#suh excerpts

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

She had once thought joy came now, but now she knew it was a gentle quietness and the strength of a steadfast faith, which, God willing, would grow through the rest of her life, until at last she could look the Lord Jesus Christ in the face and hear him say, Well done, good and faithful servant.

Enter into the joy of your master.

And in the meantime, she would pray for her father, never pausing in that task until the last day, or until he returned to his faith.

so this is the ending of hiraeth at present, which I absolutely love BUT i also hate it for Reasons

[suzukiblu]

WIP excerpt for videogeek behind the cut; "Kara gets to Earth on time and the Kents get a two-for-one special on free kids". (( chrono || non-chrono ))

Is “thunn-darr” an animal? A gang? A person or a place? She doesn’t know. 

And Kal needs her to know. How can’t she know, when Kal needs her to know? 

Kal whines uncomfortably, squirming in her arms. Kara–Kara doesn’t– 

The rumble comes back longer, and closer, and louder. She can hear something else now, like the spatter of water in Ma and Pa’s strange bath with the spray head but dozens and dozens of times over. Like . . . 

The spattering sound comes closer too, and starts echoing through the house; hitting the roof and windows and all the walls. Kara . . . blinks, slowly. 

Is that . . . rain? Just . . . in the middle of the day, out of nowhere? Who in Rao’s name scheduled rain for the middle of the day when they could’ve done it overnight, or at least in the evening after the workday was over? Especially in an area with so many farms and Laborers and outdoor work going on, on top of that? 

Kal fusses; whines again and tries to wriggle out of her arms. Kara doesn’t feel any less unsettled and doesn’t let him go. Just–once she’s sure it’s safe, and that this is just some ridiculous bureaucrat who’s never seen a farm in their life picking a stupid time for rain, or some strange quirk of nature that means this planet’s plants need midday rain, for . . . whatever reason. She’ll let him go then. Just . . . 

Just why would anyone schedule rain during the day? 

“Pa?” she asks uneasily, even though she knows she won’t understand anything he says. He pats her shoulder again; gives it a little squeeze. The aliens touch each other much more freely than any Kryptonians she’s ever known who weren’t on each others’ family registers, but she’s gotten . . . well, at least from Ma and Pa, she’s gotten used to it. 

Definitely not from strange boys who don’t care if she drops Kal, though. 

“Jes thunn-darr,” Pa repeats reassuringly. Or . . . she thinks he’s trying to sound reassuring, anyway. “Mar-Tha, lett-suh–”

The rain suddenly starts roaring, pouring down harder than Kara’s ever heard rain in her life, and the rumble bellows from the sky overhead louder than their crashing ships hit this planet, and Kal startles with a distressed knell, and Kara–Kara shrieks, clapping one hand over one of her ears but needing to leave the other to keep Kal wrapped up safe in her lap, and it’s the loudest thing she’s ever heard and it just keeps going and– 

Pa covers her other ear with one of his own hands, making the strange hissing noise he and Ma try to comfort her or Kal with sometimes, and she wonders distantly if the aliens evolved from reptilian lifeforms, but his hand is warm against her ear and–and– 

The rumbling crashes again, louder, and Kal starts knelling louder and louder, distress-chimes ringing in and out of his voice, and Kara covers his ears instead of her own and tries to curl her body down around his, tries not to sob, tries–it’s so loud! Why is it so loud?! 

“Pa! Pa!” she shrieks in panic, and then on some stupid desperate terror-born instinct also wails–“FATHER!”

[misfitgirlsworld]

The Girl with the Golden Eyes; WIP Re-Introduction

old intro

GENRE: Science Fiction & Fantasy

POV: Third Person

STATUS: First Draft

SYNOPSIS: Atreyu Wilkins could only see the world in black and white for nineteen years. With no insight from his mother and his father's inconsistency, he's never known why. Once a woman comes down to Earth looking for him, Atreyu not only gets answers but realizes the fate of the Earth and the rest of the galaxy rests in his and this Queen's hands. Is he willing to join her and take this responsibility?

