#taste wasnt horrible and like i didnt feel too affected

[cinastre]

also i think i can fairly say i dont care for alcohol

[softzindagi]

doing a read more so people dont read this in case they dont want spoilers

So youve been warned

Click away if you dont want spoilers or my thoughts

Okay so

My biggest issue was making Edwina like Anthony enough to want to marry him- the whole point was that Edwina fucking knew Kate so well and could see how much Anthony and Kate went head to head, and actually found it amusing. The book was perfect for this, but creating this love triangle? Between sisters? Left a horrible taste in my mouth. It was my exact fear that this would happen and it fucking did. I just- as much as i was fine with how it ended, i just dont fucking understand why they didnt really take much at all from the books, they basically made it their own and i shouldve known shondaland would do this. Booboo the fool is me huh

I hated what they did to Eloise and Penelope. Call me a book purist but that storyline? That ending? Fucked I HATED IT. I hated that they showed whistledown as penelope in season one, bc the books dont reveal it until colin finds out and then WE ALL FIND OUT! The fact that eloise and penelope have this horrible break up makes me want to scream bloody murder

The race and immigration and scandal they created for Mary took away from showing any genuine motherly affection Mary showed for Kate and Edwina equally in the book. Mary here didnt show any motherly affection to kate until it was much too late imo. And the accents? Were not consistent at all tbh. They didnt have to be from india for the same family problems they created for Mary to still happen. (I say this all as a south asian)

I just- dont find myself as excited anymore for the new season. There was a lot of fun in the beginning but as soon as Anthony said he was gonna marry edwina and actually proposed to edwina? I couldnt be happy anymore

I just feel grief? Like i shouldnt have had such high expectations only to feel this horrible with the outcome

Obvs they did good things

The family bits have always been the best, showing the grief of violet and anthony was so good, and i didnt mind theo sharpe. The chemistry between anthony and kate was insane and i just wish it hadnt been eclipsed by edwinas pain and the guilt between kate and anthony for everything they both did.

I just feel like there couldve been MORE but there wasnt. And there were more than enough opportunities?

[watchyourbluesturngolden]

my annotations for chappy 11 of ysijwa

this is just for drea and leyla to read so if you're not drea or leyla pls keep scrolling :)

ok this is pretty chaotic and like i said earlier i treated this ike a wattpad comment section so... have fun ig :)

SHERLOCK AND WATSON CINEMATIC UNIVERSE SHUT UPPPPP I LOVE YOU SM DREA

NOT MISS SNAP CRACKLE POP

jealous y/n you say???

now i know why you ignored all my tiktok asks lmao

HELPLESS OH MY GOD

truly madly deeply intended :)

damn he's kind of a narcissist yk? like "I have to be serious my entire family depends on it" shut up mr darcy you're not special

devout in his religion hmmmmmm hopefully we see some more religious trauma content bc me too vampy

awww he wants kids but now he cant have them bc hes... dead :(

AWWW his sister taught him to knit :( if he doesn't knit bloodbag a sweater i swear to god

stuffy moron is correct

"IT'S A FUCKING WONDER HE EVER GOT LAID" OIJRIOJWEIOJIEWOJFIOEJOF

"THE ATROCITY THAT IS BEING ACQUAINTED WITH NIALL AND HIS HORRIBLE AFFINITY FOR CHEAP FLANEL" ORJFOIJFEIOWJ YOURE SUCH A POET

he's so dumb she was with him bc he's hot that much should be obvious to him🙄

FOOLISHLY HOPELESSLY UNMEASURABLY IN LOVE HWAT THE FUCK DREA IM SAD

i love that he remembers the spinal cord dislocation and the dead leaves . like yea im dead rn but the leaves in my hair are really what's bothering me the most

what the fuck is a maw

ok i looked it up i get it now

"attachment is for gullible idiots" yup and youre one of them vampy 😌

"the warmest skin his icy fingers had ever had the good fortune to touch" im so soft rn

oh so now she has "a wholesome beauty about her nature" ? i thought she was just cute enough 🤨

HE THINKS HER SMILE COULD RESTART HIS HEART THATS SO CUTE IM OUHOIJFOEWIJFIOEWJ

"the responsibility of keeping her safe, satisfied, and happy" how 🥺 🥺🥺

"as long as he breathes" i thought he didn't breathe lmao BUT I GET THE SENTIMENT

"always when it comes to her" IM SCREAMING RN THIS IS SO SOFT I CANT

ill never forgive him for being so dense either his brain is basically a rock

HE WANTED TO COMMUNICATE THAT HE BELONGED TO HER IM GONNA HAVE A STROKE

couldnt be me i dont want to be percieved

HE ADDED A FUCKING BUTTERFLY AFTER THE DISCO BALLS IM OIWFJIOEWJFIOEJIOEWNOJIWJ(*H(WUIOFJIOEWJFIOWHVIFUEH)U)($UT

HEY a hamilton obsession is not childish😤

'the only person who was allowed to touch him there was y/n' he's like a little kid who's possessive omggggggg

oh this reminds me i rlly hope everything in that chest was new and had never been used on anyone else owijfowiejfioewj

oh please my irish king can control himself let y/n meet the other vamps🙄

"if they knew all along why did it take so long" yk im wondering the same thing dummy

"every day was a battle to earn her love and affection" wtffff how could she hurt him like that he is just a baby

i think he needs therapy tbh

yes he does deserve to be treated with respect and dignity😤

"supporting and tolerating them despite your differences" exactly unless they're a republican

IM SORRY THAT WAS MEAN OIWFJOIWJFEIOw i said what i said tho

they did everything backwards but it's what baby needed🥺

im literally gonna 🔪 bradley how dare he hurt my favorite ribeye like that

PROPER BOYFRIEND-GIRLFRIEND BONDING PLSSSSS im sure he makes sure to say stuff like "as your boyfriend' or 'since youre my girlfriend' all the time now

