#tagged padaleckie because she knew i was writing it

[youre-only-gay-once]

#someone PLEASE make an addition explaining all these (via @corvoattanobignaturals)

#if someone would give me a list of all of these i would love that tho lol (via @drum-bot-brian)

Okay, here it goes, links are in bold and colored, putting it all under a cut because it is long. CW for racism, transphobia, and incest.

the one who deactivated and gave up spn because they became catholic: this is former spn blogger carrotfricker. they made all sorts of cool graphics, then got religion and left the fandom. They still have a main blog where all they post is nature art. general fandom consensus is that it was catholicism that did them in, but all I can find in the archived pages is references to an unspecified branch of christianity. maybe some other people who followed them more closely know for sure it was catholicism though.

Wincest Nancy: nancylou444. one of the the ringleaders of a particularly annoying group of wincesties. if you're on here long enough without blocking her she WILL appear in your notes unless you block her, i haven't done that because i think it's honestly kind of funny and i like complaining

the one who deactivated after writing a "diverse spn fic" that was just racist: princesshamlet, who decided to make supernatural suck less by turning everybody into different minorities whether they knew what they were doing or not. In their own words, they were "a white person writing nonwhite characters who has spoken to people of the identities they want to represent". And by "spoken to" they meant they used POC for ideas and information, didn't give them anything in return for their time and energy, and also didn't even listen to them most times. Not going into detail because it really doesn't need to be spread around again but basically everything they put in this fic was heinously racist, homo/transphobic, and misogynistic on the same level with the original show or worse. And apart from the racism, they were also just a really bad writer. After getting called out by fans of color on their racism they did not apologize or delete but tried to defend what they did in various ways. Like saying that other fans of color had told them what they wrote was fine, or bringing up that they're a jewish lesbian, or trying to claim that they were third culture. The "#down with big ph" tag became a thing since it was really clear they weren't sorry and had no intention of even trying to make up for what they did. Eventually they did give up on being defensive, deleted the fic and apologized multiple times badly, then deactivated. For awhile someone had claimed the blog url and turned it into this

but now it looks to be completely abandoned. rest in pieces princesshamlet, you sucked and nobody misses you. Sidenote: If you're reading this and going wow that's fucked up fans of color shouldn't have to deal with this kind of thing, consider finding a POC's gofundme to donate to.

everyone involved with the "spirit of steve yockey" incident: oh good, i get to show you all my favorite video on the youtube. welcome to spn tumblr 2021 by jimmycoded

the one who wrote the "jared padalecki is a physical and sexual behemoth" post: Former j2/wincest blogger go-diane-winchester. This is the person behind banger posts such as "hellers have so many different ship names because they're a psychotic cult" and "misha collins is a scam artist who chose his name because it is gender confusing and he wants to use that to tap into the liberal community" but mostly for this post. I think they did have some valid points about misha collins acting way more progressive than he is but it's really undercut by the fact they think j2 is better than him and that they use their bachelor degree knowledge to write sentences like "He can barely top his wife, let alone Jensen Ackles."

whoever sent me an anon ask saying they want to fuck eric kripke: if you hang around the spn fandom long enough people will start sending you asks about how hot they find the creator of spn. or at least they will if you're me. i love the fact that someone looked at my blog and went "yeah she'll appreciate this, this is a safe space to admit i want eric kripke carnally." if you guy ever want to tell me things like that on anon go ahead, the worst that's gonna happen is i put you in a poll like this.

the prolifer who wrote fic where the winchesters homeschool jack*: prolifejackkline. a christian (protestant) prolifer who was in the spn fandom, they're still around but under a new url and they don't really blog about spn anymore, but like a true protestant they did discover zionism though. at some point they were writing a fic where the winchesters homeschool jack, i believe it was also a baby!jack fic. I know this existed and several other people have said they remember it too but i can't find it anywhere online so it may have been deleted.

'*i have searched and searched for this fic and cannot find it anywhere, they may have deleted it but i DO remember it existing

[touchstarvedsam]

warning: major character death, set during when the levee breaks, demon blood detox gone wrong, based solely on dean’s “then at least he dies human” line

The banging on the walls stopped completely and Sam’s screams and cries for Dean died down to silence. After hours of Sam’s agonized crying, the silence was deafening. Dean and Bobby shared a look of concern before the two of them rushed down to the panic room, booted feet thunking heavily on the wooden steps. The metal door creaked when it opened and Dean pushed past Bobby to get to Sam.

His little brother was lying on the floor, drenched in sweat, convulsing. Sam’s mouth was agape as he tried to gasp for breath. It was one of the most terrifying things Dean had ever seen in his life, second only to watching Sam get stabbed right in front of him. The day he lost Sam in Cold Oak, South Dakota was like losing a part of himself. Watching the color drain out of his baby brother’s face as he bled out on the muddy ground in Dean’s arms, his head lolling against Dean’s shoulder, is not something Dean will ever be able to forget. He hasn’t felt worse pain since.

Until now.

Getting torn to shreds by the hellhounds couldn’t hold a candle to watching Sammy die right before his eyes, right in his arms. But this… this was something completely different. This was like watching someone you know become a stranger. A part of Sam that Dean has never seen before; this broken little boy sweating through his clothes, violent tremors wracking his frame. Sam felt like a stranger to Dean the past several months, drinking demon blood, sneaking around with the demon skank Ruby and becoming everything he swore he wouldn’t. Sam was becoming everything he made Dean promise to kill him for two years prior and Dean didn’t want to think about right now. Dean couldn’t think about that right now.

Sam grew up a good kid; kept his nose clean, did his homework, only got into fights when he was sticking up for himself. He never gave in to peer pressure, never did drugs or drank alcohol. Dean couldn’t account for the four years Sam was away at Stanford, but Dean had always had faith in his little brother to make the right choices.

He lied that day, in the historic inn they stayed at in Connecticut when Sam was drunk and begging Dean to promise to kill him. Dean lied when he made that promise, but here he is lying to himself because Sam is dying right before his eyes, again, and it’s all Dean’s fault.

The only thing Dean could honestly admit to himself that he loved, with his entire heart and soul, was his little brother. He’s never said it aloud and he regrets that now. He regrets the words he said to Bobby a little more than an hour before this.

No. I’m not giving him demon blood.

And if he dies?

Kneeling beside Sam’s trembling form, he cups the back of Sam’s head. He’s soaked to the bone, hair matted to his neck, stuck to his forehead, clinging to his sweaty cheeks. Dean pushes it away gently, cradling Sam’s head in his lap as he shushes him. Pets his hair. Holds him.

He closes his eyes, tries to block out the last thing he’d said before this. Bobby is somewhere behind him, saying something that Dean can’t hear over the sound of his own heartbeat and the lack of Sam’s.

Then at least he dies human!

A cool, wet cloth is handed to Dean as a tear falls from his eye and lands on Sam’s flushed cheek. It starts to trickle down but in the end just evaporates with the heat coming off Sam’s body. Dean’s logical mind tells him that Sam’s already gone, that what’s happening now -- the wretched croak fighting its way out of Sam’s throat -- is just a death knell for the inevitable. Sam’s body is too hot, his fever has to have gone well above 107 degrees. Even if they could cool him down…

“Ice bath,” Dean croaks, gripping tighter to Sam’s still shoulders. The heat radiating through his shirt tells him everything he needs to know, yet he refuses to stop fighting.

He can fix this. He can fix Sam.

“Son,” he hears Bobby’s voice -- next to him but distant, so close but coming from a completely different dimension -- as a hand lands on his shoulder. “There’s nothing we can do, son. He’s--”

“Don’t,” Dean growls. He sits Sam up and pulls himself and Sam’s dead -- not dead -- weight to their feet, supporting his little brother like he should have been all this time. “It’s okay, Sammy,” he coos into his brother’s unhearing ear, smoothing his sticky hair from his face. “It’s okay, baby boy, I got you, okay? I got you.” He half carries, half drags Sam through the panic room door, ignoring Bobby’s pitying look as he passes him. “You’re gonna be just fine, kiddo.”

Half of Sam’s weight is taken from Dean as Bobby slips Sam’s other arm over his shoulders. At Dean’s astounded look, he says, “You’re gonna need help carryin’ him up the stairs, ain’t ya, ya idjit?” Dean’s so grateful he could start crying. But he’s going to save the rest of his tears when he yells at Sam for scaring him like this.

Together, they haul Sam up the stairs and to the bathroom, his feet thunking against each step as they pull him. Dean sits Sam on the toilet, keeping a hand on his shoulder to steady him against the wall then lets him go once he’s sure he won’t fall. “Get some ice, Bobby,” he says gruffly, bending down to turn on the faucet of the bath. “We gotta cool him down.” The water is already cold, but he needs to get Sam’s temperature down. He can’t be too careful here; if he doesn’t cool Sam down now…

He shakes his head and turns back to his completely still brother. Sam’s no longer trembling, his shivers ceased entirely and Dean’s in denial. He refuses to believe he’s losing Sam. He won’t lose Sam. Not today. Not ever.

“Don’t worry, Sammy,” Dean says, “Big brother’s gotcha.”

Bobby returns with a gallon sized bucket of ice; it’s not a lot but it’s better than nothing. They don’t have time to hit a convenience store for 10lbs of ice. As Bobby dumps the ice into the bathtub, watching Dean with a look of sadness and pity on his face, Dean continues talking to Sam. “See? You’re gonna be just fine, kiddo. Right?” He wraps an arm around Sam’s waist and hoists him back up. “C’mon, Sammy, into the bath. You never liked ice baths, did you?” he muses as Bobby steps in to help Dean on Sam’s other side. “Remember when you were little, maybe about 9 or 10, and you had a fever so high… Dad was on a hunt about eight hours away and I didn’t know what to do…

“God, Sam, I broke the lock off the ice machine at the hotel we were in and filled the ice bucket probably about six times -- just goin’ back and forth running with that bucket, sweatin’ my ass off -- and when I put you in that bath you started screaming… I felt so bad, baby, but I needed your fever to go down.” They each grab a thigh and swing Sam’s legs over the edge of the tub before gently lowering him into the ice cold water. Sam doesn’t make a sound. Not a whine, a whimper, a sigh. He doesn’t cry like he did when they were kids and Dean frowns, knowing but refusing to acknowledge it out loud.

He can’t.

“Dean--”

Dean knows. He does. But he- he can’t.

He knows that Sam’s fever had already gone down, well before the ice bath, his body rapidly cooling with the lack of blood flow. Sam’s heart stopped pumping before they even got him up the stairs. Sam’s gone, and despite Sam being in a bath of ice water, Dean’s the one that’s cold all over.

“Dean,” Bobby repeats, strangely soft for a gruff man of his age. This whole scenario is reminiscent of Dean sitting beside Sam’s dead body on that dirty mattress in that husk of a house. Sam looked like he was sleeping then; Dean was able to pretend he was, until he couldn’t anymore. But here- here Sam doesn’t. His cheeks are still red from overexertion, from the detox, from his body being literally put through the ringer. They left him alone in that room, in pain, locked up like a prisoner and forced him to go through something none of them knew anything about.

Dean had forced Sam to go through that. God, if he had only listened to Bobby.

No telling how long it’ll take. Hell, or if Sam will even live through it.

His eyes sting and he furiously wipes at them. This hurts more than Cold Oak, because this one is all on Dean. He’s never going to forgive himself, never going to get over the pain.

“I’m sorry, little brother.”

He stands on shaky legs that feel like they’ve never been used before. Bobby hesitates behind him, whispers, “You’re not gonna--”

“Make a deal?” Dean asks bitterly, a sarcastic laugh bubbling out from his chest. “No, I’m not. I’m gonna go kill that demon skank, and any other black-eyed sons of bitches that get in my way.” And then I’m going to drink myself into oblivion and hope to meet Sam on the other side, if he’ll have me.

He doesn’t tell Bobby goodbye, but then again, he thinks Bobby already knows that this is goodbye. Let Lucifer rise, he thinks, let some other sad bastards fix the world. Sam’s dead, so Dean might as well be, too.

[alloftheimaginess]

Can you do a supernatural cast series where you’re the wife and you do different interviews, like the videos on YouTube like Ad or thirst tweets or just answering fan questions whatever plz. If you have questions just message me and I’ll try to explain it further

Lol sorry it’s been like four months so don’t hate me but it’s been hard work juggling trying to write, school and work so sorry. I think it sucks but hopefully you’ll like it and I’ll be tagging the other parts in this one

Burning Fan Questions

Other parts

Alexander Calvert

Misha Collins

Jensen Ackles

"Hi I'm Yn Padalecki and I will be answer the fans burning questions about my life" I say smiling at the camera as I grab the bucket that's full of questions.

"I'm super nervous for this because before I got here Jared double dog dared me to answer literally every single question so I can't use my skip button" I say and the crew behind the camera laughs.

"Please for the love of god let their be questions to embarrass Jared more than me so he can eat it" I say giggling.

"First question" I say grabbing a folded up piece of paper from out the bucket.

"Who is the rudest celebrity that you've ever had the chance of meeting?" I read and I laugh.

"Oh that's a lot of them, there's an unsurprising amount of rude celebrities who think that they own Hollywood" I say laughing.

"But enough stalling because I have to answer this question anyway, the rudest celebrity that I've ever met was Christian Bale, no offense but he was a total dick to literally everyone around him, on set, off of set just everywhere" I say digging around the bucket for another question.

"What scandals has your team had to cover up?" I read and I start laughing.

"Noooooo" I say laughing even harder because I know I have to tell them.

"Okay okay. When I was 23 I had first met Jared and we got caught you know doing the deed and then the pictures were about to go out and they had to buy all of them back for double of what they were going to get" I say laughing shaking the bucket up and grabbing another one out.

"Have you ever used your celebrity status to get something for free?" I read.

"One time when I was out my daughter, Harlow we were getting frozen yogurt and I left my credit card at the restaurant we were at before without realizing it and at the register she goes oh my god are you Jared from supernatural's wife and when I'm with my daughters I usually pretend like I'm not but I totally knew she was going to give us the yogurt for free so I was like yeah, and then I asked her how she was and she was like oh this is totally on the house" I say laughing.

"I eventually went back and tipped a massive tip because I didn't pay last time" I say.

I grab another one out and I put the bucket down opening it "how many kids do you actually want?" I read.

"Well I already have two now but I'm aiming for at least five" I say laughing.

"I have a big family I'm one of 9 so I've always wanted a big family but not as big as mine so four or five would be a perfect size family for me, I honestly have a enough love for a million but four or five is definitely good for me" I say grabbing another question.

"If we came to your house what would we find in your cabinets food wise?" I read laughing.

"What an interesting question" I say.

"Everyone in the Padalecki household has their own cabinets because they are huge smackers. Harlow's is filled with the stuff she likes such as teddy Grahams, fruit roll ups, dried Cranberries, jolly ranchers stuff like that. Mine is filled with little cakes, gushers, banana chips which I swear by, peanuts, popcorn and Jared's, he has tons of candy, he is absolutely in love with white chocolate macadamia cookies and he always has those in his stash and Kiernan she's still on baby food so she's fully stocked on that" I say grabbing another question out.

"If you had to marry anyone that has starred along side your husband in his show supernatural who would it be?" I read.

"Oh hmm" I say laughing.

"Okay, Jensen is like Jared's best friend but I'm way closer to Misha so I'd definitely have to say Misha but no offense to his wife because I'd totally marry her as well or maybe even Rob, I love that man to pieces, he's a really good friend but then there's Rich, no offense to his wife Jaci but Rich and I have the best dance off's so that would be something to look forward to" I say laughing as I grab another question.

"If you woke up in Jared's body and had to stay in it for a day what would you do?" I say laughing.

"Easy, I'd leave myself little notes with plans for tomorrow so when I switch back he'll have to go through with them and we could have a perfectly planned out day because I planned it" I say laughing.

"If you go out to dinner with your non-famous friends, do you all still split the bill or do you pay?" I read.

"It depends really, my childhood friends don't like for me to pay for their stuff so we'll all split the bill but if I'm the one inviting everyone out then I'll pay before hand because then it'll be a lot of work trying to break it up" I say grabbing another question.

"What's one thing that Jared does that absolutely pisses you off?" I read cracking up.

"Breathes" I say smiling at the camera.

"I'm just kidding" I say laughing.

"When I'm super busy and like concentrating on my work he'll come over and innocently wrap his arms around me but then when I'm not paying him enough attention he'll start softly biting me and while I'm trying to work that can be so annoying" I say.

"What was the worst rumor that has been spread about you?" I read.

