#taehyung speaking for everyone who watched hwarang probably

[taehyungiejiminie95]

BTS Reactions – You’re dating another idol

You laugh kindly as your boyfriend speaks casually with the reporters lining the red carpet. It’s nothing you’re not used to – you’re well used to the limelight by now, by way of your famous boyfriends both past and present. You’re not some kind of fame hunter, you don’t dream of being adored by everyone, you don’t even particularly like going to coveted events like this. But you do it to support the man you’re with. At some point, you become aware of somebody watching you with intense eyes. Although you’re no stranger to being watched, this feels… different. More accusatory. You know without looking back who’s glaring at you and the hand your boyfriend has wrapped around your waist.

Jin

“Jimin, stop staring,” Jin whispers gently to Jimin, guiding his groupmate away from the sight and towards the next red carpet interview, “It’s just going to cause a scene, and I don’t think we really want that kind of publicity,” Jin’s voice is controlled and calm, as he flat out refuses to let any of his emotions bubble to the surface. With years upon years of practice, he lets his eyes pass right over you and your new boyfriend without even a hint of recognition. Jimin shakes his head in wonder and Jin elegantly dodges a few questions regarding your presence here, acting as if he hasn’t seen you yet – but must find you for a brief catch up, surely.

You and Jin seem to keep brushing shoulders all night, but he makes no move to acknowledge your presence if he can. As he walks up to the table where his group and a few others will be seated and sees you there, he stalks straight past to where some of his idol friends are sitting, naturally integrating himself into the conversation while Namjoon rushes to make quick amendments. It’s all sorted by the end of his conversation.

Jin holds onto his composure all night, smiling and waving and cheering as if there’s nothing wrong. Even his groupmates wonder what’s going on, why he isn’t bothered by it at all. It’s not until much later on that Jin’s true feelings show. The van doors have just closed, and everybody is inside. It seems like all the air is let out of Jin, and he crumples forward, his first few tears slipping out as they’ve been threatening to all night.

Yoongi

“I can’t believe she has the nerve to show up here! It’s barely been 6 months and she’s already got somebody else draped over her. Who even is that?” Yoongi mutters to Namjoon as he glares at you. The leader tries to discourage his staring, knowing that the press will just be eating Yoongi’s horror up, as disgustingly predatorial as that is. Nothing sells like rivalry, and if Yoongi doesn’t stop staring and muttering, that’s going to be what happens,

“Look, I know. I get it. But unless you want this to be front page news, you’ve got to stop this,” Namjoon pushes gently, trying not to be too harsh. Your breakup really did affect Yoongi, so it’s not fair to expect him to be okay with this,

“I just feel like I should say something, you know? It’s obvious some reporter is going to ask me a question about it, but maybe if I go over there then that will be a story enough and they won’t have to,” Yoongi tries to control his voice and convince the leader that him going over there wouldn’t end in a fight. However, his voice betrays him and Namjoon is forced to quickly drape and arm over Yoongi’s shoulders to hold him in place for the next bout of pictures. He wouldn’t be surprised if Yoongi bolted at any moment. It’s been a long time since any of the group has seen Yoongi in this much pain and turmoil. Namjoon silently curses you in his head. How could you do this to him? Showing up here after everything… yeah, in Namjoon’s opinion, Yoongi has every right to be mad.

Hoseok

“Should I go over and do something? Maybe act all happy, like I support the relationship? Might be good for our image, especially with our upcoming album being what it’s about,” Hoseok asks Namjoon under his breath. He likes to think his leader will always know what to do, but Namjoon just shakes his head and shrugs. There is no right way to act when your ex-girlfriend (who you had been with for years) turns up at an awards show you’re about to sweep clean ay with a new nearly-as-famous idol boyfriend just a few months after the public announcement of your break up. Not exactly any manuals based on the correct etiquette. Hoseok swears softly and decides it would probably be best. If he’s lucky, it might make him feel better.

The rapper walks through a crowd that parts like the Red Sea for him, and he approaches you and your new boyfriend with bated breath. You catch sight of him first and try not to show how much you’d been dreading this. You couldn’t avoid coming, but you knew that he would do this. Hoseok was always a sociable person, wanting to appear as good-natured and as friendly as possible. After so long together, you know him like the back of your hand,

“I hope I’m not interrupting!” Hoseok says brightly, giving your boyfriend a friendly smile as he shakes his hand, “Just thought I’d come over and introduce myself, make sure nobody feels awkward,” His smile widens externally as a few reporters catch wind of the situation and hurry over, but inside his dread multiplies. He’s sure this is the right thing to do in this situation, but why does it hurt so much to see you so happy? He swore he would always support you, but he can feel a green-eyes monster stirring in his belly. It’s ugly.

Namjoon

Immediately upon registering your presence, Namjoon straightens his back, squares his shoulders and sets his jaw. He is not going to play into whatever kind of sick game is at play here. He’s certain everyone expects him to react in some way, maybe even go over and try and say something. Some fans are probably even hoping he’ll start a fight. No. He will not stoop that low. He bites his tongue and decides who he is going to be tonight. He won’t be the cheap headline of some failing tabloid. He’ll be the front cover of MTV and Billboard after cleaning house at yet another top-flight awards show. That’s who Kim Namjoon is.

It gets really hard to be Kim Namjoon when you and your boyfriend end up sitting right behind him, talking in such a soppy way to each other. He’s forced to sit there and listen to the two of you simper and kiss each other for the sake of the cameras all night. Namjoon refuses to even flinch, just playing his role in these shows. To be fair, it’s not like he spends long sat down anyway. Award after award is given to them, and he receives a few on behalf of his company as well. This is who Kim Namjoon is. Untouchable. Unfazed. He will not let this get to him. He will not let this get to him. He will not let this get to him. He will not…

The mantra starts to break down towards the end of the end, when he catches fragments of a conversation that he wishes he was having with you. Talks of going home, of cuddling, of having breakfast together. A single tear escapes Namjoon’s eyes, and he hopes deeply that if a camera did catch it, they would assume it was the emotional video being shown on stage to support the ending of racism.

Jimin

“Jimin! How does it make you feel that your ex has a new boyfriend already?” A reporter shouts over the din of voices in the red carpet area. Jimin rounds on them with a dark expression, staring directly into the camera as the question registers slowly in his brain. A deep frown settles on his face as he considers how best to address this question he knows is going to be screamed and shouted at him all night. He might as well get something out now, and stick to it,

“I think that’s a really personal question. I’ve already spoken with ARMY about how I feel, as you should know. What others do doesn’t affect me. I’ve been on a journey with my group, my brothers, to learn to love myself. The first lesson is not to let things you can’t control upset you. I’m happy for her. I hope she finds what she’s looking for,” Jimin’s teeth are clenched together as he speaks, but he knows his voice sounds as melodic and as friendly as always. The reporter nods in thanks and is about to call out another equally intrusive question when Taehyung tugs his best friend forwards for an important photo with a big artist also attending,

“That was a pretty good response, hyung. I wonder if it’ll keep them happy for now,” Taehyung states absent-mindedly as he gets into a memorable pose. Jimin does the same, pulling on his most endearing smile. Inside, he doesn’t know what to think. He knows the answer to Taehyung’s thought – no. The media are never happy unless Jimin is crying on his knees, in pain and suffering. That’s the only way half of them will sell a story. They want to see him hurt. It’s all he can do to swear he will never let them see the truth. How it feels like you’ve got his heart in that little clutch of yours. Like you’ve stolen it. Like he’ll never get it back.