"everything that has to do with harry has always and will always make her feel safe and secure" ...who's gonna tell her👀

HE BECOMES CLINGY IVE BEEN WAITIN FOR THIS ONE TURN IT UP

awwww my love language is also quality times bestiesssssss

(this is more serious you might want to change the words to nose kisses or something because esk*mo is a slur)

HE wants to be wrapped in HER arms and get forehead kissies like a little baby🥺🥺

i can tell you wrote this chappy bc leyla would never write about ice cream

IF CHRIST CAN GET A DATE MARKER SO CAN HARRY OIFJOEIWJFIOEWJFWI PLSSSSSSSSSS I LOVE HIM

ALWAYS FOR HER WEJFIOJWEIOFJEWIOFJOIEWJFOIEWJF HES SO IN LOOOOOVE

HE DID IT AND IM SO PROUD OF HIM🥺

omg i have a thot imagine if she got a heart murmur or something and obvi he knows bc he can hear it so now he has to find a way to make her get it checked out out without being suspicious 😭

HE ROCKS HER TO CALM HER DOWN WHEN SHES HAVING NIGHTMARES IJFEOWIJFOIWEFJ

“nearly blinds himself for eternity” what a drama queen i love him

maybe learn how to turn your brightness down grandpa

“can women sense emotional distress” why is this so funny oiewfjwieojfioewj

DEHUMANIZING OWEIJOIAJAKLFSDJLKSDJFKLD

not a psychotic episode 😭😭

crippling mommy issues woejfkljdklsjsdf me too king

awwwww he made her a full buffet i would cry

matchy socks im gonna sob

king is a chef 😌

y/n’s head @ harry’s clavicle rn: 💥

“his plush chest” drea its ok you can say titties

“absolutely flawless”? are you sure shes not just cute enough 🤨

he got her oat milk 🥺the sign of true love

hes such a shithead i love him

SPELLING HIS NAM E ON HER TUMMY IM HAVING ANOTHER STROKE

“I DIDNT WANT TO LEAVE YOU ALL ALONE” HES SO WOIFJSJFSDKJKLSDJF

HE DIDNT HAVE TO DO NIALL LIKE THAT 😭😭

RAPUNZEL HAIR OSIDJSKJKLSJF

she traces a tiny heart on him wtfffffffffff im sad

this… is hot

“theres no room on the counter” owifjlksjfslkfjklsj

HE WOULD WALK THROUGH FIRE FOR HER maybe then he’d be a little less cold

im sorry that was wrong of me lisjfskldjfwoiejewiojrei

OH MY GOD OWEIJFKLJSKLFJL SHES SO BOLD “can’t i?” OSIJFKSLJLKJF

oh boy hes gonna kill her

I WONDERED WHEN THE YOURE HOT WHEN YOURE MEAN THING WAS GOING TO COME UP

literally shut the fuck up mr english major

do it bestie kick him in the balls

SPARE BOOBIES MAAM I CNAT BELIEVE YOU aCTUALLY WROTE THAT OWIFEJWIJEKLJFOIEWHOEWIFEHFLKEWJFKLEWJKLJFL

IM WHITE IM ALLERGIC TO SPICE WEJFLKJFKLEJFLKJSKLJKFSJD

“character development at its finest” what a self aware king

y/n stop being mean to him baby just wants to feel close ☹️

“I’m anemic” ok king whatever u say

“ME AND MY CHRONIC ILLNESS IM SENSITIVE” IJFKLSDJFKLJSDKLJ

ahhhhhhh it’s yoga time

“just ask your cervix” jlksdjflksdjflkdsjflk

“if only you knew” ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

yeah y/n isnt like those other girls 🤪 shes different 🤪

yes bestie objectify him

THERE IT IS MY FAVORITE LINE IN THIS ENTRIE BOOK

PERHAPS MY FAVORITE LINE IN ANY BOOK EVER

“He hasn't been this stiff since rigor mortis”

i think about this on a daily basis i truly do

grey shorts? what a slut

“call the lapd im pressing charges” me after walking up the stairs

OH SO THIS IS WHERE THE GREYS ANATOMY CHARACTERS FROM THE SPOILERS WITHOUT CONTEXT COME IN

him using his shirt as a towel im BARKING

“I wasnt jealous” yea ok 😃

AGAIN HIM DRAWING HIS INITIALS ON HER SKIN THATS SO WOIJFSKLDJFLSJ

yeah harold she just wanted a little kiss 😤

yeah 😃 its bc he ran track 😃

no bc thats so fucking cute that she pretended she had never seen the show before bc he was excited to introduce her to it 🥺

I would do the same tbh i feel like it would be fun to wash dishes with harry idk why

“that skank” oisjksldfjklsjfklsdjflkd

YOUR THICK SKULL COULD DAMAGE THE MARBLE LSKFJKLDSJKFLSDJFKLSJFKLSJKLSJLDKFJLSKDJF I WOULD CRY

he gets her a cup of water 🥺

ok but like wouldn't she want to wash her hair after it got all sweaty at yoga

awwwww she got his toothbrush ready for him why am i so soft rn

memory foam mattresses sound nice but actually they kind of suck bc you sink down and feel trapped in them 😃

HE WATCHED THE TIKTOK SHE SENT HIM IM HAVING A THIRD STROKE

niall is probably on the dumbest side of tiktok idek what side but it’s probably annoying and he thinks it’s hilarious

noooo baby youre not a monster🥺 someone give him a hug rn

well actually you are kind of a monster but its ok we still love u bestie

I too run on caffeine and pizza pockets 😌

TONSIL HOCKEY WHAT THE FUCK OIEJFLSDKJFKLSDJFLSJLKFJSDKLFJ

chatsnap hes such an old man 😭

true lmao if you dont have social media i immediately dont trust you

not the i just washed my hands tiktok 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