CHARACTERS

AZAR NEREZZA [Uh-zar Ner-ez-a]: Warrior Queen of Planet Xavion. DANICA BERKUASA [Dan-ih-kuh Boo-ah-sa]: Head of the Royal Guard. Azar's close friend. BHAVISHA ISA [Baa-vish-a Issa]: Royal Forseer. Azar's close friend. AHRIMAN MALATESTA [Ah-ri-muh-n Maa-laa-tes-tuh]: Leader of the Homines Mali. Azar's former friend. LAMIA BAZE [Luh-mee-uh B-ai-z]: Necromancer. Ahriman's right hand. ATREYU WILKINS [Uh-trey-u Will-kins]: Protector of Earth and Xavion. Danica's cousin. SUMMER VALENTINE [Suh-mr Va-luhn-tine]: Protector of Earth. Atreyu's childhood friend. JUNE WINTERS [Joon Win-trz]: Protector of Earth. Atreyu's childhood friend.

EXCERPT: The woman in question watched the three run towards her, unmoving. As Atreyu got closer, he could see her piercing golden eyes still staring directly at him. Once they began to close in, the woman took a step back, and her aura turned purple as her eyes snapped to June, who was still ahead of her friends and rapidly closing the gap. Summer picked up her pace once she noticed the woman narrowed her eyes and lowered her stance. Summer caught up just in time and grabbed onto June's arm, yanking her to stop her just as the woman held a long red sword to her chest. The tip of the sword was inches away from June's chest, she could feel heat radiating off of it.

"H-Holy shit..." June breathed out.

CHARACTER INTRO: AZAR NEREZZA old . new | DANICA BERKUASA old . new | BHAVISHA ISA | AHRIMAN MALATESTA | LAMIA BAZE | ATREYU WILKINS | SUMMER VALENTINE | JUNE WINTERS

TAGLIST: @fanguy @ocmaker comment if you'd like to be added~

[talesofsorrowandofruin]

Last Line Tag

Thanks for tagging me, @tailoroffates! :D

Here’s an excerpt from Silver Glass’s epilogue, in which Leo gets second-hand (or actually third-hand) news about the case:

"Not much of a detective," Leo said scornfully. "I met a detective once who could solve any crime you gave him."

Louis reread David's letter. "This was some foreign detective. I suppose he wasn't as good as a local one."

Leo sat bolt upright. "Was his name—" he said something that sounded like Suh Johann "—by any chance?"

"Er... David just says he was a Korean detective called See-oh."

"That's him," Leo said. "And he couldn't catch the culprit?"

He sounded like this was a personal insult. Louis wondered what on earth his history was with this detective.

A funny look crossed Leo's face. "What exactly was the case about?"

Louis tried to summarise what he knew about the Miss Whare–Alexander Lennox–David Eames fiasco. "...And then she and her lover got murdered, so David and Lennox are going to Armenia."

"And the detective didn't catch the culprit," Leo said thoughtfully. He really had a bee in his bonnet about that. He smiled suddenly. "Well, well, who'd have thought it of Seo Yo-han?"

Tagging @moonluringfrost, @rewritingrosie, @spuddlespud, @autumnalwalker, @saltysupercomputer, and anyone else who wants to do this! :D

[rarepen1999]

solitary although seeking fellow spiritual witches

green witch

Capricorn

pendulum, tarot, crystals, and essential oils

sage, rosemary, thyme, basil, lavender and parsley

i center my craft around integrity and honoring my intuition

i do not curse and i stray from others who send out malicious energy

i have always nurtured my relationship with nature, the forest, trees, and plants

i do believe in karma, not sure about reincarnation

my name is Alessa (uh-leh-suh) when ppl can't pronounce it I tell them to call me Less, and say "Less-is-more"

i am open yet respectful about my beliefs and practices

the last spell i performed was a love spell

yes

yes

yes- i have several grimoire style notebooks that typically cover specific subjects or themes. one in particular encompasses many topics all under the umbrella of meditation, self-inquiry, and manifestation. i include records of tarot readings, reflections, book excerpts with commentary, etc.

yes

labradorite

sea shells

yes

earth

yes, in the non-traditional sense

i am interested in lucid dreaming, astral projection, psychic abilities..

attraction and curiosity about nature and focusing intentions to cultivate desired outcomes

if praying with others counts, then yes. in my past i was a devout Christian.

no…

yes

i believe so yes, not sure how to define though.. possibly my higher self or God

the importance of a 'tuning in' / 'closing down' ritual before / after magick

yes

yes

spring or fall

chanting or writing with other incorporations , anything i can infuse intention into..

i incorporate rituals

the craft (original)

i had a psychotic break

bees wax

selenite

yes

yes

grounding

yes

plastic

yes

being sleep deprived in public

realizing my power, abilities, and gifts

yes

a black cat

the world

amber

Do you wear pagan jewelry in public?