Taehyung

Taehyung’s face falls as your new boyfriend tightens his arm around your waist, tugging you into his chest for a cute couple’s picture. Your smile looks so radiant and overjoyed. He can’t remember when you ever looked at him like that. Maybe you never did. Taehyung tried so hard, day in and day out, to be good enough for you, but he never was. You still decided to leave him just before he went on tour. He was devastated. None of the group look fondly on you after you left him in such a sorry state,

“Come on, we’re moving on now,” Jin whispers in his ear, trying to be subtle as he moves Tae along. The eldest of the group doesn’t want to be harsh, but if Taehyung doesn’t get his expression under control then they’re going to have front page news on their hands. And not for the right reasons, “Hey, isn’t that Seojoon over there? I haven’t seen him since you went on your Hwarang promotions with him!” Jin exclaims a little louder, trying to draw away the attention of reporters on Taehyung and Taehyung’s attention on you. It seems to work, even if Taehyung’s enthusiasm is a little lack-luster,

“Woah! Hyung, you’ve gotten taller,” Taehyung marvels, bounding straight past where you’re stood to hug his actor friend, “Thank you for the food truck you sent me last month, me and my members really enjoyed it,” He continues, beaming up at Seojoon, trying his best to fulfil his happy-go-lucky image. All he can do is pray it works as Seojoon does his best to pick up the slack for his hurting friend.

Jungkook

“I’m going over,” Jungkook huffs, and before anyone can grab him, he’s broken off from the group and elegantly stalked over to where you and your new boyfriend are stood, recounting for the hundredth time how the two of you met – well, his version of it anyway. Your boyfriend’s management had been eager to leave out the part where you met through your ex, Jungkook. But the singer has no intention of letting that fact remain buried, “I think you two have missed a detail in there,” Jungkook interrupts casually, giving the camera his most innocent smile. He gives off the aura of an old friend, a hint of a laugh in his tone,

“Jungkook?” You gasp, not quite as well-practiced in acting unbothered by things. Your shock (and horror) is evident on your face for a split second, long enough for everyone to notice, before you’re able to rearrange your features into something more pleasant, “What were we missing? I’d hate to not be giving the full story,” Your smile is strained, but only Jungkook and your boyfriend really notice that tiny detail,

“I feel the same. The fans need to know the full story, how else are they supposed to love you like you love each other?” He lies tactfully, “I believe the part where you actually met because I was mentoring your lovely young man at the time. Did that part slip your mind? It was a little after he debuted, he reached out for some tips on how to be on the camera. We worked closely, and clearly you did too,” Jungkook amends, looking directly into your eyes as he sees you panic. Good. Jungkook bids his goodbye as naturally as he gave his hello, and sweeps off back to his group. He hopes it hurts. You cheated on him; you deserve it.

[bangtan-madi]

All Of Our Lifetimes — Five: Requiem

Pairing — Taehyung x Reader

Tags — boyfriend!Taehyung, husband!Taehyung reincarnation au, lovers to strangers and to lovers again, established relationship, implied soulmate au

Genre — fluff, angst, crime (ish)

Word Count — 2.5k

Summary — Does love ever truly end, or does it simply take another form in a new life? The cycle is like clockwork: your lives end and you’re reborn again. You’ve lived it over and over. Each cycle, one of you loses your memories and is tragically unaware until the other finds and awakens their lover. After all these eons, all these lifetimes, is it possible to find each other again—even when neither of you awakens with your memories?

Part — 5 / 15

Warnings — language

A/N — Taglist is open! Comment, message, or ask and I’ll add you to the roster :) (Also I’m a freakin’ moron and forgot to post on Wednesday night like usual, which was yesterday. So enjoy this late chapter lol!)

Previous — Next

The first person you text is Namjoon. To you, he was the obvious choice. Friendly, open, and the first of the members to accept you into their enclave. It wasn't anything in particular, just saying hi and reminding him of who you are and that you were looking forward to tomorrow.

Not two minutes later, he replies and invites you to join a group chat he'd just created for you and all seven members.

"This way, we can all keep in touch!" he says. "DMs are fine, of course, but if we all wanna get to know each other, group chats can be a lot of fun."

He wasn't wrong. The remainder of Sunday evening is spent texting the members. On the way home, while you cook a quick dinner, and when you're relaxing before bed. They're flooding your messages with all kinds of hilarity. Jungkook and Hoseok are a fan of memes, while Yoongi seems to prefer the straightforward communication that gifs provide. Jimin and Namjoon adore emojis, and Jin sticks to his usual bad dad jokes. Taehyung replies to a question every now and then, but for the most part, he's absent from the conversation.

"You're awfully quiet, Taehyung-ssi," Jimin teases half-way through a conversation on whether or not mint ice cream is edible.

"I'm working, but you guys are blowing up my phone so it's hard to concentrate."

A sigh slips out as you reply, "You can put your phone on vibrate, Taehyung. Really, we won't mind. Or at least I certainly won't."

His response is speedy. "Okay. I'll talk to you all tomorrow."

Namjoon sends you a private message. "Don't let him bother you. He can get like this when he's focused. He doesn't do well with things distracting him."

"Yeah...you're probably right."

"Oh, I definitely am!"

"Hey, thank you again for everything. Except for Kim Taehyung, I really feel at ease with everyone. I feel like we're going to get along great at the set tomorrow."

"My pleasure, [Y/n]. I really wanted to avoid you feeling like more of an outsider than you probably already do. Being in a new country, even if you speak the language, can be scary. I've been to enough of them to know that there's no place like home...but maybe we can make it a bit easier."

A smile spreads across your face at his genuine spirit and pure kindness. "You have, big time! Each of you is really fun to be around. Honestly? I can't wait for 'Run' tomorrow! Can I ask where we're going? I didn't see a production report yet, and Director Hyeon hasn't responded to my email."

"We'll probably knock out a few episodes in one night, and I think we're closing down the Seoul Museum of Art. They're going to close a bit early so we can have it to ourselves. The games we have planned will happen there!"

You turn your eyes away from your cell phone at the mention of the museum. Recalling what happened over the weekend, returning to that place doesn't seem like a terrific idea. But then again, if you are there with Taehyung, maybe the two of you can finally talk about what you see in your dreams.

Maybe, just maybe, you can get those answers.

Your resolve strengthens a little bit, and a new message comes through, one not from the group chat or Namjoon. You click out of your conversation with the leader and check the notification.

"Who are you?"

The question is blunt and straightforward, coming from the second-youngest member via a private chat. You open the message, and your fingers hover above the keyboard for a few moments.

"Hi Taehyung. What do you mean?"

"I know we've met before. I can't remember where."

You bite your lip at his statement. So you were right; he does have some sort of familiarity with you, too. Now, to figure out just how much.

"Have you been to a concert before? Or a fan-sign? Maybe you worked on the set of Hwarang?"

"None of those. I actually didn't listen to much of your music before recently, and I've never been to a concert or fan-sign. And I've never worked on any set before."

"You weren't a fan of BTS? Even though you applied to Big Hit?"

"Nope. Actually, my roommate Milo was the Bangtan superfan. I heard of you guys through her, and then of Big Hit. I applied because I wanted to live in Seoul. It's been my dream all my life. Big Hit just happened to have the job I wanted in the ideal location. Call it fate, I guess."

A half-truth, but it will have to do for now.

"I know. I remember. Your gut feeling."

You pause, your fingers halting mid-type. How did he already know about that? You hadn't mentioned it in either the group chat or in the earlier conversation. In fact, the only person you'd mentioned the gut feeling about Seoul to was—

"I have to go, sorry. I'll see you at the museum tomorrow. I think you know the way."

The museum looks almost spooky after the sun begins to set over the buildings that touch the sky. Downtown Seoul is as beautiful as ever as the bright oranges and pastel pinks bathe the exteriors of each in brilliant colors. If it weren't for the thirty or so Big Hit employees rushing about, you might've stood at the entrance for much longer than thirty seconds.

But the moment you're on-scene, you go to work. One of the producers flags you down, offers a brief introduction, and tells you where to hide the English words.

"Have you seen what we did a few episodes back, eighty-seven and eighty-eight?" he asks, shoving a stack of stickers into your hands. "When we put Hangul all over the Oil Tank Culture Park?"