HE FEELS STRANGELY PERCIEVED RN KJFLSJFLKSDJ IDK WHY THIS IS SO FUNNY TO ME BUT IM LIKE LEGIT LAUGHING

DO IT BESTIE BITE HIM CHOMP CHOMP

“my eyes are stinging” hes such a baby 😭

“MY SIGH”TS ALL FUZZY” SJFKDSLJFLKDSJFLKDSJFLK

“are you all right” “I dont know :(’ i cant handle this my face hurts from smiling lksjflkjafklj

he has a kitchenaid stand mixer omg thats so sexy

ok but has anyone ever gotten salmonella from raw cookie dough bc i think thats just a myth

fuck u for that one vampy

wow he could never deal with my chronically ill ass

WAIT IS IT WAP

NOPE ITS BETTER LSDFJSDKLFJDS

I agree body is absolutely an instrumental masterpiece

I KNEW HE KNOWS SOME TIKTOK DANCES I KNEW IT

“I know youre kinda into that (getting smacked in the face)” SHUT UPPPPPPP SKJFSKDLJFDS

NOT HIM TWERKING SLKFJSDKLFJDSKLFJDSKL

YES YN GET THAT VIDEO AND BLACKMAIL HIM

“I think i popped something” ok old man 😭

why is the word wench so funny lkfjslkfjdslkfjsdlkfj

dont hand it over i want to see him snap

OH SHIT HE JUST JUMPED THE TABLE LSDFJSDKLFJLKDNMNXCMNJKHOIUIOEUR

oooooooooooo

OH MY GOD AGAIN SHE REALLY IS BOLD SLKDFJDSKLFJLSKDJFLKJFS

not guerrilla warfare 😭😭😭😭

do it bestie give him a concussion he deserves it

“no piece of art could ever compare to her” 🥺🥺

“remember that time you told me making out was childish” “no” i hate him 😭

THERE IT IS AGAIN “sex isnt the only way he can feel close to someone anymore” SHUT THE FUCK UP IM SOBBING

this reminds me of the dehydrated intercourse with demonrry

“don’t care, relationships are about sharing’ hes so sdjfksldjfklsjf

DO IT BESTIE KICK HIS KNEECAPS IN

suing disney for false advertisement 😭

THIS SCENE IS KILLING ME LKJFKLSJFLDSJ “just pucker your lips over it” “You have actual brain damage, dont you?” DREA I LOVE YOU KSDJFLDSKJFLKSDJ

how do those bubbles taste babe

ok drea wtf i was so happy and now this??????

“everything’s wrong” NO SHUT UP SHUT UP ITS HAPPY HOURS

not the boob privileges 😭

WAIT THIS IS FROM THE BSE MV ISNT IT “dance is just so hot rn” “depressing shades are just so hot rn”

NOT HIM GETTING ALL STUTTERY WHEN HE ASKS HER IF SHE WANTS A DRAWER 🥺

NO ONE HAS EVER BEEN THIS GENTLE WITH HIM BEFORE WTFFFFFFFF IM CRYING

“youre so fucking cute, my baby” me when i see literally any picture of him

JELLO HAS a STRONGER BACKBONE THAN THIS KSFJSDKLFJDSKLFJ

“betrayed. objectified. taken advantage of. used. “ i hate him sm 😭😭

OH MY GOD IS SHE GONNA SHAVE HIS FACE THATS SO CUTE IM

SHE ISsSSSSS IM SQUEALING

stop him worrying she’ll think it's weird and wont want to do it 🥺

“bold of you to assume id ever be convicted” PLS DREA LAKFJDKSLFJ

“the more you talk, the more appealing manslaughter sounds” I CHOKED DLSKFJDSKLFJDKSJFDSKLJ

HIM WHISTLING TO GET HER ATTENTION WHY IS THAT SO CUTE

Im sorry but its really funny to me how you wrote the sentence “wrong metal, he thinks ironically” … get it ? like IRONically lkfjdslkfj im sorry i’ll show myself out

“this boy?” what a fucking cutie i want to kick him

I forgot what a bop helpless is thanks for reminding me im gonna go listen to the entire soundtrack again-

theyre so fucking cute i hate them

so yea bascally this is the best thing ive ever read and i love you so much and my face hurts from smiling :)))

[sinsforlove]

Sick Fuck NSFW!

Just some SumRick trash I wrote on AO3

[Chapter 1: Disgusting Lust]

Rick Sanchez was a man of action. He knew for a fact that school was a waste of time, booze was his only solace, and of course that he was the smartest man in the universe..

But to top it all off, he also knew he was a sick fuck.

Becuase here he was, thinking about Summer,as if he wasnt her grandfather.

He just couldn't help himself. It was like she was made to get underneath his thick hardened skin. She's always doing something. Like' the way she soaks up just the little bit of appraisal he may tossed her, caused by of her desperate need for approval and affection that was denied to her from her two fuck up parents

The way she just get the slightest twinkle in her eye whenever he showed her even the tiniest bit of acknowledgement. And when he gave it to her he'd love to watch her little cheeks heat up ever-so- slightly, over the littlest things.

The permenant Daddy issues that never failed to kick start his libdo for some late night stress relief

Not only that but she did to get the more intelligent genes from him unlike the other kid. Morty. The poor brat was only a tool used for the all intensive purposes of keeping him hidden from the government.

He'd guess his favorite part is that smug look she gets when she knows she right, or that competitive sneer she uses in her daily sibling rivalry. She clearly got something from him-

Grandchild. She was his fucking grandchild. And here he was practically drooling over her like some pathetic teenager.

"W-well shit-blerggp*- I-Im fucked up." The drunk muttered quietly, holding up his flask with a stagger and squinting.

'Her silky strawberry hair..grab it. Yank it back, show her how disgusting you are.'

"Even t-though it's b-be-errgfh*- been drastically proven that I-I have n-no unesscary r-restrictions concerning m-my morals - *grruuep* E-evn Id say this is p-pretty low on the s-scale for s-sick shit Rick." He scowled at his reflection on the metal container.

