#sure let's put these in the tags why not

[greyedian]

I'm still chasing the high of these bg3 sketches I drew like... summer/fall last year. They're pretty much the only drawings from last year I legitimately like and had fun doing.

[ulteri0rm0tives]

I still think about my mutuals tag where he said that he thinks Johnny feels so much and so deeply that it literally drove him crazy. And yeah. Just think about it constantly. It's. The statement I associate with him. The first thing I think of when I think of him.

I really, really, really dislike when people paint Johnny as this totally unfeeling asshole. Or at least, I heavily disagree with it. That's not to say he isn't an asshole, he 100% is. He's a jerk to the people around him, and of course there really is no excuse for how he treats people. But explanations =/= excuses.

I feel when people try to paint him that way, it comes from a place that lacks understanding or even an unwillingness to understand. This goes hand in hand where I'll see these people call him an unfeeling asshole while using terms associated with cluster b disorders and using the social weight they carry to demonize him, a very prevalent problem reflected in society and internet pop psychology culture.

They'll take the fact he's a 'narcissistic junkie', and not only at the same time use it to demonize people with NPD, but also drug users. It's just a very lazy way to paint a picture of his characterization, by using loaded terms as a crutch and letting their social weight, using yours and others people's biases, do the job for you. Like man, if you're going to make a critique of his character can we at least actually put some effort behind it.

Like. They think he's a user who's an unfeeling asshole to people just for the sake of being one. They see him engaging in these self endangering, self harming, self sabotaging behaviors and brush it off as nothing more than him being like that simply because he likes it, that he relishes in it even. Simply because he wants and chooses to be like that.

They don't see him using as a way of numbing himself (this especially with the fact drugs are the first thing he goes for when Alt breaks it off with him). They don't see that constant toxic push and pull in his relationships as self sabotage. They don't see the fact him going on that OP was a suicide mission. Literally.

I truly believe he never intended to come back from that mission, evident in his last exchange with Kerry, evident in a LOT of his own lyrics. (Black Dog, Ballad of Buck Ravers.)

Johnny clearly is passionate. He clearly has things he cares about. He clearly feels.

I'd even go so far as to say he genuinely does care about the people in his life, he just simply doesn't know how to show it properly or in a way that's healthy for anyone involved. Even when Alt breaks up with him, and he pushes her away for it, he still ends up chasing after her before she's even left the venue. He still tries to protect her. When Alt gets abducted, and yeah, he's being a leadheaded stubborn idiot about it, he still goes after her.

And even if it's self aggrandizing in a lot of ways, he still cares about her life enough to raid a whole fucking tower for her. Even if it's more in the view of what Arasaka took from him, than what it did to her, he still cares about her in his own way. He still grieves her. He's still broken up when she dies right in front of him, and he still acts out even if it's violent and angry. His grief has ALWAYS manifested this way.

When he sees the headlines about Kerry, he asks V to check up on him, to visit him. He even asks Kerry about it because (I think) it came from a place of genuine worry shown the best way he can show it, a straightforward question and dropping it when he gets an answer, no matter how truthful the answer is. When Kerry gets the idea for a one time reunion, Johnny agrees to it because he thinks 'Kerry needs this'.

I also think people see that he's a very angry person and attribute 'unfeeling' to that. Because to them, to a lot of people, anger isn't a valid emotion nor one with as much value as happiness or sadness. That's it's something less than. Even if anger was all he felt, it's still a feeling. He still feels it. He still feels.

His anger, though it's execution is obviously a problem, it's extremely fucking justified and valid. It's born from the mistreatment of a system that only destroys people's lives. Born from a system that only knows how to take, how to hurt, how to kill.

The same system that took, not just a literal piece of Johnny, but so many pieces of his identity and his life that he literally tries to project himself as an entirely new person to escape this.

Johnny cares about how the system treats people, especially people like him. How it uses people and chews them up and discards them when it's taken all it can from them. Johnny cares so much he becomes not just a voice, but thinks he is- and in a lot of ways he does really become one- a symbol for people like him.

That OP functioned as another rescue mission for Alt, another statement for his ideals, and his blaze of glory to go out on his own terms.

Johnny cares about things. Johnny cares about people. He has feelings. Complicated, convoluted, deeply traumatized feelings. Feelings that are so intense, that it harms him. Feelings that are so intense, that it bleeds from him and harms others, too.

And honestly, I'd say the one and only person he stopped truly caring about was himself. A long, long time ago.

[basket-of-loquats]

I headcanon kremy as a lightweight. Sure he’s spent his spent his life around booze in the casinos and gamblers dens and what not, but personally he’s always preferred a sensible cigarette over any other kind of substance, and he only drinks very casually or when someone important offers him a toast and it’s rude to say no. It doesn’t take much to get him drunk, and when he is, his carefully constructed suave persona is ruined and he becomes a giddy mess, slurring with an accent so thick that people can’t even tell what he’s saying. Idk idk I just think it’s cute the amount of times he fails the constitution saving throw even when he hasn’t had that much to drink esp compared to the other members

[quatregats]

Hey, look, it's the song about Hornblower that came to me in the shower when I was extremely sick way back in January! Lyrics below cut, don't ask me what they mean, and also you'll have to imagine this with a sweeping orchestral rock arrangement going on in the background (epic guitar solos and all).

