattress.

Tom skillfully lifted your leg to get a different angle and thrusted into you even harder. You clenched around him and he moaned beside your ear. You clawed his muscular bicep as you moaned into his hand cupping your face. That moan was hot, and God, if that didn’t make you more aroused. He slowly removed his hand and brought it down in between you two. He harshly rubbed your clit, exceeding you to your high.

“Feels so good. Please don’t stop,” You praised in a whimper. You lifted your hand to his sweaty head and tangled your fingers in his hair. With a slight tug, his thrusts became sloppier and you both were incredibly close. You felt the familiar bubble inside of your stomach ready to explode in pleasure.

“Come, Y/N. C’mon be a good girl,” You nearly screamed his name while letting go completely. He rocked into you for a few more seconds before you felt him release inside of the condom. You didn’t know how badly you wanted to be good for him until then.

Tom rolls beside you, both of you panting tirely. You shut your eyes already trying to relive the bliss that occurred seconds ago. A huge smile takes up the space on your face and thoughts of Tom flood your mind. You were too distracted to even notice he had gotten up from the bed until you saw him with his boxers on and in front of you, wiping you clean.

“You didn’t have to,” You blush as you sit up on your elbows.

“‘Course I do. I made the mess, didn’t I?”

“Oh shut up!” You turn away in embarrassment, hiding under a blanket. You hear a hardy laugh come from Tom and a few creaking drawers closing and opening. He tosses new panties on the edge of the bed.

“As much as I love you being naked, you need to get dressed. They’re probably on a hunt for the lost princess.”

“What is this? Tangled? Does that make you Flynn Rider?” You grab the undergarment and slip it on. As you stand from the bed, you step into your dress and pull the straps over your shoulders. You pick up your corset and wrap it around your torso. You stand in front of your large full-body mirror attached to the wall.

“I guess so,” Tom smiles as he assists you with your corset, clipping each attachment before tying it. You observe the two of you in the mirror. It’s wholesome. It’s pure. It’s domestic. It’s real. You love it. Is this what happiness is? Loving someone that makes you a better you?

Wait. Love? Do you love Tom?

Before you could ponder on your thoughts and feelings anymore, you hear two loud banging knocks on your door. You both stare at each with wide eyes before you usher Tom into your walk in closet. You turn off the light and tell him to be quiet. The lock breaks as the door bursts open and three, immense guards come in. Tom is definitely the shortest out of the guards here.

“Miss, where have you been? The king is looking for you,” One of the three say in concern.

“I took a nap. The beauty needs her sleep,” You lie smoothly, flattening out your hair with a few pats. “After all, it’s my birthday.”

“But Miss—”

“Some privacy, please? Princess’s orders,” You demand with a stern eye. All three of them inhale annoyed before exiting your room. You hated bossing people around, but sometimes it came in handy. After a few minutes when you believe they’re gone, you flicker the light back on in the closet.

“‘Princess’s orders’. That was pretty hot,” Tom smirks, brushing your hair out of your face. You roll your eyes, smiling goofily.

“Oh, stop it. Finish getting dressed before they remember seeing that jacket on the floor,” You shove him out of the closet. He raises his eyebrows as another smirk lifts on his face. Tom attempted to kiss you, but you moved your face away, so he kissed your cheek.

“Princess’s orders,” You demand with a smile on your face.

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IM SO SORRY FOR THE WAIT BYE

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everwisteria · 2 years ago

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Dr. Taylor Alison Swift (Full NYU speech)

Hi, I'm Taylor!

Last time I was in a stadium this size, I was dancing in heels and wearing a glittery leotard. This outfit is much more comfortable.

I’d like to say a huge thank you to NYU‘s Chairman of the Board of Trustees, Bill Berkeley and all the trustees and members of the board, NYU’s President Andrew Hamilton, Provost Katherine Fleming, and the faculty and alumni here today who have made this day possible. I feel so proud to share this day with my fellow honorees Susan Hockfield and Felix Matos Rodriguez, who humble me with the ways they improve our world with their work. As for me, I’m 90% sure the main reason I’m here is because I have a song called ‘22’. And let me just say, I am elated to be here with you today as we celebrate and graduate New York University’s Class of 2022.

Not a single one of us here today has done it alone. We are each a patchwork quilt of those who have loved us, those who have believed in our futures, those who showed us empathy and kindness or told us the truth even when it wasn’t easy to hear. Those who told us we could do it when there was absolutely no proof of that. Someone read stories to you and taught you to dream and offered up some moral code of right and wrong for you to try and live by. Someone tried their best to explain every concept in this insanely complex world to the child that was you, as you asked a bazillion questions like ‘how does the moon work?’ and ‘why can we eat salad but not grass?’ And maybe they didn’t do it perfectly. No one ever can. Maybe they aren’t with us anymore, and in that case I hope you’ll remember them today. If they are here in this stadium, I hope you’ll find your own way to express your gratitude for all the steps and missteps that have led us to this common destination.

I know that words are supposed to be my ‘thing’, but I will never be able to find the words to thank my mom and my dad, and my brother, Austin, for the sacrifices they made every day so that I could go from singing in coffee houses to standing up here with you all today because no words would ever be enough. To all the incredible parents, family members, mentors, teachers, allies, friends and loved ones here today who have supported these students in their pursuit of educational enrichment, let me say to you now: Welcome to New York. It’s been waiting for you.

I’d like to thank NYU for making me, technically, on paper at least, a doctor. Not the type of doctor you would want around in the case of an emergency, unless your specific emergency was that you desperately needed to hear a song with a catchy hook and an intensely cathartic bridge section. Or if your emergency was that you needed a person who can name over 50 breeds of cats in one minute.

I never got to have the normal college experience, per se. I went to public high school until tenth grade and finished my education doing homeschool work on the floors of airport terminals. Then I went out on the road for a radio tour, which sounds incredibly glamorous but in reality it consisted of a rental car, motels, and my mom and I pretending to have loud mother daughter fights with each other during boarding so no one would want the empty seat between us on Southwest.

As a kid, I always thought I would go away to college, imagining the posters I’d hang on the wall of my freshmen dorm. I even said the ending of my music video for my song “Love Story” at my fantasy imaginary college, where I meet a male model reading a book on the grass and with one single glance, we realize we had been in love in our past lives. Which is exactly what you guys all experienced at some point in the last 4 years, right?

But I, really can’t complain about not having a normal college experience to you because you went to NYU during a global pandemic, being essentially locked into your dorms and having to do classes over Zoom. Everyone in college during normal times stresses about test scores, but on top of that you also had to pass like a thousand COVID tests. I imagine the idea of a normal college experience was all you wanted too. But in this case you and I both learned that you don’t always get all the things in the bag that you selected from the menu in the delivery service, that is life. You get what you get. And as I would like to say to you wholeheartedly, you should be very proud of what you’ve done with it. Today you leave New York University and then go out into the world searching for what’s next. And so will I.

So as a rule, I try not to give anyone unsolicited advice unless they ask for it. I’ll go into this more later. I guess I have been officially solicited in this situation, to impart whatever wisdom I might have to tell you things that have helped me, so far, in my life. Please bear in mind that I, in no way, feel qualified to tell you what to do. You’ve worked and struggled and sacrificed and studied and dreamed your way here today and so, you know what you’re doing. You’ll do things differently than I did them and for different reasons.

So I won’t tell you what to do because no one likes that. I will, however, give you some life hacks I wish I knew when I was starting out my dreams of a career, and navigating life, love, pressure, choices, shame, hope and friendship.

The first of which is -- life can be heavy, especially if you try to carry it all at once. Part of growing up and moving into new chapters of your life is about catch and release. What I mean by that is, knowing what things to keep, and what things to release. You can’t carry all things, all grudges, all updates on your ex, all enviable promotions your school bully got at the hedge fund his uncle started. Decide what is yours to hold and let the rest go. Oftentimes the good things in your life are lighter anyway, so there’s more room for them. One toxic relationship can outweigh so many wonderful, simple joys. You get to pick what your life has time and room for. Be discerning.

Secondly, learn to live alongside cringe. No matter how hard you try to avoid being cringe, you will look back on your life and cringe retrospectively. Cringe is unavoidable over a lifetime. Even the term ‘cringe’ might someday be deemed ‘cringe.’

I promise you, you’re probably doing or wearing something right now that you will look back on later and find revolting and hilarious. You can’t avoid it, so don’t try to. For example, I had a phase where, for the entirety of 2012, I dressed like a 1950s housewife. But you know what? I was having fun. Trends and phases are fun. Looking back and laughing is fun.

And while we’re talking about things that make us squirm but really shouldn’t, I’d like to say that I’m a big advocate for not hiding your enthusiasm for things. It seems to me that there is a false stigma around eagerness in our culture of ‘unbothered ambivalence.’ This outlook perpetuates the idea that it’s not cool to ‘want it.’ That people who don’t try hard are fundamentally more chic than people who do. And I wouldn’t know because I have been a lot of things but I’ve never been an expert on ��chic.’ But I’m the one who’s up here so you have to listen to me when I say this: "Never be ashamed of trying. Effortlessness is a myth." The people who wanted it the least were the ones I wanted to date and be friends with in high school. The people who want it most are the people I now hire to work for my company.

I started writing songs when I was twelve and since then, it’s been the compass guiding my life, and in turn, my life guided my writing. Everything I do is just an extension of my writing, whether it’s directing videos or a short film, creating the visuals for a tour, or standing on stage performing. Everything is connected by my love of the craft, the thrill of working through ideas and narrowing them down and polishing it all up in the end. Editing. Waking up in the middle of the night and throwing out the old idea because you just thought of a newer, better one. A plot device that ties the whole thing together. There’s a reason they call it a hook. Sometimes a string of words just ensnares me and I can’t focus on anything until it’s been recorded or written down.

As a songwriter I’ve never been able to sit still, or stay in one creative place for too long. I’ve made and released 11 albums and in the process, I’ve switched genres from country to pop to alternative to folk and this might sound like a very songwriter-centric line of discussion but in a way, I really do think we are all writers. And most of us write in a different voice for different situations. You write differently in your Instagram stories than you do your senior thesis. You send a different type of email to your boss than you do your best friend from home. We are all literary chameleons and I think it’s fascinating. It’s just a continuation of the idea that we are so many things, all the time. And I know it can be really overwhelming figuring out who to be, and when. Who you are now and how to act in order to get where you want to go. I have some good news: It’s totally up to you. I also have some terrifying news: It’s totally up to you.

