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#been a solid minute since I posted#welcome back to memes only I find funny#solangelo#will solace#tsats#nico di angelo#also lowkey kinda funny that will was on the verge of death the whole book and he still managed to take L after L from everyone#Tripped after being told to be careful#Coffee spilled on him after reassuring Nico the subway was awesome#summoning a mini army of birds and dogs when he tried to take a silly walk#cheese hat and shoelace soup after traumatizing nightmares#nearly knocked into The Abyss#hit in the face by his sun globe#like damn honestly i would also be pissed and cranky#how could i forget when he tried to speak trog and accidentally said he was going to eat them#and losing the oars to the canoe trying to build nico a cute minecraft house#i can't stay anything because im like this on a daily basis. i feel for both our boyfriends
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Crash Out
Nimrod IV
dont try this at home
(Content: death?, immortal whumper, knives, stabbing, blood, explosives, fire)
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Dark, dark, and darker still.Â
She heard a voice distantly. The same one sheâd chasing for months. The mark. His Highness.
âGod, fucking die already,â he panted.
As if.
The pain was blooming in her chest, trying to shape itself around his blade. All her other sensation flowed out of this. It traveled down through her fingers. She twitched her pinky.
The blade withdrew, then came down again. She fell back into the darkness.
~
12 HOURS EARLIER
Click. Click. Cliiiick. Click click click click. Click.
âYou should try it behind your back now,â Lorelai suggested.
Paris undid the manacles again, shimmying the locks on each wrist open. The shackles that Johanna had so carelessly lost possession of were heavy with rust and other peopleâs blood.
âAlright.â He readjusted in the passenger seat, moving up on one knee to give himself space to maneuver. He slipped the lock picks into his back pocket and clipped the manacles on behind his back.Â
Click. Click.
He struggled for a minute. Lorelai watched with mild amusement.
Click click click. Cliiiick. Click!
âFuck with me,â he said, freeing his wrists. The chains fell away from them, landing hard on the back of his ankle. âOw.â
He tossed them to the floor of the ship and fell back against the seat. He pulled the map off of the dashboard.
âYou decide where you want to go yet?â He asked.
âIâve been thinking about it,â Lorelai hummed, âIt has to be somewhere flat, with good sightlines. A planet where thereâs nowhere to hide. It should also be somewhere depopulated, so no alarms go off. And obviously, it has to be survivable weather if weâre going to camp out there for a while. No hells. Thatâs a given.â
Without looking, she tapped at the map.
âThis one.â
Something in the way she said it made him blush.
~
They were smoking out by the picnic table the same way they did back in school. The air shifted.
âSheâs here.â His eyes widened. His weapon hand moved on its own to the sheath, the off-hand drawn up defensively to his chest. His whole body tensed up in anticipation of attack.
âYouâre sure?â Lorelai looked around too. She gasped.
Johanna stood unmoving, half hidden behind the tree. Her eyes were blank. She stood there as if sheâd been there for hours, long before they arrived. But that was impossible. She was looking at them, maybe, but it was hard to tell. She didnât seem to care whether she was seen or not. She was almost invisible in the shade.
She turned and ran.
God fucking damn it.
âThat wasnât the plan,â Paris said, âShe wants us to follow her.â
âI donât think weâre going to have a better opportunity, though.â Lorelai was already walking after her.
Reluctantly, he pulled the gas can off of the table, following them out into the pines.
~
She was winning. She was always winning. He knew it was a trap. Knowing didnât help.
They lost track of her early. She moved too fast. He took notice of the way Lorelai looked up, watching the tops of the trees, like she may have been hiding among them. When Johanna had stuck her with the knife, she said, sheâd dropped down from a branch to do it.
There was still no sight of her. But for the first time, her ship came into view. It stood alone in the clearing.
He looked around again. Nothing. No sound, no aura. He waited. He realized.
âGod fucking damn it,â he said again, shifting the gasoline to the other hand.
âLetâs just do it. You do it. Iâll guard.â Lorelai pulled the gun off the back. She ushered him closer to the dormant ship, standing between him and the rest of the wood.