"I've had some pretty bad ones that I like to pretend didn't happen because they were literally so outrageous but I guess the worst one was that I was cheating on Jared. A few years back Harlow and I flew to my hometown for a few weeks and we spent Halloween out there and my twin sister and I dressed up as Sally from nightmare before Christmas because we've always done matching costumes whenever we're with each other and I posted a selfie on Instagram so everyone knew what I looked like but no one knew my twin sister was dressed identical to me and she took Harlow around with her now husband while I helped my parents be set up for the party and the paparazzi caught them together while they shared a kiss and while Eric played with Harlow and she was giggling and they put the photos on the front of the magazine and I was getting so much hate before I even knew what was going on and I was getting calls from our friends and they were asking me like how I could do that and then I had to go and post my pictures with my sister and write this long ass message about it and it was super bad" I say moving on.

"Who do you look up to the most, and what qualities do you love about that person?" I read.

"My grandma, she pretty much raised me. My parents weren't around often so I had to live with her for like 5 years, me and all of my siblings" I say digging in the bucket.

"But the qualities that I love about her is one, the fact that she is the strongest person I've had the honor of meeting" I say holding up one finger.

"Two, her boldness is like unbelievable. I took her to the oscars and she started flirting with The Rock and that's when I realized my grandma was my hero" I say laughing and I pull another question out.

"What's something you did as a child that no one knows about outside of your family?" I read.

"For two years I only spoke in a British accent, I had everyone confused at school because I never broke" I say laughing.

"How often do you and Jared have sex?" I read burying my face.

"No, I'm not going to be embarrassed. Sex is a normal thing, it brings about joy, relaxation, sometimes accidental pregnancies" I say laughing.

"But back to the question, I don't know. He's gone for like nine months out of the year but if he has a three day weekend or whatever then we'll spend a night together but when he's home in the three months he's off of filming it's literally whenever the kids are gone if even just for 20 minutes. We try to keep it as normal as possible" I say laughing.

"What's the last text conversation you had?" I read pulling out my phone and I laugh.

"I texted Robert about his new Batman movie because it was announced the other day and I just seen it this morning so I had to quickly congratulate him and he tells me that while I'm super late he still appreciates it and won't hold anything against me when it's time to hand out movie tickets and I said I'd never forgot about you shiny and he sent the middle finger emoji" I say laughing.

"What are your pet names that you and Jared have for each other?" I read.

"Ha, finally a question that he'd normally not talk about but I was dared so I call him Bubba or bubs" I say laughing.

"Literally it's how he's saved in my phone and he thinks it's so embarrassing" I say pulling my phone out and showing his contact name and photo.

"He's Bubba and he calls me a lot of different things but the one he always goes back to is beautiful or baby" I say smiling at the camera.

“Do your siblings and Jared get along?” I read and I laugh sighing.

“Like I mentioned earlier I’m one of nine so that’s eight siblings and then all of my siblings are older than me. I’m the baby and they are all married so my older brother and his husband love Jared and Jared loves them, we’re actually both of their kids godparents but then with my third oldest sister she doesn’t like me so she doesn’t like Jared by default you know” I say grabbing another question.

“Okay this is a question I have to know how often you do and Jared shower together?” I read laughing.

“Do you have to know that?” I ask laughing harder.

“Sorry to let you down but we don’t really, we’ll not anymore with kids it’s best one of us is out the shower while the other one quickly showers because we can’t leave them along for too long” I say knowing that my answer is not what they were expecting.

“But before kids it’s was an every morning thing we did together before heading out for our different business or whatever we had to do that day” I say.

“Did you have an oh shit moment at your wedding, and if so what was it?” I read and I nod.

“Yeah actually I did. But it’s been so long since we got married that I actually forgot until I read this question. My brother bless his poor heart showed up drunk like he was pregaming our wedding and the security didn’t know he was my brother so they were like kicking him out and my sister runs in like “oh my god Yn, the security just kicked Kalin out” so I’m like half dressed and I go down to try to figure out what the hell is happening and then I meet up with him and he throws up all over me like I’m talking full body covered and the make up artist just left and I had to shower and call her back so she could come fix my face and it was very traumatizing because it was so gross” I say laughing.

“But the whole wedding was beautiful and he didn’t drink at all” I say.

“If you had to pick a song from the late 10’s-2020 to be you and Jared’s couple song what would you pick?” I read and I awe.

“That’s a cute question. I guess I’d have to say Flicker by Niall Horan, we danced together to that song when Alex Calvert and his wife got married and it literally felt so magical and now whenever I hear it, it takes me back to a happy place and I just think about slow dancing with my best friend and husband” I say smiling.

“Do you and all the wives of the supernatural cast get along?” I read and I quickly nod.

“Those girls are some of my best friends, they know what it’s like to have a family and their husband work on supernatural so automatically we have something to bond over also with Alex’s wife she has a massive family so we often talk about the drama and problems that come along with it” I say laughing.

"Last one. What celebrity have you had beef with?" I read laughing.

"Daniel Radcliffe" I say quickly.

"But it was when we were younger filming the Harry Potter movies. We didn't like each other for like the first 4 movies" I say laughing.

"Our characters were close in the movie but on set we hated each other, I don't know why and I don't think he does either, I guess our energies just clashed but when we got to order of the Phoenix and we talked it out before we started filming and have been best friends in person ever since" I say laughing and tipping the bucket over.

"That was my last question. I'm Yn Padalecki and this has been answering fan questions. Thank you for watching and I hope you got a laugh out of at least some of these questions or you learned something you never thought you would learn about me" I say smiling at the camera

[jensen-ackles-girl]

Author’s Note: This is the first story I've posted on here, bare with me guys I've been trying to work on my writing it's not that good so please don't hate on my grammar or spelling errors I'm trying! I hope you like

(I've decided to make this a series so hope you guys like it)

Pairing: Jared x SisterReader! , Genevieve x Reader (mentioned), jensen x reader (mentioned) , jensen x reader

Summary: Y/N is the younger sister of Jared padalecki they both grew up in San Antonio, Texas they both have good acting jobs both live in Austin, Texas so when the opportunity of a lifetime comes to Y/N to fly to Vancouver to be apart of supernatural

Warnings: Fluff,Some cussing,Family

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Chapter 3

Y/N woke up with a grumble as her alarm went off she reached over and turned it off and rubbed her eyes as she sat up in bed for a minute it took her a few minutes to get up she walked to the closet to pick out an outfit for the day when she was satisfied with that she made her way to the bathroom she grabbed her toothbrush and toothpaste and took it to the shower with her it was quicker for her to brush her teeth in the shower than to do it after she got ready she turned the water on and let it get warm before she hopped into the shower, it took a few minutes to get finished.

After she did she got out and dryed off then blow dryed her hair as after that she brushed her hair and put it up in a high ponytail and straighten it with a hair straightener then she sprayed hair spray in her hair to get it too stay,she then started to do her makeup she was going to do it light and natural after she finished that she walked to her bedroom and started getting ready,she looked over herself in the mirror and when she was satisfied with what she looked like she packed some comfy clothes in her bag along with some comfy shoes because she knew it was going to be a long day of filming.

Y/N then made her way downstairs after she grabbed her purse she made her way to the kitchen to grab a cup of coffee for the long day ahead Genevieve was in the kitchen making everyone breakfast she smiled when she saw Y/N "good morning Y/N" she said with a bright smile,"Good morning to you too gen". Genevieve smiled again "did you sleep well last night" she smiled "ehhh I slept okay" she looked back at her "nervous about work today" she said sympathetically.

Y/N nodded "yeah is it that noticeable" she walked over to the coffee pot and poured herself a cup of coffee, Genevieve chuckled "yeah but I was nervous too on my first day but trust me you'll do great" Y/N smiled "thanks gen I needed that" she smiled "sure your welcome". She then started fixing everyone plate and Y/N set the table for her, She made sure everyone had everything they needed before she sat down at the table.

Shortly after that Jared came down the stairs dressed and ready to go along with the boys he said a quick good morning to the two women there then poured himself a cup of coffee and sat down at the table while everyone ate. When everyone was finished with their plate he helped genevieve clean up the kitchen before he had to go,he and Y/N said there goodbyes to gen and the boys then they made there way out the door.

Cliff there personal bodyguard and driver was there waiting for them the two climbed into the car as cliff got in and started heading to set, it was now or never she thought as they made there way through traffic, she was still a little nervous but the talk with gen helped her a little she just hoped she could do the job and do it right.

Tags:@supraveng

(hope you guys enjoy the new chapter feedback is greatly appreciated)

[msgrumpygills]

Social Media Anon Here!

Firstly, never change Grumpy ;) you are probably the only person on Tumblr to LISTEN to another view and let it change a prejudice.

Secondly, the Padagram/Social Media change bus continues. Don't be fooled people will be looking at positive and negative reactions to that change on social media.

So here goes!

1. They are starting to market season 2 of Walker in Hiatus. That really doesn't happen. That means they know they need to target new viewers. They are acknowledging they have a problem. The main problem is Jared either didn't learn enough about production quality on SPN (Jensen/Misha were both more interested in behind the camera's) or that he thought he could stick a Stetson on and we all had such sh1t for brains we'd watch anything. So they need a viewer boost DESPARATELY and are going all out to (a) persuade Walkers remaining viewer(s) that it's worth sticking around and (b) get back old viewers or convert 1m+ viewers to season 2. So now we see all the cast (and Keegan has more followers than Jared and Lindsay has a VERY engaged following) trying to persuade their followers how fabulous Walker is. Expect this scrabbling to continue if they want their COVID paychecks.

2. Connected to 1, Jared has started trying to break out of the fandom bubble. I don't think he's trying for power couple (the clue in a power couple is that two FAMOUS people get together and create a super brand, here we have one niche C famous guy and a hanger on wife), I think we are in Jared profile raising and trying to raise his recognition score, which is probably a little low having half assed it in the last year and a half. He's doing it by scatter-gunning so I'm not sure it's going to stick.

3. Connected to 2,

(i) if I run my algorithm clean laptop with a "Jared Padalecki" news search, I get (a) a daily mail article on Jared "clarifying the rift" (b) a "hello" magazine saying he's been "inundated with support after death of "family member"" (c) the new york times article on Walker and Supernatural. It then goes into a variety of articles about Jared raising money for Holly's family (fucking atrocious in my view to use her death for publicity) and a series of derivative articles on his mantrum and later explanation. ONLY THE NEW YORK TIMES ARTICLE MENTIONS WALKER other than as a throw away, all of the others link to Supernatural only. Walker isn't on the main radar of anyone as a show. It's not mainstream enough to mention. it has ZERO buzz.

(ii) if I run the same search on my compromised tablet, I get a SEA of fluff articles "jared padalecki goes to venice", "jared padalecki's wife wishes him a happy birthday" "jared padalecki goes to watch soccer" "jared padalecki goes to the wrestling". I'm expecting "Jared Padalecki defecates regularly" tomorrow.

At the end of that I get the same articles as in (i) but the majority of his publicity is still going through the fandom and the, not very viewed, endless zine type websites that update on every episode of every geek show every day.

So we are seeing, and I expect it to continue, a break out Padalecki, (who knows he and his forehead may wish to have a final crack at films), and a fluff Padalecki, trying to stay relevant a year after SPN relevance ended, because he hasn't got the same push for season 2 of Walker as he had for season 1 and Walker has zero presence. No one, not even the fans are talking about Walker.

Will it work? I don't think so. Keegan has 7m followers on Insta and that's because he's a photographer and writer and it's interesting. I would follow his account (I don't), but certainly it isn't a Walker instagram.

Jared is a clever guy, but he's boring on social media. He has a limited appeal. He does family snaps, hunk snaps, flogs orange pee and flogs his show. He says "family" and "mantra" a lot but that's really it. The clue is, if you didn't know who he was and came across his instagram you wouldn't follow him. Why would you? For a video of a guy running up steps? A smug picture of two middle aged men trying to flog you something?... (oh and lots of "brother" comments on Keegan's social media, which is irritating. It's like he thinks that is his repeatable formula and it isn't).

His media approach won't work because advertising and exposure pushes a product. In TV's case, it's not a one off product and there is a lot of competition. Product Jared needs to be more interesting (his mantrum's are the only exciting thing about him - and that is tragic) and his TV show just needs to be BETTER, well, a LOT BETTER.

Soooo, expect the Padapush to continue, but it's not about a couple, it's about individual marketing and for Jared breaking out of SPN bubble. For Gen, it's her tag along profile that she'll never break out of. She'll have to be satisfied with her superpower of being able to persuade people to buy toothbrush's and dog food (if she can).

Expect though the couple's bit to die off a little. Jared is getting over exposed. His engagement rating is plummeting (nearly 3% is a plummet) because of the repetitive photo content. He'll have to back off or people will switch off (I have already). What makes me laugh is.... from the dawn of time when cavemen took their wives 2 miles away for a new cave weekend.... NO ONE HAS EVER BEEN INTERESTED IN SOMEONE ELSE'S HOLIDAY SNAPS.... Gen and Jared apparently need to learn that lesson...

I might stop these posts now because, well, it's gotta be a bit boring for you and I write LONG. :)

Stay safe and wear your masks ;) xxx

I don’t want you to ever ever change, lovely! Also, I’m NEVER bored by your messages! You put so much effort into the research you do and the messages you send and it’s appreciated! <3 

I started following Lindsey on IG because she seems pretty genuine, and her cat is way too cute! Plus, I like her attitude. I haven’t followed her for the whole Walker season, but even she doesn’t post a lot about it. She posts interviews and then posts about that night’s episode, but other than that, nothing.  Can’t speak for Keegan, but how are fans and non-fans supposed to be excited about a show when the people STARRING in the show can’t be bothered? Maybe they’re all aware of how shitty it is or maybe they’re lazy, but it doesn’t make sense. 

I’m always interested to see the difference in an “algorithm-free” setting and one that has an algorithm. I always figured Google was the same for everyone, but seeing the difference in articles you’ve outlined is insane. It really just goes to show that Jared isn’t the star that his stans think he is. He’s not as important as they think he is, he’s just an actor.  It’s even more jarring to see just how little Walker is talked about at all. All of my devices probably have been “contaminated” when it comes to algorithm so I can’t really speak personally about the public and fans talking about Walker or not talking about it. I can say that on the posts about Walker from the Supernatural Facebook page, a good chunk of the comments are people saying they stopped watching, never got into it, or thought it was trash. There are only a handful of comments talking about how they enjoy the show. 

I think it was disgusting for him to use a fan’s passing for publicity. And no, I don’t think it was anything other than a PR stunt. Her family had a GFM going that was promoted by plenty of the case INCLUDING GEN, so you know he knew about it. But for him to make his own special one and then have articles posted everywhere about how charitable he is? That’s gross PR bullshit and I hope it backfires. 

I still follow a few Supernatural fans, Jared fans, Jensen fans, etc. on Tumblr and even they aren’t mentioning it. I think maybe the hardcore Jared stans post gifsets or whatever, but I don’t see much praise for the show itself, just Jared’s looks. Even the fans aren’t biting and that would make me reevaluate everything if I was Jared. 

I'm expecting "Jared Padalecki defecates regularly" tomorrow. This made me laugh way too hard!

who knows he and his forehead may wish to have a final crack at films You are on a ROLL!  Maybe I’ve become biased, but I can’t see Jared doing films. I mean, I could see him doing like a side character role or something small, but I can’t see him having a big part of a movie. Like I said, maybe that’s me being biased but I see him staying in TV. I could be proven wrong, but I don’t know. 

I agree about Jared being boring on SM. I used to get some giggles from his Twitter posts and even some of his early IG posts because they were goofy, clever, and candid. It showed his humor and was more personable. Now it’s just all fake and comes off as someone whose only motivation to engage with fans is money and that’s a big turn off. 

For me personally, I think that if instead of the “couple goals” bullshit that they try to push for their lavish trips, if they just posted cool pictures they took of different locations, activities, food or whatever, that would be more palatable than all the “Look at my hubster and I! We’re in Italy! Look at how in love we are!” But maybe that’s because I’ve become a bit of a photography nerd? 

I guess time will tell whether or not Jared will make positive changes and if Walker can be saved, but I’m not really optimistic about it. 

I AM optimistic about your takes on things so keep them coming! Long posts or not, I love them! <3

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Day 28: Water

Pairing: Jensen  x Reader

Summary: A little New Years pool party for the Ackles and Padalecki family.

Warnings: Fluff

A/N: Day 28 of my writing challenge! No hate on any SPN Cast/Character. Feedback is greatly appreciated! Enjoy!

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YN walked on to her back porch with a pile of towels in hand, smiling as she heard the laughter coming from her children. She set the towels on the chair and took in the sight in front of her.

With it being New Years Eve and a massive heat wave hitting Texas, Jensen and YN decided to end the year with a pool party. Jensen called Jared, inviting him and his family over that evening to join in the fun.