I said to you earlier that I don’t ever offer advice unless someone asks me for it, and now I’ll tell you why. As a person who started my very public career at the age of 15, it came with a price. And that price was years of unsolicited advice. Being the youngest person in every room for over a decade meant that I was constantly being issued warnings from older members of the music industry, the media, interviewers, executives. And this advice often presented itself as thinly veiled warnings. See, I was a teenager at a time when our society was absolutely obsessed with the idea of having perfect young female role models. It felt like every interview I did included slight barbs by the interviewer about me one day ‘running off the rails.’ and that meant a different thing to every person said it me. So I became a young adult while being fed the message that if I didn’t make any mistakes, all the children of America would grow up to be perfect angels. However, if I did slip up, the entire earth would fall off its axis and it would be entirely my fault and I would go to pop star jail forever and ever. It was all centered around the idea that mistakes equal failure and ultimately, the loss of any chance at a happy or rewarding life. -- This has not been my experience. My experience has been that my mistakes led to the best things in my life.

And being embarrassed when you mess up is part of the human experience. Getting back up, dusting yourself off and seeing who still wants to hang out with you afterward and laugh about it? That’s a gift.

The times I was told no or wasn’t included, wasn’t chosen, didn’t win, didn’t make the cut, looking back, it really feels like those moments were as important, if not more crucial, than the moments I was told ‘yes.’

Not being invited to the parties and sleepovers in my hometown made me feel hopelessly lonely, but because I felt alone, I would sit in my room and write the songs that would get me a ticket somewhere else. Having label executives in Nashville tell me that only 35-year-old housewives listen to country music and there was no place for a 13-year-old on their roster made me cry in the car on the way home. But then I’d post my songs on my MySpace and yes, MySpace, and I would message with other teenagers like me who loved country music, but just didn’t have anyone singing from their perspective. Having journalists write in-depth, oftentimes critical, pieces about who they perceive me to be made me feel like I was living in some weird simulation, but it also made me look inward to learn about who I actually am. Having the world treat my love life like a spectator sport in which I lose every single game was not a great way to date in my teens and twenties, but it taught me to protect my private life fiercely. Being publicly humiliated over and over again at a young age was excruciatingly painful but it forced me to devalue the ridiculous notion of minute by minute, ever fluctuating social relevance and likability. Getting canceled on the internet and nearly losing my career gave me an excellent knowledge of all the types of wine.

I know I sound like a consummate optimist, but I’m really not. I lose perspective all the time. Sometimes everything just feels completely pointless. I know the pressure of living your life through the lens of perfectionism. And I know that I’m talking to a group of perfectionists because you are here today graduating from NYU. So this may be hard for you to hear: In your life, you will inevitably misspeak, trust the wrong person, under-react, overreact, hurt the people who didn’t deserve it, overthink, not think at all, self sabotage, create a reality where only your experience exists, ruin perfectly good moments for yourself and others, deny any wrongdoing, not take the steps to make it right, feel very guilty, let the guilt eat at you, hit rock bottom, finally address the pain you caused, try to do better next time, rinse, repeat. And I’m not gonna lie, these mistakes will cause you to lose things.

I’m trying to tell you that losing things doesn’t just mean losing. A lot of the time, when we lose things, we gain things too.

Now you leave the structure and framework of school and chart your own path. Every choice you make leads to the next choice which leads to the next, and I know it’s hard to know, which path to take. There will be times in life where you need to stand up for yourself. Times when the right thing is actually to back down and apologize. Times when the right thing is to fight, times when the right thing is to turn and run. Times to hold on with all you have and times to let go with grace. Sometimes the right thing to do is to throw out the old schools of thought in the name of progress and reform. Sometimes the right thing to do is to sit and listen to the wisdom of those who have come before us. How will you know what the right choice is in these crucial moments? You won’t.

How do I give advice to this many people about their life choices? I won’t.

The scary news is: You’re on your own now.

But the Cool news is: You’re on your own now!

I leave you with this: We are led by our gut instincts, our intuition, our desires and fears, our scars and our dreams. And you will screw it up sometimes. So will I. And when I do, you will most likely read about it on the internet. Anyway, hard things will happen to us. We will recover. We will learn from it. We will grow more resilient because of it.

As long as we are fortunate enough to be breathing, we will breathe in, breathe through, breathe deep, breathe out. And I’m a doctor now, so I know how breathing works.

I hope you know how proud I am to share this day with you. We’re doing this together. So let’s just keep dancing like we’re…

… the class of ’22.

Doctor of Fine Arts

(Singer, Songwriter, Musician, Producer, and Director)

@taylorswift @taylornation

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in-superbloom · 3 years ago

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8 songs, 8 rules (or something)

RULES: 8 song prompts & tag 8 people

hai hai so @bandsanitizer tagged me to do this lil fun game so here we are <3 alison i can't explain how much i love opportunities to talk about my music so pls just feel the soul crushing hug i'm sending you right now 💜

also i'm completely incapable of choosing only one thing for anything ever – let alone music, so enjoy this catalogue of all over the place songs with a lot of unsolicited commentary <3 also all links are from spotify because i don't support iphone supremacy <3

anna from the future came to say: this got way too long, so i'll put it under the cut & i'm sorry in advance if you're reading this and pls know you don't have to read it at all, i won't blame you 👁👄👁

1. favorite song at the moment.

oh man. gotta say starting line by our resident sad boi hemmo ofc. it hasn't left my head since i first listened to it & i'm honestly still digesting it 🥺 but also ! can't not mention my main men <3 wrecked by imagine dragons also just came out and already managed to give me way too many breakdowns which is completely uncalled for but i can't complain 💜

2. a song you associate with your favorite ship.

which one 👁👄👁 i have so many favorite ships that i just stopped keeping track of them lmao but like, i don't really know? i used to associate songs with ships a LOT when i was younger but it's been a while since i did it. so let me check.

oh boy okay, alison mentioned glee which reminded me of klaine and the amount of love i have for these stupid lil gay men. the song that immediately stands out for me is teenage dream (acoustic) which yes it's the katy perry song but like. big big sad. i literally can't listen to it without wanting to cry. if you know the context, you know. and if you do, i'm sorry </3 this is not my absolute favorite ship ever but it's the one i relate with music the most, so let's leave it there or else this will get way too long lmao but also ! all you need is love 💖

3. a song that could be about you.

ehhh i have a whole playlist of these. like. over 100 songs. so let me pick 😌 okay there's too many so let me list them or else i'll end up talking too much about each one:

hear me - imagine dragons (13-years-old me cried over this on a weekly basis no joke) // clean - taylor swift (no link bc we're waiting for the taylor's version) // my kind - alessia cara // body - julia michaels // matter of time (interlude) - ashton irwin // memórias - pitty bc this woman singlehandedly built half of my personality so i gotta mention her <3

4. a song that you think is underrated.

look i might make a whole playlist for this someday, but for now i'll list artists that i think are underrated with my current favorite song from them:

honest - mali-koa // bardot - raffaella // i like myself (most of the time) - k.flay // get high - herizen // breaking my bones - friday pilots club

and honestly? my man ashton irwin does not get enough credit for the masterpiece that is superbloom and i'll never shut up about it <3 i know 5sos is not really underrated but i think we all know how things would play out if/when all the boys release a solo album, and we're getting a taste of that now, so yeah. gotta praise my main man <3

5. a song that reminds you of a good memory.

very unsurprisingly there isn't many for this category bc unfortunately my brain mainly associates songs with bad moments in my life 🥴 however, i will say more than words by extreme bc it reminds me of my babe/soulmate/love of my life @bluesdelis and of the best month of my life hands down. not much context for this one bc it's too damn special and personal but it's our song™ so yeah <3 (but i also almost put the glee version <3 love you tho 😌🖤)

6. the last song you listened to.

brutal - olivia rodrigo, shocking i know 😌 it was playing from my disco cowgirl playlist while i showered <3

7. a song that makes you laugh.

at this point almost anything from glee, especially if it's from season 4-5 lmao (why glee won't leave my head, alison this is your fault) but i already talked about them so let's go with don't phunk with my heart by the black eyed peas bc this song is absolutely ridiculous & i love it 💖

8. A song you want your mutuals to listen to.

all of the songs mentioned above <3 😌 but let me leave one from my new favorite band (thank you kaykay): hush - the marías ❤ so in love with this album 🥺

tagging: @bluesdelis @suchalonelysunflower @wastelandcth @ijustdontlikepeople @mulletcal @littledrummerangie @aintmyjewelry @talkfastromance4 💜 (i have no idea at all of who already did this so i'm sorry if you have !! but if you haven't, no pressure at all !! <3 and if you see this & wanna do it then i'm tagging you 😌 pls do it & tag me bc i love to take a peak at people's personality through their music <3)

also if you've read all of this? i love the shit out of you 💜 and i'm sending you the warmest hug and a tender forehead kiss 😚💓 here have a candy too 🍬

#oooof okay #this took some work but i freaking loved it #people should not give me the power to talk freely about music bc i won't ever stop 😌#thank you so so so much alison 💜#this feels like i'm showing my whole soul online so like !!!#but i really love talking about this so <3 #anyways #tag games #anna talks music #about anna #my lil 🐢🖤#music #think that's all #can you tell i have a libra mercury ! i could've never guess that 🥴#i'm sorry i know i talk too much but no this is not gonna change <3 #tagged #music games #alison <3

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ezginthegetawaycar · 5 years ago

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Delayni: I love taylor because she is single handedly the most gorgeous person inside and out. I feel like she has been there for me in a way that nobody else was and that's never going to change. I love her music and her lyric writing abilities. She is flat out amazing💗

@daisyadorestaylor : she’s my world and i love(r) her 😌💓

@bbswiftieforlife: Dear Taylor, I have been by your side and a fan for a long time I look up to you so much keep doing what your going love you!

@yourmybestfriendd: hey taylor!! 💌how are u doing?? i hope you’re doing well!! i just wanted to say that i love you SO much and thank you for being my idol for almost nine years!! you’re so kind and generous and i love you!! take care of yourself!! -Livvie ✨🦋💌

Aleisha: I love you Taylor because you are a source of inspiration for me and also for other people. Thank you for teaching me so much Taylor. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART 💖

@faithlovestaylor : “thank you for everything you do ❤️🥺”

@drunkonswiftxo: i love you taylor, thank you for being a constant in my life for the last 12 years! here’s to 12 more!

@cruelsummerx89 : You're my inspiration to be a better person. I would love to meet u💘

@alltootaylorswt : Heyy Taylor I just wanted to let you know that I love you so much and I'm so thankful for everything you've done!! I will never stop supporting you and I'll always fight for you as much as I can. Love u - Kaya

@tayloroftodayy : ‘thank you so much taylor helping me through all my highs and lows, i love you unconditionally - hunter 💗’

@naomilovestay : hi taylor it’s naomi!! i love and miss you endlessly. thank you for writing daylight because that’s my baby. i hope you’re doing well and i’m sending you the biggest hug❤️❤️❤️so proud of you and stay safe lovie!