not necessarily

absolutely

trust in self and spirit

not relating to the majority of people swimming main-stream

yes, certainly. i am so much more in tune with everything

the stillness and desires of my soul

no

lucid dreaming and astral projection

'tuning in' exercise such as grounding

i believe i have an innate ability to channel the spirit of God

crystals, sage, palo santo, oracle cards, and more crystals

the forest

yoga or breath work

naturally

i am a morning bird for sure , i feel much healthier when i honor my internal clock and circadian rhythm

any time you have the right energy and intention

yes

blue, it is tranquil

clairaudience , alliance , and voyance

Witchcraft Asks #1-105

Here is the list of the 105 witchcraft questions I just finished answering. I answered one each day but feel free to answer them all at once or however you want to do it. Tag your it!

1. Are you solitary or in a coven? 2. Do you consider yourself Wiccan, Pagan, witch, or other? 3. What is your zodiac sign? 4. Do you have a Patron God/dess? 5. Do you work with a Pantheon? 6. Do you use tarot, palmistry, or 
any other kind of divination? 7. What are some of your favorite herbs to use in your practice? (if any) 8. How would you define your craft? 9. Do you curse? If not, do you accept others who do? 10. How long have you been practicing? 11. Do you currently or have you ever had any familiars? 12. Do you believe in Karma or
Reincarnation? 13. Do you have a magical name? 14. Are you “out of the broom closet”? 15. What was the last spell you performed? 16. Would you consider yourself knowledgeable? 17. Do you write your own spells? 18. Do you have a book of shadows?
If so, how is it written and/or set up? 19. Do you worship nature? 20. What is your favorite gemstone? 21. Do you use feathers, claws, fur, pelt, skeletons/bones, or any other animal body part for magical work? 22. Do you have an altar? 23. What is your preferred element? 24. Do you consider yourself an Alchemist? 25. Are you any other type of magical practitioner besides a witch? 26. What got you interested in witchcraft? 27. Have you ever performed a spell or ritual with the company of anyone who was not a witch? 28. Have you ever used ouija? 29. Do you consider yourself a psychic? 30. Do you have a spirit guide? If so, what is it? 31. What is something you wish someone had told you when you first started? 32. Do you celebrate the Sabbats? If so which one is your favorite? 33. Would you ever teach witchcraft to your children? 34. Do you meditate? 35. What is your favorite season? 36. What is your favorite type of magick to preform? 37. How do you incorporate your spirituality into your daily life? 38. What is your favorite witchy movie? 39. What is your favorite witchy book, both fiction and non-fiction. Why? 40. What is the first spell you ever preformed? Successful or not. 41. What’s the craziest witchcraft-related thing that’s happened to you? 42. What is your favourite type of candle to use? 43. What is your favorite witchy tool? 44. Do you or have you ever made your own witchy tools? 45. Have you ever worked with any magical creatures such as the fea or spirits? 46. Do you practice color magic? 47. Do you or have you ever had a witchy teacher or mentor of any kind? 48. What is your preferred way of shopping for witchcraft supplies? 49. Do you believe in predestination or fate? 50. What do you do to reconnect when you are feeling out of touch with your practice? 51. Have you ever had any supernatural experiences? 52. What is your biggest witchy pet peeve? 53. Do you like incense? If so what’s your favorite scent? 54. Do you keep a dream journal of any kind? 55. What has been your biggest witchcraft disaster? 56. What has been your biggest witchcraft success? 57. What in your practice do you do that you may feel silly or embarrassed about? 58. Do you believe that you can be an atheist, Christian, Muslim or some other faith and still be a witch too? 59. Do you ever feel insecure, unsure or even scared of spell work? 60. Do you ever hold yourself to a standard in your witchcraft that you feel you may never obtain? 61. What is something witch related that you want right now? 62. What is your rune of choice? 63. What is your tarot card of choice? 64. Do you use essential oils? If so what is your favorite? 65. Have you ever taken any kind of witchcraft or pagan courses? 66. Do you wear pagan jewelry in public? 67. Have you ever been discriminated against because of your faith or being a witch? 68. Do you read or subscribe to any pagan magazines? 69. Do you think it’s important to know the history of paganism and witchcraft? 70. What are your favorite things about being a witch? 71. What are your least favorite things about being a witch? 72. Do you listen to any pagan music? If so who is your favorite singer/band? 73. Do you celebrate the Esbbats? If so, how? 74. Do you ever work skyclad? 75. Do you think witchcraft has improved your life? If so, how? 76. Where do you draw inspiration from for your practice? 77. Do you believe in ‘fantasy’ creatures? (Unicorns, fairies, elves, gnomes, ghosts, etc) 78. What’s your favorite sigil/symbol? 79. Do you use blood magick in your practice? Why or why not? 80. Could you ever be in a relationship with someone who doesn’t support your practice? 81. In what area or subject would you most like your craft to grow? 82. What’s your favorite candle scent? Do you use it in your practice? 83. Do you have a pre-ritual ritual? (I.e. Something you do before rituals to prepare yourself for them). If so what is it? 84. What real life witch most inspires your practice? 85. What is your favorite method of communicating with deity? 86. How do you like to organize all your witchy items and ingredients? 87. Do you have any witches in your family that you know of? 88. How have you created your path? What is unique about it? 89. Do you feel you have any natural gifts or affinities (premonitions, hearing spirits, etc.) that led you toward the craft? If so what are they? 90. Do you believe you can initiate yourself or do you have to be initiated by another witch or coven? 91. When you first started out in your path what was the first thing or things you bought? 92. What is the most spiritual or magickal place you’ve been? 93. What’s one piece of advice you’d give someone who is searching for their matron and patron deities? 94. What techniques do you use to ‘get in the zone’ for meditation? 95. Did visualization come easily to you or did you have to practice at it? 96. Do you prefer day or night? Why? 97. What do you think is the best time and place to do spell work? 98. How did you feel when you cast your first circle? Did you stumble or did it go smoothly? 99. Do you believe witchcraft gets easier with time and practice? 100. Do you believe in many gods or one God with many faces? 101. Do you eat meat, eggs and dairy? 102. What is your favorite color and why? 103. What is the one question you get asked most by non-practitioners or non-pagans? How do you usually respond? 104. Which of your five senses would you say is your strongest? 105. What is a pagan or witchcraft rule that you preach but don’t practice?