YN helped her daughters get into their swimsuits while Jensen ran to the store to get stuff for burgers. Jared and Gen came over within an hour with their kids. When Jensen got home, he changed into his swimsuit as well and got started on the burgers.

After YN changed into her swimsuit, she grabbed a stack of towels and made her way to the back porch.

Now YN watched as her daughters and the Padalecki kids swam around the pool, splashing each other and laughing. She turned and saw Jensen and Jared by the grill, working on dinner. She saw Gen sitting at the edge of the pool with her feet in.

Jensen turned when he heard YN behind him, "I think we'll be ready here in about 5 minutes. Sound good?"

YN nodded, "Sounds perfect."

Jared tapped Jensen on the shoulder, "You two want to see something funny?"

YN and Jensen nodded as they watched Jared walk away from them and towards Gen. He walked up behind his wife, picked her up, and tossed her in the pool. YN and Jensen fell into a fit of laughter as they watched Gen swim to the surface.

"Jared, what the heck!?" she yelled.

Jared shrugged, "You can't just put your feet in the water. It's a pool party."

"Yeah, Mom," Tom stuck his tongue out, "Come swim with us!"

"Actually," Jensen called out, "Dinner's ready!"

All the kids in the pool whined in unison. They knew once they got out, the pool party was over. YN and Jensen exchanged a look before nodding to each other.

"I bet we still have that old projector somewhere," YN said to him.

"And I'll have Jared held me put up a sheet for a screen," Jensen smiled.

YN turned towards the pool, "What can we use for a dining table in the pool?"

"They could just eat from the edge of the pool."

"Very true."

"Look for the old outside lights as well. We can use those somehow."

YN smiled at her husband, "You think of everything, don't you?"

Jensen shrugged, "Not my first pool party."

"Our honeymoon was not a pool party, Jay," YN blushed.

"Oh yes it was," Jensen laughed, "You saw the romantic side, I saw the party side."

"You're such a dork," she said as she walked towards the house, "Get to work on the screen."

Jensen looked to Jared and nodded for him to come over. He explained the idea to him, which Jared was all for, and the two got to work.

It didn't take YN long to find the projector in the attic. It was sitting on top of some one VHS tapes, and YN really didn't know why she still had them. As she left the attic, she grabbed a string of the outdoor lights.

Jensen grabbed a bedsheet from the hall closet while Jared grabbed two 2x4s from his garage. The two hammered the planks into the grass in front of the pool. They stretched out the sheet and stapled it to the planks.

YN walked out of the house and handed the projector to Jensen, "I just hope it still works."

"If it doesn't, we'll think of something," Jensen winked.

"Hey, Jared. Want to help with the lights?" YN asked.

Jared nodded, "Sure thing."

YN handed him the end of the lights and explained how they need to spread them out. There were poles coming up from the edge of the pool, which is where the lights would go in the summer time. Jared helped YN string the lights around the pool then they stood back to look at their work.

Jensen whistled to get their attention, "Projector still works! What should we put on?"

Lilly, Jensen and YN's oldest daughter, shouted from the pool, "Daddy, you should put on Trolls: World Tour!"

"And why that one?" he asked.

"Because we like the music!" Addie, their youngest daughter, shouted as she dived back into the pool.

YN chuckled, "Well, she's got you there, Jay. It does have some good music in it."

Jensen rolled his eyes, "Never thought I'd be spending my New Years Eve watching a Trolls movie."

YN walked up behind him and wrapped her arms around his waist, "You also never thought you'd be having a pool party in December, love. Or that you'd be setting up a projector right now. Or that the kids wouldn't want to get out of the pool-"

"Come on, that one was a given," Jensen laughed.

"True," YN kissed his cheek, "Still, it's an unusual thing. But at least it's with my favorite person."

Jensen turned to her, "Yeah, I know. Jared's a pretty cool dude."

YN scoffed, "I meant you!"

Jensen kissed her, "Yes, I know. And I love you."

"I love you, too," YN kissed him.

"Ew!" Shep shouted from the pool, "They're kissing!"

Jared took the opportunity to jog over to Gen at the edge of the pool, "You think that's gross?"

Gen knew exactly what he was up to, "You forget, all grown-ups kiss."

Jared bent down and kiss his wife, "I love you."

She kissed his back, "I love you, too."

All the kids in the pool shouted in unison, "Ew!"

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September Angel Fish Awards

(New Angel Fish design by @slytherkins!!)

WELCOME TO THIS MONTH’S ANGEL FISH AWARDS

Every month all of you fantastic writers work your asses off to post some truly incredible stories. Our Angel Fish Awards are the way for all of us, as a community of writers and readers, to lift each other up and give praise to those who have captured our attention and deserve a few kind words.

The monthly Angel Fish Awards are peer-nominated, meaning ANYONE IN THE POND CAN NOMINATE ANY POND MEMBER’S FIC. Everyone in this community deserves to be showered with love and feedback, and we hope that this fun, thoughtful award will do just that. 

Be sure to read through this whole post as people who were nominated more than once only had one tag activated for tumblr tagging purposes!

WITHOUT FURTHER ADO, HERE ARE SEPTEMBER’S ANGEL FISH AWARDS!

Nominated by @impalaimagining

From Far Away by @plaid-lover-bay25

This fic is all kinds of sweet. We all know Jensen is perfect and will probably never need glasses to see, no matter what time does to his eyes, but HOO the thought of that man looking over the brim of his glasses when he looks up from his book to meet your eyes? Even if it’s through a screen? Count me ALL the way in.

Silver Lining  by @luci-in-trenchcoats

All I want for the rest of my life is to be right in the moment that exists within this fic. It’s so warm and cozy, even if it does get a bit overheated at times with all that shared body heat. I will gladly accept a few uncomfortably sweaty moments if it means having the two of them just like this.

Pit Stop by @stusbunker

This made me feel so many things. Honestly, it’s thrilling to think about hiding in plain sight like this. 10/10 would recommend public sex with Dean, even if it does mean the occasional scrape from the tree bark.

Nominated by @emilyshurley

Beautiful Ghosts by  @herstarburststories 

Okay picture this, me holding my cup of tea in the morning, crying my eyes out as I’m reading this. Because that’s exactly what happened. 

( Ahh… the angst in this one. This fic left me in tears. Can’t wait to read more parts.) ((submitted twice))

Calm after the storm by @thegirlwhorunswithwinchesters

An adorable Dean fluff. There is something so comforting about how Dean interacts with the reader.

How not to kill someone by @myinconnelly1

A short but chaotic fic and is totally worth the read.

What a wonderful world by @wingedcatninja

The imagery is so great, you can almost feel everything  Sam must be feeling.

A little trip by @mariekoukie6661

Though I have never been inside an Ikea I had a constant smile on my face reading this. And now my face hurts…

Nominated by @waywardnerd67

Mr Pretty Face by @carryonmywaywardcaptain

I want to nominate @carryonmywaywardcaptain Mr. Pretty Face. This was the most adorable fic in the world. Jordan aka Cap is getting her groove back and the world should be graced by her talents! Plus she’s just an awesome person.

Nominated by @sorenmarie87

No More Living A Lie by @fictionalabyss

I know it’s an older fic but the idea of Cas and reader being in a fake relationship (I’d say more but it gives away the story) is fantastic.  

The Real Deal by @firefly-in-darkness

I’m no stranger to reading smut but holy crap! ��After a hunt, all you wanna do is sleep but your friend sends you something… and you can’t help yourself.  I don’t know what else to say besides that you should check it out.  

Flesh - January Jingle by @myinconnelly1

I still need to listen to the song this fic is based off of but damn.  This one is great~~ Definitely leaves you wanting more.  

Nominated by @mariekoukie6661

Know How It Feels by @supernatural-jackles

I love that one because then the boys would understand what cramps feel like for real!

Some Kind of Sadness by @supernatural-jackles

I love this one because Jen just writes all the emotion so well!!

That’s Alpha or Sir To You, Baby Girl by @sorenmarie87

Dawn worked so hard on this one!! It’s so good!! I just love the fluff and the domestic!!

What’s The Little Guys Name by @sorenmarie87

The Weechester, the little banter between everyone! My heart!! I love this so much!

Nominated by @fictionalabyss

The Way You Lie by @cockslut-padalecki 

 this one hit the nail on the head. How you can know with ever fiber of your being that you need to leave, run, but you find yourself right back there.

Wanna Help A Girl Out? by @sorenmarie87

“Now, will you be a good girl and get on your knees for me?  I believe you owe me something…” that last line had me demanding, nay screaming, for more.

Bikini Inspector  by sorenmarie87 

because sometimes it’s just fun to mess with a guy.

Pineapple and Pizza  by @cloverhighfive 

STILL SCREAMING ABOUT THAT CLIFFHANGER lol. Seriously, though. I don’t dive too deep into ships usually, but I LOVED this little series.

All The Good Girls Go To Hell. (Prologue - chapter 9)  by @cockslut-padalecki 

This fucking series. Holy shit. The smut = perfection and the jealousy and need are on fucking point. Hell yes. this is a must read. a filthy, dirty, must read.

Nominated by @ellewritesfix05​

Don't Test Your Luck  by @downanddirtydean

All the smutty goodness that you could possibly need. The attention to detail, the way it flows seamlessly, the heart-stopping fluff. It’s a total hit and literally one of my favorite fics I’ve ever read! I adore everything Lydia writes and this is simply a must-read.

Homework Help  by @downanddirtydean

Lydia is an amazing writer and talented creator. College-me had a heart attack reading this! It’s so delicious and naughty! 100/10 would recommend!

Life For Rent Chapter 27 by @winchest09

The entirety of Life For Rent is absolutely amazing. Tabby is extremely talented and creative, but this particular chapter is just so wonderfully written, I think it deserves a spotlight. The whole time, you can see yourself in the moment. The way she captures and conveys emotion is nothing short of genius.

Nominated by @mrswhozeewhatsis

His Property by @negans-lucille-tblr

I’m nominating this whole dang series, plus both of the sequels!! Yeah, it’s smutty, but it also gets into the psychological issues, especially in the third series, Her Property. There is some possibly triggering content in the first series, which is discussed throughout the second and third, so if that could be a problem, then you might want to skip it. If you’re not easily triggered, though, this is a great story. And the smut is primo, too!!

The Last Visit by @laxe-from-outer-space 

Well, crap, guys. This one just hurts. Talk about taking my heart out back and beating the crap out of it. If you’ve got the tissues handy, definitely give this one a read!

Nominated by @manawhaat

About Bar Fights and Moobs by @cajunquandary

This is a perfect example of the ridiculousness that seems to follow the Winchesters everywhere. This is totally believable and gave me a good laugh.

Keep Me Company by @butiaintgonnaloveem

I’ll never get over how spot on this is for Ketch. It not only shows us a side we don’t get enough of on the show, but it also just shows a whole other side of him that feels so incredibly real and part of his layered persona. 

Calm by @winchesterswoonathon

This is a seriously lovely series about John and all those feelings he has the power to evoke in the people around him. It’s everything I love about him all mashed into a fucking delightful story. 

You Ever by @luci-in-trenchcoats

One of the things I love about Dean is his willingness to be there and help others when they’re having a hard time. He’s the ultimate comfort buddy and this fic is a prime example of his loyalty and sincerity. It’s a little sad but it’s sweet and comforting even in the angst. 

Nominated by @myinconnelly1

The Baby In The Impala by @a-fallen-angel-with-a-shotgun

 DADDY!DEAN!!!! to the max. This was so sweet, I can't even word properly!

One Room Left by @luci-in-trenchcoats

The amount of fluff present in the fic overwhelmed me

Imagine Getting A Sunburn by luci-in-trenchcoats​

Some cute fluff right here and nothing else needs said, read it

Dirty Little Secret by @hardcoresupernatural

 This had the trinity! Hot as fuck, adorable as all get out, and funny as shit. Read it!

Love Me Or Leave Me by @princessmisery666​

 This hurt so much and i wanted to cry. It had that feeling of being real.

Daddy’s A Superhero by @msmarvelouswinchester

Being a parent is hard and hearing a child of any age say they hate you is so hurtful. This was written so well.

Loving You by @emilyshurley​

I will never have enough good things to say about @emilyshurley but this fic was so hurtful and i'm still mad at her.

Finding Dean Masturbating In Your Room by @carryonmywaywardwriters​

 Very dirty and very hot!

Because Of Mistletoe by @idreamofplaid​

Happy half christmas drabble!

Halfway by @holylulusworld​

Dude i was crying so hard.  I just can't even talk about it.

The Frog Prince - or How To Kiss the Impala by holylulusworld

SO CUTE!!!! Absolutely adorable and i love protective!dean

Enough Both Of You by @fictionalabyss​

HOLY FUCKING SHIT this was so dirty and wrong and i love it!

Fatherless Son by fictionalabyss

I really like this series it was exactly what i think of for step!dad Dean!! chef's kiss 

You’re Home Early by fictionalabyss

This was just fun.  They both knew it was bad but they both loved it!

Risky by fictionalabyss

Alright look, if you ever post anything like this again, i want to be tagged.  I will make the fucking time for this every goddamn day!  So wrong, i love it

Finally by @there-must-be-a-lock​

super well written.  it felt so real to the characters and it was incredibly hot

A Huntress In The King of Hell’s Court by @crashdevlin​

I love when time travel is incorporated well in a fic, and this is exactly what i'm talking about!

Fan Mail by @waywardnerd67​

I can't not deal with my emotions on this fic.  It is so fluffy and i'm here for all of it 

One Night Changes Everything by @a-winchester-fairytale​

This ride was so hard i couldn't even comment on ever part.  I just had to rush through the whole thing so i could find out what would happen. 

Mated In The Darkness by @mummybear​

There are not enough words in the world to explain why i loved this fic so much!

Caught In The Act by mummybear

It's smut people.  Its dirty and fucking amazing smut!

Thank you all for the awesome work and great feedback!

These are not actual awards! This system is set up so everyone in the pond has a chance to share the love and promote a fic/author that has grabbed your attention. The more people that participate, and the more everyone remembers to submit their own fics after posting, the better this will be :D

THANK YOU ALL AGAIN, KEEP UP THE AMAZING WORK, AND AS ALWAYS, HAPPY WRITING!

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Variety “‘Supernatural’ at 200: The Road So Far, An Oral History”

(...) Eric Kripke (Creator): For me, the core notion behind “Supernatural” was to make a series about urban legends. I think they’re this incredibly rich mythology about the United States, and no one had really tapped into that, so when I started as a writer, one of the first ideas I ever pitched was an urban legend show.

A couple years later I tried to pitch, basically, a “Scooby Doo” rip off of a bunch of kids travelling in a van dealing with these urban legends. It was an idea that I never let go of and kept throwing there every couple years. Finally I had a deal with Warner Bros. and that incarnation was a reporter. Frankly, it was a rip off of ��Nightstalker,” but I really fleshed it out and it had mythology.

I took it to Susan Rovner and Len Goldstein at the studio and they said, “We love the idea of doing a horror show,” which no one was really doing on TV at that time, “but we’re not into the reporter, that feels really tired. So no thanks and let’s get another angle.”

So in this moment, when they were basically passing on my idea, as you often do in these kinds of rooms, you start tap dancing. And I said, “forget the reporter, we should do this show as ‘Route 66,’ two cool guys in a classic car cruising the country, chasing down these urban legends,” and literally right on the spot I said “and they’re brothers,” because it popped in my head. “And they’re dealing with their family stuff and they’re fighting evil.” You just start making it up as you go. They were like, “Brothers, wow, that’s a relationship we haven’t seen on TV before.” And from there, “Supernatural” was born… out of a piece of improvisation.

Peter Roth (President, Warner Bros. Television): Eric [had] been with us since about 2002. Sometime in 2004, he came to us with this idea… this extraordinary road show about these two brothers, in which they would be living all of the great urban and rural myths that [we’re all] exposed to as kids. It was a very commercial idea, emotionally driven, which was what I was most concerned about: who are the characters? Why do I relate to them? Why are they worth my while to watch? And once we cast Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki, along with Eric’s great idea, along with the script, along with David Nutter, our director on the pilot, the combination of those factors is what made me so excited and I frankly knew, from the moment I saw this pilot, that it was a winner. There wasn’t a person who I work with who didn’t feel the same way. It was a real strong story of young adult siblings that resonated perfectly with The WB audience.

