#tachycard

[idiotdrvghive]

4 6 21 ?

4: if you were a time of day, what time of day would you be?

midnight

6- what’s a song that you relate to?

there's a lot of songs that i relate to, but the first one that came to mind was vincent by don mclean.

21- how would you dispose of a body?

i would burn and/or cut them up, n scatter their remains in a forest or an abandoned building. possibly also a river.

[deathprincess]

oo have u read house of leaves ?

No but ive just added it to my watchlist ^_^

[inkskinned]

so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.

first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.

it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.

and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.

you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.

and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.

your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.

in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.

in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.

so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.

you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.

once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.

and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"

you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?

hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!

you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.

we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?

[blueberryflavoredfeelings]

sometimes being upright is simply too much to ask of a girl

[ofrandomthought]

I am. so so perfectly and normally normal about them.

[chicago-geniza]

They put me in the basement and had me organize invoices in alphabetical and chronological order and I got to live out my Autism Baby Stacking Cans dreams of labor. Put me in a room with noise-canceling headphones, no human contact, and a stack of items to arbitrarily sort for an hour and I'll stop being insane

[salt-baby]

how concerning is it that your doctor responds to your MyChart message in 30 minutes and has you in for an office visit two hours later? asking for a friend

[saltpepperbeard]

FOR FUCKS SAKE YALL I SAW LIKE A BRIEF GLIMPSE OF THAT NEW PIC OF ED/TAIKA AND IT SENT ME INTO A ZOOMIE/SCREAMING/CRYING FIT AND I FEEL LIKE I JUST LOOKED RIGHT AT THE SUN AND MY DEPRESSION IS LIFTED MY PLANTS ARE WATERED MY SKIN IS CLEARED HOTEL? TRIVAGO. DELIVERY? DIGIORNO.

TLDR HOW IN THE FUCK AM I GOING TO SURVIVE HIM WHEN WE GET ACTUAL FOOTAGE OF SEASON 2 LMAOOOO

[bluevaractyl]

Pulled out my old clarinet to see if I could still play. It's been so long since band. My face hurts 😆 but I can kinda make music still!

[idiotdrvghive]

& 11 12 35 for the second one !!!!

11. favorite songwriter?

it's hard to pick a favorite, but if i had to choose just one, it'd be nick cave.

12. who’s the most obscure artist you listen to?

shit, i don't know honestly. i guess friends unseen, since they only released two songs before disbanding. i also like far apart.

35. a song you like in a language you don’t speak:

viento by caifanes, put by morbidi i mnoći, n samo ti by ogledala!

[bl00dinfecti0ns]

coming out of my cage just to say i got a ticket to see sleep token in amsterdam . ive never left italy EVER and i just got a ticket to see them ALONE in a country I DONT KNOW and im still violently shaking i cant fucking do this IM SO. OH GOD

[damndorothea]

getaway car is a song that increases your heart rate

[blueberryflavoredfeelings]

People with orthostatic intolerance:

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

spent this evening eating pie, drinking a glass of wine, rewatching/crying at the call the midwife episodes with jewish characters, and cleaning my apartment for the first time in weeks. very much needed

[ficsonpost-its]

manifesting hugh laurie to just appear at one of my hospital appointments

[phagodyke]

I slept rly deeply last night even tho it took me a while to get to sleep but I think that was bc I had acid reflux and I'd been playing videogames too late not anything else.... still only got 6 hrs but doing pretty okay all things considered 😚