#t: well i lie

[feketeribizli]

closest ill get to george russell y/nism (yuki and i are the same height)

[xxri]

maría for the ad astra zine! lc u will be missed T_T

[pilferingapples]

keep seeing posts along the lines of "remember YOU could be just like this villainous character you hate" and it's always some real high-achiever type and I appreciate the moral sentiment of it all but also

no

no I couldn't

I do not have that kind of energy , I'm doing good to feed the cats on time and I routinely forget what day of the week it is, I am NOT implementing some 4D chess scheme to deploy a Warbot Army downtown, or building an affront to the laws of god and man in my basement

at my most badass I'm Not Returning Some Phone Calls , if I am ever the villain of the piece than I truly feel sorry for the hero whose Nemesis Assignment Assessment looked at them and said "we're assigning you...The Napper"

[quarks-pussy]

So I know we here at Startrekfandom love that "came back wrong but from the pov of the wrong" thing and apply it to many different characters and canon situations and I am far from trying to complain about it (I'm "came out wrong" trope myself so I was always gonna obsess over it) but having recently watched a very important episode (you'll know which one) for the first time I think there's a character who hits both tropes mentioned but llike, intertwined, opposite and subverted, and whom I wanna talk about.

Julian Bashir.

From his parents' pov he's "came out wrong but we got him help and he came back better" while from his own pov it's "came out 'insufficient', was destroyed for it, came back wrong and only later slowly came to terms with his new self tho never the process (justifiably so)" and it's heartbreaking because in a way, he's right! Jules Bashir died! His parents had an intellectually disabled child and decided to eugenics him! Julian is not the person he used to be and while I do love the person he is now, that doesn't bring back who he was! Part of me wishes we could've gotten to see Jules at least once and part of me hopes we never do because my heart would shatter.

This isn't a good comparison but nonetheless one I can't help drawing: it's giving similar vibes to anti-vaxxers. "I'd rather risk having a child who is dead than one who's autistic". Obviously this doesn't map over since Julian is still autistic and the procedure his parents subjected him to specifically targeted his intellectual disability and if any folks with id wanna comment on this I definitely recommend you listen to them over me, but it's a similarity I, as an autistic who has encountered anti-vaxxers again and again, can't help but point out. "Give me a normal child or give them death."

This may have been written about already but there needs to be stories about teenage Julian (after finding out and rediscovering who he was) practicing some good ol' recognition of the self through media. I need to hear about how he would encounter a story about someone who came back wrong (I'm gonna assume there's plenty of "wrong" pov stories floating around by the 24th century) and absolutely weep. I need to see Julian mourning Jules, taking years and years to process his feelings, experiencing guilt about how he, the imposter, didn't deserve to live Jules' life.

Came back wrong from the returned's pov but it wasn't an accident. It was done to you deliberately by the people who claim to love you. And now you are here, piloting the corpse of your predecessor.

Jules Bashir is dead. Long live Julian Bashir.

[bearenjoyers]

sorry im just thinking about bcs but like. why not add a few smaller scenes of gus interacting with his own men? why does it seem like, in comparison, mike is almost immediately elevated to a higher status than those two in bcs purely because we actually get to see him having normal conversations with gus? like i understand they might not keep the plot moving as well because of the fact obviously if victor is currently doing something it’s because gus told him to etc. but for the most part all of the smaller interactions gus does have with those two ends up being in a somewhat high stress situation where it feels very tense between everyone. and it’s just like damn! is it always like that?? why do those two even care that much about their jobs if their boss is a bit of a dick? etc. i think even an additional scene or two with those guys (either alone or the both of them) talking with gus in a more normal situation could’ve both added a bit more depth into how gus treats his employees (we got a lot with how he treats lyle and co., but not a whole lot with the illegal side of things), how comfortable vic and tyrus feel around him in a calmer setting, and exactly why they both feel the need to be as loyal as they are to the guy.