Kripke: When we were casting, you see a lot of people. We hadn’t found our Sam and Dean. David Nutter suggested Jensen because we knew him from “Smallville.” We met with him to play Sam, and we fell in love with [him]. And then Jared came in, and he was a really great Sam too. Looking back, we were such idiots to not see it… We had two great Sams and no Dean and you think it would be obvious to put one into the other role, but it was not obvious. So we [went] to Peter Roth and we said, “We’re not sure what to do,” and Peter was like, “why don’t you make Jensen Dean?” We all looked at each other like, “we’re idiots, of course.” It’s so difficult to find one actor who is charismatic enough to be a breakout character and to support a show. So to find two of them, where there’s only two leads… I didn’t realize what a miracle it was at the time. It’s a miracle. (...) Jensen Ackles (Dean Winchester): It was just immediate chemistry. There was an ease to it. There was a familiarity to it. Once we got into it with each other, it just fell in place and it came… not easy, but definitely a little easier than my experiences in the past. I think the importance of that bond and that relationship was verbalized by Kripke when he sat us down and said, “this begins and ends with you,” and not only how we relate to each other on screen, but also off screen. There was an importance stamped into [that bond] very early on. (...) Padalecki: (...) It was definitely a huge learning process, not only for myself, learning the character of Sam Winchester, but I think we didn’t have a grasp on what we were doing. The original tag line was monster of the week, like “X-files” meets “The Twilight Zone.” And we had these very famous urban legends about Bloody Mary or the Hookman, but ultimately you’re going to run out of those.

Singer: Eric talked about the five-season plan… I don’t know if he secretly had that in mind and was just not sharing it, but initially Eric wanted campfire stories. And the mythology really started to evolve in the first year. We didn’t exactly know where we wanted to go, and I don’t even think Eric knew exactly where he wanted to go

Kripke: If I’ve said in the past that I had this five year plan from the beginning, I was lying. I always knew what that particular season was going to be; “by midseason I want to be here, by the end of the season I want to be there.” And then I always had a rough sketch what the season after that would be. I will say I knew that the show was going to come down to evil Sam versus good Dean and the fate of the world was going to hang in the balance — that was baked into the pilot. I wanted to build it to something that felt conclusive because I didn’t want these mysteries and mythologies to stretch on forever.

Sera Gamble (writer, executive producer): We were realizing the thing that we most enjoyed when we were watching cuts of the show was the chemistry between the brothers, and that the mythology we were constructing for the season was really a family story about two young men and their father, and this family legacy that they’re trying to deal with. That was the heart of the show, and if we paid attention to how each monster story resonated with the relationship between the brothers, then the show was always really interesting.

Padalecki: It was right around the episode “Faith” where the writers realized this show isn’t just about what kind of monsters we can kill but what the brothers can go through together. And I think luckily we stuck with that theme on through the end [of season one], where we reintroduced our father into the storyline. And we get some sense of what the father is willing to do for the sons and what the sons are willing to do for each other. And so it became this story about sacrifice and loyalty and family and friendship [within] this medium of the supernatural and ghosts and ghouls.

Gamble: It’s not like we sat down to write “Faith” and we said, “we’re going to write the game changer.” We just wanted to find a really human, emotional way into a story about faith healing. We had these different elements of the reapers that we wanted to bring into the show and the phenomena of faith healers in the history of America, and it ended up being a story that was really personal and kind of philosophical… From that point forward, everyone was hungry to do more stories that had an aspect of the personal and the metaphysical. (...) Singer: Eric’s phrase was “smoke them if you got them,” where we would just try to tell the best stories we could and be as provocative as we could. We felt that this had a long-term mythology, so ending with kind of a very dramatic cliffhanger just seemed the right thing for us and that all seemed to work out for us. (...) Padalecki: Season two is the season where we realize dying doesn’t mean you’re dead, beginning with Dean who died — so to speak — in the first episode, and culminating with Sam who died in the last episode. Unlike season one where we were figuring out what this show was about, who these characters were, season two we hit the ground running.

Ackles: The interesting thing that Kripke did with the first several seasons is he flipped character motivations from season to season. With the first season you had Dean as the motivating factor: he was really pushed by his father, dragging Sam along against his will. Then as Dad dies, the whole thing is flipped upside down. Now Dean is like, “I don’t want to do this anymore.” Dad was his motivating factor in life and [after] he lost him, it was a devastating blow and Dean just wanted to hang it up. And Sam was the one who was like, “no, we’re going to go find answers to this. I have to figure out how I play into this,” and Dean went along with him because he couldn’t let his little brother go it alone. (...) Gamble: It was really fun to kill Sam. You don’t very often get to kill the lead character. One of the really fun things about “Supernatural” is that you get to kill whoever you want, and it’s part of the evil genius of Eric Kripke. From pretty early on, he understood the power of doing the unexpected thing to the character the audience thinks is safe. He fought hard, and he was always someone who, in the room, would push us to not get precious with a character, to not try to save someone because we think they’re amazing. If we love them, we’ll bring them back in some other form. Because we had a plan to bring Sam back, we got to write the super-emotional scene with his brother that we knew that Jensen would knock out of the park, and both of them knocked it out of the park. (...) Singer: I think Bela didn’t quite turn out as good of a story driver as we might have wanted, although we loved Lauren — we thought she was terrific in the part. But we started pinning ourselves a little bit in the corner [with her as] Dean’s nemesis, like, “how often can she best Dean without assassinating our lead character?” If she would’ve been on three times a year, I think that character could’ve really served a purpose going forward. Ruby served a better purpose and that pushed the mythology into a different area. But we were a little flummoxed because you say, “what do we do? We can’t have two women just sitting in the back of the car with these guys.”

Gamble: I think Ruby in the long term was a more successful character than Bela, but we all really enjoyed creating Bela in the room, especially Ben Edlund, who wrote some really cool stuff for her. Not every peg will fit in every hole in the show. You don’t get Castiel one hundred percent of the time. If you follow any show for long enough, you’ll notice some places where they corrected the course, and we learned a lot from writing those two characters. I really like a lot of the stuff that we did with Ruby. It’s really cool to have a character that’s played by more than one actor, and it’s such an interesting characterization of a demon. (...) Kripke: I think the truncated season actually ended up helping the mythology. We were a little aimless as we had just lost the Yellow-Eyed Demon, the great big bad, and we hadn’t introduced a new big bad yet. Because we had less episodes, we had to focus quickly on what was really important: Dean’s deal with the demons and the fact that he had a ticking clock and that he was going to get dragged down to hell. (...) Kripke: If you had asked me in season one, were there going to be angels in Supernatural, I would have said “absolutely not, you’re fired.” Up to that point I always felt like I didn’t want any supernatural good guys in the show. If there was any force of good, it was going to be Sam and Dean, and they were going to be overwhelmed and outgunned. And as we were kicking towards the end of season three and we were doing lots of demon stories, I was worried that we were overplaying the demon stuff. But the idea that angels could be dicks and that they didn’t have to be this warm fuzzy helpful force, they could actually be a really interesting antagonist, once I kind of realized that, I said, “I’ve never seen that depiction of angels on television before.” It wasn’t just these two boys versus all these demons; it became Sam and Dean trapped in the middle of this massive war where you had two sides battling, and humanity, represented by the boys, were caught in the middle, so how do they play both sides against the other? It balanced the mythology in a way that I think made it much more satisfying. (...) Kripke: I’m the first to acknowledge that the idea really came from graphic novels. It came from “Preacher”; it came from “Hellblazer,” which has now become “Constantine,” which is why Castiel wears a trench coat. There’s a reason why Castiel looks exactly like Constantine — it’s because I ripped off Constantine. But I had no idea it was going to be a show at the time! It was funny, as I went into the writers’ room at the start of season four, having thought about it I said, “okay guys, this season we’re doing angels.” And they were like, “What? You asshole!” Because there were so many angel stories that were pitched earlier and I would literally shame them out of the room whenever anyone pitched an angel story, and now I’m presenting it as an entire mythology. But it worked out.

Padalecki: I think season four was really the turning point for the show, and really set the new parameters for what the show is still about to this day, most notably with the introduction of Castiel.

Ackles: This was when “Lost” was on the air, “Heroes” was on the air, these giant mega hits. I remember Eric taking issue with “Lost” because they kept asking questions and never really giving answers. He was against that method of storytelling and said, “no, I’m going to ask the question and I’m going to answer it. And maybe the audience doesn’t like the answer, but I’m most certainly not going to string them along just until I come up with some sort of a solution.” That’s one of the reasons why, from season to season, the bar just kept getting raised and the supernatural world kept getting bigger, almost to the point where it was incomprehensible to the Winchesters. I think we really saw that when the introduction of angels came into play, and then it became something far greater than things that go bump in the night… It was a leap of faith. I wouldn’t have had the confidence to do something like that, but I think it panned out. And now we have one of the most loved characters of the series still with us today.

Collins: I was supposed to be on for three episodes, and they said, “Oh, you might do five episodes,” so they added a couple more, and then they added three more after that… Then they signed me up as a series regular and they kept me on for two years, and then they said they were going to kill me and that we would never see me again in season 7. And then they changed their minds again… I was joining the show the beginning of Season 4. I kind of assumed that that was the tail end of the show. I think everybody really thought that the show was going to be over at the end of Season 5 at that point, which was Kripke’s original vision, so it’s very strange to still be here. We are obviously counting ourselves lucky that the show has run so long. (...) Kripke: The movie “Stranger than Fiction” had just come out. And so it started with a really innocent single episode pitch: what happens if Sam and Dean realize that they’re characters in a book; that they find a book that is detailing their entire lives? And then it would give us an opportunity to really poke fun at what we’re doing in “Supernatural,” and that was really fun for me. [Then] somebody said, “well what if he’s a prophet of the lord?” We jumped all over that idea and it really tied into this mythology. It was our first serious meta episode.

And once we introduced him, I thought it was so funny and smart, and you just want to start doing more of it. That’s how I think a lot of the insanity in “Supernatural” emerged. Because we couldn’t repeat ourselves with Chuck: if you’re going to see him again, it better be at a fan convention. Every single time, Bob would say to me, “this is the one where we’ve gone too far.” And then after one of them I responded, “don’t you see? We can never go too far, there is no too far.” (...) Kripke: The thing I remember most about that season was how exhausted I was going through it… I knew I wanted some sort of apocalyptic ending where evil Sam had to fight a good Dean. One of the things that was really hard about that season is, it’s one thing in season four when you’re promising the apocalypse: Is it going to happen, can the boys stop it? It’s a whole different matter when you’re saying in season five, “okay, the apocalypse is happening,” because you still are on a budget. There’s an incredible amount of off-camera, “oh no, there’s been an earthquake!” stuff on the news. It’s really difficult to mount something of that scope. (...) Ackles: To look at the five seasons, to step back and look at that all as one story… it was a massively grand finale and it was like Game Seven of the World Series, and I just don’t know how you can go on from that. I think Eric thought the same thing. He was like, “I’m throwing out my last pitch and I’m taking off into the sunset,” and that’s what he did, but it had become such a hit that the studio and the network were like, “no, guys, you have to keep going.” (...) Gamble: We thought season five would be the last season. But pretty early into [it], Eric came to me and said “signs are pointing toward a season six,” and he was ready to move on and asked me to step in. And he came to me really early because there was a tremendous amount of learning and training and coming behind the curtain to see what he and Bob were doing that had to happen.

There was part of me that was just, lovingly, super pissed at Eric. I was like, “do we have to do this after the apocalypse? We literally burned the story all the way to the apocalypse. We have to start over and find a whole new classification of villains, so what the hell are we going to do?” But we had several months to ponder that. We had a great writers’ room, and everybody put their heads together, and Eric, to his great credit, stayed with the show, and was very active in constructing season six, and was incredibly helpful to me, personally. He was instrumental in figuring out what we were going to do next. It was like a reboot.

Kripke: I read every script. And then once Sera was comfortable in the gig and the studio and network were comfortable, I backed off. And from then I would define my role as a parent who sends their kid off to college. I’m extremely proud. I’m there if they need me… And it was never me running the show alone. It was always me and Bob Singer, and Bob has always been there. So there’s been true continuity. People say “Supernatural” has had different showrunners and it hasn’t. It’s actually always had the same showrunner, he has just had different partners over the last decade. (...) Gamble: The good thing about “Supernatural” is some things always remain the same. It’s always a story of two brothers, always a story about that family. It is always a story about the people who fight the things that go bump in the night, and there is always a structure that has an overarching mythology that gets solved piece by piece over the course of a season. That engine is pretty solid. I think one of the first conversations was just, “so we did heaven and we did hell, and oh, there’s a purgatory.” It started from that simple examination: “What is the mythology that we’ve been mining, and what else is in there that we haven’t talked about yet?”

You’re on a show for years and years, and you watch the actors grow up. Sam did not look like little Sammy was just out of college anymore. He was a grown-ass man; Jensen was a grown-ass man. They were adults, and they were men who had been through a lot, so the stories have to evolve, become more mature. They have to be about the problems that people would have in their adult lives, and that’s really how we were approaching these things. We were looking for problems that were not repeats of the problems they were having when they were 17 or 22. (...) Kripke: Once we were able to pull off “The French Mistake,” and Sam and Dean were actually able to go and become Jared and Jensen making an episode of “Supernatural,” I think Bob saw that there’s no such thing as too far. If you can pull that off and not destroy your show, you can truly do anything.

The season also saw Castiel drifting further away from the Winchesters, as he was unwittingly manipulated by Crowley in his quest to try and prevent a war among the leaderless angels. By the end of the year, after absorbing thousands of monster souls from purgatory, Castiel became corrupted by his newfound power.

Collins: I loved it. If for no other reason than Cas became God at the end of season six, which has always been a fantasy of mine, personally. There’s a very elite cadre of actors that ever get to [do that]. I think it was a great way to make the character a big bad. I was sorry to see myself killed off shortly thereafter in the beginning of season seven, but glad to see myself resurrected a couple episodes later. (...) Singer: We came up with this Leviathan idea: How do a group of monsters who want to take over society go about doing that? And the logical answer for us was, they insert themselves into the fabric of society in powerful ways — that’s what happens with the pharmaceutical companies, it’s what happens with government. It just seemed like an easy place to go and really be able to say something on a week-to-week basis. [We were] changing up what we were to try to make it interesting, and we feel if it’s interesting to us, we hope that it’s interesting for other people… Doing a season that was kind of political with these different monsters that we hadn’t seen before, I thought was pretty bold, and by and large a good season.

Gamble: The price of success is that you have to really be hard on yourself to keep the stakes high in a show like that. How do you keep the stakes high after you’ve faced the demon that kills your mother, angels, the apocalypse? The way that we found our way into that is by keeping it really personal. If it’s about Bobby, it will mean something to the audience, because Bobby means so much to the boys. (...) Ackles:(...) That was a huge blow to both the Winchesters because this was a surrogate father figure who had become their anchor, had become their home, and now they once again lost that pivotal character in their story. And so, once again the rug gets whipped out from underneath them and all they’re left with is each other and they’ve got to keep on going. I think that was a really important season because of not just losing Bobby, but look what it did to the story and the direction that it then sent the boys off in.

Padalecki: I thought season 7 was going to be the last season of “Supernatural,” while we were filming it. We’d gone so big with the Leviathans and it was yet another departure from our normal canon. There were times I thought we strayed a little bit; our big bad of the season was Dick Roman [James Patrick Stewart] and there were times I thought there were one too many dick jokes, every now and then I felt like we were straying off-course, but the fans stuck with us and I think that season we introduced Kevin Tran [Osric Chau] who stayed with us for a while, so we said goodbye to a few characters, we met a few new characters. (...) Jeremy Carver (writer, executive producer): When I came in, it was a pretty open canvas. A lot of things had wrapped up. The biggest issue was that Dean had been popped down to Purgatory, and what do you do with that? But because there wasn’t an ongoing mythology we had to worry about, we could really let our minds roam and I came up with that main idea of [Dean] becoming best friends with a vampire and then saying, “What if Sam, for once in his life did something that ran contrary to what the world at large — and when I say the world at large, I mean the fans at large as well — thought he should do?” For me, that was a really thrilling tack to take, just because it felt like fresh snow. From a story standpoint, it felt like Sera left lots of opportunity.

And then [there] was this idea of, these guys have been together for so long, at a certain point… they need to – I hate to say ��mature” because that sounds like they weren’t mature in the past, but… mature in the sense of really exploring what it is to be their own person. And that’s what was really behind Sam not looking for Dean at the beginning of season eight. It wasn’t so much me taking over as it was like, “let’s put these characters in situations that make sense but feel risky for them as characters.” One thing I really wanted to do was to put a different kind of spotlight on these guys. (...) Ackles: One of my most favorite storylines was Dean in Purgatory. If there was one storyline that I wish would’ve dragged out much longer, it would’ve been that one. I would’ve liked to have seen more of what Dean was up against in Purgatory and how he lived and how he existed in that realm and among those things down there and how he was able to survive. And he befriended Benny [Ty Olsson], who I thought was a great character… I was sad to see [him] go when he did.