[somanybookssolittletime1]

Book Blitz ~ Sweetheart by Cookie O’Gorman: Excerpt + Giveaway

Book Blitz ~ Sweetheart by Cookie O’Gorman: Excerpt + Giveaway | @XpressoTours #YoungAdult #Romance

~~~ Sweetheart by Cookie O’Gorman Publication date: April 25th, 2024 Genres: Romance, Young Adult Sweetheart (suh-weet-hart): Someone who is kind, friendly, and/or lovable. For reference, see Scarlett Kent. Seventeen-year-old Scarlett Kent likes the idea of love—in theory. She’s just never had time for romance. Voted Most Likely to Succeed, founder of a youth mentoring program, and an aspiring…

[broccolini-cellini]

Miwon Kown on Do-Ho Suh

The ascendance of an artist like Do-Ho Suh in the international art scene is not only predicated on the high quality of workmanship, cleverness of ideas, strength and clarity of formal decision, and sophistication of talent. It is also linked to the fact that in the contemporary art world today, a culturally displaced person of adequate means who can navigate a bigger map of the world than those bound to one location, culture, or identity is treated as a representative if not privileged person, able to speak to, speak of, and speak as a retooled nomadic subject of globalization. Suh's recurring trips to Korea, motivated in large measure by the necessities of his production (labour is cheaper there), also mirrors the ongoing uneven distribution of labour, resources, and power in late capitalism. Thus, the attraction that Suh's work draws from a globalized art network of curators, dealers, collectors, and critics lies in the symbiotic fashioning of both the work and the artist within the logic of a new order of mobilized identities. Do-Ho Suh's art eulogizes the older paradigms of subjectivity, identity and space while announcing new versions of them as unlocated conditions of transience.

Selected excerpt from The Other Otherness: The Art of Do Ho Suh by Miwon Kwon (2002)

As I continue to pour over writings on Do-Ho Suh, I have found that no one articulates him better than Miwon Kwon, whose 2002 essay for Suh's show at the Serpentine Gallery, still holds today, over two decades later.

Kwon links Suh's contemporary practice to Minimalism and installation art, primarily in a Western context***. The artist did shift into a sculptural and installation practice after receiving further education in the US. This is always mentioned whenever Suh needs an introduction, because it immediately frames him as a transnational artist, and points to the cultural displacement he experienced, which largely motivates his thematic interests on memory and transience.

Kwon has written extensively about site-specific art and has identified the problematic nomadism artists have adapted, which the art scene greatly rewards. Everyone needs to be jet-setting anywhere and everywhere in order to become a high profile artist. This hurts site specificity, because you can't just parachute onto a site and create watered down artworks in such brief periods. Kwon points out that the peripatetic Suh benefits from this system, but not without merit. She praises Suh's ability to create installations that don't have to be bound to their sites, rather, they are meant to leave.

This made me cuss a lot... when will I find my own succinct intersection

She furthers that Suh's otherness as a Korean implant in the West has (quite ironically) managed to transcend in that it has somehow become universal. She cites his work Seoul Home, which is so specifically Korean but manages to tug at the heartstrings of so many. Displacement, transience, and longing for home (whatever the hell that is) are universal experiences. This is why his installations can occupy various spaces and still be powerful and resonant. While he states that he is selfish in that he primarily makes his works to satisfy himself, he still manages to transform the personal into public. This is what I am trying to resolve in my own practice. How do I go beyond my lived experience? It takes so much sensitivity, skill and nuance to properly contextualise and effectively communicate. I am waiting for my abilities to catch up.

Seoul Home/LA Home installed at the Korean Cultural Center in Los Angeles. 1999. This is one of Suh's earliest fabric architecture works, which catapulted him into the international art scene.