âYeah, letâs just mix explosives while we wait for her to come ignite them herself, fuck it,â he grumbled. He was already getting to work though. He had remembered one recipe, at least.
âShe wouldnât blow up her own ship, would she? Probably just wants you close to it.â
Lorelaiâs gun didnât have a scope, but she kept her face level with the barrel like it helped her see the whole world more clearly.
He pressed the styrofoam down into the gasoline.
His hands stopped, abruptly, as he saw her crouched low to the ground, right beneath the ship.Â
There was no time to react. The crouch turned into a pounce, immediately, and the knife was at his throat, and he had fucking napalm on his clothes.
He thrashed too much â and the knife got his throat again. She wasnât trying to kill him. Sheâd never been trying to kill him. But she was losing her patience lately. Theyâd both stopped being careful.Â
âYouâre chinning out,â she gasped.
âIâm not,â he answered, childish, too defensive.
Johanna pulled her fist back. He flinched.
âYou are!âÂ
He was.
Lorelai kicked her in the side of the head. That alone mightâve been enough to kill her, if she was fucking normal. It gave him the opening he needed, though. He drove her own knife into her neck. Johanna stopped moving.
He shoved her limp body back, immediately stripping his jacket off. It was soaked in the chemical. Parts of it had spilled onto his face, his neck, his hands. It burned distantly. He was shaking.Â
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Lorelai took over. Her hands werenât shaking â and she knew her way around passenger ships more than he did. She knew how to fuck up the batteries on them. It would just take her a second.
All he had to do was guard the body.
He swore sheâd gone down too easily that time. Had it actually been a trap? Had she even meant to lure them when she stood and stared like that, when she ran off? Maybe she was actually trying to forfeit this time.Â
Her blood soaked into the dirt. What was her problem?
Her finger twitched again. He slammed the blade back down into her heart.
He hoped she couldnât feel it. No matter who she was, he hoped to fucking god she couldnât feel it. He knew firsthand what it was like to have the foreign object driven straight into the chest. He did it to her over and over again, every time she moved, drawing more blood than he wouldâve thought possible.Â
He thought he would be okay if he never saw blood again after this.
He took to sitting beside her body, his fingers pressed up against her wrist, awaiting the faintest pulse before he had to damp it down again.
He swore she was starting to come back from it faster.Â
âLorry, hurry the fuck up!â He yelled.
âIâm trying!â
âSwitch with me?â He called hopefully.
âNo, no, I almost got it.â
She shifted herself out from beneath the ship, carrying a long, thin piece of metal.
âI got it.â She grinned. She dragged the napalm mixture down to the shipâs guts. âStart running.â
Paris pulled the sword from Johannaâs torso. He backed up into the hill, slowly until Lorelai came back up to join him. Then he moved much, much faster.Â
~
They were further than they needed to be for that kind of explosion, but Paris still pulled her down onto the ground to keep the shrapnel away. She watched with eager eyes, some latent appetite for destruction present in her yet. She liked to watch monster truck shows when she was little. This wasnât that far off.
The first explosion was loud, but not as fiery as  she wouldâve hoped. Not as colorful. It was mostly self-contained, traveling up into the ship, tearing it apart.
The secondary explosion was massive â and totally unplanned. She could feel the heat fresh up against her skin. So much light filled the valley. For a minute, everything was soaked in a brilliant red. Far away, she heard an alarm go off.
Paris blinked the gunpowder out of his eyes, laughing a little bit.
â-probably had bombs in the ship already. Fucking psycho-â
Her ears were ringing so badly she had barely heard him. She laughed too. Like she was ten years old, she held her hand up to him. It made them laugh harder. High-five!
#whump#whump prompt#whump scenario#whump writing#whump community#death#immortal whumper#knives#stabbing#blood#explosives#fire#crash out#paris#lorelai#johanna#i honestly struggled w this one so much LOL it had to be written but i didnt reallyâŠ. care for it#wow awesome im sure johanna will stay gone now! no need to worry about that anymore! yay!#this chapter made me realize just how fucked up parisâs sword must be by now#he doesnt sharpen it or take care of it and hes stabbed it into the ground hard as fuck multiple times.#may thy knife chip and shatter
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Just read a fanfic on Ao3 instead of sleeping- literally crying of joy. Itâs a series of fics that are basically just porn but with tons and tons of plot lmao
Anyways character A proposed to character B in the fic and they were all lovey dovey and I couldnât stop smiling and giggling to myself.