You shake your head, offering a sheepish smile. "I haven't...exactly watched too much 'Run.'"

The producer waves it off. "Just run around the building and stick these wherever you think seven boys may or may not find them. Feel free to go crazy. We have fifteen minutes to get everything set before filming starts. The boys should be here soon. So, go! Once you're done, come back here. While they're running around, you can help me with the grading system."

"Grading system?"

"They're going to make sentences with the words they find. Since you know English the best, you can award points to each word based on difficulty in using."

A smile spreads across your face. "Got it! Sounds fun."

You speed off into the museum, weaving past the sound and lighting crew that are attempting to set up. Several of the museum staff have also stayed behind to give guidance, and you're relieved that the boys and company have the entire building to themselves. This wouldn't be possible during daytime hours when the public is here.

You begin sticking several dozen stickers along the walls, on the frames of pieces of art, on the marble floor. Basically, anywhere you can reach. You cover the Van Gogh exhibit with difficult words like "effervescence" and "halcyon," along with colorful words like "lilac" and "vermilion."

The further into the building you move, the fewer and fewer people you see. Once you've passed the room of modern art and approach the Winged Victory of Samothrace, there's no one in sight. Down to your last few words, you slip into the dimmed hallway and turn the corner.

Winged Victory is just as you remember. Tall and beautiful and haunting. The statue is still so familiar to you. Looking at the base, you can almost see the body of the woman from your dream. Right before you and Taehyung started running for your lives, this was where a murder occurred.

You flinch at the memory of the blood, but something else inside you is pulling you out of the room and towards the fountain. Last time you saw it, you ran from the room and left the friendly acquaintance behind. Part of you wonders what he must've thought. Surely, you looked like you'd seen a ghost.

But you might as well have.

Your feet tip-toe on the marble. The boys have most certainly arrived, and the filming has started from the sound of it. Their crazed and excited laughter fills the echo-y halls. Seeing as there aren't any stickers this far into the museum, you take your chances and continue moving deeper in. The producer could wait just a few more minutes, couldn't he?

The last of the sunlight ricochets across each panel of glass in the dome ceiling, greeting you with shards of light skewed in every direction. Like fireflies dancing together, they bring an almost magical aura to the open space, one very different from the horrors of your nightmares. The columns are made of ever-moving fire, and the fountain is made of glittery stars.

As you stand in the doorway, your throat drys and tightens. Seeing this place again, no matter how different, brings back the memories you can't explain. Are they even memories? Surely, that has to be what they are. But from when or from whom, you can't explain. They're a requiem for someone you hardly know.

Does Taehyung know the answers? Does he know more than you about this event you keep playing over and over in your mind? He's been in your dreams ever since you were a child, as a version much older than you were then and even older than you are now. Who has just one dream their whole lives, unless the explanation is that he has that dream, too?

You shake your head at the absurdity of it all. "What am I doing here?" you murmur, running your hand through your hair.

"Are you okay?"

The deep voice behind you causes you to jump and spin, eyes wide as you spot a familiar face at the entrance to the fountain. Taehyung stands with his hands in the pockets of his pants, his head tilted as he observes you.

"Holy shit, don't sneak up on people!"

The brunet smirks a little and shrugs. "Didn't mean to, sorry. You were staring off into space and didn't even hear me walk down the hallway. And it's hard to be quiet on marble floors."

"God, sorry, I didn't mean to snap." You run your hands over your face. "This museum has...some strange memories for me. I thought coming back here would help, but I think I've made it worse."

"How do you mean? I thought you hadn't been to Seoul before?"

"I haven't. It's complicated." Your eyes flicker to the corridor behind him. "Where's your cameraman?"

"I ditched him, told him I was running off to the restroom. But I didn't see you anywhere, so I figured you'd be back here."

Eyebrows pulling together, you reply, "How'd you figure that?"

"Well, you seemed really freaked out last weekend. You ran out of here like a ghost was chasing you. I was honestly worried until I saw you at Big Hit the next day, and you seemed fine, so..."

He trails off, and the realization of his words hits you. "Wait...shit, were you the one I was talking to both times I visited here this week? The one in the hoodie and mask?"

Taehyung nods, though there's a tiny line between his brows that shows he's as confused as you are. "Yes? I thought you knew that from day one, when you spoke to me at the Van Gogh exhibit."

Shaking your head fervently, you spout, "No! Not at all. I had no idea, honest to god. I just thought you were shy or introverted or maybe had a tough time talking to girls. I never, ever thought you were..." You gesture to all of him.

His brown eyes widen as he steps closer and out of the doorway. "Wait, really? You had no idea."

"None!"

He chuckles softly, turning to gaze at the fountain as the sunlight fades to soft blues of night. "I'd assumed you knew who I was. You were so open and friendly to a perfect stranger. I thought you'd recognized me."

"Not at all," you retort. "I was being nice and friendly because there was something about you that was so damn familiar. Kind of like this whole place, actually. I don't know. I can't explain it."

Taehyung nods and runs a hand through his curly locks. "I won't lie, there's something off about this place for me, too." He shifts his attention from the fountain to you. "You weren't lying about anything you said before, were you? About you being called to Seoul and not knowing why?"

You lock eyes with him as you reply, "I promise, everything I said was true."

"Then why did you run away?"

A heavy sigh slips out, and you sit down on the water fountain's edge. Looking into the water to your side, you run various ways to go about this disclosure. Blunt truth? A comforting lie? A bit of both?

"[Y/n]?"

"I've had this...nightmare, ever since I was a little girl. Ever since I could remember. It's always the same. I'm running for my life with someone I know that I care deeply about. We're trying to escape a murderer who's closing in behind us. He's just slaughtered one of our friends and he's coming for us."

You pause to take a breath, and Taehyung takes that pause to sit beside you. He doesn't say a word, only waist patiently for you to continue.

"We're eventually trapped. The man with me tells me to run while he distracts the murderer. Of course, I don't listen. There's a fight. We're both injured. And we both die."

There's a pregnant pause in the air before Taehyung hangs his head and murmurs, "That sounds horrible."

"I haven't told you everything," you reply. "I'm afraid I shouldn't...but what the hell." You gesture to the space around you. "In my dream, the entire thing is set here, in the Seoul Museum of Art. Our friend was killed at the base of Winged Victory. The fight happens among these columns. And the man and I, we die in this very fountain, bleeding out from gunshot wounds."

You turn to face the man beside you, seeing his eyes shift from his feet to yours as his head tilts slightly. "And every time, it's the same three people besides me. The same woman at the base of Winged Victory, the same murderer with a gun, the same man that this nightmare-version of me loves. I have no idea who the first two are..."

In your hesitation, Taehyung says, "But you know the last one."

Nodding, your knuckles turn white as you drip your knees. Here it goes. All or nothing. No turning back now.

"I do. He's—"

"—Me."

Taglist — @just-call-me-trash-can​, @jaienn​

[amourtaes-blog]

love it if we made it

song choice - love it if we made it by The 1975

Kim Taehyung. The most beautiful man to ever roam this world, at least to me. Also goes by V, 1/7 of the K-pop boyband, BTS! Born in Daegu, South Korea on the 30th of December 1995 making him a Capricorn. Collector of ties and admirer of Sir Vincent Van Gogh. Known for his 4D personality and breathtakingly symmetrical face.  A burning passion to act as he was in the drama, Hwarang. Parades around in Gucci but was brought up on a farm with his grandparents keeping him humble. Adores his parents and is a family man. Has the cutest boxy smile and adoring personality, he's kind and a great best friend according to Jimin. However, Jungkook says his personality is indescribable. He finds the moles that decorate his body interesting, even turning one into an elephant and likes to entertain whoever is around and himself by playing music and making a live music video. He is the social butterfly of the group, always making friends wherever he goes. He's innocent and playful, stubborn at times but deeply cares for everyone's well being. Quite frankly, he sounds perfect. This description right here isn't enough to give you even a rough idea of what he's like. I could go on for days talking about him but for now, this can do.