***I am wondering if there are better references to link to Suh, something closer to an East Asian context.

[kaepop-trash]

I WOULD LOVE TO HEAR MORE ABOUT THE UNINTENDED CONSEQUENCES WIP UWU

It's based on a request, here's a snippet:

A few minutes later, Johnny looked up as (Y/N) walked up to the table. Johnny knew that the restaurant was small enough that she could spot them from the door. Yet he still felt disappointed that she hadn't texted him on arrival.

Johnny really hated fights. As bad as the actual confrontation part of it was, it was almost okay compared to what came later. What Johnny hated most about fights was the few days of awkward interactions that came after the fact. While both of them tip-toed around with words and touches. It was the kind of hesitant interactions that Johnny never liked by virtue of who he was. At home it was distressing.

He toyed with his fork as she slid into the seat beside him.

Johnny's forehead creased, turning to face her as he took a deep inhale. "You smell like me."

She turned to look at him, lips parting for a second too long before she closed them again. She licked her lips, "Yeah. I was in a hurry in the shower and grabbed your shower gel. Sorry." She shrugged, distracting herself by aligning her plate and cutlery with the table.

Johnny snorted, "You don't have to apologise." His voice was a mumble. She looked up at nodded, giving him a half-hearted smile. He took another deep breath, the idea of her covered in the smell he so deeply associated with himself surrounded him as thoroughly as her presence suddenly did.

His eyes didn't leave hers as he breathed in the air of discomfort between them. She was the first one to look away, turning to face Mark.

Johnny hated fights.

[aiweirdness]

Hurricanes and How They Are Pronounced

The US National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration releases its planned hurricane names years in advance, and includes a pronunciation guide for each name. An excerpt from NOAA's 2026 Atlantic Basin Storm Name Pronunciations:

Arthur AR-thur Bertha BUR-thuh Cristobal krees-TOH-bahl Dolly DAH-lee Edouard eh-DWARD Fay fay

Whenever I see a list like this, I naturally wonder what a neural net might make of it. I'm specifically interested in the larger neural nets I've been using lately, like the GPT-3 variants, which have encountered lots of names during their internet training yet are known to produce absolutely cursed attempts at pronunciation guides.

The largest GPT-3 variant, DaVinci, was pretty good at identifying common names and providing pronunciation guides that are not too far off from how I myself would say them. Although I definitely say this one differently:

Christopher kry-STOP-oh-fuhr

But things did get stranger when I gave GPT-3 dates farther in the future. I know it's not actually predicting that the already tenuous link between spelling and pronunciation in English is going to do some pretty extreme things in the next 50 years, but that's sure what it looks like:

2051 Harry HARR-held Andrew an-DREE-uhn Lisa LISS-uh Mark mark George jar-ZHAY

2070 Wanda way-DAHN-uh Alfred im-THOHN Deirdre ED-reel Jason JAY-dree Marissa mrees-TVR-uhf Sandrina sa-NREE-tuuh Scott steed-rer Scott wess-tra

2071 Arnold ah-NAWR-dell Georgia zheh-DRO-luh Howard huh-WAR-dee Nelson NEH-suh-lihn Serena say-RUH-nuh Victor VIK-suht

I also prompted the smallest GPT-3 variant, Ada, with the list of officially planned NOAA hurricane names and pronunciations. I would definitely need most of these spelled out for me the first time I heard them.

Alan AR-toh-LAY Christine CREE-chuh-NAH Elena anda-DAW Esther ex-THAH-ah Michael MIE-le-no Ginger LEEK-yuh Darrell jlear-DAHR Gregory GREGORY Alex MDL-aye Jess MEY-sern Robert REH-sch-ei Santiago SAN-tih-uh HEAT-TAY Varsity EBAY David EBOY Joe joh-LOHS-dah Wendy lich-WAEH Oliver ORL-arkus John john-FLAN-uh John john-SPLIN-er-ahnt

I was curious, so I appended a few other names to the end of the list of hurricanes so Ada could provide me a pronunciation guide. I guess I'll be introducing myself differently from now on.

Janelle JEE-ree-uhn Shane shaan

Artificial AYR-tah-zhoo Intelligence MIL-teer-uhn

Benedict bon-TEE-ass Cumberbatch cHL-barck-Christ

Bilbo BLA-buh Baggins BAL-gin

Scrooge skhuh-RAK-tur-ee McDuck moos-DUCK

Rumplestiltskin uh-buh-THEEKS