Despite my AroAce spectrum bitch ass, I love romance so much. To the point where I started yelling âWhen will it be my turn??!â; in case you donât realize, Iâm a sucker for well written stories with romance and smut and absolutely no angst because I have relationship trauma and I love reading about perfect and obsessive relationships..
Sorry for the completely different post, and that I havenât been posting a lot- but I just wanted to say that if you write fanfics, you are probably making someoneâs day. Itâs always okay to take a break if you donât have any motivation to write or if you canât write because youâre busy, just remember that you matter. Your followers shouldnât come first, your health should. Because a healthy creator, makes radical creations! <3
#ao3fic#ao3#ao3 fanfic#fanfic writing#smut fanfiction#fanfic#fanfic authors#you are awesome#stay cool#swag#take care of yourself#just something silly#stay positive#you matter#stay silly :3#positive thoughts#positive post#love yourself#love your work#sorry for not posting#take a break#you are valid#you are amazing#stay safe#you are loved#you are special#you are appreciated#you are beautiful#you are enough#believe in yourself
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I don't know how or why but I think I have a girl crush on you you are so cool
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Wahhhhhhhhh! đ I'm so sorry my answer took so long but tbh, I had no idea what to answer because I wasn't able to find words that would really show how freaking happy your ask made me. Like seriously, you're so kind and it's just such insanely huge honour for me to read this. When I hear people saying they like me it's just so mind blowing for me. I can't describe how much it means to me. 'Everything' would be an understament. Just a big thank you for taking the time to leave those words in my ask box and for making me so happy with it. I wish I could give this happiness back to you somehow. I appreciate so much. People just randomly leaving kind asks is unbelievably wonderful and the world really need more people like you. đ„čđ«¶đ»
And I can tell you're fucking cool as well! I mean it! đđ
#nahhh I can't jwksiudoebdjid#Iâll never forget this trust me#I'm going to hand this on my wall in a golden picture frame!#Please take always care of yourself and stay healthy and safe dear anon#You're amazing and incredible and lovely and awesome and wonderful and gorgeous and EVERYTHING#thank you đ„čđ#hbj answers#personal#cute anon#<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
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I AGREE its so crazy how zap gags weren't a thing.... like TTCC really popped off with that one! i understand TTR is moreso sticking closer to the way TTO was but WOW zap just feels so natural with a REALLY good mechanic that uses strategy in using squirt and its just so good.... also my favorite track
YEEEPP!! That's how I feel about it. Squirt and zap just mix well together. I also think the addition of an 8th gag track was also a good move, allowing for a nice rotation of combinations (like how lure-trap and throw-drop are together as a combo). And also its a nice even number. I also think it helps utilize squirt, idk just feels good to do in general. Of course, I don't really have anything to compare this to and it's just me speaking as a player of (currently) one server, so take what I say with a grain of salt.
It's my favorite too, zap warriors UNITE!!
#clemask#clemramble#this is also not me hating on tt r either#actually i probably dont have to space that out because this is going to appear in word search anyways but still#i know sometimes there's a little bit of competition (is that what youd call it)? between the two servers. i want it to be stated that#i do not care about server comp. play what you want. who cares. i think both servers have their pros and cons and finding value in what YOU#like is more important than which one is the ââbestââ. I think TR does an amazing job of taking TTO and transforming it into something more#while also staying true to the original game. i love the fact it brings some of the old concepts that were originally scrapped or lost#i also like the toon events that they have. like there was the halloween one and if i believe correctly it had a parade in it?#SUPPPERR COOL. i shouldve atleast played a little during that time just to experience it. but to be fair during the school year my#playing in general is toned down a lot. im sure everyone reading this knows how it is#and obviously i like ttcc. it has mac and winn. i mean what who said that.theres a ghost in here....#and i can understand why people like or dont like each server. they all have pros and cons. but to me its like the two cakes image#sorry i felt the need to clarify bc i know im kindof exclusively a ttcc guy and me going 'ummmm well tt r doesnt have zap' might sound#like im hashtag hating but im not. tt r is awesome ok. i need to try it out one day.#i just really like zap as a gag. like anon stated i think it just really feels natural to the game#that water electric combo does wonders
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*scrutinizes the dash*
yep !! all good !! you're all beautiful, perfect & strong as always !!