@allisonworshipstswizzle : dear Taylor, I can’t put into words how much I love and respect you but you have impacted my life so much! love you!!

@whoscountingswift : she’s the most beautiful girl! :)

@lyssaswiftie : “You inspired me to write my own songs

@gemmaheartstaylor :Hey buddy, it’s Gem. I just want to let you know how much of a huge part of my life you are! I can’t imagine a world without you or your music and I am so proud to call you my role model💘💓💗💕

@ashleylovestaylor13 : I love Taylor with my whole heart. She has inspired me in many ways. She is an absolute ray of sunshine. I will forever be thankful for her.

@meganstanstaylor : To Taylor💘You mean so so so much to me and i’m so proud of you. I will always support you every step of the way and i stand with you! Thank you for making my life so much more enjoyable with your tours, personality,easter eggs,music videos,award speeches and of course music and love!! I LOVE YOU -Megan💗

@georgiaadorestaylor : i’m so so proud of you @taylorswift!! i love u so much and i’ll always stay by your side💘

@indifferenceswift : hey taylor i love u!! thanks for always being there for me

@newromanticsss89 : taylor thank you for being an amazing role model to me! i am extremely proud of everything thing you do! thank you for your amazing music that i can dance to and cheers me up when i’m upset! i’m really hoping i can give you the biggest hug in the world soon! i will always stay by your side! i absolutely love you with my entire heart! -priscila💗

@taylorismygod-13 : Taylor Alison Swift I just wanna thank you for being in my life for all these years and inspiring me to be the best version of myself💓

@onlyseedayylight :Taylor, I’m Sophie and I love you SO much. Daylight is literally the best song you’ve ever written. Thank you for being such an amazing role model!

@kayleeheartstay : hi taylor!! i wanted to thank you for being my best friends for the past six years. i am so beyond grateful to have you in my life, i don’t know where i would be without you. i love you endlessly and im so proud of you and I will always have your back!! love kaylee 💞🧚🏻‍♀️🧸💌

@kristinarain13 : taylor, thank you so much for being not only my biggest inspiration and my idol, but my best friend. you’ve taught me and showed me so much and that you for all you have done. you mean so much to me and i love you endlessly.love, kristina 💌

@i_was_born_in1989 : Thank you for writing Back To December!💕

@eliselovestay : She means the world to me

@lookatyounowswift13 : “hey taylor, it’s lexi, thank you so much for being there for me over the past eight years. you have shaped me to be the person i am today. i admire your selflessness and your work ethic. i am so proud of how far you’ve come, and i love you so much. thank you for making me so happy, i promise to always stay and support you💗”

@megan-swiftie :“hey taylor! i just wanted to say thank you for being such a light in my life and inspiring me so much. i love you endlessly and hope we can hug someday soon💓🧚🏻‍♀️✨”

@claudialovestay : hi taylor! i’m so proud of you and love you endlessly! 💞

@tswiftenergy : I love you so much thank you for changing my life and making the BEST music to blast!💗💗💗

@leaadorestaylor : There are 171,476 words in the English dictionary and they're still not enough to describe how much you've affected me, inspired me, and healed me, in so many ways... I love you, thank you for everything 💓💖

@dont_blame_emma :My note to Taylor: thanks for everything you have done and continue to do thanks for changing my life ILY Taylor xo Emma

@iolalovestaylor : hi taylor is me (( your supportive icon )) iola !! I love you with my entire heart <3 I hope you are doing well angel 💋

@natalialovestay : hi taylor buddy! I love you so so so much and I hope you are doing well. You’re my biggest inspiration and I honestly don’t have a clue where I’d be if I didn’t find you or your music. thank you for everything, I love you more than words could ever say 🥺💓

Hira: I love you very much taylor. You are a very successful singer. We love the songs. so glad that I have you💓

@anastasialovestay : Taylor I love you so much and I’m so proud of you!! I’ll stand by you forever💖

@asdfghjklswiftt : Hey, Taylor! Just wanted to say how much I love you and how you’ve been my motivation to do music as a career :) can’t wait to see you at Hyde Park Lover Fest 💕

@lucythirteenswift : Dear Taylor: Thank you for playing such a big part in my life! Will always love you 💕

@ezginthegetawaycar *ME!* Hi Taylor!! i love you so much you have always been an inspiration for me you're music is my everything i hope you are stayed safe buddy we always supporting you!!! 💓💗🥰💌

@sophiaswiftiee13 : “ t i love u so so so much. thank you for inspiring me everyday ♡ “

@taysdead :“hey taylor i just want to say thank you SO much for everything you’ve done! you’ve made me so much happier since 2008, and i can’t wait to keep to see you again live, i love you💕”

@jaylinlovestay : Hey Taylor!! Thank you so so much for being such an amazing role model! I love you!! xo Jaylin

@livel0vetaylor : Taylor, I am so proud of everything you accomplished and I can’t wait to see what’s ahead. Thank you so much for everything you have done for me I could never thank you enough!

@frustratedswift : "i love you all the way from the Philippines🇵🇭, 𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮, 𝐀𝐥𝐲𝐬𝐬𝐚"

@ellaswift13 : “she is my best friend and biggest role model”

@iwillholdontoyoutay : Hi taylor, I’m Rana!! i just wanted to say that your heart is the kindest and like.. we don’t deserve you. Thank you so so much for being so kind and thoughtful. I’m sending you the biggggest hugs & i love you so so much🥺💗💗

@hearthandsswift : Hii! I’m Marisa and Taylor has helped me so much. I’ve been a Swiftie for 10 years and throughout the years Tay has inspired me to be brave and to be kind. She has been so inspirational and strong and always talks about stuff that’s important to her. She has helped me through some very dark times and means the absolute world to me. Love you so much Tay 💞💞💞💞💞

@deathbyathousandcutsx :"Taylor please come to Mexico, many people love you in this country" 🇲🇽

@zoelovestay13 : Taylor, I just want to say that you changed my life and inspired me in so many ways! Your music is inspiring and I don’t know what I would do if I never discovered you and your music. Thank you💗💗 Zoë🌹

@sparklesswift13 : My message: Taylor has changed my life forever and who I am today ❤️

@tswiftnme : I am very proud of her and I love her so much

@tswiftenchnated13 : Thank you Taylor for being such an amazing songwriter and having the sweetest heart ❤️

@jaslovestaylor13 : Taylor swift helped me be ME! Taylor is the best, i love her Soo much!

@foreverandalwayswithtaylor : you're my happiness ❤️

@enchanteddreamsswiftie : Thank u so much Taylor for always helping me when I most needed someone to understand and help me, I love you so much💕💕💕

@brisalovestaylor : I love you so much Taylor you are my world ❤️

@swiftcutiepiee : I love you Taylor stay safe!

@alicelovestaylorsblog : Taylor you are amazing people in the world. I love your music and your voice. You are the most beautiful girl in the world and you very kind to everyone. You are the one of my favourite women in the world and no one can be like you because you are so special to us. I love you so much Taylor 🥺❤️. - Alice

Ceren: Taylor i love you so much, you are one of the most perfect people in the world 💛

@cuttyswift : Hii taylor, How are you? you have been my inspiration.. lots of love and support to you 😘

WE LOVE YOU AND WE WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU! 💗💗💗

LOVE, SWIFTIES 💌

@taylorswift

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princessofgayskull · 4 years ago

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ik this isn't she-ra related but ur main blogs asks aren't open 😳😳 n e wey, thoughts on folklore?? i wanna hear ur favorite songs, favorite lines, any parts that gave u chills, all the good stuff

Someone asking me about Taylor Swift? Someone asking my thoughts about Taylor Swift?! Someone actually wanting to hear what I have to say about Taylor Swift? I feel like Entrapta back in season one when she was asked about her theories about Etheria and was she excited to show everyone her model.

Before I dive in, I want to apologize that it took me so long to get this to ask. I’ve been swamped trying to keep up with summer classes and I wrote several versions of this post only to have tumblr delete it and make me start over before I had the bright idea to write it on a google doc first so I didn’t lose all my work and that is the draft you are reading now! But, for authenticity reasons, after I saw this ask I scrambled to write what I could remember from my first album listen that took place at exactly 11pm (after I watched and cried to the cardigan video, of course). Here there are in note form:

I cannot believe that in the darkest timeline that Taylor Alison Swift dropped a surprise album with sixteen songs in an entirely different genre (the heart attack I had when I learned folklore was a genre shift; I cannot believe I doubted the song writing legend herself). The album has been out for a week and I kid you not the only reason I know I didn’t make it up or dream it is because this album is far more beautiful than I could’ve ever come up with. I’ve lost track of how many times I’ve listened to it. Everything about the album- the lyrics, the topics, the genre, the production- speaks my language fluently. Even during the first listen I felt that I had somehow known these songs my whole life despite their raw newness.

This might read weird, but I think one of my favorite aspects about the album is how voyeuristic it feels to listen to. I don't mean sexually, but rather the way it feels like I don't have full permission to be looking at the lives of the people she is singing about. It's as if Taylor said, "I know you want to peek behind the curtain and see all my flaws" so she dives into these characters who are very flawed people and is so raw and honest as she takes their place saying almost "I will treat them like you treat me."

Yet at the same time, it's her most grounded album. There's something so shiny about pop music (I'm not knocking it, I love pop music, life's too short not to) but this is as if Taylor's pop mentality was left out in the rain and rusted. There's something so real and familiar about it. Like you can reach out and hold it in your hand.

It's venturing too far into the forest and stepping into another dimension and living in it for sixteen songs. A dimension of mysticism, nihilism, magic, and mistakes.