'Those plump pink lips, that curve ever so in the smug Sanchez fashion....wouldn't you like to see how pretty those lips be wrapped around your-'

"Stop." He groaned resting his forehead in his hands. Another bile of vomit attempt to slither it's up from his polluted body, only to be forced back down with a tight glup.

'Cherry dusted cheeks, but you'd like them more if your cum was smeared all over them,

He shifted.

'The curve of her breast, the hint of her nipples peaking out from that pink shirt whenever the temperature is a bit too low'

He rubbed the bridge of his nose.

'That tight little ass of hers that you want to spank until she cries, just to see that pretty face she makes when she does'

He took another swigg from the flask. He knew damn well it would only add gas to the fire at his inner demons were stirring up just to make his night a living hell. He could feel them clawing at the corners of his mine, exposing the vile mess of sin that he could barley contain

'So....pure, you want to ruin her. Make her as fucked up as you are, sick son of a bitch.'

He hit his tipping point. He wanted it. He want that angelic pureness that practically oozed out of her. He wanted to taint it. To destroy it. He would fuck it out of her if he had to, just to have her be as fucked up as he was. To see it writhe in pain, gasp in pleasure, and welcome every horrible aspect that he was, with open legs and pleadful cries

Closing his eyes, Rick tilted his head back cursing.

"F-blergghh*- fuck it. " He hissed chugged the entire flask. The only thing he could remember was the hazy view of him approaching of his blissfully unaware granddaughter.

---------------------------------

Summer laid curled up on the bed. Her hair sprawled free, loose from her usual ponytail. The barest hint of her upper thigh poking out from underneath the sheets like a soft tease. Her chest rose and fell with the soft snores escaping from her parted lips every so often.

Rick sat right beside her legs, raking his eyes up her body sickeningly, as the rational side of his brain blared in alarm, trying to reach even a morsal of moral code. He reached out, pushing the stray locks of hair from her face clumsily, grazing at the relaxed youthful face underneath.

His brain finnaly kicked with a sputter, letting off red flags. 'Leave!'

He undid his pants quickly . Dropping them down to his ankles.

'Stop!'

He peeled off his lab coat and the shirt underneath.

'This is Summer!"

Yeah it was. Which was why he ignored that part of his brain for the next part. Pinning the girl to the bed, he watched her blink awake with a panicked start, struggling before a hint of the recognization hit her and she calmed down, squinting in the dark.

"Grandpa Rick?" She grumbled forcing away the lingering effects of sleep.

"G-Grandpa Rick....y-youre naked!?" She flushed screeching, struggling to avert her eyes.

He ignored her and ripped the sheets off of her, throwing them aside. Yanking up her shirt to the sight of her bare breast. He ignored the sounds of protest, quickly slamming his hand over her mouth before she screamed. Giving her a warning glance he latched onto a nipple, masking from the cold air.

He shuddered, flicking his tongue over rhe pink bud, twisting it between his teeth with a predatory growl. Her muffled cries of pain is what snapped him back into it. He...didnt want to hurt her. No. At least he doesn't want to right now. Rick wanted it to feel good to the both of them for the most part.

He paused and slowly sucked on the pert breast with amuch gentler approach, before switching to the other side. It got the reaction he wanted when those muffled cried turned into conflicted moans, face screwed up in pleasure. He travled down the center of her chest, trailing his tongue around her navel before dipping along the waist band of her shorts.

Peeling them off of her, he glanced up. Summer was looking at him with shy hesitancy. Taking that as encouragement, he let go of her mouth- watching to make sure she wouldn't make a sound before he shifted down and between her thighs.

The soft patch of hair resting above her sex was soft to the touch. He nuzzled his nose in it shifting farther down, using his thumbs to spread her wet slit open for him. The pink flesh was warm and tender, and quivered under his slight touch. His tongue slipped out taste it, rolling tightly against her now exposed clit. The girl moaned arching her hips up to meet his face, grabbing his hair and shoving his head down.

He obliged her, slipping his tongue into her wet entrance, groaning at the taste of it.

"Rick...." She moaned panting lightly. Fuck, her voice sounded so good. Especially with his name on her lips.

He slurped up the flowing juice, pushing his finger inside her tight walls, pumping it in and out slowly. Her hips bucked up against him and he had to hold her down while he ate, using his free hand to pump himself.

It was all to quick when a loud gasp, followed by a gush of juices poured into his mouth, spurring his own climax to come out in quick spurts. Slowing his movements down he rested his head on the wet patch, the corners of his vision growing dark as he passed out.

(AND SOME NSFW FANART!!

[cielospeaks]

event review since the last one

Story- 5/10. tbh it is split down the middle. all of the “main story” stuff was trash. i didnt like either of the servants, didnt like their storylines, didnt like their designs. but on the other hand it did really well w izou. and seeing senpai get more screentime even if dog =/= wolf (oh my gosh game get this through your fiuccking head) is also always good. literally izou and sousukes friendship gives me life.

Free servant- n.a./10. honestly im glad a little bc i didnt like either gacha servant but also there was speculation that setanta would be added so. :/

Gacha servant- 5/10. i didnt like them so i didnt roll for them :/ its that simple. tho i was tempted at some point (before her goals in the story were revealed fuck that) to roll for ba kin bc i didnt want to separate izou and sousuke. but im glad i didnt lol

Event gameplay- 9/10. average in terms of events. but the dog expedition system was so wholesome it boosts up the points. goodest boys. you can pet the dogs in f g o

Other- 5/10. myroom was nice and inoffensive (i was reminded of how much i hated 2021 white day) and had sanshin music, so its good in my books. everything else was fine enough.