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okay but i really am. in love with writing. like deeply and passionately.... there are so many little things to think about. character growth setting culture conflict pacing tension voice. and knowing when to revise and when to do small tweaks and when to throw it all away and start again from scratch. it's such a vast and delicate collection of skills and we're all constantly growing into our new selves and our writing reflects that too!!! it's amazing!!! writing is the best, i'm so glad that i'm a writer
#and you don't even HAVE to care about all that to be a writer!!!!#you can just. write. say 'i want to see this happen' and then you do it!!!! and it's awesome!! you're no less of a writer if you don't#put in the same amount of effort or layers of symbolism and stuff. all it TAKES is telling a story. and from there you can go as far#as you want or stay as simple as you want and both are so valid and good#idk idk i'm just.... it's so amazing. writing is so good
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lore star trek character of all time btw. he's just like me for real
#have i watched all of tng? no! but i have watched the like. two/three episodes that he is actually in so i think i'm caught up lmao#i just. well. god. i don't even know how to verbalize it#boy who is words-based and identifies with lucifer paradise lost when he sees data's fucked up awesome brother#his resentment at his creator for making him imperfectly but also for Not Loving Him. making him Too Imperfect To Love.#the way that he continually reaches out to data even when he's doing things to actively sabotage him#so that it's CLEAR that he cares. clear that he's acting and thinking a certain way to head off all the care that he's been burdened with#you Have to care about someone in order to be angry that they don't care about you.#cause wouldn't it be so much easier for him if he didn't care about dr. soong? if he didn't care about data?#but continually he's taking the time nd the risk to reach out to data. to ask him to join him. to offer to stay together.#because he's LONELY and because he CARES.#and god is it really his fault that he was created this way?#his last words being 'i love you brother'... i go INSANE.#valentine notes#star trek tng#lore star trek
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ended up dancing for several hours today to a bunch of old choreos, kpop songs, and all that tonight. felt so cathartic and nostalgic aaaaaa
#jj.txt#mainly just posting these here so maybe i can remember some good times and funny things later on#feeling a lil sentimental these days#just felt nice to reconnect with good memories and disconnect from the world for a little bit#and to get some exercise again#bc i do little bits of stretching or other stuff but like my lazy/depressed ass normally just *exists*#hope everyone's been having a better/good 2024#love yall. best wishes. miss yall dearly. please take care and stay awesome you beautiful people <333#xoxo jj <3#(or aerin or whatever sideblog/admin name you know me as hahaha)
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Its been bit tough to exit lately, thank you for everyone who makes it easier...
#I love coming back here and being with you all#i just wish i could be...better#stay awesome folks.. alright?#ill be back to ya with responces and some more tomorrow#take care and thank you so much for makin place for this dumb werewolf in your heart and time lately
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I gotta hold myself accountable to when I'm making content that's not really based on canon at all, so I remain self aware & whatnot, but I still occasionally think things like "but blurr should be arcee's number one fan đ„ș.... bc i said so........"
