#talk shit about small schools that scam you they guilt and plead like 'we're just a wittwe small school uwu

[seeminglyseph]

oh shit we’re entering the world of sitting upright. I’ve decided to finish inking and colouring the cute anime girl because I think it’s gonna be really colourful and I wanna experiment a little. From there smut sketches and wips. please don’t be let down by my slowness, I do really wanna get to all the prompts and stuff ‘cause I am really excited about them, but right now I’m just really slow.

I still don’t know if people are really breathing down my throat or if it was just the RP I got kicked out of after years with a crunched schedule. I had to like grovel because I kept falling behind or getting delayed or not able to complete all the scenes. Between that and trying to do art school with dislocated legs, untreated mental illness and a deformed pelvis with an art teacher telling me how he did art school shitting blood and managed to pass so being in so much pain and on so much medication you’re hallucinating is no excuse for late assignments. they made me walk multiple blocks between unheated classroom and studio on legs that couldn’t support any weight. At one point I was literally bedridden, 100% needed to be half-dragged to the bathroom bedridden, and my mom told my teacher ‘the assignment will not be done.’ and he said ‘well [he] can maybe have an extension...’ which my mom responded to with ‘The assignment. Will not. Be done.’ because sometimes she turns he Karen powers to good. But it was still like ‘hey we’re gonna give you a zero on this then, but we won’t give you shit about it’

Now I dunno how much time a drawing is supposed to take. Pros say they can get a comic page or two done in a day pencils, but I will definitely take multiple days on just one illustration. And I can’t even manage a pro’s level of fashion and clothes design and details. I wish I could just audit some fashion design courses, why are there no local fashion design courses? (because you live in the worst place in canada, next question)

Ahhh I’m anxiety spiraling again so I’m gonna watch game grumps and pretend I’m not so amateur it hurts.