Before I discovered I could get GPT-3 DaVinci to vary its pronunciation guides by simply advancing the date, I experimented with some other prompts. One of the more successful experiments was the one in which I told it that the storms had grown ever more intense, so the names had to grow more epic to match. If you're an AI Weirdness supporter, you can read them as bonus content. Or become a free subscriber to read new AI Weirdness posts in your inbox!

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[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

💬

Okay so! This is a snippet from Hiraeth, which is not one I've shared many snippets from. It tears my heart out to even reread it, but I'm pretty proud of the way I've written quite a few parts of this story - it was really hard. This is the end of a scene, around a third of the way in - after the betrayal and while she's still trying to make her peace with it. This section I left completely untouched when I edited it, though I haven't gone through anyone else's corrections so it will probably change to some extent in the final version.

So the thoughts stayed, heavy and solid, inside her, without being expressed out loud. Sometimes she thought she might drown in them, caught in the agony of memory, and wished she could somehow forget. The grief of the loss and betrayal might never fade, and in the meantime, she could not look around in simple pleasure for the beauty of the world. It seemed so trivial, compared to that. It was in the trivial things of life, sometimes, that joy was best and most delightfully found; right now all the joy seemed sucked out of the world. How could she continue to believe, if she could see nothing of the beauty of the world God had created? She was afraid.

Please tell me what you think of it! If you want a happier snippet I can find a bit from earlier in the same story, which provides a nice contrast (well, I thought so anyway :P )

[suzukiblu]

WIP excerpt for videogeek behind the cut; “Kara gets to Earth on time and the Kents get a two-for-one special on free kids”. tw: aftermath of a panic attack. (( chrono || non-chrono ))

“Wurr suh ay-fuh dhow eer, Ka-Lair,” Ma says gently, which Kara thinks was her repeating the same words Pa just used, or at least most of them, and then Ma reaches out to cup her face in her hands and Pa pulls a folded-up white cloth square out of his pocket and holds it out. Kara . . . blinks at it, not sure what . . . “Dunn bee scuh air-duh. Pa ann aye arr eer. Yurr suh ay-fuh, dar-leen.”

Ma takes the white cloth square and dabs at the tears on her face with it like they aren’t a shameful, pathetic embarrassment, and Kara nearly cries all over again. 

Oh, she thinks. That’s . . . 

They really, really don’t have to be so kind about everything. 

“Suh ay-fuh,” Kara tries tentatively, even though she doesn’t recognize the . . . words? Word? Ma and Pa had both said it; that’s all she actually knows. Ma smiles at her, though, looking a little heartbroken for some reason, and hands her Pa’s cloth square. Kara sniffles, then wipes the tears off Kal’s face too. He whines unhappily and squirms restlessly in her arms, but she gets the tears, at least. She wonders why Pa carries a cloth square like this around, because it can’t be meant for this kind of thing, but she still doesn’t have the words to ask. 

Maybe . . . maybe one day she will, she tries to think, though she doesn’t know how she feels about that thought. 

Kara feels so shameful; feels like such a disgrace, such an embarrassment to their house. Such a disappointment to their family. How can she be such a disappointment, when their house put their faith in her to take care of Kal? To protect him? 

She can't be like this. Can't be this weak. Can't be this afraid all the time. 

She's so, so afraid all the time. 

She's so afraid, but she can't be. Kal needs her not to be. Needs her to be strong, be brave, be better. Be good enough to live up to the last thing their house ever asked of her; the last thing her parents ever asked of her. They'd sent her ship to chase his across the stars, and that's what it had done, and she'd woken up in the wreckage of both their salvations and had crawled to him choking on the grief and the pain and the smoke and the grief, and–and–

She'd survived all that, and now she's afraid of an unexpected weather schedule and some noise. 