#đ could you repeat the last part? đŠ#i make a good effort to stay self aware bc i dont want to lost in fanon delusion. i cant let that happen to me#also it would be hypocritical of me to go ''i dislike this fanon it has no basis in canon''#when i also like making up shit if it's interesting#so i make it clear that im just picky abt hcs and stuff like that#for me to enjoy them they gotta contribute something interesting to the source material but not come out of left field#and i dont rlly care for edgy stuff if it doesnt rlly serve much purpose#so i dont rlly care for hcs like ''bee is ACTUALLY megatrons great nephew once removed !!!!!!!!!!!!''#they do nothing for me i just go ''man i dont care'' and turn around#like thats just personal taste though and im a notoriously particular & picky person so. who cares what i think u get what i mean#though u should care abt arcee fanboy blurr bc its good and awesome alright /hj#IT THINK ITS FUN AND CONTRIBUTES AN INTERESTING TAKE ON CANON ...#bc blurr admiring arcee 1) makes sense bc arcee is genuinely a badass & literally worked in the same division he does#2) brings more focus to the parallel between them about how they got seriously injured in ways that impact their most notable qualities#(arcee having her memories wiped when her mind is one of her most important qualities as a school teacher & intel agent)#(blurr having his body damaged & handicapped when speed achieved by his physical athletic ability is a defining part of his character)#3) solidarity in that trauma baby. and arcee can be blurr's gramama (applause amazing brilliant we love to see it)#and also who doesnt love to see blurr having girlbosses idols. arcee inspires him to be a girlboss too#see this is how ridiculous i am i have to have these detailed thoughts abt hcs i cant just go stupid#no i cant change this about myself btw#i am pretentious at heart i have to be like this with media i enjoy#but still i always try to indicate that i am aware that my hcs are just fan interpretations of stuff so i dont like#accidentally come off as me forcing my ideas of canon onto other ppl like. this is just my lego city that im building i know of my bullshit#though i still do draw deep lines for things like . blurr being social (shudders)
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can i be the sinovial fluid inside the joints
hugging each other is not enough, i want to be the blood flowing through your veins
#sorry to ruin your beautiful post op#but this is the first thing that crossed my mind#also. I'm obsessed with rheumatoid arthritis so i ended up knowing a lot about joints and they are AWESOME#anyway now I'm going to try to salvage this by staying poetic and true#i think your joints actually represent a big part of your freedom#like. in many forms of rheumatism the muscles will remain unaffected. but you might still not be able to move freely#because deterioration of the joint space generally causes some much pain#it's the only thing that allow you to move without constant pain due to your bones rubbing against eachother#drawing. dancing. playing music or games. everything depends on your joints working correctly#so please take care of them. do some joint strengthening exercices. be careful not to bear to much weight.#and watch out for autoimmune disorders as they are very common causes is rheumatism#and of course take care of the rest of your body. but this is joint appreciation post
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i wish there was a way for me to likeee. semi change this one thingin this one mod. but 1 im not a modder 2 i feel like thats disrespectful. i just want sort of an inbetween between the game and this mod but that is not a thing that exist... sigh
#NOT COMPLAINING ABT THE MOD just personal preference im not saying the mod bc i dont want it seen as an attack but basically i like mods#that add a bit more realism while also keeping some stuff yfm... like 4 example Random example unrelated i like the idea of Having to decid#what to do with the remains of a dead sim and having the body stick around but i also like having the grim reaper appear.... so in my ideal#death mod the sim dies and then the grim reaper shows up to like. take their soul but the body stays. im not a modder so idk how possible..#also ig that kind of doesnt fully make sense since the ghosts r still afoot so ig itd just be him severing the connection btwn the body and#soul right. not taking anything... which i suppose is what he does in the basegame is he severs the connection and then takes the body w/#him. which is kind of funny. whats he need that for is it just courtesy or is he doing smtg w/ them. bc ik you get the gravestone/urn when#they die and those r the remains but like. ? he just like. conjures those doesnt he. body vanishes and then those appear. does he just#rearrange the atoms of the body into those things. bc i dont subscribe to the idea that he actually digs a hole for the corpse idt theres#anything down there bc u cn put a basement right under a grave and no issues. so i think he magics the bodies away and then either somehow#transforms those bodies into the appropriate grave marker (unclear on if theres even actually ash in the urn like is that mentioned. OR he#takes them leaves the urn and gravestone and then just has the bodies to do whatever with. WHATS HE DOING !!! is it a nice like Ill just#handle this so they dont have to (presumptuous. caring for a body is a rly important thing in many cultures and it can be a great way to#process a