Overall- 6/10.

rated higher just for izou and the dogs, but they cant save the horrible personalities of the event servants, nor the bad plot of the event. at least it didnt really affect izou (or even hokusai, or senpai, or anyone else) in relation.

other events bc i dont remember if i did them

anniv was 6/10 bc xu fu is finally here! and also a good izou ce. the kon event was also fine (6-7/10 id say), im glad they did good (or at least not bad) by the trung sisters, bc they couldve just bsed it and made them “jeannefaces” or some nonsense. taisui is cute and fine enough, and a much better free servant than other suggested ones (please gosh no dont bring in lb6 shilling again). white day was garbage, 3 or 2/10 bc bad character and unfunny referential jokes (not offensive, just not funny either). golden week was trash, like even worse trash for making fun of people dying in natural disasters at the start and just overall bad. idk why the writers write abt a country they clearly hate and have prejudice against, and just continue to do what they condemn others for doing. 0/10 honestly, would skip. but i forgot to get that altera code so i need to not skip. fuck. i hate 2020s event more for personal reasons but i think for taste/morals the 2022 collab is worse. (2021 had some really iffy implications too, and just bad double standards with the event servant, but it wasnt as insensitive as 2022s nor as insulting to me personally as 2020s. 2019s was just boring and a bad story). valentines is 4/10. the lottery system sucks, and had mixed feelings abt (mostly ship/implications around) the new servant, but the actual character and abilities were fun to play with, and the valentines werent awful.

i guess ill write the summer one when its over bc i dont know rn. it could be eh or it could be fucking garbage. who knows

[jasminelaux]

The Signs as Reasons We Broke Up With You pt 1/2

 yall are abt to be exposed...

Use your moon, mars and venus

Aries: everyone loves you and everyone wants to get with you because of that fire you have in your soul. i cant help it. even i myself have fallen for it. but you just dont seem to care. sometimes in your worst state you can be seen as someone who is only out for themselves. and sometimes it can bring you to be in one sided relationships. but you know sometimes you can just be a little too conceited. everyone longs for someone who will make their lives special and significant, and you bring that to them... but sometimes not intentionally. it just comes with having you as a part of their life. i tried to get close to you, but we got burnt. and maybe you didnt try to burn me, maybe its because you got scared and your flame intensified. im not sure. and im sorry if i ever made you feel trapped and tried to suffocate your flame. just know that you will always have a special place in my heart. but the reason i broke up with you is because is wasnt our relationship it was purely to keep yourself occupied. here is a breakup song for you : idfc by blackbear

Taurus: in this world you are seen as the extravagant person who is in love with luxury. you are admired for your style, poise and taste. because you are known for this, many would assume that the reason we broke up with you is because you took all of our money or sucked me dry for your personal gain. but no. that is not the reason at all. we broke up with you because you expected too much. i gave and gave. and of course you returned a bit of our affections. but because you are ruled by love and driven by that, i just couldnt satisy your emotional needs. i love you, but i just decided that we werent right for eachother. im sorry. the reason i broke up with you is because you are so beautifully and emotionally complicated and wonderful in and out; just a masterpiece that requires excessive care that i cannot handle but i wish i could and i regret to say that i cant. i love you, taurus and you are beautiful, never forget that. here is a breakup song for you: somebody else by the 1975

Gemini: you are socialite that everyone loves. the party goer that everyone looks forward to. we all love you. ruled by mercury and sometimes sex, you are the ultimate combination. perhaps not the ideal lover to most, but anyone would be blessed to have the privilege to love and be loved by you. often times you called flighty and detached in love. but i disagree. if you were to truly be in love, you wouldnt have it in you to be detached for fear that it would hurt your partner. so contrary to everyones beliefs i dont believe that the reason we broke up with you is because you werent commited, i think its because we couldnt understand eachother. or to elaborate, i couldnt understand you and you couldnt understand me. the only thing we understood was our love for eachother; but that wasnt enough. we didnt understand our essences. the things that truly made us in love. we just understood our urges. the now things. the things we wanted, not the things we needed. sometimes i felt like you didnt even understand yourself. we cant be in a relationship that we dont even understand. its just not rational, which is everything but you. i dont hate you. i really dont. we both have problems that we need to work on and tbh you are one of the most strongest people i know. you dont need anything from anyone. all you need is yourself. you spend all of your life getting to know people, but i just wish you would try to understand yourself before you attempted to understand me because our relationship ended tragically and im so sorry that you got hurt in the process. pls remember that i love you more than anything and that youre not alone, i promise. here is your breakup song (this is also one of my favourite songs in the world so youre welcome, love): is there somewhere by halsey

Cancer: Most known for your maternal nature, but there is so much more to you than that. you are devoted to your loved ones and will almost do anything within means for them and expect the same in return. i broke with you because i felt bad. you are so perfectly imperfect and emotionally beautiful. your poetic nature and loving poise made me feel ugly in comparison. you are pure and i didnt want to taint you. i love you so much and i wish the best for you. i want you to be with someone better. this breakup wasnt for my sake, it was for yours. im sorry if you didnt understand it at the time.. i probably made it worse. the reason i broke up with you is because you were just too perfect. you showered me with love that i didnt deserve. then when you didnt get it back i felt horrible. i know i apologize too much, youve told me that before, but can i please just say it one last time. pls. im sorry. here is your breakup song: issues by julia michaels

Leo: you are the IT person. not romantically, just IT. im not sure how else to put it. some love you, some hate you, but everyone knows you. i knew you, and i fell for your strong personality but quickly realized you were too much to handle. the moment i met you, you painted our lives with your moods. your ego would fluctuate everyday of the week. i couldnt handle you. you picked fights with me, you would get cocky, which i absolutely fell for every single time. it just took an emotional toll on me and i couldnt handle it. our short lived relationship taught me much about your beautiful soul and how to remain strong. i love you for that. thank you. on that note here is a song for you, written by the queen of breakups herself: i knew you were trouble by taylor swift

[tiny-tragedies]

thinking about the ex today. it’s funny--i don’t normally think about her, or try not to. because it hurts, and i know i should be over it (am over it, mostly, even if the lingering impacts are what caused me to lose all my friends, my support network, so much more)

but today, i am thinking about the ex’s other ex gf. we’ll call her V.