It's the 20th of July 2018, a Friday. A new "The 1975" song was released, Love It If We Made It. The first line clearly shocked me causing me to stop listening after a few more seconds, "Fucking in a car, shootin' heroin," I clearly wasn't expecting that. The rest of the day went by as a blur. I did the occasional housework and moped about, still feeling upset and drained from the past events of the week. I've been listening to Ariana Grande's new song, God Is A Woman, although I wasn't keen on the title I gave it a try and found myself addicted. It was quite a boring Friday, a long day of nothing specific. Nothing, in particular, roamed my brain apart from a growing sadness that I chose to ignore. Yet, the banging drums of the new The 1975 song rang through the back of my head. No matter what I did or heard, it was all I could hear so I decided to give it another try. Of course, yet again, I loved it The 1975 never disappoint me and I always find myself loving their new music. But this. This was special. I say this with all of their songs but currently, it felt like it touched my heart in places I wasn't aware of. The chorus grabbed at my heartstrings making me feel so deeply in love and straight away my mind went to him.

It kept me awake for most of the night, not once did I get bored of this song. It made me feel everything at once and I love songs like that. Songs that make me feel uneasy because it's not easy to describe how they make me feel. The song wasn't even about love, but the vibe and beat made me feel like I was gonna run away with the love of my life and watch the sunset. Till 4, the song was on repeat, full blast as I got lost into the depths of Tumblr, adoring and examining his face. Every second passed and I hoped that I could run away but with him, watching the sunset and not giving a care in the world. Just focusing on each other.

Just before the sun started rising I started to head to bed, hoping to put myself at peace even though every cell in my body was awake, buzzing at the beat of the song. Yearning to hear it for "just one more time" but a light wave of sleep sat on my eyes, Very light actually, hardly 2kg. I packed up and headed upstairs not bothering to wash my face as my body ached with pain and sadness, still I ignored it. Crying for hours 2 days beforehand was enough to drain my body of any emotion.

Laying in bed was torturous, especially since the arms that engulfed me once provided me with tranquility but now the owner of the arms sat on the center of my mind. Multiple attempts to get a few hours of deep, comfortable sleep fell through quickly as I tossed and turned, my mind racked with everything but the need to sleep. The song also occupying my mind, the quiet of the room only making it amplify. It was all so noisy. The song and my troubles attacking me from every direction, not giving me any chance to fall into a much-needed slumber. Long sighs left my lips and the party beside me was not having it. He knew deep in my intellect was a bustling mess of thoughts. Curiosity got the best of him and he was speaking before he could register what he was saying in his head. "Something on your mind?" Gently I looked to my side, my vision being blessed with the heart-stopping view. "Is it that obvious?" I chuckled, now aware of how crazy I must've looked. His hand came to caress my cheek, the softest fingertips grazing over my flesh made me breathless. "Wanna talk about it babygirl?" He hummed, moving his hand down to my inner shoulder rubbing gentle circles to calm me down. I let out a big huff, I could keep this in and enjoy how his skin feels against mine or I could clear my head once and for all, it's not like I would get any sleep if I chose the first option. I bore into his eyes trying to figure out which option I should take, I was pulled out of my trance when I saw his eyes flick vigorously between mine; searching for my answer. "Sure," I cleared my throat and sat up, ready to let this out once and for all to the person I loved the most. He too sat up ready to listen and understand, compassion glazed over his eyes.

"No one loves me Taehyung!" I sighed feeling a small weight being lifted off of me. His eyes almost popped out of his eyes and he reached forward ready to interject, to tell me I'm wrong, "No don't," I stopped him "Let me," He sat back intrigued as to what nonsense I was mewing. "Repeatedly I've been told no one likes me or someone has a problem with me. My family said it and so have my friends over the years. Not one friend or family member I had didn't tell me they found faults in who I was. It got boring Tae and I started to believe it, I still do. Especially when you hear it from someone you love and trust fully. It hurts, it hurts so fucking much. I just feel unloved and that I've been lied to all my life. I feel useless and disappointed. Disappointed that I'm not enough for people and disappointed in myself for fully trusting people so quickly. I'm so lost and confused now, each day feels as if it has no meaning and I dont know if I wanna be here to deal with each day because all I can think about is what I did wrong and if I'll ever be able to be loved? I don't want to eat or sleep or interact with people that aren't my best friend. Each conversation I try to hold feels like a chore. I feel like I failed, I let people win over me, I called defeat while they carry on living their best lives. Now there's nothing left for me to do, I'm just living for the sake of it. Each day all I do is wallow in self-pity rather than moving on with the people who do truly love me because it's empty inside now, there's a big hole punctured in by the people who pretended to love me and care. If I think about my future I just think about running away from my current situation and starting afresh with my best friend. Going somewhere where I don't know anyone and starting new relationships but choosing carefully so I don't feel the same heartbreak again. I want a change, a new beginning, a fresh start." Tears pricked at my eyes as I poured out the worries that ached at my heart but a smile still creeping up on my face as I thought about being with people who truly love me.

"Leyya, I love you! More than anyone and I want you to know that. For me, you're everything and I mean that I promise." Tae lovingly confessed, his hands latching onto mine reassuringly. My smile slowly melted from my face, another worry itching at my head. "You don't Tae because you're not real! You aren't here right now; this is all a figment of my imagination. This is what I wish for every night, to be held in your arms and to hear your heartbeat right next to my ear as I sleep. To be your one and only, the love of your life. The only person you look at and the only person to be loved by you but that's not happening and it will never happen. You're Korean and 9 years older than me, a famous K-pop idol adored by many and you live in Seoul approximately 5,000 miles away from me. Lastly, you don't know me and you never will. Even if I do meet you, you'll see me as an ARMY, not as someone who you could possibly fall in love with. It sounds so ridiculous but this out of all things hurts the most, the harsh reality. I'm loving someone with my whole heart who doesn't even know I exist or how much I'm devoted to him. There are probably millions of people who feel the same, I'm nothing special just another in the mass of people. You made me fall in love with you from so far away and it wasn't how good looking you were or who you were. It was you, the real Kim Taehyung. I'm in love with how real and sincere you are, your goofiness and randomness. I love everything about you, the good and the bad, the ups and downs. I want to experience them all but I won't. Ever. It feels as if my heart is being ripped from my chest as I say this but its the truth and I have to face that I won't ever get you, I won't ever be lucky enough to know you personally. You will always be Taehyung; my bias from BTS who I love so dearly but no one understands because to everyone else I'm just a teenage girl going through her one of many phases. If it's a phase why does it hurt to love you?" At this point, tears were streaming down my face and I was holding onto Tae's hand for my dear life, he sat there watching me come undone not saying a word because I was right and he knew it. The Tae sitting in front of me wasn't real, I made him up to help comfort me.

My breathing started to steady itself as I took all the energy I had left to focus on my breathing. We both sat in a comfortable yet endearing silence, I was thankful he didn't push or question my words instead, he let me get all the shit I was bottling up out. The sun started to rise and I felt sleep descending onto my lids. Tae sensed my exhaustion and laid down with his arms open, inviting me to join him. Sighing contently, a sleepy smile overtook my face. I snuggled into his side and clutched onto his body with my dear life, not wanting the moment to conclude. For once I didn't feel as heavy but there was still something there, eating and gnawing at me but like I always do, I chose to ignore it. There was still something more, some unsaid words that I didn't choose to air, I can't air them because it hurts too much to talk about.