We’ve lost so many good characters on the show, but that’s one of the reasons why the show is compelling to people, because we do take risks…if there’s a fan favorite character that now could easily be an integral part of the story, we bring them in and then we kill them and it’s shocking. If we can continue not just to entertain people, but to shock them and to make them feel the spectrum of emotion, from joy to loss, then I think we’re doing our job as storytellers. And I think season eight was a good representation of that.

Padalecki: Ultimately, “Supernatural” is really a show about two brothers and their relationship and their struggles and their loyalties and their sacrifices, and so I knew in my heart of hearts that even though season eight started out with Sam having gone off to try and live another normal life with the character of Amelia (Liane Balaban), I figured it was a way to remind both the audience and the cast and crew what the show was about. I thought season seven might’ve gone a little off the reservation, but in a strange way, by steering even further off the reservation and having the brothers not even be involved with each other [at the start of season eight], it really reaffirmed for everybody what the bread and butter of the show is, which, in my opinion is the relationship between the two brothers, so it was a nice rekindling and repartnership of Sam and Dean. (...) Padalecki: My favorite part of season eight was the introduction of the Men of Letters. I was so excited to play this smart character, and I really got a chance to delve into that in season eight. I remember with the introduction of the Men of Letters – like I said, in season seven I thought we were maybe coming to an end, and then I read the episode with the Men of Letters and Henry Winchester played by the wonderful Gil McKinney, and I thought, “holy crap, we can go for another eight years.” And it was nice to have a home again. We had burned Bobby Singer’s home down a season prior, and that was our only standing set on “Supernatural,” and so to have the Men of Letters bunker to refuel and research and gather our bearings as characters and actors was a really welcome addition to the show, and I feel like the Men of Letters storyline has really worked wonders for and breathed new life into the show these past couple seasons. (...) Carver: The notion of Sam being possessed by an angel was originally Bob Singer’s idea. He threw it out there between seasons and said, “what if to save Sam’s life you had to put an angel in him?” It came from the same cloth of, “what if Dean had to rely on a vampire to escape from Purgatory and they became bonded over that?” You have to make do with the friends that are in front of you. Then we started to just flush out the character of Gadreel, who was originally Ezekiel, and that was one of my favorite characters we’ve done over the last couple of years, just because he felt very fleshed out and very empathetic. And Tahmoh was just wonderful because he has this bearing that is manly and unfamiliar all at once. He really dug into that role. If I remember correctly, Jared actually performed as Tahmoh before Tahmoh had even said a word of dialogue. So there was a leap of faith there on the part of Jared, who did a really spectacular job of portraying two characters, and he really embraced it. I was very happy with the way the whole Ezekiel/Gadreel story worked out, and how it all reflected back on the boys and their relationships. (...) Castiel finally became human in season nine — a trajectory that seemed to be a long time coming, after the angel’s powers began to dwindle in season eight.

Collins: That was something that I, as an actor, was looking forward to from the beginning — I kept on hoping that they were going to let Castiel become human for a while, and they finally did, and it was great. I think he had three or four episodes as a human; I wish we’d had a little longer in that realm, because I feel like there was a lot of good material to mine there, but the experience that he had being human made him much more empathetic towards humans, and I think that experience definitely left a lasting impression on him. He, I think, understands some of the subtleties of human interaction a little bit better. He is a little bit more savvy and definitely a lot more empathetic. But being more empathetic also makes him question himself more, have more doubts. He definitely is less cocksure as he moves through life, and he sees the gray areas and both sides of the story a little bit more than he used to.

Dean, meanwhile, became the unwitting recipient of the Mark of Cain, a brand that enables the wearer to wield the First Blade, a powerful weapon – but also saps away their humanity. Dean struggled to control his darker impulses as a result of the Mark, and after dying at the end of the season, found himself resurrected by the power of the Mark and reanimated as a demon, neatly paralleling Sam’s own descent into darkness in earlier seasons.

Carver: In this case, it was [writer and co-executive producer] Robbie Thompson coming up with the idea of Cain [Timothy Omundson]. And I remember him pitching this idea of the Mark of Cain. At the time he pitched it, I remember thinking, “I don’t know exactly where this is going to fit into the overall mythology, but it’s a wonderful thing to plant,” which we do all the time. One of the dirty little secrets of the show is that after we come up with something and it works out really well, we say, “hey, it’s almost like we planned it that way.” Sometimes things are just happy accidents. You try and draw out that roadmap, and then the writers are coming up with all these incredible, creative things. Cain just felt like such a no brainer, to the point where you’re wondering, “why haven’t we had this character in our world before?” We had referenced him before but hadn’t seen him.

But when [Robbie] talked about the Mark of Cain and putting it on Dean, it was something to plant like, “we’re definitely doing this and we’re going to figure out how to make this work as the season goes on,” which is exactly what happened. I’d like to say from the very beginning that we knew [Dean] was going to be a demon, but we didn’t. We had all these ideas of where Dean would go, but sometimes it’s peanut butter and chocolate and it takes a few episodes actually to realize the tools you have right in front of you.

Ackles: If you look back at the majority of series, it really hinges on Sam’s character. That’s the way it was originally intended, that’s the way it serves the story best, but every now and again the spotlight got flipped and turned on Dean, and I think we’re seeing this again with Mark of Cain. That was part of the setup for just very dark and troubled Dean.

Season nine was one of the more difficult seasons that I personally had to deal with, and it was because of not just the weight of the storyline, but because it was so Dean-centric. I was on set pretty much the whole time while everybody else was enjoying their vacation. It was just a lot of weight and a lot of darkness in my world last year, but we got through it and I think it made for some good story and I think it made for a good setup of where we’re going this year… I really enjoyed the twist at the end of last season when we think we lost Dean yet again and lo and behold, an unlikely character comes in and brings him back to life. So I have to give it to Carver on that one, when I read it I was shaking my head with very happy approval, because I knew that was now another massive situation that Sam and Dean are going to have to deal with. And how they [were] going to get out of it, I was anxious to see.

After Dean returned from death as a demon at the end of season nine, Crowley took his newly minted BFF to “howl at the moon,” but their bromance was shortlived – Sam saved his brother and restored Dean’s humanity in the third episode of season ten. So where do the brothers go from here?

Padalecki: Sam, with the help of Castiel, has saved Dean from being a demon and has made good on his promise at the end of season nine where he said he wasn’t gonna let him go, he wasn’t gonna let him die. But Dean is still cursed or possibly forever changed by this Mark of Cain. Sam and Dean don’t really know the repercussions of that just yet; they can’t find Cain; Castiel can’t find any answers; and Crowley’s not helping. We know that the Mark is changing him somehow, Dean doesn’t want it and Sam doesn’t want him to have it, so now they have to go as far as only the Winchesters will go to figure out how to get this Mark of Cain off of Dean before he turns into something that could cause more damage than Sam or Dean have ever seen.

Carver: Dean’s not a demon, but he still has this problem; he’s still got the Mark of Cain. And in the broadest strokes possible, it’s a very, very personal year where our overarching mythology for the season is building in a very methodical, very personal manner. I think a lot of relationships…I’ll even go as far to say a lot of bromances that have sprung up on the show, are going to be tested in ways that I think are going to be very uncomfortable. Each of our characters is going to have to stare into the abyss at some point and say, “who am I?” It’s going to be pretty personal, pretty intense, and pretty surprising as we move down the road.

Thankfully, the 200th episode (airing Nov. 11), is a light-hearted departure: it’s a musical, featuring a score composed by Christopher Lennertz and Jay Gruska, with lyrics by Robbie Thompson, who wrote the episode.

Carver: It’s our love letter to the fans. Many aspects of the fandom are going to see themselves represented in many different ways and in the most loving way possible. It’s an episode that takes a long, loving look at the show, warts and all. And we’re the first to admit our mistakes or our inconsistencies, and I think long-time fans will have a lot of fun seeing where we acknowledge this one big, happy, messy family that we’re all part of.

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Love and hair

Pairing: Jensen x Daughter!Reader, Jared x Daughter!Reader, Mom!OC x Daughter!Reader

Summary: Part 2 to Lullabies. 

Word Count: 1,332

Warnings: Paternity test, fluff, no incest

Author’s Note: Wasn’t sure if I should write that, but here it is… Based on this request by @justas-confused-asthenextperson Part 2 to Lullabies please? It's set 18 years in the future and the readers kid wants to know who their father is? You can pick who the father is.

Your birth was exactly 18 years, 9 days, 11 hours and 3 minutes ago. Exactly 53 - no, 54 seconds. Your mom had often told you the story of how you were born in New York and your fathers suddenly surprised her in hospital. How they were both happy to see you. Your dad, Jensen, never wanted to take you out of his arms again. And your dad Jared had watched the midwife watchfully over her shoulder as she measured, weighed and examined you before a doctor looked at the bruise on his hand that your mother had given him during labor. Both of them had been totally excited and your mom had almost had them thrown out of the room. 

Just a reminder, your fathers were Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki. Well, biologically, only one of them, but you never cared before. As a child, you were lucky enough to grow up with not one, but two wonderful fathers who both loved you dearly. Jared taught you how to walk, Jensen taught you the word "daddy. They both taught you how to swim, read you bedtime stories and scared the monsters under the bed away. They had run after your bike and bandaged your first banged up knee. First day of elementary school, middle school and high school. Your first swimming competition, your first boyfriend and your first heartbreak. They had watched over your every step and held their hands over corners and edges to protect you. You had always had a sheltered childhood away from cameras, spotlights, red carpets, and the thunderstorm of camera flashlights. After you were born, your mom left Supernatural. Of course, sometimes you surprised your dads on set, but they were always keen to keep you away from the film industry so you could grow up like normal child. They were with you all your life and they were always by your side. You couldn't put into words how much you loved them. They were the most important people in your life.

And yet there was this question that tormented you all your life, since you knew that it was not normal to have two fathers and one mother. It tormented you sometimes in your sleep and ran like a shadow through your everyday life. It followed you everywhere like an old friend. Who was your biological father? 

You didn't know how often you had asked yourself this question. Your mom had deliberately not ordered a test after your birth because she wanted you to have the right to decide later whether you wanted to know who your biological father was. And actually you had no problem with that either, because you loved them both and it didn't matter to you - but somehow it did. There was always this uncertainty eating away at you. Often you stood for hours in front of the big wall mirror in your room and looked for similarities, any clues that told you who your biological father was. That hair might be your dad Jared's. But the  eyes looked like Jensen's. And your mouth? Wasn't that Jensen's? Was that Jared's forehead that you recognized in the mirror on your face?

Nine days ago, on your 18th birthday, you finally made your choice. You wanted to know with absolute certainty who your father was. You had just graduated high school and had received your college acceptance letter. You were no longer a child. You wanted to know who your father was. So here you were. In the waiting room of the lab that ran the test. The results were due to be announced in a few minutes and there was excitement in the air. While you tugged at the sleeve of your sweater, Jensen paced nervously up and down and Jared impatiently bobbed his knee. You took turns looking at the clock. When your eyes met, you threw a tense smile at each other and looked away again. It was a difficult situation for you all. Jensen and Jared may have had to live with the fact that you weren't their daughter and you had to live with the fact that you actually only had one father. What if it was the wrong guy? What if you'd rather have the other one as your father? Jensen or Jared? Should you care? No, it never mattered! You blamed it on the nerves. You didn't care who your father was, and you were about to jump up and leave. Maybe you guys could go out for ice cream. Your favorite sundae with the cherry on top, which Jensen would steal from you while Jared was still handing you the whipped cream from his sundae. 

Just as you were about to break it off, the door opened. You and Jared jumped up, while Jensen stopped short. There was a lady in a lab coat smiling at you nicely. She wore glasses and had a clipboard in her hand. "Mr. Ackles? Mr Padalecki? Y/N? The results are in now. Would you like to hear them?" You took a deep breath and gulped, then you turned to the woman. "Just a moment." you asked, and then you turned to your fathers. "I want you to know that it doesn't matter who of you my biological dad is. I will always love the both of you, no matter what." Without waiting for an answer, you turned to the woman in the white coat. 
"You may now announce the results." She looked at you just over the edge of your glasses and finally nodded."Mr Padalecki? Congratulations. You became a father 18 years ago." Jared stood there surprised, mouth open. So many emotions ran across his face, and he seemed overwhelmed when you two embraced. A broad grin was on his lips and he whirled you through the air just like when you were a little kid. As soon as Jared dropped you off, you remembered Jensen. He stood sadly aside and gave you your moment. His hands were buried in the pockets of his jeans and he stood there uncertainly.

"I-I'm gonna go." You looked at him surprised. "What?" He shrugged his shoulders until Jared joined in. "Bollocks, Jay. You're going for ice cream with us now," said Jared, patting his buddy on the back. Jensen stood there hesitatingly. You stepped to him. "You're not my dad by blood, but that doesn't change anything. You're the best dad ever and I love you," you said honestly. You saw his affection for you in his green eyes. Now Jared came along and wrapped an arm around Jensen's shoulder.

"Dude, we've been agonized by her for more than 18 years. You're not gonna let me down now." He said, acting threatening, then he got serious, "Jay, this here is our daughter. I could never handle her without you. She has enough temperament and love for two dads. She's our whirlwind that's been sweeping through our lives, turning everything upside down. But most of all, she's our daughter. She's our baby, yours and mine, and always has been." Jensen nodded and a grin crept up to his lips.

"In that case, who's up for ice cream?" You burst out laughing and cheering. Like a small child, you left the building where the test lab was located hand in hand with them. "I'll have extra sprinkles... And chocolate sauce! And whipped cream!" you announced. "So will I! Plus chocolate chips." You nodded eagerly and Jared snorted in amusement. "Father or not, Jensen. That appetite of hers she definitely got from you." He winked at you, smiling.

And so you sat at your favorite coffee shop. You had ice cream with extra sauce, sprinkles, chocolate chips and whipped cream. Jensen stole your cherry, as usual, and Jared scraped his whipped cream off the top of his chocolate ice cream and gave it to you. You made jokes, laughed out loud and hugged each other. It was business as usual. Everything in the world was fine.

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[liliaeth]

Rules: List the first lines of your last 20 stories (if you have less than 20, just list them all!) See if there are any patterns. Choose your favourite opening line. Then tag 10 of your favourite authors!

Well the one pattern I can see is that I have way too many wips, damn my flighty muse

I’m tagging anyone willing to do this one

1. The Weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh (Nicolò di Genova/Yusuf al Kaysani, The Old Guard

Yusuf wasn’t even sure what he was doing, taking the invader with him. He should have left the man behind after the Franks took the city, but when he’d seen the look on the Christian’s face, that thousand mile stare in the other’s eyes, he’d been unable to do so. There had been a plea in the way he knelt there, not even reaching for a weapon, though he and Yusuf had killed each other dozens of times by now. Almost as if he wanted Yusuf to kill him. That might have been why he stayed his blade at first, that notion that he couldn’t give the other what he wanted, not after what the Franks had done. But then he’d seen the man’s eyes and he hadn’t been able to stop himself from feeling pity for him.

2. The Body Remembers (Scott McCall/Theo Raeken, Teen Wolf

He had flinched.

3. We come from Warriors (gen fic, with some Nicky/Joe , The Old Guard)

Solomon hesitated as he reached the door. He didn't want to go in. Not now, not when Mom would have prettied up the room, trying to achieve holiday cheer, desperate to pretend things were normal, that there wasn't another empty chair at the table. He was about ready to just turn around, to take his gifts back to the car and leave, go to a bar, and drink soda after soda, until he got on too much of a high and had to head out in his car, driving till the carbohydrate high was out of his system.

4.Artefacts of history (Nicky/Joe, Andy/Quynh, Nile, The Old Guard)

His first thought was ‘another one’. 

5. Sinking Down (Gen, Andy and Booker, The Old Guard)

Booker wasn’t even sure why he was in this damn room, with these people, none of whom had a clue who he was, or what he’d done. They all had their issues of course, and he wasn’t stupid enough to assume that anything he went through was worse than what they went through.

6. Tomatoes, lettuce and a burger (Gen, Dean and Sam Winchester, Supernatural)

Dean wasn’t sure what it was that made it feel like his heart was torn to pieces. Sam was sitting right there, mere inches away from him. Reading, writing, Dean wasn’t sure what his brother was doing as Dean himself was cooking. 

7. A Soldier goes marching on (gen, Nile Freeman, and Jay, The Old Guard) 

Jay stared at he empty bunk. Dizzy wouldn’t even look at her. Jay would have screamed at her, but she knew it wasn’t fair, since her anger was aimed as much at herself as it was at Dizzy. And neither would do any good.

8. New Wolf in the Old Guard (Teen Wolf/The Old Guard crossover, Scott centric)

Scott woke up gasping for air. It was the third time this week that he had the dream of drowning. The other dreams were weird, and scary, but he’d have any of them over the ones where he drowned. 