Here is my track-by-track list of favorite things/ chill moments/ awestruck moments.

the 1- WHAT AN ALBUM OPENER. This song rips my heart out and stomps on it. "You know the greatest loves of all time are over now" Why does lyric make me wanna break down and have the most cathartic cry? The defeated acceptance of it all is gut wrenching. "In my defense I have none" Taylor's turn it phrase on this album is brilliant and I aspire to this level of word cleverness.

cardigan- the slow buildup of this song pure magic. If you don't scream "Cause I knew everything when I was young!" at the top of your lungs when listening to this song, are you really a cardigan stan?

the last great american dynasty- F. Scott Fitzgerald who? No, I only know Miss Taylor Swift. Seriously, this song isn't even four minutes long and it's better than any novel written about the American dream. Also, "and then it was bought by me" Taylor you cannot just drop that bombshell on me without letting me get emotionally prepared.

exile ft. bon iver- a song crafted in heaven. Somehow it makes me both depressed and provides me serotonin. I can't get enough of the lyric "I'm not your problem anymore/ so who am I offending?" FUCK THAT'S GOOD. THE SONG IS SO GOOD. SMASH THAT REPEAT BUTTON. I could drown in this song.

my tears ricochet- by far my favorite on the album, and my favorite number five track. I don’t think there’s another Taylor Swift I relate to as much as this one. This hits a very, very close to a personal place for me. Right at the center of an open wound. And god, the build up. It just makes the emotional experience that more poignant. “And I can anywhere I want, anywhere I want, just not home.” I got chills the first time I listened to that lyric, and it brings tears to my eyes. Needless to say, I’ve had some good cries to this song.

mirrorball- this track is about as cutting as they come. The Imposter Syndrome anthem. It’s the “everything that comes from me has to be perfect, to make up for the fact that it’s from me” song. It’s the sense that nothing you do is worth doing if there’s no audience, yet the audience is the biggest threat. “I’ve never been a natural, I’ll do is try, try, try.” Yeah. There’s a reason this is the TS album I relate to the most.

seven- I keep saying these songs are so beautiful, but god, this one. Her vocals, the lyrics; in my opinion, a defining moment on the album. The driving home of the point that stories are important because we tell them. It’s a story plagued by a narrator who’s too young to understand and can only put the pieces together as she’s looking back. “And I’ve been meaning to tell you/ I think your house is haunted/ your dad is always mad and that must be why.” I almost can’t handle that. The loss of childhood innocence and the longing for it in just three minutes and twenty eight seconds.

august- “REMEMBER WHEN I PULLED UP AND SAID GET IN THE CAR AND THEN CANCELED MY PLANS JUST IN CASE YOU CALL/ BACK WHEN I WAS LIVING FOR THE HOPE OF IT ALL, FOR THE HOPE OF IT ALL/ MEET ME BEHIND THE MALL!” currently trying to learn this on guitar, which is fun because I’m not much of a singer. Also, I think that Betty and this girl should ditch James and date each other, if you’re of the interpretation that James is a cishet guy.

this is me trying- So I know that this is a song about a woman struggling with an alcohol addiction, but I really relate to this song because it just feels so much like my struggle with mental illnesses and the way my potential died so quickly because of that struggle. “I was so ahead of the curve/ the curve became a sphere/ fell behind all my classmates/ and I ended up here.” yep. that’s about it.

illicit affairs- again, the build up. “Don’t call me kid! Don’t call me baby! Look at this godforsaken mess that you made me!” Gotta scream that everytime. Also are we going to talk about the lines “Take the words for what they are/ a dwindling mercurial high/ a drug that only worked/ the first few hundred times” ? because I cannot stop thinking about it, or any of the lyrics for that matter.

invisible string-Joe Alwyn, do you know one of the most beautiful songs in history was written about you? I love the instrumental on this one. Also, it’s just flat out brilliant. “Bad was the blood of the song in the cab on your first trip to L.A” Holy shit. Also, “cold was the steel of my axe to grind for the boys who broke my heart/ now I send their babies presents.” You know what that is? Growth.

mad woman-while my tears ricochet takes the spot as my favorite, this is the Taylor Swift song I claim above all others. “Every time you call me crazy, I get more crazy/ what about that?” This song is at the intersection, however coincidental, of my identity as a mentally ill woman. It’s also extreme vindication the way she calls out women acting as double agents of the patriarchy. A scathing criticism of patriarchal socialization and the way women are punished for reacting to anything.

epiphany- listen to this song after watching the news. lay down. assume fetal position. try not to cry. fail and sob. wash, rinse, repeat.

betty- the old taylor can’t come to the phone right now cause she’s chewing out james for cheating on betty. *wink* However, she will write a folksy banger that’s very old taylor where James takes accountability for their mistake. I love the wlw interpretations of the love triangle songs, and I also can totally see James as a he/him lesbian.

peace-the disembodied feel of this song is so unique to Taylor’s sound but I totally dig it! This is the album of a woman in her thirties, and I hope it paves the way to more women being able to stay within the industry getting older. There’s a maturity here that is the result of having created so many albums and having found her voice.

hoax- Time to go scream off the edge of a cliff in solidarity. An open closer that rivals the defeatism of the opener, a slow descent into madness that has followed a trauma. “You know it still hurts from scars from when they pulled me apart/ but what you did was just as dark/ darling, this was just hard/ as when they pulled me apart.” Literally no words. I’m always left speechless.

If you’ve ever thought “I like Taylor but I don’t like her music because she did country and now does pop” this is the album you need to take a chance on. I can only dream of one day possessing Taylor’s ability to tell stories and this album will stick with you in all the best ways. The reason Taylor Swift can genre jump the way she does so seamlessly is because of her unrivaled strength as a songwriter. Stream folklore on spotify!!!!!!!!!

This is probably much more than you asked for, but I hope it satisfies! Thank you for letting me gush about Taylor and this album!!!!!! Sorry it took me so freaking long! If you have thoughts, I would LOVE to hear them!

#AHHHHH SOMEONE LET ME TALK ABOUT TAYLOR I'M SO GRATEFUL AND I'M SO SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO WRITE THIS #folklore #seriously i could write books about this album #I didn't even really write all my thoughts lol #tried to water em down #;)#seriously tho - stream folklore

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reputallison13 · 5 years ago

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13 things I learned after watching Miss Americana💙

1. Taylor is the cutest person in the world and I will always love and protect her no matter what😍🥺

2. Just because it looks like your life is perfect aka you’re Taylor Alison Swift she is still human and goes through heartbreaking and terrible things in life.

3. Stop living for approval from others. I’m such a people pleaser and always try to live for people’s approval and that is not a healthy way of living. We just need to live for ourselves and what makes us happy. We also shouldn’t care about impressing or proving ourselves to anyone but the people who mean the most to us.

4. You always have to stand up for your beliefs and what you believe is right. Seeing Taylor speak up about politics makes me so happy, she’s using her fame for good. She had people telling her to stay out of it but just by watching the film and seeing how emotional she got you can tell this is very important to her. No matter what you just need to focus on your beliefs and continue fighting. I love Only The Young because the young is the future of our country and we can stand up and fight for our beliefs💙

5. Taylor my role model and friend has suffered and been through some of the same things I’ve been through. Taylor talking about how fucking impossible the standards of beauty are is very relatable. Everyone is beautiful no matter what size they are. I’m so proud of her.

6. Seeing Taylor cry broke my heart. Hearing the person who I’ve spent half of my life loving and supporting crying because she says people have fallen out of love with her killed me. I will never stop loving and cheering her on.😭💔

7. Watching that moment when the man who should not be named ruined my baby’s moment just brought me back to watching it the first time on tv and tears filled my eyes. I still don’t understand what kind of sick person would do that to a 17 year old girl! Hearing her say she thought people were booing me KILLED me! I never want Taylor to feel anything but love and happiness.

8. Taylor being brave and raw and talking about her sexual assault case was very moving and powerful. No one will ever understand what she went through. I’m so fucking proud of her.

9. Taylor saying she’s so happy makes my heart so happy! Seeing her so in love and genuinely happy is the best thing ever, because she deserves all of the happiness in the world. The CIWYW video melted my heart she’s so in love and it’s what she deserves. She found her one true love and Prince Charming who loves her for her. Seeing her run off stage and straight into his arms was so sweet! She feels safe and at home with him. I love them together and wish them all of the love and happiness.

10. CATS- seeing Benjamin, Olivia, and Meredith be the stars of the show was the best thing ever. The itty bitty kitty committee is purrfect. My favorite cat pat was either Olivia in the backpack just wondering around or her sitting at the table eating dinner with Abigail and Taylor like she owns the place, because we all know she does.😹😻

11. One of my favorite parts of the documentary is seeing Taylor do what she loves best and creating music. I loved seeing behind the scenes in the studio. You just see how talented she is. She really comes up with the lyrics on the spot. I‘ve said it before and I’ll say it forever Taylor Alison Swift is a lyrical genius! Seeing the songs start out how they did and then seeing them come together and listen to them now is incredible! I will never get over seeing ME! come to life👏🏼🎉🥰🦄

12. Andrea Swift is the star of the show! This woman is the sweetest and most genuine woman I have ever met as well as her daughter. Seeing her in this film made me so happy. You can tell that she is Taylor’s number one fan! I remember meeting her at the secret session and her being the sweetest lady ever and giving me the biggest hug and saying she was glad to see me. Also fun fact I fed Kitty a chicken nugget at the secret session, she’s such a sweetheart. The part where they talked about her cancer hit me hard. My dad passed away from cancer 3 years ago and it was the worst thing I have ever had to go through and don’t wish that on anyone. Hearing Taylor day the “c word” and imagining what their family is going through breaks my heart. Andrea and her family are so strong and I hate that they are going through this terrible and difficult time. I’m sending good thoughts, positive vibes, and prayers to the Swift family🙏🏼💗✨

13. I have a few favorite quotes from this film but my favorite and the one I probably relate to the most is “I want to have a sharp pen, and a thin skin, and an open heart” this quote is so relatable because you CAN have all of those things. I just love this woman more than she will ever know and cannot be more proud of her!😘

this documentary is a masterpiece and I LOVE it! Thank you for being so real and open and sharing your life with us. You and Lana did a phenomenal job so thank you for this and just for being a part of my life for so many years. I honestly don’t know where I would be without you and your music. I’m so proud of you and I love and miss you so much @taylorswift 💘

*plays Miss Americana again*

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feels a little early to be writing a year-in review but i find myself in a quiet moment so i thought i’d tap a few things out

in 2019, in all facets of my life, i faced a challenge of some sort and i surprised myself as i held my ground more often than ran away, which felt new. what *also* felt new was this sense of ease i began having professionally, when it came to conceptualizing and making decisions. sorta feels like a lot of things are crystallizing.

in terms of life on here, i didn’t have TSL for the majority of the year (anybody out there remember TSL?!) so i busied myself with crafting fun memories on my own. there were spans of weeks where i’d just get on a tear and run into one new thing after the other and it was all really just fantastic. i gave myself permission to indulge in the most decadent of things and to follow the most mercurial of assumptions to places i thought closed off.

i’m pretty sure i’ve smiled and laughed more over this year than i ever have in my entire life. no joke.

here are some kaylorverse moments that brought me joy in 2019:

it’s nice to have a friend

2018 was my first year being a kaylor and i just sort of was moreover on the contributor or commenter side of things so 2019 was interesting in that when taylor really leaned into the gay imagery leading up to album release, i started getting newer people sending me stuff! and asking me my takes on things! and like, my words suddenly had weight for some reason? it felt weird but i truly enjoyed getting to talk with so many different people and hear their ideas and laugh and such. that was markedly different from last year. from within this, 79-swift reached out to me with the eye theory, the most beautiful and rare of observations by a singularly lovely individual that i have dedicated my life to protecting and promoting. and i feel like i’ve gotten to know many people i knew through 2018 more deeply and have come to accept the role i play, lean in to it, and formulate my own truth of the matter, and that sort of heightened perspective on it has been a blessing and i’m so thankful for this strange sense of camaraderie that has formed with many of you? thank you??? and my conviction, and my wishes, for the girls to find happiness have only strengthened this year... im committed to seeing this through whether people like it or not!! harumph!

block ‘em

i also started proactively curating my experience.. that’s right! i began blocking trolls with reckless abandon, and i turned anons off! 😂 and damn it’s so much more worthwhile of a time on here when you set aside people that only want to ruin your day.

i got over my fear of eyeballs!!