and also on the other side of this i don't think it'd hurt to maybe elaborate on their pay just a bit..? i'm not saying to randomly put a number out into the atmosphere but i just mean some smaller things like. do they buy nicer things for themselves? what's their housing situation? what's their car situation? are the escalade / yukon their own vehicles or does gus just use those two for business situations? do they use them when they're doing their own stuff off the clock or do they have their own cars? etc. that can also help with understanding their motivations a bit. don't get me wrong i don't think they should be visibly rich or something because that's not what gus would want but just smaller things! cause it's easy to write their loyalty off as Well they probably get paid super well, which i'm sure is true, but if they don't show a single hint of that then what's the point. even something as simple as giving tyrus a nice watch, or maybe victor having a nicer looking gun, etc. something small like that. because as it stands right now the average 41 year old viewer who watched the show once only knows and will only ever know victor and tyrus as those two guys in the background who do random stuff for gus with no clear motivation. just the personification of "On it boss (salute emoji)". and to be honest this is true for a whole lot of fans who do watch the show multiple times and enjoy thinking about it more in depth, because on screen we barely have anything about the two.

and to be clear i'm not trying to say we should have an episode just for them or something like no i understand they're side characters. i understand we don't need all that. and i understand this is also primarily Jimmy's show. but it's not like these two are on the same level as like, arlo or paige and kevin etc. these guys have been around since brba. victor was literally introduced in the same episode gus was. and they are a huge part of gus's story, especially in brba. s4 wouldn't have been what it was without victor and tyrus. and in bcs, ignacio's situation wouldn't have been the same if it weren't for victor and tyrus as well. and i just personally believe that if their goal with gus in bcs was to go back and elaborate on how everything came to be and show what he was like a few years younger, they could've dragged victor and tyrus into that. and i think his character would've benefited from taking that extra step with those two.

[saphflare]

I am so normal rn about all the girlies in Alien Stage

[justmwahstruly]

molly finally getting bitches/J

Cazzy belongs to my good friend (threatener) @kursein and Molly is mein!

babies… aawuugghsh they make me ill

[lovelyrotter]

'omg why are so many ppl in the homestuck fandom talking abt incest and saying theres incest in homestuck🤢' youre. youre reading. the incest webcomic. its. incest is baked into the deep lore how did you MAKE it this far- how did you FINISH this thing?? incestous slurry???? all of daves freudian slips???? rose and dave flirting and not really stopping????? the way that more than half of the cast of characters dont care abt it, refuse to be convinced to care about it, and make a point of saying how weird it is that the humans do care about it?????

[ghastbutlikegay]

dudes ive hit a point with The Horrors:tm: where im unable to convince myself that any of my friends actually like me

[pumpkinsouppe]

I will never be able to get over how incredible the princess tutu animation is

The foreshortening especially on the dancers themselves and how they move throughout the space blows my mind. It’s so well done, even with very stylized anatomy

And not only is it just technically amazing, but it conveys so much emotion ahhhh I love this show so much

[crossbackpoke-check]

about to be sooo nosy so. my apologies. but. morgan frost? girlfriend? do share (or don’t! again this is so nosy i’m sorry)

for legal purposes i can neither confirm nor deny anything about morgan and his girlfriend but afaik i think he’s single right now? at one point (within the past four years 😭) he did for sure have a girlfriend and that is the extent of my wag knowledge

[theinfinitedivides]

saying 'i've been wanting to meet you' to the young actress who gave him his alibi but his eyes are glued to the upper level where daddy cop is trailing him from the balcony. boy if you don't get your gay ass off my screen—

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

the amount of pressure lifted off of my shoulders after coming out to my parents… unreal

[the-acid-pear]

grumbling and groaning and grinding teeth as i analyze a character and his backstory despite not liking it at all because maybe there's something to be found by acknowledging canon

[chainsawworld]

↖️ *guy that is having such a normal one right now* *guy that totally isn't fucking losing it* *guy that surely isn't about to explode into a million pieces with no idea how to put itself back together this time*

[mortellanarts]

for the fanfic ask game field (not in a name)

(I am such a big fan of how you just uno reversed me actually that's fun ^^)

"Subconsciously, through the morphogenetic field, we're still just as aware of it as if it had happened, Junpei. That goes for every single thing that could have turned out badly during the game..."

It was a little drabble about like- Akane explaining to Junpei who's new to the whole trauma thing that they get some lingering effects from the way they die in other timelines just because the abilities they have to tap into it leads to their consciousness picking up on these when they shouldn't (and explaining how it works in this post-999 canon divergent context specifically where I'm not following shifting rules exactly, they didn't jump to the true end timeline it is simply the one that happens and the rest is hypothetical and stored in the field itself) it's only a vehicle for very specific trauma headcanoning logic basically

also when I went to get this quote my notes app nearly crashed and that's because I made so many different ze drabbles together that it hit the 150.000 word limit and I had to start another drabble dump doc :D