9. Good Little Milker (Dean Winchester, Supernatural a/b/o au)

Dean was still sulking. Sam could see it in the poor Omega cow's eyes, the way he glared at the both of them, when he thought Sam or Dad weren't looking. Oh sure, he was playing nice after the rough spanking Dad had given him. Dad had had no choice after Dean's initial tantrum when John had mentioned what was going to happen. It hadn't really been a surprise to anyone but Dean himself, when Sam's younger brother had presented as an Omega. Even during the first signs of his first heat, the boy had still been hoping to present at least as a beta if not an Alpha. But both Sam and John had known better. Dean was a brat, but he'd always been at his happiest when Dad or Sam told him what to do.

10. Clean (JDM/Jensen Ackles, spn rps, non-con)

Jeff couldn't believe his luck. The notion that this perfect piece of slave flesh had never once been fucked was probably the biggest waste of a slave's body he'd ever seen in his life.

11. Light in the Basement (Jensen Ackles/Jared Padalecki, spn rps, non-con)

Jensen wasn't even sure what had happened as he slowly woke up face down on a dusty floor. He stared up at the room he was in. It was dark, stuffy, like there was something in his throat making it hard to breathe. There was a pervading smell of shit and mold hanging around the place, like he was in a badly cleaned toilet in one of the factories he'd been working at over the past few months. He crawled up into the dark

12. The Treaty (Jensen Ackles/Jared Padalecki, spn rps, a/b/o, dub-con)

Peace. After ten years of war, it was long awaited, and even from the throne room, Jared could hear the celebrations spreading across the capitol city. Jared wished he could join the people, spend time with his loved ones and hold his mother, but all he could think of was his father's face as he'd died in Jared's arms.

13. the Wolf who Ran with Hunters (gen Teen Wolf/Supernatural, Scott-centric)

Scott shivered as he woke up. He didn’t want to open his eyes, because once he did, he’d have to accept that he was all alone in some crappy motel room.  Outside the window, he could see the dusty town in Oklahoma which he didn’t even know the name of.

14. Covered in Bandaids (Scott McCall/Isaac Lahey, Teen Wolf)

Isaac wasn’t quite sure what he was doing at the field. He shouldn’t even care about lacrosse any more. He was strong now, and lacrosse had been something he’d done because his father wanted him to be more like Camden. 

15. Breaking Point (Scott McCall/Theo Raeken, Teen Wolf)

The place was cold. Even with the increased body heat of a werewolf Scott shivered in the corner of the cell. He wished he’d been wearing more than a tank top and his jeans when the cops had burst into his room. They hadn’t told him what he was being arrested for, or what they wanted, which as far as he knew, was not the norm.

16. Kindness for the Devil (Lucifer Morningstar/Scott McCall, Lucifer/Teen Wolf)

It was a night like any other. Things were a bit too quiet over at Lux, but then it was early, and it seemed to make Linda happy, making her more likely to stay instead of having her take Charlie and leaving. 

17.Can’t Always hold him back (Stiles Stilinski/Derek Hale, Teen Wolf)

Scott looked down at Stiles, carefully listening to his friend’s heartbeat, pushing out the distraction of outside noise. Nurses and visitors talking in the hall outside, the beeping of the machine monitoring Stiles. He desperately tried to follow the pattern. It scared him, how hard his friend’s heart was working just to keep going, how difficult Stiles’ breathing went even with the oxygen mask covering his mouth and nose. Scott had finally managed to get the sheriff to go downstairs to have something to eat, maybe even take a shower if Mom could slip him into the staff showers. They all knew that their stay here could end up being a marathon that might last days more than it already had. 

18. Beloved (Btvs/Angel, co written with @spikesheart)

Sitting at one end of a fully laden table, Buffy looked at the appetizers piled on the finest bone china sitting atop platinum charger plates, studied her matching platinum silverware, and wrangled with the finely woven silver linen napkin in her lap – patently avoiding her lover’s gaze as he sat at the other end. Only the best of everything life had to offer was laid out before her. A wide variety of catered pasta, meat and vegetable dishes filled every square inch of space in between them, yet nothing caught her fancy.

19. Parent Wolf (Teen Wolf, the parents)

She woke up in an endless white room, found her head leaning against the bark of an old tree trunk, staring up and noticing several other men and women waking up alongside her. 

20. Missed Shot (gen, teen wolf, Scott-centric)

Scott stared up at the men coming closer and at the man who had just shot him with an arrow. Derek Hale, the creepy guy who’d lured him here in the first place, tried to grab him and pull him loose, but seconds later he was down on the ground as well with arrows in his leg and back.  Scott stared around in fear, pulling at the arrow, too scared to think of breaking it free.

[littlebird-99]

Just Like Us

Jensen x Reader

Warnings: Langage, a little smidge of angst.

Summary: Reader is a fan of the show, and Jared's little sister, being a year younger than he, he told everyone on the show that she was off-limits. Especially to Jensen, he would not let that happen. But, do you really get to choose who you fall in love with?

Prompt: I’m sorry if it upsets you, but I’m going to marry her.

A/N: Written for Lulu’s 4K Writing Challenge, Congrats on 4K @holylulusworld!! Any and all mistakes are mine, please don’t re-post my work anywhere without my  permission, Read more HERE, italics mean a flashback

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Y/n laughs as Jensen picked her up after they reach her standing with Gen and the boys at the airport.

"Hey, Jay!" She grinned, hugging him, before she slowly pulled away and quickly went to hug her brother, "Jare!" She grinned after he had hugged his wife and kids.

Jensen watched as she hugged her brother, biting his cheek as he shook his head gently. He and Y/n have been dating secretly for about a 1 year now, which is honestly shocking for him considering he sees Jared every day on set and every time he goes over to see her.

He remembers the first time Jared was bringing her to set; he told everyone that she was off-limits, Jared's eyes landed on Jensen longer than anyone else.

"Alright, I'm serious everyone alright! No one, will date my sister, she really doesn’t need to be dragged into the celebrity drama, she's perfectly fine where she is, and if I find out, I'm not talking to you for a while!" Jared stated loudly, his eyes staying on Jensen longer than he wanted to, but he meant everything.

Jensen rolled his eyes, shaking his head with a laugh, and continued walking for makeup, until he heard a small squeal, "Jarebear!" He turned around and spotted a rush of Y/h/c hair rush for Jared. Jared laughs, "Hey sis!" He grinned, holding her before he set her down softly.

Jensen walked over and introduce himself, get that over with so he could go back to focusing on the scenes they were about to finish filming, but as soon as his green eyes me y/e/c he couldn't move, he felt at peace, and calm, but his hands started to sweat, "fuck.." he breathed out quietly.

Her smile widened as she saw Jensen, "oh hi!" Her voice sounded like honey, 'dammit Jensen stop it! That's your best friend's little sister' he smiled and nodded, "Hi" he mumbled, earning a raised brow from Jared before he shrugged hit off, "so, you must be sasquatches baby sister" he smiled earning a laugh from her, 'god even her laughs perfect, fuck I'm screwed.. ' he thought, "sadly that's true" he teased laughing.

Jared laughed and shoved her gently, "I'm a joy to be a sibling too" he grinned, "uh... about that" Y/n started but squealed as Jared moved to pick her up, but she hid behind Jensen, making him chuckle, "nope, don't, definitely do not bring me in the middle of sibling issues" he laughed, making her grip her arms around his waist, hiding behind him more, "sorry, suck it up" she quipped back, earning a soft chuckle and a shake of the head.

"Earth to Jensen, hey bud, ya alright?" Jared asked lightly, Jensen glanced around, shaking his head slightly, "oh.. uh yeah, sorry, just tired is all" he chuckled, scratching the back of his neck lightly, "we should head out, I'm sure the kids are beat" he smiled.

Y/n laughed softly, "which is why I'm taking you home, and then Gen and Jared are heading straight home, I got to head to my place and it's near yours," she said lightly, earning a nod from Jared and Gen, before they all hugged bye and left separate ways.

After Jared was out of sight, Jensen pulled Y/n tightly against him, kissing her gently, his chapped lips softly moving against her soft ones, before she pulled away first, "God I missed you," he muttered, his forehead against hers, still keeping his eyes closed, she smiled lightly, "tell me about it.." she huffed lightly, "let's head home" she grinned. She moved and pulled him for his truck, earning a laugh from him, "you seriously drove that?" He asked.

"Hey, you told me I could, Ackles" she grinned, winking playfully, "now come on," she moved for the driver door as he put his suitcase in the truck's bed, "ya, nope, let me drive baby girl" he stated lightly as he moved and picked her up, not letting her get in, she rolled her eyes, shaking her head, "nope, now, c'mon Jay, get in the truck and let's head home."

A Few Weeks Later

The boys were getting ready to leave for the set again in a few days, but she couldn't breathe, Gen had found out about her and Jensen and that meant she told Jared, but it slipped out on accident because the two girls talked.

She could hear the yelling coming from downstairs and she shakes her head before she moved and went to walk downstairs, but Gen stopped her, earning a growl past the young one's lips, "back off… you've ruined enough. I need to go down there" she stated quietly.

Gen nodded, "I know… I just wanted to say I was sorry, and I really didn't mean to tell him, I'm so sorry" she spoke gently, Y/n glanced back at her, biting her cheek before she moved down the stairs quickly, opening the door.

"No! Jared, you don't under-"

"You better not tell me I don't understand because I told you all she was off limits! No one could date her," Jared growled, interrupting Jensen, "but apparently rules don't apply to you huh! She's my baby sisters Jensen! And you don't have a great rap sheet with women!" He yelled.

She was fuming, but before she could say anything Jensen muttered.

"I'm sorry if it upsets you, but I'm going to marry her." He stated softly, "that's why I came over here tonight Jared." He stated.

Y/n stood frozen in place, she couldn't move, she couldn't breathe, did she hear him right? She never thought about marriage, well she had, but she didn’t know he was.

"I came over here to spill the beans, and ask you if I could marry her, we've been together for a year now, and I love her more than anything, more than words can say," Jensen started, he continued, "she makes my world brighter, my heart race whenever I see her or hear her name or her voice. She's my world Jare, please.." he stated. "I want your blessing to marry your sister, I know you don't want to say yes, and you want to beat the shit out of me. But I love her"

Jared watched Jensen closely, biting his cheek as he did thinking it and everything else over. "You really love her?" He asked, biting his lip now. He doctored Y/n standing in the door, and chewed his cheek, "why don't you just ask her?"

Jensen raised a brow before he turned and saw Y/n, "B-Baby… hey," he blurted, scratching the back of his neck gently.

Jared watched his sister's reaction to hearing Jensen say this about her before he knew it, she was in the room, hugging Jensen tightly.

He couldn't deny he had noticed a change in his sister since, well, since I had introduced her to Jensen. She had been happier, smiling more, especially when he was around. Why didn't he notice it before, all the signs were in front of him, all the lingering touches, the little glances at each other?

"Fine.." he stated, "you can marry her, but I swear to god Jensen.. you break her heart, we're done as friends, I can work with you onset, but that's it." He stated. “no more game days, no more barbeque's, nothing, you’ve lost my trust and friendship if you break her heart.”

Jensen nodded lightly, holding Y/n tightly, before he pulled away, "I promise... I won't hurt her, she's my world Jare, and I mean it" he stated. Jared nodded and walked away, heading upstairs, needing something strong at the moment.

Y/n looked up at Jensen, watching him as her eyes started to glaze over.

Jensen blushed lightly, pulling something from his pocket. "I had a whole plan on how I would ask you, we're gonna go to the music festival in Texas, and hang out, listen to music all day, then we would go to the beach and watch the sunrise, and I would ask you then..." he whispered.

He got down on one knee slowly, biting his cheek, "Y/n Y/m/n Padalecki, you are my world, my stars, my moon..  you're my everything and I didn't know I needed you until I met you. Now I can't imagine my life without you, baby, you make my heart race, my mind worries when I'm not with you. I want to grow old with you, I want to watch our children grow up, and then watch out grandchildren grow up too, so… baby, will you do me the honor and become Mrs. Y/n Ackles?" He asked quietly, his voice breaking as he talked.

Y/n nodded quickly, tears running down her face, "yes! Yes, Jensen" she cried, he quickly slipped the ring on, moving and kissing her deeply after he stood up.

Jared groaned, hearing them downstairs and nodded, "Jensens literally gonna be my brother now.." he couldn't help his grin and nodded, "I'm just happy it's him and no one else..  there's no one I would rather trust" he stated, making Gen smile, "why didn't you just tell them you knew?" she asked, figuring out what he had done.

He shrugged, “they tried keeping it from me, but I knew from that day on set, that Jensen and she were both done, screwed, and the way he couldn't take his eyes off her, and he couldn't talk. They were made for each other baby, just like us," he grinned and kissed Gen gently. “That’s the whole reason I brought her to set, I knew they would get along” he admitted lightly.

TAGS: @donnaintx

[67-chevy-baby]

Cradle Our Desire

Pairing - Jensen x Reader

Tags - Angst, Language, Implied Smut, Mentions of blood, Vampires, Use of knives, Death, Confessions of love, kissing, and I think that’s it. Let me know if I missed something, and I will tag it. :) 

Word Count -  1,889

Beta - @winecatsandpizza​

Fic Aesthetic - Yours truly

The Song I Chose - Drowning by Radio Company

Written for - @saxxxology​’s Vol 1 Writing Challenge

A/N - There may be a part 2 to this. :) I haven’t decided. Also, I haven’t written in a while due to mental health issues, so please go easy on me... I’m sorry if this sucks. 

“That’s a wrap on Y/N!”

You’d been waiting all day for those five words, no matter how bittersweet they’d be to hear. Immediately, you closed your eyes and released a shaky breath. The emotions of the scene you just acted out still played over and over in your mind as you headed towards your trailer. 

It’s not your trailer anymore … not after today. That single thought lingered in your head for a few moments as you willed yourself to keep your tears at bay. As soon as you climbed the stairs and shut the door, your body gave way and you slid down the wall. The tears you tried so hard to hide finally flowed freely down your cheeks. One of your hands covered your mouth just as you let out a choked sob. 

You knew this day would come. Even the greatest of TV shows couldn’t last forever, and fifteen years was a long time. You’d been a series regular ever since season ten, and it was an honor to work alongside two of the greatest actors of your generation. Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles were phenomenal actors on screen and the most humble of men off-screen. You’d be lying if you said you wouldn’t miss them. 

Your character in the show, Taygen, was a rogue hunter who was working on killing a nest of vampires when she met the brothers. The three of you took care of the vamps and the rest was history. Together you worked like a fine-tuned machine and as much as you hated the thought, it was time to say goodbye to her.

Of course, you knew she wouldn’t go down without a fight. No, Tay wasn’t the kind to stand on the sidelines. She would fight until her last breath to protect the ones she loved, and that’s exactly what she did. The tears kept flowing as your mind drifted to how your final scene played out. 

The pounding of your footfalls echoed through the abandoned warehouse, your hand-crafted knife in your left hand ready to strike. Skidding to a halt, you pressed yourself against the wall to listen for any signs of movement. Sam and Dean had decided that the three of you should split up to cover more ground. You knew they could handle themselves, but something about this hunt just felt … off. 

A loud crash came from the floor above you, and Dean’s yells reverberated off the walls. Panic pricked your skin as you ran as fast as you could up the stairs. Nothing mattered anymore. Not your surroundings, not the vampires, not even God himself could stop you from getting to where Dean was. 

The bottom of your combat boot collided with the rotting wood of the door sending it flying into the room. Dean laid motionless on the floor, one of the vamps hovering over him ready to rip his throat out. 

“Hey! Asshole! Get your filthy hands off him!” The monster turned and narrowed its eyes, its hungry glare turning lethal in an instant before lunging at you. The blade of your knife slashed at the vampire’s chest while your free hand blocked its punches. Just as you were about to finish it off, Dean groaned in pain making you lose focus. “Unngh … Taygen?” The monster knocked your blade from your hand and tossed you into the wall across the room. 

You hit the ground with a sickening thud. Weakly, you pushed yourself up in time to see the vampire turn it’s attention back to the elder Winchester. You knew your ankle was probably broken, but all you could think about was saving Dean. He’d trained you, stayed up with you on nights that you couldn’t sleep, and he’d saved you numerous times when you’d been too reckless. Not to mention that you’d been in love with him since the night you met him and his brother. 

Ignoring the shooting pain in your ankle, you threw your body in front of Dean to shield him from the fatal strike of the Vampire’s razor-sharp teeth. You let out a blood-curdling scream as its fangs pierced the skin of your neck. Even though the monster wasn’t on you for more than a few seconds, the damage was already done. Sam heard your scream and came to yours and Dean’s aid, beheading the vampire with one swipe of his blade. 