V and the ex dated, and during this time I was in love with the ex, and all three of us were close. when i dated the ex, V and the ex were still dating (all poly, all known, not cheating or anything). I’ve kissed V, before. V’s comforted me. 

it’s been years since we talked probably. V doesn’t care for me, I am sure, and I can only imagine I am bad memories for her, if I am any memories.

i can’t stop thinking about her.

can’t stop thinking about how even though i kiss awfully apparently, V was polite when she said it: “interesting”. i think about those bad nights, where V came by, actually sat with me, didn’t get caught up in the People of things, treated me like *i* could be a person. i think about how she complimented my art, which is nameless and faceless, just colors and useless shit i try to use to get emotions out and fail to do. 

i think about how we almost kissed--for us, not for the ex like before. the ex had left the room, and V and i stood there, maybe a foot apart, tension between us. i am sure i read the room right, that V wanted to kiss me too. it couldn’t just be me feeling it. but neither of us did, because i’m a fucking scared pussy who can’t initiate anything and she, she was respectful, and also probably put off by me. 

there was tentative affection there— careful, like they were both worried about fucking things up and didn’t know exactly how to proceed.   [x]

i think about the time the ex and V had awkward piv while i lay in bed next to them, not secretive, fully aware i was there and awake and kinda of a participant in some strange way, and i wanted to participate but was too scared, too caught up

Jack knew all about how Jesse looked collared for Gabriel; how he sounded, the way he moved, the scenes they did together.  Jesse knew all the same things about Jack, and it hovered unspoken in the air between them, a tension neither of them could cut through. [x]

i think about the time V and i touched the ex together, me on one side of the bed, the ex between us, but it was all three of us sharing that moment. think about the time V and i first kissed, and the ex was focused only on her, oh that’s how she looks doing that.

“Keep going,” he said, voice raw.  Fragile in a way that made Jesse feel both powerful and terrified.

He hadn’t considered what this would be like for Gabriel.  Both the men he loved, learning the taste of one another. The touch, the scent, the sound.  [x]

i think about the time i cried on my floor, afraid to want to date the ex, because i loved her so, so much in a way i shouldn’t, i loved her so deeply and desperately and she didn’t love me quite as much back. but she said we could date. and V was fine with it. V was fine with the ex’s fiancee. and V was fine with me. even though she broke up with the ex later because the ex’s choice in another partner, because V “couldn’t do poly” when clearly it was just that person. because *i* was okay. i was just me.

He slept in there every night he spent on base.  He laid in Gabe’s bed, and talked back and forth with Jack on a holoscreen on a weekly basis, if not more often.  He wasn’t walking into a firing line.

It was just Gabriel and Jack.  [x]

and right now, i can’t stop thinking about how when V and the ex broke up, V and i talked (because i was the only one who Got it, who understood how the ex really was, not a monster, but a flawed person). and V said after winter break, when we got back, maybe we could be friends--talk, spend time together, develop our thing. it wasn’t explicit--we date--or anything like that. but there was an implication, that our growing connection could grow some more. again:

there was tentative affection there— careful, like they were both worried about fucking things up and didn’t know exactly how to proceed.   [x]

V came back from break, immediately started dating a mutual friend A, who i ended up hating and friend breaking up with. dated them and never looked back, until maybe this fall when V realized what a piece of shit that friend is too.

and the friend was good for V, i’m sure, better than i ever could have been. but god, it sometimes feels like something was stolen from me. no anger or bad vibes directed toward V--it’s all toward the universe. but it hurts, so much some days. any days, if i think about it.

i haven’t thought about it in so long. haven’t felt like it mattered. after all, the ex was the one who wrecked me, even without meaning to. who ruined parts of my life, helped me dismantle and destroy them. 

it’s been too many years. too long. too much. 

i would still give V the time of day, would still want to learn her, if it was ever allowed. (it will never be allowed).

i texted V last night, well, text snapchatted. not “you’re beautiful like a hibiscus flower”, send horribly spelled when drunk. not anger, not passing angry messages about A, not about her partner. not guilt, not about all the things i’ve done that ruined her life for a year. 

just, “Read a fanfic recently that viscerally took me back four years. Just wanted to say I hope you’re well, because you ended up on my mind. Hope that’s not too weird.”

she read it, no reply. not yet, probably not ever. it hurts deep in my chest. again:

there was tentative affection there— careful, like they were both worried about fucking things up and didn’t know exactly how to proceed.   [x]

god i just wish i could have been good enough.

[kellodrawsalot]

Top five worst Sonic Archie issues

So a while back me and @greenyvertekins​ talked a bit about our favorite Sonic Archie moments, I was thinking of doing a TOp five/top ten favorite Sonic archie issues but honestly the moments I and Greenyvertekis mentioned were pretty much my favorite/best issues. So if you want to read here! most of them are also from the best written arcs so .....

Then I thought, wouldn’t it be fun to do a top five WORST Sonic arche issues instead? :) (warning Im from the Netherlands so my English is bad, feel free to spell correct me!)

Number 05 Issue 172

Going pretty low in the list because despite this being one of  my least favorite issues it should be noted that this was the start from the comic getting better and better at this point, this ugly-face just was the blacksheep from that collection.

