#tav with apd

[spacebarbarianweird]

Hey, I was wondering if you could do a headcanon list for Astarion with a Tav with Auditory Processing Disorder? I love your your work!

Ok, this was fun to do! Hope you will enjoy it!

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Headcanons

Astarion x Tav with APD

There is something weird about you.

You don't understand music, it's just a noise for you.

People often tell you something and barely remember anything they told you.

You prefer to talk in writing and get information from books but once there is a tadpole in your brain, you have to take a grip.

You aren't the leader of the party - and the tadfools found you in the Emerald Grove.

Wyll (who is in charge) lets you stay even though Astarion minds you for some reason.

You have issues with following orders and even casting the simplest spells is a hell of a problem.

For some reason, Astarion starts courting you, but all his flattery fails flat since you either forget what he said or interpret it differently.

It mostly comes to the fact he directly says he wants to have sex with you because you don't get hints.

You agree. Maybe you are too drunk. Or too desperate.

The night after you realize Astarion spends more and more time with you.

He speaks less but he often leaves you written notes.

In battle, you always stay close to him in case you mishear the orders. 

Astarion gets into a protective mode. As if taking care of someone helps him to heal.

And besides, he loves the fact he doesn't have to flatter you with his sweet words.

And he never gets angry even if he has to repeat the same things over and over again.

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[razzberrydazz]

Neurodivergence and mental illness headcanons and analysis with the BG3 cast! All of them have trauma there's no way any of them are totally mentally well (NONE of them are mentally fully well, being an adventurer is traumatic in and of itself).

Shadowheart and Astarion both have Borderline Personality Disorder undoubtedly to me, with Shart also having an extra dose of anxiety and depression on top of that. Being kidnapped and raised in a cult and being held hostage by a vampire lord are more than traumatizing enough to cause that.

Astarion definitely has PTSD from his time with Cazador. Shadowheart, Halsin, and Durge (if the player plays as Dark Urge) definitely also have PTSD.

-My analysis for my Durge is for a different post because there is so much going on there, but know that OCD and BPD and PTSD are all strong contenders for their mental idiosyncrasies-

Gale most definitely has depression and likely comorbid Autism and ADHD.

Lae'Zel is very autistic-coded to me with her directness and perceived low empathy and struggle to understand faerunian customs - many alien type characters are autistic-coded by the nature of their 'fish out of water' character arcs. She also has anger issues galore, and trust issues, she was raised in a militaristic alien cult society there's no way she wouldn't have fucked up emotional development. She's direct and quick to anger, but I don't think she's outright Rude - others may Think she's being rude but she's not, she's being honest and saying what she thinks.

Karlach is Sooooo ADHD coded to me, she also has hella anger issues and I do not blame her one bit, as well as a moderate dose of anxiety. Someone give her a fireproof fidget toy I beg of thee.

Wyll hides his trauma and issues relatively well, but I would not say he's as well-adjusted as many assume him to be. He's self-sacrificing to the point of extreme detriment, possibly a people pleaser, I am certain he has anxiety and depression that he does his best to mask, and he may not have full blown PTSD but he definitely has trauma. I get the impression he has a low opinion of himself due to his pact and often can even be self-depreciating especially when made to look like a devil, definitely has signs of depression in him. He is such a precious man and I want to help him see that he's worth so much more than he thinks 🥺

Minthara, while I don't know her character as well as the others, definitely has trauma from being raised in the toxic cult of lolth-sworn drow society, greatly reduced empathy (but not non-existent) due to said cult society, is definitely a sadist, could have developed Antisocial Personality Disorder due to the way lolthite society molded her (Lolthite society raises people in a way to predispose them to having APD if you ask me, since it's built on manipulation and fear and ladder climbing on the backs of others). Despite possibly having APD due to the trauma of Lolthite society, Minthara is not incapable of love and devotion and can grow to care for tav and other party members over time, perhaps even to a fanatical level if you romance her.

Halsin has trauma that he often brushes off or downplays, he can be quite self-depreciating at times, and from my viewpoint he is hypersexual as a maladaptive coping mechanism. Definitely has self-image issues and doesn't see himself as worthy of the love and affection and positions of authority he's been placed in. Probably has depression that he works hard to mask in front of others.

Jaheira has a long history of trauma that include the events of the first two games, I would not be surprised if she has PTSD, but overall she is pretty well adjusted all things considered. She has trust issues but I don't blame her, she has justification.