😂 no seriously, body horror and in particular eyes out of context was actually sort of a thing that previously creeped me out BUT LOOK AT ME NOW. i’m gonna do my best not to rehash the eye theory, please read the post and recall the number of times i filipped out 😂 each and every one is precious to me

also

geeking out with bert and ernie gifs with kaylorfossil and making empsmd-blog drop her debit card need a mention.

the ME! music playlist.

i fell in love with so many songs and like, running into eye motifs in so many of the songs, lyrically and visually, was the most hilarious thing. but really just a lot of the songs really tapped at my soul with an ice pick and i even went to go see The Japanese House live in Osaka which was transcendental and i’m just so thankful for having taylor introduce Good At Falling to me because it was a *necessary* album.

i made and collected stuff

i made and amassed many artifacts that one day i can look back on and remember what a wild ride it has been. some favorites are my procuring of the pixel art heart ring from the ME! mv (a nod to my tsl days..), as well as the evil eye ring.. i didn’t physically make this but the eye theory made the taydar podcast and there’s nothing i enjoy more in this world than making someone giggle and i just love that the episode exists. making that kaylor straw was 👌 working on a mock-up of the golden locket has been very satisfying. i started incorporating fun kaylor winks into my artwork as well which was fun, and i also commissioned a collage from the very talented and lovely valheria and i couldn’t have asked for anything better 🥰

wildin in the TS7 tag was the best.

i made this observation that there’s this type of cocoon that looks like a cobra, which transforms into a butterfly over a period of 13 days, and like, the post got so many notes and i just had a lot of swiftie eyeballs all of a sudden on my blog which led to some hilarity. but honestly i just love geeking out over theories and it’s fun to get to do that as fans of taylor at large. things felt warm and effervescent.

my newspaper subscription

i subscribe to the TTB Times and let me just say the submissions and anons this year were overwhelmingly a delight to read through every day. also like, we did get cued in to stuff before album release and i am just thankful that there are people out there both who want to give us that and people who work to help them give us that. thank you ttb for moderating your blog (my newspaper of choice) however it is that you do and to everyone that contributed to her blog.

the whole lead up to the ME! video release

so glorious... but particular the hour before. i was rushing to pick up my kid from school and suddenly i kept getting messages from people that taylor was covering her face and framing her eyes, and i was like oh please yeah sure BUT THEN when the snake in the video had a blank eye like i don’t think you guys understand i had to wait at a bus stop and exchange pleasantries with the other moms but it was a *five alarm fire* in my mind

cause shade never made anybody less gay

stealing away to listen to YNTCD for the first time and hearing Taylor Alison Swift use the word gay in a released song for the first time was a transcendental moment

karlie’s hand in the YNTCD mv.

‘nuff said

daisies. daisies everywhere.

taylor said daisy kaylor rights, and she said it everywhere. *everywhere*. cannot, will not, get over how blessed we are.

gay gay gay gay gay.... taylor’s

sorry not sorry that wiz khalifa collab with elohim on her track FYM was ethereal and i still hope it’s a part of the preshow playlist for Lover Fest

clue hunting in klossy videos and karlie ads

call me a corporate shill all you want like, there’s always a little something in there and i also enjoy the little flickers of goofy karlie that jump out from time to time. and i know this is not the case for everyone but post eyepocalypse, karlie leaning in, winking that eye of hers time and time again was just pique comedy for me and it always made me chuckle. the brands karlie has repped have been really laying it on thick too and it’s been a joy to see. when taylor does it with her music it’s art, and for me karlie’s media presence is a form of art too 😌

oh kaptain my kaptain

kimby liked a comment of mine on her insta which was a distinct honor and privilege 😌 and really she was dropping clues left and right through spring up until she got her snazzy new job and things calmed down 🥰 of which i am so proud talk about an on brand job! also partially clearing the air about my TSL theory and the lead up to clearing that air was quite fulfilling for me and i am forever grateful for the time we shared. and to this point, the seesters in general (and kurt omg) have been quite active all year and we don’t deserve it but they’ve stuck around and it’s been calming.

album cover art release on the livestream

LIKE I HAVE NEVER IN MY LIFE NEVER HAD A FOURTH WALL BROKEN SO DULY

i love you forever, thank you for everything

when taylor came to visit tokyo this year i was basically reenacting the swamp scene from OOTW trying to get a ticket to the secret event... i listened to ME! on LINE MUSIC for over 2000 plays, i bought multiple CD’s, it was such an ordeal and then to not have a ticket after all but still putting on my thinking cap and managing to figure out where the event was while i was at disney sea and literally running from disney sea to the venue in high heels with The Man playing on my phone was oscar-worthy and actually *being correct* and the moment i knew i was correct and how i knew i was correct was so amazing 😉 and i play by the rules so i didn’t try to get in without a ticket and i didn’t lurk. but just to have figured it out and validated it was such a thrill. seeing her on TV live was amazing as well ///

lost in japan, reprise

oh and, last year for rep tour there was this theory i had which didn’t pan out but it had to do with the clues i thought shawn mendes was dropping through autumn 2018 and anyway that’s a story for another day but as i was bopping around town, looking for lockets, staying in rooms i have no business being in, drinking lots of whisky...just to know that while i was doing *everything but* successfully meeting taylor, she literally phoned shawn and had him record lines for that eye theory remix like, i will never ever, like, guys. guys. 😂 it’s too perfect for words. the world is weird like that sometimes.

Lover

and omg Lover the album? i absolutely love lover and i loves that honeymoon period of theorizing and parallel unearthing that we did and i love how slightly creepy-cute it is and i love the whole wabi-sabi thing going on and i absolutely love every song on the album, every one, they all have so much meaning to me... and each one is teeming with little blips and bloops and sound samples and seconds of silence and i love all the brass instruments and so many lush moments... i guess my shortlist (in no particular order) would be the archer, lover, i think he knows, daylight, cruel summer, false god, cornelia street, ME! (yea i really like me 🥰). and to think about everything that went in to the album and the thrill of what it might have been and the vastness of what we don’t know, but like, the weight of that potential?? it’s like this vast pastel and black abyss of drowsy and deep feelings and i love every inch of it. it’s a vibe that reflects so much of what this year has been for me and i’m happy to have existed in this time to have had it with me.

jesus this has gotten too long, and i still have like 24 more things to write out but um, basically, as i’m sure you’ve been able to assume? i wanted to say that despite 2019 being somewhat of a slasher film affair for our fandom, i still had a goddamn great time this year and i hope everyone can find some good memories and relive them as well 🥰

#kaylor #much love to you all!!#all eyes on us

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My Lover Secret Session experience 💗

First of all, I really appreciate Taylor. Thanks to Taylor, I have had the most wonderful time in my life. I'm not good at English, but I want to write about this experience.

On July 22, I received a DM from Taylor Nation on Twitter. TN sent me a message at 1AM Japan time, but I was working so I noticed it at 8PM the same day.

I felt that the time stopped when I saw this. Because the word that "CONFIDENTIAL MESSAGE!" was written there. I knew what this words meant. I never imagined that I would get a DM from Taylor Nation, so I thought this was a dream and read the message over and over again.

There was written that wanted to know my information, and I hurriedly replied. After that, I found out that I received the same message on Tumblr too so I also replied on there. The next day TN sent me a reply “Thanks :)” on Tumblr.

I was glad that TN read my reply. But I couldn't get any more replies a day later.

So I thought I lost some precious opportunity because of my late reply. I regretted my late reply and became sad. I felt very sad for this two days.

However, I received a call from TN on July 24th. TN contacted me at 11AM Japan time. In the United States, although it was late at night, TN chose a time when I could get a call for me.

I usually work from 10AM in the morning, and that day happened to start at a later time than usual. This coincidence allowed me to pick up a call from TN. I thanked this miracle.

On this phone, TN asked me where I lived and how old. And they also asked that I could come to LA and that I'm interested in the event. I tried to understand the English spoken by TN and of course I told them that I wanted to go to this event.

They carefully explained the details of the event to me. Since I was worried about my understanding, I checked with TN many times. Nevertheless, they took long time to help me understand. I really appreciate the kindness of TN.

I was in a hurry and prepared to go to LA. My parents were wondering about this invitation, but there was no option not to go to me. I had to keep this invitation secret after receiving this contact. I kept a secret to avoid this event being canceled.

August 4 I flew from Japan to LA. This was my first trip to the United States. I was excited and nervous for this few days.

And finally, on August 6, I went to the designated place for the meeting time. I was worried that this event would be not held until I met the person in charge.

When I finished the reception, there were already a lot of swifties. There were people I saw on SNS and my friend that I met before. I was very happy to meet them.

Some of the participants were invited from all over the world, of which two were Japanese. I was relieved that there was another Japanese person.

We waited for about an hour at the place, then divided into several cars and boarded and went to the venue. It wasn't Taylor's house but it was a very nice house.

First, I ate some snacks in the garden of the house. There are also sweets such as M&M's with "Lover" that I saw on SNS before, and I enjoyed it.

After eating and enjoying conversations with friends, I went to the living room. There was one chair, and I could predict that Taylor would sit on that chair. A few minutes later... TAYLOR ENTERED THE LIVING ROOM!!

Tears came out naturally after seeing Taylor because I realized that there was a person I loved the most in the world in front of me. I honestly doubted that I could meet Taylor until I actually saw her. I still remember the excitement at this time clearly.

At the secret session in the living room, Taylor told us a lot & introduced the album's songs. I'm not allowed to publish details such as what Taylor has told us and the theme of the song, but there is no doubt that this time was SO AMAZING!!!

We left the living room and returned to the garden. From there, we were called one by one and given time to talk with Taylor. I waited there for about 2 hours because I was called late. While I was waiting, I ate Lover cookie & handmade chocolate chip cookie. And I talked about the song with other participants and shared my impressions.

At last it was my turn and I entered the living room. That's means I COULD MET TAYLOR ALISON SWIFT!!!!