Everything felt sluggish around you. The shouts of both the brothers seemed far away as they surrounded you. Dean cursed loudly as Sam ran to get the Impala. “Dammit, Tay! How many times am I gonna have to tell you not to be so reckless!” Your shaky hand came up to rest on his cheek as he held you, your eyes sparkling with tears. “D-Dean … I ... “ He shook his head and swallowed thickly. “Shh, don’t talk sweetheart. Sammy’s goin’ to get the car, and then we’ll take care of you. Cas will heal your ankle, and we’ll get that gash in your neck fixed up in no time.” 

A lone tear slid down your cheek as you tried to desperately memorize every feature of Dean’s face. His piercing green eyes, those smooth lips, and the collection of freckles scattered all over his flawless skin. “Dean, listen to m-me … I‘m not missin’ my ch-chance to tell you this.” You winced as another stabbing pain shot through your body. “I…” The taste of blood filled your mouth as your vision clouded. You knew you weren’t going to make it out of this alive. “... Love y-you …”

It had taken you months to prepare for that scene. Being killed off wasn’t the problem, no it was the fact that your character had to finally tell Jensen’s character how she felt. Normally, something like this wouldn’t even phase you. Having a character fall in love with another came as part of the job description, and the actors and actresses who portrayed said characters knew how to separate that from real life. The reason all of this was so hard for you was because your character wasn’t the only one in love. 

Once you finally found the strength to get off the floor of your trailer you walked to where your bedroom was and grabbed a pen out of the cup on your nightstand. Whenever your emotions got the better of you, writing in your journal would always help calm you down. Earlier, you’d started an entry about today’s scene, and you wanted to finish it. You opened the top drawer of your dresser and felt your heart drop to your stomach. It was gone. Your journal was gone. Quickly, you racked your brain and remembered you’d brought it with you to set. You’d been writing in it while sitting in the Bunker’s library as you watched Jared and Jensen do a few takes before your final scene. How could you have been so stupid? There was no telling who’d get their hands on it and see all the things you’ve kept secret for so long. 

You tore across the trailer lot as fast as you could towards the set and came to a stop at the Bunker’s entrance. Calmly and quietly you descended the staircase and navigated to the library. All the color drained from your face when your eyes landed on Jensen. He was sitting there intently reading what had to be your latest journal entry. He looked up at you, his face unreadable as his gaze bore into your own. 

“Jay… I… I can explain! I…” He stood and walked towards you, the emotion in his eyes just as intense as they were when Taygen had taken her last breath in Dean’s arms. “Is it true? This...this passage you wrote about me?” You couldn’t look at him anymore, the chipped polish on your nails became your focus as you tried to make your brain form words. “Wh-What are you talking about?” His brow furrowed as he pointed to the page he’d been holding. You stood there frozen as he began to read the very entry you’d hoped he’d never see. 

“Today’s the day … the day I complete my run on the greatest TV show. Not only do I have to say goodbye to Supernatural, but I have to live with not seeing the love of my life every day. Jensen doesn’t know it, but he’s the reason I can still hold my head above water in this line of work. Without him, I’d surely be drowning by now. He can never know how I feel. I can never tell him. I can’t risk my feelings not being reciprocated…”

By the time he was done reading your vision was blurred by your tears. How could you have been so careless? Jensen approached your shaking form and used his index and middle fingers to raise your chin so you were looking into his eyes. “Tell me Y/N, I have to know if this is truly how you feel.” There was no going back. There was no way to get out of this, and you felt yourself slip into fight or flight mode. “Why?! Why does it matter, Jensen? S’not like you’ll ever feel the same way about me! I’m just… just an average girl from the midwest who’s own family disowned her after she refused to follow in their footsteps and do what made me happy. You’ve got everything going for you! You’re fucking perfect in every way, and could have any woman on this planet! You’ve already read my feelings so why torture me and make me say what you already know?!”

Your chest heaved as he looked down at you. His eyes never wavering from your own. The silence around the two of you only lasted a few seconds, but it felt like an eternity. “You’re not very observant are you, Y/N?” His smirk only angered you more. “What the fuck are you talking about? So, you find out how I feel and the humiliation isn’t enough for you? You gotta insult me too?! Just forget it! I’m leaving with the little dignity I have left!” You ripped your journal from his hand and started towards the staircase, but before you could get to the landing Jensen had you pressed against the wall. 

“Dammit Y/N, just who exactly do you take me for? You think I would hurt someone I love on purpose like that?! Jesus, you’re just as stubborn as Taygen…” You struggled in his hold but stopped the instant his words hit you. He … loved you? Your eyes snapped up to meet his intense gaze, the silent question being answered. “Yes Y/N, I love you. I’ve loved you for a while, but I always thought you didn’t feel the same.” His fingers grazed your cheek and you leaned into it. The anger you felt left your body instantly as he slowly leaned in. “I’m sorry it took so long, but from this moment on, I’m going to show you just how much you mean to me.” 

His kiss sent sparks through your body, igniting a fire you’d never known about until now. His lips never left your skin as he carried you down the Bunker’s hallway, the promises he’d made to you moments before burned in the wake of each kiss he gave.

[caranfindel]

Recap/review 15.13: “Destiny’s Child”

THEN: The pizza man! Megstiel! Oh, lord, I love these two. Ruby 2.0. Lots of pizza for some reason. Jack is soulless. Chuck is destroying his worlds.

NOW: Bunker. The guys are doing research in the library when they hear a weird loud noise. They rush into a room I don’t recognize and find a cute little seafoam green Fiat. With Kansas plates. {Sidebar: I’m thrilled to see Kansas plates. I wish Baby would get replated before the end.} As Savage Garden sings about ch-ch-cherry cola feelings at the base of your spine, two feet (but only one sock) emerge from the Fiat, and those feet are connected to… Sam and Dean! Well, AU versions of them, anyway. As real Sam and Dean watch in horrified confusion, we get glimpses of AU Sam and Dean – an expensive watch, non-flannel clothes, AU Sam’s hair half up. An open rift glows behind them. “Well,” says AU Sam, “we did it.” The AU brothers fistbump (which is smart; you don’t want to shake hands with coronavirus and all) and we see AU Sam is wearing an Apple watch. Which I think the OG Winchesters should wear, considering how often they seem to miss important texts.

All four make eye contact.

Dean? Sam? Sam? Dean? What the hell? What the heck?

The rift flares brighter, AU Dean says “Aw, nuts,” and the AU brothers and their cute little car are sucked back out of our world.

Title card!

Time jump. OG Sam and Dean are telling Cas about their doppelgangers. Dean is particularly disturbed by their car (as am I, because there’s no way those two big guys would be running around in a tiny little Fiat, no matter how fucking cute it is). And all three are just completely confused. Which is odd, considering that they know 1) there are AU versions of themselves in AU worlds, and B) people can move between those worlds. I don’t know why they can’t wrap their heads around AU Winchesters showing up in the bunker.

“How did they get here?” Dean asks. The answer comes from Billie. “They were running. Because God was destroying their reality. He’s almost done wrapping up those other worlds.” And when he finishes his other worlds, he’s coming after the Winchesters. It’s time move on to the next step in Billie’s plan for Jack. Our boy enters on cue, eating a sandwich and announcing he’s ready. Billie explains that the first step (eating angel hearts, ew) was to prepare his body, and the next step is “more spiritual in nature.” He has to find something called the Occultum.

The Occultum? That’s Latin for “hidden.” Where do we find it? I don’t KNOW. It’s HIDDEN.

Hee!

Smart Sam, slightly embarrassed chastised Sam. Love ‘em both.

They don’t really even know what it is, let alone where it is. Or maybe Billie knows what it is, and just isn’t talking. She stresses that since everything will go tits up if God finds out what they’re doing, they need to be ready, and vigilant. “And not stupid.”

Oh, Billie. It’s too late for that.

Research time. Sam’s frustrated, Dean’s distracted. Because he remembered Amara, and he thinks maybe Jack is supposed to kill Amara too. Sam scoffs at that, but Dean reminds us him that the world will be out of balance if Chuck is gone but Amara remains. Sam asks “But then who takes over? Jack?” Jack wanders in, blowing a bubblegum bubble, and proudly announces that he just learned how to do it. “Probably not,” Dean says. Heh. The guys question Jack about how, exactly, he’s going to strike God down, and either he doesn’t know or, again, he’s not talking.

{Sidebar: Neither of them thought anyone needed to take over as God if Chuck was gone. They were, in fact, looking forward to a Godless world. Why, now, does Sam suddenly think someone needs to take over if both Chuck and Amara are gone? Yeah, I know the answer. Bad writing. Thanks, Buckleming!}

They must have brought the Amara situation up for a reason. It’s the kind of monkey wrench that the writers usually ignore if they don’t have a way to address it. What’s going to happen? Here are the possibilities I came up with:

Both Chuck and Amara are killed.

Jack replaces Chuck as God, which means Amara can go on playing keno.

Either Sam or Dean replaces Chuck as God, and Jack or Cas becomes the Darkness. (Neither Sam nor Dean can receive the Mark of Cain again, right? Isn’t that canon? Or is it fanon? And did Sam’s very brief experience with the Mark actually count?)

Jack replaces Chuck as God, and Cas becomes the Darkness. Or vice versa.

Billie pulls a deus ex machina and the whole Chuck/Amara balance thing becomes moot.

The whole Amara situation will never be mentioned again.

Cas wanders in, gathering information from Sergei. Sergei? Again? Will we never be shed of him? Dean agrees with me. “Him? Are we that desperate?” Apparently so. Sergei says the Occultum was housed in a temple until it wasn’t and Dean starts throwing out movie plots to hypothesize what might have happened to it. I’m sure that was amusing to some of you. Anyway, it ended up in the hands of a faith healer with glowy hands. Oh, who could that be? Well, if you didn’t cover the guest star credits, you didn’t see Danneel Ackles. And even if you did, I’m sure you’ve guessed that the faith healer is Sister Jo, who everyone calls Jo rather than using her angel name. Even Cas. I think we should start calling him Jimmy.

Sister Jo’s. She’s wearing some weird combo of satin slipdress/turtleneck/pink blazer. Any one of these items is fine. Together they’re awful. Sam and Dean show up, asking where the Occultum is, and threatening her with angel blades when she refuses to spill the beans. Which doesn’t seem very threatening to me. As an angel, she’s still so much more powerful than they are. (Whatever.)

She says “I gave it to an old friend of yours – Ruby.” And Sam’s first response is “why would you give it to her” instead of “wait, we killed her years before you fell to earth and became a faith healer.” {waves to Buckleming} We get some ridiculous backstory (and again I don’t understand why an angel cares so much about couture brands) about how she was working with Ruby and oh, look, it’s Ruby 2.0! {Sidebar: I covered the credits, as I said, so I didn’t notice that Genevieve Padalecki was not in them. I love the way Show tries to set up a surprise and then their PR department completely spoils it. Because yes, of course I knew Genevieve was coming back. Even the Unsullied couldn’t avoid that spoiler, especially because some people on Tumblr do not use spoiler tags!!! However, I was under the impression she’d be in the final episode, so it was a huge relief to see her in this one. Let’s waste all the nonsense on a Buckleming episode!}

Anyway. According to Jo, Ruby claimed she had a buyer for the Occultum. Jo gave it to her, and then the boys killed her so the deal did not go down. {Sidebar: Once again, Show, flashbacks to older, better episodes are not doing you any favors.} The Occultum is still where Ruby stashed it – in Hell. Dean rolls his eyes, because that’s all Hell is now. It doesn’t inspire terror, just an eyeroll. Hell is basically Walmart. And Dean’s eyeroll is tantamount to me saying “Shit, the only place I can get toilet paper is Walmart? Ugh.” And I hate that, friends. I really, really hate the way Hell has become no more than an unpleasant inconvenience.

Here. Have a palate cleanser.

Bunker. Jack is eating… everything. He and Cas talk about how he’s really into food now, but he doesn’t feel things like he did before he lost his soul. He makes another guilt-free reference about “what happened to Mary,” like he did right before they put him in the box, and wonders if Dean will ever forgive him. {Sidebar: He doesn’t care if Sam forgives him, or he knows Sam has/will? Discuss.} Cas says “You know, Dean, he feels things more acutely than any human I’ve ever known.” Because yes, Dean has to be the absolute bestest at everything, doesn’t he? {Sidebar: How long has it been since someone told Dean he was pretty? What if he forgets???} Anyway, Cas thinks maybe someday Dean will explode and release his Most Acutest Ever feelings and then Jack will be forgiven. (Foreshadowing!)

The guys enter the bunker, discussing Rowena’s spell to get into Hell, and Dean calls Sam “Samwitch.” \o/ Because, as we know, someone over there reads my LJ and/or Tumblr. Um. Does this mean it’s the Buckleming? If so, I’m going to need some time. Cas shows up and looks constipated and says “come with me” and it’s an odd transition because it seemed like they interrupted his talk with Jack, but actually it must be some time later.

Cas takes them back to the mystery room, which I guess was identified as the armory but it looks more like another library to me, and shows them a ghostly AU Sam and Dean. They’re trapped between worlds, apparently. Dean doesn’t care. When Cas assures him they don’t seem to be in pain, he’s ready to move on. I wonder how acutely he feels that.

Sam tells Cas that Ruby stashed the Occultum in Hell and Cas says “Ruby. The demon you were sexually intimate with.” Sam’s all, really, Cas, you’re going there? and it’s another episode of ha ha, funny Cas doesn’t understand human interactions, and then Dean goes all squinty eyed and says ”sexually intimate?” as if this is NEWS TO HIM and WHAT THE FUCKING WHAT, SHOW. This is not news to Dean. Sam told him ALL ABOUT IT in “I Know What You Did Last Summer.” Dean even told him it was “too much information.” Sam told him EVERYTHING. And now we’re supposed to think he didn’t know Sam was banging a demon?

FUCKLEMING!!!!

Anyway. Cas thinks they should get some confirmation from Ruby before going to Hell, but she is inconveniently dead. And also, why would she tell them the truth, considering they’re the reason she’s inconveniently dead. The guys don’t want to wait. They tell Cas to stay in the car right outside the door to Walmart and keep the engine running keep the spell to open Hell going.

Hell. Ugh So cheesy; so much hate. The guys come across a minion who says Rowena is hosting a reception, and he’ll take them to her. But Ruth wasn’t in the credits (for those of you who saw the credits) so obviously this is a trap. Fighty fighty, blah blah blah. Turns out they were set up by Jo. We do get a bit of a post-exertion huff from Sam, so it’s not a total waste.

While this is happening, Cas decides to go to the Empty to question Ruby, because he’s pretty sure Jo isn’t telling the truth. He needs Jack to kill him to the point that he’s only mostly dead. And we’re reminded about his deal with the Empty, so I guess that’s still a thing. Cas gives Jack a flask to hold his life force, and tells him that if this goes badly, Cas will be lost forever. And if Jack doesn’t keep the spell burning, the Winchesters will be stuck in Hell and will be lost forever. Wow, a lot of things could go wrong here. Jack puts a hand on Cas’s forehead and we see Cas’s grace drain into the flask.

Sister Jo’s place. She’s packing up and fleeing.

The Empty. Cas calls for Ruby. “Hello, Clarence,” says a familiar voice. It’s Meg! \o/ Oh, no. It’s just the Empty Guy in Meg form. Dammit. Meg’s got to be in here somewhere, and I’d love to see some Megstiel action one more time before I die. But it is very nice to see Rachel Miner. Empty!Meg calls Ruby out from the darkness. Ruby fondly remembers Sam as “the big lug” and tells Cas a completely different story about her relationship with Jo. {Sidebar: I hate to say this, but Gen doesn’t look so good in this episode, and I also remember her as a better actor.} Ruby tells Cas the Occultum is “a place, a thing, whatever you want to call it.” She’ll tell him where it is if he gets her out of the Empty. He promises to try, and she whispers in his ear.

Back at the bunker, the guys have returned and are horrified to find that Cas is hopefully in the Empty, hopefully finding Ruby, hopefully finding the location of the Occultum, and Sam says “that’s way too many hopefullys!” Hee. They demand that Jack bring him back. In the Empty, Empty!Meg tortures Cas and says Billie promised she could go back to sleep as soon as this is all over, while in the bunker, Jack feeds him his life force.

Resurrected from the nearly-dead, Cas gets called an idiot, because neither of these guys have ever risked their lives to get information (ha ha, sure Dean). He tells the guys he knows where the Occultum is, and they’re ready to go. However, Jack points out that if Chuck notices they’re gone and figures out what they’re doing, it’s game over. True. But that was also true when they went to Hell, and it didn’t seem to be a problem. Anyway, Dean has an idea. He thinks they need a visible presence in the bunker, because this is where Chuck will look.