The chorus of the song played but this time faintly without a jumbled mess of worries interfering, it spread bliss throughout my body. "I'd love it if we made it!" The words lulled over again and again. Would I be able to make it? Will this emptiness be filled with happiness or more sorrow? I'm aware he isn't real but I love how warm he is, despite it being hot, his warmth isn't only in temperature but he makes me feel safe and wanted. He makes me want to cry and jump in joy that he's here but cry also in despair as he's not really with me. I'm just holding onto the fact that what my brain made could be real. His embrace was secure yet relaxing, it didn't feel forced, it felt just right. My eyes slowly blinked closed and my limbs fell free against his body. A neat kiss was sweetly placed on my forehead and collected breathing lay close by your ear.

"You are loved!"

(i made my mom cry pt2)

[mean-yoongii-blog]

give vjinseok more love

((((me talking about how underappreciated these three are at 4am, where grammar doesnt exist and spelling is dumb. this is entirely my opinion but im pretty sure almost everyone can agree)))) being an army is hard. like, it's really fucking hard. you get to wake up in the morning and cry over seven men who still get hyped over receiving pokemon stuffies as prizes. that life is hard and it's probably where the rock bottom is, but whatever. being an army is harder when there's inequality going on around the group, screentime wise, line distribution wise, etc. this issue existed since 21 b.c.e and im here to finally speak my fucking mind for it. so bts has seven members, right? jungkook, jimin, jhope, suga, jin, tae, and namjoon. anyway, we all know that jikook are the main and lead vocalists of the group so it's very predictable that they get a lot of attention considering it's unavoidable to give them screentime since, you know, they're technically 50% of whatever the hell we're on about, whether it's about a song's line distribution or an mv's screentime. now, obviously there are the three rappers who dominate everything, be it an mv or whatnot. i mean, jesus, joonie walks in with this hard presence and he's literally gonna start owning the video. thats it. so we get that jikook is well known and very appreciated, right? suga and joon are also automatically given attention becsuse these two are powerful when it comes to rap. now, let's just focus on hoseok, tae and jin. let's start with our angel hobi. now, hope is definitely not underrated. we all know that his stage presence is very powerful. he's never not involved. however, the reason why i didn't group him with his fellow rappers is because, let's be real, jhope is not a rapper. he is not a rapper. he is a person who raps. according to jackson wang—tnx jackson tnx got7 woohoo—there's a complete difference between these two and i think u got it already. jhope is not underappreciated, his skills are. first of all, he came into the idol world with dancing the only skill in hand. we all know that he's never an amateur. he's always been a pro at dancing however when you're in a group u cant just fucking dance. you need to use your lips too and hope here has no experience on that. if bighit made him debut as a part of the vocal line, it could've been better as we all know that hobi has always dreamt of becoming a singer even as a child and his high note on the thot ver of n.o is enough to say that he may not be as good as jungkook but he's gr8 at it too. howeverrrrrrr he's not put as a vocalist. he's placed in the fucking rap line. no, im not saying he's bad as a rapper because he's not (ehem outro wings ehem). but if u place yourself in his shoes back when he became a trainee for most likely dancing and rapping, thats hard shit. hobi has no experience in rapping. but guess what? he fucking killed it. he slays every rap he gets. he spits fire in every cypher there is and yall telling me that he's not good? hell no go home in conclusion, for the fuckers who keep disregarding jung hoseok's abilities, back up because golden hyung can sing, dance and rap and i s2g if you still sleep on him ill choke u next is v. kim taehyung kim **that introduction still kills me every time** now before anything else, tae is not underrated. he's very popular actually. he's popular to armys and to his fellow idols as well. i assume this is because he has gr8 looks and he's very friendly and what a precious child amirite so why did i group him here? becAUSE BIGHIT THATS WHY. now, bighit is not a bad company. in fact it's a great company, really considerate to their boys all. i mean the most we can say is that at least it's not sm bc you feel me? ye anyway, the funny thing is everyone thinks that v is in an ok position because he's pretty and everyone loves him. YES tae is beautiful and YES hes lovable but we need to realize that to be recognized for your looks is ridiculous when they do it while ignoring your talent. taehyung is well known already but people also need to know his skill too. this is almost the same as hobi's story. let's get back to the trainee days in which taehyung literally came from a middle class fam and signed up for bighit without having a clue on what he could do. remember that he was inexperienced when it came to dancing, singing, and obviously rapping (but let's let him live for a little). his pretty face has always been pretty, but u cant debut without offering anything else can you? however, as inexperienced as he was, taehyung has talent. he had potential that is now proven talent. so what i dont really understand is why they didnt give this child the position to be a lead vocalist or even a main vocalist, much more fair distributed lines. the old eras—the hardcore gang bad boy wannabes concept—actually stars v a lot—ehem war of hormone, spine breaker, boy in luv, danger ehem—because they used his hard and deep ass voice. but ever since run era came, bc i believe thats where bts dropped the hard look, he barely got lines. i understand that his voice is different compared to others as the other four vocalists—including jh now bc he finally debuted as a vocal—are tenor whereas v has baritone however they can actually use his deep ass voice in great use. like in let me know—tnx min yoongi for this amazing song—, hold me tight, spring day, house of cards, love is not over and more of their ballads, it's shown how talented kim taehyung is because of his capability. not to mention, stigma proved that his voice can reach great ranges too and that goddamn falsetto stjll gets me everytime i havent even started on how sharp his moves are but i think everyone has gotten over that little issue that he should be a part of the dance line so in conclusion, taehyung is a precious beagle who's very talented and amazing that needs to be more appreciated for what he can do rather than just for his face bc nO lastly, sockjin hahahaha now when i became an army he caught my eye a lot bc of fire and he has an astonishing face. jin is a very beautiful person and just like tae, he's almost friends with everyone however, if someone is underrated, jin is your guy. now lets give this guy some slacks because he came into this world without knowing what he can do, just like v. he came without having no experience in dancing nor singing. he has passion for acting apparently but we'll get to that l8r. anyway what he could only offer is how beautiful he looks. now, first of all. let's all be honest that jin is not the best singer in the group. however he's not bad either. in fact, when i watched their mr removed, he's more stable than jimin and v and to sing with that much stability is impressive enough. i assume that jin doesnt hold on to talent but his potential is so great it's so large and it can actually drive him further. jin is always appreciated for how strong he is as a visual but never for how stable and smooth his voice is and that is absolutely rubbish. remember that he's a person who entered this world without any experience and yet here he is, breaking records on billboards and shit, and you're still sleeping on him? the thing is, bts is popular enough but jin isnt, bts is known but jin isnt and as someone who stans every member, this hurts. bts isnt just rm or jungkook. i have nothing against those two, but i present u kim seokjin here. he's full of potential. he can shine so bright if only there's an actual opportunity waiting for him. the reason why he isnt appreciated is because the company doesnt really give him much chance to show what he can do. yes admittedly he's not the best singer there is but how can someone improve when they dont give him the opportunity to improve? i dont need to give an example on w/c song has barely jin because lbr almost every song has barely jin. in addition, jin is a visual and yet his screentime is so little. i know that i shouldnt give a shit on the visual thing but if this guy isnt recognized for his position in singing, why wont u recognize him as a visual either? i understand that there are a lot of mvs that actually show him a lot—bst, boy in luv, spring day—but do u think this is enough? do u think that this is fair to him? jin is a 25 year old man. he's not naive. although he laughs it off whenever he's being ridiculed, I'm sure that he somewhat feels sad sometimes because of this. understand that this man is not just here for entertainment. understand that we cant only appreciate him for his jokes and awkwardness, that he's not just here to make us happy through the stunts they pull to give comedy. understand that he's not just the mom of this group. understand that he's probably gone through so much training to improve himself and yet get so little in return. understand that there's more to kim seokjin than what meets the eye. jin is not bias nor my bias wrecker but i have this special affection for him that makes me want to protect him at all cost. for the last part, the acting thing. now, im very happy for v for debuting as an actor because he slayed being hansung in hwarang. i will never say that he doesnt deserve that because he does. hes amazing at acting and i hope he get more solo projects since the drama. meanwhile, i look forward to jin having his own drama. i dont think it's necessary for him to have one now but hopefully it happens soon. jin has great potential in acting and considering this is his former dream, im sure that theres still passion for it somehow. in conclusion there is more to jin that we haven't seen because of the lack of opportunity given to him and he deserves so much more recognition to whar he gets now. this doesnt mean that im bias to anyone, okay? i adore each seven members equally. i dont want to raise v and bring down jungkook or raise jin and bring down jimin. no. whatever jikook gets at this moment, they deserve every bit of it. all i want is for them to get equal love. ////end

[you-did-well-my-love]

Drama Review: Hwarang

The biggest disappointment of 2016 and probably 2017, screw you writers.