Taylor was there and greeted me with a huge smile. I was delighted that this moment I had dreamed of for many years came. I was trying to tell Taylor how much I appreciate you and how much I love you, but before that, she told me many times "Thank you!".

Taylor asked me where I came from. I told her that I was from Japan. Then she thanked me because I'm coming from far away.

I was really glad that Taylor knew my existence. Taylor told me "I saw your picture Moeka, you made a sign like a cat for the tour right?" I was moved by this words from her. I had never been noticed by her before, so I couldn't believe she knew me. I posted about the signboard more than half a year ago but she remembered my post. I was happy that she remembered it.

I also explained to Taylor about the dolls I made. When I told her that I deposited it with TN, she promised to receive it. I hope she actually sees my handmade doll. To give her this doll was one of my dreams.

After a little talk, Taylor suggested that I take a picture. The house had a balcony and the night view was so beautiful that she suggested that I take a picture with the night view in the background. Of course I was willing to accept it and I asked Taylor to hug with you and take a picture. Taylor accepted my hope and hugged me tightly.

I talked her much thanks for being invited here. And she said "Of cours!" to me.

Taylor always thanked me after taking the photo. I'm thankful to her so much, but she kindly talked to me a lot.

At the end, I told her my Tumblr account and asked me to find me. Then she said "Sure". And she told me to go back to Japan safety. She hoped for my safety and she was kind to the end.

I felt that my time with Taylor was very short. I couldn't tell everything I wanted to tell with tension. But this time is an irreplaceable treasure for me.

I have only been able to see her from a distance in the show so far, but this was the first time that I could actually have a conversation. She was a very beautiful and wonderful person.

She was always hold hands when I was talking. And she also hugged me many times, some of which crouched to my height. I realized her kindness many times.

I can't express my emotions well in words because of too much HAPPYYY!! :)

I received a present from TN and left the living room. These presents are really good and these became my treasure. Then I got on the bus and returned to the meeting place. I still couldn't believe that this wonderful thing happened to me.

After returning, I took a picture with my friend and returned to my hotel. Then I reported that "I MET TAYLOR" on Twitter. And many friends celebrated me.

The next morning the photo that ME & TAYLOR was sent to me from TN. I couldn't confirm the picture when I took it. So when I saw my photo, I knew Taylor was laughing with her teeth. It was my dream that Taylor's smile with her teeth, so I was impressed again to see this photo. My M&G photo is my favorite!

I was able to have this wonderful experience thanks to the support of many people. I thank all the friends who RTed my posts and tagged Taylor to my posts. Moreover, thanks to Taylor, I was able to get to know people from all over the world. This encounter is a miracle.

Some people may think that I don't deserve to meet Taylor. I don't even know if I deserve it. I'm sorry for taking your opportunity. I was just lucky.

I had never been noticed from Taylor so I thought I would never meet her for a lifetime. I was giving up my dream. However, Taylor knew me. My dream suddenly came true. She always sees swifties posts on Twitter, Instagram, and Tumblr. So never give up your dream. Your opportunity will come. I wish everyone happiness.

My English is not good. But thank you for reading till the end. I can't write all my experiences, but I'm glad if my happiness is conveyed to you.

Lastly, To Taylor. Thank you for making my dream come true. Definitely I will never forget this day. Of course I'll keep supporting you and I love you forever and always.

Lover Secret Sessions LA

- August 6th, 2019 🏹

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cowboylikesarah · 5 years ago

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Why we shouldn’t hate on any of Taylor’s albums -an early morning thought by Sarah (that’s me)

Taylor Swift (Debut)- Taylor was extremely lucky and smart in the moves made with this album. It’s hard to make it in the music scene and even harder to make it when you’re 14 to 16 years old. So it’s admirable to even that extent. Also each song is so different, that’s so hard to do! Also lyrics like “September saw a month of tears, I’m thanking god that you weren’t here, to see me like that”, the entirety of Cold as You, “it’s hard to make a conversation when you’re taking my breath away”. They’re good lyrics! Anyway NEXT!

Fearless- IN THE MOMENT NOW CAPTURE IT REMEMBER IT. This album was all about being afraid but doing it anyway (that’s so beautiful!) Not to mention what this album did for her career! It made her go from country sweetheart to a rising icon in country music... at 18 to 20 years old. She wrote the song that shot her to major stardom in LESS THAN A HALF HOUR. And I KNOW y’all look forward to it and sleep on it’s performance every tour smh. Fearless also marked another, more mature voice sound for Taylor, a part of growing as an artist.

Speak Now- Self. Written. But we all knew that. It’s an impressive feat. But, there are other reasons Speak Now is so beautiful. Also the era itself was so magical! Taylor Swift was the country-pop princess on her way to take the queens crown and scepter. She had INCREDIBLE lyrics on there and they were cutting, to the point, and relatable. “You made a rebel of a careless mans careful daughter”, “it’s okay life it a tough crowd”, “Long live that look on your face”... Taylor cemented herself as a songwriter who knows exactly what to do and how to write a hit. Not to mention this was her first big transition to pop, with mine, the story of us, and many others playing on pop radio and some of them didn’t have to edit the original song for a pop version.

Red- the versatility. We all know reds a fan favorite and a certain song shines through on this one, but I am not going to talk about said song, instead the beauties that lie in her shadow. (Step aside all too well, I’m not crying to you today) today we will be crying the words to Sad, Beautiful, Tragic, Begin Again, and I Almost Do. These three songs are some of Taylor’s most beautiful and dare I say, some of her most mature country songs. It’s almost hard to believe she paired these beauts with such masterfully iconic pop songs like We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together and I Knew You Were Trouble. Red was that bitch who faded the lines between Taylor’s younger country years and Taylor’s transition to pop, it was beautifully done and should be respected. Not to mention it solidified her as a country icon.

1989- Thriller you’re a great pop album and imma let you finish, but 1989 was one of the best pop albums of all time. (Michael Jackson stans please don’t attack me.) 1989 does not even bother with having skips on her. Even the songs that aren’t necessary fan favorites are still songs you can and should sing while skipping around New York City, or driving with your windows down, or better yet into your hairbrush. 1989 was a great album once you get off that was for lack of better term “sonically cohesive”. The era itself was one of Taylor’s most piviotal and impressive, she became a main pop girl. And what a way to end with Clean.

reputation- say it with me “rep was not a jumping point for lover.” Yes, Taylor wrote this because she had to but that doesn’t make it any less groundbreaking and beautiful as an album. Finding love in spite of the noise and a bad reputation. COME ON who other than Taylor Alison Swift would ever. reputation was also that bitch who could have easily been played all at one show! That’s insane. This album was well thought out and pushing that creativity envelope. Well done angry Taylor.

Lover- you’re my my my my LOVER. Hello we were graced with 18 songs about the real love she found, her love of politics, love of her mother, all the love. Taylor did a wonderful job in jumping around and exploring sound here, even going back to her country roots. Lover is a nice-late-spring-early-summer-sway-your-heart-away album. Lover also blessed us with such pretty songs. Also lovers already won an award soooo yeah.

#taylor swift #taylornation #taylurking #debut #fearless #speak now #red #1989 #reputation #rep #lover #ts

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shyswiftie13 · 6 years ago

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Dear @taylorswift,

First of all, I never thought I’d be typing this out to you. I have very little faith you’d ever see it, so I never typed it out because I wondered what the point was. But today I’m getting over that fear.

My name is Leigh (Lee), but of course I go by several names. I am from Louisiana and I’ve lived here all my life. I grew up listening to your music and it always made me want to sing and dance (even though I’m like the worst at it). I have depression and anxiety, and during my 9th grade year I dropped out of school due to bullying. I was the weird kid of my school, and I found that especially during this time, your music inspired me to keep going. Every time I would sit there crying myself to sleep, I would turn on my favorite songs of yours (specifically ‘Hey Stephen’, I got on a kick where I only listened to that song for like a year haha) and drown out whatever was making me sad. Coming from a family that lived and still lives in poverty, it was my escape and it still is. Music, especially your music, is very special to me. Ever since I was about 5 years old, my family has lived in the same mobile home in a wooded area. The roof leaks, the storms here get really bad, and lots of trees around us have died so we have dealt with our own issues of limbs breaking off and falling. We get extremely scared sometimes, especially when the wind blows a lot, that a tree is going to fall. That hasn’t happened yet, thank god. But through your music and your beautiful voice, I have learned to face these problems head on. I have become strong with your help. Even if that’s just putting my headphones in while holding a drip pan to keep the roof from leaking on our old pull-out sofa.

Last year, I dealt with what I thought was the hardest part of my life. My dad was misdiagnosed and thought he had the flu, when in reality he had blood clots. These blood clots nearly killed him, and we had to stay in the hospital with him. My dad has always been healthy, and he is my ENTIRE world, so hearing the words “you could’ve died” come from his doctor’s mouth really opened my eyes. I was offered a ride home during the time he stayed at the hospital, but my heart was so beyond broken that I knew I couldn’t leave him. So I stayed, and not once did I leave that room unless I was going to get food for us. I talked to him, monitored him as well as I could, and spent time with him like it could’ve been his last day. That night I couldn’t sleep, so I listened to my Taylor playlist, and it kept me strong. With your voice, with your music, I made it through those hard times.

Thankfully, my dad recovered, but we still watch him very closely. He is still finding more and more health issues, and it breaks my heart, but I am enjoying all of my time with him and I know to take none of that for granted, thanks to YOU.

My dad does everything for me, and I am tearing up as I write this, but he hates it when he can’t afford to do things for me. I wanted to go to Rep Tour NOLA and we couldn’t afford it even after me saving for a long time, and I think my dad cried harder than me because he couldn’t give me that experience. My parents are both the most amazing and hard working people, and they would do anything for me, and I am beyond thankful for that. I wouldn’t trade my parents for the world. At the end of last year, I had a nervous breakdown. The job I was working for abused me in several ways, and I got fired without any warning. I lost all of my pay, and the money I had been saving potentially for TS7 was gone. During this nervous breakdown I discovered many things about myself, but one thing that never changed was my love for YOU. I put my headphones in and blocked out the world. I listened to your words and your strength, and took that first step and asked my family to please help me. Thanks to that courage that you helped me with, I am now in therapy and I am working on bettering myself every day.

On February 13th, 2019 my world changed forever. My grandmother on my mom’s side passed away of old age, and I was there for it all. I saw her deteriorate from start to finish, and I don’t think watching anything else would be as hard as watching the strong woman I loved go from on top of the world to barely being able to move. She was in so much pain, and I know she’s in a better place, but the scars and the pain I went through still hurt me to this day. Losing someone isn’t easy and it never will be, but thanks to you, I am able to stay strong. You, by existing, give me so much courage and so much love through your words and your music, and I cannot thank you enough for that. You are a beautiful sunlight in my darkness.