What’s wrong with her, that she’s this afraid? 

This isn’t why their family saved her. Isn’t why they saved Kal–not for him to be stuck with such a useless, useless excuse for a protector; for her to be a stupid, shameful coward like this, for her to fail him like this. 

It hurts, to fail him like this. But it doesn’t matter if she hurts. If it hadn’t been for Ma and Pa . . .

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

(Feel free to give any feedback you'd like to!)

This is the ending of one of my stories! 23k of mingled grief, sorrow and hope.

LYRA, DON'T LOOK, SPOILERS!

Now she lived, and would maybe die, in peace and love and hope she would not have known otherwise. She lay silent, but her smile still lingered. Edward tightened his grip on her hand marginally, and she shifted to lay her head on his encircling arm. He whispered, so softly that it barely disturbed the air, “I love you.” The steady rise and fall of her chest comforted him, and he lowered his head so that it rested, ever so lightly, on her head. He loved her so very much; and the lingering contact drew a faint smile from him. Surely there was still hope.

If you would like to, reblog and show me a sentence or a paragraph you’ve written that you’re entirely pleased with, does exactly what you want it to, wouldn’t change a thing, unabashed yep, would hold it up as an example of what you’re going for in general, post on Mom’s fridge sort of snippet of your work. *waits expectantly*

[mxrcayong]

the shadow game masterlist

the myths and legends of neo-city university: collab call / masterlist

nct dream as sims 4 players

moon taeil

n/a

johnny suh

n/a

lee taeyong

idolise me

yuta nakamoto

n/a

qian kun

drivers license (olivia rodrigo - song inspired)

kim doyoung

lie with me

ten (chittaphon leechaiyapornkul)

butterfly (drabble)

jung jaehyun

n/a

winwin (dong sicheng)

soulmate au (request)

kim jungwoo

n/a

lucas (wong yukhei)

killing me softly

dont you cry bright eyes

mark lee

series: let it unfold masterlist

dreams to reality (excerpt)

husband au: a day with children (request)

xiaojun (xiao dejun)

n/a

hendery (wong kunhang)

n/a

huang renjun

n/a

lee jeno

anaheim (niki - song inspired)

haechan (lee donghyuck)

all i need (avery lynch - song inspired)

don’t wanna talk - masterlist (social media au -- my first try at social media au)

liu yangyang

n/a

na jaemin

to love and to be loved (teaser)

osaki shotaro

n/a

jung sungchan

n/a

zhong chenle

n/a

park jisung

our shared pantry

the avatar series (masterlist)

oh sehun (exo)

college!boyfriend blurb

[celestialmark]

m a s t e r l i s t ;

updated: 7th March 2021. 

none atm! 

Lights Out - Mark Lee // fluff, slight angst (3.4k) When Mark feels himself become overwhelmed with doubts, he comes to you for solace. 

Realise - Mark Lee // au college mark, fluff (12.5k)  The thing with Mark was that he avoided everything that needed to be confronted. 

Sunflower - Mark Lee // au college mark, fluff (11.5k) Mark is sweet. And gentle. And comfortable to be around with when he isn’t causing you to almost hyperventilate. 

A Poem Titled You - Mark Lee // heavy fluff, heavy feels (3.6k) You begin to wonder what great thing you must have done in your past life to have someone like Mark, and better yet, a Mark who likes you, a gentle and sweet Mark who’s careful about the boundaries he’s set for himself.

Best Part - Mark lee // vanilla smut, heavy feels (1.8K) Telling Mark you love him for the first time ever has never felt so good.

Ethereal - Jeong Jaehyun // fluff, au, life lessons (16.7k) Jaehyun was indeed way more than his good looks. Jaehyun was gentle, honest and sincere, you felt it all in the way he smiled, the way he talked and in the way he kissed you. He was the living definition of ethereal, and his beauty shone the most on the inside.

Aurora (a continuation to Ethereal) – Jeong Jaehyun // fluff, angst, life lessons (29k)  There he was, defending you even in your absence without fear, without second thoughts, even if the things he says about you, you don’t believe are true, that even when you were in the middle of breaking his heart, he still made the conscious decision to see the best in you.