Rating: 2/5. If I’m being generous, 2.5.

OST: I wasn’t the biggest fan, but that might have just been my hatred for the drama boiling over onto everything else. When you listen to the album, there are some good songs. But they kept playing the same two bland songs over and over again. I personally recommend It’s Definitely You by V and Jin, and Memories of a Miracle by Jeon Woosung. Hyungsik’s song is really nice too.

Genre: Romantic Comedy, Historical

Synopsis: History is often made on the backs of truly passionate, talented young people. During the Kingdom of Silla, a group of elite youth known as Hwarang (literally "Flowering Knights") would wield great influence. These dashing, talented knights – Moo Myung, Sam Maek Jong, Soo Ho, Ban Ryu, Yeo Wool, Han Sung, and maiden Ah Ro – could outsmart and outfight anyone as they pushed for justice in Seorabeol, the capital city. One of them would become King Jin Heung of Silla and change the course of history.

Thoughts/Review: (spoilers)

This drama was a mess, and I’m going to rip into it. If you don’t want to hear what I believe are legitimate reasons this drama was bad, then don’t read further. 

I’ll get what I liked out of the way in the beginning because there’s not much. The actors were all great. I thought the actors who played the Hwarang embodied their characters to the T and you could really feel the bromance and how well they got along off set. When their was comedy, it was great. I loved how Ah Ro called Sam Maek Jong out after the forced kiss. “If kissing me against my will wasn’t a mistake, then was it a childish tantrum?” was the best line of the entire drama. Plot-wise: I loved the romance between Ban Ryu and Soo Yeon. 

That’s about it.

This drama was an overwhelming disappointment. I waited so damn long because they kept pushing the air date back, which only built up the hype more. Then they had all these promotions with the six boys, and I was SO excited.

That is my first complaint. The synopsis is bullshit. The drama is not about our lovely “dashing, talented knights” rather it is about a pathetic love triangle with a female lead who does nothing but get into trouble and cry.

This drama was about the Hwarang. It was called Hwarang. There was not enough Hwarang.

It started out very promising, and with a great cameo from Lee Kwang Soo, and the comedy was pretty great. But the more you watch, the more it goes to shit. The reason I kept watching is because I wanted to see how things turned out. I’ve been a fan of Hyungsik’s since High Society and enjoy watching his dramas. Minho and V are my babies. And I fell in love with Do Ji Han and Ban Ryu’s character.

The first mistake was making Ah Ro think Moo Myung was her brother. The two of them did not have chemistry, and I think that just sort of killed anything that could have bloomed between them. There was no development in their romance, there was a weak attempt at internal conflict with Ah Ro and her feelings, and then they were all of the sudden in love with each other.

Also, there was literally no point for them to lie to her. This wasn’t like That Winter the Wind Blows when he was trying to scam her. They should have just told her “Hey, your brother died, this is his friend and I want to take care of him out of respect for your brother.” and then given her her right to mourn her brother’s death. Looking back, that was the first sign to get out while I could.

Their romance wasn’t the only romance I had a problem with. It was Soo Ho’s crush on the queen. If they had cast someone else as the queen, it might have been tolerable. But I could not stand the queen. Could not stand her. The actress was expressionless and emotionless unless she was screaming over something stupid.

Second thing I disliked, the first being the romance lines, was the editing. It was really jumpy, and made the whole thing seem weird. For example that one scene in like episode 7 or 8 where Moo Myung fell off the horse. He hadn’t shown signs of any problem for the past like five episodes and all of the sudden he blacked out and fell off his horse with no pulse, and suddenly Ah Ro regrets all of the terrible things she yelled at him literally three seconds before in a different scene. SPEAKING OF WHICH did they ever explain why he passed out? I don’t think they did? Add that to the list of problems...

The third thing I disliked was Ah Ro. She was so boring. I don’t blame Go Ara (entirely... some things she did and certain lines she delivered annoyed me) but the character was really poorly written. She was really shallow with barely any background or personality. All the writers had her do was run around between the two boys and cry. Her most interesting scenes were when she was acting as a physician, and there were hardly any. When they did happen, they lasted for merely seconds. Then she went back to crying and moping about Moo Myung.

It was so damn repetitive. Moo Myung gets his dumb ass injured and Ah Ro cried about it. Or Ah Ro got her dumb ass in trouble, and cried about it.

Which leads me to my next problem.

My biggest issue with the drama: terrible writing.

Such poor writing. It took them forever to set up the story, the Hwarang weren’t formed until episode four. A drama that was supposed to center around them didn’t. We got to episode fifteen and the plot hadn’t progressed one bit. Episode 19 was literally a waste of time. And boy did they twist history.

First, I want to talk about Han Sung’s death and how it showcases the terrible writing. I remember before the episode aired, a ton of articles came out saying “BTS’s V’s character revealed to play a key part in setting the final conflict into motion.” 

It’s a common trope when you have a group of friends; killing off the youngest, the purest, the last person who deserved to die. It’s used to really rip into that raw emotion of the main characters, and as the Hwarang writers were trying to do, set the final conflict into motion.

But they fell so flat. They spent less than half an episode killing him off, spent half the episode talking about him. Yeah I cried, but it was because of the emotion delivered by the actors. Taehyung did so well and so did Yoon Woo with his tears, but the second they opened up their mouths and delivered the dialogue + the editing of the scenes absolutely killed the suspense.

And his death was supposedly so important, but then they don’t even mention him again save for that one line by Yeo Wool in episode 19. Nobody even told Ah Ro that her precious friend died.

Now, about how badly they twisted history:

Someone on twitter explained this better, and I’m sorry if I butcher the facts, but the main thing is that they twisted history too much. I know that it’s necessary to do in historical dramas, but this was too much. History should be used as a guideline. 

To explain: the Bone Rank system was a very real thing, and the writers twisted it to give Moo Myung a fictional character an illegitimate claim to the throne. As the person on twitter explained it, when the queen’s brother gave up the throne (i believe it was because of his illness) he gave up his entire family’s line to the throne. Meaning Moo Myung was not a sacred bone and had no right to the throne. 

The pathetic two-episode “battle” for the throne was the worst thing they could have done for the drama. It was weak in intensity, dialogue, and emotion. And it was just plain stupid. Especially when you look at how historically significant King Jinheung was/is.

History aside, it’s still stupid. The writers spent 85% of the drama pushing Sam Maek Jong’s struggle against the queen and pushing that he is the rightful king, and then all of the sudden Moo Myung, who is supposed to be his friend, comes along and tries to steal the throne from him? Moo Myung is the main character, and the viewers are supposed to support him, but after all of the build-up behind Sam Maek Jong’s struggle to claim the throne, all I felt was sympathy towards Sam Maek Jong and resentmore towards Moo Myung for betraying his friend. That is not what I want to be feeling as a viewer.

Seriously, that is not how you sell a product to a consumer. That’s what dramas are: a product. The viewers watch dramas and support them with their money because they are captivating and enjoyable, not because it makes them feel like shit. 

Did they not have editors? Did nobody really stop and think, “Hey this concept here doesn’t push the plot forward, rather it drives it backwards”???