loss for some ppl (not all obviously. grief is very personal this is one of my autism things sry)) but ig in simnation society it#isnt that important Evidently. but idk... either hes taking them as a favor to help out/soften the blow bc obv nobody Likes seeing the grim#reaper olive sit down. connor sit down. so hes like well ill handle this. or is it something more nefarious WHTS HE DOINGG tell me. i think#funny to imagine he just teleports the body elsewhere ik he prolly just destroys it but its kind of awesome to imagine theres a giant magic#crematorium and like. a columbarium. idk why i assume cremation itd just save space in his. realm? i he has a realm. if i were him and i#didnt have a realm id be kinda pissed id call the watcher and be like heyyy um... yk. but ya i think thats cool bc i love lands of the dead#gotta be one of my favorite things (autistic) and i think its just cool to imagine a place where the remains of every person whos ever live#r kept. be that their soul as is traditional or their literal remains in this case. isnt that kind of cool.. love it. but again we probably#arent supposed to rly think abt it he prolly jut vaporizes them into nothing. i just wanted to have fun... bring a positive sort of vibe.#anyways. i would like to be able to have The body just bc i think thats cool and i think itd be awesome to have a mod that adds in more#grieving practices from around the world but obviously thatd be like. HUGEscale bc there are a millionnn different ways to grieve. and its#all so interesting to learn abt. read from here to eternity. by caitlin doughty. smiles <- it doesnt cover Everything obv but it talks abt#lot of stuff from around the world in a rly respectful way and its incredible to read abt and learn. my autism . but i genuinely love#learning abt grief and mourning and funerary practices in other cultures i rly wish that so many practices werent lost to colonization wher#ppl were forced to abandon their way of caring for their dead just bc it seemed ghoulish or barbaric or whathave you to the missionaries et#idk. id put death it up there with food as one of the biggest cultural signifiers...i cant continue the tag limit. wtvr. u get it
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i am TIRED but I am gonna get this money and i will be so goddamn good at artist alleys!!!
#getting paid three times a week to take care of babies (something that is easy and comfy for me) is actually awesome#and it could be so much worse I could be doing 10 hour days like I used to or all the kids could be Rowdy#but now Iâm working shorter days and getting paid more so đ please let me stay healthy#all my families are really kind and have been flexible with me so Iâm grateful for that#on Sunday I can sleep
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Idk they give me the vibe of like,,, not yet thinking about kids when they're living together and then they meet this random kid who doesn't have a place and they kinda go "well, we can't just leave them here" and then that's how they adopt kids (or pets honestly)
#i do think with Leo's past especially they would try and do smth for kids in foster care etc#but i also feel like. especially when they're still young young. they'd both have that insecurity of like#âi never even had a (good) dadâ and âwould i even know how to dad??â#so i think they like.. have their little chats and talks about it all or are only planning to adopt or foster kids later#but then there's this wet cat of a child and well#they can't just do nothing#so the kid kinda starts living w them#and Leo knows what it's like to be on the run as a kid and how staying at a stranger's place is not generally a good idea#and also Jason was raised by wolves and to be a soldier idk i feel like that counts in here somehow#so i think. even if the kid is sceptical at first or doesn't âliveâ live there. they'll get along pretty quickly#maybe it doesn't start out with âhey you should live with usâ but more so a âit's pouring outside and you don't even have a raincoat.â#âat least take this umbrellaâ or smth like that#maybe the kid looks hungry and valgrace was going to get take out or smth and offer the kid some of it#idek#this all sounds really creepy when i type it out#it was mostly a spontanous vibe#i think they'd have a similar attitude towards children as Magnus and Alex do#except Fierrochase just started their own children's home thing if i remember correctly#so that's fun#would be funny though if they also just start a place for rogue demigods where kids can find shelter and support#and some of them just choose to stay bc it'd be awesome to live there
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Can you please do a part two of the Sebastian fluff where he lets his thoughts get the best of him and gets anxious that reader now sees him as a monster because of what they read on his document so he prepares extra good items and plans to give them heavy discounts and even some free but reader barges in like
"MANTIS SHRIMP??? PUNCH SOMETHING RIGHT NOW"
And after a bit of reassuring(possibly some punching too bc reader is too starry-eyed for him to say no to em) Seb realizes he trully never had anything to worry about and just, generally grows fonder of reader?
Ps. Adore your writing, keep up the awesome work!!
"God, why did I let them take it? Stupid, stupid, stupid.."
Sebastian couldn't stop beating himself up, even though he knew he shouldn't care about the opinion of any human sent by Urbanshade--especially one of the "expendable" class.