Minsc is hilarious, that man has autism I am convinced, he has trauma but I'm not sure if he realizes his trauma is indeed trauma and not simply a mild inconvenience in his life. Either none of his trauma is processed as such in his brain so he is genuinely that happy-go-lucky, or that jovial attitude is a mask. Boo is...Boo. I do not know the inner machinations of a miniature giant space hamster.

If anyone in the game is a Narcissist, it's Orin the Red (NPD does not make one inherently abusive or evil of course, no personality disorder or mental illness makes anyone inherently bad, Orin just happens to embody many of its traits to the extreme and has the traumatic upbringing to cause it). Her story is so tragic to me, she wants so badly for Bhaal to love her, she wants the admiration and affection of the god of murder so bad and she doesn't care if that means killing the entire world. She's incredibly tragic, she doesn't realize she's as traumatized as she is because it got channeled into her mask of self-importance and lack of empathy extreme sadism and want for admiration from Bhaal specifically. If it was possible to if not redeem her, at least spare her from death and break her out of her cult mindset, I would do it in a heartbeat. I love Orin as a character so much.

Gortash could be APD, but I think he fits Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder more. His want for control, for order, under the tyranny of Bane, to wrench control and revenge for the childhood he was robbed of, it's very fitting. He's distrustful and known for deceit but his ride or dieness with Durge and willingness to Risk It All for Tav is endearing to me, and could be him manipulating or simply be that he does in fact see teaming up with Tav as the best course of action for him to maintain his control. I'm biased I know, I like Gortash too much.

Ketheric is spiteful and traumatized from the death of his wife and daughter and the cult he imbedded himself in yes, but he takes it to an extreme in his lashing out from his grief. I don't think he's antisocial or narcissistic, I mainly think he's depressed and a victim of a sunk-cost fallacy taken way too far. He committed to the bit until the very end.

If anyone else could possibly have APD or NPD, I think it'd be the Emperor, but I also feel the mental quirks of being a mindflayer predispose someone to being manipulative and self-agrandizing. He is a Very sly and effective manipulator, and even though overall he has the common goal as the player and protects them from death and transforming into a mind flayer for the majority of the game, he is ultimately doing it for his own aims. He hid the truth of Orpheus and his own form for most of the game, because he was so distrustful of Tav that he believed they would never trust him otherwise - which he can't actually know as true or not. Unfortunately for him I chose saving Orpheus and helping Lae'Zel over helping him because his history of manipulation and omition of information caught up to him and caused the very distrust he wanted to avoid. He is a great morally grey/dubious character who can be both loved and loathed for his antics.

Dame Aylin and Isobel definitely have trauma if not PTSD, and Aylin probably is autistic.

Listen what I'm saying is autistic people have a surprisingly high level of charisma and they and other neurospicy people congregate together to make some delicious neurospicy food.

Those are all the characters I have thoughts about for the moment, and these are my headcanons more than anything, so don't take this too seriously.

[scatteredcloud]

Ok in Troll Cops (Radio Play) I noticed a while ago that the narrator speaks a little funny, specifically when pronouncing s and soft c, and it’s especially prominent in “Together, they are Troll Cops” where “cops” is pronounced more like “copfthss” leading me to believe that this is being narrated by Sollux, meaning that he probably isn’t one of the troll cops as is generally perceived. I’m curious as to where Troll Cops came from because I don’t remember it ever really being a thing like I kow the police force on Alternia was mentioned a couple times but where did the idea of it in the fandom come from? Because it was like a pretty popular thing right? Why is it Sollux/ Terezi/ Karkat on it? What did I miss? 

Sollux narrating also begs the question: Who is the other person he’s talking about? “She’s a gal with a knack for justice and has the force under her thumb” pretty clearly refers to Terezi but who is “He’s a guy who just joined the APD and finding his bearings is about as easy as feeding a (unintelligible) his cough syrup” (possibly cock syrup but I feel like it’s probably not that) referring to? I mean it narrows the list down by half +1 assuming Sollux is the one saying this and isn’t talking about himself in the third person but that leaved Karkat, Tavros, Equius, Gamzee and Eridan. 

We can probably knock Gamzee off the list for his tendency to be on the other side of the law, same with Eridan. I’m guessing it’s not Equius due to his much more passive nature and I think that it’s probably Karkat then? I doubt Tav would  ever join a police force. Maybe I’m being swayed by fanon and not canon but idk. It’s not even that big of a deal it’s just Sollux is so widely percieved as Terezi’s partner that it just kind of turns the whole thing on it’s head. Well maybe not on it’s head but at least 90 degrees. Counterclockwise. 

(If anyone can help me figure out how to get the audio into a post hmu)