Solitude - Mark Lee // sniper!mark, mafia au, soulmate au - series.  in which two people who live messy, turbulent lives find solitude in one another in ways they never imagined.   preview | part one | part two | part three | part four | part five | epilogue  

excerpts: (i) (ii) 

Lacuna - Johnny Suh // single parent au, fluff, slight angst - series (n.) a blank or missing part. prologue | part one | part two | part three | part four | part five | epilogue 

mark - 07:31  04:01  02:01  02:30  14:11  22:18  13:27  19:49  19:00  23:34  12:26 01:52  09:16  15:09  21:20  17:12  08:10  16:04  21:23  12:32  20:27  02:58 10:21  14:25  22:19  00:46  15:20  11:08  22:51  19:56  06:28  22:59  22:18 19:30  15:29  23:11  17:37  01:00  17:45  02:40  16:09  18:03  23:56  02:19 23:22  16:03  19:08  09:41  22:32  01:37  16:08  21:31  23:11  09:35  22:03 13:27  21:55  13:34  16:16  20:21  16:37  12:09  18:47  12:10  16:39  00:56  22:03  23:58  21:17  04:57  22:02 17:22 22:23 19:07  14:24

once again / sun & moon / angel / dear dream / walk you home / 

jaehyun -  21:28  08:09  13:16  20:38  01:34  11:26  01:30  00:13  

renjun -  13:31  10:03  16:08  04:27

johnny - 02:03  20:34  23:40  13:30  20:39  18:58  22:36  07:23  20:50  17:37 

taeyong - 19:40  15:16 

haechan - 10:09  13:30 

jaemin - 18:22  14:23 

yuta - 16:14  15:17

lucas - 11:40  17:05 

hendery - 14:13 

taeil - 16:59  08:59  10:15

jeno - 09:38  15:05

doyoung - 13:00  19:02

winwin - 09:42 

kun - 09:02 

jisung - 19:41 

chenle - 12:33 

> mark vs. pick up lines - one  two  three  four  five  six  seven    > mark’s reminders - one  > renjun - one  > johnny - one 

n e o  c i t y  i n  l o n d o n  e x p e r i e n c e 

[127-mile]

henlo quq;;; for "challenge n°5 !!!" : Johnny + detective au

Summary : Hired to work alongside the famous detective Johnny Suh on the case of a missing child turns out to be more interesting than you would have thought.

“It’s a dead end.” Johnny mutters.

Working with Johnny Suh was an opportunity you couldn’t miss, but his lack of patience on the case was putting both of you at risk. After barely a month, he was ready to give up.

“Oh come on, have a little faith. We probably missed something. This kid did not just vanish from the face of the earth one day.”

Your attention is drawn to the young detective behind the glass door of Johnny’s office, he beckons you to come out.

“I’ll be right back.” You say, going out of the room to be met with pure panic on your colleague’s face. “What’s up ? Did you find something ?”

He nods, hesitant.

“I finally received the picture of what the kid would look like now.” He starts. “And I really need you to see that.”

He hands you the paper, and you take it, intrigued. Your heart is pouding in your chest when you see the drawing. The facial features seem so familiar, and for good reason.

“Holy shit, that’s Johnny.”

Send me : idol name + an au and I’ll write  the summary of an imaginary fic and an excerpt from it.

[rosesformark]

angst: ☾

fluff: ♡

completed: ✓

requested: ✪

- all works are written by me and are purely fiction -

N C T

mark lee

» allure ☾ ♡ fratboy!mark

   ↠ 1   ↠ 2   ↠3

       ↠ allure!moodboard

‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾　moods with mark　☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

» [2:27 AM] - cold, yet warm night cuddles ♡

» [10:02 PM] - promposal ♡

» [7:32 PM] - safe and secure ✪ ☾ ♡

» [9:48 PM] - i want to see you smile ✪ ♡

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lee donghyuck

» apricity ☾ ♡ firemage!donghyuck, coming soon

  ↠ excerpt + moodboard

‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾　dazed with donghyuck　☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

» [1:13 AM] - drunken kisses ✪ ♡

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johnny suh

‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾　jazz with johnny　☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

» [12:52 am] - our bed ✪ ♡

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jung jaehyun

‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾　journey with jaehuyn　☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

» [1:32 PM] - work shenanigans ✪ ♡

E X O

byun baekhyun

» ache ☾ ✓

     ↠ 1   ↠ 2

» when two ends meet ✪ ☾ ♡ ✓

‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾　bare with baekhyun　☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

coming soon