Yet because it was you, specifically--who was currently in possession of his document--he began to wonder what you'd think of him once you found out the truth:
That he was nothing but a horrible monster. Plain and simple.
If not the knowledge that he was a hideous chimera of several sea creatures' DNA...then surely the revelation that he caused the lockdown of the Blacksite would ultimately make you resent him.
He released all those creatures, who stopped at nothing to prevent you from reaching the crystal and had you running, fighting, or hiding for your life.
He was responsible for all the injuries you've sustained while crawling into his shop, desperately needing a medkit and a place to rest.
He would understand if you'd never want to visit him again after what they documented about him..but the image of your furious expression and overthinking the words you'd possibly say to him left him feeling incredibly anxious.
Suddenly, Sebastian found himself gathering more supplies. Medkits, code breakers, and every light source he had currently in the shop, trying to market down whatever he could. He was even willing to let you take batteries for free...which was something he'd never normally do.
Would it be enough to make up for everything horrific you discovered about him and the terrors he indirectly put you through? Absolutely not.
Was he willing to try it anyways just for the small chance that you'd keep visiting him? Maybe.
No other human has shown him a single ounce of kindness or gratitude for his services. Nobody except you, of course, and he refused to lose that.
-thump, thump-
"Shit.." He froze, hearing movement in the vent duct, hands trembling for his light to shine brighter. Part of him wishes he could stay in the dark, as he didn't wanna see your face and whatever hurt expression it could possibly hold.
But he knew it'd be rude if you actually needed to buy something, so he forced himself to look as your familiar figure crawled out of the small opening. You seemed out of breath, like you were just running from something, and stood up to dust the dirt off your pants.
"Sebastian..I need to know something, and you need to be 100% honest with me."
The moment you pulled out his document, the shopkeeper could feel his heart sink.
"Wh..What did you want to know?" He asked, already bracing himself for the worst.
You sounded dead serious, and he was convinced you were finally going to let him have it.
You were going to force him to explain himself and his actions, and tell him what a monster he truly was. Literally and metaphoric-
"Its it true that you have mantis shrimp DNA????"
Silence.
Of all the possible outbursts he expected from you, that certainly didn't cross his mind.
Sebastian just stared down at you, utterly dumbfounded. He blinked several times, unsure if he was truly seeing the wide smile and starry-eyed look on your face.
He had been waiting for a deep scowl, eyes full of anger and betrayal and sadness that he wasn't the "friend" he claimed himself to be when you first visited his shop.
Yet now? He saw nothing but pure delight in your expression.
"Um..yes. But of alllll the things you read about me, that shocked you the most?" He was still treading carefully.
"Well, it sucks that you were an innocent guy who got thrown into a shitty situation." You gestured to him, frowning a little. "And I'm sorry you never saw justice, but...it's just SO cool that you're part mantis shrimp!" A grin returned to your face. "They've fascinated me for years! I used to watch videos of them all the time. Did you know the velocity of just one of their punches is equal to a .22 caliber bullet-?"
"Stop." He put a hand up, huffing. "At least some part of you must resent me. I mean...helloooooo, did you skip over the bit where I'M the reason those monsters are after you?! There's no way you could've ignored that..unless your brain turned off the moment you read "mantis shrimp"."
"I read everything, Sebastian." You huffed back. "Look, if I ever had to go through what you did..I think I'd wanna rebel, too. And as much as those monsters scare me, they've probably endured the same experiments as you. They probably felt just as trapped and afraid. You must see at least a few of them as your friends, right?"
"Eyefestation and the PAInter are the only ones I consider "acquaintances"." He answered after a long pause, shoulders slumped. "The anglers are primitive, but they recognize me as the one who freed them, so they don't bother me or my shop. The only creature that tends to be an issue is-"
-thump-
-thump-
Tensing, you looked over your shoulder to see a Wall Dweller emerge from the vent behind you, its mouth split open and drooling with hunger, standing on two legs.
"-that." Sebastian glared at the creature; and before it could run away, he blocked the entrance with his tail fin. "Oh no you don't." He swooped over to grab ahold of its head with his third hand, causing it to shriek and kick its legs as he held it up high. "You seriously need to stop eating my customers when they're trying to BUY SOMETHING!!"