You could tell through the OST the mood they were trying to set. They were trying to make Jinheung the enemy, but they absolutely failed.

And the ending.

I liked the swearing of the allegiance to Jinheung. It delivered the emotion it was supposed to and was exciting. That’s the only thing I liked.

The montage basically proved that Sam Maek Jong was the real main character.

And then, oh get this, they NEVER TOLD ANYBODY ELSE THEY WEREN’T RELATED. I get that everyone probably made the connection on their own but like the viewer has to assume since nobody ever actually put it into words and it’s like jesus you can’t just drop a plotline like that. SUCH. MESSY. WRITING.

And what pisses me off the most:

Ban Ryu and Soo Yeon’s had a half-assed resolution.

Soo Ho had no resolution

BAN RYU AND SOO HO HAD NO RESOLUTION

LITERALLY THE LAST THING SAID BETWEEN THE TWO WAS SOO HO TELLING BAN RYU TO STAY AWAY FROM SOO YEON OR SOMETHING STUPID

where the fuck was Yeo Wool

And then they had a riding into the sunset, THEY RODE INTO THE FUCKING SUNSET, without Soo Ho.

I mean I understand if Minho had SHINee activities and couldn’t make it, but like they could have done something different to include him. At least say that he left and went of to travel or something.

This drama was pathetic and I’m glad it’s over. I feel bad for the actors whose hard work was wasted in bad writing, editing, and directing. I look forward to seeing them in other projects, but I am never watching anything from this writer again.

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Finished 02/21/17

[spideypparkers]

Why do you like Tae so much?

oh boy…. this is about to get long…. i pretty much wrote an essay on the reasons i love tae so much….

he’s like literally the sweetest person i’ve ever seen??? i can’t even say met, that’s so sad lmfao, but yeah he’s so sweet omg be still my beating heart. he loves everyone so much and he’s always smiling, he’s so genuine with everything that he does and i just???

he bought jimin a $1k jacket for his birthday i’m??? he loves his members so much bye i’m crying

when his grandma died, he had to deal with the grief of losing her, she raised him for 14 years, and he was so close to her, and he had to keep up a front for the fans?? like literally he didn’t tell anyone. the only people who knew were the other bts members and his family. and he constantly had to smile and pretend like nothing was wrong, and when he was finally ready to tell everyone why he seemed kind of down, he broke down in tears on stage and my heart broke for him, i’m crying rn thinking about it omg bye

he also has the cutest freaking box-smile i’ve ever seen in my entire life, like, honestly…. it kills me. and his laugh!!! it’s so cute. i love his laugh so much. when he smiles and laughs, my heart swells up three sizes.

like… look at him. look at that smile. how can i not fall in love with him??? honestly, i wish someone would’ve told me how not to, i wouldn’t be IN THIS DEEP IF I HAD BEEN WARNED….

okay, also, he has a deep voice but this isn’t getting dirty or anything LMFAO WHAT A CHANGE but like… i literally get chills every time i hear him sing. you don’t understand. i’m not exaggerating; i literally opened up a video on their (bts) twitter of him doing a short, 20 second cover of a chirstmas song, and the second, literally the SECOND, he started singing, i hit the little ‘x’ button so quick…. like i immediately got goosebumps from his voice. i had to sit there for a minute and prepare myself before i could open it and listen to it. i’m not even joking, this actually happened. his voice is so soothing and so soft, so deep and so gentle, like?? and the EMOTIONS…. the first time i listened to ‘stigma’ which is his solo song in the WINGS album, i was so shook. legit tears in my eyes and i can’t even understand the language. that’s some raw, pure talent. i’m in love with his voice. now if we’re gonna talk about that growl voice he uses sometimes, that’s a different story, that voice does things to me in a different way lmfao

god, i keep looking at that gif i put… i love him so much omg

he’s so easy-going and doesn’t let things faze him?? he literally got lost in a foreign country where he doesn’t speak the language and instead of panicking as many people in that situation would, he took the time to walk around and appreciate the landscape and the beauty of the country… he’s so pure…… protect him omg

HE ! LOVES ! KIDS ! SO ! MUCH ! honestly someone needs to protect this man from me because i just want to smother him in hugs. like, he’s just so ??? he just adores kids. he’s the actual definition of “dad goals” i just love how much he loves kids. not even just kids, he’s so family-oriented and he loves his parents so much, i’m crying… there’s this video honestly probably the video that made me fall in love wth him of him and he’s messing around with his cousin an asking his baby cousin for kisses and it’s the cutest thing i’ve ever seen in my entire life??? i’ve watched that video so many times i have it memorized i am literally picturing it right now i hate what this man does to me

you don’t understand what i mean when i say he loves his parents, like… he won an all-expenses-paid cruise trip and he gifted it to his parents can you hear me crying??? his new years resolutions are to make sure he is a good son and keeps his parents happy, i’m weeping. his lockscreen at one point was a picture of his parents…. during a game bts played, he won korean beef (which is really expensive, btw, not a lot of people eat korean beef because of how expensive it is, okay, the complete opposite of america basically) and when they asked what he was going to do with it, he said he was going to give it to his parents… i love this man so much it actually causes me physical pain, okay?

he finally is an actor!!! he wanted to be an actor and he now is… my boy. i’m so proud. he debuted as an actor as a supporting character in a new korean historical drama called hwarang and i haven’t watched it yet, but i’ve seen a few clips and gifsets and he’s honestly such a good actor, i’m??? also he had to act for a lot of music videos and his short film video, so i already know he’s an amazing actor. i’m literally gonna watch hwarang just for him, please…… send help

i’m having heart palpitations because of this i’m gonna die

he loves animals!! send help my way, please, taehyung with dogs is too precious for my soul to handle… like. i’m crying. and animals love him back, please… my poor heart is too weak for this

okay, this is it for now…. there’s probably like 50 more reasons but i’m just blanking because i’m weak and whipped. i always say “i’m #whipped for tae” as a joke but you guys…… it’s not a joke. i’m 100% whipped for him, i would die for him, i would live for him, i would do anything for him…… like idec, i just want him to be happy….. like if i never meet him, my heart will break, but his smile and happiness is the most important thing ever, seeing him happy and being loved by the people he cares about is all i need to mend my heart…… i’m crying

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Appearing before the Dramacourt: Hwarang: Poet Warrior Youth Ep 08

***If this is your first time browsing The Drama Files, please read The Rules section first for our reviewing and rating system***

Issues:

Whether Ban Ryu came out of nowhere and stole everyone’s hearts?

Whether it’s realistic that they are able to keep track of time (i.e. meet at 3am)?

Whether getting punished together also leads to some bonding?

Whether Han Sung is that one character who keeps wanting to join the popular kids?

Whether the dance number is really necessary?

The Rule(s):

Absolutely. It’s happening week after week. Those smiles are so precious.

Not really. Considering that they didn’t have watches at the time.

Totally. Getting barfed on can lead to some serious bonding.

It seems that way. At least Han Sung isn’t pushy and annoying.

Yes. Especially as it involves super manly guys doing a ridiculous sword dance.

Application:

RedRosette J:  I laughed. A lot. I think this episode has been my favourite one so far. There was the right amount of comedy and bromance. There was very little focus on the Sun Woo-Aro romantic plot and even the Ji Dwi-Aro plot was more comic than serious so it was tolerable. I just could not deal with the political drama so I skipped all that. I’m not here for that so I really don’t care whether or not the Queen dies or doesn’t die or whatever. Jubiemon and I were talking about this and it seems that the drama advertised Taehyung’s character as an important one, but it really doesn’t seem to be that way. I almost feel like we were misled after having watched 8 episodes. Then again, I’m not really complaining because Do Ji Han is really stepping up his game so I’m all good (I’m officially a Do Ji Han fan! <3).