I recently found out my uncle has terrible cancer, and he is being put through chemo, and is struggling a lot. Being there for him is something I know that I need to do, but on days that it’s hard, I remember your words and your smiling face, and it pushes me to get through. You have indirectly helped me throughout my life, and I want to say thank you for that. Thank you Taylor Alison Swift for being you and inspiring and loving millions of swifties such as myself. You are GORGEOUS.

I am posting this on a very small side account because I’m afraid to talk about this to anyone else. I don’t want to be looked at as someone who is posting this for attention. I’m afraid of people seeing my weak side. But I wanted you to know this. I love you so much, Taylor. And I’m so thankful and proud of you.

Leigh

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formeitsalways-haylor1989 · 5 years ago

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Crooked Love, In A Straight Line Down

Ok so I haven't written a Haylor fic in forever and I don't know why or where this came from but it's here. I did this to myself by listening to 1989 and Made in the AM all in one fricken day and the idea was created. Also came from me watching old 1989 interviews and Taylor saying it's about not being on the same page etc.

Anyway, also inspired by Happier by Ed Sheeran and Someday by Michael Buble and Meghan Trainor which was written by Harry.

Please be nice as I haven't written these 2 in a hot minute. Also tumblr is a little bitch and got rid of line breaks so, I’m real sorry.

Cheers.

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They’re never on the same page. She said it herself, hell she even sang it. “We’re a crooked love, in a straight line down.”

It always felt like Taylor was a few chapters in front of him or onto the next book whilst he was stuck at the prologue.

Harry realizes it was one of the reasons they didn’t work out the first time. Yes, upon reflection his childlike behavior among other things attributed to their doomed relationship however that wasn’t entirely it. Taylor was a planner. She thought ahead about everything. Whether it be a music video, album, song or her life. She had thought of everything. Taylor’s constant planning for the future or wanting to know what was in store drove him crazy. “Where do you see this relationship going?” or “Do you see yourself with me when you’re old, sitting on a porch swing?” were questions that at the young age of 19 scared him. Harry wanted to live in the moment, not meticulously plan every moment of his life.

*Insert line break*

‘Cause baby you look happier, you do

My friends told me one day I’ll feel it too

And until then I’ll smile to hide the truth

But I know I was happier with you.

Harry sees photos of Taylor and Joe at the Bafta awards.

She’s glowing with happiness in powder blue. Unafraid to flaunt her love to the public. He sighs quietly, not wanting to disturb the body next to him.

She looks happy, happier then she was with the DJ. He still has a vivid memory of the night at the Billboard Music Awards. The sly looks from Calvin towards him, the flaunting and touching.

Harry looks over at the body next to him. He’s happy. So he tells himself.

*Insert line break*

Despite the break up so long ago, their friends. More like acquaintances. A “Happy Birthday” message here, a “How’s it going?” or “Was good to see you” after bumping into each other at an event or party.

Whenever Taylor’s relationships ended seemed to always be one of the first to know. She would text but usually call. Needing reassurance that nothing was wrong with her and asking him why she always drove the people she loved away. He’d comfort her no matter where he was. Whether it be London, New York or on tour in Australia. He would always answer her phone call.

*Insert line break*

Harry’s in a meaningful relationship for the first time since Taylor. They’re together for over a year, Harry thinks about buying a ring until she shatters his heart to pieces and leaves him for a model.

Taylor’s single for a while but finds herself a new man, however, she’s all ears when Harry calls in the middle of the night needing a friendly voice.

*Insert line break*

Someday maybe when we’re old and grey

We could be in love once more

Tell them I won’t give my love away

Darling, not forever only yours.

The pattern continues on for a few years.

Taylor’s single when Harry’s just found someone or he’s single when she’s just gone public with her new boyfriend.

Harry feels like it’s a cruel joke the universe likes to play. People stopped asking him about Taylor a long time ago. He was thankful for it. It took him years to shed the lingering shadow that he was Taylor Swift’s ex, but he knew that he bought it on himself. Years after the relationship writing and releasing songs about what they once were. Only a few people knew about his constant, lingering feelings for her. Ed once told him that he got a certain look in his eye whenever he saw Taylor. It was the same look Ed gave Cherry.

It takes a few years. Harry’s just turned 28 when they’re finally both single. Taylor’s at his birthday party talking to Ed and Niall when Harry finally gets away from others to join in their conversation.

It’s near the end of the evening when most people have gone home, the few who are either drunk or really close to Harry are still around. He finds himself sitting on a couch with Taylor by his side. Her feet are resting on top of his legs, the shoes she took off hours ago after dancing with Cherry sitting in a pile with her handbag and jacket on Harry’s countertop.

They’re joking around, talking about life, upcoming music, and Taylor’s cats when it dawns on both of them that they’re both single. Taylor’s the one that speaks it into existence. Harry smiles and shrugs. Not knowing how to respond. He wants to say “Let’s give it another shot” but he doesn’t want to lose the recently regained friendship between the two of them.

Taylor gives him a kiss on the cheek and a hug before she leaves. Harry thinks it’s his imagination, but he could’ve sworn he heard her humming the chorus to Someday on her way out.

*Insert line break*

They’re at Taylor’s New York apartment celebrating her 35thbirthday surrounded by family and friends when Harry’s found the nerve to ask her.

“You gonna do it now?” Ed asks him, slapping him on the shoulder.

Harry shakes his head, staring at the birthday girl, “Later. When there’s less people."

Taylor’s talking to Abigail, holding her 2-year-old goddaughter while the redhead gets a chance to eat something with her hands finally free.

Eventually, the cake is cut, and some people leave. The mass amount of people has died down but there’s still enough people in the apartment to classify it as a party.

The older kids are still up and playing while the little ones are asleep in their parent’s arms or on couches. Harry looks at a passed-out Cherry and an awake Ed with a sleeping 1-year-old in his arms.

He finds the birthday girl and leads her out onto the balcony. The lights of New York City are shining bright, thankful that it’s not too cold. He looks at his watch, 11:54 pm. There are 6 minutes of her birthday left.

Harry’s usually the calm and collective one. The last time he was this nervous, he asked her “Do you want to give it another shot?”

Taylor rests her head on his shoulder while admiring the view of the busy New York streets. She can tell something is on his mind. They may not always be on the same page, but Harry is an open book to her.

He sucks in a breath, he only has 4 minutes left.

“I can tell when something is on your mind Styles, so spill it.”

Harry chuckles, “It’s nothing.” He feels himself backing out like the chicken that he is. Maybe he misread the situation. Maybe they’re not ready for this.

He tries to change the subject. “Have I wished you a Happy Birthday yet?

Taylor looks up at him and wraps her arms around his neck, Harry’s arm tightening around her waist, “Many times Styles. I seem to recall you waking me up with 35 birthday kisses this morning.” She has a smile on her face and leans in to give him a chaste kiss.

“Oh, that’s right I did.” Harry grins cheekily and goes to deepen the kiss but she pulls back. “No changing the subject mister. What’s the matter? There’s been something on your mind all day. Talk to me.”

Harry sighs again and looks down at the ground. Taylor’s always patient with him, she knows he’ll talk when he’s ready.

His green eyes meet blue and smiles. “I originally had a big speech prepared,” he removes her hands from around her neck and holds them tightly in his.

“It went along the lines of how much I love and care for you and how you make me a better person but I now, here, in the moment I feel like it’s too forced and,” he drops the last word.

“Planned?” Taylor asks with a smile.

“Yes,” he chuckles, “Planned.”

Harry drops her hands and takes two steps back. Popping a hand into the inside pocket of his jacket to fish out the velvet box. He has 2 minutes left. It was now or never.

“Taylor,” he says, sucking in a breath while dropping down onto one knee.

She gasps at the movement, knowing what will come next. She had imagined this moment many times in her head. Sadly, with many different people. Never in her wildest dreams, she would’ve thought the person would be Harry Styles. Until about two years ago.

“I love you with all my heart. I was a 19 when you asked me if I saw myself with you sitting on a porch when I’m older. I never answered you back then because I wanted to live in the moment and not think about the future. But now, all I think about is the future. My future, with you.” Harry opens the box to reveal a cushion cut emerald ring surrounded by tiny diamonds.

"Taylor Alison Swift, would you do me the honor of growing old and grey with by becoming my wife?”

There are tears in her eyes, the noise of New York traffic becoming deafening in the silence between the two.

She nods before being able to extract herself from the spot she stood in. Throwing her arms around Harry before repeating the word “yes” in between kisses.

Harry laughs, a small tear running down his cheek out of happiness before placing the ring on her finger. Taylor kisses him whole-heartedly while Harry lifts her off the ground in celebration.

They celebrate with those left inside the apartment by cracking open a bottle of champagne.

*Insert line break*

It’s Christmas day when Taylor decides she wants to share her news with the world.

She asks Harry if he’s ok with it as it’s not only her decision to make but also his. They’ve managed to keep their whole relationship under wraps. No one except family and friends knowing they had gotten back together.

No fans, no media. Of course, there was always speculation. The only times they were seen in public were at events and friend’s birthday parties, but they never arrived or left together. They even made sure they were never alone but always with a mutual friend close by.

Taylor posts a picture of her hand grasping the handle of a coffee cup with the ring in full view. Captioning it “We never go out of style.”

Harry brakes his Instagram silence by posting a photo of their hands intertwined with the ring poking out with the words “I live for you, I long for you Olivia”

They both knew his caption would send the fandom into a frenzy, finally confirming the song was about her.

Harry laughed before shutting both their phones off so they could enjoy the rest of Christmas day together without any interruptions.

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pochrm · 5 years ago

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happy 13th Tay

worHere’s to the woman who has taught me multiple things the last few years, such as daring to dream impossible things, new english words I found myself using as often as I can (such as “treacherous”, “nonchalat”, “indentation”, and many others who make me feel fancy af), the value of love, friendship and kindness, to jump into things unknown even though I might me petrified to do so, cause that’s just fearless, a bomb-ass recipe of chai tea vanilla cupcakes inspired by her sugar cookies version, to speak whatever it’s in my mind no matter what the repercussions could lead onto but also to watch the way I use my words cause they might me the most hurtful weapon I could utilize against someone or yet the most rewarding they could ever hear.

Here’s to the woman who was taught me really a lot, to laugh about me, not care about what anybody else has to say about me, as long as it is negative criticism, hate or gossip, to value every little moment I can get with my parents cause they are getting older too, to embrace who I really am, to sway my hips everytime I dance cause she does that every single time (and thanks for that Tay, people really think I’m a great dancer cause of that), and to tilt my body either left or right everytime I try to not succesfully sing the high notes of every song, cause she does that (and she actually nails that part). Here’s to the woman who taught me black clothes could really work in my wardrobe and now I can’t get enough full black outfits in my life. Here’s to all the splendid things Taylor Alison Swift has taught me over the last few years. And not gonna lie about it, it has been a journey I regret no getting into early, but I believe God works in mysterious ways.