Posting this because @vastwinterskies requested a peek at it and then I decided it might be more worth it to just clean it up slightly and record it :) Thank you for asking, since your older Hornblower playlist is 100% what inspired this (linking for anyone who has not listened to it, it's SO good!!)

VERSE 1:

In this darkness, I can’t see But someone’s out there after me That lonely boy that I once knew Is it me or is it you

A warning gun it fires out The men around me scream and shout And I hear voices in my mind Telling me, “Don’t be so kind”

PRE-CHORUS:

I’ve got fear, at constant war for years, of my own making The siren song that speaks of every wrong road that I’ve taken

CHORUS:

I thought I knew, thought I had seen You played your jack, I played my queen But then I fell into your trap You played your queen, I played my jack

You thought you were safe, thought you had won You thought the game was well and done You thought that I would give up this place Well, you play your king, I’ll play my ace

VERSE 2:

From the darkness, on the swell, Comes a face that I know well Won’t turn away, I won’t forgive Myself for everything I did

It’s true I’m weak, that I’m a coward I’ve never had a finest hour But there’s still one trick up my sleeve Never, ever trust reprieve

PRE-CHORUS:

I’ve got fear, at constant war for years, of my own making The siren song that speaks of every wrong road that I’ve taken

CHORUS:

I thought I knew, thought I had seen You played your jack, I played my queen But then I fell into your trap You played your queen, I played my jack

You thought you were safe, thought you had won You thought the game was well and done You thought that I would give up disgrace Well, you play your king, I’ll play my ace

BRIDGE:

For all the men whose lives I lost To the bottom of the sea Don’t I wish day after day That they had all been me

CHORUS:

I thought I was safe, thought I had won I thought that the game was well and done I thought that I’d live on in disgrace When you played your king, I played my ace

I thought I knew, thought I had seen You played your jack, I played my queen But then I fell into your trap You played your queen, I played my jack

[a2zillustration]

I carried this thing for MONTHS with the EXPRESS PURPOSE of putting Raphael in it (knowing full well Larian wouldn't let me do that, mechanically) and I had one major miscalculation.

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[martwy-basen]

people on twitter cling to that "sniper's dad fucking SUCKS he taught him toxic masculinity and he is a BAD FATHER" narration for canon sniper so hard and i just. NEED to know why /gen

[seysei]

One of the many tragic aspects of Mikuni's character is that if he were to prevent the affair from happening, misono wouldn't be born.

With that being said, the reason why he would want to be misonos' father becomes simple. It's because that's the only way to prevent the affair from happening, and still make sure his little brother is born.

I mean, someone's gotta do it. (Im sorry lmao)

Im thinking he goes back in time, offers Hokaze to marry him to solve the money digging issue, meaning she wouldn't have to go after his father. Preventing the affair, preventing his mothers death & countless others, while also making sure misono still gets born eventually, except it's as his.. and Hokaze's son.

...yeah

And this might be the first time you'll find me not rooting for him.

[leothil]

It's late May 2024, the ice hockey world championship is wrapping up, and in another universe the versions of Dylan and Connor from @msmargaretmurry's amazing The Next Next One have an important conversation on a bridge in Helsinki. So I walked across it to see if the veil between worlds would've been thinner this evening.

Now, these pictures were taken around 22:40 (22 is 10PM for those of you 24h-challenged), so there's a bit more light than there would've been at somewhere around 2AM when the conversation actually takes place, but not too much. We're currently in the part of the year when we never enter proper night - right now the darkest it gets is nautical twilight (wikipedia's site on types of twilight is actually really good and interesting and one of my favourite sites daylight.website visualizes it very well!) so besides all the city lights the sky would also still retain some light near the horizon. For reference, a photo I took at home around 23:40:

It's a bit darker overall, but the sky is still light to the west.

Pitkäsilta from the east side, and a short informational text about it. The name is not in fact because of how long it is (not very), but because of the large difference in social status depending on which side of the bridge you lived on.

I don't know which side of the bridge Dylan and Connor were (will be?) standing on, but personally I think they'd be better off looking west towards Töölönlahti (bottom pictures) than east towards the sea (top pictures). The new bridge construction and, just, Merihaka in general, makes for a less nice and more boring view.

[bayetea]

one of several moments in the series where percy is like "she would have been pretty but--" lol. sorry but who asked bro

[xenalous]

[3thanolll]

i had a really weird dream last night and one of the things i vividly remember seeing was this

except it was pixellated which i don't have the time to make right now. either way i feel i need to bring this upon the world. tally ho

[onboardsorasora]

Hey guys, remember in 2023 when the RB19 was so bad after Barcelona and we were all worried and nervous in Qatar that Max was going to be mathematically eliminated from the WDC contention and that RBR was gonna lose the constructors? Exactly.

Please take everything being said right now with the biggest heaping of salt. Because nothing is said and done and over or back or gone until its been announced. Nothing has been announced. All cards are still in play. Have a little faith, or at least some chill.

[azems-familiar]

I tire of this charade.

[ardenrosegarden]

so the dungeon level huh

[rubberduckyrye]

You ever see a post that you agree with and you wanna add on your own two cents but your brain is like "Hmmmm.... nah. I wanna watch House MD clips instead."