Ugh

When you have regrets from ‘last night’

Literally no one cares about this plot line

When you’re shopping and the merchandise speaks to you

Don’t taking dating advice from the guy who’s been single forever man…

When the teacher says this…

…And the class reacts like this

Issue 1: Whether Ban Ryu came out of nowhere and stole everyone’s hearts?

RedRosette J: He totally did! I did not see this coming at all. I have mentioned in previous posts that Ban Ryu’s story arc was the most compelling and the best acted character, and this week he’s been continuing to prove us right. All of a sudden we get this character who’s been dead set on being against the whole regime, start to see chips in his armour. I think at this point, he actually likes the guys and wants to be friends with them. Soo Yeon coming into his life is probably going to make things worse for him. I love how he was trying so hard to avoid Soo Ho and go to lengths to make sure that he didn’t find out about the previous night’s butt incident. We see him trying in this episode and it’s totally heartbreaking when the evil dad sends the letter asking him to destroy Hwarang and Soo Yeon sends him the letter asking him to do really well. What a conundrum! I’m waiting to see how Do Ji Han pulls off the “torn apart” emotional range. I would argue that he’s the better actor of the lot and the character comes off more three dimensional than the others. Anyway, he came out of nowhere and definitely stole my heart at least!

I want them to be best friends!

Trying to avoid being caught

When you tryna Romeo-Juliet some stuff

The many faces of Ban Ryu

How cute is this? Mr Grumpypants and Ms Sunshine. So cute

So sad….

  When you’re in denial about being part of the gang

RedRosette J Aside: OMG the smiles. I swear this drama is trying to kill me with the smiles. First Minho’s infectious smile and now Do Ji Han’s ‘I’m in denial’ smiles. *sigh*

Issue 2: Whether it’s realistic that they are able to keep track of time (i.e. meet at 3am)?

RedRosette J: This seems highly unrealistic to me. They didn’t have watches at the time and I’m pretty sure that you can’t use moonlight to read a sundial. I haven’t looked into how time was kept during this time, but this just seems a bit much.

You have no time piece. This is not possible.

Worst King Ever. LOLZ!

Issue 3: Whether getting punished together also leads to some bonding?

RedRosette J: This seems quite fitting in light of our previous post where we talked about bonding through rule breaking. If that is the case, it only stands to reason that getting punished together also leads to some serious bonding. I’m pretty sure that getting barfed on while carrying a palanquin is right up there with serious punishments. It’s seriously gross and you can see the guys totally commiserate in this situation. Not to mention, it also meant some serious shower scenes so thank you for that!

This is a terrible punishment

OMG so nastyyy

Oooh La La!!

LOL!

  Issue 4: Whether Han Sung is that one character who keeps wanting to join the popular kids?

RedRosette J: Honestly, the way that they marketed this drama was really as if Han Sung was going to play an important and pivotal character but what is this? He barely has any lines, he’s been relegated to the school gossip and the role of the cutesy bunny. He’s not even part of the main gang! Come on people! At least he’s not as annoying as Baekhyun’s character was in Scarlet Heart Ryeo. The aegyo, even though it comes off as cringey at times, Taehyung tries to make it work so points for effort. But still, I’m just disappointed really.

Forever asking questions

And spreading rumours

*gasp*

Enough with the questions already!

Thank God he’s cute if not its super annoying

It probably also helps to have a super expressive face

*starstruck*

When you show up wanting to snuggle

When you’re so cute that it’s impossible to kick you out

Issue 5: Whether the dance number is really necessary?

RedRosette J: OMG if the practice montage promises anything at all, its going to be super funny! I love love love how the super manly guys (read Sun Woo and Ban Ryu) are so out of their depths with this but at the same time trying so hard. It’s absolutely adorable. I can’t wait to watch the whole thing.

Hilarious!

The extras in this drama are stellar!

RedRosette J Aside: Did you guys also notice how the Idols were in the front for that performance? LOL jokes!

Idols up front!

Conclusion: Appeal Allowed.

Rating: 4 = I’ll Give You A Cookie (Only because they upped the comedy in this episode and it was all hilarious)

File No: Hwarang: Poet-Warrior-Youth-EP-08 Appearing before the Dramacourt: Hwarang: Poet Warrior Youth Ep 08 ***If this is your first time browsing The Drama Files, please read The Rules section first for our reviewing and rating system***

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Hwarang Episode 3: Geu Soneul Naemireojwo SAVE ME

Reminder: I’m writing these SPOILER filled reviews under the assumption that you have already watched the episode…sooo pleasee watch it and then come back :)

I'm done with this show. 

Done. 

Nope. N.O. Sorry, this is the last review because WHAT IS THIS? The Korean Game of Thrones? Don't pick a favourite everyone cause SPOILER THEIR PROBABLY GOING TO DIE. 

phew...I need to take a breath...

I will never, ever, in my life forgive Queen Jiso. Sure, for a while there I was chill with the queen. Don’t get me wrong, we weren't tight or anything but she existed, did her thing and I was okay with it. And Hwarang? Weird idea on her part, kinda don't get it (like why do they have to be beautiful idk) but hey whatever its the premise of the show and who isn't down for a bunch of hot knights?

But what the heck was that? 

I’m referring to the part where Queen JiSUCKS decides to decapitate Daddy Ahn just cause Moo Myung (now Sun Woo) was an idiot. There's a cultural gap here, I get that. In Asia especially east Asia, honour and family ties is very important. I'm half Japanese I understand. But seriously? Killing Sun Woo’s dad (fake dad) for his actions? That is just cruel and unforgiving. 

Also, while we're on the fake dad thing, I'm conflicted. I support Moo Myung adopting Sun Woo’s identity since it would be way easier for him to stay in the Capitol like that, but making Myung tell A-Ro, he was her brother? Overly complicated and a huge damper on the romance. Huge. Like incest huge. Dats weird yo. 

...MID REVIEW UPDATE

I just finished the episode while I was typing, cause I'm weird and write as I watch so now I'm not totally sure A-Ro’s father is dead. Imprisoned perhaps, though he looked pretty dead to me. I figured decapitation is where they drew the line on gore so I wasn't surprised they didn't show his death. Butttttt now it seems like they didn't show his death cause surprise, he's not dead. Still, don't get too comfortable, this drama is making me feel things and I don't trust ANYONE right now. The Game of Thrones vibes are still very strong in Hwarang.

Fun fact: this was probably my favourite episode so far. I loved the short intro for each of the Hwarang Boyz yes because V got his own little feature and his smile made me want to die of cuteness, it was fun and nice to actually see each of them and their character’s qualities. I don't really understand the whole Hwarang application process though, since I thought you had to be of noble descent and like a chosen one or something but the Cowardly King Insomniac aka Ji Dwi, just asked. He got rejected (lmfao) but still, seemed like a security issue to me. 

haha ji dwi didn’t get in...wow my dislike of him is strong..

Also, I am loving the Dogbird (Sun Woo) more and more. I think Park Seo Joon is a great actor. Even when he says nothing at all...he speaks to me. I finally understand the expression "I could read it in his eyes." Mr. Seo Joon has the most expressive eyes I've seen on a screen (again I say my drama experience is limited so he’s also one of the ONLY eyes I’ve seen on screen). Truly, though,  I believe his pain and heartbreak over the loss of his best friend and I love just about every scene Sun Woo is in. Ji Dwi on the other hand..

Not much to report on the Taehyung front, though you are finally introduced to his character’s personality hello space cadet. I think it’s a great choice for V as a beginner actor though since he naturally looks a little confused and he’s cheerful by default. We shall see if there’s more to Hansung than just a vacant expression

ooooo shiny...

Let me know which Hwarang you would most want to be trapped on a deserted island with! Personally, I pick Sun Woo. He could just look at me with his soulful eyes and I would forget all concept of time as space. Also, he used to be a peasant so man knows how to work for the money. 

xx