I first remember hearing about this invaluable human being with Love Story and You Belong With Me, just like many other swifties have. And the first time I saw her perform live on TV at the 2010′s AMAS when she sang Back to December and wore her hair all straight for the first time which my sister says was a great and iconic fashion moment. I remember jamming to I Knew You Were Trouble with my cousin in one of our Chirstmas Eve dinners back when I was just 13. I recall hearing Red (the song) a lot in radio and jamming to it but in a subconscious level.

Long story short, I became a Swiftie during the 1989 era. I recall one sunday watching the VMAS while doing homework and they announced TS was about to play her new song called “Shake It Off” which would be her first official pop single from her soon to be released full pop album “1989″. I freaked out hearing the song for the 1st time cause it was SICK! after that I found myself looking at the music video in youtube a lot actually, but then in my feed a live performance of “Welcome to New York” appeard. I clicked on it. And that was it. There was something so captivating about that song that got me hooked into the Taylor universe.

I went and bought the 1989 album months later just cause of that song. I LOVE IT SO MUCH, THE BEAT, THE STORYTELLING, THE WHOLE TOPIC OF STARTING AGAIN AND FEELING BRAND NEW IN A BRAND NEW CITY.

1989 really became the soundtrack of my sophomore year in which I learned so much about friendship, myself, romance and most of all, hearbreak.

I’ll def write on how much Taylor has helped me into my vision of love, I’ll do it someday cause that’s gonna be extensive and Im still trying to find the proper words to do that.

Cheers to everything you’ve accomplished the last 13 years. I love you to the moon and back, Thanks a lot for molding me into the human being I am today in such a possitive way. @taylorswift

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tellmethatwellbejustfine · 5 years ago

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Taylor Swift: Lover album

22 August: I was studying for my prelims which are trial exams you write before finals (just for anyone who didnt know). It was a biology prac the next day so there wasn't a HUGE lot of work to study but I was also studying for other subjects too. Although for the past 3 weeks all I could think of was 23 August Lover comes out while the other girls kept saying to me “ Janelle there are much more important things happening” so I ignored their petty backchat and went home to study whilst listening to all the other singles that were going to be on the album.

23 August: OMG TODAY IS THE DAY!!! It was 6am, but because I live in South Africa, there was still one hour until the release of Lover. EEKKK! My mom was a bit worried and curious as to why I was so excited for the "biology prac”. As soon as I got to school around 6:45 ish, I ran to the school library, ripped out my earphones from my pocket and as soon as it hit 7am, the TEARS CAME. AHHHH TAYLOR ALISON SWIFT. My absolute role model. The girl who changed my life and is the reason I write my own songs (not ready to sing them in public though - stage fright). I loved every single second of the songs. I did my bio prac later that day and needless to say that I finished 10 minutes before everyone else so there is nothing more important than my girl Tay. I can't pick a fave, but there were two songs that just touched my heart.

Cornelia Street: Girl, Tay, how do you do it? I have never felt so much and so ughh I don't know the word, but I just felt like it was so raw and personal and vulnerable about the fear of losing someone and never going to the place that would hold the most captivating memory of that person. I loved it so much. I really want to thank you for that song. OH WHO AM I KIDDING GIRL THANK YOU FOR THE WHOLE ALBUM AND JUST BEING YOU!!!

Soon You'll Get Better: Ahhh and here we just take a deep breath as I have no words for how touching this song is. It is beautiful and your mom and the rest of the family including you are deeply in my prayers. The past month has been chaotic. (I play the cello). So I have my music exam coming up, my audition for university (need to tell you something at the end of this), my school exams as well as my mom's doctor appointments. She started having pains in some areas and was worried as to what it could be. She is constantly driving me up and down and paying for extra lessons for me with school and my cello lessons. She is honestly a superhero, but this month, I suddenly saw how worried and scared she was. Last week we went to a doctor's appointment together and the doctor said that her blood pressure was even higher than the last time and more worrying. My mom did blood tests to test for some stuff and this weekend the results came back clear. You're right, desperate people find faith. I always believed in God, but I have never talked to him so much, telling him of all the countless things she does for my dad and I and how she always puts everyone else first. The doctor did tell my mom that becasue of the high blood pressure, she is at risk of having a heart attack and needs to take medicaction. When I heard this song, Taylor I have never felt so scared of the thought of losing my superhero. Moms are incredible. They have our backs and will always be our number one supporters.

So on a lighter note, about the audition for university, I am studying music next year and it is all because of you. You taught me to follow my dreams and I don't want to waste any more time. So thank you so much and hopefully one day (if my music works out well) I might just be playing on one of your songs. OMG DREAMS. Okay Janelle you need to calm down (haha).

Anyway Taylor thank you for everything that you do. No matter what the media or the critics say, Swifties are an army and we have your back 110% @taylorswift

Love,

Janelle

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taylors-poptart · 6 years ago

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REP ROOM STORY/ EXPERIENCE! 26.10.2018

Okay so, Friday October 26th this little South Aussie woke up at 4:15AM, because she was so excited to see Taylor for the first time in 3 years. Fast forward until about 12:30pm to when we were at southern cross station wasting time when everyone said merch outside southern cross had opened early, so I RAN THROUGH SOUTHERN CROSS STATION, almost knocked over a few people but they were all fine, and dropped $500 on merch 😂.

Mum and I then walked back to our apartment via marvel Stadium where they were sound checking the instruments and that’s it I was literally already on the floor crying, mum then dragged me back to the apartment so I could pull myself together and get ready.

We got back to Marvel around 4:00 and I honestly have never been happier to be anywhere! Being with my favourite people and about to see my absolute favourite person, how could it get any better than this?

Once we got inside, after mum and I got lost we made our way to our seats and I cried and cried and cried. We then got food and drinks and went directly back to our seats and I apologised to the people sitting behind me for how I was going to act.

Broods came on and I knew literally none of their songs but you bet I had my glow battons in each hand and was having the time of my life. When charli came on I lost my shit, like I really paid for one ticket and got to see charli and Taylor huh? I genuinely thought I was going to have lost my voice by the time Taylor came on I was going off that much to charli wow. When the pre show playlist resumed I lost my shit! I knew what was coming and when babe played boy oh boy I went ham on it and went all out like people in my section were confused, shook and just having a good laugh at me (it anyone has the videos people took HMUx ).

When Taylor came on I absolutely lost it! After watching every show since May on twitter I knew exactly what was happening at each moment and I definitely was not ready for it. I was bouncing up and down like a yo-yo, screaming my little asthmatic lungs out and having an all round good time with my 2 rep batons.

3 songs in gorgeous played. AS IN MY BRAND GORGEOUS anyways, I had my little poster that said DING and I went to town I was screaming and jumping and throwing my poster up during the dings and then I saw a lady coming up the stairs with a camera and I assumed she was just taking a pic or something so I kept going to town and then she stopped, looked at me and goes “how many people are in your group?”

AT THIS POINT I HAD LOST IT I KNEW WHAT WAS HAPPENING AND I WAS INFACT NOT READY FOR IT. she then asked if either of us had met Taylor and I screamed NO so loud I’m surprised they didn’t hear me in Iceland. Then we got given the slip and wristbands and it was actually happening!!

The rest of the concert was a blast and she really sang I’m only me when I’m with you and like only 3 of us in my section knew the words and it was really an out of body experience with everyone else sitting down while we had the time of our lives singing such an iconic song.

Fast forward the rest of the show and all the memories to when the show had finished and mum and I headed to the section, we were the first ones there and were paranoid that we were in the wrong spot. Shortly after other people arrived and it became real and I could feel my head spinning and I kept reminding myself that this is not a good time to pass out 😂😂

Once we had the TN debrief and filled everything out we headed around the the REP ROOM. I died right then and there, it was beautiful and I was genuinely shook like I couldn’t function. After around 45 minutes of mingling, eating, drinking and taking Polaroid pics we were told to line up in our groups. THEN TAYLOR ALISON SWIFT POPPED HER ENTIRE BODY OUT AND GOES “HI GUYS” and I screamed and mum said I looked petrified of her 😂.

As the groups moved around we got closer and closer to Andrea and I couldn’t function. We told Andrea about how normally mums friend comes with us too but this one time she didn’t and now we are meeting tay, I also took the opportunity to thank Andrea for giving birth to Taylor and she replied with “well I didn’t really have a choice, but she was the easiest child to raise” and then I heard the words “next group please”

I ran into the little room and Taylor and I looked at each other and she goes “You’re Sarah, Right?” I pulled a face that wasn’t even human and gave her the biggest and most amazing hug I could have ever imagined and according to mum she buried her head into my shoulder and kissed my cheek! She then complimented my outfit and my not thinking straight brain goes “Yeah we could have matched if you decided to wear the same, but this definitely makes up for it” and did a weird shake of my costume and made everyone in the room laugh. Next we stood back and she ran her hand down my arm full of wristbands and goes “these are impressive” and did the most adorable head nod, and then I asked her how to tie the fearless bracelet and I kid you not she GRABBED MY ARM AND TIED IT WHILE SAYING “well let me show you, I just normally knot it a few times but sometimes I would have to use my teeth to hold it”. I was absolutely shook. I then told her that when I stumbled across her I was 6 and now I’m 18 and see looked me dead in the eye and says “12 years? HI FIVE TO THAT BUDDY” and when we high fived our fingers interlocked and it was the most amazing feeling of feeling loved you could ever imagined like she was really grateful that we had stuck around that long! Then she said “let’s take a photo” as we shuffled around she looked at my sequinned scrunchie and said “Wow that’s a cool scrunchie, they’re really coming back in now huh? And I was like yeah “omg they are so cute you should get some”(???? Next time tay posts a pic with a scrunchie in consider me jumping off a cliff CYA). We took the photo and I literally felt her breathing and the feeling of her head leaning on mine is a feeling that I can’t possibly describe! Once the photo was taken we all moved and I don’t know how but Taylor and I clashed heads and somehow my glasses got tangled in her hair and we had a little laugh, I then gave her one last hug and told her I loved her and she whispered “I love you more buddy” and mum and I left, and I have not stopped crying for the past 24 hours.

Honestly this is has been the literal highlight of my life. A big thank you to Taylor, Andrea and everyone working for/ with Taylor Nation to make Friday night possible! ALSO, a big thank you to everyone who kept their hopes up for me even when i was certain that it was never going to happen and to everyone who congratulated mum and I, I really appreciate every single one of you❤️

@taylorswift @taylornation

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