The Dweller just growled at him, to which he ignored it and glanced down at you. "What should I do with this thing?"
"Punch it!" You grinned, your fists balled up in front of you as you hopped up and down. "I wanna see how fast you could throw one!"
He raised an eyebrow. "Really?"
"Pleeeeaaase?"
"..ugh, if it gets that stupid puppy-eyed look off your face, fine." He looked back at the Dweller, grinning widely as he cracked his knuckles. "You wanna eat something so bad? Try this."
"....grahh-?"
In a blinding flash, his fist went through the creature's skull, effectively turning its head into dust. Then he dropped the whole body onto the ground with a grimance. "Eugh..never done that before.."
Then he looked down at you again, seeing your smile brighten. "Hope that made you happy."
"It did, that was amazing!" You laughed, kneeling down to rip off a chunk of the Dweller's flesh. He eyed you strangely, his expression changing to a look of horror as you shoved a piece in your mouth.
"What the f...why would you eat that?!"
"It's okay! I've had this stuff before." You swallowed, feeling rejuvenated already.
"B....Before?! What you're eating is clay and acid-"
"Actually, it's fresh meat. Reminds me of poultry, almost. I found a document somewhere saying that it has regenerative properties." You explained to Sebastian, whose eyes only widened the more you talked. "I didn't believe it at first until I saw the Angler kill one. I was hungry and...eating it healed my electrical burn somehow."
".......why was that not in its actual document?" He muttered.
You shrugged, ripping out another piece and offering it to him. "Care for a bite?"
"I'll..pass. But thanks." Lowering his body closer to you, he frowned. "Are you absolutely sure that-?"
"I'm sure."
"..you didn't even know what I was going to-"
"You were worried about my reaction to your file. I could tell from the discount signs and how you were scared to even look at me."
"............."
"But I promise it doesn't change anything, okay? We're still friends, Sebastian, and I'll still swing by to do business with you." You reassured him, smiling as you patted the back of his hand, before noticing the bandage on his third arm seemed bloody. "Um..when's the last time you changed that?"
"...oh this? Erm..it's fine." He attempted to hide it behind his back. "Nothing you should be concerned abou-"
"Too late. It's my concern now. Let me repay you for saving my tail."
He had no time to protest, as you were already on your feet and running for the medkit that was on the table. You weren't worried about getting to the next zone right now.
Not that Sebastian planned on kicking you out anytime soon.
No.
Now that he was able to confide in you, he was genuinely beginning to enjoy your company--especially as you asked him to rest his arm across your lap. From there, your gentle hands went to work changing the bandage out for a fresh one, using an alcohol spray to keep the wounds from getting infected.
He hissed and cursed a few times at the stinging pain, but not once did he try to get you to stop.
Suddenly, it all began to hit him in this exact moment.
You were willingly playing nurse to a giant sea monster that has killed a man and was responsible for the terrifying things you had to witness down here.
He couldn't understand..but at the same time he felt relieved that all along he had nothing to worry about.
"Th-That's fine..thank you.."
Hearing a sniffle, you glanced up as Sebastian hastily took his arm away, "standing" back up and turning away from you. You just smiled and patted his tail comfortingly, not saying a word as you waited for him to collect himself.
For once, that snarky and sarcastic fish you've come to know was gone, and he was letting his walls down, finally realizing he could trust you.
Eventually he fell silent, and you wondered what to do now. You bought everything you wanted to earlier, so you didn't wanna overstay your welcome-
"Do you mind staying for a little bit longer?"
The question surprised you, but you smiled and nodded. "Sure. As long as you don't mind, shrimpy."
There was a pause, and he slowly looked back at you, pouting. "Big talk coming from someone as tiny as you, friend." He playfully sneered.
You just laughed and shook your head, glad to see him in better spirits.
Thanks to that scrambler on his back, you didn't have to worry about HQ getting on your ass about continuing the mission or threatening detonation.
You could definitely stay awhile and ramble about more mantis shrimp facts to Sebastian...if he was willing to hear them, of course.
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