Not only was the cover a bad reminder that the comic was seen as bad-furry-romance-drama which I really hoped the comic wanted to distant itself from it, the entire issue is a sadlyalso  bad-furry-drama. It starts off with Amy Rose confronting Fiona Fox about the rumors that she heard from Tails that she is cheating on Sonic with Scourge, (the Green Edgy Sonic recolor) Now the story of Fiona Fox is a pretty sad one, she never had much of a character to begin with. She was first introduced as a robot in her child form to lure Tails into a trap. It turns out that Eggman based her off a real person: Fiona Fox who someway or another was left behind by Mighty and Sonic in Eggman’s prison and she manage to escape but stil holding a grudge and got angry at them for it, That is mostly what I remember her from in the past issues. From then on she would just be background character number 55 a freedom fighter with no dialog, the only times I sort of remember her was that she liked the idea of using guns, and that Sonic was afraid for Tails to be rejected by the too-old-for-you girl Fiona.Sonic wanted to talk to FIona about this issue and she mentions she still thinks SOnic is selfish for leaving her behind but that his sacrifice in issue 125 made her change her mind somewhat, That’s it. Now the weird story behind Fiona is that Karl Boilers planned to use her as a second-love interest for Sonic after Sonic broke up with Sally. Sonic was supposed to enter a relationship with Amy Rose shortly after the Sonic/Sally break up. (Keep in ind that Amy Rose back then was still 10 years old mentally at that time YIKES.) and Fiona for whatever reason was to become a rival to Amy for Sonic’s affections. Now Ken Penders apparently interfered with this idea and Karl and Ken changed it into...Fiona Fox becoming Sonic’s girlfriend instead...out of the blue....out of nowhere. At least with Amy you knew she had a crush on Sonic but with Fiona? why would Sonic ever enter a relationship with a girl he hardly interacted with and with a girl his best friend was crushing on? ..moving on various issues later and writer Karl Boilers and Ken Penders were no longer on board and new writer Ian Flyn entered into the picture it was by then far too late to clean up this mess and I could tell from the comic’s writing that Ian wasn’t sure what to do with Fiona, he tried to give her a more Sally-personality with a bad history but that felt tripped and forced. He knew he had to break the two characters off and he thought the best way to do that was to reveal that Fiona Fox became a bad-girl who fell in love with Scourge due to the events off Sonic 150 (dont worry that issue will be brought up later)

Not only did this came out of no where, it felt forced even if Fiona had no character it felt like she really was just a pawn of a writer not sure what to do with her. It also didnt help that the issue ends in a weird anticlimatic way  and in the next issue most of the characters dont even talk or seem to be phazed with Fiona’s betrayel and  Sonic would be slightly flirtatious with Sally and Amy in the next issue too, (Really Sonic you just got dumped.) The issues saving grace is a cute side story with Amy Rose and Julie Su training together and some decent/good art overall.

Number 04 Knuckles the Echidna issue 32

Yes Knuckles does count as part of the Sonic series, and if the list would be Knuckles comic focused this would have been number one. Not only was this the last issue of probably the most boring arc I ever read It also nailed the coffin on the Knuckles series as it was canned after this issue. It introduced two very uncreative very Un-SegaSonic like characters: Monk and Hunter whose design and motivations are as generic as you can imagine. Ken Penders tries to make you feel for the Monk-character but I dont think anyone was convinced. I own this issue as well and HONESTLY I forgot I even read this issue as a child it was that forgettable, even in my Knucklesfangirl phase as soon as I finished reading the last 3 issues I forgot about it, It also doesnt help that the covers while nicely drawn by Galan were cluttered and too busy, Ken Penders did the book’s art and while he did a perfect job drawing Hunter his cartoon characters were always off-model and the way he draws large mangaeyes didn’t look well. In other words the art wasnt good either.

I only remember these issues  because of @hedgehogscantswim​ review, which I suggest you guys read into as they go into much greater depth on their blog on the flaws of the art, the character designs of Monk and Hunter and the overall big problem the last issue has.  

Number 3 Sonic issue 134

Oh Yeah let’s talk about the big one, let’s talk about the issue that caused many Sonic fans to drop the comic, lets talk about the issue that split the fanbase in half and what made the Sonic-Archie comics the laughing stock of Sonic spin offs for years to come until Ian Flyn joined and the much later soft-Reboot. If the Sally/Sonic/Mina love drama didn’t convince people that the comic had badfurryromance drama this issue sure did.

Sonic sacrificed himself in issue 125 to save the world,  but was transported to a different planet cause science, he survived and had space adventures with Aliens, met up with Tails parents somehow...(Really those issues are all a blur too me at this point.) he came back to Mobuis only to discover a year has passed since then, he reunites with his nowwithlonghair girlfriend Sally and by issue 125, Sally makes it clear to Sonic that she wants him by his side as she is sort-of forced by her parents to no longer be on the battle field. However Sonic cant possibly do that, he is the hero after all, he cant be tied down Sally clearry suffering from trauma after Sonic’s death begs him to stay by her side, Sonic  tearfully tells her he can’t and Sally takes Sonic’s rejection pretty well and says that she knows being a hero is in Sonic’s blood and decides to reject her parents wishes and join her boyfriend and the rest of her friends on the battle field.

No wait Never mind, she SLAPS him across the face and calls him Selfish and breaks up with him afterwards.

Not only did this issue came in the worst possible time when the Sonally/Sonamy ship wars was rampant in the Online Sonic fandom communities. The motivation and reason for Karl Boilers to do this was in such a bad taste as well. Karl who MOST Likely was aware of the growing popularity of the Sonamy ship and the hatred the sonamy fanbase had for Sally, from people calling her a marry sue, a slut because her lack of pants, ugly due to her brown color sceme, and other funny-horrible things because shipping is serious business, Probably wanted to win and be favored by a part of the Sonic fan base and had outlined plans to have Sonic and Amy Rose become an official couple in the comics. (Even if Karl wrote Amy Rose as a 10 year old mentally girl with a body of a 12 year old together with a 17 year old teen Sonic.) They had to become a couple. How to do this you ask? by breaking Sonic/Sally up and portraying  Sally out to be a selfish cunt of a woman, not only was this so disgustingly out of character and a slap to the face to the sonally and Sally fans, it was all to make the fans to transaction to the idea of Sonamy instead. It didnt help Sally’s position in the fanbase and she along with Chris and Elise would be among the list of the most hated characters where extreme Sonamy fanbrats now had valid proof on their side.It would take years for Sally to recover. To add insult to injury the only nice thing about the issue is the introduction of new artist John Gray (whose animish-cartoondisneyish style was colorful, pleasant and very pleasing to the eye! was more then needed at that time since the art quality standards was low back then. )John has stated he did NOT like working on this issue either due to the content and story. I am so thankful that Sally has been much better written for years now.