We don’t know that. We don’t NOT know that.

Hee! Down in the armory, the AU Winchesters are still stuck between worlds. Dean thinks they can open the rift and yank the guys back into this world. Conveniently, since they’re stuck adjacent to this world, Cas’s grace should be plenty. The AU brothers are playing rock-paper-scissors and maybe I’m missing something, but it sure looks like Dean throws scissors and Sam throws rock, which means Sam wins, but Dean acts like he won. Maybe it’s different in AU World. Maybe AU World rocks are very soft.

Sam does the spell, because the one good thing I still get to have is that Sam is in charge of the spellwork. The next thing we see is the OG brothers and the AU brothers at the map table, drinking beer. I’m pretty sure Jared is going to take AU Sam’s purple suit home after they shoot the last episode. The AU brothers are awfully prissy and don’t drink much beer – “Dad won’t keep it in the house. He only likes his private label Scotch. He spoils us.” Damn. They really are prissy. And John is alive, and went through the rift with them, but they don’t know where he is now. Nor do they seem concerned at all, even though they toast him as the “best guy ever.” The AU Winchesters hunt worldwide, and get paid, and have their own plane. The originals explain to the AUs why they need them to act as decoys. OG Sam tells AU Sam that he’ll have to “lose the manbun” and AU Sam recoils in horror and this is NOT WORKING FOR ME. (Also, it’s not technically a manbun, it’s just half up.) I guess some of you loved them, and I’m sure J2 had fun playing them, but I’m just. Bleh. Rich hunters wouldn’t be fussy little twits. Maybe if they were MoL; I can see that. But hunters with money would, IMHO, be like those Duck Dynasty idiots. They’d still be wearing flannel, they’d just drive huge expensive SUVs.

Sam, who are these douches and why are they in our house?

{Sidebar: Why are all the AU Winchesters the same age as our Winchesters? If the other worlds were copies of ours, shouldn’t the AU brothers be younger? Shouldn’t we have Dylan Everett or Colin Ford here?}

Carrying on. The Impala pulls up to a church, and even Jack thinks this is too easy. But then it’s not, because we hear the distinctive growl of hellhounds. Dean gets the door unlocked just in time, and they all rush inside. Sam holds the doors closed as the other three casually wander around the church trying to find the Occultum. Sam is clearly having trouble, but no one comes to his aid. The sky conveniently clears, revealing a moonlit cross on the floor that marks the spot. Dean pulls up a floorboard and reveals a small blue velvet bag {Sidebar: Anyone else have a very similar Crown Royal bag full of cassette tapes in their car back in the 70s/80s? Or was that just me and my lowlife friends?} Inside the bag is an orb inscribed in Enochian: In order to be in the Occultum, the Occultum must be in you. Sam continues struggling with the door, and the others are all, you held the doors open against Lucifer himself, I’m sure you can handle a couple of silly hellhounds, which is true but still.

Bunker. AU Sam and Dean are cosplaying as our Sam and Dean, but not well. “They said lose the manbun, Samuel,” says AU Dean. “Look, hillbilly clothes are bad enough. I had to draw the line somewhere, and my hair is sacred.” Sam drinks beer with his pinkie extended, and hates it, and I’m sorry. I can’t stand this.

Scenes from the Writers’ Room

You know, last year, Jared got to play a couple of fun AU versions of Sam. I missed out on that.

Okay, but we’ve got you singing this year. And dancing.

Yeah, I know, but I really want to play a different version of Dean, too. I’m gonna be looking for jobs. I need to showcase all my talents.

All right, we can do that.

Also, make sure someone tells Dean he’s pretty.

Anyway. AU Dean is growing to enjoy beer, and he finds porn on Dean’s laptop (leave it to the Buckleming to bring back Busty Asian Beauties, ugh), and he thinks the OG life – nothing but beer, monsters, and porn – might not be so bad after all. AU Sam decides he agrees.

Back at the church, Sam is still the only thing between the rest of TFW 2.0 and grim death. As Cas and Dean squabble over what to do next, Jack figures out the obvious and swallows the Occultum. He collapses and glows and is transported to… Eden! Which has astroturf! And a weird girl who says Eden will change him “if you’re the one meant to find it.” She disappears and a snake appears in the tree. (Hello, Crawly!) “Who are you really?” it hisses. “Who are you meant to be?” Jack has some flashbacks to his best times and worst times and falls to the ground, crying. Then he appears back in the church as a glowing orb which immediately heads straight toward Sam, if you didn’t notice. But I did. Then it floats back to Cas and Dean. Sam collapses and the door opens, but the ball of light disperses the hellhounds and leaves Jack on the floor.

Aftermath! Bunker. Dean is dismissing the AU Winchesters. AU Dean suggests they all live there together, and OG Dean turns them down. He thinks they need to go to Brazil, and refuses their request to keep the flannel shirts. AU Dean tells him they saw the car – and drove it. I wonder when they did that, since the OG Winchesters drove it to the church. Huh. But that’s not what bugs me most about this. What bugs me most is that there’s NO WAY IN HELL (not even new, wimpy Walmart Hell) that Sam and Dean would have let those guys go. Would have turned them loose without any support. No fucking way.

Dean joins Sam, who is standing sadly in the hallway outside Jack’s door. Cas comes out of his room and says Jack is okay, but something is different. They go inside and oh, it’s not Jack’s room, it’s the kitchen. Jack is sitting at the table, crying. He apologizes for not understanding that killing Mary was his fault and begs for forgiveness. Looks like someone has been resouled. And – scene!

So. I didn’t really care for this one. In fact, it kind of made me lose hope for the rest of the season. And maybe the will to live. But I’m not going to dwell on that. I’m going to dwell on this: We don’t need any more side characters, even if they’re Sam and Dean.

Scenes From the Writers’ Room

Okay, who else can we bring back?

What about Ruby? I know a lot of fans would like to see some closure for her story.

I thought she had closure? When they killed her?

{laughter}

Good one. Yeah, let’s bring her back and wrap her story up. And we’ll give Cas and Jack some time too.

But we’ve gotta use the guys at some point. People are gonna complain.

I’ve got an idea – what if we have Jared and Jensen play two different people, rather than Sam and Dean?

You, my friend, are a fucking genius!

But if we had to get two AU Winchesters, couldn’t it have been the ones from Sam’s nightmares? Wouldn’t Boy!King Sam or MoC Dean have been awesome? And what if, after the AU Winchesters tumbled into the bunker, AU Sam quietly pulled OG Sam aside.

I need to talk to you. Alone. What is it? Do you have a secure room? Someplace we can ward? Why? Um… I’m not sure how to explain… Do you have Cain and Abel in your world? {Sam visibly blanches} We’ve got a dungeon. Come help me set it up. Now.

Wouldn’t that have been better than this crap? Or what about Samifer? Wouldn’t Sam and Dean’s reactions to Samifer have been magnificent? (Yeah, I know. We didn’t need a whole Plot. We just needed a small Device.)

And it turns out they’re not airing any more new episodes until… who knows when. Which means we’re stuck with this one. If I die and the last new episode of Supernatural I ever get to see is a fucking Buckleming episode, I’m going to be so pissed. I will come back and I will be haunting some asses. Enough whining. What did you think? And please help me stay unspoiled; thanks!

[weasley-gal]

Goodbye, Supernatural!

* FINALE SPOILERS * FINALE SPOILERS * FINALE SPOILERS *

I have watched Supernatural from the beginning. Sometimes it has been truly great television: clever, funny, honest, and emotional. Other times – mostly when its creative team has taken too much cue from the loudest social media voices – it’s been less, but I’ve never not loved it.

The ending was hard to take. Small minded people will say, “It’s just a show,” but even “just a show” is never that. It’s people you invite into your home week in and week out. In the case of Supernatural, “just a show” became a bona fide community, #SPNFAMILY, a regular part of our lives for 15 years. The biggest and most important names regularly engaged with even the smallest, as mentioned, sometimes to their own detriment. Regardless, it’s awfully hard letting go of all that. Once new, original content dries up, fandoms may continue to limp along, but they’re never the same. This week we said goodbye to the biggest part of our community forever.

I am not a fan of finales that blow up their universes. I think many people want and expect it - hence the “final” bit of “finale” - but I prefer to think all my beloved characters are going on as they always have, just without me watching. I would have found Supernatural’s penultimate episode a much more satisfying finale than the actual finale, but I won’t complain about the way they chose to end it, simply because it’s the way *they* chose to end it.

When fans cried about Fred Weasley being killed off in the last Harry Potter book, J.K. Rowling answered, “It was always going to be Fred, though, wasn’t it?” Like, every moment of that character’s life, she knew exactly where he was heading. The writers of Supernatural are not, by far, as clever as J.K. Rowling, and I wouldn’t suggest there’s even a slim chance the finale represented the climax of a plan they had for Sam and Dean from day one. However, I told my sister six months ago, “They’re going to kill off Dean and give Sam the normal life he wanted in the beginning.” I knew it. I wanted to be wrong, but I knew it. Look back at those early episodes. That foundation was laid and was just waiting for someone to build this sad house upon it.

Following Thursday night’s two-part episode, the loudest voices online were, of course, the complainers. Twitter and Tumblr users were furious about the finale’s alleged failings, both large (Dean’s death) and small (the fact that Sam’s wife was never named or shown clearly). Protests about Supernatural in general have always ranged from fair enough to batshit bonkers, never mind an episode where they killed off the show’s (inexplicably) most beloved character. Supernatural tags were *not* a pleasant place to be after the show, and that hasn’t changed much. I’ve yet to read any professional reviews of the finale, though I suppose I will at some point…or not.

Like the X-Files before it, I think Supernatural was always best at “monster of the week” episodes. Like the X-Files before it, it sometimes bowed under the weight of its own mythology. If you told me even SPN’s writers couldn’t always remember the powers and constricts they’d assigned to each specific supernatural being or scenario, I’d have no problem believing that. The arc episodes could be muddled, confusing, and overly full of themselves, but those monster-of-the-week episodes never failed to please. I know I hold the minority opinion there, but that is a sword on which I shall happily die.

Neither Jared Padalecki nor Jensen Ackles will ever be among the world’s great actors. I’ll take heat for saying it, but it’s true. I think Ackles has fantastic comedic timing, but neither is blessed with superior dramatic chops. The show was lucky to fill itself with terrific supporting players, though, and, in the finale, both Ackles and Padalecki outdid themselves. For 15 years, I’ve cringed and/or rolled my eyes every time they’ve had to be Serious Actors, but even I was impressed with their work in that final episode. It gave the show an emotional wallop it couldn’t otherwise have managed, regardless of where the story went. I cried when I watched it, I cried more reading about it, and I cried when I watched it again the next morning. Giving additional credit where it’s due, for a show that once had to trim two minutes per episode to make budget, the hair and makeup department did a fantastic job aging Sam over the last 30 minutes of the finale. I daresay a show like Fargo has all the budget it wants, yet when they age Chris Rock, he looks rather like someone attacked him with Christmas-tree flocking. Every stage of Sam’s aging looked very authentic. Well done, hair and makeup!

It’s hard to remember, way back in the beginning, when every season’s end brought the question of whether the CW would see fit to renew Supernatural for another year. Fans wrote letters and sent emails. We signed petitions. It seemed like every year, for the longest time, until the show somehow became the cornerstone of the CW. If the showrunners had said, “We’d like to do 40 seasons,” I think the CW probably would have said, “Well, alright then!” I’m sad it ended. I don’t love the way it ended. But I’m grateful to all involved for giving us this show and the family it built, and I respect their right to have ended it on their own terms.

This got long, as my writing tends to do. I didn’t mean it to; I just wanted to say a few words about what Supernatural has meant to me, and probably will continue to mean to me. Of all the famous people I’ve met – and there are many, from US Presidents on down the line – the only meetings commemorated with framed photos in my house are Mark Messier (I mean…) and Jared and Jensen. I’m happy I could be a part of #SPNFAMILY. I’m glad we will be family forever, even if it’s going to be very different now. Thank you, Supernatural. 🖤

[queen-of-deans-booty]

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Characters: Jensen Ackles x Reader, Misha Collins, Jared Padalecki

Word Count: 991

Warnings: book of the damned stuff, very minor angst, mostly fluff

Summary: Being on set is nothing short of amazing. You have amazing friends to laugh and cry with. You wouldn’t trade your job for anything.

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Every day on the set of Supernatural was always an adventure. There was never a boring day, and nothing happened twice in a row. In fact, yesterday was really interesting since your best friend, Jensen, decided that doing his own stunts was a good idea. You weren't in on the scene, so you watched and recorded him tripping his own two feet and landing on his ass. He wasn’t as limber as his younger self, so that was hilarious to see.

Today, though, was different since you would be working with the infamous duo. Jensen was directing this episode, so you and Jared hung out off to the side while Jensen got the set ready right where he wanted it to be. This would be an emotional day, for sure, because your character wasn’t doing too well. She is going through so much shit, which took a lot out of you mentally. Though, you knew you would be okay since Jared and Jensen usually knew when you needed a laughing break.

Jensen looked up from his spot at the back of the car and smiled at you, and that’s when everything went downhill from there.

I thought you into my life, woah Look at my mind, yeah No better place or a time Look how they align

If soulmates were real, then you and Jensen would be it. Much like how Jensen and Jared are friend soulmates, you and Jensen were romantic ones. That is if you were man enough to do something about it. Jared constantly tells you how Jensen has a thing for you, but you couldn’t bring yourself to believe it despite the magnetic pull he has on you. There was definitely some kind of chemistry going on, and until either one of you stepped up to bat, then it’s just going to sit there and stew.

You didn't have time to think more about it since Jensen wanted to get the scene over with. With everyone in character, you stepped on your piece of tape with the book of the damned in your hands. Your character is going through a lot right now, such as going slowly insane due to the book in your hands. She accidentally got in it, and now it’s having an effect on her that Winchesters don’t know if they can break her out of.

“Action!” Jensen yelled from his spot at the trunk.

Jared was in character, inside the car where he was talking on the phone. Sam was calling Rowena for help while your character and Dean tried to put the book someplace where it wouldn't affect you as much.

“Dean, the voices are back,” you whispered emotionally.

“Y/C/N, you have to fight them. They’re not real,” he urged.

“No! Shut up! Please leave me alone,” you cried quietly.

It became routine now to cry on cue even if it did take a lot out of you.

“Sammy! Where’s the witch?”

“She’s not answering.”

“Well, keep trying! Who knows how long Y/C/N has!” Dean yelled.

Dean grabbed the shotgun from the trunk and cocked it, but Jensen made the mistake of cocking it too close to his head.

“Ah, fuck,” Jensen cursed.

It wasn’t expected, which is why you giggled through the tears. The scene was ruined now, and it was going to have to be redone if you were to get back into character fully. Jared laughed from the front seat as his best friend rubbed his head.

“Are you okay?” you laughed.

“Yeah,” he chuckled.

Universe must have my back Fell from the sky into my lap And I know you know that you're my soulmate and all that

Ever since that first mess up, not much work had gotten done. Either people started messing up on purpose to keep the laughter going or on accident, which made it even funnier. Regardless, Jensen wanted to be mad but knew he couldn’t, not when you were smiling and laughing the way you were. You must have done the scene at least seven times before getting through it with minimal distractions. You know what they say, practice makes perfect.

“Well, keep trying! Who knows how long Y/C/N has!” Dean yelled.

“Alright!”

“Stay out of my head!” you whispered and slapped yourself on the head to make it seem like there were voices up there.

“Where’s Cas? Can’t he do anything?”

“I’m right here,” Castiel said from behind you.

“Do something! Fix her, I don’t care. Just make her feel better,” the older brother demanded.

“The book of the damned is a very powerful book. I’m not sure if--” Misha cut himself off when he sneezed.

“Bless you,” you said, still in character.

“Thank you,” Misha said in his angel voice.

That caused everyone to bust out laughing, which broke the scene and all of the emotions. Jensen knew not a lot of work was going to get done without some kind of break, so he called it quits for the rest of the hour.

I'm like ooh, ooh My whole life got me ready for you, ooh Got me happy, happy I'ma be happy, happy, yeah I'ma be happy, happy Won't get no crying from me, yeah Gonna be…

Jensen decided to watch back what was recorded, and you thought it was a good idea if you did as well. It was funny to see everyone messing up and making each other laugh. You got to the part where Misha sneezed, and you laughed just as hard as you did the first time. Jensen looked over at you and couldn’t help catching the infectious attitude you were putting out there.

“You have a really nice smile,” he complimented. “Do you want to go for coffee tomorrow morning? My treat.”

This is it. This is the moment you’ve been waiting for. This was the jump you were too afraid to take yourself.

“Yes,” you agreed, the smile never leaving your face.

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