Number 02 Sonic Super Special issue 07 Crossover with Image Comics

Where to start with this, oh boy oh boy. I put this very high on the list because this has to be one of the worst crossovers spin ofss I have ever had the pleasure of reading. and I mean that the Powerrangers/TMNT crossover was more enjoybale that this mess. This is also very high on the list not only because the art was below average and many characters were off models but Mister Ken Penders used this crossover special to shoehorn his own ‘’characters’ from his comic book series the Lost Ones. (who btw got canned after only volume 01) his characters got the most attention out of everyone else. A image-comics with Sonic crossover already sounds sort of weird and silly but hey I am Spawn fangirl, I am intrigued. But I dont even get that.

(oh wait, this is fucking it, Spawn appears for about a page to say no to Sonic and then leaves thats it??) FOR FUCK SAKE....

Honestly @robotnikholmescomicblog​ gave this comic a great review and I suggest going to their tag of Ken-Penders-Why as they bring out most of the flaws of Ken Penders writing and they said it better then I ever will.

Overall the issue is just a mess, with shallowcheap cameos of image characters, Sonic and the freedom fighters being DICKS to most of the human characters for no reason, a very anti climatic ending and a giant commercial for Ken Penders doomed and boring characters that nobody gave a dam about) characters that he planned to use in ‘’The Lost ones’’ and Knuckles 20 years later. With a character hinting to become Knuckles’s greatest enemy yet with a very ugly boring design that could rivals Hunter. (btw none of these concepts go anywhere, Lost Ones was canned, and Knuckles 20 years later didnt come in fruition the way Ken Penders wanted.)

and number 5, worst issue Sonic issue 150

This is my most least favorite issues up to date and why you might ask

well for one thing the art is okay, I give it that but it doesnt even start with Sonic,

no we get a quick-reveal  of AntiSonic pretending to be the real Sonic flirting with all the girls in knothole

We get uncomfortable panels of Mina Mongoose almost cheating on her boyfriend with Sonic, Sonic and Bunnie making out and falling asleep next together, Sonic being creepy at Amy ect and none of the girls seem to realize that this is obvious not the real Sonic but ANti-Sonic. Everbody fails to notice that Sonic is  trying to flirt with all the girls he gets his eyes on. Only Tails seems to quistion it. Shows how much his own friends seem to know him. Or his own freaking family. The real Sonic is stuck in anti-mobuis and is busy trying to convince them that he is not AntiSonic, it’s very boring and dull. Also since the real Ant was stuck in anti Mobuis couldn’t he have tried to come back to his own world with Sonic? I dont know that just confused the heck out of me, The extra side story also doesn’t help, Its the conclusion to TailS ‘’the Chosen One’’ which was,,,pretty lame too with bland-art, and has the unfortunate of introducing the fanbase to the still-hilarious Titan Tails

(OHfuckmethat’sstupid.)

So the stories are stupid, the art is okay and lame. Why is it so high on the list?

It’s THE 150 anniversary issue and this is how Karl and Ken apparently wanted to celebrate it? It also doesn’t help that the cover is really underwhelming and boring compared to the 125th issue but that’s it’s least of its problems. A short while later Ian Flyn and Tracey joined the team and Ken and Karl left. For the better. But talk about a lame way to celebrate a 150th milestone. What a waste. 

[bastardclownbaby]

I've missed my jab and I cant face ANOTHER late appointment I'm so so worried about my gran i wish i was at home but home isnt home i dont have a home i wish no one knew me so i didnt ha vee to leave anyone behind i cant stress enough that i have PROBLEMS and NO ONE CARES but i WANT no one to care but i also want SOMEONE to care but too many people care already if i kill myself i still have family and I'm sure 1 friend who is fully dependent on the fact that I'm alive which is stupid of them in all honesty i just want a place and a person to call home i think I'm in love with someone who i think is in love with me back but theyve got their own shit and so far away and im not what they want and im not in love with who I should be bc they're not a good person and home isnt home I want a home I want to feel like I belong and I just dont I d on t I sont I dont I want everything to be right but i dont want to fix it I just want to wake up one day and have it there and my grans gonna die soon I know and I love her so much and I hate myself so entirely for not seeing her for such long periods of time shes so frail and ill and I wish I could have been there for her more and appreciated her the way I should have been doing my whole stupid pointless fucking life I hate working and labour and I dont want a job but I have to pay rent and I dont wanna be a burden onmy humans I wish she had better taste in men and wasnt STILL living with a straight up child abuser and basically the reason I became depressed in the first place I want her to be happy I wish I was never born but at the same time I wish I could go back to being young and eating sandwiches with her and doing jigsaw on the carpet and seeing my gran with some life in her and not forgetting where she is on her own sofa i want my bear and i just want everyone i love to br free and happy and not burdened by me being a total pain in everyones ass i swear I'm trying to be a better person than I was before I was such an awful horrible entitled ungrateful child I wish I could have been so much older but not older when I had the best chance I'll never get that again I'll never feel so young and I have so much love to give I just want my gran to have it all and now I have to deal with whatever consequences come with putting this shitty stupid ramble out there that no one will read or someone will send some bullshit half hearted "it will get better" like sure fuck it will buddy and I'll grow wings tomorrow too you dont even really care you just saw someones sad bullshit ramble and made half an effort to be kind to them just bc you felt like you should is it so much to ask for some genuine goddamn affection i want a fucking hug